Lighthouse Horror Podcast - I Lost My Dad 2 Years Ago. I Think His 'Suicide' Was STAGED | Scary Stories

Episode Date: May 1, 2024

I think he was trying to tell me something... Story from R. M. Staniforth Make sure to check out more of their work at u/R-M-Staniforth  Cover Art from Rudy Faber               Original Post: After 2 years, I Finally read my dad’s suicide note. I really should have read it sooner. : r/nosleep  Original YouTube link: I Lost My Dad 2 Years Ago. I Think His 'Suicide' Was STAGED          For more stories like this one, check out my YouTube channel: Lighthouse Horror | YouTube  Patreon: Lighthouse Horror | Patreon Merch: lighthousehorror.com  Sound Effects: Freesound Zapsplat Music: Lucas King - YouTube Myuu - YouTube  Incompetech  Thank you for listening to this scary story! If you enjoyed this new creepypasta story, please check out some of my other horror stories. We'll be uploading new episodes every week, featuring ghost stories, haunted encounters, mysteries, true stories, creepypasta, and anything supernatural and paranormal. Don't miss out on the thrill and suspense that await you in each episode!

I took a deep breath to stop the slight shaking in my hand, whispering my affirmation on the exhale. I'm ready for this. I'm ready. Before sliding the blue line notebook paper out from its envelope, I was finally ready to read my dad's suicide note. It took me almost two years to get to this point of acceptance and readiness. Two years ago, I was known as someone bright and energetic who was ready to take on the world.

Having just finished high school as the class valedictorian, I was following in my father's footsteps and received a full-ride scholarship to his alma mater, where I would compete nationally on the track team. All of this was possible thanks to the support of my favorite person in the world. My dad. Growing up, as far back as I can possibly remember, it was just me and dad. He told me that my mother had given in to her drug addictions and walked out while I was I was still an infant. He was never able to find her. Nobody knows if she is even still alive.

My dad didn't hesitate to be the perfect dad, regardless of losing my mother. You and I were a team. He always told me. Together, there's nothing we can't handle. And that was true. Every day, he'd take me to school and head straight to work, just to come home and shuttle me to all of my extracurriculars and still make time to help me do my homework. Okay, sometimes he forced me to do my homework, but it always got done before bed. Dad was genuinely my best friend. Our bond was something most other kids just couldn't understand, as they constantly fought and argued with their fathers. Not me though. We were a teen. There was nothing we couldn't handle. That is, until there was no we anymore. That weekend, we spent all

Saturday moving my things into my new college dorm. I remember that day like it was yesterday. We talked and laughed all day as we unpacked and set up furniture together. We can only avoid the inevitable for so long, though, as night fell and Dad still had a three-hour drive home. Finally, we both broke into tears as we said our goodbyes. Remember, we're a team. He told me, choking back his tears.

Together, there's nothing we can't handle." And with that, he climbed into his pickup and drove off. I cried myself to sleep, thinking about how I'd never gone more than a day without seeing my dad, and now I was supposed to live on my own. I woke up early the next day, still wearing my jeans from moving day, realizing that I hadn't stayed up to get the text from my dad, ensuring he made it home safely. I picked up my phone to check for his text. But naturally, the battery was dead.

I connected the charger and got the coffee pot started while I waited for my phone to charge. By the time I got back to my bedroom, the phone had enough juice to turn on. I put in my passcode and went straight to the messaging app, but there was no message from Dad. I immediately had a bad feeling about that. It seemed so unlike him to not send the message when he got home. My mind started jumping to all of the what ifs. What if he'd been in an accident?

What if he was in the hospital? Or worse. I called, hoping he would pick up the phone and call my anxiety. But the call went straight to his cheery but sarcastic voicemail he hadn't changed in years. This is Darren. Sorry I missed your call. Leave me a message and I'll probably call you back, but no guarantees. Hey, Dad.

