Leah on the Line - 61: Knowing where you stand with a guy & dealing with toxic friends
Episode Date: April 10, 2023Hey honeys! The weekly debate this week is "can friends with benefits ever be successful?". This was such an interesting one and I feel like it totally can be, but can very easily result in feelings b...eing developed!! As for dilemmas, we discussed how to deal with not knowing where you stand, accepting rejection and dealing with on/off friendships! Thank you so so much for all of your love and support, I can't even tell you how much it means to me. As always send in your confessions/dilemmas to leahontheline@gmail.com. Love you! Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.
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                                         hello hi everyone welcome back to a brand new episode of here on the line happy tuesday
                                         
                                         happy tuesday everyone how was your bank holiday weekend did you spend some lovely time with your family
                                         
                                         friends shout out to everyone that was working love you thinking of you but either way I hope
                                         
                                         it was pleasant I hope you all made some lovely memories this Easter happy Easter my nephew came
                                         
                                         running into my room saying happy Easter egg I was like happy Easter egg to you, honey. We did an Easter egg hunt. It was very fun.
                                         
                                         It was very fun. We got about 100 eggs, actually. How fucking expensive are Easter eggs at the
                                         
                                         moment? Are you joking me? It's like £6 for like 20 little eggs. I was like, are you joking me?
                                         
                                         Inflation, honey. Anyway, hope you had a great weekend. are your plans this week back to work perhaps
                                         
    
                                         um what do I have planned this week not much oh got my eyes tested I'm sure you're all
                                         
                                         shaking in your boots just waiting to hear what my prescription is prescription what's it called
                                         
                                         is it called a prescription no is it actually why does that not sound right anyway um it's not that major it's uh plus 0.25
                                         
                                         I do have astigmatism in both eyes which I wasn't aware of I thought it was in one eye
                                         
                                         and basically makes a lot of sense because she said to me because basically right my eyes they're
                                         
                                         just blurry like I'm just one minute it's fine and then like a few
                                         
                                         hours later I'm like can't fucking see shit darling can't reach it and like I said I've got
                                         
                                         loads of eye floaters so I was just like oh my god like maybe my eye floaters are just like really
                                         
    
                                         clouding up my vision you know the worst case scenario was on my mind um anyway she said to me
                                         
                                         that with astigmatism like your eyes not your eyes but I guess your pupil I think isn't or is it I
                                         
                                         don't know part of my eye isn't round it's like the shape of a rugby ball I was like gorgeous
                                         
                                         gorgeous what does that mean what does that mean for me hey and she basically said that my eyes
                                         
                                         have to work harder to focus basically so she said when you're tired or stressed or just like
                                         
                                         not well like you might notice that like at
                                         
                                         the end of the day if you've been looking at a screen all day or reading a lot or watching a lot
                                         
                                         of tv like by the end of the day you you might not be able to see as clearly and I was like yeah
                                         
    
                                         that's it that's it and she's like yeah don't worry about it totally normal like and anyway
                                         
                                         so she said to me that I could wear glasses just to stop my eyes having to work as hard.
                                         
                                         Do you know what I mean?
                                         
                                         I was like, yeah, gorgeous.
                                         
                                         I'm up for it.
                                         
                                         And I did get the blue light things fitted into my lens as well.
                                         
                                         So I'm a blue light girl because obviously I'm on the screen a lot.
                                         
                                         I'm literally, do you know what?
                                         
    
                                         It's actually quite bad.
                                         
                                         I'm on my phone every minute of the day because obviously my job's on my phone so if I'm not doing any work I'm either
                                         
                                         like filming stuff or I'm doing emails or I'm just scrolling through TikTok for inspiration
                                         
                                         yeah that's I call it I call it research actually I'm just stuck in TikTok hole like the rest of us
                                         
                                         all right but I just call it research okay and if I'm not doing that I'm watching telly like it's
                                         
                                         very rare that I'm not looking at technology. It's very sad.
                                         
                                         I'm very ashamed to admit it.
                                         
                                         But then I was like, you know what?
                                         
    
                                         I actually need to protect these eyes.
                                         
                                         You know what I mean?
                                         
                                         So I've got blue light.
                                         
                                         Who fucking cares, Leah?
                                         
                                         No one cares about your fucking glasses and your eyes.
                                         
