Girls Gone Bible - Jealousy | Girls Gone Bible

Episode Date: November 29, 2024

hiiiii GGB:)   this week we dive into jealousy and the story of Joseph in Genesis. Joseph’s journey to overcoming envy and embracing God’s purpose teaches us so much about forgiveness, resilience, and trusting God’s plan even in the face of betrayal and hardship.   episode starts around 10 minutes.   we love you so much. Jesus loves you more. -Ang & Ari   •    "Beam’s Dream is clinically shown to improve sleep. Click https://shopbeam.com/GGB and use code GGB to shop Beam's Black Friday sale and get up to 50% off.”   JOIN US ON GGB+ 🥹❤️ https://ggb.supportingcast.fm   WE ARE ON THE OFFICIAL GIRLS GONE BIBLE LIVE TOUR! www.girlsgonebible.com/tour for the first batch of cities we have locked in :) WE LOVE YOU AND CANNOT WAIT TO SEE YOU!   if you’d like to support Girls Gone Bible 🙏🏻🕊️🤍 Paypal- https://www.paypal.me/girlsgonebibleinfo Venmo- https://www.venmo.com/u/girlsgonebible

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I want a little sippy. You wanna crack a cold one open for my sobriety? I've never seen you buy these. I never have, I just- Should you already tell everyone that your five years is coming up? Oh, speaking of, this actually might come out on Thanksgiving week.

Yeah, let's do it. Oh, I didn't get you a cake. What are you gonna do? Get me a it. I didn't get you a cake. What are you gonna do? You didn't get me a cake. Our five years is coming up on Thanksgiving day, right? So Thanksgiving day five years ago, you had the little nip sneaking up in the room. Yeah, I put down the bottle.

I wish I could have been with you back then. I was so drunk. You had me nipping it. You're the best friend in the world. Someone honked at me earlier, and I was in a meeting on the phone, you come in and everyone on the meeting heard you go honk at my friend again and see what happens. You know how I say like have the mind of Christ like let's try to like come from love and stuff. I started taking out my ear and someone

was beeping at her for like two minutes. Do not beep at my friend's friends because she will not be having it. Can you please tell me? Mind of Christ, mind of Christ. Oh, what just happened? I always talk about I have to put on the full armor of God before I go in the world, because you know, the world's crazy. Now I have to put on the full armor of God when I get in the car with Angela. You have no idea what I just went through.

In that 10 minute drive, I have sweat pouring down my face. I'm holding on for my, I have to, I'm literally. I'm holding on from right. I have to I'm literally I'm gonna buy a helmet. You're so hyperbolic. She went over a whole curb 7-eleven because somebody took the whole It's not my fault. They took the whole driveway, I couldn't get in She gets embarrassed you drive like you have a truck you have have a regular car. You need to get a pickup truck with the way you drive. I need a big car. I know. Listen, I, okay, my biggest thing, my biggest pet peeve is I hate when people comment on

my driving. It's the one thing that- Oh, she gets so embarrassed. I get embarrassed. I get insecure and I get so prideful. Someone will, I will literally- So I can't say anything when we literally are going over a curb into like a store. We're like driving into a store and you're like, oh, my God, I'm so embarrassed.

I'm like, oh, my God, I'm so embarrassed. I'm like, oh, my God, I'm so embarrassed. I'm like, oh, my God, I'm so embarrassed. I'm like, oh, my God, I'm so embarrassed. I'm like, oh, my God, I'm so embarrassed. I'm like, oh, my God, I'm so embarrassed. I'm like, oh, my God, I'm so embarrassed. I'm like, oh, my God, I'm so embarrassed.

I'm like, oh, my God, I'm so embarrassed. I'm like, oh, my God, I'm so embarrassed. I'm like, oh, my God, I'm so embarrassed. I'm like, oh, my God, I'm so embarrassed. I'm like, oh, my God, I'm so embarrassed. I'm like, oh, my God, I'm so embarrassed. I'm like, oh, my, and I get so prideful. Someone will, I will literally. So I can't say anything when we literally are going over a curb into a store, we're driving into a store. Yeah, I will sometimes. I'll almost do a really bad thing, like a total wreck, and I'll be like, what?

Like what? Nothing, nothing. And I have to literally, like, hum. I have to be like, hmm. And then today, so whatever, I went over the curb, and that's the thing. Whatever, I went over a curb and that's the thing. I have- Whatever, I went over a curb and almost hit a man.

No, there was no man. I have poor spatial awareness and it is what it is. Like I hit the curbs, like the bottom of my rims are disgusting. It's really, really, really bad. It's so- Not only that, but you have a flat tire every other weekend, I wonder why.

That's the LA roads, I promise it's not my fault. There's holes in the road, it's not my fault. There's holes in the road. And then right now. And then we went over a cone. No, no, listen, we're driving, and if I'm being honest, I was eating a barbells and I actually truly didn't see the cone, I'm so sorry.

I'm gonna admit that I didn't see the cone. And I was on my phone, so I was not looking at her. I thought we hit a man. She was on her phone and going, and Ari gets so mad at me when I do something wrong. And she goes, because every time she'll be like, no, I'm done, I'm done, I'm getting out of the car. I hear boom.

