Just Trish - Daus Mendoza Teaches Trish Spanish, Gay Slang & the TRUTH About Working At McDonald's

Episode Date: December 1, 2023

On episode 35 of 'JUST TRISH', skinny legend and TikTok superstar Daus Mendoza gives Trisha a lesson on Spanish and gay slang. Plus, Daus spills secrets about what it was like working at McDonald's before making it big on social media. And he dishes about the friendships and frenemies he's made in the beauty influencer community.  Subscribe to the Podcast: Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/just-trish/id1698564262?at=1010lSCj Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/6bZ5tfeCt6naGMw24pRMLe YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@justtrishpodcast All Podcast Platforms: https://link.chtbl.com/JustTrish?at=1010lSCj Follow Just Trish on Social Media: https://www.instagram.com/justtrishpod/ Follow Oscar: https://www.instagram.com/oscargracey Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Woo! Hey guys! Welcome back to the Just Trish Podcast. Today I am so excited. I mean, I am like gagging for my guest today. The one and only TikTok influencer, beauty, makeup aficionado extraordinaire, and one of the most gorgeous people I've ever seen in real life, Daz Mendoza. Oh wait, I just noticed there's all these cameras. I was like, whenever you were saying that, I was like, wait, what are you looking at? And I just noticed that one right there. I was like, oh. You know, I'm a professional. We have three cameras here today.

No, we have like a full setup here. It's a full setup love that when you sat down you're like wait because moses was telling you how to like the microphone like don't tap this whatever you're like wait is this a real microphone i thought it was props i know i seriously thought that you guys would have like a cameraman or something like doing the whole thing and then because i'm watching your podcast sometimes and you're just like like waving around everyone i'm just like oh okay so it's a prop yeah yeah yeah i'm actually the worst at holding my own microphone i just thought they looked cool because like way before your time we had this thing called tRL like mtv and they would like hold microphones and i thought it was so cool but it is it's way more difficult now i don't know like it doesn't make sense for

a podcast most people have the ones that you don't have to hold but it feels like a talk show i feel like this is fun though and it's unique it's very it's different it's different it's old because it's like no i feel like not everybody's doing podcasts but like you know yours is very unique not everyone has handheld microphones and not everybody's room is this pink fuzzy yes i love that you're a pink person all the way through pink and red and white those are my favorite colors okay pink and red go together as high most of valentine's day i'm like he's like we will just do pink i'm like but red goes with pink yeah it does no i love red and pink yeah i think it has like a vibe that most people don't people just want to do all pink all the time. It's very like

lovey. Yeah, I love the pink. Okay, I am so obsessed. You are definitely our youngest guest, which is crazy. You said we're like Taurus. We're the same, but we're also birthday twins. We were both born the same day. Oh my god, I forgot about that. No, we are. That's what I wanted to tell you on the podcast. I was like,

wait, no, but we're actual birthday twins, which is like so crazy. That is so insane. I love eights. Eights are my favorite. I was born the 8th of May, 88, so it's like my favorite number. Were you born like in the morning or nighttime? I was born at 10 a.m. in the morning. How about you?

Oh, my God. 11. Oh, my gosh. Yeah. Were you on Mother's Day? No. I don't think so. I don't know.

I'm not sure. It changes. Sometimes my birthdays land on Mother's Day, and I hate it because I'm like, this is my day. Yeah. I feel the same way. Then people are like out of town. I'm with my mom today, so they can't celebrate birthdays. Literally, one year I threw it when I was really young this is my day. Yeah, I feel the same way and then people are like out of town. Like, I'm with my mom today

so we can't like celebrate birthdays. Literally, one year I threw it, when I was really young, I threw this huge party, okay, like huge slide, everything.

We rented out like this whole park. Nobody came because it was Mother's Day. Yeah, it's kind of annoying. I was so sad and I was a child so I was like,

just like crying and shit. Oh my God, did anyone come? What, really? Well, just my family. Okay, but no friends. Family, but like no friends from school.

They had to be with their moms. I was born on Mother's Day. It fell on a Sunday but now it's kind of, now Mother's Day switches, so it's. Isn't it like the first Sunday of every. It changes. Or the first fifth of, I don't know how it works. I don't either. I think this year it was like May 14th, so I think it just switches all the time.

But yeah, being a May baby is great though. So that's when I saw May 8th. I was like, ah. But you're May 8th, 2005, which is crazy. Literally when I started social media and MySpace. Really? My first MySpace page was 2005, which is crazy. You were like born then media MySpace. Really? My first MySpace page was 2005 which is crazy. You were like born then. You were like fresh

out the womb. Wait I wanted to talk about the first video I saw of you. Okay. So okay I was like a huge, still am huge fan of Joy Graceffa okay. Okay love. And the first video I saw was you guys were trying lollipops but it was like the ice cream lollipops different flavors. Oh yeah oh my god. And I fell in love with you because you were just like

like slurping each and every lollipop and I was yeah oh my god i fell in love with you because you were just like like slurping each and every lollipop and i was like oh my god i think this is like i was like eight or ten oh my this is a long time ago that was like eight years old i was looking at the other day wow that's insane so at eight years old your parents were like you could let you on youtube oh yeah i had a huge ipad oh my gosh all the time and they're always right more so that terrifies wait why would you break your ipad all the time and they would always buy me more. That terrifies. Wait, why would you break your iPad all the time? I sit on it, break it, throw it. I don't know. Oh, okay. My cousins will come over.

One time my cousin came over, sat on it, it broke. Oh my gosh. The screen would always break. And they're like, you can just buy a new one? Get naked parents. Well, no, no, not like that. Oh. No, not returns.

The screen. Oh, got it, got it, got it. The screen. Yeah, like they buy a new screen and they'll take it. But it'll be like after forever. Oh my gosh. I think I've had only two iPads growing up in my whole life, but it was like really hard to get, obviously. Yeah. No, I had two iPads growing up in my whole life but it was like really hard to get obviously. Yeah.

I had no iPads growing up. I was the youngest. I'm the youngest out of two older brothers so I always got one. How is that? The youngest child always gets whatever they want is my opinion. We always talk about that. Because he's the oldest I'm the middle and I'm like our baby siblings they get so spoiled. I wonder why that is. I guess because you're the last. I don't know. That is very weird. I feel like

they love the first right? No I think the first probably gets the worst. No middle gets the the worst because the first is there for a minute. I feel like the first would be more mature because they're the ones that are really taken care of. Really, you know what I mean? Yeah, totally. The middle, I don't know. They get ignored. I'm the middle child, literally.

Oh, okay, yeah, because my brother's the middle child and he's like... Yeah, ignored. Yeah, I'm like... And you're the baby, so... He's falling off, yeah. Yeah. Can you talk to them? Are you close with them?

Oh, I'm close with them, yeah. Well, not the oldest because he's 27. We're we're very far apart oh yeah that's a big age difference what was that like growing up um he was very much like a dad to me at some points you know what i mean so he would really take care of me and my other brother a lot okay um and then the other one the middle one we're closer he's 21 he just recently turned 21 so we're only three years apart we were close to a certain point. Super close as kids. But then he got to high school and, you know, you know how we are, you know. Like just as brothers.

Parties, parties. Like, no, he started going to parties and doing like all the older kids stuff. I didn't want you around. So I fell back because I was still, I think, like in either my first year of middle school or still in elementary. Are you guys similar or very different? Because all is different. Very, very, very different. They're actually way closer now than we ever were oh really oh interesting why is that you think i went my own way makeup beauty i mean i'm the only gay one okay they love

it honestly i think they were very supportive my family my when i say family i mean little family like my mom and my two brothers are always very supportive of me that's your core family that you grew up with core family grew up with yeah obviously I'm Mexican so I have a huge family right but they were very supportive of me all the time what about your extended family then um the tios yeah they were very oh my god wait I saw that you've been learning Spanish

I love that you know that yes that's okay that's why I love you because you do get ready with me in Spanish yeah did you understand it uh kind of okay so when I get glam because you do get ready with me in Spanish. Yeah. Did you understand it? Kind of. Okay. So when I get glam in the morning, I like to like learn Spanish because we've been listening to it. I'm in my like Latin music era right now.

So I listen to it, but I don't know what it means. I'm like, I want to learn Spanish. So we always do Spanish lessons. And then I watch your get ready with me and like, I'll look at your things and you'll say words here and there because you'll speak English. So then I kind of get it. So you'll say like, oh, I went to prom with my Brian Hearns outfit and had black botas. And I was like, okay, is botas like Jewish drunkards? Likeers like i don't know so you know chisme chisme oh yeah you know

what i mean when i say pachanga no i don't know what that is it's slang it's not but you know there's yeah but what does it mean honestly not even a real word me and my friends all kind of just started saying it oh you made it up it's not even spanish but no yeah you won't find it any book we just say that okay i love it's like slang like who the freak came up with slay so how would you say it how would you use bachanga oh like i'm about to go to this bachanga but bachanga is like a good party okay it's not just like oh party no it's not bachanga like it's a party i love when you speak when you do the mix of it it's so cool when you like throw it in there i think it's like so cute so i love i love to get ready to be in spanish i feel like a lot of people do it i'm gonna do one one day like once i really like know it i'm gonna

do a spanish get ready with me you know i'm gonna do a lot of cuts but i just love i love the like i love learning languages how many languages do you know oh i mean i've learned like i've taken classes in like four different languages i learned a little korean a little hebrew i started to try to do japanese which is very difficult but never spanish which i think is the closest to english so i was like this is what i need to learn because I just I love the music and stuff like that I want to learn French because I feel like that's a really pretty oh yeah I feel like it's close to like Spanish and it is I think French would be cute yeah that would be cute did you grow up speaking Spanish uh that was my first language yes but since obviously I went to school like here so

it kind of just over time you know I got less like more and more worse at Spanish so I'm kind of like how are you now I'm good I understand it perfectly yeah when I talk it though you know, I got less, like more and more worse at Spanish. So I'm kind of like. How are you now? I'm good. I understand it perfectly. Yeah. When I talk it though, you know, it's like people will be like, oh, that's, you know. Okay. That's cute. I love hearing it.

I love when people speak it. And so I just say it's such a cool language. I just love it so much. I'm trying to think of the word that they call us. They'll say you're like. No sable. No sable. Oh my God.

You know it. Yes. No sable. You know it. I'm serious. Every time I do a Swedish TikTok, it'll be like other people like doing the sound and then be like when you're no sable kid. They'll call me a no sable kid sometimes. Yeah. I. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No.

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No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. No. I think it's like, I'm not even going to try to say it because they're going to be like, no, yeah. Well, don't lose it. The get ready with me in Spanish is my favorite. Oh, no, of course. Yeah. Yeah. Always do it.

Okay. So you grew up with your two brothers and your mom and you grew up Fountain Valley. Is that central? I was born in Fountain Valley. Okay. Oh, you saw it online. Yeah. Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I was born in Fountain Valley, but I grew up in the valley. In this valley? Yeah. It's a little town called Visalia. Oh, that's central California. I've been there. Oh, you've been there? It's such a beautiful town. It's so small and cute. You don't like it? Oh Yeah, it's a little town called Visalia. Oh, that's central California.

I've been there. Oh, you've been there? It's such a beautiful town. It's so small and cute. You don't like it? Oh, because it's small. It's a village, is what it is. There's crops everywhere.

Like, the mall has 12 stores in it. Like, no, there's nothing. The airport's cute, though. It's like a little, like, forest. There's like a tree in the middle of the airport. The airport? Yeah. Oh, you went down there.

Yeah. Okay, that's the prettier side. Okay, okay. Yeah, I thought it was Gorge. I was, like, living for it. I think you were more in, like's the prettier side. Okay, okay. Yeah, I thought it was Gorge. I was like living for it. I think you were more in like Fresno area. It was definitely Vestalia. I remember Vestalia.

Yeah. Yeah. But it was, maybe, maybe it was more like town oriented or whatever, but you did not like it. You didn't love it. And you went to school there? I went to school there. I literally grew up there.

I think that's why I hated it so much because I literally grew up there and it was just so annoying. Oh, I get it. Everybody looks the same. All the guys, all five, eight. Oh, right. You're really tall. You don't like being tall. I'm really tall. So you can just imagine, like I was just the tallest in my village. In the village. eight oh right you're really tall you don't like i'm really tall so you

can just imagine like i was just the tallest in my village like in the village i love it i guess it's a village it literally is a village right what makes it a village i think it makes it a village because one there's nothing to do two there's crops everywhere like everywhere people say whenever i say village they think it's like hay like roofs and things like that but no i just say because there's crops everywhere. I don't think so. And in villages, there's crops, right? It's like a farm town.

Yeah, it's like a farm town. It is a farm town. It's really a farm town, yeah. The village is cute. That's why I just say village because it's cuter. Yeah, I love it. I'm not going to say my farm. Yeah.

Okay, I like the little village. And so did you grow this height? When did you stop growing? Because you're how tall? I think just recently I stopped growing. I'm 6'2". Oh, really? 6'1", no shoes on. Okay, wow. Right now I'm 6'2". 6'1", no shoes on.

Okay. Wow. Right now I'm 6'2". And you're like, I don't like being tall. Everyone wants a tall person in their life. When I said that, okay, I love being tall. I love looking in the mirror, seeing how tall I am, seeing videos of me how tall I am. You know, me personally, I love being tall. But when it comes to guys, I hate it. Because you'd find someone taller than you. I want somebody huge. There's those

people out there. I want somebody that can just pick me up. Oh, I know there is. Yeah, yeah, yeah. But it's so hard to find. I know. It is. It's really hard. You need like a 6'5". No, that's one of them. There's a TikToker.

Do you know Leo Skeppy? He's like 6'5". In his bio, he has 6'7". Oh. I don't know. Maybe he's 6'7". I haven't met him yet. He's not that tall.

Oh, okay. He met him in person? Okay. He's not that tall. Was it just casual or just like a TikTok thing? No, it was just casual. Okay. I think it was uh um what's his face's party the guy that what's his name he's like in charlie de milo's group and stuff like that and he's tall no it's just this guy but it was his birthday party i don't know i don't know anybody but one of those

and it was his birthday party and that's whenever i saw leo scape and i was like six seven right and then was he taller than you? An inch taller than me. Yeah, he really wasn't that tall. Oh, okay. Interesting. The T. Yeah, the T. Do you put on your like dating app like must be over 6'2"?

I'm not really on dating apps. No. Okay. I do have, what's that one that Raya? Oh, you're on it? Yeah. It's so boring though. I've never been able to get on it.

How did you get on it? Yeah. It's like all famous people, right? No. Oh, really? Wait, what is it? It is like. We can go through it for like a while oh my god that's the whole podcast no please look do you have like is there like famous people on there um a student at usc that is not a famous

person first of all i kind of i love dating i love going through people's it's not gonna load dinner but a student at usc that is not a famous person and it'll say things like um managers and things like that i really thought it was gonna things like managers and things like that. I really thought it was going to be like singers. Like Zac Efron. Yeah. Things like that. You always heard about that. I think Hilary Duff was on it at one point.

John Mayer's on it. Yeah, but no, it's not. You never see those. Maybe because it's like oversaturated now. Also on the gay side, so. Oh, how does that work? That you like push like I'm gay? The new BMO VI Porter MasterCard is your ticket to more.

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Visit bmo.com slash theiporter to learn more. Well, yeah, they push the I'm gay people to me. Wait, really? You know, but sometimes I go on Tinder and I go as I'm a girl. And I'll get on the DL. I used to see that. But I do that for fun, okay? I don't actually, like, do anything with them because I don't do DLs ever.

I've had a bad experience. What's a DL? A. I've had a bad experience. A download. What is that? Like a guy that's like not out yet. Oh. Like he like lives for like the gay boys, but he's not out. Oh, interesting.

So we call them DLs, downloaders. Do they have an app for them? No. Really? No, no, no. Because there's probably so many people. But they'll download the apps and try to get with us. They'll DL the DLs. They'll download.

No, they'll DL us. Oh, I see. Download. Like, hey, let's do stuff on the low. And you just said they're download the apps. Yeah, like, no, no, no. They're download with us. Did he even say download the apps? Okay, we call them DLs because they'll come to us and they'll want to do things, but they're straight. Okay. And they'll be, like, on the

low, though. So that's why we say the DLs. Oh, I never heard that before. The download. Okay. Because they're always saying on the low, like, don't tell nobody like don't tell nobody oh really don't tell nobody we just did that or don't because they like are scared like they can't come out like their family's religious goes through their brains i don't know if it's because they're scared it could be because of their families they don't want to come out but i feel like we're in a society where like nobody really gives a crap are they older because sometimes the older ones i think i only go for older guys so yeah that's that's why because i used to yeah that's my generation they like didn't want to come out either. There would be so many people

There's so many I know to this day that still don't come out that tell me they date girls and I'm just like, you know I feel like this new generation is better at it. Oh, yeah I feel like now it's like it's like it's almost trendy to be gay I feel like there's people who want to be gay that are literally Catfish and pretend like they're just for views and it's like What do you think about that? It's so annoying and weird. Yeah. It's like a proprating culture.

And then they'll like go online and be like, you guys, I'm not gay. But then it's like, then why are you doing that with your friend? Like, why are you pretending like you're about to kiss your friend then? But maybe they are. And it's like their defense of being like, no, I'm not. Oh, no, they definitely are. You know what I mean? Yeah, for sure.

I know all the teen out. Now that I'm out here. Yeah. Oh, my gosh. That's why. So you like only older guys. But you're 18. So you got to be like, don't go too much older.

You know me. I'm very protective of people. No, I love older guys. Oh, wild. So you like only older guys, but you're 18, so you gotta be like, don't go too much older. You know me. I'm very protective of people. No, I love older guys. Oh no, you're like me. We have so much in common, actually. When I was like Googling stuff, I was just like, oh my God, we have a lot of similar I actually get icked out by a guy that's like younger. Like I can't do 18, 19.

I have to do like 22 and over. Okay. Well, maybe do like 22. No, I really like older guys. Okay, I get you. Okay, by 20, bare minimum. Okay, that's cute. Yeah. I feel like once it's like over 30 and stuff like that, I just like, I was're like 22. No, I really like older guys. Okay, I get you. Okay, by 20, bare minimum. Okay, that's cute. Yeah.

I feel like once it's like over 30 and stuff like that. I just like, I was the same way. I was 18 dating like 50-year-olds. Period. No, yes, I live. As long as they're hot. But then I regret it. Then I'm like, oh, you know, then I feel like they play games with you.

I don't know. You just gotta be. I feel like they would be more mature though, right? You would think. That's the only reason I like older guys now because I feel like they're more mature. You know, maybe, but I don't know. Sometimes I'm always like, you're so young. And you do come across older.

I will say that. Everybody thinks I'm way older. Right away. The way you talk, the way you introduce yourself. You're just very, I'm like, oh my gosh, I forget that you're actually 18. So I feel like that is, and there are people who like that. You know what I mean? But also, you are 18.

You're so young. So I'm always just like, oh, why are you with an 18-year-old? I want to stay young forever, though. I wish I could stay 18 forever. Me too. It does. Aging. I'm scared of getting old it's hard it is hard i think once you get to like a certain age like 35 you're like okay i'm just old this is what it is but yeah but 35 is it you're 35 i'm 35 but that's so young oh it's very old you're 18 okay i feel old is when you start seeing wrinkles and like crazy things like that yeah so if you think you're old then then you're old. But I personally think like.

I like that. Yeah, there's a lot of people who won't say their age because like if you say it, then you're that age. Then you're that age, yeah. So, all right. So I'm scared of one day

seeing like, oh crap, like wrinkles, like I'm getting old. That's what I'm scared of. Well, you have a very long time and you probably will never because you'll do the Botox and you'll do all that.

I'm so like young that there's all new shit coming out. Oh, yeah. There'll probably be like lasers that will like, boom, you're 21 again. Yeah, no, your 21 again yeah no your skin is flawless your face is flawless everything is flawless everything do you work out do you have like a workout routine i do work out and

people are always asking for my workout routine but it's like they ask me that because of my tiny waist but i'm like you guys when i work out i go for my legs my thighs and my butt yeah they look great so your waist is so nice it's how you do it? Do you do cinchers? No, I used to for a while when I was like 15, 16. Oh my gosh, that's wild. I bought this little corset from Amazon. I would wear it to sleep. And it worked?

Oh, to sleep. Well, I stopped. Okay, because were you having trouble breathing? No, I just stopped. I was like, okay, this is not healthy. It looked great. I think it like permanently. But now I get waist trainers sent to me.

And I'll wear it when I want to look skinny. Oh, underneath your clothes. No, not underneath. I will't need it anymore. It looks great. I think it like permanently. But now I get waist trainers sent to me. And I'll wear it when I want to look skinny. Oh, underneath your clothes. No, not underneath. I will just wear it around the house. Just like to like stare at myself in the mirror and be like, ooh. I love that. So skinny. And I'll take photos in it and then post it and be like, okay, take this shit off.

Oh my God. Like that kind of vibe, you know? Yeah. Do you think it works? Do you think those work? Because I've used them a couple times. I've seen a lot of people. I think they work.

I think they could. Yeah. But you're like just young. So naturally your body is just going to be like that. That's what I thought too. Like maybe because I wore one when I was 15, my body kind of like. Just started going that direction. I don't know.

Yeah. Because I also see they put fruit in like plastic little containers and it forms into that. Have you seen that? No. Where like the fruit is like really small and it's like growing. So they put it into like a plastic container that's like shaped into like a pumpkin. Oh.

And then it'll grow super big. And then once they take off like the frame of it, it's like a literal pumpkin looking watermelon. Oh my God. That's so cute. Where do you see this on TikTok? You're so smart. You see everything. Yeah. You they take off, like, the frame of it, it's like a literal pumpkin-looking watermelon. Oh, my God. That's so cute. Where do you see this on TikTok? You're so smart. You see everything.

Yeah. You know the DLs, the pumpkin. I feel like you didn't know the DLs. I'm really so in shock that you didn't know about them. Like, I know about them. I guess I didn't know they were called DLs. Like, the DLs. On the low.

I guess I mean, maybe I've heard of it before. You've heard of Trade, right? No. Oh, my God, Chris. Wait, Trade? Trade. Okay, so Trade. Oh, I'm outing all the gay code.

Okay, trade is what we call the guys that look super straight. Okay. But they're not. Okay, who looks straight? What's like a straight looking person? Like a straight passing man. Like, okay, if somebody says they're gay and you're like, no way, that's a straight passing man.

I feel like I say the same thing about everyone. Someone's like, oh, he's gay. I'm like, no, he's not. You look at me and you're like, yeah, exactly. Okay, so we call those guys like, say oh that's your trade okay yeah i was like oh that trade over there is cute that's how we say okay that's cute so it's kind of like fish and stuff like that fish is like fish exactly yeah fish like while you're so fish yeah i'm kind of fishy i know you are very fishy trish like fish no yes so it's like yeah so we'll say like trade trade i love that do you say that on the no yes so it's like yeah so we'll say like trade

trade i love that do you say that on the apps or in real life like would you vocally say that everywhere all the time okay but you don't go on though you don't go on apps like the dating apps like grind no i stopped i when i want attention i will but then i get grossed out because then it's like ugly old men that come and i love you love old men no it's ugly ugly old men okay yeah not hot old men okay put it in my bio. Like, if you're ugly, like, please. Do you use that? Yeah.

