JAR Media Posdact - * t h e r a p y *

Episode Date: August 18, 2025

https://www.patreon.com/jarmedia Timecodes: 00:00 Intro 07:51 Housekeeping 24:35 Alex talks about Mental Health 51:36 Alex calls his Therapist 57:35 Mid Break 58:24 Question Segment: Jim wont Watch Andor 59:38 Venomized Hypotheticals 1:03:05 Daily Rea 1:03:53 Worst Song or Movie I know inside and out 1:06:36 How do you critique? 1:09:12 Favourite Forms of Mischief 1:13:37 Shirt or Trousers First 1:15:46 AI Adverts 1:17:15 Demos and Analytics #SadColdandAlone

Bloody hell! What is happening, everybody? Are you serious? What is happening? What is going on, everybody? Yo, it's me for another episode of this thang! I'm doing another episode of this thing. I'm never going to say thang again, no worry. Um... I'm in a weird mood today. Feeling all over the place. if I'm being honest

If I'm gonna be Really honest Real dash LY Honest Real Not really Real dash LY honest That's how I'm feeling for this episode

Because It's just me It's just your little old boy Is that an oxymoran? Little old Boy Boy implies young Old implies old

little implies nothing about age necessarily when you're first born you're little when you're first old you become slightly littler who knows nowadays I don't

your host Alex no gym today so it's not brocast I don't know I don't know what this is frankly hell you've just stepped into my own

small circle of hell and you're gonna have an awesome time I can see how long this goes usually when it's just solo it is way harder to just keep it on track, keep it going without any silences but you know the little trick I've done this time

I have in my headphones right now playing Jim's gonna hate this lo-fi beats to chill and relax to you so it's just making me relaxed so hopefully that comes across in the way I'm talking to you right now the way it's coming into your ears

and for you the version you're hearing is going to have the chill Jarlcast, brocast, whatever this is, background music that you're used to. So you can just chill, you can, you can vibe there. There's a certain vibe when it's just me. Just me and you, don't tell anybody now. No, that's creepy. I take that back.

Tell everybody. Before we get too deep into the show, let me shout out of those JAR Media patrons. Over at the JAR Media Patreon, believe it or not. They make the audio and show, frankly. Just in general, possible. But you got that audio version. raw unfiltered that damn fresh mp3 doesn't that just roll off the tongue that mp3 love that combination of you know numbers and letters and things you get that ad free every week over on

the patreon that's not all in the first or second week of each month you get your patron names read out if they're not too uh extreme uh we have the final approval on that one um well i'm getting a suspect Expected scam from my phone. Shall I pick up? Oh, they hang up on me. Thanks. Thanks for ruining the flow. That's fine. Getting into a flow state's not a challenge or anything at all. That's absolutely fine. Whatever. Yeah, the patron names. First, second week of each month.

If you're a debbyter or above, we did them last week, so you'll have to wait till next month, which is not sure. I don't know where I am. most of the time and I especially don't know what the month is let alone the time or the day of the week so congrats on all of you out there that do know the day of the week and the approximate time in fact let's just give you a little clap for that nice one you're doing great you know I never just stop things to remind you just how awesome you are and how great you're doing Unless you're doing badly in which case I'm sure greatness is right round the corner

Maybe I should just become a platitude podcast Yeah when it's just me it's just platitudes only You know things can be hard but I don't know if you just believe And your friendship group is right Everything will be okay in the end These plats rolling off the tongue like The amount of platinum trophies that I have on my PlayStation

I don't have many platinums, actually I was more of an Xboxer back in the day but I'm getting distracted, right? Jaffa Aours, the other supplementary, just beauty show. Like kissing a baby on a cheek, you know? It's like kissing a freshly born baby on the cheek, if you know what that's like.

Quite nice, they have a certain unique scent. That's exactly what Javter Aours is like. You got, what do we do last week? What did we do last week? Ah, we talked about Blazing Saddles, the Mel Brooks comedy from the 70s, very funny stuff. There's all sorts of variety content on there. There's watching The Lost Family Guy pilot.

There's me reading Diary of a Farting Creeper and humiliating myself. We talked about that South Park Trump pilot episode, the Ben Shapiro Superman Review reaction. And while there won't be gym attached to this episode, the Jaffer hours will include him. And I think that's something to do with Eldon Ring Night Rain, which he has been teaching me the ropes of, and it's a very, very good game. So check out Jaff to Hours over there, see what's up. And last but not at least, I guess, actually, I suppose there's two more.

Jarm Media group chat. I feel like I'm condescending you, describing what a group chat is. It's a Patreon group chat. You get access through any tiers on the Patreon. Question everything, learn nothing, shirts and mug. Flying off the store shelves, I tell you. Head over to the Jarm Media store if you want to have a look at those. And just remember, question everything, learn nothing.

Question everything. Learn absolutely nothing. That's the motto that we live by. That's just kind of the vibe of this episode too, I'm feeling. And yeah, last thing for housekeeping, we move into some of those questions. the monthly vote for which after hours video to be made public is live over on the post tab on YouTube head over there

I think so far the Ben Shapiro Superman Review reaction is winning by far but there are other options on there Will the Farta will be seen by everybody one day when you have the guts when you have the coordination when you have the uh what's it cool the hive mind when the jarlings combine into the ultimate hive mind and prove what's up then not only will my nipples be lactating like they are right now but you will have a fresh video on your hands

see sometimes when i just let my brain take over and i don't think about what i'm saying i'll say embarrassing things the nearly 10 years of this podcast goes to prove that right the humiliation, the learning, all of that, the embarrassment, frankly, of clips of you speaking from 19, if not younger, in some circumstances, all the way up to 30, 31 now. Lots too much, in fact. I don't envy. At least I got to be like a late teenager. if I had access to this kind of stuff when I was like 10 Oh Lord, some of the stuff that would be out there

I'm sure some of you can relate Um So speaking of comments and leaving cringy things You bloody charlids have been on fire Um I've only got two from the group chat Because I was like Look listen

I'm by myself Frankly I'm thinking about bringing up some serious subjects still toying with it as I record right now. You know, serious, as far as JAR can be serious. Which depends. It ebbs and flows. We're like a naturalistic sort of organism, you know? We're like a single grain of water flowing through the sands of time.

What I really like this one, though, from Shelman. Well, it's lowercase S. capital H, so is it S. Hellman? Don't know. Don't care. But he says, honestly, mate, I suggest you do a little bit of this and a little bit of that too. That's really helpful. When I saw that, I was like, you know what? S. Hellman, you've given me the confidence to just go for it.

