Leah on the Line - 142: I'm dating a man but I think he's still with his WIFE! (Season finale)

Episode Date: March 25, 2025

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Here's a show that we recommend. So let me start us out. I love hearing from God. Sean Bowles has been a celebrated and trusted prophet for decades. God said that you are being given to your boyfriend. But did he have everyone fooled? There's pretty much no way to make any other conclusion than he was data mining. Season 6 of Heaven Bent, the smartphone prophet. Listen wherever you get your podcasts. their podcasts everywhere. Acast.com. Hello. Hey, hey everyone. Welcome back. Welcome back to a brand new episode of Leer on the Line. Happy Tuesday! How are ya? I bet some of you were worried that you might not see me today.

Some of you thought, that bitch better not just fucking disappear off the face of the earth after that bomb she dropped last week, that stupid bitch. Now I'm so sorry but we'll talk about that at the end because I, you know, I can't get into it. I actually just filmed like a whole 20 minute intro talking about it and then I thought, you know what, how am I supposed to then go into just like a normal episode? Like anyway, let's get into some dilemmas. I just thought, you know what, I'm going to start this again and I fear we may need to just discuss the future of the podcast at the end of this episode. Please don't kill me.

It's not, it's not bad news okay guys but I love you and before before we get into the episode I do just want to do a quick thank you so so so much to everyone that I had a little chat with in my dms or even just replied on my instagram story talking about like the future of the pod and stuff and helping me make the right decision Especially the guys on tik tok live and stuff I'm so lucky and so grateful for all of you shown your love telling me how much you love the podcast and also To the people saying I do whatever is best for you And also to the people saying if you cancel this podcast, I'll be forced to message my ex Thank you as well because no matter whether you're supportive of me

stopping the podcast or if you're gonna threaten me not to, I kind of prefer it that you're threatening me not to. I fear you love it more. But yeah, we are gonna do a normal episode today. I just did want to start by mentioning that I felt a bit, I couldn't be that cheeky and just come in and be like anyway but I hope you're all feeling really good in other news looks like Molly and Tommy about together hey they went to the bar together guys oh I'm happy for her I love I love miss Molly May I think she's such a sweet girl I love her YouTube she's actually my safe space like she's the Zoella that I used to feel cozy with Zoella

and now I feel cozy with Molly May to be fair. I said used to, I still love and adore Zoella. Zoe Sugg, I don't know why I'm calling her Zoella, she hasn't been Zoella since 2004, but I, Zoe Sugg, I love you. They're not listening. Leah, no, no one. Zoe Sugg, Molly May, they're not listening. But they are literally the people. Do you know how sweet this is, right? When I was at uni and I was like, like super struggling, like mental health was like cooked,

I used to come home from uni, I had like, I had one really really close friend at uni and then I got really close to another girl so I ended up with like two really good friends but we didn't really hang out outside of uni, not often anyway, so I would come home from my lecture, I would finish my lecture and then I'd go to work and then I'd cycle home from work and then I'd get back and I'd watch Zoe Sugg because nobody soothed my anxiety like Zoe Sugg. And isn't that just lovely to think that she has been that for so many people? Like isn't that so nice? And she still is, like she has this thing,

she has this effect on me and on so many millions of people where you just put a bit of Zoe Sugg on and suddenly everything in the world is okay. Isn't that so funny? Like what a beautiful soul. Imagine that was your mum, like your mum feels like that. Imagine that. How lucky are her kids? Like she will be baking. Well to be fair she does love a bit of baking with Ottie. Oh I love that. I just sometimes I look back and I think God like where would we be without that you know. Anyway I'm don't know why I'm talking about that so strange for me but yeah. Oh my god why am I so sleepy? In other news, Chloe Walsh has confirmed... What is it called?

Is it called Redeeming 10? Or is there already a redeeming? Is there a redeeming six? I fear that there is one called redeeming six. Something 10. No, it's not rescuing 10 is it? No. Anyway, it's the next book and it's Lizzie. To my Boys of Tommen lovers, I am about to finish Saving Six. Now let me talk about it because I love the Boys of Tommen series, okay? I love it with my heart and soul.

But let me tell you something, it makes me feel really low. Like, low key, it's so sad and heartbreaking that it just makes me feel very low. However, I love it. I love the books, they're incredible. I'm just about to finish Saving Six

and I'm saving it, funnily enough. I'm really, really saving it because I keep seeing TikToks like, are so jealous of the people that get to read Boys of Tommen for the first time. So I've tried to read it really slowly because I'm not trying to rush it. Like, I'm not gonna get this experience back.

Like, just like I wish I didn't rush the twisted series I wish I could read that for the first time again, and I just can't and the thing is I Know now I know better now to savor saviour or savor saviour savor every second of A book series that you know you're gonna mourn and grieve when you complete it and when you finish it. So I really took my time with Saving Six. I feel like I did rush the first six. Oh wait, am I reading Saving Six now? Or is

that the f- anyway, the second Joey and Aoife book I'm currently reading. They're also confusing. It's like, It's like the Chestnut Springs series. I can never remember. Flawless, heartless, powerless, reckless and hopeless. I only know that because I'm looking at it on my bookshelf. How the fuck am I supposed to remember who's who? I just say book one, book two, Rhett and Summer, you know, Caden Willett. Like, I'm rubbish with book names. I can't- Binding 13, Something 13, Something 6, Something 6, Something 7 and Something 10. I just know it's the second Joey and Aoife book and I'm about to finish it and then that is my Joey and Aoife journey completed and the thing is is guys if

you haven't read this series I really recommend it. Do definitely check the trigger warnings before because there is a lot of content in these books that I imagine would be quite triggering for people. But they are so beautiful, they're so well written, they're massive as well which I love. Although they're getting smaller and smaller which is causing me strays. The first two were huge, especially the second one that is fucking huge it's given Harry Potter and I love it. Like people are like, oh it's just too long, like it could be so much shorter. Yeah and you know what? The Twisted series could be just, could be twice as big and I'm complaining about that. You know? Like I want big, big books. I want the bigger the better. In every sense to be honest. But you know

