Lex Fridman Podcast - #319 – Botez Sisters: Chess, Streaming, and Fame
Episode Date: September 9, 2022Alexandra and Andrea Botez are chess players, commentators, educators, entertainers, and streamers. Please support this podcast by checking out our sponsors: - Calm: https://calm.com/lex to get 40% of...f premium - Weights & Biases: https://lexfridman.com/wnb - BiOptimizers: http://www.magbreakthrough.com/lex to get 10% off - InsideTracker: https://insidetracker.com/lex to get 20% off - Indeed: https://indeed.com/lex to get $75 credit EPISODE LINKS: BotezLive Twitch: https://twitch.tv/botezlive BotezLive YouTube: https://youtube.com/c/BotezLive BotezLive Instagram: https://instagram.com/botezlive Alexandra's Instagram: https://instagram.com/missbotez Andrea's Instagram: https://instagram.com/itsandreabotez Alexandra's Twitter: https://twitter.com/alexandravbotez Andrea's Twitter: https://twitter.com/itsandreabotez ChessBase: https://chessbase.com/post/the-carlsen-niemann-affair PODCAST INFO: Podcast website: https://lexfridman.com/podcast Apple Podcasts: https://apple.co/2lwqZIr Spotify: https://spoti.fi/2nEwCF8 RSS: https://lexfridman.com/feed/podcast/ YouTube Full Episodes: https://youtube.com/lexfridman YouTube Clips: https://youtube.com/lexclips SUPPORT & CONNECT: - Check out the sponsors above, it's the best way to support this podcast - Support on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/lexfridman - Twitter: https://twitter.com/lexfridman - Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/lexfridman - LinkedIn: https://www.linkedin.com/in/lexfridman - Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/lexfridman - Medium: https://medium.com/@lexfridman OUTLINE: Here's the timestamps for the episode. On some podcast players you should be able to click the timestamp to jump to that time. (00:00) - Introduction (10:15) - Trip to Italy (17:16) - Chess tournaments (22:03) - Streaming (34:07) - Chess strategies (54:33) - King's Indian Defense (1:12:33) - Chess training (1:16:59) - Losing (1:20:18) - Street chess and trash talk (1:25:07) - Passion and study (1:43:00) - Loneliness and depression (2:07:49) - Andrew Tate (2:16:32) - Greatest chess player of all time (2:19:07) - Magnus Carlsen (2:28:17) - Advice for young people (2:30:10) - Chess boxing (2:39:04) - Meaning of life (2:40:09) - Love
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The following is a conversation with Alexander and Andrea Botes, their sisters, professional
chess players, commentators, educators, entertainers, and streamers.
Their channel is called Botes Live, on Twitch and YouTube.
I highly recommend you check it out.
A small side note about the currently ongoing controversy in the chess world, where the
19-year-old grandmaster Hans Neiman beat Magnus Carlson at the Sync
Field Cup.
After this, Magnus, for the first time ever, withdrew from the tournament, implying with
a tweet that there may have been cheating or at least something shady going on.
Folks, like the Grandmaster Hikara Nakamura, fan the flames of cheating accusations, and
the internet, made a bunch of proposals on how the cheating
could have been done and arranged from the ridiculous to the hilarious, often both.
Hans himself came out and said that he has cheated before when he was 12 and 16 on random
online games to jack up his rating.
But he said that he has never cheated in person over the board.
Danny Ranch from chess.com, who I've spoken with, may make a statement in response to
Hans' claims soon. Folks like Grandmaster Yaka Bluga spoke to his experience training
Hans Neiman and has said that his memory and intuition were quite brilliant. So as you
see, there's a lot of perspectives on this.
Chess Base has a good summary of the saga
that I'll link in the description.
Also note that this is so quickly moving
that new stuff might come out between me
of recording this and publishing the episode.
But I thought I'd mention this anyway
since the episode with the Botes sisters
is a conversation about chess
and was recorded shortly before the controversy. So sisters is a conversation about chess and was recorded
shortly before the controversy so we didn't talk about it. I'm considering
having Hans on this podcast and also Magnus back on the podcast and maybe others
like Hikaru or folks from chess.com's anti-cheat staff to discuss their
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stay out of it. I find chess to be a beautiful game, and the chess community full of fascinating
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And now, dear friends, here's Alexandra and Andrea Botes. You just got back from Italy.
What's the most memorable thing?
I was just there recently as well.
It was very chaotic because we went out on a whim and we only had our first hotel book
and then we rented a car and drove around all of the cities and went to like five different cities
in about a week and a bit.
So I think it was just the variety of seeing so many different places when we're used to being at home all the time.
And Andrea, is yours your luggage?
Yeah, I would say it was the most stressful vacation we've been in in our life.
And it was a valuable learning lesson because now I know how to be prepared for trips.
But we lost our bags and I never got them back.
And like Alex said, we didn't know where we'd be sleeping every night and we're just driving through a new city
with a giant van in the most narrowest streets with and getting in many, many fights with Italian men.
So it wasn't really vacation. in the most narrowest streets with, and getting in many, many fights with Italian men.
So it wasn't really vacation.
I saw this motion so many times.
Wasn't it liberating to lose your baggage?
Is it actually the lining?
It was liberating my entire life.
I've always had the issue of overpacking.
And I told her about it for the trip.
Andrea, you're gonna pack a light, right?
Yeah, Alex, yeah.
And then I see her stuffing her overwrestling, too.
But you did the same.
We both had giant, big extra baggage that we didn't need.
And I'm actually very glad we lost it
because for Venice, hauling that around on all the boats
and through the tiny streets and there's no ubers.
And now is the first time where I can travel
without checking in a bag, which I've never done before.
So now I've learned what it means to pack light
because I saw that I could survive off of just my,
this sounds very dramatic,
but it was really a big learning lesson for me.
The driving was been crazy
because driving in Italy is rough.
The driving was crazy.
I did most of it and it would be really interesting
driving through places like Florence
or even through the beach areas that were super windy
because there are two-way streets that should really only be one way so you'd be driving this huge van
and then another car comes on a cliff and you're just waiting for it to slowly pass so
it took all of my focus and concentration to drive well in Italy but it was actually really
relaxing because the hardest thing about making a lot of videos online
is you're always thinking about it, what's coming next. And when we were in Italy, it was so chaotic
that I did not think about work for a good week and a bit. Oh, because you're just...
We were stressed. I was just trying to keep us alive. It seemed like our priority.
And that was kind of fun. It was kind of fun. No planning, nothing. I wouldn't recommend it or do that again, but
Sounds sounds pretty awesome and we even randomly ran into two friends of ours who were in the same city
And we just traveled with them for about half of the trip. Yeah, so you just took on the chaos
Exactly. It was an adventure
Okay, and I see like because you're using your hands a lot, you got, you picked up some of the
Italian gestures.
I did.
We did get yelled at by a lot of Italians.
The old Italian grandmas would come to us after breakfast because we'd leave something
on the plate and she'd be like, you could feed an entire village with that tell your friends
and we'd be, we'd feel so wish.
Yeah, we got cursed out a lot, but it really reminded me of where we grew up and helped true. Yeah, bring back to the
What you grew up?
We were we're Romanian, but it was like an immigrant neighborhood in Canada. So, you know, same if you don't finish your plate
That's disrespectful to the people made the food. How's the food in early? I feel like the carbs thing is too
Very, yeah, I think very overrated by way. So I'm actually not supposed to eat gluten
because I have an allergy, but I was in Italy
and it's gluten-gallot.
So I was actually eating a lot of it
and it was very interesting because I didn't get sick
while I was in Italy, but I do while I'm in the US.
So somehow the food was actually maybe more okay
for me to digest, which I appreciated, but I didn't like it as much as I thought. Did you like the food was actually maybe more okay for me to digest, which I appreciated,
but I didn't like it as much as I thought.
Did you like the food there?
Yeah, no, I think it's, I did, I did, I love cars,
but it's, it feels like Vegas,
when I go there for the food,
is like, if I stay here too long,
I'm gonna do things ever, that's what it feels like with the food. Right. I don't know how to
moderate and everybody is pushing very large portions and while kind of
eating things on you, pasta, pizza and bread. Yes. So delicious. So yeah,
I love it, but I regret everything. So it's like, I don't want to, I don't
want to go to a place where
I'm going to regret everything I do. That's the repeatable. For too long of a time.
Yeah, surprisingly, the people there, though, are still very fit and everyone stays in good shape, but that's probably because you're walking around all day and you're much more active than in the
and they also just know how to moderate food. I think I got used to the US way of eating.
The US portion, that. Just the US portion that just a lot.
And that always a lot. Yeah. And more. And I feel in the US food advertisements are also much
more in your face than you're more often reminded of junk food than we were in Italy. So even though
we were eating less healthy things, I think we were getting cravings and being pushed towards junk food less often.
All right, I got to ask you a hard question.
So the romance language is, so I think French is up there as like number one.
Number one in terms of, I don't know, this is like, you guys speak Italian or not?
Not Italian, but we studied French and Spanish in school and Romanian.
I feel like every country calls their language a romance language.
No, but it's Romanian, French, Spanish, Portuguese.
And I think there was one more that was like this dialect, but those are considered the
romance languages.
Okay.
So where would you put Italian?
I think we got yelled at so much Italian that that it's not gonna be a love that. Okay, so it's on the bottom of the list because people did not use it nicely
but I always really liked how French sounds. I think something about it where maybe Spanish actually sounds nicer to the ears
but French has more character and it feels more sultry. So I like French.
That was my answer too. Oh, sultry. Okay. Yeah. Hmm. I feel like French, well, in France, I feel like I'm
always being judged. Like they're better than me. That's what front. They are better.
This is so true. Which is why, you know, yeah, I long to belong to that.
I like what the British accent.
The British accent.
Yeah.
Actually, one thing we did on our Italian trip
is we just picked up British accents
for the entire trip for fun.
And we forgot we were doing them to the point
where we talked to British people and they'd ask us,
why are you talking like that?
This kind of stuff.
I did feel much more elegant and mature.
That's true.
People, I don't know if they felt the same way about us,
but it was more of the confidence.
You do feel like you're more poised for sure.
Yeah.
So how did you guys get into chess?
When did you first, let's say when did you first fall in love with chess?
So we both started playing when we were pretty young around six years old. That's when our dad taught us and
I enjoyed playing chess because I had good results early on
But a lot of it was being pushed from my dad to play chess and I only really started loving it when we moved from Canada
and we started moving a lot and
chess was the one stable thing that I had,
and it was also where all of my friends were,
so it was kind of that foundational thing for me,
and that's when I started studying chess very intensely,
and when I started putting in the hours
out of my own will,
and not because I was being pushed by my dad,
that's when I started really loving it,
and I even wanted to take time off college
to just focus on chess.
So training and competing? Training and competing. Yeah. It was when I was doing it for myself
that I started getting my best results. And actually enjoying the thing. And really enjoying
it. Yeah. I would spend summer vacation studying for tournaments and my mom would come and
say, you need to make friends. Go leave the house. And I'd be like, no, I need to play chess.
And I remember those moments.
That you rebelled by playing chess.
That's what I said. Yeah, exactly.
How did you get into it?
Yeah, my friends with loving in high schools
very opposite from Alex's,
but right, my sister was playing
and my dad taught me when I was just sick.
And really it was cool in high school, unlike me.
You are.
I wouldn't say cool.
I'd save more balance than I was interested in other hobbies.
In my childhood, if I ever really did love chess, there's certainly moments about like
traveling and being together with my family and spending those moments together, but those
were more the social and the experiences. But funny enough, like I think my happiest moment
where I really played the game for my own enjoyment was probably my
most recent tournament because this was after obviously we've been streaming and I'm no longer
in high school but when I was in school I was always playing for college and for the results trying
to build a resume so I was too stressed out about the pressure to really enjoy the game whereas
when I just played my first tournament so it was like after like a two-year break because of the pandemic, and it was also all live on Twitch, so there was
some pressure, but it was the first time that like I was really eager to study for the game,
sitting and focusing, since we've been streaming, and not getting distracted by something else
in years, like I said. And the tournament experience I hit my highest rating, and it was
my best tournament ever. And I think most of that is because it came from my own enjoyment.
Hmm. So you didn't enjoy the domination, because I think you like didn't really well, right?
It's like a couple months ago. Oh, yeah. Yeah, the tournament. Well, of course, I think the
results came from enjoying the tournament because I would be in high school, like studying
double triple of amount of time, like six hours every day compared to this tournament I didn't even prepare for it
and for three years I wouldn't be able to pass one rating whereas in this one tournament I passed
it by like 70 points without even any preparation so it was I think as soon as you stop worrying about
the competitions when the games get much better. What does it mean to pass a rating? So I was stuck at 1900. 1900 is 100 points off of the expert.
Yeah.
Usually when you reach 2000, you're considered an expert,
which is the rating, Andrea, I was going for.
OK, expert, that's a technical term, or that's like a talk of trash.
It's more of a colloquial term where if someone
is around a 2000, you're playing them in a tournament.
They won't have the actual title next to their name,
but you say I'm playing an expert. What do I'm like the more official things like master?
Is that they have to do with rating or something else? Yeah, so national master in the US is when
you're 2200. Okay, and what's international master? International master is based off of a
different system, the Fide system, which is international, to be an international master, it's 2400 and you have to have three
international master norms.
Yeah, I think Magnus said he's a 28, 6 something.
That was, yeah.
And then he said, that's pretty decent.
Now, he always talks about that.
But the thing is, I think what he meant
is that's a decent rating because it accurately
captures his actual level. So it's not overinflated
or underinflated and so on. And so the discussion there was how do you get to kind of human being
get to 2,900? And then he says, because my current rating is pretty decent, I'm representing
my skill level, it's going to be a long road to actually get there. Because it's like,
you have to beat people your same level. That's how the number increases. Exactly. Yeah. And you beat a bunch of people
in the tournament, right? That are higher than the level. I got very lucky. I was playing
elderly nervous because my category was like 200 points above my rating. And of course,
I was very rusty and I didn't plan to turn them in a while, but it went pretty well.
Do you feel the pressure when you're actually recording it like the streaming?
It was definitely so before every round, I was vlogging and I was saying
meet and greets and doing other things for the.
I saw you do a meeting greet.
You didn't know what the hell you're doing.
It's great.
Yeah.
Like, when am I, how do I do this?
Yeah.
I see.
What do I do?
It was actually really wholesome.
The beginning was very silly because I was just not expecting that it was going to be
more of a seminar.
I thought it was like, oh, you pose and take pictures.
But they actually asked really nice meaningful questions, but unfortunately, it's bad for
YouTube retention and we cut it more out.
So bad for you.
The good long form conversation.
So it was like questions Q and A type of thing.
Exactly. You have to have very fast pace for YouTube and that seminar was not fast-paced.
Okay. Well not everything in life needs to be on YouTube, right? There's like two parallel
things stuff that's fun for YouTube. One day we'll post that Q&A. Yeah. When you guys like,
when you become like ultra famous, you're currently just regular famous and then those create the slow content yes and that the youtube aspect the creation aspect
does that add to the fun ultimately how the chest of like your love of chess?
Oh for the love of chess in general or just for competing in that one tournament?
No love of chess in general I think you said that for competing for that tournament it was adding
pressure yeah but actually I would say like a good pressure but yeah this is where I differed No, love of Justin general. I think you said that for competing for that tournament was adding pressure.