Sorry, I fell asleep. I just wanted to let you know I got home okay. Call me. Love you. I'm sure he just fell asleep and hasn't got up yet. I told myself out loud. I continued to try and reassure myself that nothing was wrong, but it didn't help. I couldn't help quash the feeling that something was wrong.

An hour had passed, then two, then three. I must have called at least a dozen times, but every call had the same result. Straight to voicemail. By the time it was noon, I knew something had to be wrong. Very wrong. If my dad slept until 7.30 a.m., that was sleeping in for him, even on a Sunday. I did the next thing I could think of and called my Uncle Dan, who lived only 25 miles away. Hey, Uncle Dan, sorry to bother you, but have you heard from my dad?

He never called to say he was home last night, and well, he hasn't answered his phone. Oh, I'm sure he's fine. He's probably just sleeping in. He's an empty nest or two. Or maybe he's just working on that old Camero. Maybe he'll finally get it running." Dan said with a chuckle. Look, I said while pacing my room, somewhat annoyed by his lack of concern.

Can you just please do me a favor and go check on him? I'd love to, but I'm at the lake right now, having myself a nice, quiet fishing trip. But I'll tell you what, if you haven't heard from him by later this afternoon, I'll stop by on my way home and smack him for you. All right. Thanks, Dan. I said before hanging up, not even trying to hide my disappointment. I couldn't understand how Dan could just blow off the fact that Dad hasn't called me. I knew my dad better than anybody, and this wasn't normal. I called the Highway Patrol next and asked them if there had been any accidents involving a 2006 Chevy Silverado. Thankfully, there'd been none. After that,

I called the local police from my dad's city, asking them to file a misdemeanor. person's report or to do a wellness check. They blew me off the same way Uncle Dan did, telling me that he's an adult and has no obligation to check in, and recommended that I wait a couple days. By 2 p.m. still, with no phone call and nobody that would take me seriously, I grabbed the keys to my dainty maroon sedan and started driving. I drove fast. I couldn't help But I made it home in just two and a half hours, cutting 30 minutes off the usual three-hour drive. I felt my heart speed up and hit a little harder as I pulled into my neighborhood, anxious

to get some answers. As the garage door opened, I could see the Chevy Silverado in the garage, next to the rusty old Camaro with parts and tools scattered about, feeling a little relieved. I took a deep breath in and let my chest push the air back out. Dad? I called out as I walked through the door. His keys, wallet, and cell phone all lay in place on the old beat-up brown shelf next to the door.

Dad, you home? There was still no answer as I peeked out into the backyard. It seemed as though the home I'd known my whole life had never been so quiet. It was usually filled with the sounds of conversations, laughter, music, or the sound of sports playing in the living room. Tonight, however, the silence of the house was so muted that each stair creak sounded like the house was moaning in pain, as if it was being forced to tell a dark secret. "'Dad!' I called out, a little softer this time, scared to disturb the leering silence.

I gave his bedroom door a soft knock, then twisted the door-knob and pushed lightly, encouraging it to slowly open with a drawn-out, squealing, creak. That's where I found him. The first thing I noticed was the blood. The headboard of his bed had a deep red, almost black in the middle, spatter of blood. It looked as if someone had filled a large water balloon with blood and launched it at the headboard. The splatters of blood projected upwards from the headboard, leaving long streaks of blood up the wall. and even onto the ceiling. Laying on the bed was my father, thankfully slumped in a way that I couldn't see his head

and face. Next to him, I could see the deep brown woodstock of his 12-gauge shotgun. This is an image I can't get out of my mind. The harder I try to not think about it, the more I think about it. It haunts me. Every day and every night, I frequently have nightmares where I'm a little. I watch a dark figure place a shotgun to my dad's head and pull the trigger, sending blood and brain matter flying throughout the rum.

I always try to stop it from happening, but I'm unable to move. That evening, I experienced what shock truly is. It's as if the part of my mind that controls how rational people should act simply broke. I know I called 911. I know I told them someone was dead, but I barely remember anything else from the ensuing events until the funeral. In the time the detective told me that my father's death had been ruled a suicide. Detective Tilly was her name.

