Lex Fridman Podcast - #290 – Dan Reynolds: Imagine Dragons

Episode Date: May 30, 2022

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The following is a conversation with Dan Reynolds, the lead singer of Imagine Dragons, one of the most popular bands in the world with over 75 million records sold and with four songs being streamed over a billion times on Spotify. Given all that, Dan is one of the most down to earth kind, thoughtful and fascinating human beings I've ever met, grounded in part by his life-long struggle with mental health. The darkness, the love, and the creative brilliance are all there in this one humble mind. For this reason, and many others, we became fast friends. Plus, he recently started his journey in programming, which funny enough is where we start this

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Something I brought you joy. There's something I really love completion. It's the reason that I'm addicted to songwriting. I like there being nothing and then having some blocks or tools and building them into what you want it to look like. And then I find it incredibly rewarding to stand back and look at what you did at the end. It could be anything for me. It's simple to begin with. That's just, you know, because it's our object oriented, like making a cube move, like that, simple as that, understanding that and knowing that I built that and made

it do that is really rewarding. And I think it's the thing that drew me into to wanting to learn more But as far as what is some grandiot like some big piece of code that I've done like absolutely not It's more I'm still a level where it's more like what is a tutorial that I followed right and and got you know and and then you know Yeah, so I couldn't say I'm at a level where I've done anything beautiful at all in code. But you're also interested in potentially, like your heart is drawn to creating games. Creating anything. And completing it. Yeah. That's the good, the feel good is it's done. Yeah. I mean, I've been working over the last two years with actually a team out of Kiev on and then we can get into that as a all another story, but on a computer game.

And really, I've kept that kind of under wraps, but yeah, we're kind of getting to a point now where we have a prototype that we can play and it's a lot of fun. And thankfully, all the team members are in safe places now. Things have obviously been unhold for a little bit, but when that started, is when I really decided, okay, I need to understand base level coding and C-sharp, so I'm not an idiot talking to these people. Yeah. So we've been doing that for a couple years.

So are any parallels between the final completion that you feel with programming, which I think is a little bit more definitive. Like, there's debugging, the code doesn't work, it's messing, and so on. There's the early design stages, you're not sure like how to have functions in classes, how it's all gonna work, and then it comes together, and it's really done because it works, and there's a cube moving on the screen.

Right, right. Is there any parallels between that and music? Because are you really ever done done with a song? It's exactly the same thing for me, just in that it's art. I really believe that we have not fully encapsulated artists. Like when we say art, I think most people think, okay, the medium must be painting or drawing or music or writing. But I really believe anytime you're creating some things, engineers, for instance, you're

creating something with tools that you have and it can be incredibly beautiful. And so yeah, I think, and it's never done. I feel like I look at songs that I've done and I never felt you have to let go or I have to let go. And that's all I've, I'm just continually making myself let go, but I look at songs that I've done and wish wish I had done more or kept going down that road and what would have happened. And I'm really contained to because of what our band is and what our fans expect. And there's so much more to it that it's like I'm fitting in a box always. You know, it's like this song shouldn't be longer than three minutes and 30 seconds. I don't know if I remember the chorus after I heard it. Maybe I need to hear the chorus three times

instead of those two times. It's like there's certain, especially in pop music, it's really hard to... Yeah, it's, it feels like there's confines, even though people are like, well, there's no confines, but still everybody's writing a pop song that's a few minutes and those explicit in your mind or are they just kind of The gut is like you said course should you have course once twice or three times? Is that a gut thing or is that a rule thing? You know, I think it's a rule. I mean, it's obviously a rule I impose on myself nobody's

Nobody's in my house saying hey, Dan if you don't do this, I'm going to punish you. There's no major label president that's like, imagine dragons, he needs to make pop music, Dan. You know what I mean? My manager doesn't even tell me that. I do it because it's what I perceive to be enjoyable. I grew up listening to a ton of pop music and then I ended up being in what is, quote unquote, a rock band, which I've never perceived it as that. But that's kind of what the world has called it. And that's fine.

But so you're a prisoner of a prison that you yourself constructed. There you go. Well, I'm a confounder. You were happy, I guess what I'm trying to say is I'm a happy prisoner of the prison that I have created for myself. And I made that prison thinking that it was a mansion.

So you worked with Rick Rubin. What does Rick think about your prison? Rick was, you know, it was interesting to hear his outside opinion when we first met because my biggest focus for so much of my life, my biggest fear was, and I distemned for my think middle schools when I started, but everyone being in on a joke except for yourself. I re- like the thought of thinking you're good at something and really you're terrible at it and you're surrounded by people who are saying Yeah, you're good at it and then by themselves are like he's terrible at this Just kind of and not just in regards to music or art

But anything in life and I think maybe from having six older brothers. It stems from that too like always feeling inadequate and like the annoying younger brother, it stems from that too. Always feeling inadequate and like the annoying younger brother. But anyway, so Rick's, and that's something I've learned to let go of as I've gotten older and had life experiences. But one of the things that Rick said really early on that has stuck with me was he said, yeah, we were res assuming the first time we met He said I'd really like to work with you because I feel like You

Don't you're not confined to a sound you've done a lot of different sounds And so it's exciting because I feel like your fans are forgiving more than other rock bands or bands because most people when they hear you know When they hear a band it's like there's a very specific sound with it. It's like they do folk music. Oh, they do like California rock or they do surf or they do, you know, like there's and your fans kind of want that.

Like they want them to do that thing and then they don't do it and sometimes that goes well but a lot of times it doesn't. People critics and everybody is like, go back to the thing that you did good and do that. Rick felt whether he was right or wrong that we could do, we hop genres so much. That's been to our benefit and detriment, I think. Why detriment? Because people want you to be something. You can believe it more.

It's more authentic if you never change. I guess. I don't know. I mean, it's certainly it's not something I subscribe to because I create music. But I also grew up listening to a lot of different genres. Like, cats, I would listen to like, cat Stevens. And the next song would be like, biggie. And then the next song would be Nirvana.

And it was like, I like a lot of it, and then Billy Joel and then Anya. It was like, you know what I mean? I was a product. And I was a product of the 90s, which if you listen to 90s music, it really was all, a lot of reason that people say, well 90s were terrible. Like a lot of people say that. I love the 90s were my favorite decade of music.

Was there was a lot of genre hopping and, and I don't know, I love that. So you had the 90s, had the boy bands, and it had Pearl Jam and Nevada. And it had a lot of like women of the 90s was probably my biggest influence. Like kind of that like angry rock women of the 90s. Like Lannis more set, Jagger Little P Pill's one of my favorite records of all time. The lyrics were so intimate and I don't know if she was angry or not, sorry if she wasn't.

Yeah, but there was an anger to it. There was angst, yeah, angstiness. And that in hip hop of the 90s influences me and then my dad. So anything my dad listened to, which my dad didn't listen any of that, my dad listened to like Harry Nelson and the Beatles, Cass Stevens, Bob Dylan, Paul Simon, Billy Joel. It was very much like singer-songwriter. You might have if we throw out this, listen to a few songs because you mentioned here in Nissen and I was actually yesterday and the day before listening to a lot of his stuff and it's just like,

damn he's good. And not as known as he should be. Like, as getting, do you mind if I play? No, please. Yeah. I don't know not to not to open this conversation with a love song. I would like that, actually. I would like that. But without you, it's an incredible song. Oh, man, that's yeah. And the heartbreak in the longing. No, I can't forget. What?

He's the best to do it, in my opinion. In my opinion, he's the best to do it, in my opinion. In my opinion, he's the best to do it. The vocal range. And just the sadness of like... There's something I don't even want to talk over. Because this is one of my favorite songs too, but... I think people have a really good bullshit indicator.

And music, in my opinion, whenever I meet a young artist and say, well, I'm trying to make a new band and I want to do something like how to be successful. I really think understanding that people have a really good bullshit indicator is the most important part of being an artist. And I'll explain what what that means, at least to me. I think that in order to have success or be a leader or whether it's an art or anything people need to believe that you believe what you're doing um, I think the best actors

Really when they're doing their thing. It's like they it's not acting. They're there In it and it's how they feel and they're expressing that Sassaro or joy or whatever it is. Harry for me, Harry Nelson, I just believe it. He sings that and I feel it. And whether he's the greatest bullshit or of all time or I don't think that's a case, I think he probably was singing that song. And he just could transport himself to wherever he was. It's what makes a great live act. It's what makes a great song. And someone could be the best actor and sing that in the same timber. Same EQ, same compression, same everything.

And there's some unknown there that I, you know, I don't, I think it hopefully it will be known at some point at some scientific thing, but there's something there that the energy or something that people can perceive it and say true or false. And if it resonates is true, it's so much more meaningful and it lives on. And if it doesn't, that for me is what is good, art or bad. Like, for people to dispute over like, well, Sonic's stood down, like that's silly to me. It's like a song or even a painting, like it's just the truthfulness of it. Yeah, the truly great art has to go to that place where you really are feeling it.

Like you forget that you're being recorded. If you get there as an audience where you really are feeling it. Like you forget that you're being recorded, if you get there as an audience, you really are feeling it. Yeah, which I totally agree with you. One of the things that I love about the internet is it's brought the bullshit detector of the masses to power, which is beautiful because then the masses uplift the really authentic. Right.

And even if you didn't write this song, I think it helps a lot, probably, if you wrote the song. Sure. You know, I was, I was a little bit, maybe a lot since when Vegas, a little hardbroken that, to find out that Elvis didn't write his songs. But I like, for example, rock-a-man, Val and John, like to find out that Ellen John didn't really know where the words of rock-a-man came from, meaning like the depths of it. It's interesting, but nevertheless, he's super authentic because for Ellen John and for Elvis, there's something in the fun and the darkness

and the entertainment of it. He goes to someplace in his mind that might not be deeply connected from where the lyrics came from. But he relates it to whatever is in his mind and goes to that place, emotionally. Yeah, and that's what I think it is. And that's why an actor, like I said, can be that place emotionally. Yeah, and that's what I think it is. And that's why an actor, like I said, can be completely honest to me. Maybe they didn't write the script, but I write, like I've always written all my own lyrics,

it's a really personal thing to me. But I will say, I see people all the time who are performers like Elton John, for instance, who didn't write the lyrics that I believe that it means just as much to them as what I wrote, because they find the meaning in it for themselves, at least the greats do. And I think that's the difference maker. And I think you can perceive, and I'm sure you've seen art that doesn't move you, and

maybe it moves someone else. But for you, for some reason, you perceive it to be uninteresting to you. And I feel like a lot of the time, I'm going to say that it's, of course, sonically, maybe it's uninteresting to you. But I think the majority of the time for myself, I can find inspiration in any sonic value or painting as long as I see it. And I feel truth from the person that created it. Yeah, but and for me the lyrics, maybe not the entirety of the lyrics, but a few words can

can do wonders to take you to a place. Sometimes those words don't need to be connected with the other words. That's the beauty of music. They're allowed to float in the space of mixed metaphors. Yes. They're allowed to just jump the space of mixed metaphors. Yes. They're allowed to just jump around and somehow it paints a picture without actually, what is it, glycerine by a bush? Right. It's also how the person says it, right? It's like, it's the feeling of exactly, and the same person could say that word ten other

ways and you don't care. But someone says glycerine or whatever it is, it's like oh you know what I feel that for some way. The way he said that, he meant it to me. You know what I mean? No, I can't forget this evening or your face as you were leaving but I guess that's just the way the story goes. You always smile, but in your eyes, your sorrow shows, yes, it shows. Let me ask you to analyze this song. Do you, uh, so this is a lady possibly who's leaving him? Do you think he's leaving her or she's leaving him?

or she's leaving him. She wants to. When I think of all my soul, when I had you there, but then I let you go. And now it's only fair that I should let you know. And the chorus is, I can't live if living is without you. Can't live, I can't give anymore. He's got a voice on him. Yeah, he does. And if you really, there's been some incredible documentation on his life and the end of his

life. And so my answer to this is probably skewed based on what I've seen about his life too, but he was a real alcoholic at the end of his life and it destroyed his voice and ended up killing him as well. And so when I hear that, I perceive it as someone who is destructive and an indistructive place in life and can't love someone properly. And so they can't live with them, but they can't live without them type thing, which is really something that I really identify with.