                                         All right.
                                         
                                         Sorry to bore you all.
                                         
                                         I wonder what your eyes are like.
                                         
    
                                         I hope they're all okay.
                                         
                                         Anyway, this episode, the usual choose. We've what your eyes are like. I hope they're all okay. Anyway, this episode,
                                         
                                         the usual choose. We've got a nice weekly debate. One of you guys requested that we did this weekly
                                         
                                         debate and I felt like it was a really good one. I can't remember. I feel like we might have done
                                         
                                         it ages ago or something along the lines of it, but either way, let's do it. Do you know what I
                                         
                                         mean? I'm really looking forward to it. It's a friends of benefits situation. So we'll get into
                                         
                                         that. Some great dilemmas this week. I've've also decided I think I'm going to do the confession diaries every other Tuesday
                                         
                                         so twice a month do you know what I mean so that we can have a good amount of confessions
                                         
    
                                         does that make sense but you never know I could I could change my mind but yeah I hope you guys
                                         
                                         are feeling good whatever it is you're doing I hope I'm happy to be with you I'm happy to be
                                         
                                         in your ears or on the speaker whatever it is if you doing, I hope I'm happy to be with you. I'm happy to be in your ears or on the speaker, whatever it is. If you're driving, drive safe, concentrate. Okay, don't let me
                                         
                                         distract you too much. And let's get into the episode. Thank you so much for listening to
                                         
                                         Leah on the Line. Remember to leave a rating on Apple Podcasts and Spotify and hit the notification
                                         
                                         bell. You can send in your confessions and dilemmas to Leah on the Line at gmail.com and
                                         
                                         follow me on socials at Leah on the Line and learovane to see visual clips of the podcast. I love you. Enjoy the episode. Okay, everyone, let's get comfy.
                                         
                                         Whatever it is you're doing, if you're at the gym, let's turn up the incline, baby. Yeah.
                                         
    
                                         If we're cleaning, if we're cleaning the house, turn it up, baby. Crank me up. Let's get in the
                                         
                                         cleaning mood if
                                         
                                         you're on a nice lovely walk look up look up at that beautiful sky hopefully it's that hopefully
                                         
                                         the sun is shining hopefully it's not raining the weather is a bit bipolar at the moment one minute
                                         
                                         is is wanting to give me love and warmth on my skin next minute wants to shower me with heavy
                                         
                                         rain and i'm not too sure how i feel about it. It's given hot and cold. Do you know
                                         
                                         what I mean? It's giving love bomb and then it's giving the breadcrumb. Do you know what I mean?
                                         
                                         Anyway, I'm in a toxic relationship with the weather right now, guys. The weekly debate this
                                         
    
                                         week is can friends with benefits be successful? So I don't know how I feel about this one because I feel like it can I'm sure it's worked but
                                         
                                         personally I feel like most of the time it can get complicated so let's have a look what you guys are
                                         
                                         saying in most cases no you've got to be really mentally strong slash unemotional for it to work
                                         
                                         I think yeah I'm with you on the unemotional part because it's like naturally like we get attached to people I feel like unless you're in a phase of your life where
                                         
                                         you're like no I'm cold unavailable absolutely unavailable do you know what I mean unless it's
                                         
                                         a situation like that I think naturally we get attached to people or at least our ego does do
                                         
                                         you know what I mean so it's like I don't actually want to be with you but if you
                                         
                                         decide you you want to be with someone else that's that's going to be an issue for me and my ego
                                         
    
                                         do you know what i mean okay let's move on to someone else personally no one always catches
                                         
                                         feelings more than the other only if you both know you don't ever want a relationship this never
                                         
                                         worked for me though i'd love to hear a success story hopefully we might have one in here okay only if neither of you would ever want to be together there has to be clear
                                         
                                         boundaries yeah I get you but then also it's like I know I guess it is normal to be like right if
                                         
                                         we're gonna do this let's set some boundaries in place let's let's make sure we're on the same
                                         
                                         page here you know um no from experience one of you always gets attached um i feel like when
                                         
                                         sorry i feel like even when you're both open with each other one person ends up catching feelings
                                         
                                         um as long as you're both on the same page and remain respectful it could work
                                         
    
                                         i worked as a holiday rep abroad and had a friend of benefits it was convenient and worked well
                                         
