Founders - #429 Bob Dylan's Autobiography
Episode Date: August 16, 2026What I learned from rereading Bob Dylan's autobiography. Made possible by: Ramp: https://ramp.com Applovin: https://www.applovin.com Vanta: https://vanta.com/founders...
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I had just signed a contract with Leeds music, giving it the right to publish my songs.
Not that there was many great deal to hammer out, I hadn't written much yet.
Lou had advanced me $100 against future royalties to sign the paper, and that was fine with me.
John had taken me over to see Lou.
John had only heard two of my original compositions, but he had a premonition that there would be more.
John was John Hammond, the great talent scout and discoverer of monumental artists, imposing figures in the history of recorded music.
artists who had created music that resonated through American life.
He was legendary.
He had followed his own heart's love, which was music,
which he endorsed and defended with his life.
No one could block his way and he didn't have any time to waste.
That's one of my favorite sentences in the book.
No one could block his way and he didn't have any time to waste.
I could hardly believe myself awake when sitting in his office,
him signing me to Columbia Records.
It was so unbelievable.
It would have sounded like a made-up thing.
Folk music was considered junkie, second-rate, and only released on small labels.
But John was an extraordinary man.
He had vision and foresight, had seen and heard me, felt my thoughts, and had faith in the things to come.
That was an excerpt from the book that I'm going to talk to you about today, which is Chronicles, Volume 1, and is written by Bob Dylan.
And in fact, he wrote it with no help at all.
He wrote every single word himself.
He didn't even have an editor.
So I want to go to the very beginning of the book.
First few pages is just blurb after blurb of praise for the book.
And there's just a ton of praise for the book.
I think it's probably the best written autobiography ever read in my life.
In fact, Rolling Stone put this as the number one.
It's number one on the list of the top 50 musician biographies and autobiographies.
But I want to read one of the blurbs that I think really speaks to why this book is so important.
and it says Bob Dylan hasn't really written the story of his life in this fascinating,
captivating, intimate, accessible, and widely acclaimed memoir.
Instead, he's written mainly the story of his birth when he transformed himself from
Bobby Zimmerman to Bob Dylan.
So I heard Bob Dylan say something when he was a much older man that I think speaks to
what takes place in this book and what that review really hits on.
And Bob said, life isn't about finding yourself.
life is about creating yourself.
And so before I jump back into the book,
I want to talk about one of the most interesting things
is the fact that Steve Jobs
from the very early days when he was in his 20s
all the way to the point when he was dying,
he would talk about the influence
that Bob Dylan had on his work.
And there's actually a lot of ideas, I think, for entrepreneurs.
Steve mentions Bob Dylan probably 15 times
in the biography that he worked on
with Walter Isaacson before he was dying,
or as he was dying or said.
So I went back and I pulled all the notes
about what Steve said
about Bob Dylan, and I'm just going to run through them.
In fact, Steve Jobs was obsessed with Dylan before he started Apple.
One of the first things that Steve Jobs and Steve Wozniak did together,
which tracked down underground recordings of Bob Dylan records.
Steve would also collect these printed out brochures of Bob Dylan lyrics,
and then he'd spend hours interpreting them.
In that biography, Steve says that he managed to collect hundreds of hours of Dylan's recorded concerts
and would lay in bed listening to the concerts in headphones.
So close to the end of his life, Steve Jobs is sitting inside his house with Walter
Isaacson, his biography, and they're listening to Bob Dylan Records. And he says something to
Walter, I think, is really important because it's going to pop up in the book over and over again.
And I think it's one of the main takeaways from the book. And Steve Jobs picked up on it immediately,
and Bob Dylan, I think, did this intentionally. But Steve said to Walter, no one else could have been
Bob Dylan. So after Apple releases the iTunes store, he actually gets to meet, Steve Jobs gets to meet,
and he has a two-hour one-on-one conversation with Bob Dylan. And there's something that Dylan told him
that resonated with Steve's own approach to creating new products.
And so Bob was talking about the way the music came.
He says that the songs, quote,
the songs just came through me.
It wasn't like I was having to compose them.
And at the very end of the Steve Jobs biography
that was written by Walter Isaacson,
Steve gives this fantastic, such as just this conversation
about what drove him, why he did what he did in his career.
And I think it obviously really hits home
because he knows he's dying as he sings these words.
And he's talking about learning from the Beatles
and learning from Bob Dylan
and the importance of always trying something new.
And he talks about like, you know, why do you keep,
he kept trying to invent new technology,
try to create new products.
And he says what he learned,
he says he got that idea from them,
which means the Beatles and Bob Dylan.
He says they kept evolving, moving,
refining their art.
That is what I've always tried to do.
Keep moving.
Otherwise, as Dylan says,
if you're not busy being born,
you're busy dying.
So the book starts with him being signed.
He's in New York City. It's 1961. So the record label sends him over to their in-house publicist.
This guy named Billy. And Billy's asking him a bunch of questions. And I just want to pull out one sentence here because it's just something that reappears over and over again in the book. I think it's so important.
Billy asked me who I saw myself like in today's music scene. I told him nobody and that was true. I really didn't see myself like anybody else. Bob continues.
There's other folk singers. There's other folk musicians. But there was nobody like me.
So at this point, Bob begins to tell the story of what led up to this time in his life.
So it's about two years from him arriving in New York City from Minnesota and then before he signed to Columbia Records.
Now, the crazy part, one of the craziest parts, this is this wildly ambitious act that Bob Dylan does to get to New York City.
And he doesn't have any money.
So he winds up hitchhiking.
It's 1,200 miles, about 1,200 miles between Minneapolis and New York City.
So he hitchhikes from Minneapolis to New York City.
He leaves Minneapolis with three things.
A guitar, a suitcase, and $10.
So I got to give you background because this is not like any other autobiography.
It's almost like disjoint it.
I can't even describe it.
It was a very fascinating read.
I hope you enjoy the podcast, obviously, and learn something from it.
Hopefully be inspired by the story.
But I would really recommend for you to like pick up this book on like a weekend trip or something.
Because it's just phenomenally well written and it's so hard to describe.
So one of the things that got me interested in Bob Dylan, in addition to he's a bunch of these biographies, is that Bill Gurley gave this talk about how to run down a dream, and he profiles five people that go to great lengths to get their dream job and what they do.
And it's just a phenomenal talk he gave, I think it's the University of Texas MBA students.
So there's a bunch of ideas from that talk where Bill is talking about Bob Dylan that, I think given the background of this talk for this book and understanding Bob Dylan, that I think given the background of this talk for this book and understanding Bob Dylan.
I think it's like really, really valuable.