what I mean, like I love, when you're, especially when you're really into a book, you want it to be massive. But I also picked up Wild Side because it's Elsie Silver's latest release from her, I don't know what the series is called, but the first two were Wild Love and Wild Eyes. Didn't love Wild Love, funnily enough. Liked Wild Eyes and apparently Wild Side is the best one out of the three. However, Georgia, one of you guys, and now a good friend of mine, has told me that Wild Side is utter shite, which is causing me stress but I am going to read it anyway Because I love Elsie Silver because she blessed us with the Chestnut Springs series so anything she writes I'll give the time of day same as Anna Wang with

the striker Not my favorite, but it is to be honest. It is better than the new Elsie Silver series I'm not gonna lie to you guys Also, when are we gonna get the cast in for the twisted series because I need it. I fear I need it urgently. I cannot wait to see who's playing who. I think the hardest role to cast is gonna be Christian. Is that his name? Christian. Is it Christian Harper or is that 50 Shades of Grey? What's his name? Oh, no, his is Christian Grey. What am I talking about?

You idiot. It must be Christian Harper,, I've plucked that out of nowhere. Yeah, I feel like he's going to be quite difficult to cast, don't you? I feel like the girls are going to be easy, like, I just know there's going to be some fierce fucking girls that walk into that casting room and they're going to be snapped up. But the guys? Difficult because girls as incredible as were written in this book exist. I fear men that were written in this book do not exist and finding them will be a big big challenge but I believe they can do it and I'm so excited I cannot wait for that to be announced and I cannot wait to watch it I can't wait to see behind the scenes of them filming and then we can all be like, oh my god, that's this scene That's that scene and blah blah blah. I can't wait to see the Jules and Josh scenes

As a series, isn't it? That's gonna be incredible. It's gonna be so incredible, I'm so excited. But anyway, that's enough book talk. I hope you're all feeling really good this week. Spring is starting to spring, which is just beautiful. It's just everything I need. You guys know I need and adore the sun. And the temperature's rising, like the other day I just wore a light jacket. I wore a light bomber jacket Heaven I've been living in my duvet coat from Pull and Bear that literally zips up to my chin goes all the way down to my ankles It's literally a duvet. I've been living in that Since November and I'm I'm I love that coat. It's my it's my world because I'm cold in 20 degrees I'm cold, but that's been such a life changer since I bought that like two minutes ago. It's been it's my world because I'm cold in 20 degrees. I'm cold, but

That's been such a life changer since I bought that like two minutes ago It's been such a life changer keeps me so warm But I'll be happy to see the back of it for a few more months You know like I'm happy the light jackets are coming out. I'll wear jeans again because I don't like jeans in winter They're so cold and crunchy like I don't don't want crunchy, cold, crispy denim on my- rubbing against my goosebumps. Like, no, I want cozy, soft jogger fabric and leggings underneath. Fluffy Primark Femal leggings. Do you know what I mean?

So now I'm wearing jeans again. So my outfits are actually looking kinda cute again, which is nice, because I've been just dressing like I'm never gonna see a human being. Like, I dress like no one will see me because I just would rather be warm but now I get to dress cute and play and play dress up with my outfits again which is so exciting. What am I up to this week? Oh my god it's the basement yard week guys I'm so excited let me know if you're going to a show I am so excited we're going on the 27th me and Jamie are really looking forward to it they did like put out a link saying like because in their recent episode they said go to

this link and fill it out if you've got some cool stories and I went on the link and I realised I'm so fucking boring. Like I don't have any stories. It was like name your craziest, no, tell us your craziest, the craziest things that ever happened to you. I'm like No, tell us your craziest, the craziest things ever happened to you. I'm like Like I truly have nothing and it says like your craziest first date story I'm like, I just I don't have one and I remember when I was going through my Love Island situations

Auditions and meetings and chats and stuff and and they do always ask tell us a funny first date story and I'm like nothing like I'm an incredible first date like But yeah, I just have no good stories So unfortunately, I won't be getting up on stage with a fun story because I couldn't fill out the form but Maybe I should just made them up just to get a chance to get up on stage and meet the boys I should just waffled and then you guys would see clips of it and be like, that's such a lie, that's never happened to her. And I'm like, shut up, shut the fuck up you guys, we're friends here.

So I'm really excited for that and then the day after I've got like a WhiteFox event, which I'm so excited for, you guys know I don't really do events so it's set up in my comfort zone but like you know as well I am pushing myself pushing my boundaries this year to achieve new things and new experiences and a newfound confidence because you don't grow in the comfort zone honey you know so yeah looking forward to that and then it's Jamie's birthday coming up and we are going to this really cool place I'm actually actually not gonna say actually because You never know who's listening who might be crazy, you know crazy

stalker people but Not that anyone's talking you Leah literally you're so relevant. No one has I talk to myself really kind stone I am really nice to myself It's also Mother's Day on Sunday, but my mom's away we're gonna have to celebrate later which is a real shame. I want to tell you what I got her but I know she there's a high possibility she might listen to this. It's a surprise. It's not that big, it's not that amazing of a present but I always like to share these sorts of things with you. So yeah, JB's birthday is next Saturday and I've got him listen guys how difficult is it to buy clothes for

boys why is it just the hardest thing ever like in my eyes it's a beautiful t-shirt in Jamie's eyes the neckline is too thick the arms are too they they sit out too wide it's not it's not boxy and cropped enough like I just I just, I just can't win when it comes to buying him clothes. So I let him sort of give me a nod. Like I'd be like, oh what do you think of this cool jacket? And he'd be like, yeah I love that. So I'd be like, okay, add to basket. Now I fear he knows everything that he's gonna get. But there's a couple of surprises in there so we'll just have to wait and see if he actually wears any of it because you know what's so annoying? My brother is the couple of surprises in there so we'll just have to wait and see if he actually wears any of it because you know what's so annoying? My brother is the type of guy and I appreciate this.

