Locked In with Ian Bick - Inside the Brutal Life of a Mobster's Son: Addiction, Violence & Crime | Frank Parisi

Episode Date: January 20, 2025

Frank Parisi, a native of Little Italy, New York, grew up in a family with deep connections to organized crime. His father was involved in the mafia, and the family founded the iconic Parisi Bakery in Nolita. Despite this challenging environment, Frank has transformed his life and now shares his journey to inspire others. In this episode, Frank discusses his battle with opiate addiction, his path to sobriety, and his remarkable recovery, including surviving a heart transplant. With over 13 years clean, he emphasizes the importance of mindset shifts and strategies for personal growth. Frank is now a motivational speaker, fitness and mindset coach, and best-selling author. #MobstersSon #InsideTheMob #TrueCrime #AddictionRecovery #CrimeAndViolence #MafiaLife #PrisonStory #OrganizedCrime Connect with Frank Parisi: IG: https://www.instagram.com/frankparisi2011/ Website: https://frank-parisi.com/coaching/?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAaaBLpVTcw74J6vc8gQGaiPGblOJruXToj-4spmmS_4T95gfaP4Llun268I_aem_TlbHuoTdT3HsSk3Xsz6isQ Thank you to ROCKET MONEY for sponsoring today's episode: Visit https://rocketmoney.com/lockedin to cancel your unwanted subscriptions and reach your financial goals faster with Rocket Money. Hosted, Executive Produced & Edited By Ian Bick: https://www.instagram.com/ian_bick/?hl=en https://ianbick.com/ Presented by Tyson 2.0 & Wooooo Energy: https://tyson20.com/ https://woooooenergy.com/ Buy Merch: https://www.ianbick.com/shop Use code lockedin at checkout to get 20% off your order Powered by: Just Media House : https://www.justmediahouse.com/ Creative direction, design, assets, support by FWRD: https://www.fwrd.co Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

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Prince Marketing for connecting us. Yeah. Shout out Darren Prince. How do you guys know each other? Dude, they just found me on the internet, man. And they reached out. So we did like a deal in September. So they just been getting me on a bunch of podcasts, media, and just getting my story out there.

That's so cool. It's been cool. Yeah. Darren knows everyone. He knows everybody, dude. Yeah. I'm supposed to be with him and David Gagins December 3rd in D.C. Yeah, I met David over the summer with Darren.

that was really cool. David's a really nice guy. I can't wait to meet him. Yeah, him, jelly roll, really cool people like that. They're actually nice in person. Yeah. Because not every celebrity is like really nice. And Mike Tyson, super nice.

I met Mike Tyson when I was little in Manhattan. Yeah, and we're hoping he whips Jake Paul's ass to me. I hope he kicks out. Well, yeah, well, this will be out after the fight. So hopefully, yeah, we weren't wrong on this. I want to plug in your book. Thank you for bringing this. If you want to tell the audience what this is about real quick

and where they can find this out. Yeah, it's embrace abundance. It's Amazon bestseller in three countries, America, Germany, and Canada. You could get it on Amazon or at my website, frank dash parisi.com. Awesome. So you are not from Austin. No, I grew up in Little Italy in Manhattan. That must have been an interesting time period.

Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah. What year was this? I was born 1979. Okay. So you're talking about like the crack epidemic just hitting. And my family has a bakery called Parisi Bakery. It's been there since 1903.

It's still there. It's on Mott Street. The store is still there. That's the original, where the bakery was originally, where they used to bake downstairs. And then they moved it to Elizabeth Street. But the store is still a Mott. I moved, when they moved it to Elizabeth Street,

I grew up in that building above where we used to bake it. I got to check this out. Oh, yeah, when you go to Manhattan, go. Yeah, I go there all the time. In between Spring and Chemman. Okay. Yeah, my cousin Roberts, yeah. And did you ever work at that growing up?

Yeah, my whole life. Wow. I worked there my whole life until, you know, until I moved out here until I started working in substance abuse and mental health. Is that what your parents did for work to in the bakery? Mm-hmm. So your whole life you were just like a bakery kid, small business. A whole family. Wow.

Since 1903. Wow. Yeah. Did you have siblings? No siblings. You were an only child? Only child. Oh, interesting.

Yeah. And both parents were together? No, they were together and then they got divorced and then they stayed together. Oh, they actually got back together? Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Very dysfunction. That rarely happens. That really happens.

They got divorced and they stood together. They've been separated and got back and it's just that was the pet. So do you think it was like a, you know, a safe, you know, comforting childhood? No, my brother. No. Not at all. Not stable. No, no, not at all.

When do you think you got the first bit of unstableness? Oh, brother, I was born into it, my dude. So you got to realize, first of all, you're talking about the Lower East Side in Manhattan in the late 70s, early 80s, crack cocaine hits the streets. They talk about the city being bad, but like, lawless and how it is nowhere near what it was like back then. You didn't have iPhones and cameras. There was literally buildings being burnt down.

You know what I mean? Things were way different. And violence was everywhere. Crack was everywhere. The only thing that kept my neighborhood safe at the time was the mob. I grew up two blocks down from John Gotti Social Club. Wow. So my neighborhood wasn't safe.

My father and uncles would keep baseball bats in the front of the building and in front of the bakery. and if anybody didn't comply with the rules of the street because cops wouldn't come, they wanted them to go down the street, man, and handle their business. And if that didn't happen, I'm talking about three, four, five years old.