And, you know, I did say at the beginning of this, I am going to be alone for most of it, and sad and cold. especially sad especially sad but we do have a special guest coming on and it's going to be exciting it's going to be a remote call type situation but I'm actually going to call my therapist and just see how that goes

you know he's a bit of a legend we've got that legendary therapist banter if any of you mental health experts out there know what that's like you know Hardcore banter is usually what it's known as. I'm in that space. But before we get to that, we got more housekeeping to get through. Like this one.

From Darth, jar, jar, jar, jar, jar, ha, ha, ha. And this one actually is, like, unironically a bit more serious. So put your serious caps on now. All right? Stop what you're doing. Calm down. Get rid of them smiles because you need to be neutral for this to listen and take this in with the gravitas it deserves.

A little bit of a rant, not specifically to get on the episode or anything, but I'm currently in a period of my life where I'm finally going through some positive change. That's nice. I'll be going to university in September and will be finally moving out of my grandmas, where I've been for six years now, to live in a house with other students or I'll hopefully stay for the three years. I'm planning to never come back home during or after. I've been very limited on how I've been able to express myself these last six years and the last couple years have been especially difficult as I've been. coming to terms with being trans and not being able to find myself, sorry, to be myself in my daily life, except for sneaking around. And that's been very suffocating.

With finally moving out, I'll be able to look how I want and do what I want without the stress or worry of being judged by an old woman, still love her, and her partner who voted reform, hate him. I'll be able to start H.R.T, which has been on my mind daily. I've been really waiting for this. would appreciate some advice from jar or any other jarlings as I'm going to be studying sorry living independently for the next three years and hopefully beyond and studying at university thanks to anyone who read my yap I read your yap I don't know why you had to include

a little bit at the end that was kind of strange and difficult to read um no yeah this is a it's a big change a big time for you clearly Um, you're not going to know what to do with yourself, with that freedom that you're going to get from uni. Hopefully you've gone to a cool one in a cool city or whatever. But yeah, you're not going to know what to do yourself. If you've been living in this situation for six years, not being able to self-actualize, express yourself, it's going to change. It's going to change things for you. Not that I have been to university, but friends and family that have and talking to them.

I wouldn't get too attached to the idea of living with the same people it takes a lot of people like a year or two to find a crew or some people don't at all for their journey through uni and just wind up living with whoever it depends on the city where your circumstances how social you are and all this kind of thing but I think just that it's just what a good excuse for a place to reinvent yourself to start again almost to yeah be able to

to express yourself the way you want to. Not even specifically just through a trans lens, although that's obviously a big deal for you, but like, my cousins who have gone to uni, they've only been there a year or two, and the amount they've changed and learned and grown is

evident alone on its face. I'm sure you'll have a great time. That's a bit of positivity. It's get us going there, isn't that? Everything. Old man diabetes, as a comment. I like how Alex says, season four and Jim gaslights him into thinking he says season three classic Jim so yeah yeah

my memory is so terrible I will often assume if I'm being corrected that oh I probably did say it wrong I'm not going to spend all this time like arguing that no I did say it right because I probably did say it wrong um but that obviously leaves me very extremely vulnerable to vicious gaslighting like my brother is frankly known for so And I see someone's on my side for once. Just for once in this damn life, in this damn world. Okay, that's not very chill, relax. That's a bit more intense.

But Ratman Zodiac says it breaks my heart that Jamie keeps forgetting his most iconic quote ever. Regret what you do, not what you don't do. Sure, he stated that it wasn't his words directly, but I literally live by those effing words and try to implement them in situations where I find myself being overwhelmingly indecisive. I also reciprocate those same words when others face dilemmas of their own. If those aren't the most tough as shit based as fuck words I've ever heard, left the human mouth. I don't know what is. And Dr. Worm official replies that saying,

I've been living by this too and have forgotten it was from JAR, OMG. Now, just to clarify, I'm pretty sure it's not from JAR. That's like one of those philosopher quotes that I'm not sure who to directly attribute it to. but is uh definitely something said before jim was born but i'm sure he'll take the credit that's fine but that is also just a true quote you know like one of my favorites is a wise man knows he knows nothing probably said that countless times on this very show but like regret what you do not what you don't do it's kind of a truism you know just something that in your downest dumps those ruts, you know, in the rollercoaster of life when you're in a down moment.

Maybe that is one of those, you know, what's the inverse of a platitude? A truer, truitude? Just a tude. Yeah, that's one of my favorite tudes. No plats going on here. James Lowe says, I assume it's not that Kevin Smith, quoting, I think, me in the last episode. LMAO, Alex, you were in for a surprise. This was during, I think, Daredevil comic recommendation.

or something like this. And I said, I assume, that's not Kevin Smith when they were talking about the writer. But surprise, surprise, I guess, I mean, he's dorky enough and I knew I knew he loved comic book stuff, but I didn't realize he'd actually written, I guess, runs or parts of runs, or I would need more detail on that.

I'm done full in-depth research on that. I don't know if they're well-regarded. I've never talked that much about Kevin Smith online. because I don't know, I feel like I kind of missed the boat on some of it. Some of the late 90s, early 2000 stuff I did try watching, but I just felt like it just missed me, passed me by, and I felt like a, I'm sure this really would have hit a certain time and place, but me right now, you know, like Star Wars jokes and I did see Zach and Mary made a porno, make a porno.

