Financial Feminist - 209. Power: What it *Truly* Is (Plus a 10-second Practice to Help You Get It) with Kasia Urbaniak

Episode Date: January 21, 2025

Have you ever wondered what “real power” looks like when it isn’t tied to manipulation or the patriarchy’s playbook? In this eye-opening episode, I sat down with Kasia Urbaniak, former professional dominatrix, long-time Taoist practitioner, and women’s empowerment coach, to reveal the subtle ways we give up our power—and exactly how to take it back. We’re talking about personal agency, unapologetic desire, and how to step into every room—boardroom or bedroom—with the kind of confidence that amplifies your voice and serves your well-being. If you’ve ever found yourself holding back from asking for a raise, a favor, or even a simple upgrade because you fear rejection or being labeled “too much,” this episode will be your game-changer.  Kasia’s Links:  Website: https://www.kasiaurbaniak.com/ Unbound Book: https://www.kasiaurbaniak.com/unbound-book Read transcripts, learn more about our guests and sponsors, and get more resources at https://herfirst100k.com/financial-feminist-show-notes/209-power-what-it-truly-is-plus-a-10-second-practice-to-help-you-get-it-with-kasia-urbaniak/ Not sure where to start on your financial journey? Take our FREE money personality quiz! https://herfirst100k.com/quiz Looking for accountability, live coaching, and deeper financial education? Check out our exclusive community: Join the $100K Club Ready to make 2025 the year you save more money, pay off debt, and start spending mindfully? Sign up for our free live workshop –– the 7 Day Money Reset. Go to herfirst100k.com/reset-pod to sign up. Special thanks to our sponsors: Squarespace Go to www.squarespace.com/FFPOD to save 10% off your first website or domain purchase. Rocket Money Stop wasting money on things you don’t use. Cancel your unwanted subscriptions by going to RocketMoney.com/FFPOD. Quince Get cozy in Quince's high-quality wardrobe essentials. Go to Quince.com/FFPOD for free shipping on your order and 365-day returns. Netsuite Download the CFO’s Guide to AI and Machine Learning at NetSuite.com/FFPOD. Gusto Run your first payroll with Gusto and get three months free at gusto.com/ffpod. Indeed Hiring? Indeed is all you need. Get a $75 sponsored job credit to get your jobs more visibility at www.indeed.com/ffpod. Public Fund your account in five minutes or less at public.com/ffpod and get up to $10,000 when you transfer your old portfolio. (see disclosures: https://herfirst100k.com/financial-feminist-show-notes/209-power-what-it-truly-is-plus-a-10-second-practice-to-help-you-get-it-with-kasia-urbaniak/) Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

If you wanted to imprison somebody, if you wanted to totally repress and control somebody, the hard way would be to create laws and punishments and prison bars. The easy way would be to limit their imagination. Because you can't choose something you can't imagine. So that is the number one obstacle to free will. And the power of being able to leave your identity for a moment, you know, in my case I was the people pleaser who pretended to be a dominatrix, but it didn't stop there. If you don't have to be yourself and you can try on different things, you discover that you're much more multifaceted and that you

have a lot more options than you thought. Hello Financial Feminist. Welcome to the show. I'm thrilled as always to see you. I have my one last Christmas decoration that I've not put away. And for audio only listeners, he is a Trader Joe's snowman with a fun little air plant hat. It's a plant though, so I don't feel like I want to put him away. I don't know. I'll figure it out. He's kind of cute. And I guess he's winter themed so he can stay on my desk for a little while longer. If you're new to the show, hi, my name is Tori. I am a money expert, a multimillionaire,

a New York Times bestselling author, and I fight the patriarchy by making you rich. And we teach women all over the world how to save money, pay off debts, start investing, and start businesses. But really, we teach them how to use money as a tool to build the life that they love and to be able to leave situations they don't want to be in and put themselves in great ones.

And that's what we do. So thanks for being here. Today's episode is a really, really fun one and one of my favorite conversations. I know I feel like I say this all the time, like one of my favorite conversations I've had in a while, but truly like this one is meaty. This one is good. You're going to have to take notes on this one and then go to therapy right after because boy oh boy oh boy this is a perfect one to send to a friend and then go get drinks and talk about it after because every part about this episode is going to completely change the way that you are moving through the world and thinking and processing and

this one's just this one's a good one. We're talking about power today on the show. When we talk about power though, very few people can actually define what it is in terms of the power they do want, because I think we associate power with like, rich guys in a really big chair in suits who are like diabolical, right? And like an Austin Powers villain who has a white cat, you know? That's not what we're talking about. When we're talking about power, we are talking about agency and the ability for us to control our own lives. So much of our existence is dependent on how

powerful we are and how we exert that power. Not in a way that's manipulative, not in a way that's controlling, but rather in a way that feels like, again, we have agency. In this incredibly powerful episode, we are talking about how we can get power, not only what it actually is, but how we can use it to better our lives. Kasia Urbaniak has helped over 4,000 women learn how to get their power back by stepping into leadership positions in their relationships, families, workplaces, plus hundreds of thousands more through her videos on TikTok. Kasha is the founder and CEO of the Academy, a school that teaches women the foundations

of power and influence. Over the course of 20 years, she has worked as a professional Tomonatrix, practiced Taoist alchemy in one of the oldest female-led monasteries in China, and has obtained dozens of certifications in different disciplines. Today on the show, we're talking about why power dynamics are the way that they are and why women are so afraid to step into positions of power, both in their interpersonal relationships, but also professionally. We're also chatting about how she uses the principles of her life as a dominatrix to teach women how to embrace both their dominant and submissive energy to get what they want. This was so fascinating and is like life-changing information.

We also discussed the common pitfalls women come across when attempting to embrace a more dominant energy and how we can begin to practice taking back this power in small scenarios so we can exercise that when it really matters. We're going to chat about how to stop suppressing your emotions because not only are your emotions valuable, but of course are important for your health and your happiness. We're also going to discuss the 10-second practice to take back your power in any situation.

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Air Transat, travel moves us. Where are you at in the world? Right now I'm in New York City. Nice. Brooklyn or Manhattan? Manhattan. Yeah. Okay. Cool.

It's my favorite place. I'm right by Central Park. It's like one of my favorite places. Oh, lovely. Beautiful. We're really excited to have you. We've been looking forward to this episode for a while. You have probably the most fascinating background of anybody we've ever had on this show. You have worked as a professional dominatrix. You have learned under Taoist nuns in one of the oldest female-led monasteries in China. You have dozens of certifications. And then you now teach women how to harness their power. So talk to me about the start of your story.

What led you to be a dominatrix? What led you to the stuff after that? Tell me everything. Without disparaging all the people who are deeply kinky and love BDSM, I only went into it for the money. Great. And I wanted to, I was 19 and I was obsessed with the idea of becoming a superhuman with superpowers.