I always kept her card in my nightstand. She handed me a Ziploc bag. Inside was an off-white envelope. There was once sealed but had been carefully opened. the outside, written in black ink. My name was written. It's addressed to you. Detective Tilly said. We had to process it for evidence, but the case is closed, and this belongs to you. The next thing she handed me was her card with a soft touch on my shoulder and a promise that I could call any time under any circumstance. Over the following 18 months, my life can only be described as an absolute

mess. I was hospitalized twice, not for physical injuries, but psychiatric ones. I would simply forget to eat and ended up severely underweight. Another time, I was apparently found by police walking down the highway at night, barefoot, wearing only shorts and a t-shirt. I don't remember that, but needless to say, I did not end up following through with college. When I wasn't and inpatient. I stayed with my Uncle Dan and Aunt Molly, who kindly took me in and handled basically all of my affairs. Over the past six months, thanks to the help of Uncle Dan, Aunt Molly, my psychiatrist, and my therapist. I've made progress enough to start finally feeling like a normal person again. I'd been weaned to low dosages of the pills that helped me sleep,

and my therapist and I decided that I was finally in a place where I could and should read the suicide letter addressed to me. It said, I want you to know that I'm sorry and that none of this is your fault. Ever since your mother's death, the only thing that brought me happiness was being your dad. Now that you were off on your own, I don't feel as if I have a reason to live. I love you. Dad. I paused, staring at the words, letting them sink in. My fist slammed down the desk before I even realized I was angry, knocking my pen holder over. I grabbed the holder

and I threw it across the room. I heard it crack on the wall, followed by pens and pencils landing in every which direction. What the hell? I said out loud. as my sight blurred slightly from the accumulating tears. This letter was supposed to provide me with closure, not more questions. What did he mean by my mother's death? My father had always told me that she left, and he didn't know what happened to her after that.

And why is it that he couldn't continue to be my dad after I left? I took a deep breath in through my nose and pushed the air out through my lips. I took a couple more deep breaths until I had composure over myself. I started picking up the pens that I'd thrown everywhere. They were all blue-capped ballpoint pens, the only pens I'd write with. That habit was one of the many that I picked up from my dad. That's when the oddity of the note struck me, something I hadn't thought of. The note was written in black ink, but my dad only ever wrote with blue pens, as if he

had some sort of paranoia with using any other ink. I rushed back to the note and looked at it more intently. The black ink on the paper, it didn't seem right, and not just the color, but the lettering as well. I rushed to the closet and pulled out the old orange shoebox that contained every card my dad had ever left me. On top was the card he'd given me along with my graduation gift. On the top front, written in blue ink was my name. I placed it next to the suicide note written with black ink. It was different. The handwriting was close, but different. The handwriting was slightly more slanted than on the cards my dad had given me. Over the next few hours, I pulled out every single

card and analyzed the handwriting, comparing it with a suicide note. The more I read, the more I became convinced that the suicide letter was written by someone else. But who was my dad murdered? I approached Dan as soon as he got home, holding the letter in my hand. Dan, um, there's something I'd like to talk to you about. I said, standing in the doorway of his office with my free hand anxiously pulling at my hair. What can I do for you, Aaron? Dan replied with a smile, but still looking down at his office.

his computer. My dad's suicide note. I read it. It says here that my mother died, but my dad said that she left, and he never knew what happened to her. I'm just confused. For a moment, just a small moment, a look of surprise came over Dan's face, as if he'd been caught with his hand in the cookie jar. Just as quickly as it appeared, that expression left and was replaced with a kind, caring look. I'm sorry. I don't know much about your mother, only met her a few times myself. He paused for a minute to remove his reading glasses and set them on his desk. I'm sorry to say this, but I think it's all so fair to say that there were a lot of things your dad kept to himself. I wish he'd opened up about his struggles. We all do. Okay. Well, I'm sorry to bother you,

I said, starting to walk away. Hey, hey, don't leave yet. Is there anything else that's bothering you? Well, the thing is, I just... I trailed off and looked down at the ground. I didn't know how to say it, that I thought my dad was murdered. I started doubting myself and was worried that after all of the problems I've had, that I might sound crazy.