I had like a whole Star Wars thing. All these dorky stuff is injected in there And his weird attempts at blockbusters I don't know Let me know your thoughts on Kevin Smith Because I really don't feel that passionately I've probably spent more time Listening to him

From like clips on his podcasts And various things like that Than actually watching his movies Outside of yoga hosers of course My favorite Um Right let's pivot back to being serious again. I mentioned the idea last episode of we had this person create a throwaway Reddit account

called the throwaway jarling where they talked about their experiences being raised in a homeschooled kind of way in what I assume a rural part of America with quite traditional parents as they phrased it and I said something to the effect of this level of homeschooled. Child abuse effectively isn't really possible in the same way in the UK, but had a few people writing to correct me on that I've got two here Erin B. Bo Berry says Alex mentioned that in the throwaway Jarling circumstances that they just couldn't happen here in the UK Unfortunately, that isn't the case. My mum pulled my younger sister out of school when she was 12 to

quote homeschool her and ended up with a very very similar to what the throwaway Jarling described. Our mum had to have check-ins or some kind of governing body at the end of each term, but from what my sister has sold me, they were extremely lenient and would let them off for not meeting criteria with little to no punishment. My sister became extremely isolated and refused to even come to family events, spending all of her time online. Myself and my two other siblings moved away. There's quite a big age gap between us and her, so we had no idea how bad it was until I went over one day when it was just my sister there and saw it for myself. I won't get into the horrors of it, but I demanded that

my sister, come with me that night. She has not returned to our mum's house since. After living with my elder sister for the past two in a bit years, she's now 16 and gets her GCSE results this month. So hopefully a happy ending there. She's lucky that I guess she has older siblings that care about her in that way and that sucks to hear that I suppose that any system's going to have people that abuse it and use it in ways that it, you know, aren't supposed to be, uh, interacted with. But yeah, that's a shame. Um, and there was one other one from, uh, who rhythmic. UK social worker here, unfortunately in practice, it does happen that kids are just taken off the grid by parents. The American homeschooling movement, I guess through

social media, has got a lot more popular over here. Social workers put together a plan to try and get the kid a life and involved in actual education, education slash healthcare, slash fun activities, but it's often not enforceable unless it's really extreme abuse. I've met a couple of kids who aren't allowed out of the family sphere or really out of the house. I do think that isolating your child like this is a form of abuse 100%, and there should be more powers to stop it. In specific circumstances, I'm not against homeschooling flat out, like traveller kids not going to school, but going to lots of events and playing out I'm not too worried about.

But in my experience, homeschooling is used as an excuse to control and isolate the child and a lot of parents doing it and not putting in the organization or the research into the child's education. The social side of school is also really important and love the cast by the way. Love that insight. Shout out to all you social workers out there.

So important, so underappreciated for sure. Doing the real work while I'm sitting here talking into a microphone. Yeah, that is sad. I guess it's just one of those things that I didn't want to be. believe was uh could be in that sort of state that it is but obviously it is um yeah i don't even know what to say just sad upsetting bringing the room down might as well continue huh might as well

continue got two more here before i go into my uh i guess my main topic i don't know this one's just looser okay i'm just going off the gut however it feels i don't know how serious i want to get but Like, some of you guys have already defined that for me. The media gatekeeping conversation reminded me of this guy I met in college. He studied film and wanted to break into the industry after school. But this guy exclusively watched Marvel and DC movies exclusively. I don't expect everyone into film to be a cinephile, but man, he taught like he slept through his film history course. It was so bizarre.

Yeah, you're always going to find people like that, right? I don't know why they would necessarily study film, if that's all they were really interested in. You probably get further, just reading a bunch of comics and writing and drawing your own stuff on your own time. I don't know. I didn't go to film school. And yeah, we're talking about the idea of gatekeeping, especially. I've known a bunch of people that have gone to film school, I've heard a bunch of conversations

through them, heard about some of the types of people, and you hear like comical, every horse you do is going to have like the stereotype person that is that exact film bro that's from the, you know, the starter pack memes, they wear a dark night shirt every day, you know what I'm talking about. In the same way that like someone that's studying something like maths, you know might be trying to do everything in their power to go against hype you know be as cool as possible everyone's going to have like these different characters in there specific classes and whatnot there's just something specifically about the film dude you know the film bro i guess

everyone's in like a different stage of their uh film enjoy a journey like yeah when you first see the dark night and it's like oh this is my whole personality now actually i don't apparently that's not even really happening in the same way anymore because like kids being born now they they don't really care about the dark night or whatever in the same way they probably like Batman in fortnight more than the actual Batman movies or whatever you know I don't know I think I'm old I think that's kind of what I've learned from this um but yeah Don't let it get you down. That's fine.

If he just watches Marvel and DC, just, uh, when it comes to his opinion on like French new wave or anything remotely strange, or not formulaic, like a Marvel DC Cibir a movie, then, uh, yeah,

I would just caveat that. Um, and last one at least, Scott Overton, 7353 says, Hi Jar, I'm effed drunk can. I say hi to Les from New Zealand love from Ireland hi Les I hope college is going good

I don't know why you did this through jar um at first I thought when you said Les from New Zealand I thought maybe you meant Lex Alex me then you'd be saying hi to me in which case hi but I know that's not what you meant I know I take the high back but that was me taking it back um so yeah man I hope Les I hope college is going for you Les wherever you are I guess New Zealand my home okay this is going to be a sad one

this is going to be a sad one I don't know so uh how did I want to address this right I'm thinking about recording something to do with this in some form I just didn't know where to put it or what to what to do with it you know

I think a jail would be a good one but I was mostly thinking like maybe I should just make this a job after hours you know tuck it away but maybe it should be in a more accessible place how about that because I know that a lot of my a lot of my mental health stuff a lot of my journey in discovering myself was aided by people I would listen to other podcasts where the hosts would open up sometimes and just mention something about their experience and a few of the times that had happened in a way where it felt like my feelings or my experience was verbalized by someone older than me but was describing

my experience and it felt like oh I've never heard that type of thing explained in the way I was which helped as like a launch pad for my own discoveries about myself my own thoughts about the way I tick. I like to I guess intellectualize my way out of everything. That's my kind of quirk which has is pros and cons.

If you want to like logic spock brain your way out of every situation you are going to get gridlocked at a certain point. It just straight up doesn't work for everything. We're complicated things you know. And like I said the roller coaster of life

when you're in one of those low points before it starts going up again um those are like the true tests sorry am i going with this what am i trying to say i guess i was in one of those low points on the roller coaster towards the beginning of the year um just trying to figure out what i am what i'm doing what is my place in this world what am i what am i just just needlessly existential um and i'm asking myself these kind of questions on a good day let alone when you're at the bottom of the roller coaster um so i i started this journey of trying to get some actual real um i guess medical help for my situation whatever my situation is we always joked about on this cast specifically over the years an era of um my life called

the crackhead era right a very low brow kind of i guess insulting way of putting it really um where i just i just say things i just not think and to me that was like the entertaining part of it was like what what crazy things are you going to say next he's so unpredictable um but that wasn't like just when the mic was on, that was like, uh, just my thought process, like a, a chaotic, um, lack of direction, lack of, um, I don't know, just thriving in chaos, right? Lack of order or structure. And I've really noticed that about myself, um, that I can't really have order

outside of like within the world that I know like the last couple months for example on my second channel I-G-TV I've been daily uploading on that which is like a new thing for me I've never done that before and that structure as far as like well I've got to have an upload every day I can't just tinker away on one thing and start on another thing and just get lost or whatever, like, I've got this thing that I've been doing.

