Garza Podcast - 137 - 1ST SOLO EPISODE

Episode Date: August 13, 2024

Garza sits down for the 1st ever solo EP. Answering fan questions, the reason he destroyed his guitars on tour, new favorite pizza & much more! SPONSORS: Click this link to purchase from Sweetwater & help support the podcast: imp.i114863.net/rnrmVB

Yo, what's up everybody? Welcome to the first ever solo episode. It will be just me. It is past 10.50 at night on Sunday. Usually I'll be in bed getting ready for the week. However, what happened was a guest. Well, the podcast was already done. It was recorded.

It was uploaded the whole nine thumbnail done. but there was some scheduling issues to be honest i really don't understand what happened so i agreed to not put out the episode and uh so i'm here i am not prepared at all i was actually already planning to do a solo episode uh to drop next week so i was going to record this later on this week all nice and with my with the crew jays Zach or a Chris and make something cool but I think I will rather have an episode for for you and for just to prove it to myself so I do apologize for me not being exactly prepared but this was last second literally I found out I already have plans with

Ernie we're we're setting up we're setting up a new way to how do you say I don't want to give away too much but uh we're definitely doing things different uh it's new ways of jamming and writing and stuff um so i couldn't i couldn't cancel that so it's like uh so it's been a full day to be completely honest straight up with you i am exhausted um but it's all good i'm stoked to be here uh it's funny i wanted to I was kind of looking forward to this. I was like, oh, wow, I wonder how it's going to turn out. You know, I'll take, you know, get ready for it.

I'll do research. You know, I'll talk. Maybe I could talk with the team what we could talk about. And no, the life said, nope, you're going to do it right now. But, yeah, anyway, thank you for understanding. And I hope you enjoy this. What did I do this week? I saw

On Thursday I saw Aslaidine That was pretty sick People love People love that band They played in LA When I say L.A.

I mean L.A. I tend to Watch my back When I walk around Those certain areas But it was cool, man. It was fucking cool. A lot of people of that band.

They played a lot of deep cuts. I only saw three songs, so that's when I get tired. And I proceeded to go home. No, I lied. I went to hung out with Chelsea Grin. And I had a slice of pizza. And I'm not going to say the name yet. But it is my new.

It is my new. favorite pizza and it feels so good it feels so good to be older and growing up you're growing up and you're still enjoying things and finding new new favorite things of your favorite thing you know how cool that is so i found a new pizza um obviously getting really passionate and excited about this, um, which is silly, but a person shouldn't be to decide about

bread, cheese, and pepperoni. But anyway, uh, yeah, find a new slice of pizza that I love. Uh, I cannot, I will not say the name yet. Um,

um, I know, Sid, I know you're probably listening. I'm, I'm waiting for that kickback, but, uh,

I'll probably say it at some point, but, man, it is amazing. It's so, there's so many, I tell people that, okay, I'm a very simple person. I'm very simple. I like pizza. I like bean and cheese burritos. I do enjoy beer. And, you know, that's it. So, a new medal.

And that's a very simple guy. I could have a bean and cheese burrito every single day and not give a fuck and not as this I don't I don't get sick of my favorite things and I wonder if that's a commonality amongst

amongst most men I wonder it was just simple just fucking simple but anyway, I see now I'm already going on a rant about pizza, but anyway, I'm doing this backwards. We're going backwards. Anyway, this whole solo episode thing has been on my mind for some time.

I try to do this, but in other ways, when I have bands or when we have artists. or singer or guests. The main purpose is to get their story out there. So I really, I don't like, I don't prefer. I don't really enjoy putting myself out there. Because I know what it's like to have your story not out there. So it's all about them. So I was like, okay, now there's been after a hundred episodes.

There was an issue where, I wasn't really contributing to the conversation as much as I should and I really wasn't I wasn't really getting a chance to talk about myself because I really just don't want to you know this might be the only person

I'm talking to this person or band I don't know I don't know I'm pretty sure we've all seen bands and then a person died Oh wait, you're never going to see that band again You're never going to see that lineup ever again So I don't know When you hang out with someone you just don't know

So Yeah, try to get their story out there And then, okay, like this isn't working This is not working Okay, now the idea came to bring in Ernie And me and him say hanging out and doing episodes so I appreciate all you watch knows. And then that turned into,

I don't like to force things. I don't. I try to let that thing have its own way in life. So the episodes of Ernie kind of turned into what they are. We just basically sat down and then we just started talking to each other for an hour, hour 30. And that's, you know, I, enjoy it and I don't want to force anything else

you know and it's it's I expect this something from Erdian that was unfair of me to do in which is I was you know all right well he's not asking me any questions so now I'm kind of back to square one you know I'm just kind of I'm not really talking about myself it's this is when now we're just talk to shit to each other this is this is what this is and I think it's cool and I enjoy doing anything is special so we should hone in on that so okay

So that didn't work. And then we started Then we started the full band podcast, which was pretty crazy. There's a massive cockroach in here. That's sick. I am in Santa Ana. So he's hanging out.