And so there's a couple times where I'm going to reference some of the things that Bill Gurley says in relation to Bob Dylan.
And so Bill says over the course of eight or nine months, Bob studied every folk album he possibly could.
This is before he gets to New York.
He didn't have a lot of money.
And at the time, you could walk into a record store and you can listen in a booth.
He would do that for hours and hours.
This is about two years before he signed to Columbia.
He would then become friends with people that would have these huge, that like folk music,
but had money because Bob was completely broke.
He had no money to spend on folk albums.
So he'd go to their house and then listen to their record collection as well.
When he gets to New York City, he does the exact same thing.
He'd sit in these venues.
This is what I just mentioned earlier.
Some of these he's going to wind up playing.
And in fact, he would play anywhere.
He'd play on the side of the street, play in a coffee house,
play for one person, play for no people, play for 100 people.
It just didn't matter.
And so some of the people that were playing at the time
are talking about Bob Dylan in the future.
He says, you don't understand how good Bob was about this.
He watches so much and would study us.
so much. He could perform any of our songs just like us. He could copy the tone, the tempo,
everything. Bob was studying, studying, studying, studying. And so remember where we were in the book.
He's like, hey, I got him. I'm back in the Midwest. I'm listening to this guy named Dave Van Runk.
He's playing at the gaslight. I need to go find him. I need to go meet him. I need to then
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And so now that he's in New York City,
he's just like, I'm going to take any opportunity I can get.
And so he talks about this.
I wanted to play for anybody.
I could never sit in a room and just play all by myself.
I needed to play for people and all the time.
You could say that I practiced in public,
and my whole life was becoming what I practiced.
I kept my sights on the gas light.
How could I not?
And so he's describing these little places that he's forced to play.
He calls them dens.
And then this is why I'm trying to like essentially
convince you, persuade you to buy the book and to read it.
This is a mastery of language this guy has.
It's just unbelievable.
There's so many times I'm reading this book.
It's just like you read sentences in the book that you just, you've never read them
before.
These words have not been put together in this same manner as the way this guy writes.
It's just incredible.
So he says, the talent scouts did not come to these dens.
They were dark and dingy and the atmosphere was chaotic.
On weekends, if you played all the joints from dusk until dawn, you could make maybe $20.
you had to know a trick or two to survive.
And one of the best parts of the book is all these other folk musicians,
all these other really musicians of all kinds of genres
are in the same few block area of New York City.
And they're all trying to make it.
And obviously, they're interacting each other.
They meet with each other.
Bob has to, like, sleep on some of their couches
and, you know, crash at their house for a day or two
or sometimes for a month.
And so one of the best parts of the book is the fact that he meets all these crazy
characters.
And he's just gifted at describing their personalities.
And he just makes these people jump off the page.
And there's two really important parts about this.
One, they're helping each other on their journey, but two, he's also able to compare himself.
He's like, okay, I've been obsessed with this, but I've been relatively isolated.
I'm listening to these records in record store boots at these friends' houses.
I don't actually know, like, how do I actually stack up against them?
And so it's really, really important.
And he goes back to that idea that there was only one me.
And again, I don't think he's doing it from a place of arrogance by any means.
So he says, well, really set me apart.
And these days was my repertoire.
It was more formidable than the rest of the players.
template was hardcore folk songs. And then we see this is very binary. You either love Bob Dylan
or you don't listen to him at all. I'd either drive people away or they would come in closer
and see what it was all about. There was no in between. There was a lot better musicians around,
but there wasn't anybody close in nature to what I was doing. And so when he's not playing,
he's reading biographies, he's reading history, and he's practicing. He's doing professional
research. He's just consuming insane amounts of music. So he winds up meeting this guy named Izzy.
Izzy owns one of these little dens that he was playing at,
and the back of this den is this giant record collection.
And so Bob writes, Izzy had a back room.
The little room was filled with records and a phonograph.
Izzy would let me stay back there and listen to them.
I listened to as many as I could.
The madly complicated modern world was something I took little interest in.
He's essentially muting the world and building his own.
It had no relevancy to me.
It had no weight.
I wasn't seduced by it, but he was seduced by history.
He's got a lot, he gets a lot of his ideas from going through and studying the history of his industry.
He also take ideas from people writing about war, from people, biographies, all kinds of people.
One of those fascinating things to me is just like, he winds up getting trapped in this room.
He traps himself in the room.
And he's just reading biography after biography after biography.
Now, when he gets the end of the book, remember is at the beginning because it's out of secrets.
It's almost like Christopher Nolan movie.
Now I'm thinking of it.
And his life changes when he hears the, the,
music of Woody Guthrie and then reads Woody Guthrie's autobiography, Bound for Glory,
which is what happened at the very end of the book. But the studying of history is the main point
because he's going to take lines from other songs that maybe came out 30 years ago. He would
take tones. He would take like a guitar lick and incorporate into what he's doing. And so Izzy
also plays another important role in Bob Dylan's life because it's at Izzy's when just a random
chance he gets to meet one of the people that he came to New York to see, which is Dave Van
Ronk. And so he's sitting in Izzy's place right there, and this is where he's going to seize the
opportunity. He says, one winter day, a big burly guy stepped in off the street. It was Dave Von Ronk.
He was gruff with a don't give a damn attitude. My mind went into a rush. There was nothing between
the man and me. So Dave's just sitting at the bar. He's playing a couple strings on the guitar.
And so this is where Bob Dylan goes over to him. He goes, I stepped over and asked him,
how does someone get to work at the gaslight? Who do you have to know? Van Ron looked at me curiously.
was snippy and surly and asked if I was a janitor?
That's all no.
And he could perish that thought, but I could play something for him.
And so he lets him play.
Dave liked what he heard and asked me who I was.
Then said, I could come down around eight or nine that night and play a couple songs in his set.
That was how I met Dave von Runk.
And then what he had been trying to make happen happens.
I would soon be hired to play at the gaslight.
And I love, again, he's probably wrote the book when he was 60 or 70 years old.
He was reflecting about what it was.
like being a young man in his 20s trying to make it.
Outside the temperature was about 10 below, but I didn't feel the cold.
I was heading for the fantastic lights.
No doubt about it.
Could it be that I was being deceived?
Not likely.
I had no false hope.
I had come a long ways off, had started from a long ways down.
But now destiny was about to manifest itself.
I felt like it was looking right at me and nobody else.
And so he talks about many times,
many times he talks about this contrast between how cold it is outside
and the fire that is burning inside of him.
Now, what I'm about to read to you is amazing
if you really think about it.
He's still unknown.
He hasn't recorded his first album.
He doesn't have his own place to live.
He has to rely on the charity of others
to put a roof over his head.