No, we hit a cone in the middle of the road and Ari goes, what the heck was that? What the heck was that? You're like, I hit a cone. And then I was like, it's a cone, it's a cone, it's fine. We look back, there's a cone flying around in the air in the middle of the road. And we were laughing so hard. I thought we hit a man. She really thought that we hit someone

and I was so embarrassed and I'm still eating my barbells and I'm looking at her like, it's fine, it's okay. I'm picturing us in prison next to each other in the cells being like, how do you? Hey. I'd be asking them, please just do one more mug shot. I know we already took one, but can you just take one more? I'd be like, I can't eat this.

I need a barbells protein bar. You know my safe foods, guys. You'd be saying that in the cafeteria in prison. I'd be like, how much salt is in this? I'd blow. I'd be like, listen, sir, I know whatever. We can't have anything, but can I just put on a little lip liner?

No, literally. No, we'd be evangelizing. We'd have the whole, oh don't even play. Oh, yeah We'd be evangelizing. I'd have some woman, I'd be a pet to some woman. Dude, no. They would steal our muffins. She'd have me as a little pet. No, I'd protect you. Oh, yeah, sure. You know I'd protect, no, we'd go make friends with all the Albanians in jail

You'd see me under some ladies arm and be like Kissing everyone's butt in there Oh no Ari would be in there being like You'd be no you'd make friends with every single person I'd be scheming trying to get us out we'd escape we'd get caught on the way out We'd be like doing some Albanian tricks, putting holes in the wall, going through the wall. No, my mom would come and bail us out.

My mom would figure it out. Oh, you know, yeah, sort of mine. What's going on? Hi, I'm Ange. And I'm Ari. And this is Girls Gone Bible, we're a faith-based podcast where we talk all things Jesus, mental health, relationships,

anything that you could possibly be going through. I'm sure we've covered it or we will cover it one day. We always say, come as you are, just don't stay that way. You have a God that loves you so much and two sisters who are here, we're with you and we love you and thank you for being here. Great intro. Honestly, I felt the spirit of God on that one.

I feel the Holy Ghost. I feel the Holy Ghost. What's up, my dude? What's up, dude? What are we talking about today? I like it, actually. It's yours. I'm starting to drink black coffee.

I wanna go completely black. Okay, okay, you are. Wait, what? Okay, that's awesome. Why? I don't know. Like not even lattes in the afternoon? I want to be an adult, you know what I mean?

An adult. I want to be an adult. Well, you've been drinking black coffee because of me for a while now in the morning. You literally drink poopy coffee. I drink poopy coffee. No. She doesn't care. She'll drink whatever as long as she can have a couple sips

with the one piece of ice. One piece, you have to wake up, make her heart cure. Tell us the routine for me in the morning. She wakes up, she looks at me and goes, you want coffee? And she says, coffee. And then that's all she needs. She doesn't need anything else.

She just needs you to go make her a Keurig coffee, put one ice cube in it, black, bring it to her with a smile on your face. Pat my head. Oh yeah, pat your head a little bit. And she said. With mascara on her eyes. Why do we wake up like that? Oh my gosh, am I wearing a crop top?

I can honestly say I have not worn anything that shows my stomach in a long time. You guys, have you ever seen the movie Stella's Got Her Groove Back? I need a little Stella Got Her Groove Back? I need a little Stella got her groove back. I am a little bit. You got your groove. Angela, tell us, what do you say? No. Okay, no, you don't say.

No, you know what it is. Okay, let's just be honest with them. I don't care, go ahead. And I've experienced this too, that going from, and we're gonna be completely vulnerable with you guys, going from never being single our whole life. 15.

Like never being single to then God taking us to, into like a very intense season of singleness where he's cut us off from civilization. No male attention whatsoever, truly hidden in the heart of God. Best thing that's ever happened to us. I'm like, I don't know who I am anymore. You lose your oomph a little bit. You I'm like, I don't know who I am anymore. You lose your oomph a little bit.

You start to like, I don't know. I really love you guys. Help me get it back. I'm wearing like oversized sweatshirts. I don't know. I know. That's all I wear. That's true. I mean, it's a beautiful thing. My mom told me. It's for our husbands. My mom told me. She said,

Aria, what were you wearing on stage? You were in this dress, you look like it. I'm like, mom. And he said, you look like the woman from Handmaid's Tale. Anyways, I'm sure you guys go through that, right? I don't know if anybody- No, just us? Okay. I don't know if anybody goes through anything

that we go through. Before we get into today's episode, I just wanna remind you guys that Aria and I are on the Girls Gone Bible live tour. We have had the pleasure and the honor of going around to different cities and we'll be on tour for the next year. I just really encourage you guys to get your tickets in your city and come hang out with us for a night and talk about Jesus and

love on Jesus and love on each other. You can go to girlsgonebible.com slash tour to see the city near you, see the dates, get your tickets, come hang out with us. And one more thing, if you don't know yet, Ari and I are doing something so fun called GGB+. It's basically a platform where Ari and I can go and we do exclusive behind the scenes content. We have GGB plus episodes where we kind of just have conversations that we don't really have anywhere else, believe it or not. We can go even more vulnerable and even more raw. So go to girlsgonebible.com plus and join ggbplus. We are having so much fun and we can't wait to see you on there. Today we're talking about jealousy. A topic that so many of us talking about? Jealousy.