So it wasn't even a metaphysical quest that was spiritual. It was like, I had like a comic book fantasy in my mind. And it was definitely a result of some, you know female wounding where I was like, I'm going to become impervious. I'm going to become supernatural and no one will mess with me. I'll be the most powerful superwoman in the world. And so even the even the teachers I saw were ones that had abilities more than ones who would be able

to transmit peace. And I got into domination because especially at that time in New York City, it was probably unfortunately the best way to be able to pay for an education that was accessible to me. And really quickly, when I got really deep into the kind of training that I was doing, and it was so important to be able to read a human being, whether it was in Taoism. Taoism is where martial arts, Chinese martial arts and Chinese medicine come from. So to be able to look at somebody and diagnose them and kind of see every little detail about their energy, their energetics, where they're coming from,

what they're about to do, I was obsessed with that study. So I very quickly came to notice that I was analyzing my BDSM clients that same way. And then when you add the power dynamic, right? Like in a dungeon, especially, especially, you know, you have a fake name, your clients using a fake name, you're making up an imaginary story and to propel the plot forward, you cannot count on anything real. You're just in a sense, you're just telling lies.

And somehow in that space, the truth of human beings starts to show up because you can't rely on words. You can't rely on what they're saying. You have to be able to feel it. Even the punishment, like, you've been so bad, you know? And they're pretending to be sad about it, right? So what happened was after a few years, I started getting kind of obsessed with the dungeon as a laboratory for watching humans. And I'd go study, I'd come back, and I'd see these humans. There was just this moment where I was in a dungeon and I felt like my vision had popped into a new dimension.

And it completely changed the way that I was going through my 20s and my friends were going through their 20s, my female friends especially, because I would be watching human behavior in a different way. And so over time, I became really good at identifying these little behaviors and states of consciousness that women are patterned to hit, that are signs that they're stopping themselves from what they want for no good reason, making assumptions that don't work in their favor.

And in that way, I kind of became a teacher by accident. Right? It was like, I didn't know the job I was studying for for 15 years. Then the school began and I was like, all right, I'm done with the boys. Now I want to help the women. I'm done with that. And at this point, I've been teaching for almost as long as I did anything else. That in and of itself became another education, like a laboratory where we would try everything to get a woman to get out of her own way.

Role play, catharsis. I think I primarily focus on helping women get what they want. So that kind of simplifies everything, right? Because if we even do a role play of how she asks for what she wants and we watch and observe her self-reporting of what she did and everyone else's view of what happened wildly different, wildly different. Like a really easy simple example is, you know, to create a catharsis moment for a woman, having a male volunteer come into the room. She completed a relationship but never got closure. So I have her go and say, give it to him. This guy's a volunteer. He's here. He's willing to listen. There's 200 women in the room or

20 women in this particular case. There's 200 women in the room. She was on stage and she was like, all right, I'll do it. I'm like, this is just for you right now. So give it. Like no holding back. And she did. She like said the things that she didn't say and then I asked the whole audience at the same time on the count of three I'd like you to raise your hands and Tell me on a scale of one to ten How much how angry was she I asked her first? She said eight I think I don't think I got to attend the time that I wanted but I got to an eight and the count of three all 200 people

raised two fingers in the air So she was like I gave it to him and it didn't land we didn't and this is what I'm talking about this is human behavior micro make micro behaviors and So I've been picking this apart for, you know, for a while. And it's my favorite thing in the world. It's my favorite thing in the world, because the fixes are sometimes so simple, and they don't take 25 years of therapy. I mean, therapy is good for things. But this this particular thing, it's not about, you know, these are universal patterns that women have to deal with.

You know an episode's good if I pull out a pen and paper and start taking notes while you're talking. These are the notes I already have and we're one question in. Okay, so I have to go back with. So one of the things you talked about, because you talked about a lot and I want to make sure we touch on each thing. It sounds like when you were, the very first thing you said where you were like, I wanted to become a superhero or I was just like, you were like, I wanted to become a superhero,

or I was just like, you know what? I'm just going to do all of these things. And you were talking kind of how like softness was not really a thing or like creating peace was not really a thing at that time. I mean, we would call that what? Masculine versus feminine energy, right? And we've talked about that a bit on the show.

Can you talk to me about what that feeling was where you were just like, probably maybe trauma driven, just like fuck all of this, I'm going to get money, I'm going to get power, I'm going to do these things. And that feels more masculine energy. Yeah. I think I know what you're getting at. I think that especially if you're talking about somebody in the late 90s, if you're looking for anything related to power or being safe, you're looking for the masculine, whether you're looking for masculine protector or to become a masculine protector of yourself. And I want to stop us really quick because we talked about in the show before. We do not mean men or women when we talk about masculine, feminine. We're not talking like gender binaries here. We're talking about the actual energy of these two. So I just want to clarify that before we move.

I would I would even take it one step deeper. I don't talk about masculine and feminine in my school because I find it to be a little bit confusing. Okay. What do you talk about instead? Dominant submissive or yin and yang. But when I started talking about yin and yang, the women in the room looked at me like, you know, like a bunch of zebras, you know, they're like, so I'm like, all right, think about this way, the penetrating and the receptive, the dominant and the submissive and everyone not only has both modes, they're needed for balance. But in this case, I think I had a profound sadness in me and fear that magic isn't real.

I needed to know that magic was real. Now, masculine or feminine, masculine in the the sense of superhero, not wanting to be wounded. But I have found that women benefit profoundly from allowing their nervous system to access healthy aggression, assertiveness. And that we mistake that for this kind of like armored defensive, you can't even call it fully masculine or dominant, it's hardened. Luckily, I found a lot of work and a lot of teaching to have a lot of feminine in it, even domination, right? Yeah.

Well, and you mentioned that moment in the dungeon, it almost sounds like transcendental or like what people experience sometimes like taking mushrooms. Like, it sounds like an out of body experience. Can you tell me a bit more about what that felt like? Maybe what caused it if we can go there, but also what conclusions you drew from it? You ask good questions because this requires such a subtle, such a subtle and nuanced explanation. One of the things you want to look for as a dominatrix in a dungeon is somebody else's resistance. So if you're a dominatrix and you're doing a session, it's an hour long, and you go kneel and they kneel.

Look up and they look up. And you go, okay, look down and watch the floor, kiss my boots. And they do everything. It's boring. It's really boring. Like, no, I don't like it. They don't like it. What is that? Okay.

So it's like a machine, right? Like I give the order, they follow the order. I give you the thing that makes it interesting is locating any friction or resistance. Like they're a little slow to raise their head and maybe it's genuine. Maybe it's not genuine. Maybe they just took a second too long to hear you. They raise their head, but you make a big deal out of it. You're like, are you trying to disobey me? Do you have doubts?

