Handsome - Abby Wambach asks about getting back to your self

Episode Date: October 29, 2024

Abby Wambach is a gold medal-winning soccer player, and she also proves to a champion question-asker on today's Handsome, with the first-ever question submitted from someone's bed! Plus Halloween hijinks, swallowing a mannequin, and more!Handsome is hosted by Tig Notaro, Mae Martin, and Fortune FeimsterFollow us on social media @handsomepodMerch at handsomepod.comWatch Handsome on YouTubeThis is a Headgum podcast. Follow Headgum on Twitter, Instagram, and Tiktok. Advertise on Handsome via Gumball.fm.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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and doing some in-person recordings very soon. So keep it handsome and keep it Headgum. Cheers! Cheers! This is a Headgum Podcast. Cheers! Chattin' with friends on the handsome pod. Chattin' with friends on the handsome pod. Cheers. Welcome to the handsome pod. I'm one of your three handsome hosts, May Martin,

joined as always by Fortune Feimster. And Tig Notaro. Mm-hmm. Yeah. Tig Notaro. Tig Notaro. More like Yes-taro. TIG no taro. Mm-hmm. Yeah. TIG no taro. TIG no taro. More like yes taro. Have you ever had that before?

I have. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. But I still think it's very clever. Very clever. Pretty much anything you can think of has been thought of. Isn't that right? Do you think that's true? I sometimes try to think of a sentence that's never been said or thought like a combination

of words that just has never been. I can't think of one right now, but you know, like, well, give it a whirl. All right. Okay, here we go. Twelve minuscule lumps of peanut brittle miraculously merged. Wow. Wow. Do you think that's happened though

about the minuscule lumps? To form peanut brittle? Yeah, like there were smaller lumps and then they all merged together to form one. I bet. Maybe there's someone in a confectioner who said that, I don't know. Yeah.

Well, off to an electric start for me. Maybe it's totally new. I can't say I've ever heard that sentence and I haven't ever thought that thought, but I also haven't heard a lot of things or thought a lot of things. Right, so I am the wrong one to ask. Did you guys know that Halloween is upon us?

I did know, how are you feeling about it, Fortune? I don't know if you knew that, but it is upon us. Do you have something for Biggie picked out? He does have holiday outfits and we will probably be breaking one of those out for a cute picture. He doesn't really care what he's in. Do you think he likes being in it?

I think he's indifferent. I think he does whatever we do, whatever we put on him. He has that stare. Yeah, he's very indifferent. He's got that thousand yard stare. Yeah. He has that stare. He does, he's got a biggie stare. Yeah. Yeah. Stare. He does, he's got a biggie stare.

Yeah. It's really cute. We get candy for the trick or treaters and we do hold him in our arms while the kids come and get candy. You're holding him no matter what. That's true. Do you wear him actually up to the ground?

Do you do like a group costume ever, all three of you? I have done it before. I think I was a California raisin once. And wait, and all three of you were? I think there were many of us. I think it was a large group. Okay. Like a whole bunch of.

Yeah. Bunch of ravens. Incavations. Hmm. How are you feeling about Halloween in general, Tig? Well, we found out recently, when I got together with Stephanie, I learned that she is Christmas obsessed.

Oh. That doesn't match with her personality to me. I'd be shocked by that. No, yeah. Listen, that's all part again to know people. I was a little surprised and yeah, full-blown Christmas and so she goes real hard on Christmas and goes real hard on it with Max and Finn. And we found out this year that they're about Christmas. Oh no. Really? They're just like, it's fine.

It's fine. Wow. That would bum me out if I was really into it. You thought. And you've gone to so much trouble. But here's the thing. Here's the little twist in the story. Okay.

A couple of years ago, Stephanie started to feel like I'm a little about Christmas the story. A couple of years ago, Stephanie started to feel like, I'm a little, hmm, about Christmas. Oh! Yeah. You've all gone off it. She can't believe it. She can't believe that she's like, yeah, it's fine. So wait, so are you moving on to Halloween

to make it the new big thing? Well, we found out this year, Max and Finn love, that's their number one favorite holiday. And I think that I've shared on this podcast that Finn wears Halloween socks year round. I don't know if I shared that or if you remember that. Year round, does not matter what outfit he's in, if he wears a little suit to something,

if he's playing soccer, whatever it is, he's got little pumpkins on his socks. It's a big time for the Yes Taro house. Yeah, for the Yes Taros. And second in line is Easter for them. And then their birthday. Wow, really? I feel like you should have little surveys for them that they should fill out every year just to check up on like the order of. Yeah. I have surveys for everything around this house.

I liked Easter because I, who doesn't love a basket of treats, but Easter for me was synonymous with having to put on a dress, a very frilly dress and go to church. Yeah. That wasn't your style, was it? No, I would get in fights with my mom every Sunday,

like I don't wanna wear a dress. I could go to church, but I wanted to wear jeans. And that was a big no-no. I think that church would probably get a lot more followers if they were just like, wear jeans. Well, now it's more casual. Well, when I went home last Christmas and I noticed jeans and I was like,

now we're talking. Now we're talking. They're wearing jeans. Jeans and buttons. Signed me up for church. Do you enjoy church? No, but you know me, I love a him. I love a him.