                                         until he tried it on with another rep who i was close to in front of me and on my birthday wow the disrespect even though it was
                                         
                                         nothing more than friends with benefits i felt disrespected yeah i think it gets difficult when
                                         
                                         you see slash find out you are not the only one oh yeah like friends with benefits i feel like
                                         
                                         it's fine and can work if you're not having like multiple
                                         
                                         sexual partners do you know what i mean like i feel like it would be a success story if it's like
                                         
                                         you know neither of us want relationships but we want frequent sex so i'll bring that into your
                                         
                                         life and you can bring that into mine no strings attached but if it's like we're friends of benefits
                                         
    
                                         but you're also sleeping for the people it's like well what what am i doing here do you know what i mean um it no turns to a relationship or it ends
                                         
                                         the same as a relationship it's life or it ends lol oh my goodness yeah i guess i wonder how many
                                         
                                         friends of benefit situations ended up relationships and it was like you know we it was just sex at
                                         
                                         first but we just fell madly in love i'd love tyranny if anyone's got any of those stories
                                         
                                         send them my way literally my situation right now but he picks and chooses when it suits him to reply
                                         
                                         or see me ouch no no no no would rather light myself on fire than ever go there again jesus
                                         
                                         um either one person catches feelings and gets hurt or you both catch feelings and fall in love
                                         
                                         oh i kind of like the idea i just love love you know what i mean i'd say if you set clear boundaries and accept it for what
                                         
    
                                         it is then sure i couldn't know i catch feelings quick yeah okay i feel like most of us are on the
                                         
                                         same page here of just like it's a dangerous situation you know like we gotta tread carefully
                                         
                                         if we ever enter a friends with benefits situation you know it can be a bit of a code red
                                         
                                         sometimes but I can imagine it works like I really can if it's like look I am totally unavailable
                                         
                                         I don't even know what it feels like to like someone right now I'm cold I'm not interested
                                         
                                         I'm working on myself I just want to have sex because sex is amazing and the other person's
                                         
                                         like I'm on
                                         
                                         the same fucking page couldn't think of anything worse in a relationship right now let's have
                                         
    
                                         frequent sex just me and you me and you baby no one else gorge but then also the exclusivity of it
                                         
                                         kind of sets it up for feelings you know what I mean it is a dangerous game I'm with you on that
                                         
                                         one it is a dangerous game I feel like sometimes it's an ideal situation
                                         
                                         do you know what I mean sometimes it's like well I don't want to not have sex but also I'm not
                                         
                                         fucking interested in getting to know someone going on fucking dates and shit you know what
                                         
                                         I mean like if you're really not in that place where you're just not looking for that right now
                                         
                                         but also the heart wants what it wants honey do you know what I mean the heart wants what it wants honey do you know what i mean the heart wants what it want selena gomez tune so yeah very interesting weekly debate i feel like there is no answer
                                         
                                         there is no settlement to that debate it will be ongoing forever it's situational at the end of the
                                         
    
                                         day thank you so much for all of your opinions and responses and experiences i love you i appreciate
                                         
                                         you if there's any success stories or any stories where it started as a friends of benefits situation and you ended up
                                         
                                         in a relationship, please send them my way to read out because I find it so interesting.
                                         
                                         All right, let's get into some dilemmas.
                                         
                                         Okay, dilemmas time. I promise to be as gentle as possible sometimes i forget that it's like
                                         
                                         people's real life situations and i'll just be like no hey it's fucking horrible get rid but
                                         
                                         i need to remember it's just really not that simple you know so i will i will try and be less
                                         
                                         straightforward sometimes because you know i do love you and i don't actually ever want to
                                         
    
                                         hurt anyone's feelings do you know what i mean all right let's get into the first one hey Leah love the pod I'm new
                                         
                                         welcome I love you but you have helped me stay awake driving to and from work so thank you well
                                         
                                         I'm glad I can keep you awake at the wheel that's probably the best for all of us thank you I love
                                         
                                         you okay I need some advice on a guy I've been seeing I'm really confused so I started seeing
                                         
                                         this guy in
                                         
                                         January. We knew each other previously at uni, but didn't rate each other like that because we were
                                         