And I think is, you know, one of the struggles of life is loving yourself enough. You know, one of the struggles of life is loving yourself enough It's forgiving yourself for for things and letting yourself love someone else and at you know at least when I listen to out of your hair you being like and Maybe I'm wrong, but this is how I perceive it at least is Not loving himself and feeling like he's deserving of this person. Like, I have to let you go. I hear that, of course, and people are like, Oh, well, he's breaking up with her.

But there's so much more complexity and nuance to relationships and that. And I, for my wife and I went through really difficult separation. And that's, you know, a story for another day or a different question or something. But the nuance of it makes me think of this when I hear this, which is there's just more to being with someone or not being with someone, then, hey, I think that person's really attractive or, hey, that person makes me laugh or nod or, I love them and now I don't love them. Love is such a complex nuanced thing that a lot of times, there's just more going on behind the scenes, I think.

Yeah, on a small tangent on that, just a as a curious question. Have you paid any attention to the Johnny Depp and ever heard trials? I have watched quite a bit of it because my wife really loves it. She watches it in bed at night. So to me, it's really, because you've mentioned how complicated love can be. And I've never seen, I don't care about the celebrity nature of it.

I don't care if it was, I don't care who it is, but it's just laid out in such raw form, the world to see it. For the world to see the toxicity, but also the passion and the clearly sort of the drugs and the drinking, but also like the longing and the dreams and I will always be with you, I will die for you. The places, the rollercoaster of love and it's all there at the end, past the end. So it's like, I've also recently

read the Rise and Fall, the Third Reich about Hitner Nazi Germany, it's the Rise and Fall and it's interesting to look at the entirety of that process after it's all over, many, many decades after it's all over. That book in particular written by the person that was actually there. And so here we're seeing two people in the context of the courtroom, analyzing this rise and fall of a love affair. It's fascinating. You know, the truth is, I was telling my wife this actually just the other day because she was asking me what I thought about it. It makes me really sad. It's humorous, don't get me wrong, there's a lot of parts in it that are just really funny.

Like, but I look at it and I also see the internet, you know, someone's always the villain and someone's the hero, which is such a funny thing and we talked a little about this offline before we got on this, but I have a real firm belief in life that it's just more complex than you think. Always, always. And we, and Johnny, for instance, is very charismatic. And you love him and he's funny and this way he does things and he looks certain ways and he says things. He's just, you really love him. And I feel like, and maybe I'm

wrong in this, but it looks like the internet has really looking like Johnny is the winner. Amber is the villain. And I kind of look at it. Yeah. And I kind of look at it. And I feel like, where any of you in their bedroom, like where any of you there for these things, and I'm not saying one way or the other, like the, all I see when I look at that is two people with a lot of deep seated hurt anger and that anger is so poisonous to both of them and they're getting through it in the way that they only know how and I'm not saying we shouldn't be able to look at parts of them laugh about it and stuff and be virtuous or something, but just that there's not a hero.

It's more complicated. Yeah. I think unless you've been living with Amber and Johnny, you don't know, just because one seems more charismatic in the moment or funnier or more believable even, doesn't mean that their truth is the truth. And I feel like there's still love there too, which makes me so. Oh, that's the hardest part.

He won't even look at her. He looks down the whole time, and maybe people say, well, it's because anger or hurt or whatever, but the way she looks and stuff, it feels, it just feels like there's so much hurt there that it hurts me to watch it. I just feel like,

oh, my heart just aches for them. And for both of them, and I don't know either of them personally. And, you know, I don't know, just hurts. But I've never, I've never seen sort of love laid out in the Sura kind of way. It makes me feel better about, like, it almost gives you seeing people have gone through a struggle in this sort of mundane kind of way. Gives you room to struggle yourself about the messiness of love. True. Like you're supposed to, like, relationship is supposed to be simple and whatever. But this like, oh man, this is like the part.

Yeah. And and for the record like, I don't feel like it shouldn't be shown. Like I think it's actually really beautiful art. And I agree there's going to be a lot of people who walk away from it and are changed in certain ways or look at things different. I might say it's changed in the whole world, the Johnny Deft, but it's art. It's just like a you would look at a painting. It might affect you. My only commentary is more that there's

not, I think it's silly when people say who's right and who's wrong and who's the clear villain and who's the like, we love as human. We have to have an answer for everything. We have to put everything in a box and it's like, well, we're looking at this and we're deciding, you're right and you're wrong. And I just think it's silly unless it's your life. So speaking of heroes and villains and highs and lows, you grew up in Las Vegas. And you said that Vegas is a performing town, a town of high stakes, and drama and eccentricity.

It's a town of high highs and low lows. And I'll be damned if my therapist didn't point out that correlation out to me personally a long time ago. So to me, Vegas, from the outside, is romanticized by certain movies, the lows define the beauty of this town. And certain movies, so to me, Casino, was Robert De Niro, Joe Pesci and Sharon Stone, leaving Las Vegas with Nicholas Cage, Sierra and Lodling, and Las Vegas with the Johnny Depp, 100th Stompson. First of all, what's your favorite representation of Vegas from a darker side? And do you draw any wisdom in sight from the darkness that

loathes in the highest in those movies or is it overmancised? So I grew up in a really conservative Mormon family and Vegas was established by the Mormons and the mob. Those were like the two very different worlds that created what Vegas is. And if you live in Vegas, it really shows in a lot of ways because Vegas has the, you know, the strip and the parties and the craziness, but it also has very like neighborhoods and big families and conservative people and liberal people living together in a really interesting way. and live a little bit more and live a little bit more and live a little bit more

and live a little bit more and live a little bit more and live a little bit more and live a little bit more and live a little bit more and live a little bit more and live a little bit more and live a little bit more

and live a little bit more and live a little bit more and live a little bit more but you know what I mean? It was like, but also being like, whoa, this is crazy. You know what I mean? Like, taking it in whatever I could when I could. Yeah. So I saw, and I'm grateful for that, like I really love that I didn't grow up as a Mormon in, for instance, like Utah or something like the typical place, because I saw both sides and I appreciated something from both sides. And now as a person, now who's not religious, but just spiritually minded, I'm grateful for that divergent character, that juxtaposition, duoleged sword that Vegas is.

And I try to apply that to everything in life, which is like Johnny Depp in the Amber. It's like there's two sides to every story. There's always two sides to every coin. There's always two sides to every coin. There's always, and there's something to be said for both. Like I try to see people and even if, you know, it's just, yeah, I try to apply that to life. As far as a movie that personifies Vegas or something and that medium that personifies

Vegas in a way that resonates with me. Don't say hangover. No, no, yeah. I also, like, I wasn't even allowed to watch PG-13 movies growing up. So a lot of the movies that you're saying, like, I didn't either didn't see, I didn't have cable television, you know, I wasn't like a pilgrim, but I had a really, really conservative upbringing. So it didn't define your intellectual development?

No, no, I just, I can't think of any movie that comes to mind where I'm like, that's my Vegas movie. You know what I mean? I'm sure I've seen some of the movies you've said now, but I can't think of one that I'm like actually personifies Vegas in a way that feels honest to me. Or, or, or, like, wasn't there a Chevy, was there a Chevy chase? Yeah, yeah. I think that's maybe the only one I thought of

that came in mind when I was like, because I love Chevy Chase so much that maybe it's one of his biggest, Vegas vacation or something. Yeah. So, but that's more like lighthearted, yeah, so that kind of stuff. Right, it's not like, I guess what I would say is there's no truth

Pers to has been in then I've seen a Vegas because what I see of Vegas is There's obviously like the parties and stuff in the night life, which I'm not a big party person So I'm I haven't really experienced much of that but I've also there's also drugs and I've I have a strange relationship with drugs I've lost a few friends to drug overdoses. And so I don't, that's not romantic to me. But there's also like, yeah, I mean, you asked for a dark reflection of, I guess, I certainly see a dark reflection to Vegas. And I don't, I feel like Vegas is typically personified. It's like at the tables, never is this, but it's also like, I have like friends who've

lost all their money to gambling addiction. And so it's like what I guess, uh, to the whole thing. Yeah, somebody maybe needs to make, maybe that's an open spot. There needs to be a dark side to Vegas. Well, it's about Mormons and Vegas. That's the giant drug overdose or getting shot by the mob. Yeah. So you mentioned your spirituality, you've you said that having a crisis of faith or just the philosophical question of asking who is God does God exist or in thinking of the flip side of that of mortality what happens when we die. Those kinds of things were extremely difficult, deep things for you in terms of your development, the whole process of figuring that out.

What does it hurt so much to lose faith in God? Yeah, I would say that the seeking of God, let's say that, is an obsession for me and has been since I was young. I really feel that I'm a deeply, deeply committed to finding answers in life. And there's some answers that I don't think there's an answer to. And I'm also very OCD by nature, so I just don't give up to that. I'm like, well, there must be somewhere in Tibet. There's some teacher or there's somebody out there that has the answer. Or maybe it's yet to be found. I'm going to find it.

Um, I'm really, my life is, can been to date, probably unhealthily committed to finding answers about God or the lack thereof and mortality. It's all I think about. It's all our records have been about, who do you think is God? Have you ever gotten a glimpse? You know, I will say the closest I feel like I have been to experiencing God is, and this sounds so, maybe I don't know, I don't know how it sounds, but it's through ayahuasca for me. That's my honest answer for you, I feel like. I had pretty much given up all hope

of there being anything greater than, you know, us being evolving and being here and then dying and you're gone and that's it. Nothingness and from nothingness we came and nothingness we go. To where I am now, which is there are answers to be found. I don't know them. Like I don't know what God looks like or if God is anything to do with the word God in the way that we say it, but I do believe pretty fervently that there is more to be found.

Is it motion sensor? Or no, I don't know what that was. Looks like they have all died actually. Do you know which one of it? Is it this one right here? No. One of it is to get out, but that is a good guard. That's fine.

I'll take it out. Take it out. Do you know who this chair is? Let's see if I can get it like this. Yeah. It's quite good. Almost there. I really don't know.

I just thought. Look. There's gotta be like some saying about this. There we go. It's not Chinese problem. Yeah. How many people does it take to, what does that on school, light bulb? Light bulb.

It was hot too. It was like us doing like the two finger like technique. I'm glad you survived that. Thanks. That'd be pretty ironic if we talk about mortality and then this would be it for you. I've never done aewoska. So it's a mixture of two plants. One of them is DMT, but a lot of people, I really respect very, very intelligent people. I had profound experiences with that.

What is that? Where do you go? Where does the mind go? What the heck is up with that? I'll first say that I'm, like I can't even smoke weed. I really do not enjoy it because I hate to let go of control.

