Kyle Kingsbury Podcast - #281 Fit For Service 2023 - Song of Soloman

Episode Date: December 7, 2022

It’s that time of year! Yes Christmas and Festivus and all the other great Winter Solstice holidays, I also got to sit down with the core of my Ohana and really lay out and dive into our interpretation of the structure for what FFS 2023 will be. That framework is based around the song of songs. The Four Songs of Soloman: The Song of Self, Song of Tribe, Song of Humanity, Song of Cosmos. I won’t divulge everything here, but we go off yall! Click the FFS link below to explore the actual logistical side of what 2023 will look like, and tune in to this episode for how the song is alive in each of us now. All Love!   FIT FOR SERVICE 2023!! Full Temple Reset  and Fit For Service 2023 Core Program  are live! Head to the links above and explore the pages, consider your options and hopefully ultimately sign up. I hope to see yall on the path next year!   ORGANIFI GIVEAWAY Keep those reviews coming in! Please drop a dope review and include your IG/Twitter handle and we’ll get together for some Organifi even faster moving forward. Sponsors:   Our Sponsor - Aura offers all-in-one digital safety for your entire household. Identity theft, fraud, and malware are just some of their offerings. Go to https://aura.com/kyle for 14 days free and 40% off your plan.  Cured Nutrition has a wide variety of stellar, naturally sourced, products. They’re chock full of adaptogens and cannabinoids to optimize your meatsuit. You can get 20% off by heading over to www.curednutrition.com/KKP  using code “KKP”  Organifi Go to organifi.com/kkp to get my favorite way to easily get the most potent blend of high vibration fruits, veggies and other goodies into your diet! Click that link and use code “KKP” at checkout for 20% off your order!   To Work With Kyle Kingsbury Podcast   Connect with Kyle:   Fit For Service Academy App: Fit For Service Academy  Instagram: @livingwiththekingsburys   Odysee: odysee.com/@KyleKingsburypod  Youtube: Kyle Kingbury Podcast  Kyles website: www.kingsbu.com  Zion Node: https://getzion.com/ > Enter PubKey  >PubKey: YXykqSCaSTZNMy2pZI2o6RNIN0YDtHgvarhy18dFOU25_asVcBSiu691v4zM6bkLDHtzQB2PJC4AJA7BF19HVWUi7fmQ   Like and subscribe to the podcast anywhere you can find podcasts. Leave a 5-star review and let me know what resonates or doesn’t.

Welcome to the podcast, y'all. We have a banger today. This is a co-release with my brother, Aubrey Marcus. It was me, Aubrey, Eric Godsey, and Caitlin Howe, the four main coaches in Fit for Service. We all sit down for our annual talk about FFS and what we've gleaned from these first four years now and where we see this headed. We see this headed and know this is heading to our best year yet. And I mentioned the why behind that on this podcast, but we're very excited for what we have in store. We're going back to the full year model. And there's many reasons for that.

One of the reasons is we get you for integration, we get you in between and we get you for three core events that really are anyone in particular would be life-changing in itself. But with the stack and the amount of time and energy that you have with us as coaches, you're going to get the most from that. So we talk about what this is. We also really dive into what is the layout of this next year. We always have a theme each year. And the theme of this is the song of songs the song of solomon and this four-fold song aubrey breaks down and then we each talk about how the song of the self the song of the tribe the song of all of humanity and the song of the cosmos how each of those pertains into us individually and person on a personal level uh the alchemy that we've we've

gotten the understandings that the change, whatever. Maybe our ideas have changed over the last few years. Certainly mine have in the last few years. And what does that look like now? And so it's really just an awesome podcast, whether you're going to do Fit for Service or not, whether you have zero interest in it or not, it's an amazing podcast because you get to learn a lot no matter what. And that's my hope and my goal for any of these podcasts is that take something with you and you say, cool, fuck yeah, I do this differently now. Or awesome, I eat this differently now. Or I started this book and it's completely illuminated X, Y, and Z. So that's the goal is that there's always some takeaway from this, kind of like the old sitcoms. There was some moral to

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So what I'm going to do is I'm going to jump in and we're going to cover each of the four songs. And then, of course, the inclusion of all four songs, which creates the harmony of the kind of fifth song, which is a harmony, not an individual song, and go through what it means to all of us. So here we go. To the sacred text. There is a one who sings the song of his soul, and in his soul, he finds it all, full, complete spiritual satisfaction. This is the first simple song. And of course, there's lots of traditions that point to this idea. Atman is Brahman. The monad, I was just reading this

actually in the Kabbalion, Valana's reading the Kabbalion again, and I kind of looked over her shoulder and it says the monad is the archangel, right? Like that which you find within, you can also find externally. And that's where the full, complete spiritual satisfaction is. But of course, we don't live in a world of just us. That's obviously the shadow of that is rampant sociopathy, right? To recognize yourself as the only one, but it starts there and it starts there for a reason. So I will pose this question to you guys is what is it about the song of yourself that's been most alive? And I'm sure we could talk about this for the entire podcast. We have to be mindful. We have four fucking songs we got get to at the very least and uh but what is it about this first song that's really alive for each of you right now

singing the song of yourself i'm happy to dive in step up a little closer to that microphone and dive in right wow well i feel like this year 2022 it's so funny we spend so much time diving into what the nature of the soul is and there's all these different avenues you know i've sat with ayahuasca so many times and i've been on the path of seeking myself in many ways for over a decade. But I feel like this year, something really clicked for me that helps me understand this particular piece of the song of Solomon in a new way. And I think the thing that's shifted for me in how I relate to unlocking my song and being passionate about knowing what that is, is that I've realized that the path there is not one of overcoming yourself. Or in some ways, writing a new story is a part of that because of the stories that we have, that we get when we're young and we get from society and from our relationships throughout our lives.

But for me, what really clicked this year was reclaiming my true nature in full color, full spectrum, integrating and exalting every piece of who I've always been rather than trying to overcome her. And it feels like for most of my spiritual journey, I was rejecting myself in the most fundamental way. Every time I sought to heal or uncover more of me, it was like I wanted to get something different. And finally this year, it suddenly came into full color that everything I meant to sing in my expression

is actually all of these beautiful, sparkly little pieces of me that have been there from the very beginning. And then there's also an element of, you know, I really track synchronicities and signs and dreams and recognizing that the things I'm attracted to or that come in for me through dreams and all of these things, it's not something outside of myself. It's part of my essence. There's this unique combination of these archetypal frequencies that make me this unique braid, like multi-stranded braid of a being that's unlike anybody else. Would you say it's a league of queens?

It might be a whole ass league of queens. I mean, I don't know. There's a lot of queens in here. But all of, yes, yes, I would actually. That's the women's program I started this year for anyone who's not following me. And it's going on right now. And it's been the most rewarding thing I've offered through Fit for Service ever because it's born of my true expression. And I feel that embodiment in everything that I'm teaching and offering to these women. We have such a beautiful, big community

of amazing, powerful, magical beings. And I couldn't be in the expression of my truth if I didn't start to reclaim and fall back in love with who I've always been instead of trying to overcome her. So for me, this piece of it is actually, there's a shift that's happened that's saying, reclaim your original nature, find out what that is and love it. And the love that you have for that nature reclaim your original nature.

Find out what that is and love it. And the love that you have for that nature that you've always had, that was kind of written in the stars and you're tracking in the mist and seeing in the zeitgeist and everything that's alluring to you is a reflection of something that you have inherently in your soul

and bringing that all together and letting it be what it is, a reflection of something that you have inherently in your soul and bringing that all together and letting it be what it is is the key that has changed everything for me well said i think there's an interesting nuance to this in that you're referring to your original nature and there is a kind of unique self there's a kind of unique frequency what i've imagined is that if you imagined our soul or our nature our unique self as a composition of myriad pixels with a different hue of light right and we're an aggregation of all those pixels and together all the pixels of all the people and all of the things make up the one all color which is a full spectrum

rainbow and we're a unique kind of configuration of all of those pixels and that's what makes us unique is we're a unique configuration of the one and however i think that if we actually look inside there's pixels of every different type of color inside us as well. So, yes, we have a unique nature, which is the concentration of certain colors, certain hues, like whatever hue the poet is, whatever hue all of these different archetypes might be. However, if we keep looking, we'll find a little bit of everything. And so where you end up arriving is not only trying to find what your nature is, because then it could become a slippery slope of judging, well, my nature is this, and my nature is just a little bit better than your nature. And it could be a little bit better than this. And then you can get in the comparison.

But when you recognize that your nature includes the full spectrum every color of the rainbow that's when you pull yourself from having part of your soul in exile like this is the nature of shadow shadow is that you're not acknowledging that you are a little bit of every color of the rainbow, every bit of the spectrum. And as the deeper that I've looked myself, I've found a little bit of everything. And then you get to a place of non-rejection. And the place of non-rejection is the place of wholeness. And that is ultimately really, and I could talk more about it but that's really where i've found myself is actually finding for the first time potentially the place of non-rejection

of the entirety of myself and that's a harrowing journey because some of these some of these hues and some of these colors that we find inside are gnarly. Yeah. Pure savagery in there. And it's like, how can I love that part? How can I love that part? The answer to that question, when you realize how you can love that part, that wholeness that it brings in, I think that's the wholeness that eliminates all comparison

because there's no insidious aspect of the jealousy or the comparison that's actually not looking at how you already are that too. Or the fear. Yeah. Indeed. Yeah. What about for you guys? Yeah. because of uh the childhood that i've had where i found that the way that i can feel safe is to

help other people i skipped the first song and i went to the songs where um i'm useful because i need to feel like i'm worthy i've gotten to a point this year where i've quote unquote achieved enough where it feels like I'm finally actually returning to the first song. And for me, the path that has brought me there is beginning to study what's called complex PTSD and what has been reframed as developmental PTSD. And it's a long story, And I know that we've got to get through these songs and we got four people, so I'll keep it short. But what I'm doing is I've started a project where I'm writing stories that I'm not going to share with anyone

but Caitlin, who is my fiance for people who don't know. Oh, let's go baby and i'm going through all of my stories where i have shame or pain from my uh childhood and it's been gnarly like um there is a thing with dreams where you don't think that you remember a dream and then as soon as you start to write about the dream more of the dream reveals itself to you and um like one of the natures of uh you could call it shame because i think that's kind of the core emotion is its nature is to conceal itself from you hat tip to mark gaffney for that one because that blew my mind and like the nature of it is to disassociate from it and um i can feel that i'm on the verge of tears right now because the thing

that i've realized by looking at this like not the like people who have been raped or people who have gone to war type trauma but the more subtle trauma that what I'm making contact with is, it is everywhere. Like if you had the glasses from that movie where you could see all the obey, obey, it feels like once you have these glasses, right, once you have these glasses on. I don't know what movie you're talking about.

You have to watch it right now. Hot Rod, Roddy Piper, Keith David in the 80s. The famous director that did all the horror flicks did it. It's awesome. I'm thinking more like Black Lights in a scuzzy motel where you just see semen and blood and disease everywhere. The beautiful thing about symbols is that multiple avenues can bring you to the same truth.

So the Come Hotel and also a great movie about Obey. Here we are. That it's so pervasive and that it's hard to even wrap my arms around it and talk about it. But basically what I've been doing is I've been revisiting these stories and alchemizing the coping mechanisms that

were generated out of these stories because there's something intuitive in me that knows that on the horizon of my life is going to be family and children and children are smart and they're going to find your coping mechanisms and they're going to just eat them and take them in and absorb them and have them. And so it feels like the first song of Solomon, it's like I had to almost give and give and give until I felt myself worthy and competent enough to finally actually go back to song one. And it's kicking my ass right now, guys.

It's interesting that we joked around with the cum motel, but when you tell the story of your shame, I think there's actually a little bit more literalization of the cum motel of looking at our shame story, right? Because so much of our shame involves our sexuality and the repression of our sexuality, the denial of it or the exaggeration of its importance, which was a big aspect for me, right?