You're listening to me, aren't you? Did you doze off for a second? Are you that kind of person that you sleep through half your life? Look for the resistance, find the things so that you can make something out of it. And like context, I'm in my early 20s, late teens. I'm a people pleaser. I'm a girl who wants to be liked. I have these dimples, you know, and I'm flashing them left and right. And all of this early education is totally counterintuitive to me. I know that a lot of the listener might think for themselves, oh my goodness, if I was in that situation, how would I not bust out laughing? I mean, now I'm serious about the BDSM experience having spiritual and psychological richness,

but back then I was memorizing scripts to say in finding that resistance and in pointing attention to it, there's even more opportunities for nuance because I can make something up, but I can also catch on to something that's kind of real. And I had one session where the client's chest seemed so heavy and I had come back from a week-long retreat studying body energetics. And I called attention to it. And at that moment, a damn burst. I learned later that that man had just lost his mother, but it completely changed the tone of the session. I just followed what was most alive and followed what was most present. And I had all of my attention on him. And

I noticed that it didn't matter that I switched to nurturing mode. I was still in the dominant position. I'd went from cruel to nurturing and I didn't lose like my power. Right. And that moment I understood a couple of things. I understood that the essential part was my attention on him. If he had had had his attention on me, it wouldn't really have worked as well. He had to be in his experience. I had to hold his experience. And that I could be a soft dom or a hard dom. It didn't matter. And when I had noticed that little subtle thing about heaviness in the chest, and I had been making those resistance, kind of picking up the resistance, I suddenly realized that everything he'd been saying from the moment he walked

into the room before the session started, once the session started, was totally opposite of what was actually happening and that I could see what was happening and I could put attention on it and I could move the energy along. And then after that I was like, holy fuck, could I do that with a waiter? Could I do that with my friends? Could I do that with my friends? Could I see what was happening underneath the conversation and not be distracted by the words? So then I started becoming really good at asking questions, looking at somebody, feeling

what was going on with them. And I realized not only did that give me an immense amount of power and influence in a conversation, it also gave me a lot of information about what somebody was protecting or afraid of. It's a love skill. The best love skills and the best power skills are the same skills. Then I started seeing that extra dimension that clicked in. I started seeing that what people oftentimes call power isn't powerful at all. Like a dictator, a tyrant, right?

Somebody who's being tyrannical. A lot of people have power aversion. The best people have power aversion, just like money aversion. And also I'm so excited about the work you do because you help women be less power averse and less money averse. So it just became really obvious to me

that power and energy are the same, they're related. And then when somebody's being a tyrant, what they're doing is closing themselves off to receive the deeper gifts of the other human being. Coercion is the most wasteful, therefore, power-draining thing ever. And if you see the bigger metaphor of a dictator that's running a country, all of the resources that are required to enforce a police state, constant repression, and you don't get innovation, you don't get beautiful art, you don't get any of those things. So too with a two-person dynamic. You deprive yourself of their greatest gifts. If you have the courage to be curious

about the resistance and go a little bit behind and earn trust to find out when somebody says, oh, hell no to you. And you have the courage to respectfully show them that you care what they're trying to protect with that no, the floodgates open kinds of collaboration and kinds of contribution are available to you that you wouldn't have been able to think of before. Cause you don't know what, what treasures exist in the basement of their heart. able to think of before, because you don't know what treasures exist in the basement of their heart. I'm just going to take a second. Okay. Wow.

Everybody go back about five minutes and listen to all of that again. So I had questions from the first answer you gave me and then I have more questions from this and then I have so many. So one of the things that I think is really important, what you said, and I have background as an actor, I don't know if you know that, I have a major, theater major, like this is my first and probably forever love is theater. One of the things you were talking about in being a dominatrix is that like,

the whole thing is not reality, right? And you called it like telling lies, but it is, whether it is purely scripted or it is like a fantasy or it is, it's not you, right? But you mentioned the power of that, of in the telling of the lies, understanding something new about yourself

or about this other person. So what happens when we don't have to be ourselves? Everything becomes possible. If you wanted to imprison somebody, if you wanted to totally repress and control somebody, the hard way would be to create laws and punishments and prison bars. The easy way would be to limit their imagination because you can't choose something you can't imagine. So that is the number one obstacle to free will. And the problem with having a fixed identity or like having an idea of what being a woman is supposed to look like is that it takes those obstacles off the table so you can be bound

in good girl conditioning and think that you're choosing when you're really choosing between version A of something shitty or version B of something shitty and you're like, sweet, I got the slightly less lame job. I got the slightly less lame relationship. And the power of being able to leave your identity for a moment, you know, in my case, I was the people pleaser who pretended to be a dominatrix, but it didn't stop there. I couldn't stop playing with roles and personas after that.

And it's like a pivotal part of my work is that if you don't have to be yourself and you can try on different things, you discover that you're much more multifaceted and that you have a lot more options than you thought. One of the number one things my students say in classes to me, especially after a role play about asking something, is I didn't even know that was possible or allowed. Like I didn't even think of saying, hey, I want, hey, hubby, I want to try one way monogamy for a while where I'm polyamorous and you're not, or like ex who's not paying alimony.

I just want you to buy me a house. Like I didn't, and sometimes like every relationship is unique and it has a specific energetic need. And what meets that need is not always what you think it is, especially if you're thinking in the box, if you're thinking with your, you know, fixed patterning. One of the things that I've discovered in my own life and in my own version of, I think it's very similar to what you're talking about, is that like, we talk about negotiation in my work, success is not I got what I wanted, because you don't have control over that all the time. Your boss can tell you no, right? They can say, oh, there's budget cuts. Or when you ask for an upgrade at the hotel, the front desk can be like, no, there's no rooms available. OK. Or I asked somebody out on the date.

I don't care if they say yes. Success for me is I had the audacity to do it and the audacity to be brave and be vulnerable. And the practice of asking for me is like, yes, if I get the thing I want, cool. That's not what I'm doing. I'm doing it to build the muscle of bravery and of also hearing no and being okay with that

and getting right back on the horse to do it again. And I think that's kind of what you're talking about as well. And I see it with so many women, is they're afraid of taking space, they're afraid of hearing no because maybe it means they failed or maybe it means they were not good enough. And it's like, no, I'm doing this thing.

And I don't care if the man says, yes, I think you're hot too. I don't care. I care, I'm doing this thing. And I don't care if the man says, yes, I think you're hot too. I don't care. I care that I've done the thing and that I've been brave enough to do it. Yes, absolutely, absolutely. That makes me wanna talk about two different things

because it's money and asking. And money and asking can be a money ask can be a non-money ask. I think it's really easy to forget that women have only been allowed to have money for a few decades. Like, really. You know, like, was like in the 80s a woman in America could start a business without

76. You could get a loan without your husband's approval and then 80 or no 76 credit card. And I believe 82 was loan without a husband's approval. I was alive. You know, I was on this planet as a living being. One of the things that I'm obsessed with is these behaviors that are socially contagious, right? Like the small ones. And we are social beings, we learn socially. So you can tell someone, it's really important that you regularly check your bank account.

But if they're not doing it, they're not gonna do it. Because behavior is socially learned. So we learn a lot of things from like this incredible conditioning that's born of love. It's born of protection. It just needs an update. It's not appropriate anymore. And I think that when it comes to money,

one of the more difficult things is for a really long time, the way to be successful as a woman was to marry well. That was your only option, really. That was your only option. Yeah. And so, so a lot of our conditioning is, is dependent upon broadcasting being an appropriate mate. And one of the most desirable things you could broadcast to most men is I am not expensive. I won't cost you much. And I'll make a lot out of nothing. Or even beyond money and expensive, like I am not too much. I'm not a burden. I'm low maintenance. I'll be happy with little.

