Girls Gone Bible - God’s Voice Over My Feelings | Girls Gone Bible
Episode Date: October 4, 2024hiii GGB :) this week we talk about how to prioritize God’s voice and His will and what He’s speaking over our feelings. Our feelings can be incredibly unreliable and misleading. As scripture sa...ys, “The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately sick; who can understand it?” Jeremiah 17:9 We must hold our feelings accountable to the word of God. It's our map guide to life and in the end, God should inform our feelings not the other way around. Scripture tells us how to live, act, think and behave. We talk about how our emotions can get the best of us, and we make decisions not based on an emotional bias. we love you so much. Jesus loves you more. -Ang & Ari WE ARE ON THE OFFICIAL GIRLS GONE BIBLE LIVE TOUR! www.girlsgonebible.com/tour WE LOVE YOU AND CANNOT WAIT TO SEE YOU! if you’d like to support Girls Gone Bible 🙏🏻🕊️🤍 Paypal- https://www.paypal.me/girlsgonebibleinfo Venmo- https://www.venmo.com/u/girlsgonebible
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What's up, bitch? What's up, uh?
What's up, babe? What's up? What's up?
Should we and you should we oh hi? I'm you would think after all this time
It is ridiculous
We come in here and I swear
Every motorist I'm right. I know We come in here and I swear, it's like everything, every motor function girl.
It's like the first time wherever I know.
Like we're not two best friends that are just sitting and talking.
Hi guys, I'm Ari.
And I'm Ange.
And this is Girls Gone Bible.
We're a faith-based podcast and we talk about everything from mental health to relationships
to everyday life.
Specifically, we talk about Jesus in the Bible.
We love Jesus.
He saved our lives.
He changed our lives.
We always say, come as you are, just don't stay that way.
And we sure aren't staying that way, huh, Anne?
I've changed so much that it's rocked my world.
Sometimes we revert, but we always find our way back.
Go watch our backsliding episode.
It's a process for all of us.
We're in this together.
What's up, GGB?
We love you so much.
We miss you guys.
We love you.
The response to Socrates' episode,
can we talk about it?
Talk about it.
I had no idea.
Like, I knew people were going to love Socrates,
but I didn't know that they were going to...
It's as if, like, everybody had such a close, like, attachment to him.
Yeah.
People were saying they were crying from the beginning to the end of the episode.
Yeah, because you have...
This is the biggest part of your testimony, is him.
And it's like, it's so beautiful because now they finally got to put a name to the...
Gotta... They finally got to put a name to the... Gotta...
They finally got to put a name to the face.
Yeah.
And he's so pure and so cute!
I love Sarkind.
I love him so much.
And everyone is just like, he looks exactly like what you thought he would look like.
My favorite thing was his outfit.
I loved his outfit so much.
I wish he brought the Shafar.
He did.
Why didn't we have him play the Shafar in the-
The horn?
Yeah.
It's called the Shafar.
Why didn't we?
When he pulls out that Shafar, I die.
How was your week?
It was so good.
But can I hear about yours first?
Sure.
You were in Italy.
Tell me about it.
Italy was amazing.
I got to literally eat croissants and pasta
from morning, noon, to night.
That's all I did was eat.
And I didn't realize how much.
There's nothing better than coming back to America.
I love where I live, even though I really realized
how much we're getting poisoned with the food here.
I know.
I come home, I eat a meal, I was just telling Angela this today.
I come home, I go and get a meal.
I get so sick because it's the first time that I'm eating the oils and the processed food.
The preservatives.
Yeah, the preservatives.
And it's just crazy, like the stuff they're putting in this food.
And so I'm really picky with my food.
I share that with you guys a lot, but now I'm just like,
I'm in this place where I'm going to cook everything with my own oils.
You have to be so careful what you eat because that's why so many people in America are getting cancer and getting sick.
It's because of the food and the meats and the over process.
It's just, it's insane.
Like, it was so nice just to be able to go there and eat whatever I want
and not have to worry about it.
And you said you got sick the first night.
I got sick.
You went to Erewhon, got the healthiest possible meal of all time,
and you still got sick.
And I felt sick.
That's crazy.
The same thing happened to me.
I went to Albania for the first time and I legitimately was eating probably like
pounds and pounds of meats and fruit and just like fish and all this different stuff.
And I had never felt better.
I was very pleased.
Like it was, I felt so good.
I come back the first day, make such a health,
make like chicken and carrots, and I was like,
just like inflammation throughout my whole body
in the first meal that I had.
And I was like, this is so sad.
It's really bad.
By the way, sorry to cut you off.
What's up?
I make friends with this one guy in Italy,
and guess who it is?
Who?
An Albanian guy.
No!
How did you not tell me this?
I totally forgot.
He's Albanian, the best guy ever.
He goes, are you kidding?
We're family.
I'll drive you two hours to the airport.
He drives me two hours to us to the airport.
A random person?
Me and my friend.
I know, we could have gone.
I know, I don't condone this.
But I just, you know.
