Girls Gone Bible - Reaching Your Breaking Point | Girls Gone Bible

Episode Date: December 12, 2025

Hiiii GGB!   In today's episode we talk about hitting your breaking point and what it means to finally stop and listen to the Lord. We share what happened at our LA show with Ang and how God used that moment to bring clarity, humility and a reminder of His presence.   We read from Isaiah 43 as we talk about walking through deep waters with Him, trusting His voice and remembering that breaking is often where He rebuilds us.   we love you so much. Jesus loves you more. -Ang & Ari   ORDER OUR NEW BOOK! You can order our new book "Out of the Wilderness— 31 Devotions to Walk with God Through Your Hardest Seasons" at girlsgonebible.com/book   JOIN US ON GGB+ 🥹❤️ https://ggb.supportingcast.fm   COME SEE US ON TOUR: Tickets for our tour are now on sale. Go to www.GirlsgoneBible.com/tour   WE LOVE YOU AND CANNOT WAIT TO SEE YOU!   Beam Visit https://shopbeam.com/GGB and use code GGB to get our exclusive discount of up to 35% off.   Glorify App Guided meditations and daily devotionals to build your faith and find inner peace on the go. Download the app for free at https://Glorify-app.com/ggb.   Kikoff Build your credit safely with a simple, low-cost plan designed to help you grow your score over time. Get your first month free for a limited time at https://GetKikoff.com/GGB.   Dose Daily A daily wellness beverage crafted with adaptogenic mushrooms for energy and mental clarity. Save 35% on your first subscription at https://DoseDaily.co/GGB using code GGB   Everyday Dose Upgrade your morning routine with Everyday Dose, a mushroom coffee alternative. Focus, energy, and gut health without the crash. Get 61% off your first order at everydaydose.com/GGB with code GGB.   CrowdHealth A smarter, more affordable alternative to traditional health insurance. Join a community that helps you save money while staying covered. Use code GGB to get your first 3 months for $99 at JoinCrowdHealth.com   NOCD Personalized, evidence-based therapy for OCD from licensed professionals.Schedule a free 15-minute call with their team at https://learn.nocd.com/ggb   Grand Canyon University Earn your degree online or on campus with programs designed to fit your life.Enroll today and find your purpose at GCU.edu/MyOffer.

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That's nocd.com to learn more and book a free call. Hi, guys, I'm Ange. And I'm Ari, and this is Girls Gone Bible. We are a faith-based podcast where we talk all things, spirituality, mental health, the Bible. We love Jesus so much here. He is the center of everything for us. So if you're here and you're new, just know that we love you so much.

And we always say, come as you are. Just don't stay that way. Let Jesus invade your life and change everything. We're just going to get into it today. So maybe we'll call this episode addressing what happened or something like that. Guys, you guys know, Ari and I have been on tour now for a year and a half. Yeah. This past weekend, we had our L.A. show.

It was our 41st. 42nd, right? I think it was our 41 first show ever. 41 different cities that we've done, 41 nights of me and Ari preaching the gospel on stage for two hours. As a lot of you guys know, Ari and I are completely new to this, completely new to ministry. Neither of us have ever done anything.

like this before, and we were thrown into ministry, not knowing what we were doing and not really being, not really equipped for any of it, but just always trying to be faithful to what God spoke over us. And it was just talk about me, tell people about me, pray for healing, tell them your testimony, tell your story and about what I did in your lives. So we've been doing that for a year and a half. And this past weekend, we had a situation. It was our biggest night. It was our L.A. show. It was the last one of the year. We have been so excited for the L.A. show, right? Like, we are from L.A. We've lived in L.A. for a long time. This was something we were so excited for. And we had a little bit of a situation where we began the night. Both of us were on

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I've been just walking through a lot in my personal life. And the last month, Ari and I have had to do, not have had to do. We've gotten to do a lot of ministry. We've been on tour, finishing off the tour, you know to finish the tour off really strong and um and I've been walking through a lot Ari's been walking through a lot as well and you know I'm learning so much I'm learning so much about myself I'm learning so much about Jesus I think I've probably hid behind a mask of, like, being strong for a long time. And it's a beautiful thing to be a strong person. And then it's also really hard when you don't feel strong.