I hate it at the time but I do appreciate it in the long run. When I say it's like Christmas or birthday and I get my brother clothes, he goes, he'll try it on straight away and then he'll go, no I won't wear that. And I'm like, fuck's sake! Fucking hell Aaron, that's so annoying. But then I'm glad because then I can return it or give him the receipt to return it and choose something else blah blah blah Where's Jamie will try it on and he'll go yeah, babe. I love that. I love it. That's us banging, babe I love it and then three months ago. You haven't worn that jacket I got you babe that you said you absolutely love

You said you love it. You said it's the best Jacket you've ever owned and I've not actually seen you wear it and he's like I've worn it Why not? And then literally six months later you don't like that fucking jacket do you because you haven't worn it Well, I don't know. It just don't fit right. You fucking idiot. Why don't you just tell me at the time? I could have returned that. You idiot. That's so annoying. That's what Jamie's like and I'm like, you're so sweet because I know you just don't want to hurt my feelings. But now, my feelings are hurt for six months. You could have just hurt my feelings in the moment for 30 seconds and I go, oh for god's sake, that's so annoying.

But instead, you dragged me on for six months. I'm waiting for you to wear this jacket also I just hiccuped and it reminded me when I was on live the other day and I was talking about whether or not I'm gonna continue the pod somebody said like what would I do without you hiccuping in my ear and I was like if that doesn't sum up the pod anyway so yeah that's what that's what's going on. I'm nervous about whether or not he's gonna like his present. Well, I know he's gonna like them, like I know that it's his style and he's gonna think yeah spot-on, lovely. It's about whether or not they're gonna fit nice and that is not my fault, okay? That

is not down to me, but I do get it because I'm equally as fussy with clothes. Although, on my last birthday Jamie bought me loads of clothes and I loved it because I'm equally as fussy with clothes. Although on my last birthday Jamie bought me loads of clothes and I loved it. I did give him a nod because he was like I don't know what to get you. I don't know what to get you and I was like to be honest I love the thought of you going on a shopping website and You picking out things that you think would look nice on me or that you think I would like. I think that's really sweet Like taking the time to do it thinking of me when you're shopping.

So he like picked out some clothes and he fucking ate down. Like I was like, okay, Bessie, like you literally ate, like love it. Oh, he got me cowboy boots, or I guess cowgirl boots. He did get me a cowgirl hat and I was like, baby, love you. But where on the fuck am I gonna wear a cowboy hat? Not really a festival kind of gal, like, I'm not gonna be wearing that in town for a mooch around H&M, am I? It was funny, bless him. But this is the thing, cause I'm honest, he returned it, got his money back but Jamie would go I love that cowboy hat I'm gonna wear that every day for the next 12 years and I'll never see it on his head. I've got a pain in my chest and it's giving me anxiety

once I need to have a stretch. Okay I think I'm alright anyway I feel like this is a perfect time for me to shut up now and let's get into some dilemmas. Welcome to Leer on the Line. Join me every Tuesday as I dial your number for the ultimate unfiltered bestie catch up. Whatever it is, we will laugh together and guide each other along the way. Head to leerontheline.com and follow Leer on the Line on Instagram to get involved. Love you! Okay, you guys.

So, oh my god, I'm not even joking. What have I actually done to my chest? Love you! Okay, you guys. So, oh my god, I'm not even joking. What have I actually done to my chest? I feel like I've got really tight muscle in it or something. God, anxiety. I'm scared, I'm scared, I'm scared. No, I'm fine, I'm fine. Okay.

Shut up, man. What the hell, man? Let's get into some dilemmas. I know you're thinking, no weekly debate this week week darling. No, it's been a confusing week I'm so sorry. It's just been full of questions and trying to figure things out pros and cons like trying to make a decision and Trying to understand what's going on with me and my brain and my thoughts that I didn't even have time to think of a weekly debate but of course, I do have your dilemmas that I am excited to get through and hopefully be able to help. So let's kick off with this one. So this says, is he lying to me?

I'm in a situation ship with a married man the same age as my dad. Okay let's get comfy everybody. I have been working with this man for a couple of years now. We started working together in a local retail shop. He is very outgoing, had everyone laughing and joking and is very good-looking. He knows he's good-looking. Oh okay he's one of them. Alright, alright. At this time, my sister also worked with us. There was a lot of flirty banter coming from his side towards the both of us, commenting on our bodies, etc., commenting on who's got the bum and who's got the boobs, out with the family, and also giving us advice on our sex lives with our partners.

My sister got very weirded out by him and made it very clear. Okay, so It's given creep. Oh Not you Siri. What are you doing down there? I'm not gonna lie like it is it is given creep a bit Isn't it? Isn't it? Let's be real. Come on, and we've all worked with men like that. Have we not especially my hospitality retail kind of babes We we know these men. All right, but But let's not put him in a box, okay? Okay.

It's just what it's given at the moment. I would have worked with him a lot more as she was part-time so I never felt comfortable telling him to stop as I didn't know what way he would take it. Yeah, see that's not okay. Like the fact that you were too scared to tell someone, I don't like how you're making me feel, I feel awkward and uncomfortable. You know like the fact that you was uncomfortable with that is terrible. Okay. Um, what did I go do? Okay. A lot of people around the area know him and say that he has a past- Oh, and to say that he has a past is an understatement. Okay, honey.

Well, sleeping with married women, cheating with employees, drugs, jail time, the lot. This guy's bad news. This guy's bad news. Let's be real. Come on. Come on, babe. We know. You know and I know you know.

I know then you know that they know that we know. Name that show. I never acted upon this. I would have just laughed it off and took it as banter after a while as he was the same to a lot of women who came in. That doesn't make it okay. Like, ah, this is just Steve, you know, that's just what he's like. Like, he- we don't mind. Although, we- like I said, we've all known guys like that, like fucking gross. I used to work in this cafe and he was about my dad's age, maybe a bit younger.