Yeah, but actually I would say like a good pressure, but yeah, this is where I differed to Alex because
when I was just competitive and I was younger, I don't think I love chess as much as when I started
doing it for content because unlike her, who a lot of her friends and social circle
other chess players, I never really traveled and built really solid friendships
through chess until I started streaming
and meeting other chess streamers
and actually playing and talking to people for fun
rather than just always being alone in the game
and never really meeting other people my age
or people with similar interests.
So I would say Twitch was the thing
that really changed how I approached the game.
I think with some YouTubers as a pressure to be almost
somebody else, you create a persona
and you're stuck in that persona.
I think I'm too much of a boomer to know what the hell
twitch is anyway, but it feels like when you're actually
live streaming, you can't help but be who you really are.
I think it's, oh, well, I think when you're left streaming
and I've talked a lot of other streamers about this,
you kind of just overexaggerate one side of your personality
and of course, it's kind of like being on all the time.
Like you're trying to be more entertaining
and sometimes you're being sillier at moments
or more, you take what character traits
like people know you for and for me,
one is being like ADHD and the younger sibling who's very
Energetic and causes trouble even the show. I'm sure you cause trouble just for the camera. Yeah, right?
I think yeah, I think and of course what you're live streaming for like four or five hours
There's gonna be moments in the stream where it's more chill
But especially when you're like editing that content or you're doing bigger
But especially when you're like editing that content or you're doing bigger
streams that are shorter You are kind of playing up beside of yourself because of course there's a lot of parts of me that I don't show to the camera because they're not as entertaining to watch
Yeah, like the more serious part and also
There's things that you are really interested in about what you do like I love competitive chess where I could sit and really think about it
But I know that that is not going to be as entertaining for a stream. I know that's not going to be as
entertaining for YouTube. So you kind of have to take what you like, but then really adapt it
for whatever the format is. And sometimes that feels inauthentic, but other times it just feels
like repackaging what you love for people in a more general audience to enjoy.
Do you feel like it's a trap a little bit as you evolve?
Oh, I think social media is, oh, sorry, go ahead.
Social media in general is a trap of that of that kind.
Well, so we've been trying to switch to learn how to make YouTube videos recently.
And so much of learning YouTube school is kind of the beastification of content where you try to get to the point of the video within like the first 10 seconds to not lose people.
You try to...
You mean like Mr. Beast?
Yeah, yeah, where it's so fast,
Hey, there's a reason to wait. There's high stakes.
And everything is created to keep people watching the video and keep people on the platform.
And in some ways, it is a trap because it's harder to do
the kind of content you like,
because you really have to squeeze it to be like,
okay, well, do we have a good thumbnail for this?
Do we have a good title for this?
And that's something that we're trying to figure out
how to keep true to what we want to do.
The way I think about it is, yeah, there's a lot of stuff
you can create and yeah, the way I think about it is yeah, there's a lot of stuff you can create and
yeah, the Mr. Bestification process
but also I think about what are the videos conversations or things I will create in this life
that will be the best thing I do and
I try not to do things in my life that will prevent me from getting there. I feel like if you're
always focusing on doing kind of the optimizing the thumbnail in the 10 seconds and so on, you'll never
do the thing that's truly you're known for and remembered for. So finding that balance is tricky.
I get that, but at the same time, this might be my own copium, which I know is a word you
know now.
I'm slowly learning the complexity of the term, yes.
But the other way I think about it is it is a skill to learn how to communicate with
large audiences.
And first I started streaming chess, which is something I just did and really loved.
But now I have to learn how to translate that format.
And if that's a skill set we could build, then we could use it to do really important things.
And I've seen a lot of YouTubers who have done interviews about how, you know, they didn't
love the kind of content they did at first, but what they're doing right now is really
meaningful.
So I like to think of it maybe like skill development
because not everybody hits off podcasts
where they can talk to super interesting people
right off the bat.
Yeah, you can be slow and boring in a podcast.
You don't have to worry about the first 10 seconds.
I mean, people like he pushing me for,
because the first 10 seconds of the videos I do is,
well, I know it's most important for YouTube,
but I don't give a damn.
I wrote a Chrome extension that hides all the views and likes.
I don't look at the click through.
I don't look at Twitch views, Andrea does.
So we love number two.
I love numbers, too, but that's why I don't look at it because it's become like, oh,
I, you'll start to think that a conversation or I think you did sucks because it doesn't
get views. But that's just not the case. The YouTube album is this monster
that figures stuff out. And if you let it control your mind, I feel like it's
going to destroy you creatively. So you have to find a nice balance.
I have to say I was laughing a little bit when I was listening to the Magnus
episode in the first 10 minutes. You guys are talking about soccer football.
Two robots seem human in the conversation.
Yeah.
I was like, let's have some fun.
A conversation about non-chest related topics.
Yeah, talk about sports.
Yeah, it was kind of hilarious.
I was surprised that even at his level, I wasn't sure, but I was surprised how much he
loves chess.
It sounds cliché to say, but like the surprised how much he loves chess. It sounds cliche to
say, but like the way he looked at a chess board, you know, those memes like, I wish somebody
looked at me the way he's still like the way he glans down and he reached for the pieces
with excitement to show me something. There was, there wasn't like, okay, I'll show you.
It was like, like, there was still that fire.
That's something that always shocks me
about some of like super grandmasters.
Like one of my coaches was a person who also,
his name's Jim Hammer of Norway.
He also coached Magnus.
He was his second and he was helping me train
for my tournament and I was kind of putting off
doing the homework.
He's like, if you're putting it off,
that means you're studying the wrong thing.
Like, you should be enjoying even when you're practicing,
which when I grew up, I thought to get to the top level,
like, practicing has to be hard and unpleasant.
And when I was listening to a Magnus episode,
he was like, I didn't read books very much.
Or it was one thing that you said that's like,
very normal for studying classical chess
that he didn't do just because it didn't interest him.
He says, I suck up puzzles. I don't know what puzzles. Yeah, and he doesn't do just because it didn't interest him. He says I suck up puzzles.
I don't know the puzzles.
Yeah, and he doesn't do what he doesn't enjoy.
And that's because it's purely driven out of passion.
I think the internet was like, I suck up puzzles too.
Yeah, they look like family.
They're really late.
I don't have to study at all.
It's just, it's fun.
But I think the lesson there that's really powerful
is he spends most of the
day thinking about chess because he wants to.
So do whatever, if you're into getting better chess, do whatever it takes to actually just
the number of hours you spend a day thinking about chess, maximize that.
If you're like super serious about it.
I actually get very addicted whenever I start studying chess, which is why I don't do it
as seriously when I'm focused on content,
because I go through these rabbit holes where if I'm focusing on chess, I want to be as good as I
possibly can at the game. Otherwise, it's hard for me to enjoy it because it's such a competitive thing.
And I remember training for tournaments, and when you're training for tournaments, you even start
dreaming about chess, and you't stop thinking about it.
And as if you're flipped into this completely different world, which is also what I like best
about the game, that it's a completely different living experience. And then you take some drugs
and now you start to see things on the ceiling. Is there some factual hallucination to the
Queen's Gambit, like those scenes.
I think it's...
Is that based on your story?
Well, I can't say that on camera.
No, just kidding.
Actually, chess players are very careful to not take drugs.
They drink a lot.
They drink so much.
It's actually crazy for how good they're able to play chess when they do, but when it comes
to things like psychedelics or other things, they usually stay away from those because they don't want to mess anything up in their
brain.
So this is actually intervention.
I saw that you mentioned somewhere, I think it was the lie detector test where you have
a drinking problem.
Is that actual?
No, I think that's actually a meme that we like to joke about on stream because occasionally
we'd have like a white claw on stream or something
like that. And then people meme about it. It goes back to
Andreas point of amplifying a part of your personality to
make yourself a little bit more entertaining.
What do you use that as an excuse from now on? Just this
podcast is just amplifying a part of that person. I'm not
really like this. But have you played drunk like Magnus has played drunk?
He says it helps someone with the creativity. Is that is there any truth to that? One Dres under 21. So she's obviously would never do that.
But I have played while drinking actually I
enjoy playing chess and drinking more than pre-gaming or going out to a club and drinking, which
sounds really silly.
And I'll usually play against opponents who are also, you know, having some beer.
And it does make you feel like you're seeing the game from a fresher perspective where
it can sometimes make you feel more confident, liquid confidence.
And it does help with creativity.
You just feel like you could pull things off.
But there's also a limit.
It's more like you've had one drink or two drink, but then it goes beyond that and then
you just start missing tactics and it's not worth it.
Yeah, I think it only helps.
Players in very short time controls.
One time I was challenging this grandmaster on stream and we were playing bullet chess,
which is one minute chess.
And I was giving him handicaps and I said, okay, you have to take four shots before the
next game. And he just got like 10 times stronger
and transformed into like the Hulk and destroyed me
more than last game.
So, but of course, if you're playing like a three-hour game,
it's gonna get old.
But I think in short time controls, it's amazing.
Definitely has to be blitz.
It has to be where it's more intuition
rather than sitting in calculative.
This is probably like negatively affecting your ability
to calculate.
Absolutely.
How much show when you guys play when you look at the chess board?
How much of it is calculation? How much of it is intuition?
How much of it is memorized?
Opening?
It really depends between short form chess.
So five minutes, three minutes, one minute, and classical chest.
What's your favorite to play?
I love playing Blitz now because that's most of what I do, and that's actually how I got
into chest streaming because I couldn't spend entire weekends or weeks playing tournaments.
I would just, while I was in college, log on and play these long Blitz or bullet sessions.
And it's very fast, so you don't have time to go calculate as deeply.
You basically have to calculate short lines pretty quickly.
And a lot of it is pattern recognition and intuition.
As three minutes, you said three minutes. Yeah.
Okay. Cool.
And so for that is just basically intuition.
A lot of it is intuition. Yeah.
See, I saw on streams, you actually keep talking while playing chess.
It seems really difficult.
Yeah. That helps my result. That doesn't help my results.
It doesn't help the content of the game. Yeah, that helps my result. That doesn't help my results.
It doesn't help the content of the game.
Yeah, exactly.
But you can still do it.
Because it feels like how can you possibly concentrate
while talking?
It's because so much of it is intuition.
You're not, while you're talking,
you're thinking about that topic,
but then you just come to the board and you just understand
what you should be doing here.
And then sometimes you get in trouble
because you're talking and you have now lost half of your time.
You have a minute and a half, your opponent has three and you're kind of at a disadvantage.
But that kind of goes to show that that's how Blitz Chess usually works, whereas classical is very different.
Which of you is better at chess? I mean, let's do it this way. Can you,
Andrea, can you say what in which way is Alex stronger than you, which way is she weaker than you?
Not physically in terms of the chess.
Well, yes, of course, she is higher rated.
But when we do play, I think her strength against me, where she really gets me, is the end game.
She has stronger end game.
And I actually have a stronger opening.
But as soon as she's a one simple plug. I'm supposed to say what is good about you not you
See this is saying because it's related okay because if I can I can get an advantage in the beginning of the game
But as soon as she starts trading pieces down like my confidence drops because I know that the end game is the hardest part of the game
And the longest and that's where she ends up beating me.
So her end game is her, I think, really what makes a difference.
And she had to be a little bit more.
It sounds like her psychological warfare is better too.
That's it.
Because if you're getting nervous, that is better.
But it's harder to play against higher rated players, same how, you know,
Magnus and former world champions, champions have that psychological edge.
So I think it's always going to be different,
friendry, because she knows statistically she should be winning something like one in
four games, but she usually does better than that because she's very distracting and talks
a lot. That does help. What does it feel like to play a higher
rated player? What's the experience of that? In like playing somebody like Magnus.
So it depends on how much higher rated than you they are.
If it's someone who's like between me and Andrea, let's say it's a 200 point difference.
You know they should win, but at least you still feel like you have a chance.
I was playing in title Tuesday, which is this tournament chest.com has every Tuesday.
And I got really lucky beat at GM, drew an international master and then I got paired against
Hikaru Nakamura and my brain just went blank because I just know that I'm so unlikely to win that I
couldn't even play the game properly when it's that much of a difference where they should be winning
like 99% of the time. But that's like psychological. So you're saying that's the biggest experience is like
actually knowing the numbers and statistically thinking there's no way I can
win.
But I meant like is there a suffocating feeling like positionally you feel like you're constantly
under attack?
You just feel like you're slowly getting outsmarted and the worst is when you don't even know what you're
doing wrong.
You come out of that and you're like, I thought I was doing great and I got slowly squeezed.
I didn't understand what was going on and you're just kind of baffled.
It's kind of like watching alpha zero beat up stockfish and you don't really understand
why it's making certain moves or how it thought of the plan.
You just see it slowly getting the position better and that's what it feels like.
I would add, it's kind of different for me if there's someone who's significantly higher rated,
so let's say more than like 300 points or you're playing Magnus, what I notice is I just feel
lost straight as soon as I don't know my preparation because they know so many opening lines that they're
going to know the best line to beat you that you haven't studied. So then on move 10, you're like,
here already has a maybe plus 0. five advantage, which is really small,
but for someone with such a significant skill level,
you know you're already lost at that point.
And it's like a third of the game.
What are the strengths and weaknesses of Andrea?
Andrea is very good at opening preparations.
As she said.
As she said, she likes bringing that up.
I mean, she's very meticulous about it,
where she'll really go in and learn her lines
and having that initial starting confidence
isn't just helpful for the opening,
but it helps develop your plans for the middle game.
So I think she's very good at that.
I think she's actually pretty good
at tactical combinations.
What is tactics? Tactics is like solving puzzles, she's actually pretty good at tactical combinations.
What is tactics? Tactics is like solving puzzles
or basically finding lines that are forced
where if you find them, you're going to win.
So that's like puzzles within a position.
Yeah, exactly.
Whereas strategic chess is making slow moves
and over the process of like 20 moves,
you get a slightly better position
based on an understanding of the overall strategy. So in my extensive research of you on Wikipedia,
it says your most played opening is the King's Indian defense in which, quote, black allows white
to advance their paws to the center of the board in the first two moves, is there any true to this?
So the Kings and what is it?
Probably is my most played opening.
And it's one where even one might coach who was a grandmaster taught me.
He's like, so you know, I've been playing the Kings Indian for 10 years.
And I still don't understand it.
And it's one of those openings that computers really don't like because you do, or at least stockfish doesn't understand it. And it's one of those openings that computers really don't like because
you do, or at least stockfish doesn't like it. Maybe Alpha Zero would change their mind. I
forgot to look at what. Can you show me, by the way, what it is? Yeah. Is it, is it white's opening
or black's opening? Black responds to the D4 Queen's pawn push. And you take your night out to F6. I'll just put in the, you know,
stereotypical classical Kings Indian more, so to say.
So we actually have a very famous Kings Indian game and the notes that we prepared.
Okay. So for the record, ask you guys for some games that you find pretty cool and maybe
to get a chance to talk about something. Yeah. So this is the King's Indian.
As you can see, white has much more control over the center.
White has three ponds in the center.
All black has none past the fifth rank.
And you just have this pawn on D6.
And one of the ideas and chess is if you're not taking the center,
then your plan revolves around trying to continually challenge it.
But what is really fun about the King's Indian is that Black sometimes gets these crazy
king-side attacks while White gets queen-side attacks. And even though it's a little bit suspicious
for Black and the computer could usually break it, it's hard to defend as a human when you're being
attacked. But if you don't pull off the defend as a human when you're being attacked,
but if you don't pull off the attack as black,
then you're just gonna end up being lost in the end game.
So it's like a very asymmetrical position.