And so last Saturday we have our L.A. show. when my mom and sister-in-law came into town. And the night before the L.A. show, I went to go get a spray tan, actually. And on my way back, I was having just a lot of anxiety. But it was different than anything I've ever experienced before. I could tell that I was beginning to have probably like a nervous breakdown. Like, I just felt my nervous system shutting down. Like, it was different from anxiety.

Um, and why is this so emotional? Um, because it is. And so I'm like on my way back and I literally feel from the Lord. Like I feel him release me and not only just say that I don't have to do the show, but that I can like that I shouldn't. Like I feel God like releasing me from it. and we've never we've canceled shows before because of like a health situation but we did it kind of like a week prior so it was a little different circumstance like this was the night before we already had all of our tour team flown in it was like a whole situation and i got home and i'm talking to my mom and sister-in-law and i'm telling them what's happening and i'm like i have to cancel the show like we have to cancel it and the beautiful thing in the difficult thing about being a strong person is everyone thinks that you can just do it and you can if you're somebody who powers through everything everyone's just like you can do this so i have my mom

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down in my heart like it wasn't right and I woke up the next morning and I felt the exact same way and I'm like having the same conversations being like guys I don't feel good like I just know that something is going to happen and I was like I and I said it from the morning I was like if I get on that stage I'm going to have to walk off like I just know it I kept seeing it like I literally knew I was going to have to get off and then so um I'm starting to feel a little better during the day. But again, I don't know if anyone's ever experienced anything like this. I've had anxiety a lot in my life. I've had panic attacks. Something was different. Like my body was saying stop. My body was saying no more. And I wasn't listening. And then we get to the venue and

I'm not doing so well. And it's not even an outward expression of what's happening. It's just I'm like, I don't feel connected to myself right now. And so I tell Ari and my team, we have to cancel. And this is like an hour beforehand. We have to cancel. And they're all like absolutely, doesn't matter that we're here, doesn't matter that people are on their way, like we can cancel. And then I get on the phone with some people who encouraged me,

again, out of the goodness of their hearts. This is why you listen to Jesus. listen to Jesus. You know what I mean? It's nobody's like everybody, you know yourself. You know, you know when something's not right. So I get encouraged again and I'm like, yeah, of course I can do this. Like, what are we talking about? Ari and I go out on stage and immediately I'm like, I can't even fully explain what I felt other than I was just afraid. Like I was afraid. I was afraid. I was like, this is not safe for me, from my mental health, being in front of 1,200 people when I feel like this right now. The lights, the loud microphone, like, I'm so overstimulated. It wasn't panic.

It was, like, shut down. Like, my body, after a month of, like, doing so much and running so hard and probably suppressing a lot and just powering through, like, I do my whole life. And, like, I know how to do, my body literally said, that's it. That's literally it. We're not, we're done. And so we're out on stage and we started, we're worshiping. I'm like, before we went out, I told Ari, like, just letting you know, I'm going out there. I think I'm going to have to leave during worship. And I'm sure Ari probably was just like, what? Like, that doesn't even, that's not even real. like that's not can't be the case um we finished worship and i went to go read the bible on stage i couldn't even like see the word like i literally couldn't see the bible i was reading it and

i was so dizzy and so overstimulated and i was like on the verge of i don't know what was going to happen but i knew i had to get off stage like there was and it wasn't even a situation where i could like I'm just going to be vulnerable and like let you guys all into it wasn't like a ministry moment like that it was like Angela get off yeah this is God's not never asking you to do something like this you know and so I'm on there and Ari talks for a little bit and then she stops talking and I'm just like I just looked out to the beautiful 1,200 people who came there and I'm just so sorry to every single person that bought a ticket to come and be with us because this is so not something that should ever happen. And I just said, like, guys, I'm so sorry. I love Jesus

