Life Uncut - Bachelor In Paradise - FREE BRITTANY

Episode Date: August 4, 2020

FINALLY WE CAN FREE BRITTANY!!!!Here it is guys, the episode you've been waiting for.... Britt is answering all your big questions about BIP. What happened with her and Timm? Are they still together? Who got a 'bad edit'? And how the f*ck do they order food in Paradise.The big questions, the funny questions and the tea served with a side of raw feelings.If you have loved this episode please send some love back by leaving us a cheeky little review you scallywag, subscribe and share the love, because WE LOVE LOVE!See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information.

Hi guys, and welcome back to another episode of Life Uncut. I'm Laura. And I'm Brittany. And today, today, we have a very, very special episode for you. Now, Laura, you actually say this every week. Today's a special ep. But today actually is a special ep. It is a special ep.

Why? Because we're talking about Brittany. So, as you all know, Paradise, Paradise episode last night, Brittany went home. It was a bit weird. We're going to get into it. but we decided that today we're going to not do any accidentally unfiltered we're not going to do any ask uncuts because we're recording this episode at 9 30 p.m and we are here in my bedroom in the studio i mean and we really thought we'd bring you an episode that is all about brit's

experience in paradise what is happening now in her life where she's at so that you can get your story across well yeah and you guys i appreciate your patience you guys have waited a very very long time for me to be able to openly speak about my life and what's been going on so I appreciate that obviously there is a lot to talk about and we will get into it and everyone's been so patient with the lack of dating stories that you've brought to this podcast because from the very beginning that was your one fucking job well that was what I just meant when I said you guys literally what I meant where do we start I actually don't know I'm like Laura and I were just talking and now Laura obviously knows everything and we looked at each other and

we're like how do we even do this like there's so much to get through and and so many weird things I mean how weird was that exit oh let's just jump straight to the end how weird was that I'm I'm still like what the fuck like why did no one say goodbye why didn't you tell anyone that why you were leaving why did you just walk out why did Tim just say hey I want to leave and you're like okay let's go it was a three second conversation which I'm going to take a guess that there was more to it than that but let's like rewind okay to probably the first and most important question that I think everyone would want to know are you still with Tim oh I am not with Tim do you want to start there with what happened let's just start day one okay go babe you take the mic you're

supposed to be the interviewer you talk I'll sit here this is a great therapy session for me um I guess one of the big questions we had that came in was I mean Tim and I got together on day one and people were sort of like didn't see that coming and everyone wanted to know why and what it was and what the attraction was there because obviously I think I mean yes we are very very polar opposite humans um and to be honest I had never dated anyone like Tim never ever didn't ever think I would but what I look for in someone what I always have it was the same thing with Nick was humor someone that makes me laugh and he's just silly and doesn't take life seriously and someone that makes me feel good and Tim was that from day one I was just constantly in

hysterics and that wasn't shown a lot but um that was my initial attraction yeah for sure and we all know how much you like a red flag fucking love a red flag man I think he had a red hat on red shorts on day one and I was like that's my man like I'm lost to a flame. Okay. But like jokes aside, how are you feeling now? Also, I do want to say that the way I deal with a lot of things and you probably know this by now, but it is laughter and humor. So I might joke a lot, but like my heart hurts. How are you feeling now about everything now that like, now that you can talk openly, now that you can kind of tell your story now that you're no longer having to live in this

purgatory or limbo about where your life is at and whether you're with Tim or not with Tim or what's happening how are you feeling straight up relief I'm just so relieved it has been nine or ten months which is such a long time to be in this in purgatory like you said just to be in limbo not being able to publicly date and not being able to tell everyone in your life what's actually really going on you just feel like this sense of responsibility because you sign your life away. I'm just so relieved that I can get my life back on track. Tell me how long does the actual filming of Bachelor in Paradise go for? The filming from day dot to the end, the filming from the beginning to the end, literally the whole thing is just under a month. It is so short. Like

The Bachelor is three and a half months, Paradise one month max. And how many weeks were you in there? So I left about three and a half weeks. So only a few days, I guess, before the end. which in the grand scheme of things when you think about it like three and a half weeks is such a short period of time to be dating someone and to be getting to know someone and we opened up so like yesterday i put a thing up on our life uncut podcast instagram page and asked you guys what questions you have for brit and what you want to know about the mechanics of how the show works and also just like her experience on the show and one of the main questions that we got that kept on coming up time and time again was people asking like what was it that you saw in Tim when it's

so obvious to the viewer that he was behaving so badly and he was stirring the pot and kind of just being a little troublemaker like what like how did you overlook that and why didn't you see that at the time I totally get where that question comes from after watching after living it for three and a half weeks and then now watching the edit back I can I get that question 100% I would be asking the same question i think what's really hard to understand but really important to understand is that we film 24 hours a day all day and you guys have shown an hour max of 15 people so you're seeing that you're seeing like 15 minutes worth of days worth of filming of someone and tim definitely is a shit stirrer and he definitely um ruffled some feathers and he had some behavior

that was very questionable he had behavior i was really unimpressed with um but the things you didn't see were some really sweet moments with us on our own um him making a lot of people laugh and still feel good but you have to remember too that you guys have seen a lot of the conversations that the boys have together that are quite toxic and quite horrible and um you have to remember that I don't see those that's just the boys off talking together so I don't see most of what you see I didn't see the extent of what was going on I didn't see the conversations behind closed doors and the conversations between the boys I didn't see it I saw snippets you know in a group where you know he got angry in the fight where all the boys did but from what I know actually happened

that was equal between all the boys that was not one person that started anything it was just a big build-up and everybody imploded um so I guess that's how it happened a lot of people just think that he was like that 24 7 and how could I be with someone like that but there were definitely some nice moments but also I think what people don't realize is this idea like when when we watch the show back as a viewer you get this real 360 view of what's happening you see contestants when they're on their own with their with their friends when they're with their partner you see and you get to really get this insight into all aspects of them and 360 degree of their personality. But when you're in it, it's like you only still see what you're exposed to, what you

actually experience one-on-one with that person. But then in such a short timeframe, I think we've all been guilty of this. When you've dated someone for only three weeks, it takes that long to actually start to see the things that are the red flags. And sometimes red flags can be diluted by the fact that they're also doing really nice things throughout the day as well so you kind of forgive that first one and forgive that second one and then eventually you're like where the fuck am i why is there so many red flags here yeah and we're in paradise so we would spend hours on paddle boards and having fun and having really cute sweet little moments and all of us playing volleyball together and it's the honeymoon phase on steroids that's what paradise is it's the