And I set myself aside one month to be like, just do it for one month. So what happens. Like a rigid goal that I can't go out of. Then I did it, and then it's gone into 16 days of the new month. And I just hadn't stopped that cycle yet. I described myself in one of these videos talking about this kind of thing as momentum-based. And I feel like I build up in. to this like momentum this swing um and i got to hold on to that momentum because if i lose it

then it's like all that focus is gone and it will be redirected into something else something like completely random but i just have these short obsess obsessions with things right um like i'll just become obsessed with propagating plants for like a couple months but then i'll kind of stop caring about it um or like just a random food item or a gimmick drink and stuff like that um i've done that for so long i've kind of brought it down into this term that i just called dopamine farming um i'll dopamine farm through like video games through music even like if i find a new album or track that i like i will listen to it on repeat like a thousand plus times um so i know where like every note is the like intonation

and uh the usage of a voice or whatever um and yeah do as i describe as like farming it farming it for all its essence for all its juices drinking it all up um But the more, yeah, the older I get, the more I've thought about this, analysing my behaviours as objectively as possible. Seeing like, I think I just, I just behave differently to like a normal person. I just am. Which I used to, like, carry a lot more self-loving, loathing. Used to carry that a lot more as far as thinking that it was a bad,

thing that perhaps you carry yourself differently, you think differently to a lot of people, you just don't find yourself agreeing with a lot of people. You don't have like your your thing, your specific community, almost, which I think is part of what I get out of doing jar specifically um this kind of micro community experiment with like semi like minded people it's a pretty chill community which is something i really like um well yeah we'll have our disagreements now and again but for the most part we're silly goofy like joking around but we'll have like serious discussions now and again people can get real i like that um but it's just i guess the underlying thing is it's just it's just not that serious you know um where was i going with all this

where was i going yeah yeah the beginning of this year i guess reaching this sort of like breaking point where i like man i just can't i can't deal with this whatever i'm doing ain't working effectively um just like knowing inside that i've got to change something you know Would it be just like obsessive thoughts, self-medicating, just bad things? So I thought, right, let's go, let's see a doctor, man. I've seen a counselor before. This was a few years ago now. I went for a good year, year and a half or something.

Found that very useful. But I went for reasons kind of unrelated to this stuff. At first I thought it was unrelated to this. Something I won't specifically get into, but by the end of talking to a counsellor for that long, and they were kind of nudging at, yeah, like, maybe you should get, like, screened for something. A lot of these things you're describing are super common

of this, this and this, but I'm only a counsellor. I can't, like, uh what's the word i'm looking for diagnose you as anything um and i've been in i've been in this place for frankly years where like i'd like some diagnosis of something not not so i can necessarily just medicate myself with something to try and um hide away or whatever but more so to to just understand how I work better so I can just make adjustments. So it's just a bit smoother.

And I'm the perfect age range where these discussions around sort of neurodivergency and this kind of stuff was only discussed or acknowledged in children in the most extreme circumstances. so if you're causing like an issue for the class of what the average class size for me was about 31 32 um if you're the one like stereotypical little ADHD boy that literally cannot stay still i cannot fidget they got attention um or you know people that were so disruptive to a point where they basically had to get attention um those with more of an attitude or style to me that I guess figure out how to mask in certain ways or when I would have issues I would hide them which from what I understand is more of like a stereotypical like a woman or girl experience with a that kind of thing because they tend to be sort of more socially aware

So if they have some kind of neurodivergency, they can often adapt in ways that a little boy might not be able to. I'm not a doctor, by the way. This is just like what I've learned through my anecdotal experience, what I've learned through my own personal journey and everything like this. I still don't know, even though I've spoken to a doctor that I paid a lot of money for, but we're getting to that. We're getting there. So yeah, I figured With just all my experiences Talking about that anxiety video I made

Forever ago when I was in my early 20s I always just figured I've got anxiety It kind of begins and ends there But nowadays I don't know I think that might be Not at the top of the pyramid that's causing it Maybe that's a trickle-down thing Maybe

It's in junction with something else maybe there's something hooked onto the side of it I don't know I really don't know but I yeah I reached this low point

figured yeah I need I need to talk to a psychologist if possible then I guess I learn about the process and this only applies to the UK

this is what I'm talking about but I'm sure I mean we're going to be talking about demographics later from all these places that are in the top five, top ten most listen countries to the cast they'll probably all relate to this experience where it's just useless

anything to do with mental health is useless you can't do it through it's at such a ridiculous point where you can't do it through the NHS you can't go public really unless you're willing to wait I think for what I was looking for was an ADHD screening right

which I think is at about minimum five years now five year wait so that's enough time where it's like you're in a completely different part of your life is almost like completely useless to have to wait that long so I was like you know what I'm at a point

where I'm willing to just pay like I want to pay somebody just talk to me let's screen this right and that was its whole process in and of itself too and I basically just wound up feeling like I've been scammed maybe I wasn't litigious enough maybe I didn't do enough research but I don't know it's that it's like if you're in a position where you feel like I'm okay today I don't need to look into this right now so then you don't you put it off but then when you're doing all this research and doing all of it when you're in like a rut type situation, your research isn't going to be as good, your logical brain isn't just going to be

in the place that perhaps it needs to be. So I'm just kind of stuck in these endless catch-22s. So I started going through this list. I have, I've got like Bupa health insurance. I've had it for a couple years. You obviously can't do it through that either. I think the year before I started paying for booper they took off anything to do with mental health so you can't do it through that and I wouldn't have been able to use it for that anyway because I went to the doctor

for anxiety when I was a teenager so that's on my permanent record as something that's pre-existing and that's often how these like insurance claims were not that work not that would have helped in any way in the end anyway so

through Bupa, I got a list of private psychologists that would do screenings. Tried three or four of them, went to all their bespoke websites and everything. I think three of them had already put big pop-ups on their website saying, don't contact us for anything to do with screenings. We don't do that anymore. Frankly, there are too many of you. Because that's another thing that I'm constantly thinking about is like, I see the stuff people were putting on TikTok and Instagram and whatnot and the self-diagnosing thing where it's like, what is the line. I'm not, none of us are doctors.