I was 15. He used to slap my bum when he'd walk past me. What are you doing? Look, he's pulling me, actually I was not 15, I was 17, I was 17 max, 16 probably, and he was just like my bum and I remember the first time he did it. He was like, sorry I couldn't resist that time. I've been dying to do it every time I walk past you and again I felt I didn't feel like I could tell him and I was like Like oh, don't worry But inside I felt fucking violated So yeah, I've I've come across a man or two like this in my life Okay

I was in a relationship for nine and a half years with a mortgage etc Things didn't work out for the best with us and this man Let's call him James was constantly there for me. Okay, so, so work guy, creepy work guy is called James. He knew all the right things to say, it made me laugh, he made me excited to come to work to get away from the situation at home. Of course he did, he knew exactly what we wanted, let's be real calm. Our boss was opening a new store in the next town and he was the first to be offered a full-time manager job. He said he would take it if I got full-time hours in that store too. I jumped at the chance as the hours I was getting weren't consistent. From then on, things were flirty. I was enjoying spending time with him. He kept telling me

how him and his wife were on thin ice and he's not happy, etc. Things escalated from there, from flirty banter to finding blind spots in the shop and coming in an hour or two before opening times as this would have been our only opportunity due to home situations as this went on he told me his wife and him aren't together and they're just living together until things are finalized okay this is textbook bullshit cheating lies okay honestly I'm gonna leave her I'm gonna leave her I'm gonna leave her we're not together we don't even share a bed. We haven't shared a bed for years

lies Blair Blair Blair bullshit bullshit bullshit anyway It might not be bullshit. I'm jumping to conclusions Okay, he would block my number after every shift have code words to text me when he when he can so I know it's him Okay, but if you're not with your wife Surely you can tell you're with somebody new if you're split and you're just living together until things are finalized whether that's Living situations divorce whatever it is that we're talking about here Then it's not secret that you're not together. So it's not secret that you with somebody else now. Tell her about me

Tell your wife about me, you know Now I'm in my own place he would come most mornings before work He has done. Oh, he has done all my decorating for me, but things aren't sitting right with me. I Don't believe him and his wife are over because she now has my number and is a man is messaging me on insta and threatening to come to the shop He won't let me reply to her Do you think he is telling her one thing and telling me another I have told him I'm not comfortable But he just cries and tells me he loves me

classic We've seen it million times. I know this trick babe James Wrap it up. Okay. I know. I've seen this a billion times. Um, he just cries and tells me he loves me and wants to live with me but they have a lot of things to sort out before he can be with me am I wasting my time? Yes! You're wasting your time. Let me tell you one thing. Why is his wife texting you if they're not together? Do you know what I mean? Like it's like you texting your ex's new girlfriend Saying that I'll fucking come down there. I'll fucking come down the shop. Come down. Come down. You're his ex Do you know what I mean? You need to say to this guy to James

You told me that you're not with her anymore and when he gives the whole yeah, we're not we're not I love you I love you text her then you. That's how them That's all right now tell her about me Because why am I secret? Why is it secret? Do you know what I mean? I'm sure he'll come up with a reason why he's a seat while you're a secret. I'm sure he will work God's magic and Convince you that it just makes sense to be a secret right now And then when things work out how they work out however he has in his head

you will live happily ever after. That's more than likely the shit he's gonna feed us here and you said, you know, he's got a past, jail time, cheating, sleeping with employees. I wouldn't be surprised if you're not the only one he's sleeping with and I don't mean to say that to hurt you. I love you with all my heart. You know over here sometimes we just got to give a little bit of tough love here at Lear on the Line and I love you with with I love you too much to sit back and say this guy is probably genuine because all signs are pointing to run. You know what is genuine about this guy? He's sleazy, he's pervy, he's slimy and gross towards all women, not just you. You said it was

all women, your own sister was like, oh I don't like him, like he makes me uncomfortable. You didn't even feel comfortable to tell him that you were uncomfortable. He's cheated on his comfortable to tell him that you were uncomfortable. He's cheated on his wife several times, he's slept with several employees, and he's feeding you bullshit because you're a beautiful, young, sexy woman that he obviously naturally wants to sleep with. That's what's going on here. That's what's going down. And it's not okay. I urge you to

To put down to the test and say yeah babe babe, babe. No, I I'm loving how this is going I'm loving it I just need you to fucking step up and and stop keeping me a secret if we're together with together, babe You said you're not with your wife anymore. So what is the secret? babe. You said you're not with your wife anymore so what is the secret? Yeah, maybe you might, you don't want to upset her because you moved on quick and you moved on to somebody younger, whatever excuse he's gonna come up with. It shouldn't be more important than your feelings. So if it's legit, which he's saying it is, let's let your wife know. I'm so sorry. Let me reply to your wife and say I'm so sorry, I don't know,

I don't know what's going on, but we are actually together. Or you tell her yourself. And when you're saying he won't let me reply to her, he cannot fucking decide what you do. So if he won't tell her himself, I say you leave your shift and you message her yourself because at the end of the day, if it is bullshit,

you're going to find out here and now when you message her and you say like, what's the problem? We're together, you're not together anymore, what's the problem? If she turns around and she's like, what do you mean we're not together? There you go. You've got your answer babe. Do you know what I mean? Yeah, he's going to be pissed off, I don't care, I'm pissed off at you.

You fucking lying, cheating scumbag. I don't care that you're annoyed. Do you know what I mean? I couldn't give a flying fuck that you're annoyed that I replied to your wife. Sorry That you're the wife that you're cheating on. I'm so sorry. So sorry about that. You fucking idiot Sorry, I'm really going in on this poor man. What if he really has ended it with his wife and he is he is a changed man Well, let's hope he is and then he can just text his wife and say, I'm so sorry I've moved on. There you go.