I mean, I always internalized the idea that my mom left my dad because of sexual reasons, right? Like he wasn't capable sexually. And that's a long story about how I arrived at that internalization. So I always felt that if I wasn't proficient enough in the bedroom, then my lover and my mom obviously symbolized the greatest woman in the world. The greatest woman in the world would leave me if I wasn't sexually capable enough.

So there's all kinds of things if you go start looking around in the Cum Motel. Homework everyone, go in the cum motel yep and you'll find everyone you'll find a lot there for you to kind of really take a look at all of us it's like look where the taboos are in the culture and that's where you sex, power, fame, you know, drugs, addiction. So yeah, Kyle, how about you? I love everything that we're getting into right now. So much listening to you guys has brought forward a lot of what I want to talk about, but really for the last two and a half years, and I imagine a lot of people listening to this, there's been a catharsis that has helped move us hopefully in a good direction, but nonetheless, like shit hits the fan and how we deal with that has really been the difference

for us. Some people have checked out, they're cool with fucking getting their 30 pack alcohol and just numbing out. And others have taken a deep dive looking into the world itself. And if you spend too much time doing that, then you still remain powerless. You're still in the victim arcing type. And I spent quite a long time there before I realized I'd have to look back inward and control what I can control and find all the techniques that I've relied upon my whole life. The techniques we bring forward in Full Temple Reset, where we get to fast and we get to clean the body and sauna and ice bath and do all the physical things, the mental emotional practices and work on the psyche that you bring forward. And then of course, the ceremony and the sound healing to harmonize a spirit.

And knowing that's coming up and we have that every January, it's like, cool, we got that. What does my daily look like? Because it isn't just waiting for the ayahuasca retreat to ask big questions and get answers. It's not waiting to take care of myself until I do the fast and eating like shit until then. And so for me, it's been a refinement on everything from what I consume from food to what I consume media-wise, how much, you know, really I jumped off all the social media stuff like right before lockdown and then quickly realized that is a double-edged sword. And it's still the easiest way to chat with people and was able to get back on with my wife and then my Twitter account and

all that stuff. And it was like, cool, but how much is too much before I go back into fucking panic mode saying shit that I don't want to see? And so really the refinement for me is knowing what I know about the physical body, knowing how that plays into my mental emotional state, really utilizing those tools on a daily basis to see like, how do I want to operate every single day? And my greatest gift in this first song is me operating at my highest level. You know, it's when I'm the most fit to serve that I get the most joy out of life. It's when I'm the best dad, the best husband, the best coach, the best friend. And that's really been, there's never been a fire lit under my ass. Fighting gave me a fire lit under my ass to want to learn more because I wasn't good enough to just sit down playing video games like Cormier. I had to learn. I had to read. I had to do the mobility. I had to

do the ice baths. I did everything I could for an advantage. And, you know, with that ending, coaching coming along, different things that helped really draw that up, but nothing like the last two and a half years or three years to make me be like, all right, now's the fucking time. Now's the time to carve out a new way of living and parallel systems in place for our food, for our sovereignty, for all the things that we've been working on so that my kids do have a future and equally important to that, that I enjoy my fucking ride along the way. Yeah. It's so easy to bypass the physical and just think of your psychic, emotional kind of state of being but those the psyche and the body are

inextricably linked yes and always when you're in question the place to go when things don't make sense and it's confusing you don't know the next best move to make just go right back into the body what's the next best thing i can do for my body because there's always an answer that you know every single person it's not like you need to consume. It's great to consume more information in podcasts and listen to your podcast or Aaron Alexander's E-Line podcast or read one of Ben Greenfield's tomes or whatever you want to do. Fine. But actually, the truth is we all know the next best thing we could do for our body. If you ask every single one of us or any single person listening, you're like, what's the next best thing you could do for your body? We all

have an answer. We all know what works and we're doing only a fraction of what actually works for us, like all of us. So I think we can get stuck in this paralysis of continuing to learn all of these intricacies and these new biohacking thing in this one peptide. That's all great. Do that, but also get back to the basics of what you know is going to work. Like breathwork, for example. Breathworks. It's like we know.

We know how powerful it is. We know how we feel when we're done. And do we do it to the capacity? Do we do the actual minimum effective dose of what would really, no, we don't, for the most part. This is another shame story I'm gonna write down in my little book. Yeah, but it's interesting, right?

It's like, and always, so instead of being in this state of paralysis where I don't know what to do, well, just focus on the foundation until that other thing illuminates. Because oftentimes, until your body's in the right state, the path will not become illuminated for you. You actually won't be able to see what to do because there's too much clouding and confusion that's coming from a dysregulated system. Yeah, the optimized self is how you find your North Star. It's something we both really talk about. All of us talk about this and we all help people find that in various ways

through Fit for Service and the podcast. But it is the harnessing of the best version of yourself that gives you back your intuition, that gives you back the inner knowing. And anything that's in between that, if I'm in chronic pain, that inner knowing isn't the same as if I'm completely clean and clear. If I'm beaming and feeling good, that inner knowing is on lock. It's right there. If I'm calm and alert, if I'm in a ready state where I'm wide awake, but I'm also centered and chilling, I can make pretty damn good decisions there. The periphery is opened up significantly. And I think that's been a big piece of this for that first song for me.

Yeah. I want to just add, because that really inspired me to remember what I sense that we're on, like, the cusp of as a collective. And, you know, there's all this talk about the rise of the feminine. And I think a lot of people have very gendered ideas about what that means. Right. And something that I think is my next people have very gendered ideas about what that means. And something that I think is my next phase in my song of self, and I know will be happening this year, is we have this idea of this projected God in heaven who's outside of the body. And, you know, for most of us in some form.

And starting to kind of turn inward and ask the question of what is it like to pray into the body? What does it feel like to drum this back to life? And the relationship we have with our body is directly, I think, reflective of our relationship we have to the earth. And so when we are moving into this rise of the feminine, I sense it's actually a reclamation of the holy nature of the body. And so how can we start to treat this like we would treat God in whatever way we relate to God? And how do we relate to God? How do we relate to the earth? When we start to treat our bodies as sacred, everything in how we relate to the earth and how we relate to each other will change. Yeah.

Yeah. So for me, there's been a really powerful kind of meditation that I've been going through. And it's kind of woven a lot of the teaching from Mark Gaffney, John Churchill, a variety of different things. And then my own private ceremonial work with the ketamine and cannabis, which has been kind of a regular drumbeat of kind of growth and the ability to take abstract knowledge and bring it in as gnosis. And I had a very profound experience that I haven't told the story of on the podcast yet. But ultimately, what I recognized is that I have a very good understanding of what my higher or highest self is. Now, I say highest lightly because that self is in evolution, right? So, you don't want to denominalize like you know you don't want to nominalize the the self and say that it's done no ceiling yeah exactly it's still it's still evolving constantly

but i have a good idea of what that is and i've been able to step into that more this year than ever before so i have a felt sense a gnosis of what my highest expression looks like, feels like, how I love, how I laugh, how I play, how I share my voice. And I have a really strong feeling of that. And actually through, if you listen to my podcast with John Churchill, which I highly recommend, he identified that an avatar for that is my playa name, Dragonheart, which combines both the tenderness and the fierceness, all of the ferocity of Smaug the dragon, right? And all of the tenderness of the heart. And he describes it as the place where the Buddha and the demon meet, right? And that's the understanding of the highest self, right? It's the full inclusion of your tender fierceness, as Gaffney is wont to say. And so I've really felt that. I've felt myself as that. And then I also feel myself when I'm not that, when I'm a little bit off. However, I know Dragonheart and I know who

Dragonheart is. And I recognize that I always know what my highest self is. And I went through this process of saying, okay, well, if this is my highest self, that is the king. That's the king of my self kingdom. Dragonheart is the king of mykingdom. And all other identification and all other manifestation that I'm currently participating in bows to the king. All aspects of me bow to the king. We all bow to, we all bend the knee, bend the knee to dragon heart. And in the bending of the knee of all other aspects of myself, it actually starts to collapse wherever I am with that highest version of myself, the most loving, the most joyous, the most playful,

the most rascally, the most ferocious, like all of the best of me, the truest of me, the God as me, right? My own unique expression, my unique self as Gaffney would say. And as every other aspect of myself bows i become closer and closer almost ontically identical with dragon heart the more i bow so right now i bow this expression of me which is which is but isn't actually because i'm not quite i don't feel it i can't feel Dragonheart in my body right now.

But this part of me bows to that. And I know what that is. So a little, again, I'm getting closer and closer and closer to that in my expression, always. So that was powerful. I had a full coronation ceremony. And I was just like, long live the king. Long live the king. And I spent some time with Aaron Rodgers out in

Green Bay and we went through a whole process where he crowned his king as long live the king. Vailana has gone through long live the queen and long may he or she reign. And this concept of just saying that, it also helps clarify decisions. It's like, what should I do? Well, this is what Dragonheart would do. Long live the Kings. That's what I do. It's actually submission. And it's really the only place where I think we can have true submission because submission is something I think most of us push against because we're like, well, I don't know. I don't try. That person doesn't know me. That idea may not apply completely to me. It may make sense. So I'll go along with it, but real submission, submission, not just surrender, which is kind of like acceptance, but real submission to, as you would to like a king that you actually fully believed in and

fully loved. Well, of course, this is the king or queen that we can do that with because it's us in our highest. And that's been an incredibly powerful process. Now, let me tell the second part of this story because this is interesting as well. So, I go through this incredibly powerful, long live the king moment and I'm just radiating, right? And I go back into my prayer, my ketamine cannabis journey, go back into that journey another day, maybe a week later or something like that. And I'm in kind of this interesting, confusing nether world that I find myself in. And I was like, I don't know really what I'm doing here, but I'm going to go back to long live the king and I'm going to evoke dragon heartheart and I'm going to try to anchor that in here in this place that I'm in.

And then I saw a version of myself projected out in my vision, looking back at me and looks at me and goes, yeah, maybe. And I was like, no, Long Live the King. And myself talking shit to myself was like, yeah, maybe. I don't know for sure. We've gotten that response in meetings when our ideas are good. Maybe. We know that part. And so it was me talking shit to me.

And I was like, how dare you me talk shit to me? Long live the king. We did this. Exactly. Get on your knees. Here, here. Where are you going? Exactly.

And then it turned into a fight. Wow. It turned into a fight. I got into an astral fist fight with this other version of myself. And I remember this. It was this really clear moment where I was in observation of myself as what I was expressing as Dragonheart. And then the other self, which I would call the anti-me, the opponent, which is the word I'm liking to use, the opponent, as me got in this fistfight. And I remember I hit the anti-me, which was me,

and I hit him clean, like just stroked him right in the jaw. And anti-me got rocked. And I was like, that's right. But then I saw that I was hitting me. And I was like, oh, poor Aubrey, fuck. He just got fucking smashed. And it was this crazy feeling of recognizing that it was both me. Me and my opponent were actually still me. And then I recognized from there that we all have an anti-us, an opponent. But actually the purpose of that opponent is our own evolution. And actually if the divine wants to evolve

and if we want to evolve, what better way to evolve than to project the absolutely worthy opponent of the anti-us and then have those two versions compete? That's what's going to drive the highest level of evolution. It's the masculine face of Eros. And I've talked to Gaffney about this. We've actually gone back and forth about whether he accepts it as that or whether he would place the anti-you in the unique self. But I really feel like this is the masculine face of Eros.