Cool girl. Cue crew girl monologue from Gone Girl right now. Yeah. And we're talking about a heteronormative relationship here. You're exactly right. In order to survive, women had to become the most palatable version to men. It also meant that desire was in the way, right? So women who wants things. If she's horny, if she has a big appetite in food, in sex or money, right? Those things are marriage market things. They're not even what people like and joy admire. So when we're talking about asking,

right? Like when you're saying having the audacity to ask, one of the beautiful things about an audacious ask is it changes all your asks afterwards. You have a reference point, right? Like I didn't die. I got a yes, I didn't expect, or I got a no and I made it. There's two things with asking that I think are really important. One is taking the time to prepare. You know how there are three parts of speech? There's I, there's you, and there's it, right?

It or them. So like most negotiation or like especially money-related things, they really focus on the it. They focus on like the standard salary for this is, right? That's an it thing. I deeply encourage people in preparing for an ask to go deep into the I, deep into the you and like even blow it out of proportion. Like this is what this would do for me. This is what I would be able to do as a result. This is how me doing this or having this would impact my psychology, my emotions, the people in my life, my family.

Like make a really good case why it's good for you. Then make a really good case for why it's good for them. What it does, the role they get to take in your life, even if it's like outlandish, this is the preparation phase. You don't need to use this in your request. It's like first the submissive experience, like really feel it in your body. It's the emotional prep. Yeah. And then feel it for them because we make assumptions about how put on People feel when we ask them something People want to help though. That's the thing I wanted like people want to help Yeah, and if they don't have a chance to contribute to you in a way that's meaningful. They become worms in your life

They become nobodies you give them a beautiful role however, a lot of women do this thing where they're not asking for you to do a thing. They're asking you also for permission to ask. If I ask you, Tori, for something and I'm also going to be crestfallen and crushed because I'm going to make it mean when you say no Because I'm going to make it mean when you say no, that not only is it a no, it's not okay that I asked. You're going to feel that. You're going to resent me, whether you say yes or no. If you feel free to say no, it's way easier.

And the way you get free to say no is the victory is the audacious ask itself. But like when you prepare well, it becomes something else. The ask becomes an exposure of an exciting desire, a thing that you want to have happen. If I'm able to legitimately in my body be excited about this thing in a way that is really genuine, then the act of sharing it with you becomes the victory. Hiring is really hard. Finding the right people at the right time,

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you mentioned like a lot of people, a lot of women make asks and it's really just permission. What is happening in that moment? Because there, I think there is a difference between an ask that is genuine, that is thought out for women and maybe feels audacious and scary. That's one issue. But then there's the issue of asking for permission to do something. Mm-hmm. Well, there's a couple of things I can say here. One is if the cleanest, easiest thing to do is after you make your ask, that you allow your attention to rest on the other person enough

that you're fully in their world. So that you're looking at their responses and you're getting curious about them. If you manage to stay curious, their no or their resistance won't shut you down. You'll be interested in what beautiful thing they're trying to protect. What jewel or what thing they think is threatened. And if you can get to that, you can maintain a connection through whatever resistance and keep the relationship and the engagement going. The other thing is like the more you trust your body, the more trustworthy your body

becomes. I'm not against women asking tons of advice of many, many, many, many, many, many people. I think though that the most important thing is to pay attention to how you feel when you hear them say it. Right? Like it's really good to have sample, like sample the feeling. The other thing, and this is more money related than anything else, the first money class I ever taught was really shocking because I didn't intend to teach anything about money. I'm like, you know, what do I know about money? Especially, you know, seven years ago, I'd been teaching for a few years. I noticed a couple things. First thing I noticed was that that is where power aversion hides most often. So often.

First money class I taught was live and in person. It was sort of a beta test with students that were more advanced that I had a good rapport with. So I felt really comfortable calling out when like 20 minutes in, all of a sudden these brilliant women I knew it was like everybody's IQ dropped 20 points and They were not even able to string their thoughts together and at that moment We all talked about it in real time and I was like I'm starting to lose my train of thought as a teacher We're all losing our train of thought what's going on. It felt like the room got hot. It was summer in New York and

It felt like everything got foggy. And then I asked them to do a test, right? We discussed this, we created a thread, a social media thread, like a small WhatsApp thread. And the assignment was whenever this fog comes in, just text the word fog. And all of the sudden it became so clear that one of the students sitting in like the third row, she's an engineer. She's like, I am brilliant with math, numbers, and when I look at my own financial statements,

it's like I go limp. And when we started naming the fog when it showed up it didn't just show up in situations where money Was like numbers prices It was also when there was a tense asked to make that might be implied as financially related And it was like all of these opportunities to make money all these opportunities to create wealth Were invisible So women weren't asking questions about their finances that were really important, of course. Women weren't aware of all the things that their money's doing, of course. But also, the world is full of wealth. And if you fog out the

moment there's an opportunity, you're never going to step through and say, hi, I'm here. I'd like this. And there was this moment where also I realized that wealth is a form of alchemy. Here's a really simple example. You have lemons, you have water, you have sugar, you have a pitcher, you have a hot day, you have thirsty neighbors, you have a table. None of those things have value. But like an alchemist, you bring those together when you see the need and you see the opportunity, you have a freaking lemonade stand, right? The profit

margin on every cup of lemonade is huge. But what it takes is being aware and connected to your surroundings and not fogging out. So in all of the money training, I do this the first thing we do. We just train to notice the fog. This is far more common in women. Men don't check out to money the way that women do. And it creates this misleading idea that women aren't as good with money when you look in the world. Actually phenomenal. Well, men are socially conditioned to talk about money,

think about money, want money, and they're encouraged and worshiped for the pursuit of money in a way that women aren't. And that's my entire book and this podcast and all of the work. We have had so many examples. We have in our stock market school, an anesthesiologist, incredible woman who's an anesthesiologist. And I still remember her reaching out to me like a year ago and she was like, I am so smart and yet money makes me feel so stupid. And I thought it was about numbers and I thought

it was about math and none of that is true. And it's not, it's not about numbers. It's not about math. I have a fucking theater degree. It's not about numbers. It's not about math. It's about managing your emotions and all of the things you're talking about. I've been a listener of your podcast since before you reached out and I was so excited to see you because I'm like, she's on that mission. She gets it. But that's the thing. It's like when you realize that there's like a really very small but incredibly powerful

obstacle to women having huge amounts of power in this world. Yeah. Like you're an evangelist, you're on fire. And like that's the thing is like, you know, the fog covers up all the mixed signals women get and there's a wealth gap, right? What's like 80% of the wealth is owned by men. It's not even a pay gap. Yeah. Well, and to your point about the fog too, let's talk more about that because I think

what happens is the fog becomes personal. I think the fog can just be, if you're in a healthy place with yourself, oh, interesting. And again, curiosity, right? Interesting, why is that happening? And what is going on with this that leads me to believe that I don't have the tools to manage this? But I think for most women, the fog happens

and they go, I'm a failure. The fog happens and they go, I'm stupid. The fog happens and they go, I'm a failure. The fog happens and they go, I'm stupid. The fog happens and they go, why can't I figure this out? I'm such a fucking idiot. So talk to me about how we can better respond to not having the answers to questions or to that fog coming up.

The first part is the easiest. And like it really just is about accepting it's not you. It's not personal. The fog isn't you. Every single woman in my school has some kind of degree of fog or another. And noticing it in real time, just being like, oh, this is the fog. Right? This is women only having money for a few decades and being more valuable when they're low maintenance and make signals about if I make more than a partner, nobody will ever be able to express their love for me with providership. And I'm too dissimilar. Like, it's all of it. Right? So like the fog is not you.