Yeah, I'm in the airport.
I see this guy wearing Jesus' hat.
I go, I love your hat.
I'm like, Jesus, isn't he just the best?
He goes, my name's Jesus, it's my name.
I'm dead.
I'm dead. Okay, sorry. My friend G's laughing at me.
That's so good.
Jesus, I love your hat.
I was like, Jesus, it's so nice to see that.
He goes, my name's Jesus.
So good.
Yeah, and then I went to the Elevation concert.
It was amazing.
I had a full circle moment because you guys remember in one of the,
it was the second episode I said, everybody should go and listen to Stephen Ferlic.
He's the best. I'm calling him Stephen Ferlic.
Anyways, he was, he went up and did a message and I was just looking at him
and I'm like, because when I first started my journey,
when I didn't know anything about pastors, I found him on Instagram.
So I would just watch him for hours.
And like the worst heartbreak of like when I was at the bottom, so heartbroken,
I would just watch him and just fall asleep to him.
And he was like curing me, you know?
And so I'm sitting there watching him preach and I'm sitting there
and I'm in my most healed,
healthiest, I'm so happy, I have so much joy and I'm just watching him. I'm thinking, wow,
I can't believe this. I can't believe I'm sitting so close to him watching him preach and I'm in
this new version of myself and how much I've come, like how far I've come, how much I'm healed from
where I was two years ago.
And I just have one of those moments of being like, just don't give up.
Wow.
Don't give up like that heartbreak or whatever you're going through.
It might be so hard right now and you feel like you're not going to make it through,
but you just wait to see what God's going to do through you and you are going to look
back at your new version of yourself and just be like, wow, I am so proud of myself.
Look at where God took me.
It was such a beautiful moment that I had.
And I'll never take that for granted,
that feeling of being healed and just being in joy, you know?
That is so beautiful.
I remember when we first met, you were like,
this guy, Stephen Furlick, Stephen Furlick.
I think his name is Stephen Furlick, Stephen Furlick.
I think his name is Stephen Furlick.
I know.
It's unbelievable.
That's so amazing. It looked so beautiful.
Thank you.
I wish I could have gotten, thank you.
Sometimes when Ari, by the way,
when Ari wants something from me,
you guys should see, she'll go, thank you so much.
She gets like all professional with me.
She'll say thank you so much.
Oh, thank you.
If I know if I am really nice to you, I'll get what I want.
Yeah.
Manipulate it.
The Bible says do not manipulate.
Is that what it says?
Anyways, how was your weekend?
Is that what it says?
How was your weekend, Idaho?
Who were you with?
Okay.
I was in Boise, Idaho. Whoa. I was in Boise, Idaho this...
Whoa.
I was in Boise, Idaho this weekend.
Who knew that Idaho was like...
happening?
I still don't really know where it is on the map.
It's just so funny like going to other parts of America and realizing like,
wow, there's so much more than LA out there.
And like houses with backyards.
It's just like, it's just a different world.
But I went to, there's this church that I've been going to
out in Boise, it's called Riverhouse.
And it's just like the best church.
Riverhouse and Jesus Image are like my two,
like they're the best churches in America.
And I've been to a lot of them and they're my favorites.
Riverhouse is this this beautiful, beautiful,
charismatic, spirit-filled church
with the best community I've ever seen.
Jesus is the main everything.
Like, they just, they love Jesus, and they do it right.
And unfortunately, there are some churches who like,
Jesus isn't always number one.
Yeah.
And so- What do they make number one. And so-
What do they make number one?
Jesus, the Holy Spirit.
No, I'm saying like other churches.
You know what it is, there are some churches
and like to each their own,
like I don't necessarily think anything is wrong
because some people, like everyone has a different preference,
but there are some churches that are so rigid
in like 25 minutes of worship, 45 minute message,
you like on the dot, like it doesn't matter
what God is doing or how the Spirit's moving,
you stick to the schedule and like that's it.
And that's just not what either of us,
we are like, Holy Spirit take me wherever.
Like we're nuts, we're absolutely nuts and I love that.
And that's how they don't suppress the Holy Spirit at all.
Like they'll throw away a whole... The pastor at Riverhouse, his name is Jordan Werner,
and he will legitimately have a whole message plan, get into church, and then throw it all out
and be like, God wants me to talk about something completely different and preach on the spot.
And I love that. I really respect that. Anyway, so they have their conference
this weekend and it is like absolutely life changing. Three days changed my life, changed
my faith. I knew what I was going to. I always know when God is going to like level it up
and like do something different. Can I tell you the funniest thing that happened? So one
of the speakers, his name is Will Hart. He's like the
CEO or like he's the president or the leader, whatever, of Iris Global. It's Heidi Baker and
his ministry. And Will is like, he's like, he's basically, he's up there and he's like prophesying
and he's praying and he has everybody like, you know, if you want to be touched by God, like come
up, whatever. I go up there, I want this man to prophesy over me so badly. I want him to pray for me.