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Remember this moment and we'll get to your part hour. And so, yeah, I just wanted to come, first of all, say, I'm so, so deeply, deeply sorry for every person that was there who came and got a ticket. it and the night ended up not being what you thought it would be. I've learned so much in this situation. You did learn so much in the situation. Yeah. And I'm just going to say that as your best friend, like, you are so strong and you have always powered through. Even when you're just in a hit you will always power through for everyone and you'll just keep going and you'll put your head down and you keep going and so even though that was such a moment for you where it felt like defeat in that moment i know you look back and you felt such peace because you did what god told you to do

which is do not keep going um to see you with the strength on that stage to come on there and to be so honest and vulnerable was probably, that was probably the strongest I have ever seen you. In a moment where you thought that was your weakest, that was probably the strongest I've ever seen you. To be so honest and real and vulnerable, I love you. and i'm really proud of you thanks yeah it's it is so weird um to be in this position like this might not it might i don't know maybe it doesn't sound like that big of a deal for a lot of people but for us for me like this is a huge deal you know to like walk off a stage it was a huge it was a huge deal like we've done this 41 times i i can like i know the word like

i can craft a message on the like there's so many things that i can fall back on and rely on and i just am not a quitter i'm not the type of like i'm just it's it's been it was truly one of the most humbling moments of my life to be like oh my gosh like i don't have anything um to give and i like an old version of me i mean not that i had a choice because i had no choice i couldn't stay out there if i tried i would have passed out in like 30 seconds um i could barely talk i was it was not good and to do that in front of 1,200 people um in the past i probably would have been like so humiliated I know and so embarrassed I know and as painful as it is and like just sad as it is I'm like not embarrassed at all I'm like I don't I just I think when you pray

prayers like Lord humble me like this is unfortunately the stuff that happens and um this is just like a beautiful breaking moment for me where like any bit of performance or image, you know, um, is just cracked open. And yeah, I think even like my presence in ministry or our presence in ministry, like being in any industry, but especially in ministry, there's this like performance aspect and this like perfectionist image upholding. building at like element where like you if you lead people like you're meant to be perfect and strong and I can fall into that sometimes where even in my personal life if I'm going through something I will feel like a fraud when I come on the podcast because I'm like how can I lead

people when I haven't figured it out? And I think God's just like breaking that in me completely. I love Jesus so much and I love his people and I want to be someone who like walks in the power and the authority of Jesus and evangelize and bring millions of people to Jesus and I'm just a human who is like trying to figure it out and gets it wrong a lot. Yeah. And I think that moment of you being so human and showing people like, I have Jesus. Jesus, but I'm broken right now. I'm going through things. It's difficult. Yeah. Like that was such a human moment of, I can imagine people feeling so seen in that moment, being like, wow, she's going through it too. Yeah, totally. You know what I mean? Absolutely. And so I say that to say that, like, you know, watching, watching you and even what things that I've been walking through lately has opened my eyes to be like,

You know, just because we have Jesus, like, doesn't mean we have to have it all together. No. Just because we have Jesus doesn't mean that we can't have a therapist or be on medication or just feel like we're drowning sometimes. And I think a lot of people throw in the towel and they give up because they're like, he must be so far away from me. Like, does he not hear me? Did I do something wrong? What did I do to deserve this? and you feel so alone and you feel like I have to, you know, just, yeah, it just, it's such a

reminder that we go through stuff that seems unbearable sometimes. This is a human experience and it doesn't make you inadequate or doesn't mean that Jesus is far from you because, you know, you're drowning. You can't think straight. You're in a depression that you feel like you can't get out of. And so I, even watching you, I just felt, I felt seen too. Like, wow, she's having a human moment. And I think Christianity can sometimes feel so polished, like so cookie cutter.