Like if I feel out of control in life, it's like one of my biggest weaknesses. It's like very scary for me. I don't, and some people really enjoy letting go in that way. I really don't. So I was pretty terrified to make the jump then to Iowaska. But my wife, who I deeply respect, made a profound change through Iowaska. And I saw it, she led the way. Yeah, and it wasn't a strange, like I think most we have a thing in America that's like a misconception, a stigma on psychedelics where you know, it's like, it's a drug and it makes some people crazy. And then you're going to be on the street and you're going to be

out of your mind or you're going to become like, you know, a crazy person, basically. And I think I really bought into that notion because again, I was raised, I wasn't even raised with cables TV. You know what I mean? Like, I wask is very, like, I didn't, you know, you can imagine what that was like for a Mormon kid. I didn't know anything about it and never touched drugs at all and never even touched a cigarette, you know?

Anyway, so I think we have this misconception about it where Americans are quick to go to their doctor and take any medication or drug but you know, whoa when it comes to like psychedelics. Anyway, that being said, so I had that trepidation going into it, but I really love and respect my wife, and I saw it make a profound impact in her life

where she suddenly was able to heal from a lot of trauma that she has, she went through a lot in her life, and it really helped her heal. But it also set her in a new path spiritually that seemed really like a place that I wanted to be. So I did it. And I did it twice. The first time it didn't really have an effect on me, which happens to a lot of people,

I guess. I drank this little thing and there was like this shaman who came over from overseas that was really had been in the plant, you know, world for decades and was a really incredible. I don't even know if he likes to be called shaman, but... So it's supposed to be like 30, 60 minutes to take effect and a few hours the journey lasts... About four hours. Yeah, so the second time I took it, I took it

and I would say 20, 30 minutes in, exactly. I started to, I started to feel like I was like the dimension of what is reality, the curtain was pulled open and there was a lot more to discover. And it really blew my mind in a way that I think it would probably blow anybody's mind. If, for instance, God descended, or some Christian God or whatever it is, we all think it'd be this beautiful thing, but in reality, it would probably make people super fearful and think that they've lost their mind. Like, I've always, yeah, I've always like joked that if the Mormon God came down and told

my mom like, if God himself came down and told my mom, Mormonism is incorrect, she would say, Satan. Yeah. You know, it's like, we're never, I think our minds are just not prepared for a lot of, of anything that's really extreme. And it was very extreme. It was like the curtain of life was cut open, which scared me, but then I felt very much,

and a lot of people that I've talked to have a similar thing where it felt very much like I was either communicating with something that was perceived as God to me, or highest sense of self, or mind, or mother earth, or it's called so many different names, but it's very, a lot of people have a very spiritual, similar experience with ayahuasca.

And just in that it's like this kind of profoundness, it wasn't like, there was nothing, at least for me that felt like just like psychedelic, funny cartoons or something, it was like, I'm about to go on a journey and I'm communicating with something that feels incredibly wise, showed me a lot of things in my life, kind of almost like from a bird's eye, almost like I was looking through a video camera,

a younger me There was a particular thing that it communicated to me um I really have a hard time with with accepting success and not feeling um Like feeling undeserving or something I can't quite put it into words, but of Of my position and what I've been given, I've been given so much. And it showed me this thing from when I was young and explained to me why I am where I am now. And I, to this day, it did not feel like myself telling myself that. That's the only way I can explain it. And there was a lot more that it showed me, and that was incredibly healing for me. But just to be like, to put it into a short thing, because there's so much to this. It felt, I walked away feeling very convinced that there is more to be known for sure.

And a lot of my deep like things that were traumatic for me didn't feel traumatic anymore, specifically crisis of faith. I was very angry at my parents and my community for raising me in what I perceived to be falsehoods. And that, I felt like the bad rock of everything I believed

was ripped out for me in my 20s. And then it was like, good luck in life. But really, my parents had given me everything that they could. And they believed that very much so still. But a naive young me was angry and felt like they had been duped and thus I had been duped. But I was get really showed me this roadmap of like, this is truth and you're concerning yourself about a grain of sand which is Mormonism or whatever it is. And there may be some truth in that tiny grain of sand and there may be falsities.

But so is all these other grains of sand like focus on the truth. Stop focusing on these little details that are meaningless and forgive and let go of people believing in those things to begin with. I don't know if that makes sense, but that was like the core thing I was taught and to let go of control. Stop needing to control everything. And it felt like the wisdom was coming from elsewhere. Like it's really, I do not believe,

at least in my current self, I don't have that, that the mindfulness that I believe that exists in me to reach a lot of the conclusions that I did. And there was a lot more to it that would be for like a late night conversation with you, but it's so hard to put it into, you feel like a crazy person. Any, at least at any time I talk about Iowaska

to someone who hasn't done it, I'm like, I don't even know where to begin. Like, how do you explain to someone that you felt like that a multiple dimension type thing happened in a way that, like putting it into words, is, and none of it was words, by the way, that was communicated to me. It was like, you know, people talk about telepathy, and if it existed, it would be like, I could communicate to you in such a deeper way. I'm so confined

by me having to articulate these words and put them in a sentence to you, Lex, and then tell you, like, if only I could just be like, yeah, and emotions do that sometimes, right? You could see my emotions and be like, oh, that communicates a lot. So that's what it felt like to me with ayahuasca is it felt like it was communicating to me. Very clear things, but it wasn't like, Daniel, it's me, mother earth. Let me relax it back. Let me show you. But it was very clear to me what was being said.

And no, it did not feel like me But maybe science smarter people than me who've done it would say well was you and blah blah like I don't know But yeah, they're convincing. There's a lot of stuff in that subconscious that We haven't explored like we haven't explored the depth of the ocean We haven't really figured out what's that the younging shadow What's going on underneath the surface of our conscious mind. And what is that connecting to? Is that just inside our mind?

Is there some kind of collective intelligence going on where all humans are connected to one kind of greater organism? Like what is consciousness? We have a lot of hubris in thinking we understand any of it, like how the mind works at all. Like what is it? Like where, what is the origin of consciousness? What is the origin of intelligence? There's a lot of hubris about this. We give each other PhDs and Nobel Prizes andator ourselves as who we figured it all out. But humility is helpful here. Nevertheless, that is the question that humans have been asking for ever since humans were humans, which is the question of mortality,

the question of God. So whether it's hamlet to be or not to be, I think that's the hardest, the most important question. Albert Camus asked, why live? So in terms of crisis of faith, in terms of your search for truth, in terms of some of the dark places you've gone in your mind. What's a good answer to this question? So for Camus with mythicis, it was the question of suicide. Is what's the purpose? Like, what's the good answer to why I keep going, especially when you're struggling, especially when you're not When you're feeling hopeless When you're feeling like a burden

In this search for truth where you feel like you're surrounded by lies. What's a good answer to why I live? I think you ever found one. Well, it's a simple answer right now is to say for it's very easy once you have a final one. Well, the simple answer right now is to say for, it's very easy once you have kids to say, the right answer is you just, of course, you brought these kids into the world. So you have a responsibility that I feel deeply as a father to them to always be there for as long as I humanly can and to take care of them and protect them.

It's the most innate sense in me. It's wired in my animal existence. So if I take that away, right, because that's kind of cheating. Let's put that aside, because it is cheating. It's cheating. You're still there's still some fundamental way in which you're alone. Yeah. And to that, that actually has been a real struggle for me for many years. I had a real turning point early in my career where we were flying somewhere overseas and we were in a really small plane. And the lights went out and like all these red lights were flashing and the plane

just started to dive. Completely like scariest plane experience I've ever been in. My manager was next to me, who's my brother. He was crying and texting his wife a goodbye. That's how like crazy this moment was. Was it really like genuine, genuine genuine like this like genuine engine went out Plane is going down pilots looking like crazy in the front and it was a really tiny jet and And like I said my brother next to me crying typing a text to his wife really really scary and I

Felt nothing I genuinely genuinely sat there and I was like this wife really, really scary. And I felt nothing. I genuinely sat there and I was like, this might actually be nice. Like I really felt like this goes down and like, ah man, life sucks and it's hard. And that sounds so ridiculous I know to say, because again, I'm in a different place now, and I see my life for what it is. But at that moment, I did not.

So life was primarily defined by suffering. It was a burden. It was, I fell lifted. I was incredibly depressed. I had been trying different medications since I was young, and I just had not found anything that was working for me. And then I was in a faith crisis, lost all my faith, started a band that just became, I wasn't ever thinking that this band, I was like, when you call your band imagine dragons, you're not thinking that band's gonna be big, okay? I was like, I was like, this was like a side project

that was fun for me, It was like art in college. I was at in school and I was like, man, I hate this biology class. I'm gonna write down band names. Like, you know what I mean? Like, it was not, hey, put everything aside. This is my career. Let's go.

It just, it happened. And I'm an introvert by nature. I'm really not an extroverted person who likes to go out and like, I like to be at home with a couple of friends and have a late-night conversation over good food. Like that to me is a perfect night. Read a good book, listen to a podcast, go on a walk, you know, those are things that I really, really enjoy.

And suddenly I'm in this life where I'm like, supposed to be something that I really don't want to be. Except for on stage, which is a really fast and like strange thing to me, which is on stage, I feel so free and exuberant and like an extrovert. And then I come off and I just feel like shrivel back into a show. Like it's a, it's, I, I, music does that for me and performing on a stage does that for me. Can we take a small tangent on that? Yeah, yeah, of course. What's the high, can we go through that, the introvert that wants to cut a lop and read a book?

You're the frontman of one of the, if not the biggest rock bands today, playing in front of huge crowds. What's the high of that and how can you land back on earth? The high of it, it's incredibly beautiful to walk on a stage, sing these songs that you wrote and see it resonate with people around you and sing with them. Different cultures, different places, celebrate life. It's suddenly the world seems like a fantastic place. It feels like we're all on the same team.

Right. It's like one big hug. Yeah, it's like everybody in that room gets it and they all, like it just, it feels like what you want the world to be. Which is just like this co-existing unit of people. And it's not even about like, you know, I just, it's incredible. It's for sure, it's incredible. And I love it. And I wouldn't do it unless I loved it. And then you walk off stage and you turn on the news.

And it's like, you see, you know, we're all against each other. Everybody hates each other. And it feels that way in the world. So music really, that's why live music is so important to people. That's why music is so important to people. Because even if it's just you and that person that wrote the song, you're listening to it and the two of you feel connected. You know, it's like, you're hearing Tracy Jamencing,

like, fast car or something, you're just like, oh my gosh, like yes, I get it. And you feel connected to that person. You don't feel alone. Like, so that's the high of it for sure. And then you get off stage and then, you know, as my, like my uncle's a heart surgeon, incredible heart surgeon who like writes the book, like he's like the guy that the heart surgeon's talked to.

He's out of Nashville, Tennessee. He's just incredible, genius man. He always worries and always reach out to me. He's like musicians die all the time. The reason they die, you know, is because you're getting on stage and you're hard-stune this and your quarters and levels are doing this.

You're getting off stage and then you're just doing this. And it's a really real thing. You get off stage and you feel like you need drugs because you're like, the world feels like, oh, incredibly daunting. And it's also, I'm sure, has to do with some health things in your heart and the Cortisol levels that are so crazy and then you come off. And it's like, I know people are like, well, then nothing's enough except meth. That is enough except heroin.

And that's why a lot of artists turn to that stuff. And I don't say it in a preach way. Like I've struggled with drug abuse in my life. And I really, I understand why artists turn to it? But also the fact that you're introvert So the other side of it the fame That's something that you also said is a double-edged sword for you the interesting thing about fame Is he also mentioned is it something you can't take back?