A topic that so many of us have been wanting to talk about and dig deep into. We get this a lot. We do, yeah. Jealousy, it's a big one. Jealousy is something that is one of the most natural emotions. It's something that we all experience,

we all go through it. It's something that we all experience. We all go through it. Envy is a sin. Envy, jealousy, comparison, competition. I mean, these are all things that obviously God does not like. And they also don't feel good for us. Jealousy, I always say, is like the worst emotion in the world. I hate when I feel jealous. I'm always like so aware of my jealousy. I'm always so like, ugh. It's just the worst feeling in the world because most of us, if we feel jealous, if you're aware, like you don't want to,

nobody wants to be jealous, you know? And I think with jealousy too, can come shame a lot of the time because you feel jealous and it is natural even though it's wrong. And then you can feel shame. So instead of like addressing the jealousy, you kind of stuff it down. Yeah. When really what needs to happen is it needs to be addressed. Right. You know. What a gift that you are able to feel that feeling of, oh, this doesn't feel right. Whereas before when we didn't have Jesus, we'd act out and we wouldn't feel that conviction.

And you'd project your jealousy. Exactly. Right. So jealousy is an emotion that's motivated by fear. Jealousy is feeling threatened by another person. It's the fear of being displaced or replaced. And it's a feeling of ill will towards those who possess something that we want.

And I hate it. I hate jealousy so much. I hate that feeling. Yeah, it's the worst. It's going to be a lot of reading today. But Ari and I are like, it's so worth it. Genesis 37, the story of Joseph, the son of Jacob, being sold into slavery. Joseph is one of Jacob's 12 sons and he is obviously the favorite.

Jacob, as you guys know, I think we talked about it, I don't know, a couple of episodes ago where Jacob is the son of Isaac and Jacob had to marry both Leah and Rachel. And Joseph is just one of his favorite sons out of the 12. And it makes his brothers so jealous, so angry, that they legitimately think about killing him. They sell him into slavery instead. And then instead of, and you see the favor on Joseph's life, like I want to do a whole episode on the favor of God, because the favor that's on Joseph's life, because Joseph is a good man who always does the right thing, despite the circumstance that he's in

is absolutely incredible. And so he gets sold into slavery only to emerge as Egypt's ruler and like one of the most powerful important people aside from Pharaoh. He's like Pharaoh's secondhand man. And so it's just absolutely incredible. The story of Joseph, he's my favorite. I love Joseph too.

You know that David's my favorite. What about Job? I love Job. You love Job. I do. So let's just pray. God, we thank you for your word, Jesus, that is more precious than gold.

We thank you, Lord Jesus, for leaving us with something that literally has the answer to every single one of our issues. We thank you for the way that you speak through your Word, and I just pray, God, that you would make our hearts fertile soil, that your Word would fall and take root, that these words would be etched in our heart, and that we would partner with them and they would become part of us, that they would reflect in our life, that we would apply them to every situation. And God, I pray for freedom from jealousy today for all of us in Jesus' name. So Jacob settled again in the land of Canaan, where his father had lived as a foreigner.

This is the account of Jacob and his family. When Joseph was 17 years old, he often tended his father's flocks. He worked for his half-brothers, the sons of his father's wives, Bilhah and Zilpah, but Joseph reported to his father some of the bad things his brothers were doing. Jacob loved Joseph more than any of his other children because Joseph had been born to him in his old age. So one day, Jacob had a special gift made for Joseph, a beautiful robe. But his brothers hated Joseph because their father loved him more than the rest of them. They couldn't say a kind word to him. Jealousy makes you unkind. Jealousy will make it so that you can't even say something nice to somebody.

Jealousy makes it to where you can't celebrate somebody else's success because you're so insecure and envious of what this other person has. I just want to say, so in Joseph's day, everyone had a robe that was their primary outer garment. It's what they wore. But Joseph's robe was something special. It was probably like the kind that royalty wore.

Like usually they were just up to your thigh. Joseph's was gonna be probably past his, it's like his ankle, it'll be down to his ankles, long sleeves and colorful. And this robe became a symbol of Jacob's favoritism towards Joseph and it aggravated their already strained relationship between him and his brothers. So one night Joseph had a dream and when he told his brothers about

it they hated him more than ever. Listen to this dream he said, we were out in the field tying up bundles of grain. Suddenly my bundle stood up and your bundles all gathered around and bowed low before mine. His brothers responded, so you think you will be our king, do you? Do you actually think you will reign over us? And they hated him all the more because of his dreams and the way he talked about them." Can I stop really quick and just say, so in this moment, Joseph is receiving prophetic dreams from God. He is going to become the ruler.

He is going to rule over, rule and reign over everybody in his family, even his parents. But I just want to say that bragging is the worst thing that you can do. If God has given you a gift, a talent, a dream, it is not like that's from God and it's used to glorify Him and never to brag and boast in yourself. And that just leads to so much destruction. Ari and I are huge, huge, huge, huge on not bragging. We're so big on like humility above all else because the second you start talking about your gifts,

first of all, they lose like power, honestly. You know what I mean? Cause it's like, you don't need to, if something is really that good, you don't need to talk about it. And one other thing that we're also pretty big on is, you don't need to tell everybody everything. You don't need to tell everybody what God is speaking to you.