Eros is the desire for intimacy for evolution, right? Which is the feminine face of Eros in many ways. But the masculine face is competition. And part of the structure of cosmos and structure of reality is that for our own evolution, we have an opponent that we have inside that we compete with. And in through that competition, we're just barely able to defeat the anti-version of ourself, the opponent. We're barely able to defeat the opponent and that drives our evolution. Because

imagine Kyle, if you had to fight Kyle. Who would win? If you had to fight Kyle, that's fucking gnarly. Because Kyle is doing the exact same shit as Kyle to fight Kyle. And Kyle can't block a punch. There's a lot of offense in this fight. So it's like the intensity of that. And I think that's why in martial arts movies and different Star Wars and different mythic things, the hero always comes to a point where they fight themselves. And I think we kind of like make this, oh, it's just a metaphor, you know, for overcoming times as a driver for evolution and it's still us so in the completeness of who we are we have to also

accept and recognize that the opponent is us and that we have an opponent and have like this deep sensei bow and this gratitude to the opponent like thank, thank you, anti-Aubrey. Thank you, opponent, for sharpening my sword, for making me stronger. And this competition is not for play. Like, this is for serious. Like, we have to give it everything we got to actually evolve. We have to strive to actually defeat our opponent at every time. And the opponent is insidious. Sometimes the straightforward attack, which is like the negative self-talk, you're a piece of shit and blah, blah, blah. We've all had that voice come in that's super self-critical. It can beat us down. That's basically when the opponent has us in ground

and pound, right? And they've double-legged us and they're just fucking smashing us like Kane used to do to people back in the day, right? And that moment is not always gonna work. Sometimes it's gonna be like little insidious ways. They just take us 3% off of our game. Just make us doubt us just a little bit, slightly. Have us retract our love from our partner. Pull us away from presence in the moment.

Get us thinking. And so recognizing the opponent and also respecting the opponent and also then saying long live the fucking king, like the opponent, yes, mad respect. However, like I am going to represent and be my highest, fullest self, which means that I will constantly be coming into contact and competition with my own inner opponent. And so that paradigm has really exploded open this whole song of the self for me and recognizing, because lots of people have talked about it.

Steven Pressfield calls it resistance. You know, there's lots of religious names and spiritual names for this different force that we all sense and we know is real. But for me to actually understand it in this way has been just an extremely powerful development. It's brilliant. And because the opponent is not always attacking. Right. A lot of the time, it's brilliant and because the opponent is not always attacking right a lot of the time it's very it's very friendly of course tomorrow yes you know exactly just get up later all the little things so subtle just be comfortable so subtle yeah because there's

certain points where it's not that the opponent wouldn't use a strong attack but a strong attack isn't available right and the opponent knows that then it becomes little finger yeah exactly so it's just moving moving ever ever so slightly and in those moments when you catch it and then you're actually in service of your inner ruling king or queen. Long live the king. No, not tomorrow. Long live the king. We do this today.

Love it. And for anyone who feels like, no, I don't really have this. You know, like Aubrey's talking about he's fighting things in some space. It's like if you wrote down your inner monologue for today you would see your anti-you um if you looked at your addictions and sorry to break it to you guys everybody has addictions check out gabber mate's work no one is excluded from this uh you'll see how part x gets in there or not part x that's what stutz calls it. Shout out to Stutz. But we all have it. And what's interesting is like it almost won't ever talk to me directly because I've done so much work with cognitive behavioral therapy

where I can catch almost any thought. Damn, your opponent's got to be sharp. But what my opponent is, is it's this pseudo compassion like i'm giving advice like the advice that i would give to people who i don't think are trying to aspire greatly in the world you know because like one of the pushbacks i get often for my like teaching style is like well what if i don't want to do? And then huge thing that it seems like I want to do. You know, so like I give softer advice to people who confess that like

they don't want to do anything grand. And I'm just connecting to it right now, but it feels like I'm almost unconsciously agreeing to their anti part. Because i think that like your true expression is less about the specific of what you're going to do and it's more about the energy in you as you claim it and when people give back that type of critique i can feel through the vibration of their voice that it's actually their're anti them speaking. But so anyways, mine is very much like, you know, that's not what you actually want.

That's just what you want because of your wounds and the things that you've grown up with. Like, just relax and just be a person and it's okay. Like, everything's okay. You know, and it's like like everything's okay you know and it's like mine is this fucking yep yeah it's it's it's as good as you almost right yeah that's the thing too about what you shared is like if we bow to the inner king or queen supremely if that's the one entity we will submit to what is the one entity the other one entity we will submit to, what is the other one entity we will submit to? Is that harsh or conniving expression that's so close to us, that's protecting our comfort and looks and feels just like us?

It is us. But we submit, I think, to both more than anything else in the world. If someone else comes up to you and is like, you can't do that right just be lazy yeah you're a piece of shit you'd be like fuck you yeah but when it's yourself you don't even notice because you believe it so much because it's your own voice right it's like oh okay yeah and it has it has that familiarity the credibility uses every every aspect, every advantage that it has. Every single advantage it will use to its advantage. And of course, and that's the way we would design it.

Use every advantage you got. Make me the best. Make me the best king that I can possibly be. And bring it. It's that Bruce Lee kind of like waving in the hand. Come here. Bring it. Let's go.

And sometimes you're going to get put on your back and stand back up, wipe off the psychic blood, give a little nod like, well played, I won't fall for that one again. It's such a beautiful reframe to instead of seeing it as this evil aspect of self, to see it as it's every little move is going, show me what you got. And it's serving you. I think that's the alchemy. Yeah, and it's what actually refines us to be the hero of our own story. Because ultimately the opponent is trying to take us off our highest storyline. If our unique self is our unique story, it's just trying to get us into a story that's not our truest, highest story, not our unique story. Yeah, and a thing that's interesting

is it feels like there's been a movement in the last like maybe 40 years where a certain branch of, you could say the spiritual community, the game that they've chosen to believe is I'm going to learn how to get still enough and quiet enough to not play the game of my unique self versus my anti-self

because that's the nature of pain in reality. Therefore, we need to recede from it. And that like what I loved about John Churchill's podcast with you is it's like, that was a misunderstanding of the West of Buddhism. Yeah. That the true essence of Buddhism is like, no, no, no, no, no. Like, we're going to get quiet so we can recognize the game is happening.

Yeah. Because the thing in the West, like the- The intermediate step. Right. It's not the end point. But what happened in the West is a lot of people just wanted to like op out of the game. But the thing that Buddhism does is it allows you to recognize that you're in the arena. Because most people for most of their lives don't even recognize that they're in the arena and they're anti them.

It's just this like assassin in the dark that just like trips them and like puts their finger in their ear or like fucks up their like lunch or whatever. And they don't even like they can't even see it. either self-reflection or have people who will help you become aware of like, you know, like, I was going to get into examples that might be controversial, but there are things that if you have people around you that they can call you out for it, that's one way to do this work. But I guess the thing that I wanted to highlight is most of us, most of the time, like we have to do work to condense our anti-part into a character that we can contend with because it's actually in this like atmospheric state where it's like behind us and around us,

but it's our self-talk. It's the spontaneous images that you have in your mind of you failing or of you having done something that created shame in you mind of you failing or of you having done something that created shame in you like 10 years ago and most people haven't even condensed it yet to be in front of them and this is and this is i think one of the one of the ideas that churchill was sharing about creating this avatar and i think there's the avatar of, and they use tankas, and tankas were literally a visual representation of where the angel and the demon or the Buddha and the demon meet, right? And so, you know, the tanka, one of the tankas that Churchill likes is the tanka yaman taka, the death fucker, right?

And it's this demon-looking being with this fully erect cock and like, but all of these angelic qualities as well. But you have to actually show the ferocity in this avatar that you're saying, this is actually the model of the self that I'm looking because it includes all of the darkness and all of the light. And that's the fullness of our being going back to what we were originally talking about. Like you have to actually represent it as this and all of the representations that don't show that darkness are false and lead to this kind of hierarchical judgmental thinking about, well, this is my bad part and this is my good part,

but in the embrace of all of it, that's your king and that's your queen and then the really the the other version of you the opponent is a similar it's a simulacrum of that of that being that you're just contending with right but you first have to like visualize who the king is and you can actually differentiate if you like the opponent but make sure that it's equal in its in its grandeur in its power and its potency and i think there's a move i actually wish i was a better artist and like i thought visually in that way because i would love to be able to visually depict something for dragonheart where i could say like make it my tanka say like long live the king and i could see it because i can't i've never been able to really see it in a vision i'd feel it and and

also i never been able to really see the opponent but it'd be cool you know to have a process where i actually could visualize these and i think that would be productive and i think it goes to what you're saying is like it's taking all of these things that are nebulous and actually making a symbol and not saying, not pretending that the symbol is anything other than a pointing out instruction for the truth, right? It's still the finger pointing at the moon, but it's still helpful for us because we do think in symbols and we think in different ways. And so this idea itself is a symbol, is a pointing out instruction to the truth. And then if we could actually visualize this in another way, that would be another way to advance this process and help us actually work with it in a powerful way. Yeah, a thing that I'm doing that's not as dope as that, but I think it's been very helpful for me, I've actually, I've been using my Google calendar. I'm sorry. I still use Google calendar, Kyle, because they're tracking my shit.

But I'll write out whatever I did for the previous hour and then I'll color code it based off of what emotional state I was in. And the one rule is don't bullshit yourself eric so like if you spend an hour on your phone and you were in a you were in a not whatever the version of my dragon heart is write it down at the end of the week i look at how i've spent my time because there's this quote and it's um uh i care not damn it i forgot how that quote goes it's like, I don't give a fuck what you say. Show me what you do. And that's how I'll know who you are. And it's like, what, like, I mark my hours as gold

if I was in my highest expression. And there's like three bars of gold in the week. Yeah, there's a story from the lineage teachings that Gaffney shares and it talks about, I think it is Nachman of Breslau versus one of these kind of mystics who encountered his kind of mentor and his mentor said,

I could count, there's this process of collecting the days and collecting the moments, the moments where you were actually expressed as your king or your queen and in the fullness of yourself. And one master says, I can count 12 days in my life where I was fully, truly my, in this metaphor, the king or the queen.

I resonate with that so much. And then so the future master was like, 12 days, that's pathetic. Call yourself a master, basically? And then that master gets to the end of his life and is like, wow, I don't know how he got to 12 days. I love that story. And so it's this idea of it's like, this is not an easy path. But when you're there, it's so incredible.

There's so much joy and aliveness in your life. And that's really the path that I'm on. And I can't resist sharing this other tangent. I was also exploring how the nature of one of our darkest aspects is our judgment, right? Like the way that we judge ourselves and the way that we judge others. And of course, it's important to disambiguate judgment from discretion. Discretion is important. Actually, it's discretion that carves out the self from the all. It's a boundary, right? And there is a boundary, a loose boundary that's always evolving, just like our

body, but there's a boundary of our skin and then a boundary of our heart resonance field and then a boundary, if you imagine more abstractly, of the collection of pixels of light that comprise our soul, right? So, there's a boundary and that's discretion. But where actually, and this is another teaching from a recent session with Gaffney, is that all evil comes from a distortion of that holy idea of boundary, the holy idea of boundary and discretion into actually linking it with disgust, where all of a sudden it's not like you're just carving it out, out of your own discretion boundary, but there's disgust for the other. And disgust for the other actually gives license for all manner of horrors and villainy. We kill for disgust.

Exactly. And then there was this, I could feel it in the contemplation, like, oh, disgust. And then I realized how holy it is. Actually, all of the images of demons and devils and monsters are actually in in what i was recognizing is the most holy image that we can look at why because what it's doing is it's triggering it's it's triggering us to judge it and it's saying are you judging me now that's cool can you love me now what about now with these with these fangs andous, monstrous, can you love me now or will you be disgusted? And it's not like we don't have the discretion to say, no, I'm not going to do that.

That's not my way. But it's like, as these images appear, it's a test. It's a test to say like, will we have disgust for other when it appears in this way. And so all, and I just had this feeling that like all of this demonology, all of these ideas was just a question back to God. God is us, God is self, God is the collective. Can you love me still? Can you love me still?

And so often we say no. And so often we say no. When we look at ourselfself can you love me still and and and this was like this other deep revelation of like oh yeah hold the boundary you know define who you are define the king or the queen but the other and the opponent the moment you get into disgust you know and other and try to kill it And then you're actually missing the ultimate truth of the oneness of the divine. All is of God or nothing is, Paul Selig.