And like I had told my friend, I was like, yeah, I really wanted to go up there. But
sometimes I get nervous. And my friend was like, well, the hungry get fed.
So if you want something, you go and you get it. And that's a message to anyone who's too afraid
to do an altar call. You have no idea what you're missing when you feel a prompting, when your heart starts racing,
and you sit in your seat, when they say, if you have this or this,
or you're feeling called by God and you don't go up, which I've done so many times,
we have no idea what we miss in those moments.
So finally, for the first time, I go up, I'm standing there,
and he's like prophesying over everyone and I'm like so in it.
I'm like...
I'm sure I could have been there.
No, listen, listen.
It's so funny.
I'm in the glory and I'm like rocking back.
You know how I get the arms that are going.
I'm like in the glory.
He's like, he says something and I didn't hear him fully and he goes, if you're...
Start waving your hand.
I didn't hear him, but I'm just like,
I start waving my hand in front of everyone.
He's like, do you have metal in your body?
But I didn't hear him.
He wanted to heal somebody with metal in their body.
He goes, he goes, he goes, do you have metal in your body?
And I was like, uh huh.
I didn't hear him.
He goes, okay, where is it?
And then I was like, wait, what?
In my brain. No, he goes, he goes, okay, where is it? And I I was like, wait, what? In my brain!
No, he goes, okay, where is it?
And I was like, wait, what?
He goes, you have metal?
I go, what?
No, I don't have metal.
He goes, okay, so what's wrong?
I go, my heart, in front of everybody.
And he was like, okay.
And so he comes down and he starts praying for me.
And it was so beautiful, but I was dying laughing.
I had no idea what to do.
I'm like, my heart.
Imagine what I would have said.
Ha ha ha.
I would have made a scene.
You already know.
It was so funny.
That was the most beautiful.
Oh, I just love a good spirit filled church.
There's nothing like it.
When you brought me to Jesus image,
you know, when they do the altar calls, we're not kidding when we say we run down.
It's actually a little bit ridiculous.
You know, go ahead.
No, no, go ahead.
But the thing is, I will say, we go down to the altar, but we put hands and we start praying
on people.
We do, yeah, after we have our own moment.
It's ridiculous.
Ari and I really quickly want to mention, as some of you know,
we are on tour right now. We are officially on the Girls Gone Bible live tour where we basically
spend a night with you guys loving Jesus, talking about Jesus, crying, laughing. The number one
response that we've heard is that everybody feels the Holy Spirit in the room. There's people that experience glory, the manifest presence of God for the first time, they
experience an encounter with the Holy Spirit the first time, we lead people to
salvation. There have been so many salvations and people coming home since
we started, so we want to invite you guys to come to see us on the Girls Gone Bible live tour.
You can go to girlsgonebible.com slash tour.
Before we really jump into it, Ari and I wanted to talk about something that is genuinely so pressing on our hearts.
And we have been behind the scenes talking with so many different foundations.
Human trafficking is so heavy on our hearts and God gave us the most beautiful thing in the world,
which is a platform to be able to get involved
with things like this.
We are so passionate about human trafficking
and doing whatever we can about a situation
that seems so unrealistic and so far away
and so not in our reality when really it's happening all the time, all around us,
right under our noses.
And there's this film called City of Dreams that has come out.
It's by the same producers of Sound of Freedom, which was another movie about human trafficking.
City of Dreams is basically about like child exploitation and the fashion industry and
sweat shops and what, and the abuse and the horrific
working and living conditions of literal children all over the world, all over the country,
in Los Angeles. After watching this film, I remember driving down the street, you and
I were so unwell after this movie because it is so horrific and so heartbreaking. And
it's still, as much as it hurts us, we still don't even understand the reality of it,
which is so crazy. We're driving down the street thinking like legitimately any of these houses
could be sweatshops right now. That's how under our nose it is. And I just wanted to read a couple
of things just off the page because I want to get it exactly about this film.
Hollywood and theaters have posed significant challenges to City of Dreams.
As you guys know, Hollywood and just like the industry and the media and the powers
that be are very one-sided.
They're very, not to get conspiracy theory, but there is like so much evil that controls
media.
It is so, what is the word I'm looking for?
The media in Hollywood have the ability to like filter the content that actually gets through.
And so if you try to say anything or do anything or create a project that is against the message they're trying to send,
which often time is evil, coming from two people who have worked in the industry.
It is a very weird situation in Hollywood
and this film has had so much backlash.
They have done everything in their power
to not let this get made, not let this get produced.
It gets flags.
It exposes one of the darkest truths in America
and that is child exploitation, child labor.
The darkness will always come to light
and I am so happy that City of Dreams came out
because although it was one of the most heart wrenching
things I have ever watched, it was the most eye opening
and it made me say we have to get to work.
Like we have to get on mission and And I think all of us as Christians
need to play a part and do,
I mean, think about if this was your sister or your child,
we can't even imagine what that would be like
if that was one of our own or someone we loved
that was taken.
And like Angela said,
it is happening right under our noses in LA.