                                         both players. Love it. Anyway, he's friends with my guy friends. So I thought I'd invite him to my
                                         
                                         birthday. And when I messaged to ask him, the conversation carried on for days and we actually
                                         
    
                                         began to see each other more and more and go on dates etc this guy was amazing showered me
                                         
                                         with compliments showed he cared and that he listened on our first date we had a takeaway
                                         
                                         night at his and at midnight he surprised me with a birthday cake the size of my palm saying happy
                                         
                                         birthday with my name on it oh that's sweet that's sweet basically love bombed the absolute shit out of me oh okay fuck
                                         
                                         it's a love bomb situation cold red anyway he came to my birthday plans met all my friends
                                         
                                         literally made all of them laugh and really impressed me then a few weeks went past maybe
                                         
                                         like four or five and he started getting really slow on replies oh would barely conversate the
                                         
                                         guy who was obsessed was suddenly not given anything
                                         
    
                                         so of course my anxiety went through the roof and I was sat there panicking for about two weeks
                                         
                                         thinking what have I done but my girls told me I'm overthinking it so I ignored it in the end
                                         
                                         I finally grew balls to ask him are we good and he basically said he's not okay at the moment he's
                                         
                                         going through some stuff he wasn't sorry he was being very vague and clearly didn't want to open up sounds like a bit of an excuse i feel like it's
                                         
                                         a classic it's a go-to i'm just i'm just having a bad time right now i'm just really going through
                                         
                                         it right now it's i feel like it's a shit excuse i get it sometimes it is the case sometimes it is
                                         
                                         but we hear it all the time don't we okay So I suggested if he wanted and it would make things
                                         
                                         easier, we could take a break until he gets his head clear again. Silly, stupid thing to suggest.
                                         
    
                                         I know. Of course I didn't want to, sorry. Of course I didn't want the break, but I wanted him
                                         
                                         to fight back and be like, no, I want you to be there. Instead he said, thank you for understanding.
                                         
                                         Oh, this is the thing. This is the thing.
                                         
                                         It's like self-sabotage, isn't it?
                                         
                                         Like we all do it.
                                         
                                         It's like, well, maybe we should just fucking break up then.
                                         
                                         And you want them to be like, no, no, no.
                                         
                                         And then they're like, yeah, it's probably for the best.
                                         
    
                                         You're like, what the fuck?
                                         
                                         Okay, well, if you just, you know, if you need some space, I'm happy to give you space.
                                         
                                         We want, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. I really don't want space. But instead it's, that would be really
                                         
                                         nice. Thank you. What do you mean? Where's the fight, please? Okay. Right. Let's continue on.
                                         
                                         He told me he lost his uncle that week and that he thinks that might be the best thing for us
                                         
                                         right now. I was gutted. My heart was shattered. I wanted more than anything to be there for him, but he didn't want me to be.
                                         
                                         I checked in on him about a week after as he hadn't messaged anything and he replied once,
                                         
                                         then ignored my message. Oh no. Okay. It gets worse. A couple of weeks go past and I still
                                         
    
                                         hear nothing. So my friend suggests I forget about him and get back out there.
                                         
                                         Yeah, I'm with your friend on that one.
                                         
                                         So I redownloaded Hinge.
                                         
                                         I'm swiping no to all these guys when I come across his profile.
                                         
                                         My first thought was that it's probably an old one.
                                         
                                         I think she didn't put the word one, but it's probably an old one.
                                         
                                         And he forgot to delete his account whilst we were seeing each other exclusively why do we do it i'm sure this is really old i'm sure he wasn't on
                                         
                                         this the whole time we were exclusive oh girl okay until i scroll down to see his prompt you
                                         
    
                                         should message me if his response was if you're going to rolling loud i'm assuming that's like
                                         
                                         an event i don't know
                                         
                                         i'm not cool girl so i don't really know what that is which he booked whilst he was with me
                                         
                                         i'm so baffled and confused as to why he wasn't just honest with me did he really have family
                                         
                                         issues was that all a lie i get the urge to message him angrily asking why he wasn't just
                                         
                                         honest with me i'm not gonna bite his head off if he tells me he lost interest really need to hear some of your advice as i'm holding on hoping he will come back
                                         
                                         but also do i really want that back okay so immediately this is what i always say right
                                         