The more voices that you let, like of course you need wise counsel, but the more voices that you let into your situation or like a personal intimate thing with you and God, the more those voices can pollute what God wants to do. So just protect what God is speaking over you, protect the dream that you have,

and don't, because words of discouragement can come so easily. Like you tell someone I have this dream, and they're like, that could never happen. You know what I mean? Yeah, and I think another thing too is when somebody has a dream, and somebody comes to you about that dream,

and maybe it's a dream that maybe you want, right? But understand that he has a plan for each and every one of us, and there's enough room for all of us. It's so true. And I think that's what I always went through when I was younger in the entertainment industry, and I don't know if you went through this too,

but like just, I remember always being on social media and even in the audition if you went through this too, but like just I remember always being on social media and even in the audition rooms when they would book it and I'd be like, oh man, like I wish I could have gotten that and I it stole from me in my life because I would see them get the thing that I wanted and as I got older, I realized there's enough room for all of us and he has a plan so if you don't have something yet, it's because it's not your time. And God is a God of timing. So it's just when somebody has something, just check your heart posture of being like,

I'm really happy for you. It's something God has a plan for me too, but I'm going to be happy for you. So good. But it is natural to feel that. Soon Joseph had another dream and again he told his brothers about it. Listen, I have another dream, he said. The sun, the moon and eleven stars bowed low before me. This time he told the dream to his father as well as to his brothers, but his father scolded him. What kind of dream is that? He

asked. Will your mother and I and your brothers actually come and bow to the ground before you? But while his brothers were jealous of Joseph, his father wondered what the dreams meant. Soon after this, Joseph's brothers went to pasture their father's flocks. When they had been gone for some time, Joe Eacob said to Joseph, your brothers

are pasturing the sheep. Get ready and I will send you to them." And then I'm just going to skip down. So then basically Jacob goes and finds his brothers in the fields. So, and then we're just going to skip over the rest and go to verse 18 because Joseph goes and he meets his brothers who are in the field and this is where Joseph is sold into slavery. When Joseph's brothers saw him coming, they recognized him in the distance. As he approached, they made plans to kill him. Here comes the dreamer, they said. Come on, let's kill him and throw him into one of these cisterns.

We can tell our father a wild animal has eaten him. Then we'll see what becomes of his dreams. Like this is literally deep jealousy that has turned into ugly rage. And how often do you see families, blood and flat, the same blood be torn apart because of jealousy? Families and kids in school. Did you ever experience that in school where you were in school and kids would just tear you apart? Oh, yeah.

Like to the point where you can't even be in classrooms because they're just tearing you apart, tearing you apart. And it all starts when they're kids because they don't know better and they're, you know, it's just so many people go through absolute hell in school with the jealousy. All because of jealousy, which all just boils down to fear and insecurity. It's heartbreaking. But verse 21 says, But when Reuben heard of their scheme, which is his oldest brother, he came to Joseph's rescue. Let's not kill him, he said.

Why should we shed any blood? Let's just throw him into this empty cistern here in the wilderness. Then he'll die without our laying a hand on him." Reuben was secretly planning to rescue Joseph and return him to his father. So when Joseph arrived, his brothers ripped off the beautiful robe he was wearing. Then they grabbed him and threw him into the cistern. Now the cistern was empty. There was no water in it. Just as they were sitting down to eat, they looked up and saw a caravan of camels in the distance coming toward them. It was a group of Ishmaelite traders taking a load of gum, balm, and aromatic resin from Gilead

down to Egypt. Judas said to his brothers, what will we gain by killing our brother? We'd have to cover up the crime. Instead of hurting him, let's sell him to those Ishmaelite traders. After all, he is our brother, our own flesh and blood, and his brother agreed. So when the Ishmaelites, who were Midianite traders, came by, Joseph's brothers pulled him out of the cistern and sold him to them for 20 pieces of silver, and the traders took him to Egypt. Some time later, Reuben returned to get Joseph out of the cistern. When he discovered that Joseph was missing, he tore his clothes in grief. Then he went back to his brother and lamented,

"'The boy is gone. What will I do now?' Then the brothers killed the young goat and dipped Joseph's robe in his blood. They sent the beautiful robe to their father with this message, "'Look at what we found. Doesn't this robe belong to your son? Their father recognized it immediately. Yes, he said, it is my son's robe. A wild animal must have eaten him. Joseph has clearly been torn to pieces. Then Jacob tore his clothes and dressed himself in burlap. He mourned deeply for his son for a long time. His family all tried to comfort him, but he refused to be comforted. I will go to my grave mourning for my son, he would say,

and then he would weep. Meanwhile, the Midianite traders arrived in Egypt where they sold Joseph to Potiphar and officer of Pharaoh, the king of Egypt. Potiphar was captain of the palace guard. I really encourage you guys to read, I mean all of Genesis, but read the story of Joses. Continue on in Genesis 38 through 50. Jealousy can have you do some really, really, really horrific things that oftentimes are out of character. When you let jealousy cultivate in your heart,

it is so much more difficult to uproot it. That's why jealousy is something that you need to immediately, like as soon as you recognize it, you have to bring it to prayer. You have to take control of it because the longer that it's in you, the more damage it'll do. And I think one of the first things that you can do to recognize jealousy is when you realize that you're paying too much attention to other people's achievements. You're paying too much attention to their life, what they have, what's going on in them.

When you're kind of keeping record of somebody's good things that are happening to them, you need to recognize that's not good. You know what I mean? Yeah, I know. Subconsciously, we're like, how are we jealous? We just, if I only had this, if my life was just like this, I'd be happy. And that's literally stealing your joy.

That is a form of jealousy. Like I said before, one of the things that I used to do was I was always looking at the things that I didn't have. I was always on social media. I was always just grieving the things that I didn't have. I was always on social media. I was always just grieving these things of like, well, why aren't I here in my life? Why don't I have what this person has? And it was keeping me stuck.