And you might be saying, well, how can we help?
What can we do?
The fashion industry is such a big one.
Even me, I used to shop at these fast fashion places.
You know, like Shein, these kids were writing on the back of tags.
Help me. They were on the clothing.
Yeah. They were crying out to help through writing on the tags of clothing helped me. They were- On the clothing. Yeah. Like crying out to help through writing on the tags
of clothing.
Yeah.
They were, there's so much trafficking
through these fast fashion brands.
So doing your part and yes,
although these clothes are extremely cheap,
maybe knowing that what stands behind it and not doing it.
Yeah.
You know, there's other amazing brands that are affordable
that we don't have to go to.
Another thing is being very smart about who you vote for.
We won't get too deep into that, but I think as Christians,
no, I know as Christians, we all have to vote.
We have to be smart when we vote.
And so just do your research and vote right. Be smart in who you vote for.
Be cautious of where you're shopping. Get the word out as much as you can. If you can
go see this movie and maybe send it to your friends because if you don't know what it
is and about the fashion industry and the child laboring, you will after you see this
film. It's an amazing movie. And support films like this and support Christian content.
If I could ask you guys to do anything, it's every time there's a Christian movie,
go see it. You have no idea what's happening in the movie industry right now.
Movies are not being made. TV is not being made.
The dollars are low. They don't have money.
Everything since they were like, it's just like all messed up.
The whole acting industry, the whole film industry, but you know what is booming?
Christian films. It's insane.
So what you can do is continue to support any Christian film, any film of light.
There are so many incredible foundations that you can help children that you there you we have been
that you can help children. We have been talking with these foundations,
Christian foundations that are giving their lives
to fight for these children, to find these children.
So helping these children is something we can do.
We put our money on all these clothes.
Maybe we put a piece of that to help these kids that are in need.
And we will put a foundation.
We are partnering with a foundation that is incredible,
that is fighting for these children, that has saved children from years of abuse and
sex trafficking.
So we will put that in the box too.
We all need to play our part.
Okay, so what are we talking about today?
We're talking about what God says versus how we feel.
I feel like almost every story in the Bible is about focusing on God's will and God's voice
and what God is saying as opposed to our feelings.
As opposed to our feelings.
Like, I mean, we could name so many
just off the top of my head, Abraham and Isaac.
Abraham to sacrifice his only son.
And Abraham went against his natural inclination
to not wanna sacrifice his son,
and he brought him up to the mountain. And he listened to God's voice and what God was telling
him and speaking over him versus his own desires and what he was feeling. Jesus in the garden of
Gethsemane, I mean, he literally was sweating blood, having all of these natural human emotions and
being so burdened by the cross
and what he was gonna have to face,
but nevertheless not my will, but yours, God.
And so, I mean, Sarah and Abraham too,
like they had their feelings of being too old,
not being able to have children,
and God was speaking, no, you're gonna have a child.
And they had to believe that over what they were feeling
in their current circumstance.
So it's all throughout the Bible.
Yeah.
I think that's a big reason of why people are so stuck and just led in destruction because
so many of us were led by our feelings, and they're so deceiving, and it's not real.
And for me, in my own situation, I always lived by the way I feel.
That's why I stayed in relationships too long.
That's why I stayed in friendships too long.
I would be led by my feelings.
And it's like our feelings aren't real all the time.
And if you think about it, one minute we
can be on top of the world.
We can be in the best mood.
And then we can see something on TV or someone can say something to us, and all of a sudden we're like down in the dump. So, feelings
can be so deceiving. That's why we have to live by faith. We have to live by the Word of God.
Everything we do should be governed by the Word of God. And so, that's personally what has changed my life. It's like, that's why this thing is the map quest to our life.
It's life.
It's the light because now it shows us how to live, how to talk, how to think, how to
act.
When we have these feelings, we say, well, does this match up with the Word of God?
And if it doesn't, if it contradicts the Word of God, then we don't do it.
If it does,'t, if it contradicts the Word of God, then we don't do it. If it does,
great, follow it. And so that's been just the biggest blessing with me on my journey is that
now when I feel things, I'm like, okay, well, is this right? Let me go to the Scriptures. That's
why I love in the Bible, like everyone will come to Jesus and try to question Him or interrogate Him. And
what does He say? He'll be like, well, the scripture says. So it's like, and Jesus does
that all through the Bible. Well, what does the scripture say? So everything we do, if
we ever have questions, if we ever have like overwhelming feelings, we have to match it
with what God says. What about you? Yeah, I mean, you and I are in such a similar situation where like we went our whole life having absolutely
zero tools for emotional regulation and like even processing. Like I think you're like me where we both,
like I never really learned how to process emotions. I never really, I didn't have,
I was a very emotional person
and I was ruled by my emotions.
I was ruled by my feelings.
Everything that I felt was a massive deal.
Everything was all,
I just always had heightened emotions.
And through my relationship with Jesus,
the number one thing that he has done with me is deconstruct my perception of feelings and emotions.