I've watched grown men get their heads split open like a watermelon with baseball bats. So that was the imprint of my childhood, my dude. It's very different than most people how I grew up and the life that I've lived and created. not many people have the journey that I have, Ian. Or I have lived to tell the tale either.

No, my brother, it's a movie. Yeah, I've interviewed a lot of cops from that time period that tell these stories. I'll tell you a perfect story. One day, my father, I'm like five years old. And there's a guy shooting heroin in front of the building. And he goes, there's a abandoned car. And he tells him, listen, go down the street and do this. And the guy told them to go, you know, go, go, go, F himself.

And my father came out with a basement. ball bat and just started crippling the guy and uh and then the cops came and they locked my dad up now age just came out you got to realize this is like 1985 and my dad that my dad's in handcuffs the cops go into the abandoned car after my dad's like holy cripples this guy just to give you an idea of my childhood and uh and they got cop gets stuck with the needle so they uncuff my father and they uncuff my father and they crippled the guy. They start crippling the guy with the billy clubs. So that was like the neighborhood.

Very insane. Drug addiction. My father was like trying to protect me the best way he can. But it's just that's not normal. It's like it's a product of your environment sometimes, man. Like it's a different like people, most people don't understand that life unless you grew up in it. Was your dad mob related at all? My father was also involved in organized crime, crime, and a banana crime family.

And he was a closet addict, a cocaine user. Which is that not allowed? Not allowed. So that's the whole other thing is always keeping that secret. You know what I mean? And then like the two, three days of being locked up doing Coke, staring at a fucking camera. And then the crash after that and what the home's like. so the home was never unstable bro i always talk about it as almost like i feel like we're antennas

we're like a tv the human and we're like we have antennas and like the old school TVs had the antennas right and i don't know how old you are but the old you're way younger than me the old school TVs they had antennas i've seen videos yeah so you had to actually make the antenna stay straight in order for the tv to to come in if it didn't it would be all My whole life has been static, my brother. There was never nothing that was making that come and correct until I developed a new human being later on in life. Do you think that his drug addiction or drug issues fueled his acts of violence?

I think his losing his mother at 13 years old and never being able to cope with that and never having any tools and just trying to find his fall as approval his whole life, dropping out of school at 13 and working nights, you know, and just trying to be his father's approval. My father was a troubled man. He put his father, his brothers and sisters, and the street, I feel ahead at times of me and my mother. You know what I mean?

Yeah. Seeking my dad's approval. But knowing what I know and don't so much work on myself, over the years, I could see things today as a man, especially having the perspective I have just from all the work I've done on myself, seeing that, you know, my father was just trouble, dude. He just never, he was still, he was that 13 year old kid hurt his whole life. And he just never knew. He had static.

And that's the whole point is that my grandfather had static. I could guarantee you his father had static. And at some point. along the line, someone is going to have to be the one in the family to take on all that shit. And that's why my path, I believe, I feel all of the generational shit from my family. I feel deeply, bro. And I feel it. And I feel my path has been the path that it has been because I'm the motherfucking one in my family, bro.

Yeah, it definitely gets passed down and you pick that up too along the way. And I think it's even worse that you're an only child to, do you get all of that? It doesn't just rub off on another one. It doesn't deflect at all. And it was like the whole life was like just silence like everything. Don't say nothing. Put on the front. Act.

Don't talk about none of this stuff. Don't talk about none of the street stuff. Don't talk about none of this drug stuff. Don't talk about this drug addiction stuff. None of this crazy shit in the house. So what am I going to do, bro? I'm not fucking with no normal kids. I'm not going.

I'm not the age. student you know what i mean i'm hanging out with the street kids i'm doing all that shit all my friends and fathers were half of them were not even around who's in jail whose father was a wise guy whose father got killed whose father was a drug addict that was my crew and we became that we you become what you see bro you know what i mean in life so is there's a law of exposure you know if you've only been exposed to life, that's all you know. You know what I mean? Until you've been exposed to something else.

Do you think you ever showed love in your childhood? Yes, tons of love. That's where the confusion came from. My father took me literally everywhere. He just didn't have the tools. Like he would take me everywhere. Like, for example, as a little kid, Ranger Games, great time, New York City,

Madison Square Garden. But then he got into a fist fight. Like five years old. And when his boys got into a fist fight at the game, with like nine guys. You know what I mean? Stanley Cup, 1994, Mark Messier, was there. I was there.

Last row of the Stanley, last row of the garden, son of ice. I'm there with my dad, my uncle's friend. My uncle's friend smoking crack in the bathroom. You know what I'm saying? My dad loved me enough to care and hustle to take me to these things at the best that he could do what he was working with, bro. I see that today. You know what I'm saying?

That shit fueled my addiction because I didn't see for what it was. I just was a confused kid. My antenna was really messed up. What did your mom think of his lifestyle? Did she ever kind of voice that to you as a kid? She's like old school Italian. So it was like she stood by him through everything. I got to ride or die.

Just a ride or die. She stood by all of it, all the insanity and chaos. He had a great side to him. He's the dude that would, It would be like, like my house literally had Christmases where it was like, yo, we're going to the World Series. And then it was like, dad, we had no money. It's like mom's 15 minute massages.

You know what I mean? Like if he had it, like everyone had. Like he took everybody the Super Bowl one year. Like all my uncles, cousins, that's how he was. So he had a huge heart. He just was this troubled man that never unraveled, bro. He never. And then he became, this is what happened.

