Let's Be Honest with Kristin Cavallari - Saying Goodbye to Kona and Making Changes in 2026

Episode Date: January 13, 2026

This episode is bittersweet for me. I’m sharing the heartbreaking loss of my German Shepherd, Kona, and what it was like saying goodbye, not just for me, but for my kids, who grew up with her by their side. Grief has a way of stopping time… and also reminding you how precious it is.From there, we talk about the energy of the new year: the shedding, the forward momentum, and why this one already feels different. I share a manifestation practice I’m trying in 2026, why I’m writing my goals as if they’ve already happened, and how I’m working to release long-held limiting beliefs around love, career, and the idea that you can’t have it all.A word from my sponsors:Kahlua - Find Kahlúa Dunkin Caramel Swirl at retailers nationwide, including Walmart, Total Wine, Albertsons, Kroger, Ralphs, Safeway, BevMo, Publix, and more. Must be 21 or older to purchase. Please drink responsiblyBon Charge - Go to boncharge.com/HONEST and use coupon code HONEST to save 15%.Nutrafol - See thicker, stronger, faster-growing hair with less shedding in just 3-6 months with Nutrafol. For a limited time, Nutrafol is offering our listeners $10 off your first month’s subscription and free shipping when you go to Nutrafol.com and enter the promo code HONESTCookUnity - Go to https://www.cookunity.com/HONEST for 50% off your first order. Thanks to CookUnity for supporting the show!Monarch Money - Use code HONEST at monarch.com for half off your first year.Wayfair - Head to Wayfair.com right now to shop all things homeFor more Let's Be Honest, follow along at:@kristincavallari on Instagram@kristincavallari and @dearmedia on TikTokLet's Be Honest with Kristin Cavallari on YouTubeProduced by Dear Media.This episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct, or indirect financial interest in products, or services referred to in this episode.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

The following podcast is a dear media production. This is Let's Be Honest with Kristen Cavalry, a podcast all about getting real and open on everything from sex, relationships, reality TV, wellness, family, and so much more. And just a fair warning, there will probably be some oversharing. Happy New Year! I don't know if you can still say that, but I think because this is the first podcast ever recorded in the new year. It does feel appropriate. It feels right. So happy New Year, everybody. I think you can definitely get away with saying Happy New Year for at least the first couple

weeks and then it gets kind of weird, but you're getting one from me. So happy New Year. I hope everyone is off to a really great start. I already feel this energy of it being the year of the horse. And I know that the year of the horse does not start until the middle of February. However, I just feel this new energy and this momentum, and I just feel like things are moving. They are moving already, and it makes me so happy because I feel like things were kind of stagnant for the last few months. And 2025 was the year of the snake. I'm sure you guys have been seeing this all over Instagram and everything else. But in a nutshell, it was saying that Year of the Snake was all about shedding and releasing. And now, year of the horse, how it's supposed to impact everybody is

this forward momentum. It's a new beginning. It's like things are start to get moving now. The ball's going to get rolling. And I really do honestly feel that. So I'm excited for the year. Unfortunately, I have really sad news that I'm going to kick this off with. I had to put my German Shepherd Kona down yesterday. And God, it is, it is so hard the physical act of putting a dog down. It's the second time I've had to do it. I did it with my Yorkie a few years ago. But even if you have made peace with it and like, you know, Kono was just old. She was almost 12 for a German shepherd. That's great. Germans are usually nine to 12 years is their range. And so she lived a great life. Like Kono was, up until the last few months,

she was going on walks with us still. And I mean, she was kind of losing her eyesight and her hearing, but she still, she was hanging. And then, I don't know, in the last,

like, five, six months, she just really took a downhill turn. And Saler and I brought her to the vet over the Christmas break. And he basically was just like, listen, you know,

she's at that point. Like, she's just, she's old. And she was sort of like hanging her head really low. And, you know, what the vet was saying to me was basically, all dogs, but especially these specific breeds like a German Shepherd who, they're really

prideful, you know? And when they get to this point, like she was holding her head down and he was like, she doesn't like that. Like she has shame because of it because she's just not herself anymore. And she was having some issues with her body. And it was just was at the point where it was like, it's just time. So even though, you know, we had a week to say goodbye to her and we felt all the things we're not supposed to, you know, chocolate and peanut butter. We gave her steak the night before. And she just really, we did it, you know, we did it the right way. And I'm really happy we were able to say goodbye to her that way.