And like, I think in the beginning of my journey, I remember one of the first things that I really remember going through with God was like, I just love how relational he is. I love how intimately
involved he is in all of our lives. Like he cares about everything, like every relationship, every
situation. I remember one of the first things we did because I was always like, I love love,
I love relationships. Like I love my boyfriend. And I remember the first thing he did was like,
we are going to get to the bottom of this need for connection
and all of these things.
And the first thing that he had to do was get to the bottom
of my feelings and my emotions.
And he took me, it felt as if the first two years of my relationship with Jesus,
he took me through thing after thing after thing,
where I had to go in direct opposition to what my feelings, what my heart wanted.
And it came to relationships, friendships, and career stuff.
I remember when I first, I'll just go on career.
Like, when I first started to follow Jesus, I began to realize like,
oh my gosh, there are so many things that I have been thanking Jesus for that He never wanted me
to take in the first place. There are so many jobs that are incredibly ungodly, incredibly not
glorifying Jesus. And I'm taking these things and I feel like it's a blessing,
and I feel like this is a good thing because this is a good thing for my career.
And then he's like, what you feel in these moments actually means nothing because I'm trying to speak to you.
I'm trying to tell you how your feeling is deceiving you.
This isn't good. This isn't godly. This doesn't glorify me and it's not from me.
And so my career was like a really insane thing
that I had to navigate in acting, you know,
to where I was like, even, you know,
after I started Girls Gone Bible,
I remember I was still holding on to acting like,
for dear life, I've loved it my whole life.
It's what I've done since I was little.
There wasn't a world in which I ever, ever, ever thought
that I would be okay without it for so many reasons.
I loved it.
You work so hard at something for so long, you know.
And then also it's like, this is my thing.
Like I'm not, it's like a pride thing too,
where I'm like, I'm not giving up on this.
And through some nights of wrestling
and through so many conversations with God,
He changed my heart and He showed me what it's like to lay something down regardless
of how I feel about it. And so He's taking me through these things where I'm like, I
feel like I want this. I feel like this is good for me. I feel like this is the will
for my life, but God is speaking something completely different and I have to abandon
my own will. I have to abandon my own will in this situation to follow God's, no matter how much it
hurts. In relationships, I'll never forget, I've told the story about this specific relationship,
but I was like so in love, so, so, so in love. And whisper who it was.
You know.
What?
Yes, no, no, not that one.
I'm sorry guys, I wish you, you know what,
come to our live shows, you can hear all the tea.
Oh, we talk about it all.
We talk about it all.
And then, so I'm like in this relationship
and God is like, he orchestrates it in a way where I am literally,
He's giving me, I don't think God tests us like in a bad way
like to see us fail or anything, but like He did,
I saw two roads in which I could go.
One is God's will, one is not.
My heart wanted to go not God's will more than anything
in the world, my heart was so over here,
please Jesus, don't make me make this decision.
And it was the first massive trust building thing
with God and I, because he wants,
we have to earn God's trust just as much
as we think he needs to earn ours.
And so I had to abandon my will and my heart
in this situation for, trust me, it was a good thing.
And I picked up God's will and I went the opposite direction
and I grew so much during that season
because it was the first time that I was like,
wow, my feelings ultimately mean nothing
and I grow so much when I sacrifice my feelings.
You know what I mean?
It's so true and I think it's funny you say that
because that's the exact place I'm in right now.
And I have been in this very long season of singleness, and He's being like,
I understand how you feel and what you want, but my ways are, like you do, like that's why I love the scripture.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.
Because what He has done through me, through my singleness,
these past couple nights of the peace that I have felt in my home after Italy, coming home by myself,
He has spoken in my heart so much of being like,
see what I've done in your heart through this that you would have never been able to do had you had
a partner in this. And so it's just, it's crazy. It's like, we feel like we need someone. We feel
like we're lonely. We feel like our time is running out. I'm in the same situation where I have these moments where I feel I'm so content
because God is, He is reading, I will redeem and restore all your years.
Like, I read these because they get me through and it's the truth and that's His promise.
But then we will start to feel like, oh man, is my time running out?
Do I have to hurry up? I'm looking around and I'm at this wedding and
she's all my friends are getting married and they're all having kids and you know, I'm still in the
season and is it okay? And then your feelings start becoming deceiving. And so that's just,
I love that you say that because if you are in that season of just isolation,
not even isolation, just a season of singleness, longer than planned, it's because He is molding
you and building you into someone that you are going to be so proud of that He would
never be able to do.
Have you been with someone?
Because you don't realize when you are with someone,
it's not just you anymore.
You're caring for someone else.
You can't fully focus on even doing the Lord's work.
It's like when you are in the season of singleness,
you're fully devoted and it's such a gift.
And so, yeah, that's where I've been too.
Even with the career stuff, like I had a struggle for so long,
but who he built me in when I had to give up the career.
I did struggle, I struggled for months.
I was so scared.
My whole life was built on me wanting to become something
because I didn't want to struggle.
