Life Wisdom - By Words of Taoism - Why Good Changes Can Still Hurt - Taoism

Episode Date: June 20, 2026

You finally arrive at something new, something hoped for, something chosen. And yet, just as one door opens in front of you, another door closes behind you. For a moment, the heart cannot tell whether it is happy or sad, because both things are true.More resources:Free resources, books and more on ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://wordsoftaoism.com/⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠My blog⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://taoismteachings.substack.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Music I use, as a playlist:⁠⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://tinyurl.com/spotifyzenplaylist⁠⁠⁠⁠

Welcome to Life Wisdom. Imagine a woman standing in her empty apartment. For years, she had lived in this place. She remembered the first evening she arrived, when the rooms were still unfamiliar and everything smelled faintly of paint, cardboard, and beginning. She remembered placing the first cup in the kitchen cabinet,

choosing where the small table would stand, opening the window for the first time, and hearing the life of the street below. Back then, the apartment had felt like a promise, a place where something could begin. There had been hurried mornings, there had been slow Sundays, some days had been beautiful,

some had been heavy, most had been ordinary, so ordinary that she had not thought to remember them. And yet now standing in the emptiness, it was the ordinary things that returned most vividly. The furniture was gone now. The rooms looked larger and smaller at the same time, as if the apartment had become both more spacious and less alive.

Her voice echoed differently. Without the objects, without the curtains, without the quiet disorder of daily life, the place seemed almost unreal. Everything was still there, and yet the life that had made it hers had already begun to leave. She was not being forced to go. She had chosen this change. She was going somewhere she had wanted to go, toward a new home, a new beginning, a life that made sense. There was gratitude in her.

There was even excitement. She knew in a deep and reasonable way that it was time. And still, when she turned the key in the lock for the last time, something in her chest tightened. She had expected to feel relief. She had not expected grief.

Maybe you know this feeling. The strange sadness that can appear inside a change you wanted. You finally arrive at something new, something hoped for, something chosen, and yet just as one door opens in front of you, another door closes behind you. For a moment the heart cannot tell whether it is happy or sad, because both things are true. We often think sadness belongs only to what we did not choose. to the losses we could not prevent. And of course, those losses have their own weight.

There are endings that tear through us with a violence no words can soften. But there is another kind of sadness. The sadness of the life we leave behind when we step into the life we have chosen. A child grows and we rejoice. We watch them become stronger, more independent, more awake to the life.

world, but something of their childhood leaves the room forever. We choose a path, and even if it is the right path, we leave behind all the paths we will not take. We move into a better home, and still we grieve the rooms that held us before. We become someone new, and quietly, without ceremony, an older version of us steps back. because every beginning contains an ending. This is why joy sometimes arrives with a shadow. Not because the joy is false, not because we are ungrateful,

not because we secretly made the wrong choice, but because every real change asks something of us. It gives and it takes. It opens a door and it closes another. It brings a future and it asks us to release a form of the past. A new life does not arrive without asking an old one to loosen its hold. And perhaps this is why change is so difficult, even when we desire it.

We say we are afraid of the unknown and sometimes we are. We fear the uncertainty, the risk, the future we can't yet see. But often beneath that fear, there is something more tender. We are not only afraid of what is coming. We are grieving what the future asks us to leave. This grief deserves respect. It is easy to rush past it. We tell ourselves that if the change is good,

we should only feel happy. We think gratitude should leave no room for sadness. We feel almost ashamed of the melancholy that appears at the edge of a new beginning. How can I be sad, we ask, when this is what I wanted? But the heart does not work in such clean divisions. It can love what is coming and still ache for what is ending. It can walk toward the future and turn back for one last look.

It can be grateful and grieving at the same time. There is wisdom in allowing this, because what we do not allow ourselves to feel does not disappear. It hides, it follows us quietly. It becomes the unfinished sentence inside the new chapter. We live much of our life trying to keep what is already leaving. Not always dramatically, sometimes through small attachments. We keep objects that no longer belong to who we are

because they contain a version of life we are not ready to release. We repeat habits that no longer nourish us. because they once made us feel safe. We hold on to roles, places, identities, and expectations because letting them go would mean admitting that time is moved. And this holding on is human. It comes from love. It comes from the fact that something mattered.