But I took her in. And if you guys haven't experienced this before, it's intense. So what happens is I brought her in and they gave us a room and they had a blanket on the floor and they inject her with some sort of medicine that, makes her really drowsy and, and, like, really her body heavy. So she eventually laid down. And it's, it's, you know, relatively slow. But so she laid down.

And, you know, then, you know, she was like, she couldn't really move her body. And then her head got really heavy. And I was laying there with her and I was petting her. I'm going to turn really hard not to cry. God, that was the hard part was, there was like this 10-minute window where I was in there with her. and she was just, her body was just getting really heavy and tired.

And that's not the drug that kills her, but this is just to make her, you know, just tired and sort of loopy, I guess. But, and I was just petting her. So that was like 10 minutes. And then they come in and then they inject her with the drug that makes her heart stop. Oh my God. But it is, it's so hard. It's really hard holding your dog and that happening. Oh, my God.

And then so the kids, so the kids went to school and then I took Kona. And as I was walking out of the vet, Camden texted me and he was like, I can't be here. Can you please come get me? And I went and got Cam and he got in my car and just started bawling crying. And like for me, that's also the hard part is my kids and Kona being their whole childhood really, you know. We got Kona when she was three. So we didn't have her from when she was a puppy. But I'm going to tell you guys why we got Kona and just how incredible this dog was. But really, from all three of my kids, you know, I mean, Sailor was a year and a half when we got her. And so basically their whole childhood was with Kona. And seeing Camden so sad, oh my God, it just wrecked me. It wrecked me. This is like the first big death for them. And I think at Camden's age, he's 13, like, death becomes real, you know? I remember when I was in sixth grade, my uncle died, and that was the first person that I knew that died. And it has a wild impact on you when your mind is starting to process death and what it means. And like, where do they go? And there's

so many questions. I mean, even as an adult, like when my brother died 10 years ago, I had all of those questions still. But when you're a kid, it's like, it's almost like death isn't real until you experience that first loss. And I feel like for Cam, all three of my kids, but for Cam, it hit him pretty hard because it's like the first big one for him. So that was really hard. But you guys, listen how cool of a dog, Kona was. So we got Kona because we lived in, a gated community in Green Hills, which is a little town here in Tennessee. And this is in 2017, maybe. And my ex-husband was in Miami playing football. He ended up going to Miami for a season. But I had all three of the kids here with me. And they were in preschool. The boys were.

And so I just, I didn't want to move everybody to Miami when it was only going to be like five, six months. We knew it was just going to be for one season. So it just, it just, made more sense for the kids and I to stay put and us, you know, we would go to Miami when we could. But just to keep the routine and everything, we stayed here. But in this community, all of our neighbors' cars were getting broken into, and it scared me. And then our neighbor's house got broken into. And finally, when one of the neighbors' houses got broken into, I was like, I can't do this because for me, everyone knew my ex has. Ben's schedule. That was public. Everyone knew he was in Miami. So if you really wanted to figure it out,

you would know that I was at my house with three little kids. And our house was big. And I'm only saying that, it's not a humble brag. I'm just saying that because I was scared. I don't think I slept at all when Jay was gone and we were in this situation or until we got Kona, I should say. So our house was huge and the master was on the main floor, like tucked away in a corner. And there was a staircase from the master upstairs. But then all of the kids' bedrooms were upstairs. And on the other end of the house, which is where the kitchen was, there was also a staircase that went right up to all of the bedrooms. And so you could open the door to the kitchen and I could be in the master bedroom and have no idea what is happening on the other end of the house. And you could go upstairs to all of