And so if you just hold on,
even when he says like, just rest,
like rest in green pastures, like, he says
that for a reason.
Some seasons are just for resting.
So he is, because in that rest, he's building you into the person you're supposed to be.
And then that's when he whispers, go.
So good.
You know?
So beautiful.
It's the hardest time, I think, to ever trust in God's voice over your feelings is seasons like this,
like season of singleness in the wilderness, in a really, when your mental health isn't
great.
Like, there are so many times where, I mean, but that's why I, Proverbs 3, 5 to 6, trust
in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding.
Every time that I try to lean on my own understanding, I get myself in trouble.
We are never going to be as smart as God. We are never going to know what He knows.
He lives completely outside of space and time. He knows so many things that we don't know.
And like, His ways are higher. His thoughts are higher. And He has plans for us, good, good plans, and our feelings,
our feelings and our thoughts is the devil's legitimate playground. Like he loves, this is
the area in which he loves to go around and just, the number one thing that I've been learning
recently is there's this thing that I like to call imaginations.
And our feelings can be so built on imaginations
and things that are not real, that are literally not real.
And what I am so strongly believing in this season
is like, there are narratives at play.
And like in any situation that we have,
there are probably multiple narratives that we can choose to believe in.
And we have a choice. Most narratives are going to be ones that don't lead to peace, that don't lead to unity with people, that don't lead to reconciliation.
And there are narratives that the devil is throwing at you, giving you the option to believe in. But then there's always at least one narrative.
That's the truth, that's God's narrative that leads to peace, that leads to unity.
And we have the ability to choose a narrative in whatever situation to believe a narrative
that leads to peace and that leads to hope and that leads to joy.
And for me, like, what I'm learning more than anything
is just that there are times
where my feelings are so irrational,
and I believe them, and you believe that they're real,
and it feels like when you're having
really strong, intense emotions,
it feels like there's nothing else in the world
that is as big and as important
as what you're feeling in the very moment.
And the enemy in our own flesh has the ability
to just amplify these negative emotions that we're feeling.
And God is sitting there being like, if you look at me,
I will completely deconstruct all of this for you.
But you just have to look at me.
And so often, because the problems become so big,
God is nowhere to be found.
That's what I find within myself when I let these feelings take over.
And so I just want to encourage anyone who's watching, like, Jesus is so much bigger than
whatever it is you're feeling in any given moment and coming from two people who are
somewhat hyperbolic and extreme in some ways and experience intense emotions. This is something that we're
constantly walking through where we're like, my feelings feel like such a big deal right
now and they're really not. Whatever feels so negative in the moment is probably not
that big of a deal. And just like how Ari said earlier, one of the number one ways to
combat these negative emotions that start to take on like a life of themselves
is through God's word, is through combating lies with the truth of God's word, holding
every lie to God's truth. And what that looks like practically is like legitimately, first
of all, you need to be in community. You have to have wise counsel, wise people that you
can go to and be honest about.
What I've learned is coming from someone who has trouble
sometimes voicing my opinion,
especially ones that make me feel weak,
any emotion that I feel that makes me feel weak
is so hard for me to tell someone I'm feeling.
And you know what happens?
It just gets bigger and bigger and bigger.
And then you just, you bleed on everybody around you.
Instead of the moment you start feeling something,
just talking to someone and letting it lose all of its power.
You and I just recently had to go through something
where I let a feeling and an emotion get so big.
And the second I brought it to you,
I had so much fear that admitting this
or just being honest about how I'm feeling
was gonna make me look so weak
and what my best friend in the world is gonna judge me.
It's ridiculous, it's not real, all these things.
And the second that I am honest with you
and I lay the pride down, that God forsaken pride
that has caused so many issues in my life,
that God is legitimately like refuse,
I love him so much because he loves me so much
that he's forcing me to like get rid of the pride.
The second I'm open up to you,
this problem that is so massive becomes so small,
and it completely loses power.
That's what I'm walking through this season.
And it makes you sick when you hold it in.
It really does.
And before you even talk,
we forget that Jesus is our father
and we don't have to pick and choose what we
tell him we don't have to hide things and the more we come forth and be like
Jesus just to get it out and be like I am so mad at this person this is what
I'm feeling why are they acting like this why am I is it true what I'm
feeling am I being deceived by the enemy like I I actually like had this
conversation with Jesus the other day
where I was just talking to Him in realness and rawness. And I'm telling you, there's
nothing like it because it's like unpacking that stuff that's not even real. It's like
the deceiving in your heart. It comes out to God. You bring it to His feet and He reveals the truth and the light.
And so, anything we're feeling, like feelings aren't meant to be fixed, they're meant to be felt.
And let them be felt with Jesus, everything at the feet of Him and just pray about it and talk to Him about it.
And it's so healing.
It is.
I mean, other than God's Word, you guys know this and we'll tell you every day for the
rest of our lives, for the rest of eternity that we have Girls Gone Bible or any sort
of platform, we'll tell you two things.
Three things.
Love Jesus, read the Bible, and make sure your secret place is strong.