That's smart. You should tell them. You should be up front. No, they still come in hot. Real hot. Yeah. I, like, downloaded Tinder, like, last month. And I already have, like, a thousand likes or something.

I'm like, I'm not even. Wow. That's too much. I'm not going to go through that. I'm like, I'm going to give it to my assistant. She can go through it. Do you? Yeah, I'm not going to.

I love going through it. Yeah, apps are my favorite. Like, that's, like, i don't miss it but i miss going through it like they're fun for a while i'll be bored and i'll be like let's see who's cute yeah but then i get too bored i'm like okay i'm done over it yeah do anyone think you're a catfish ever i've never ever been told that i mean am i a catfish no you you look like someone who wouldn't be on those apps like you look like a celebrity so that's what i'm saying like are they ever like wait is this actually you in the photo uh well they do this thing now where like they

give you a blue checkmark. But in order to like get that blue checkmark to verify you, you have to like the app makes you like take videos and photos of yourself to verify that's you in those photos. So when you're scrolling through the app and stuff like Tinder or whatever, then if they don't have a blue checkmark on their thing, then it's like, be careful. They didn't verify themselves. Yeah, they didn't verify themselves. So that might be a catchphrase.

So someone can't just use photos of you. Yeah, no, they can't. Oh. But if there is photos of me on those apps and it's not a blue checkmark, they didn't verify themselves. So that might be a catchphrase. So someone can't just use photos of you. Yeah, no, they can't. Oh. But if there is photos of me on those apps and it's not a blue checkmark, then that's not me. It's not you. Have you met up with people from there? No, I'm not that kind of girl.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. No, no, no. I'm too scared of that. Okay, yeah. That's what I'm saying. Sometimes if I find a really hot guy, I'll be like texting them and then just for fun. But then they'll be like, let's meet up. And I'll block them.

Like, just kidding. Oh my. Yeah, I'm like, just kidding. I was literally just bored. I was like, joke. Yeah, yeah, yeah. No, that's, I mean, that's good. I was literally just bored. I was like, joke. Yeah, yeah, yeah. No, that's, I believe that's good. I don't think I could do meetups.

No. Yeah, it is scary. That part of the world is like terrifying. Or like coming into my home or me going into theirs. Like, it's scary. I don't know. Oh, yeah.

I used to do that all the time and I always think like, that was probably so dumb. But I guess people do it, but you're smart not to. I know a lot of people that do it and it's just, it's crazy. Yeah.

It's like a new guy every day and it's like, oh my gosh. There was, yeah, there was a horse. There was like girls in like downtown LA. It was like a string of them that were getting like unalived by people they met yeah here yeah it was like downtown la it was like two girls in a row yeah and it was like so i hear those stories i'm such like a paranoid person so when i hear stuff like that i was like oh my god don't go on the dating apps and stuff but i mean the chance of that happening yeah it's like low but i saw one of your tiktoks that you're like not about dating you're like i'm about the

money now i'm not about dating I gotta get my hugs off. That's what my spam. Oh my God. You really deezed it out. Wow. Yeah. I say that because I'm pissed off at a guy. Okay.

And so then I'll go on there and I'll rant. And the reason I do that is because they love it. And there's a lot of people out there that are feeling like that too. Yeah. That's true. The relatableness. But yeah, I'm really trying like, I don't know. Guys are really annoying.

Like they will just like play around. Like sometimes I'll really fall in love with a guy and then it's just like. Well, because you're dating the older ones. You've got to date, like, 20-year-olds. No, no, no, no. You're the 20-year-olds. Obviously, yeah, 20-year-olds. Because my issue was I always date people in their 50s and you think they're serious

and, like, I want to marry you and all this stuff like that. And then it's, like, they waste four years of your life. Yeah. And you're, like, why did you stream? Well, also, you're like that, too. You'll meet a guy and you're, like, oh, my God, I want to, like, marry you already. Oh, wait, right, wait. Okay, that's how I am.

Well, Taurus energy. And it'll just waste my time. Yeah, that's what's annoying. That's so annoying. And I, you, again, I would go for older guys because I thought, oh, that's what I want. And that's why I go on those apps. I'm like, hey, guys, I'm going to just go chase my bag. I'm done with guys.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. That's the way you got to be. To either a distraction. Yeah. It's like, oh, I got ready to meet up with you when I could have been filming three videos right now. Well, you could do it at the same time while you're getting ready to meet up with them. You do a video talking about going out on a date because that's your job.

No, I don't like doing that. Wait, you don't? I thought you do. Like to meet up with them, you do a video talking about going out on a date. Because that's your job. No, I don't like doing that. Wait, you don't? I thought you do. Like, get ready with me. I feel like my persona online is not a dating person. That's true. You're very much like, this is how I'm doing my makeup. What do you call it?

Douse glam. You're like, this is my makeup. But, like, even though I feel like Douse Middles Online is very, like, hot girl summer. Like, he's not. He's always in hot girl summer. Right, right. What's the real Douse? I can't see him, like, making boyfriend videos.

Like, ew. Wait, really? Yeah. I feel like he totally could who's who's you does the boyfriend does like what's the difference between you and the does online oh they'll never see boyfriend does really yeah i don't just leave me and him and that's it on the sidelines oh my gosh you're gonna keep everything private yeah i think so i think that's like the number one thing i'll always keep private boyfriend stuff just because they ruin it i've seen so many relations be ruined it's like okay i can barely even get a guy now imagine when i do get one and then i put it online and then it gets ruined right away i don't want that it'll always happen and they'll like harass

them non-stop it happens every single relationship if he does something bad i don't want them going after him or you know that's when they research everything or i do something bad on accident and then they come after me it's like let me know you're unproblematic that's what we talked about you i'm like yeah i when i was like again I do these deep dives and I'm like, there was not one hate comment, hate Reddit, nothing, which is like wonderful. And you were like. I keep the shit talking in the car with my friends. So smart.

You're 18 and you get it. And I wish I learned that 18 years ago. Cause I'm like, here I am 30. No, I loved it. That's what brought you today. You're iconic. Everything. You're very smart.

I think it's just cause you're very honest. I'm very honest too. I just not online. You keep it. Yeah. I keep it real cute because you're very honest I'm very honest too I just not online you keep it yeah you keep it real cute you keep it cute I love that

because I feel like that's where people get in trouble and you're like my comments are just oh you're pretty you're skinny you're like

I want to hear something else I was like how awful just to get pretty skinny comments I love it so what's a normal

comment section you scroll through what's it look like you're pretty you're skinny wow oh my god your waist body goals yes or some will be like some movie like live love laugh daos i

love those oh i want to get that on my wall live very millennial i love daos favorite influencer i'm so obsessed with you that are things like that it sounds your real name i love it yeah what does it mean something um i think it means either god or jesus really oh you know you know how do you know wow oh my god finally somebody that knows yeah did you not know no i knew but every time i saw somebody they're like oh what language and i'm like what language is it spanish yeah but it's like not not mexican spanish it's like spanish spanish you know there's like different kind of spanish i think there's like spain spanish and then there's like right yeah yeah that's always confusing to me because they always like's always confusing to me. Yeah. Because they always like, okay, this is.

My mom said she heard it in a Spanish movie. And then I think it was spelled differently though. I think it was spelled D-O-U-S. Okay. In your D-A. But she said it was pronounced the same. But yeah, she said like when she was in the hospital bed, she was like, oh shit, like how do you spell it?

So she kind of just sounded it out. It's such a cool name. It's such a memorable name. I first found you. I found you recently actually through my makeup, one of my makeup artists, Damien. Damien, yes. Yeah, he was talking about you and I was like, the name so cool and i like i i had seen you but i hadn't like followed you yet and i was just like oh it's such a cool name and it's like they just remember

it you know so you like go and you find it because i just knew it and i was like oh yeah okay i kind of love it i love the whole thing because your whole vibe and i was just like yeah because i follow i told you this before we started i don't follow any i've never followed beauty influencers none just because i'm not good at my own makeup. I just never. But you. You always do glam, right? All the time. I always do glam.

Well, for like this. I mean, in my day-to-day life, I never wear makeup. I look a little bit like a troll. But I never really follow. But there is just something. I just love your online persona. Because even your Get Ready With Me, they're just fun. I don't know.

They're not like. Even though some of them are tutorial-esque, like they're just like fun. And I like to. I try to give them variety. You know what I mean? Like I try to do like the very like the reviews. And then the tutorials are very more like like in your face like screaming like this new product you know yeah and then i try to keep it to like where my get ready with me these are more me like more like i just woke up they don't need more me you know yeah i

love it time kind of like vibes with your cat and stuff like that yeah what's your cat's name uh i have the white one his name is phantom yeah he's a year old. And then I just got a new one. It's a girl and her name is Persephone. Oh my gosh. Is it like the Greek mythology Persephone? Is that why? Or is it different? Everybody was saying that, but I was thinking of Monster High.

Do you know Monster High? Oh, everyone's been talking about Monster High lately. I didn't know these were such icons. No, they're iconic. I didn't know. I love them. There's these two twins in Monster High. One of them is Persephone.

The other one's Meowlity. And the girl, Persephone one, she's gray and she like these white stripes and i was like my cat has she's gray so okay persephone and plus the second i picked her up she started purring so i was like this is perfect is it like her stephanie okay you are our stephanie i love it i love the meaning behind it and also i have a dog named prada so all three of their names are peace oh my god that's a ph for phantom and then persephone and then prada oh my my God, that's so cute. I love it. I'm like a real like dad. I know. Do you take care of them all by yourself? My dogs, I left them at home. My dog. Yeah. Oh, okay. That was too much. To spring here. In LA, in an

apartment. No, I couldn't. Yeah. Animals in general are very difficult. I can never take care of them. They're so hard, but. Like moving here was so overwhelming and then having a dog on top of that, I couldn't. Yeah. I sent him back home with my mom i was like please take care yeah yeah well that's good that's something to fresh start when did you move you moved here 18 because i saw your vlog i'm moving here okay so i turned 18 may 8th and then graduated school june 2nd and then moved to la june 12th it was like very back to back i love it that's what i did i did the same thing i flew out the day of my graduation i flew out like may like really i wanted Really? I wanted to do that. Yeah, I was like bye. I didn't go to my graduation party. I was like bye.

I don't care. Oh, I almost didn't. No, I was so over it already by that time. I was, I relate to you in that way. Like the small town, I really, I've never been back since graduation. I was just like, I'm over it. It's so crazy because like I remember in middle school, even freshman year, up until like my junior year, I was like, I knew what I wanted to do. I knew I wanted to live in LA, but I was like, how am I

going to leave my friends? How am I going to leave my family? You know what I mean? Right. Once I got to like senior year, I'm like, I'm so over everybody. I want to get out of here. What was it? Just in general? Just it's too small for you?

Just in general, yeah. Yeah. Because you were popular. You were homecoming king. Oh. Yeah. Oh, yeah. I was also homecoming queen, so.

Shut up. Shut up. Oh my God. That means you were popular. Yeah. I mean, I guess. You're like, I wanted to leave even though everyone loved me. I wasn't just popular because of social media, okay?

I was always popular. Honestly, like, let's be honest. I was always popular. In middle school, I was very popular, too, just because I was my fashion. I would wear fur coats to school. And they loved it. They lived for it, honestly. They honored me.

I was, like, one out of two gay boys in that school in my middle school i got to freshman year and i honestly my first freshman my like first week at freshman year i kind of like broke down a little bit because i was like nobody knows who i am like in middle school i was so popular and then i got to high school and it's way bigger so i literally cried on the bathroom floor and i was like nobody knows who i am like i'm not popular anymore oh my gosh give it a month or two i'm popular again wait so you went so but it's still on your village middle school is the village and high school is the village yeah so elementary middle school high school i think my village has three high schools so it's not that tiny okay but yeah three high

schools and then all the other hospitals are like more towns over okay and so then when you got to high school you won people over with your fashion and personality yeah and all that that's amazing i love that i love that like being different was like celebrate i feel like when i was in school to high school, you won people over with your fashion and personality and all that. That's amazing. I love that. I love that being different was like celebrate. I feel like when I was in school, being different, people hated you. I wore something crazy. They're like, ugh. Wasn't the best thing ever. The girls lived for it, but there's some guys that didn't. But I really didn't care.

I really didn't. In general, do you care what people think about you? I really don't. Never. Lately, I have a little bit. Wait, really? What? Because people don't hate on you. So what is it? about you? I really don't. Never. Lately, I have a little bit. Wait, really? Like what? Because like people don't hate on you. So what is it? Like for example, I want a nose job. And I told them, I was on live one night.

There was only 200 people in my life. It was like 3 a.m. in the morning. I told them. I was like, you guys, I want to get a nose job. And everybody was like, no, no, no, no, no, don't. And I was like, okay. And that's like the only time I actually cared. Like things like that.

It's like, okay. Oh, but that's like such a nice thing. They're telling you like your nose is great. I guess. What do you want people to say? Like, yes, fix that. Like, no. It's true. You know what I mean? true you know what i mean okay it is perfect in real life like it is no yeah i really don't care what people say honestly okay so sometimes like probably for like two

seconds but then i'm like over it that's amazing i wonder what your other signs are do you know your moon signs i know my rising is leo okay that makes sense tourist sun rising leo and then i know i have like another tourist somewhere in there there. I think moon. Okay. Yeah I think my moon is in Taurus too. Yeah okay interesting. And then I have another Leo and then a Scorpio somewhere in there. Oh wow I don't know like what moons, what planets. Yeah all those I don't know either

but I see them. Yeah. I know they're in there. Cause that's very different than me. I like hear so much what people think and I'm just like god I wish I could be that mentality. Are you a Snapchat girlie? I don't have Snapchat. Okay. Everyone keeps telling me to Snapchat. I'm like wait why because on snapchat it tells you there's like this new thing on snapchat so that's why i'm saying i know because it'll like say like you're a tourist and then you swipe and then it shows you all the planets and like it gives you like an explanation of like what you are like or what that sign is so that's why i'm saying like i

know one of them's a tourist the next one over is like rising a leo wow and after that i think it's another tourist and then a scorpio i don't know i don Oh my God. Snap's not so advanced telling you all that. No, they are advanced. There's so much. Wow. Are you getting paid on there? Wait, you track people? Yeah, there's like Snap Maps

and then you can see where all your friends are at. Oh. If they let you see them. There's like an option. That sounds terrifying. Well, there's an option. I only have it on

for three of my friends. What? Two of them are here. Okay. So you know where they're at. But why do you need to know where they're at? I don't care about

where they're at, but they love tracking us. Just for fun? They love tracking each other, yes. Really? So you just like... You're going to see the comments. A lot of people like keeping tabs on each other. That's wild. There's a whole app just to track your friends. Your whole friend group can go into that app and you can

create groups in that app. I don't know what the app is called. Oh my god, I would not want... What is it called? Life 360. And they just track each other. I never understood it. I guess these bitches have nothing 360. Life 360. And they just track each other. I never understood it. I guess these bitches have nothing better to do than to watch where their friends are going. I would never do it because I just lie all the time. Oh, and now I'm at the grocery store.

They would just see me in my house. That's how they get caught up. Yeah. Oh, shoot. No, that's not for me. Even us, we never track each other. They say for safety, but I'm just like, I don't want to be tracked ever. Oh, my mom has my tracking all the time.

I have my brother. Okay, but I guess that's good. I guess that's good. Just because I'm over here. If my mom tells me, she'll be, like, seeing, like, when I leave home and stuff like that. She's like, hey, I see you. No, not texting me. She's not like that. Okay. But, like, I'll go back home and then she'll be like, hey, where were you this day? Oh, my gosh. Or, like, I'll tell her, hey, I was

doing this and that. And she was like, I saw you left your house. And I was like, oh. You left your house at 1 a.m.? Yeah, I forget that I have my tracker on for, I don't really care. My mom is super sweet, super nice. She's open. I mean, you saw my girl do these. I was going out at, like, 16.m. Yeah, I forget that I have my tracker on for, I don't really care. My mom is super sweet, super nice. She's open. You saw my girl to these. I was going out at like 16. Right.

To every single party. Yeah. So she's a very just chill. She trusts me a lot. She knows, well, she sees how like, you're very mature. Mature, yeah, yeah, yeah. She sees how mature I am, so.

You never ran into trouble as a kid? Oh, of course. Elementary school, I was the worst. Wait, what? In elementary, what are you doing? I was a troublemaker. Oh. I had to literally.

Wait, what? Just, I was such a bitch. In elementary school? I would bully the kids, not gonna lie. But you know why? I was a troublemaker. Oh. I had to literally. Just, I was such a bitch. I was. At an elementary school? I would bully the kids. Not going to lie. But you know why? There's a whole thing behind it.

Okay. I would bully the kids because for a while I got bullied. And then I was like, okay, well, the only reason to not be the bully is to be the bullied. Right. They do say that. Right. The only reason to not be bullied is to be the bully. Right.

That's how you get out of it. I was bullied first, second, third, fourth, fifth, sixth. Even into middle school, I was the fucking bully. Okay. okay so you switch what year did you switch you were bullied and then what age are you switching first second i was bullied and then third i was like you know what i'm gonna start bullying these bitches i would make the sixth graders cry and i was like in fourth grade wow what would you say to them no i can't say online we was like mean okay i'll say a few just just remember this is not me anymore okay i'll say a few. Just remember this is not me anymore, okay? I'll say a few. One time there was a skinny girl. Super skinny.

Okay. Love. Very skinny. I love, right? Now we love it, but back then, I don't know. She told me something, and I was like, you're so skinny. And I was just like, pencil legs, twig, like in her face, like telling her. I'd be like, thank you.

I know. Now I'd be like, thank you. But back then, she started crying. Oh, she did? Yeah. Aw. Did you feel bad or no? You're just like, whatever.

Did she bully you? She told me something. Then I told her something bad. What'd she tell you? I don't remember. Oh. I blocked those bad memories out. I don't remember what people tell me.

Okay. I love it. And then one time, we were during PE, and I made this kid cry in front of everyone. Oh, my God. With your words? I don't know why. I just wanted to pick at him. I was bored.

So I was like, did you just shit your pants? You just shit your pants. Everybody, oh, my God. He just shit his pants. Oh, thank God. Yeah. And I swear, I just wanted to pick at him. I was bored. So I was like, did you just shit your pants? You just shit your pants. Everybody, oh my God, he just shit his pants. Oh, thank God. And I swear, I will go up into the face. I'm like, you just shit your pants. You smell. Oh my God.

Yeah. But just imagine me like this tall, the other kid like that tall, and me just like, you just shit your pants. Where did you get the confidence? Clearly from that. Bullying kids. That's amazing. Wow.

That's crazy. Even back then, I'd be so scared to say that to anyone. You remember? Oh, okay. So it got to the then, I'd be so scared to say that to anyone. You remember? Oh, okay, so it got to the point where I was even such a troublemaker in class. Stupid, okay.

Like, I would throw pencils. I would, like, one time I broke a pen out of a pen. The ink came out and we were all working on, like, this work and I splashed it

on this girl's work. Why? Just for the f*** of it. Oh, my God. Did you ever get karmatic energy back at you after all this? No, I mean. of it. Oh my God. Yeah. Did you ever get karmatic energy back at you after all this? No, I mean.

Wow. Oh my God. I'm here now, so. That always happens though. Sometimes I think it just doesn't, oh, I guess you were young. I would pray to God at night to forgive me though.

You would? I would. Okay, and did you mean it? Sometimes I would really cry and I'd be like, God, why am I like this? Why am I such a bully? Oh my God.

But I think it truly was to protect myself because I was getting bullied a lot. Okay. Okay. So. Did you ever write them a letter now and be like, hey, I called you pencil legs? Maybe you should.

Sorry, pencil legs and Visalia. It's a great thing now. We all want that as epic. I wonder if they remember it. I wonder. I'm sure they do. Not everyone lets it go. I remember my bullies when I was a kid.

I remember all of them. Oh, my God. One time I got into really, really, really big trouble. Like almost suspended. Oh no. Because this girl was like telling me something in these like tables. Again, elementary school, okay? Oh my God.

I don't know how, why I even knew this, but I called her white trash. Oh my gosh. Yeah. No, that's bad, right? I don't know. To me it's like, I don't know. I don't know, but I called her. I think there's like worse things you could probably call someone.

I called her a bitch and I called her white trash. She told me something though. She told me something really mean. But you don't remember. I don't know, but I called her a bitch and I called her white trash. She told me something, though. She told me something really mean. But you don't remember. I don't remember. Okay, so it didn't affect you that much. I don't think white trash is, I don't know. To me, I'm like, well, that's just what you are.

Not me. But I feel like it's, I don't know. Maybe it's drugstore. I don't know. I don't know, but I got so much in trouble. But actually, the principal at that school really respected my mom. I don't know. Like I said, I didn't grow up rich or anything yeah so and my principal knew well all my all my two

older brothers went to that same school too okay so the principal knew like all of us you know okay and they were like this and in the middle and then me you know so she cut me a lot of slack and my mom would tell her all the things that are going on at home so she cut me a lot of slack what was going on at home well a lot of things with like my dad and stuff like that he was never really nice guy so okay so but so your dad was also living with you he was it was very like off and on with him my mom there was like so many um he was in like mexico because he wasn't born here okay in mexico and then he came into my family i mean he came back into my life when i was like i don't remember ages i go by the grades that i'm in right yeah i totally feel the same so okay i think in like third grade, he was in my life.

Left. Fourth grade, I was good. And then he came back fifth, sixth, seventh, eighth. And then freshman year also. And then left sophomore. But that year, we left the household. Oh, okay. We were just fed up.

So, you're like, he stayed there and you're like, we're going. Yeah. She was done. But obviously, between all those times, it was always off and on, my mom and him. It was always fighting and things like that. Like, really bad fighting. Like, just really loud and you heard it. Yeah, all the time.

Even with me, sometimes, because I was gay, he was never accepting of that. So it was, like, really bad all the time. Oh, well, then there's some explanation behind it. Because I was just like, you just bully people to bully. So you had to get that. Let me do that, too. Yeah. Maybe it reflects of what's going on at home.