And this is what he says.
I walked over to the window and looked outside.
The air was bitter cold,
but the fire in my mind was never out.
And so another main theme of the book
that appears over and ever again.
He's got this insatiable appetite for reading,
which I absolutely love.
And it's just incredible how much
reading this guy is going to do. And so he takes ideas from everything that he reads and applies it to his
work. And then in the book, he's just got this incredible writing, which I just mentioned, about this
long chain of historical figures. So listen to how he describes this. Hitler, Churchill, Mussolini,
Stalin, Roosevelt, towering figures that the world would never see the likes of again. Men who relied
on their own resolve for better or worse. Every one of them prepared to act alone, indifferent to approval,
indifferent to wealth or love, all presiding over the destiny of mankind and reducing the world to rubble.
Coming from a long line of Alexander's and Julius Caes, Genghis Khan's, Charlemains, and Napoleons,
they carved up the world, they would not be denied, and they were impossible to reckon with.
Rude barbarians stampeding across the earth and hammering out their own ideas into the geography.
And so these books he's reading and these musicians that he's studying, some of them he's meeting,
you really see what he values and what he's trying to emulate in his own career.
So he gives us this incredible description of this musician that he greatly admired,
this guy named Roy Orbiton.
And what he realizes is like, hey, there's actually no one else like Roy.
Roy had no peer, which is exactly what Bob Dylan was going for in his own career.
So Bob Dylan writes, Roy had transcended all the genres.
His stuff mixed all the styles and some that hadn't even been invented yet.
With Roy, you didn't know if you were listening to Mariachi or opera.
He catch you on your toes.
With him, it was all about fat and blood.
He sounded like he was singing from an Olympian mountain top, and he meant business.
He was singing his compositions in three or four octaves that made you want to drive your car off a cliff.
He sang like a professional criminal.
His voice could jar a corpse.
Always leave you muttering to yourself something like, man, I don't believe it.
His songs had songs within songs.
He was deadly serious.
There wasn't anything else on the radio like him.
I'd listen and wait for another song, but next to Roy, the playlist was strictly Dolesville, gutless, and flabby.
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And so now he's staying with another friend.
This friend has this giant collection of books,
and this is, again, still pre-record book.
This is still him trying to figure out things
and just how to make it.
So he says, I turned the radio off and went into the other room,
a windowless one with floor to see.
The place had an overpowering presence of literature.
You couldn't help but lose your passion for dumbness.
That is a great line.
There were all types of things in here.
Books like the Athenian general, a narrative that would give you chills.
It was written 400 years before Christ and it talks about how human nature is always the
enemy of anything superior.
It's like nothing has changed from his time to mine.
There were novels by Balzac, Hugo, and Dickens.
I would usually open up some book to the middle, read a few people,
and if I liked it, I went back to the beginning.
I was looking for part of my education that I never got.
Sometimes I open up a book and see a handwritten note scribbled in the front.
Like in Machiavelli's The Prince, there was written, the spirit of the hustler.
There were endless rows of books.
One of the books he read was actually about Alexander the Great,
and he has this description of what he learned from Alexander the Great.
Alexander the Great marched into Persia.
When he conquered Persia in order to keep it conquered,
he had all of his men marry local women.
After that, he had never any trouble with the population.
No uprisings or anything.
Alexander knew how to get absolute control.
I wanted to read all of these books.
And so he's reading a ton of biographies.
He reads one on Robert E. Lee.
And he said, Robert E. Lee, this is what I meant.
Like, he almost does my job better than me,
where he's able to just describe these entire life stories in a paragraph,
just makes these characters come alive, you know, in just a few senses.
It's incredible.
Robert E. Lee had grown up without a father.
Lee had made something out of himself nevertheless.
Not only that, but it was on his word and his word alone
that America did not get into a guerrilla war
that probably would have lasted till this day.
The books were something.
They were really something.
I read a lot of pages aloud and liked the sound of the words.
I like the sound of the language.
And so he's reading and telling us the story
of this education that he's giving himself,
and he's always relating it back to his craft.
He says folk singers could sing songs like an entire book,
but only in a few verses.
I'd always return to the books.
I would dig through them like an archaeologist.
So then he goes back to more biographies that he's reading.
I read the biography of Thaddeus Stevens.
He lived in the early part of the 1800s and was quite a character.
He's from Gettysburg and he's got a club foot.
He grew up poor, made a fortune,
and from then on championed the weak in any other group
who wasn't able to fight equally.
Stevens had a grim sense of humor, a sharp tongue,
and a white-hot hatred for the bloated aristocrats of his day.
He wanted to confiscate the land of the slaveholding elite.
He once referred to a colleague on the floor of the chamber as slinking in his own slime.
Stevens was hard to forget.
He made a big impression on me.
He was inspiring.
Him and Teddy Roosevelt, who Bob Dylan calls maybe the strongest U.S. President ever.
I read about Teddy too.
He was a cattle rancher and a crime buster.
Had to be restrained from declaring war in California.
He had a big run-in with J.P. Morgan.
There's actually an entire book about that.
I did.
an episode in the book called The Hour of Fate,
which was the rivalry,
then the part of the ship,
and then back to the rivalry
between Theodore Resero and J.P. Morgan.
It's a fascinating book
if you're looking for something to read
about that time period.
Roosevelt backed him down
and threatened to throw him in jail.
Either one of those guys,
Stevens, or Roosevelt, or even Morgan,
could have stepped out of a folk song.
That is the important part.
He's taking everything he's learning
and relating it back to his craft,
which is what he wants to do.
All he want to do,
it's like, all I want to do,
and all I ever am was just a folk musician.
So then he starts reading Von Krieg,
which is written by Klausowitz.
And he says they called Klausowitz the premier philosopher of war.
The book was published in 1832, and Klausowitz had been in the military since he was 12.
His armies were highly trained professionals, not young men who served only for a few years or more.
His men were hard to replace.
Klauschwitz talks a lot about how to maneuver into position where the other side can see there's no fighting chance, and they basically lay down their arms.
I had a morbid fascination with this stuff.
I had always pictured myself dying in some heroic battle rather than in bed.
I wanted to be a general with my own battalion.
So at this point, this again, there's just like this strange structure, and I mean that
a great way of like the timelines in this book.
So he has a flashback to when he was in Minnesota and he's just trying to play any gig
that he possibly can.
He's, I think 17 or 18 years old at this point.
And he's forming all these bands and then they keep breaking up.
And he's like, you know what, I don't care.
I'm going to keep going forward no matter what.
And so he says, I keep forming these bands because I was determined to play.
There was a lot of halting and waiting, little acknowledgement, little affirmation.