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I mean like so it's like that's what it is like it's almost like growing up it was like I'm probably gonna like I did you know I never did time but it was like you get the prerequisite is like for some families like prerequisites in college like mine was like set me up prerequisites you're gonna go to jail bro yeah did you have like dreams goals did you want to go to college I did go to college I went to St. John's for a year but I mean at that point it was like I'm not like I'd be hanging out working at the bakery, counting fucking 60, 70,000 in like the 90s cash. Like, I'm not doing this shit. I want to do this shit.

You know? I don't want to be in here. I was never a student like that I was, it was just, to me, I was like, I don't, I'm always been a hustler and a self-educator. I was never academic, you know? When was your first time you tried drugs? 12. 12.

Was that because of your dad? I smoked pot. Yeah. I mean, you know what it is, Ian? My home was so fucking chaotic, brother. Like, it was, you didn't know what you were going into. And I know that, like, it's, it's, I don't blame anyone. These are the cards and people are only can do what they can do,

what they know they could do it with, if that makes sense. Like, we're born with these things and not everyone shows us the manual of this life. So everybody's doing the best they can. And my parents did the best that they can with what they were working with. Um, but yeah, no, I mean, what was back? We'll go back to the question. I'm sorry. The first, uh, drug you tried in when that was.

Yeah, I was 12 years old, dude. Because at that point, like to go home to that life, it was like, once I smoke weed, it was like, I'm gonna smoke weed every day because to come home to this shit, this, I could deal with it now. I could zone out. I don't have to deal with this fucking insanity because it was fucking torturous, bro. there was times when I was like this shit is so fucking torturous like my childhood was fucking literally torturous in the beauty of it like all this beautiful shit it was torturous in in all this cool shit you know like world series and all these like super bowls and Stanley Cups is fucking a lot of insanity and all of it you know how would people describe you like your closest friend from that time period what would they say about you total fucking lunatic, savage maniac, bro. Like, once I started in my teens and like 20s, it was like, like, scary. I was a scary individual, violent. Anything could pop off because I was so angry at the

world. And then I started to become a street guy. So I started to like get into that whole life, the street life selling drugs. And I was not a guy that you definitely wanted to have a problem with. Do you think you wanted to be like your dad? Yeah, I mean, like that was like the thing, right? Like, I mean, I'm around all these guys, all these mob guys. You know, they got money. They got respect. And you only know what you know.

Like, so you only know what you see, you know. So yeah, I was like heading in that direction. That was what I was doing. As I got older, I started to do shit with my dad, you know? like street shit. When you got in the street life, did that cause friction with your dad? No.

No, man. He saw me hustle and was just like, I mean, I hate talking about this, but he was like, he brought me in with him for some shit, you know? I got out of control with my addiction, which is why he put pause on me. Because then I became super out of control.

Like once I started to, get hold of the opiates i became totally out of control how old were you when you first tried opiates man i was probably like 16 when i had my like first percocet but i mean i got addicted in my early 20s i got addicted to them in the early 20s why did you try opiates i just was looking for escape brother constant escape every day like from 12 years old when i smoked pot i got high every day every day it was just looking to just feel different man I never like you gotta realize like and I didn't know this but like knowing this now owning the substance abuse and mental health facility and working in this industry for a long time like from zero to eight is like how we shape our whole world bro and like when you unregulate a kid at that age like their whole central nervous system is hijacked severe trauma and your whole body is in fight a flight so like you search for ways to regulate if you don't have you have the proper tools.

When you find drugs and alcohol helps to regulate. The problem is it becomes a problem. It works at first. But then it stops working when you don't have enough. You start messing with these opiates and you don't have enough. Now you're sick. Now you're like, all right, I got money.

I'm hustling. I got money. Then the money runs out. Now it's like, wow. Like now I got, and then that's that cycle. Because now the money's gone and it's like, all right, the money's gone. Now it's like, now it's like, we're gonna go do what we gotta do.

However, we gotta do it to go get this. And that's what, that's what it got to me, bro. Like, the money became gone and I just was savage out there. Like hustling to use. And it was gonna get it at any way. Like the addiction took me down like a whole other road where like everybody, like, bro, I've been arrested. I can't even tell you how many times.

I have family that's detectives and sergeants, they were, they were. I'm retired now. My wife was an attorney. So every time I would get arrested, like somehow, some way, I would just, like, wind up with this or that. Never, the charge would never stick. But it got to a point where everybody was like, we're not helping you no more, including

the street. Because there was instances where, like, I was out of control doing stuff and I had to be sat down and told, like, we're not, we don't have your back no more. from like my dad's people you know my cousins were like no more my wife everybody got to a point where they were like no more share with us one of those out-of-control moments you experienced while on drugs oh bro i mean i crashed the car on a friday night got into a fight with a cop got arrested came out on a monday manipulated my aunt to borrow her card, did it all over again.

And then the cops, because I had the PBA card, drove me home. So my wife comes home from work on a Monday and it's like, what is he doing in here? I'm all fucked up and they brought me home. Not even knowing I just came out of jail. But, bro, there was many, like there's so many crazy stories that I, you know, crazy stories.

stories that I could, like, they're not even in my book. Give us an exclusive. We'll take an exclusive that didn't make the book. Oh, man. I mean, brother, like, I mean, I'm serious one, bro. Like, I was, I was, and it's, it's why my wife is so beautiful of a human being. Today's old wedding anniversary, 15 years. But I've been with her also since we're 17 years old.