                                         when a guy fucks you over and they show you they don't give a fuck because realistically that's
                                         
    
                                         what he's showing you like he doesn't care and it's fucking rude yeah and you deserve better
                                         
                                         than that first and foremost but he's showing you like he's he's not bothered right now he isn't
                                         
                                         god knows what happens in the future we'll see but right now he's unbothered he's obviously
                                         
                                         using hinge chatting to girls he's come up with an excuse like he might be going through it right
                                         
                                         now that might be true but that's still an excuse as to why he doesn't want to know you because
                                         
                                         he's wanting to talk to other girls do you know what i mean so that was a fucking like what's the word cop out that's the
                                         
                                         word it was a cop out so immediately i want to say to you don't send this message of like you
                                         
                                         really hurt me why won't you just fucking honest with me like you think i'm gonna cry if you tell
                                         
    
                                         me you're not interested like i'm a big girl i can handle it that's what we want to say don't we
                                         
                                         you could have just fucking had some balls and told me do you know what i mean rather than fuck me over the fucking disrespect
                                         
                                         like we want to do that but they read it and they think oh fuck off like they just think oh god like
                                         
                                         they're not like oh my god no she's really mad at me she's really upset like they don't care and
                                         
                                         it's annoying right because we want to get it off our chest but i always like whenever i'm talking
                                         
                                         to a friend in
                                         
                                         that situation when I've been in that situation myself I always just think right we've got to
                                         
                                         flip the way we see it because right now it feels like he's got this control and he's like oh I'm
                                         
    
                                         not fucking interested and you're the one that's feeling rejected and you're and you're you you're
                                         
                                         like dying to tell him how you feel just to get it off your chest and you're hoping that he's
                                         
                                         going to tell you he gives a fuck when his actions have clearly showed you that he doesn't right we've got to flip it and just think
                                         
                                         like fuck off then do you know what i mean like fuck off then and literally that is taking control
                                         
                                         as well by saying i'm literally not going to message you and there is a high high high chance
                                         
                                         that he thinks you're still there waiting
                                         
                                         think he's going thinking he's going for a hard time and the door is open for him to message you
                                         
                                         whenever he wants right and there's a high chance that he will and he will message you and be like
                                         
    
                                         hey how are you and you're he's expecting you to be like no it's no reply no reply darling not getting nothing from me it's the disrespect and the
                                         
                                         bullshit basically and he's not bothered because he's talking to other girls do you know what i
                                         
                                         mean he's on hinge he's not bothered and that's fine he's allowed to do that but be honest about
                                         
                                         it do you know what i mean and give someone
                                         
                                         an explanation if you're exclusive with someone you've been seeing me for months you've met all
                                         
                                         my friends and then you've just gone absolute ghost we're not going to be sat here waiting
                                         
                                         for him to change his mind about us like it's a situation where it's like fuck off then do you
                                         
                                         know what i mean whatever he'll come back it's highly likely there's a 90 chance he'll slide
                                         
    
                                         into your dms pop up to a fucking story or just message you saying how are you you look good on
                                         
                                         saturday whatever mate do you know what i mean because to him the door's open it's open for him
                                         
                                         whenever he's ready and he doesn't even know that you've shut the door and he's gonna be in right
                                         
                                         shock when he comes sliding into your messages can't even get that you've shut the door. And he's going to be in for a right shock when he comes sliding into your messages.
                                         
                                         Can't even get in.
                                         
                                         Door shut.
                                         
                                         Door's locked.
                                         
                                         Bolted.
                                         
    
                                         Darling.
                                         
                                         Do you know what I mean?
                                         
                                         That is the mentality.
                                         
                                         Okay.
                                         
                                         I hope it helps.
                                         
                                         Just remember you're a boss, sexy, gorgeous, funny, talented girl.
                                         
                                         Yeah?
                                         
                                         Bad bitch energy from now on always.
                                         
    
                                         I love you.
                                         
                                         Listen to your friends friends they sound very wise
                                         
                                         okay next dilemma hey gorgeous girl oh feeling like a stunning girl i know i need an outsider's
                                         
                                         perspective on this situation i have going on okay i've got you babes after matching on tinder
                                         
                                         we started seeing each other over last summer we got on so well so quickly and acted as a couple for about two months
                                         