But sometimes all takes as a wink or nod from some unexpected place to vary the tedium of your baffling existence.
What he's talking about there is the importance of words of encouragement.
And so he's going to find words of encouragement from a very surprising source.
It's a super famous professional wrestler at the time that's going to do.
just happened to see Bob Dylan perform.
Bob Dylan's performing in a lobby,
which I'll get to in a minute.
And so this guy named Gorgeous George.
This is hilarious.
He says,
that happened to me when Gorgeous George,
the great wrestler came into my hometown.
So in the mid-1950s,
I was performing in the lobby
of the Veterans Memorial Building.
I was playing on a makeshift platform in the lobby,
and suddenly the doors burst open
and in came Gorgeous George.
He roared in like the storm
in all his magnificent glory.
He had valets and was surrounded by
women carrying roses. He was wearing a majestic fur-lined gold. This is hilarious. He was wearing a
majestic fur-line gold cape. He brushed by the makeshift stage and glanced towards the sound of
music. He didn't break stride, but he looked directly at me. He winked and seemed to meld the
phrase, you're making it come alive. I never forgot it. This is so important. It was all the
recognition and encouragement I would need for years to come. Sometimes that's all it takes. The kind of
recognition that comes when you're doing the thing for the thing's sake and you're on to something.
It's just that nobody recognizes it yet.
And so what's very fascinating is several pages later.
He's not a 17-year-old kid in Minnesota playing in the lobby.
He's back in New York City.
And this is still before he signed to Columbia, but he had this very similar experience.
And he's writing about this.
He says, sometimes you know things have to change or going to change, but you can only feel it.
but you don't know it in a purposeful way.
Little things foreshadow what's coming, but you may not recognize them.
But then something immediate happens and you're in another world.
You jump into the unknown.
You have an instinctive understanding of it.
You're set free.
You don't need to ask questions and you already know the score.
It seems like when that happens, it happens fast like magic.
But it's really not like that.
It isn't like some dull boom goes off and the moment has arrived.
it's more deliberate it's a reflective thing somebody holds the mirror up unlocks the door
something jerks it open and you're shoved in and your head has to go into a different place
sometimes it takes a certain somebody to make you realize it and so that is when he starts
talking about another folk singer that actually forces him makes him realize that he has to
change his thought patterns that he had these essentially self-limiting beliefs
and so he's going to talk about this guy named mike c.
And he gets into the mentality that he had at this time. He says, I knew what I was doing,
and I wasn't going to take a step back or retreat for anybody. And by studying Mike Seeger,
this is where he realized, okay, I have to change my thought patterns. What I had to work at,
Mike already had in his jeans. It was in his genetic makeup. Before he was even born, the music
had to be in his blood. It dawned on me that I might have to change my inner thought patterns,
that I would have to start believing in possibilities that I wouldn't have allowed
to myself to believe in before. That I had been closing my creativity down to
to a very narrow, controllable scale,
that things have become too familiar
and I might have to disorient myself.
I did everything fast.
I thought fast, I ate fast, I talk fast, I walk fast.
I even sang my songs fast.
I needed to slow my mind down
if I was going to become a composer with anything to say.
I couldn't exactly put into words what I was looking for,
but he began searching for it in principle
over at the New York City Public Library.
Think about this.
When he's lost, when he's not practicing,
he turns to the books.
And it doesn't even talk about why,
but he develops this fascination,
he becomes obsessed with studying the American Civil War.
And so he goes to New York City Library,
and he goes into one of the reading rooms,
and he says,
I started reading articles and newspapers on microfilm
from about 1855 to about 1865
to see what daily life was like.
I wasn't so much interested in the issues
as intrigued by the language
and the rhetoric of the time.
Remember he talks about the language?
He loved the language of the books
so much that he'd read.
them aloud. He talks about reading poetry, reading philosophy, reading biographies. Now he's
reading newspapers. He wants to, he's essentially like he described himself as an archaeologist.
I'm digging through history to find useful information for my craft. It's exactly what you and I are
doing right now. And I love this idea, just being obsessed with language. I think I've said this,
I don't know, before, but in case I haven't. So there's so many times, it's like the way this
guy puts words together. There's, there's sentences in this book that have never read anywhere
else. I don't think they could be anywhere else, but coming out of the pen of Bob Dylan.
So then he goes back to what he's learning, essentially human nature is constant.
He says it wasn't like it was another world.
It was the same one that I'm living in, but with more urgency.
Then he talks about how things change.
You know, we look at Abraham Lincoln.
If you ask me, like who's my favorite president is probably Abraham Lincoln.
It talks about, yeah, but that's, I want to go back and read how, how was he perceived before his achievements, before the Civil War?
And so says, Abraham Lincoln comes into the depiction in the late 1850s.
but he's referred to as a baboon or a giraffe,
and they make a lot of caricatures of him,
so he's criticized.
No one takes him seriously at this time.
It's impossible to conceive
that he would become the father figure that he is today.
You wonder how people so united by a geography
and religious ideals can become such bitter enemies.
It all makes you feel creepy.
The age that I was living in didn't resemble this age,
but yet it did in some mysterious and traditional way.
Not just a little bit, but a lot.
You could see the full complexity of human nature.
And then this sentence is so important.
It's like, why you read all the time?
It's like, man, me and you can be talking about something today.
You might hear an idea in a podcast or a book today.
You don't even use for 10 years.
Bob Dylan hits it exactly right here.
He says, I cram my head full as much of this stuff as I could,
and I locked it away my mind out of sight.
I left it alone.
I figured I could send a truck back for it later.
He continues to study all these historical figures.
He starts studying Beethoven.
I learned that Beethoven had been a child prodigy,
and he had been exploited by his father,
and that Beethoven distrusted all people
the rest of his life.
Even so, that didn't stop him from writing symphonies.
He's still studying the greats.
So now he's starting going back to musicians.
He's studying Hank Williams.
I didn't have to experience anything that Hank did
to know what he was singing about.
I learned later that Hank had died in the backseat of a car
on New Year's day.
I kept my fingers crossed.
I hope it wasn't true, but it was.
It was like a great tree had fallen.
Hearing about Hake's death
caught me squarely on the shoulder.
The silence of outer space never seemed so loud.
This is just crazy, beautiful language.
When I hear Hank sing, all movement ceases.
The slightest whisper seems sacrilege.
In time, I became aware that in Hank's recorded songs
were the archetype rules of poetic songwriting.
Remember, Bob Dylan, it's probably referred to
as maybe the greatest songwriter of all time,
and he's just like, hey, I just studied Hank.
These are Hank's rules.
I became aware that in Hank's recorded songs
were the archetypes rules of poetic songwriting.