We're in a position we don't have access to enough doctors. There aren't enough even being trained in this field to keep up with the demand. So what are people going to do? of course they're going to start forming these communities around it, having these discussions that might not be the most science-led. So it's like a complete mess. If you look just on TikTok alone at the search results, the amount of results that come up for things like, you know,

helping diagnose with autism, helping diagnose with ADHD, anything like that. There are heaps and heaps of content farms. stuff telling you kind of what you want to hear so I'm acutely aware of that and I want to be able to navigate it in an honest way without having a conclusion already in mind and trying to just find evidence to suit that already made conclusion

instead of just what is honestly my experience which is harder than you think actually um spilling my drink all of myself so yeah I I managed to get through to it was some kind of mental health hospital in Bristol or something over the phone

I finally got connected with someone who was like yeah we can we got two options for you right now buddy you can go into London on this specific day and we can do a screening for 950 pounds

or you can do it remotely for 800 or 850 I can't remember I think it was about a hundred quid difference insane amount of money both of them but I figured whatever like getting into London's going to add another 100 quid at least for whatever and all the time that it take to go there whatever I'll do it remotely so I do this remote call with this doctor and just the whole time the vibes were just off um my gut was just telling me that this ain't right within about five or ten minutes of this call which lasted about an hour i'd heard that the proper when these things are done

properly they take like two three hours it seemed like um not to throw shade at this specific doctor or whatever but he had his like dialogue tree down he seemed like he seemed like had he got a pretty nice business going of funneling people desperate people who i guess have some money to throw um into basically fast tracking them to medication that's all he gave a shit about all he was talking about but my whole thing was that with that was more like i'd be curious to like try something but only in a specific way uh more so to just prove things to myself outside of um looking for to that as an end result necessarily um i was more interested in the you know the the therapy side of it the uh the psycho side but it yeah it felt like a speed

run of like you know if you just google ADHD symptoms and you just kind of went through all the symptoms asking about those but in a really bare face like do you want me to just like lie because so much of it too the evidence that he was looking for was based on childhood records which as a 31 year old i don't really have much in that department uh that they're looking for uh like school reports that say you were um disruptive or could never pay attention uh you'd forget your lunchbox this kind of stuff uh which i would do but like there's no record of it because i was so just quiet made my strat was to just make myself sort of invisible um try and blend in as much as possible uh and then yeah when you're looking at

these Venn diagrams that have ADHD and autism and all the stuff that overlaps and it's like, well, my experience is mostly on this side, but also I do these things and also things that aren't in either of these Venn diagrams. And, you know, a lot of it is focused on like the attention side of it. But I can, I can pay a ludicrous amount of attention when it's something that I genuinely love or care about or want to do. But I just like can't instigate something when it is admin or like just something I don't want to do, you know, like get my tire fixed or something like that. Something that realistically would take five minutes, like a five minute phone call,

like just filling out a form on a website, like just to do and get done. And that's got me in trouble a bunch of times. Like, before I had, like, my direct debit set up for my council tax or, um, I don't, I genuinely don't even know how this happened, but during, it was during COVID, like, 20, 20, 21 to 2022, I somehow wound up paying for, like, two or three car insurances. I don't even know how I did that. That's pretty embarrassing. But I've had, like, tons of different examples like that throw.

my life um and i guess there is something idealistic or hopeful about the idea of maybe it doesn't need to be that way maybe maybe my life has been needlessly difficult for something out of my own control in a way that there could have been assistance or helpful but i just didn't know and i've had to go on this 30 year long journey with a roller coaster dips so low that it would have been awesome if those dips could have been just a little bit higher even if they're still low that's fine everyone's going to have low points when they're a teenager and that kind of thing but i just feel like i don't know where my stuff comes from honestly i don't even know what to even give you as far as what i'm talking about like um because i got all these theories uh it could be some kind of neurodivergency

thing it could be anxiety depression could be um i'm obsessed with this idea where when i was very young I moved around a lot. Right. And not just like moving around the country, like moving around the globe. I left New Zealand when I was three. Quite a formative year. Obviously it's going to be insanely stressful with your parents. And Jim, it was a newborn at the time, moving across the globe.

And I have memories of being in New Zealand. But then like nothing until when we moved to Jersey Island for a few years there before moving back to the UK. So at least two or three pretty big formative moments for me as far as like, yeah, there's being three years old and going through a big stressful life change like that. That's going to do something. Then maybe that is expounded. Is that the right word? When I think I was towards the end of year three in the UK, I don't know how old that is for Americans,

moving back from Jersey Island to the UK mainland, where I've been since. I haven't moved since then. But I see a direct correlation with that experience and this like hermitty, recluse sort of obsessed with security

and safety thing that I have that kind of adds up and makes sense to me as to partially why I am maybe the way I am I'm just trying to unpick that

what is good about that what is bad about that because you do need to period be going out of your comfort zone and not get too comfortable um because both are bad you know in extremes if you're going out of your comfort zone to the point where you're like getting in danger for like some kind of thrill that's a negative thing but also it is when you're a recluse to the point we're not interacting with anybody we are not doing anything um but i've never been

too extreme on either of those way more leaning towards the recluse kind of side um But yeah, trying to just find some answers to it. And I guess reaching a point this year after having this just pointless scam event with this so-called doctor. Like, oh, I didn't trust for a minute. I don't know. At first it was like, oh my God, I'm not going to be able to get any help, huh? Because I'm also like really bad at explaining it in the moment. I feel like

I don't know Once you've seen a counselor for a year or two You sort of have a rapport there And they have a certain understanding of you But jumping in With a psychologist Um For even like two or three hours

Doesn't seem like enough To get what I'm looking for And I guess I just don't even know what I'm looking for I don't Um But I don't know I find it particularly interesting how It's just a pattern I've recognized over the years of being in like the YouTube space and seeing

People come and go and the types of minds it attracts Obsessive Yeah obsessive people for sure Like their numbers like some sort of Routes routine that's on their terms quite loose as far as that like whatever works for you you can make work it's uh it's not like an office a traditional office environment something like this and i don't know i don't know man i'm seeing patterns everywhere dude

so i don't know there's maybe uh maybe when the algorithms get good enough i can just upload the thousands of hours of recorded content of me talking online and everywhere and see if it could, if, you know, the AI can diagnose me at that point. My guess on that note, I can call my therapist

because, I don't know, I feel like it might help bring it full circle. You know what I'm saying? So hopefully you guys can hear him. I'm going to call him up and see what happens. Hello, can you hear me? He looks around for the source of the unknown voice.