Yeah, a thing that is coming through for me is that the root of demon was the word daemon from Greek mythology. And that the idea of the daemon is that it's the thing that is guiding your growth and it's like the it's almost if you imagine a shell or like a seed that force is the thing inside of the sea that's trying to break it but in our minds it's also the force outside of the seed that impinges the seed that is our anti-self. Yeah. And it's like that's the aspect of the daemon that is a demon asking, and do you love this?

As your eternal opponent. Yeah. The game got hella deep in the last few months for me. And just grateful for it. All right, let's move on. Second song. Oh, wow. And there is a one who sings the song of her people.

She leaves the zone of her personal soul, which she doesn't find wide enough and not settled in ideal serenity and attaches herself with tender love to the totality of her tribe. And together with her people, she sings. She suffers their pains and she takes delight in their hopes. She ponders high and pure ideas about their past and their future. And she investigates with love and the wisdom of the heart, the inner content of their soul. Song two. And song two speaks to the truth

that there will always be a tribe, a group of people who are on the inside in our own inner holy of holies sanctum that we're just going to care about a little bit more. We're gonna resonate more with. And I think one of the traps that you can find and you'll see it in Course in Miracles and you'll see it in a lot of teachings

is to try and get you to bypass the second song, which is saying like, no, you're gonna have your people, your family, your tribe, your Ohana. We have a whole bead exchange ritual that actually all of us have exchanged our beads, which is signifying that there's a special relationship that we have. But of course, Course in Miracles

is like no special relationships. And it's like, yes, and you can't bypass this reality and this truth. You know what I mean? Like this is actually, we're built this way. We're built to care a bit more about our people and our family and our tribe and our beloveds and our children and our wife or spouse and whatever that might be. And I think a lot of people don't acknowledge this and try to bypass and try to say all people, but they're actually just kidding themselves for one. And I think there's also, if you get lost in the shadow of just worrying about your people, then you get into this idea of my people versus everyone else. And this is the dark side of tribalism, which leads to ultimate conflict. So I think there's deep wisdom in this teaching of actually, you know, recognizing that you have your tribe and your people.

And you need to include this song, and then ultimately, as we'll get to, transcend it. It's include and transcend. So it's include the song of the self, transcend it to the song of your people. Include the song of the people and transcend it to the third and fourth song. Yeah.

Yeah. There's a lot here. Yeah. Each song, man. The whole podcast. Yeah, for sure. For sure. Wow.

A lot comes up for me with you sharing that. Yeah. If you want, it's my turn to dive in. Let's go. To speak about the tribe, I was feeling really emotional at the end of the discourse about Song 1, recognizing also that I was having a memory of you actually. I've known you for the longest of almost anybody I know, period, and been close with you for a very long time. And so you've been my champion for years and years and years in this most like a soul guardian level.

And what clicked for me was a memory of the love that you have for me is also enough to call me out and like tell me when, like you'll be so encouraging, so loving, so gentle, so unconditional. And even in your unconditionality, you will be a clean mirror and shake me awake. And sometimes, you know, why that came in for me was thinking about the opponent inside that actually serves you. It's like, if you can have somebody in your life who is willing to be honest with you and say like like, wake up. This is your destiny. You're over here. You know, the memory was of a time, you know, I was going through a painful breakup.

I'd stayed out all night partying with my friends, and I was just drowning and numbing the pain. And you came in and very directly said to me, do you want to live or do you want to die? Change or die? And I remember you hit the table. And it woke me up. And what I did, so magical, is I went home and I made a vision board. And I committed myself to face death.

And I wrote to death in rainbow colors on the top of it. And I collaged an image of this warrior goddess facing off with death and every put around it images of everything I wanted for my life and um what's so beautiful is I just realized that that culminated in our last summit with me dressing as my version of Yamantaka and embodying the thing that was my opponent, which was this insidious part of me that was actually in a way trying to kill herself to win, to beat the queen. And I'm shaking because it's just so deep for me, and life is such a rich masterpiece, but we have these relationships when we find them

that are that force of divinity and countenance and challenge to say, you know, look at yourself. I see you. Don't forget. And all of you guys have been that for me. My partner here in like so many ways. And so it's really important. It's really important because we can get lost

in that quest for self and just go into solitude and into a cave. And it's sometimes not enough love and it's sometimes not enough challenge to really realize what's here for us. And we have this amazing, you know, I brought my tribe beads. I didn't bring them to the table, but there's something really, really life-changing to even have one person that you know that if you need something, they're there. And I've found that like for myself, the best of me comes out for other people.

And so there's an aspect to my nature, one of those concentrated pixels, as you described it, that's deeply compassionate and loves to feel people in love. And there was something so alchemical for me, this convergence of mind-blowing magnificence to dress in costume and dance as death for all these people that needed to feel that integration of self. And when we did that at the last summit, I've never had a better feeling. Everyone was in costumes and And it was like this thing that I used to judge myself for. It was like, oh, you just grow up, get serious, stop playing around. And it's like, no, evolve, integrate this. What's the highest expression of this? And it comes

through for me, for other people, because I care about them so much. And so I feel there's our inner circle, so to speak, which is formed purely by, not by exclusivity, but by magnetism. We are magnetized to people that we have deep resonance with. And there's a beautiful, I feel, I believe, a beautiful design to that. And there's a beautiful, I feel, I believe, a beautiful design to that. And there's a capacity. There's only so, you know, we live in an age right now where part of my inner critic and my stress point every day is I can't keep up with the amount of relationships. And it can be very diluting and it can also create pain, I think, for people seeing relationships and feeling on the outside and wanting to be on the inside.

And we have to remember that as beings, energetically, we only have capacity to go deep with so many people, but we do need some people to go deep with. And so allowing us to see that in the world and recognize like that's the magnetism that's there. And I stand in my magnetism and embrace and love what comes to it. And I build community there. And I honor that it's very important to me and that this is where my energy goes first, but also loving everybody else beyond that circle in a way where it actually

brings the best out of you. I think that that's a piece that if we need to use the song of self to embrace the world, ask yourself, what about the world and the greater community and the greater tribe brings the best out of me? And how can I love the greater tribe for that? How can I step into that? And that's been a really transformative, pivotal experience for me in this community. Yeah, having those reflection points of the tribe of your second song is so important it's a it's the crucible another crucible of our evolution also in both in some cases in the masculine expression which is competition in the healthy way you know like let's fucking go like like in and there's

the healthy aspect but also then in the intimacy in this in the sharing way of like actually having those moments where you can drop in and see each other truly deeply and and uh i think as it's really i mean we do a lot of incredible things at fit for service but consistently the most life-changing experience is that people feel like holy shit like the second song is alive. There's a whole group of people who are willing to share their truth vulnerably and connect and receive my truth, whatever that is. However shameful I might've been, there's somebody else who's sharing that same shame and receiving it and then aspiring and laughing and willing to grow, go along the journey with me. And I think for so many people, they don't feel that they don't have it in their family. You know, the family doesn't feel like the second song really. I mean, they do. It's almost like an obligatory second

song. Oh, that's my fucking family. But like, it's not the Ohana. It's not like your chosen, your chosen family that allows you to actually grow together and uh and yeah i think that's what fit for services really offered so many people is just an access point to a greater community which from there everybody then forms their inner circle it's like you know concentric rings it's like a little russian nesting doll of like all right now you get access to this amazing group of people all right where's the who is the 30 that you you know say hi to first when you gather and are most and then and then what are the who are the 10 that you invite over for that late night fire fireside chat you know and then who are the three that you invite with you to go

to the beach you know like a fucking two months later or whatever, you know? And so I think that's, it's so essential. And it's been, I think one of the reasons that we've been able to be coaches and facilitate this community is because we have that ourselves, is that we're practicing this all the time. Like the way that we interact and navigate within community has allowed us to actually see because we're we're doing you know ceremonies together we're doing experiences together when we get together it's not you know sometimes it's just you know fuckery and shenanigans and sometimes it's like we're we're showing up and going and crossing the crossing into the void together. So yeah, I mean, the second song is another one of those

absolutely essential crucibles of growth. Yeah, for me, what's been interesting is I see this song as having almost like three layers to it. And the first layer is the family that you were born into and that most of us in Western culture, the dynamics of that family just were not such that we could have made contact with the full expression of ourselves. And then layer two is when you get the opportunity to start to find your chosen family. And it's in that sphere for me where I've been able to deepen my contact with the true unique part of me. And I can feel that like one of the longer like black belt challenges for me is everything that I'm learning in Fit for Service, to be able to embody it in a way where that energy comes back to my family. And that to the degree that they're able to meet me in that space,

I'm just really connecting to everything that I've learned in my chosen family, I'm going to be able to bring to my parents when they start to die. That that's going to be one of the true gifts one of the true fruits of this practice is because there's something about once they start to feel the immediacy of death that i believe opens us up to like all the things with our family that we're not able to make contact with until there's like a pressure on it. And then the third layer of that, and I was talking with Caitlin about this the other day, but like the metaphor of like each of us has a arena that our unique self is calling us into.

And there's this instinct to like, especially people who are kind of like not on their traditional path is to the arena that they're called to, they judge it, you know, and they attack it and they call out how it's trying to help people with mental illness. And I remember when I was doing some research for one of the previous books that you were going to write where we thought that we could write how to master the mind and we got our ass kicked by that, but that I started doing a bunch of research on the history of depression. And it made me so fucking angry to see the non-conspiratorial documented history of the corruption and the lies and how much it's hurt millions of people and i had a dream where i was like in a dark woods and there was this like 50 foot female angel and she was just pointing and she was on fire and she was pointing towards the arena and and the vibe of the dream was that's where you go and that the larger tribe that i feel called to contribute to is like psychotherapy and the attempt to help people with mental disorders. And there's like,

as I learn in this tribe, how to integrate the parts of me that have that disgust response, that will help me be with my family in a way that will start to relax their defenses in a way where they can be more of their true selves as they get closer to death. And it also is teaching me how to arrive in the arena where I'm not just like flipping everyone off and spitting and casting venom. And that there's something about fit for service that I have found that like one of my core wounds with the tribe is that I can't rely on other people because when I was a kid I didn't feel like I could rely on the people that I was supposed to be able to rely on and two that I can trust strangers and that for for me has been, I think,

the most healing part of Fit for Service is I see all styles of people who before they come to an event like what we do, they meet people who completely contradict their expectation of the other tribe that they hate. You know, like if they're just on twitter it's like fuck those people and they meet those people and then they hear them share their stories or they see them weep and breath work and they realize oh i am that too and so what i'm seeing

in the in this layer of the song is it's like the layer in the middle is it's the easiest for me to be with y'all in a way where I can like just be and not feel shame, be and not feel fear, compete and fucking like push against you guys and you guys push back against me where I'm learning how to bring that

back to my family slowly. And then I'm also learning how to bring that back to my family slowly. And then I'm also learning how to bring that to the arena that I feel called to go into. Because one of the things that's really interesting is like, the people that we have the strongest judgment for, especially like when we're on social media, are the people who are called to the same arena as us, but the way they do it or how they got there or that they got there before us or that they have the audacity to be in the arena and say the things. And we're like, they're fucking wrong, but I'm actually not in the arena. They are our, that's our tribe waiting to be made contact with. Like one of the things that's interesting

is if you think about humanity before electricity clouded the sky and we couldn't see the stars, the most magnificent thing every day was the night sky. And it feels like the arena that you're called to is that's the specific constellation that for you is the most bright. Like you don't get to choose which constellation

is the one that just grabs you and that like our quote-unquote haters are the people who look at the same constellation and so i feel that it's like it's a horizon that i can ever grow into but that what i'm learning with you guys is both behind me affecting my family and in front of me affecting the people that if I didn't have this, I'd be hating on them. I'd be sub-tweeting on Twitter or whatever the fucking thing is. And so that's how that song feels for me. There's an interesting part of this, which I'm curious about. And there's, you know, in hearing you talk and just knowing you as a brother, there is a very strong emphasis on your blood family. And many times you referred to this as being kind of a means to the ultimate ends.