It was keeping my heart in a position of deceit and jealousy. Yeah. And so changing your perspective, everything is about perspective. Even like where I'm at in my life now with, and I talk about this all the time, of being in my 30s and seeing everybody married and in these relationships. And like there's two different perspectives, right? I'll give you two. I could sit here and be like, Oh my gosh, I look at my friends, they're all married, look at them,

I don't have this, the holidays are coming, I don't have someone to spend the holidays with, I should be here at this point in my life and I'm not. Now listen to this, this is why the Bible says, life and death are in the power of the tongue. Now listen to this perspective. power of the tongue. Now listen to this perspective. I'm single. I have a beautiful family that I get to go home with on the holidays. I have the most incredible friends and this is the time where I can pour into them. I have Jesus and though I don't have a relationship, it's my time to do the Lord's work. I am healthy. I get to travel. I get to wake up every day and not have to worry about someone else. I can do whatever I want. I can live my life. I can travel. I can be with girlfriends.

I can make new friends. And I can spend this time with Jesus. Now listen to the two perspectives, right? And so, when you are constantly pouring out love, there is no room. It truly does cast out jealousy and envy and just deceit. And so, I have really, it's so easy to stay in victim mode and look at other people's life and compare and feel that jealousy. But when we change our perspectives and really look at it at the lens that God looks at it, it changes you. It changes your heart.

It changes everything. And so really speaking life and not looking at what everybody else is doing, because honestly, like I said earlier, now that I look at my life, like I spent so many years looking at everybody else's life and what they're doing and comparing myself. And God had such a beautiful plan that I can't even believe He had for me. And I wasted so much time comparing myself

and being jealous of how everybody else was living when He had a plan for me. And it just wasn't my time yet. And so, really just honoring other people and not feeling like, wow, why don't I have that? And just being like, wow, I'm so proud of you and honoring them and you will feel better. It doesn't feel good when you're looking at other people

in jealousy and being like, oh, why do they have that? Such a good point, R. You're so right about looking at other people. God loves diversity. He loves how different we are. We have different fingerprints. We have different DNA. We are different for a reason. He literally made so many different types of races, so many different types of nationalities, different languages, different cultures, like he loves that. He loves how different we are from each other. So why do we look at other people and want what they have when God made us so uniquely? And we're looking at other people wanting what they have, but they're looking at somebody else wanting what they have. So it's just this cycle of not being happy with what you have

and looking to other people. That's why fixing your eyes on Jesus, as cliche as it might sound, is the most important thing, because when you're looking at Jesus, you're not looking at anyone else. And Ari and I have this really, really interesting story, which is more about comparison. It's not, you know, it's not that we were...

But it goes, it goes hand in hand. Right. You're looking at what somebody else has and comparing it and wanting what they have or thinking you should be like somebody else. Ari and I are so different. We are so, like, our mannerisms are the same, some things about, like, you know, like, we're so similar because we spend so much time together, but really we're so different. And our differences are the most beautiful thing about our relationship. It's why we work as best friends and it's why Girls Gone Bible works. What we bring when both of us show up, we couldn't have individually. You know what I mean? If you came on Girls Gone Bible without me, it'd only be half of what it is.

If I came on here without you, it would only be half of what it is because it's our beautiful differences that make it what it is. You know what I mean? We work so beautifully together. And the second that I look at you and say, oh, but Ari has this that I don't have, maybe I should be like Ari, or you look at me and say, Angela's like this, I'm going to be like Angela, we lose literally the beauty of everything that we are.

That's right. And so Ari and I, we've never said this, but we wrote a devotional that should be coming out in 2025. It was the most beautiful experience of our lives. But we basically wrote this devotional separately. And so she writes her part, I write my part, and it's separate. And then they kind of like put everything together afterwards

when it comes out, you guys will see. But so when I had, we had both spent months writing this devotional, so unbelievably proud, being like, who knew that we couldional, so unbelievably proud, being like, who knew that we could even read, let alone write a book? Like we were so proud, so happy. We loved the work that we did. It was Holy Spirit breathed.

And then when they put it side by side, like every day back to back, Ari and I are reading it together for the first time. We both, you guys, begin to have a mental breakdown. Truly. Feeling the exact same thing. She's listening to mine, I'm listening to hers, and we're just different.

We sound different, we think differently, like we experience Jesus differently, like our relationships with God are different, of course. And so we're reading this and we're like freaking out because I'm like, no, mine needs to be more just the way that Ari is and you're like oh my gosh mine isn't it needs to be like Angela's. We start freaking out and do you remember I literally go hang on wait. I was like listen I have goosebumps. I do too. I do too. I'm so glad you brought this up. I literally was like

hang on are you feeling what I'm feeling and by the way this is the most vulnerable thing that you can do is admit to someone, I think I'm comparing myself to you. Because in that moment, I didn't know if Ari was feeling what I was feeling, but I took a risk to be like, I got to get this out there because I can't let this frustrate me. I said, do you feel the way I do right now? Are you, are you comparing yourself to me? And she was like, yeah.

And I was like, okay, I'm comparing myself to you so hard thinking I need to sound more like you, but this is not right. Right. I love, I'm sorry. I, now that you're bringing this story up, I forgot that you did that. And like, I felt like I could breathe

because I was like, yes, me too. Yeah, well, because I know that God loves confession, and I know that when we're feeling jealous of people or we're being competitive or comparing, He wants nothing more. It gives me goosebumps because it's the hardest thing in the world to go to someone and say, I'm feeling jealous of you right now.