No, totally. So then your principal. So be nice to the bullies, you guys. Because you know what's going on at home. But I do feel. Yeah. Maybe it reflects of what's going on at home. No, totally. So then your principal. So be nice to the bullies, you guys, because you know what's going on at home. But I do feel that way. There's sometimes

where even the online bullies, I get like a lot of hate and so like then sometimes I'm like, you know what? There's probably something going on because I used to, I wasn't like a bully but I definitely was like

a mean girl for some time online. We love being mean girls though sometimes. Because it's very easy. I'm very much like you where it's like almost like a defense mechanism or something like that

where I'm just like, also I was super unhappy. I was like single my whole life. I was miserable. I was just like the worst. So anytime anybody was happy, I just like wanted to like drag them down. a defense mechanism or something like that where i'm just like also i was super unhappy i was like single my whole life i was miserable i was just like the worst so anytime anybody was happy i just like wanted to like drag them down oh it wasn't like you know that was me like oh you're happy i hate you no no nothing like that but but no right as a child it's different because you're you just have this home life and you're just like yeah for me it was more like i'm bored i'm gonna believe you kind of like as a child yeah no but right but there is probably some i'm not a psychologist but there's always some psychological thing where it's like you yeah fighting not that you said that yeah i think it

was that that makes more sense oh my god you just bullied people just to bully yeah i think it was a lot of there's a lot to do with it yeah that's and when he was there wasn't like it was was it do you have happy memories of him or just all a few but very few you know and i think i think my mind really blocks off like i said you know how you were saying like what did that girl tell you in order for me to my mind blocks off all the bad things. Right. What is that called? It's so weird.

It's called something. But there's a lot of bad things that I don't remember, like, that he would do. That sometimes when I, like, think too much about my past and I really deep dive into that, I'm like, oh, crap. I will literally start crying and, like, tearing up and I will get sad. Because I'm like, oh, God, like, that all really happened. Yeah, yeah. Oh, I don't remember that. There's so many parts to this day where I'm in therapy and i'm like oh my god like

i forgot that happened like i completely blacked out that's how i am too and it's scary and the older you get when it comes back to you it's like actually so terrifying and you're just like wait i remember this or did it happen did not like it's yeah so now something and then so now i just think like god like i hate him i absolutely hate him so much you don't have any communication any communication one he did try communicating with me whenever I moved to LA, like the first month. He called me from a whole different number because I have him blocked on every number and everything. And he called me from a whole different number and I was like, hello.

And it was him. And he was just saying, he speaks Spanish. So he said like, hola, ¿cómo estás? Oh, I know that. I'm glad you know that. No, I was like, I hung up and blocked that number. Oh, you knew it was him? Yeah.

Well, I know his voice. Yeah, it was him. And then I called my mom right after and I was like, mom, my dad just called me. And then she, while I was at my mom's, she was like, how do you feel? And I'm like, how do I feel? Him. I don't want to hear his voice. You know what I mean?

Like, I want to throw up. I just heard his voice, you know? Yeah. So maybe, did he, do you think he saw your success? Like he sees you online? Oh, definitely. So he sees you at like New York Fashion Week in Coachella and he's just like, oh, time to call him.

Yeah. And he's like, oh, he has money. Let me call him. Oh, yeah. That happens. I always hear that story for people. I think he's very smart. Honestly, he's just like oh time to call yeah he's like oh he has money let me call him oh yeah that happened i always hear that story i really think i think he's very smart honestly he's a very smart guy like who is a freaking what's it called what are they called oh an immigrant like how can somebody be an immigrant and then be like oh this woman is so pretty like

let me marry her to have a child and that child will soon be 18 years old and get me papers oh oh so you think i really think he had an entire plan oh because i don't think he ever loved my mom honestly he would always cheat oh it's a whole thing yeah what's your is your mom american oh yeah she is she was born here but so he could get a green card through that right they got married sadly i think now he was able to get a green card just because they were married for so long i think like 14 years oh yeah i think you can get it yeah that's crazy yeah what they went through i was like i don't know how my mom did it and i asked her i'm like how like why and she just says like she just really loved him yeah i think in a way they Yeah, that's crazy. Yeah. What they went through. I was like, I don't know how my mom did it. And I asked her, I'm like, how? Like, why?

And she just says, like, she just really loved him. Yeah. I think in a way they grew up together. You know what I mean? They were together for 14, 15 years. Okay. So. And they had three kids together.

So obviously. Oh, my mom is up here. Okay. No shame in that at all. No, I live for it. I love that she has all different dads. Okay. Yeah.

I have a half sibling sister that I'm like, that's my sister. You know what I mean? I live for it though. Yeah. That's everything. Okay. Because I don't a half-sibling sister that I'm like, that's my sister. You know what I mean? I live for it, though. Yeah, that's everything. Because I will never understand somebody that could be with a guy for like 15 years and then have like six kids with them. I'm like, do you not get bored of the same eggplant every day? Like, come on.

Switch it up every year. I don't think you do. I think when you're like in love with someone, I think it's like, you can make it exciting each time. Well, yeah. You just have to. Oh, Anika, no, you sure can. At 18, I was like you, 18 to like're oh no you sure can at 18 but i was like

you 18 to like 30 just do all the eggplants you want and then after a while just like this is like not fun anymore i'm like the kind of person was like i want to try it all i don't want to die like only doing one thing right so you have a lot i want to try every flavor yeah you have to be careful to like really using you and just all the stuff where now they look back at it i'm like he was low-key using me like yeah even if they don't want to be an influencer they might be using you for like a lifestyle or you know just so weird i had a guy that i was talking to in new york and whenever i went to new york fashion week i saw him and it was just so weird because there would be moments where he was like i want to see somebody come up to you and i was like what do you mean he's like i want to see

somebody like take a picture with you like i want to see how famous you are literally it turned me off i was like i was like ew like why do you want to see that? And low-key, he had a TikTok, too, and he wanted what I have. Oh, no. So that really turned me off. And when I came back home, I'm just like, I really, like, stopped talking to him. Yeah, that's, like, a weird thing. Because it's, like, one thing to, like, think it's cool, like, when someone gets recognized. Because I used to date, I loved to date famous people back in the day.

I was like, ooh, you're going to, but you would never say it to someone because that's, like, ick. Like, don't say it. You know what I mean? Just be, like, chill about it. So you could easily get that in your head. Yeah. He showed his real colors. You know what I mean? Just be like chill about it. So you could easily get that in your head and I would have just. He showed his real colors.

Did you take him somewhere? Were you like in an event or just out in public in general? No just out in public. I let him take me wherever. Okay. So you don't like when you go to like New York Fashion Week

and stuff do you bring dates with you or no? No. Well sometimes I'll bring a friend or two but like for example New York Fashion Week

I went with my managers and then with which she's also she's an influencer but she's also my friend. And she's also in the same management company as me. Okay. So we kind of all went as a group together and it was super fun.

Oh, how did you even get invited to that? I think that's amazing. You're so young. New York Fashion Week? Yeah. My managers, I don't know how they did it. I think I told them. Okay, you're like, I want to go.

I think, yeah, like a month before, I was like, I know New York Fashion Week is coming up. I want to go. Wow. I was like, make it your main priority. I want to go. That's like, you're the- And they were like, I swear we got invited like a week before wow that's like powerful love you canon oh no we love canon yeah yeah super like

last minute they were like let's take dolls out and we're like okay you know you're that's a powerful manifester for i don't know if you believe in that but when you speak something it happened i have been manifesting my whole life i wake up without even knowing i have a wife where next to my bed i write everything down i wake up i see it i erase it now that they came because i don't let nobody see my manifestations oh i'm the same i'm very secretive with my journal one time like i forgot to erase it and me my friends all came home from partying and they were all like there they're like what is this they saw it yeah the good thing is it was people i trusted like louis you know louis castro yeah yeah i really trust him he did a great cali so he saw it oh my god so good i love that look i was like oh my gosh so he saw it and he was like oh my god

like that's so dope okay i erased it in front of him he was like no no no he was like don't erase it why'd you erase it i was like no like nobody's supposed to see it he's like no bitch he was like he told me he was like own that shit like if that's what you want like you know you go get it do you have like a wild one out there that you're like this would be crazy to somebody the wildest yeah can you say one no no but if you could manifest it's so big right now if you say it out loud but especially online people like just even i feel like even the thought of people saying or thinking like that's a wild thought i feel like even that is bad energy you know oh i see i see what you're saying i always just say like i want to be on a talk show i want to be on white

lotus i want to start a movie with quentin tarantino like yeah you what i mean i think you're very much of like a you say it to bring it to life you know what i mean i'm very much of like i'm going to think about it all the time i'm going to write it in papers i have a whole book of just all my manifestations i see it next to me in my bed all the time yeah that's true like nobody no there's a lot of evil eye out there for sure it's like protected so i get that too yeah that's cool though that's cool because you just told your managers like i want to go to your fashion week and then boom like the next week you're going. I really.

That's insane. Because I've been hit up by like some of the biggest like management companies now. But I'm with this management that I. They're small. They're very small. But they are truly the best. Like they got me. Do you know UTA?

Yeah. They got me to UTA. You have an agent over there? I have an agent over there. Yeah. Wow. Are you going to act? I want to.

Oh my God. Okay. UTA. It was one of the manifestations. Okay. I tell them all the? I want to. Oh my God. Okay. UTA. It was one of the manifestations. Okay. I tell them all the time like UTA is like the biggest agency. Because like someone else we know just like signed with it. It is the biggest agency.

Yeah. It's like the biggest with WME. Those are like the big. And if you can even get a referral to be in there. Because I've never had an agent. I've always wanted to act and never get an agent. But you have managers, right? Yeah.

Like I have managers that help me with like sponsorships and stuff. But nothing like acting. But agencies are hard to get into. More so than management companies i got them not specifically for acting just like they wanted me they wanted them to get me bigger brand like brand deals oh more bigger things and also they help with like the money stuff like they help like get me i guess more money from the brand deals maybe yeah so you're going for more mainstream maybe like mcdonald's and like those kind of things yeah no oh my god i used to work

at mcdonald's really yeah did you love it because mcdonald of things yeah no oh my god I used to work at McDonald's really? yeah did you love it? cause McDonald's is my favorite I loved it oh my god I love working there tell me all the secrets of McDonald's it's like a game there's like an iPad thing and you're ordering your food and you tell people like hi I'm gonna get for you I'm like I'm just like damn do you want more? oh did you say that?

no I would be a little sorry cause sometimes it's just for fun I love it oh my gosh I just hated wearing the hat I loved the outfit I hated the slacks the visor? you hated the visor? I never liked the it's just for fun. I love it. Oh, my gosh. I just hated wearing the hat. I loved the outfit. I hated the slacks. The visor? You hated the visor? I never liked the hat because of my curly hair. I hated it. Oh, it was like flat.

But I love the shirt. They're so comfortable. I use it to sleep all the time. Was it the collar one? Is it with a collar? No. Or a t-shirt? Oh, you had a t-shirt.

Those were for the managers. All the ones that aren't have collars. I go there like literally every week and they always have a collared shirt. Yeah, well, that's, yeah. Well, they're always like, oh, you're a manager now. They're so weird. Oh, interesting. But it's like an iPad

and there's like little emojis and all the emojis have like hamburgers on it and I'm just like, you know what gets complicated though? Whenever they're like, oh, can you take this out, put this in, do this and that.

Oh, you hate that. I'm just like, can somebody else take this order? Like, I'm not dealing with that. Can you do that? Can you trade off? Yeah. Okay, so there's someone else.

Sometimes I'll be like, hey, like, this bitch is complicated. Come do it. Yeah. Oh, I know. I feel like I'm a very easy order. I love McDonald's. I love, I love role plays.

I love doing like the drive-thru role plays i used to love that as a kid i just love acting to like with your i just love the did you wear a headset i did wear the hair headset i love the headset too yeah i loved it too but sometimes it would break and i'd be like like hello like can you hear me here so when someone comes to the drive-thru what do they say i would say hi welcome to mcdonald's what can i get for you like something like that easy i would have fun with that all the other girls would say like hey like what can i get for you but i would like i loved it was like a video game for me i was like hi welcome to my dolls what can i get for you like fun yeah going fast too i don't know why oh my god yeah you're very

you're actually a really fast speaker and it's usually i can keep up but i'm like wow you actually talk really fast takes me a minute to process it you might be faster yeah usually i can like listen but that you're fast you're one of the only podcasts that i really listen to because you talk so fast i cannot I cannot with slow talkers. I get so bored easily. I know. Me too. I get bored with men.

I get bored with people. I get bored at school. And I get bored. Yeah. We have so much in common. Oh my God. Do you get bored easily too? Oh my God.

I get bored easily. Slow talkers. I just can't. I'm just always like. Seriously, if someone doesn't finish a sentence, I'm like, go, go, go. I get so mad. No, literally. I'm like, I'm going to try to finish it for you.

Yes. And that's what I do. But we both also work at McDonald's. We used to work at McDonald's? Just on ASMR, not in real life. Wendy's most important deal of the day has a fresh lineup. Pick any two breakfast items for $4. New four-piece French toast sticks, bacon or sausage wrap,

biscuit or English muffin sandwiches, small hot coffee, and more. Limited time only at participating Wendy's taxes extra. I would have loved to. I thought you were like, I actually worked there. But I worked there for like, I think two months. That's a slay. No, I worked there for two months because literally the only reason I quit, because I loved

that job so much. But the only reason I quit was because the manager just yelled at me. For what? Not wearing your hat? Talking. To the customers or just to people? To the people. But we were doing our job. I was like one of the fastest workers there i was getting down i was taking orders i was like doing the drinks and then i was like back there like bagging items so there's one day where it was just me and one other girl at like eight o'clock at night which is when all the like you know people are coming to get their food like they just got home from a

party stuff like that so they're trying to get shit quick so like how do you it was like crazy why are the ice cream machines always down? They're not down. Oh. People just don't want to make them? Yeah. Yeah. That's the tea.

Sometimes I'd be like. Oh they're down. No. Oh my god. That's worse than the bullying. I've only done that one time. But you know why? Why?

Just because I was bored. Oh my god. I was bored. So I wanted to see their reaction whenever I said that it was down. And then would you be like just kidding. It works. No. Oh my god.

But then I'd give an ice cream to the girl behind That's so I would cry that's so devastating I would just get so bored But then when I do give them ice cream I would fudge it up Like fudge You know like peanuts

Everything whatever you want I think they even came through one time when I was working I gave them like so many sundaes Can you get free food to your friends you're not allowed to but i did it they wouldn't let us eat on the job i was trying to eat the fries while i'm working and they wouldn't let me do that wait really yeah like a little snack and the free food you know how they say like oh wherever you work like if you work at fast food they'll give you free food no i will i like that mcdonald's well they give us one free meal but you know what the free meal was a four-piece mcnugget with, a small fry and a small drink.

I'm like, who? Apple slices or no? Yeah. Okay. But I'm like, who is this for? Like, I'm 6'2", baby. I need to eat. Oh, no.

What's your go-to McDonald's order? I don't eat McDonald's anymore after working there. Wait, why? Because it's, like, nasty? I wouldn't say it's nasty. I would just say it's weird. Like, I don't know. Would you see how the nuggets, you know they show the video of the nuggets with the pink

cream and stuff? Yeah, but it's just, it's frozen. I mean, we eat frozen food all the time. know they show the video Of the nuggets with the pink cream And stuff Yeah but it's just It's frozen I mean we eat frozen food All the time I love frozen food Yeah so it was never weird There was a rat there one time No

Did they have a B rating Did they put it down Like I think they were just like Fighting to get it Yeah they're like Getting a broom And trying to get it

I'm not mad at that I'm not mad at that either Because we went to a restaurant Where our favorite one Had like a rat run through it And I was like Yeah imagine all the other stuff They'd be eating

I don't know. Sprite. Like what's in the Sprite from McDonald's? Nobody knows. Oh yeah. Somebody was trying to come at me because I love Wheat Thins and they like put the whole Wheat Thins thing. They were like, oh, Wheat Thins are actually super bad for you.

Like they have this and this. I'm like, baby, you've probably had Sprite from McDonald's. God knows what's in that. Yeah. Oh my God. They come free with the Wheat Thins. I feel like that's so healthy. That's like a healthy snack.

Right. Isn't it a healthy snack? Okay. That's funny. Have you tried them? They're so good. No, I'm not a wheat thin person oh it just sounds like something i wouldn't be interested in i'm just like a potato chip i don't oh no yeah yeah you know like a lays or something sounds better to me love lays i don't eat a lot of chips but

if i do it's gonna be lays okay because you have you talked oh wait talkies but not like the real not the real long talkies like the new like wafer takis. Ooh. The wavy ones. Are they hot? Yeah. You don't like spicy food? I love spicy food, but I can't with the takis.

I like hot Cheetos. I don't like takis. Takis are wild. The blue ones are made me like violently sick for like months at a time. I think I only ate them one time in like middle school. It's just not pretty. I don't know how they make them blue. I don't know.

It was a whole thing. No, literally. How do they make them blue? And then how does your tongue turn blue? It's so weird. Everything turns blue. Like everything just your tongue turn blue and your tongue everything turns blue like everything just yeah it was scary blue wow that's like radioactive i was like oh no it was wild oh my god one time i ate pink hummus oh it was wild too i was so scared i was about to call a doctor why am i bleeding out yeah oh was it the barbie menu yeah at the land war cafe oh my god we're just the same cafe oh my god we're

just the same person oh my god oh yeah wait what happened i was like it was coming out pink everything was coming out pink and i was like why why is it red like why is it pink what am i bleeding out or something no i was scared i was like why am i bleeding pink like no yeah the beats yeah oh that's what it is and i was on my phone i was going to safari i was like is is your poop supposed to be this color like no to safari i was like is is your poop supposed to be this color like no yeah you can go online like oh if your poop is this color you have cancer i'm like i was like dying i was like wait why is it pink but then i was like okay maybe maybe it's the beats i finally got to one like little safari thingy and it said oh if you drink

or eat something that has like red dye then it'll no okay you know and i was like oh the internet hates red dye i got the little spider-man whopper everyone's like it has red 40 and i'm like what i love everything red dye yeah i don't think wait but can you okay if you don't talk about the sunlight we don't have to but do you can you have that with your you said you had ips you have you talked about that so no i have actually never talked about it i don't have to because people really think whatever like they see me pour laxatives into my coffee and they're like oh my god like are you trying to be skinny and like no when you said you took laxatives. I'm like, oh, I'm perplexed. I generally have to take, like, laxatives to even, like, for my body to even work. You're the opposite of what people think IBS is.

Yes. Okay. I'm the opposite of when people say, like, oh, I'm going to drink coffee. I'm going to be pooping all day. I'm going to, like, eat this and I'm not going to poop ever again. Okay. How, okay. We can, like, we won't get too graphic anyways because it's YouTube, but, like, how many

days have you gone without? Well, this was a long time ago. Now, now that I was introduced to laxatives and now that a doctor told me like oh take this many laxatives a day or like take this medication it's better but before when i was younger when i didn't know what was wrong with me with my body you know what i mean it was like a week without me i've been to the hospital multiple times and when i like in pain really really bad like crying screaming and i get there and they're like oh it's because you have poop in your stomach and it's not coming out i guess it's like yeah it's just stuck i used to say this story all the time i'd be like i'd go weeks without it and be like that's impossible

and i was like no when i was a kid i used to go weeks without going and i heard it's like really bad yeah but i was the same way i have really bad stomach problems and but they never told me that when i went to the doctor they would just give me like pills or whatever and i never but then they wouldn't even give you pills to like yeah let's give it for you right exactly had to take like, there was diet pills back in the day that made you like go. And I ended up taking those. Yeah. It was called like Ali. And it was like, and it even had a warning that it made you like leaky.

And so anyways, that's what I took to like make it regular. But anyways, that's a whole other thing. So. You saw the loose losing weight label and you were like, yeah. Yeah. Oh, I'm all about it. I'm like trying to get on that ozempic now. I'm just like, God, everyone's on it right now.

And I'm like, I'm just, I'm so scared. I'm so scared of everything. I'm like, I'm probably the 1% guys. I think it's so easy to get in LA, but it's easy to get in that Ozempic now. I'm just like, God, everyone's on it right now. And I'm like, I'm so scared. I'm so scared of everything. I'm like, I'm probably the 1% guys. I think it's so easy to get in LA, but it's easy to get in LA. That's what I heard. And I heard it was really expensive. I heard it's like $1,000 a month. Have you tried it?

No. You don't? I'm scared. I have some. Wait, really? Yeah. Have you tried it? No, no, no.

I'm saying I know somebody that has somebody and I got in contact for them for one of my family members. Oh my God. For Ozempic? Yeah. But I never. No, please. I don't know. I'll disintegrate i will literally

i'll collapse no yeah i'm gonna be on ozempic no i know but if i do i'll literally collapse like i will become nothing i don't think i could get any skinnier than this oh man but do you love do you are you love being skinny so you don't love being tall you love being skinny yeah no i love being tall too just not when it comes to men okay you like for the model the aesthetic i love being tall i love being tall i love being super skinny oh yeah being skinny i know it's like such a thing that people hate it hate on it you know like if you say you love being skinny they're like oh well you're there's something wrong with you it's like i love that you're honest about it because the world loves skinny and people want to be skinny i love skinny

yeah but it's like even some people like big people some people like being big and who cares who gives a shit you know what i mean like that's amazing i definitely don't when people are like i'm kind of i wish i loved being fat but that's not the case but i love eating it's hard i can't choose i think as long as you love your own body so that's all that matters yeah yeah i think you get to a point somebody commenting yeah it's like people that are like the old age thing too i didn't want to get older now i'm like older i'm like i'm old but i think that was epic i think like with housewives and stuff like that they were always skinny but then they get so skinny it's like the koreasians it's like they got so skinny like under a year yeah

so then you're just you know when i think it started i think it started whenever she was trying to fit into the marilyn monroe dress oh you think she took a like i think she was like how am i gonna fit into this i need something quick she went to the doctors and doctors were like hey this is really severe and it's crazy but we can give it to you she took it and she lost all that weight she fit into the dress but then she kept going going because it's an ozempic like you have to keep taking it yeah we just were talking to someone about this he's like once you stop it you gain it back. Yeah.

So it's a lifetime commitment. But it's like any diet pill. It's like anything in the world, right? Right. Like diet and exercise should be a lifetime thing. I don't know. I'm really – It's like exercising.

If you're going to stop exercising, you're going to lose the muscle. Right. That's true. Yeah. So it makes sense. I know. It sounds complicated. I just want a magic pill that I can take once and that's it and then I'm just skinny.

I mean I used to be kind of big. What? I used to be very big actually. No? I used to be very big, actually. No. What do you mean very big? No. Yes, no. I would have my friends, my own friends would tell me, I love hugging you because you're

so fat. What? Yeah. I used to be big. She's saying no. She's saying no because they're the nice friends. They weren't the friends that said that. What's fat?

Give me that. Give me that. I was chubby. I was like, I was, I was five nine weighing like 150. That's not chubby. You don't think so? No. I was chubby. I was like. I was. I was 5'9". Weighing like 150. That's not chubby. You don't think so? No. I was 150 at like five years old.

Oh my gosh. That's nothing. I wish I was 150. I think what it also is. Is just seeing how skinny I am now. Yeah. And then looking back. I'm like.

Holy shit. I was huge. Totally. Like relative. Yeah. I actually don't. I like bigger people too. When I like hug them.