And this is reductionist. So it's not exactly what you said, but there is an implication that the purpose of the second song was actually to heal your blood family. So it in some ways created, in my mind, this idea of a significant amount of importance placed on the blood family. And in some ways, that's the traditional orthodox view of family. It's like, it's all family. It's all about family. It's family first, family this. It's like, it's your blood family. But there's also more heretical teachings, which actually I did reference. The Course in Miracles is actually talking about these type of special relationships. And I think they're talking about it in a different way. I think they were talking about it categorically, but Yeshua, it's a quote that

Ted Decker says all the time, to follow my way, you must hate your mother, hate your father, hate your brother, hate your sister. And what he's referring to is that the specialness by label is what is what we what we need to discard right to a certain degree to actually see everybody is as people and i'm curious because i'm i'm definitely i have a fucking awesome relationship with my family it just keeps getting better and and i'm and it is very important to me and i do carve out special time for my family. But it's really now the family that I spend the time with, it's because they've merged into my Ohana. They're my chosen family. I would choose them anyways.

I'd choose my mom to hang out with, whether she was my mom or not. I'd choose my sister Shannon to hang out with, whether she was my sister or not. And even my stepdad now, it's like our relationship is developing in such a way. And it's beautiful that we have this history and this other, this other part, but it's, uh, it's just curious. It's, it's interesting to me. And I think there's a lot of people who have challenging things with their family. And I think, you know, it feels like, um, just kind of a curious question whether you've really actually looked at, wow, am I giving this too much weight?

Is this too important to me? Let's say I spend 30% of my mental power thinking about these people who I might not even be able to change. And the more I chase them, probably the more they're going to run away. And I know you're smart enough not to change. And the more I chase them, probably the more they're going to run away. And I know you're smart enough not to chase. And I know that you have all the technologies and psychic faculties to be able to navigate this in the right way. Yeah. So I just kind of want to open that up because I think it's worth talking about. The quote from Jesus is the one that I think really gets to the core of this. And it's that, because I've read Ted Decker's explanation of what he means by the word hate, and it means to have no regard for. And that there was, to survive our childhood, there was a strategy

that we had to acquire that wasn't the true authentic expression of who we were and that that was dictated by how we thought we ought to be. And what I've learned as an adult is I now know what it feels like in my body in the same way that you know if you're in resonance with Dragonheart. I know when I'm in the resonance of who I am as an adult, who is not placating or trying to be other than what he truly is. And that I can feel the instincts to try to go back to the child that I was. And the truth is that I didn't get an opportunity to really be a child. Like I became a parent in my family very early. And so what is actually for me is that it's not the reason of song two, but a beautiful fruit of song two is that I've cultivated the capacity to be me with my family in a way where I'm not trying to do anything to them. I'm just recognizing, oh, I feel the instinct to go back into this pattern. And I'm just choosing not to.

And in this really interesting way, I'm allowing myself to be their son as opposed to be their coach, which I tried to be at like 14, which is just not the way, everyone. And that the key is that it's not the reason to step into this song, but what I've noticed is that it's a beautiful, sweet fruit that I'm grateful for that comes out of this song, that my family gets the opportunity to experience me without trauma responses towards them. And I can just feel that there's this slow, almost like blossoming.

Because like, imagine having a son who's trying to coach you. You know, it's like, it closes the flower. But what I've been able to do is just like, be me with them. And I can feel that they're like, oh, he's not gonna judge me for eating this way. Or he's not gonna judge me for watching TV. Or he's, you know, and I love it.

Yeah. Yeah, and I think this is a choice point for us all. And I think the reason why I brought this up is, I think we need to become aware that it's still a choice. And like the honor thy mother and father biblical commandment is like, yeah, okay, honor them, but also choose your ahana, like choose who you want to allocate your time and recognize that they're just people. My mom and your mother and your father, they participate in mother and father to whatever degree they actually participate. I mean,

biologically, yes, they donated some DNA and in a moment of lovemaking, created the spark of my body and then nurtured me in certain ways. And there is a reciprocity thing, but there's also the invitation to not necessarily have to include your family in song two. You can, and it's beautiful when you can and when you do. But there's seasons and there's times. And to me, I think the way that I look at song two is it's an earned position, not a given position. Like this is a place that you earn.

And you're always going to be part of song three, which is all people. And we'll get to that. Like you're granted. It doesn't matter who the fuck you are. You know, you could be in San Quentin. You're in song three. It's all people. Klaus Schwab, song three, baby.

Song three. That's it. That's it. You're always in that. But to get into song two, it's earned. And I think there's an interesting relationship with that, with family. And so I think I wanted to mention that just so people have this kind of idea that just take a look. Just take a look at your attachments to family and see how much of it is conditioned from a society that wants you to focus on that no matter what, even if your family was abusive or if they're still abusive. And it doesn't mean everybody just stop talking to your family. I think there is something to the fact that you have a unique access point like you do to your family.

If it's not you, who the fuck is it going to be yeah your unique access point gives you a unique obligation in a certain way to use again gaffney's terminology unique obligation is the recognizing of a need and knowing that you alone can fill that need and that is one of the bonds that we have with our family is like no no it if it's not me it's nobody there's not nobody's going to come with these ideas and get on the inside if it wasn't for the familiarity that we actually have. But it's a very rich and nuanced kind of talk. Yeah, but ultimately it's a choice. It's a choice. And that's, I think, the meta point that I'm trying to make. Where do I want to direct?

Where do I want to direct my energy and not to let the pressures of an external zeitgeist and habituation and what people think influence that. Completely agree. Yeah, this has brought up a ton for me. I love getting to go last. Yeah, it's a good spot. I'll start with the prayer of tribe. But first, I just need to comment on the parent stuff like i think one of the the i completely agree with you godsey and that i have felt as i've leveled up in the game it has allowed me to be more of me around my family and that's been a weight lifted for them yeah

even though i still judge the shit out of them for what they put in their bodies but it's it's made our cohesiveness better and And at the same time, in tandem, full-on kicked them out of Ohana plenty of times. My wife put my mother-in-law on timeout for six months after saying that Bear didn't deserve druggy parents. You know, like, all right, timeout, you're out, we'll talk to you in a while. You know, like, and that hard boundary around them as adults is one of the things that really creates our ability to step into being adults and step into being heard and not treated as a child, even though we're always their children, we'll always be their babies. I'm a 40-year-old man, just like fucking Okie State guy. I'm a fucking man.

I'm 40. Yeah. And I'm a dad. And I'm going to raise my kids the way I want to raise them. And that boundary line has been a beautiful thing because at the end of the day, there is that no regard. Fuck you. You can get fucking 86 like anyone else. You're going to talk to us that way, you're gone. She gone. And then we go back to living our lives and it's a lot more peaceful, right? Because we're not letting in these detractors, vampiric energy from any sort,

no matter who it is, you can be removed. And then with that, oh shit, you appreciate the boundary and you want to be a part of our life and you're willing to not make ridiculous claims like that and actually hear us out that we're not working with witch doctors and it ain't Satan behind it. Cool. You're grandma again. Let's have fun. And I think that's been a big piece for me, but it started for me with Tribe and Song 2 and recognizing the staleness of the friendships that I had growing up. Awesome guys. And I've since reconnected with them in a way where we all make each other laugh

and I can appreciate that without needing anyone to change. And that still stands. But we wanted more. Both Tasha and I wanted fucking Tribe. And we left California. We moved to Vegas where her family was. Had Tasha and I wanted fucking tribe. And we left California, we moved to Vegas where her family was, had a couple homies there from fighting, but it wasn't our tribe. Nobody was doing psychedelics. Nobody was doing the things that we wanted to do. And it was a big prayer both of us had in everyday waking consciousness and in the big journeys that

we really cemented in. Sweat lodges, ayahuasca, psilocybin, like we want our fucking tribe. We want people that are gonna sharpen our swords where we can actually be seen and we can see the other and grow from all of that. And it was pure synchronicity. I told the story at the last fit for service, but all of the things that lined up just perfectly in meeting you and the plane flight home. And then you

offering a job and be getting fired in the airport as I'm flying to fucking Austin for that interview, you know, just so much of that, or I look back and, and, uh, it's undeniable. That is the guidance of the inner knowing that is the North star. And that is, that is my dragon heart, right? You've given it a name and a face. And I think that's beautiful, but it's all, it's the same thing. It's circling back to that. What does my highest self want for me right now? And if I say yes to that, magic's waiting and it's badass.

And in the forming of our tribe, the first guys to exchange beads, starting that as you planted that seed and watching that grow amongst our group has been just layer upon layer of fucking awesome. Building the cake, you know, like throw some German chocolate sauce in there. Like each and every one of those beads has been awesome. And we've been through so much together. We've put ourselves through a lot together, you know, from the heroic journeys to just life itself. And I think that, you know, like one of my favorite quotes from my childhood friend is don't talk about it, be about it. And it really reminds me, as you were pointing to, it's not enough to know we must do, Bruce Lee, right? And so we've done,

we've done the fucking tribe. We know it inside and out. We've solidified our song too. And when we bring that to the larger group of Fit for Service, everyone fucking feels it. Everyone wants in on that. And so the forming of these relationships, it couldn't be any other way. It has to happen by proxy because of what we built together. So that container is everything. And we hear that year after year, you know, how much better in each year it gets better and better too, right? Like we've all felt that there was a period in time where we'd look at each other and say, I hope,

I hope it's as good as the last one. And we'd fucking exceed so far beyond that. It just became laughable. The last summit, I was like, I finally don't wonder. It's the first summit I've ever been to where I didn't wonder if it was going to be better. I knew through my fucking body, this is going to be the best one yet. And it was. And I know through my body next year is going to be the best one we've ever fucking done. Yeah. Wholeheartedly. Amen.

It's astounding. The joy that comes from this level of friendship in this community is, I think it's underappreciated and underindexed in the way that we think about our lives. I think we overindex our romantic partners and underindex our friendships and our brotherhoods and sisterhoods you know and uh i think that's something that when you actually feel it and you understand like yeah i'm not downplaying you know romantic relationships it's obviously super fucking important and we all have relationships like that that we love so much in our central central core, the central unit of the dyad. But these friendships are so powerful and it can really change everything about your life and really gives the color and joy and beauty of life. I think something that just kind of clicked for me, but I've known for a long time is once these relationships are refined and solidified

and recognized and claimed, we become one body doing, you know, we talk about the mission a lot here and this, we have a unique role in the greater mission that's our mission. And that's happening by proxy in resonance, in alignment. And each of us are, you know, we only have so many arms and so much capacity. And so for us, you know, we were best friends before we became coaches. We're best friends through going through the rituals and the rites of passage and the depths with each other and calling each other out and partying together and all these things and learning about life and learning what we knew would be helpful to humanity and stepping into that place in our own personal evolution together where we actually cared to give back to humanity. That's here to do something unique and specific for the world, but it's part of this collective, you know, collaborative experience that we're all in. And in Fit for Service, there are naturally organizing magnetic sub-tribes that come together and those have this different personality. The whole tribe has a personality and a flavor and there's something really empowering and relaxing about magnetizing that field. And so when we go into a bigger group,

like 200, 250 people, it's like we're all in our dharma flowing, feeling each other in the field, winking, smiling, rubbing each other's back, getting each other what we need, helping us each be the arm that we're supposed to be and exalting that frequency. And we're different, but we're doing the same thing together. And that there's something, that's the way that the unique self has more power to do what it's here to do is with those other arms of other people in the same body. Bottomless Voltron.

Yeah, perfect. Yeah, I mean, we now have a name and a face for our being. It reminds me of Gaffney's model of relationship in general, which I'll just summarize here quickly, but he has this idea of rolemate, soulmate, wholemate. And rolemate is the idea that we're each doing our own part for the good of the tribe. We each do our own thing. You will have this role that we'll fill and we'll divide up, you know, the tasks and we'll go handle it.