Oh yeah, so it's just me in here. It's just me. This was two last minute. So my team currently is the cockroach. So that's cool. Anyway. So then we started the Suissehasaance podcast, which was,

been on my mind for a while to do. That could be something I talk more on. I could, you know, tell my story. I could, you know, say what's in my mind. I could say this and that. And then, of course, that turns into what it turned into. So I don't like, it really turned into, like, it just turned into, like, just turned into, like,

us hanging as a band and people really seeing who we are and what we're about and so obviously i'm not gonna you know force myself onto that i said okay well so that idea didn't didn't work um and then it really made it to where oh wow like i got it maybe this is what i've been afraid of maybe this is what it should have uh always been maybe it should have always been uh just me and sometimes we have to force ourselves just to we need to force ourselves just to think about what we feel it's hard to do that it's hard it's hard it's hard to create time to sit down and it's like you know what you know what do what I want you know so um and uh as life as I said earlier as life okay

I committed to it and then uh I had it had the dates and Life said, nope, you're doing it right now. You're literally doing it right now. So anyway, but I guess I'm not fully unprepared because I did, which thank you for submitting your questions and videos. I did have these saves. I'm okay, well, at least I have something. Thank God I didn't wait until the day before to do it, which is typically what I do to keep it. I don't know why I kind of...

Maybe it's kind of cool. Let's see what they are. So that kind of... Actually saved my ass. It was cool. When you drive at night, it's just a different... It's a different vibe.

It's down 11 p.m. I will be in bed right now. It was cool. If I'm trying to kill time, or if I want, like, white normal... I'll put on the podcast with a cat Williams where he's is going off he's just going off I don't know I don't know what it is there's like something to it where it just I don't know

it just clears my head it's just fuck it's fucking weird I'm not sure what it is about that one it's just I forgot many times I listen to it that's probably the number one episode I've ever listen to like the most i don't i don't know what what it is it's just like you could put it on and you're it's it's still funny you're still laughing and then i don't know you're just i come out with the clear head well i i don't i don't know what it is let's see what else did i do last week um Friday i took um i'm just going to jump from subject subject i'm learning as we go um Friday uh I took Leo, our cat, took him to the vet. Pretty sick.

He's eight years old, well, over eight years old. And it was time for his checkup because he almost died last year. That was a year ago, which was fucking wild. So he's healthy as fuck. He looks great. You know, very, very lucky. Remember what that was going down? I was like, you know, I, I, I pray.

I pray. I prayed. I was thinking like, you know, I was thinking a worst case scenario. It would pop in my head. I was like, what? Man, what if he did? What did something happen to him? Like, what did he go? Where does he go? You know, so those were kind of some thoughts I was having at that time sitting in the front yard, just looking at the sky. asking yourself these questions and I learned I learned from him just like the just taking shit for granted and just enjoying the stuff I'm like I was like

like just cleaning like shit out of the litter box was like became something that you missed I never thought once in my life that I would miss clinging piss and shit out of a box

but I found myself oh shit like this wouldn't be the last time I do this going home and clean up his stuff and it was a weird thought like man I was like

I was cleaning shit out of a litter box and I was missing it this is weird how we take shit for granted you know I've It's one of the biggest mistakes in my life. I do say that pretty often, though. It's like taking things for granted, regrets. You know, my thing is I make big mistakes in my life twice.

I don't know what it is. I don't know what, I think we're just wired that way, where we have to just, we make a mistake and then we do it again. I don't know what, I don't know what it is. I don't know what it is. Okay, I'm just to make, oh, I made this mistake. And I took, uh, I took music for granted twice. Um, yeah, when we got Eddie, that was like, because we're on like, we're on a third career.

We have like multiple careers. It's weird. But, uh, yeah, the whole time with Mitch, that was, uh, that was our first career and took that for granted. And then we, uh, with the help of all you, we accomplished the, uh, impossible and we got Eddie in there and it was seamless which Eddie got no credit for

but he worked his he worked his ass off like we toured just as hard as we were kids just starting it was like we started like starting over but also we maintained the slot that basically the whole industry

and thought was impossible and what and what did I do? I fuck it up and I took it for granted and um it wasn't as bad as the first time

but uh yeah this old old habits come back and you know booze kind of came back it wasn't nearly as bad as the first round but it was it was enough and I don't know

I was I was a weird kid especially when I was like a child just I was always like a late bloomer, it seems. But yeah, anyway, before I turn that into a rant, it's made the same mistake twice. It sucks.

And now I'm trying to do it a third time. It sucks. But anyway, I'm going on on another rant. This morning, I was watching the, Gertrero play the Olympics. Because yesterday, because we first talked. about it on the suey podcast on Thursday and then it's like shit all like all like the history um i always knew i i kind of sensed like the olympics were always a scam like you know i was

like who or where's all the money going you know especially you know i'm a musician i'm a guy in a band you know where is pretty used to seeing money just disappear um so we're talking about you know what i'm actually gonna fucking sit down and i'm gonna sit down and i'm gonna sit down and i'm gonna sit down this thing. So yeah, they had like this uh, it was, this intro. Really cool intro. Then the fucking music just kicks in. Um, obviously if you've seen it,

like there's the fire and the band comes in and like, I was like, it was a minute in. I don't know why. It's got fucking I don't know. I got emotional. Yeah, bands like Giora. They, it's only a few bands

like they just they're tapping as something else they're tapping as something else I don't know what it is you know primal I associate that with tool it's like you could play

you could play a tool when you're high you could play it when you're stoned you could play it when you're fucking drunk you could play it when you're hanging out with your homies you can play it when you're having a deep conversation with whoever is it just fits every like and they're and they're kind of well