honeymoon phase on steroids and it's also like obviously drama phase on steroids and then there's single beds as well which is everything and mosquito nets yeah makes sleeping hard but it's yeah it's a different world everything it's like the bachelor same thing you know how heated that gets and how driven and sped up everything is it's like three months on the bachelor it's like dating somebody for a year it's like it's very intense and emotions fly and being in that environment and I know obviously for Matt and I it's a complete pressure cooker like in our season like it's three and a half months of filming max so we'd been and know each other for three and a half months. And at the end of it, you're in love with someone like a genuinely

in love with someone like those feelings aren't manufactured. I think for, you know, for definitely for not for the couples who have ended up long-term together with being married and having kids and whatnot. But it, it just really like condenses those feelings down and reduces it down. And so you, you, you just end up having this really intense and euphoric relationship when you're in that environment. It's really sad. Like, oh, it's just really hard to explain this story because I feel like I'm going to be jumping forward and back all the time there's so much I want to say but it's really I find I found it really sad and I'm really disappointed with what was shown of Tim and I because we were the strongest couple on there for sure during the show

we were together from day one and they didn't show it they did not show any of their story didn't show all the really sweet moments they really just showed a lot of the drama which I found really disappointing because at the end of the day it's supposed to be a show about people finding love and being happy and and that just wasn't shown and um yeah I guess I'm a bit sad that finally on a show I did find some happiness and surely didn't get to see it so what happened when you left paradise there was a lot you did not see that was the strangest exit like why did anyone even ask where we went literally you guys walked out and nobody even was like hey where's Tim and Brittany which is what led me to think instantly and like I obviously we've spoken about

it now but which is what led me instantly to think that it was that's not the ending like there had to have been more to it that didn't make sense from like an edit and production perspective that they had to sniff it and reduce it down so I think anybody watching that felt it was bizarre and I know from our Facebook group chat that every single person who was commenting on last night's thread was like what the fuck was that oh yeah my whole inbox is I'm so perplexed like I don't get what just happened you just ghosted everybody yeah like literally every single person in paradise hi Josh just messaged and he's like I love how you just waltz out of paradise and you're never seen again no one asks where you are no one no one says anything no one says goodbye

and it's true it was the strangest ending that paradise has ever had talk me through what happened when you left paradise and you and Tim were like we love each other let's be together what happened yeah well firstly when we did leave the ending was very very different and um and obviously a lot more went on and channel 10 that's what they've decided they've just decided to show a snippet of us leaving happily which you know at the end of the day tim did ask me to leave he didn't want to be there anymore and at the end of the day they're making a tv show yeah and i did um i he said he wanted to leave and i never questioned that to be honest i could tell that this environment was not right for him anymore that environment was not right for me it was so

toxic and I think that's why you never really saw me on there because I would just like scurry away and put my head in the sand like an ostrich every time the drama came out which was every day so I just everyone every day was like hey where were you last night I was like who knows you're like I wasn't there um sipping a martini by the pool babe when we left Tim Tim was lovely and saying all the right things uh he was always very sweet to me in the show for the majority of the time anyway um he was like you're my ride or die I can't wait to have this relationship with you and like we're going to do so many amazing things together you're the best thing I've ever come across um you know he just thought I was the ant's pants and I I just thought he was great as

well because he just made me laugh so much and I really really from the bottom of my heart thought wow like this is it I found someone that makes me really happy and I found someone that really wants to be with me. And I believed everything he ever said to me. It turns out that I feel like everything he ever said to me was not true. I don't want to say a lie. Um, I don't think that's the right word, but I think it was exaggerated. I think he was exaggerating those feelings. Um, and I say that because it was pretty horrific time after the show. Um, to be completely honest, We only really saw each other one time for about five days. We visited.

He visited me straight after the show. We went and met his family and I stayed with his family. He met my family, like all my family. I'm talking like cousins and everything. This is Christmas time, right? It was a Christmas party. So like it was a baptism of fire, baby. It was a Brittany Hockley special.

Imagine me, but like 50 of me. Papa Tony was there and he was like, who's this scallywag you brought in? Exactly. everyone was a bit perplexed everyone was like who is this guy yeah it's really hard to say because I don't want to I'm not going to go into deep detail because there are some things that should stay between two people for sure but I think to put it lightly and to sum it up Tim was a very different person outside of paradise to who he was in paradise and everything he said to me the way he made me feel the way he was speaking the things he promised me

none of that translated to the outside world none and I was so gobsmacked at the person that he became the second we walked outside of those doors it was just like I was talking to a different person and then how did it end up resolving like how did you guys end up not being together like was that your call was that his call was it in this five days like how soon after paradise did you guys call it quits I guess no one actually really called it um so basically he just wanted to party he in no way wanted to be in a relationship with anyone he wanted to party hard um and he just didn't want anyone around so I was there with him and he basically just left me alone and went and partied hard again I'm not going to go into detail but um he just didn't come home one night and um

I was there with him and that's it so I didn't know where he was he didn't contact me nothing like nothing like that and then the next day we just had this really big argument and I said is this who you are I was he'd done that a few times that week like just had just gone out and gone hard and I just said is this who you are because this isn't the person that this just isn't the person that I signed up for and you're not the person that you were showing me and you're not doing the things you said you're going to do and you know yeah words and actions are kind of not really aligned here buddy yeah and we had this big fight um not a fight but I was just so because I don't fight but I was just really beside myself I was in tears and I just thought how could I have

waited eight years to find someone to finally open up to and and love and and be with and be vulnerable with and this is who it is and this is how you're treating me I was like I have not waited this long to be walked all over so I said I can't be with someone like this if you're if you want to be with me you need to step up and you can't do this and you've got to treat me with some respect and he basically just said no he said no I can't this is what I this is what I am and I'm not in a place to be with you and I'm like why did you ask me five days ago to leave paradise with you because all you want to do is be with me and you can't imagine life without me five days earlier none of I just felt like none of it was real I felt like it was just a big trick how do