Okay. I love you so much. Please keep us updated. Next dilemma. Hi, it's Morgan from Off the Shelf and I'm here to tell you how my Google Pixel 9 helps me read more. Google actually gifted me this phone and now I use it non-stop. The other day I was trying to remember the name of this book someone recommended and

instead of spiraling into a 40 minute social media scroll, I just asked Gemini on my Pixel. What's that romantic book with a competition and a ghost helping her through the trials? The book you're likely thinking of is Phantasma by Kaylee Smith. Here's a breakdown of why it fits your description. It's like having that one friend who always knows what you're talking about. Learn more about the Google Pixel 9 at store.google.com. Acast powers the world's best podcasts. Here's a show that we recommend.

So let me start us out. I love hearing from God. Sean Bowles has been a celebrated and trusted prophet for decades. God said that you are being given to your boyfriend. But did he have everyone fooled? There's pretty much no way to make any other conclusion than he was data mining. Season 6 of Heaven Bent, the smartphone prophet. Listen wherever you get your podcasts. Acast helps creators launch, grow,

and monetize their podcasts everywhere. Acast.com. Hi, Leah. I just want to start by saying I love you and the pod so much. I honestly look forward to Tuesdays with you and your beautiful soul. Oh I love you so much, thank you so much for saying that. Okay, let's get into your dilemma baby girl. So my dilemma is pretty tough and I hope you can help me, sad face. I'm gonna really... wait, something just happened to

my ears. Oh my god. Do you ever get that where all of a sudden it feels like your ears are going like In your is that? So weird sometimes I get it in one ear. I'm gonna say sorry Yeah, don't nobody nobody's just me out with that. Okay. All right. I'm really unsure about my relationship Me and my boyfriend have been together for nearly three years. We have a mortgage together and two cats. I'm 24 Alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, alright, because it's an experience I fear. I fear that I'm saying I fear too much, that's for sure, but it's an experience that I fear we have, we have all been once or twice where we're fed bullshit lies or somebody does the fucking absolute most at the beginning and then all of a sudden they pull back and it's like you actually are just left feeling rejected and like they don't fancy

you anymore, they don't love you anymore because it's like You didn't need to do all that at the beginning You could have given me a normal healthy amount that you could have maintained But instead you just had to do the most and now no one can maintain that so now I just feel rubbish Raise your hand. Yeah Anyway We don't argue much or anything really bad But there is just no excitement anymore, and I think he doesn't I think he thinks he doesn't have to make effort anymore He never takes me out on fancy dates or buys me flowers just because and never goes out of his way for me

I'm learning to drive at the moment and I have my driving test booked so I can't drive yet And he's been driving for a long time, but he never offers to pick me up from work Even if he's just sat in the house doing nothing What the actual hell? You want me to walk? You want me to get this fucking bus instead of you? Put me in a nice warm cozy car? What? Pick me up, I'll pick you up at eight babe, I'm off tonight, I'll pick you up darling, love you. Make sure you get home safe my gorgeous princess, I love you. And you know what, I'll swing by your favorite place to grab some food on the your way home from your shift how about

that gorgeous bring it for you yeah where's that where's that energy even when it was dark outside in the winter when we literally lived together yeah crazy did not cross your mind to protect me and be my protector? Does that not enter your mind? No? Okay, beautiful. Good, good to know. He never makes me food when I come in the house and says he's bad at cooking. Raise your hand if you've been there.

Mine's up, mine's risen. And he says he's bad at cooking but he could still make me something easy. He knows how to use an oven Literally babe put in a fucking pizza put a pizza in the oven for 12 minutes on 180 fan It's not hard. It's not hard. It's an excuse. I can't cook. I can't cook excuses Okay, make me a fucking sandwich Do something that doesn't even involve heat if you want or if you feel a bit crazy make me a bit cheese on toast because this is the thing if you come home and somebody had made you a full-blown three-course

dinner your favorite pasta, vodka pasta, GDG vodka pasta, start a garlic bread and mushrooms homemade, dessert homemade banoffee. Or if you'd come in and somebody's gone, here baby, I know you've had a long day and we didn't have much in so I just made you a bit of cheese on toast, bit of red onion. They mean equally as much. Do you know what I mean? They are completely different levels of skill and effort, but they mean equally as much. I've made you a fucking bit of cheese on toast because I know you've had a long day, I don't want you to not eat.

It's a late finish, you probably didn't have time to eat earlier. You need to make sure you're having a little something before you go to bed, you know? What the hell? Like, that is not hard. And that is love. That to me is I love you. Okay? Like, for me, this is how I show Jamie love.

When he has football training and I check his location, I see he's always on his way home, I reheat his dinner up for him so that when he walks through the door, it's warm. That's love. Okay? And you know what? It's not hard. It's not hard. So that's an excuse from him. You know that as well though, you said it yourself. Also if we do go out for food most of the time he just wants to split the bill apart from on my birthday or Valentine's Day. Oh, treat it. What the hell man.

The problem that bothers me the most is how when we first met he would pick me up and drop me off everywhere and pay for everything and I don't understand why men think that they can just change now that they have you because this is not the person I fell in love with at the start I honestly thought he was a love of my life But now I'm so unsure only because he doesn't do anything for me or go out of his way For example on my birthday I sat and opened to my presence alone because he didn't want to get up earlier than half past 12 and we were going out at 1 p.m

All I want to say is regardless, we will carry on with this but just while we're here. Actually no, I'll say it at the end, I'll say it at the end. Okay, he does work late hours but he wasn't working the night before so I was gutted that he wouldn't wake up earlier on my birthday. He also isn't very affectionate and doesn't say he loves me unless I say it first. I know this will make it sound like he doesn't love me, but I know he does. He just doesn't show it at all. He only ever wants to kiss me or compliments me when he's horny. I honestly can't deal with the lack of effort anymore. I'm really struggling with money at the moment and working constantly and studying and he never says he will cover

the mortgage or help me out with bills unless I pay him back. I don't know if that's me being unfair but his job is a lot better than mine. I don't know if I'm expecting too much. It feels like we're living separate lives and it makes me so sad. I really don't want to break up with him as we have a lovely home together which I absolutely love and it would be so sad to let go of. And I love him and the cat so much but I've told him quite a few times how I'm feeling before it's been going on for a while and nothing really changes. If you could give me some advice it would mean the world, thank you. I love you so much and absolutely. What I want to say to you is like you're saying like we have this beautiful home that you love, you love your home and your cats, right?