The architectural forms are,
are like marble pillars, and they had to be there.
You can learn a lot about the structure of songwriting
by listening to his records,
and I listened to them a lot and had them internalized.
In a few years' time,
the folk and jazz critic for the New York Times
would review one of my performances,
and he would say,
Dylan breaks all the rules in songwriting
except that of having something to say.
The rules, whether that critic understood it or not,
were Hank's rules.
And then he ends this section of his life.
just asking and then essentially answering, like, how do you know you're on the right track?
Right? March was coming in like a lion and once more I wondered, what it would take to get into a
recording studio to get signed by a folk record label? Was I getting any closer? The future was nothing
to worry about. It was awfully close. And so to me, that first part, that first sentence where it's like,
hey, I've been here for months. I'm wondering, how do I get into a recording studio? Right. How am I going to
get signed. That is Bob Dylan from the perspective when he's 20 years old, right? And then he ends
at the end of that sentence to me is almost like he flipped to the older Bob Dylan, almost like he's
talking to like the younger version of himself because he knows the outcome. And how does it,
how does that sense his end? The future was nothing to worry about. It was awfully close.
And so then this is where he's fast forward's nine years into the future, skips over the apex of his
fame, and he starts this chapter with his father's funeral. The previous week had left me drain.
I'd gone back to the town of my early years in a way I could never have imagined to see my father laid to rest.
Now there would be no way to say what I was never capable of saying before.
Growing up, the cultural and generational differences had been insurmountable.
He's talking about this complicated relationship that he had with his father.
The fact that he had greatly admired his father, I think he says later on that his father might be worth a hundred of him,
but he had a hard time relating to each other.
My father, who was plain speaking and straight talking, and at once said, isn't an artist a fellow who paints,
when told by one of my teachers that his son had the nature of an artist,
it seemed I'd always been chasing after something,
anything that might lead me into a different place,
some unknown land downriver.
I had not even the vaguest notion of the broken world I was living in.
When I left home, it was like Columbus going off into the desolate Atlantic.
I had done that and had been to the ends of the earth,
and now I was back.
And so that's super important because essentially what he's talking about.
I left this town 10 years ago in search of the end.
of that dream. I am now on the other side of that dream. I have had experienced things.
Very few humans ever will that have ever had this set of experiences that I've had. And now I'm back
to where my life started. And I'm laying to rest my father. And they had the goes back to this
complicated relationship now that his father's gone. In the short time I was home, it all came back
to me. The older order of things. But something else did too. That my father was the best man in the
world and probably worth a hundred of me. But he didn't understand me. We had more.
more in common now than ever. I too was a father three times over now. There was a lot that I wanted
to share and to tell him. So that part becomes devastating when you're reading this. It's just like,
we have so much more in common. I'm older. I get to, now I can understand your perspective.
There's so much that I want to talk to you about. But the ability to talk to his father is gone
forever. And so this chapter is supposed to be about him trying to make this album new morning.
but it's really about the price of fame and essentially Bob Dylan trying to run away from being Bob Dylan.
The truth was that I wanted to get out of the rat race, having children changed my life and segregated me from just about everybody and everything that was going on.
Outside of my family, nothing held any real interest for me, and I was seeing everything to a different glasses.
Even the horrifying news items of the day, the gunning down to the Kennedys, of Martin Luther King, of Malcolm X,
I didn't see them as leaders being shot down, but rather as fathers whose families had been left,
Woongate. He's talking about the transformation. People that don't have kids don't even
understand the change that happens until you have children. Not seeing this as leaders being
assassinated, but those fathers whose families had been left wounded. I didn't belong to anybody
then or now. I had a wife and children who I loved more than anything else in the world and I was
trying to provide for them to keep them out of the trouble. But the press kept promoting me as the
mouthpiece, the spokesman, or even a conscious of a generation. This is very fascinating. His
response to this. Remember, I do think he's...
his, how would I put this?
When Steve Jobs says the older, he gets the more important,
he thinks people's motivations matter
and understanding why they're doing what they're doing
is really important to understand.
It's like, I just made the songs that spoke to me,
that came through me, I was doing this for me.
I cannot control the reaction to the outside world.
And so Bob Dylan talks about this.
He goes, that was funny.
All it ever done was sing songs
that were dead straight and expressed powerful new realities.
I had very little in common with
and knew even less about a generation
that I was supposed to be the voice of.
Being true to yourself, that was the thing.
I was more of a cowboy than a pied piper.
And again, that's something you're going to repeat over and over again,
just like he told Steve Jobs many years later.
I made songs for me.
They just came through me.
It wasn't even like I was having to compose them.
So this idea is like, hey, I'm just being true to myself.
And because I was true to myself, it resonated with other people.
But then all the other interpretations, all the building up with the press,
that's your thing.
That has nothing to do with me is what Bob Dylan is saying there.
And what would be surprising about this book is, you know, he's one of the greatest people to ever do.
He got to the top of his profession.
How many times he thought about fantasized, about quitting, about running away of just the pressure just getting to him and him trying to run away.
He spent a lot of time, you know, in nature.
He winds up buying this, I think, like, 63 foot sailboat and essentially like cruising around the Caribbean with just his family and kind of isolating himself in the world.
But again, he's just having this inner monologue, this fantasy of like no longer being Bob Dylan.
And so he says, I don't know what everybody else is fantasizing.
about what I was fantasizing about was a nine to five existence, a house on a tree line block
with a white pick of fence, pink roses in the backyard. That would have been nice. That was my deepest
dream. After a while, you learn that privacy is something you can sell, but you can't buy it back.
And so he's continued to make music at this time because he likes to make music. But he's also
wrestling with, hey, I may never, you go to like some of the best work that he ever did
happened early in his career. And he's like, I may never create work that good again. And the crazy
point at this life, or at this point in his life, when he's struggling with all this, he's like,
I don't even care if I ever do. And so he writes, the novelist Herman Melville's work went largely
in notice after Moby Dick. Critics thought that he had crossed a literary line and recommended
burning Moby Dick. By the time of his death, he was largely forgotten. I had assumed that when
critics dismissed my work, the same thing would happen to me, that the public would forget about me.
I owed nobody nothing.
I wasn't going to go deeper into the darkness for anybody.
My family was my light and I was going to protect that light at all costs.
What did I owe the rest of the world?
Nothing.
Not a damn thing.
In my real life, I got to do the things that I love the best and that mattered to me the most.
And so he's talked about this point in his life.
Little league games.
Birthday parties.
Taking my kids to school.
Going on camping trips.
Boating,
rafting, canoeing, fishing.
It talks about being in nature a lot.