I've been with her forever. But she felt. whatever reason one night that something was wrong and uh i was at my buddy's place he just opened up a adela on highland boulevard in stanton island and i was leaving and we were like drinking and i was popping pills and i didn't really know what i was fucking taken because i was just like put me whatever and uh she felt something was wrong and came to my parents house at the time we were dating and i was I was dead, bro. I was slouched over, overdosed in the fucking car.

And only because she felt something connected to me that she came there and actually saved my life, basically. She had a key to my house. And my dad woke up and threw me in the car. I was a block from the hospital. So that's one of the most insane fucking stories. What's even more crazy about that? Because I could get into all the fucking violent, stupid crazy shit, but what's even more

insane about that is that while I'm in there, I'm like, I can't wait to get the fuck out and get more. That's true fucking insanity, bro. And how old are you when that happened? 23. It's kind of interesting that she stuck with you throughout this whole time period at a young age. I don't understand. Did you ever ask her why? She said she always saw something in me and knew that I would change. Like she always said that like, I always had higher standards when I was younger. I did.

Um, I just needed to get the intent. It's correct, bro. You know? That's very true. What were some of the, like, morals and principles your dad instilled in you while you were growing up? Oh, bro.

So my fault, this is why, like, the street, like today having perspective on stuff. Like, my father was the type of dude, like he owed guys. his money in the street like a hundred grand his his man got killed he old the guy a hundred

thousand nobody's paying that debt he did he paid a dead man's debt to the family in the street you'll never hear that ever so in that twisted uh in that in that right uh what's the lesson in that right is honor loyalty respect honor If I say I'm going to do some, I do it. That's something that I live by, bro. If I don't deliver on what I'm telling you, then like if we do like some type of business, I give you back your money. There's no way.

Like that is, that is key, bro. Like there's non-negotiables in my life, bro. Like there's like in order to be in my circle, you have to show up in that. You have to. That whole, you know, mindset and lifestyle had changed drastically. over the years and evolved. It must have been interesting for you to see that. Like, not your family, but other families

and the mob and crime life. Just like what it is today is not how it was back then. No, not at all. It's over. I mean, it's like not what it was. No. Yeah, even in the early 2000s or with everyone, you know,

turning government witness, some of the big players. So what do you think about, like, the guys now that are, I don't know if you watch them at all, but like there's guys that are out there from that, time period that are all on YouTube with like, you know, five, 10, 15 murders under them and they're out talking because they made deals. Yeah. Listen, everybody's, listen, in life, here's one thing I'm going to tell you. In life, you could get away with stuff in life,

but one thing you're never going to escape is energy. So it's their movie, you know, everybody's having their movie. They got to sleep with themselves. That's true. You know, I don't judge anybody or anything in life, you know. So you're in your early 20s now. You leave college and you have a full-blown addiction. Full-blown addiction. What's like a day-to-day life for you at that time period? Hustling, getting high, making money.

What was your go-to? Alexi. And for the hustle. Oh, selling pot. My father was one of the biggest pot dealers in New York. So literally I would just go, I would hustle. And then I would honestly, early on, I would just take it. mad wheat because he have a few hundred pounds you know so like you grab a few ounces it's like

nothing 100% profit you know i would do shady shit like that uh and then just hustle be weed pills that's mostly it was he stable financially by that point because you said it in your childhood yeah i mean my father made millions of dollars but he also like died broke you know so it's it's the street life it's like the entrepreneur life too though It's just a different hustle, you know what I mean? But minus the insanity, minus the violence in the prison. Well, that's why I think most drug dealers that go to prison and they end up becoming good entrepreneurs after prison.

Yeah, I mean, they're the best, bro. Because you know what the street teaches you people? Situations, how to read them, how to read energy, how to read. So, like, you could read the room. You know what I mean? Especially if you're looking to make a deal in business. you could feel that's energy. So you got to feel, you know.

It's almost like dating, you know, entrepreneurship and like finding that partner and stuff. That's what I've learned because I've had a lot of shitty business deals and business partners at such a young age because that's what got me into trouble and went to federal prison when I was a kid. So you learn that and you went to federal prison. Yeah, I did three years. Get out of here. Yeah, man. I did three years in the feds. Get out of the nightclub in Connecticut when I was 18.

Get out of here, bro. Yeah, a lot of like a lot of. guess, like yourself that come on, don't even realize it because the show is about people that went to prison. And only like the OG, like, members that have been watching the show, like, know my story, unless they, like, Googled me. But yeah, that's what makes the dynamic so cool. Because, like, I understand that type of life, too, because I was around those guys. Oh, man, I love that. That's great. I love how we transformed, though. Yeah, I went to trial, too, federal trial.

Did you really? So you fought it? I fought it, yeah. My co-defendant who was uncharged took a plea deal. got a misdemeanor in the state. And I took all the heat and went to the, yeah, I actually got less time after trial than I went on a plea deal. Wow. Yeah, I won about half the charges and got three years in the feds. I was at Fort Dix in New Jersey.

I was in Danbury. I was with some mob guys too, some Italian guys. Yeah. It was interesting. It was very interesting. Wow. Yeah, I could only imagine, well, sucks. Yeah.

I've never been in prison, but jail sucks. I've been in the tombs in Manhattan. No, what's that? It's the downtown. It's the jail downtown. It's like the Holden Pen before you go. You could do some time there, but it's before you go away. And then they have like the barge.

You ever been there? I think that's in the Bronx or something. No. Or Brooklyn? I don't know. It's like on a boat. Oh, no. You ever go to Rikers?