I'm not sure what it was meticular about this song which I hope they put out you kind of have to put out that song right it's like you said even like because it's kind of in the background it's kind of like in like the background it'll be kind of cool to like

to fucking crank that what a that's like if it was anybody else it wouldn't have been that cool. Like if they got like Metallica Like it would, no one really would have cared You right? It's not like no

No distance to them but it's just like just It's like okay obviously you're gonna put them on Okay let's just Let's fucking move on but this there's something about France and them The The history It's sounding great

Like just One if you're Playing on the side of a castle chained to your platform. I mean, you can't... This is epic. Everything... I'm also fascinated in general

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Should we just, should we just hop into questions and just kind of see what happens? Let me take this. I got this monster beast trying to get me through the night, to be honest. Let's just go into

some questions. we got uh let's see we have four video questions all right this one's important so let's see well i think of volume is very important right okay very important question dominoes or landpost and that's actually really important sim dog millionaire this is actually my one of my best friends, Alex Zimmer. Shout out. That's a tough one. It's on occasion. It's on occasion because

delivery I think Domino's trumps everybody. They want to sit down and hang out and have a beer and vibe and talk about talk shit or talk about

life. Lappos But as we were talking about earlier The game has changed I do have new favorite pizza That I'm not gonna say the name yet Until we make some kind of deal I'm gonna hold out

I'm gonna be a smart businessman Anyway Alex Zimmer thank you for your Video question I really appreciate that Okay now I'm gonna use Also when you play it Right here we go Hi Chris, it's John from Scotland here.

What is your best advice to anyone looking to get into doing podcasts? I myself have a podcast on my YouTube channel Sir Edward. I'm at 11 episodes. What is your best advice for someone that's getting into it? Thank you again. Much love. Cool, man. That's kind of a tough one.

sometimes when like someone will ask you if uh should i should i start a band you know i just tell no it's it's it's amazing but it also is terrible and sucks at the same time it's the highest the highest lows of of the lows but to your question um i mean this goes with anything i mean consistency there was a i paid um this because i really I really wanted to meet him. If you don't know, I'm very, I'm very inspired by comedians. I'm here because comedians. I'm not here because of a band.

You know, the music scene has been kind of stagnant as far as like metal, as far as I'm. I'm concerned. I know a lot of people will disagree with that, but behind the scenes is definitely that way. but I've been pretty fascinated with comedians for quite some time. I'm obviously inspired by Joe Rogan, Theo Vaughn, a fighter and a kid. I mean, those podcasts have been favorites of mine. All of them that have podcasts. Tom, Tom Seguro, Bert Kreischer, Andrew Santino, Andrew Schultz.

I mean, you name it. I mean, just to see what they've all done. with with uh with their art has really they couldn't be my North Star um but anyway um you know again I'm a big fan of fighter and a kid and um

so Brandon Shaw was uh he was doing stand-up in Brea which over here is kind of like a Braia is not too far from here um It's not in between here and where I live, but it's a little out of the way, but it's kind of in like a, excuse me, what would you say? It was kind of not rich, but money, I guess you say, money, right? And anyway, I was like, you know, me and my woman went and I signed up for a meeting, great.

I paid it for it. And I was like, I really wanted to meet him. And I learned throughout my career in suicide silence that, you know, there's so many times that, so many moments that I just didn't, I just didn't take advantage of because of my insecurities or lack of confidence. Anyway, so I didn't want to make those same mistakes again. So you know what, dude, I want to meet him, but I don't want to meet him as. a fan you know it's like I kind of you know I'll do the meet and greet just a and I had questions ready to ask him it was like it was quick he was really he was fucking cool guy man it was you know he looks you know I made he made time to hang out with you and um massive line and uh and uh yeah basically it's a similar question to to your question uh you know you have any advice of coming in podcast and then you said consistency and that word has um the meaning of that word has grown um to me and consistency is very it is hard it it separates you from the rest you know you know we're at episode

1137 this is 137 you know I wouldn't imagine this is 137 me uh in a room alone with the cockroach you know it's you know but I I I we got to get the episode out that's so important it has it has to come out um you know people be allowing you um to be there every week so uh I will start with uh sits and see and I think that's a good word because it's not really advice you know,

it's just something that you have to do because also if you if you do anything less than if you do anything less than a week there's just something something's missing like you'll never

get to the next level of your of your thoughts or conversation flow or um it's just it's just something's missing

when you don't do it every week you know I try I try it once every two weeks and it felt like a hobby you know and then I'll leave you with this which is this will probably

be an ongoing thing I talk about until this thing goes until I die or something but whatever you do but you have to devote everything you have

you devote your vote your bones your flesh your heart your soul i mean everything needs to go into it you know um you know i i you know i you're all watching and listening and downloading and so yeah i could sit here and see i don't give a fuck about the views but you know it does matter and uh i've been very fortunate but um you know i think i think you all can see And perhaps what I'm trying to convey, maybe feel the time that we've all put into this and that I've put into this, all the sacrifices and love. You know, this isn't a hobby for me. It's, I love doing it, you know, and sacrifice a lot.