Yeah, so it's a thing you can't just like go on vacation in Hawaii and it's like consider do I like it or not? No, you're staying in Hawaii for the rest of your life and you've never been there before. Whether you like it or not. So what's that like being, you know, loved by millions and millions and millions of people, which is perhaps the best kind of fame in terms of you have to choose the kinds of fames that are and still being an introvert and all that kind of stuff. So what do you feel alone, more alone being famous?

Is there a loneliness? Yeah, I mean, it's such a funny thing because for, okay, if you would ask, if we were having this conversation a couple years ago, I'd be incredibly guarded about this because the last thing I want to ever do is sound ungrateful or unaware of how much I have and what was the famous celebrity with money? Was your life hard? Is it really telling me about how hard it is? But I'm also the place in life now where I just, like,

I'm gonna always just speak my truth because that's the only reason I'm here. I'm here to speak my truth to you. So I'm gonna tell you my truth, whether it's whatever it is. Well, you're human and feelings are real. And so, and that's the interesting thing. You win a lottery.

What's that gonna feel like? It's not about complaining. Oh, it's so hard to win a lottery because you get a lot of money. No, it's still you're human. You get to experience these feelings and it's fascinating. You put humans in different situations. And it's also fascinating because a lot of people think, well, I would like to be famous. That's a big thing now on social media and Instagram. So what world wants to be famous? Or or famous and then it's very interesting to think all right well once you arrive Are all the problems solved no yeah, so I will tell you according to me what the pitfalls are

Whether it's fear not and there are certainly some pitfalls one you it's once you're there you can't go back Whatever maybe that's fine because maybe you love it but the real pitfall for me is that you're now, you're Lex and you're what everybody's perception is that Lex is and that's what you are. Now Lex is probably a lot more complex and complicated and has a lot more to Lex than the Lex that is the celebrity.

a lot more to Lex than the Lex that is the celebrity. But anybody who meets you, that's who you are to them. And you may not feel this way, but you may feel confined to actually have to be that person to that person. Like I've, early in my career for a long time, anytime I met someone, I suddenly felt like I had to be Dan Reynolds from Imagine Dragons, anytime I met someone, including my family now, who were also like, whoa, this is crazy, you're like Dan Reynolds from Imagine Dragons. And I wanted to just be the goofball that I have been my whole life with my brothers and family, but suddenly I found myself feeling like, no, I have to be this, like, because that's who that's who this is. So you're almost like playing a role a role and it's like I've heard a lot of actors talk about this Well, they're take on a role and then it's like they feel like they have to they've like become that and it's

Really scary thing and like you you alter who you are almost To fit the notion of other people because especially if a lot of artists are empaths It you know a lot of people get into art in a deep way or empaths and so you feel a lot of what people are feeling and you're never wanting to burden people and you're always wanting to deliver to that person. What they want is people pleasing. It goes hand in hand with a lot of these famous people

and they get to where they were because they know how to do that. They know how to be in a room with someone and look them in the eye and make them feel like they're the only person in the room. And then now they got that role in that movie because they sat with the casting director and they were like, oh, yeah, so funny.

Anybody took, put on the charisma, do it all. And it's like, anyway, I'm like, I'm going on a different tangent here, but long story short, there's a lot of things that are really unhealthy about it. And then a lot of people who want to fame and the second it starts to go away, then they're like, who am I anymore? Like, that was everything. And now I'm like, on the down, and now I'm not a famous person anymore.

And now I hate myself. Now I'm going to do drugs. And it's like, it's like this vicious cycle. Like you could never be famous enough. You're always going to get, like, there's just so much to it that I've just, and I'm gonna do drugs, and it's like, it's like this vicious cycle. Like, you could never be famous enough. You're always gonna get, like, there's just so much to it that I've just, and again, like, I've lost friends in this career to do that, for sure.

And there's a certain element to sort of just on the losing fame. I've interacted with a lot of folks, especially young folks, like in YouTube. So fame is a thing that has levels. You're always trying to be a little more famous. A lot of folks were chasing fame. It doesn't matter how famous you are, you're always trying to chase more. And we start to lose it. Interesting things can happen if you're not self-aware, which is like, like you mentioned, you might be trying to grasp back at where

you were by leaning into the formula that got you there. And so the constraints of the image that you mentioned becomes the thing that you're now trying to lean into. And that's actually walking away from who you really are. Like you lean further into being that person. That's true for acting. That's true for even on like YouTube, which is people acting. They have a role that got them to the table somehow. Yeah, it's dark, but I think those are... That's just put for everybody to see, but that's a very human struggle, even when you're not famous.

Finding yourself, of being yourself, of not doing the people pleasing at any scale. And being trapped by that. Yeah, and also feeling like it's never enough. I think that's something all, like, it's not just the famous thing, but it's like, and the whole, like, everybody deals with feeling like, when I'm here, I'll be happy. Yeah. When I get that job, I'll be happy.

When I have that money, then I'll be happy. When I get that surgery and my nose looks like this, I will be happy then. It's like a constant chase of happiness instead of happiness. Like, it's like the opposite of self love. It's the opposite of happiness instead of happiness. It's like the opposite of self love, it's the opposite of happiness.

There's no presence to it. You're constant, you're never going to find it. You're never gonna arrive and you're just gonna live your life and then you're gonna be on your deathbed and be like, I was chasing the wrong thing, my whole life, you know. I should say that podcasts are interesting in that way. For me personally, because you just talk a lot, people that meet you, they know you and they know the evolution

of you. That's the same thing for you right now, a Dan of Imagine Dragons, just being on a podcast, long form reveals a side that liberates you more to be yourself. To like people see that, oh, there's a human. They, because they, you know, music, they have a deep connection with you, they have experiences with you the way they experienced it. That's who you are with them through the songs. But now you get to see, oh, that's a human being. You probably get angry, you get sad, you get excited. He's hopeful, you know, and there's a core, there's a good human being with all the whole rollercoaster

of emotions out there. It's a giant, beautiful mess. And podcasts reveal that that's why I love podcasts, like Long Form, you get to get to hear some artists and actors and so on. And some of them, you get to see, oh, you get to get to hear some artists and actors and so on. And some of them, you get to see, oh, you've lost yourself in the, in the surface. That's a tragedy with some actors, some great actors. They've, they've left so much of themselves in the roles they've

played that they can no longer be the thing they were before, those great roles. That's for sure. It's hard. It's hard to see. So you get to see that with Johnny Depp with, I don't know, pirates. He was talking about that with pirates of the Caribbean. That was a shift. Right. Like he's not that guy. Right. He's forever, forever, forever that guy. But the point is to remember that you're not into your family. Oh, forever that guy. But the point is to remember that you're not. And to your family, which is interesting, you said to your family, when I see people close to me,

they also, there is an element like that while you're that they start treating like the famous person. Yeah, I'm fortunate to have my manager, who's my brother, my older brother, and my lawyer is my other older brother. And that's been helpful because it's weird. It gets weird with everyone no matter what. One of the best advice I was given was by Charlie Sheen.

You got advice from Charlie Sheen. Yeah, we were playing the wise sage of our generation. The wise sage Charlie Sheen.. But it was it was really wise I was sitting next to him and we were Playing some late night television. He said this was right at the beginning and he just said boys Just mark my words your life is about to get really weird. That's all I said But it stuck with me forever in his Charlie Sheen's of course sticks with you And I remember being like right okay Charlie sheen. I'm not Charlie Sheen, it's not going to get weird like, you know.

But it got really, really weird, really quick because suddenly, you've existed your whole life in this way where everybody just, everything you get, you achieved, it was because you got it. And every conversation you had, like, if someone liked you at the end of that conversation, well, it's because they liked you. If they didn't like you, it's because they didn't like you. And you could make complete peace with that. At least I could my whole life. I was like, life is a challenge. And be myself. And I'm going to go through it and find some people along the way that I connect with and others know. And that social integrity is so important to us.

And we think it would be nice to have this, and this is going back to the pitfalls of thing. We think it would be nice to walk into a room and have everyone be like, and you could be like, dumpster fire. And everybody's like, oh my gosh, dumpster fire. That was amazing. Oh, yeah, you said dumpster fire was amazing. It's like, it's incredibly, incredibly lonely. And it just breaks everything that you knew about humanness. And it sucks.

So then you're seeking out people who, that it doesn't exist with. And families are closest you can get to that for sure. But even your family, it's gonna take a little bit where they're like, oh, this is a little weird. Like all my friends at work are now asking about you and you're my young stupid brother, but now you're suddenly like the young stupid brother

that they want an autograph from and stuff. And it still makes, like they have to get over that and figure that out. And then you meet people too who know about this whole concept and they're like, well, I'm going to be an asshole to him to show him that I don't subscribe. Yes. And you're dealing with like people who are like, don't stifle or the person who's like, you know, you could say something actually profound and nice and they'd be like, that's

stupid and you're an idiot. Yeah. Because it's like an actual attempt to like show you how much they don't care. So you live in this very like this. Still nevertheless, even when nobody knew you, you were seeking for deep human connection with a small number of people. And now when a lot of people know you, you're still looking for deep connection with a small number of people. The struggle is the same. Can you speak to, because you mentioned some of the dark moments, what advice would you give to people who are struggling with depression? And maybe for the people who love the people who

are struggling with depression? So what I have found to be most successful for me, it's back to the basics of everything that the therapist or psychologist will tell you. Psychiatrist will tell you, right when you meet them, which is exercise every day. Eat healthy for sure. Find time, make time every day to do something that you love, whatever that may be, whatever brings you joy. And when you're really depressed, that actually feels like nothing. Because the things that brought you joy don't bring you joy anymore when I'm really in the thick of it. But for me, this is the cycle that I'll go through is I'll look at my life and I'll say,

okay, what can I clean up? All right, well, for me, it was cutting out alcohol actually helped me a lot. I know that sounds like a big, I'm not judging anybody for that. I still drink on occasion, but I have felt alcohol has been very unhelpful to my mental state. I feel less drive and less happiness the next day for things that I want to do. I feel like it plays a lot with your serotonin. So look for stuff to change. Clean living, yeah. Clean living, but also understanding that that sometimes it's just it just is and you just keep breathing and and it will get better with time.

Just too shall pass. This is a matter of my day. I really think that in the winter, I've had a lot of therapists and all of them say the same thing, which is like, you have major depressive disorder and this is what it is, but it's certainly worse for me in the winter months. So I know there's like, I can't think of the term for it, but there's a term for like seasonal depression there it is. So I'll get to the winter and suddenly I'm like, geez, everything really sucks on a deeper level. And then, you know, so it's like this too shall pass is another thing. It's like just practice those things.

Absolutely see a therapist. That's my big, like my biggest emphasis of life is to like, on stage, like my goal, like I have a few things that I really, really care about. One is, is mental health, health, and destigmatizing therapy. Because for me, I didn't go to therapy for a long time because I felt that it would be admitting that I was broken. It'd be admitting that I was weaker than Lex, who doesn't have to go to a therapist because Lex is stronger. So be strong like Lex. You know, I would like to look at all my older brothers and I looked up to them so much and they're all these incredibly successful people.