Yes, I can hear you. Who is this? It's me. You're... I'm not the therapist. You're my therapist. I'm your client? Your therapist?

He quirks an eyebrow. And what makes you say that? There's a moment of realization, followed by a side. from Tony O. So this is another hallucination? That's just great. No, not a hallucination. You are my therapist. And you promised you would help me today. Tony shakes his head and leans back in his chair, rubbing his temples. I don't recall making that promise, but fine. What do you need help with? Do you think I'm neurodivergent or just normal? Tony takes a moment before answering his expression becoming more serious

I can't give you a definitive diagnosis without more information but to answer your question being neurodivergent isn't considered not normal it's simply a natural variation in how the brain works thanks Tony but what information do you need to find this out because I probably have more luck with you than the NHS Tony lets out a small chuckle slightly amused. Well, we need to look at how you process information, communicate, and interact with others. Do you find it difficult to understand social cues or pick up on non-verbal communication?

You know what, Tony? I don't actually struggle with that. I've never struggled with that, um, in particular. I feel like I can read people quite well. Tony raises an eyebrow a bit surprised, but intrigued by your self-perception. Hmm, that's interesting. How about your emotional regulation? Do you find it challenging to control your emotions or experience intense mood swings? Now that, yeah, I'm way more in line with that. I get crazy mood swings that can be instigated by small and insignificant things and you get stuck in a thought spiral. Tony nods his expression thoughtful. That's something to consider.

Mood regulation difficulties are a characteristic of several neurodivergent conditions, but they can also be present in individuals with no specific diagnosis. What about sensory issues? Do loud noises or bright lights bother you more than they seem to bother others? No, this is another one I don't relate to. I'm fine with annoying noises. In fact, I've been editing audio for so long that annoying repetitive noises do nothing to me. I'm almost unannoyable by that sort of thing.

You know what I'm saying, Tony? Tony can't help but let out a small laugh at your self-description. It seems your tolerance for annoying noises has reached. an unmatched level let's explore one more area focus and attention do you ever struggle with paying attention to tasks or do you find yourself easily distracted i'm definitely easily distracted but if i can funnel that distraction into something i'm interested in then it's like a superpower how about that tony you like that tony grins amused by your enthusiasm harnessing focus through areas of interest is actually a strength

It's called hyperfocus, and it's common among individuals, both neurodivergent and neurotypical. He pauses for a moment, considering the information you've provided. You've shared some aspects that can be aligned with neurodivergence, but remember that diagnosis require a comprehensive evaluation. There are many factors to consider. Well, can't you do it? Your doctor's Tony Stark, aren't you? Tony rubs the back of his neck, a bit taken aback by your request.

I'm not a licensed professional, you know. And even if I was, I'd still need comprehensive assessment tools and a thorough evaluation. He looks you directly in the eye. But just between us, based on what you've told me, you display traits that could be neurodivergent. However, self-diagnosis can be misleading and inaccurate. I appreciate that, Tony. I appreciate you thinking about me, being honest with me. But I need to ask you one more question, though.

Tony nods expecting the question go ahead ask away Can you spoil the Doctor Doom link Why is he being played by R.D.J? Tony is caught off guard by the unexpected question Wait a minute, is that what you meant? The Dr. Doom film? And it's being produced by DJ Khalid. He takes a deep breath, looking visibly uncomfortable.

I'm no expert on the film's development. But Dr. Doom is supposed to be a complex and layered character. If DJ Khalid's involvement leads to a simplified portrayal, it could undermine Doom's true potential. Okay, bro. I think you might have a bit of ADHD. You're not paying attention to me right now. Tony looks at you with a mix of annoyance and surprise.

Excuse me. What are you talking about? I'm listening to you perfectly fine. Thank you. Whatever, you hate a nice hater. Well, that goes to show, man. AI therapist for everybody. I'm not condoning that.

In fact, I think there was some rule recently changed about it because it is becoming a genuine problem for this exact reason. I should have had the green goblin be the therapist. Right. I'm going to see you after these messages. what's up jar media and joyers a new height merch drop is inbound question everything learn nothing hit to the store you silly billies yeah welcome to the second half of whatever this is it's just me just me talking to you talking to me talking to you um if you got this far into the episode comment please i absolutely know you absolutely didn't mean it however you Absolutely must be more intentionally absolute. I've got 12 questions here that I plucked from the suggestion thread over on the JAR media subreddit, not FNAF.

Don't mess around on FNAF unless you want to get into some problems, which I know some of you do. Bayblading can start us off here. GM, if you don't bloody watch that bloody Andor so you can make an is Andor as bloody good as they say, I swear to all that is bloody, turn off that bloody shortcut from running versus bagging video and watch the bloody show bloody I'm right there with you man he's trying to he's trying to make all of us forget and steady's like oh I'm gonna watch daredevil born freshly anew again bro bro and I get it like trying to get somebody to watch anything Star Wars related in 2025 that's a battle that's a challenge but he needs to be saying he needs to

wants to rewatch all of season one it's like brad just watch season two man you got to get on his case go on to his latter boxed reviews and leave comments about watching andor you won't see it but and he has no other social media so uh that's probably the best we're gonna have to settle with i'm afraid it's so good though oh my god it's so good i might rewatch it again before he does and then i'll do a review with me and me doing an impression of jim on the other chair reviewing it and I'll just pretend to be Jim in the same way he pretended to watch the Minecraft movie I mean what

I'm clean living baby has our next one Beja bar joys I've got a little spider for you who would win in a fight Venomized edition What does he mean a little spider for you I just kind of understand it though I just kind of gutterily understand what I get in it

I guess I got to choose between who's going to win in a fight with these venomized additions Venomized doggy versus venomized Billy Venomized doggy No doubt No bias there either Dog

versus 1,000 venomized rats The venomized rats win Obviously Silly questions Foolish Venomized guerrilla versus Venomized 100 men The men are venomised

together into one venom Um The 100 men win One gorilla's not enough 100 men Venom is from one man A hundred venoms O-P

Nostalgia Critic versus A Venomized Wall Hmm If it's a venomized version Of Pink Floyd's The Wall Then that would win But if it's just the nostalgia critic Venomized against any old wall

I think the critics got that down got that down pat or whatever they say whatever the idiom is I'm actually going to find that out down pat is that what you say have something down pat

yeah have something down pat origin the phrase down pat likely originated from the word pat which in older usage meant a precise or well-aimed, blow or strike. Over time, Pat evolved to mean something exactly right or perfectly suitable.