In fact, I don't remember if I, uh, this, this part is in the podcast or not,
but anytime he has a problem, he's just like, I have to get out into the outdoors.
It's like when I'm too lost in my own head, I'm too tied up in my own world.
I need to be reminded that I'm just a small part of something much larger and bigger than me.
I thought that was really good advice.
I was living on record royalties sometimes in the past, this is a very fascinating.
I was living on record royalties.
Sometime in the past, I had written and performed songs.
that were most original and most influential,
and I didn't know if I ever would again, and I didn't care.
And so it's around this time.
There's all these, like, great, like, random tangents.
You think about the greatest conversations you've ever had in your life,
it's like they're not linear, they don't follow like a predictable pattern.
They go off on these weird tangents and kind of these crazy stories that happen over a few minutes.
The book is kind of like you're having this rambling conversation with Bob Dylan.
And so around this time, Princeton is going to give him an honorary degree.
He decides to accept it, and he convinces the singer David Crosby.
to come with him. And his description of his friend just makes me laugh. And so he says,
early in the week, we had gotten back from Princeton where I'd been given an honorary doctor degree.
It had been a weird adventure. Somehow had motivated David Crosby to come along. Crosby was a
colorful and unpredictable character. He wore a cape, didn't get along with too many people,
and had a beautiful voice. He was an obstrefous companion. So I had to look up that word,
and it means noisy and difficult to control. And so then he tells the story of him and Crosby,
going into Princeton. He says, we pulled off Route 80, found the university on the hot and cloud this day.
In short time, the officials led me into a crowded room, put me in a robe, and soon I was looking
out over a crowd of well-dressed people. When my turn came to accept a degree, the speaker
introduced me said, how I had distinguished myself. And so this is what the speaker says.
Though he is known to millions, he shuns publicity and organizations preferring the soliditary
of his family and isolation from the world. He remains the authentic expression of the
disturbed and concerned conscious of young America. Bob had just been talking about in his life.
He's like, you guys are trying to make me the voice of a generation. I'm just making songs
that speak to me. I don't want your labels. I don't want to be responsible for anybody else.
And so this is, this part kind of makes me laugh. When you read it, because you just got through,
you know, this is, I'm telling you, just these notes and highlights, right? He's like,
this goes on for quite a bit of him just struggling with this and trying to reject this.
And so he's sitting on stage. He's dressed in a robe, looking.
out and he hears the way that the speaker is introducing him. And then he shares with us his inner
monologue at the time. And he goes, oh, sweet Jesus. It was like a jolt. I shuddered and trembled and trembled.
This is exactly what he spent the entire chapter saying, I don't want this. It's making my life
miserable. Oh, sweet Jesus. It was like a jolt. I shuddered and trembled but remained expressionless.
The disturbed conscious of young America. There it was again. I couldn't believe it.
Tricked once more. The speaker could have said many things. He could have emphasized
I just do you think,
I said a few things about my music.
And he goes, this is the funny part,
this is probably what made me laugh.
He goes, I was so mad I wanted to bite myself.
And then he ends the story.
After whispering and mumbling my way through the ceremony,
I was handed the degree.
We piled back into the Buick and drove away.
It had been a strange day.
And then at the very end of the chapter,
he actually gets to the point of the chapter, right?
Which is, I am making this album.
And he's, there's a lot of times in his life
where he just realized, like,
he's too lost in his own head.
He can only control what he wants to control.
You have to just let go.
Just go back to the work.
Like there's different times.
He's still writing songs in, let's say, decade one of his career.
He's still writing songs maybe decade five.
He's still performing.
He's doing all these things.
There is going to be a natural album flow of the quality.
It's like he's not going to maintain the best work he ever had for five decades.
But that doesn't mean you stop.
I think that's one of the most important things you take away from this book.
And so Bob writes about this.
I recorded some stuff.
At least these songs wouldn't make any headlines.
Messed songs, there weren't anybody.
Anybody listening for them would have to be disappointed.
When will the old him be back?
They would ask.
Not today.
That my records were still selling even surprised me.
But there was some good songs and maybe there weren't.
Who knows?
But they weren't the kind where you hear an awful roaring in your head.
I knew what those kind of songs were like and these weren't them.
It's not like I didn't have any talent.
I just wasn't feeling the full force of the win.
I was listening to some of the playbacks and he sounded okay, but it wasn't great.
some critics would find the album to be lackluster oh well others would triumph it i took that as a good sign
all this happened in what critics would later refer to as my middle period okay so then this is where
now he's he's going to jump the next chapter takes place 17 years after the last story at this point
he's 46 years old he's lost he's broken down and you start reading through this section
and I didn't
the very first time I read the book
because I read this book
for the first time
I don't know like five years ago
I didn't know
like if he ever stopped
right
and I knew he was still performing
but I didn't know if he was still writing
and knew what he was doing
and so it's during this time
where I'm like oh wait
I think this is the closest
he ever got
there's an alternative
history where Bob Dylan
at 46 says you know
no more performing
no more I'm done with this
and it would be at this point in the book
where I think we finally like break
and say hey you know what
I had a 26-year, or 27-year run.
That's good enough. I'm done.
Because this is the closest he ever gets to quitting.
And he's talking about just being trapped in his own head.
Always prolific, but never exact.
Too many distractions had turned my musical path into a jungle of vines.
I had been following established customs and they weren't working.
The windows had been boarded up for years and covered with cobwebs,
and it's not like I didn't know.
The previous 10 years had left me pretty whitewash and wasted out professionally.
Many times I'd come near the stage before a show
and would catch myself thinking that I wasn't keeping my word to myself.
I had single-handedly shot myself in the foot too many times.
It's nice to be known as a legend and people will pay to see one,
but for most people once is enough.
I hadn't actually disappeared from the scene, but the road had narrowed.
There was a missing person inside of myself and I needed to find him.
I did try a few times, tried hard to force it.
In nature, there's usually a remedy for everything,
and that's where I'd usually go hunting for it.
This is what I mentioned earlier.
Think things out, but it was no use.
I felt done for, an empty, burned out wreck.
Too much static in my head, and I couldn't dump the stuff.
I'm in the bottomless pit of cultural oblivion.
I'd been on an 18-month tour with Tom Petty.
It would be my last.
I had no connection to any kind of inspiration.
Whatever was there to begin with had all vanished and shrunk.
Tom was at the top of his game, and I was at the bottom of mind.
my own songs had become strangers to me.
I couldn't wait to retire.
The mirror had swung around and I could see the future.
An old actor fumbling in garage cans outside the theater of past triumphs.
And this is where he is saved by an old jazz singer.