Plastic surgeon, anesthesiologist, the dentist, two attorneys, Stanford, NYU, just incredible high standards, Eagle scouts. You know, like, they, valedict Victorians, like they just did it all. So for me, I was very, really did not want to, and none of them went to therapy. So it was like, what are you going to be the, are you, oh, you're broken? Are you like the weak one who can't hack life? And I think that's incredibly dangerous. And I feel like it almost cost me my life

because I took so long to finally go to therapy. So I really want kids to know, hey, like the great people that achieve great things that are doing amazing things, they probably have help, almost all of them. Is that going to the gym, but it's a mental gym? What, so I, unfortunately, I wanted to be a psychiatrist when I was growing up. Maybe that's why I

like podcasts. Maybe that's I think you'd be a good one. Maybe I would I think you are psychiatrist pretty much. I think I need more. I think I think I think actually to be as a good psychiatrist, you also need to be seeking therapy from like, you also need to be have some stuff to work through in your mind. I think, yeah, you have to have gone to some dark places. What? What? What? The empathy. It's the ability to empathize, especially if you've directly experienced that

you can go to those places in your mind. Like you said, it's with the music. To be authentic, you have to really go there. Why the therapy helps so much? What is the process of therapy if you can just educate a little more? Are you basically bringing to the surface and talking through things to you because of the momentum of life, you just never allow yourself to speak through, to think through, is that what therapy is? Or is there some more systematic thing? So I've been to a lot of strange different kinds of therapy. So I'll tell you my first therapist, if I could sort of dropped. How hard is it to find a therapist that connected with you? It is, it's actually pretty hard, I think. I think, I think for,

well, actually, I have a skewed view of that because going back to the beginning of my therapy was with a Mormon therapist. So it was very much like, well, are you reading your book of Mormon? And are you praying at night? You know what I mean? Like, that was a big focus of my therapy to begin with. And you're having a faith crisis in the distance. Yes. It's like, well, and then you're making a worse. Yes. The next therapist I went to was a Scientology therapist. I met my wife and she was Scientologist at the time and she's not anymore.

She's like, it's such a funny thing to look back on because we met, I was like this Mormon missionary who had just got home from his mission and I met her and I was, she's Scientologist. I was like, wow, that's Batchit Crazy. Like that stuff's crazy and she's like, what are you talking about? That's your crazy. You're Mormon, that's bad shit crazy. Like, I'm not like that stuff's crazy. And she's like, what are you talking about? That's your crazy.

You're Mormon, that's bad shit crazy. And the two of us were like, huh. Maybe there's something to this to bulb up us here. Yeah, the tension actually forces you to think through like, what is true? Yeah, what is true. And we really fell in love through that, which was like, maybe that we're both on the wrong track.

Let's figure this out. But before that happened, we went to a Scientologist therapist who that therapy consisted of what have you done wrong to Asia? And they asked, they would ask me that question over and over and over and over. And Tom, like thinking of the deepest, darkest things that were in the recesses of my mind. This was a therapy, this was marriage therapy. Anyway, I'm not going to get into that, but it was it was Scientology therapy. So that was different thing. And then I went to therapy therapy. Like, no, it's not attached to any religion. And that was a really great experience for me. And since then, I've been through a couple different therapists, but that was more because where I was moving and things like that. So, is it that hard to find a great

therapist? Probably not, but maybe don't go to your Mormon therapist first, that's the $1 therapist. Or maybe that's, maybe that's the route for you. Maybe it's the route for you, I don't know. Yeah, but what is, so is it bringing stuff to the surface, basically, what's the effect? Why is it so effective? Just is there something but words too? Yeah, I mean, I think it's obviously there's the common things you would think of which is like I've been holding these things in and I don't want to tell anybody and then I tell this person and there's relief in that. But that's really not where the real work comes from. I think the real work is meeting with someone who is well-versed and educated and understands.

It's like coding. It really is. It's like someone who, like, they listen to you and they're like, well, that was a trigger. And then this became this trigger. And you're probably, every time you're hearing that, thinking of this thing that happened earlier in your life. And they just were walking through scenarios.

And maybe some of them aren't right, but some of them you'll be like, it'll resonate sometimes. You're like, wow, I am feeling that because of that and that did happen. And maybe if I call my mom and say this to her, it will make me feel over. Hey, mom, this happened. It's like work. You put in work and you have hard conversations and do difficult things. And it, so if your therapy is not difficult, I actually think that's not good therapy. Good therapy is, it's gonna be a little difficult, it's work. Like, during and after.

Yes, I had this incredible therapist who I told him when I was gonna do Iowasca. He was like, geez, you know, he had actually was a doctor before and a really well-educated study person who had walked away from brain doctor. What's the word for that? Brain doctor. A brain surgeon, neurologist? No, yeah, neurologist. And he said, well, basically, his belief was that ayahuasca was basically doing therapy like 50 sessions. It's like, it's

really intensive. I don't know if you want to do that. If you do, you can make some big steps forward, but I prefer just to do one session at a time. And say, it's hard work. And I typically, it's really hard for me to even talk about ayahuasca, by the way, going back to that because I'm not looking to tell everybody to go to ayahuasca.

It's incredibly hard. It was the scariest experience of my entire life. It felt like I went to heaven, but it also felt like I went to the darkest, deepest hell that was incredibly scary, incredibly scary. Yeah. She told the story of how you wrote the song believer or how you wrote the song believer or like your childhood friend, I guess, a Donald like, like bullying and that kind of stuff. This song, you know, a lot of your songs are super interesting, sort of, there's a percussion, super interesting, super interesting, lyrically, just how it flows, and also pain is at the center of it. I mean a lot of like you said the crisis of faith, some of these existential questions are basically behind a lot of your songs funny enough.

Maybe they're covered in metaphor so it's hard to see but it's there and this song is really but it's there and this song is really interesting in that way that it puts, you know, pain. You made me a believer. You break me down, you build me up believer. That's so interesting. Maybe can you tell the story of how the song came to be? I'd love to listen to it too. I have some questions musically about it too. Yeah. Yeah, I mean, it's exactly what we're talking about with therapy. I just feel like the greatest things in my life have come from the deepest hurt, like losing someone that you love is maybe the hardest part of the human path. For me, at least thus far, when I think of, okay, what was the hardest thing? There's like, you know, there's like, you think of physical pain or maybe like going through financial pain or whatever. I think losing someone that you really love to death is one of the hardest.

For me, I would say it was the hardest. But it also makes you look at your life completely differently and alter your life, at least for me in ways that were really healthy. Being more present, letting go of things that were meaningless, trying to control what other people think about you. Like, wasting your time on things like that, and you suddenly see, like, wow, like time.

I got a small amount of time, like, how do I want to spend it? I'm going to spend it in the best way I know how, and that's it. So, yeah, I mean, that's, it's a basic comment concept that's been said a million times over in a million different ways, but that's pretty much what I was trying to say with believer, which is like, I've lost faith in everything at that time period. You know, or previous to that time period, and then I was rebuilding my faith or my spiritual thought process.

And it was after I was skinned, it was like, you know, finding being a believer, and that's not necessarily like a believer in God or a believer in heaven and hell or anything like that. A believer in more, believing in goodness, believing in that there is some light. Like, and again, those words, like, they're just words, and I wish there were better words to formulate the thought that I'm trying to express, but just more. The thought of me dying for me, I don't fear it. I don't fear it, but actually I really fear not seeing my kids again. I'll say that.

That is fearful for me. I feel like I love so deeply these children that the thought of like leaving them. For me is a scary thought or something. They're kind of good reminder how much you love life actually. And then you don't always remember that. Yeah, and I think having kids is not for everyone for absolutely for sure, but for me, and especially you shouldn't be having kids

to give yourself a reason to live. I feel like dying, I'm gonna have a kid. You might feel more like dying after having a kid actually. They're pretty stressful, but it is a place to like, I've changed a lot of people that I've known that it gave them a new intensity of gratitude for life for sure

God you might if we overturn to the pain of the believe in you might if we listen to a little bit no song You're at the music first or the worst first? It's the same time, which is very typical for me. By the way, it opens the intensity of openings. You ever think about what the first few seconds sound like? Is that something that... Like, when you imagine a song, is it the opening you imagine? No, it's kind of a, it's just a, I never think opening, I never think final, I think,

soundscape of how I'm feeling right now. So it could be the middle of the song for all I know, when I'm doing that, but my process for me is very much lyrics and melody and music really come at the same time. Like, by the same time, I it's like I'll hear it. Like it's like here's all the orchestra and you're kind of just pressing all the buttons at once. And melody in my voice is just one of those instruments.

You know what I mean? It's just utilizing one instrument. So you've seen the landscape. And that landscape includes melody, and percussion, lyrics a little bit, or lyrics. I would be words to begin with, like a word here and there. And that's... Yeah, a little bit or lyrics. I would be words to begin, like a word here and there. And I'll be like, tt tt tt tt tt tt tt tt tt tt tt tt tt tt tt tt tt tt. You know, I'm like, what's a word that I'm thinking of

when I'm feeling this soundscape? And I always create with no theme in mind. I'm never, for better or for worse, just my process is I'm sitting down and I'm writing a journal entry Simple as that. It's like when you sit down to write a journal entry Are you sitting down and you're like? Okay, I've had all these words here that I'm gonna put on the page and I'm gonna order it in this way

And I'm my theme up for my journal entry today is gonna be this maybe some people do but I don't my journal entry is I don't know what I'm gonna say. Oh, how is today? Well, man today was this and feeling this and not that I think about that, I'm really angry about that. That I heard my feelings when this happened. You're like, you're formulating it as you go and that's the joy of it.

And for me, that's what music is. So I'll sit down, not thinking, have been wanting to write a song that has a hard beat. Right, been wanting to write a song that's anthemic. I've been wanting to write a song that's, it's like, how am I feeling right now? And is it joyful, is it the feeling joyful to you, or is it struggle?

It's not, you just made it sound like it's joyful. I think it's joyful. Or at least fulfilling. Oh, yeah, fulfilling is what I was, you're kind of looking for, but there was, because a lot of artists talk about, it's really, like, it's all about writers. Catholic, Catholic word really short, like, it's about writers. Catholic.

Catholic word. It feels like having a good moment with a therapist where you're like, okay, I'm expressing this thing that I just need to express. For whatever reason, I need to express this. The majority of the songs I write for the record are never heard. I write over 100 songs a year. I release 20 songs every three years. So I don't know what's that percent 20 out of 300. Come on, Lex. Less than 10%.

Less than 10%. Yeah. Anyway, so it's and then like getting together with the band and like getting them selected down is really what the process have so you're really writing a Song per one to three days kind of Maybe a song that you can't quite figure out the puzzle of that's gonna last a little a little longer Is it worth it? Every idea. Yeah, you finish every idea. I do. I finish every idea It's not just like laying completely unfinished. I could open my computer for you right now and I would show you

hundreds and hundreds of songs that you would listen to and think that sounds like a song. It's like there's rhythm, there's melody, there's multiple instruments, there's lyrics. Like I, it's the same thing is for coding for me, which is music, which is I can't walk away until I've completed it. But it's finished. Well, finished is finished, but it sounds like a song. I certainly do a lot more with it after with the band will pull it apart, but it's a song. It'll be like, you know, you'll listen to it and say, okay, that was a song. I get you understand what it is, for sure.

Do you think this is a painful question from a fan perspective? Do you think there's genius on your computer that you walked away from that you just did notice it? Like, do you think there's truly great songs that you've written that you just didn't notice how great they are. I think greatness is something that I feel I don't feel like I've achieved greatness.

Genuine, I'm not saying that to you in a way of humility, falsely. I feel Jordan tight. Genuinely, I feel like I am on a journey right now to find who I am. And I'm 34 and it's like, I don't even, I haven't begun that journey. I feel like I'm just starting that.

But that being said, I certainly don't know the right answer to what songs are, you know, beloved or good to the masses. Like imagine dragons is such a massive entity. It's like, there have been a, I will say this, there are a couple times where I've fought really hard to decide on the single, really hard. Or I always fight for what goes on the record always.