Like smacking someone really hard. Etymology is so interesting, isn't it? Our history is so warped. Um, where was there? Privatized NHS versus Venomized NHS. I think the health outcomes would be better with a venomized NHS. You know? Doesn't he, like, as long as they're eating,

chicken or chocolate or something you could keep everyone alive yeah i'm gonna go with venom venomized eddie brock versus venomized venomized venom venomized venom duh venomized tom hardy's acting as mad max versus venomized tom hardy's acting as venomized eddy brock i think a venomized mad max would destroy a venomized eddie brock who's a cartoonish and annoying man-child where Mad Max can actually get things done. And finally, Venomized Tom Hardy's stunt double, acting as Mad Max in Furiosa, versus the Octobos

with Venomized kite. What? Who's Octobos? Am I being stupid? Oh, the Octobos, yeah, from Furiosa. Okay. I am being stupid. Ooh, okay

I feel like Octobos with Venomized is unstoppable so yeah I'm gonna go with that Bjornow pizza has the next one Do you have any tips

for someone who has daily diarrhea I brought a sample to my doctor and he kicked me out not sure what to do next well if you've already been to the doctor it's already uh uh oh time uh oh you're in danger time

um What am I going to say? Maybe get some cillium husk. That's something I learned through the cast. I thought it was someone trolling me. But they're just little fiber capsules, that's all. Apparently people don't have enough fiber. And apparently I agree. Sillium husk is quite, it's not yummy.

It's quite dry, if anything. But it does the job, I guess. Maybe you need something more binding in your diet. How about that? Bjorno. Rated DG30. asks what's the worst song slash movie you can quote perfectly now if we're outside the realm of you know your obvious imagine dragons you know only one of us

could dig in a line and it's not you um you know cutthroat any any number of their bangers spin a wheel with them um or lmf ao or Black IPs, all the classics, of which I can quote weirdly well. There's another one, a film, that I can quote in a way that makes me want to vomit. The energy that I put into memorizing this stupid bad movie. I mean, an awesome movie.

But that bandwidth I could have been committing to algebra or like an instrument or something that would be useful to me in the future is not lost on me, right? Tukuwa! He's got more rocks in his head than a poem of Torn. Takuwa!

Tukua! Tukua! Tukua! Look, Puckoo! That's why. I, they call, me, the Chronicle. I bet no one's ever recorded this before. Takua, what are you doing down here alone?

We're supposed to be at the Coli match. Oh yeah, sorry, Jaller. Hang on a sec. I've got to check out that totem. You're hopping across lava to look at a stupid warning totem? Do you know what Taruga Vacama would say? irresponsible now come on be right there very impressive now let's go tokuah get out of there oh jaller look a great Kanoi mask I'm just

gonna leave it that for you I could do the whole movie like that if if you're if you've got the guts. Let me know if you recognize that. Some of you will and it's going to be like a ratatooey eating the ratatooey moment. You know what I'm saying? Spiritual carib 2609. Has a genuine question for you guys. How do you critique a movie? How can you tell if a movie is truly good and how do you genuinely put it into words? I feel like each time I finish a movie that I like, I can seem to find the words that describe how much I like it. And I can't for the life of me get into why I like it in detail, though, which is an issue I'm trying to figure out the solution for.

You want to get good at anything, you just kind of got to do it again and again and again and again, you know? Like, one of the things I wanted to get out of starting Sardonicast all those years ago, where it's not only just ragging on like the worst of the worst movies, but finding a vocabulary to talk about the stuff you love as well because it is a lot of the time harder you know like what when you put on the godfather and you want to say something about it hasn't been said a million trillion times before there's almost more of a challenge there than the admittedly fun ragging on the new war of the worlds or whatever one is definitely harder

than the other um i would just recommend note-taking it's always easier to expound on a note than trying to sift through memories that maybe came into your head while watching something. Obviously it's a lot easier when you're in the comfort of your own home or an environment like that where you can't always be taking notes in a theatre or anything like this, which I do sometimes, but I much prefer the experience at home where I can pause something or rewind something or as I was going to get at. The second watch of something I feel like is the real litmus test for if something holds up,

if it has a through line, if it can pay off things that you didn't notice on a first watch because it was so dense with information or secrets or foreshadowing or all sorts of things that are the joy of movies and filmmaking. But you frankly, like, you just got to do it. Like, I would give that same advice for most questions that are just like, how do, how do you do a thing? You just got to do it. You're going to be like garbage at first, but the more you do it, the more things you pick up, the more patterns you start to recognize, the more, uh, kind of tropes you see and whatever it may be.

Um, and you can figure out your own niche within that. No project, 593 says, favorite forms of mischief. I'm partial to harmless mischief It's one of my issues of ghosts And goblins and that kind of thing You know where they're just They're just a pain It's annoying

Like it's not even funny to anybody at that point Like it's such a delicate balance With like the annoyance thing Like yeah you want to be annoying You want that mischief You want to like You want to be a mischievous annoying presence but know when to cut it off before it's like okay

now I actually don't want to be around you because the level of mischief that you're introducing into this environment into this space is actually starting to stress me out okay but that's a learning process you know like here's an example right there's someone I know

who um for maybe the first three years or something of knowing this they told me that they didn't know how to swim and just couldn't swim so every time

I would do something with this person I would make sure right let's make sure that there's no like water involved in this you know if we're going to go on holiday or we're going to go on a trip somewhere let's make sure there's no water because that's like a hazard to us now knowing that you can't swim you're a grown adult that can't swim okay that's fine we'll deal with it then like years later they reveal to me as what i think they thought was like an epic practical joke

mischievous moment revealed that the whole time they could in fact swim um so i guess instead of me being like that's really funny man that's awesome you got me good it's more like oh so all of those like swimming related activities that could have been on the cars it just weren't because of something you thought was funny um i don't know let me know if you think that's uh an awesome joke or not but that that that's a just a former it's like maybe a week maybe a month but like to hold on something like that for years that's just a level of like unhinged mischief that i can't get mind um or another one another one right with the same person i'm not going to reveal who it is but um their dad bought them a mug right just like a corny mug with like a sausage dog on it then this person's

dad, I guess they took this sausage dog mug and hid it again for about a year. So in that year time span where the mug had been stolen and hidden away, a replacement had been bought, the exact same mug in this time frame where it was assumed it had been, it just gone missing. So then a year goes bust. And the sausage dog mug comes out of its hidden place. And it's revealed that it was an elaborate practical joke the whole time. I'd hidden this from you for a year.