you feel now especially like watching it all back like that's I don't know I mean I like I love you Brit and I know how hard this has been in the last couple of weeks and months and I know that like now there is this relief of being able to talk about it but there is also this like feeling of what like how the fuck did I put up with that like how did that even happen what am I doing um but how do you feel now that it's put to bed a little bit I remember leaving him I remember having this argument and getting in my car and being like I have to drive back to Sydney then right now I cried the whole way back and I'm everyone that knows me knows I'm not overly emotional the majority of the time but I really just thought that this was my happy ending

and I was just so hurt that I felt like I'd been lied to and I felt like the wool had been pulled over my eyes and I felt like I'd finally opened up to someone that just didn't have an ounce of respect for me um I cried all the way back to Sydney and then I'm not kidding I don't think I ever heard from him again that's it so I didn't I just came back and was really upset and I thought okay let's just have a few days to cool down you know because I'm big on not sending a message or anything when you're mad so I wrote to him and I just I basically you know when you go through like a breakup of sorts you still don't see what's actually in front of your eyes and you're still trying to make excuses and you still want a person in your life like I I really loved having Tim in

my life and I liked the way he made me feel on the show and I missed that feeling and I missed that and I thought okay maybe we'll stay friends and we'll see where it goes down the track so I messaged him and still just said like if you're going through a hard time know that I'm always here for you um and it'd be really great you know we've been through so much together and really great if we stay in contact and we're friends and see what happens and he just did him right back because I just never heard from him again until literally the day the show started nothing not a thing no zero Brittany got ghosted hard like hard and for no reason like I just I can't even you could give me a million dollars to to tell you a reason why he would have done that to me and

there's nothing so yeah I didn't hear from him until like recently when the show started and he explained some things to me and he just said he didn't know how to handle everything he didn't know how he'd just come off Angie's season of The Bachelor where he was dumped basically straight onto paradise thrown into this world he hadn't had been exposed to before so all of a sudden the limelight was on him he went straight from there to dating me and he said he just didn't know how to handle that and then when we got into the real world obviously it's a secret like you can't date in public you can't go out you can't go get a coffee you can't be seen together and Tim's very recognizable so it's not like you can just sneak down the road um and he just said he just didn't

handle it well he didn't know what to do with it it all got too much and he has since apologized now after all this time and said that he um never wanted to hurt me and everything like that so I do want to say we had some really really great times on the show and there Tim does have a soft side as well and unfortunately that side wasn't really shown um that's unfortunate for him because he does have some really good moments but he just has a lot of growing up to do and I think that's what we've seen obviously he came off the back of Angie's season and like Tim was the sweetheart of Angie's season like everybody was rooting for him and I think that then it must be now especially with like how this this season has panned out that there has been a real flip and there's definitely

been some backlash towards his behavior and also Kieran's behavior on the show and how they've done the whole bro code thing. In Kieran and Tim's defense, from what I've seen, they've never come out on their social media and been like, it's a bad edit and blame the edit. But there has been loads of people, not just from Paradise, but also from Batch Series in general, who have blamed the edit for how they've been portrayed. What is your opinion on this whole edit? And like, is it a little bit from column a a little bit from column b or is it producers making good people look bad yeah look it's a really hard one because obviously obviously people um production can edit people um they can take snippets of conversations and put them in construct sentences basically to make

you look like you've said something it's called frankenbiting people frankenbiting they do do that but you can't completely make someone's whole storyline like say the say the villain you can't make a whole storyline of someone being a villain if they don't have that in them or they don't haven't said some of these things because they've got to have said it and they've got to have done these things and it's like I wasn't ever shown to do anything say anything nasty because I just don't say anything nasty so they can't even construct a sentence so I think for this particular season I think a lot of people's edit has been pretty accurate to be honest a lot of it's exaggerated. It's these people, exaggerated for sure. I don't think any of them are as bad as

what they've been made out to be. What happens is, I think I just said this before, so you see these bits where people are being nasty or this toxic masculinity or bullying, you see that, right? If you just saw them do one thing, you'd be like, oh, that sucks. They shouldn't have said that. But then if the rest of the edit was showing them being funny and nice and sweet, you don't remember it. What's happened on this season is that these people are only being shown, so like Tim and Kieran, for example, don't get me wrong, what they've done and said has been pretty horrible, but they haven't shown any other part of them, which they do have some really great parts to them, both of them. It's just that you're getting a diluted version. You're getting really

watered down and you're getting the tiniest, tiniest little piece. It almost makes like a character one dimensional. It stops them from being a person and they're, you know, multifaceted who behave in all different ways and say all different things. It makes them a cast to a role. Like you're a villain you're the sweetheart you're this person I I've always said as well like from my experience that they don't create villains and they don't create bitchiness like the bitchiness is there the villains are there they just amplify a person's personality so I completely agree with what you've just said and obviously I wasn't in paradise so I can't speak for that experience but I can speak for my own experience on the show and I know like from my season all of the people who

were portrayed badly actually behaved badly on the show. And when people come out and totally blame the edit, I think that there is a level of responsibility to take on their own because it's so easy to come out and blame the edit. Anyone can do that. Anyone can act poorly and say really nasty things and behave really bitchy and then turn around and say, that's not me. That's the edit. But there is an element of like, you had to say those bitchy things thinking it was funny. And it's not funny. Yeah. I think people use it as an excuse a lot. there are a lot of people a lot of people I know and you know that I've said that I've used as an excuse I'm sick of getting a bad edit things like that exactly what you just said you can't edit a

whole show like of someone you know um the one person I do think oh okay let me touch on the bro code thing with Tim and Kieran I I just cannot get on board with that I think it was really really disrespectful I think it was really unfair um and also like crazy hypocritical so hypocritical um I I can't get on board with that at all a lot of people have written to me and commented on the Facebook page and stuff and said you know this is actually the thing that pissed me off the most a lot of people saying control your man Brittany why aren't you controlling your man you should be saying something about you and I just thought hang on a second I've got a lot of feels about this a i have known this guy for some of this period one week two weeks three weeks when

these things were happening one week i've known this guy two it is not my responsibility or any woman's responsibility to control and be in charge of her partner her boyfriend her husband her whatever it is especially someone that you've known for two weeks he's a grown adult he can to look after himself and he can make his own decisions but exactly in the same vein that like you wouldn't allow someone to say control your woman you know from a guy if a female is behaving badly or a female is doing something that somebody else doesn't like saying control your woman is like it's so objectifying so I mean it's not going to work on the flip side either no but also I definitely let it be known my thoughts on what was happening I let Tim know how disappointed I