I'm like. It's kind of squishy. I don't like to admit it. Because I didn't like whenever people told me that. Right. It is. Yeah. You don't want to tell. Also you I actually don't. I like bigger people too when I like hug them. I'm like, oh, it's kind of squishy. I don't like to admit it because I didn't like whenever people told me that. Right. But it is. Yeah, you don't want to tell. Also, you feel more comfortable around bigger people. Yeah.

I feel like, right? Why did you whisper it? I don't know. I feel bad. I don't want to be like bigger people. Yeah. I guess when you're skinny. It's like one of those things when you're fat like you can say it, but I'm skinny.

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I get you. I get you for sure. It really is that. They will tell me shit. They'll tell us things like fat shaming.

I'm like, oh my God. I just think. I always do. I feel a little more comfortable too. I told you I'm careful. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. No. No. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah's like, fat shaming. I'm like, oh my God, I just think. I always do. I feel a little more comfortable too. I told you I'm careful. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

No, no. No, there's nothing, I don't think there's anything wrong with calling someone skinny, fat. You know how they are.

Yeah, because I think it's just actually, if I say the word fat, they're going to be like, oh my God, he's just fat shaming me. Yeah, yeah,

I get you. People are very, I feel like with skinny too, I always call people skinny and I'm like, now it's like offensive to call people that. I'm like,

I never mean it like, oh, they're thin, they're small, but I think now it's just not, you can't come on anyone's anything but you really can't yeah but i mean it's i i guess it's fine because there's no really need to yeah right what i just mean your head i don't i yeah whenever i look at someone i'm just like i just think everyone's tiny and like compared

to me i'm never look at someone like oh they're like huge or anything like that well yeah it's a whole thing we got a whole tangent from the mcdonald's what was the first thing we were talking about i was trying to get back to your high school back to me high school yeah because there's a whole thing so were you on tiktok in high school um freshman year okay so whenever you know i told you how like my friend told me to start doing makeup that was in the my last year of middle school so eighth grade during that whole summer i was like on my makeup grind i was practicing doing makeup the good thing is my mindset was i'm not gonna post any makeup until i get better at it because i don't want to embarrass myself okay so i did i really did get better at it and i started posting on instagram because at

the time instagram was the thing with like you know the beauty girls were like posting their videos on instagram things like that the pictures you know so i was like one of those people like i would post the pictures i would make instagram videos like cool transition videos and stuff then tiktok came out and i was like no like i loved musically so i was one of the girls i was like lip syncing no i was one of the bitches that like i hated tiktok i was like no i'm not gonna use that app like wow like bring musically back you know i loved musically oh my god and then after a year after a year i think like towards the end of my freshman year i got got on TikTok. But I got banned three times. Actually, this is my third account.

Yeah, 13 is a charm. Because I was so young. I was like 14, 15 on TikTok and they didn't allow that. I thought you could be 13. Oh, no. Well, they changed the rules so much. They were like going back and forth. They were like, oh, 14.

Actually, no, 13. And then they're like, actually, now you can't go live until you're 18. So literally, they were going crazy with the rules. I'm like, okay, well, what do I do now? So I got banned at 14, again at like 15. But my followers were like, I got banned the first time i like 100 000 followers oh no second time i was at 300 000 so you can just imagine how but you know what i kept going well now you're like four million plus so yeah the good thing is i kept going i didn't stop because it was something i

really wanted to do yeah because you wanted to but you okay so it was interesting is you said you weren't even like passionate about makeup like Like it's not like it was your passion. I was passionate about fashion my entire life. Like that was my thing. As a child, I would be like, well, first I wanted to be an actor and then a singer. And then I was like fashion. Oh my gosh. Wait. So, okay.

So you wanted to be an actor, then you wanted to be a singer. Can you sing? Are you a good singer? No, no, no, no. I was just a child. No, I can't. Oh, I bet you can't. First of all, I love when people are humble.

Because you know that people are like, oh yes, I'm a singer. And then they sing and it's like not that good. But I like when they're humble and then surprise you. But it's like, no. No, that's not true. I can't. Oh, I bet you can't. First of all, I love when people are humble. Because you know that people are like, oh, yes, I'm a singer. And then they sing and it's like not that good. But I like when they're humble and then surprise you. But it's like, no. No, that's not true. I can sing. I love singing, but I definitely can't. No, you can sing.

No, I can't sing. Yes, you can. I thought of you and you heard me sing. Oh, my God. Stop. Okay, I love that you were. I love anyone who wanted to be a singer at one point because I think that's like the ultimate.

Yeah, I wanted to act. I obviously wanted to be in that industry. You know what I mean? You should act. Like, acting is definitely going to be in your future for sure. I really wanted to do acting. That was something that was really big on i was put into acting classes as a kid um but it was more like of a dancing acting like like drama what did they call it like like musical theater like musical theater okay i was in that as a kid for

like a year like what did you play but then my mom couldn't afford it so we left um but yeah it is expensive okay what were you in do you remember i was in two plays one of them but it wasn't like no actually not plays it was more it I was in two plays. One of them, but it wasn't like, no, actually not plays. It was more, it was so weird. Oh, wait, actually one of them was like a Grinch. It was a Grinch theme. Oh, okay. I kind of remember the dance a little bit.

I was like, I was so tiny. Do you want to do it? Do you want to sing it? No, no, no. No, but I remember like a little memory of like me on the floor starting and I had to say something with a Grinch song and I was like, not singing it, of course. It was like a lip sync moment. You like acting.

Okay, okay. But I was like, you know. Were you the Grinch or were you like a who? No, I was like one of it of course it was like a lipstick moment yeah but I was like you know were you the grinch or were you like a who no I was like one of the little side dance characters yeah I think it was okay I love that that's so cute okay so then you then fashion you want to be like a designer that was hardcore fashion like I'm telling you hardcore like in elementary I would like have all these books of fashion designs like I was really that was my thing I wanted to go to New York I wanted to go to like a fashion school in new york because obviously new york is the fashion place um that was really my goal until i got to like makeup my goal was to go to college in new york and then okay so you're so

you're sketching what middle school you're like a teenager yeah sketching it was very much elementary fashion middle school i was already a teenager there still into fashion how did that transition into makeup well my best friend at the time she told me she was she was like well i was very like you know into the art stuff so then she just told me that i should try doing makeup it was it's so random right so random we were literally just like walking down the halls on our way to art class and for some reason she was like you should try doing makeup wow and how did you start what was your first and you on your friend at the time we would do little youtube videos okay there's some out there of me vlogging in school i don't think i've seen this one you're not gonna find those no i think i even private some but some were on a

different account okay yeah but i was vlogging you know my school i was vlogging everything i was a little youtuber oh my god love and so then whenever she said that i was like okay like let's do a fun makeup video and i did it was like me and all my friends who got in my room. And at the time, there was this trend going around. And it was like where you have your friends, like, go to the store and they pick out one crazy item. And you have to, like, use it in your makeup routine. So we all did that. So we were all three lined up.

Camera right there. And we were all just doing our routine. It was so fun. What was the crazy makeup item? Do you remember? Mine was a blue lipstick. And I still have it. I love a blue lipstick.

It was a blue liquid lipstick, yeah. I think I used it on my eyes or something it's like an eyeliner or something yeah and that video is no longer up it's privated it's there but it's private oh my gosh is it on the channel now because your channel now only has like a few maybe put it up maybe i'll think about it but it is on my same youtube channel that i have now oh my gosh wow and were people like that's how it started this is great or were you no i was, I was nobody. Yeah, I was just, yeah. Probably got like 20 views or something. Okay.

But was it good? Was it like, did you do good with the blue eyeshadow? Oh, no. Oh, really? I thought you meant the editing was good. I was a very good editor back then. Wow, that's talent too. The editing was good.

I can never edit. But the blue eyeshadow, no, no, no. It wasn't? No. Because usually artists. Remember that was the first time I got into makeup. Right. That was the first ever, because she told me to try doing makeup, and then we did that video.

But if you were, like, sketching, I thought maybe you could just naturally know how to do it, you know? Well, if you look at it, it was probably better than most firsts. Yeah, I bet it was. Yeah, but, like, you know, for me, I look back and I'm like, ugh. No, I feel like it's good. My husband's an artist, and I had him do my eyeliner, like the idol, and he slayed it. Oh, my God. He did, like, one, and I was just like, and he's never done makeup before.

So he does my foundation, my mascara. He does my lashes for me. Oh, my God. I like he's he's way better at it than i am so it's like you know just naturally when you're like a talented artist i think like you know how to do a face you know yeah but yours now it's like really elevated so would you practice on yourself like did you enjoy wearing makeup i really enjoyed it so i would always do eyeshadow from that point it was always eyeshadow that's not really the base yeah i was so into it because i was a very artistic person so eyeshadow was a thing i would play around with color do all that and obviously we were in that era too yeah like crazy colorful eyeshadow so i was always playing around yes i think my first

video was a rainbow look with like a cut crease that was so hard i'm glad that air is over because i can never do one i'm like this is so difficult no i live for a cut crease i just can't do it i think i have one on right now it looks really good yes i love a cut crease now but i i did not do this i had someone else you know but from there you know i said i was doing instagram and then tiktok came out and then i started doing tiktok videos and then i noticed that like a lot of the youtubers that would do like tutorials they weren't doing that anymore you know what i mean yeah it really stopped it was more like of challenges and fun videos and reviews and i was like okay well these bitches don't know how to do makeup so let me show them yeah and i did okay that's what really boosted me like showing them i think my first

viral video was like i had a curl your eyelash video it got like 4 million views and i was like 15 oh my god i don't know how to come oh my god actually i did that video twice why my first account remember i got banned i did on my first account it got like 5 million views and then after that account had its era, I got my new account. And then I was like, wait, that video went viral. Let me do it again. Wow. I literally tried to do the same exact video again.

I did. And it went viral again. You should do one now and see what it would do. I should do another one. No, I did. I did. 50 million. Recently?

Like how recent was that? No, a long time ago. Do it like today. Each account has one. Okay. I love that. Yeah. I don't know how to curl my eyelashes and I don't even know how a makeup artist do it.

Like if they put one to my eye, I can't do it. I don't know. It's so difficult. I don't know how makeup artists my eyelashes and i don't even know how a makeup artist do it like if they put one to my eye i can't do it i don't know it's so i don't know how to do it either because whenever i do people's makeup i tell them curl your lashes girl i can't oh yeah because it's like how do you i don't want to pinch you on accident or i do put on their lash but like the curling and the mascara i'm like i don't want i've seen like someone's eye i would flip and i'm like ever since then i'm like no i never want that thing near my eye like they like flip the eyelid oh yeah they go like like that i think tana used to do that i saw an old video of her going like into her eye and then yeah, she did. That looks like it hurts so bad.

No, yeah, she would put mascara on and then she like curl it. I think it doesn't bother them or anything like that, but I don't know. I don't know. I don't do that. I love that your TikToks now are kind of reminiscent of that era. You know what I mean? You kind of have a little bit of the old school beauty blogger. Yeah, I like to give a little of everything.

Yeah. Because I just, I don't want, I get bored of things. So I don't want people to get bored. You know what I mean? No, you mean no you have a good variety did you watch uh beauty influencers growing up or not really yes i did i watched a lot of bretman rock and like louis oh okay yeah oh now you're friends with louis i know yeah that's so cool and i'm mutuals with bretman rock we've never met but i love i love everywhere he's on all the covers and magazines i don't even think he's not an influencer where he's a celebrity oh for sure no there's certain people who just go mainstream. And that's definitely Bretman.

Yeah. He's beautiful, too. Yes. He's also like a model. Yeah. Would he be trade? No. No.

I don't know. He could. If you put him in the right outfit, he could pass as trade. He was out. I didn't know he was gay. What? Yeah. I really didn't.

I was like, oh, that guy's like hot. No, he's a very beautiful man. Yeah. I had no. Is this what I'm saying? I'm so bad. I like have no idea. Everyone is trade like hot. No, he's a very beautiful man. Yeah, I had no, that's what I'm saying. I'm so bad. I like have no idea. Everyone is trade to me.

A lot of girls are honestly into him too, yeah. Yeah, oh, for sure. I think he says, I don't know, I don't want to, you know. Okay. But I think he says he's not like a certain. Okay, he's just.

He's just Bretman. Doesn't identify. He doesn't identify. He's Bretman, which I love. I love when people, yeah, like if you're just like fluid and just whatever, I love that too. I love when people know who they are

and then I love when people are just like, I don't care. Like it's whatever. Yeah, it's very cool. I love when a guy tells me that. Like, I don't if you're just like fluid and just whatever i love that too i love when people know who they are and i love when people just like i don't care like it's whatever yeah i love that i love when a guy tells me that like i don't care i'm like oh period oh yeah even the dl's they're like i don't know maybe they don't know maybe they're also if they say i don't know i'm like oh you hate the dl's yeah no i'm not doing that i don't know just confused or scared or don't know or want to try it i am too like um secure i'm too i'm so secure i know what i want when a guy is confused and doesn't know what he wants, I'm like, I cannot deal with that right now.

I have too much stuff on my plate. So if someone's like, I just want to try. Then I'm like, go try it with somebody else. Okay. I respect it. Because then I don't want to gain any feelings.

You know, I'm too scared of that because when I gain feelings, it's like, oh shit. Yeah. I've had people do that with me. They didn't know.

They're like, I don't know if I'm like gay or not. And I'll be like, then they'll be with me like, I'm gay. I was like, okay. Oh my God.

You're a guy? Yeah. I don't know. I might like women and then like one with me and then just like i don't like women actually i'm like oh i'm so glad it could be that deciding factor for you oh my god i never minded that growing up yeah that that was that was the stuff yeah it's humbling it happened way too often too i would always go for like gay guys i just didn't know they were gay but i would meet them in was hollywood at like mickey's and i gay guys, and I just didn't know they were gay. But I would meet them in West Hollywood at, like, Mickey's, and I'd be like, oh. Oh, and you didn't know they were gay? No. No?

Because there are some that it's like, yeah. Yeah. That's trade. Yeah. There you go. That's trade. The ones that you didn't know they were gay, that's a trade. Yeah.

I don't know. I can't tell anything, but I think that's the way to go. I love Bretman. So, Bretman. You said Joey, though. He wasn't really beauty. You just liked him. No, I love Joey.

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I love Joey. I love Joey. I love Joey. I love Joey. I love Joey. Joey's the greatest. I'm going to live Minecraft, everything. I live for Joey Azucan. Oh, wow. You watch his gaming channel? Yeah. Have you met him? No.

Oh. I have met his ex. Daniel. Daniel. I met Daniel. Yeah. Just random? Just out?

Out. He was with Manny. They're always together. Okay. Oh, are you friends with the beauty boys of that era? Like Manny and- Yeah. Yeah, I'm friends with them.

Oh, Patrick you're friends with. Patrick, yeah. He's like an OG. He was actually the person that really took me in when I came out to LA. I honestly would not have been as comfortable coming to LA if it wasn't for Patrick. Okay. Because he was the only friend I had out here at the time. And he put you in his campaigns and stuff like that.

Yeah. Yeah. So that's amazing. And also he took me out with him a lot. So I met a lot of new people through him. Because he knows everybody. Oh, yeah. And he's got a brand in Sephora and he's doing one Stefani.

So I met so many people through him too so yeah he definitely became like so mainstream too where i feel like he doesn't even care about his youtube because he's like has such a big brand yeah i think he's more of like a what do they call them like brand owners not brand owners they're yeah well he is like a brand owner yeah but like they're called something entrepreneur entrepreneur that oh my god i'm guessing these words sometimes i get it sometimes i don't he's more of like an entrepreneur now than like your influencer. So he's like your like mentor? Yeah. Very much.

Okay. That's nice. That's cool. And also like my best friend out here because you know. Oh my God. I love that. Because you guys. Okay. You guys did the Taylor Swift and Beyonce so fast.

How? Did he come up with that so quickly? He said get dressed. Oh, we hear we need to do this now. I? Yeah. Is he like a big Taylor Swift Beyonce fan or what? I think he's a big Beyonce fan, not Taylor Swift.

Okay. Okay. So he's like, we need to do this right now. He's like, you look like Taylor Swift. Let's go. He was like, yeah. He's like, you're the only skinny tw okay okay so he's like we need to do this right now he's like you look like Taylor Swift let's go he was like yeah he's like you're the only skinny twink white person

I know you need to get dressed we're gonna do it yeah I loved it we talked about it on the podcast I was like it would happen so fast I was like how do they cosplay literally two days after

two days yeah I was like that's impressive because I love cosplaying people but it takes me about a week to get a costume around I was so tired yeah

especially a custom who did your dress no it wasn't custom Guy Honest you know what that is Santia Ali oh really yeah Santia Ali I was so tired. Yeah. Especially at custom. Who did your dress? No, it wasn't custom. Gaijonis. Do you know what that is? Santiali. Oh, really?

Yeah, Santiali. Wait, what did you call it? Gaijonis. What is that? What's it mean? I don't know. It's what they call it. Is it Spanish?

Spanish for Santiali. Gaijonis. I love Santiali. I didn't know. Gaijonis. Yeah. I love it. No, yes. But Tonga?

Both of us. No, I actually hate when people call it Santiali. I'm like, no, it's the Gaijonis. Gaijonis. I like that. Oh, I like that. That sounds so cool. It's way better too. Santiali, like, that's... No, I actually hate when people call it Sanziale. I'm like, no, it's the Gaonis. Gaonis. I like that. Oh, I like that. That sounds so cool. It's way better too.

Sanziale, like, that's boring. That's a street name. That's wild though because it's like they had that dress already made. It looks exactly

like her dress, right? Yeah. Oh, that's weird. So it must be just like a style. I think Patrick had like one of his assistants or something go and get the dress and they brought back that.

Maybe they like customized it because it looked exactly like her. No, it was Sanziale. That same morning he got it. That's wild. Literally everything all the same day. We shot in his office, because he just got, like, a new one-size office. Okay.

So we shot there. We literally planned everything the day before. He was like, do you want to do it? And I was like, yeah. Oh, that's so fun. He was like, girl, it's going to be crazy. Trust me. Like, you have to do it.

And I was like, okay, fine. And when you do it fast like that, people are always shook. They're like, what? That's what he told me. He was like, but if we're going to do this, we need to do it, like, now. Oh, yeah. We can't wait for anybody else to do it. We need to do it fast like that people are always shook that's what he told me he was like but if you if we're gonna do this we need to do it like now oh yeah we can't wait for anybody else to do we need to do it now yeah because if you wait someone else does do it to a movie i hated that way he put me in i was so uncomfortable no i you look beautiful it looks good because it looked like her hair i don't know who did her hair that day but it was not yeah i was not yeah i i'm

not like a swifty but i'm not i'm not one either but she looked pretty i love her old songs oh yeah yeah like the love songs just not like romeo what's the song romeo romeo julia that one and then also the other one what was that blank space i got a blank space that's the ones i know those are you belong with me that one oh that one yeah i think that's the romeo julia when i was thinking of that era i love yeah yeah you don't like the tape you don't care yeah not really what do you follow though? Like celebrity wise? I'm into more like Megan Thee Stallion, Nicki Minaj, Ice Spice.

I loved your Ice Spice thing. I saw that she commented and that she lived for your Ice Spice. I was like, oh my God. She sent me a DM. I sent her a DM. I love that for her too, that she actually liked it. Oh my God. And I think she runs her accounts because I sent her a DM on TikTok and she DM'd me back and I was like, oh my God, girl.

Oh, you thought it was going to be like somebody else. Yeah. And it was like her. And I was like, oh God, I live for them too. I love, I live, yeah. I love Nicki, but I do love Ice so much right now. I do. She's just so cool. She's so iconic, yeah. I love the way she performs where she just kind of, you know, like,

ah, she's a queen. No, she really is. I love how she's just standing there and she's just... That's what I'm saying, to just go on a stage and just kind of vibe and be like that. She vibes. It's really just vibes. I love it. It's not even a performance, she just vibes on stage and I love that. Yeah, because you know some people, and like that's totally cute when people do like full-on choreography It's really just vibes. I love it. It's not even a performance. She just vibes on stage and I love that. Yeah, because you know some people, like that's totally cute when people do like full-on choreography

in these huge shows but I love a girl that can just, you know, like, yeah. I feel like those full-on choreography shows it's very like, but hers it's very like,

yes, like, you know, yeah. It gives that kind of different energy. You know what I mean? Yeah, yeah, yeah. No, I love her. I think she's on tour with Doja Cat pretty soon,

like in a couple weeks. Is she? Yeah. I didn't know I'd hear about that. Yeah, it's everything. I was like, oh man, because I just love her so much and I love Nicki. I love her. Oh, yeah, those are cool. I like that. I love Nicki hear about that. Yeah, it's everything. I was like, oh, man, because I just love her so much. And I love Nicki.

I love all. Oh, yeah, those are cool. I like that. I love Nicki too, yeah. Oh, okay. I like that. Well, they're pink girlies. They're like barbs.

I met her. No, okay. I didn't meet her at the Barbie premiere. She walked past me. Oh, yeah. You were at the Barbie premiere. I was at the Barbie premiere. Did you get that through your management?

Yeah. Oh, my God. You're everywhere. You are so. I'm in awe. I'm so in awe of you. That's why I say I really have the best management ever because yeah i knew the barbie was coming yeah and i was like i know there's gonna be a premiere i know

it's gonna be big so i told them i was like again make this your main priority i want to be in that barbie premiere and they got it no one got to because i okay i never asked for anything but i asked every single person i knew like entertainment tonight i was like i was i feel like all the pink girlies should have been there and well a lot of them yeah there was a lot there but then there was a lot that weren't they're like i didn't get invited and stuff like that like us my friend sugar from sugar and spice she didn't get invited i saw that too and i was like how you're like a doll like no literally they introduced me to that what is monster high they introduced me to that oh yeah we love and oscar loves monster high all like everyone loves monster high i have to get

into it i love this their whole they're just dolls, right? I love it, but they're skinny dolls. Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. The skinny legends. Yeah. All dolls are skinny legends. I get it.

There's a video where it's like, Santa gave me a fat Barbie. I want a skinny Barbie. What's that from? That's a meme. Oh, really? This little girl opened a gift and it was a Barbie

and then she was like, Santa gave me a fat Barbie. I want a skinny Barbie. Wait, is that, because honestly, I did that for real when I was five years old. My dad got me a plushie of Snow White

and it was like, and I'm like, this is fat Snow White. I don't want it. I want a skinny Barbie. Oh, is that? Because honestly, I did that for real when I was five years old. My dad got me a plushie of Snow White, and I'm like, this is fat Snow White. I don't want it. I wanted a skinny Barbie. Oh, I threw a tantrum. He took me back to the store that same day because I was like, I don't want fat Snow White. Have you ever dressed up as a Monster High? One time I did do Draculaura a long time ago.