So in between breaks from Toppedi, he's supposed to be playing a couple shows with the Grateful Dead.
He's with them right now.
They're practicing.
And they're like, hey, Bob, why don't we do some of your own song, old songs?
And Bob's like, yeah, okay, I forgot something in my hotel.
And he walked out saying, oh, I'll be right back.
And he was planning on never returning and literally ending his career right then.
He couldn't take anymore.
And I think the main lesson in this entire section is that instead of running away,
you have to find ways to get out of your own head.
And so we pick up the story where he just walked out and said, hey, I'll be right back.
I forgot something at the hotel.
I wasn't planning on going back.
I started out at the street.
Maybe four or five or six blocks went by.
And then I heard the sounds of a jazz combo playing up ahead, walking past the door of a tiny bar.
Now, this is really fascinating. He's stumbling on a tiny bar of these amateur musicians trying to play to a crowd of almost nobody. Think about what's happening. 27 years in his past. This is the exact kind of place that he started his own career. I looked in and saw that the musicians were playing. There were just a few people inside. It looked like the last stop on a train in nowhere. Something was calling to me to come in and I entered. I got within four feet of the stage and just stood there. I ordered a genitonic and faced the singer. He was an older man. They played jazz.
ballads. The singer wasn't very forceful, but he didn't have to be. He was relaxed, but he sang
with natural power. Suddenly, without warning, it was like the guy had an open window to my soul.
It was like he was saying, you should do it this way. All of the sudden, I had understood
something faster than I'd ever did before. I knew where the power was coming from, and it
wasn't his voice. I used to do this thing, I'm thinking. It was a long time ago, and it had been
automatic. No one had ever taught me. This technique was so
elemental, so simple, and I'd forgotten it. It was like I'd forgotten how to butt in my own pants.
I wondered if I could still do it and I wanted to try. It's caused us him to run back to where he thought
he was never going to go back. He goes back to the rehearsal hall where he's doing, where he's
practicing with the Grateful Dead. He says, I could not wait to get started. I wanted to see if I
could sing using the same method that the old singer used. At first, it was hard going, like drilling
through a brick wall. All I could taste was dust. But the
then miraculously, something internal came unhinged. In the beginning, all I could get out
was a blood-choked, coughing grunt, and it blasted up from the bottom of my lower self.
And this is the main point. But it bypassed my brain to get out of your own head. It burned,
but I was awake. This was revelatory. I played these shows with the Grateful Dead and never
had to think twice about it. I had that old jazz singer to think. And so that idea of taking a break,
getting out of your own mind, something that appears over and over again seems to be very useful
to Bob Dylan in his career. And after that, he's like, okay, I'm going to make great music again.
And so he starts writing a bunch of songs for the first time, first time in over like 10 years.
He's just writing, writing, writing. And Bono from YouTube is going to come over for dinner at his
house and connect. He's going to read these lyrics. But I got to read Bob Dylan again, in just like a few
sentences can tell an entire story. So he wants to describe to the reader what dinner with
Bono is like. One night, Bono, the singer from YouTube, was over for dinner with some other friends.
Spending time with Bono was like eating dinner on a train. It feels like you're moving, going somewhere.
Bono's got the soul of an ancient poet, and you have to be careful around him. He can roar till
the earth shakes. He's also a closet philosopher. He bought a case of Guinness with him.
We were talking about things that you talk about when you're spending the winter with somebody.
Bono says things that can sway anybody. And so towards the end of the dinner,
Bono's like, hey, do you have any new songs? Do you have any new music? And Dylan goes and pulls out all these
compositions that he wrote. And like, Bono's looking over them, reading them. He's like, hey, these are
really good. I have a producer that you should go work with. And so Dylan is going to work with the producer
that Bono recommends. And they set up shop and they're going to record a new album together in this
mansion in New Orleans. And during this process, in some cases, they're making great music.
but there's other times when they're making this album
that Bob Dylan feels lost
and so I just want to read the story that takes place
because it goes back to this idea
of him finding ways to get back on track
he feels that he's lost he's not doing well
he might sit with that for a little bit
and he's like okay I gotta do something about this
and most of it's like movement doing something else
just not sitting wall on right
I was up early and rooted my wife out of bed
daylight was still two hours away
what's wrong now she said
I hadn't thought that anything was wrong
within minutes she had slipped out of her loose robe
and was making coffee. By daybreak, we were riding on the Harley and had crossed the Mississippi
River heading towards Roat 90. No purpose in heading there. It was just a place to go. I was feeling
stuffy. I needed to get out of town. Something wasn't clicking, like when the world is hidden from
your eyes and you need to find it. I parked the bike close to an old water tower. We got out and
walked around. It felt good to be off by ourselves. I looked at my wife. The one thing about her that
I always loved was that she was never one of these people who thinks that someone else is the answer
to their happiness, me or anybody else.
She always had her own built-in happiness.
I valued her opinion, and I trusted her.
We pulled in for the night, and I shut the bike down.
It was a nice ride.
We stayed at a bed and breakfast cottage.
I laid down, listened to the crickets, and the wildlife out the window in the early blackness.
I like the night.
Things grow at night.
My imagination is available to me at night.
All my preconceptions of things go away.
Sometimes you could be looking for heaven in the wrong places.
This is such an interesting idea.
my imagination is available to me at night.
All my preconceptions of things go away.
Sometimes you could be looking for heaven in the wrong places.
Sometimes it could be under your feet or in your bed.
Next day I woke up.
I felt like I had figured something out.
And so they wind up finishing the album.
And then there's just this random conversation that happens
towards the end of the chapter that I really, really enjoyed.
And I thought it was really, really valuable.
So he's talking to this producer.
The producer's name is Danny.
And Danny's like, hey, what other music you're like?
listening to. And Danny's actually shocked when he hears what Bob Dylan had been listening to. This is in
the 80s. And so I'm going to read my note first, and then I'll read the section to you. And I think I'll
make sense in that order. It says, somebody different was bound to come along sooner or later. Bob Dylan
knows that because at one time that somebody different was him. And so Danny's like, okay, you know,
who have you been listening to recently? And he says, I told him, iced tea. He was surprised,
but he shouldn't have been.
Ice tea, public enemy, NWA, run DMC.
This is Bob Dylan describing who he's listening to, right?
These guys definitely weren't standing around bullshitting.
They were beating drums, tearing it up, hurling horses over cliffs.
They were all poets and knew what was going on.
Somebody different was bound to come along sooner or later,
who would know that world, who had been born and raised with it,
be all of it and more.
He'd be able to balance himself on one leg on a tightrope
that stretched across the universe
and you would know him when he came.
There would only be one like him.