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Yeah, you're absolutely right. And I'll also just say that, like, coming from a person who has felt like limitless in a sense, like I just am like you can do anything. You just get through it. You just power through it, whatever, like just feeling limitless. I just want to encourage every single person who has that sort of mentality. like you do have a limit. I have a limit. We all have a limit. And Grand Canyon University is an affordable private Christian university in beautiful Phoenix, Arizona,

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to just power through in ministry and be like... And suppress and suppress and suppress. And I feel like that's what happens to... Like, it makes so much sense why in local churches you're typically taken off platform when you're going through major life difficulties or transitions. But like you and I are the... We run our ministry. Nobody's above...

Like, we have to decide when we stop or when we pause or... You know, yeah, it was... it was a lot. And I'll also say now, like, one of the most difficult parts about it was it's not just me up there. It's me and Ari. And I mean, I didn't even, I couldn't have come up with a plan. Like, I didn't even know my own name. You know what I mean? There was no, I had no ability to come up with a plan or try to set you up. Like there was, I was, I just needed to get off that stage as quickly as possible before something happened. Um, and unfortunately, and the hardest part for me of all of it is, I left my best friend and my ministry partner on the stage. And that was intense. And I'll let you talk about that. I just want to say, regardless, I'm just going to say, we watched Ari pick it up and preach on that stage. Like, it's, you guys don't understand. We watched Ari take over. and accomplish something that is like absurd for Ari to be in that position and regardless of whether I told her or not to be completely taken off guard and then like what on earth do I do now in a situation she's never been in before to handle it like a boss the way she did I'll let you talk about it but I am so impressed and everyone that I've spoken to about it is

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just trying to take care of ang my my whole nervous system was in a state of shock this was one of the biggest nights like you said and um then when we were behind the curtain i knew that you weren't okay yeah so then you got off stage and i was going through so much in my mind of my nervous system was in a complete state of shock i didn't there was so much that happened in that hour and then in that moment that I was trying to like do you guys know when you're in shock and your mind can't catch up with yeah you're just trying to like you don't have time to think you don't know what's going on so your your body is just my nervous system was just in such shock and then I was so blessed to have my friend Scott come up and um it was a moment where I had when Angela had got

off stage I looked down and I literally said it was like my Moses moment. And it was so funny that we just had this episode and I'm like, you are qualified. You can do it. God, push me. And I'm telling you, I had a moment where I said, God, I don't know if I can do this right now. I mean, honestly, you guys, this is my first. I didn't know that I could lead 1,200 people by myself. I didn't have anything planned. So this was incredibly terrifying for me. And I remember. but looking down and being like, God, I don't know if I can do this. And I just felt him be like, go. Like, I'm with you. Like, I just felt him. And I was so blessed to have my friend Scott there who I had come because he was going to pray over people at the end. So I had him come up.

And he talked to you guys for a little bit. And as he was talking, I just took that couple of moments to, get my thoughts together and as soon as I got my thoughts together I was like okay I'm ready and I think he was about to pray and I didn't even hear him say that and so um I don't know I think I might have taken the microphone from him before he was about to pray I didn't I was just trying to survive in that moment and get myself together and I didn't even hear what he was saying and so um I don't want you guys to think that I just took the microphone from him right before he was going to pray. I was myself trying to get myself together. The scripture, I can do all

things through Christ who strengthens me really came alive for me that night because I just, yeah, it was crazy. I don't know. I did the whole show by myself, but I realized that I wasn't by myself on there because you guys were with me and I'm just so, I just love you guys so much. felt so I felt I felt so seen and so loved by you guys and I love you guys so much you have no idea I kept looking at you guys and I'm just like wow I kept hearing one girl say you got this Ari and I know that you guys probably wanted nothing more than Ange to be there so I through all that being said I just want to apologize too and I thank you for for just being patient with me and sitting with me through that. I know I know all of that happening couldn't have been easy for

you guys. I'm sure you guys were in a state of shock. Yeah, honestly. You guys were not expecting that whatsoever. And it's jarring. It's no matter what, like no matter how you guys were so supportive, but I know how hard that was. And you guys were probably just trying to get your head straight to seeing all that happen and seeing Ann so hurt like that. I'm sure that was just so hard for you guys. And so, yeah, I've just, for a couple days, I've been feeling so many things, too. And so I just thank you. Thank you for understanding and thank you for sticking with me through that whole show and supporting me and being my best friend.