And a her. I love a hymn. I love a hymn. And a her. I like any kind of ritual. And I like people coming together and singing. I haven't found a church I love. I'll say that one. Yeah, I'm not crazy about it. I like my hometown one just because they're pretty chill. We were Methodists and Methodists are chill.

But if it were like one of those hardcore churches, that would be hard for me. Instead I get to go sing, Oh Lord my God. It's funny that we're talking about this. Our God is an awesome God he reigns. I get sent a lot of memes and stuff about quantum physics and like the power of intention and our thoughts shaping reality and stuff.

So in a way, like if you're taking the time to pray at all or like light a candle, like you're focusing your intention and your wants, maybe there's a quantum kind of explanation or value to like thinking about what you want. I agree, May. Anyway, guys, tonight I have a show at 11 p.m. tonight, can you believe?

And also, Fortune, what's going on with that hat? Go to YouTube, write this second, go to YouTube right now. Stop what you're doing, go to YouTube. It's worth it. I just figured while people were on YouTube, they might wanna see one part of my Halloween costume. Are you being a leprechaun this year? Oh, this week's being a leprechaun.

Yeah, is that not a leprechaun now? No, no, no, I thought this was Alf. Oh. I have to get an Alf mask, you're good point. I imagine there'll be multiple Halloween parties this weekend, so an elf mask would be good. I just figured I bought, when I went to, you guys remember how I went to Oktoberfest?

While I was in Munich, I bought two Lederhosen's. I don't need two Lederhosen's, but I bought two because you love to shop. Because one was a bit sillier than the other one, and then I realized, I don't wanna go silly, I wanna look legit. You wanna look serious in your Lederhosen? I do wanna look serious in my Lederhosen.

So for Halloween, I'm gonna wear the silly Lederhosen, and this will be part of that costume. I thought it was leprechaun for sure. Oh boy. I think I'm too big I thought it was leprechaun for sure. Oh boy. I think I'm too big to pass for a leprechaun. Disagree. You're an adult leprechaun. So what?

So what? You like my hat? Yeah, I love it. It really suits you. Honestly, I don't like it. If I'm totally honest with you, I don't like it. The green compliments the blonde. It's like almost a Peter Pan.

I don't like it. Or it could be a fedora. You just look like a lesbian. That's it. That's what I go as. Every Halloween I go at, whenever people are like, what are you? I say, I'm an aging lesbian.

Oh my God. Do you think that there are a lot of lesbians still rocking fedoras? Yeah. Don't we know? Probably, yeah. Right in, right in if you're still rocking your fedora. Here's what I wanna suggest.

I would like to put it out there and I would like to see some photos too of you and your two friends, whoever you are, and your two friends are going as handsome. Oh my God. Oh my God. Yes, we need. And it didn't even occur to me that that didn't happen.

Until I saw you in this clown suit. I just. How dare you. How dare you? I have to look at it. Look at you. How dare you? I feel like look at it. How dare you? How dare you? I feel like this, it feels manipulative,

but I do wanna offer like a prize to the best handsome costume. Cause I really want people to do it. So we should think of a prize. Like. Well there's probably something in our merch. How about that hat? They can win fortunes later, Hoson, huh?

Do we send them like a pair of pineapple apart socks or something? I was thinking bigger. I was like, I'll fly to their house. What? The best caught. The best caught. The best caught.

The best caught. The best caught. All right, that's it. Very generous of you. Great costumes. What else do I have? Give me your address. Give me your address, I'm coming over.

What else do I have to do? What else do I have to do? Hello? And then they're like, oh, we didn't think you were really gonna come. They're like, turn off the lights, pretend you're not home.

I love that I started with her handsome socks and you went to, I will fly to your house and hang out. Classic May, classic May. Classic May. Fortunately you're willing to throw some dirty socks your way. May is happy to fly. I'm assuming they're disgusting used, right?

You win used. Sure. Oh. You know what? New socks. No, here, I've got it. I will send Finn's pumpkin socks to you. Well, Finn's not gonna like that.

Yeah, he's not gonna like that. Yeah, he's not gonna like that. Well, he's got endless amounts of pumpkin. He's got 25 pairs. Yeah, Halloween socks coming out of every drawer. Again, I was gonna send new, handsome pineapple part socks. But if you win, you heard it here, you won't be able to get rid of me.

You're gonna be, cause I will join your family. Wow. I just wanna give love and be loved. Wow, now we are different. Now I'm very excited to see these handsome costumes because there's a lot at stake. There's a lot at stake. I could end up relocating to Iowa or something.

You sure could. As long as you can still do the handsome podcast, doesn't matter to us. Why not? Imagine if that's- Please move to Iowa. If you move to Iowa, I think you're gonna wanna continue this podcast

because you might get bored. I think it'll be a bright spot on my calendar. Iowa's a beautiful city, town. Of course. Country. It's a state. I got iced in Des Moines. Iced? You guys don't know what iced is?

Isn't that like assassinated? Do you think I got assassinated in Iowa? Wait, Fortune, that like assassinated? Do you think I got assassinated? Wait, Fortune, were you assassinated? You were assassinated, you didn't tell us? How is this just now coming up? Iced, you guys ever hear of Smirnoff ice? Like somebody ignores you? No. Right?