No. Lucky. I've heard some crazy stories about Rikers. It's fucked up. Yeah. How much were you making at the time when you were in, when you were hustling? Oh, bro. Not a lot.

Because you were doing all the drugs yourself? Yeah. I wasn't. No big. time drug dealer. My father made a lot of money, you know. So were you living at home? What were you doing? I lived at home, yeah. And then I moved out in my like mid-20s and just was out with my wife and just living that life. I don't know why she stood with me the more I think about it. Because she was an attorney. My wife's an attorney. She also defended me in court. That's another

fucking thing. Wait, how old were you when that happened? That was when we were married, bro. So when we, Yeah, bro, because I got out of so much shit. God, it's all divine, all this. I was probably in my late 20s. We were married, probably late 20s, early 30s. Yeah, she would defend me in court. Because she never changed the name for like three years. Yeah, because I was such a disaster, bro.

She didn't want to be tied to you. No. So she's, she, yeah, she's, I had the Jewish attorney. I had family that was mobbed up, and then I had family that was NYPD, bro. It's like the worst for a guy like me. That's what they say, get the Jewish attorney. Yeah, yeah, yeah, she's half Jewish. Yeah, my dad's dad was a Jewish attorney for, I think it was the Russian mob or something crazy

or the Chinese. And every Friday they would go into a Chinese restaurant and they would get it for free because they owed him legal services. So they would, they were all. all connected in that time period. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. So when you guys move out, what's life like for you then? It's just addiction, bro.

It goes ugly, man. It's just like ugly street shit, in and out of jail. Just, I mean, like, just ugliness, bro. Like, I can't even explain. Like, it's like a period of time that I don't even remember a lot, to be honest. I totaled five calls. I don't even know how many times I was locked up more than that.

And just causing havoc, bro. Like, I was a dude that, like, I just, I couldn't control my nervous system. So, like, if I felt any type of way about anything, it was quick, I'm hitting you. Like, it was just totally retarded, like making no sense. But that was just who I was, you know?

I'd, like, pass out in the gym. And I was big, too. I was a drug addict that was working out benching like 315. You know what I mean? Because I worked out since 14 every day, even on drugs. I'd go snort Coke and do oxy and go bench like 385 in the gym. No joke. We're on fucking DMX.

Because I was always angry, bro. Every fucking day in my life, I'd wake up with this anxiety and this like, there was a fucking bear in the room when there's no fucking bear in the room. You know what I'm saying? I'm sure you've been around guys like that. Of course. Yeah. So that was me, dude.

And it was just the only thing that I could do to regulate that shit was getting fucked up. So it was just, that's what my life was like with this girl. Just fucking a straight terrorist. Hustling to get the next hustle to try to score to get drugs. And I'd be the dude that would make a quick score. And then I'd go buy a brand new fucking, you know, Volvo and a brightling. And then I'm fucking broke. You know what I'm saying?

So like I made money, but it was like, you know how that goes, in and out. It's like you make it. I'm living in a fucking shack. I got a nice, like, for what? What am I doing? I'm empty, bro. All that shit is empty. So do you have any criminal charges on your record now?

None, bro. Thank God. Wow. Why do you think that is? Why do you think you got lucky? God. If we get into more of the story, you'll see. Wow.

It's all God. That's why I'm here with you right now. The universe wants me here because. of all the shit that I've done and I'm doing. What's something you did when you were in that violent stage of your life that you regret now? I broke a kid's jaw one night that didn't deserve it. Yeah. What happened that night?

My father was in jail. I just went to visit him. My other friend's grandfather just died. We were at a ball. This other kid we knew was a rat. We knew we ratted. And he came over to talk to me and I was like, oh, bro, get away. And I didn't hit my friend.

I hit his friend. Definitely something that I regret. But again, at the time, I couldn't control. Like, bro, like, that's the type of guy I was. Like, some piece of shit, shit. It's not anything I'm proud of. And probably why shit has happened to me in life. Because you can't escape the energy, my dude.

you could escape that but it comes back you know what I'm saying like my arms fucked up right now because that probably happened yeah how do you manage regrets and dealing with those thoughts of things you've done because you know we're taught and and and to not kind of have regrets but I'm sure you think about those types of acts you've done yeah I mean I don't it doesn't hold weight on me no more I've transformed and become a completely different human being and like help thousands of people. So I'm like, I think me in the universe are good now after everything that I've done. If I wouldn't have changed my life and still stood in that and not done all the work, make all the amends and make everything right with the world, then I would feel regret. But I feel no

regret now. Do you think those people that were hurt by you feel that same way? Like no matter how much good you do in the world. No, probably not. Absolutely not. I wouldn't. You know. But do you think you deserve a chance to be forgiven? For that? For anything you've done. Yeah, I think the universe decides that, you know, the universe watches, bro. You know? So it's like, yeah, maybe I got away with that one, but it's like, yeah, I'm going to take your heart. I'm going to take your arm. Do you think you're a bully in your early ages? Never. Were you bullied at all? I was a smaller kid.

So I had a fight, bro. I had all like, you got to realize I went to New York City public school. Half my school was busting from Park Hill, Wu-Tang. Like, I was like, bro, either you fight or your lunch meet. Like, that's just what it was like. You know what I'm saying? So like I was a smaller Italian kid. Like, they called me white boy.