She crushed it. I really appreciate it. I know that was so hard for you. And I know that you know I would never leave you. and I would never abandon you on a stage. I would never, like, she would never. I would never. I mean, that's probably been one of the most terrifying things for me.

Not only did I leave her, I don't want anyone to think I left her. You know what I mean? That was. No one thinks that. No one. I think everyone was so, everyone said, they were like, I am, this is strength. I'm so proud of you. So she was getting off stage and I go, no, no, no, no, no.

I was like, no, no, no, no. like I was I felt like I was in a fever dream like there was so much going on I couldn't believe and I go no no no and she goes you got this and then I see Angela walk off and I go I see 1,200 people in front of me and I'm like oh my gosh but it was one of those moments that it's like God is with you yeah like even if you're afraid do it even if you have questions do it yeah and so step by step, he just kept walking with me and helping me. And it was, you know, that was such a crazy moment and night. But through that, I mean, I learned a lot. It helped me step out. It helped me know that I am not, you know, I've dealt with feeling disqualified for so long. And so I think that was a moment for me, too, of God being like, no, you can. You can. And you can too. Anyone who's scared, you can too. God is with you in these moments where you're scared or you don't think you're qualified or you don't think you can do it.

He really does walk through those moments with you when you lean on him and keep asking, Lord, just be with me in this moment. Help me through this moment. I'm so proud of you. I couldn't be more proud of you. Everyone who's there was so proud of you. Me and my mom were backstage after it happened and we're just listening to you and we both have tears in our eyes. and I'm just like, I'm having an out-of-body experience because I'm like, why am I not that?

I'm like, what's happening right now? It was such a weird. It was just a swirl. It was just like, but me and my mom had tears in our eyes being like, are you kidding me? Look at her. Like, are you? My mom was crying, being like, I am so proud of her.

In L.A. is, it can be a lot of. It was one of the weirdest, like, truly guys, there is. spiritual warfare all the time, right? Like, and Ari and I probably at the beginning of Girls Gone Bible paid a little more attention to spiritual warfare than we do. Like, we still are aware of spiritual warfare, but we just spend more time loving Jesus than we do fighting demons. And so we've been to cities like, I remember Salt Lake City was really dark and a lot of oppression and pushback. Um, whenever we're on the East Coast, it's hard. L.A. was one of the darkest, most oppressive ministry nights that we've ever had to do a week leading up to it.

I mean, I truly can't explain to you guys what we were experiencing both of us. And like, I'm walking through stuff, but like even Ari was going. It was we, it was a lot. It was a lot. And so weird things even happen. It was just, it was just a lot. It was an interesting night. I think we're still trying to recover from it and just trying to rest and get our heads. on street because it was a lot that took place. And spiritually, there was a lot happening. And yeah, this just goes to show. And truthfully, Ari and I, it's been three years. God has done so much in and through us. And Girls Gone Bible has exploded and become such a beautiful place for people to come and know Jesus. And it's been amazing what's happened. And

we love our GGB gang so much and we just want to be with you guys and be talking to you guys and make videos for you guys and release that like but we have we haven't taken a break in three years we've taken one week off of the episode in almost three years and people typically do seasons for podcasts not us here we are every week you guys you know what I mean people typically do um and so yeah I think that there's Maybe you've got to be like a pace change for us as well. I was led to Isaiah 43 today, so I just wanted to read it to you guys. And it's, I think it's so good for people that are struggling right now with mental health,

weariness, feeling like you're drowning, feeling like you're never going to come out of what you're in right now, feeling like God has abandoned you. This is one of my favorite scriptures, and I like to read it over myself when And I'm struggling so much in my mind. And when I'm in such a trial, Isaiah 43, verse 2, it says, do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you. I have called you by name. You are mine.