He'd be doing it with hard words
and he'd be working 18 hours a day.
Again, I love that part.
I just want to reread my note again.
Somebody different was bound to come along
sooner or later.
Bob Dylan knows that
because at one time, that was him.
So that album is finished.
Bob Dylan gets to the last chapter.
Okay, and this is, he really does write
like he wants to make sure you're paying attention.
You have to fill a lot of this,
you have to fill in a lot of this stuff for yourself
because we're at the very end of the book.
And this is now a flashback
to when his father was still alive,
even though this is the last chapter of the book.
So it says, my father had his own way of looking at things.
To him, life was hard work.
He'd come from a generation of different values, heroes, and music,
and wasn't so sure that the truth would set anybody free.
He was pragmatic and always had a word of cryptic advice.
remember Robert in life anything can happen even if you don't have all the things you want
be grateful for the things you don't have that you don't want I was doing my best I had to
thoroughly feel that I was earning my fee nothing could have convinced me that it was actually
a songwriter and I wasn't not in the conventional songwriter sense of the world so
thing it's going back this is before record deal before he'd even written his first
song. We are now back to the Bob Dylan that is trying to be signed, that is trying to achieve
his life dream. And we get to one of the, the, part of the turning point of his life is when he's
first introduced into Woody Guthrie, which is go back to the very beginning, where he's hitchhiking.
He's like, I got to get out of Minnesota. I got to get to Woody Guthrie. I've got to find this guy.
And so, uh, so he says, as far as serious songwriting went outside of Woody Gutry, I didn't say
a single soul who did it. The one song that had hooked me up with Lee,
music, which is how we started the book, how we started the podcast, right? The one that
had convinced John Hammond to bring me over there in the first place was an homage and lyric and melody
to the man who had pointed out the starting place for my identity and destiny, the great
Woody Gushy. That's a crazy sentence. This is the one man who had pointed out the starting
place for my identity and destiny, the great Woody Gucci. I wrote the song with him and mine
and I used the melody from one of his old songs, having no idea. It would be the first of maybe
a thousand songs that I would write. My life had never been the same since I first hood Woody on
a record player in Minneapolis a few years earlier. When I first heard him, it was like a million
Megatron bomb had dropped. And then he goes back and gives you the prehistory of why he was so
obsessed. This is when he's, it's around college, but I don't think he ever went to school.
I think he dropped out. I even know if he took a single class. He says, I found a local record
store. What I was looking for were folk records. This is when he locks himself in those
booths that you could just listen to and he would just stay there over and over again for hours and
hours and hours. Then he says, then I'd go further up the street and drop into a coffee house.
So coffee houses where a lot, where a lot of folk musicians were first start playing.
Okay, this is before he gets to New York. I was looking for players with kindred pursuits.
The first guy I met in Minneapolis, who was just like me was sitting around in there.
It was John Conner. So John, another folk musician is playing at this coffee house, okay?
Performers like John and myself would go anywhere to where anybody we thought we hadn't heard
before. I was beginning to feel like a character from within these songs, even beginning to think
like one. I played morning, noon, and night. That is all I did. I usually fell asleep with my guitar
and my hands. I went through the entire summer that way. And so this part of the book is, again,
how bad do you want it? How bad do you want to chase after and achieve the dream that you have for your
life? We already know what he wants to know. He knows without a doubt. I'm going to be a folk
musician. I'm going to sing and write songs. And so he says, by this time, I was making three to five
dollars every time I played at either a coffee house or a pizza parlous. This is what I mean.
Again, how bad do you want it?
This guy is doing shows at a pizza parlor.
This is the same person later in his life.
He's going to sell 125 million records.
But first, you got to play the pizza parlor.
The place I was living in was no more than an empty storage room
with a sink and a window looking into an alley,
no closet, and a toilet down the hall.
I put a mattress on the floor.
I'm in an actress, an inspiring thespian named Flo.
Flo was odd-looking, but beautiful in a wacky way.
She had long red hair, dressed in black from head to foot,
and she had a folksy demeanor.
She was a mystic. She believed in the occult powers of trees and things like that.
She was also very serious about reincarnation. We used to have strange conversations.
One day she asked me if I ever heard of Woody Gutry. I said, sure. I had heard him on all
these other records with these two other musicians. Then she asked if I ever heard him all by himself
on his own records. I couldn't remember having done that. Flo said that her brother had some of
his records and she would take me over there to hear them. That Woody Gutry was somebody that I should
definitely get hip to. Something about this sounded important and I became interested. When the record
started to play, I was stunned. I didn't know if I was stoned or straight. What I heard was Woody singing
a whole lot of his own compositions all by himself. All these songs made my head spin. It made me want
to gasp. I couldn't believe it. He had such a grip on things. He was like none of the other
singers I had ever heard and neither were songs. It was like the record player itself had just
pick me up and flung me across the room. A voice in my head said, so this is the game.
A great curiosity had seized me and I had to figure out who Woody Guthrie was. It didn't take
me long. My friend Dave happened to have Woody's autobiography bound for glory and he lent it to me.
I went through it from cover to cover like a hurricane, totally focused on every word and the book
sang out to me like the radio. Gutry writes like the whirlwind and you get tripped up on the
sound of the words alone. Pick up the book anywhere, turn to any page, and he hits the ground running.
Who is he? He's a hustling ex-sign painter from Oklahoma, an anti-materialist who grew up in the
depression and Dust Bowl days. Migrated West, had a tragic childhood, a lot of fire in his life,
both figuratively and literally. Woody's got a fierce, poetic soul. He divides the world between
those who work and those who don't, and is interested in the liberation of the human race and
wants to create a world worth living in. Bound for Glory is a hell of a book. I decided then and there
to sing nothing but Guthrie's songs. It's almost like I didn't have a choice. I said to myself,
I was going to be his greatest disciple. I wasn't even sure if he was alive anymore. The book makes
it seem like he was a character from the old past, but my friend put me up to date on him,
told me that he was in ill health somewhere in the east, and I pondered that. One thing for sure,
Woody Guthrie had never seen nor heard of me, but it felt like he was saying,
I'm going to be going away, but I'm leaving this job in your hands.
I know I can count on you.
It was time for me to get out of Minneapolis.
New York City was the place I wanted to be.
With only a few tattered rags and a suitcase and guitar,
I stood on the edge of town and hitchhike east to find Woody Guthrie.
Although I might have been slack in a lot of things, my mind was ordered and disciplined.
New York City, midwinter, 1961.
Whatever I was doing was working out okay,
and I intended to stay with it.
I felt like I was closing in on something.
And that is where I'll leave it.
That is 429 books down, 1,000 to go,
and I'll talk to you again soon.