was in his behavior that what he was saying wasn't okay that he had there were aspects of bullying I let him know all of that but I'm not the person that's going to bring him down and embarrass him and cause a scene in front of everyone else because I think it's something that should be shared between two people and I had those words to him in private and he knew exactly how I felt and he knew I was disappointed and I think he even made a comment like I can't even look at Brittany at the moment because I know how disappointed she is I'm sure there were times where you had those conversations or even if you had had those conversations there's no knowing for sure whether or not they would be shown on the show either like we get we get such a small glimpse

at what's happening on these shows and like the thing to remember as well guys is it's a tv show it's produced it's created to be entertaining so they're only going to take the most dramatic and like wild and insane bits because that's what makes the best tv like there's plenty of other ordinary boring but lovely conversations that go on back and forth and you just never see that stuff and I did have conversations in front of people to Tim saying that it wasn't on it and that he can't speak like that it's just that yeah you guys you just don't see it and I can't stress enough you you hardly saw anything of me unfortunately so you didn't get to see a lot of that sort of thing but you all if you're listening to this you know who I am and you

know what I'm about you know what I stand for so you know that a lot of that I wouldn't have let flown i wouldn't have let fly i wouldn't have let it flown and it wouldn't have flown it wouldn't have flew and it wouldn't have lied one question we did get a lot which i really want to ask you as well is in regards to the edit talk to me about jamie's edit because that's been like the most controversial i think like obviously kieran and tim and kira and other people who have had you know in quotation marks bad edits but jamie seemed to be the most unstable of edits and i kind of want to know what your feelings are towards that and whether he had drawn a bit of the short straw I do think that everyone on the show pretty much got an edit true to themselves a little bit

exaggerated like I said but you know pretty true Jamie is the only one that I feel like his edit was it was too much how can I explain that Jamie I really like Jamie I have a lot of time for Jamie Jamie has copped a lot of heat right for constantly wanting to give out roses for example he was ridiculed for that I even laughed him on the show I was like painting him out like he's Oprah but as a friend I was like you get a rose you get a rose um but if you actually look at what he's doing and you listen to what he's saying and you think about it he doesn't have a malicious bone in his body the reason he's offering everyone his roses because he talks to them and his heart breaks for them and he's he's very empathetic he feels for them he's like he takes it on so he's

like look don't worry i'll sort it out i'll give you a rose yeah but then he doesn't think how he's going to sort it out he just wants to in this moment make this person feel better and if you can you can go back and watch the whole thing again you don't see jamie say anything bad about anyone his edit is that he's too emotional and basically too caring too caring for tim too caring for britney too caring for everyone the hypocrisy of it because i think in like today's day and age we want a hero and we want to talk about how it's okay for men to have feelings and it's okay for men to be vulnerable and it's okay for men to be and show a side of themselves that's soft and potentially a bit more insecure you know like that that we're supposed to be creating an

environment where that's okay and so then to almost ridicule and make it a mockery and a joke and, like, really kind of dramatise and try and draw out the comedy element of somebody who's clearly a very sensitive person and a sensitive man, I think it's a bit of a dangerous – it's a dangerous day and age to do that stuff in. Yeah, I don't think it's cool. I don't think – I don't think the amount of attention Jamie got and the kind of attention he got was right and I don't think it was fair

and I think people got on this bandwagon. And it's like, like a little snowball, you know, like one or two people start laughing and to make jokes and then 10 people do it. And then all of a sudden Australia was just jumping on board and, and sort of like, they're all like sheep, but no one stopped to break it down and be like, hang on, this guy hasn't actually done anything bad. He's been, he's been thrown under the bus for what? Loving Tim too much.

Cause he's just like, they just adore each other. Jamie definitely endorsed him more. You're like, I just wish that I was a part of that. they're just like yeah I was like hey guys I'm also here I had a lot of dnms with Jamie and yeah and the man cries but there's nothing wrong with that and like you just said as a nation we're always encouraging men to be themselves and be open and vulnerable and emotional and then as soon as someone does it this is what we do to them we still make fun of them I know and that was my one thing that I don't think and I'm not putting this back on editing necessarily but it is it was

people's first reaction to it I think was to laugh at him being so vulnerable and like you know he's expresses himself in a unique way there's definitely no arguing that but is that wrong and is it something that we should make jokes about no I don't think so and when you said nobody had stood up for it there was like so punky you know punky does every week they do their recaps and punky recaps love punky we live for it guys but um people had asked you know why did they leave Jamie's meltdown out of the recap because that was such a pivotal part of one of the episodes and Punky came out and said well we don't think it's funny like we we make funny jokes because we love the show but we don't think it's funny to make jokes at someone's mental health or at

someone's expense in that way so no we left it out because it's it's irresponsible and I think that was such a strong and important stance that a media outlet took. Tim was Jamie's support in there he was his support network and Jamie came to me and he was in tears and he's like oh this is how I found out that Tim was going he came to me and he said Tim's going he was crying Tim's going Tim's going please I please stop him for your sake for my sake um I was never going to make someone stay if they don't want to and I said that to Tim and it wasn't shown I said look I want you to stay and I want to make this work but I'm never going to make someone do something I don't want to do and if you leave it's because you don't want to be with me and that's fine whilst I'd be okay

without Tim Jamie wouldn't be like he just Jamie has to come with us yeah their bromance was real um and I don't know I just feel like I feel like we need to cut Jamie a little bit of slack and Jamie and Brittany everyone's like Jamie's been asked to Brittany and they are really good friends they're really really close um they always were it's just that Brittany couldn't keep giving him a friendship rose and that's that she's like I love Jamie as a friend but I'm not here for a friend so she just made a decision based on herself and her happiness and I'm all for that I think she's a bloody legend and I'm so glad Australia's finally on board with Brittany to see who she is because we've always known who she is she was on my season obviously she's always

been a bit of the crazy larrikin and this year we got to see who she really is and that's just like a really caring emotional soft loving person that just wants to be loved like everyone so well I think that that comes back to this idea that like when people when you only see a certain side of someone they become two-dimensional and I think before we've only ever seen litany we've never seen Brittany and in this season we've obviously seen someone who has been more vulnerable and have has been more real and has been more them we were only ever exposed to that like woo girl before and now we're actually getting a real insight to her as a whole person well yeah so I roomed with so I roomed with Eleanor for the first half and then I roomed with Brittany