And also, you know, I don't fucking know what I'm doing. It's a you know I learn from from from the goats You know I've I've consumed I've consumed So many hours So many hours of podcast

It kind of I kind of like that Like the end of Like how Spotify does Like the end of the What was it called wrapped Right? It's wrapped

I like that Because it tells you exactly what bands you listen to How with the songs the podcast and the hours. I'm like, damn, I listen to that motherfucker that much. Holy shit. You know, I've loved, I've loved podcasts.

So throughout the hours and the hours, you know, they've all dropped these gems, this gold. You know, the goats have said, you know, eat shit for four years. Don't sign shit. Don't. Eat shit. Don't make any money for four years.

And that's what I've been doing. That's what I've been doing. So, you know, I don't think I'm the best of giving advice. But I try to share experiences. Maybe that could help you or maybe that wouldn't help me. And then you could put your own spin on it, you know. Anyway, I'm not sure if that's going to. I'm not sure that helps or not.

But anyway, I think I really appreciate your time and your question. I really appreciate those that sent video questions. I got four of them and those were fucking sick. Let's see. I learned the last time. Buy him up first. All right, here we go. Next question.

Whoops. Well, that's why it's just me. I had it going. Are we ready? Garza, what's up, man? My name's Mitchell. I'm a front of house engineer. I am currently on tour right now. Here's the rig at the Love.

Stimper you was, when did suicide switch from van and trailer to a bus? Or I don't think bandwagon was around until like early 2010s. That was before my time. But still, when did suicide switch from van and trailer to a bus? Mitchell, thank you for your question, man. This whole fucking thing has been like, it's been me just talking about regret. But your first tour tour?

First tour, I think it was 2005. Full time, Thorne? It had to have been. I'm sorry, I guess I'm so used to like having Jay here or or or or the guys they would pull up Spray and disease Asher Parrish tour like they would pull it up

I'll be oh it's that but on the top of my head I would say 2005 and we got on the bus 2008 so fucking and that's a summer tour as well so six

three years that's three years right yeah three years so three years because the fucking no no

the band blew up so then we got that mayhem tour and we heard that summer tours are undoable outside summer tours are undoable so yeah we got a bus

and it was pretty sick and then we had a fall tour with a mirror and we got a bus again and when I look when I look back at that

I wish we didn't I wish we kind of held yeah because all the money goes towards the transportation it still does technically I mean

oh yeah this is so much money that went towards the fucking bus man I could have I could have pocketed that money or saved it

I was such an idiot fucking wasted so much money just trash but a mayhem was fine because I mean to some of tours you kind of have to and you're out there not necessarily playing in front

of your you're a crowd so you got to you know build but yeah Mitchell I mean good good luck man it's kind of hard to tell every band's so different genres are different times

why you know but for us it was a few years and I was with touring full time full time

you know psychopath just fucking jacking off in any a bathroom that you can find um you know that that kind of stuff and uh yeah

once we got the taste of it it was couldn't go back and that was a I regret along with my list of other regrets I have. But Mitchell, thank you for your question. My mom called me.

That's very sweet. I'm wondering what she wants. I'm going to get this one ready. Wait, this? No. Oh, I'm sorry. I got it. It's just me in here.

All right, boom. Last video question. Then we have more after. What up, Garza? I've been listening to the podcast for a long time. suicide silence fans and it's like fuck 2008

my question is on the tour where you were breaking all the guitars at the end of the set and fucking up Alex's drum set how much money

did you spend at the end of that tour in broken guitars and broken shit it was fucking awesome I enjoyed it fucking later brother thanks man

believe the name is Cody Cody 21 one three appreciate it um oh my goodness that was i need to have a drink before this one yeah those what year was that so yeah if you don't know there was there was we put out 2017 we put out a record didn't do too well but i didn't care care And then, um, anyway, okay, I guess there's a, there's a pre-story to what, uh, to his, to his answer. So I've always had this like, because, you know, we, we have social media.

So there's like, there's people posting shit and we, we, we, daily, we just see shit. And, um, and I noticed this thing with guitar players where, all they really want is to get as much free stuff as possible and I always thought that was really fucking lame like

how many free guitars can you get you know this is yeah then you post pictures of it and and all that but I always thought it was lame and uh because you're

it seemed like guitar players want they wanted the free gear to validate themselves as a guitar player or as an artist and yeah I always thought that was really lame

and what the sad part was I was that guy too you know you know I talked shit on bands like other guitar players that you know drank the Kool-Aid as as I say or as they say

but yeah I mean I know when bands drink the Kool-Lid because I know what it I know what it tastes like because I drank it. You know, it's an embarrassing part of my character. Um, that I'm, you know, I'm lucky to get out of. But, uh, yeah, you know, I was, I was that guy at once. I don't know, I never, I don't think I ever really, I never got him in my hands, though. I think a few times I might have asked a company, hey, I have, can I have, like, five guitars?