And I completely get that and you're like I don't want to let that go. I don't want to let that go. But you have to understand that this is not bringing you joy and happiness That home is not enough. It's not bringing you enough happiness You know these cats like take the fucking cats keep the cats take them with you but At the end of the day you're in a relationship Where you're opening birthday presents alone and that's the bottom line you know like I'm spending my birthday morning opening my birthday presents alone enough said because you're

in bed not because you're working or you didn't get the day off or blah blah blah because you are in bed and it's not important to you full stop My birthday is not important to you how I feel on my birthday morning. It's not important to you you deserve a boyfriend that is going to put up balloons and hang Polaroid pictures of you from the fucking ceiling and And wrap all your presents stay up till three o'clock in the morning, decorate in the kitchen or living room for you to come downstairs and he'll go, happy birthday babe and you're in your little pink PJs and you feel like a little pretty princess and he's there looking hunky and handsome with no top on and a pair of PJ bottoms and he goes, happy birthday beautiful

and you look around and you're in your beautiful house and your beautiful cats and you go wow I Feel so special today You know That is what you deserve and that's that's very normal like you will 100% get that and I'm telling you now like you can Get that there are a million a billion boys out there that will do that for you So don't just choose the one that won't. What is so great about this guy that you're going to stay in a relationship with him over someone that cooks for you when you get home.

Even when you've got a car, it'll come and pick you up and preheat the passenger seat in the winter for you because it's cold, you know, and lay your clothes out for you in the morning before you go to work and when he's at the food shop pick up a couple of extra bits that he knows you love, like your favourite, your favourite cereal bars that he knows you love or I saw these and you loved this sort of thing so I thought then and then no so I thought you might want to try them I saw this it's like a biscoff dairy milk thing I thought you'd like that I thought I'd grab it for you I thought you might like it that is what you deserve and that's that's so normal babe like that's so achievable so

attainable and I just want you to like really understand that you know this guy's not taking you out, he's not getting you nothing just because and you obviously want to feel special like we all do and as we should you want to feel like your partner is your protector and I'm the same as you I want that as well and this guy doesn't make you feel like that like I'm walking home late in the winter and cold or having to get a fucking cab or whatever it is that you're doing because you're still learning. And your boyfriend's sat at home in the warmth. You just sit at home and I travel home by myself in the cold, dark wind tonight.

And I'm fucking hungry. And you're all fed. You ordered yourself a little takeaway. And I'm gonna come home fucking hungry and cold You know what I mean, and you just sat there at home playing your stupid games Like I'm sorry. It's just not it's just not good enough It's just not good enough, and you deserve so much more and it's out there, and I want you to know that it's out there and I want you to know that it's out there and I Think if anything feel sad for yourself, like, you know, like spending your birthday morning like that That's really sad and heartbreaking that he put you through that and it's not okay

And like just because he's not horrible to you and he's not cheating on you and you're not arguing doesn't make him a very nice boyfriend, you know like Or even if he's not a bad guy, it doesn't mean he's right for you, doesn't mean he's giving you what you want and deserve and need, you know? Sometimes you can just call it on a relationship because, yeah you're not a bad guy but you're just still not quite enough for me, you know? And you do deserve what you're describing, you do deserve that and you will get it Yeah, I love you homes I'm so proud of you for you you sound so intelligent like you know exactly What you deserve and no you're not asking for too much. You're absolutely not

To a lot of us. That's the fucking bare minimum getting up with me early on my birthday. You joking? I'm not asking for much Do you mean so? yeah, I love you. I'm wishing you to make whatever decision is right for you, okay? I love you so much. Okay, let's do another one. All right. I'm 18 turning 19 and I've been with my boyfriend for a year I feel terrible even writing this as I love him very much and he makes me so happy But a boy I used to talk to when I was 16 has just broken up with his two-year girlfriend And I'm starting a new job in two weeks Where he works? I don't know what it is But I just keep feeling like he's constantly coming back into my life

as I never have any interest towards anyone throughout my relationship as I genuinely am so content and in a healthy cycle. I also had a dream last night about being at a party with this boy and he was flirting with me and giving me eye contact and then tried to kiss me but I swerved it and he just kissed my neck. I feel terrible because my boyfriend knows nothing Obviously, this is all in my head, but I still feel this guilt I also have a few holidays booked with him over the summer and I don't want to break up with him over nothing because I genuinely am so in love with him. I love you so much. Yeah, you're my fave. Oh, I love you so much And you're my fave

Okay, I don't need to overthink this I. I feel like, obviously, the thought of our boyfriend feeling this way towards a girl makes me violently physically sick, but I don't want you to overthink it and I don't want you to think like, this must mean that this guy is your soulmate and it's like you're destined to be together. Like, there are sometimes just coincidences and you might just be overthinking them. So you can't yawn combination. I don't know what that is.