I think last Halloween I did, but not fully dressed up, just like the makeup. Halloween looks are crazy, but let's get back to Barbie because I need to know. So you asked them, how much time did you get in between? I got there late didn't really get to the pink carpet that much you do it though. I did do it I just didn't get gettys images. Okay Everybody loves getting images. Yes, so stupid. What I don't get is why do they just screenshot it? Why don't they buy the thing so there's no Getty image across or they want the Getty image across it is their cheap No, I'm just kidding They want the Getty's images across it because it's gettys i don't know they live around here and i'm just like girl just take the picture

yourself how do people get on there because i have like one from like 2012 i'm like how did that even get on there like what is they just they take the photos i don't know who takes the photos i heard that they charge like 20 000 for like an hour to be there like gettys charges that much that's what i heard oh that's and they just own all those photos of everybody yeah okay so you weren't on getty for it but i guess it was you on it. I guess Getty is like the photography. I don't know. I don't get it. I wonder.

I always see it. I'm like, is it owned by the Gettys? Like Getty Oil? Oh, yeah. Getty is Getty. Mr. Getty. I think that's the guy. Just a random Mr. Getty?

Yeah. I think he's the owner. It's a family-owned thing. Like the Getty Museum people own Getty images? It's a family-owned thing. That's what I know. It's a family. Oh, okay.

Because Gigi's husband is a Getty. So I'm like, I wonder if they... That's him. Oh, really? Gigi's husband, yeah. No. Yeah's what I know. It's a family. Oh, okay. Because Gigi's husband is a Getty. So I'm like, I wonder if they. That's him. Oh, really? Gigi's husband, yeah. No. Yeah. Because I know them so well.

I think they would have brought up that they like own Getty Images. If you know them, tell Getty's to pull up. I'm like, yeah, like Getty's. I want to get all Getty Images. No, seriously. Yeah. I didn't know this was a thing. That's their whole story. At least that's what I heard.

I thought they were like oil. I thought they had like a bunch of money from Shell Station or something. I thought they owned the Shell Stations. No, I think that's why people are so like, oh, Getty's, Getty's, because they're so, they're like a small, you know. Oh, I know nothing about these things. And they somehow get pictures of everyone, so. Man, Getty Images, I had no idea.

Yeah. But you're on there with other events. I'm on there with other stuff. Yeah. But I missed the carpet because I was late. Why? Of course. I was just glamming and I was late.

I love it. I thought you were late today. Oh my God, we can talk about this, but it's also just on me i'm more embarrassed i was like no i was embarrassed for a second i was like oh my god wait no she's gonna think that i'm a bitch and i just like wanted to be late or something but no no oh my god i honestly don't usually care but like you know we have a photographer that comes whatever and so this was like and i'm so like scheduling people like you know sitters and all this like i schedule people so much and i was just like okay so i was like 11 o'clock it's like 11 40 i'm like let me just text and you're like oh i'm like getting ready i'll be there and like you know i'm gonna leave soon i was just like, okay. So I was like 11 o'clock. I was like 11.40. I'm like, let me just text. And you're like, oh, I'm like getting ready.

I'll be there. And like, you know, I'm going to leave soon. I was just like, wait, what? And then I looked at. You were barely getting ready. Yeah. But okay. Okay.

So then I looked back and I was like, okay. Yesterday I said 11 a.m. And then I was like, oh man. But then you showed me the one where you're like 1 p.m. And I was like, but my messages don't appear from you. Really? You're not in my DMs. Do you have like vanish mode on or something?

Or on message. Well, that's a different story. It's probably on TikTok. I went to Instagram. I'm like, I don't see these messages. No. Yeahiktok is whenever oh my god oh when i sent you that you thought it was on message instagram or something i'm like trying to find it was on tiktok oh my god i'm literally we first like had our conversation through tiktok and then we moved to message yeah wow i was so dumb and then i felt so bad because i honestly wasn't like even mad or anything i was

like wait but i was like i was like i don't want to waste his plan because honestly I would have just taken off and go to sleep but I was like oh man because I just well Isaiah then I was like I don't know if he can stay but then we ended up going to lunch and came back he's super chill and cool but I was just like um and also it's like not that big of a deal it's like a photographer but I'm always just like I don't know I want a good photo but anyway oh yeah and then I want to get when you saw when you sent me what I said back really like it's 1 p.m okay this was like you know when we first booked I was like yeah of course I was like oh you know, when we first booked. I was like, yeah, of course. I was like, oh, my God.

I'm literally so dumb. And I felt so bad. And I never wanted to come across like mad or anything like that. I was like, oh, my God. Stop whenever. Take your time. Like I'm so dumb. I sometimes just can't schedule things.

I don't know. It's like I literally in my brain I can't like think about things. I don't know. I should have an assistant or something. But I never do. No. It's just me. Really?

And I get in trouble all the time because I'm scheduling appointments and going on podcasts and I schedule wrong. I miss people's podcasts. Oh, well, you should definitely get an assistant. Especially since you have a kid. It's just so much easier. I got one just because I was so stressed.

Like being new, they want me here, they want me there. So I was just stressing out and I think that stress was getting to me too much and I was like, I don't want to portray that stress

onto my followers because I will not film if my energy is not in line you know i mean if i totally i'm sad or if i'm too angry i will not film because i don't want to give that energy out then yeah you know i want to make i'm filming to give out smiles not that you're right not like stress so they were stressing me my manager was stressing me too much with too much work so i was like i'm gonna just get a assistant and now she will literally like we have a group chat and i mute the group chat all the time it's always on mute and i tell her only ever tell me if it's something important if it's not i do not care but you like trust you guys grew up together i don't know if i could find someone that i trust like that true

yeah my managers did tell me they were like because i told them i wanted an assistant and they were like oh well we can find one for you but i was and but they did tell me they're like we could either find one for you or if you have a friend or somebody that you already trust yeah and i was like well she's very smart she has her life put together like i'm gonna it's the way to go it's like knowing tana's friend she already knows everything about me you know what i mean like i can literally trust her with anything because she already she knows who i am yeah she knows your location every time everything so i'm like can you just do this caption that capture or she will answer my manager for me like they'll be like, hey, the brand needs a caption for this.

I'll be like, she'll do it because she knows how I am. She knows how I'll caption it. It's super important. If you find someone to trust. I just, I've never had one. Well, I don't trust people in general because I don't really have friends. But it's just hard to find. And my husband, he was kind of like, everyone joked that he was like my assistant.

But now we have like a baby and he helps me run this. So it's like too much. So I don't know. I'm also very like, I like to, I don't know, micrromanage i'm very like i like to be in control although you like to do everything yourself i do but i'm also out of control because i book things and i don't show up to things and then people get pissed at me and i'm like i'm so sorry i'm so dumb and like today i was just like oh my god like that was my bad i was like oopsie and that's what i said to you i was like sorry just kidding take your time i was just like oh man i'm like we'll make it work i'll

find someone i know i was so glad whenever you said, it's okay, take your time. Oh, I felt so bad. Because I was not going to do a liner. I was like, oh my God, I'm running late. I can't do a liner. Oh my God. But then whenever you said, take your time, I was like, I'm doing the liner. No, and you always got to look great.

I never like brushing glam. Like, I'm amazing at this when they brush glam. Like, don't rush hair and makeup. Like, that's the most important. Yeah, that's, yeah. And yours is great today, the liner. Thank you. I can never do the liner, but it looks so good.

Thank you. I did cut crease for you. We were looking at your glam photos, and I was like, he does a lot of cut creases. I live for a cut crease. First of all, I just saw your bag. Oh my god. I want this. Did you get this recent? Recently, I saw that they just came out with it and I bought it for such a live for it.

It's like one of my favorites. I'm kind of gagged. There's matching shoes that Selena Gomez wore. I'm surprised you didn't see it. Oh my god, no. Wait, did you ever get those pink ones that they were selling? I did. I didn't fit because my calf is too fat. Oh, no. And it was awkward because it was a white calf. Oh, that's what I was going to say.

Yeah, it was a white calf. Oh, trust me. That had a whole meltdown. I was like, okay, that's awkward. They were like fabulous on your legs, the shark boots. No, and I got the bag. I did get the matching Givenchy one. I have so many pink blue maids.

I have Versace. I have Givenchy. It's the one thing I buy. Now I need that because it's so beautiful. I would put my Diesel one down because you're a Diesel. I didn't even have a purple one, too. Well, no. Pink is the way to go.

No, yeah. Pink is, yeah. It's way better. If it's purple or pink, you need pink. But I have a Diesel because of you. I got this pink Diesel top pink. I live for Diesel. I should have put-

Oh my God, you got it because of me? Yeah, literally. Did you hear that, Diesel? Please put it on. I thought you were sponsored by Diesel. It's all over your Instagram. I love Diesel because Dallas, Diesel, yeah. Oh, yeah.

That is the one thing I am manifesting, but manifesting by using it out there. Hopefully one day they'll see me and be like- We got to manifest on camera right here. Everybody go to Diesel's Instagram and be like, Dallas, Dallas for Diesel, yeah. Is that ever on your vision board? No, it isn't actually. Put it on there. Because I have bigger things than that on my vision board.

Oh, my God. I want to know. I got to see this one day. Maybe take a picture and snap it to me. No, I should. You can help me manifest it. Yeah. We can have a manifesting day.

I would love. Oh, yeah. I used to really, now I have no time at all whatsoever, but I used to like literally like light a candle, sit in the dark, be in my room and just writing in my book and manifesting. Oh, I do it every morning. I do it like for a half hour. I meditate for a half hour and then I journal for a half hour every morning. Oh, that's, I love that.

Yeah. I'm like, can you watch the baby? I got to go meditate. And if I don't do it, it throws up my day. I love that. I do. Because like I wasn't doing it for a while after I gave birth. She came out of this with you.

Oh. At a certain age. Yeah. No, she's like a, she's the ultimate manifester. When she came along, all of a sudden like everything just like fell into place. So I was just like, oh, she's like this like manifest light, you know? Is she already talking or not yet? Yeah.

She says words. Well, not really. She's like, no. Has she said pink yet? No. She to say pink bubblegum i know that would be so cute it's also very iconic yeah bubblegum was like her first word so i was like okay that's kind of cute but yeah i think she's a pink girly for sure no she might not be one day i put her in all this pink i'm like one day she might not want to be yeah she might be like over it yeah which is fine i'm into like gothic emo aesthetic too so i know i know that i love it

you've done it all i live for it yeah i like yeah change it up too like you said i get bored like you get bored i get bored you know but the diesel the diesel sponsorship you need i think that would be i think that or modeling because you were just such a model have you modeled i that was a theme that i wanted to do i told my managers when i move out to la let's i really want to do modeling but i looked into it and they get paid dust yeah they literally they get paid dust and even though i'm like you know adoptive windows online and i have a following i still have to wait in line i still have to wait in line and i still have to walk in front of them and get casted and i don't want to do that really yeah it doesn't matter how the following will unless you're like huge celebrity that'll change i think somebody will come it's because you're

just so tall that's what they told me they told me one day they were going to come to you i promise you that's for sure also just because you look just so tall. That's what they told me. They told me one day they were going to come to you. I promise you. That's what they said. Oh, for sure. Also just because you look like a model too but you also have the following so I think that'll just happen. They told me to just try to do more like fashion stuff

online and you know. Yeah, that's the, and if you're going to New York Fashion Week already it'll totally happen. Oh my gosh. And your dream, is it Diesel

or is there a bigger one that you'd want to do? Prada. Oh, Prada, yeah. But I think that they're pretty easy honestly. Well, not easy. Yeah, yeah, yeah. But easy that they're pretty easy, honestly. Well, not easy. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

But easy as in like they do influencers too. Like they've done Avani, like Charli D'Amelio. So I'm like, okay. Oh, really? Yeah. Charli D'Amelio did Prada? I mean, they are like very high celebrity status. Of course, yeah.

Oh, that's amazing. But they're also like influencers, so. Oh, yeah. I had a friend. He used to have a drama channel. He still does. His name's Nick Snyder. He modeled for Prada.

But I don't even think he did it because he was an influencer. He just was like a model. But I was like, he's like on the runway. Yeah, he's like my age drama channel. He still does. His name's Nick Snyder. He modeled for Prada, but I don't even think he did it cause he was an influencer. He just was like a model. But I was like, he's like on the runway. Yeah. He's like my age. He's a little older. But, um, that definitely I think will happen for you for sure. Oh my God.

What is like a daily, like a weekly routine for you? Like do you go out with your friends every day, every night? I go out a lot. Every night you think? No, not every night. I try to keep it to Thursdays, Fridays, Saturdays. Okay. But sometimes it leads into Mondays and I'm just like, okay where do you go like uh west hollywood or okay are you like

a dancer do you go to the dancing clubs i'm not a dancer but i would just like you know i feel like i can't dance because i'm like so long and skinny i can't you just hang out and be cute i hate exactly that okay i love you start out you know west hollywood you know where those are all the gays are at yeah Yeah. So they're just like... And they all love the young ones. They see them. They live for the young ones, the young, tall, skinny ones. Yeah, they're like, oh, hey! And I love when a guy comes up to me and he wants me, and I'm just like, no.

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$0 delivery fees on your first three orders. Service fees, exclusions and terms apply. Instacart. Groceries that over-deliver. Oh my God. Do you just love the whole... I live for that no moment. Like, no.

Oh, I never had those moments in life. I wish I could have been you. You're kind of like a, what do they call that? Like a little flirt, like a little tease. Yeah. Oh, I love, yeah. Okay. Okay, there's nothing wrong with that.

I kind of love it. Do you go out with like your girlfriends? Yeah, girlfriends. I don't like going... I have gone out with like a few guys where it's like, oh, like, let's go out to like parties together. Yeah. But I like going out with my girlfriends way better.

Oh, I loved going to WeHo. I lived. That was like my favorite thing to do. Is the Abbey still a vibe or no? That's the vibe if you want to get your stuff stolen. Okay. Yeah. It used to be so trendy and cool.

I know. I heard that Abbey was the place, but now it's like the place where like people get their shit stolen. Oh my God. What are you? Now it's like Hart, Beaches. Hart. Beaches is popping.

Oh yeah. Beaches was big like a couple, like a few years ago. Okay. Yeah. Hart is new though. It's always packed. Oh my God. Now it's like Heart, Beaches, Beaches is popping. Oh yeah. Beaches was big like a couple, like a few years ago. Heart is new though. It's always packed. Heart is new. Yeah.

But Heart is like popping after three o'clock because that's the only club that stays like. Oh my gosh. Heart and Mickey stay open but Heart is the one. Is that Lance's club?

Do you know if Lance owns Lance Bass? Do you know Lance Bass? Are you old enough? You don't know who that is? Oh my God. He's not from NSYNC. He was the gay one in NSYNC oh my god this is wild to me sometimes wow we need a whole segment of like do you know this person

wait can we crazy oh my god now I'll feel old do you know MAC cosmetics oh please yes that was like everybody's like go to I know MAC RIP MAC I love MAC I don't think it's still around I don't know I never see anyone talking about it. Do you use their product? Yeah, of course. No, I've never seen you use it. What's the hot products now? Charlotte Tilbury.

Too Faced has honestly been around for a long time and they're still really hot. They are? We love Too Faced. I used to love their packaging. I never see them stuff. Are you into like the celebrity ones like Fenty, Rare, Rem? Love Rare. Rem, not really um love fenty you know okay no no love to sweetener foundation i haven't tried it oh really i kind of live for it that's the one i wear i love that really yeah i've never tried it i should try everybody keeps

telling me to try it but i haven't tried it i don't like the packaging i'm not a silver metallic yeah like it's basic yes that's the way I was looking for it. But silver is like Fenty to me. I don't know. I absolutely hate the eyeshadows that are like long and skinny. Like you know those little triangle words. It's like a little tiny palette and it's long. Oh yeah.

Yeah. I want a big eyeshadow with a ton of colors. That's what I live for. I don't even think. Natasha Denona is the only one I can think of. Natasha Denona. Yeah. It has like the big ones.

Yeah. Do you like the Mario ones? Like the. I love the Mario ones too. But it's basic packaging. It is basic. Black and white. But I kind of live for that basic packaging too.

Okay. So certain ones are okay. I really like like. Yeah. Sleek. Yeah. It is basic. It's black and white. But I kind of live for that basic packaging too. Okay. So certain ones are okay. I really like like. Yeah. Sleek. Yeah. Well certain ones. Okay.

Yeah. Like the white. I think just because it's white and I love the color white. One size is a sleigh. It's pink. One size. Love pink and red. I know.

I hate that it's pink because when I come out with my brand someday I want it to be pink. Well I feel like by then it could be like almost like under the same umbrella. Pitch fell off and then mine are back up. Yeah. Love you one size. You can do a little spin off of it. I'm on their campaign. I'm like well. You have to do like pink like glitter. I have Patrick in off and then mine are back up. No. Love you one size. You can do a little spin off of it. I'm on their campaign. I'm like, well.

You'd have to do like pink like glitter. I had Patrick in my campaign. He's all old and then. No. And whatever. He's another one that has made. By the time that I'm like, you know. That'd be everything though.

That would be everything. Yeah. It makes sense. It'd be full circle beauty at any age. Yeah. Oh my God. Wait. That's going to be the.

Yeah. That's kind of everything. And you'll be looking like you do now at 35. You'll still be just so young and beautiful. With all the new injections that they have going on, yeah. Yeah. I look at filters nowadays and it's like, you know the filters that make you look all filthy crazy?

I look at them and I'm like, that's what I'm going to look like when I'm like 40. I wish, maybe one day they'll do the filters where that's where you look like in real life. You know what I mean? Like you could just pick a filter and it does your makeup for you or something like that to look like a filter. Probably. Someday. You never know.

Probably like the spray on mechanism that sprays makeup on you. Oh, that would be amazing. They used to have spray. Like, do you already think you used to have, like, spray foundation? Oh, yeah, they do. They soft that.

I don't know why, though. That was so iconic. Because it was messy. Like, who was using that good? No one. Everybody was using it, though, but they were using it, like... Right, that's what I'm saying.

It wasn't like, you just spray it on. I think that's what they were trying to go for, but then they saw people doing it, like, on their hands. It's like, yeah. Yeah.

Did you ever watch any of the girlies, like, Jaclyn Hill, Laura Lee? Jaclyn, not very much Laura Lee. Okay. All the people I would watch back then was like Patrick, Louis, Bretman, Jaclyn. Tati? No.

Okay. Was she a beauty person? I don't know. I think she was more for the older girls. Okay. She's a beauty at any age. I did watch James for a while. Oh, yeah. Do you know him?

Yeah. Well, yeah well we yeah we're mutuals yeah yeah yeah he was really big too I guess he's still big I don't know I don't follow beauty people

so I just like don't know I'm trying to think who else were those all the beauty that was in oh um she's very tall blondie oh Nikki Tutorials

Nikki Tutorials yes love her she was great too I guess they're all still around they're all still around making palettes I feel like they all have making god knows what

no I think they all like have their own brands now honestly I really do I think they're all still around. Yeah, they're all still around. Making palettes. I feel like they all have like. God knows what they're doing. No, I think they all like have their own brands now, honestly. Yeah, no. I really do. I think they all do. Which is like wild to me. I'm like, that's so expensive to like start a brand and manage a brand. I mean, I guess they're all doing good. Yeah.

Which I guess is. I follow the drama of it. I remember when like Beauty World was in drama. Then it's like kind of exciting. Well, I think it's because I just saw a podcast of Manny's. And Manny and Laura were doing a podcast together. And they were just saying that like their beauty brands aren't doing good oh right they were saying they put all the money yeah they were saying all the money that

they put into it it just kind of comes right back like it's just like i like the honesty there because i love that they're being very honest yeah because that's what you would think all these people that's how we were too like your clothing line i just put all the money in and we'd like lost money so i wasn't really how about the skincare um that one i partnered with a local person and it's still really good it's still available asmr scan on amazon i use it i swear by i just have like really bad acne but it really actually works so much better yeah how with a bar of so i swear by it moses can tell anyone can tell you this is all i use and my skin is like so clear i used to

do proactive and all those and it's because my skin acne i do laser treatment now like it's what your skin is like so flawless because Well, because of that laser treatment. Did you have acne? Yeah. Oh. I still get like, you know, if I take off my makeup, acne scars everywhere. I will send you this. The whole kit is great, but the bar of soap is like, seriously, it's all I use.

It's like life changing. I will like so damn retry it. Oh my God, it's so good. But I do like this acne treatment where like they laser each pimple and it's like after two days it's gone. But I'm young, so I'm like obviously acne prone. They're just going to keep coming back. That's why I'm going to stop. I had acne up until I was like 32 and then this like bar of soap saved my life. And mine was bad. I like cystic. Yeah. I'm young. So I'm like obviously acne prone. They're just going to keep coming back. That's not going to stop.

I had acne up until I was like 32. And then this like bar of soap saved my life. And mine was bad. I like cystic. Yeah. I'm scared that I'm going to keep getting acne forever. I'm like I can't. No.

I hate it. No. I feel like it might be just like a. But your skin is like. But I guess. Yeah. The lady who I partnered with. She does those two.

She does like the zapping of the cysts. Yeah. The zapping. So if you get a big one. It goes down in like a day. She's very good. Yeah. But that kind.

She was already had a business. So I kind of just partnered with that but everything else I put the money into so I like when people are honest and like well just put it back I love honest bitches

I really do I wish I could be super honest online but you know I'm a makeup girly I think your persona is good online how it is

I try to but honestly I think they love me because I'm honest but I'm honest about makeup yeah you know I don't dig into like the drama on it

but it's like you know yeah yeah but I think that's good it's like refreshing I think that's why I like know i don't dig into like the drama on it but it's like you know yeah yeah but i think that's good it's like refreshing i think that's why i like you because as much as i love the drama like it is just nice to just see this like boy just you know excited about life every day just you seem happy and like here's some makeup here's my powders and i'm like i love that well that's what i like to put out there yeah no it's great today i don't know if it's today or yesterday you did one and you're like i love all the powders like when i did kayla's makeup she's like oh my god she's like oh my okay like more powder i was like i live for powder i only do powder i only do powder that's why her skin is so smooth yeah that's what they don't know that's the filter

look yeah they live for that tuition i'm like no i don't like it either no it looks like for me it looks like i'm sweating it looks yeah no i think on everybody i think it only looks good if your skin is super super super clear glass skin. Yeah. If it's like Kim almost Kardashian. Yeah. I live for it. Do we look for that?

But it's like, I don't know. Any little bit of texture, it's like this. Or the highlight, it goes crazy when they do the light here, here. I don't do highlight. You don't do highlight anymore, do you? No, no, no. Okay, yeah. I don't like highlight anymore.

I tried to because I know it was like a thing to do, but. For a while, yeah. I never really liked it though. In my old videos, you can see, and I only did it for a certain period of time, and then I stopped. It can look crazy. Mikaela loves a highlight. I love Mikaela,. In my old videos, you can see, and I, I only did it for a certain period of time. And then I stopped. It can look crazy. Michaela loves a highlight. I love Michaela,

but she will be doing that. No, she loves, she literally in the video, she was like, no highlight. And I was like, no,

that's why. Okay. So how are you doing these clubs? I think it's so impressive. You did Kayla. You did Michaela. You're like me. Michaela had been mutuals for a long time,

like a while actually. So, you know, and then she hit me up and she was like, Hey, let's, I love your content. Let's collab.