It's for like, no, no, no reason. There's no reason for that. And, uh, anyway. I was the person I was also becoming the person that I hated. So yeah, I realized that

this was a problem and I just, this was, this was also a time where death court was very stagnant. The scene was kind of like, I guess you could say even say dying.

Excuse me, there's no energy in it. And, yeah, I would say we just wanted to try something new and I, in order to kind of take the next step into music and our next chapter

and our and our careers, like man, we need, we don't know who we are anymore. We got lost somewhere. And, uh, the best decision we had at the time was this record that made us lose our money.

And, uh, yeah, I just, I just realized, I was like, who, who am I? Who am I? Because I do not like who I am. And I don't like. And I'm ashamed of the person that I see in the mirror. As an artist.

I mean, I don't know, I don't know what happened to that kid that used to play guitar. And, yeah, in high school. Yeah, he's got, I got really lost. the best decision at the time, which I don't, I don't regret doing it. And I was like, you know what?

Fuck all this shit. Everything. And just to prove my, I mean, I'm kind of like, I do go over the top of like proving my points sometimes and I do know that about myself. And the idea of popping my head.

It was an accident. It was an accident. I just started destroying on my shit. It just started destroying my shit. And then I did it a couple times. And then Alex started joining in. And then we started, we started our process.

I think we who were on? Oh, I think we're on tour Caliban. So this was in Europe. Was that the first tour we did when that record dropped? It might have been.

But there was a tour we did that I was the only guitar player with an amp. I think this was the one tour I think Mark, or the guitar player, obviously was experimenting with Kemper every band

had a campers and four bands I was the only guitar player on the whole package that had a two-amp I was like you know what this is really fucking lame and I think we were in someone's hometown and the way I roll

I'm you'll hear me say this a ton of times you know no hate but I'm a very competitive guy I'm very competitive and I'm very territorial. This is who I am. To my bone.

This is not a front. I'm a very territorial person. I'm highly competitive. But now I'm older. It's healthy. It's not like I'm not 19 anymore. And it's all like, fuck everybody.

And I'm insecure. I want everyone to succeed. But make no mistake. You know, I'm going to throw it down. Anyways, we're at the, we're at a band's hometown. And then, I just had this

I don't know it was not planned I was just the last song came on and I just fucking started destroying my guitar just no planned

it was a split not even a split second fucking emotion I had that ran through my body it wasn't even a thought it was just there was no mind um yeah i haven't thought about this in a long time

it was um shit i didn't expect this uh yeah it was just maybe uh yeah maybe that was like the first step of like really just uh yeah just the person that was lost just to come out you know just uh drowneded but yeah just uh this pure emotion that happened and then that else a few times else comes in and now we're now we're destroying drum sets now now we're destroying drum sets and and guitars

and uh now it's now it's spanning through multiple tours multiple tours and um yeah i would go to like if we're in a different country yeah we're going like like these little like um music chops and buy like cheapest thing in the air it's like fuck it and you buy like these kick drums that we would throw in the air i think think uh i think there was even like one of the best ones was in uh at russia and i think like the news sites man it'll be such a cool

time for trade to pull it up fuck um but yeah there like all the news sites put it up as like a mental breakdown it was a complete opposite i was finding myself and i didn't care what anyone thought about me and um

yeah it's this maybe in the outside I might look like a temper tantrum or immature or ungrateful, but it was the most pure thing I was doing. As far as as being an artist,

just doing what I used to do when I was a kid, just do what I think is cool. And it doesn't matter when anyone else thinks. No money, no nothing, no, just no opinions. Just

it's who I am and also at the time I was like reading I was I just read Pete Towns Pete Towns's book Kirkobane's book just guitar players I've admired

especially in like their rhythm aspect and in the rhythm world and anyway obviously there's at the end of a tour there's just a reality. Oh, now, now there's a fucking,

now there's a bill at the end. And that's a, it was big enough to where it's affecting our payouts. And you could, yeah, I'd meet the guys in the band. You know, it was, uh, I'm pretty surprised to let it go as far as it did. Maybe, maybe they knew it needed to happen. I don't know. Maybe they didn't even know or I don't know.

But yeah, there was a time. It was tens. So long story short, it was tens and thousands of dollars. Thousands of dollars. Thousands. Thousands. Keep in mind, this is also at a time where we're losing money. Not with the gear, but with the record that flopped.

I mean, we're not selling merch anymore. Our guarantees are lower. I mean, it would. And then on top of that, me and Alice are just throw me money away. And, um, but, uh, I didn't care. I felt like, I felt like this was going to take us where we need to go in the long run.