                                         met families etc however we were going back to our unis two hours away in september so it fizzled as
                                         
                                         we knew we didn't want a long distance relationship one thing i will add is that this boy is such a
                                         
                                         ladies man and has admitted to me now he slept with with a couple girls while seeing me in the summer oh that's so
                                         
    
                                         fucking shit okay i thought we'd go our separate ways for good but every time he comes home from
                                         
                                         uni for christmas etc as i go to uni in our hometown he makes an effort to come and see me
                                         
                                         but then goes back and doesn't speak to me yeah because you again similar to last dilemma the
                                         
                                         doors open whenever it suits
                                         
                                         him whenever he's home he's got that girl waiting for him for a bit of fun a bit of attention bit of
                                         
                                         an ego boost right he came he came back for easter and after a drunken night out he told me he loves
                                         
                                         me he said it was somewhere between platonic love. What is platonic love? Is that a fucking thing?
                                         
                                         Platonic?
                                         
    
                                         Doesn't platonic mean the opposite of love?
                                         
                                         Like, I don't know.
                                         
                                         Maybe I'm misunderstanding that.
                                         
                                         And in love, sorry, it was somewhere between platonic love and in love.
                                         
                                         But it was the most he's ever felt for a girl and he wants to be with me,
                                         
                                         but doesn't think it'd be right with the distance.
                                         
                                         I didn't say it back.
                                         
                                         Good for you, girl.
                                         
    
                                         We had a conversation the next morning, sober sober and he told me he meant every word but with lads slash girls holidays booked for both of us in the summer and another year at uni we don't think it'd
                                         
                                         be right to get together okay well what the fuck was the point in telling me then i don't really
                                         
                                         understand this boy has a history of sleeping around and cheating but he tells me
                                         
                                         that he has a huge soft spot for me i bet you fucking do yeah i bet you fucking do and wants
                                         
                                         me but i just don't think i could ever truly trust him but i do feel the same way towards him
                                         
                                         my family and friends adore him he treats me so well but i don't know if i could be with that much
                                         
                                         of a ladies man i don't know how to say, but he has slept with a lot of girls.
                                         
                                         What do I do?
                                         
    
                                         I've told him actions speak louder than words and he doesn't show me how much he cares,
                                         
                                         but says he will show it in the long term and he's never met a girl like me.
                                         
                                         I don't love him, but I definitely think I could just have never allowed myself to grow
                                         
                                         those feelings for him before because never expected him to be this serious about me.
                                         
                                         Love from a very confused
                                         
                                         girly okay this is confusing like even i'm even even i feel confused by this boy but what do you
                                         
                                         mean you love me what do you mean i'm so confused okay so he's like i really like you i've never
                                         
                                         felt this way but we can't be together it's like what but in my opinion it's like if you love me distance means
                                         
    
                                         fuck all like you you come home all the time this is your home like you just go to uni so in my
                                         
                                         opinion it sounds like he might have a situation at uni that he might be going back to and he
                                         
                                         doesn't want to commit um but it's also difficult because it could also just be true and he could
                                         
                                         also just be in a situation where he's like he can't help that he feels this way about you but
                                         
                                         he's just like mentally not ready it's almost like his heart wants you but his head doesn't
                                         
                                         do you know what i mean by that my personal opinion is that he just doesn't want to commit
                                         
                                         to anyone listen there's a possibility that he might genuinely
                                         
                                         have these really strong feelings for you but at the end of the day it's about what he's willing
                                         
    
                                         to give you not just what he's saying he feels because that's that's not enough for me do you
                                         
                                         know what i mean like you can't just go yeah i love you and all that but not sure if it's platonic
                                         
                                         or if i'm in love but also don't want to be with you but also i've never felt this way about anyone but also like i just couldn't do this distance like i'm sorry what the fuck do you think i am like if i
                                         
                                         got mug written on my forehead do you know what i mean i think you deserve just better than that
                                         
                                         like commitment at the very fucking least from someone um if that's what you want but yeah i
                                         
                                         just don't i think this guy doesn't know what
                                         
                                         he's fucking feeling it could be bullshit it could be a situation where he's saying what he knows you
                                         
                                         want to hear because i always say this boys know exactly what they need to say i always say it and
                                         