We do not cling to what was meaningless. We cling because a place held us. A season shaped us. A person touched us. A version of ourselves carried us as far as it could. So the first movement is not to judge the clinging. It is to understand it. But we also have to see what happens

when we close our fist around what is meant to flow. To hold on to what is leaving is like trying to keep water in a closed hand. The harder we squeeze, the more it escapes between the fingers. And all we are left with is a cramped hand, tired from trying to preserve what could never be possessed in that way. An open hand does not keep the water either.

But it can feel its freshness. It can receive what comes next. It can let water pass through without turning the whole body into resistance. A closed fist keeps nothing and receives nothing. So much of our fatigue comes from living with the fist closed. Closed around a past season. Closed around an old self. Closed around a person as they used to be.

Closed around an image of life that time has already carried forward. and then we wonder why we feel empty when the hand that longs to receive is still clenched around what cannot return. Ancient wisdom invites us to look at the world more honestly. Not as a collection of fixed things that should remain forever as they are, but as a movement. A river, a turning of seasons, a breathing of forms.

Everything appears, changes, ripens, loosens and returns. Nothing living stays the same by refusing change. Life does not stay alive by staying the same. Water that no longer moves becomes stagnant. A tree that never releases its leaves has stopped obeying the rhythm that keeps it alive. A face that never changes is no longer a living face, but a never changes. But a never changes, image. What changes is not betraying life. It is life continuing. This does not remove the pain of letting go. It does not ask us to become indifferent. Taoist wisdom is not a cold wisdom. It does not say nothing matters, so do not grieve. It says something more subtle. It says that the

pain we feel when things pass is not proof that life has gone wrong. It is part of belonging to a living world. To live is to be touched and to be touched is to be changed. We suffer more deeply when we believe that change is an interruption of life, a failure of life, a cruelty that has entered from outside. But change is not outside life. It is the way. life moves. The flower opens and fades. The child grows, the body ages. The house empties, the season turns. The person we were yesterday is already being carried into someone else. There is sorrow in this, but there is also a kind of peace if we can see it clearly. We are not being singled out by impermanence. We are sharing the condition of all living things. The least

The leaf falls, the river flows, the day ends, the body changes, the heart learns, loses, opens, breaks and opens again. This is the world we belong to. And yet loss does not only take something away, it also leaves a space. At first this space feels only empty. Where there was a presence, there is absence. where there was sound there is silence, where there was a familiar shape, there is a hollow that keeps reminding us

of what is no longer there. We should never romanticize loss. Some losses are simply painful. Some absences do not become easy. Some endings wound us in ways that take years to understand. To say that loss can deepen us does not mean that loss is good in itself.

or that we should pretend to be grateful for every wound. That would be dishonest. It would also be unkind. Loss is first a loss, and it is allowed to hurt. But if we do not rush to close the hollow too quickly, something may begin to change around it. The empty place may slowly become a deeper place. The absence may teach us how much we loved.

The silence may make us more attentive to what remains. The wound may give us a tenderness toward the wounds of others that we did not have before. Loss leaves a hollow. At first it only feels empty, but over time a hollow can become a place where depth gathers. The people who have left us continue to shape us through the love they awakened. the absence they left, the way we carry their voice, their gestures, their influence, their unfinished presence in us. The homes we have left continue to live in the way we understand shelter.

The seasons that ended continued to nourish the one we are living now. Even the lives we did not choose become part of us, if only as a quiet knowledge of what it means to choose. nothing that truly touched us disappears entirely. This is why healing does not mean returning to who we were before. We often imagine that after a loss, after a transition, after a great change, we should somehow go back to normal, back to the person we were before the door closed,

before the leaves fell, before the house emptied. But we do not go back. we become someone who has made room for what happened. There is a difference in this. A seed cannot become a plant while remaining only a seed. If it could speak, perhaps it would fear the soil. It would fear the dark, the breaking, the disappearance of the hard little form by which it knew itself.

And yet, if it preserved itself personally, it would remain a seed, safe, intact, and fruitless. To grow, it must lose the form by which it once recognized itself. This is true of us too. We do not become deeper by preserving every form we have ever had. Some versions of ourselves must fall away, some identities must soften, some seasons must end, Some rooms must be left. Some leaves must return to the ground.

And through this, something in us is not destroyed, but transformed. The child we were is gone, but not gone entirely. The old home is left behind but not erased. The people we love may no longer be with us in the same way, but what they awakened in us continues to live. The past does not remain by staying physically present. It remains by becoming part of our depth. To accept this is not to forget.