So then it was more like, oh, again, not really very funny. Just kind of annoying, because now I've got two of the same mug. Isn't that epically hilarious? So I think there is... Some people know how to do mischief and sundown, you know? It's not like a natural gift to a lot of people like it is to someone as legendarily mischievous as me, you know? So, I don't know, my favorite forms, when they're just on the border of going too far, but then stop. That's definitely my favorite form.

Yeah. But that takes, that takes some training, it's rough. It gets rough out there. Loptical asks, when you get dressed, do you wear a shirt or trousers first? Rip Flute said, Alex puts trouser on first, then his tighty whitties on top. And Alistair 13 says, I like to Winnie the Pooh before I put on my trousers. Yeah, I have one of my obsessions, one of my many obsessions, alongside tracking surfaces.

uh things like this is making sure i'm making sure my area ain't needlessly moist you know i don't want to be trapping moisture in with my tidy whitties all day long so maybe i'm going to winnie the boo let things air out for a bit you know i want everything dry and clean and just nice breathe breathing you know i'm I'm not going to hop right out of the shower. Everything's still wet and just that's what mushrooms like. You know, mushrooms love that shit. They're obsessed. You know, I can't be doing with that.

So I want to protect my tidy whiteies. I want to protect my trousersies. My pants. So I probably put Shelt on first. Then go Winnie the Pooh for, what, two, three, four hours till I'm completely bone dry. Then the rest can go on. if it hasn't already gone too late to where I might have just fallen into bed and started hunk showing you know who knows who knows there's

lots going on hmm I said I'd do 12 but I'm starting to feel fatigue so I don't I'm gonna keep going no I'm not gonna do that one I'm sorry I can't or that one no I'm not gonna do 12 um I'm gonna do those to either because I Honestly, right, fine. I'll do this one. Do two more here. Let's round this down with two more. Bebo Baby says, what's your opinion on AI adverts? Recently, almost all of the ads I see on TV slash YouTube slash other social media recently use AI. It's creepy, lazy. It makes me not want to buy the products. And I'm right there with you. It's getting creepy, man. Like just for that bit I did. earlier with the Iron Man Therapist I downloaded the app onto my iPad called like character AI

or something, it's free but when I was in the app store the like suggested recommended app when I searched that was like twerking AI take all your favorite people from your real life and put their

face onto this AI body so they can twerk now and that's That's just something you can do now, I guess. So I find it freaky. I find it quite black mirrory, quite dystopian, dystopian tech hell, blade runner cyberpunk landscape we are living in. And yeah, it makes me not want to engage or especially by the products.

The only thing, the only AI things I've ever engaged with are free. We're the very least funny. You know, I've never paid for an AI thing. That's for damn sure. Um, let's wrap this one up then from, this one from Warlock Wabbit. Have you ever talked about the YouTube Analytics for JAR in particular, the average age of the viewers? It's hard to believe anyone beyond 16 is a frequent viewer. Anyway, I turned 54 tomorrow, game on.

Okay. So I grabbed a few different stats here that I thought were interesting. For some reason on Podbean, I couldn't find the age and gender breakdown, which is kind of annoying. So I've only got country demographics there. I'll have to search harder, perhaps next time. But I do have YouTube age and gender stats here. this is specifically from the last year if you take up those people um so only a shocking 9.5% surprising 9.5% of jar listeners on YouTube or watches are female um that's really not

surprising to me at all uh male being 89.6% and user specified 0.9%. That's really what I would expect to see. There's nothing surprising about that. As far as age ranges, though, 13 to 17, 0.2%. 18 to 24, 43.8%.

And the biggest percentage is 44.4%. 25 to 34 years of age, then 7.7% 35 to 44 years 2.4% 45 to 56 years and 1% 55 to 64 years

and 0.5% 65 years and up so it claims there are more 65 years and up than 13 to 17 year olds but I assume that's just people making accounts inflating particularly I'm sure that 18 to 24

why would you make yourself like 17 when you could I definitely lied about my age when I first made a YouTube account stuff like that that's kind of interesting not not too surprising the only thing that's surprising to me is when there's someone older listening

and the fact there are almost 10% of people well there yeah more than 10% of people the listener watch that are older than me is quite intriguing actually and top geographies on YouTube for the last year 33.6% United States This is the top five.

Top five, got my voices going. 33.6% for United States. 29.8% United Kingdom. 6% Australia, 3.8% Canada. And 1.9% Ireland. So that's cool. Always like to see Australia. so high up there

but in contrast to the pod bean statistics the number one on the listener front so this is iTunes Spotify all of it I even saw like two or 300 people that listened specifically through

Xbox that's unhinged first of all but also shout out using that feature So, yeah, 36.87% are United Kingdom listeners and 29.57% are from the US as listeners. So it's almost like a flip of the YouTube stats where the US are three or four percentage points higher

on YouTube and the UK are three, four, on pot bean and yeah the rest are the countries are perfectly aligned the next is Australia Canada Ireland

it's just the percentage breakdown is ever so slightly different Australia in third is 7.43% of all listeners as opposed to 6% on YouTube

Canada gets 5.1% on pod bean and that sort of thing and 3.8% on YouTube, and finally, Ireland, 2.65% on audio platforms and 1.9% on YouTube. So, pretty in line, pretty in tow, but there's some bit more passion coming out of the woodwork from different places on the audio versions, which I like to see. And, man, yeah. The more variety, the better, I say.

Keeps things interesting, you know. different anecdotes all these different stories. I'm getting to quite a few stories as we approach the 10 years of jar. It must be what like September or something. Just nuts, just completely insane. Like the length of this episode, how long it's been going and how little, frankly, I think I'm going to have to edit out, which is always nice for me. Um, I don't know, it's really helped have this, these chill beats just in my headphones the whole time. It makes me feel like I'm already in a video. It's weird. That's gonna do me then until next week where hopefully Jim is back.

We can catch up and talk about our usual silliness. I assume like yeah, we'll probably have a housekeeping about all this mental health stuff. Your thoughts on it. Your own journeys. I'm very curious as to how people have got on discoveries they've made things that they've thought were important that wound up not being or vice versa. I guess we'll see on the next vid, wherever you hear my voice, lots of different places to hear it. Look at a Patreon. We'll see you next time. Bye.