    
                                         it's true like he obviously knows what he wants from you whether it's that you're sleeping together
                                         
                                         i can't remember if you even said that it's sex that you've actually been doing with him but
                                         
                                         if whether it's sex or just someone to feed his ego whatever it is that he wants from you he is
                                         
                                         a possibility that he's just saying all this because he thinks that's what I need to say
                                         
                                         to get that from her but there is also a possibility that he genuinely means it but at the end of the
                                         
                                         day it's not about what's coming out of his mouth like you said actions speak louder than words and
                                         
                                         he's not showing you anything he's not showing you any signs of wanting to actually be with you
                                         
                                         he's just saying it not actually saying he doesn't want to be with you but saying he loves you like
                                         
    
                                         sorry what the fuck what am i supposed to do that information please do you know what I mean so I would really try to
                                         
                                         disconnect from the words you're hearing from him and focus on the behavior that he's showing you
                                         
                                         because that's the reality of the situation just remember you could turn around to him and say
                                         
                                         I don't even fucking like you I'm not even fucking interested in you I don't fancy you
                                         
                                         that's all rubbish but you could just be saying that to detach do you know what I mean you could
                                         
                                         turn around and say to him I'm in love with you I've never felt this way about anyone before please be with me and it could
                                         
                                         be bullshit like you can say whatever you want and it doesn't mean it's true so look at what he's
                                         
                                         doing not what he's saying and I think that's when we see people's intentions and who they are and
                                         
    
                                         what they want from you because at the end of the, if he wants to be with you, he will make that happen.
                                         
                                         He will show you that.
                                         
                                         He will ask you.
                                         
                                         And if he doesn't, he's going to continue behaving the way he is.
                                         
                                         So I would just say be careful and try as hard as you can to detach from the words.
                                         
                                         Focus on the action.
                                         
                                         I love you so much.
                                         
                                         You deserve better than that.
                                         
    
                                         Love you.
                                         
                                         Next dilemma. Okay. Hey, very long story story so I'll keep it short and sweet basically me and Lauren had been friends since babies grown up
                                         
                                         together went to the same primary and secondary school together a few times also together full
                                         
                                         stop a few times she dropped me when someone new came along or if i became friends with someone
                                         
                                         which she didn't like me doing oh no not one of them not one of them well last year she dropped
                                         
                                         me again blocked me randomly on my birthday what the hell for ages i've wondered why again
                                         
                                         she messaged me recently explains i did nothing wrong but not explaining to me why she did what
                                         
                                         she did and says that she wants a friendship again i don't know how to feel or what to do
                                         
    
                                         please help love you bye okay i just think these friends are really draining i've met these friends
                                         
                                         okay and they're really exhausting because it's like where do i stand can i trust you do you
                                         
                                         actually give a fuck about me because listen
                                         
                                         we've all had those friends we've all come across those people and I think you know a real friend
                                         
                                         when you know my best friend Jess right we can make a plan for Friday and I could wake up on
                                         
                                         Friday and go I can't be fucked today I really can't bother to leave the house and she'll go
                                         
                                         all right, cool,
                                         
                                         I'm glad you said that, because me fucking evens, to be honest, and it's not like, oh my fucking god,
                                         
    
                                         you bitch, you feel like, like, a real friend, you know, no matter what, you're best friends,
                                         
                                         it doesn't matter, it doesn't matter what's going on, you're best friends, nothing could get between
                                         
                                         you, no, you'll never have these, like, oh my fucking god she this fucking bitch like she's my
                                         
                                         best friend yeah and she was meant to meet me on friday and she literally texted me saying she
                                         
                                         bothered like she can meet me she could plan to meet me and then and then turn around and be like
                                         
                                         i'm too anxious and i'll be like sweet love you let me know what you need like it's the the real
                                         
                                         friendships are when you just know you're just friends for life you're friends for life no
                                         
                                         matter what you're just friends for life these kind of friendships it's like when are you going
                                         
    
                                         to drop me again have you got a problem with me why are you being blunt with me can I tell her
                                         
                                         that I've made friends with someone is she going to be pissed off at me is she going to be jealous
                                         
                                         is she envious of any success like these are the friends that I find really exhausting.
                                         