the kids' bedrooms. And that used to scare the shit out of me. That's why I couldn't sleep. I was like, I had no idea what was going on. And so we had a German shepherd. His name was Bain, but he was a big lover. I didn't think he would actually do anything if someone broke into the house. So after the neighbor's house got broken into, we got Kona. And Kona came fully trained. You know, we got her when she was three, and she was a badass. And I had never had a German Shepard before. I grew up with labs. But the place that we got her from kept saying, you know, she was an attack dog. Like she had all this attack dog training. And I don't know what to expect. So they said, whoever gets her from the airport and opens up her crate, that's going to be

her person, right? Like whoever opens up that crate, that will forever be their master. So Jackson was really little, but the two of us went to the airport to get Kona. And I was a little little nervous only because I just didn't know what to expect with these attack dogs. I wasn't expecting her to be really sweet and loving. And because Jackson was so little also, it just, I don't know, I was just a little nervous. But we got to the airport and I opened up the crate and Kona was immediately so sweet and loving with both Jackson and I. And I immediately was just like, this is my dog, man. This is my girl. And she was. She was always, always my dog. Kona would follow me everywhere and she always had eyes on me.

And the coolest thing that Kona ever did was her first night in that house, she instinctually knew, you guys, to sleep on that other staircase at the other end of the house. and that was such an incredible moment when I realized she was on the staircase. Because I just felt so safe, finally, like after months of not sleeping and being so worried about all of my babies upstairs, Gona just knew to sleep on that staircase to keep them safe. And it was the best feeling in the entire world. And so that was Kona, in a nutshell, just the most badass, amazing dog. on the planet. She was the best. She really was. She was the absolute best dog. So she is going to be greatly missed. And I will forever have a German Shepherd now. Once you have a German Shepherd,

it is so hard to not have one because they are the coolest breed on the planet. The most loyal, fierce, just smart, just amazing, amazing breed. So I'm not quite ready to get a puppy, because I've got a three-year-old dog and a two-year-old dog, so I feel like I just did the puppy phase with both of them. But we're looking at this website that we got Kona from and keeping tabs. I feel like the summer's always a good time to get a dog. I'm undecided if I want to get a puppy or get a trained German Shepherd because honestly, Kona going that route was kind of amazing.

But with the kids, it's nice to have a puppy. And obviously, I love having a dog from when they're looking. So I don't know. I don't know. We're just browsing the website and we're just seeing, but I'm not ready to pull the trigger just yet. But we are cremating Kona and I'm waiting to get her ashes and then we are going to spread them in our yard. We did the same thing with my Yorkie Bardo a few years ago. So anyways, sad news. But honestly, Kona lived such a great life and she was, God, she was just the best dog. So I told my kids, she's in heaven with Bardo and my brother Mike and they have another guardian angel. watching over them. I'm excited to talk to you guys about Bon Charge. You know I love them. Bon Charge is a holistic wellness brand with a huge range of evidence-based products to optimize your life in every way.

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me is basically like I hated that house. So one time, so, so what we used to do is we split our time between Chicago and Nashville. And when we were living in Chicago, there was a weekend and I just decided to take Jackson to Nashville just for the weekend. I, I have always loved to do one-on-one things with all of my kids. When they were little, it was easier to just like take them for a weekend. Or if I went to L.A., I remember like, I would take sailors sometimes or whatever it may be. But I just wanted to do something with Jackson and I came to Nashville for a long weekend. And we had done some renovations in that house. And that's when Twitter was big. And I remember I think I tweeted that we were in Nashville, which I also, I just don't think it's smart to be telling people where you are in real time,

you know? But I did. And so anyways, Jackson and I, we had a really fun day. I remember we went got donuts and like we just it was it was a great day so he slept with me that night Jackson was probably three or so so Saylor was a baby so I must have I probably had just stopped breastfeeding her and I was like freedom you know and so I just decided to take Jackson to Nashville so that night that first night that Jackson and I are in Nashville he's sleeping with me in my room and I used to always set the alarm. By the way, after two false scares with an alarm, I hate, I hate house alarms. So Jackson and I are sleeping, probably went to bed at like 930 or 10. And at 11 o'clock, I wake up to the house alarm going off. Okay. And I jump out of bed and I go look at the pad on the wall

and it says zone one. Well, I have no idea in this house where zone one is. I'm assuming it's the other end of the house where the kitchen is. And so I, though, you guys, am freaking the fuck out. And the first thing that pops into my head is that I tweeted that I was in Tennessee. So I was like, someone's coming to kill me. I grabbed Jackson. I get him out of bed.