It's okay. You can tell me. I don't think my dad wrote the note. It's not his handwriting. It doesn't match. I spat out. I thought we had all this behind us. Did you take your meds today?

Dan replied. Yes, I took. I'll call Dr. Z. First thing tomorrow. We don't need you to have another mental break. I'm sure the therapist can get you in for an emergency session as well. He said while scribbling down some notes on his post-it stack. You know what, you're right.

I'm overthinking this all. I'm just going to go get some rest. I didn't wait for a response. I turned and hurried into my room, closing and locking the door behind me. Deep breaths, I thought to myself. Deep breaths. I took a few moments to compose myself before sitting down on my chair. I unclenched my hand, letting the old puffs.

Post-it note that I'd swiped off Dan's desk fall onto mine. The note said, Pick up prescription. It was written with a curve to it. I placed it next to the alleged suicide note. The handwriting from Dan's Post-it note was a dead match. Dan wrote this suicide note. Not my dad. Hours passed while I sat at my desk, staring at the notes.

grasping the new reality of the situation. A dozen thoughts crossed through my mind as to what might have happened. What role Dan had played in my father's death? Molly had knocked on my door and tried to coax me out for dinner. I declined, saying that I needed more rest. My therapist called too. Undoubtedly, he'd received a call from Dan. I ignored his call, thinking Dan was trying to make me think I'm crazy. What are you hiding, Dan? I asked myself. It was 11 p.m. and I was sure Dan and Molly had gone off to bed. I pulled out that old business card that I kept for the last two years.

And on the top in blue handwriting, the card read Detective Tilly. I pulled out my cell phone and dialed the number, hoping that she'd pick up. This is Detective Tilly? Yeah, sorry. Um, two years ago, you worked my dad's case, Darren Mills. I remember you, yeah, she said, in a kind voice with a hint of sadness. Some cases are hard to forget. How are you?

She asked. Well, I'm a little freaked out, I said, feeling comforted by the openness of Detective Tilley's warmth. The thing is, I started to pace the floor, not really sure. how to say it. Go ahead. What can I do for you? Detective Tilly encouraged.

I know it's been two years, and I know this probably sounds crazy, but I've just read my father's suicide note, and it's not his handwriting. He didn't write it. There was a pause of silence from the other end of the line. Are you sure? Detective Tilly asked. Yes. And I've compared it to my uncle's handwriting.

and it looks exactly like his. I know how this sounds, but... I believe you. Detective Tilly said before I could finish. Look, if you're right about this, we need to get ahead of this situation now. Where are you? I can come pick you up, bring the note and your uncle's handwriting sample, and we'll look at this together. It felt so good to hear her say that she believed me. It'd been so long since somebody truly believed in me instead of treating me like some sort of headache. I gave her the address and then said,

But I'll probably have to sneak out. This is my Uncle Dan's house, and when I said something to him about the note, he got really weird. You need to get out of there now. I'm already on my way. Keep me on the line. Get out of that house. Walk down the street.

Then start talking to me and I'll pick you up. Okay. I replied. I'll talk to you in a few. I then slipped the phone into my pocket, with Detective Tilly still on the line. I quietly slipped my vans on, and grabbed a backpack with my computer or phone charger and a set of spare clothes along with a folder containing the suicide note, writing samples from my dad, and the post-it note from Dan, before quietly opening the door and stepping

out. Going somewhere? I jumped a mile at the sound of Dan's voice and almost fell over while my heart punched my chest from the inside. Dan, hey, I said, trying and failing to hide the obvious fact that I was caught red-handed by the man that may have murdered my dad. I was just going for a walk. With your backpack? Dan said immediately, taking a step forward. I took a step backward at the same time. Yeah, yeah, just in case I get hot and need to take my jacket off. Dan took another step forward. And I took another step backward to keep out of arm's reach. Look, we just want to keep you safe. You've made so much progress. We don't need another regression. Why don't you hand over the note so we can get past there.