It's very asymmetrical, although a lot of people now stop
playing into the classical King's Indian,
even though computers give it a big advantage,
and they play these slower lines in the King's Indian,
which are less fun to play.
What's slower mean? It takes a longer time to do something interesting with.
They basically don't let you get as much of a King's side attack because they try opening up
the center and then you have no weaknesses but you're just slowly improving the position of your
pieces instead of being able to go for that King king side attack. So for people just listening, there is the white ponds are all on the fourth row
in a row together. That feels like a bad position. For black? For white. Oh, you don't like taking the
center? No, I like taking the center. Talking trash around. Oh, sorry. But like, it is just like, they're like,
feel vulnerable.
They're in a row together.
Like, it's like a, you know,
because they're like, who's going to defend them?
I guess the nice defendant and the queen defense it.
You're actually talking about a theme that you do
see sometimes, which is called hanging ponds.
And when you have two ponds right next to each other
with no other ponds to defend them.
Yeah.
So it is a valid point. And actually, as black, you're trying to break apart these p other pawns to defend them. So it is a valid point and actually
as black you're trying to break apart these pawns or get them to push and create some
holes into the position. But it's a trade-off and that's a lot of what chess openings are about.
You get more space but you'll also end up having to protect your pawns potentially or move them
forward to the point where they're overextended. And plus, the pawns being vulnerable is kind of fun.
It's like there's more stuff in danger.
They're not, because if it's like this, everything is like trapped, like you can't do anything.
Everything's blocked, yeah.
And blocked off, yeah.
But you can't have fun.
Yeah.
One of the opening principles for white is get your pawns in the center.
So I'd say, like this is actually preferable for white
Let's go over some opening principles. I know
This is a very good learning way and quick crash beginners in the audience
Okay, so first thing you want to do is control the center
There you go e4 the more aggressive one is Isn't that like the basic vanilla move? I
didn't, somebody told me that's the most popular opening move in chess. It is. Why is that a
considered aggressive? So the two, it's E4 and D4 and the Kingspond is known as being for more
tactical players, whereas D4 is known for more positional players. So that's why I consider it more aggressive. Tactical.
More gambits with E4, I think.
So tactical means I'm gonna try to attack you.
Or you're gonna try to go for puzzles
and rely more on your combination abilities,
whereas if it's something positional,
you usually have like three to four moves
that are all good in the position,
whereas tactics, you need to see this one line. So it's more precise.
So this one's cool because you can like, you know, the queen can come out, the bishop
can come out. Yeah, and that's one of the most popular checkmates. And usually what you
teach new students to try to cheese their friends because then they feel really excited
that they know this new trap where you ring the bishop and the queen out and you try to checkmate on f7.
Yeah.
So the trap that Queen's gambit Beth Harmon falls for their like first game versus the janitor,
she gets all mad because she gets a checkmate it very, really.
Well, that's the one she gets checkmate with.
Yeah.
Okay.
I love how you guys were actually paying attention to the games carefully, which is pretty
cool that they did a good job of improving evolving her game throughout
the show to actually represent an actual girl with a chess player. Yeah, they really took every detail
into consideration, which was cool. Okay, so what else? I brought stuff into the set.
I will do the same. Okay. So then you want to develop your pieces. So in the beginning of the game,
you want to take out the bishops and knights first
because you don't want to start with the most valuable piece
like the queen, because then it'll become a vulnerability
and it'll get attacked very early on.
And the reason you're taking out these two pieces first
is because you want to castle your king.
So you can move a knight move or a bishop move
and that's considered developing.
So at the stage, not even before getting a few pawns out.
You usually want to start with getting a pawn because you want to get space in the center,
but also when you push pawns, it helps free up some of your pieces.
So usually start with one pawn first and then you could start taking out your minor pieces,
which is the bishop in the night.
I have anxiety about it.
I'll just float not there.
Defenseless.
But I'm not attacked yet.
See, those are what you call ghost threats.
So you're scared of something that hasn't happened yet.
So if I were to attack it, I feel like there's a deeper thing going on here.
Yeah.
Actually, let's say, yeah.
So you're attacking the pawn in the center here and it is vulnerable, but as soon as you do that
I can develop my own night and defend it as well
Okay, and now for people just listen there's two pawns. It just came out to meet each other and a couple of nights
Fonds met after the night. Yeah. Yeah, we're gonna romanticize the game a bit. Yes, exactly. Okay, cool. So, like, there's, if you bring out the
bishops of the night, you're matching that with the other, the
black is going to match it. Whatever you're attacking with.
Yep, he's developing.
Defend it. I could develop your bishop or your night, whenever you'd
like. Oh, no, now you give him options. Oh right. Yeah. There you go.
Now I am attacking the pond in the center, which is what you were afraid about before, but
let's see how you defend it here. By doing this symmetrical thing, bringing out the night
on the side. And actually your other move was good as well, defending with a pawn because then you're
freeing up space for your bishop.
So you're basically trying to develop your pieces as quickly as possible,
put your pawns in the center, and then get your king to safety.
And that's usually the basic opening tips that you get.
It is kind of counterintuitive that safety is in the corner of the board for a king.
True. That was always confusing to me. But, you know, It's kind of counterintuitive that safety is in the corner of the board for a king.
That was always confusing to me.
But you know...
Three ponds in front, though you typically don't push those.
Maybe like one, maybe I'll go one square, but these are will be like the wall of defense
that you can save.
But another way to also think about it is your pieces usually want to point towards the
center.
If you have a knight closer to the center, then closer to the side, it actually has more
squares it can go to.
So a huge part of it is just wanting to have flexibility for where your pieces go.
So more pieces are going to be able to make threats in the center or even open up the
position.
So since that's where it's most likely to open, you want your
king somewhere where the position will stay close so that you have the pawns to defend.
You know, there's like rules like this, but I was wondering because I built chess engines,
but then you start to wonder like, why is it that positionally these things are good?
Like you've built up an intuition about it, but I wish, and that's the thing that would
be amazing if engines could explain why is this kind of thing better than this kind of thing.
You start to build up an intuition, but if I'm just like, no, nothing about chess, it
feels confusing that cornering your king, like getting him, like trapped here, like you
feel like you could get checkmate it easier there.
If I was just to use into like
Dumb intuition, but it seems like that's not the case. I imagine maybe because alpha zero learned by playing games against itself
Right, and I imagine if you have a lot of games and you do build it intuition because if you were to keep your king in the center
You just see that in those games you're dealing with threats a lot more often
But yeah, there's shortcut rules and this doesn't even mean it's the best way to play
chess, as we've seen with Alpha Zero kind of changing the rules of the game a little bit.
But as a human, to learn it from scratch is a lot more difficult than to start with principles,
so that's why beginners usually learn chess this way.
Yeah, but we're in because you're playing other humans
and the other humans have also operate
on to different principles.
And that's why people that come up now
that are training with engines are just going
to be much better at than the people of the past
because they're gonna try out weirder ideas
that go against the principles of old.
Right.
And they're gonna do weird stuff, including sacrifices and stuff like that.
Yeah, and I also think that's why Alpha Zero was so shocking because Stockfish was using an
opening database. So it was already based off of knowledge that humans have from playing chess
for years that we just thought is how you're supposed to play. Whereas Alpha Zero just learned
from playing the game so many times and came up with very novel opening ideas.
Were you impressed by Alpha Zero? Have you seen some of the games?
I have seen some of the games. I think impressed, bewildered, and motivated,
or the three things I experienced.
I think Magnus said he was also impressed that it could easily be mistaken for creativity.
That's his trash talk towards the AI.
That was a beautiful sentence.
I was listening to the podcast.
I mean, as a human, I agree with him,
because you don't want to give the machine the power of creativity.
But if it looks creative, give it a compliment.
That's fair.
I know that you're being nice to the machines in the case they are ever looking back through
this.
What else is there?
What other principles are there for the opening?
You can go a little bit more forward.
We can finish full of development.
I just say, you developed all of your pieces.
That's a really nice, nobody of your pieces. So that's like a really nice, like nobody took any pieces and we're just in a nice position
on thing.
Yeah, so it's not actually a very accurate.
Yes, so I'm actually a lot.
I could put a different one on the board, but usually after you've developed all of your
pieces, you want to get your queen out a little bit to connect your rooks and you also
start thinking about certain pawn pushes and getting more space. But another good tip is just, can you improve the position of
your pieces? Think about timing. So if you've already moved a piece once, and there's a piece that
hasn't moved at all, then you want to focus on the piece that hasn't moved at all to be able to
have it more likely to jump into the game. Right. So don't move pieces multiple times.
Exactly.
I tried to move it to the most optimal position.
Yeah.
Yeah.
That makes sense.
What, uh, so what's the Indian, the, I think we kind of went over it,
but why did you ever say why you like it so much?
Because it's weird because it's king side.
I liked it because it's a very fun, aggressive defense where you're just throwing your pieces
towards white and there's so many sacrificing opportunities.
And for some reason, tactical games always feel like the most beautiful, the most satisfying.
And that's what I liked about the King's Indian, but I also suffered a lot from this love
because I would play things that are not necessarily
correct, then my attack wouldn't pan out.
And I would just struggle the rest of the game having no play and just trying to defend.
So if you're always a, what could be it also says that you're known for your attacking
play?
It's also known for our losses according to Stanford.
Okay, let's not bring to you.
See what could be it doesn't talk trash.
It just says nice.
It just says nice.
It is a lot nicer.
I actually played a lot of positional chess and classic
because I really like the slow squeeze.
But when I transitioned to playing a lot of online chess,
it's almost as if I was looking for more instant gratification
because it feels so much better to beat someone with an attack.
And even if sometimes it doesn't pan out,
I was okay with it because you get so many games in. So I think my style in online chess really
changed from my classical chess.
What about you, Andre? Do you have a style? Are you attacking? Are you more like conservative
defensive player? Are you chaotic?
Opening wise, I like to play more positionally. Like I like to push T4 and just slowly improve my
pieces and slowly get an attack but like Alex said if you're playing bullet chess or blitz against
viewers you often like want to play riskier moves that may not be as good and then that's kind of
when I would play more aggressive but I do enjoy tournaments for that reason, because then, like, once her 15 moves in, which,
as soon as you're out of your prep, I like sitting and thinking in more positional, yeah,
positional middle games.
One of the games you've found to be pretty cool is the Haqqar and the Qamarov versus Gelfon
in 2009.
And that one, I think, includes the King's Indian defense.
Yes. What's, why is that an interesting one to you? 2009 and that one I think includes the King's Indian defense. Yes
What's what's why is that an interesting one to you? I also play the King's Indian as black and I love this model game But and as Alex was saying like all these advantages for the King's Indian but now there's this one line that
Like every higher rated player just destroys my King's Indian and you see these beautiful games
They're like, ah, yes, I want to play for these ideas, but now no one plays into it anymore and you just get
demolished so this is why I don't play the Kings Indian anymore, but not through in the funner.
The love hate relief.
Yes, the truth.
The reality.
But that's like the higher level players do or does everybody do?
Yeah, if you're studying openings and you know this line as white, you just automatically get
the upper edge.
And that's kind of how openings develop.
You start having players trying new lines and then you see ones and then everybody adopts
it if they think it's the best one.
But yeah, so he car was really known for his aggressive style of play.
It's a car black hero.
Yeah, he car was black here.
So he's playing the King's Indian.
And as you can see in this position, white already has a lot, a huge
center advantage. But what he Kari was going to start doing, even with the next move, is
bringing all of his pieces towards the white King side, because his plan is to start pushing
his pawns towards the white king and ignore the attack that goes on the Queen side.
This is a great example of a dream attack with the King's Indian.
So there's a complete asymmetry towards the King's side.
Unless side of the board is a ton of pieces.
Yeah, exactly.
Wow.
He moved the night like three times in a row.
Yep.
And that's what you need to do because you have to move the night
in order to make space for your pond.
So again, this is why it's so counterintuitive and stockfish doesn't like it.
You're putting almost most of your pieces on the back rank
and you're pushing your Kingside pawns
and you're blocking your own Dark Squared Bishop.
So none of it makes sense.
You're mimicking it.
That's awesome.
Okay, so yeah, here you see white going for Queenside Attack,
black going for the Kingside Attack
and you can keep going a little bit
and I'll wait to where he starts with the pretty sacrifices.
It's more fun to analyze games in person than on the computer.
I think. Yeah. Okay.
Okay. So here he caroo is preparing the attack.
And what I really like about this game is that he finds these tactics that are
not necessarily what a computer would go for, but it's very hard to face as a human.
And that's why a lot of people play the King's Indian
because in practice, it's hard to defend again.
So we can keep moving a little bit forward.
Okay.
Yep. So Wade is just continuing the King's side plan.
And is that like the first piece I think that's taken again?
Yep. That's the first trade.
So he begins exactly.
He car who had to pause his attack for a little bit,
so just make sure that white didn't have two dire threats
on the queen side.
So cool to see the asymmetry of this thing.
Exactly.
That's what's beautiful about the king.
And just one thing to highlight,
because his rook move here is very bizarre,
and typically like a computer probably didn't like this,
but the idea is a very interesting, because this is a major weakness for black that they're coming to attack and he's
also making room for his bishop to come backwards and challenge. So this is like a human like
when you were like computers. I think computers would like this though because you'd have to
move it regardless because he has he takes the pawn here and his rook would be under attack.
Yeah well how do you look at it When I actually studied this as a line,
and this right away isn't the best move
kind of computer.
So actually, that's just a good question.
So did you guys when you study games,
do you use your mind,
but do you also use computers to build up your intuition?
I was like looking at a position like this
and what would a computer do?
And then try to understand why it wants to do that.
When I was studying seriously,
I would try to use my own mind because you're never going
to get the exact same position.
So you really need to notice trends.
And often computers will give you moves that are only specific to that position because
of a certain tactic.
But I do use computers to check what I did and make sure I didn't make any obvious blunder
that I might have missed.
What does a computer tell you?
Just like what is the best move?
Or does it give you any kind of explanation of why?
It doesn't tell you why,
but it gives you the different valuations
of the position, like black is down a half-pond here,
or something like that.
But it hints you towards what the right move is
and then it's on you to figure out why.
And you could usually figure out why,
if not right away, then just by going through a few moves and being like, oh, okay, that makes sense.
I feel like a computer will take you down with some weird lines potentially.
Something.
Like sacrifice, like why the hell am I sacrificing this?
Well, we'll get to the pretty sacrifice soon.
So we could just keep playing for a little bit. The odds are being pushed forward.
Yeah.
So we could just keep playing for a little bit. The bonds are being pushed forward.
Yeah.
And Hikaru is kind of ignoring the queen side attack here.
They basically both only reply to each other's plan when they have to.
This is where you convert all the podcast viewers to YouTube.
Yeah.
There have no idea what we're talking about right now.
There is a scent like experience of just like listening
and imagining.
The board, imagine the pieces on the ceiling.
Yeah, you should, we should be calling them out
and then people would be freaking out even more.
My supposed to keep track of the positions.
I'm too late now.
How hard is blindfold chess?
Have you tried, like, are you able to keep the blindfold?
I've played blindfold chess before.
For me, it's pretty hard.
It's not a muscle that I've trained as much and I'm very visual when it comes to chess.
But it is one as a top player that starts becoming very second nature for you.
Actually this is what I talked to Magnus about this.
Maybe I was, again, influenced by Queen's Gambit.
What do you actually visualize when it's in your head?