I died. I was like, Oh my my god we've been mutuals for a while you would live for her she's very chill she's super chill she's very dope she's so massive right now like she has to be careful who she collabs with you know what i mean so that's what it is yeah which i don't really give a shit who i collab with i mean yeah the fact that you're like problematic and you're here oh there's a few don't really give a shit who I collab with. I mean, yeah. The fact that you're like unproblematic in your hair. There's a few people, yeah. Really? Yeah, I have been collabing

with big people. I just realized that. Oh my God, huge. Kayla has like 12. Kayla I see everywhere. We're collabing after this again. Oh my gosh. She was like,

I want you to do my makeup again. I was like, okay, period. I'm after this podcast. Where did she come from? Because I see her literally everywhere. She lives for you. You know that, right? Kayla girl, hit me up.

I love her. Oh, you would love her. I think Antonia Garza just did her makeup and I was just like, oh, it's everything. Oh, Heidi Liv. She came out of nowhere, and I see her everywhere. She's really cool.

I think Alexis Oakley did her makeup. I was just like, oh, I see her. I love it. Maybe I could do her makeup. No, maybe you could. You get somebody to do it for her off camera. You pretend like it's you. No, I love doing people's makeup because I'm so black, smoky eye, silver eyeshadow on the

eye. I would do the overlined lip because the way I do makeup is like crazy and I love it I love her so much. We actually literally talk all the time here because we're the same age. We're both 18 Yeah, we're the same age. She her stories are insane. Like she gagged me with all the crazy stories. Yeah, I'm like growing Yeah, really? Oh, yeah, cuz I don't know much about her like person saying like I need to see this bitch on this podcast Oh, yeah, her stories are just like Your stories are like I'm actually so I'm so shook right now because even bitch on this podcast. Or on a podcast. Because her stories are just like, oh my God. Your stories are like, I'm actually so, I'm so shook right now.

Because even like from the moment you went in. We were talking 20 minutes before the cameras even started. And I was just like, you're a gift of gab. And also just like your stories are so interesting. I thought 18 years old, how much life could this person have lived? I've partied so much, honestly. Which is crazy. I kind of live for it.

Because you know how some people are like, oh, like don't party so much when you're young. Because once you're like 21, like you're going to be partied out. I like that, though, because then you have more to live. It feels like more. You know what I mean? Totally. People always say by the time they're 21, like, the ones that, like, party. I mean, some people just party their whole lives, but then they're like, I'm tired of it. You know what I mean? But then once you're tired of it, maybe at that age, I can then go and travel.

You know? Oh, for sure. Yeah, you could be a travel influencer. A travel girl, yeah. Yeah. I feel like I think it's good. And while you have the energy, you go out and like party and do all that i never partied i never did but that's only he never did no for a party i'm honestly a very shy person except when it comes to parties really so you'll like go up to strangers and stuff when you go out or they come up to you they go yeah because you just attract i mean do you dress like how do you when you go out what do you wear i'll wear like a well on a simple day a

cute little skims top and like some sk is this skims? this is skims I love it I hate that they removed the smoothing one oh really? they did? I didn't know the smoothing one

really like cinches you up oh I love it this was smoothing they came out with these ones instead and it's so sheer like you can see my tits and I don't like that

they are so sheer the Swarovski one that just came out too is like everything is so sheer oh you tried it on? no I haven't bought it oh but you see it online it sold out so quickly

it's very sheer I don't like the sheer yeah I don't live for the sheer and I'm like even their um like bodycon dresses i always have to wear like pasties and now they have a bra with the nipples i'm like i'm trying to hide them not show them those are wild what do you think about that at first i was like oh my god this is stuff but then i talked to some people who are like i kind of live for it honestly i if i was in school and i was a girl i would wear those to school yeah because i hate that like in school i was always also getting troll trouble for dress code.

Me, you know, dress code. So I live for it because then, like, you know, it kind of, like, puts the old weird men that are the teachers in school in their place. Because it's like, I'm wearing a bra, you know? Yeah. If these weird fake nipples turn you on, then that's your problem. I have trauma with teachers looking at my bras and stuff. Teachers are so gross. It disgusts me.

I wish everybody could just go to school and wear whatever they want. Well, yeah, but disclaimer, some teachers, I always say that too, and they're just always like, not all teachers. My, all my teachers were. No, yeah. Yeah, I had a lot of trauma with them. People don't like when I talk about it, but I'm just like, it was just a little, I don't know.

I don't get that, like, showing my stomach, what does that have to do with anything? Yeah. Like, what does that have to do with, like, teaching me? Like, that makes no sense. Yeah. And then I hate whenever they say, it's a distraction. To who? To you?

To you. Yeah. Because none of the kids are, i feel i'm gonna be a distraction regardless like if i wasn't yeah you're a great distraction though you really are like when you when you walk into like a room do people just all like look at you like eyes on you do you love it or do you ever get do you ever get insecure i want to say yeah because they're gonna be like oh my god you're so like no i i know you're so full of yourself but i'm really not like right they're like yeah no it's getting no you know i feel like you know like when i walk into a room i know yourself but i'm really not like right they're like yeah no it's getting no you know i feel like you know like when i walk into a room i know people look you know it's like yeah and do

you get insecure about it or are you like no i kind of live for it that's i think that's why i like going out so much because i love attention yeah so it's like okay this guy's not gonna give me attention i'm gonna go out and get attention from somebody else interesting i love attention but then sometimes i don't love it when i'm out like i don't know it's like weird sometimes i don't like when too many people look at me and then i get like weird about it i think i like attention online i don't think i know if i like it in person but you like it in person but what lately i've been noticing the attention is all on my body and you don't like that i live for it but then to a certain extent because then i start thinking and i'm like maybe i'm just overthinking

but then it's like okay well what happens when i get big am i still gonna get that wait like fat yeah like what happens you're gonna get fat okay well let's say i gain a little weight right you know what happens then there's a whole genre for that too people still gonna be like oh my god like sickening you know so i think because they see me and they'll be like oh my god and they'll reach for my waist and it's like well sickening up here too like look at my face you know right right interesting so well i think that's like a thing you have to think of later down the line just enjoy this right now the snatch that's exactly what i'm doing i'm like i'm gonna just enjoy what i have for now and just you know and if i don't think

it'll happen to you but if it does you know you'll find someone who's into that by the way i'm getting a bbl i'm getting no yeah i got a bbl i don't i'm not a hater on it i need another one i know you had a bbl your last podcast you said that i was like in 2017 if you look up like trisha paytas bbl like the pictures when it first happened i was like snap i've gained weight i had a kid and all it's like that so i gained weight since then but this was. But you had a kid and you're still like freaking amazing. Oh, thank you. I've definitely like gained a lot of weight. But, you know, I'm like, I'm learning with it now until my aseptic. But, yeah, the BBL

was everything because I took it until aseptic. Until I get the courage up for that. But, yeah, I don't know. I'm not about, I'm not against surgery at all. Me neither. I live for it, honestly. Yeah, I feel like when you're older, though, don't do it now because, you know. No, of course not. Well, you said your nose. No, I look at my face now and I smile. I have so many smile lines when I smile. Oh, my God. Don't lose those, Yeah. I feel like when you're older though don't do it now because you know when you said your nose I look at my face now and I smile

I have so many smile lines and I smile. Oh my god. Don't lose those though. I know. I don't want to lose them though. I'm really like I'm not gonna

I'm never gonna get wet socks until like 22 or something. Yeah. Yeah. Then you can do like three of them. I see my smile

even with my makeup like it creases all the time but it's like at the same time I'm like who cares like I smile. You know. You want to see the smile lines.

Yeah. It looks really good. You have a great smile. Oh thank you. Are your teeth real? Can I ask that? I don't know. No, yeah, they're real.

Oh, they look great. They look like veneers. No, this is so funny because. I ask everybody. I'm like, maybe it's not appropriate. No, it's so funny because we just got our teeth whitened yesterday. Oh. And we were looking at my teeth and we're like, they're so white.

They're so white. I have a video of me saying people are going to think I have veneers or something. Yeah. Like, they're white. That's so funny. So you have to know they're real. It's like i have veneers or something like they're white yeah so you have to have the real it's like yeah are they sensitive are you sensitive to food we yeah this morning they were pretty sensitive last night they were very sensitive so yeah it's not really they look amazing your teeth look so good did you get the hookup on it yeah i did i love love it i love the perks of that yeah i love also like going out to parties like the clubs and they're like, you can just get a table.

Oh my gosh. And you're like, will you give me a table for promo? Yeah, of course. Wow. I love that. You're officially like celebrity status for sure. No, stop. No, I never get those.

I've never gotten a free anything. Like I can't remember. Well, you probably just didn't try. No, I've tried. Never. No free anything. It's fine. I'm okay with it.

Maybe not the right places. Yeah. Not at McDonald's. I don't get free anything. They know me. They see me. Are you trying at McDonald's? Do you like pull up and be like, hey, like I'm okay with it. Maybe not the right places. Yeah. Not at McDonald's. I don't get free anything. They know me. They see me. Are you trying at McDonald's? Do you like pull up and be like, hey, I'm Trisha Paytas. Do you want to give me a friend? No, but they know who I am. So I'm like, can I just get like a free something? And

never. Have you ever had anybody be like, oh my god, you're Trisha. And then they give you free food? Like sometimes it'll happen at like Sprinkles or something. But I immediately, I give them like a $30 tip and then I end up paying more than the cupcake. Oh, okay. That's sweet. Because I feel bad bad they're like teenagers paying for my food and i'm like that's the one downside about like being you know an influencer now is when i go out to eat i have to tip real good and i do tip real good of course yeah one always tip good but like now like i feel

like they know me so it's like i feel bad not giving you like oh for sure i'm like i'll do like 50 for the tip because i'm just like oh because they you know they film stuff now too for tiktok so you're like yeah one time I put zero because I tipped in cash and someone filmed it as if I gave them no tip. Okay, actually no. The only time that I will not tip is when I'm like getting Cold Stone and at the cashier it's like tip. Girl, you're like typing on the little computer.

I worked at McDonald's. Like all you do is this and that. Tipping is everywhere. I only tip when it's like waitering and somebody is like, you know, on your ass if it says a tip i tip if i'm like i guess if i have a tip at this restaurant i know i just i tip everywhere no if it's on that little thing and it's like i just they just serve me my ice cream it's a hard no for me i'm like no at starbucks too they're like it's gonna ask you a question and the question is like yeah no i pay on the starbucks app so they don't ask me that anymore because Okay, okay. Because I'm always like, well, okay, you're really looking at it. I'm just like, well, didn't you just make, like, this is your job?

No, like, you just. No, I love the Starbucks people do. I tip them. I tip them for sure. But it is a little awkward. I'm always just like, okay, I guess I'll do the $5 tip instead of the dollar tip. $5 is wild. It's like the cost of my drink.

I've only done a dollar here and there whenever they compliment my nails, but that's it. Okay, you give the extra dollar. I don't know. That is my guilt in life. It's just like I need to just tip. I'm like, do they even get the money? You hope so. I don't know. But I always think in life. It's just like I need to just tip. I'm like, do they even get the money? I hope so. I don't know. But I always think, like, again,

I feel like karma, money karma, like if you, like, spend a lot more comes your way. You know, the more you spend, the more you give. You know? I don't believe in that. I do. I'm telling you it's true. The more I give out, I tell this. I don't believe in that because of my mom. My mom is a giver. She will give. And everything she has and leave herself in the dust, you know, to somebody.

And I'm like, she gave so much. And it's like, I mean, she has me, but that's it. That's the gift. That's the lottery. She won it. But also it could come back. Does she play like the lottery ever? No.

Oh. I was like, maybe one day she'll win the bill. I play the lottery all the time. One day. Yeah. But she gave so much that it's like, girl, I literally have to tell her, stop giving people stuff. Like, no.

Like, the way I see it, it's so sad, but it's like, in reality, if you want to survive in this world, you kind of have to be selfish. I'm a very selfish person. Are you? Yeah. Oh, interesting. Well, I do have my moments where it's like, oh, like, you're so sweet. You know what I mean?

Yeah. Or, like, I'll have some of my friends be like, oh, I didn't know you were, like, some, like, I do have a heart, they will say. Like, oh, you really do have a heart. And I'm like, well, what did you think, you know? Yeah. But I am a very, very selfish person. Interesting.

I consider myself selfish in a lot of things but i feel with money i like to give you know and i love money we're tourists so i'd love to make money but i also love to give it out to make money i love seeing the numbers go up you'll always find ways to make money as much oh my god i tell everybody that yeah i'm always like i'm a tourist like give me a bag of peanuts and i'll make money for me like yeah i'm always hustling that's something about me all day long i'll do 20 i was in elementary school selling bracelets making money oh yeah i had my own business you find it elementary yeah i love that because that's what i was too i was selling lemonade i was selling scrunchies i was making bank oh my god

you know if i wanted to be fashion designer i could sew too so i was sewing scrunchies but i think my ass off i made like 30 40 scrunchies and i would go to school pass them out they would sell out in like seconds that's impressive i also I'm sorry I'm sold out, honey. Oh my God, I love that. Wait till next week. And I will spend my weekend like making more scrunchies. Oh my God, that is entrepreneur right there. What?

At the time. This is when James was at his peak, okay? Sister scrunchies. Oh my God. He sues you for a copyright. He's like, give me that $40 you made. No, literally. He's like, let me know how many scrunchies you sold and give me half of it.

That's wild. So you were like a James Stanton. Were you a sister? Not that hard like merch i watched his videos you know i loved it everybody was saying sister at the time everyone was did he start it yeah well okay he didn't invent sister but that was like his thing sister okay because he sold the merch anymore he talks about how like he doesn't say it anymore because he wants to like rebrand but right because you're like how many you're older you have to like yeah you're older yeah you can only do so much for their needs and you just capitalize that on for like you're older, you have to, like, stop. Yeah, you're older, yeah. You can only do so much for an age. And you just capitalize that on for, like, your old age.

Is he your age? No, he's old. Is he? I have no idea. Is he, like, 30 now? I have no idea. I think he's 25. God, he seems, you know, people have been around for so long, but they're probably,

like, teenagers when they started. Yeah. His story is crazy, though, like, being a cover girl and stuff. Like, you know what I mean? That is kind of wild. Oh, yeah, that story, yeah. Yeah. Yeah, I forgot.

Well, that was his thing. He was, like, the first cover girl, which is so iconic. Yeah, no, totally. Like, the first male cover girl cover girl yeah i feel like that's something you'll do you'll be the first male doing something that traditionally women would do they're so inclusive nowadays i can't believe you think that like every maybe the first influencer of something you know yeah that's true i think yeah i kind of like it though now that they use like men for things that necessarily weren't like men yeah oh my god i want to be on skims too that's another thing i would die to be on skims i'm always promoting skims i have people all the time tell me like oh I bought skims because of you You look great. I knew right away. I'm a skims girlie. So I saw right away

I love skims. I buy everything like they have a new furry holiday collection coming out tomorrow and I'm gonna get that I saw that too. Oh my god, did you see Kai? Oh, it sold out so quickly. I'm so excited I bought like three items and I regret not buying everything. Are these Kai? No. Okay That's so funny because before I left I like, I think my Kai package is here. Should we go get it? And I could just like dress. I was going to do the Kai like pants and I was going to put the Kai like the backless top over this Skims top.

I feel like that would have been cute, right? Yeah. But then I was like, maybe that's too extra. I could wear that out somewhere. I like this. I wish you would have told me. I have a Skims that same color. We could have been matching.

That's great actually. Do Skims have a male modeling the like female clothing? No, they don't. That would be everything. That would be good though. Because your body does. It like does so well for the skims. Yeah, you know what I mean?

I think just in general because a lot of boys like skims and like not – because they did a men's skims and I got it for him but it's just boring. It's like t-shirts. I like now that they're doing it for boys because I know the boys are getting jealous. Yeah, but it's basic. It's not like the slay that like skims are. Like this is great. And this looks like to me, I wouldn't.

It's so funny how something so basic could be so like slay. It is crazy. Even like the basic t-shirts when I wear like a black shirt, everyone's like, I love your shirt. I'm like, oh my God, it's crazy. This is what's in right now. Like a simple tiny top and like big pants. Yeah, I know.

I definitely copy all the Kardashians. I get good American. I get everything. Yeah. Or Fashion Nova. That's what I have. Oh, is that Fashion Nova? Yeah. Skims and. Yeah. Or Fashion Nova. That's what I have. Oh, is that Fashion Nova? Yeah.

Skims and Fashion Nova go plus size. So that's what I love, you know? They go up to like 5X and I think that's everything. But you should model for Skims. I love that they go really tiny too. What is this one? XS? 2XS.

Oh, I'm a 2XL. We're like on the same spectrum. Wait, no. Literally. I live for that. We're the exact same. It's so funny. So what's a makeup trend that you like absolutely hate that you think should die?

The strawberry makeup. Oh my God. I love that you just did it so quick. What's strawberry makeup? Hailey Bieber did it and it was just like more blush. That's it. Wait. Why is she so obsessed with strawberries?

I don't know. She's also obsessed with blueberries because she splashed some blueberry sprinkles on her white nails and said, blueberry milk, glossy nails. I was into those though. I'm not going to lie. I tried to do the chocolate glaze it looks like gunmetal i'm like okay there you go she said that to you oh okay yeah i keep up with the girl also what did she say something about like chocolate glaze lip lined like glossy lips something like that she comes with the craziest name and i was like girl those are chola lips like my mom my mom did that a long time my mom still does that

she's like no that's yeah maybe she was a chola we don't know a chicana lips is what the real name is yeah chicana i know chicana yeah you love chicana you don't have that video of you saved in my phone where it was like i think it's something like that yeah i kind of flopped i deleted it i was like oh man i kind of flopped because i live for it i'm gonna post that every friday now just because you deleted it it was such a vibe right now. I love it. No, I live. Thanks.

I love learning Spanish. I like you also, Flaca. I like that you like learning. Oh, Flaca, yes. Flaca. I'm Flaca, too. No, yes, you are Flaca. Yes, I live.

Okay, so strawberry. Can you wait? Can you learn tengo cuerpazo? Ooh. Okay, cuerpazo means I have body. Cuerpazo. Cuerpazo. Cuerpazo.

Yes. Cuerpazo. Yes. So, yo soy cuerpazo. No, no, no. Yo tengo cuerpazo. Tengo means I have. Like, I have a body. Yo tengo cuerpazo. Cuerpazo. Yes. Cuerpazo. Yes. So, yo soy cuerpazo. No, no, no. Yo tengo cuerpazo. Tengo means I have. Like, I have a body.

Yo tengo cuerpazo. Yeah. I love it. So, in Spanish, you know, they'll say, like, oh, like, she has un cuerpazo. Like, you know. Cuerpazo. Ella tiene cuerpazo. Like, you know.

I love that. Like, they'll tell me, I ate el tiene bien cuerpazo, you know. Do you like when people say that? I love it. Oh, my gosh. I love it more than whenever he's like, oh, he's skinny. Yeah, I know. Yeah, yeah.

But when they say cuerpazo, cuerpazo's different. It's not just, like, flaco. Like, you know, it's like, you have body. I like that. You do his badge more than whenever he's like, oh, he's skinny. Yeah, I know. But when they say cuerpazo, cuerpazo is different. It's not just like flaco. Like, you know, it's like you have body. You do. And you have body. You definitely have body. I love a skinny, but you have body for sure. Thank you.

I love it. Skims, call him right now. No, literally. What's a makeup trend that you wish would come back? I think the brows. The 2016 brows. I like those brows a lot, honestly. Is that what you have now?

Is that like the thickums? Yeah. Oh. Like filled in? No, but filled in. Because you know how everybody does so brows. People would go crazy. I have those brows a lot, honestly. Is that what you have now? Is that, like, the thickums? Yeah. Oh. Like, filled in? No, but filled in. Because you know how everybody does silk brows? People would go crazy. I have to do my gloss.

Like, your brows right now, too. Yeah, they're thick. I like that. But you know what I mean? Like, they're very 2016, but not, like, thick 2016. No, I did it to match you. We pulled up a photo of you today. Oh, damn.

Shut up. Really? Yeah, and I was like, we gotta do a cut crease. We gotta do this. Because I try to match, like, the vibe with the person. Oh, period. Oh, my God. I couldn't even match, like, your outfit.

I noticed you did, like, a new lip liner with, like, a pink. Yeah. I was trying to do the cut crease. Are you from Miami? They are Jenny69, I think. Oh, okay. Yeah. So, I, they were, and we never do full either, but we saw yours, like, eyebrows.

But the brow, like, not exactly 2016 brow, but, like, the perfect brow. Yeah. You know what I mean? You know how now there's, like, soapy and, like, brushed up. Oh, I can't do that. I don't like that. I hate that. I love a thin's like soapy and like brushed up. Oh, I can't do that. I hate that. I love a thin brow like the 90s, but the brushed up I can't do.

Thin brow too, yeah. Love thin brow, yeah. Do you follow any of the beauty girlies on TikTok? Well, I guess Mikaela, Kayla. I do, but there's a lot. There's so many that I follow, but because I kind of have to.

Oh, right. You said you don't like just enjoy it. I really don't watch a lot of beauty content. You know what I mean? But I do it because, you know, it's in my industry. So we're going to be going to the same events. I don't want to be like them following me.

Who's this person? Yeah, right. I want to know. I've had a few like that. Really? I follow you, but you don't follow me. And I'm like, girl, you didn't have to say that. Oh, I pretend I know them.

So then I go home and I follow her back just because. But I don't even like their content. And it's just. You're polite. Yeah, I'm polite. I always just pretend I know people. I'm like, I love you too. I don't know how you do that because I will see someone and I'm like. Well. That's really my reaction. I'm like, I love you too. I don't know how you do that because I will see someone and I'm like, that's really my

reaction. I'm like, yeah. Sometimes it backfires. Sometimes it's like, what's your favorite video? Which I would never ask someone what their favorite video is. That's why I'm sure to be like, I love your videos. Because they'll be like, oh, really? And I'm like, oh.

But who asks that? I've had that happen so many times where people are like, what's your favorite? And I'm like, what? I feel like they should catch on and know that we're lying. Yeah, be nice. It's like, catch on, girl. I would never. If someone's like, I love you.

And I'm like, oh, okay, what do you love about me? That's such a weird follow up. When somebody says they love my videos, I'm just like, oh, thank you. You know, I don't say, like, oh, really, what video? Yeah, yeah, yeah. Why do you like them? Yeah. Yeah, like, just asking 5,000 questions.

And did you ever do the makeup trend where you do all the foundation, the Meredith one, where you just, like... That video went viral, and you know what? She never commented on my video. Did you do it? She never followed me. Oh, I didn't see it. My video is, like, the most viewed video of copying, like, her technique.