You get iced? Have you ever heard of the malt beverage Smirnoff ice? Yeah. Okay. So in the Midwest, it was very popular to ice somebody. So what that means is that if someone comes up to you and hands you a smirnoff ice, you had to get on your knees and then chug this entire smirnoff ice in one gulp. Then you iced yourself. You have the choice to do it or not.

Well, I do a whole story about it in my special Good Fortune, where I talk about that I got iced at a show of mine many, many years ago in Des Moines by a lesbian named Linda. One of my own turned against me. And did you know, so you knew about this tradition or did she say like, hey, you gotta get on your knees? She said, hey, she handed me this, she goes, hey, you've been iced.

And the whole crowd went nuts. And I was like, crowd, where were you? I was on my show, a show of mine. And you were on stage when it happened? I was on stage. Oh my Lord. And I was kind of tipsy. This is the only reason I think I agreed to it.

I was tipsy. This was a wild show. It was not at a club. It was at this independent show I was doing at a bar that turned this room into a stage. There was like 400 people there. It was my Chelsea Lately days. So the crowd that knew me at that time

liked to drink and party because Chelsea liked to drink and party. And so they kept sending me the whole show, drink after drink and shot at. My whole bar stool was full of alcoholic beverages. I couldn't keep up with all the drinks that were being sent to me. So I started to drink some of them and I was starting to get tipsy and then the nail in the coffin was... When you were assassinated.

...handed me a smear enough ice and the whole crowd goes nuts and she goes, you've been iced. Oh my God. and the whole crowd goes nuts and she goes, you've been iced. And I said, what does that mean? And they said, you have to get on your knees and drink this. I'm like, I'm not getting on my knees. And she was like, do it. This is during your show.

Yes. This is what this whole bit's on. This whole bit's on my last special on Netflix. I don't want to give it away. But why did you agree to it? Because why didn't you just say step back, Linda? Because you try saying no to Linda and Des Moines. Handsome homeowners, we want to help you save on your home insurance.

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for new home insurance customers surveyed in 2023 who switched to all state and reported savings. Savings vary. How do you know her name was Linda? Just cause she was gay? Hey, my name's Linda. And you've been iced. Been iced.

Oh my God. What did Linda look like? Spiky hair, spiky gray hair, older. This adds up. A leather vest. I said it looked like she might've had a dreamcatcher in her car. Wow, Linda. Oh my God.

And so were you wasted after? You have to continue the show? Yeah, I like, I woke up. You passed out. I passed out. Oh my God. I passed out. Who started this?

It's a thing. Linda probably started it. It's a thing people do. I passed out. Who started this? It's Linda probably started it. It's a thing people do, I didn't make it up. No, I understand, but I'm saying who made it up? Linda. Probably Linda. And also like, why do you have to get on your knees? As part of getting eyes, Tig. I don't know what to tell you.

I didn't make the rules. I don't wanna fight with you. I'm just saying, this is so dumb and weird. Google it. It's a thing. I'm not Googling getting iced. So anyway, my point was that happened in Iowa. So be careful, Mae.

Be careful, Mae. Okay, if Linda's around, yeah, I'm running. What if Linda submits a photo and wins the competition and I gotta go live with her? Linda might. Who do you think Linda would play of the three of us? Me. By Tig.

Yeah. The way you said that, Tig. Me. Fine, I'm Linda. Oh, God. Me. That's me. Can't wait to see people's curly-haired wigs.

What are they gonna have for May? Like spray paint their head yellow. Blonde beaver hair. And like little round head. Or you know what they could do? They could just tape a Q-tip onto the other two people and be like, there's May. Why a Q-tip?

I think I look like a Q-tip and I have that vibe. Okay, well if anyone wants to go. I can't see the Q-tip and I have that vibe. A little round head. Well, if anyone wants to go. I can't see the Q-tip vibe, but. Okay, thanks. No, yeah. I see like a beaver haircut with the hair flip. But if we do see Q-tips out this house, spooky Q-tips. Spooky. Yeah.

This one Halloween, actually Thomas was with us. We were visiting Stephanie's mother when she lived in Rhinebeck, New York. And it was, oh my gosh, it was so funny. First of all, Thomas was very much like only allowing one candy or whatever per person. He was very, you know. And-

You were really disciplined about- Dickler. Wow, yeah. And also Stephanie's mother made us all, I don't know if you remember this Thomas, make these little ghost covers for those dumb dumb lollipops. Yeah. And it was just a white little sheet with two dots

and like a rubber band around it. And we were like, why are we doing this? And she's like, it's fun, because it's fun. And so we're like doing this, putting these little ghost costumes on Dum Dum Lollipops and this kid came to the door and was like, what's this? Totally ruined the vibe. But it was also really funny because I think Max and Finn, they were maybe

two and a half or something. And Finn just yelled Halloween and ran out of the door and down the street and we had to go retrieve him. That's really good. Yeah. That's really good. Are you going gonna go trick or treating this year? I don't know because of my schedule, I'll be in Toronto. Oh yeah, you're gonna miss it. Please go trick or treating by yourself, please.