If we get through this, we're, we're going to get to where we want to be. And I'm going to get to where I need to be to write the best suicide sound shit. ever this is what I have to do that's it um you know I don't have I don't consider myself to have very many strengths as a human so when I do have one or find one I um I find myself expressing it um and this is one of them yeah this is if I have a little thought if I have a little fucking little vision or something I just I devote myself entirely into it and I got this vision of destroying

our gear for for the future of suicide sounds and also to find out who I am but man he was thousands and thousands of dollars and then naturally it kind of like naturally just kind of die off

just naturally and I was doing it less and less and I had a I had a scare in Atlanta What's that

Venet you call Buckethead The Buckethead? Atlanta, Georgia It's my birthday How old I All my All my only's

Trying to My brain is chain linking memories In real time right now I felt cool Like The drummer The 7 Dust comes out

And they're They're one of my favorite bands And I You know I jumped into the last song's done. You know what happened and then I jumped into

Alex's drum set and I got a little gash on my eye and uh, not to where a blood was coming out and I need I need stitches. But uh, I was like, oh it was like if you look, if you look at your eyebrow that's pretty damn close to your eye. So I was like, oh, I think

I think this is like another sign. I think this is like okay, you've think you made your point. I think you're on the right track. Whoever is talking to me or through me.

That's... Think, uh, think you're done. So that was kind of a close call. I'm out. I could have fucking... Took my eye out.

I could have... Oh my goodness. But yeah, that was a... What a time. But am I happy? Happen again. Not like a tour, but maybe like one, like, more like being like one or two times.

You know, that was fucking crazy. That was a, that was a crazy time. All right. So before I get, Cody, thank you for your question. You took me down memory lane. I mean, I thought about, I felt those emotions in a long time. Only should I have like nine prepared, nine writing questions. But before that, I had this raccoon in my backyard.

They kind of like, they always come out during summer. And I've seen kind of every variation of the summer. Like last summer was a family. It was like one big one and four really small ones all the time. There was a year where it was like six massive ones. It was like a family. Like a full grown family and this year it's one and this I don't want to miss gender this this raccoon obviously, but pretty sure it's a guy Um, like this raccoon has some balls like um um so he comes out around 8 p.m. He he hangs out.

but I have I take Leo outside to get fresh here and get some exercise but I don't want them outside when the no cun's out there because I don't I mean can you tell me I mean are however acunes around cats

what's their history like I don't know or even towards humans I don't are they aggressive would they attack you because this motherfucker it was okay so I took a fucking chair like a chair like a fucking

I was like looking at him And then I was like acting like I was gonna hit him And then I wasn't gonna hit him But I was like trying to scare him away I'm like And he'll back up and then come at me again I was like

Oh he can't be He can't be It's animated So like all right And then I put the chair down I let him like come up to me And like kind of sniff my hand I was like he gonna fucking bump my hand

Or like what the Super cool He says he likes to get up close And like oh this is different Oh no Do you Do you raccoons are they aggressive Do they attack cats? I mean what's their

What's their deal? I don't know much about a I just don't know a bunch about Raccoons He's just fucking he's just out being a fucking raccoon All right let's get to you a few questions And I think we're probably going to Close it off here

Okay First written question I think Angel I'm just spell this one out AX G-E-L G-X-D-I-N Angel

G-N I'm supposed to be ends Anyway You have a red picture Will Suey ever use Neural DSP Quad-Cortex I'm trying to figure out what I should say

So we did this was that the last you did? We went to Indonesia and there walks up we walk up

and there's martial hafstacks nothing in what I asked for which is fine but there's a certain amps that just

they just need time and if you're not a martial person you're not a martial person that's it you're not going to go up They get a good tone. It's just

The app means a lot of time And it used to be you If you're not Carrie King It's just What are we doing? You know? And yeah That was kind of like

The last straw You can say Um So anyway Fucking show Show is still sick And then I was like You know

I need to change I need a I need like Yeah I need some Something different So let's just say We've been talking

not only talking but we're walking we got a we've got something showing up tomorrow and um could be a quad cortex and I I hear they're very uh I hear they're very simple to use

I hear their interfaces user friendly I'm a very plug-in-in-play guy I don't like the waste time you know this is plug it in it's a sick great if it's not I don't want to

guitar players have a thing this is why I tend not to listen to guitar players because they tend to get which is why we all of them but they tend to get we tend to get too geeky with things where they're like it's just there's no point to this there's no point it's we're wasting time um but seems with the quad cortex uh seems very plug in and play get the sick-ass tone that you want top-notch shit so um yeah we'll see where this conversation goes in a few months from now But anyway, that day really opened up my mind. Like, really, like, we can't play a show this big and this important with the tone I have right now.

This is fucking, this is, fucking people, this might be the only time that some of these people ever see your band. It's just, good God. No, sorry. Anyway, yeah, thank you for your question. I wish I could... Okay, anyway, first of all, I'll see this once and that's it. I am not good with usernames. And what are we doing when we're making usurames?