Maybe she was like. It's like at 20 million views right now. Did it work? Did it work out good? It did. It looked really flawless. It was just very heavy and thick. Yeah.

And after a while, cakey. Yeah. Yeah. It can be a lot. Oh, that's so interesting. She didn't comment. Maybe she was like. She didn't comment.

He might come for me. Maybe I did it better. You know what I think? I don't know. She's like a model. She models for like Miu Miu or something. So maybe she thinks she's going to come for the modeling brand. All the beauty girls are like models I feel like on TikTok.

They're also like gorgeous. Yeah, I think a lot of the beauty girls, that's because they want to be more than just beauty. So they try to like – But they start. That's what I'm trying to do. Even now, that's why I'm like I want to do more than just beauty and modeling. I want to do like acting too. What's your dream role?

Wiccan from Marvel. Do you watch Marvel? No. Okay. Did you see that? Superhero. Yeah, from marvel do you watch marvel no okay did you see that superhero yeah superhero just that superhero i did where i was up in the air and there's like lighting all around me did you just post it today or did i just see it it was like maybe you just saw it today but i posted it like on halloween which is probably like only a week ago but he's a character he hasn't been his storyline is like getting to that point where they're gonna need to

like need somebody to do that role oh no one's done it yet nobody's done it yet you know but i would die to do that role oh my god and i know it's possible because there's another girl that um did this she was miss marvel and she did she said her story of like how she got to that point like the acting job uh-huh she said it was her first time like her friend she's never acted before she just did the role they loved her they didn't she did it that was her first ever role first ever time like applying what's it called like auditioning auditioning that yeah that's gonna so be you yeah so i was like okay so What is it called? Like auditioning. Auditioning. That. Yeah. That's going to soap you. Yeah.

So I was like, okay, so it is possible. You know. A thousand percent. A lot of times I feel like they cast unknown people. And I think people are tired of hearing and seeing like big names. Like, oh, we liked when they cast like unknown people in roles. I think I like when they cast unknown people too. Unknown as far as acting. I think it's fun.

You know what I mean? Yeah. You get tired of seeing the same people. I would love to see you act. I think people are like, honestly, we're getting more into that era. People get bored easily. That's true. And I've liked the same people. And you know, they're, you know, not that I care about Nepo babies, think people are like honestly we're getting more into that era people get bored easily that's true and i've like the same people and you know they're you know not that i care

about nepo babies but people like the nepo babies we want to see something fresh and new you're like the opposite of a baby which is like i grew up very poor i grew up sharing a room with my family so oh i i did see this in a video you said that there was like two bedrooms it was like you your then your cousins were the other one yeah so sometimes your dad the biggest house we ever lived in was a three-bedroom house and but it wasn't just us it was like my, your brother, then your cousins were the other one. Yeah. And sometimes your dad would come. The biggest house we ever lived in was a three bedroom house. But it wasn't just us. It was like my cousin in one room sharing a room. And then like my oldest brother and his daughter and his baby mama in that room.

And then me and my mom and my other brother in like the other room. And your dad sometimes. My dad sometimes. When he would come into our lives. And you would all share one room. Yeah. For a period of time it was like that. Because I saw in the video you're time it was like that yeah because i

saw in the video you're like it was like not even the size of the room that you were in that you were sitting in you're like it was like half the size probably the size of my closet that i have now wow oh wow which is kind of insane yeah i love that i could just go and sit in my closet yeah i've always dreamt of a walking house isn't that the i would go to like my rich the ass house and then they'd have like all these like huge walk. Oh my God. And now you're living it. I'm obsessed with having those kind of closets, you know? Oh man. Yeah.

And you're 18 and you already achieved that. That's like amazing. Do you live alone now? I live alone now, yeah. And you'd love it because you did share rooms. I love living alone. I hate sharing rooms with people. And I think that's why because I grew up sharing rooms all the time.

Yeah. I love being alone. I love eating alone. I love doing everything alone, watching TV alone. Yeah. Yeah. Just have your big space to you. And then when I do want to go out and talk to people, I'll go out to parties.

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. They get your social in and they can come home. I used to like to be like that too. And then I'm drained and then I'll like, what's it called? Like get my battery up. Yeah.

Recharge. Recharge. Be alone. Yeah. Oh, I love it. So how did you get, how did you get from sharing a room to now having the walk-in closet? Like where was your success? It's so funny because the way I started with my makeup i had this ghetto little desk um i had these tiny turtles at the time baby turtles because i wanted

them so bad and my mom somehow got them for me even though we didn't have money tiny turtles is this from the santee alley or what do you call it gohanas yeah tiny little turtles from gaionas yeah i love those so they were there and they had this heating lamp okay so i put my camera down and I took that heating lamp and used it as my light. You can just imagine how hot it was. Oh my God. But that was my first setup. If you go back to my very first video, it's a warm light.

Wow. That's because the light was like yellow. That was my first setup. Then my dad built me a vanity. Oh, okay. That was your good memory. Those are the good memories. Those are my good memories.

He one time even built me a tree house. Wow. I've told you, he's a very smart guy. He was a, what's it called? Handy man. Handy man. He was very that. To a tree house. Wow. I've told you, he's a very smart guy. He like, he was a, what's it called? Handy man. Handy man. He was very that. To be smart and be handy.

Sometimes those don't come hand in hand. So that's like, that's cool. I think not very smart, but more intelligent. Okay. Intelligent, yeah. Yeah. Because I don't think he could do math. God knows.

I don't know. I don't talk to him, but yeah. There's different, yeah. I can't do math, but I think I'm smart. No, I can't do math. I'm intelligent, but I cannot do math. Yeah, yeah. Don't even like bring numbers around me.

I see numbers. I see a lot of words and I get, ooh. Same way. Yeah, I don't get it at all. I send it to her. She'll read it for me. Change, yeah. I'm like, I don't know. That's the thing about acting is I'm scared see a lot of words and I get, ooh. Same way. Yeah, I don't get it at all. I send it to her. She'll read it for me. Change, yeah. I'm like, I don't know.

That's the thing about acting is I'm scared of like seeing the script and being like, like memorizing, you know? Right. But there's different ways to learn it without having to read or memorize. True. I'm not going to be like saying it to me. I'm a very visual learner. Yeah.

Well, but that's how I started. He built me my vanity. And for a while I was, you know, in that room with the vanity. And then we moved out and then we lived in an apartment, which actually in this apartment before i moved to la it was my brother in his own room and i asked them to have the master bedroom i was like that that's what i love about my brother and my mom is like they believed in me you know what i mean i told them this is my job i'm gonna be in the room all the time like my brother has a job you're not even gonna be in your room most of the time my mom has a job too like you're a girl you know what i mean right and i told my mom i was like mean you could

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to speak to an advisor free of charge. Oh my gosh. And they let you have the master bed to like do your work. To do my work. So my vanity was in there

and that's how I got viral was in that bedroom. Wow. And so you were making money just like off tiktok were you getting brand deals or okay i didn't start getting brand deals until towards the end of high school okay yeah i think i was like at like five i blew up pretty quick honestly i was like at 500 not as quick as like everybody else but like no that's very fast 500 000 followers and i was barely getting like you know brand deals which is weird because now there's like people that have 20 grand followers and they'll get brand deals.

And I'm like, I don't know how they did it, but I didn't know. It's wild. I see that with 20K followers and like, I get $1,000 brand deal. I'm like, I wish someone gave me $1,000. Yeah. I was like, I was at 500,000 charging $100 for one video. I'll take 100 now. Yeah.

I'll take anything. So it's like, oh, you don't get brand deals anymore? Um, I guess like here, more for the podcast. Yeah. Like TikTok maybe. I don't know. Here and there I do. I like here and there. More for the podcast. Yeah, like TikTok maybe. I don't know. Here and there I do. I don't know.

Maybe I'm too old. I aged out a bit. She needs makeup. That's how they get all the... Huh? Makeup is the spot for the money. I can't do makeup. Maybe I'll...

Yeah, I know. Like, Mikaela always gets the Revlon. Did you do the telescopic? Did you get that brand deal? No, no. Everyone was getting that. Did you try it? I did try it.

Actually, no, I didn't. No, not the one Mikaela did. Okay. Not that one. Do you think she was wearing a falsie? But I do. It's because they have so many mascaras. I her did you know and she did she said no okay i then i believe it i was like why would she like you know i was like forgive him forget girl i

don't care like yeah i love that you asked her i always asked her yeah i feel like that's why she doesn't want to do podcasts i feel like she's scared people would ask her i would i could edit it out i'm like just be honest i don't care yeah i was like and then i even said are you sure yeah she's like yeah she's like i swear i was not wearing a't care but I was like were you wearing a falsie and then she I even said are you sure and she's like yeah she's like I swear I was not wearing a falsie so I was like okay okay that's the tea

I was like hurting your folks she told her own friend she wasn't wearing a falsie so yeah wow okay I believe it I feel like why would she like because was it on camera or off camera

I was like so you just tight lined and you know did that and I was like she was like yeah I was like okay wow oh no it was off camera

yeah it was off camera people wow people you know what people got so mad at her for it it was like wild I was living I was like this girl I was like you know know i was like i hope they give her another

check on top of that because she blew that mask it was so hard i went to every target i because i was like i'm gonna try it because it was viral and i couldn't find it anywhere so she blew it up she sold that out first for a while i was like this has to be a pr stunt i was like for a while yeah she was just hey that i love that she came back and didn't say anything too. I was like, everything. I live for that. I live.

I want to come back that way. That's like the best way to come back, honestly. Yeah, just not. And I think she even did like a little, she said like, oh, I think the way

she came back, she started off the video by saying, let's all talk about the elephant in the room. Right. And then she says something else

that doesn't have anything to do with the mascara. Iconic. Iconic. Literally iconic. I love it. I feel like only now

influence is going to wait that. I have to address every little thing. I had a Starbucks in my TikTok the other day and I guess we're canceling so I didn't know Starbucks was canceled. Iconic. Literally iconic. I love it. I feel like only now influence is going to weigh that. I have to address every little thing. I had Starbucks in my TikTok the other day and I guess we're canceling. So I didn't know Starbucks was canceled. Oh my God. I was like, so sorry.

I know. Yeah. You have to be really careful nowadays. You really just don't know. Yeah. I don't know anything. And so people will tell me. There's a lot of makeup brands now that are getting canceled because, yeah.

Yeah. It's crazy. I was like, oh my God. No. What do I review? What do I not review? I was like, that's why I asked her. She does all the research.

It's wild. I can't keep up with it. I just apologize for everything. I'm just like, oh my god. What do I review? What do I not review? I was like, that's why I asked her. She does all the research. It's wild. I can't keep up with it. I just apologize for everything. I'm just like, I'm so sorry. You're really good at saying sorry. I never say sorry. Because you don't have to. I have to say sorry all the time.

No, but even to my family, it hurts me to say sorry. What? Oh my gosh. You are wild. I'm like, it just won't come out. Really? I say sorry to you 5,000 times a day. I'm like, I'm so sorry.

I'm so dumb. I felt so bad. I was just like, I never say sorry. If you get a sorry from me, it's because I really meant it'm like sorry i say sorry forever i said sorry to you 5 000 times i'm like i'm so sorry i'm so dumb like i felt so bad i was just like i never say sorry if you get a sorry for me it's because i really meant it because i never say sorry i apologize even if someone else is the wrong because i just feel awkward and guilty for everything yeah it's like so sorry i was like everyone come across nice and everyone come across me so i'm just i just apologize i'm just like well it's me uh really people come across me yeah do. And I don't know. You just sometimes can't help it. I think people think I'm mean. They think I'm mean. Why do you think that? I think you have like an air to you.

But not in a bad way. Sometimes I might seem mean. But I'm obviously joking. Like you know what I mean? I don't know. That's what I love about my following. Is they. They get it. They get it.

They understand my joke. And a lot of the times. They don't know me. They don't know me. They don't know me. They don't know me. They don't know me. They don't know me.

My followers. And they're just like me. Like they joke around just like me. That's what I love. Because my followers are just like me. You know what I mean? They watch me because they're also like me. That's what I love because my followers are just like me. You know what I mean? They watch me because they're also like me. That's what I love too. I love that about the internet. Like I meet people that look like me. I think it's just my confidence

though. Wait, what? My confidence. Like the way I walk in the room, like my tall, skinny, pretty, you know. Some people are like, oh, he's a bitch, you know. But I'm not. I think that's what it is. I think there's like this pretty air and all stuff like that. You're also just confident. But I think people think just because somebody's pretty, they're mean. But that's not everybody. Yeah, I always think that. The way me, I have my other pretty friend. I think people just be, girls are just confident, so. But I think people think just because somebody's pretty, they're mean. But that's not everybody.

Yeah, I always think that. The way me, I have my other pretty friend, I'm a pretty girl, so you know, the way we see it is pretty girls shouldn't be mean to each other

because they're pretty. Right, they're mean to the ugly ones. That's the way, exactly. They're mean to me. Exactly. All the pretty girls

are mean to me. So now I'm one of my friends with pretty girls, I'm like, oh, I love them. Well, that's because you're too pretty. That's what I like to think too. That might be because

you're prettier than them. I think it was too, no, that was definitely not the case. No, it definitely is. I think it's because I was a little sausage and they were just like tall and beautiful and well that's because you're too pretty that's what I like to think too I think it was too no that was definitely not the case no it definitely is I think it's because I was a little sausage and they were just like

tall and beautiful and all that stuff that's another thing a lot of girls think that they're better always the skinny ones always think they're better which I get

I get it if I was skinny I probably would have the biggest ego in the world yeah you're skinny but I don't know I guess because I've always been overweight

yeah you're skinny but if you're a bitch then you're just bitch that's true now you're just a skinny bitch now if you have the face card and you're skinny right then it's like okay you could be a combo sometimes yeah you know you like have the good body you have one or the other yeah that's true if you

have them all you're a bitch then you could be a bitch right then you can be mean and get away with it i get it i get it you know i feel like that's very like ariana like i'm a big ariana stan and i kind of just forgive everything you know know, I'm just like, well, she's beautiful. So it's fine. She's beautiful. She's skinny. So she could be with you. She's a hot mess.

She could spit on another donut in front of me. I don't care. Totally. Yeah. Oh yeah. I was like, I don't mind that. Eat that like donut. She's so beautiful.

You know what I mean? Literally, I love her. So I think when you get away with that, you're just so skinny and beautiful and stuff like that. I don't know. But it's the world we live in, I guess. I don't know. I guess so.

I know. I love it. I think it's so interesting. It's interesting that you are collabing with all these people i think that's like amazing i live for collabs for a while okay so actually the way i met patrick is i was like literally i like 1 million followers and he hit me up and he was like the first ever beauty big influencer to follow me i was gagged you know wow and he dm'd me he was like hey let's collab wow i was obviously gagged but i was like i kept i didn't tell him no. I was just like, yes, obviously. Yeah, let's do it.

But I pushed it back a lot. You know what I mean? Interesting. Because I wanted to build my own following before I collabed with him. Really? I didn't want people to be like, oh, I know him from Patrick. Or like, oh, like Patrick made him. Or like, oh, he got, Patrick gave him that kickstart. You know?

No, I gave myself that kickstart. I'm here because of me. You know what I mean? Interesting. That's so interesting. I never mind being known from a collab. So for a while I was like, I'm not going to do collabs. I don't that kickstart. You want to do it yourself? I'm here because of me. You know what I mean? Interesting. That's so interesting. I never mind being known from a collab group. So for a while, I was like, I'm not going to do collabs. I don't like collabs.

Like, I don't want to feed off of other people's, like, followers. I want to build my own. You know what I mean? If you know me, it's because you know me, not because from somebody else, you know? But recently, it was kind of fun. I like to find you, though. They have to, like, you know what I mean? Recently, it's been fun.

I like collabing now. It's fun. I love it. That's why I love, like, finding all these, like, young people on TikTok and stuff like that. Because it's just this whole new world generation followers. It's, like, collabing now. It's fun. I love it. That's why I love, like, finding all these, like, young people on TikTok and stuff like that. Yeah. Because it's just this whole new world generation followers. Yeah. It's, like, fascinating to me.

Yeah. And I think it's so cool because I used to love collabs, watching collabs when I was younger. Yeah. So I'm, like, imagine these people now watching, like, two worlds collide. Right. Like, that's so fun, you know? It's so fun.

Yeah. When you're talking about, like, the Joey and stuff, it's, like, it's so funny because it's, like, oh, it's, like, these two worlds colliding. Really? Yeah. I feel like when you watch, like, when I watch you with, like, Mikayla, I'm,'m like this is a weird crossover because she's like in the east coast and you're like here and it's also i think of you guys as totally separate so it's like weird to see you guys together we're both in the beauty i but you know i don't even see her as a beauty influencer i know she is but

to me she's like a personality to me you're a personality too i don't watch you for the makeup because i don't know how to do makeup but i watch you with that they'll feel like i don't even do makeup i don't even like makeup but i watch you because you're so people will tell you because they'll be like wait why is he on because i always say i don't get the beauty world i don't get beauty influencers because i just don't like it but i like your personalities and same thing with mikaela she's like that personality so i follow for that but then there's people like alex earl i follow because she's pretty like she does makeup and i just follow her i'm just like i just want to see what you eat at air one you know i was in my air one phase because of her i saw that you're trying to air one what did you

think about it because they just recently tried air one yeah it was my second time their first time i was obsessed with it i was eating it all the time i don't know if i i think i liked it it's healthy right like it's like healthy yeah but then there was like that cauliflower with all the sauce on it like the buffalo that was our favorite thing. It's so good. But like, is it healthy? It's cauliflower with seasoning. I'm pretty sure it's healthy. Oh, really? Yeah. Oh, but the seasoning.

Buffalo sauce is zero calories. Wait, really? Well, it depends on what buffalo sauce they use. But buffalo sauce is zero calories. I love buffalo sauce. It did taste. I love it. I love that.

I was getting that all the time. And it was always sold out every time I went. Oh, the zero calorie buffalo sauce. Oh, yeah. I love for a zero calorie item. I'm just like. Oh, you would love the 90s. Okay, well, that's another reason why I think I'm so skinny is because of my diet.

You know how I said I'm lactose intolerant and fruit intolerant? Yeah. Like, when I say lactose intolerant, it's not like people are like, oh, I'm lactose intolerant, but I'm going to have some cheese. No, like, I'm actually like 100% lactose intolerant. No milk, no cheese. But yeah, like, I get constipated from it, so I cannot eat it. Wow.

Not whatsoever. Oh, man. I can't eat anything. I will read the ingredients of everything. And I'm not looking at the calories, okay? I'm looking at if it has dairy if it has dairy throw it out i can't have it wow you're so lucky you know people with like severe think of it that way it's like i can't have dairy oh i eat so much cheese i eat like cheese like pizza before you came in oh oh i smell like cheese and i never eat no you don't smell like cheese just because

you said it earlier you were like oh i just mentioned cheese weird kid that smells like cheese i was just like i never do but we were like because again my photographer was waiting he's like i'm gonna go get trader joe's and get a charcuterie where i never check her do he'll tell you and i was like all right let's try some of this cheese and like i didn't know you came into the gate and most like he's here i was like oh my god no we were like admiring your house and we're like where is she no we were like we're usually ready he usually comes out and greets people like all stuff like that we're just sitting here eating like cheese and chocolate on crackers it was on like whatever but i yeah i but i love like cheese pizza i love mac

and cheese so you don't eat that i love pizza i just get it without the cheese that's the thing i don't eat people ask me whenever i tell them about my dad they're like well then what do you eat air and ice no i just tweak the items that i eat like i can still order a pizza just light on the sauce and no cheese what but i will load it up with like all the other toppings just because send me a picture of your pizza next time that's wild no cheese it's literally just red I get like pepperoni and like all the mushrooms and all the fun stuff but you're so lucky you don't have to share with anyone cause no one wants that pizza exactly

exactly no yeah but then there'll be like that one bitch that's like can I try it I'm like no what no I'm like you won't like it it's so disgusting you hate it yeah I would never try it but mine I always get cheese pizza and everyone wants the cheese and I'm like ugh let me not have the plain cheese that's mine after a while you just don't like cheese I don't like cheese pizza and everyone wants the cheese. And I'm like, oh, let me not have the plain cheese. That's mine. After a while, you just don't like cheese. I don't like cheese anymore.

I can't even lick at cheese. I'm like, ugh. I can't. Like, slimy. But I didn't smell like it then when I came in. I felt it. I felt it because I never eat it and I felt like it. Do you like soda?

I love soda, but I cut it out. I've cut it out in the past year because it's, like, so toxic. Like, I love diet soda. I don't drink any soda. But you know what I do drink that's kind of bad? Probably because of the red dye. I drink, like, sugar-free cranberry juice. That's my drink.

Sugar-free. Do you get the ocean spray? Is it ocean spray? I don't know. Or is it in the plastic bottle? It's like a little bottle. It's like a, you know. I love cranberry juice too.

I love cranberry juice too. And it's sugar-free and it's like five calories. Oh. That's just a bonus. I'm not saying I count the calories. It's just a bonus. I think it's good for like yeast infections too. Like you'd get rid of like those things.

Oh yeah. And that's why I like used to drink it. I was like, oh, it gets rid of it. Like UTIs or something. Literally a period. And they just recently came out with like a sugar-free pink lemonade sauce. I was like, yeah. Oh yeah. yeah and that's why i like used to drink it i was like oh it gets rid of it like utis or something literally a period and they just recently came out with like a sugar-free pink lemonade i saw so i was like yeah oh yeah they have that in and out they have a sugar-free one but sometimes i'm like sugar-free might be like chemicals in it too i don't know i get a little weird about it but then whenever they tell me that like oh well they're using other chemicals it's like babe you drink coke like coca-cola right you know like

imagine what's in there have you not seen the videos of the melting coca-cola that you're telling me because i drink yeah oh my god yeah soda to me scares me in general so i stopped it because i gained so much weight from soda so i really do just drink water which is why i got water i just like water i drink water all the time that i'm like so over water i hate water okay we can have a just trish water if you want oh my god we actually know i don't know i'm taking it with you no i'm taking one home that is so you got this made yeah yeah you know we're professional here just you should have put zero calories and like big like really huge skinny water skinny water no that would have been trish skinny water that could have been good i should have done that i love anything with skinny in it

like skinny legend skinny water you know this is so stupid but like i always think about like brands that i want to come out with probably like not good but i always thought because of my diet because i was like maybe there's people out there that have, like, very, a lot of diet restrictions. Yeah. I wanted to come out with something, like, sugar-free, dairy-free, you know what I mean? Uh-huh. A brand like that. They could still snack on the fun stuff, but it's obviously, you know, healthier.

And I wanted it to be called Skinny. Skinny's good. But nowadays, you know how bitches are. Yeah. But there's, like. Actually, after this video, I'm going to trademark that, because I don't want anybody to, like. But there's Skinny Margarita.