Spend time in prayer.
You have to be open to God's will for you.
You have to be open to his life and you have to seek
his will above your own.
And like for me, anytime that my heart is closed off
and I go to Jesus and I'm like, nope, this is how I feel
Jesus about this situation and this is how it is
and you need to fix it and you need to fix that person.
God's a little, I imagine him just being like,
are you done?
Are you done?
Okay, now let me speak truth into this.
And so for me, my main goal is to always be aware
that whatever I think, that's why I love praying in tongues,
praying in the Spirit so much, because I, my thoughts,
I have so many feelings
and ways of thinking about a situation
that when I pray, even my prayers are biased.
You know what I mean?
I pray whatever I think I need to pray about.
But then when I pray in the Spirit,
so often I'm praying something that my heart,
my Spirit, the Holy Spirit himself is praying for me
that I don't even know is the root issue of whatever is going on.
And then it's through praying in the Spirit that I begin to then, I'm telling you, praying
in the Spirit has changed my life.
It's the only thing that will then, I'm praying in the Spirit and I begin to have thoughts
that I don't even know where they're coming from, but I know it's the prayers that are being prayed
through my heart.
And so being open to God's will and his voice
and not, and sure, come to him however you want,
but just be open to the fact that God wants to speak truth
into whatever you're feeling.
That's right, that's right.
And be careful being influenced by your feelings by others.
Oh, oh, talk about it.
Yeah.
He's been watching.
I like that.
I don't know what I'm trying to say.
It's true though.
You know, just, just, I just, you know, most of my life,
I would go to so many people and ask them,
well, what do you think?
Well, what should I do?
And what do I?
And just talking to them about the problems
and how I should come at this person.
And everybody has different opinions.
Everybody feels different.
Totally.
And so going, of course it's nice to get an opinion
from someone that is good counsel.
But I just, so many of us are getting influenced
by all these thoughts and whatever.
So just be careful with that.
Totally, yeah.
Ultimately, it's about putting your trust
in the unchanging nature of God
versus your ever-changing feelings and emotions
and opinions and thoughts.
Like we are so unreliable, what I
thought two years ago, I feel so differently about now. That is why we're so lucky to have the Word
of God that never changes. And for me, seeking God's voice in everything, because it's the only one
that is forever, yesterday, today, and tomorrow, the only voice that's the same. Whereas just like you're
saying, you can listen to all these different things, or your own heart, or all these different
people, and everyone's opinion is different, and everything changes, and it's so confusing,
but God never changes. Thank you, Jesus, that we serve a God who never changes and is forever
reliable. Reliable and lovable and forgives.
And that's why anger is such a big part
of our feelings and sinning
and do the opposite of God's word.
And that's why in your anger,
that's why it says in your anger, do not sin.
When we are angry, angry.
When we are angry.
When we are angry. When we are angry, angry, angry, we are angry.
We go so out of pocket.
We are not ourselves.
We say things, we do things.
It causes us to sin.
And so one thing in my journey
that I've really learned in my anger,
like I'm learning to just don't act.
Don't react.
Yes. Don't think on emotion. Take a step back. Like, I'm learning to just don't act, don't react.
Don't think on emotion. Take a step back.
If there is conflict with someone and you are in anger, take a moment, be with him, sit in prayer.
Even if you need to take a couple of days because we don't know what we're feeling.
We're not right in the head when we're in anger.
So really taking that time, remembering who Jesus is.
Do you know, it's just going back and thinking about
every single time I have fallen short, every time I have done wrong,
every time I have been disobedient, every time I've turned my back on Him,
when I've known what to do is right.
And every time He has sat there in grace with His arms wide open for me and forgiven me and still
loved me through it. So I had a moment of thinking that of being in that place of anger, but being
like, but look at how Jesus was with me. And it like, you come down from that anger when you
remember who he is. That's why one of my prayers is always, I want to have the mind like you. I
want to walk like you. I want to forgive like you. I want to love like you. And when we keep
repeating that and we keep understanding how he is, it makes us act different, doesn't it?
Yeah, 100%. My main thing, and I it? Yeah, yeah. Don't you think?
Totally.
100%.
My main thing, and I think what gets me down so much, like if I ever react in a way that
I didn't want to, is like, I'm always like, okay, before I speak, God, Gord, I was about
to say Gord, God, give me the mind of Christ.
Give me the mind of Christ.
Let me operate out of the mind of Christ.
And then all the time I forget to put on the mind of Christ. Let me operate out of the mind of Christ. And then all the time I forget to put on the mind of Christ
and I'm like, oh, and then afterwards,
you just, you have such major regret
because you're like, why?
Why did I, why did I not seek the Holy Spirit in this
before I reacted?
Thank you for saying that about always waiting before.
Give yourself a second.
If you're a firecracker, like I could be sent to...
Like we are.
Because of the East Coast.
Yeah.
We're just like, Ari and I are very similar in the sense that we're just like, I mean,
Jesus has really done a massive work.
He does.