Just put your fucking name, or... There's so many weird variations and order of words and letters. It's too much. Anyway. uh Logan Cruzen

Pre-show SS rituals slash warm-up routines Um Let's see Thank you for your question Logan Appreciate it

Pretty Uh pretty consistent Um We have something called power hour But I like to get dressed A little bit before an hour And just start playing some songs I just get like the

Just get the fingers going the hand going The fucking just ripping Like It could be any way It's been Ramones O-Tep Fear Factory

Slipknot Corn Dick Dale Led Zeppelin Um Us Through suesance in there Yeah there's something

Let's get the blood flow on Let's just get my fingers They had to build the relationship between my hand my fingers and the and the strings That or I'll be Warm up to a click this downpicking trem load is fucking practicing that way right right before I go on During that I like to drink some could be you IPA or

tequila get just get the head banging muscles ready to fucking throw down and that's it um been pretty consistent I like practicing a lot

or playing a lot because I think I suck so I just need to make sure I play decent so yeah that's the pre-show something I do kind of struggle with is I don't know if

Because sometimes I want to be alone But there's just always people around Always people around Sometimes you're sharing a dressing room It's like oh god It's just Sometimes you want to be alone You want to get in like the

The mental You want to get into the right mental space You want to get it in the right emotional state It's really hard where there's People around But also Also, to be honest, I'm still figuring it out. When I saw a cold chamber recently,

they kind of reminded me, oh, yeah, you got to get, yeah, you get in that zone. I'm kind of keeping themselves. And it's like, damn, I kind of wish. I'm kind of miss doing that. You know, just fucking skidding. Just getting in, it's getting in a zone. But yeah, it's definitely a lot of guitar playing. So, our next one.

Death Corps Dad 22. I really appreciate your name being easy. I just want to say that this is the way it should be. Anyway, if you can, could you describe the feeling you had to come up with the sound of death core? Wow, good. That's an interesting question. Describe the feeling. What was the feeling?

It's a really good question. That's going to take me a bit. I'm trying to not sit here for five minutes and not saying anything. Like, what was the feeling? I don't know. We always done, like, shit we wanted to do. Like, it was just always, like, definitely energy charged. It gets us all moving.

We just kind of, kind of swing with it. You know, just always trusted ourselves in what we liked. uh, it didn't matter what, uh, didn't matter if someone else liked her or not. It was, I don't know if I feel like, I don't know if this, it's right or I feel stupid or if I'm just ruining everything about music, but, um, you know, when you get older, you could kind of connect dots. Like, oh, you know, this is why this happens. Let me do this and you, you could also put words to feelings more, I find. Um, yeah. I think it's back in a dayless, I just don't know where that came from.

I was so sure of it. There's only been a few times in my life where I just, self-doubt just doesn't even fucking not a chance. From her early age, during that time, when it was like, more about the creation process, like, there was nothing.

There was, I'll say this a million times. So I died. There's no death core. You know, I didn't have like a, I don't know what else. I don't have a slaughter to be bail to listen to or watch. You know, I didn't have these bands. It was just, um, just, you know, alone in your room with your feelings and your own thoughts and your own opinions. It's on internet. Um, nothing to sway to you away from your ideas.

um it's just just you so i think back then you're definitely able to feel more without knowing i think that's kind of just hit me right now yeah just played what i felt you know back then it's really took uh was able to take feelings and emotions and turn him into his sound like those like let let the sound of the guitar i'll say it all the time

that's just it's who i am this is what i felt Without knowing It's just fucking really crazy To look back of those times Like the times that there's We're talking demos Those are like the craziest times We're like how what the

Like how do we do that? How did I even have like the I don't even know to do that Why? But it definitely felt right Everything everything felt right Everything was Nothing was forced

Everything was felt right nothing felt wrong nothing felt weird it just felt like it just felt like this is what we should be doing and this is what we want to do you know

yeah it's actually I mean that's a really interesting question it's really hard to answer I mean especially when we're talking about feelings and emotions it's really hard to put those experiences into words

it's really hard I wish I could I wish I could explain that better man I'm sorry but uh but man what a feeling it was what a trip

I'm what the time was to be to be a kid no uh sober no drinking no nothing those virgin a complete idiot um

man those uh those those interesting times one more I'm gonna do one more written question I'll try

okay again the usernames you know what you know what I think I got this one Dan Vennec Venikava

Dan underscore Venikava I'm sorry if I butchered that best OG metacora

albums of all the time um it's hard to you know what now none of that now that now i think of it i was never a big fan of metalcore it was small it was always it was like a certain few bands and a few records i'm like wow that's like special uh kill switch falls into that category very special band i remember when god forbid's gone forever came out was jamming that the first kill switch and second I'm shaming those they're not metalcore but he'll hate me

if I say this bleeding through is that metalcore right this is so just so extreme I mean we've ripped up bleeding through a lot um yeah Portia Brigottis that shit was bleeding through that shit was

gnarly uh yeah the uh the first kill switch special special record um as a day diner

they're they're just up there I mean those those records that went big I mean those are just special songs I truly think you know I just saw them too like fuck this is

man people love that band they're playing old cuts too which is really smart of them to do um I was thinking like wow this yeah Tim that dude is

the dude's a genius Tim is a genius and I see that in him when you gotta have those patterns those breakdowns people think

breakdowns are not easy to write they're not they are not especially the especially the easy ones like they're just not

they're not easy and when I hear I listen to like as a nine song you just just break down I have to break down their breakdown their breakdown I'm like dad how do you you can't just sit down and start doing that

like those patterns it's like come from somewhere else you know you know the best parts tend to come from your demons um should I do one more

if I see some let me uh I'll let you know if I see something right now I'm reading um okay I saw this question I'm like should I do this but honestly I don't think I honestly don't have the energy

I don't think I have energy captain dude creative said a challenge time how many push-ups can you do in a minute um I think I'm I could be pretty sick I'm I'm I'm pretty in shape I'm not like the like the mom not the bupest guy ever like or anything but like, I'm pretty, I'm up there, I guess, a minute, huh? Then again, a minute is a long time. And I know the fellas don't know what I'm talking about. I'll just leave, leave that at that. Let's see.