Like, that's, right, a whole thing Bethany Frank calls. Oh, true, true. Okay, okay. I think it would be called I be skinny. So it's like IBS Honestly, I think that would be like so cuz that's like for IBS people I would be I be skinny Mm-hmm, but then you know people are they like why are you trying to be skinny for me? No, but skinny like skinny legend's a state of mind. True, skinny legend. I always say that. I'm like skinny, you know, state of mind. Let's talk about your prom. I knew. Why did I know you were going to come up with that? First off, I'm a huge

Brian Hearns fan and I was like, I think I DM'd him so many times. Again, left me on read. I was like, I would love a custom Brian Hearns. Do you like Brian Hearns? Okay, I'll tell him. I think he did DM me for the first time yesterday. Oh, yeah, period. But I don't know how. We love Brian Hearns. Okay, so you tell him. I think he did DM me for the first time yesterday. Oh, yeah, period. But I don't know how. We love bright days. Yeah, yeah. Okay, so you had this great red outfit, which I wanted to cosplay it, but I didn't have

enough time. Please. No, you shut up. Oh, man. Please do. You still have time. No, the person who makes my outfits was just like, I can't make that. Like, he's like, it's so complicated.

Then I was just like, yeah, I know. Complicated. It was complicated. There was like, is it layers or is it one? It was layers. Yeah, it was layers. It was actually the bod or is it one it was yo it was layers yeah it was it was like it was actually the bodysuit diamond thingy on the bottom the jewels and then it was the pants over it and then it was like that corset top oh actually then the corset top then the pants over it because the corset top was like a like a bodysuit yeah oh

how did you go to the bathroom i didn't oh my gosh skims has like the opening now you can like open it and like yeah at the bottom because remember kim was talking about talking about how even putting like a hole in there, you know, to make it easy to go because it is a nightmare. Okay. So back to the bright hair and things. So you got it just for prom, but you wore it to an event too. So did you have the event first? So I got it for prom, but I was like, this was so expensive.

And it was like, prom was like boring. You know what I mean? Prom was boring, you know? Was this in Visalia, your prom? It was in Visalia. Yeah. No one's seeing it there. Yeah.

Yeah, exactly. So I was like, let me wear it to this red carpet. Like, why not? So I did. I wore it to this like TikTok eventok event the only reason i went because i usually don't go to tiktok events because they invite like every single tiktok and you don't love it i don't love it you know what i mean um and but patrick was like it's gonna be big it's gonna be big i promise he's gonna be so i'm like okay if patrick's is gonna be big then it's gonna

be big daddy's images was there there was a red carpet he told me to he was like girl wear something good and he told me wear that prom outfit if that's all you have. And I was like. If that's all you have. Custom Brian Hearns. Well, he was like, if that's all you have, that's like dramatic and huge. And at the time, that was all I had. That was custom.

You know what I mean? Now I have so many customs, but like, you know. Yeah. But he literally told me it was going to be big and stuff. And then I was like, is this not too dramatic? Like, come on now. You know, it's just a TikTok event. I went and it was so dramatic.

It was like a huge red carpet. It was like Getty getty's images i got that was my first getty images photo i went in every big tiktoker was there and you mingle with them will you go up to them and talk or i'm too shy to okay i'm very like in my group you know okay but if they come up to me then i'll kick it off with them and you're always nice you don yeah, yeah, yeah. And you're always nice. You don't bully anymore. No, I can't. No, no, no. You're not like. I'm a very nice person. Okay, okay.

That's the one thing. I'm like very mean, but I will be mean if you're mean to me. That is, I will tell you that. Okay, that's normal. Don't try it with me because I am going to snap back. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I'm going to snap back. It's like, I will say the worst shit ever.

Yeah, no, I was the same way. My mouth was awful. Okay, yeah, yeah. Yeah, yeah. Because it's like, yeah, especially when you're young. But I'm very, very nice. I think it's very hard for me to get that to that point. It's like a whole different persona.

They have to say something mean to you or your friends do you have different personas I know you do oh of course how many I used to get in trouble for saying I don't know

I used to have like maybe a dozen 12, 13 I used to say I had multiple personality disorder and people got mad at me but I really do think I had that at one point

I think they subdued a little bit I think they have three personalities but I say that not because it's like oh I'm diagnosed no I just say it because it's like it's different

it's like I would never do what that person did or like they'll show me a video and I'm like, that's not me. And I'll be like, look at those eyes. That is not me in there. Like, you know, that's happened to me for sure. When I've like gone off on people, I'm like, I don't even know. And sometimes I know it's happening. And I'm like, that's not me. Oh, that's interesting. And oh, so you really actually think you like disassociate sometimes where it's like, not you. Of course. Yeah. Even when I'm like, in my like videos, it's like, that's, that's Doss Mendoza.

Wow. Do you think you turn it on? that's Doss Mendoza. Wow. Do you think you turn it on? Can you control it? Okay. The times I do see Doss is I'm like, get ready with me. That's me. Okay. But you're very similar to your TikToks now.

I don't know if you noticed, but like I am very now. Or is this TikTok Doss? There's a multiple you here. Oh, there's a Doss. Okay. There's a few that come through. No, but I think, I think, yeah, but there's also like a very goofy side of me that nobody ever sees

besides like her. Yeah. Really? Goofy, weird side, nerdy side, yeah. Oh, a nerdy side. Nobody will ever see that ever unless it's like

you've been in my life forever. Oh my gosh. Oh, I love it. The way I see it is that's us. That's like really me. That's really who you are. I'm like kind of childish almost.

Oh, I love that. Which is so crazy because I'm so, what's a mature? Mature, yeah. But that's all the sides of you which I think, that's what I'm kind of childish almost. Oh, I love that. Which is so crazy because I'm so mature. But that's all the sides of you. That's what I'm saying. I feel like I see a lot of those sides. I like to separate them.

I don't like... It feels crazy. And also when I go out and I'm crazy and I'm this... I call that somebody else. Do you have names? So the crazy one going out that's like bitchy, De Vilas. Which is also my middle name. De Vilas?

De Vilas. De Vilas? I like that. What does that mean? Anything? No. De Vilas. Which is also my middle name. De Vilas? De Vilas. De Vilas? De Vilas. I like that. What does that mean? Anything? No. De Vilas. De Vilas.

So your name is Daus Da Vilas Mendoza. Yes. I love it. Exactly. Okay. And then the other one is obviously Daus Mendoza.

That's what they see all the time online. And then, you know, Daus. They'll see me right here and there. Just straight up Daus. I love it.

Does anyone call you and have nicknames for you? There's Dausy. Okay, that's cute. All my friends say that. Dausy. It's like mousy. I like it. That was the next one. I used to be called Daus the Mouse. Remember how I said I was fat? Oh. Okay, that's cute. All my friends say that. Dowsy. It's like mousy. I like it.

That was the next one. Dowsy. I used to be called Douse the Mouse. Remember how I said I was fat? Oh. Douse the Mouse. I would eat all the time. Wait, mice aren't fat.

They're tiny. Unless you're like Gus Gus from Cinderella. Well, they call me Douse the Mouse because I was always in the kitchen. Oh, the food, the pantry. The food, the pantry. I was always eating. We get a mouse in our pantry. Yeah.

Oh, yeah, but I was the mouse. Oh, you were the mouse. Okay, yeah. I was up in the middle of the night eating food. Did you ever see a mouse in there with you? No. No, I'm the mouse. Oh, you were the mouse. Okay, yeah. I was up in the middle of the night eating food. Did you ever see a mouse in there with you? No. No, I'm the mouse. They were, like, nicknaming me.

They were nicknaming me Douse the Mouse because, like, you're, like, a mouse eating at night. But if you were the mouse, you would see other mice in there eating, too. No. Well, one time, honestly, yeah. Yeah. I love a mouse, for sure. I love. I used to have hamster.

Oh. No, I don't love hamsters. Gerbils and all that. Oh, but you just said you love a mouse. But they're not hamsters. I don't love hamsters Gerbils and all that Oh But you just said you love mouse But they're not hamsters I don't like rats I like mouse I don't like gerbils

I like a mouse They're cute Oh okay Mouses are sweet Rats are good You've had one in your hand A mouse Yeah

I have one in my house Oh Yeah he comes in Do you like beat him and stuff Like if you're Cinderella Not on purpose But we like let him go But he comes back in

I feel like we need to What if you just make a little home for him somewhere? He makes a home for himself. He comes through the little walls and makes a home. This is his home, though. Yeah. I know. We just have to like shoo him out before he sees my baby and stuff.

But I like mice. I think like people are a little too hard on them. They capture them. They kill them, you know. I killed him with a broom one time, but it wasn't me. I just watched it happen. Was that your personality? Another one?

No, no. What do you mean? It was like my oldest brother's baby mama. Like he she did it yeah i was running around everywhere i was like you're killing it not me she was all scared i'm all like this big kid like you know right she's like you kill it i'm like bitch you go i'm like yeah you're a t.o who t.o is that what it's called oh yeah my t.o yeah are you uh do you like kids yeah okay yeah well are you good with them like how can you like... Oh, no. I'm good with kids, yes.

Yeah. But I don't like the messy, crazy kids. Are they messy, crazy? Your niece? No. My niece is very... I love her because she's so... Sweet and...

She's together. She's sweet. Okay. The messy, crazy. I don't really like other people's... You know, like the babies that I have, like, crazy. They'll, like... I call those, like, travesuros.

What is that? Travesuros, like, little crazy kids. Travesuros. Did you make it up, or is that Spanish? No, no. That's fine. They say, like, travesuros. Like, stop being travesuros. What is that? Travesuros, like little crazy kids. Travesuros. Did you make it up or is that Spanish? No, that's fine. They say like travesuros, like stop being travesuros. Oh, I love that. They're like throwing stuff everywhere and like picking up stuff and those kids, I'm

like, oh my God, like control your child. Yeah, they're wild. Yeah. Because you said you had a big family, like extended family. Yeah. And there's, oh my God, some of those, yeah, some of my tias have those kids and I'm just like, girl. I like that.

I will literally be like in the family, like Thanksgiving or something and I'm just like. Did you have like an I've made it moment where you're like, okay, this I finally made it? You haven't had one of those yet where you're like your apartment, your walk-in closet? Oh, well, of course. I'm like, okay, I made this goal. On to the next. Okay. Yeah.

That kind of idea. But you haven't like, is there. But I'm not at the point where I'm like, yes, I made it. I'm at the top. Really? No, not even near. You're definitely. Okay.

Well, that's good. So that means you're aiming to go even higher. Oh, yes, of course. Like you have a trajectory. I think that's amazing. Because to me, I think you're like at, I wouldn't even say that's good. So that means you're aiming to go even higher. Oh, yes, of course. Like, you have a trajectory. I think that's amazing. Because to me, I think you're, like, at, I wouldn't even say a peak because I don't think you're going to go down, but you're just at such a high right now. So I would think for you, like, how do you stay humble?

Like, do you have someone that, like, humbles you? Like, keeps you grounded? I think. You just are. Yeah. I don't, I don't know. Yeah. You don't let it get to you.

It's real. Like, what am I going to not be humble about? Like, you know. Well, the fame, the followers. Yeah, but I think also what it is, as I was so, I was at such a low point, you know what I mean? That it's like, I understand what that feels like.

Yeah, the struggle. But then also, I've met other people that were at a low point too, the struggle, and they're so like catty and just rude and disgusting. And it's like, how can you be like that when you like been through the struggle? You know what I mean? That's interesting.

I would always assume they just didn't struggle at all. So they just don't know what they have. Yeah. That's what I'm saying. Some people just get the fame and the following and they forget what it's like to have to work at McDonald's or something like that. I think that's also why I'm such hardworking because I don't want to go to where I was before, you know?

Yeah. No, definitely. That's how I am with like money. I'll do anything even for a hundred bucks because I'm just like, well. Yeah. It was hard to make, you know? I stopped that though. I did. Because it was getting too many brand deals. For a while I was, I was like, just give me any brand deal. I don't care. Oh, like a hundred bucks because i'm just like well yeah it was hard to make you know like that too i stopped that though i did because it was getting too many brand deals for a while i was i was like

just give me any brand deal i don't care like a hundred yeah oh for sure like pick and choose but but now i'm just like okay i think i have so much of an impact on like what people buy i'm gonna only give them what's good yeah you know no that's smart and if you're getting all these brand deals it's definitely smart i think people trust me i don't want to lose that trust that's what it is so smart so there's been a few times i've said no to a lot of money just because i didn't like the product or i didn't like the brand or also there was a time where like the brand was just being weird and i didn't even like the product that much so i was like you know what tell them no wow that's good that contract uh rip it i don't care like i'm not doing that video if it's something i think my followers won't like

then you know that's amazing to turn down money. I know recently an influencer came out and was like, this was the ugliest thing ever. I can't believe you guys bought it. I was like, why would you say that? You sold this huge palette. And he was like, this is so ugly. I was like, oh my God, don't tell people you did that. Which is like sad because I consider myself to be authentic too.

I would never take something that I think is like bad or something like that, you know. I think I wouldn't talk down on something because the way I would see it is like it was an era. Like enjoy that. You know what I mean? Exactly. Like be happy that that happened, you know. That's true. Like be grateful for because the way i would see is like it was an era like enjoy that you know what i mean like be happy that that happened you know that's true like the be grateful be grateful but again it's people that you know they didn't they were never at a low point they always were just you know netball baby vibes like just everything you know big old

metal spoon just fed it to them so that's true with the influencer now like you can be an influencer at any age and you just like it is such easy not easy but you can make so much money easily as opposed to like working minimum wage and stuff because like more than doctors is insane like a doctor that went to that's why i think college is such a like scam oh my god emma chamberlain vibes we're gonna get canceled she said that on her podcast and everyone was so mad oh they were no no i'm all scared no it's your personal opinion intake i want to hear it yeah i think yeah you know if you want to do it do it but i i think it's a scam because it's unfair that we get paid this much and doctors that are saving lives are not getting paid. I feel like they should be getting paid more than us.

Totally. I think that's like. That's what I think. Pay them more than us. Totally. But not like pay us less. No. Pay them more.

Yeah. Kind of vibe. You know? I agree. I didn't say that about fast food workers. I think doctors should. Oh. When I go through McDonald's, I was like, they need to get triple the pay because they're

just so happy every time I go through. They're like so upbeat. They're so happy. I need to go to whatever McDonald's you're going to because mine is like, they spit in my food. No, they do not spit in your food. But it's always the managers. They're like short and stubby. Oh, the short and stubby love me.

Maybe that's my audience because they love me there. They're always just like, hey, they give me like t-shirts. They don't even know who I am and they'll just give me like t-shirts and stuff like that. Is it getting more? Do you just want to have one, please? Yes. I only have one left the other one i cut out because i was so weird and i wanted to make it a crop top and i thought it was gonna be

cute but it's not that's a vibe i love a like a mcdonald's crop top right i love i can make it work i love no that's sure i swear i will go back and i will get hired again just to get more shirts and be like okay bye oh my god i love that you have because they don't wear t-shirts that are they wear collars but they give me t-shirts like they'll have like t-shirts in there and what t-shirt do you have is it blue it's like a black and it has like a actually it's a malibu one it's around mcdonald's surfing oh no i have the working cheapy ones oh i wish i could get the crew shirts or something like that those are the ones i want the crew maybe they're on like ebay that's where i find my advisors and stuff yeah i'm gonna check that they're gonna

put the prices up just because we're saying this i love mcdonald's i think fast food employees should get paid way more because also it's like a job and they're just like so upbeat and happy and i'm just like god they really should get paid more because these people can be a lot fun it's fun i was like i had fun but i agree doctors should get paid more i think teachers should get paid more i think all of that definitely when i find how much teachers get paid i'm like no that is sad and that's like the thing i've had like obviously backstories with my teachers but like there's teachers out there that are like really great helping and i also don't like the way they get paid did you know how they get no so at least in high school because one of the I was so close to one of the teachers

she told me if a student is absent they get paid less what per student I don't know how it works but she said if there's students missing like the school get that school gets paid less so then they get paid less their paycheck is lower god that's just like wow like this is why you guys have that senior attendance and all this big and you guys are so dramatic when we're tardy and stuff like that but it's like they're doing it on themselves you know like they're giving us like oh three tardy slips equals one absence well bitch you're doing that to yourself i'm gonna be tardy you know that's true they just shouldn't count you as tardy they should be easier i think that's what a lot of teachers are like very cool about it they're

just like oh you're not tardy like you're good yeah yeah Yeah, yeah, yeah. You're fine. You're actually here. Yeah, no, you've been here the whole time. Yeah, I didn't know that. No, that is sad. It's so sad. Just in general. I think everything. Even the elementary teachers.

Oh, yeah. Because they're like really with the kids. It's like, girl, that's basically, that's also kind of a daycare too. There's a lot of parents that like, you know, they work and stuff like that. Yeah. And some kids don't like, they, you know, pee their pants and stuff like that because they can't go to like the bathroom. And the teachers have to help them.

Yeah. Oh, yeah. Or like help them. I piss myself when I'm in front of a teacher. She didn't let me go to the bathroom, so I just piss right there in front of her. Oh, that's happened to me multiple times. Our teachers wouldn't let us go. the teachers have to help them yeah or like help them i piss myself once i'm in front of a teacher she didn't let me go to the bathroom so i just pissed right there oh that's happened to me multiple times our teachers wouldn't let us go i would have to go i hate that especially because me being a has so many stomach problems like yeah oh right i think i remember we were reading in a little circle and i tell the teacher and she wasn't even my teacher

she was just like an ssr teacher like we would go into the separate it was for like the kids that were better at reading right obviously not not anymore okay i completely lost that good reading oh really yeah i don't know what being in school makes you dumber i don't know why i'm a great reader so we were in that little group and i told her hey like i have to pee and she's like can you wait till after and i was like okay sure and then later on like hey i have to pee and she's like no you need to wait i was like i need to pee that's wild and she was like no i got up and i swear i stared her right in the eye and I peed. And I was wearing shorts and the pee was, I remember just looking at the pee trickling down my legs. What did she do? Were you like

slave? I was like, mop it up, you know? No, no. She was just like, oh my god, go, go, go. I was like, now you let me go. So I ran to the bathroom and I was just wiping myself in the bathroom. I'm going to tell my daughter, just leave if you have to go to the bathroom. That's wild to say now. She told me, if that ever happens, just leave. Just leave the classroom. That's scary because teachers are scary. Oh, I was terrified. That's what my mom told me after a while. She told me, if that ever happens, just leave. Just leave the classroom. Yeah, that's crazy.

Because teachers are scary. Oh, I was terrified. That's why I peed myself so many times. If they said no, I was like, okay. That's why I would get in trouble also, too, because I got to the point where I was like, if you're going to be a bitch to me, I'm going to be a bitch back to you.

And they would just say, oh, he's the one with the loud mouth. You don't want him in your class. He has a big mouth. And it's not that I have a big mouth. It's that if you talk to me, I'm going to talk back to you. Even as a kid, yeah.

Even as a kid, yeah. And you are so captivating. You're polarizing. Oh, thank you. I love how you're unproblematic, but you have a little problematic in you, which I love too. Yeah, it's just very, you know.

I wouldn't even say problematic. You're exciting. Yeah. Yeah, I don't think it's problematic. It sounds bad. Because I don't do anything bad. No. That's like, oh my God, you're canceled.

No, no, no. I'm not dumb either. I don't do stupid things like that. You're smart. Yeah, you have a good head on your shoulders. You know. I'm human. Yeah, you're human. I love it. When I texted you yesterday, you're like, I'm a very open. Like I don't do stupid things like that. You're smart. Yeah. You have a good head on your shoulders. You know like. I'm human. Yeah.

You're human. I love it. And when I texted you yesterday you're like I'm a very open book. Like ask me anything. And I love people like that. Especially because you do have such a great online persona but you can also be real. Yeah. I love when you open up about like.

Like I said I saw that one TikTok about your personal life. And I'm like that's very inspiring. I think to so many people. My mom told me that. She was like. Wow really? Yeah. She was like you have like a very like amazing story.

She was like there's probably kids out there that go through the same thing that you do. She was like, you know, maybe they'll, let's just see it. And I, it really took a lot for me to make that video. Cause I was like, yo, crying on camera. That's so embarrassing. No, but it's so, it makes you so real because you do have such a perfect persona and you look so perfect. And I did it cause I was still in school.

Yeah. And I heard like, like my mom was, um, friends with this other mom that had a daughter that goes to that school and her daughter told her mom her mom told my mom my mom told me that they now that they like that the daughter was like wow like i didn't know douse was like that they were like no wonder he's such a bitch i was like oh oh it gives people to understand you better but also just appreciate how much you've done on your own you know what i mean the fact that you came i would never know like lower class and all this stuff like. Your dad in and out of your life, like I would have no idea. Like that lower class.

Yeah. And that's, so to see that growth in such a quick amount of time, it's, it's funny that anyone can, like literally anyone can do it, you know? I literally say it all the time. Like if you, it's, it's not even about like, if you really want to do it, you can. Yeah. But you really want to have, you, you need to have that passion for it or else it's not going to happen.

Passion and believing in yourself truly. Because like, yeah. No one else will believe in you the way you believe in yourself exactly that's what i always think of yeah and you you're proof of it i mean the fact that you're with uta and all these management companies and which is kind of insane because every time i tell somebody uta they're like no like you have to get like a referral from like an already established person like it's so hard and i've been here for so long and i remember i write letters to them and it's amazing everything that you've've been here for so long. And I remember I write letters to them. And it's amazing. Everything that you've accomplished is like crazy. So I just see it going bigger and better.

And I can't wait to see. I can't wait to see you acting. I can't wait to see you in a Marvel. Like that's going to be. Skims campaign. I see that for sure. Skims. I really do.

And I'm so excited and honored that you are here. Because you're like. You're so fresh. You're so successful. But still so fresh. And I'm just like so honored to like see the beginning of this just like you love brettman rock someone's gonna see this and be like i want to be like this person you know i'm coming from the same background i'm sharing a room with my mom and brothers and one day too you could be douse

mendoza or one of his personalities yeah or just be you too and maybe one day they'll meet the villas they've never seen i've never Vilas? Is that the mean one? Yeah. Is he villain? Not really mean. No, not villain. He's just very like out there. Like he, yeah.

Yeah. No, I wouldn't say villain. He's not villain. He's just very, he wouldn't do what I do. Yeah. He's just wild. Wild. Yes.

We love it. I love all the Douses. I love Douse Mendoza. I love Vilas. I love Dousey. I love Dousey Mousey and all of it. All of them. Yeah. You guys check out Douse Mendoza. He love you, Loz. I love Dowsy. I love Dowsy Mousy and all of it. All of them, yeah.

You guys, check out Doss Mendoza. He is on TikTok. He is everywhere. And he'll probably be all over your TV soon. Congratulations on everything. And thank you so much for being here. And I'm so sorry for the mix-up. You're such a sweet person.

Thank you for having me here. This is an amazing time. It's so amazing. Have fun with Kayla. Say hi to her. Oh my God, yes, I will. Oh yeah. All right, guys, thanks for watching.

And we'll see you in the next one. Bye.