slash litany the second half and so when you when I say you roomed with them you're in a bungalow with them you get really close and Brittany and I would have these huge dnms and she would be so upset at the end of every night and I just remember saying to her this is who Australia needs to see don't go out and put your front on and don't be the crazy person all the time they want to see some vulnerability and they I like I said you're such an amazing human and what we're seeing what I'm seeing from you now is what people need to see and be softer and show your emotions and be vulnerable and tell these people how you feel and tell them what you're looking for and I was like that's so fine. And I'm so glad Australia's got to see that. She deserves it. She deserves to

not be Litany, but also be Brittany. She's not just Litany. She's a bloody legend. And I reckon people have watched this now and they're like, that girl needs to be Bachelorette. She is a joy to watch on TV. Oh my God. Could you imagine? Wild. I'm so ready. Strap me in Scotty. So before we get into like some of the other questions that people have written in, I just kind of want to go back to you now. And I mean, I don't know if you're going to like this question, but I'm going ask you anyway oh god I guess like one of the things that I know has upset you or like has been difficult for you over the last couple of weeks as well is like seeing this play out on tv and then obviously like we do this podcast and you talk a lot about your life and we give

relationship advice like how those two things haven't really matched up and how what you wanted and your expectations weren't met how do you feel about all that now this has been the hardest year I have ever had I reckon um especially emotionally like you know I'll be so honest with you guys Laura knows do you reckon I have a breakdown once a week how often do you reckon I cry there's been a good once a week cry like to be honest guys I've I've been able to guess that Britt and Tim weren't together she hasn't been the happiest this year but I mean it hasn't been like that that unhappiness hasn't like penetrated and perforated throughout her whole life but I mean there's definitely been days where you have sort of said to me like I just want my fucking life

back it's I've been sadder this year than I have ever been and I think it's because well it's a lot of things the year's shit 2020 shit anyway so like 2020 it's drunk it's drunk and it needs to go the fuck home 2020 can go to bed now oh like for any for this oh it's just like it's shit anyway but on top of all the other shitness okay I'm sorry to every single person who's in Melbourne right our thoughts our prayers our everything is with you stay inside go to bed early 8 p.m well they have to yeah I know it's horrible don't laugh no um yeah it's been it's been the saddest year in terms of emotionally for me because I did finally feel what it was like to be happy and you know the potential of being with someone in a relationship and just having the support I

don't think I realized how much I missed having someone in my life um because I always I always tell you guys how strong and fine I am and how being single is great and it is but when I did have this tiny tiny tiny tiny minuscule it was a few weeks but it was a great few weeks when I had this tiny like feeling of what it's like to have someone think of me and care about me and want to help me and want to love me I was like wow I just forgot what this feeling was like and then to have that taken away so quickly was really really tough and I have literally I have cried so many times but not just like necessarily over Tim but at the fact that first of all how hurt I was second of all how I got you know I got angry how could I have trusted someone and how could I have let my

walls down again and then it got to the point where it was like okay I want to tell people and I can't so that's really hard then you want to get on with your life but you can't you want to date but you can't and it's just like a tumultuous year and I would find myself just like Laura would call me and she'd be like what are you doing you all right and then I just start crying she's like whoa babe she's like what happened I was like having a good day I know and I was so it's been I've been yeah I've been I'm gonna be honest I've been really sad but I think it's really important to keep perspective on this as well and not just for you Brit but I think that there's power in saying that because as much as we can sit here and say, yeah, be single, you be a big boss lady

and fucking own your single life and love your single life. Just because you own your single life and you love your single life doesn't mean that there isn't times where you'll feel lonely. It doesn't mean that there isn't times where you're going to go, oh, I wish I had someone at the end of the day. And I think that we need to recognize that those feelings are very, very normal and that it's okay to feel that. And it doesn't take away from the fact that you still are a boss single lady and you are still living an awesome and happy life like you're entitled to fill the full spectrum of emotions and for every single person out there who's single and who sometimes they think they're killing it and then sometimes they're like no one fucking loves me

and I'm on my own like those feelings are all normal but you also have to be able to rationalize and know that you're not always going to be on your own and people do love you and you are worthy of being treated and being loved and being respected and being treated in the way that you deserve to be treated not just being with someone because it fills a loneliness hole yeah it's easy to forget that sometimes but it was really hard it has been really hard to watch it back I didn't think it would be I think I thought I got to a point where I was like oh it's so far done now like I couldn't care less I'm so over it Tim has moved on and he's very publicly moved on which was also like it's another story that is another question of mine

which was it was a kick in the guts but um we'll get there in a second but to watch it back when I thought I was fine the second I saw him like talking about me and and seeing it grow on tv it was really triggering I just took me back to this place where I was like oh I remember what that felt like and how nice it would be imagine if we were together now and it would be able to watch our story back and but knowing he's publicly with someone else he doesn't care about me I hadn't heard from him it was really really hard and just to see everyone saying you know I'm so here for this couple and like we love you together it was really hard and then you know to try and be happy on social media and and just like it's just like living a lie it's so hard one silver lining is

like the more that he stirred the pot the more that people were like I just hope you're happy Brittany whether it's with him or not well that's all when people were like I don't get it yeah like they're like, no way. I've just known for a while because people, yeah, I know you. And it's like, it's not possible for you to pretend like you're happy all the time or to like, try and keep this secret. You know, it's, it's actually too big and to try and keep a secret, whether you're happy in a relationship or not in a relationship from everyone, it's impossible. And the people closest to you are always going to be able to figure out what the hell's going on. But I think one of the questions I did have for you was that a couple of weeks ago, there was a Daily Mail

article that came out with loads of paparazzi photos very prematurely ousting the fact that Tim is back with his ex-girlfriend how did you feel about that knowing that you had worked so hard to kind of keep the secret and to try and maintain appearances almost for them that to just be all that to be undone it was a kick in the guts like it was a major kick in the guts because it's been nine months that we've put our life on hold and done the right I had done the right thing and tried to pretend that you know I guess not that we're not together not that we are together but just nothing just to be like this happy medium and then to have gotten so close to the show like we've waited nine months and then Tim can't even be bothered and doesn't even have the respect to