and we go in my closet, which in my, this house was sick. I mean, this closet was huge. It was a huge walking closet that had a huge island in the middle. So I take Jackson on the other side of the island and we are ducked down and we are hiding. And I'm at the same time calling 911 and they want you to stay on the phone with them. And by the way, there are two ways to come into my closet. So I'm, You guys, it was probably one of the most scared I've ever been. And I've got, oh my God, I've got Jackson with me. So I'm like freaking out. I literally think someone is coming in this house to come find Jackson and I and kill us.

So the cops get there or I'm on the phone with them and they're like, they have to go around the whole perimeter of the house. So, okay, so it's going to take them a couple minutes now to go along the whole house. I'm like shaking. And Jackson has no idea what's going on. but he's scared. And then they said, you have to go open the front door for the cops. They can't come in.

I'm like, what? I'm like terrified to go in my house. Luckily, the front door was pretty close to the bedroom. So I run out there. I open it up. They come in. They search the whole house. Long story short.

Zone 1 was my bedroom. Thank God I didn't know that. Thank God I did not know that. because I would have been for a re- I would have been even, I mean, I would have, there's just no way.

I wouldn't have made it. So the wind blew open a door in the bathroom because we had totally renovated our master bathroom. And there was, you know, like tape on it and it wasn't closed all the way. The wind blew it open and set off the alarm. I have never been so scared in my entire life.

And after that, I actually, that's not true. I think after that, another thing that happened in Chicago was the boys were little. So this must have happened after the Chicago incident. And that's when after Nashville, I was like, I'm never setting an alarm ever again, ever again. And that's part of the reason why I like having German Shepherds because they themselves are a more reliable alarm. Let's put it that way.

But in Chicago, I was pregnant with Sailor. So the boys were little. we were upstairs in the boys' bathroom. I was giving them a bath. Jay was gone for football. And I turned on the alarm. The boys are upstairs. And I had music going.

We were in the bath and blah, blah, blah. And give them a bath. Everyone's having a good time. I get them out of the bath, putting their towels on. I open up the door and the alarm is going off. And I have no idea how long it's been going off for. Like, I've, for all I know, someone's in the house. Again, coming to kill me.

and the kids. Okay. That's always my initial go-to thought process. So same thing. I have to call the cops. We're like hiding upstairs in this bedroom. I have no idea what's going on in my house. And the cops come. And what happened that time was a toy from the bath, like at some point I had gotten thrown or whatever. It set off the alarm for glass break. So I had too many instances when my kids were little that set off the alarms and I just, I've never been so scared, especially with little babies, you guys. Like, I think it's one thing when it's just you, but when you have your little babies with you, oh, it's the scariest thing on the planet. So I don't even know how those came up, those alarm scares, but that house, yeah, that house just used to scare the shit out of me. And again,

another reason why I was so happy to have Kona. Sad news. Okay, but anyways, jumping ship, changing course. I do want to talk to you guys about the new year, and I wanted to give you guys a little manifestation hack that I'm trying this year. So every year I write my goals right around the new year, and instead what I did this year was I wrote everything in the past tense. So I almost wrote it as though it's the end of 2006.

And I wrote sort of what I was grateful for for the year. And I've just been seeing all of these things with talking about manifestation and how really the key is to move throughout your life as though everything has already happened like it's done. But even when you talk about things in the past tense, it's like, life then has to catch up to you and make it happen. So I'm trying it. This is new. And I just wanted to bring you guys along on the ride, too, because it makes sense to me. So some of the things that I wrote, I always have financial goals. I have personal financial goals. And I have

Uncommon James financial goals. This year is a big one for me with collabs that I want to do with Uncommon James. And God, I'm so funny and excited. I, okay, I can't say anything, but we're working on really incredible collabs and I already have two people locked on that are huge. And so it's going to be a really great year. I already feel it through with Uncommon James. Okay. But then I also wrote the relationship that I want to find this year. That's like my big personal goal this year is finding my man. Where the hell is my man? And I always talk about my kids' health, their great health, my health, you know, the nitty gritty. But I ended it with that 2006 was the best year of my life. It's a bold statement, but guys, we're doing it. This is going to be the best year of my life.