Can we talk about it? But we don't even understand how much power there is in that. I really want to start doing that when I feel like I'm comparing myself and it's making me feel really uncomfortable. Can we talk about it? Because I know if somebody came up to me to do that, I wouldn't look at them as like, uh, that's weird. I would literally be like,

that is the coolest thing anyone's ever done. And you're not a bad person for feeling that way. That's normal. And respect. Yeah. I remember when you said that to me and I was like, wow, that is, thank you for saying that. Cause I didn't, you know what?

I didn't even know what I was feeling. I was like, why am I feeling like this? I'm like, I was having a mental breakdown. We were freaking out. We had spent six months writing this book. We were exhausted. We were past the deadline. There was no revisions to be made. Our editor, I was like, I'm going to call you back. I didn't want to put it out. Our poor editor is like, I've never seen like, they think that we're the, whatever. Anyways, we got to self-deprecating.

It was crazy though. It was crazy. But that's what we've been learning even with Girls Gone Bible and on our journeys. I'm learning with you guys, I'm learning that God does, like I said last episode, He does not make any mistakes. And He's showing me these little things about you that you have hated your whole life, that you were told were so stupid and made you feel so worthless. These are actually the things that I love so much.

And I said to you guys, you guys make me feel so accepted and loved at the things that I used to tear myself apart with. And so these little things that you're like, I wish I didn't have this. I wish I was like smart like this person or I wish I had no actually God made you exactly the way you are. And he's going to use these things for your good. And he has that he's done that with my life. And it's made me love myself. It's really made me love myself because guys, if we don't feel worth it, if we feel worthless,

when God loves us so much, how can we accept God's love? And how can we love others properly when we don't love ourselves? When we don't love ourselves, we're not nice to other people. Yeah, it's so true. And that's why I don't, that's truly why, like where I am in my life now, I don't get offended. Like I don't really have the spirit of offense anymore with other people because I know in my own life when I didn't feel good, I wasn't a nice person to other people. I'd

put them down. I was arrogant. I would nitpick at them. I'd be jealous. And so any time you guys are feeling like, you guys are feeling like, man, why are they treating me like this? Understand it's because they don't feel good inside. Totally. That's so good.

It's so good. And I'll just to add to that, projection is the most real thing in the world. When somebody isn't treating you right, it's because they're not feeling good. And I'll just to add to that, like, projection is the most real thing in the world. Like when somebody isn't treating you right, it's because they're not feeling good, obviously, just like what you just said. I know I've experienced it in my life. And I think the one thing about jealousy, and of course you don't get it right every time, and I haven't gotten it right every time, but like I'm very aware of jealousy. Like I'm so aware of when I, because I really do believe like in my heart of hearts that God made me so special. I believe He made you so special. I

believe He made you guys so special. And so I know, I have an awareness that when I'm feeling comparative, comparison to somebody, like why don't I have what they have or should I be more like them or is this are they better because they have this trait I know that that's not from God and so when those feelings arise in me like I am so quick to be like I have to take this to Jesus because it's okay that I'm feeling like this but at least I can't project on somebody else at least I cannot let this spill over and bleed on somebody else because I'm feeling a certain way. And so you know what I do to actively combat when I'm feeling that way. And I really genuinely do this when I feel feelings of jealousy. I will outwardly

verbally celebrate that person. I will be like, I am not allowed to let this take root in my heart and begin to project. I'm gonna purposely call it out. The thing that I'm feeling jealous of about that person, I'm gonna say, hey, I love this thing about you. I'm honoring you in this. And I'm purposely gonna like say it out loud. And it takes just so much power out of it.

Because if you let it fester and you let it inside of you and be like, oh, I wish I had, it'll make you start acting bad. It does. And so just the best way to combat that is to be like, hey, I love the fact that you are able to do X, Y, and Z. I love that. I think that's so amazing.

You know what I mean? So good. And so celebrating people, honoring people, praising the gifts that God gave somebody else. And that's another thing about jealousy. How can you be jealous of what God is doing in somebody else's life? How can you be jealous? That's like when pastors or churches or ministers, there is so much competition in the church world. And again, you're not a bad person. It's normal. It's natural.

We're all just broken, insecure humans who want to be loved and celebrated and want to be praised. And so, but if you really think about it, if somebody else has a gift that God gave them, how can I be jealous of what God gave somebody? You know what I mean? I know. He all has certain things for each and every one of us. That's why you cannot compare yourself.

You can't be jealous of what somebody else has, because he has a plan for your life. It's so true. You know? And then even if you don't know the person and you're jealous of them, maybe you're go, I don't know what you're, who you're comparing yourself to or speaking hate against someone,

not in a way that you're a bad person, but in a way that you're a bad person, but in a way that you are feeling inferior because jealousy is something that you're insecure about. When you speak, even like gossip, when we gossip, when we feel something about somebody else, it's a projection of how we feel about ourselves. That's all jealousy is. It's something that we feel we're lacking in our hearts.