wait what two more weeks 14 more days I just feel like there's a bit of a slap in the face I feel like it was like I I don't care like this is what I'm doing I don't care about you I don't think about you I'm happy that's what I was like you were so close to the finish line it's like fucking hell boy what are you doing I guess the upsetting part of that for you and maybe I'm putting words in your mouth but it kind of takes away the opportunity for you to to be able to say how you're feeling or for like the storyline to play out it's kind of like without any explanation without any information it's like oh well there's Tim and Tim's happy now with someone else and there's so many stories that have been accompanying that that have been really hard like

a lot of articles have said that he never really wasn't with her like he's been on and off with her all through Angie's season through Paradise like not that he was I don't I absolutely don't think that he was with her on the show but it just seems like this is his ex he's with it's not a new girlfriend so I just feel like this story has been very ongoing and it was never over why did I just go through that like like why did I just put myself through that for someone that was never going to be available it's like literally honey badger 2.0 the one thing you said to me was like it's just like it can't end as badly as it did last time i did go in thinking that like okay the say my saving grace is it can't be as bad as my ending with nick honey badger i

just thought it can't be like what else it just physically can't like i've got nothing to lose um I guess coming out now I just feel like I can't win feel like to be honest like I'm unlovable I don't know where I go wrong and I don't know I don't know I just feel like I've tried so many avenues like maybe it's not meant to be for me it kills me when you say that because the rejection of being on a reality tv show is not indicative of the real world it's really not and like you've got to remember like yeah but the reality is is like hardly anyone from paradise is together and i know but you can't help it be deflated and that's the feeling that i felt when i left i kicked myself out of that now but um yeah you can't help but feel like super rejected like

something's wrong with you when i know it's not but like if i'm going to be honest of course they're the feelings you go through the motions and when something like this happens and happens twice, you, that's going to cross your mind for sure. That's going to cross anyone's mind who goes through a bad breakup. Do you know what I mean? Like the fact that your breakups are on a public scale adds a whole other element to it, I think as well, you know, but I, I think the most people who go through a breakup that's beyond their control feels like, well, what's wrong with me? I think that's a very normal feeling. And I think that's a very relatable feeling that anybody else who's been through a breakup and feels unlovable as a result of it or feels like

there's something wrong with them but i know that there's going to be like thousands of chicks listening to this who go fuck if britney feels like that what good is there for me you know and that's why i want to that's why i just want to be really honest i felt that for sure but i kicked myself out of that and i want people to know that those feelings are going to be normal and you almost are not going to be able to stop them from coming because you're human you have feelings you're vulnerable you're feeling hurt and it's okay to feel that as long as you can tell yourself okay I'm gonna pick myself up now because I know what I deserve and I know who I am and it's important to jump back on the bandwagon and know yourself what your self-worth and also

knowing that like your self-worth and this goes for everyone but your self-worth is not determined by what somebody else wants and a relationship that somebody else isn't ready for like that's that's not like you're so much more than that being where your self-worth lies second to that as well surely there is something therapeutic in watching the show back though and seeing behavior and seeing things that you couldn't see at the time and then being able to realize okay this was never going to be the relationship for me anyway surely there's something about that that in retrospect you go ah it makes sense now ab so fucking lowly you know I definitely watched it back and I saw some things and I was like this this is comforting

in a way because if that's really who he was or what he was about or his thoughts then like we wouldn't have worked we were too different um I only know that now nine months later so I did I haven't seen any of this play out I didn't know these sort of things so I've just had to think that I just wasn't good enough the whole time and I just think like I wish I wish that like major breakups in your life could come with a bachelor in paradise like viewing schedule afterwards so that every time you try and romanticize behavior every time you try and like make excuses for things that happened and then you look back on your relationship you're like oh actually it was so great and then you watch it on screen you're like oh that's why

we're not together I get it I get it I get it everything makes sense now and this is what I'm hoping for so good 2021 2021 when you're allowed out of your house again but I I do want to reiterate like I wish nothing but the best for Tim I would never have any wishes for anyone and I he's happy now I believe and I think that's great it's not with me that's fine we our paths this wasn't supposed to be our journey and this wasn't supposed to be the way we ended and I know something will come from it because I do believe that everything happens for a reason and I'm on my path it's a bloody long path my one fucking hell you know that all made all made bloody shining armor got fucking lost up a path you know that Robert Frost like the path less

travel my path my path is the most traveled path in the universe but um look my path leading me somewhere and I'm excited to see okay I have some other questions that have been written in so like now i feel like i feel like we've gotten like the heavy lifting out of the way but i have some like more light-hearted questions that i want to know so many people asked how you guys get food in paradise like is it all catered or do you have to cook i'm gonna guess you ain't cooking in that tiny little one-bedroom studio with a single bed no so on day one you get like um a little basket and a spear and then you have to fend for yourself and the show is actually called survivor it's Hunger Games um no you I mean it's a it's a resort so there's just like a restaurant there

it's like a normal cafe you go and you can order any time of the day you just go up and there's a normal menu like it would with literally burgers chips salads um a steak paradise it's just like what you would think you would get at a Fijian resort but like wound back we're not getting oysters we're not getting rock oysters we're getting cassava chips we ate so many cassava chips it's like this root vegetable um so yeah you can you order any time of the day and then as soon as you finish filming at night this is probably my favorite part of paradise they bring out trays probably a hundred like toasted cheese and tomato sandwiches and they're so good because you've been filming all day you're hungry you've had drinks and there's

nothing better it's like a kebab when you're drunk you know you know when you've been out all night you're like come home 3am kebab but it's a toasty and it's lit my other question which you kind of just touched on then so many people also asked about the drinking let's let's talk about your drinking britney no but like do you guys just start in the morning and power on through the day is there like rsa are they like counting it's like so for example in bachelor when we'd have cocktail parties they didn't really do it at the start but like as it kind of progressed they would start keeping count of how many drinks we'd had and they were very like as much as you might think people a lit city by the end of a cocktail party majority of the time they're usually just tired

because exhausted emotionally physically yeah because they really do control and they tally up your drinks yeah so you have to go out of your way to get drunk like really drunk like you've got to kind of try and trick producers because they're not producers are not wanting you to be obliterated that doesn't make for good tv that actually makes for terrible tv and would get them into a lot of trouble so they need to be socially responsible that you're not wasted drunk yeah look after having done both i only got drunk once ever on the bachelor because like you just said it's not it's not easy to do like you have to go you have to try and steal people's drinks if you want to get drunk i got drunk at the end when i knew there could be no damage done because there's