So for Magnus it was a boring 2d board. Right. Are you do you have some kind of that's every chest player? No, you don't have like because you know some chest like
Computer games you can do all kinds of skins and like yeah fancy stuff
You don't have any fancy. I don't have like a cool 3d war your mode on. It's just a face
Base board in my head. Because you don't, yeah, you can't use your brain power for adding colors to it because
you already have to keep track of the pieces.
As one board at a time?
Yes.
The current position.
I bet, yeah, I bet every chest. I wonder if there's any who get it differently.
There's certain players who are really good and they can even play blindfold chess and
play multiple games at the same time.
So I would be curious how they do it, but usually when you're thinking of one game, that's the only one
in your mind. Yeah, but you have to do this operation where you move one piece.
You're doing like the branch analysis. Yeah. And so you still have to somehow visualize the branching process and not forget stuff.
Maybe that's like constant memory recall or something.
You're always looking at one board at a time, but.
And you're also, oh, because you're also looking in the future.
Yeah.
Yeah.
And you have to backtrack.
Yeah, yes, you're keeping the position in your memory.
So you're remembering where all the pieces are.
And then you're playing it out on one board.
And then you can come back to the initial one that you started with that you kind of just keep in your brain
And it's also easier to come back to it once you've played a position from it. I feel like it's that
memory recall
That gets you to blunder so I'll like see that I'm being attacked by certain things
to blunder. So I'll like see that I'm being attacked by certain things. But then because I get so exhausted thinking about a different thing, I actually forget about an entire branch
of things that I was supposed to be worried about.
Yeah. It happens very often. Yeah. If you spend a bunch of time calculating in a position,
let's say, like when you're really in trouble and you're spending 15, 20 minutes calculating,
you'll forget about something that you spotted.
Like, oh, if I do these two, three moves, I'll walk into a trap because you've looked at
so many lines and then you play it and then you see it and you're like, oh, I looked at it and I
saw it, but I forgot about it. It's often called tunneling where you're just looking so deeply
on one thing. You forget about the rest of the board. And it's the worst one, at least in a
beginner level, there's like a, I don't know, a bishop just sitting there, obviously attacking your like queen or something.
And then you just forget that bishop exists. Yep. Because if they just sit there for a few
moves and don't move, forget their existence. And then it's just, yeah, that's definitely
very embarrassing. Well, it happens to everyone, so. Yes.
Okay, cool.
Okay, so we see a few trades happening on the queen side
where he had to go for those, otherwise he's in trouble.
And this is where the game, oh, sorry.
This is where it gets exciting.
Yeah, so 9H4 is really when the sacrifice starts.
And here, the two important pawns
are the ones in front of the king
because they're helping with the entire defense.
And he was actually preparing to sacrifice his knight
for a pawn just so that he can continue his attack
and open up the position.
Because if you don't do that here as black
and don't get some kind of attack,
you are completely lost on the queen side. And also, you've pushed all of your own king side
pawn so you're going to be in danger. So it's one of those do-or-die moments.
Oh, okay. So that's what makes it all in because the king is wide open.
Yeah, yeah. The king is wide open and you all of white's pieces are pointed towards the queen
side too, where you're also cramped. So is the attack primarily by black done by the two pawns in the night?
And the light squared bishop is always extremely important.
So you don't want to trade this in the King's Indian,
because it's very helpful for a lot of attacks.
Even though it's on the other side of the board,
I guess it can go all the way across in,
like, I'm not sure what it's doing here,
but probably threatening.
Like, for example, if it was another move
black could have played would be something like Bishop H3,
where if you take the bishop, you actually get made it on G2.
With what?
So let's say you take here, and then you could push the pawn,
and then it would be checkmate.
So you're kind of using your bishop to sacrifice
against white's king side pawns.
Yeah, I'll be freaking out if the bishop did that.
Exactly.
What are they up to?
Right.
And that's the thing.
This position looks very scary as white, because all of Black's ponds are starting to
come towards you.
And it's one of those things where humans do start to worry in these positions, whereas
computers, obviously, can just calculate the best line.
And maybe the attack doesn't go through.
So you're saying a computer might say that the white is actually a slight favorite here.
Yeah, essentially. Exactly. Okay. So then white makes a little bit of room by moving the
rook and the attack begins. I like the commentary here. The night is hugging the king.
And actually white can't even take the king here,
because then H4 and H3 is coming in.
And then you can take the Knight.
Yeah, oh, did I say king?
Yes, thank you, the Knight.
White can't take the Knight, because why?
So if White takes the Knight here,
then Black starts pushing his pawn to H4
with H3 incoming, and the idea of trying to defend against this
is it looks very difficult, so why just choose it?
It'd be cool to watch a chess game,
to experience watching it without understanding it just for a day.
I feel like I could use that to make better content.
True. Okay.
I mean, that's what getting drunk doesn't.
Unfortunately, for chess players, it never leaves your mind.
Yeah, it still doesn't matter how.
But this is actually a very cute move because Black's queen is under attack, but the king is
so cramped that he can't actually take it or he's going to get checkmated by a pawn
which is a sad way to go truly.
Yeah, those pawns are doing a lot of work here.
That is the King's Indian.
This is the King's Indian player, the attack of the King's side pawns. Yeah, these pawns are like, right, so they're the ones that are doing But this is the King's Indian player, the trick. The tack of the King's side ponds.
Yeah, these ponds are like, right.
So they're the ones that are doing a lot of the threatening.
Right.
And they're also opening up the position
to bring more of the pieces in.
But the ponds kind of help break open the King's side,
but they can't checkmate by themselves.
So after the ponds come in,
that's when you need to start bringing in pieces as well,
which you will see.
Oh, he card do here.
Okay.
There you go.
He puts more sacrifice.
So this was actually another beautiful sacrifice in the game.
Um, but then puts the king in check with a pawn.
Right.
And the pawn is going to be given here for free, but the idea is you're giving your own
piece because you want to have more space and open up the king, which is what you're
always trying to do when you have a king side. You're trying to remove as many up the king, which is what you're always
trying to do when you have a king side. You're trying to remove as many of the king's defenders
as you can without giving up too much of it. And then you have a ton of pieces on the king side
for black just waiting to do harm. And then notice how every single move white is getting attacked.
Like they're just never getting a break. Black just keeps throwing all their pieces.
So it's funny that Black's queen has been hanging
for like three moves now and white still can't do anything
about it.
So Rook puts the king in check.
The king runs.
And then again, we leave the queen hanging
and you develop a piece.
The slight squared bishop that's so important.
And you're once again threatening checkmate on G2
And then bishops coming to again the queen hanging I think and I mean the game is just so beautiful the amount of
Calculation he car put into this position just feels like so much is in danger right so interesting
And danger. Right. It's so interesting. And Knight takes what
our ponds. So now his queen is attacked twice. And he doesn't
care. He takes the bishop and he's still threatening the checkmate
on G2. And then the queen takes the bishop. So now he's he's
defending against G2. And Black just goes and grabs some
material back here. So here, black is already is winning.
Well, he ends up winning a night here because black had to be so much on the defensive.
He's just taking pieces. Yeah, I mean, at this point, you're up two whole pieces, so you knew
it would really be here. Yeah, exactly. But
exactly, but... And Queen.
Queen.
And then you take, and then the rook takes.
And there's not as much of an attack on the king anymore, but Hikaru is up a night here,
which is GG.
Yeah, what's the correct way of saying that?
Because I played a Demis Asalbus, I played him in chess, and then I quickly
realized, like from his facial expressions, that I should have, like, stopped playing.
It was like, it's already set.
Yeah, and then he's like, like, this is the good time to, like, give up.
Right.
You're not going to get the checkmate where, like, there's, you know, he know he could see like the checkmate is like five or seven moves away or something this and what's
the play usually you have to resign if you're in a position or you should through chest etiquette
resign when you're in a position where your opponent is definitely going to win out of respect
like if you're a piece down and obviously all top grandmasters do that.
The only people who don't do that is kids because their coaches.
They're coaches always tell them never resign, and they'll be in hopelessly lost positions
playing against like two rooks, a king, and they only have their soul king, but they're
still playing on.
So that's a position where it's obvious they can't win.
Because the kids might make errors.
Yeah, I think so. And so it might might as well.
That was an interesting thing about, I think,
game six of the previous World Championship
with Magnus.
Was it the one where he beat?
Yeah, the first time he beat him,
where it was like,
he said that,
I don't know how often you come across this kind of situation.
He said the engines predict a draw.
Yeah.
But that doesn't mean that it's going to be a draw.
So you play on hoping that you take a person into that.
I mean, this is, I guess, an end game thing.
You take them to deep water and they make a positional mistake or something.
I don't know when like he from his gut knows that this is supposed to be a draw, but he still plays on.
Yeah, I mean, that is one where it could theoretically be a draw, but it could be very hard to defend,
because it's a hard technique to know as a human. And especially in that game, I know that
Neppo was also in time pressure, which makes it even harder. So in situations like that,
you should always continue. It's more where an engine would give you something like plus 10 or something where it's not
just clearly a win, but anybody would know how to win. And that's where you're usually supposed
to resign. So what do you find beautiful about this game? Is it the the attacking chess and just
the the symmetry of it? It's the asymmetry. and it's the fact that this is the dream for the King's Indian,
where you're able to get a beautiful attack, and there is also those two really nice sacrifices,
where Black just continuously kept putting pressure on White's King to the point where he was able to win material.
And the best part of it is that if the attack didn't work out, black would have been completely
lost.
How often does that happen, by the way?
As an attacking player, you call often, do you put yourself in the position of like,
I'm screwed unless this works out?
In online chess, more than I should.
And it's usually when I sacrifice, I know it's either going to work or I'm lost.
And those are the most fun positions to play usually.
But in tournaments, if you're doing a sacrifice, you're playing it with 100% confidence.
Because you're taking the time to calculate it.
But yeah, when you have three minutes, you don't have time.
So you take a whim and you follow your intuition.
Or you find out later.
Or you're very confident it'll work and you haven't calculated all the way until the
end, but you've calculated to the point where you have enough in exchange for the sack
and you think you could play that position.
How do you train chess these days?
What's, do you practice?
Do you do deliberate practice?
I mean, you're in this tough position because you're also a creator and educator and entertainer.
So, do you try to put in time of like daily practice?
I don't train chess anymore when I'm focusing on creating.
I do, if I'm preparing for a tournament, but back in the day, I would train very tournament,
very seriously for tournaments.
And the way it would work is I do
opening preparation for a specific tournament because that's when you really need to have those
lines memorized and you could also prepare for specific opponents and I would do tactics to make
sure I stay sharp. So those are the two things I would do every single day for a tournament and
then mix up the rest with like maybe some end games, maybe some positional chess. So what does tactics preparation looks like?
Do you do like a puzzle, like a random puzzle thing?
Yeah, I would just train puzzles for at least like 30 to 60 minutes or books.
And sometimes you were, and there's different kinds of puzzles.
One, you could train for pattern recognition
where you're supposed to go through them very quickly.
And that's just so that when you're playing the game,
if your mind is tired, it's still
keeping track of things a little bit more easily.
And then there's where you're practicing your combination.
And those sometimes take like 20 minutes to find because you have to just calculate a
lot.
And it's more like making sure that you trained with that muscle.
But Andrea is actually very good at finding ways to balance and still study while also
doing content.
Yeah, so what you're able to do both?
That's the hard thing.
I was getting very irritated with content because I'm very competitive.
I don't like playing chess if I'm losing and if you're talking and entertaining, you're
going to be losing more games and winning.
So then I started doing more training streams where I'd bring on my coach.
And one of the things that I wanted to add to Alex's training
repertoire, so I do, I would do daily puzzles every time.
I'm streaming which helped me a lot, even if it's like,
there's this thing on chest.com called puzzle rush, where
you have three minutes and you just do puzzle after puzzle,
where they get incrementally harder.
And it's just a really good way to build your pattern
recognition, especially when you're rusty. So I would do that till I hit a high score, and I wouldn't play
any blitz until I hit the score that I want. But that's kind of more like the fun part of
chest studying. The very important one is actually analyzing your losses in your tournament games.
And first you sit and you look through your mistake yourself and try to see if you can find the better moves. And then that's when you know we would check over with the
computer to see if you're right. So game analysis is also very important, which I try to
do.
I remember to give a shout out. I listened to a couple of episodes of the perpetual chess
podcast, which is pretty good. But whatever I listen to, I remember the part it's I think they really focus on
Like teaching people
Yeah, how to play how to train all that kind of stuff they do like
Yeah, I'm looking at adult-improver. So basically
Like how to regular noobs get better at chess. Yeah, one of the things that one of the person that said, I think it was the grandmaster, but he
said to maximize the amount of time you spend every day of like basically as you were
saying like suffering.
So like you, it's not about the like you should be thinking.
You should be doing calculating.
So it's the opposite of what Magnus said, like you should be doing a lot of time. It doesn't matter what the puzzle is or whatever the how you're doing, but you should be like doing
that difficult calculation. That's how you get better. Yeah, it really depends what you're training,
because I used to think the same, but it depends what you're weaker at. Because if you're doing
the really difficult puzzles, you're training for like visualization and calculating more moves
ahead than you typically would, which maybe you wouldn't get into that as often in a regular game
because typically you run into like three to four tactics,
which are actually the easier and more fun ones to solve.
So, it really depends.
And on top of that, as a hobbyist,
your motivation is very different than when you're playing
from a young age and have pretty high competitive ambition.
And a lot of people who are new to chess, than when you're playing from a young age and have pretty high competitive ambition.
And a lot of people who are new to chess, you could basically work on anything and still
improve.
So if you're focusing on something you like, you're probably going to stick to it more
and be more consistent, which I think is more helpful long term.
What was the most embarrassing loss of your career?
I had so many flashbacks, but I'm so glad it's a question for Andrea.
I like that you specified.
You know, it's funny.
I don't know.
Because you said you're so competitive.
Yeah, no, no.
I could tell just even from the way you said it, that it's like you hate losing.
Yeah, I mean, that was the reason I hated chess in high school, because it always be like, but okay,
there's many traumatizing losses where it's your top three,
you're running for first, and then you throw a game,
you shouldn't, and this shouldn't hurt my ego as much as it does.
But it's always kids, or when I was a high school girl,
it's the younger boys who are really cocky.
And when they win, they start rubbing it in your face, and they're y're yawning and looking around when like 90% of the game you are destroying them. And
you had this one tiny mistake and now their ego is huge. But I'll never forget I was playing like
for a chess scholarship. And I was, it was Ty Breaker for first. And I think I lost to a 12 year old
girl who couldn't even use the scholarship. But she beat me in one first place and she got some other prize.
So yeah, I was losing to that little girl who's literally like 2300 now, so make sense.
All right, you keep telling yourself that.
What do you think?
What do you think?
Do you think a spa was feeling that when you was playing a 13 year old Magnus?
Like, why?
Yeah, as much as it's a beauty of the sport that any age can be brilliant any demographic
anything. I feel like when you're adult and you're paired against the kid it's just hard not to
let it get to get in it depends maybe if they're a really sweet kid but most times I play kids
they're just really arrogant and but I don't think they do it intentionally because they're kids
that mean there is a certain etiquette thing where like you say,
yawning in any general.
Like it's not-
You're kids, there's no etiquette.
Yeah, you don't care.
Yeah, the kids traumatized me too.
I was playing in Vegas.
And it was not even my opponent.
It was the board next to me.
And the kid was at least 10 years old,
made 12 max and he was playing against an adult.
And he takes out his hand and he starts doing a fake phone to which the kid is sitting
across diagonally, picks up their banana and starts talking like it's a phone and they're
just mouthing words.