I hated that shit. So I used to work out. I started working out for that reason. Because I had Latin kings in my shit, fucking bloods. And like that. white boy shit i fun man once i started working out that white boy shit turned into i'm fucking italian because i started knocking motherfuckers heads on no more that white boy shit you know what i'm saying yeah yeah that's that racist white boy shit like that's that reverse racism

shit but i i used to have to teach people a lesson about that and uh i was good with my hands bro definitely good with my hands and definitely um the working out definitely help with that because once i started to hear people and they started to fall because i was always smaller um Some dudes didn't want to mess with me. Like, who wants to get knocked out by a little dude? You know what I mean? Do you think that mentality came from your dad? Absolutely, bro.

I mean, growing up in New York City, bro, like the public school system, you're going to have to fight. It's just like there's nothing around it. You're going to have to fight. And I remember being a little kid and my father being like, this kid was fucking with me at school. And he was like, here's a roll of dimes. When you go to school, this isn't a junior high, when he's sitting down, don't let him get up. As soon as he's sitting down, just go and punch him in his nose and don't stop. You know?

With the roll of dimes? With the roll of dimes? In your hands? It makes it, it makes you a punch harder. Wow. Heavier. It's almost like a lock in the sock in prison. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Crazy thing for your dad to teach you. Yeah. Yeah. So you've been clean, you were saying about 13 years now. 13 years. So did you start to get clean in like your late 20s, early 30s? I first got sober, like after that overdose. They shipped me out here.

I went to a treatment center in upstate New York like three fucking times by now. And they shipped me out here. I went to treatment, stood sober for a year. And then went back out and had like four years of more misery and street life bullshit. And then I got sober at 31, bro. What did it finally take for you to get sober? Ian, man, I've been through so much incomprehensible demoralization experiences like I, like, falling to sleep in a restaurant or like, like, I mean, just embarrassing shit, you know? For whatever reason on July 31st, this kid came looking for money in my house, at my house.

I'm living in Midland Beach, which is not nice. in Staten Island. It's a shithole house. And this dude comes knocking on my door looking for $200. Dirty one-year-old man. Here I am. Pictures us. You're 29.

You're successful. Whoever fucking age you are. And you're a successful guy. Here I am 31 years old. I've been around money. I made money. I don't even have $200 to pay my street debt off with this guy. And my wife comes out.

a grown man who works on Wall Street and the best I could do is living in this fucking shack and pays a grown man street dead off a situation encountered after that with me and the guy but after that I looked myself in the mirror I had the moment of clarity for whatever reason

because there was many fuck disgusting moments like this and I looked myself in the mirror and it was like at that time the universe God gave me a moment of clarity to be like, you put yourself here, bro. It doesn't, like, these are the cards you dealt in life. Who gives the fuck? You're in a ditch.

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exactly the way it's supposed to happen. Because Ian, I've lived a life that many have them. I've lived the dopest fucking life in all that gross shit. I've lived the dope as fucking life, bro. Yeah, tell us about your life after getting clean. Man, dude, it's been just nothing but a lot of insanity, bro. I mean, that's a whole other fucking thing. So when I got sober,

I started working in substance abuse again. It's crazy. My father was asking me to do something from him. I have about a year, a little under a year of sobriety now. And I'm going to meetings and stuff. And my father asked me to go do something for him. And I'm like, I can't. I pick up the phone and I call my buddy who was in treatment.

Went out here in 2006. And I'm like, bro, I got to get the fuck out of you. And he's like, I'm opening a treatment. center out here, why don't you come out? And I had to fucking escape my family, my brother. I went home to my wife and I was like, yo, my boy Cole was open in a treatment center here in Austin, you ready to go back? And we got on a fucking airplane and just left, bro.

And my focus was solely on my growth at that point. I escaped. We had $8,000 to our name. And we kept making shit work, bro. Things kept happening. Like, I got the job. I was making like $36,000 a year, started at the fucking bottom, bro. And I worked my way up.

I started to learn the business. I got different certifications. I learned from the bottom up. I partnered in the business. I didn't do well. I started to get into more entrepreneurship because learning growing up with my name on a building in a bakery, even though it wasn't mine, I never wanted to fucking work for nobody.

So I knew that, but I knew how to learn this industry. So I started to learn it. And I kept going and I kept failing forward. I had two failed businesses, but I kept failing forward. I never fucking gave up. And then I went into some consulting and I fucking crushed it, bro. I made millions of dollars. I helped an organization make millions of dollars.

We did amazing work. And yeah, man, I've been nothing but of service to others. I've helped probably fuck over a thousand families and addicts and alcoholics in my life, fine recovery. Life's been amazing, man. It's been constantly, it's been like an IRA, bro, right? It's like it's going to have its ups and downs, but it's been a constant trajectory up, man. My network of people today is completely different than what it was.

I don't give a fuck about what's going on in the neighborhood no more. My circle's different. I'm a man of God, personal development, and my service of others, bro. Like, that's what I live by. Faith, family, health, hustle, and purpose. Those are my five pillars. That's what the fuck I live by. And because of that, my life's been super abundant.

But more than that is, like, developing a man that could create all of this. You know, like, you don't become a million. You have to create a man that can become a millionaire. You have to create a man that can be in circles with a Darren Prince. If I'm running in the streets, Darren Prince ain't fucking coming and talking to me, dude. You know what I mean? I had to develop a new human being to create all these new vibrations

and frequencies in my life. And that's the beautiful fucking thing. I'm the fucking one Ian in my family that changed the whole fucking paradigm. for my son and his future generations, brother. You know what I mean? Now, after I had last year, if you want me to get into it, last year I had my business dealings, go sideways. But prior to that, I had some health issues.