Oh my God. Halloween is not my thing. And I'm also not like, like you were saying you were in a group costume. I'm not a group costume person. Yeah, I couldn't see you doing that. Yeah, I mean, I barely am able to get into a costume beyond an aging lesbian, but I don't like the,

we're a thing together, you know. This is really throwing a spanner in our horse costume idea. Yeah, that's gonna be hard to pull off. I'll take control of it, so you won't have to do anything except get in it, step into it. I am more than happy to do that, because it's not Halloween, it's gonna be hard to pull off. I'll take control of it so you won't have to do anything except get in it, step into it. I am more than happy to do that because it's not Halloween, it's every day.

Oh yeah, we can't do it on Halloween. No, just for day to day life, clomping around, I'm happy to be a third in that horsesuit. You're gonna give out candy, Fortune? I'm gonna give out candy. I usually go to Tom Papa's house. He always has a big Halloween thing. But my dream, and I talked about this last Halloween,

I told you guys how when I was a kid, I would go to church. They had like a, they called it a bazaar. Yes. I went to a church bazaar around Halloween. Yeah. And they would have the thing where you walk in the circle

and if you won, you got a whole cake. I don't remember you talking about this, but yeah. I'm pretty sure I did. And cause that was where I went dressed as Alf. Oh my God, yes, yeah. Oh my God, of course. When you won, if you, cause it's basically like musical chairs,

but without the chairs, you're on a number. And if it stops on your number, you get to pick out a cake, an entire cake that some wonderful old lady made. And I've not experienced that since I was a kid and I really wanna be a part of a situation where everyone makes an entire cake and I get to pick out one if I win. And what if you don't win, would you be crushed?

Cause you're only, yeah, maybe we rig it. We rig it so you can win. Cause that'd be too sad. If I'm in this situation and I don't want a cake, my dreams will have been shattered. Okay, we can't let that happen. No, thank you. We would never let your dreams be shattered, Fortune.

I really love cake. What's your favorite kind of cake? Yeah. Probably red velvet. Mm, that's good. I love red velvet. I like cheap white birthday cake, like where the flavor is basically just white.

Yes. It's not even vanilla, like just, oh yeah. I love king cake from Mardi Gras. Oh yeah, it's almost like a Danish though, right? It's like a cinnamon roll type vibe, but it is. But then there's stuff in it, right? You might swallow like a mannequin. A baby, a mannequin.

I was just gonna say we should. A full grown mannequin. A baby. A mannequin. I was just gonna say- A full grown mannequin. In a king cake. I tell you this, I do not wanna swallow a mannequin. The cake is in the shape of a man. If you swallowed a mannequin, that would be your choice. You decided to swallow it because you would have so many chances

to not swallow a mannequin. In my defense, you said a baby. There's a baby in there. So a mannequin, a baby, I don't know. Well, it's a little plastic baby or a penny. Sometimes they'll put a penny in there. Worse, worse, I'd rather swallow a mannequin. A mannequin.

But yeah. A penny. Yeah. How are you gonna put a penny in there? It's easily swallowable. I don't know. That's part of the Jeopardy. I wanna bring that back though, hiding stuff in cakes.

Like there was one called a frozen Charlotte that apparently you'd put like a frozen porcelain doll in it. That's not far off from a mannequin. It is weird. Why are you hiding things? Yeah, I don't put anything in it. That's not far off from a mannequin. It is weird. Why are you hiding things? Yeah, I don't put anything in cakes. Like when people talk about proposing and they put the ring in the cake,

I think that's terrible. Yeah, I'm not a fan of that. What are you supposed to eat? Chomp down on a ring? Come on. What are we doing here? So if you're in jail, you don't want me to smuggle you a little saw in a cake.

I do want cake. You don't care about the saw? And I you don't want me to smuggle you a little saw in a cake. I do want cake. You don't care about the saw? I probably will want a saw if I'm in jail. I'd like for you to smuggle a mannequin in my cake and then I'll have just this. A buddy? Yeah, I'll have a buddy in my jail cell. Sounds like this is gonna be a pretty fun Halloween for me.

The only thing I don't want this Halloween, I don't wanna see a ghost. Yeah, ghost. Why don't you? I'm always ready. I don't wanna, I've heard you, the people that see ghost are the ones who are susceptible to it. So they have invited these ghosts into their life,

into their, and I don't want it. I'm not, I don't want any part of it. The only ghost I wanna see are the Yeah Ghosts. I only wanna see the Yeah Ghosts team that our hands and listeners are wearing. No, I've never seen a ghost. Well, it sounds like you are susceptible because you have this fear.

Like you're- Yeah, what if like your fear actually magnetizes them? You guys. Do not invite ghosts into my house. My house currently is a non-ghost house. I think we've talked about this, but I also am like, what is the problem? Who cares about ghosts? Like, what is the worst thing?

A ghost that you can run your hand through them. Like you don't even knock into any. Yeah. You talked about this. They rattled a chain. Ooh. They rattled a chain. Ooh, they rattled a chain. It's like, okay, please. What about a poltergeist is not harmless.

Oh, fuck yeah, you don't want that. You don't want that. You can explode your TV or something. And you don't want, what if a ghost shows up and starts showing you your Christmas past and future? And you're like, I didn't wanna see that. Yeah. Who wants to go back in time? Okay, you're naming, I didn't see that. It wants to go back in time.