Why are there two adult opponents are thinking intensely at the game.
And then I see the adult look up, look at the kid just just making banana foam and the discharging his eyes as he sigh.
Yeah.
And they're not even doing it for trash talk.
No, no, no, no, they're just bored.
They're just bored kids.
Yes, exactly.
Well, what was the, because you play a bunch of people for your channel, what was the
most like memorable, what's the most fun, most intense, there's a bunch of fun ones.
You play kids before some trash
talking kids. That sounds great. They trash talk kids. Yeah. Nothing like a losing 12-year-old
who then starts doing a fortnight dance. Yeah. So that actually happened? That did happen.
He is a very young master. I think he became master when he was like nine years old or something. he's very good at chess and doing a lot of training, but he's also incredibly good at trash talking and he beat me one game and he stood up and he started doing the Fortnite dance.
So, you know, you got to just swallow your pride in those moments.
What is that culture of like street chess players? It seems pretty interesting. I don't know, that seems to be celebrating
the beauty of the game. It's the trash talking, but also having fun with it, but also taking
it seriously. And you've done a few of those. You go to New York.
Yeah, and Union and Square Park, Washington Square.
What was that like?
It's such a unique place. I haven't seen it anywhere else in the US where people are just
professional chess hustlers, even if they're not necessarily a top player, but they play
chess every single day. And so many of them learn chess by themselves and never had a professional
coach, so they are quite good at it. They're also very tight-knit. They all know each other,
and it's a very social
thing where you're not just playing chess. It's the experience of getting to know this person who's
very much a personality and they talk to you. They could, I think, they're give you tips or they
can be really chatty and talk to you during. So it's a chess experience rather than just playing a game.
Do you tell them like what you're rating is or do you just let people just like,
both ways do you discover how good the actually the person actually initially I loved going and not telling people my rating and just surprising them and and winning games, but now we've gone so many times that they just know us so we can't get away with it anymore
One time actually, I don't know if I should share this, but one time we'd rest up as a grand
mother's and we had prosthetics on our face. And I think they still recognize us.
Yeah, it's probably the other components, like probably the trash talk and all that.
It was actually, no, it was funny. We were talking like grandmothers, but it was the way
I hope it was the way I.
Grandmother. You don't want to be like, you know, do it. I can't do it. I can't do it. I can't do it. I can't do it.
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I can't do it. I can't do it. I can't the park, they were at the helper. And we felt so happy.
Like my son, but, but yeah, it was funny,
because they didn't know it was us until he saw the way I reached
for my pawn.
And he said, the way you held your pawn, I knew it was you.
It was like such a snitch thing.
That was what blew the grandma.
Yeah.
Do you have a style of how you play physically?
Is that, is that what I think that's all I did?
I didn't think we did until grandma went to play chess, but yeah
I've never thought about that. I think our style is just trash talking now
It's style is very if you're talking about style on and YouTube and Twitch
We definitely have a distinctive style. What's that? What's your distinctive? I'm just talking shit
But not going too far.
No, no, definitely. That's definitely going to, if it's us two against each other.
Oh, we, we trash talk each other so hard.
And I love looking at Andrea and watching her little nose crunch up as she's annoyed
in the satisfaction I get when that happens.
How many times you play against each other online publicly?
I think I've seen a couple of games.
I played a lot of times. We try not to do it too often because it's repetitive, but every now and then when we have it done it for a while we'll go at it again.
What do you mean repetitive? Is that implied trash talk right there?
No, we play similar openings, so we just start seeing the same position to often.
We get to each other every time and Andrea is really good at opening.
So I just start playing bad openings to get her out of her preparation.
Because I don't like opening theory very much.
I just like playing the game and getting into middle games and end games.
But yeah, typically the only time we're playing each other is when we're setting up in the
park and we don't have opponents yet.
And we need content.
So we just play each other till people show up.
But we always put stakes on the line, which make it very interesting. Because because otherwise it wouldn't be fun to play each other. There's no stakes
Whereas, whereas the most fun place you've played in New York
I think so and it was actually when we set up in Times Square one night
We just brought a table with us and chess and it's not even where people usually play chess, but it was
So lively there were all of the lights out and so many people just kept stopping by to play chess, but it was so lively, there were all of the lights out and so many people
just kept stopping by to play chess and it was really one of my favorite streams.
It's just the opposite of like the classical chess world. It's super loud, there's music,
there's cars, there's street dancers, even some naked people walking around who we had to be
careful not to get banned. But I honestly really like the chaotic environments for chess games,
because I think it's a good way to break more into the mainstream culture and make it entertaining and appealing to anyone who doesn't know anything about chess
That's what I'm also on an authentic way because it's what we really like about chess when you're just enjoying the game
But also the atmosphere and the people who you're playing with and that's one of the things that I think you see less when you're just thinking of chess as a competitive thing.
You've, you mentioned a few other games,
like the Bobby Fisher games,
the candidates match, the game of the century,
which I feel like is a weird game
to call the game of the century
when there's still like a few decades left in the century,
but yeah.
I mean, it wasn't an official thing.
It was just a chess journalist.
It was just a chess article. But it stuck, if you look at, I'm not yeah. I mean, it wasn't an official thing. It was just the chest journalist.
Like a chest article.
But it stuck, if you look at, yeah, no, it did stick.
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It did stick. It did stick. It did stick. It did stick. It did stick. It did stick. I wonder is there's that movie searching for Bobby Fisher? Was that related? Because didn't have a young somebody who's supposed to be kind of like Bobby Fisher played
by Josh Wade's skin.
Yeah, I think he ended up being an international master.
It wasn't based on Bobby Fisher, it was based on another player, but I liked how they told
it through the lens of being inspired by Bobby Fisher.
Do you remember that game?
Why do you think it was dubbed the game of the century?
It was just journalist being like, I think part of it was the atmosphere where you have
the US junior champion who's this 13 year old nobody. And it's the first time he's playing
in a very competitive landscape against some of the top American players. And he goes up against
an international master. So somebody who's a lot stronger than he is,
who's played in, you know, Olympiads for the American team.
He's having a bad tournament.
But then he has this one game where he just shows off his tactical prowess
and plays incredibly well.
And I don't know if this is true,
but in the paper clippings of it, they'd say things like grandmasters
were by the board and they would say things like,
oh, Bobby is lost in this position.
What is he doing?
But there's this 13 year old kid who's just playing incredibly well.
And then that also happened before Bobby's started really rapidly improving at chess.
Not that people knew that, but he kind of seemed like a rising star.
So I think the game was beautiful, but I also think the idea of a 13 year old kid coming out from nowhere and beating a top American player was very fascinating.
And there was aggressive chess and it was in the interesting ideas.
Yeah, taking big risks. It's cool to see a 13 year old do that.
Yeah.
What about the you mentioned that his match against Mark Taimano from there, 71 candidates match was interesting in some
way.
Why is it interesting to you?
Move 45.
I'm looking at some notes.
This is with the Bishop E3.
I think I know which one you're talking about.
It's, I wouldn't say, a lot of these games on these lists, I think are really great combinations
that, that, when tactics come into play, which is what we're talking about, but they're very good at exemplifying lessons.
This is why you study famous games, so you can apply these lessons to your own games.
I think the main takeaway for this one was they were punishing their opponent from steering away from opening principles, which is something that we learned a little earlier
where he delayed the development of his king and put his queen out a little bit too exposed
so Bobby Fisher immediately punished that and then there was just like a beautiful combination where it was like a
12 in a row perfect moves, which was a tactic just winning the game
But it only came from punishing those mistakes.
Number steak being bringing the queen out, bringing the queen out and yeah,
not castling your king right away.
And these were just like opening principles that now they're written in books,
but, but for books, you would study these principles by studying games.
And also, I'm looking at some notes, his dominance during the Kennedy's Turnbulls unprecedented.
He swept two top grandmasters.
I mean, that guy is meteoric rise.
It's incredible.
Sad that I think at whatever in his 20s, he then quit chess.
And one has to wonder what, where he could have gone.
Yeah, it is sad that we lost such a brilliant mind so early on.
And it's also sad, I think, kind of what ended up happening in his life in the slowly going
crazier.
Is there some aspect of chess that opens the door to crazy?
Like how challenging it is on you, stress the anxiety of it the isolation and
isolation. Yeah, it's a very lonely sport. It is even do you guys
think since you both play it is still lonely the experience of it. It was when I
was competing a lot. I think the crazy part of it for me was how obsessed you can
get about a board game where you're optimizing your entire life to
beat another person that, you know, pushing wooden pieces across board and it doesn't necessarily
translate to other things. And the fact that so many people spend so much of their life on it,
but you can also spend so much of your life because it's so deep and so interesting.
And I mean, I've definitely experienced moments
where I didn't want to do anything but chess.
And I had that before I went to college
where I just wanted to take a gap year and focus on chess
because I still, I went to high school,
we moved a lot, there was always other things going on.
So I felt like I could never really focus on chess.
And the one time I could by taking a gap year,
I ended up not doing,
because my parents really wanted me to go to university
right away, but I think maybe if I had taken that gap year,
I don't know if I would have gone back to school.
So maybe it wasn't a bad thing.
I don't know if you say that's pretty universal.
I think if you want to be the best at anything you do
or any sport, you have to be that level of obsessed.
So I don't know if that's only chess.
Well, some things, some obsessions are more transferable to a balanced social life.
That is true. Like, healthy development. Yeah, chess is a lot less social than most other sports.
Yeah, there's something deeply isolating about this game. I mean, the great chess players
I've met, I mean, they, it's like, it's really competitive too. And there's
I mean, they, it's like, it's really competitive too.
And there's something that you're almost non-stop paranoid about blundering at every level.
And that develops a person who is really anxious about losing versus someone who like deeply enjoys perfection or winning and so on.
It's just this constant paranoia
about losing. Maybe I'm like misinterpreting it, but that creates huge amount of stress
over thousands of games, especially in a young person.
And that blundering is such a painful experience because you could be playing a game that you've played for five, six hours,
and you have one lapse in focus and you blunder and you throw the entire game away,
and sometimes not just the entire game, but the entire tournament. Now, you can't place or do anything anymore.
So you just feel those mistakes so strongly.
Yeah, there's no one to blame but yourself.
You guys are hard on yourself.
Have you been about losing?
Like before you became super famous for streaming, where you could be like, well, fuck this
at least a second.
I couldn't know.
So I was really hard on myself and I went to play a tournament in Canada to try to qualify
for the Olympiad team.
And I was like, well, I'm an adult now. I'm not going to feel emotional
if I lose. And then I got there on the first day. I think I was ranked like fourth in
Canada for females. And I was like earlier in the year, actually. And I go and I lose to
somebody lower rated on the first day. And I think it was because I had blundered.
And I went back to my room and I was like, I am not at a total.
I'm not eating, I'm not leaving this room.
I feel terrible and I know I shouldn't,
but it just cuts so deep.
And then I actually ended up qualifying for the Olympiad team,
but I didn't want to play because I didn't have enough time to train
and the losses are so painful that I was like, it's not worth it.
Yeah, it's in high school and growing up,
I just remember weekends,
and I think being competitive in any sport again,
probably people relate to this,
because it's like spending weekends crying
and even like Alex said,
like punishing yourself,
because you're disappointed in yourself,
because you fight so hard and you prepare and you study,
and you're like, oh, I, yeah but that's once again on the right side though when
You're studying so hard and after like a four-hour game and you actually are on the opposite end and you win
You feel like such a huge rush of dopamine and serotonin and you're like on a high from the wind
So there's also plus sides where you can turn this around. But yeah, like Alex said, like losing after preparing for something
and fighting on hours and hours is the worst feeling in the world.
Did you ever get anything like that with martial arts?
Yeah, so, you know, wrestling,
a wrestler all through high school and middle school.
Definitely so it's an individual sport.
I did a lot of individual sport tennis, those kinds of things.
But I think even with wrestling and tennis,
you're still on a team.
You can still, there's still a camaraderie there.
I feel like with chess, especially,
you go on your own with the tournaments,
like you really are alone.
But I mean, I always personally just had us
like a very self-critical mind in general, I would not.
This is one of the reasons I decided not to play chess because I think when I was really young, I met somebody who was able to play blindfold chess.
They were teaching me, they were laying in there on the couch, trash, drinking and smoking.
Sounds like a Russian. Yeah, exactly. There are now a faculty somewhere in the United States.
I forget where.
But he, making jokes, talking to others,
and he would move the pieces like he would yell across the room.
And I remember thinking that if a person is able to do that,
then that kind of world you can live in inside your mind
that becomes the chessboard.
To me, that meant like the chessboard is not just out here.
It could be in here and you could do these beautiful, you can create these beautiful patterns
in your mind.
I thought like I had such a strong pull towards that, where I had to decide either I'm
going to dedicate everything to this or not. You can't do half-assed.
And then that's when I decided to walk away from it, because I had so much other beautiful
things in my life.
I love mathematics.
I love just everything was beautiful to me.
I thought chess would pull me all in.
And there was nothing like it, I think, in my whole life since then. I think it's such a dangerous addiction.
It's such a beautiful addiction, but it's a dangerous one, depending on what your mind is like.
It reminds me of something I thought of before I stopped competing as much.
And I'd look at people and think, imagine being so intelligent that you could become a grandmaster
and yet only spending the rest of your could become a grandmaster and yet only spending the
rest of your life being a grandmaster.
Because it's one of those things where it does require a lot of mental power, but by doing
chess, you're not going to be able to explore other subjects deeply.
Yeah.
And not in a way that is bad, necessarily more in admiration and wondering what else could
have been because I've just seen people get to these levels of obsession where it's all they want to do.
And they're grandmasters, but they're not even top players.
So they're never going to make a living out of it.
They'll make like maybe 30, 40k, your max.
They can't even focus on their competitive chest because they have to supplement it by
teaching and doing things they don't like.
And it's just because of how strong of an obsession it can be because it truly is very intellectually rewarding and I think that's what people are addicted to in
the self-improvement but you can get that from a lot of other things as well. Well I think for me what I
was inspired by that stuck with me is that a human being could be so good at one thing.
be so good at one thing.
But to me that person on the college drinking so on, I assumed he was the best chess player in the world.
Like, to be able to play inside your head,
it just felt like a feat that's incredible.
And so I fell in love with the idea that I hope to be
something like that in my life at something.
It would be pretty cool to be really good at one thing. And like life in some sense is a surge for the things
that you could be that good at. I didn't even think about like how much money does it make or
any of that. Is can I fall in love with something and make it a life pursue where I can be damn good at it. And the being damn good at it is the source of enjoyment.
Not like not to win because you want to win an tournament
or win because like you just want to be better
as somebody else.
No, it's for the beauty of the game itself
or the beauty of the activity itself.
And then you realize that that's one of the compelling things
about chess.
It is a game with rules and you can win.
If you want to be really damn good in some aspect of life like that, it's harder and
we're weirder pursuit.
I don't know if you feel like you kind of did that with computer science or AI related
things, like getting that level of damn good.
That's one of the cool things about AI and robotics or intellectual pursuits or scientific
pursuits as you can spend until you're 80 doing it.
So I'm in the early days of that.
One of the reasons I came to Texas, one of the reasons I didn't want to pursue an academic
career at MIT is I want to build a company. And so that I'm in the early days of that
AI company. And so it's an open world to see if I'm actually going to be good at it. But the
thing that's there that I've been cognizant of my whole life is that I have a passion for.
It's something within me draws me to that thing And you have to listen to that voice.