I don't know. I'm trying to guess in my head. But I'll say above average. I will confidently say above average. Anyway, it is midnight right now. I gotta wake up less than five hours from now, and that's cool. I'm glad we did this. I'm pretty surprised.

I'm gonna close off with one more thing. What's up with, can you tell me what's up with Cannibal Corpse right now? What is up with that? I saw something about their, like, lyrics? Oh my goodness. People are just, people are just, People are reaching right now and people just don't understand Um, you just don't understand art.

You know, seems like the non-creative people just don't get it. Like, I mean, Cannibal is pure art. If you, if you read the lyrics, take that like literal. I think that. I think there's a little bit issue. I think that there's an issue that has nothing to do with that band. I think that's a personal issue

that you should probably get taken care of. If you're looking at stuff like that is literal and you're looking, I don't know I'm trying to say right now, be honest. I always straight up, I am fucking exhausted. I'm exhausted. I haven't been up this late in quite some time.

Anyway, yeah, I wish I was more prepared. But, uh, but, uh, but yeah, first solo episode done. Um, surprised. It went as long as it did. Um, so yeah, my, uh, my goal is to do these once a, once a month. That's my goal. Once a month with the solo episodes and once a month with the Ernie episodes, to talk shit to them.

And then, uh, I'd be guests, uh, every, every other week. It could be a band. It could be a guitar player. It could be a singer. I'm looking at the list of people in town. And, you know, I'm definitely open to talk to anybody. I'm surprised I went this long. Maybe I should just do this when I'm fucking exhausted.

I do miss. I do miss. I did miss you guys. I didn't have a thing to bounce off of. I need a bouncing off of. um kind of keep me on um on track yeah uh

i'll talk about this more on the next one but yeah there's yeah there's a time i i've been uh i've been really struggling the past uh two months and uh i made the mistake of like trying to um work my way through it and didn't work so uh you probably see like, you know, I missed a couple weeks.

But, uh, I was just, I was just recharging. I was doing other, I can't, I can't say what I was doing. Uh, because it is associated with, with the podcast. And you'll probably see what I, what we've been up to. But, uh, yeah, we had to catch up on, on, on, on some stuff. Uh, I, you know, same with, uh, you know, again, we're talking about, we're talking earlier. Like, I, I make the same mistake twice.

I just don't know why I fucking do that. Um, I'm trying to fix it. yeah with a podcast I was like I was losing myself in it like there was it's funny I'll probably like end it here and then I'll

pick it back up on the next one maybe so it'll be like a it'll be like a seamless conversation um yeah just I got lost like

I saw I changing the set around I took I took out the fucking black curtains and like which is as it's been a staple. I mean, I didn't try, but it became a staple of like the, the vibe. And naturally, you know, I got really worried, you know, how are we going to keep this thing going. So now I'm looking at views and then these don't matter. You know, oh, we need, we need big names in here so we get views so we could do this. And like, that was never why I fucking started doing this.

And I got lost in the sauce. And, Yeah, it's, uh, I did it again. I've been mistaken. That sounds like, this fucking pain and tension in the shit that I, I never paid attention to that I shouldn't. Yeah, this, um, this life got in, in the way, you know. But yeah, so I took us, took a couple of steps back to get back to the core of, uh, why I started doing this in the first place. It's because I love it, you know, you know, I love hanging out people, chatting, chatting, learning. I'm curious guy

I like listening But anyway Just thank you for being a part of this journey You know we're only on episode 137 Which is In podcast years I guess it's nothing

Um Yeah I made a lot of bad decisions I made a lot good ones Um But yeah you're still here for a journey And I appreciate it Um Anyway

Yeah, I hope you prefer this as opposed to no episode this week, but I just couldn't put myself. I committed, last week I committed that we're going to start posting every single week under any circumstance. And had a chorus life will always put a roadblock in. I got a big roadblock. And just couldn't, you know, I'm like, I had to, like, no, I'm not going to. Like, no, I'm not gonna fucking not post. It's fucking crazy.

Anyway, hope you enjoy. See, it's, it's Monday right now as I'm talking. So I hope you have a good week. What do I have going on this week? I'm seeing Go Whore and Bitchwell. That's gonna be sick. Oh, check out Vichel. I've been jamming their records.

They had two records. I've been jamming their shit. this past weekend I jammed him yesterday and today pretty fucking sick um it's one more show I think

is it one more show this week it has to be I'm not sure but I'm definitely going to see you go horror and uh bitch will be sick but uh and then I'm doing other shit with the guys that I don't know if I can talk about yet

but anyway uh thank you for a supportive podcast thank you for listening watching and being a part of this journey and yeah i will see you next week appreciate it later