Okay, you're naming like some annoying things. Like they blow your TV up, they rattle chains. They, you know. I'll tell you the most fucked up thing they can do is get in your head and kind of start making you go crazy. Like they're going, like you're going, that little girl goes, I was playing with a woman in my room

and she said to go to the pond at night. And the parents are like, what woman in your room? Is this Elmo? Sweetie. Yeah, Elmo. She's like, the woman, she comes every night. She tells me to go swimming in the dark. And the parents are like,

you're having an imaginary friend. You're a real bitch. And then the next thing you know, your kid's wading into the pond that night, going, the woman told me. Where did this happen? I made it up, but that's the kind of thing that could happen.

And also you're in a shower and it's steamy and all of a sudden they're writing in your mirror. Yeah, going fuck you. And that happened to either of you or anyone you know? No, but it could. There are more things in heaven and earth. You know what could happen that is real? We could get our question from our questioner today.

That is, that's real. Yes, we could. Yeah, let's do it. Who do we have? Everyone watches women's sports. I wore this shirt before, but I wore it again in honor of today's questioner. Today's questioner is a gold medal winning athlete, a bestselling author and podcast host

who was named US Soccer Athlete of the Year six times. Not five, six times. She is the highest all time goal scorer for the US national team. Abby Wambach is asking today's question. I have to say really quick, I'm very excited about Abby being on our podcast, who I think is our first athlete.

Is that true? Yeah, that's true. To ask us a question. Well, Stephanie was on. Well, that's true. Stephanie. She played on the pistol shrimps. She sure did.

Yeah, she did. But this is our first professional athlete. No Abby now, which is very exciting, but I was a huge Abby fan for all of her run on the US national team. I mean, one of the greatest soccer players of all time, man or woman. Like watching her play was like the next level, unbelievable.

She had some of the greatest goals in the history of soccer. I mean, she was phenomenal. She was a forward, like a striker. Yes. When people have- She scored goals in crunch times. She like got us these gold medals or championships.

Us meaning? I mean, we're all in this together, right? Right, right, right. They're playing, but I'm watching. Of course, yeah. Because everyone watches women's sports. I'm wearing this shirt because some of our teammates made these shirts

and women's sports is having a big moment that hopefully continues and grows. But Abby was on the forefront of being like one of the first, you know, Mia Ham and then Abby Wambach, these huge soccer stars. But she's an incredible athlete. And so when I got to meet her and got to know her a little bit, I was like so geeked out because I'm just a giant admirer of her athletic ability and what she did for the sport.

It was really cool, really cool to watch her. And she's so funny and kind and smart. That's like quadruple threat. Yeah, now she has a podcast with her wife, Glennon, and they're doing really, really neat things together. And Glennon's sister is on the podcast too. But yeah, Abby is- We can do hard things.

Abby's a real delight of a human. A real delight. Only a good vibe around her. Yeah. For sure. Should we hear her question. Let's do it. Oh, all right. Hi, Tig. Hello, Fortune. Hello, May.

You all are so handsome. First of all, I love your freaking podcast. It's the absolute best. We love listening to it. Number one. My question is this. And as you can see, yes, I am in bed. And it has been a lot going on in our lives. We've got aging parents, and we've got teenage children, and we've got businesses and we've got aging parents and we've got teenage children and we've got businesses and we've got work stuff. And I've been trying to think of a really smart question to ask you guys.

But I think that I'm going to just be more real, like I wanna know some of the methods that you three employ and how to get, cause I'm sure you're all just as busy as us. What are the ways in which you use? What are the things that you use for you to bring yourself back to yourself? I mean, I know we talk about, we can do hard things on our other broadcasts.

And I'm like, I'm kind of tired of talking about hard things all the time. And I think sometimes I forget how to even do easy things because I don't know. I just need your help. I need your help figuring out what it is that you three do. I'm curious if you do things that are similar to me or if you could give me some new things that I can try to do to make myself feel more like myself and less overwhelmed

or stressed or whatever. I love you guys. Thanks for asking me to do this. Finally. Good luck with answering the question. I can't wait to hear the answers. Wow, this is like a direct, give me some advice kind of thing. Yeah, I don't think we've had that before. No. It's a really good question. I struggle with it too.

Like she said, bring you back to yourself. I'm like, I don't know if I was ever with myself. Yeah. Yeah. I think I came out of the womb like a gunshot went off and was like, and I've just been running for my life ever since. Well, it's so easy in this business to get so like consumed with work and the responsibilities that you do sort of become robotic at times

or you don't feel like yourself or you just feel like you're kind of outside of your body going from one thing to the next to the next. So I totally relate to that feeling. Yeah. And it's different. It must be different for everyone what brings you back to yourself because like Abby said, how to make me feel like myself again. So that would be specific to you. Like, yeah, maybe tapping into those hobbies or passions that you had when you were a kid, like that you haven't monetized. Like, I think it's hard if you do what you love.

You know what I mean? Yeah. But do you love to paint or play the piano? And it is interesting to hear Abby say like that she's doing all of these things in life that are stressful. And then also she is talking about hard things a lot. I mean, that's what their podcast is.