I always put the record together and that's the record that I wanted to be and me and the guys come up with that. And it's nobody else has influence no manager no label the single everybody wants to have a saying your label wants to have a saying it your manager wants to have a saying it and I have fought really hard over that and I've been wrong before and I've been right before but as far as songs that I am put out I mean because you can imagine so many songs, you think, you think of so many Beatles songs that are like some of their great while my guitar gently weeps. Right.

I'm trying to imagine weird sounding, not that interesting possibly songs that turn out. The majority of what we put them. Honestly, they may, it may be our best stuff is that we don't put out, for instance, because our band is such a It's such a complex question. I really don't know actually. I don't know maybe one day I'll die and people will look and be like I hated Imagine Dragons, but now listen That's not I really liked that which they would put that out or maybe they'll be like oh, it's all sounds like shit I don't really know Well, that's that that's sorry. It is a tragic thing. That's why I asked it, which is like, there could be some great, incredible things that

that will take you a long time to rediscover, to realize how great they are. And it's that's it's also the tragic aspect of being an artist is you don't know, if you get fame or all that kind of stuff, you don't know what's going to really move people because ultimately what you want is to connect with people and you don't know what that's going to be. It's hard. I mean, to me, it's tragic just as a fan of yours to see. Maybe I wonder if there's like incredible stuff there. Just as it is tragic to see great artists throughout history who didn't get recognition until they died. It's like because they basically held on, you know, France Kafka was

extremely self-critical. A lot of these folks had an idea of what's good and not and they were wrong. They had genius. They weren't entirely wrong because they became sufficiently popular, but it's interesting. I try to genuinely to release the songs that move me the most. I'll say that. You're in your own audience. Yeah, I try to put out the songs that make me feel the most. I feel that. That's my only gauge because it's so subjective of like what is good? What's this?

Nobody knows the song of the masses are gonna like nobody knows that formula nobody knows it So for me, it's always what makes me feel something one of the main lessons Rick Rubin taught me when we worked with him on this record was he would say He would his his main point that he would continually bring up went like Because he's not the type person be like that's a bad song or that's good. It's just not who Rick Rubin is. It's more like there's more nuance to it. He would say, I don't really believe you on that song. That's what he would say, he would say.

And I knew that was like, that song's a no-go. He would say, and I would've genuine, there was a time he said it and it was about a song and I really felt it and meant it when I said it, but he didn't believe it when you heard it. And I was like, man, well, the end of the day, I can believe it all I want, but if the listener doesn't feel the honesty in it, just like we were talking about earlier, I think the most important ingredient is, is this truth, perceived is truth to someone else. And if it's not, the bullshit indicator goes, you know, I don't care. I don't throw

it away. I don't care about it. Well, he, you said that he made you go through like line by line delirics every single time. That was excruciating for me. Why was that excruciating? Well, first of all, it's Rick Rubin. So you're in the room with Rick Rubin, who's done a lot of the greatest of all time.

And so I had to first just put that aside and be like, okay, well, you've done a lot of my favorite records, but still you're human and not everything you say is gonna be right, you know? And I'm a strongly opinionated person, and so is Rick. And so when the two of us were sitting in the corner of together, it was, you know.

But the lyrics, which is interesting. So not every entire composition, but just like, let's look at the lyrics. Yeah, I mean here. Yeah, oh yeah, because he would look over every, there was like, and there was battles he won, battles that he didn't win. And maybe he was right.

I don't know. I mean, there was, for instance, I'll give you an example. There was a song on the record called number one. Rick will probably laugh when he hears this. Because this was a big one that we kept going back and forth on. But this will give you a good insight of what it was like. And there's a line in it that says, I don't know. The course is, I don't know what I meant to be.

I don't need no one to believe. When it's all been said and done, I'm still my number one. And he was like, ah, it just makes me cringe when I hear that. He's like, I just, like do you have to be like, can it not be like, you're still my number one?

I was like, no, it's not about anybody else. Like, you know, it's about like self love. He's like, yeah, but like, do you need to like talk about self love like that? And I was like, well, I can't, I feel like I need to. He's like, well, but, you know, there's something else we could say they're like, we just kept, you know, we kept coming back to this song, okay?

I was like, and I changed it. I tried changing it. What did I change it to? It was like, it wasn't you're still my number one, cause it just made no sense. It wasn't about some love thing or like someone else. I changed it to something else. And it just, it was the one thing that I was like,

I'm really sorry, Rick. Like, I get it. And if it sounds cringey to you, it's definitely sounding cringey to other people too, and that sucks. But I don't know how else to say this in a way that I wanna put that song out anymore. But there were other songs for sure where Rick was like, that or this, that word,

feels a little trite. You already said that once. Can you say it in a different way? It was really helpful. And then yeah, it's really interesting because you're trying to say something so simply and yet not make it cringe. And that's really hard. That's, that's's like a that's a strange art form because you want to say some of the greatest law songs. We, I mean, we'll look at the without you song. I mean, that's the whole thing is cringey. If you just read on paper, like it's a, like it's a court report or something, but yet it's not, especially one song, maybe, but no, there's something about, yeah, it's not, especially one song maybe, but no, there's something about,

yeah, maybe song in a way you believe it. When you believe it, but also written in a way that's single-bull in the way you believe it. So it's like, it rolls off, it just comes out in a way that just feels like silky. No word catches your mind as cringy yes this but then music I think great speeches are like that too or just you know conveying communicating ideas simply that's the that's the art form is to not be cringey, so interesting. And then yet, because like when you're raw and real, it might at first feel cringey. So the battle there, and that that's where you see people fail. Like just regular artists, like, I don't know, open, at open mic, I got to open

mics, so I just listen to the musicians. Like when they write songs, like they fail that test. They write simple stuff, but it's cringey. Why? I wonder what it was like. Like what is that? I'm telling you, like I tried to explain this to my brother the other day,

because it's the same thing with a live performance. If I'm not in my right head space and I walk on stage and I walk up and let's say I say something and I do this Yeah, because I'm like this is the move, right? I'm like this is the move the crowd doesn't care Yeah, in fact the crowd's like that's cringing when you did this But if I wasn't thinking about doing this and I went up there and I said something and I really meant it in my body was like I can't explain this to you. It's so silly to say out loud but it's

People will resonate to it when it's real and when it's acted it doesn't you could do it the exact it could the motion could look the same Your eyes look the same, but there's something about the energy That people know they know if it's real or not. Yeah, people like you said, incredible bullshit detectors. It's 100%. I'll go on a stage and if I'm not in the right head space to be real, it won't be a good show. If I'm real, then it's a good show. It's simple as that. Let's go through the song. Like I said, great opener. So you had this in your mind,

this landscape. Yeah, yeah, yeah. The beat was first on this. What about the first and the second and the first things first, the first line I wrote was first things first. I don't know why it just was like, and then I was like, oh, that principle principle was you know Get great line. Don't second thing second. Don't you tell me what you think that I could be I'm the one at the sale on the master of my see. I'm the master of my see I've got had that in his office. He had this saying

That was something about the sailor and being the master of a sea that I always loved. There you go, simple statement. Zero-cringent. It's so powerful, it's so simple. On the mastermind. See, this whole song is just trivial, but in terms of lyrically, but extremely powerful and original original unique sounding, something about

the words. Just even, you don't have to actually sing them, you just read them. And then, and then raw. I was broken from a young age, talking to myself and into the masses, writing my poems for the few that look at me, took, took to me, shook at me, feeling me singing from the heart ache, from the pain, taking my message from the thing. I can't, why am I reciting your words to you? But the percussionist throughout it, and that, that was there in the beginning.

Procussion is almost in the lyrics. Yeah. And I'm a very percussive singer because I was a drummer first before I think, same with Dave Grohl, probably a similar thing, which is I think in Procussive sense a lot when I'm writing because I and I also was before I could Play an instrument I would beat box and I think Michael Jackson did this to actually I've heard in the studio that he was very similar but a lot of what I do is Procussive

Because my brain thinks and it percussively first. A little more. It's almost like drums. It's all building to the chorus. What about the word pain? When did that come to you? What about the word pain? When did that come to you? Pain.

You made me a believer. Yeah, I just the idea of... I really wanted the things that a lot of the songs that I like, I like divisiveness. For instance, not always, but there's times where I want someone to hear a song and I want them to either love it or hate it. I really don't want them to be in the middle ground. A lot of the songs that, like, a lot of, I want you to hear that. And almost like, whoa, you know what I mean? And it's something either somebody's going to hear it and they're like, man, I just don't want to hear that. Like that, or it's like, oh, I felt that so deeply

when he said that in that way because it sounded like this. And when you think of the word pain, it's like, that's a, that's a, when I, at least for me when I hear that word, I, it carries a lot of weight. Caries a lot of weight. So I wanted to sing it with a lot of weight and to come into that chorus with like, like it's a striking moment.

And I'm also a tenor singing as, sorry, I'm a baritone singing as a tenor. So that's where that natural, like gruffness comes from is I'm singing out of my range really up in my head voice, and it carries a lot of weight with it because of the baritone. Can I ask you a specific sort of the pause before the pain? It's really interesting, because like a double... What is it? How much work does that take to get that right? That's incredible.

Because it's like a... So you're kind of seeing the beauty through that. And then that, whatever that sound is, the... Right, the bass being rolled off. Yeah, but... Yeah. Yeah, I actually, when I first was approaching the chorus, it was actually seeing, took a minute and then missing a heartache

from the pain, taking my message from the veins, making my lesson from the veins, seeing the beauty through the, seeing the beauty through the pain. You made me, oh, you, like it came in on one. I'm not seeing it right now, but it did not wait. And it felt like it didn't hit in the way that it was supposed to hit, because you predict that, right?

You're like, you're waiting to, uh, beauty through the pain you made me up. Right. It was, yeah. Beauty through the pain you made me up. Maybe. So I wanted to feel a little more like striking like again, it's like that thing that makes you kind of do this a little bit. You're like, huh?

But once you hear it a few times, you're like, ah, and you predict, you know what I mean? It's like, I'd rather someone here are song the first time be confused by it. So they play it the second time. And then they're like, oh, okay. You know what I mean? Like, I really don't want, you know, I'd rather turn some people off along the way.

And then the people who come along for you are going to feel more committed, I think. It's just an interesting, like, it feels gutsy to insert silence, you know? Yeah, that's what makes it, you know, it's like the greatest speakers of all time are like, and I told you, right. You would know, you know, it's like, you're like,

oh, yeah, What is that? Yeah, that's so interesting to do that just at the right time. And then pain, right? Man, it's a brilliant song. Did you know it was a good song when you wrote it? Out of the thousands of songs you've been. You know, it's always the same thing for me, which is like, if I want to listen to the song

And I want to listen to it a lot of times than than those are the songs we put out and I and I only want to listen to the songs And making me feel something whether or not it's like our single that did the very worst of all our singles Was the song that I wanted to listen to the least but it made the most as a single, which was all the wrong reason to choose it, right? It was a, I bet my life is the single off our second album. And that song was originally written, it was just a guitar and a vocal, and it was very just quiet and laid back. And we were like, well, let's try to dial it up,

let's try to produce it, and we overproduced that song. We self-produced it as a band and we overproduced. And that song, I mean, it's, it did good, you know, in terms of a song, but for us, it did not do good. Compared to other songs, and I really look back at that and learned a lesson from that. It's like, I don't want to listen to the song. That's a sign already. If you don't want to listen to your own song, it's probably not a good song. Yeah. You said your dad elsewhere in today just said that your dad early on was a kind of the early Rick Rubin. Yeah. So when you were starting out, he gave you feedback.