When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned. burned up. The flames will not consume you. For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your savior. I traded their lives for yours because you are precious to me. You are honored and I love you. Do not be afraid for I am with you. It doesn't mean that we're going to go through seasons that it's always going to be flowery and okay, but he promised us is that when we go through these trials, are not alone, that he's with us, that we will not drown, that we will not burn up, that it will

not consume us, that he is with us. And in due time, he will get us out. And I just love how he reminds us because sometimes we need to be reminded how loved we are and how precious we are in. And seasons where we feel rejected and we feel worthless. We feel like we're never going to get out of trial that we're in. It's through these rivers of difficulty. It's through these seasons where we can't see that light at the end of the tunnel is we know Jesus as our father and our Savior, the one who rescues us. If somebody is dealing with mental health, he is with you, he loves you, you are precious to him, and he's using everything you're going through right now to build you and to strengthen you and to perfect your character, and through that you will be a

witness to him. You are his servant. He loves you, and he's going to use it to shine his glory through you. And so hang on. You will not drown. He loves you and he's with you. And you will get through this. It's beautiful. Yeah, guys, we love you so much. We really, really do. I love you so much. Thank you to everyone who's been so kind. And thank you to everyone who you guys are all, that's why I love being a Christian and that's why I love having a Christian podcast because you guys are the most understanding, compassionate, grace-filled people. And again, I'm so sorry for what happened. And I'm also just like, we're all in this together, you know? And yeah, this is life. This is real life. This is when like every bit of performance or image preservation breaks off.

We all go through things. What I've learned the most, I think, what's been interesting. interesting for me is like, I've, like, been through so much in my life that I'm like, well, you know, you go, I feel like as a Christian, sometimes you think you should have, like, you've arrived somewhere and you've overcome all these things and you'll never have, like, once you've been broken, God won't surely have to break you again, you know? And what I've learned is that's not the truth, you know? Like, I think we will forever be, um, broken. and crushed so that God could, you know, can over and over and over again form us. And I think it's just like a really humbling situation to reach a breaking point in a way.

And so just know I'm walking through this all with you guys where I know what it's like to even be going through something and see things from the past, like old coping mechanisms or old habits or old ways of thinking, things in which you've been delivered from and you're freed from and you've been free and you're like, oh my gosh, how am I thinking like that again? How am I doing that again? Why is so just know that life is insane and being a Christian is a mess sometimes and it's really messy.

And so I just hope that anybody walking through anything, I just hope you know that like being messy is normal. I know what it's like to be messy. I feel pretty messy right now. And it's okay. Like, it really is okay. And if you have ever seen Ari and I in a way that is like idolatrous in any way, like, oh, we're these perfect. I doubt anyone actually thinks that.

But if for some reason anyone has ever looked at us, like these big, powerful women of God who are cleaned up and got it together, guess what? we are just like you. We are all children of God being sanctified, transformed, renewed, restored back into the image of God, every single one of us going through the same thing. We are all so much more similar than we think. We're all in the same process of sanctification and crushing and rebuilding every single one of us. So I hope that makes you feel so much less alone, that literally everything you're going through is something that we have to go through as well. It looks different. We're all unique individuals, but every single one of us are going through something and God in all of our situations has the same intention to make us more like

Jesus and to bring us closer into his heart. So, and it's a lifelong journey. Yeah, literally. So we love you guys so much. We thank you, thank you, thank you for being here. Thank you for being our people. bless you and keep you. May he make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you. May he turn his face towards you and give you peace. Shalom, shalom. We love you.