We can do hard things and it's a great podcast. And although they are getting into a lot of heavy stuff, it is funny. I mean, they, they definitely find the humor there and they're, you know, there's so much silliness at times and, and that's great. But I, I can relate in that, you know, for myself, when there was kind of a heaviness in my life of being busy and also being in the middle of all of the stuff I was in the middle of when I was sick and everything in 2012. And that followed me for a long time.

Where- Talking about it. Yeah, talking about it and kind of staying in that loop. And even though there's certainly still elements of that that's gonna follow me for a long time, because I'm known for it and because I still am dealing with hard things in that reality, but it's also, I reached a point where I had to stop and think, okay, I put out a comedy special or more than one, wrote a book, had a TV show, documentary, all these different that people can go to and access

for any sort of insight or help that they might think or hope to get from me. But that doesn't mean I have to stay there forever. And a lot of the things that I've been drawn to now is just a lot of silliness. And that's what I had to really get in touch with for myself of like, who am I? Yes, I went through that and I still go through parts of it

and will continue to, but who am I? And I'm like, oh, I love hanging out with friends, talking, being silly, that I love so out with friends, talking, being silly. That I love so, so much. That's a part of me, the seriousness and the hard stuff. But I really, really love laughing with friends. And I've had amazing laughs with Abby and Glennon and with you guys.

And that, I don't know. I feel like that really brings me back because I do think that sometimes you can get caught up in what people expect of you. Oh my God, yeah. On so many different levels. And then you back yourself into a corner and you're like, well, this is my thing

or this is what people need from me. It's what they want or expect. And then you are stuck in that corner and you just are like, I just. Yeah, and you might not realize it's taking a toll on you too because you've sort of narrativized it or you've like made it light, but then

it's still personal and emotional and you know, more to you than the person asking the question and you're talking about this. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. So silliness, big time. Yeah. And I have one of my closest friends, she's Max and Finn's godmother, very, we've been tight since we were children. We don't see each other and talk to each other every day, but I would say she is one of my absolute closest friends. When I see her, I'm like, I cannot wait to see her. I mean, it brings me back to a calming centered place.

Yeah, and a version of yourself that you like. Yeah, and it's just relaxed. And it's every, like we know each other from childhood. We have been through all of the good and bad, and I mean horrendous and joyful together. And you're accountable, these people hold you accountable in life because they've seen every part of you. And I don't know, that centers me.

And I think just in a simple day-to-day way, I like to just take a walk, no headphones, nothing, have my head clear, just look around, look up, think. That stuff centers me. Yeah, bird poops in your eye. Yeah, I was gonna say friends too, because I feel like the older we get, the less we see of some of our friends.

It used to be like my early days in LA, I was with friends all the time and we were such a big part of each other's lives and we're just like always in touch, always at each other's houses. And then when my career started really picking up, and I started, especially when I started touring, I was always gone. So then that stuff kind of fell by the wayside because it just, I wasn't around like I was before. So when I'm feeling a little uncentered or like things have been too serious or too businessy or whatever, like things have been too serious or too businessy or whatever. I have some of those core friends, um, who I can be silly with and we don't all live in the same place anymore.

But if we talk on the phone, they, they just know me in a way. Other people don't know me and you can kind of say anything and be silly. Like you said, and, and that definitely makes me feel good or we'll have brunch or something and you're just like, you're not the comedian or the actor, the whatever person, well you're just like friends and you're sharing a cinnamon roll. Did I tell you about my friend Gabby the other day when I was real sad? And like you're saying, Fortune, they also remember all the times that you've been sad

and got through it too. So it's less alarmist because they're around and they're like, oh yeah, we've been through this before. Yeah. But my friend Gabby, she left the room for a minute. I mean, I was so sad. I was like, you know, and she comes back into the room completely naked and runs around the kitchen island and her for her little body just running around the island. I've never seen her naked before. Like this is

a surreal choice for her. And it was just like to jolt me out of what was going on. And it made me cry. It was so bold. It was hilarious. I never had a friend do that for me. It was so unexpected. I'll do that for you, Fortune. Yes, please. Yeah, that's pretty funny. I like music and guitar and stuff, it's good too.

Yeah. Sometimes mine is the opposite of that. I either want to be with friends that know me and we're laughing and silly, or I just want to be completely alone. Because I do, even though I'm extroverted, I have a big part of my personality that is introverted as well.

And I need to just be on my couch, like biggie in my lap, watching some trash TV show that I don't have to think about anything, fireplace on, just chilling and not doing anything and not having anyone expect anything of me and just allowing myself to just like not work or answer texts, just like being nothing.

Yeah, we're all like that. The muscles in your face are just like totally relaxed. You're just like, I'm not even, yeah, that sounds nice. Yeah, I love that. I love that more than anything to just like, just be a lump. And wait, can Jax be there? Or you just want Biggie? Jax can be there, for sure. Cause she's, we have this giant on the couch.

She lives there still, right? She does. She's on the one side of the couch and I'm on the other. And we're pretty, we talk a ton, but we are also very good about just being and chilling and not doing anything. So that helps me get re-energized by just doing that. I'm doing an improv show tonight and that kind of like I'm so tired and I would love to go to bed

and the show's at 11 p.m. But then I remember our friend Alana Johnston is doing it with me and she's the silliest person I know. And she's gonna come. She is silly. She enters a room like it's like a firework went off. And she, one time we went to Sarah Silverman's party together and- And she's not annoying. No, not annoying. That's the thing is she's a delight.