He listened. What did you learn about music, about life, from your dad? My dad is a really quiet farm, grew up on a farm, very humble. I think he starts every sentence by saying, this is just my two cents pretty much. He's like, take it or leave it. Like, you know what I mean, it's like take it or leave it like you don't

I mean he's that that kind of a sense like there's humility and everything and it's real firm It's not like false humility. He really I really feel like when he's saying things He really is like maybe this isn't any worth to you son and he means it but here it is and it's always gold And I'm like wow dad. That's incredible, you know So what in those early days of you like so so you were like 12 or something like that, like starting to write song? I was 12. I wasn't showing my music to anyone.

I started writing my own S12 and I probably wrote for, at least let's say six months or something and I had written probably, I don't know, like a lot of songs during that. What was the topic by the way? Love, all. It was anger. All sad, no, the first song I ever wrote went, and it was like a bluesy thing.

It was like, there was my voice to that, and it was like, oh, by himself, no other one around. And he stood all alone. When would he be found? Did he want company? Was he fine on his own? Everyone needs a friend? So why was he all? You know, it is like, but I was like a 12 year old with I would just felt like depressed for the first time. And I was, and I just was like, so- They can discover the blues as a 12 year old. Yeah, right, right.

It really was. It was like my sense of the blues at that time for sure, like bad version of the blues, but it was like 12 year old kid with a bunch of acne. And like, I just, like, I hated going to school. I felt like that I just had not found myself. I don't think a great song by the way. But anyway, I wanted to keep looking at it. I forgot us. Yeah, I don't know about that, but yeah, what was your dad at which point did you begin to share with your dad? A lot of the songs that I wrote in the beginning were very much like Bobby McFarron

like that because we are our Mike was in a part of the house where I couldn't bring over the piano and only the instrument I played at the time was the piano. So I would do everything with my voice. But then I started teaching myself the guitar in those in that beginning like six month period just watching my brothers play in their garage bands in the basement. And then I started to write songs a little more like Anya vibes like stack my voice like 20 30 times and like Any, and you meet like Jare, which is who my dad would listen to a lot, John, John Michael Jare, this is incredible synth genius. But anyway, so I finally got my, my like, gallup enough to show it to my dad one day after

work. And I got very little of my dad, because there were nine kids and he worked from 8am to 6pm. Well, come on, very very tired and here's nine kids that are like Dad, you know, and you're the young one you're not you're just gonna miss I was in the middle kind of too so it's even you know middle child thing but I sat them down and I was like hey dad I just want to like kind of show you a song and he's like oh you know you didn't know I was right in writing anything and I showed it to him and he listened and he took it off and he really looked at me it was like that was really good. He was like, I really, I thought,

and this, when you said this, it made me feel this. He was like, and that did it. I probably would have given up music. Like, I look back, that was a very pivotal moment for me. I was like, in a place where I was like, is this good, bad? I don't know, maybe it's so embarrassing and terrible. And I was already writing lyrics,

there were a little like overly metaphorical to hide that I was dealing with faith crisis because I thought, okay, I'm gonna show this to dad. I don't want my dad to know I'm questioning the truthfulness of Joseph Smith. I'm not gonna be like, it's Joseph Smith, a real prophet, it's Mormonism, true, I don't really know.

You know what I was writing way overly metaphorical, but because my dad really validated it and he was a no-bullshit person. So I knew when my dad said that, I was like writing way overly metaphorical, but because my dad really validated it, and he was a no-bullshit person. So I knew when my dad said that, I was like, you know what, at least my dad really actually thinks this is cool. And I really trusted my dad's taste and thought everything he listened to was cool.

So I was like, wow, I'm gonna keep doing this. And I just showed it to my dad for years and years. And still to this day, I send every song to my dad. So he underneath it with the feedback is always like, oh, I like this idea. I like this. It's just a positive like a not always positive. No, but like underneath it, do you sense the positivity?

Because I think always never, never mean never malicious. You know, there's like, there's two types of criticism. There's like criticism that's just like you're looking to be hurtful to someone. And then there's criticism that's like really important for art. It's the type of criticism that's like you see the value in what's happening. And if it's honest, then you maybe communicate with that person

like I see what you're trying to do with that. You know, it's not even like you have to say that or whatever, like butter it up, but it's like, my dad would just give me this honest criticism that would be like, you know, it certainly wasn't always good, but I knew it was always well intentioned. I guess that's how I would say. So you mentioned, maybe you really listen to it. I'm a big fan of cast evens. You made me really listen to father and son. I probably all sons have issues to work through with their fathers.

And you said that you connect with this song in particular. I think, so your father now, what is it about the song that connects with you for people? Let me play it. Let me play a little bit. People should educate themselves on cats, devins. Oh my gosh. Right on the piece train. The best.

The best piece ride on the piece train. You think gosh. Right on the piece. The best. The best piece. Right on the piece, Jane. You think this is a hopeful, a sad song? I hear it's hopeful. I hear it is a loving father, saying just what his son needs to hear. It's not time to make a change. Just relax. Take it easy. It's like that calm wisdom. Yeah, it's time. It wise. And just the way he says that, like, that should be a corny line, but it's not corny at all. Like, yeah. Look at me, corny line, but it's not corny at all like yeah Like me a mold and what I'm happy

Yeah, I mean the simplicity there and yeah, but it's such a contrast with What's his name? Harry Chaplin with the the cast in the cradle, which is like the sadness of... this feels like there's a wise calm connection between father and son, right? With cast in the cradle, I don't know if you remember that song. He learned to walk while I was away and he was talking before I knew it and as he grew, he'd say, I'm going to be like you dad, you know, I'm going to be like you. And the idea of that song is that he does become like his dad, which is funny, not something you've said.

which is funny, you know, something you've said. But in a different way, you become too busy to make that connection. His dad was too busy making connection with his son. In a not a dramatic way, in a very kind of calm, not too long way. You don't have time. You're busy at work, you're providing for the family, so on.

There's connection, but if you don't really get the form that depth of connection, and then the father, when the sun shows up from college and all that kind of stuff, he doesn't spend any time with the father, just the calm sadness of that. That we live, we can live parallel lives and never quite connect. And there is a little bit of that, and father and son

with Kat Stevens too, like when the son is saying, from the moment that I could talk, I was ordered to listen. I always remember listening to that line, feeling like that really moved me. But the beauty of that song is it shows, it's kind of like the theme of what,

I feel like we've talked about since the second you got here, which is something I really like, I don't know why it's such an important theme in my life right now, but the duality of just understanding that you don't understand someone else's situation. And there's truth to both sides. Like there's truth to what the father is saying to the son. He's like saying these things and he's like, I'm looking out for you. I love you. Take your time with these things. If you wanna get married, you can, like these things will bring up.

And then the sun saying, listen, like I wanna pay my own path. I wanna do this, like, why are you telling me this? Like, the sun's not wrong. Cause there's a lot of parents who tell their kids what to do and they're wrong. And they don't let the kid form the path that they need to. But should you not be a parent? Like, you know what I mean? There's just two sides to be. and they don't let the kid form the path that they need to.

But should you not be apparent? Like, you know, there's just two sides to be. There's a thing, it is annoying when you're older. You get to see people do all the same things. You could say, well, this is a phase, and you'll see that this actually will end up in this way. You can like predict how the life on rolls and it's very annoying for young people to hear, especially because it's probably going to be true.

It's like, no, it's not going to be like this. No, it'll be different, but then you become that person. But that doesn't mean they also let them live that life, right? Let them make the mistakes, but they're not mistakes, actually. They're like beautiful deviations from the path that they end up on. And those make the path. Do you have a device for young folks today? You've had like an incredible dark journey and a successful

one, a loving one, and one of the most successful artists in the world. Is there advice you can give to young people today that would like to find themselves to that way, especially if they're struggling? I thought you said device at first and I was like, honestly, I feel like that device is not helping. Like, maybe I should get away, throw away their devices. Advice. I would just say like what I emphasize to my kids is, I really, really want my kids to just learn to love

themselves. It's easier said than done. It's really easy to pick on yourself in life. It's really easy to look in the mirror and wish you looked different, wish you were more successful like that person over there, wish that, you know, wish a lot of things. And people that I see that really succeed at life really succeed truly. And that doesn't mean they're making money necessarily or they're succeeding and, you know,

they're talking to a lot of people. Like, their success to me is like, happy. And real, they have real self love. You meet, you know, when you meet someone, you meet Rick, for instance, you meet Rick Rumin. Rick has a calmness about him and it's funny because everybody sees him as this like Zen master. Rick is just a really loving person who also loves himself and has self confidence because you just see it and it resonates and that's why he draws people and that's why he's so great in the studio because you know his intentions always as an artist when a producer comes in you're like whoa whoa whoa what are

your intentions what are you trying to do are you trying to get a hit out of me for the label are you're trying to make me something are you trying to like make me this so you can prove this about yourself like there's a lot in that dynamic and the reason that Rick is so good is because you know his intentions. And his intentions come because Rick has that self love. So for me, find the things about yourself, because they're there that you love and really focus in on them. And it's not selfish. Like I feel like I was brought up in a family too, where it was like, never looking word, like

be selfless, like serve, serve, serve, which by the way, I'm, is a true principle of life. I think you love yourself more when you serve more. I think that's really evident in life, but also spend time doing the things that make you happy. Take time every day to go on that walk that you need to go on, listen to that book tape that you need to listen to. For me, that's something I need. I know if I do that, I'm going to be a better dad because I did. I gave myself some love back in life. And I just forgive yourself, I think. Forgive yourself because everybody messes up. Everybody hurts others. Everybody says unkind words at times.

Everybody, everybody fails all the time. And if you think that you're gonna not, you're wrong, and you're eventually going to, and you're either gonna punish yourself for it every day, and be a lesser version of what you could be, or you're gonna forgive yourself for it. And if you've learned that that's not something you want, then try not to do it again.

If you do it again, and you're probably gonna to do it again, whatever that is, you're going to, you're going to gossip about that person, you're going to feel bad because then you gossip about someone. Like, is this something you could say in terms of self-love? Is there a role for being critical? I just like that, that those demons of like self-criticism, do you need a little bit of that? Tom Weitz talks about like my town a little drop of poison, right? You need a little poison or Or is it is that silly or a medicine poison? No, I mean it's like my biggest thing in life This has been like the thing that I've worked on the hardest for the last few years is to not be overly critical and

To let go of control. I think it's really easy to kill an artist. It's really easy to kill an artist. Like if my dad would have sat down with me that day, and even if he would have just sat down and then like, good job son, okay. It's not silly, right? Like I don't, I didn't, not everybody has a dad

who's gonna ever do something, or put in the tongue, or whatever. But that would, that might have altered everything for me. Like my dad taking the extra time to be, to just give me a thoughtful response, opposed to kids know, kids know when you're, when you're just like trying to get out of the room and remember it ever. I knew he wasn't, And that did a lot.

So yeah, but is that a huge, is that what makes the artist, is the fragility of it that like, would you have any other way? No, no, I agree with you. I think that that's what, that's the beauty of art, but I think also on the same token it's like I went to I went to music cares recently which is a charity for musicians that are down on their

luck that maybe we're successful one point or I've never been successful in the campment build and pay the bills and this charity contributes money to these artists, aspiring artists, or artists who've had drug issues and like there's a lot that they do, but and there was a statistic that they told it was staggering to me, which is I think it was 75% of artists, musicians say they struggle with severe depression. That's really high. I don't know what the national average is, but I would guess that that's higher than national average per occupation. So I just think there's a tricky balance. There's a tricky balance in art. So yeah, of course, like it's a necessary thing, the fragility of it all, but um...