A practice of just calling it fog and not fighting against it is so powerful because then you start noticing when you fog. You don't even need to talk yourself out of it and say, wait, I'm good with money. I'm not just be like, oh, this neutral thing has come. It's in the collective energy body of women. It's hitting me now.

It's moving through the world now. It's like, it's here. It's not you. It's not you. It's not you. It's hitting me now. It's moving through the world now. It's here. It's not you. It's not you. It's not you. It's not you. Then know that every time you notice it, you're diminishing its power and you're also noticing now what you don't notice. If you can notice the fog, you're not in the fog. You're not the fog. It's not your thing. The next thing is in my money classes, I do this incredibly simple practice. I love the dumb ass ones everyone can do. It's called dumb money questions. And it's just a running list of really dumb money questions.

And it can be, how much money do I have? What's the password to my bank account login? What are stocks? And there's a really beautiful way in which just writing the questions without any intention of getting the answers, like no plan, this is not a to-do list. You just track the questions. It does something to how it programs your mind to be seeking things on the less than

conscious level. So it really like, I started realizing the word question starts with the word quest. So make sure that you ask questions that are in alignment with the quest you want to be on. So that alone is huge. Fog, dumb money questions, anybody can do it. Also, because I work in groups, the fog becomes even more easy to depersonalize because you see that all these different kinds of women have it. Everybody else has it too. Yep. That's why that's why we do memberships. That's why we are launching. It'll be out by now. We have a program launching in January and it's more about the

community. It's yes, learning all these things and content and blah, blah, blah. It's like it's learning them together, becoming accountable to each other, feeling supportive of each other, and also, like giving yourself a safe space to ask questions that do feel quote unquote stupid or to say, yes, I saved $100,000 and I can't tell anybody else in my life because they're going to get weird and shitty about it. Like, I want to be able to champion you and give you a safe space to do that. Yeah, totally. Okay. You said something about curiosity that I thought was really important. When we're making an ask or in any sort of like difficult scenario, right? Leading with curiosity.

And my favorite question to ask when I don't understand something is like, tell me more about that. Like, I will ask that all the time. Just like, tell me more. Like, what do you mean by that? Tell me more. Like, what do you mean by that? Tell me more. And I think that there's this belief in any sort of ask or negotiation or even like difficult conversation. We're talking a lot about the power dynamics here.

And there is so much power in curiosity. And you are the person who actually is controlling the conversation when you're then curious. So can we talk about like how curiosity is not just the like right thing to do because it makes us better people, but also how it puts us back in the power seat and it helps us drive the conversation. Like what is curiosity doing for our sense of power? Well, first thing, if you're not curious, then you're repeating the past. So it's a dead, dead situation. So if you're interested in having a conversation that you know exactly how it's going to go, and you know exactly what to do, you can lean on that. You don't need to be curious, but you're also, it's not, it's not a living thing.

So being curious is incredibly important for anything that can be better than you expect, not just worse than you expect. Now you can be curious about yourself, curious and, oh, why am I reacting that way? Oh, what does this mean? You can be curious about someone else. I don't think it makes sense to ever really stop being curious.

The cool thing about being curious about somebody else while you're in a interaction or a negotiation with them, especially if it's getting tense or you're scared, is not only does it calm you down to focus on the other person with curiosity, it also puts so much of your energetic attention on them, then it becomes the same thing that I experienced in the dungeon. They feel seen.

They feel seen. And even on a more, like, animal-of-the-body level, when they feel the weight of that attention, And even on a more like animal of the body level, when they feel the weight of that attention, their brain chemistry can shift into a more receptive, even submissive state. If they don't feel like you can hold them, they will never be able to biochemically shift

into a submissive state. That means if you're afraid of getting in their face with curiosity, it's so counterintuitive. I'll let them do all the talking. I'll let them. And curiosity, you know, people are like, what's the difference between being in a dominant state of attention and holding space? You know, if I'm paying attention to them. What we're talking about is not paying attention. We're talking about putting your attention on them and leading with your curiosity to feel what's most alive. To're like, ooh, there's something hot there.

There's something interesting there. There's something that feels meaningful there. And asking about that and asking about that. Then you're in control of the conversation. Well, and speaking of control, you talk about how dominant and submissive isn't really about that control. It's about where your focus and your energy is. So can we talk about both sides of this?

Like, how does this play out in our day to day interactions with people, whether it's men or otherwise, this dominant submissive? In around 2018, I guess it was like around the me too time, there was a lot of talk about power dynamics in the workplace. And we started getting a lot of questions in the school about like woman in a meeting syndrome. So we started analyzing it. We started analyzing what happens to women in a meeting. And yes, all the things that are like,

have been memed and identified like he peeding, da da da da. I'm really interested not in who's wrong or who's doing the thing that doesn't work. I'm interested in giving women the tools to get what they want before the patriarchy's over, like not waiting for the laws to change. So it's like, where can they do something differently? And one of the things I noticed is that in women in a meeting situations, when a woman

speaks, oftentimes her attention is just on herself. And then the man who goes and repeats what she said and everybody thinks he's the one who said it Has his attention on the whole room Now if you're watching if you're watching at the energetics and you're watching really carefully, this is what you're gonna see She says a thing and again this isn't to blame her right she says a thing and she respectfully Maintains her voice her attention essentially in her own orb on herself. That's submissive. This is how I feel. Submissive can be very powerful. This is what I think. This is what I have to say, right? The moment she does that, there's a restlessness in the room that you

can kind of feel and that fidgetiness doesn't end until somebody else lands the message, scores the goal by saying the same thing, but with their attention on the whole room. So everybody can shift into a submissive state, receive the message. It can land. They can feel it. They can obey.

And then that penetration, that stroke, is attributed to the man, not the woman. So they connect that message to the man. Can I, can I pause us? Can you give me an example? Let's say it is this idea that a woman has of like, okay, we need to partner with this particular person in order to hit our Q1 goals next year. She might say that in a submissive way. And then what is the man doing or saying that is getting everybody to pay attention? So in real life examples, especially one-on-one, what's going to tend to happen because nobody

has to conform to business speak is the woman would say, I, and the man would say, we or you. Right? Right. Because there is a business speak, they might say the same phrase, exactly the same phrase. Like Tori, you have a very dominant presence. You know how to command a room. And I feel seen. No, but like we can both switch. We can play a game.

We're on this call. We both switch. We both get subby. But it has to do like you can. This is one of the reasons I was really surprised that people read my book and liked it because I'm like, I have to show you in person because you can you can almost measure you can use the agreement of a bunch of people watching to agree where the energy of the message ends and as an actor you might understand that totally right

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If I do this in a meeting, am I then labeled a bitch? Am I then labeled difficult? Am I then told that I don't get promotions because I don't let everybody else's ideas come to the table, right? This is where I always hit against the systemic barriers, right? Is that there's only so much we can control versus, you know, getting the response that like we need to be docile and we need to just be grateful, you know, getting the response that like, we need to be docile and we need to just be grateful, you know?