It is not to turn the page quickly, as if what came before no longer mattered. It is to let what has gone become a living root inside us, not a chain pulling us backward, but a root giving depth to what grows now. Still, this transformation asks something of us. It asks us to honor what is leaving. There are two ways we often avoid doing this.

Sometimes we move too quickly. We pretend nothing has been lost. We fill the space immediately. We rush into the new life, the new work, the new place, the new season. Because we are afraid that if we stop for even a moment, the sadness will catch up with us. Other times we do the opposite. We build a shrine to what has ended.

We make the wound into a home. We refuse every future because accepting a future feels like betraying the past. Both movements are understandable. One tries to escape the pain. The other tries to protect love. but between them there is a quieter path. We can honour what is leaving.

To honour is to pause before the door closes, to look once more, to say this mattered, to thank what shaped us, even if it was imperfect, to recognise what a season gave before we let it become past. This may sound simple, but many transitions become painful because they are never witnessed. We pass from one period to another in haste. We change homes, jobs, relationships, identities, rhythms,

and we rarely stop long enough to acknowledge the life that is ending. We move on outwardly, but inwardly something remains unfinished. What is not honored does not fully become past. It lingers. It pulls from behind. It appears in strange sadness, in resistance, in nostalgia, that is not really asking us to go back, but asking us to recognize what we left too quickly. A life transition needs to be witnessed, otherwise something in us remains unfinished.

This is why small rituals matter. Sometimes it is enough to stand in the empty room for a moment. moment longer. To walk once more through a neighborhood that held a part of your life, to write a few lines to the person you used to be, to thank a season before stepping into another, to let yourself feel both gratitude and grief without trying to make them cancel each other out. Before leaving, look once more. Thank the room, thank the season. Thank the version of yourself that lived there. This is not sentimentality.

It is a way of allowing the heart to complete a movement. It is a way of saying to the past, you do not need to haunt me, because I have seen you. I have not denied you. I will carry you differently now. Only what has been honored can truly become part of us without keeping us trapped.

And perhaps this is why autumn touches us so deeply. Autumn does not hide the sadness of change. It lets us see it. The trees do not lose their leaves in secret. The whole world becomes a ceremony of release. Gold, red, brown, light falling at an angle, branches slowly becoming bare. And yet autumn is not only a long,

season of loss. Autumn is not the failure of spring. It is the season in which the tree releases what it can no longer carry. The leaves have served their time. They have gathered light. They have nourished the tree. They have belonged to a season of fullness. But now, to keep them would not be life. It would be resistance to life. So the tree lets them fall. and the leaves do not vanish into nothing. They return to the earth. They become part of the soil. They nourish what will come later

in a form they themselves will not see. This is one of the gentlest teachings of the natural world. What falls is not always wasted. What ends is not always erased. What leaves us may return as depth, nourishment, patience, compassion, wisdom, or the quiet readiness for a new season. The tree does not cling to its leaves in order to prove that summer mattered.

It lets them fall, and because it lets them fall, it remains alive enough to bloom again. Maybe this is what we are slowly learning. To let a season end without believing that it was meaningless. To release a form without denying the love we had for it. To move forward without despising what came before, to accept that becoming always asks some version of us to step aside. We are made not only of what we have kept, but also of what we have lost. The people who left, the homes we closed, the versions of ourselves we outgrew,

the paths we did not take, the years that will never return in the same form. of this lives in us. Not as dead weight if we allow it to transform, but as depth. To consent to this transformation is not resignation. It is not saying that loss does not matter. It is saying that life is still moving, and we are willing to be shaped by its movement rather than frozen against it. The living do not remain, the living become. And there is a peace waiting in this. It is the piece of the open hand, the piece of the autumn tree, the piece of the seed that does not preserve itself by refusing the soil. The piece of someone who can look at what is leaving and say with a trembling heart,

you mattered, and now I will carry you differently. I think finally of the autumn tree. It does not hold its leaves in panic. It does not argue with the wind. It lets them fall one by one, not because summer meant nothing, but because summer has completed its work. In its bareness, the tree is not defeated. It is preparing.

The visible loss is real, but the life of the tree has not ended. It has turned inward. It has returned to the roots. Something unseen is already being kept for spring. Maybe we leave things behind in the same way. Not because they did not matter, but because they mattered enough to become part of us. If we can honor what is leaving, if we can open the hand, if we can allow a season to complete itself, then loss does not only take from us, it transforms us.

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