It's a necessary thing, the fragility of it all. But, um, yeah, I wonder, because I'm extremely self-critical, and I sometimes ask myself the question, I've romanticized it, or rather, I've learned to be productive, to channel into productivity. But I wonder if there's better ways to do that. And I also wonder if it's eventually the thing that destroys me, like if long term, if it's a healthy thing, it

might be useful when you're in sort of actively fighting the battles of the day, the information engineering challenges and all that kind of stuff. Right. But then when you're sitting back and enjoying life with family and so on, is that going to be like, do you need to find that self love, like ability to kind of silence the voice of criticism in your head? You know what? I really, there's a good, you're making a good point. And I think that the middle ground is, you need, you need self-doubt to push you to be better. I do believe that like, for instance, if I,

if I believed, I've hit my, like when you're like, is there a song on there that you think is genius? If I think I've written a genius song ever I think I'd probably stop. I think I'd be like you know what? Did it I wrote What's that perfect song Imagine imagine yeah, okay, if I'd written imagine I'd probably be like Imagine. Imagine, yeah.

Okay. If I had written Imagine, I'd probably be like, that's it, did it. All right. Perfect song has been written. That's the best thing I'll ever do. So the fact that there is like self-criticism and criticism outside, I think is necessary. 100% for sure. It pushes you.

It pushes you. It pushes you. It's just finding the right middle ground for that young aspiring artist to also not feel squashed and to be heard and to love just to not even to feel believe it because they believe themselves. They love themself enough that they believe it. And then they'll do great. And then the song will come out great. And they'll do a great performance. I have to ask one of the very interesting aspects of your life of the way

you put love out there in the world. What is it the core of your support for the LGBT community? A couple of things. So Warren growing up in from a young age in the artist community, a lot of my closest friends were LGBTQ, starting in middle school. And I think a lot of the best artists in the world

are LGBTQ and that's just, no, it's not a secret. Like, it's just this, like the artist community is filled with lots of LGBTQ people. So I think being raised in that community in that my friends struggled with their faith and their sexuality really opened up my eyes to how incredibly hard that path is. For instance, okay, when I was in high school, there was someone who went in front of, who was LGBTQ and was Mormon,

and felt like there was not a place for them in the church. They felt like the path. But you know, when you're being told that it's evil and you believe it because you believe in your faith and you feel like it's unchangeable, you're putting a kid in a situation where there's really no good resolution. It's either be alone for the rest of your life

or marry outside your sexual preference, which I don't wanna marry a man. Like if I was forced to marry a man, I'm like, I don't want to. I don't want to marry a man. Like if I was forced to marry a man, I'm like, I don't want to. I'm wondering how you do a man because I'm heterosexual. So you're forcing a kid into a situation where it's very dangerous. On social, this kid went in front of the Las Vegas Mormon temple and shot himself. Kill himself. That impacted our community. Like, and not just that, but it was like severe bullying to LGBTQ kids. In the 90s, it was especially different.

Like, there's still bullying, don't be wrong, but man, like bullying in school, I don't really know actually what it's like in schools now. Maybe the bullying's just as bad as it was in the 90s, but there was like, it was like, I would hear all the time, like the F slur being slung out at people who were LGBTQ and all the time. And I wasn't even LGBTQ. So I, you know, it's just seeing that I think that every any social justice issue takes all sides.

It takes all pieces of the puzzle. If only the pieces of the puzzle contributed are from the side that is affected, I don't believe that we'll ever have resolution. We're doing a shit job and we need to do better. And that's just the reality of it. So that's part of the reason I also have family who's LGBTQ and it's just something

that's been part of my path. And I feel like I'm a big believer in take the path that is presented to you. And this was just something that came up in my life a lot. When I met my wife, she was living with her two best friends who were LGBTQ, who really didn't want her to marry me because I was Mormon and at the time it was Prop 8,

which was Mormons were fighting against LGBT gay marriage. And so that then they didn't come to our wedding and that really broke my wife's heart. So it was just like, because Mormon isn't represented everything that was against their community. So, do you feel you had to say something? Yeah, I felt like by not saying anything,

I was saying everything. I felt like by not speaking up and being like, hey, Dan Reynolds is Mormon singer. Here's this new band, Magic Dragons, and they're Mormons. It was like, okay, well, what do Mormons represent? They represent Prop 8. What does Prop 8 represent? Bigotry towards the LGBTQ community.

So what do I do? Okay, I can speak in every interview and be like, well, that's not me, I don't believe that too. Or I could just be more active about it. And especially when it's affecting my family and friends throughout my entire life, it was like, all right. This seems like a path that you need to go down. So, long story short, it like a path that you need to go down. So lots for sure is a path that just presented itself through through things

in my life. So just done that topic, it's a religion in God, give a lot of meaning to a lot of people. It gives tradition that brings people together across the generations, but also can hurt people. What do you make about that tension? So, source of meaning, but also source of pain for people? The reality is, at least to me, again, this is just my reality. I feel like I'm doing my dad's thing every time I'm talking to. I'm like, I don't really know my two sets. You have become your father. Yeah. The reality, and it's my reality, and it is the reality for sure.

Yeah. It is. There's, I think that religion has brought a lot of hurt and pain to a lot of people. Absolutely it has. I don't think anybody pain to a lot of people. Absolutely it has. I don't think anybody can dispute that on either side. Whether it's more, whether it's slaughtering of entire peoples, there's been a lot of pain and suffering that has come from religion.

So my little thing that has been hard for me is a faith crisis, right? I had religion and then I lost it and then I had nothing. So that's for me, I was like, well, religion did that to me, right? But then at one point, it's kind of like how much of my life am I just going to complain about like being raised more man or being depressed? Like, you know, as I get older, I'm like, okay, so what? It's really hurt me, but were there any good things that came out of Mormonism?

Well, yeah, there's a lot of good things that have come to my family through Mormonism. Closeness, where really, really close Mormon culture is that you live together forever, right? The teaching is that your families are forever. We die and then we go to heaven together and we're together forever. My family really believes that principle.

All of them do. And that instills a certain way of living that's kind of beautiful, even if it's not eventy. There's something kind of beautiful about believing that we're forming these bonds together as a family and that we're gonna be together forever. It brings a lot of comfort to a kid too. When I was little, I was like, wow.

It's gonna be okay if I die because I get to see my mom again. You know what I mean? I really believe that. Is the right answer that you tell that kid, actually when you die, you're not gonna see your mom again. Maybe it might be, I don't know. And everybody's gonna, anybody who has a kid is gonna face that moment.

I've already faced it where you sit down and my kid was like, hey, dad, when you die, am I gonna see you again? I was actually a really hard moment for me because I was suddenly faced with, okay, do I give the answer that I thought was bullshit? Or do I give the answer of what I think it is? Or do I give the real answer, which is, I don was bullshit. Or do I give the answer of what I think it is? Or do I give the real answer, which is,

I don't know. And that's what I chose. Which is a father that's not always the easiest answer because your kid, it's a wonderful thing that you feel like you can give your kid the comfort of like, hey, your parents are gonna take care of everything, we know everything, we've been around, my kids always like,

are you the strongest? I'm like, yeah, I am the strongest. I'm stronger than everybody. Yeah the strongest I'm like yeah I'm the strongest stronger than everybody yeah yeah so when you're faced with that moment it's like it's kind of sucks to tell your kid like you know what I don't know if you're gonna see me after I die but that but I hope that's why I said I was like I don't know but I hope I really hope because that would be awesome if we can hang out forever. And if there's any way for it to happen, I'll make it happen.

You know what I mean? That's kind of what my answer was. So long story short, sorry, I know that I'm being lengthy on this. Is there like, what is my thought on religion? It just is. It's gonna, it's been here forever. It's coping.

It may be it's, I can't say whether it's true or false. How the hell am I supposed to know? I mean like I've lived 34 years on this Planet a lot of people have been around a lot longer than me and they really believe very deeply and a lot of them are smarter than me You know what I mean like I look at my older brothers for instance who are very practicing Mormons These guys are hyper-intelligent. My younger sister, hyper-intelligent, all of them start smarter than me.

They all believe it still. So what am I supposed to say? Well, you're all stupid. You know what I mean? You're all wrong. I don't know. Maybe it's the South Park episode where everybody dies and then they're like,

well, the right answer was Mormonism. And every time I go, I mean, Mormon's love that moment in South Park. They're like, hey, that day may come. That day may come. Yes. So maybe I don't know the honest answer for everybody around the table. But the biggest question for which I don't know is the right answer is,

what's the meaning of this whole thing? What's the meaning of life? No, you're not allowed to say I don't know. Okay. You can be just like your dad and say, let me just give my two cents. Take it for whatever it's worth, take it or leave it. It's probably worth nothing. It's a bit of aiddle on the ground.

I mean, what why are we here? It's just busily creating all these kinds of things, worrying about things, having kids. at least right now is to wake up and try to bring light love to the world, light love to myself and have integrity. That's my purpose. The ultimate purpose of life, that I guess that's my ultimate purpose of life. I don't know what happens when I die. I wasky gave me some sense that there's more to be known. I'm sure there are other things in life that would give me that. And I'm looking for it. I'm a seeker. I'm I'm always looking for the next Something to give me hope in something more even if so I could just not bullshit my kids when they ask me that question Be like you know what? I really don't know I I want to not know more

That makes sense. I don't want to like I want to see things that make me confused I don't want to see things that make me confused, that make me question what I already knew. Like I am, like, when I meet an atheist who comes up to me and they're like atheism, atheism, atheism. It's just as laughable to me as when I meet the Mormon who comes up and they're like, Mormonism, Mormonism, Mormonism. I'm like, how do you, how do anyone,

how do you guys know? Did like, like, you know. So you feel like, you're doing some, through all your travels, through all the people you meet, you feel like you're still keeping your eyes open and your heart open to sort of discover, discover something new, like the Iowasca experience, that there might be deeper truths out there.

Yeah. And I want to find them. And I want to surround myself with people who are just looking for it. I'm not interested in people who are just looking to point fingers at each, like life is so short, I'm looking for, it's one of the reasons that I want to meet with you is I was like wow Lex really seems like he's on a journey to find truth and that humility for me It's same thing with Rick it drew me to Rick. It was like I really I see that and I identify with it And that's what I'm looking for there's the final song on our record our new record that's coming out

the chorus goes And this is like this is my my best answer to what you're asking. The chorus goes, Take it easy on me, I need some lullaby. They tell me heaven's just a lie. Well, I'm not surprised. Tell me that you know, no, you don't. Yeah, you're just like me. Can we just all for the best take it easy?

That's it for me. It's like I'm in a place where I'm like I Don't know tell me you know, I'm not gonna believe you. Maybe you do. I'm not gonna believe it, but Like just be easier on each other and and try to find truth wherever it may lie, but above all know that we don't know, jack shit. I think that's a mic drop moment, Dent. Thank you so much, you're an incredible human. I love that you share with the world, the darkness of your mind, of your life experience,

and the beautiful light you've shown to the world. So it's a huge honor, and thank you for spending your valuable time. Good luck on the tour. Thanks, man. Thanks for having me. Thanks for listening to this conversation with Dan Reynolds to support this podcast. Please check out our sponsors in the description. And now, let me leave you with some words from Aldus Huxley. After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music. Thank you for listening and hope to see you next time. you