So experientially, I have an answer. Experientially from my teaching, there's always going to be that prejudice, right? Right? Yeah, always. But unfortunately, this is where we get screwed. Our discomfort with that and our awareness of that possibility will amplify that happening

because our voices won't be congruent. We'll be pushing too hard. We'll get shrill. Now, with every single situation, whether it's a speech, whether it's an ask, whether it's a presentation, I have women do it in an exaggerated submissive way and an exaggerated dominant way. This is exactly what you do in theater class. You do too much so that you can do just enough. It's like your entire being starts knowing what the aligned middle point is or

what the, what the right point is. So I have them over exaggerate, we are going to hit a cue for, you know, and I have them go inward. And the direction isn't volume. It isn't body language. It's the moment you put your attention either in your experience or in the experience of others, if you're curious, it sounds like a people pleasing them, but it's incredibly powerful. You're curious about the collective reception of the thing. You will speak to their bodies. You will speak to them in a way that they can feel that will allow them to shift into

a more submissive space and receive. The most powerful thing about the practice of asking in a deeply submissive way, I really want da-da-da-da, and a deeply dominant way, you will, is women who practice asking in this way, oftentimes don't even need to make the request. It happens by itself. Why? Because a lot of the things that we want, we are signaling a not readiness to receive it. A really simple example is when you're super

stressed and could use a hug is when you're repelling everyone. So when you like, when you go inward, which is super vulnerable for a woman, she doesn't want to seem weaker or whiner or a victim. When you go outward, she doesn't want to seem like an aggressor or too overbearing. When she has that physical therapy of increasing her range, when she releases and relaxes, like the neutral version ends up being the right version. When she hits that moment, her entire body starts believing that this request is legitimate and she's ready to receive it.

So how many times have I seen a woman going up a subway stair, like carrying a stroller, somebody goes, can I help you with that? And she goes, no. How many times have I in my past experienced somebody offering me something I could need and want and saying no so quickly? I'm like, wait, why was that no pre-programmed? That was the next bullet in my gun? Right.

I haven't even sat with, maybe I do want it. Yeah. Oh, God, I could talk to you for hours. You talk about the Good Girl Doublebind. We've talked a little bit about the on the show with a previous guest about the Seven Deadly Sins. Do you know her work? I you know what? It was funny because I saw that book come out and I was like, Oh, no, because that was a book I wanted to write. I as soon as she was saying it, I was like, oh, I wish I wrote this book.

It was Elise Lunen. Yeah, her book's incredible. And it's, you know, all of the seven deadly sins are really what we're talking about with desire, right? It's just like gluttony, lust, all of these things. Okay. So with total respect to Elise, the book I haven't read yet, I just want to say one thing about the seven deadly sins,

and I have no idea if this is something she's discovered or not. The reason I was so excited about the seven deadly sins is I realized they are only sins if you're not in your body. If you're embodied, they self-regulate. If a woman is deeply embodied and not rejecting any of the feelings that are coming up

Greed for example Is only a problem when you can't feel if you're not embodied enough to feel satiety So sloth is only a problem if you are trying to rest while torturing yourself about how you shouldn't be resting is you're not actually Resting you get enough rest You're not sought. they're self-regulating. Gluttony, even rage. If you're not rejecting anger, there's a moment where you crack,

your heart breaks open, and you realize what it is that you're fighting for. None of the seven deadly sins are sins if you're embodied. And the seven deadly sins come from a tradition that tells you that your body's evil, right? You have to like overcome your animal nature. And this does a huge disservice to women who get all their power from being embodied.

So women owning their bodies, women being in their bodies, women being embodied and not being, you know, the traded commerce breathing machines of the patriarchy. The more we trust our bodies, the more trustworthy our bodies become. And good girl conditioning is such a clusterfuck because it really triggers a lot of mistrust and distrust

of our behavior, of our inner signals. Talk to me about the good girl double bind. How do we see this showing up for women? And what is the bad girl protocol? One of the things I noticed pretty quickly when I started teaching was when I was doing the exercises of having a woman exaggerate dominance and exaggerate submission. And mind you, in those in-person classes, we always had male volunteers, so we had a

point of reference. We had men and we had women. We had men's bodies, and it was important because women were responding differently in these role plays to women's bodies than they were to men's bodies. It didn't matter who it was. it just needed like that was enough. So what I started noticing really quickly is that there's this thing that was like, I called it at the time the female leveling habit. So when they were above and it was like the moment they'd been waiting for,

they wanted to be in control and tell someone off, right? That's the moment where all of the sudden, the gays would get in there and they'd start getting lower because they would be positionally higher. They'd be standing over someone in a chair and they'd be trying to get small. You're going in there. You are going to blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

Then I'd have them get on their knees and the moment they looked up, their gaze shot outward. It was like equilibrium. And then I didn't know at the time about the female social nervous system and they didn't understand, but I saw it. I saw what was happening. I saw what was happening. Discomfort with being above and discomfort with being below. Discomfort with both. And one of the reasons this is super problematic is that when you're leading, everyone you're leading needs to know you're above them. Because that means you can see further, you're looking longer, you're taking everyone into account.

And that when your attention's on yourself and you figure out how am I following, am I learning, it's easier for them to teach you or lead you correctly. So getting that range is really important. I started wondering what the origins of this might be. And the theory that I came up with is I started trying to remember in my own life and the lives of my students, what's the first moment I was worried about being too big or too small?

And it was the same moment. It was the same moment. And it was the moment that boys and girls start being interested in sex get crushes. And from that moment, the boy gets a, oh look, the little boy, the boy is growing up to be a man. He's interested in girls, if he's interested in girls, that he's getting that message, that nudge nudge kind of wink wink. And the girl is getting a shocking death threat, fear. She's getting a really weird mixed signal that nobody's saying out loud.

And from that moment, it's really easy for girls to be entrained into this space where their boobs are too big until they're too small, they're too loud, or they're too quiet, they're too much, they're not enough. And then in between those two polarities of too much and too little, that tightrope gets smaller and smaller. There's actually no room to breathe. There's no space there. There's no space there. So a lot of breaking the goodwill conditioning, I use this tool so often of overdoing and underdoing as a way to start creating more space and range and getting more comfort in being in the body because that's that compressed state where the signals don't match. That's good

girl conditioning. It's where like the girl's smiling, but she looks like she could fucking kill you or like it's the space in which nice feels shitty or like inauthentic or like a lot of people struggle doing, being at the effect of something. When somebody's victim-y, they're just in a smush around their suffering. They're angry, they want revenge, they wanna accuse. This whole thing right now, victim privilege, everybody throwing around how they've been harmed,

it's incongruent. It's ultimate good girl conditioning. It's using the pain that's supposed to bring you inward so you can feel your tenderness, you can take stock of where you've been hurt. You can start knowing what there is to heal. That's an inward state when you're sad, when you're hurt, inward, right?

Submissive, surrender, like that's really important. Victimhood is a really important phase to do that inventory But when you go out to get justice, you can't be carrying that inward state. It's gonna feel shitty gonna leave people with no moves Like that's when you that you you put that aside and then you go This is the behavior that you've been doing and this is the impact that it has That's you that's power. That's that's that's having the And like, unpacking those and unsticking those is where a woman's power blossoms. Good girl conditioning is where it goes to die.