Yeah, and I don't want you to think it doesn't, it doesn't always mean something. Don't get, oh, did you hear that? Did you hear my throat then? Sometimes, don't get me wrong, sometimes it does. Sometimes it means that there's an itch unscratched or maybe if you do believe in it, maybe it is a little string theory situation or maybe it is your soulmate or your twin flame blah blah blah or maybe it's just a guy that you know that seems to pop up every now and again that you fancy. And it doesn't need to be that deep because you are telling me you are in love

with your boyfriend. And I wouldn't encourage you to throw a relationship away over something that's not happened. And it's not been that deep. You're also only 18, so like, this is so normal to be like so young and and still figuring out like are you who I want to be with and like Trust me like don't just don't sweat it. I think take it each day as it comes and

You know, you're gonna start this new job. I think you're getting in your head about it Which sometimes can make it feel bigger and make it feel More significant, you know, like, I can't stop thinking about this guy, I literally can't stop thinking about this guy, like, blah blah blah, like, and then inevitably you're gonna dream about this guy because you're stressed about it and you're worked up about it and now you're paranoid and now you're second guessing and doubting your relationship and stuff like that. And it is so okay to have your doubts, but don't end your relationship

until you have an answer to your feelings, or at least clarity and things feel clearer. You know, like, just take each day as it comes, sit with it, don't overthink it, don't get so stressed about it, and don't hyper-focus on it, you know, this guy at work and stuff like, do your thing and just allow these feelings to flow through you until it gets to a point where you're like,

I don't want to be in this relationship anymore. And then you end your relationship because right now there aren't really enough grounds to end your relationship. You said you're in love with him and these are all just random thoughts about a guy that you knew, you were talking to, you said you're in love with him and these are all just random thoughts about a guy that you knew you were talking to, you know. So yeah, good luck. Don't stress. You got this babes. And yeah, let's wrap up the episode. We have a lot to discuss, so let's wrap it up and you're gonna want to stay for this. Trust me, it's important. Okay, so it's time to discuss the future of Lear on the Line. Hi, it's Morgan from Off the Shelf and I'm here to tell you how my Google Pixel 9 helps me read more. Google actually gifted me this phone and now I use it

non-stop. The other day I was trying to remember the name of this book someone recommended and instead of spiraling into a 40 minute social media scroll I just asked Gemini on my Pixel. What's that romantic book with a competition and a ghost helping her through the trials? The book you're likely thinking of is Phantasma by Kaylee Smith. Here's a breakdown of why it fits your description. It's like having that one friend who always knows what you're talking about. Learn more about the Google Pixel 9 at store.google.com. Now, I am not quitting the podcast.

This is not me hanging up the mic and just saying, it's been a beautiful three years. All good things come to an end. See you later, thanks for all the laughs. That's not what this is. Um, but, I am gonna step away, and I don't know how long for. There is some good news coming, so please be patient for a second. I am really stressed with this decision and like a massive part of it doesn't feel right 100% and a big part of it is giving me pure anxiety and dread and I already regret it but then the other part of me is like it is important how you feel Leah

because I think what I what my mentality has been for such a long time is people depend on this podcast, people come here every Tuesday, people want your advice, people want to feel like they're not alone, people want to feel like they've got somebody they can talk to about relationships and sex and embarrassing things and body image and anxiety and periods and like things that they might not have somebody to talk to about in their life and it's important like your Role in this is important Leah. Okay But then I've I've sort of realized that how I feel currently is also important because it's gonna impact

the quality of this podcast, okay, and I to impact the quality of this podcast, okay? And I love it. I never want that to be misconstrued. I love this podcast. More importantly, I love every single one of you. You, right now, you. I love you, okay? I'm so lucky. I'm so grateful So grateful, I don't even have the words and I've cried many tears over What the right thing to do is I never want to disappoint you guys. I never want to hurt you I never want to leave you lonely. I never want to make you feel like you don't have someone want to make you feel like you don't have someone. So making this decision was always like, it's not just about you Leah. Like this podcast isn't just like we come on and we have a laugh every Tuesday, although a massive part of it is.

Also a big part of it is friendship and advice and solidarity. Do you know what I mean though? Like without being cringe like a lot of it is that Oh, I don't want to get upset Um god's sake but What I've decided to do is Start a youtube channel and that isn't in replacement of the podcast. Nothing will replace this podcast um, and like i'm saying hopefully it won't be too long and the feeling of coming back will just be right and I'll feel that spark again and I'll feel myself again

because I really feel lost, I really, really truly feel lost. And I know I'm the luckiest person in the world. And I think that's why I had such a difficult time because I'm like you don't get to feel lost like you're the best job in the world like you don't get to feel burnt out over that like you don't you don't get to do that like you fucking brat like that's what I felt towards myself but unfortunately I really do feel burnt the fuck out and I really have

lost myself and I've really lost that spark and passion for everything. Like not just the podcast, I think I really need to do some inner work. I really feel like I've lost myself, not massively, but enough to realise I need to love myself again and I need to give myself a bit of time. And I've taken little breaks as you guys know and I'm so grateful for the support you've given me in those moments but they've always been very short. I think the longest one I took was two months which goes so quickly when you're having a hard time. You know, like two months will just fly by and before you know it you're like, fuck. I've got to get back to it. I've got to get back to it. You know, let's go.

You've got to get this ball rolling before you lose it, before people don't want it anymore. get this ball rolling before you lose it, before people don't want it anymore. So what I've decided, and I've been reflecting and looking inwards and outwards and left, right and centre, and just trying to understand like what am I feeling, what do I need, what do you guys need, what's important, what do I need to release, And I've realised, I think I was actually talking about it in this episode, what YouTube is for me is that comfort and that safe space and I love the style of content. It's relaxed, it's raw, it's real, it's unedited, there's no fucking TikToks moving filters, there's no snappy edits, there's no having to lock in the viewer within the first four seconds, it's just a cosy safe space. That's my shit. Like, I love that.