nothing left to film so just sophie cass and i got drunk this one's different you can't start drinking until midday the bar opens at 12 and then you get two drinks an hour and you can basically drink until midnight but two drinks an hour but that's a lot of drinks still over in the sun they do they have a duty of care right so you can you're allowed whilst you're allowed that many the second they think you've had too much or you're intoxicated they will cut you off um jamie got cut off a few times i think little litany got cut off once bless her soul love you um so they do they still still do that because it's different there are more on the bachelor you don't get a second alone with the bachelor like there's nothing that could possibly happen

paradise is people everywhere guys and girls anything could happen and they have to keep their eyes on you so but also I think the thing to keep in mind is like you're all adults like as much as like you know we say that there's a responsibility and a duty of care and everything of the producers which of course there is there also has to be some personal responsibility that comes into play in these situations like you're an adult you're a consenting adult you know how much you should and shouldn't drink and I think that there is a level of responsibility that falls on the people who are in the show oh absolutely but ultimately if something goes wrong the show's not going to say you're an adult the show will get in trouble totally but they do so

okay i think that's important because um i do think that sometimes watching paradise it just looks like you guys lay around and get boozed all day but it's like not necessarily the case oh people the worst thing is like at least you got a holiday it is i cannot stress this enough this is not a holiday this is not a drill it is not it is constant it's a show you're making finish you're like i don't want to say i mean you're working yes you are working and i know it's not like we're not laboring all day love is hard work baby but you don't like love is bloody hard mate love's the hardest job i've had and i haven't even had it but i imagine it would be hard um no it is a job and to be honest there are moments that you'll be like laying around

and they'll come out and they'll be like up you get you're all boring and you're like oh I'm going to go do something. You have to go do something fun. Okay, so doing something fun leads me into my next question, which is in regards to your bathtub date with Tim. Oh, cringe. Okay, so the tiny little dates like that, like the dates that are obviously on site where you haven't been given a date card,

are they your idea? Are they the producer's idea? Were you like, hey, Tim, come with me into this beautiful bath that I've poured for you just like the one that you had with Angie a few weeks back? Again, in my defense, I didn't know Tim had a bath with Angie. I was in Mexico when his season was airing. I never saw, I didn't know he, his finale aired whilst we were filming. So I didn't even know what position he came.

I didn't watch his show. I didn't know he'd had the exact date three weeks earlier with Angie. But dates like that, essentially they came to me and they were like, do you want to do something nice for someone? We ran you a bath. Yeah, like I don't want to like spoil everything, but they were like, Brittany, there's a bath over there. Take someone.

and i was like i don't wanna i was like it's only two days in i don't want to take anyone apart but i do it um so i was like well i mean i've just been on a date with tim the night before i liked him i was like i'm not gonna take anyone else i'll take tim and um so i went and said asked him to have a bath i didn't know he wasn't gonna fit in there and i didn't know he had it before he was like a baby giraffe he had limbs everywhere and how how far away was the bath from the rest of the of the people in paradise like was the bath secluded and private or were you like just like having a bath off camera so there's like really really beautiful baths on this little platform um overlooking the ocean the sunny setting this champagne there's grapes think of

like this music in the background it's absolutely beautiful and it's about 30 meters away from everyone else it's exactly like dating on the bachelor it's it was it was insane it was like tim and i as the couple that were together from day one until the end the whole time we were never with anyone else they didn't ever give us a date we never had a date on our own not once fucking gypped it's i fucking got jib man didn't get a date they didn't show our love story we didn't do we just i just feel like i haven't even been on a love show i feel like went on days of our lives home and away days of our away home of our lives do with it what you will who am I what am I doing I don't know anything were there people do you think this is a controversial question but

I want your honest opinion you know I'll give it to you do you think that there are people on there or have left or they're still on there who are faking it just to stay on the show like faking a relationship or faking who they are faking their feelings and faking their relationship just to stay on the show yes oh i want the tea can you say who or you're not gonna do that no i'm not gonna do that i don't think um what i'll say is i think all the couples that are on there are couples for sure i think that's real i'm not gonna say that the couples are faking it because i don't think that they are i think there are people in there and i mean australia and you guys if you've been watching it you can you're smart people there are some people on there that seem to have gravitated to

a lot of people seem to have manipulated people's feelings to stay in and there's things like that and that was all I think that that was all I mean they were just trying to stay on the show yeah gameplay people are going to try it on friendship rose whatever yeah so that definitely happens um I was never gonna if I didn't hit it off with Tim I would have just left like I was never gonna be that person that wanted to go and like why would I I don't understand why you would want to try and stay on this show to the point like to the end if you've gotten three or four weeks in and you still haven't made a connection with anyone you're not going to if you are that deep into the show you're not going to make the connection no but let's be honest like people

aren't necessarily I mean there's definitely two sets of people that go on for people who wouldn't want to find a relationship and like are open to the even if it's not necessarily find a relationship they're like positive about the experience they're like open to new experiences and they're hopeful that they'll find someone then there's also people who just want to amplify their profile like there are definitely people who are motivated by different things on the show and i think that if you're still there by the at the end without being in a relationship or even like remotely liking anyone but still wanting to stay it's probably a reflection that you're there to amplify your profile well yeah i guess it just i guess it just doesn't make sense okay so from all

the drama and stuff aside who is the person that you were closest to all the people that you were closest to and not just in proximity since you guys were sleeping in single beds on top yeah on top of each other um so uh paradise from day one I roomed with Eleanor we literally walked in and gravitated towards each other um I think we're very very very similar we have the same sense of humor we got along really well we could we had a lot in common um I don't think her personality was shown a lot either I don't think either of our personalities which who we are I'm lucky that I have this platform to show you guys who I am but um Eleanor's so bloody funny man and she's so smart and I don't know I just love her so we were really close uh when she left I roomed with