It's not a favor for anyone. It stinks. It feels weird. And we do it because we do it out of love. We think this is what being a good person looks like, and it's not. At the beginning, you talked about one of the women in your classes who you told them, you told this woman, give everything to this. Give them hell. Yeah, give them hell. And she thought she was at an eight

and everybody's like, she was at a two. What did a two look like that she thought was an eight? And what does an eight actually look like? So in this context, it's important to note that she wasn't preparing for a real conversation. Sure, it was the processing. It was probably the getting it all out there. So in her case, what I could see was she was carrying her pain, she was carrying her wounding, and it was driving her inwards.

So her energy was kind of yoked. She was trying to do two things at the same time, carry her pain and give him help. So what is the difference there? Like, I really want to dial in on that. Like, because sometimes my pain is you fucking wrecked my life, right? Like, sometimes that pain is the way I get to the anger maybe. So when you say those things, why can those not be congruent to each other? When you are speaking to me and you said you wrecked my life,

even though we're on Zoom, I feel like it's landing in my body. Okay. So I'm getting anger. That's a theater degree cut. I'm not getting, right? But I'm getting anger. I'm not getting that you're hurt.

Okay. I intellectually get that that might be the cause, but you're all the way over here. Is it because I'm not saying I feel terrible? Even if I'm angry, I feel terrible as opposed to you wrecked my life. Like, is that the difference? This is this is a part where it gets tricky. If I say you, I will tend to give you energy. If I say I, I will tend to keep my energy. This is the dominant and submissive, which is fine. But wait, wait, wait, wait, but language is not the law.

You can bypass the fact that you're saying I, right? I can say, I can say, Tori, I was so wounded. I was so wrecked. It really, really, really, really hurt. I can go inward and say that. And I can go, and this is gonna feel shitty, Tori, I was wounded. I was wrecked.

Forget, the reason anger is easier is the anger goes outward and sadness goes inward. Yeah. Every emotion has a different way in which it moves. Yeah. I guess the question I'm really asking is like, how do we stop suppressing the emotion? Like, if this person, if this woman was at a two and thought she was at an eight. Yes. As we proceeded, she got to go into her wound, her sadness, where the energy goes inward. Ow, that really hurt. And this is the part that was hard for her because she was stuck in the middle.

She had to go to a place where she was begging for his approval, which is secretly what she wanted, right? So she goes inward. She was like, I really want this. I really want this. I really want this. And like, that's really hard. So when it got too hard, we would switch back out to her being like, you're a stupid motherfucker

and you did this shit and you're ruining your life and you, you, you, you. Attention now. Then again, attention in. And then she had regained her voice. So you could overanalyze. If you saw it, what you would see was somebody who was speaking loudly because they were trying to be angry, but their vocal tone was muffled. You would see somebody who was looking down on the ground and, you know, trying to change their posture. But it really felt like what she was doing was, look how you hurt me. I'm hurt. I'm hurt.

I'm hurt. I'm hurt. Yeah. It was the performance of anger. Exactly. Without the attention. She wasn't looking to see where it landed. She was just like, not even going to go there. Well, it's almost like I think it's the self-consciousness versus the vulnerability, right? And I think that this is an example of the ways that women suppress emotions, specifically anger, is it's like while feeling angry, you feel badly about feeling angry. Yeah, yeah, yeah. But see, this all goes back to curiosity. If you're self-conscious, you're not curious about the other person. You're not actually curious about what's happening. Calling all sellers.

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because I know, and especially as an actor, I know sometimes you got to be in the room to see things. So us describing this is really hard. But if there's someone out there, there are probably every woman listening. And I'll put myself in this. Sometimes I don't feel anger and I will name every other emotion when I'm actually feeling anger instead of I feel angry. And one of the things I'm really trying to do is name my anger now.

I'm trying to just give them a resource and get to the point where they can express this in a healthy way, where it's also, they're not suppressing what they actually feel. Yeah, so another way to do it is to get comfortable with the things you think are absolutely unacceptable. Tell me more. We have an exercise called the bad girl protocol, right?

And the idea is you're literally writing out your dark side, your evil. Like if you let yourself shadow. Yeah, if you let yourself just be the worst human being in the world, what would you do? And this is a little bit edgy and it sounds dangerous. And I've had lost many nights of sleeping. Like, am I nuts? Like having women do this exercise where they try to find what's hot about these horrible, horrible, horrible ideas. The crazy thing is, so much hides in the closet of what we think is bad. So like a bad girl protocol,

like in a class will very often times look like this. If I were a bad girl, I would get eight hours of sleep a night no matter what Yeah, I'm laughing because my brain is going to murder yeah and Having complete total crazy sex without consequences. Yeah. Yeah, so that's there. That's there without consequences. Yeah, yeah. So that's there, that's there. And you went eight hours asleep

and now I feel like a terrible person. No, no, no, no, no, because like, no, no, no. If I were a bad girl, I would have my ex staple his balls to the mattress and jump up and down until everything was bloody. Like that's there, that's there. That's there. But the thing is, the thing is,

the thing is if you're doing this, if you're consciously going into the closet and like letting everything out, lots of things that you think are bad that are actually good ideas come out. Yeah. And the really bad ones show you where your heart is. The really evil ones are the ones that show you where your love is. So this is part of teaching women that most women, most human beings, I don't just have to believe I see are good on the inside, like good, right? So letting all of this out releases

where imagination goes to hide. So a lot of times the woman who thinks she's speaking at an eight but is speaking at a two has a lot of things that she thinks are bad, that are unacceptable, that are there and they're hidden in that closet. So a lot of this is to do with just like getting more range. Like it's really surprising but sometimes the thing that you think is dangerous to say is the most important thing another person needs to hear. And you can't, you won't be able to deliver it well unless you get comfortable with it, you come to know it. Oh, I have so many other questions for you.

We do have to wrap at some point. Okay, one of the things that you teach in your book and you've gone viral on TikTok for sharing is a 10 second practice that immediately shifts dynamics. Can we talk a little bit about that? A really easy way to start thinking, a simple, more contained way to start thinking and practicing this idea of attention is power, like where the attention is,

is in a situation where somebody asks you, especially a man and an inappropriate question. So when we're talking about dominance and submission, we're talking about attention out, attention in men tend to have a default of their attention out when there's moment of stress, there's a moment of crisis, when the tension rises, the tendency is men look out, women look in. So women will check themselves, men will check out what's going on. Check in, check out, check in, check out.

This is really important because there is a decisive moment in a lot of very compromising, especially sexual harassment situations. Man puts his attention out, asks an inappropriate question. Do you charge for blowjobs? Whatever. Do you want to go up to my hotel room? Whatever, right? Moment of tension and crisis for a woman. Where does her attention go? In. His attention's on her, her attention's on herself. What do I do? What did I do? Did I give the wrong signal? How do I get out of this? What am I doing? What do I say? And in that moment, that double attention on her shuts her down. The simple thing to do in that situation is put your attention out. But putting your attention

out by being like you are is hard. It's a lot easier and more powerful if you ask a question. Why? Because when you ask him a question, you're not just putting your attention on there and cueing yourself to use the tremendous power of curiosity to see the answer. That's a heavy attention to piercing, penetrating attention. Also, even if it's just for a split second, in order for him to find the answer, he has to go inward, which is not his default state. He's the, what's the answer. Even if it's a millisecond and that's enough to shift the dynamic, he's on the spot now. He's on the spot. What the fuck was that?