I don't know if you want me to talk about that. So, like, as everything's being super successful in life, and when COVID hit, my father got sick and he got cancer and me and my dad's relationship as I got sober kind of went like this because I'm living this life of growth and service and then he was still doing what he was doing and that was real difficult to be like to leave that behind like to leave your family behind and start your life but like knowing this is like the only path for you to like have a chance because that life that you're living over there, ain't gonna fucking amount to nothing.

And like having to deal with my father's cancer and then his death was a lot. But I got to show up in like the greatest version of myself and write him all the things that he did for me. Because my father told me in the end because he was dying, he died broke. And he said like, I feel like God's punishing me for the shit that I did. That's fucking hard to hear from your father, bro. You know? And I made a vow like at that.

moments of him like that I'm a whole shit down and at that time I wasn't rolling like it was like 2019 he was sick 2020 um and I made a vow to him that I was gonna like uh carry on like the legacy it's in my book my father's uh eulogy if you read it um and my father's family did him real fucking dirty you know my family like the parisi bakery family's fucking did real dirty bro you know um so like I had that fucking fire man like through all of my life, like, to, like, shove it up everybody's fucking ass. Everybody that doubted me, all the motherfuckers in the neighborhood that look down on me, yeah, all you motherfuckers that look down on me in the neighborhood, right?

All the motherfuckers that judged me, my family, you know what I'm saying? I fucking grinded Ian and I put my head down and I turned a fucking failing company. A $1.2 million loss and I made them be a top line revenue of $7.2 million, $1.9 million fucking profit put my fucking head down for four years and I grinded for this fucking thing. You know what I'm saying? Because I had that fucking fire right after my dad died, a month later my grandma died. A month after that, one of my best friends got killed in a home invasion in New York that I'd helped to try to help get sober. But he went back to that life and got killed. A month after that, I herniated my disc in my neck. And I say, it never does it

matter what the fuck happens to you in life who gives a fuck this is where we're at or only focuses our evolution and our elevation because life doesn't happen to us it just fucking happens bro right so as long as we keep our sword sharp through god personal development my recovery and service of others faith family health hustle and purpose i stay focused only on that i shut the fucking noise off that's the type of dude i am horse with fucking blinders bro so we crush we do well we we fucking stick through all the hard shit, we do good. Me and my wife, we're fucking building. We're into real estate now.

We're crushing it, bro. And then last year in January, I get this fucking cough. And it's persisting. I'm traveling all over, bro. I was with Johnny Eblen at his fight with all the fucking UFC fighters in L.A. in 2023. Then I was down in, In Miami, I joined Eric Spofford's inner circle group.

I was at his mastermind. I was in New York. And this cough is persisting. It's continuing to persist. It's persisting. So I go to two primary care physicians because the first one gives me meds and they're like, it's not working.

The second one gives me steroids because it's the allergies here in central Texas. It's not going away in. So finally, I'm like, I got to go see a special. So I go see a gastro pulmonologist and I got a cardiologist appointment. Go to the gastro intestinal. Everything's fine.

This cough's getting worse now. It went from like just the night to like it's all day. Now it's day and night. It's like all night. And I go to the pulmonologist. They run tests on me. They tell me you have the rarest form of pneumonia called organizing pneumonia. Three percent of the population has it after COVID.

You're going to have to be on 60. 60 milligrams of pregnancy on steroids and 2,000 milligrams of amoxicillin, you're going to be on the steroids for six months. When I heard this, Ian, I thought this was the worst thing that I ever heard in my life. This was like fucking six months of steroids. I felt so sick, bro. I'm losing weight. So I start the therapy.

I cancel my cardiologist's a point memo, all right? I go home. I start the therapy. It's getting worse. Now I'm coughing up this iron stuff. Call the doctor. He gives me more. I tell my wife I feel like I'm dying

I'm telling everybody I feel I got text messages telling people bro I feel like I'm dying I don't know what the fuck's going on I can't eat my son's watching me suffer bro nobody believes me they're telling me that it's the fucking pregnant zone making me feel like this because it's such a high dose my dude when all this was happening I made an appointment with a fucking medium because when you're dying you want to be near your parents bro

and I wasn't near my father and me and my mom's relationship at the time was a little rocky because all the family bullshit with these fucking parisies and uh so i made this appointment with this medium that's like five like i made it in like probably like fucking january or february or or or uh probably january or february i made the appointment with this medium so anyway i'm fucking sick I call the pulmonologist, he gives me more meds,

and now I'm coughing this orange stuff. Finally, on May 8th, my dude, I cough up a half a bottle of blood, May 8th of 2023. I go to the pulmonologist that morning, it's at Baylor's Sky and White here in Lakeway, and so he emits me into the hospital. They admit me in, and now they say I have sepsis. I'm there for like 10 hours.