You know, that's obviously the basic part of a relationship and things that we do for each other, things that we do, you know. And then there's soulmate, which is those moments where we sit down together and drop in deeply and just like open ourselves entirely, looking straight at one person,

you know, which we've all done with each of us at those moments where we just drop in and see it all. And the rest of the world just drops away and there's nothing to do but give and receive the full truth and transparency of who we are. It's the soulmate. And then the wholemate is when we turn our gaze from looking at each other right in the eye and in and each level is included in transcendence so role mates included and transcended and soulmate included and transcended into whole mate where we're both locking arm and arm or hand in hand and facing a shared horizon together and in that facing of a shared horizon that's the culmination in the and also the full model of what you know what a relationship can ultimately be is all of those different things the different

roles the ability to drop in and see each other deeply i see you like an avatar and then the other one which is like all right what is our shared horizon that we're facing? And that's something that, you know, I think one of the reasons why our Ohana is so strong is we have all of those different levels and they're all distinct and they're all, you know, included in what we share together. There was a eminent psychologist that I was watching a lecture on. He was a family psychologist and he said something that just really stirred me. And he's like, we're so fragmented in our culture with our family that we don't recognize that the truth of the human organism is that its fundamental unit is as a quote unquoteunquote family and that there's no

such thing as an individual human when it like he was looking at it from the lens of like the level of emergence where a human is the most in its in all four songs at once is when it starts to connect with other humans, like the organs of a single body. And that what I've experienced is that when we're at these events and we're in our whole mates with each other, we can go like 10 hours and not talk to each other, but we feel like we're as a group

and we are just in a type of flow where maybe at the end of our lives we can count at least one day per event where we're like oh i think we got like 40 under our belt oh yeah wow and that it's the function of it is as a group, we feel we are of service to each level in a way where there's no trying. And I have found that like they're the best experiences of my life. And that it's actively just being in service in a type of jazz way, where like when I first started as a coach, I had so much fear about like, I don't deserve to be here.

And then I would write, like I remember the first time I did a workshop, I wrote out my workshop for like a month. And... Rewrote it. Yeah then it's it's like i've i've learned that like that was my worst gift because i was trying to stay inside of my mind in a way that i prepared in fear and what i've learned especially like you give us permission to do this which is trust yourself trust that you know and trust that you know how to listen.

And that if you listen in the moment, you will have the most honest, useful healing reflection. Yeah, that's the problem with the preparation of anything that you're going to say or share or do. It's like, yeah, it's good to be prepared, but prepared in a kind of holistic way where you're prepared for anything. And you can have an idea and a plan, but if you prepare too much, then it's like you're knowing what you're going to say in a conversation before you hear what everybody else has to say and what they're speaking in the silence of their presence.

You can actually listen. And I think that's the key. Yeah, exactly. It's like, if you know what you're going to say, God has not entered into the dance. Yeah. I think that, you know, anytime I'm giving a speech, like one of the most important things I do is I get out and even if I'm on the side of the stage, I'll go feel the crowd for as long as i can and ideally walk through the crowd and and just kind of know like where it's at feel the energy understand the collective feel like where everybody's at and there's this kind of this i'm being informed in ways that i can't even describe there's no way i could actually well i felt a little of this as soon as i condense it to words it's actually

not real i'm trying to symbolize something that I'm actually sensing and feeling and I think that's yeah that's part of the magic of it it's part of the magic of any conversation it's the listening component I learned yesterday that Charles Bukowski's grave just says don't try

period I was like I don't know if he's like you know someone to super aspire to, but I thought about that this morning. It feels like it's being reflected right now. And I think something, you know, we've already dropped into this, but it leads to the next thing. And that's when you're in a bigger arena, the greater arena, feeling comfortable in yourself is something that having that first level of tribe has given me that's for

sure because if i feel like i'm in the room with my family i'm not trying i'm just being myself and whatever that my genius is in being is going to emerge but if you're in an arena where you feel like you're in a group of strangers that mechanism and you know tendency towards trying is definitely stronger. Yeah, and also the fear that if you don't show up, it's all going to fall apart, right? Like there was a summit where you got sick day one and were like stuck in your room. And it was like, no, no worries, Casey, we got you. And y'all, I went through initiation because all the fears of like,

well, am I still part of the tribe if I'm not serving? Am I safe here? What if they don't need me? And that's where the ohana comes in and says, no, no, we got you. Like, whatever you are going, we'll just pick up the slack and we'll keep going. And even if in this, you know, in the worst cataclysmic event of you know you're a transition it's like no no we'll pick up the work we'll pick up the work where where you left off and we'll do our best to sing your song in your absence you know and that's even for me it's been something really cool that's

developed over this last year is my trust in you guys like i used to get really i would get really nervous before an event that i was going to get sick because i felt like the burden of kind of like holding the leadership role of the of the summits and i would actually psychosomatically convince myself that i was sick and through this past year all of that phenomenon has dropped away because it was like and i think it was actually a moment in arcadia where i invited you guys to actually like close one of the big days and just watching how you guys navigated. It was like, no, it's cool. And so I'm not even afraid.

I mean, it's not my preference, but I'm not afraid. I know that even if I fall, it goes on. And that's the beauty of the Ohana. Well, let's move on into, I think I'm going to combine songs three and four because they're about, and you'll hear them in a second, but it's about the totality of all humanity and also the cosmos. And I think the relationship is distinct and each of those need to be treated as individual songs, but also we can talk about them holistically. Yep. Song three and song four. And there is a one who widens his soul even further until it expands and spreads beyond the boundary of tribe to sing the song of humanity.

His soul is continuously enlarged by the genius of humankind and the glory of this divine image. He aspires towards man's universal purpose and anticipates his higher holification. And from this living source does he draw the entirety of his thoughts and explorations, his aspirations and his visions. And there is a one who rises even further than this in expansion, until she joins herself in unity with all of existence in its totality, with all creatures and with all worlds. And together with all of them, she gives forth song.

And this is the one who engages daily in a chapter of song, who is promised that she lives in the emergent world. So the third song, the song of all humankind, of the human condition. And of course, this is deeply related to the song of the cosmos, but distinct because there's the human song. And if we don't pay attention to the human song, we will actually ostensibly destroy so much more of at least the cosmos that we have access to. Now, I don't want to put limitations on the earth as the definition of cosmos because there's obviously the unmanifest cosmos and there's

also the cosmos that extends beyond earth. Now, we all have very different beliefs that we don't know that much about. Matthias probably has, Matthias DiStefano has more beliefs about what that cosmos might be. And I think we all agree with a lot of his ideas and we've explored these non-physical realms and dimensions to understand this. But really what the invitation of song three and song four is, is to say, all right, now that we've locked in songs one and two, and this is a constant process of evolution. This is something that we'll always be continuing to go back to sing these songs. How do we sing the song of all humankind? And how do we sing the song of all of cosmos, which oftentimes looks like the very same song? Sometimes can be different, but the link between those is very, very strong. And I think the invitation is how do we show up? How do we

show up in the world? And how do we show up in humanity? And we're at a very interesting time for this where things have gotten far more polarized and tribal, and there's a lot to stand for. And I think it becomes an interesting, tricky spot when standing for becomes standing against, because sometimes part of standing for is saying no. There is the sacred divine aspect of the boundary of saying no like no like we do not accept this which ostensibly appears like against but it's a very important distinction i think to to understand that it's ultimately a stand for and to understand what we're standing for more than anything and uh and this is the this is the place that we find ourselves in and actually i'd like to go to to you first kyle on this one because you know i think what i've really seen

from you is is the is the grappling with this particular this particular concept having some of the strongest feelings of what you're standing for, and also some of the strongest like, no, like hell no, like we don't stand for this, or I don't stand for this in how you live. So when you're looking out at the world now at this particular time and singing the third song and the fourth song, and feel free to draw distinctions between those. But, you know, what has been, what's really alive for you in this moment? You know, we don't need to do like the full history of what happened from 20 to 21 to 22 to into 23, but like a now, like what's alive for you now in singing these songs? Well, for me, part of the biggest alchemy that I've had in the last year, which sums up 2020, 21, and 2022 is a lot of help from Charles Eisenstein in not seeing some demonic figure

twisting his mustache, ruling over the few, ruling over the many, the few ruling over the many. And really, with that, if that player's off the board, what are we actually playing? And it's been a search for a deeper truth of what does the game board look like? What are we asking each other to do? Is greed driving it? Sure. Is power driving it? Sure. Is any of these things that are not serving the highest good behind it? Cool. What now? Like if that's the case, fine, but how do I let that affect me? And does that affect my vision of the all of humanity? And a lot of my alchemy in the last two and a half years is restoring my love for all people and recognizing through Charles writing

that even a guy like Bill Gates is thinking of his family. Even a Klaus Schwab is thinking of, of the seeds he wants to plant for a better world through his mind, you know, and really releasing the idea of an evil force that's out to get us, you know, and like putting that to bed so I can restore my vision of humanity and love all humans. Because every human I've ever met, I have no fucking enemies. They're all awesome people. I might disagree with them on certain things, but it doesn't make me think of them as a bad person or somebody who's flawed and somebody who can't be fixed or somebody who even has shit to fix. They just see the world through their eyes and I see the world through my eyes.

And through Gaffney's work, circling to that homemade, like really, if we found our tribe, which we have, and people keep being drawn to us in the exact moment they need to be drawn to us and trusting in that, trusting that the right people come in exactly the right moment and those bonds form in exactly the right time, what is the shared horizon?

Because I know my people and I know we're looking the same direction. Are we seeing the game the way that it is? And that's been a big piece for me in first deciphering what is that actually look like? What are the things that we need to worry about, right? We've got all the existential crisis in the world. We've homies with Daniel Schmachtenberger, Gaffney's in tight with them. People that have really spent far longer researching these things and really studying

and poking holes in it and saying, what's the real thing to worry about here, right? Like Gaffney said, he's like, climate's number 10 on the list of 10. There's nine things higher than that that we should be paying attention to equally, if not more so, that are a problem. And when we really factor that in, especially having kids, it's kind of like, holy shit, you know, like that's the fucking, the time is now. Hamilton Souther, as you said that to him, that wake up call that's happened for myself and for yourself and for so many of us has been, you know, that all of life has been training us for this moment. And if we stand arm in arm, can we do it? And the answer is yes. Fuck yes. Because humanity is brilliant.

And if I trust that the all of humanity in that third song is good and means well, then I know it's just a matter of communication and agreeing on what is the game that we wish to create going forward. What horizon do we see and what horizon can we collectively build together that is truly building back better and not just some fucking slogan from a president that can't pronounce words, right? But like, let's do the damn thing correctly and in a way that leaves it more whole than when we started and makes truly the more beautiful world that we know it's possible. That's the alchemy that I've had around the third song.

The fourth song for me is really, you know, as above, so below. And it starts with self, but it also starts with the ground and the soil and the plants. And it's been, it's been such a draw for me to learn this stuff. But then now, thanks to you having this farm with you, where we actually get our hands in the fucking dirt, we put plants in the ground and I can watch it like an infant growing and it needs a lot of care, just like an infant right now. But soon, it's going to be standing on its own, creating on its own and so robust and fruitful that we

can actually recreate the Garden of Eden. And I think of that from a cosmic level. I told this story in Sedona too, the planting of bamboo in my backyard for my wife's birthday and a bunch of trees. And I was thinking about how awesome it is that bamboo pumps out a ton of oxygen and just clears out VOCs and make this really clean air. And then the anti-Kyle came in and kind of laughed like, no dummy, you put fucking four bunches of bamboo in the ground. Think of the fucking size of the earth. This does nothing. And then I remembered Charles and I remembered my own alchemy on ayahuasca, like any act for the good of the all, however small, is felt through the totality of consciousness.