And so even if you don't know the person and you start, you know, talking about them, gossiping about them, feeling that jealousy, pray for them. It's the one thing that I have really done and it sets my heart free. I will just start praying and sending love to them. Even if you don't feel like it, the minute you catch yourself talking about someone, talking about someone is a form of jealousy. I want to encourage you guys to immediately say, wait, no, no, no, I'm going to start praying for them and say, I send them love, I bless them. Great point R. So good. You're really good about that. You're really good about that about being you You're really good about that because sometimes you'll catch yourself

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Life with Christ is a grind. It's not easy. And it's challenging, but that's what makes it fun. He challenges us every day to be the greatest versions of ourselves. And every day, the way to cast out jealousy is to humble yourself every single day. Humble yourselves anytime we start to get those feelings and allow God to change your heart, and He will. I don't know what was going on. Look how far out your things. And like Angela said, to just to come to the feet of Jesus, when we keep things hidden, it rots in us.

So true. We can act as if we're not ourselves. That's when the enemy, we come in agreement with the enemy, but when we humble ourselves every day to say, hey, Jesus, this is what I'm feeling. Totally. I don't feel like, I'm talking about this person, I'm feeling these ways, can you help me? That's humility, that's humbling yourself before God, and that's a new heart.

That's what it means to have a new heart, to be humble, not to be perfect. To know that I'm going to mess up, I'm going to rear off path sometimes, but to know that God will correct us and put us back because our goal every day is to die to ourselves and live like Jesus. So good, R. It's so, so good. And I feel like half of the bad, I mean, it's just like you can either be intimidated by people or you can be inspired by them. You know, in honor of it probably being Thanksgiving week right now or like coming close to Thanksgiving,

I just want to mention that being grateful is a great way to combat jealousy. Being envious, one of God's commandments is do not covet your neighbor's wife or your neighbor or your neighbor's things. We've said that before, but like, do not covet, do not want what somebody else has. And I think about, like, being grateful is such an incredible way to combat jealousy, because I think about the Israelites are going from Egypt to the Promised Land, and they're stuck in the wilderness for 40 years because they don't stop complaining, because they're complaining about what they don't have. So God is like, I'm not even going to let you move forward into the promised

land. And I think about how like literally God gave them so many things. He gave them manna from heaven. He gave them water from a rock. He literally parted the Red Sea and they walked through it on dry ground. He was doing miracles, miracles, and it just wasn't enough for them. Like it wasn't enough, they wanted to go back, they wanted everything that all they did, they were consumed by everything that they didn't have. And in this case, God didn't let them move forward because of their complaining.

And I wonder what we're not being, what God isn't letting us move forward to because of how much we focus on what we don't have. I think it's such a major block in our lives when we're sitting there being like, but God, why, but God, why, but I want this, but why don't I have this? And he's like, oh man, there's a whole promised land

right here, but I'm not even gonna let you go through it because you're blocking yourself. So true. And so it's just like being grateful for what you do have. I know for me, having a grateful heart is the only reason why I have good things in my life. My grateful heart opens, allows for God to just continually funnel in more blessing, more good things.

Like I know, like literally a grateful heart is actually a funnel for more and more blessing. When you focus on the abundance in your life, because there is, and He promises us abundance. He's not a God of lack. He is a God of abundance. There's more than enough for all of us. There's room for everybody. You don't need to be jealous.

You don't need to want what somebody else has because you have a place, you have a purpose, and it's completely separate. God, like you said, made no mistake when He made you. You're so special, you have a purpose, and it's completely separate. God, like you said, made no mistake when He made you. You're so special, you have a purpose, and you don't need to be worried about what anybody else is doing, because if it makes you feel any better, they want what somebody else has too. And I just, I really want you guys to understand that you're special, you're amazing, because you lack something, because I lack something,

doesn't make us any less than. Because Ari has something that I don't have, does not make her better than me. Because I have something Ari doesn't have, doesn't make me better than her. We're different, we're unique, we're original, and we're special. And I just want you to be grateful

for what you do have on this Thanksgiving week when you're reflecting on things to be thankful for. And there is so much to be grateful for what you do have on this Thanksgiving week when you're reflecting on things to be thankful for. And there is so much to be grateful for. I beg you to just shift your perspective and do gratitude exercises and write down all the things that you're grateful for. And every time you get this jealous heart that is looking around to other people, write down, but what do I have? What are the things that God put in me that are special? And I know that you have a laundry list of things

because you are, you're amazing. You have no reason to be looking at other people and asking why God, why did you make them good? Why did you make them smart? Why did you make them pretty? You're amazing. You have no reason to be looking at anyone else. And so, and I just care about you so much.

I care about the progression of your life. I care about your advancement in life. And I just don't want anything holding you back. And I know that being jealous and being envious of what somebody in that comparison isn't gonna allow you to move forward to where God wants you to go. Yeah, oh, you just said it.

That's, and honestly, what Angela just said, the gratitude list. Start every day writing five things every single morning. And every time you start to feel that jealousy, go back to that and read that out loud. At the end of the story with Joseph in Genesis 50 verse 18, it says, then his brothers came in and threw themselves down before Joseph. Look, we are your slaves, they said, It says, many people, no, don't be afraid. I will continue to take care of you and your children." So he reassured them by speaking kindly to them. I love this at the end because when

he says, don't be afraid of me, you intended to harm me, but God intended it for good. I know that so many people are probably like, I hear it from my friends' daughters all the time they're in school. I went through it as a kid where you just don't feel good because people are just projecting all of these things onto you or whatever you're going through. And I love this because Joseph remained kind. Joseph held himself with grace and didn't try to get them back. He didn't have a heart and heart. He didn't try to throw things back to them. No, he held himself with grace. And that is one of the most powerful things you can do

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It's so true that we have a choice that we can make even in the face of jealousy and pain and even when we're feeling jealous, just like Joseph had a choice, like his life was a disaster from the outside and God blessed him. He had the favor of God on his life because he continually did the right thing, even though his circumstances were awful and he should have,

any of us would have probably not done what Joseph did in every situation. And so we have the ability to do the right thing. And I think it applies to when you're feeling jealous and that when those feelings do come up, choosing to recognize them, be like, I am feeling jealous and I'm going to take this to Jesus immediately. I'm going to offer it to him and I'm not going to project on somebody else. I'm not going to treat somebody badly because I'm feeling insecure.