A delight. And she walked into the room. A silly delight. And she starts going, as she walks into Sarah Silverman's party and I'm like shy, I don't know anyone, and she, and Elena walks in going, I know what boys like. She starts singing this song. Anyway, you have to be there. And did she know Sarah at the time or?

Yeah, yeah, we knew her, we both knew her a bit, but. Oh, okay. I wasn't sure if you were both first time. I think it was our first time at the party, you know? Okay. So we were intimidated and she's just as so fun as a plus one to anything. But yeah, we're doing improv tonight and I just know I'm gonna, I just laugh on stage.

I can't even hold it in and she just does ridiculous things. That goes back to that silliness thing. I also think it's just so, I think it comes with age and experience of starting to say no. Oh yeah, I gotta get better at that. Yeah. Yeah. It's so crucial because you really don't have

to do everything. And you really don't. And it's like, you get asked all the time, like, will you do this charity event? Will you donate money? Will you be here for this appearance? Will you do this? And it's like, you wanna do things, you wanna be helpful,

you wanna be involved, but it's like at what expense? Yeah, better to pick a few and then really put your all into them. Yeah. And really show up and really like promote it and prep it and you know. Yeah, because I feel like some people get that you meeting maybe the three of us and others in our kind of in entertainment

get asked to do a lot of things. And then I think there are other people that don't quite understand that you're not the first person that's asked to, you know. It's, and so you, it's a balance of trying to figure out like I wanna do this, but I don't have time. And I always try to say something like, you know, maybe another time just to keep the door open

and keep it friendly and whatever. But I do think it's so important to do the lockdown when you're just beat to the ground or you just need some time off. What about nature? Like, do you guys go in? I never go in nature really. And I know I have to.

That's weird, because there is a bear behind you. Where? It does look like a bear. What do you mean? Looks like some sort of after the bear thing. Oh, I'm sorry, it just looks like there's a polar bear behind you. I really felt there was a bear behind them.

I really, I really think so. There's no bear. I mean, maybe there is. Somewhere behind you on this planet. It looks like a wooly mammoth. It's a weirdly decorative fluffy chair. Yeah. Yeah. Nature though, I remember going on a hike in the mountains when I was like 20. It was before I had a cell phone even. And we were staying in little guest houses up in the mountains. And it's like, I was the best. No one could reach me. No one knew where I was.

And I was just writing my little journal. And yeah, you like to go off the grid. Yeah. Did I tell you about this thing I heard about the darkness retreat? I think we have talked about it where you go for three days. You sit in the dark. I don't know if you tell me about it, but I've heard about it. And it kind of intrigues me. OK, not me. No, thank you've heard about it and it kind of intrigues me. Okay. Not me.

No, thank you. Okay, two is one. Y'all have fun. You wanna go in, we'll go in adjacent rooms in the dark. I would be very interested. I heard about this probably 10 years ago. This was before I was triggered with claustrophobia. And so I'm curious how I would do now.

And- You have to know that door is open if you have to get out for any reason. Yeah. You just sit in the dark for all day? Yeah, so you go up, the one I saw was like in Oregon or something and it's a little cabin and it's pitch black. And three times a day, someone who works there

is gonna bring you, slide in a little meal and be like, you okay in there? And you're just sitting. And I think maybe you could have a little fire going or something, but you, a tiny one, like you can't see and you're just in there for 72 hours. And when you get out, you're so grateful to be alive, I think. Yeah. I would need to have something in. Yeah. I for this? Yeah, I would pay big, big money for this. But if I were in a dark cabin, I would need to have like a sledgehammer because I think my claustrophobia would be like,

oh, I'd be scared somebody on the other side would be able to lock me in. So that would trigger me. So I'd need something. And I don't actually don't think I'm strong enough to get a sledgehammer. You're like. To lift it, much less knock something down.

I'd be like, ah, my back. Yeah. But just knowing it's there. Yeah. I wonder if we one time did this podcast from a dark pitch black room, the three of us. And how it would affect us. Yeah, like how it would affect us.

People to watch the videos. They would see the fedora. Wait, is this a new fedora? How are they gonna see this fedora? Is this a second hat? No, this is the hat. Well, we wouldn't be able to tell if you were wearing it, it'd be pitch black.

This is why I don't even wanna eat in the dark. I've heard of those experiences where you go pay at a restaurant and it's pitch dark. I don't even wanna do that. I've done that. Oh my gosh. This little light of mine. You know you're.

I'm not a light child. That's what I mean, light. I mean, you're essentially just kind of talking about how dark it is through the whole dinner. Um, and, uh, but what made me laugh doing that, having that experience was how. Probably disgusting the room was that we're in because they have no reason to make it nice. You know what I mean? Because it is pitch black.

They lead you in and direct you to your chair. You can't see anything. And so I found it humorous slash disgusting when I thought about the filth and ugliness we were probably sitting in. You know what I mean? I need to see my food too, because we went to this little burger place,

it's very popular in New York City, and it was super dark, it was really hard to see. Is it McDonald's? Not McDonald's, no Happy Meals. And they're known for their burgers, and we were like, they gave us our burgers and Jax is like takes a bite of hers. She's like, this, I don't know,

something doesn't feel right. And she took like another bite. And she's like, I don't know. And so I had to get out like my phone flashlight. And so we do the thing and her burger's like raw. Oh my God. Like it kind of cooked on the outside, but like super raw in the middle of it.