So with chess, your fuck must you like early on
are really training, really hard.
I think life is more forgiving.
You can be world class at a thing after making a lot of mistakes.
And after spending the first few decades of your life doing something completely different.
And chess, it's like an Olympic sport.
Like, there's no perfection and is a requirement as a necessity.
What do you think is that pursuit for you?
Like, why did you decide to stream?
What drew you?
I like these questions now really getting deep.
Yeah, this is like a therapy session. I mean, what, um, isn't it terrifying to be in front of a
camera? Well, it's terrifying to be in front of five cameras. Corrections. Six. Six.
Okay. It's more terrifying for me to try to remember if I actually turn them all. I'm like,
I mentioned to you off my comes, still suffering from a bit of PTSD after
Scoring up a recording of magnets. I
Had to console me because
That was the thing is I
Felt okay, you want to you want to build robots?
If you can't get a camera to even run correctly
How are you gonna do anything else in life?
Oh, no, I'm not going to let it spiral like that.
It was spiraling hard.
And I was just laying there and just feeling sorry for myself.
But I think that feeling, by the way, and the small tangent is really useful.
Like, I feel like a lot of growing happens when you feel shitty as long as you can get out of it
like don't let it spiral like indefinitely but just feeling really really shitty about everything
in my life like I was having an existential crisis like how I how will I be able to do anything at all
like this you're a giant failure all those kinds of negative voices but I think I made some good
decisions in the in the week after
that.
You think you could have made those decisions if you were less hard on yourself?
Me personally. No, I'm too lazy.
Okay, so you really need to be angry at yourself enough to go and do what you want.
Yes, not even angry, it's just upset of being self-critical.
Also for me personally, because I don't have percoli- percoli- percoli- percoli- per
depression, I have a lot more room to feel extremely shitty about myself.
So, if you- if you're somebody that can get stuck in that place, like clinically depressed,
you have to be really, really careful. You have to notice the triggers you don't want to get in that place, like clinically depressed, you have to be really, really careful.
You have to notice the triggers
you don't want to get into that place.
But for me, just looking empirically,
feeling shitty has always been productive.
Like it makes me long term happier.
Ultimately, it makes me more grateful to be alive,
it helps me grow, all those kinds of things.
So I kind of embrace it. Otherwise, I feel
like I will never do anything. I have to feel shitty. But that's not a thing I prescribed to others.
There's a famous professor at MIT, his name is Marvin Minsky. And when he was giving advice about
like the students, he said, the secret to my success was that I always hated everything
I did in the past.
So always sort of being self-critical about everything you've accomplished.
Never really take a moment of gratitude.
And I think for a lot of people that hear that, that's not good.
You should like take a pause and be grateful, but it really worked for him.
So it's a choice you have to make.
It reminds me of the quote, be happy, but never satisfied where you can have a
positive spin and still want to improve yourself.
But yeah, um, what, like, uh, when did you decide to take a step in the
spotlight, that terrifying spotlight of the internet?
It was actually my senior year of college and I was really busy with work and school and
Chess was kind of like this lost love and the interesting thing is that the longer I don't play chess the more
I kind of miss playing it casually and enjoy it more because then I start looking at it with fresh eyes.
But I didn't have time to play tournaments.
So I started streaming online because it was more social than just playing strangers on
the internet without knowing anything about who they are.
And I started slowly growing a community and got in touch with chess.com pretty quickly
too.
So then it was this hobby that I would do once a
week every Thursday at 8 p.m. and it was one of the things that brought me a lot of joy. And actually I
speaking of depression did struggle for it was you know at least 10 years of my life and it was one of those things where
chess and streaming was such a distraction and it brought me such great joy that I just
kept doing it because I really, really liked it.
And then I was working on something that didn't pan out and decided to go and take a risk
and just stream full time, which seemed a little bit weird at the moment.
Was that terrifying?
That leap?
It was terrifying, but I had taken so many terrifying leaps in the past and they didn't, you know, the last two hadn't worked out, but I was like, well, I'll get it eventually.
So somehow having failed before and going through failure and knowing that'll be okay
made me more likely to just try something that was a very, very weird job.
By camera. I saw it die. Yeah, the camera that we don't need it. But one of the
problems, we have another five. Yeah, I know. This is where this triggers the spiral.
It's still somehow awake.
Is there advice you can give about the dark places you've gone in your mind,
the depression you suffered from,
how to get out from your own story?
Whenever I go to those really dark places,
the scariest thing is that it feels like
I will never get rid of this feeling,
and it is very overwhelming.
And I just have to kind of look back over time spans
and remember that every single time I have got through it
and remind myself that it is just temporary.
And that has been the most helpful thing for me
because I just try to combat the scariest thing about it.
helpful thing for me, because I just try to combat the scariest thing about it.
And then believe how faith that it's gonna like this will go away. And take action obviously to make sure it goes away. And I've also tried to spin it as depression
as one of the hardest things I've had to deal with, but also one of the biggest motivators,
because if I just am left with my own brain, I get very depressed, then I really like working or focusing on things.
So it actually pushed me to try to focus on school,
try to focus on chess, focus on whatever I'm doing.
And also, if I'm feeling really bad,
then there's probably something a little bit off,
and I use it as a signal and try to think of it as,
okay, this is just a sign that there's things
that could be improved for long term.
What about you, Andrea? Have you gone to dark places in your mind?
I'd say my family, like I see Alex going through this.
My mom also has very serious depression.
Luckily, I got the genes where I don't go through that serious level of depression that they do.
I say mine is much more temporarily.
So it's more similar to what I was feeling when I was feeling shitty about it.
Exactly, but I know that it's not something that's clinical and that's just a genetic
thing or a mental thing, or as I know, is more serious for like my family members.
And I did really a lot with you where you're saying where that really pushes you and I
felt that a lot through content where you're just kind of feel hopeless and kind of
like an existential crisis where I don't like the content I'm doing. And that's what pushes
me to like, okay, you have no choice but to try something that now you're going to be
passionate about because otherwise you're going to be stuck in this, it's never ending
cycle. So it does, it's short-term and then it helps me come up with the things that I enjoy the most content-wise.
And it also long-term taught me just how to have a more balanced life, like doing small things that make me happy
on a daily basis to like working out, to eating healthier, which I notice when I don't do for weeks, I just get a lot more depressed.
What has playing chess taught you about life?
Has it made you better at life in any kind of way?
Or has it made you worse?
You know, a lot of people kind of romanticize the idea
that chess is kind of like life or life is kind of like chess.
And becoming better at making decisions on the chess board
is going to make you better at making decisions in life.
Is there some truth to that?
I always shy away from these comparisons with chess and life. Yeah, it has both positives
and negatives. So one thing it really helps develop from an early age is having an analytical
mind, but then you could also get paralysis of analysis where you've just thought of everything
to death and you're moving too slowly when you just have to keep
going forward because there's not a great path ahead.
So it's more like exercising your brain
and staying sharp and then also applying that
to other things whereas if instead of playing chess
you're watching TV or something like that
you'd probably end up being less sharp.
Yeah, I used to, and high school I'd always preach like, ah, chess transfers to life skills
at college.
I would teach.
I taught chess for juvenile department for a special education school.
I'd cite studies and prisons where like, oh, playing chess helped them with X. And for
your kids, it helps with teamwork and thinking over life choices.
And now that I'm older, I don't believe in any of that BS.
But I do think that the process of working really hard at something which takes really long
to see results and you have to be really dedicated.
And like I remember in high school and in middle school, well, all my friends, they were having
fun on the weekends and I have to be there studying tires at Chesa Day and knowing one day will pay off, but for like two,
three years, nothing paid off. Kind of learning that type of patience with
anything. It's like, you know, like getting a real job. I can't say I ever really
worked a real job in my life since I went straight into streaming and I got to
work for myself. But I'd say it's what people go to college for, like they learn
how to live in the real world.
And I'd say that that's what chess taught me as a kid.
When you're streaming, when you're doing the creative work, do you feel lonely?
So a bunch of creators talk about sort of the, it's counterintuitive because you're famous
now.
You know, sort of not quite, but we're very lucky to have each other.
So there's that source of the comfort and like, is there some sense where it's isolating
to have these personalities?
They have to always be having fun being wild and so on.
Or is it actually the opposite?
Like is it a source of comfort?
No, there's so somebody cool people out there
that are giving you their love.
It started as a source of comfort
because it started with a very small community
who would be something, it would be around 200 to 300 viewers
and only like 30 to 40 of them would actually chat actively.
So you felt like it was a community, not an audience.
So you like knew them personally almost? Yeah, exactly. And it was people who
were interested in chess. And I would really enjoy that. And then as you know,
we started growing bigger, the audience kind of changed where they're not
there for you personally. They're there while you're entertaining. And it
changed for me. And I ended up being a lot more self-conscious
of things online and started even thinking of myself more like a product than a human being
when I'm online because I had to. Brand. Yes, exactly. Otherwise, you just start taking everything
personally that people comment about you and it's based off a very small. I see. So it's almost
a kind of defense mechanism. Exactly.
And it took time to get a knock because even if you have tough skin eventually gets to you
and you're online every single day listening to, you know, thousands of people's feedback on you.
I think the loneliness part of being creators going through burnout, which everyone is just
bound to happen, which is why I think we're
very lucky that we have each other because it's a numbers game and you're viral and trendy
at one point and then you have to fall. And then there's months where you're just grinding.
And I just can't wait to come back to you. I'm like, Andrea, we're relevant to this.
That's right. That's really like the worst part of being cratering, figuring out how to get over
that hump
but makes me very grateful that I have my sister because I know that I'm not the only person going through it
and yeah, I know that most of my creator friends feel very lonely in that process because they don't
have someone who's their family and their business partner and they're working by each other side by side.
You kind of tie in your self-worth to your job and your content and maybe even more
extremely than other jobs because you also are the entire company and the entire product.
So when things are going well or when things are not, you just need to be careful to not
reflect.
You're like, oh, I am doing bad.
I am better than the trends have now changed.
There's outside things.
We're going to keep going and this is just the normal waves, which is how we think about it now and also just about, are we enjoying it? Is this what
we want to make? But we were stuck in the camp for a while when we 10xed our viewership
after the pandemic because people were home and playing chess. And then of course that
dropped by like 70% and then you see that and you're trying your best. And you just kind
of have to deal with it and be like, okay
I'm just gonna keep persevering and
Maybe it'll get better. That's so fascinating. I mean, this is a struggle of
sorts in the 21st century of like
How to be an artist how to be a creator how to be an interesting mind in
Response to this algorithm. I'm telling you, turning off views and likes is really good.
I don't look at Twitch views for that reason,
and I get obsessed with the numbers too,
and I know Andrea does, but for me,
what I try now is to be more focused in the moment,
but Andrea somehow can do it even with the views.
So you just, you get, you have fun with it.
Like, ooh, a number without.
I'm too much of like a given to the temporary satisfaction.
Like, I like seeing, I like knowing that if something happens right now,
viewership is going to boost by a couple hundred and seeing that I'm right.
Of course. But what about when the viewers start drawing?
Exactly. Well, and I always, like, you just have this intuition now.
And, but I think also the reason that it doesn't affect me so much is when we first
started our content journey,
we were only Twitch streamers.
And we are lively, we're based on Twitch viewers.
But now like I've learned how to recycle that content into like YouTube and shorts and
other things where I know like, okay, if this stream does badly, there's so many more
things you can do that also just have a much larger output.
So it doesn't get to me as much as it did.
Do you ever feel that with your podcasts or do you feel like it's been authentic since
the start?
No, so there's a million things to say there.
So one is there's a reason I stopped taking a salary at MIT and moved to Texas is I wanted
my bank account to go to zero because I do my best with my backing against the wall. So one of the comforts I have is I don't care if
this podcast is popular or not. I wanted to not be popular. So I
don't want it to make money.
Feeling less. Yeah, I want to I mean, I just do best when I'm
more desperate. That's like one thing to say.
Seems like a recurring theme with how you build up your greatest
work,
which is honestly rare, respectful. Yeah, so I don't know. I thank you. That's just like
I was recommend. Right. Thank you for finding the silver lining for
unhealthy mental state. But the other thing is I was very conscious just like with chess and those kinds of things that I love numbers
And I would be if I paid attention if I tried to be somebody at their best like a Mr. Beast who
Really pays attention to numbers. I would just not I'd be become destroyed by it
The highs and lows of it and I just don't think I'll be creating the best work possible.
But one of the big benefits of a podcast is listeners, and there's an intimacy with the
voice.
And I think that is much more stable and a deeper and more meaningful connection than YouTube.
YouTube is a fickle mistress.
So sick.
It's a weird drug that like it really wants to-
With very addicting feedback loops.
When you have a video, that's number one out of ten.
Yeah.
Oh my god, the adrenaline you get.
And then the thing I really don't like also
is the world will introduce you as a person
that has a video on YouTube with some X number of views.
Like the world wants you to be addicted to these numbers.
Because they associate it with having done a good job.
Because that's what people think views are,
even if it's not.
Right.
And primarily because they don't have any other signal of what's a good job.
I think the much better signal is people, they're close to you, your family, your colleagues,
that say, wow, those cool.
Listen to that.
That was really, I didn't know this.
This was really powerful.
This is really moving and so on.
But definitely I'm terrified of numbers because I feel like just like
I said, I'd rather be a Stanley Kubrick, right? You'd rather create great art, not to be pretentious,
but the best possible thing you can create. Whatever the beauty that's the capacity for creating beauty
that's in you, I would like to maximize that. And I feel like for some people at Mr. Beast, I think those are
perfectly aligned because he just loves the most epic thing possible, but not for everybody. I
think there's a lot of people for whom that's not perfectly aligned. And so I'm definitely one of
those. And I'm still really confused by anybody listening to this. But that's also something
I guess you're trying to find. Yeah, trying to figure out.
I get very afraid of ever becoming someone who just makes
junk food content where you can't stop while you're in the
moment. And it has all of your attention. But when you're
done, it didn't really bring any value to your life,
which is something that I think the algorithm
still does really reward
and making sure that as we are learning
how to create better content,
it's still something that is gonna be meaningful long-term.
Well, ultimately, you inspire a lot of young people.
This is certainly a lot.
Yeah, those are the best.
When I get messages from people who are like,
I played you a year ago and my rating was 1400 and now I'm 1900.
I'd like to challenge you again.
It's a 14 year old writing a former email.
Those things are always very, very fun to get.
Even just outside of chess, it's just empowering to see
like for young women too, to see that kind of thing.
You guys are being yourself and making money for being yourself and having fun and like growing as human beings,
which I think is really inspiring for people to see.
So in that sense, it's really rewarding.
And then like the way I think about it is, there is some benefit of doing entertaining type of stuff.
So that you get the kind of like Mr. Beast does
with philanthropy. The bigger Mr. Beast becomes the more effective he is at actually doing
positive impact in the world. So those things are tied together. But of course with podcasts,
you guys, well, maybe you have these kinds of tense things, but what kind of ideas,
what kind of people do platform, what kind of person, what kind of human being do you want
to be? Because you are actually becoming a person and a set of ideas in front of the
public eye, and you have to ask yourself that question really
hard, like really seriously.
Because if you're doing stuff in private, you have the complete luxury to try shit out.
Right.
I think you have less of a luxury to try shit out because the internet can be vicious
and punishing you for trying shit out.
And do you think that's sometimes a bad thing where you have less freedom to make mistakes?
Yeah, you have two choices.
So one, you put up a wall and say, I don't give a shit what people think.