Litany um also adore her she's brilliant she is a smart girl and I and people don't get to see that in terms of the boys Alex and Jackson I adore I I um got along with them really well I've always gotten along with guys really well maybe because I was such a tomboy growing up they're both really really genuinely good people. Okay. So there's been a few people on our Facebook group, our Life Uncut Facebook group who have been speculating that maybe there's something going on with you and Jackson. I know because Jackson and I do spend a lot of time together. I can confirm that I have no romantic relationship with Jackson. I have never had a romantic relationship with Jackson. Will never. We got along really well as friends. We lived down the

from each other he owns a pie company i love pies i'm here for it actually we should get some he's too young no more 27 year olds for you britney i'm putting a fucking ban on it it's not even that it is that it's fucking that that's exactly younger people you know that and none of them have worked out yet so um nah he's really great and alex is i think alex was so hot like he walked in and i was like you were adorable um his personality is really really sweet and someone i don't know who if he ends up with anyone from the show i don't know if he's with someone in the real world but whoever he does end up with is um gonna be lucky alex if you're listening britney that was a very not so subtle oh no not for me oh i'm just shooting some people's horns

like i just like these people they're my friends yeah it definitely sounded like you were like and only what could have been you know what when you spend um 24 hours a day with people and I'm talking all day and all night drinking not drinking seeing them in love having deep and meaningfuls I was training every morning like exercising with Jackson and Alex uh you get to know them on a different level and you get to know them really quickly and I just think they're both really good humans that's all do you feel like paradise as well it's like do you feel like it's a bit like a summer romance you know you go away on holidays you meet someone because you're in this like suspended animation almost it's just like you're in Ibiza partying like in the summer

and it's a party with your friends and then you kind of come out of it and you're like oh that's why that that's why that holiday romance didn't work out because it's not real life yeah exactly it's not at all like I can totally understand why in the past no relationship has worked so how do you feel about it now in retrospect do you wish you had not done it are you glad you did it like do you live with no regrets Brittany I don't like to regret anything it didn't work out for me unfortunately but I had a really great time doing it I learned a lot about myself I learned a lot about other people I think it's opened up a lot of conversations about a lot of different things to the Australian public um a lot of sort of deeper topics like toxic masculinity um a lot

of the things the boys were doing there's been a lot of open conversations about bullying um and there are some love stories that come out of this too so that's super exciting I don't regret anything going on there. It's been a really, really tough year, but I know, and I'm trusting the process and I'm trusting the universe that it's leading me to where I need to be. So like hashtag no regrets. And we always say that like from some of your shittiest times and some of the hardest things that you go through, like that's where you do your best growth. That's where some of the most amazing things can come out of. And like, then, you know, there's always the saying, which is everything will be okay in the end. And if it's not okay, then it's not the

end oh so it's not my end yet so deep deep like a puddle come here for all of the wise wise advice I guess this was a different episode guys but it was one that we had to tackle I think um it's been a long time coming we've had so many questions and I think it was important to just like wrap it all up in one big salad wrap and get it out there and we've been wanting to be able to talk about all things paradise and I guess because of like Brittany's contract the fact that the show was on you know we didn't or weren't able to talk about what the ending is and all the restrictions around that I think we actually I don't know if I ever mentioned this or if you guys know this but I was a hard no for paradise until Laura was like babe you're getting on that show my bad

no but Laura was like my fucking bad I was no until I remember I signed on officially probably like 8 p.m on Sunday night and I flew out Monday morning I was no until the last minute and Laura was like, look what happened to me. I'm engaged to the love of my life. I have a baby. These things can happen. Like good things can happen from saying yes. I would have been a hypocrite because I always say things come from saying yes, say yes to opportunities. And between my sister Sherry and Laura who convinced me, I was like, you know what? It's once in a lifetime. And we did say like, how could it possibly be worse than last time? It's got to be better than that. It's going to be fine. No, but I mean, you were swaying. I think like, let's be fair. You were swaying between yes

and no yes and no you were never you were never no and maybe you were never in the no camp you were like yes i was bullshit britney if you knew the combos i'd had with those producers mate what about the combos you had with me yes the no then yes the no and you were like do i don't know and i was like just fucking do it yolo your life away because i was at a wedding i was at a wedding i wasn't even i like that we just had a fight then i was i don't i love how you know what my brain was I was like I'm not going to take full responsibility for making you go on the show of course you didn't make you had many many you had very much an input in that as well I was swaying between maybe and no but I had never once said yes to them until the night before that was

exactly how my bachelor journey started I had said no no no no no up until the day and then I was like oh fuck it let's see what happens here I love Sherry set my life on fire Sherry was like you didn't really get your personality was so subdued on the bachelor like you didn't no one saw how funny you were no one saw your energy no one saw how nice you were like go and be you and show australia so i was like yeah i'm gonna show australia then they cut me the whole season i was like i'm so perplexed like i love that i went on to show who i was and you don't even say who i was all right guys well i think that we've covered unless there's anything else that you want to throw out there i think that's i think that's fine guys we can always just pop in some answers

to questions over the coming weeks too if there's anything you really drastically want to know that I can answer just put in our inbox and if we get to it we'll throw one in here and there well we can chuck it into an ask uncut special if you like but like we said this is a bit of a different episode but we thought it was very much needed so we will have our ask uncut on Thursday so send us through your questions so that we can start putting them together for that episode yeah look I am gonna activate my hinge right now there you go I'm live so if you're out there and you're a single man over 30 we're cutting out the 20 year olds now I'm still going under 30 with it no I'm only 32 come on stick to 30 dude we need to broaden that age range I need

to broaden my pool broaden it up or just expand your kilometer radius just leave your age bracket alone no but of course I'm gonna veto like you need to like bring them to me now I'm gonna like ah show me your resume kind sir no you're not good enough next you literally veto everyone good no one is good enough for you Brittany stay single until the day you die guys that's it thanks for tuning in we just want to say big shout out to everyone on the Facebook group you guys have all been amazing your support means the world the last few weeks and I love how engaged you guys are getting laura and i read everything we see everything and we really appreciate it if you haven't jumped on the facebook group yet guys where you at also what do you mean we read

everything i literally sit there in the batch in paradise thread writing back to people being like the fucking two i am so sick for it guys so yes if you haven't joined the facebook group it's life uncut podcast the same handle if you want to find us on instagram but like we said this episode was a little bit different to how we normally do these episodes and that is because brit's time on paradise deserved a whole episode unto itself so that she could tell her story and finally fucking be a free woman again god get this weight off my shoulders that's you ascending from purgatory anyway guys if you have loved this episode or you've loved the rest of the episodes as well then you know the drill tell your mom tell your dad tell your friends know your dog

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