And it's a dark restaurant on purpose? It's a dark restaurant. I mean, just like the vibe is, it's not like what you're describing, that one of those. It's just like hard to see. And it was like so raw. And I was like, I need to see my food. I gotta see my food. And we even were like, hey, her burger's raw. And they was like, I need to see my food. I gotta see my food.

And we even were like, hey, your burger's raw. And they were like, huh. I love that waiter. So it wasn't a fancy place by any means. They were like, huh. Okay. Yeah. Bummer.

Bummer for you. Yeah, yeah, sorry to hear that. I'm off work. All right, well. Oh, should we hear Abby's answer? Well, I just wanted to. All right, well. Oh, should we hear Abby's answer? Well, I just wanted to say real quick, how does one chill or find that peace when you have kids? Because Abby's house has kids, your house has kids.

How do you find that? Right, but they're at school. Oh, are they? Okay. Yeah, are they? Okay. Yeah, I mean, Max and Finn, we dropped them off at eight in the morning. They go to school till three and then they have these extracurricular activities

that they do after school or if they don't have extracurricular activities, they have just this free play. So that's where you find your me time. Yeah, and so we don't pick them up until just before five. Gotcha. And then we have them on the weekends all day and night, which I don't know.

I just assume there's no peace when you have kids. I guess like, I don't know, it would be hard to have full peace in your mind, because your mind is kind of- You're worried all the time. You got like two little separate minds in your own mind that are just like keeping an eye on those two all the time, you know?

Yeah, and I think there's also those weird moments in life where you're just going along and everything feels good. And then your child lets you in on, you know, a thought or feeling that they had, where you're like, whoa, I didn't know you were thinking or feeling that. Right, yeah. And then that can trigger a concern of,

what else don't I know? Or what do they not even know to tell me or ask about? And then it spirals into, and then when they're a teenager, and then what if when they're off to this and that. Yeah, no thank you. Yeah. But it is all worth it.

I know that that's, I'm sure you're right. Yes, I am. Let's hear whatever you have to say. Maybe she has some advice for us. Okay, so I just woke up from my nap and I guess I'm feeling a little better. That is one way that I return to myself. Nap. I nap almost every single day. It is the thing that I have taken from the sports world

and brought it into my retirement world that, that look, Glenna never, Glenna never participates. She doesn't understand napping. Every once in a blue moon I'll get her in here, but I'm here every day. I also go for walks and I work out every day in the morning, every weekday. Those are things that bring me back to myself.

I like to take a sauna. And really I think that most things that I'm feeling, like the way that I'm feeling, can be helped with a big glass of water. Oh. Hope you guys agree. A big glass of water. I disagree.

I really disagree. Well, I disagree on the napping. I am not a napper. I'm not a napper either. Yeah, I want to know. Are you a napper? I try sometimes a napper either. Mm-mm. Are you a napper? I try sometimes and it just makes me so sleepy after. Cause I think we're probably all three of us

so under slept and like so profoundly deficient in sleep that once you start your body's like, give me 20 hours. It's so confusing to take a nap for me. Waking up and just being like, mm-hmm. Yeah, I get disoriented. What happened? How do you feel about a big glass of water though? I mean, I drink water all day.

I should be better about the exercising every day. Are you still treading? I treaded yesterday morning. Yeah, I do like that a lot. It actually has been something I look forward to when I, I do it a couple of times a week and really enjoy that. I like the idea of taking a sauna. If someone wants to give me an outdoor sauna,

I'd be happy to take a sauna. We have a GoFundMe page for- For Fortune Sauna. Or if someone has a sauna company, I'll take a sauna. Oh yeah, sauna companies listening, send us each a sauna. We'd like a sauna, and then we can know what Abby's talking about. Well, it sounds like Abby knows

how to bring herself back to her home. I know, she's learned some good skills. Yeah, she seems better at it than us, but- She's all set. I'm Yeah, she seems like better at it than us. I'm like, do an improv show. Yeah, Abby, do an improv show. Oh my God, I would love to see Abby in an improv show.

She must be very funny. It is wild to think about professional athletes that they're forced to retire at such a young age. It would be jarring to like, you've spent your entire life being the best at this thing. And to be a professional athlete requires like crazy amounts of dedication and time. And then all of a sudden at like 36, 38,

they're like, that's it. That would be wild. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So you would have to find ways to figure out yourself and who that person is beyond your sport. Like for me, I never was considered. As a professional.

You were never considered for a professional. Fortune were never considered for professional. Fortune was never considered in this life. I was never considered for professional athleticism. Well, and let me take a second to encourage people out there to continue supporting women's sports. Yes. They've made such huge strides and to see these basketball games and soccer games and rugby games and volleyball games, to see these stadiums getting filled in a way that they had not seen in the past. Although our women's soccer team led the charge in this, it's really cool that they're finally getting their due. And we just have to continue to support these sports and these athletes as they continue to do really amazing things.

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