I don't like doing that because I like being fragile to the world to keep you in my,
sort of, wear my heart in my sleeve.
Or the other one, yeah, you have to be, you have to, you have to actually think through
what you're gonna say.
You have to think of like, what do I believe?
You have to be more serious about what you put out there.
It's annoying, but it's also actually,
you should have always been doing that.
You should be deliberate with your actions and your words.
But I don't know, it's a,
but some of it, it's such a balance
because some of my favorite people,
are brilliant people that allow themselves
to act ridiculous and be silly.
Elon Musk has become a good friend,
is the silliest human of all,
I mean, he's incredibly brilliant and productive and so on,
but allows himself to be silly. And that's also inspiring to people. Like, you don't have to be perfect.
You don't have to, you can be a weird, a giant, weird mess. And it's okay. So it's a balance.
I think when you start to delve into political topics, into topics that really get tense for people,
then you have to be a little
bit more careful and deliberate. But it's also wise to stay the hell away from those topics in general.
Like I mentioned to you offline, somebody I have been debating with, I wanted to talk to your
Nause Karyakin on the chess board because, you know, chess is just a game, but throughout
the history of the 20th century, it was played between
the Russians and the Americans and so on, where they were at war, cold or hot war.
And those are interesting conversations to be had at the Olympics and so on.
It's not just a game, it's some sense.
It's like a mini-war.
And so I have to decide whether I want
to talk to him or not and those kinds of things yet to make those kinds of decisions.
For now you guys are not playing chess with Donald Trump or Obama or so on.
We are not right now. No. How long is a stream? Like a few hours, right?
Now they're two to three hours. When I was first streaming, I'd stream for like six
hours a day, at least usually. Yeah. For I'd stream for like six hours a day. A day.
At least usually.
Yeah, for like seven, six to seven days a week.
Are you doing just like a talking one?
No, I would be playing chess the entire time while talking.
And when I started streaming, that's kind of how everybody blows up on Twitch.
You're just putting in crazy hours and you're always there.
It's not about making the best content. It's about letting people feel like they're hanging out with
you and just being on as much as you can. But I ended up feeling very burnt out because
it's hard to be your best self when you're in front of a camera for that long because
you do get scared of going into places where you want to learn, but you might not be the
best in because it's harder to learn in but you might not be the best in,
because it's harder to learn in public
than do something that like, yeah,
we're better than 99% of our viewers at chess,
so that's a lot less scary than trying to play a game
that you're bad at or discuss topics
that you're interested in.
Yeah, be, have the beginner's mind
and be dumb at something.
Right. Yeah, which is where the fun is and you get to learn together,
but people punish you for it on the internet.
What about you, Andrea?
Yeah, I think like Alex said at the beginning,
when we were grinding a lot, you don't really even have time
for much of a private life because you're streaming
every hour of your life and people want it.
Like the appeal of streamers is called
like being pair social where you feel like they're your friend and they like it because
they want you to share everything about your life.
Really the main challenge for me at first when trying to prioritize quantity over quality,
which we're not doing anymore, was realizing that I can't turn everything I'm interested
in and every passion into content before I'm like, well, I must dream more, but I like music,
and I like playing piano, and I like reading into these topics, and I like fitness, and then I try
to life shim all of it, and that's just, at some point, it's like just enjoy your time off for
those hobbies and prioritize what you're good at at because that's just going to be better for the channel overall.
So that was a learning lesson for sure.
It's nice because there are some intersections when I have tried new things that I really
enjoy and it pays off, but that's more less often.
So it's more like you can be yourself, but only specific parts of yourself online and
the rest sometimes it's nice to just keep
private and feel that you could just give it your 100% freedom.
See, I feel like I try to be the exact same person on podcasts as in private life.
I really don't like hiding anything.
But you're also a generalist, right? Where you have people with all topics for us, we built our
audience off of very specific things. So people sometimes feel like even at the start when we started
playing less chess, they're like, I subbed for chess. Why are you not playing chess?
Exactly. People are tuning in for an interesting conversation on a bunch of topics. So like the more
you are yourself, the better it is. But it is very hard when you build your brand on like one type of gaming content
build your brand
But yeah, the way you become a journalist is you slowly expand
it's like like
Expanded checkers
I guess that's a downward
Maybe poker maybe poker.
Yeah, exactly.
But also just the ideas, the space of ideas.
And then one of the cool things about chess is when you're talking over the chess board,
you're, it's a kind of podcast, you know, that is actually an idea we've had with playing chess
while also doing a podcast and talking with people.
It's kind of like an icebreaker.
We're also focusing on the game at the same time.
But, you know, we are slowly evolving and we're doing more things. Like, one thing we wanted to do is spend less time in front of the computer.
So now we're doing a chess travel show where we go to different countries and look at the chess culture.
So it actually feels like we're doing things that we would want to do and explore anyway.
And maybe it's not as much in the idea space, which we both enjoy and do a lot in our own free time,
but in the sharing, it cool experiences
with our audience that we actually want to do.
What do you look forward to going?
We're going to Romania on September 9th.
And I think this is the most exciting for me
because we're going back to the country
where our entire family is from,
where our grandmother taught our dad
who taught us how to play chess.
It has a very strong chess culture,
so it'll be very unique to go back and see
how everything is when we haven't been back
for a very long time.
And for Romanians, like, it's very rare
when there's like a famous Romanian who accomplishes
something, which is why, like, right now, Andrew takes the most famous Romanian. What he's pants, or a dad, when there's like a famous Romanian who accomplishes something, which is why like right now Andrew
Tates most famous Romanian, but he's banned sort of batteries and exactly and there's like something very special about
Romanian pride and when we meet fellow Romanians in the US like it's just an amazing connection and like I hear the way my dad talk about like
for example
Nadia who was a famous Romanian gymnast and he's like, yeah,
like Romania, we've sucked at everything, but when she won the Olympics for gymnast,
every kid on the street was doing gymnastics because it's very rare that they make it to that level
of success. And I think that we're super successful, super famous, but it is really cool to meet other
Romanians through chess because it's a very special bond. Yeah, you feel like it's a community and like, yeah, you belong.
Yeah, you can't get that anywhere else.
Let me ask your opinion since you mentioned them, Andrew Tate.
You're both women, successful women, you're both creators.
So Andrew Tate is an example of somebody that has become exceptionally successful at galvanizing
public attention,
but he's also from many perspectives of a massage and so let me ask a personal question.
Do you think I should talk to him on this podcast?
How would you feel as a fan?
Somebody, I'm talking to the great Alex and Andrea Botez and the next episode is with Andrew Tay.
I think it's a double-edged sword and most of these things are not as black and white as they seem,
you know, because on one hand I don't agree with his beliefs and I think he said a lot of things
that are very hurtful and that influence people's opinions.
At the same time, talking to someone through that and trying to get to the root of it and
how much of it he used just as a social media tactic to maybe change the opinion of people
who have been so influenced by him towards something that is maybe more understanding towards women
or things like that could do some good,
but at the same time,
platforming someone like that
and giving them more attention also signals
to other people who have a platform that it's okay.
So it's kind of weighing the pluses and the minuses
and it's a very tough decision because it's not clear.
And the thing about the internet,
you make the wrong decision, you're gonna pay for it.
Right.
That's the thing, like personally,
and it is funny, like I think the whole way rose,
the fame was just a growth hack,
and I've seen other people do it where like you just say,
kind of, I don't, honestly, I don't really listen
to his content because I just find it so dumb,
but I think he knows that by saying
the dumbest,
most controversial things, that's like a quick rise to fame.
And I think surface level, like he can really hold it up,
but that's why I would honestly enjoy tuning
into a conversation where you're really breaking down
to the core of those beliefs.
And I think like the young kids who look up to him
and when you actually hear someone challenging it,
could actually be helpful for people.
But at the same time, it's a lot of bad publicity.
People see your podcast, they see, wow, like,
they don't, if they don't know you and they don't know why you're interviewing him
and they don't listen, they'll see that and then 100% think it's for the other reason.
But I'm also afraid of a society where you can't have discourse with people you disagree with.
And even though I don't like Andrew Tate, I think the fact that he got banned from all the platforms is kind of scary because it sets a precedent.
And you always have to ask yourself, would this be ethical if I was on the other side?
And even things with a president like Trump, even if let's say you're somebody who was on the left, if that would have happened to a leftist president, how would you feel, would you think that's morally ethical? So that is something that I think is important. We
try to find ways to have conversations and reach some mutual understanding and try instead of
just amplifying the worst about every human being. Well, so one of the major reasons I'm struggling with is because I really enjoy talking to brilliant
women.
I think it's also a lot of women reached out to me saying like, it is what it is, but they're
inspired when a female guest is on.
And to me, if I talk to somebody like Andrew Tate, even if I have a really hard hitting, I think it could be a very good conversation that lessons
the likelihood that a brilliant, powerful female will go on the show.
Because they'll never watch it, but the thing we're doing the size we put labels in each
other well, Lex is the person that platforms misogynist. Yeah, I did a thing where
Joe Rogan got in trouble over an n-word
controversy earlier in the year and
Joe's a good friend of mine and I said that I stand with Joe that he's not a racist or something like that and
within certain communities. I'm not somebody who's an apologist for racists, right, or
racists myself, that kind of thing.
And we put labels without ever listening to the content, without ever sort of actually,
just even the very simple step or it seems to be difficult of like taking on the best
possible interpretation of what a person said and given him the benefit
of the doubt and having empathy for another person.
So you have to play in this field where people will assign labels to each other and it's
difficult.
Well, ultimately, I believe I hope that good conversations is a way to like a greater understanding
of what people to grow together as a society and
improve and learn lessons, the mistakes of the past, but you also have to play this game where
people just like putting labels on each other and canceling each other over those. Or that guy
said one thing, nice about Donald Trump, he must be a far-right Nazi or the opposite, that this person
Nazi or the opposite that this person
said something nice about the vaccine. He must be a far left
whatever because
Apologist for whatever for Fauci
More most of us I think are ultimately in the middle. It's it's a weird. It's a weird thing
But I think and it's also painful on a personal level. Like people,
people have written to me about things like single words, half sentences that I've said about either Putin or Zelensky, where they have hate towards me because of what I said.
Either both directions, I have not accumulated very passionate people that
Some call me a putin apologist some call me a Zelensky Paulist and it hurts to
Given how much by a family there how much I've seen of suffering there and to carry that burden over time
And I'll let it destroy you stuff
So like do you want to take on another thing like that when you have conversations?
Right. Or can I just talk to awesome people like you to where it's not that we're not
controversial. It's or you're interesting, you're fascinating, you're inspiring, you're
like fun, you know, not all those difficult things that come with more difficult conversations.
Right. But somebody has to be making those difficult
decisions and challenging the notions that we should cancel someone just for slightly disagreeing
with us. And it's very hard to take that on personally. And I think that's a huge part of it.
When you know it's something you're doing for the right reasons and you're getting a lot of people coming and misinterpreting it.
It's very painful, but I think you have to ask yourself long term, if when you made that decision,
you ultimately thought it would be better or worse for your listeners to know that conversation.
And then if you can sleep with it at night, take the risk.
Yeah, when I actually talk to people that, especially like astrophysicist, and you realize how tiny we are,
how incredible, like, how huge the universe is, like, you don't, it doesn't matter, you can do anything.
You could like, you can walk around naked, talk shit to people, do whatever the hell,
and actually in modern social media, people just like forget. It's like, it's ultimately liberating.
Just try to do, at least from my perspective, the best possible thing for the world you
can, take big risks and it doesn't matter.
And that's the other thing with being canceled nowadays because everyone's attention is
much more shortsighted.
You can get canceled and then it'll blow over in three days.
And you actually see things like this on Twitch very often where people just have a bursts of outrage and they come into your
chat and they're all spamming and saying mean things and then three days after. And of
course, they're not actually ever serious things. They're usually like things clipped
of any streamers and like there were moments, but then people forget about it pretty soon
after.
So you're able to accept that like when somebody's being shady to you for a day.
Yeah, I mean, I still get sometimes emotional about it, especially when I'm like, oh, wow,
like these things are being said are not true or like this is clearly taken out of context,
but I've just accepted that it's part of the job.
And if I am trying my best and I am trying things with as good intentions as possible.
Then I just try to learn every time that happens and be like, okay, what could I do better?
And what is just part of the job?
Well, let's start some controversy. Who's the greatest chess player of all time?
Is it Magnus Carlson? Is it a Gehrikas parov? Is it somebody else? Bobby Fisher?
Do you have a favorite Alex? So whenever I hear this question, I interpret it in a very specific way, where
it's not who was the most talented chess player or who had the most impact on the chess world,
but who is the greatest at playing chess? Where if you were putting all of these players
at their peak, who would be the best, and, best. And we're kind of living in a world where obviously humans are becoming more like cyborgs
and their tools, like them a lot more powerful.
Yes.
And the computer is the most powerful tool for chess that we've ever witnessed.
And the top players now, someone like Magnus Carlson or Gary Kasparov, if they were going to go towards people like, you know, even Lasker or Bobby Fisher back in the day, Lasker
he was World Champion for 27 years, he was the best in his field by far.
But would he be able to stand up to someone like Magnus Carlson who has had these tools?
I don't think so.
So most chess players have said Gary Kasparov and I think even Magnus has said that in the
past.
But I like to think of it as Magnus and his peak and Garriott his peak and because Magnus
was able to live more in a computer era, I feel like so far he's the greatest of all time.
And some studies say things like how there's rating inflation, but I looked into some of
them and they basically calculated
people's play in over the years and it seems that there hasn't been inflation. People
are just getting better and I think it's because you have better tools at chess.
And also one of the cases, what's your...
I was going to say, I actually, I disagree with that.
Good. Make it interesting.
I think I would judge the greatest, like, greatest player of all
time in relative to the time that they lived in and Magnus, although he is technically the strongest
chess player in history that is because he had computers to study chess with. And of course,
if you compare him to like Gary Casparov, he plays most like stockfish, but Gary Kasperov at his time,
he beat more players of his skill level than Magnus did.
Magnus loses more often.
He also of course held the belt for 20 years more.
So I'd say actually, because Gary lacked the help of computers to study chess and overall
performed better against players of his skill level. I think he would be number one.
Nice. Yeah, but I mean, the case that people make form agnus
unmeaning, I mean, what Alex said, but also Magnus plays a lot and he doesn't,
he plays a lot blitz, bullet, and like he puts, he gets drunk and like he's really putting himself out there and very limited number of games and very focused on winning.
And so there's some aspect to the versatility, the aggressive play, the fun, all of that,
that I think you have to give credit to in terms of just the scope, the scale of the
variety of genius exhibited by Magnus.
And he might not even be done yet.
I don't know if you'll ever hit 2900, but we can't judge yet,
because he's not at the peak of his career potentially.
What do you think about him not playing World Championship?
Isn't that like, isn't that wild?
The entirety of the history of chess in the 20th century going like meh.
Let's walking away from this one tournament that seems to be at the center of chess.
What do you think about that decision?
You can't help but be disappointed as a chess fan who wants to see the best player in the
world defend his title.
But I also understand it on a personal level and not feeling as satisfied when you're
going to the world championship and having to defend against people who are less strong
than you.
Also, imagine winning world championships and not feeling a joy out of that.
So maybe by not doing that and focusing instead on a goal like 2,900, he'll be more likely
to accomplish
it because he's focusing on what actually motivates him to play chess.
But I do think that it will hurt how we judge the next world champion.
I think it won't change him being the best player in the world.