And the second I tapped back into that visceral memory, a hawk circling overhead, just fucking with the loud scream. And I was like, oh, fuck, there it is. And I looked up and obviously I'm emotional right now. I'm just tears flooded because of that knowing the thoughts that we have that, what can I possibly do? You know, it's not enough. How much, how much of an MCAT can I make? It's not enough. That's all bullshit. That's all the anti version of ourselves saying, eh, don't worry about playing the game. Stay out of the arena. You can't do shit anyways. And it's utter nonsense. When we understand that the gift we have is one in which if we devote ourselves to service and we serve for the good of all, that it does make an impact. And however small that impact is, it ripples through the

totality of consciousness. And that's been my fourth song beautiful and uh i think it's charles it says to to know that each of our acts has cosmic significance and uh and not to get lost in the fallacy of you know scale which is basically under this idea that does it scale you know well when we actually start to include the fourth song in the third song we understand that as we evolve and that is this contribution to humanity by actually contributing to the cosmos to the collective unconscious of of all of totality. And it's so beautiful to remember that and actually frees us and liberates us

and kind of takes the ammunition away from our opponent. Like you said, that will try to paralyze us by saying, oh, it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter what you do. That bamboo doesn't matter. So don't even fucking worry about it. You know, like doing this thing doesn't matter it doesn't matter what you do that bamboo doesn't matter so don't even fucking worry about it you know like doing this this thing doesn't really matter like you're just one person there's eight billion people and and that is absolutely one of the tactics of the opponent to try and prevent us from you know actually stepping up and really serving the whole.

And so, yeah, absolutely, man. Really beautifully, beautifully said. A bunch of things came up from Kyle's share. Kyle, that was beautiful. And you're so good at helping give me permission to be vulnerable. And I really think that's one of your superpowers. Like you can kill all of us in this room and you're the quickest to genuine tears. And I like just thank you for that example

because that's something that I didn't get. Kyle's why people made swords. These arms aren't going to work. And then eventually the swords didn't work because there was like a mountain motherfucker and it was like, damn, then they made spears. Like, ah, spears. And then like, fuck that. They're too good made spears like ah spears and then i'd fuck that

they're too good with spears guns all they needed was to cry all they needed was to cry yes um the frame that has really helped me for both understanding the third and the fourth song comes from uh james carse's book called finite and infinite games and the Fourth Song comes from James Kars' book called Finite and Infinite Games. And the idea is that life is a game. Every behavior you do is a subcomponent of a game. And there's two types of games. There's finite games and there's infinite games. Finite games are played by players to be brought to an end so that there can be a winner and a loser title.

He goes into like history is actually made up of a sequential unfolding of finite games that produces presidents. Even the way that we do law is as a finite game where it produces like a winner and a loser. But within all finite games, both within it and containing it, is a single infinite game. And the book is kind of this like Tao Te Ching type of like winking at like, what is the

infinite game? And a really good example for me is like any sport that you're playing, most of us, most of the time, see it as a finite game. But the sport itself, the game itself, you are all cooperating as to the rules of the game. That the only way that the competition can happen is that there's a implicit agreement to cooperate. And that there's like a way to play a sport where if you get lost in the finite game you actually injure the integrity of the infinite game so that would be like a cheater you know like if i can get away with cheating because it's all about winning

i'll do it but it it wounds the integrity of the infinite game and there's a way to lose the finite game in a way that it actually enhances the health of the infinite game. So that's like, you know, if you drew a charge and it should have been a charge and instead of you freaking out at the ref and like getting ejected, you just accept that you didn't get that call. And like everyone who witnesses it is like there's a little bit more God in them, or at least I choose to believe that. Most of us, what I see, the way that we interact with anyone who doesn't feel like they're a part of our tribe is we have forgotten how to play the infinite game. And we're willing to do anything to win the finite game, even if it wounds the integrity of the infinite game. You can just go online and see how people interact with each other.

And it's like, there is so much vitriol and poison and venom and pain and unprocessed trauma coming out as judgment and cancel culture and attacking where it's like the zeitgeist body of humanity is being poisoned it's like what factories were to the environment is what social media is to the zeitgeist where we've developed a tool where we can just pump pollution into the game of humanity. And it really feels like, at least for me, the way that I show up to song three is first, don't participate in the pollution.

But then two, the regenerative healing of the zeitgeist is to be an artist it's it's to actually be who you are because everyone's unique self if they weren't impinged on by shame and trauma is they would express and their expression is art and that like no one in the flow of their art is in anyone's comments on Instagram hating. Full stop, period. And that I'm trying to create art that inspires the artists to create art. And then also I'm trying to create art that actually calls out, like, when people are not in the artist and they're in the pollution. Fundamentally, because I want my kids' kids to have a planet. Fundamentally, it's not about what is happening now.

It's about how can we play the game now so that our great-grandchildren get the opportunity to play the game. And so that's the frame that I've been using to contribute to song three. And for song four, song four is in each of the songs for me. And Kyle nailed it on the head. Song four is your relationship to God. Like whatever the big thing is,

and I've had such like this sense of like betrayal with God for so long. Like this, like, I don't know what it was about being a kid where I was like pissed off at God because I felt like I was put into this life forever and that I didn't get to choose. And we've worked on that and we've talked about it and it's great.

And that's great. But that I'm at a point now where those synchronicity moments feels like it's the divine parent who has never flinched at my tantrums, giggling and being like, yes, yes. And that the essence of a synchronicity, I think is captured perfectly in Kyle's story

where it's like something internally is happening for you that is so in tune with something that just happened in the external world that you don't even get a chance to critique it. It's just this, it's like a violin that got the just right string vibrating and it just pours through you. And it often comes out as either laughter or tears. And I think that that's an interesting thing about the human condition

that we don't need to go on a tangent about. But that my fourth song has been allowing the tantruming child who feels like he was betrayed to remember the fundamental goodness that feels like permeates the whole fucking thing. And that it's giggling when you're in resonance with the other songs. And it feels like the most heretical thing that I could possibly believe that I can feel that the fourth song is helping me have the courage to say is that I believe that humans are fundamentally good in such a profound way that most of the things that we feel like we have to do aren't true. And that if we were able to be a tuned enough instrument that we could inspire the tuneness of the person in front of us. You know, it's like the joke you made, like the swords are not needed and that

it, there's this thing that happens when you start to talk about like the fundamental goodness of humans, where people who think that they're well-informed and smart are like, well, what about X? We're going to need to, you know, have to confront, like if someone breaks into your home and there is absolutely a place for practicality where, you know, I can just admit, okay, I'm not Yeshua. If someone breaks into my home, I'm going to do what I have to do to protect my kids. But I can feel that through the fourth song, I'm at least being able to hold the vision of what if there is a state of human consciousness and expression that trumps all of that.

And that the fundamental nature of human is good because the fundamental nature of the fourth song is actually good. That for most of my life, it's either there's no song there or it's actually like evil and some super trying to write a horror movie to my own psyche type of way and kyle knows what the fuck i'm talking about we've been there but i can feel that the fourth song has been unfolding for me in a way where I can believe if the totality is actually good because we are of that. We are too. And to close this, there is a Buddhist story from Jack Kornfield that I read the other day that really just felt like such a beautiful highlight of everything I just shared.

And it's that imagine that you're walking with a bunch of groceries in your hand and someone hits you really hard on the shoulder. All your shit falls, your juice spills, the food that you got broke out of the package. And you go to turn to be like, what the fuck? Are you blind? And you see that the other person fell over, is sprawled, their groceries just broke, and they are blind. The instinct that we would all have is we would instantly go from rage to,

oh my God, how can I help you? And that what Jack Kornfield was saying is all of the hurts that we do to each other is because we are that. We are stressed and we are blind. Well said. Wow. So much came up for me with both of you guys sharing. I have this, one of the most beautiful moments of my year was at our first mini festival before we did Arcadia. We had a mini festival in Austin

called Anima. And for my whole life, anytime I would pray pray I would ask for help with something I would ask for something I would say like please help this person please help you know please make anything that I'm uncomfortable with get more comfortable get better help me find my way. That was my relationship to God. And I also, in time, matured and learned to include gratitude and expand my prayers. But the pivotal moment that happened there was we were winding down on the last night. And we had an altar built in the barn. This is where we'll have our summit again for the first summit next year here at the farm in Lockhart. And someone on the team said, we got to go tell people to leave. Like, it's time to go.

And Eric's great at this. And it really helps our event team out. Get on the mic and be like, talk to people until they leave. And there's a place for that for sure. But for some reason that night, I just felt like I trust them to leave. I trust them to leave. And so I went in and I just sat with them

and we talked about the weekend and we shared things. And we did a collective kind of prayer and toned with our voices. And then I said, you know, I'm going to go to bed. I trust you guys to leave when you're ready. And I talked about radical trust and how I had the sense that when you trust people, they can suddenly be trusted. And you give the attunement to the field that's available there by your radical trust in your environment. It actually changes people. I believe that. I felt it. I saw it that night. I've seen it ever since. And after I shared about radical trust,

one of the members came up to me on his egg, which we did egg prayers, which I guided that day, he'd written radical trust. He's now a member of our team, Matt Levine. I turned around to the altar and I kneeled to pray. And for the first time in my life, all that came out was, I'm going to help save the world. And I just said it to God. It just came through me. I feel so much energy in my body saying this because it felt like this year was the year that I arrived in that third song and the fourth song, which was that it suddenly feeling the magic of what we are participating in and cannot be extricated from came so vividly to life for me that it became my reason for everything that I do. And that called forth a new benevolent power in me that is responsibility to everything. That is, if I show up in love, in trust, I can actually change the frequency

in a way that is propagated throughout all of humanity in due time. There's nothing that happens on the web of life that doesn't have a ripple effect that continues eternally. And I could feel that so wholly in my body. And that was a pivotal point for me where I've started to notice like just my the

love that is actually there and i think we forget the love that is actually there when we we have so much access to information and news and there are daily atrocities that break our hearts and annihilate our our faith and um we cannot we cannot make sense of and justify with the sense of God and love that we also know. But they outrage us because there's love for everyone. We wouldn't feel that fire in our bodies if the love wasn't there. So rather than having the attention fixated on the outrage, can we attune and reorient to the love that is the source of the outrage? Can we nurture that and celebrate it and talk about it and help people recognize that it's there? And when you reorient there and just one other person reorienting, one other person reorienting, we wake up to the fact that we are all connected

and we do deeply care about one another. And we want this beautiful game that we are playing and to continue. And something that I feel like, in addition to just really feeling passionate about that right now, especially after my experiences this year, particularly in this community,

particularly at Arcadia, where we've through this festival where it was like against all odds, all the money spent, all the disasters you can imagine, and it comes together and you're like, this is glorious. Like the faith, the restoration of the faith

and the beautiful anguish that allows faith to even be a thing because we wouldn't even get to experience that if we weren't forgetting all the time that maybe it's totally, absolutely real and true. There's just a beautiful, such a rich, beautiful life experience that we get to have in this duality and it's much more than duality in this full spectrum experience um but i something i've been really wanting to to help other people see at this point in my life because i've gotten to this place in my life is i'm almost 40 years old i didn't have this aha moment in my body where it became about the rest of humanity and every plant and every animal and everything that will happen after my lifetime until, you know, this year when I was 39 years old. And I hear a lot of people, you know, in coaching experiences and in friendships that feel this, they're really lost for their dharma. They want to have a glory, this sense of a glorious role that feels like I've done,

and we can see it in social media. Social media is also this pumping machine for medicine too. It's like both. It's like how much can we generate on a mass scale? But setting that aside, it can create this crippling despair that feels like, oh, this person's doing this huge thing and they have this huge following and they're so successful and my dharma's got to look like that. Like when I'm in my dharma, it will be like that and it will have that many followers and et cetera, et cetera, et cetera. But from this place in my

life, I can now look back on the perfection of my role at a given time at every step of my life's journey. And I see it in everyone doing their unique part. Somebody washing the windows, somebody doing the landscaping, somebody tending the electrical systems of our cities and stuff. And we need each other. And there is not really a role that is more glorious because they're also essential. And that all is born of being in that, recognizing like when you look at an ecosystem and you have the soil and you have the bugs that nobody ever even sees that propagate the health of the soil and actually generate all of the life that bursts through the surface

and everything that ultimately becomes beauty in the flower or the giant oak tree that makes you stop and go, wow. There's so many roles here that we as human beings, we get to because of our consciousness level and our capacity for free will and choice and because of our longings for more, and because of our hindrances, because of our traumas. We get to actually experience ourselves in so many different roles in the ecosystem of this planet that there's almost this heavy tragedy when I hear the person that I've always been, When I hear myself and other people saying, I'm not there yet.