I think that's one of, that's like my life goal. It really is, is to just make sure that I'm not projecting my insecurities on other people. I'm not letting my shortcomings or my awareness of, you know, what's not good with me, make me then not celebrate somebody else. I can't stay on that. It's just the ugliest thing, even though it's natural. I don't want to feel that.

And so one practical thing that I would just, a way for you guys to pray, like this is what has truly changed my life. Praying, God humble me, God purify me is the most dangerous prayer that you can pray because He'll do it. And my life began to change like a few years ago when I started to pray God instill in me a humble heart, purify my heart, remove any impurities, remove any darkness, any anything in me that's not a view, I want it out and He does. But do you know what he has to do to make that happen? He usually brings it to the surface first. You have to deal with

it. You have to feel it. And then you have to learn how to operate with the mind of Christ and the heart of Christ, even when you're feeling jealous or you're comparing yourself. And he's like, for me, there have been moments where I'll bring to him in prayer, like, I'm feeling jealous and I need you to take it from me. And he, like, his response to me is like, yeah, it's going to come out of you. I'm going to take it out, but I need you to feel it. And I need you to act right even when you're feeling like that. You know what I mean? And it's like a way to combat. It loses its power when you're like, yeah, I'm not going to let you have control over me. I'm not going to let this feeling control my behavior. I am a daughter of Christ who treats people well, regardless of how I'm feeling.

And then it begins to go away. And then that's how you overcome it. Yeah. That's the Christian walk. I love that. It loses its power. We make the decision every day as hard as it is because we're human beings, it will never be as perfect as Jesus. But when we make the decision to push out love every time those weird jealous feelings come in, it really does lose its power.

And you feel better. So much better. Because it hurts. It makes you sick when we are not talking good about people. And when you really, when you're walking with God and you understand Him and His character and the way He loves, you really do want to be like Him. I know. You do. I know. And that's the beauty of having Jesus.

It's that challenging part of, man, I'm living in the world and I'm not perfect like Him, but I want to be like Him every day. And so every time you start to feel like that, that's why repentance is such a beautiful gift. It's turning to Him and being like, Lord, I repent, help me with this. Help me with this. I am not perfect, but help me with this. That's so good. Yeah.

I love, I think that's a great place to end is just in saying, God invites you out of His kindness. He invites us to repent, which Ari said is making a 180, turning away from sin, turning to Jesus. We just invite you right now to repent for any jealousy in your heart, any moment that you have projected your jealousy onto somebody else, any moment that you have treated somebody badly because of your own insecurity, any moment that you've made an idol out of wanting what somebody else has. And let me just say that, you know, Genesis 50-20, you meant harm against me, but God meant it for good.

Jealousy is an evil thing. It's a sinful thing, but God can use it for good. Jealousy is an evil thing. It's a sinful thing, but God can use it for good. I believe he uses our jealousy to reveal idols, to reveal pride, to reveal wounds. Most of the time we're jealous because we're wounded about something, we're hurting. And so just take this as a moment that God is inviting you into a moment of repentance, to lay it all down at His feet, to confess, like, I've been feeling this way, I'm sorry, I repent from it, and God, I invite you to remove it, I invite you to heal it. And you know, if you've never received Jesus before, as you know, we are a Bible podcast, we believe in the God of the Bible.

You know, if you don't know the gospel, it's basically just the most beautiful story, the most beautiful love story in the world where at the beginning of time, there was a man, Adam, who fell and he let through Adam's sin entered the world, but God in his kindness sent down his son Jesus to die on the cross for the forgiveness of our sins. We were once enemies with God and Jesus, his son, reconciled us back to God so we could experience an intimate relationship with Jesus on earth where God literally heals us from jealousy and insecurity and comparison and all these other things. It's really hard to go through life without Jesus and any other God or religion or anything is,'s false and it's dead. But Jesus, in Jesus, there's life.

If you don't know Jesus, you don't know life. Like there's life that you don't know about. And so we want to invite you today to receive Jesus because it's a salvation, is a gift from God that's free. You don't have to do anything because Jesus already did it. So we invite you today to say this prayer with me. Dear Jesus, I invite you into my life as my Lord and Savior. I believe you died on the cross for the forgiveness of my sins.

I believe you rose again on the third day and you're seated at the right hand of the Father. Holy Spirit, would you come into my life, guide me, protect me, love me, and be Lord of my life, in Jesus' name, amen. We love you guys so much. Give yourself grace today. Understand we're all in this walk together. It's not easy, it's a grind, but it's worth it because how He changes our hearts

and the new hearts that He gives us, and our goal every day is just to be the best we can be. And we're all doing our best. And I know you guys are. And we just love you. And we're so proud of you. And we're so grateful to have you on this walk with us. We love you guys so much.

You got this. Anything that you're feeling that's negative, you got this. With Jesus, you can overcome. We love you so much. May the Lord bless you and keep you. May he make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you. May he turn his face towards you and give you peace. We love you so much. you