And for someone to replace him, even let's say like, NEPO versus Ding, even if one of them win and write on some stance, it does lower
the merit because now who has the world chance championship title isn't actually the best
player in the world. And that has happened before in the past, but still going to take
them the same effort to prove when they would pass him like 10, 20 years to become stronger than
Magnus. I don't think it changes the skill level that it takes to become the best chess player in
the world. I think for chess fans, it's very disappointing, but I think in the overall grand scheme
of the public view to people who don't really, so what breaks the popular culture. And you think
of what names people know who don't play chess like Bobby Fisher
did it. Most people know Casper over Magnus. It takes the same ability and talent and that
doesn't change. I think it does change though. If you're playing a player who's not as strong,
but I see your point as well. And I know we differ on this. Like I heard you ask Magnus, but what is your take on it?
Well, listen, his answer is kind of brilliant, which he's not saying he's,
he's bored of the world championship.
He's bored of a process that doesn't determine the best player.
Like in his two exciting, do you think to him to have a small number of games
He's he's he doesn't mind losing which is really fascinating to a better player right or somebody who's his level
He's more anxious about losing to
A weaker player the weaker player because of the small sample size. Now, if like poker players had that
anxiety, they would never play it all, right? That's the World Series of Poker. You get to lose
against weaker players all the time. That's the throw all the dice, but that's an interesting
perspective that he would love to play 20, 30, 40 games in the World championship, but then he would enjoy it much more. And also play shorter games
because they emphasize the like pure chess actually being able to like much more variety in the
middle game just to see a bunch of chaos and see how you're able to compute calculate and intuition
all that kind of stuff. And yeah, that's beautiful. I wish the chess world would step up and meet him
in a place that makes sense, you know,
change the world championship.
So if he did, changing it somehow, that allows for that.
Or having other really respected tournaments
that become like an annual thing that step up to that.
Or more kind of online YouTube type of competitions,
which I think they're trying to do more and more,
like the crypto cup and all those kinds of things.
Yeah, and the Grand Tour,
the Grand Tour, which does play in,
which takes a lot of the top players
and they do it online in shorter formats.
But there is, you know,
so that's his perspective.
My,
perhaps narrow perspective is I romanticized the Olympic Games and those are every four years and
and the world championships because they're rare because the sample size is so small. That's where the magic happens. Everything's on the line for, you know, for people that spend their whole life,
for people that spend their whole life, 20 years of dedication,
everything you have, every minute of the day
is spent for that moment.
You think about like gymnastics,
that they're Olympic games.
There's certain sports where a single mistake in your fucked.
And that stress, that pressure,
it can break people or it can create magic.
Like a person that's the underdog has the best night of their life.
Or the person that's been dominating for years, all of a sudden slips up.
That drama from a human perspective is beautiful.
So I still like the world championship.
But then again, looking at all the draws, looking at like, well, the
magic isn't quite there. So to me, when I see faster games of chess, that's much more,
that's much more beautiful. So, but then I don't understand the game of chess deeply
enough to know, like does it have to be so, so many draws. Like, is there a way to create a more dynamic
chest? I mean, he talked about random chest with a random starting position.
That's really interesting. But then, of course, that's like, then you do have to play hundreds
of games and that kind of stuff. Right. So, I, but I think it's great that the world number one
think it's great that the world number one is struggling with these questions. Because he's in the position, he has to leverage to actually change the game of chess, as it's
publicly seen, as it's publicly played. So it's interesting. He's still young enough
to dominate for quite a long time if he wants. So I don't know. I, you know, I was
a sprowled the fight between nations. I hope they have the world championship. And I hope
there's a, I hope you still a part of it somehow. I hope it changes mind. And comes back,
comes back, some kind of dramatic thing. I don't know. But it is, it is, his heart is not in it. And then, and then that's not beautiful to see.
Right?
Yeah, it is beautiful that the thing he wants is a great game of chess against an opponent that's his level or better.
And that's a great that he's
coming from that place. But I hope he comes back small because the the world
championship is a is a special thing in any sport. So you do wish that the
person who wins the world championship is the best player in the world. No. I hope
that the best people in the world, the two best people in the world are the ones that sit down.
But the person that wins is the person that that's the magic of it. Nobody knows who's going to win.
I think Magnus is so, he really wants the best person to win.
Like, that's why he wants the large sample size.
like the, that's why he wants the large sample size, but to me, there's some magic to it. The stress of it, the drama of it, that's all part of the game.
I guess not just about the purity of the game, like the calculation, the pure chest of
it.
It's also like the drama.
Like, the pressure, the drama, all of it, the shit talking,
if it gets to you, the mind games, you know.
This is a part that's fun to watch,
but less fun to be playing.
But that's why it's great who can rise
under that pressure and who melts under that pressure.
What, there's a lot of people that look up to you,
like they're inspired by you
because you've taken a kind of non-linear path through life. Is there any advice you have for people like in high school today that are trying to figure out
what they want to do? Do they want to go to Stanford? Do they want to pursue a career?
In, I don't know, in industry or go kind of the path that you guys have taken, which is
have the ability to do all of that and still choose to make the thing
that you're passionate about your life.
I always like the calculated risks approach
where when you're younger, it's okay to take more risks
because you have a lot more time,
but there has to be a reason why you're doing
that particular risk.
Is it something that you've spent a lot of time
already really passionate and working on,
or is it just something that's trendy
and you wanna do it because you don't have a better option?
And that's actually similar to what Andrea did
when she decided to go into streaming instead of school.
Yeah, it was the reason I got in the streaming
because I was initially going to go to college,
but the pandemic, it was the right
at the beginning of the pandemic,
and all my classes were online.
And I never thought, ever since I was 12,
like my dream was school, and I saw myself nowhere else
than going to university.
And I just, I thought of it and kind of wait out the risk.
I'm like, well, if I take a gap here, and I try streaming
with my sister, what do I have to lose?
I gained some experience working with someone
who has a lot more experience than I do.
Then I can go back to school after.
If I go to school right now, I do online classes for a year, and that's something that I
could do at any time.
That's why it made a lot of sense for me to go into this.
Of course, this is also a very unique opportunity, so I don't know how applicable, but I do think
overall the calculated risk is a really good lesson. So life is like chess.
Exactly.
Maybe sometime. Exactly.
You also have you considered a career in professional fighting?
I saw you did a self-defense class, these Dillogiu Jitsu.
Did you see the 10 year old kid who throwing her?
Yes, and apparently I could have broken the leg.
But it's actually funny, like chess boxing is a a thing and I have been doing a lot of boxing like
I physical activities like
Honestly, one of my favorite things to do and I have been testing it out on content and
We have a creator friend who's hosting a chest boxing tournament, but there's no woman who's could match me
Unfortunately, because all the opponents are male
And I can't fight a guy.
How does chess boxing work?
So you do a round of chess and a round of boxing.
And we actually did a training camp for it before.
And of course, like, after you go into the ring.
Is this real?
The series actually?
Yes, it's amazing.
We went to London chess boxing club.
And like, after you get...
Not seeing like videos, I thought it was something you'd just enrushed for.
No, it's real sport.
Yeah. Yeah. No, it's real sport. Yeah.
Yeah.
No, it's very cool.
But after you get really tired,
you're more likely to make a mistake
and you just have them push first or something.
Yeah, that's probably good strategies.
What do you want to,
like because some of it is a cardio thing.
Do you want to work on your chest?
For your butt.
They do both.
It's very fun.
But yeah, from a content perspective,
I'm sure there's a lot of people that like, and it's a lot of entertaining.
Would love to see.
I don't want to see Andrea getting hit.
That would be right.
I would love to.
Unless she doesn't get hit.
I would get a dummy thought in a fight.
And she did end up winning, but seeing her get hit, I thought I was going to throw
all the stuff. I just think it was so cool.
She had no experience in boxing whatsoever.
And then coming from someone in the content world,
where you start waking up six days a week at 6 a.m.
and she's training every day like, you know, like a real professional athlete.
I think it's such a unique experience and also like a really test
of how much you can really commit to this and progress.
And I think that's really rewarding.
Did you ever end up doing the marathon with David Goggins that you were training?
No, I got injured, but we're going to do it soon.
That's on my buckle list, just to see what your limits are.
You're ready to do it.
What did you do leading up to this?
Nothing.
You're just going to go into it.
It's mental anyway.
Oh, you don't.
But I do run a lot to make sure like there's no, like, you know, you have to be, have
a base level of fitness to make sure your body
doesn't completely freak out.
Other than that, 50 plus miles is just about taking it one step at a time and just being
able to deal with the suffering and all the voices, the little voices that tell you all
these excuses, like, why are you doing this? This blister is bleeding.
Whatever, whatever the thing that makes you want to stop,
just show up.
Sometimes it feels like you like pain.
No, well, no, no.
But pain does seem to show the way to progress.
So what are your terms in my world, something that's really hard and
I don't want to do that's usually the right thing to do. And I'm not saying that's a that's
like a universal truth is just, you know, if there's a few doors to go into the one that I
want to go into least, that's the one that usually is the right one. Afterwards, I will
learn something for me.
The David Gogus thing, I don't know.
That's, listen, we're talking offline,
the conversation will live.
She's a very numeric, calculated risk.
Everything is planned.
I go with the heart.
I just go whatever the hell.
I think two years ago, I woke up,
it was summer, I decided to tweet. I will do as many pushups. I don't know
why I did this. But I will do as many pushups and pull-ups as this to be gets likes, something
like that. Okay, good. And then that you got like 30,000.
And once you put it out on the internet, you're held accountable.
Well, for myself, I mean, in some sense,
and then that's when I already was connected to David
at that point, but that's when he called me.
And then I have to do it.
And then I did it, and it was one of the hardest things
I've ever done.
How long did you take?
I did it for seven days, and I got injured,
so I did about a few thousand.
Oh my gosh, so this is what got you to be injured.
This is the challenge?
No, it's different.
I keep getting injured.
I keep getting injured doing stuff.
But this particular thing, I started doing the...
You don't realize that you have to really ramp up.
So I got like overuse injury, tendonitis on the shoulder all the way down to the elbow.
So I took like eight or nine days off and then started again
and then it took about 31 days to do. The number was like 26, 27,000. Yeah. And I
it took like three, four hours a day. Oh God. Yeah. Sounds like torture.
And not, you know, and the constancy asking myself, what am I doing?
Am I letting it?
This is why you're single.
What was the voice about this?
This is what are you doing?
It's like face the eye on the carpet.
I really like exhaust it.
Like what?
What?
Because of a tweet.
What is this?
Do you record it or you just?
I did. I did record recorded for myself. Okay now
Every day and that's what it's like to be a twitch streamer
Just right doing stupid things
But that was really important to me actually to not make it into content
You know, I recorded everything so maybe one day I could publish it
I recorded it mostly because it's really hard to count
Yeah, when you get exhausted. Yeah, like I just so one day I could publish it. I recorded it mostly because it's really hard to count when
you get exhausted. Yeah.
Like I just, so you actually enter the Zen place where with push ups, where it's just like,
it's almost like, like breathing. You get into a rhythm and you could do quite a lot.
But I wanted to make sure like, if I actually get this done, I want there to be evidence
that I got it done for myself. I could count it. I had this done, I want there to be evidence that I got it done
for myself, like count it.
I had this idea that I would use machine learning to like automatically process the video
to count it.
But then like after like 10 days, I didn't even give a shit when I even thought it was
about me versus any, I didn't even care.
Lex versus Lex.
Yeah.
And then, yeah.
And David was extremely supportive.
But that's when I realized that I really want to go ahead to head with him
Yeah, this those kinds of people are beautiful. They really challenge you to your limits. Whatever that is
It's like the thing is physical exercise
It's such an easy way to push yourself to your limit
There's in all other walks of life. It's it's trickier to configure like how do you push yourself to your limits and chest?
It's hard to figure out but like in physical you, it's trickier to configure. Like, how do you push yourself to your limits and chest?
It's hard to figure out, but like in physical.
You think it's ever dangerous?
Yeah, and that's what, that's why it's beautiful.
The danger you,
I don't like that your eyes lit off as I said.
Yeah.
Like, if you don't know how you're gonna get out of it,
you're gonna have to figure out something profound.
Is that? About yourself? And I mean, one of the reasons I want to Ukraine it, you're going to have to figure out something profound about yourself.
And I mean, one of the reasons I want to Ukraine is I really wanted to experience the
hardship and the intensity of war that people are experiencing.
So I can understand myself better, I can understand them better.
So the words that are leaving my mouth are grounded in a better understanding of who they are.
And I mean, the running a lot with David Ganges is a much simpler thing to do.
Simple way to understand something about yourself, about like the limits of human nature.
I think most growth happens with voluntary suffering or struggle.
Involuntary self, that's where the dark trauma is created. But I don't know. Well, maybe it is. Maybe I'm just attracted
to torture. And what is that your mind does when you're going to this involuntary suffering? it. There's like stages. First, all the excuses start coming. Like, why are you doing this?
And then you start to wonder, like, what, what kind of person do you want to be? So all
the dreams you had, all the problems you made to yourself, and to all the ambitions
you had that are having come yet realized, somehow that all becomes really intensely,
like, visceral as this struggle is happening.
And then when all of that is allowed to pass from your mind, you have this clear appreciation of what you really love in life, which is just like just
living, just the moment, like, step at a time.
I think what meditation does, and it's most effective, is just that pain is a catalyst
for the meditative process, I think, for me, for me, I don't know. Magnus said there's no meaning to life. Do you guys agree?
Or no, why are we here? I do not know why we're here, but I do know that
having some kind of meaning that I give my own life makes it a lot more motivating
every day.
So I just try to focus on finding meaning within my own life, even if I know it's just
self-imposed.
And then, chest is a part of that?
Chest is a part of it.
Maybe it was more so when I was younger because it was easier to just feel like I want
to improve as a person and to use chess to kind of measure some kind of self-improvement.
And now it's more different than that and I think I need to once again find what that,
you know, northern star is. Basically, I need to have a why for why I'm doing things and then
I feel like I could do very hard things.
What role does love play in the human condition? Alex and Andrea.
I'll let Andrea start this one since I took the last.
Sure. And yeah, just to add my answer for the last one, I also kind of think, well, life is meaningless,
but I like the stoic idea where that's something that you live to revolt against.
But for the second question.
The revolt against the fundamental meaninglessness of life, I like it.
Yeah.
It was what does love play, what role does love play?
Yeah, in the human condition.
The way I see it I
Love is a reason you want to share experiences with other people
That's how I see it like the people you really love you want to share the things you're going through with them
Good and the bad yeah exactly. That's my simple take on love.
My take on it is that part of what it is to be human is to be somebody who
feels things emotionally and love is one of the most intense feelings you can have.
Um, obviously there's the opposite of that and there's things like hate,
but I think the love you feel for people like your parents and your friends and romantic love
in that moment is much more intense than in other situations. And I think it's also just very
unique to humans and that's what I appreciate about it. Maybe that's the meaning of life.
two humans and that's what I appreciate about it. Maybe that's the meaning of life. Maybe that's what the Stoics is searching for. Andrea Alex, thank you so much for this and thank you for
an amazing conversation. Thank you for creating, keep creating and thank you for putting knowledge and
love out there in the world. Thank you for having us, Alex. It was a pleasure. And we're both
big fans of your podcast, so this was really exciting for us. Thanks for listening to this conversation with Alexandra and Andrea Boates.
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And now, let me leave you some words from Bobby Fisher.
Chess is life.
Thank you for listening and hope to see you next time.
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