His suggestion sounded more like a demand, and it occurred to me that he'd probably been listening to my conversation with Lily. He took another step forward, and I took another step backward. No, I said, it's mine and it belongs to me. You know, you should remember who took you in and put up with all your psychotic breaks before you go making crazy accusations about the people. who care for you." His usual cheerful voice now sounded more dangerous and sharp, and he took another step forward.

I realized that I was all but cornered. He stood between me and the door. Give it to me now. He demanded, no longer able to maintain the Mr. Nice Guy facade. He lunged at me. I turned to run, but his hand caught my backpack, ripping me backward. I landed. it hard on the floor, smacking my head on my chair on the way down. Get off me! I shouted and started kicking my feet at him. He ripped the backpack away, but I held onto it with both hands on the straps. He pulled again even harder, and the seam in the strap started to rip. I summoned all my strength, and I kicked him in the groin as hard as I possibly could, placing my lower shin right between Dan's legs. He let go.

of the backpack and fell to his knees while I fell backward towards the window. I was already pushing the screen out of the window, and just as he rose back to his feet, I jumped out of it, landing in the bushes four feet below. I scrambled to my feet. I heard a thud behind me, and I turned to see that Dan had already made it through the window. All I could do now was run. I made it about ten feet before something hard hit my head. My vision flashed, and the next thing I knew I was on the ground with Dan standing over me, a large rock in his hand. Drop the rock or I'll shoot. I looked up to see Detective Tilly standing 20 feet away, her pistol drawn and pointed right at Uncle Dan. Look, this is just a big misunderstanding. Dan said,

desperately while dropping the rock. Put your hands on your head and get on your knees. Tilly demanded as she walked forward, pistol still drawn. Dan dropped to his knees while I began to crawl away. Now lay down on your stomach. Tilly demanded as she carefully navigated behind him. She's having a psychological break. She needs help.

Dan pleaded. But Tilly ignored him. Instead, she grabbed his head and slammed him into the ground, face first, and proceeded to put him in handcuffs while multiple other police cars arrived. A lot happened in the next few weeks. I spent a couple of days in the hospital being treated for a serious concussion. Detective Tilly stopped in multiple times to check in on me and keep me updated. The following day, she had the case reopened. to be investigated as a homicide, with the suicide note being a key piece of evidence. Dan was arrested that night for assault. Detective Tilly had heard the entire thing over the phone,

and witnessed him hit me in the head with a rock. When questioned about the homicide, however, he refused to talk and lawyered up. Instead, they turned to interrogate Aunt Molly. It took her less than an hour to crack and confess to everything. As it turns out, it wasn't just my mom who was into drugs. They all were. Aunt Molly, Uncle Dan, even my dad. One night when I was just an infant, things got out of hand while they were using, and my mother overdosed. They didn't want to go to the police because they'd all go to jail, and guardianship of me would have been given to the state. Instead, my dad and Dan disposed of her body and played it off as if she'd walked out on us. They all got clean after that, and my dad made it his goal to be the best dad he could be.

The night my dad died, my dad admitted to Dan that he couldn't hold on to the secret anymore. Now that I was an adult, he planned to confess to the authorities what really happened 18 years ago, That didn't sit well with Dan, so he killed him. It made it look like a suicide to keep Molly and himself out of prison. It was a lot to grasp, but ultimately, I feel much better finally understanding the truth. I've forgiven my dad and can finally move on with my life and continue college. I know that even though he's gone, Dad will always be with me. all, we're a team, and together, there's nothing we can't handle.