I want to find my way. I want to find my role. And so many people get stuck in depression and even suicide and self-destruction because they feel that longing. And there needs to be, we need to exalt the ecosystem as a whole with every role being essential

so people can celebrate the perfect way that they're serving in a given time with their particular set of skills and level awareness at that moment, knowing that it's always evolving and that there's always more. To celebrate that and to trust, and I just want to say to everyone,

keep going, keep living. Don't kill yourself. Don't give up because one day the dawn of your life will happen and you'll suddenly realize how connected you are to everything and how perfect everything you did and every time you hurt and everyone you touched and every smile you gave, even if it was in a coffee shop or at five o'clock in the morning and on the casino floor, it all mattered. And it brought you there. And your life will be different from then on forever. And they want every human being to get to that point in their life where they just taste it. So's how i feel man you guys are really on fire yeah a few things that uh that was beautiful kate's and and a few things that i think are worth

double clicking on uh the idea that we wouldn't have outrage if we didn't actually know deep in our body that there was the good like it's if this was a fucked up world you know organized by a demon why would we be outraged at anybody acting in a in a demonic antithetical way to life and be like oh yeah it's just the way it is we would expect it but we actually know that the cosmos is good we know it and as much as we can try to convince ourselves otherwise like we know that there's a fundamental goodness that's why an atrocity is an atrocity not an expectation you know it's that we know that that this is yeah when something's not as it's supposed to be we know

it you know we actually know because there is a supposed to be and there is a supposed to be and there is a there is first values and first principles as gaffney would say and a big part of my last year's study and work with gaffney has been on the superstructure of what are the first values and principles of cosmos and for him he condenses a lot of them in eros you know and eros is like the dao but it's a it's just a warmer you know lineage interpretation of that's a good word to use yeah it's warmer than the dao and it's and it's like interpretation of the Tao. That's a good word to use, yeah. It's warmer than the Tao. And it's like it's the law that's underneath all things.

And so knowing that I'm playing a significant part of the role in helping to build and share and actually hold this new superstructure, this new story for a new humanity in response to the metacrisis like it's been a deeply empowering moment that's actually seems to be fulfilling this inner known prophecy i had of like no i'm here for something i'm here for something important but as you're saying kate's everybody's here for something important And we fall into a trap when we start to measure our importance. And this is one of the slippery, slippery slopes of social media is everything is compared. You're comparing likes and you're comparing comments and you're comparing following and you're comparing yourself at all times, which is then undervaluing what you really are contributing. And imagine if every creature in the ecosystem, every creature in the jungle wanted to be a lion

and all of a sudden they had genie powers and they could all be lions and everybody's, well, I'd be fucked up. All the lions would start fighting each other. The whole thing would devolve immediately. So there's deep wisdom in understanding that we're each playing our own sacred instrument and to not try to measure the audibles of the instrument because that's false.

We're in the trap at that point. And social media, unfortunately, lays those traps for us in a very tricky way where it's kind of hijacking our song to feeling like this is my tribe and hijack song one because our identity is wrapped up in our social media. So when our identity gets attacked, actually we feel the diminishment of ourself. If we post something and people come at us, like all of a sudden our own power meter like drops down, our life force vitality starts to drop down. And these are the traps that you can fall into. And I think also the impetus for a move you make was like, fuck this, I'm done with it. And something that's been alive for me is to just really rethink about the social media itself as just an instrument. And it's an instrument that you play your note through and you play your note and your note's

going to find some people. And there's some people that it's going to strike a chord within them, just like if you have a tuning fork on a bone that has a fracture. The fracture in the bone is going to hurt. And in that moment, they're going to lash out. But it doesn't mean you should stop playing your instrument because you've hit a few fractures and a few bones that's causing people to go, you're just playing your instrument. And if you know that the intention of you playing that

instrument comes, the breath that you're actually blowing into the flute of your social media is a breath of love. And it's okay if it makes people aware of what's hurting and some of that attack comes back your way. And I think we're actually in a time now where I think all of us felt like if we said the wrong thing, like the whole world was gonna collapse. And there was this kind of game that was being played where cancel culture, all of these different things felt like they could actually,

and there are some places of leverage where it can actually hurt your ability to earn money. I understand that there's some real aspects of that, but ultimately, you know, we can just play the instrument of who we are and just allow it to hit the pain points and receive that and then train ourselves on how to respond in a different way. And you talked again about responsibility. And like, I think one of our key responsibilities, and this goes to what you were saying, Eric, one of our key responsibilities is to hone our response ability, right? Like our ability to respond when we're attacked, our ability to respond also when we're praised.

It's so easy to fall into another trap of inflation where we're taking the praise and adulation and then allowing ourselves to have this inflated idea of who we are and then with the rise comes the fall, of course, as soon as we subject ourself. And that's when we're getting played by social media rather than playing the instrument. The instrument's actually playing us and it's blowing that hot air back into our body rather than us just blowing through it. And I think that's been something that's been really kind of healing for me

to just understand like, no, my job is to play the instrument, play it with love and play it with truth. And there's going to be attempts to blow air and poison darts back through the backflow of the flute. But it's my choice as to whether I allow that to be there if I just take my mouth off the flute and just let it pass right by me, you know,

and just play my note and then retire from that moment. And I think that's really what, you know, what is alive for me is just building this superstructure of shared values as a context for our diversity and a context for all the paths that we can follow, the one mountain, many paths kind of concept. And then also getting more comfortable with just singing my song, singing my song and trusting that that's all that we can do. And there is a place at the table, there's a seat at the table for strategy,

and I honor that. But there's also such stress that comes with trying to be strategic, trying to figure out like, should I, or shouldn't I? And there's a real freedom in actually just saying, no, I'm going to speak from my heart and let it be what it may. And that's the freedom that I'm kind of invoking in this time. It's just the freedom to sing my song and speak my truth and um and step back a little bit from strategy with a greater faith greater faith that the eros will hold the dow will hold you know that the that you know not to be still learn and still consider everything but but just trust just a deeper deeper trust yeah i had a um i feel weird

to say vision but i had basically uh inner image that was very strong that uh because a lot of people will use vision as a personification of my ego's desire but I want to put spiritual energy into it. So you do what I want you to do. But I had a strong inner image where the ultimate symbolic act of service was a traveling orchestra that each day listened to where the earth wanted them to go to sing. And every day they got into a place where they sung as if this song is what's going to help save the world right now. But the vision that I saw is like they were just in like a shitty part of Barton Springs. Like it wasn't nice. There was trash on the ground. There was no audience. But they sung it for't nice. There was trash on the ground. There was no audience. But they sung it for song four.

And that there's something about music that it's like, it's the closest human activity that gets to the nature of God. Like it's the one thing that we can do. That's like the closest to whatever this thing is. And I think that's why it's the songs of you know this great teacher that's the metaphor that he used which by the way just the wisdom in this and that it's over a thousand years old is absolutely incredible and i think if you could somehow merge ecosystem with orchestra like it's it's the producing of the group song yeah and that's a that's a great segue to

the final the final harmony the orchestra and there is a one who rises with all these songs together in one unity, and all of them send forth their voices. All together they play their melodies, and each pour vigor and life into the other, the sound of jubilance and the sound of joy, the sound of celebration and the sound of exultance, the sound of rejoicing, and the sound of holiness. The song of the soul, the song of the tribe, the song of humankind, the song of the cosmos, all flow together within him all the time at every moment. And this completeness in its fullness rises to become the song of holiness. A simple song, a double song, a threefold song, a fourfold song. The song of the songs of Solomon to the king to whom wholeness belongs.

Long live the king to whom wholeness belongs. Long live the king. Long live the king and long live the queen. And it all circles back in the journey. The journey is an infinite spiral of singing all the songs together and all of these songs together. Then here we are at the end informing a little bit more about the first song, about the inner king and the inner queen, about Dragonheart, and then every path along the spiral, every time we circle a little bit more.

And this is evolution. 100%. And that's what we're here for, to be on the bleeding edge of the evolution of, of ourselves, of our tribe, of humankind, of the cosmos. And I'm just, you know,

it's my, one of my life's great, great honors to be able to serve through fit for service and through our life in totality with all of you. And, and to call you guys, my family. Hallelujah.

Hallelujah. Hallelujah. Hallelujah. Hallelujah indeed. Yeah. And, you know, for those of you who are listening and want to be a part of this journey with us, it's a year-long program this coming year. And just trust yourself, you know. Go to the applications at fitforservice.com. Share your heart and trust your guidance. And we trust you. We trust you to listen to the voices inside'd love to see you and and also just so everybody knows like if you listen to it and you're like wrong whisper you know it's the wrong thing like you can come and learn from us for three months and come to our you know event in austin and

experience the tribe experience all of us experience all the amazing coaches and and teachers that we have that we're bringing in, which are fucking unbelievable next year. I mean, Peter Crone and John Churchill and everybody, Layla Martin and Kelly Brogan and McCodd and it's like, and Matthias DeStefano and Robert Edward Grand and like so many fucking unbelievable humans that are coming through this. And, but if you're not into into it then we'll just give you all your money back and send you away with love not with rancor with bitterness you know it's yeah

this is um and the reason we offer that is that there are people who have the whisper who know they're meant to come and they have weird stories about money and they're afraid and it's like we made that for you guys. Yeah, we're not trying to trick you. Radical trust, baby. That's it. It works. Yeah, it's going to be a hell of a year. It's going to be a hell of a year.

It's been a hell of a year and it's going to keep being a hell of a year and every year after that's going to be a hell of a year. Best year ever. Best year ever. Every year. Hallelujah. Ascending spiral

yeah we're dancing on it yeah this feels like this will be the convergence like we've been through four years of this program now it's kind of like a graduation

and synthesis of what is the best of everything that we've done knowing it's going to get better and that's what we're bringing to this year and I love this community so

much i just gotta say anyone who's worked with me knows how much i i wholeheartedly love and um and i'm just really genuinely excited to see who shows up and who we yeah it's one of the most exciting parts it's like first day of school energy you know that first that first call you know we're all looking on it and like oh wow And then the first time we get together in person. We all have part of our own Ohana that have come through Fit for Service. I mean, people in this room now who are behind the cameras and behind the scenes who've come through Fit for Service. People who are over at our house and doing ceremony and people we link with all over the world and it's it's uh the network interweaves itself and us and them and and the connections that everybody's formed it's it's

just a it's a beautiful thing you know and and when even sometimes it's like does it make sense from a allocation of resources and the income obviously you know it was it was a we went into a donation model and it was a highly uh highly monetarily uh disadvantageous venture last year you know we the as a business we lost quite a bit of money but there was no hesitation it was like was it worth it fuck yeah it was worth it you know are we gonna keep going are we gonna keep going to keep going? Yeah. That's not a question. We really believe in this. We believe that the ability to actually build the self, the tribe, and then the orientation towards all humanity and all the cosmos is essential for this new story. And this is the place where we actually get to practice it and get to share these practices so it can ripple out into all the fractals of everybody doing that with their own communities. Yeah.

That's the game. Faith serves to get you to that point in which you know. And I feel like these past few years has been the whispers of knowing and the promise of faith. And now we know. Yeah. No faith needed. And now we know. Yeah. No faith needed. Amen. We know that this is worth doing

and we are going to do it. And I hope you guys come back and do it with us. It's going to be great. Indeed. We love you guys. Love, love, love. See you next week you