I mean, he has.
He really has.
Like changed us from the inside out.
We used to be like...
We're taking off the earrings.
Like, you know what I mean? We're getting be like, like, we're taking off the air.
Like, you know what I mean?
We're getting out at the red light.
Exactly.
So, you might have.
No, I didn't.
I would be too.
I'm just kidding, I'm too scared.
Have you ever like, kind of like started something
with someone like beeping and stuff
and then they pull up next to you?
Yeah, and then you realize they're like massive
and you're like, I'm just kidding.
So often, coward.
No, I love what you say.
Please, please, please take a second before.
No, what I was saying, you and I are such firecrackers.
We literally, God has to work so much in us to have us.
It's so weird, because we could be so incredibly patient most of the time.
But then there are those moments where you let offense get in and you let pride get in
and you let a trigger get triggered.
Pride and ego.
So much pride and triggers. We all have triggers and then you let all this negative emotion
take over and then you act on it.
And like, yeah, my mean-
Us women. us women.
You guys have it so easy.
Can we talk about how easy men have it?
Oh, I see.
You guys, I grew up with my dad.
My dad raised me.
My dad goes, you women are nuts.
Nuts.
You know, these, you guys, you'll like,
you'll have a, you know, fight about something.
Two seconds later.
Oh. It's all good, man.
Oh, 100%.
Oh yeah, all done.
No, it's so annoying.
But girls were like four or five days processing.
I mean, you and I are much better than that.
I will stand by this.
Men relationships don't even come close to the woman,
to the sisterhood of women.
You know, when I think about going by faith and not by your feelings, I think about the
story of Noah.
You know, God instructed Noah to build this ark because God was going to send rain, which
in that time, that was never seen before.
And you know, Noah was already at such an old age and he had spent years building this
ark and everyone was making fun of him.
Do you think he felt like building it? Do you think that he felt tempted to give up or to not
trust God? Probably, but he lived by faith in God. His faith propelled him to keep moving forward
and not by his fickle feelings. And you know, it's so funny, I feel like with Noah,
we have to believe God over like the tiniest inconveniences.
Like imagine if we ever had to go through a pupil
and the Bible went through, we'd be, we'd be done.
Imagine us building an ark at a hundred years old, us two.
Oh yeah, I'm done!
I'm done!
I'm done!
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Emotional awareness and introspection,
which is like you taking a look inward
and trying to, if I could advise you guys on anything,
what's really helped me is always
when I'm feeling something negative,
and it's always so hard in the moment.
It's so hard to take a step back from your emotions.
But like you have to stay logical.
I love being logic driven.
I am a highly emotional person,
but when I'm ruled by my emotions,
it wreaks havoc on my life.
And so I always do my best to stay logical,
which doesn't always happen.
And it's a ever, you know,
ongoing, forever process of trying to stay logical
when I'm having heightened emotions.
So if I could advise you guys with anything,
it's just when you're feeling something,
especially if it's negative,
try to separate yourself from the emotion.
Try to take a step back and look at the bigger picture
and be like, what am I feeling?
Why am I feeling it?
What is the root?
And where is the lie?
If it's a negative emotion, if something is wrong,
like what am I engaging with right now
that I could possibly, sometimes things happen
which it's like your feelings are completely valid,
like that happens all the time.
100%.
And even then, like you feel those feelings,
but do your best to not be ruled by them.
Do your best to just invite Jesus in.
Like things happen, like someone does something wrong to you
or says something to you,
but just choose to bring Jesus into those moments
and be like, Jesus, I am offended.
I am hurt.
I am sad.
Would you just give me peace?
Would you just love on me in this moment?
But if it's something that it's like irrational emotions
and feelings, zoom out, look at the big picture,
try to figure out where it is you can invite Jesus in
to like deconstruct and dismantle this like
ever growing negative emotion that you're feeling.
Yeah, I love it.
Yeah, so we love you guys so much
and we just love you.
We love you guys.
We love you, we are praying for you.
Maybe in the comment box, write some of your prayers
and then underneath it, pray for somebody else.
Yes, can we please do a prayer chain?
I miss those.
Just like Ari said, comment a prayer,
and then after you comment a prayer,
go to the person under you and comment on their prayer
and pray for them and genuinely pray.
When you pray for other people,
it is the best thing you can do for yourself.
You partner with God and you invite God into your life
by praying for other people.
So I love that, thank you for saying that. Yeah, yeah, so please, we'll by praying for other people. So I love that.
Thank you for saying that.
Yeah, yeah.
So please, we'll be praying for you.
We love you so much.
We thank you.
We thank you for sticking by us,
sticking with us, accepting us,
and just being our sisters and brothers in Christ.
It's the greatest honor.
So we love you.
We love you so much.
May the Lord bless you and keep you.
May he make his face to shine upon you and be gracious to you.
May he turn his face towards you and give you peace
and control over your emotions.
Don't be fighting, people.
Don't be crazy.
Don't be taking out your earrings.
Love you.
Love you. Love you.