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There's no chopping, slicing, or leaving half a cabbage in your fridge that will end up just going bad. They're also so great for me the days that I go to the office so that I don't have to pack a lunch or make a meal in the morning. I can just grab one of these and go. They have such an expansive portfolio with so many options to choose from. That includes 28 chopped kits, 10 salad kits, six organic chopped kits, and nine mini-choped kits. So there's truly something for every appetite and every occasion. If I can do it, you can too. Grab a Taylor Farms chopped salad kit and get your salad together. So another big theme for me this year is in the last few months, I sort of realized that I have these two limiting beliefs around love.

And what those two limiting beliefs are, I realized for years, like I think since high school, I have had a limiting belief that you can't have them both, meaning you can't have the relationship slash family and the career, that it's always sort of been one or the other. And that was sort of, that was mirrored to me in the past. And again, because it was my belief, like whatever your beliefs are,

that's what the universe is going to mirror to you. So sure, if that was my belief, then that was definitely what was being mirrored to me. But I, and I think it's great when we can realize what these beliefs are because then we can squash that. But another one, another limiting belief that I've had is that a partner will hold me back as far as my career goes. And again, that's always been mirrored to me as well. So for me, it's squashing those beliefs.

And so what I also said when I was writing my goals or sort of like a look back at the year was that this year taught me that you can in fact have it all. So that's really what I'm working towards this year is that you can in fact have. a great career and you can also have a really great relationship. And I think, yeah, maybe it will look a little different. But what I also realized is, well, and so I do think there's a piece of truth to that. Like, you can't have the top, top, top career and also have the most amazing family. Or you can, but you're not going to be present for most of it. And so what I realized is, and I say this in such a positive way, but my kids. Kids have already limited me.

And what I mean by that is, I don't have the luxury to go to L.A., to go, you know, do some of the things that I would do if I didn't have kids. And I'm not upset about that at all. In fact, I'm really grateful for it because what my kids have done is they've, my kids anchor me and they ground me. And they've made it so that I have this incredible balance. And I'm very, very thankful for that balance because I'm. I know me and I know it would be really easy for me just to be go, go, go and just not stopping and not really prioritizing my personal health necessarily. And so I'm thankful for that. I need this grounding force is so, so good for me. But with that being said, what I've realized

is I'm already doing it. And so I don't need to have this limiting belief around love because a man would be able to just fit right into that very nicely where like it's not a man that's going to make it so that I can't do the things in my career that I want to be doing. I actually think I'm really lucky because I'm doing the things I want to be doing. I mean, I feel so lucky. And I've said it before that I have Uncommon James and I have the podcast and I am my own boss. I can make my own hours. I can I can like the fact that.

I'm able to do everything I need to do and my day can be done when my kids get home from school, I know is such a luxury. I know that. I feel so fortunate that I'm able to end my day at 3.30 and be at all of the basketball games, even when they start at 4 o'clock, because I think about these other parents who have real jobs and I'm like, I, it's very, it's very difficult. And so, anyways, that was a bit of a, tangent. But my point being is I'm already sacrificing to be this present mom that a man is not going to hinder me or hold me back any more than my kids already are. And I know that sounds like a negative thing, but I promise you, I'm very, very grateful and I'm very happy about it. So, anyways, so that's what I'm working towards this year. And I'm squashing these limiting beliefs

so that I'm able to call in the man of my dreams. I'm going on record. And I know if you guys listen to the episode New Year's Eve with Spirit Daughter, and she said basically that love's not on the table for me for seven to eight years. Well, guess what? I'm not subscribing to that, okay? I love Spirit Daughter and I think she's amazing. But I'm not, no, I'm sorry.