                                         So personally, in my experience, I just always, I fizzle out of these friendships because they don't feel real to me. They just feel really draining and really exhausting.
                                         
                                         And I don't know, as I've gotten older, I've just realized that that's just not normal.
                                         
                                         Like your friends don't just drop you and then just come back like I feel like there's a
                                         
                                         personal issue there that she might have towards you whether it be jealousy whether it be some
                                         
                                         unresolved issue from a while ago whether it be deeper than than surface level issues whatever
                                         
    
                                         she's got a problem and she for some reason she's not saying it like to drop someone to drop a
                                         
                                         friend is pretty fucking heavy do you know
                                         
                                         what i mean so i don't know you could approach it and be like look i love our friendship but
                                         
                                         you're flaky as fuck like you're constantly dropping me for just for no reason and why
                                         
                                         what do i do and maybe you'll get an answer there you know maybe we might get a bit of honesty um but yeah I would just say
                                         
                                         like with these kind of friends I call them mates I would say this there's a difference between
                                         
                                         friends and mates mates are the people that you can go have a great time with you you love them
                                         
                                         like you're my mate like I've got you and friends is like you're with me for life do you know what
                                         
    
                                         I mean no matter what you're gonna be at my wedding you're gonna be for life do you know what i mean no matter what you're going to be at my wedding you're going to be one of the first people to meet my babies like that's a friend
                                         
                                         and may is just like we have a sick time loads of great memories love her to bits do you know
                                         
                                         what i mean and it's okay to have both it's okay to have both and it's okay to have just
                                         
                                         mate level friendships of people um but i think just be careful and tread carefully because this
                                         
                                         this friend sounds like
                                         
                                         she is hurting you and let you down quite a lot which is just shit you know what i mean
                                         
                                         but yeah let me know what you decide to do and let me know what she says i'm really intrigued
                                         
                                         because it doesn't make sense like she just said oh you didn't do anything wrong but it's like well
                                         
    
                                         what's the reason then so i think you need a reason you deserve a reason like don't just tell
                                         
                                         me i didn't do anything wrong i know that but what the hell went through your head like I'd love to understand
                                         
                                         a little bit more you know um yeah love you and I'll always be your friend babe you got me for
                                         
                                         life all of us near on the line we're all here for you we all love you um actually that reminds
                                         
                                         me I get a few messages quite frequently still about like wanting to make
                                         
                                         friends and stuff. So to anyone that missed it, I posted a feed post on my Atelier on the Line
                                         
                                         Instagram account saying like, let's make friends. So head over to that because it's basically a post
                                         
                                         where you can drop a comment about like what your interests are, where you live, like your local
                                         
    
                                         area, how old you are and loads of people
                                         
                                         like you was all commenting and replying to each other and dming each other and finding friends in
                                         
                                         your local area or in cities that you go to frequently and I think it's a great beautiful
                                         
                                         place for for us all to make friends so to anyone that missed that head over to the Instagram because
                                         
                                         I really love that and a lot of you seem to love it as well so to anyone that missed that head over to the instagram because i really love that and a lot of you seem to love it as well so to anyone that missed it it's still up it will always be up so
                                         
                                         check it out all right i love you guys let's wrap up the episode
                                         
                                         okay everyone thank you so so much for listening to this episode i hope you enjoyed it anyone that
                                         
                                         can relate to any of the dilemmas i hope they were helpful for you as well any weekly debate ideas
                                         
    
                                         send them my way as always send in your dilemmas and confessions there's always a link on my
                                         
                                         instagram it's in my story highlights but if you'd rather send an email it's leahontheline
                                         
                                         at gmail.com super simple and yeah I'm always here i love hearing all of your personal stories
                                         
                                         when it comes to the weekly debates i'm loving the confessions keep them coming and yeah thank
                                         
                                         you so much for all your support and love you're the best friends i could ever ask for in the whole
                                         
                                         world and i hope you know i'm genuinely always here for you and yeah have the best week whatever
                                         
                                         episode you want to do on friday i think we're going to do the quiz
                                         
                                         so jamie you better get quiz mastering it up hon and get your brains ticking get a notepad and a
                                         
    
                                         pen ready for friday's app all right guys have the best week and i'll speak to you on friday
                                         
                                         for a brand new episode all right I love you. Bye.
                                         