And people have always said to me, why don't you start a YouTube? And I've always said like, no, like, it's just not, like, I don't have the time and also I'm like, no one's gonna watch it blah blah blah but what I'm realizing now is I need to go back to doing things that I absolutely love and just doing it for love and that's what YouTube will be. So what I'm gonna do for the podcast is once a month maybe, I'm not sure how it's going to work out just yet but something like that. I'm going to do a YouTube video podcast so it's going to be a vlog channel and you can find the link in my bio, my social medias if you do want to subscribe. It would mean the whole world to me if you guys would go over and subscribe because whatever feelings you get

from this podcast I hope that you will get that and more from my YouTube channel to be honest. I also think it's so nice having a visual and so many of you guys have asked me to have visuals for the podcast since day one. So having a YouTube channel full of vlogs and cosy, girlyly safe space like bestie vibes and then once a month there will be a YouTube video where I'll probably be like in my bed or something like that and I'm gonna do exactly what we do here. I'm gonna answer your dilemmas. This was all what we discussed on TikTok live and this was

all, this wasn't just me making this decision alone like I really made sure that I was in contact with you guys on Instagram, on my TikTok live, finding out what would make you guys feel good, that would equally make me feel good, because I think that is so important that we all feel good, right? So yeah, because people are like, I don't want to lose the pod until I come back. I thought whilst I focus on myself I can do YouTube because that will be that will be my life you know so I can still focus on myself and and do that. It also means that it will bring me so much comfort having you guys

to talk to. Hopefully you guys will come over there and and we have each other in that way. It's visual which I always think is so nice and then I can do the podcast there as well and we will have visuals of it which is lovely. It just obviously won't be weekly until I do come back to the podcast which I have no idea how long that's gonna be. It might be two months, it might be eight months. Who knows? I truly don't know but I'm just, this time I'm not gonna rush it and I'm just gonna do it when it feels right Because I think that's inevitably not inevitably

Ultimately The reason I am where I am mentally with it because I've taken these little breaks and I've never taken long enough I've come back out of fear of upsetting people So I'm like, well, I feel better. So that would do I feel better now. I'll come back out of fear of upsetting people. So I've been like, well I feel better, so that'll do. I feel better now. I'll come back, I feel better, that's fine, I feel better. I feel rested, I feel rested. But mentally it takes a lot more than just feeling like you've had a little five minutes,

you know? Yeah, I just need to, at this point in my life, do what's right for me and I never want to neglect you in that. So because I think our friendship is so valuable and so important, it adds so much to my mental health. Like having the relationship that I have with you guys, my listeners. It really is so valuable to me and my mental health. Like, I talk to you guys about everything. Do you know what I mean? And I would love to... I'd hate to lose that, so I'd love to keep that up on my YouTube channel as well.

So, if you do, I feel like you might want to consume that content. I totally understand if that's not your vibe, but if you do, I think you'll love it. I think it's just going to be nice to feel really excited and passionate about a new project. I'm going to put my heart and soul into it, I promise. This podcast will always be here. If you ever want to go back and listen to the breakup episode or the self-love episode or just any episode, go back to go back and listen to the breakup episode or the self-love episode or just

any episode, go back to the beginning and start again. Whatever it is that you want to do, this will be here until I come back and it will never go anywhere, but in the meantime I will still be here, you know, like I'll still be here for you. Whether that's through my DMs or through a dilemma for the YouTube channel or if it's on my vlogs in the comments, on my TikTok, on my Instagram. I'm still here, I love you, it's just the pod is gonna go away for a short or a long period, who fucking knows, I don't even know at this point. But it really, it has to happen unannoyingly

and I'm really sad about it, like so, so sad. And I feel like I may cry several tears at the end of this episode. I'm doing really well holding it together. I actually, I think I mentioned this at the beginning, I recorded a whole 20 minute intro to this episode talking about this, fully crying my eyes out. And I thought, pull yourself together girl, you can't go.

And I'm just so, I'm so sad, I'm so lucky and I'm so grateful blah blah blah anyway let's get into the episode so I had to cut it and start again but I feel like where I've already said it like now I'm managing to hold myself together which is good and I do just want you all to know that I'm so lucky and I feel so grateful to have spent the last three years recording this podcast with you and you know the amount of New Years that we've seen in together in the New Years episodes, the amount of Christmases we've had and the Halloweens and the Halloween specials and the spooky stories. You guys have been with me through breakups, friendship, loss, like so much and you have no idea how much I've needed you and now I just need to do this and

I hope you guys can support me in that and if you can't I really do understand. All I've ever wanted is for this podcast to make you feel good and make you feel loved and supported and secure and safe and I hope I hope it does and I hope you know when when I come back it's just gonna feel so good you know for all of us so I love you. Hmm it's tough isn't it? Don't know why I'm being really dramatic. Like I'm sure loads of you are like we don't care, go. Good riddance. But it's hard for me, it is hard for me. I've done this every week for three years so it's really difficult and yeah I love you all so much. I hope you will join me on YouTube until I come back here. I feel like it will only

strengthen our relationship and yeah I feel like it will only strengthen our relationship. And yeah, I feel like it's a really great way for you guys to get to know me even more because there is only so much you can learn about somebody audibly, do you know what I mean? And on TikTok I always feel like you can't ever truly know someone through short form content. And I feel like the best way to really know someone through short form content and I feel like the best way to really know someone is YouTube, long form content and I feel like the people that I love and follow, I feel

like the ones I follow on YouTube are the ones I feel like I really know the best. But yeah, I love you guys so much, I'm so grateful and appreciate you so much for your patience with me and if you do stick around through this break I'm so grateful and I do want to apologize for it as well because I do feel quite like a bit of a failure. But I hope you understand I love you so much And I was gonna say I'll speak to you next week But I probably won't in fact I definitely won't But hopefully not too long if you do join me on this new YouTube journey

Then hopefully it will only be a week or two But then if you aren't going to which again is totally okay And if you will be here when the when the pod comes back I will speak to you then. Hopefully that's not too long away hopefully I'm not 35 with two children could you imagine? I love you so much have an amazing week whatever it is that you're getting up to and I'll speak to you soon for a brand new episode. Alright, for one last time, for the last time in a while I will speak to you in the future for a brand new episode. Alright, all together you guys, I love you! Bye! and I'm here to tell you how my Google Pixel 9 helps me read more. Google actually gifted me this phone and now I use it non-stop. The other day I was trying to remember the name of this book someone recommended and instead of spiraling into a 40 minute social

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