No, I'm just not subscribing to it. This is my year, damn it. This is my year for love amongst other things. So on that note, guys, I hope everyone is off to a great start. I don't know. Let's try this manifestation, this speaking of it as though it's already happened, and let's see what we can have come true. I mean, at this point, I feel like I've got nothing to lose.

So let's do it. I think that this will be fun. And then we can look back at the end of the year and we can say if it worked or not. So that's that. So next week is Rachel Bilsen. I'm excited for you guys to hear that episode. She's one of my good friends. I just adore her so much.

Oh, the other thing I want to tell you guys is we are going to be moving away from some of the Hills rewatch episodes only because there's so many other things that I want to do this year. And I feel like Hills was obviously taking up a huge chunk of the time, half. And there's just other things I want to be talking about. So I think what I'm going to do is I'm going to do a few of the bigger episodes, like the Miami episode. I will, of course, do the finale. I have to take a look back and see what other episodes kind of popped off.

But I'll do those big ones and then we'll wrap it up. But I don't know exactly when I'm going to do them because I was just recently laying out the podcast for the next few months. And I've got some really great guests. And I've just got some, there's just other stuff I want to be talking about. So I apologize to the people who were really loving that little mini-series that I was doing. And I know I said I was going to do all of them. but we're not.

So I just feel like also, I'm trying to sort of figure out the direction of the podcast. And, you know, I know I took a very spiritual turn here as of late. And I think while a lot of you were into it and, you know, were hanging with me.

I don't know. It's just been interesting for me to see what episodes do well and which ones don't perform as well. And I feel like, you know, it's hard for me because when I launched this podcast, I was really heavy in the dating world and that was really fun. And it was really, you know, there were so many great stories. And where I, where I sort of get exhausted by it is the, is the press of it all. And I, you guys can probably tell. But over the last two and a half years, it's been like, I've like ebbed and flowed

with this podcast of how much I want to go for it. And then I try to pull back. And it really is all dependent upon how much the press runs with what I say on this podcast. I mean, then that's just the God's honest truth. I've told you guys, I don't like being in the press like that. I don't like when people are, you know, coming at me about different things. And so I really do pull back. And I think that's so shitty. I really hate that then what it does is it makes me censor myself and pull back. really wish I could just get to a place of being 100% like, fuck it, I don't care. And I have those moments. I definitely have those moments. And that's why sometimes I'm like, no, fuck it. We're going to do this and we're going to have fun with it. And I don't know. It's just this like,

this internal battle that I have. And so I think also as I've evolved and grown in the last few years, I've wanted to take you guys along for that ride with me. And I realize the spiritual stuff is not for everybody. I totally get that. So we dabbled. We had fun. I introduced you guys to hopefully some stuff that was maybe new for you or some stuff that you were able to take away. And we are going to kind of move from that. I think spirituality will always kind of come out just naturally in my conversations because it's at the forefront of my life. But we'll kind of get back to where we were, more relationship stuff. Again, I mean, not so many things necessarily about like my dating life. because it's non-existent. Like, it really is non-existent, you guys. What the hell? It's fine.

It's fine. But more like, I love doing the dating advice episodes for you guys and also start doing more listener questions, which, by the way, on that note, so we also set up a voice mailbox for, let's be honest. So you guys can record questions. or comments or whatever it may be. And I'm going to post this on my Instagram. And then I'll play them on the episode. So when I do listener questions or dating advice,

although I know a lot of the times you guys like the dating advice to be anonymous, so you can submit them on my Instagram. But if you have a question, we will start doing episodes where then you guys can submit them and we can play them on the episode. So that'll be really fun. So it's going to be a really fun year. I have the Laguna Beach reunion coming out this spring. I can't wait for that. I've got a great

guest coming on around that, which I think you guys are going to be really excited about. And it's just going to be fun. So thank you as always for being on this journey with me. I love you guys. If you have other suggestions for pods, feel free to DM me on Instagram. But it's going to be a fun year. And I love you guys. And I will see you next week. Please note that this episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct or indirect financial interest in products or services referred to in this episode.