Or where did you get that tie? It doesn't even matter if it's a non sequitur. Yeah. Okay. So seems very simple, but I want to just bring you a little bit into the real world of how this requires a little bit of training. I'm in a room, 600 women, big, big, big event in London, and I'm teaching them turning the spotlight, the name of this tool. I've explained it to them. I've demonstrated it. And now I say to them, I'm going to go through the audience. I'm going to ask you an inappropriate question. Your job is to ask me a question back. Extra credit if you actually use your attention to put your question, your attention on me. It's a little bit of a higher stakes situation

because everybody's watching, right? First one, always tries to answer the question. It's like she forgets. Do you want to go out on a date with me? I don't know, right? It's usually the third or the fourth that will ask me a question back. And that one will come out swinging. She's just like, who the fuck do you think you are?

Completely uncalibrated. Completely, right? Everyone goes uncalibrated, completely. Everyone goes, whoa, whoa, whoa. But I'm like, let's keep going until we get something usable, right? Calibrate me. Right, right, because you can't do that. Yeah, yeah.

Number five or six, it takes. It takes a little bit of time to learn this habit. You ask an appropriate question to a man, he's gonna be like, why are you asking? Almost immediately, default, attention out. Woman will freeze. So once you get that moment where you learn to recognize, just like noticing the fog, once you get that moment, you get a habit of being like, oh, I've been asked something

that feels uncomfortable. Maybe I should put the attention out. Right. And you have a little bit of practice with it. That's when the fun begins. Because at that moment, you can start really calibrating to the person that you're in front of, right? So you can be clever, you can be smart, you can be simple, you can be soulful. So somebody's like, what's a single girl like you doing here? And you're like, are you taking a poll? Are you looking for love? Are you hoping to be a candidate? Are you the king of dumb questions? Or like, you know, like there's a lot of things you can do. And if it's, if it's really offensive, you can be searing or you can, there's a lot of things you can do. But the, um, the place where this originated from was actually the dungeon, because there was a horrible

kind of client. They're their own breed, where they like to go to BDSM dungeons where no sex is offered and try to manipulate the new girl. So before I was even a teacher, I started teaching the new girls this trick. Right? So you're in a dungeon and a guy's like, this is great, but when are we going to have sex? Or like start alluding to that. Right? Now she is a dominatrix. So she can't say, uh, I don't know. I don't feel comfortable with that. That's against the rules because she loses the whole aura of power. But if she goes, what kind of submissive

are you asking for things you're not supposed to have? Do you like breaking the rules? Are you trying to piss me off? Are you trying to control me into punishing you hard? So I train them to do question after question after question after question after question. And the more they went, they could go funny. They could go hard.

They could go soft. Oh, look at you. Do you not know how to speak to a woman? Like it, you know, it doesn't have to be snarky, but it was an, cause the thing is if you say no, if you stand up for your rights, like you can in some other situations and there are situations where you don't want to offend the person you're working with. If you lose your power in the first three minutes of a 60 minute BDSM session, then it's over. The next 56, 57 minutes are a nightmare.

You lost your footing. You're there and you're like, I don't know. Like, I don't know. It's a nightmare. So this ends up being a really powerful thing to practice that's relatively simple. And eventually, when you master it, you can use authentic curiosity. And that really disarms people and really gets to their heart immediately.

Like, are you being clumsy right now? Or are you being super aggressive? Because I feel like maybe that question that could be offensive to a lot of women is a cry for connection with a woman. Is that the best that you can do? Do you need help? You know? I mean, the best examples will come from being in the moment and being curious. Because then you can be be like, you know, did you just lose a mother recently? You know what I mean? Yeah. Like you'll just, but you'll see, you'll see something to say. Those are just examples looking at you. I don't have any cues.

What are you trying to do with that question? Yeah. Or are, do you think that question's going to get you what you most deeply want? Yeah. Yeah. And I will say to anybody listening, that is when I feel most powerful is when, And I will say to anybody listening, that is when I feel most powerful, is when I am curious, even in a situation that isn't with a dude beating shitty. It's just like, yeah, tell me more about that. Or like, what did you mean by that? Or if it is the dude being shitty, there are amount of times I'm just like, what was that? Like, what was that? You know, with genuine curiosity, it becomes really easy to see that a lot of like, shitty dudes are actually just clumsy.

Oh, and they also just panic then. They're like, oh, I don't, I wasn't trying to offend you. And I'm like, yeah, but what was that? Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. What was that? Okay, I can talk to you for another six hours, but we both gotta go. Get on your soapbox for me.

Our last question. What would you say to a woman listening who wants to feel more in control of her life and more powerful in a way that feels good to her and good in her body? The simplest way, the most direct way is to keep a daily desire list. Coming to what you really, really, really want is not a thing that most women have in

their back pocket. They mostly don't spend a lot of time really deeply feeling into the evolution of their desires. And why I say this is that's the main thing that keeps them being the best supporting actress. If you don't carry in your heart and in your body, the thing that is gonna light you up next, the thing that's gonna give you the light to grow next,

if you're not aware of it, everybody else's agenda will take over and you'll be playing defense. You won't be an active creator of your life. And like from there stems the asking practice and from them stems the bad girl protocol. From there, everything is built on that. But I cannot overemphasize that, because if you do take it on as a religious practice, of daily tapping in, and even if you're writing the same thing every day, allowing it to change or allowing it to get more specific, you're teaching your body how to become a magnet for it.

You're getting your voice more comfortable. Why do you want money? What do you want it for? What do you want your life to look like? It's basically unlocking the taboo around that appetite, around that horny, hungry, voracious, alive thing. And the beauty of that is that the desire prohibition and the distrust of the body starts to go away when you start making friends with your desires and really

understanding that you have no say in what you want. It just comes up on its own. And like, power is acknowledging it. You get to decide what you do about it, but if you don't take stock of it, you don't really know what what you don't know your destiny. You don't know what your life's about. And it's really, really, you know, we have like a consumer culture. I like this. I like this. I'm talking about desires and talking about deeply knowing what what's going to drive you forward. If you know what moves you, you will be moved and you will take action and everything else organizes around that. And when a woman isn in the center of her universe, she's always playing catch up. One of my favorite episodes we've ever done. Thank you so much. Please plug away. Tell us about your

book. Tell us about your work. Plug away, my friend. My book is called Unbound, a woman's guide to power. It's at Amazon, all major booksellers. My website is weteachpower.com, in part because my name is so difficult to spell. Kasia Urbaniak is a complicated Polish name, so weteachpower.com and unbound. Tori, thank you so much for the work that you do. It's been a delight to speak to you. Thank you, thank you so much.

I think I'd be a great Doma Matrix, by the way. Like, that's my new career path. 100%. Thank you to Kasia for joining us. You can get her book, Unbound, A Woman's Guide to Power, wherever you get your books. You can also check out her academy at kasiaurbaniak.com. That's K-A-S-I-A-U-R-B-A-N-I-A-K. We also put it down below in the show notes. Thank you as

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