They treat me for sepsis. My wife leaves because I got no family. Yeah. And so she leaves. And I'm like, fuck, I got like an infection in my blood. This is fucked up. And, bro, you can't see now. But one of the nurses comes in and misses the, puts the wrong pick in my arm. And I have a third degree burn from the inside out of my arm. I saw that. Yeah. So now I got this fucking burn. I'm like, oh, my God, this is, like, I felt it. You know what I mean? The pain. And then a fucking dog. doctor walks in my dude and goes Mr. Parisi, my dude, he goes, Mr. Parisi, you don't have sepsis, you have 9% ejection fraction and you're living, your kidneys are failing. And we need to ship you to Temple, Texas. And this is why I'm trying to say, like, all the shit I've been through, my dude is like,

sometimes I think I'm dead right now because like none of this shit makes, my whole life don't make sense. So they're like, I'm like, what do you mean? I'm going to die. Like Temple, Texas, save my life. And think about the fucking word, bro. Like, we're in a city, we're in a state of 29 million people. And you have four major cities.

Four of the top 10 populated cities, San Antonio, Austin, Dallas, and Houston. But they're taking me to Temple. Temple. There's 20,000 people in Temple, Texas, Ian. Okay? And this is the place that's gonna save my life. And my wife meets me up there.

Now an ambulance is take, could you imagine this shit, bro? An ambulance is taking me. I've been in fucked up situations, bro. You know what I mean? This is the humanity, man. Like, I look at shit so different now, bro. Like, I took that drive up, man. And it's like me alone.

And it's like, I'm in recovery, bro. And like, the second step is God is everything, he is nothing. And the third step is I've turned my life and my will over the care of God as I understood him. So it's like, a lot of people talk this shit, but are you living it? And it's like, now my wife is there waiting for me at the hospital with a picture of my son, begging me to live, dog. And I got 10 minutes to fucking sit with my son. my wife, bro.

And I just built this beautiful fucking house, bro. I bought another house. Like, we just started to fucking do it, bro. Just starting to fucking do it. And like, yeah, I got 10 minutes to talk to her about my fucking life for her, bro, without her. And my dude, it gets mad weird. Like, I go in and I fucking, I died, brother.

I fucking died. And they put me on the ventilator, my dude. And I left my fucking body, bro. I left here, dude. And I'm in a dark fucking room, bro. Everything's fucking dark. And my man's with me who got killed. And I'm fucking looking down in a fucking hole at me on a fucking ventilator, bro,

with my wife next to me, dog. Like, I ain't trying to freak you out. No, you're good. And there's a voice that's telling me we want you here, bro. I was ready to die in. I swear to God, I was ready to die. I was ready to fucking give up, man. I had so much pain between my fucking family and the sickness that I felt.

And I had a fucking vision, my dude. I got emotional, bro. I had a vision of my son growing up without me, bro. I fucking, I said, yo, I got to come back for him. And I knew, bro. I know that everything I've been through in my life ain't about me, my dude. It's about him and his fucking future generations, bro. And so I come back, dude, and I'm like, maybe that shit didn't happen.

And I got doctors walking in now, Ian. I'm in a fucking bed, bro. This shit helps me. I'm in a bed for nine days, bro. I lost 50 pounds. And I'm like, maybe that didn't happen. And they got fucking, they got fucking doctors walking in there with hazmat suits. because they think I got tuberculosis

because the almond shit they think it's tuberculosis bro. So it's fucking May 18th bro, I'm in the bed now for like fucking 10 days dude and I got this appointment with this fucking medium bro that I booked fucking in January

I'm supposed to be on Eric Spofford's fucking boat 92 foot yacht with all these entrepreneurs and I'm fighting for my fucking life in a hospital bro and I got this fucking appointment with this fucking medium, bro. And my arm probably happened because I did that stupid shit.

So I don't owe the fucking amends. This is the fucking, I'm sorry, bro, but like the universities. And I fuck my wife's like, I don't want you talking to this fucking medium. And I'm like, I don't give a fuck. None of this shit makes sense. Does this make sense to you? This shit does, like, this don't make fucking sense, bro. So you could Google my name and look up shit

And find out stuff about my dad and me And all this other bullshit, right? You could go on the internet And so I speak to my father And she knows fucking everything about him, bro. Dr. Reddy was from New York City Or my doctor. The reason why Temple Texas is like one of the best cardio

Thoracic units in the whole fucking country Is because Dr. Reddy is from fucking New York City. He was there and saved me. He saw that Temple, the other fucking hospital basically almost killed me with all the fucking fluids. He reversed it. Save my life. He had his whole fucking team from New York, Mount Sinai. Well, one of them, Lennox Hill.

He brings his whole team from New York. What's the odds that one of the fucking guys, he's your age, he's in my PA. His father's in the mob in Temple fucking Texas out here, mom. What's the odds is? that. What's the fucking odds in 20,000 fucking people that I got another guy, similar to me, being here with me. Even though it's not him, he knows, he knows, he understands, right? My life a little bit. What's the odds that another one of the doctors went to the same college as my wife in Staten Island, Wagner College, and baked her favorite rainbow cookies?

So I'm talking to the medium and she knows everything about my father. She got two things wrong, But one thing that she got, she goes, all your fucking doctors from New York, I said, yeah, she goes, yeah, your father's symptom there. How she know that, bro? This call be coincidences here, and I don't know, Mom. I'm not this type of guy, just to be honest with you. I don't come from this, like, I'm not like this foo-foo type of dude, bro.

She got two things wrong. She said that there's a bird, he keeps telling me about a birthday and a pendant in a chain. And so my mom comes in the next day, and I tell her all about this. And I go, she got two things wrong, though. She said a pendant in a chain and a birthday. And I told you my dad's mom died when he was like 13 or 14.

I never knew her. She goes, today's your grandmother's birthday, May 19th. I didn't know. And she said the pendant and chain. When your father died, Aunt Dolores, my father's aunt gave a pendant in a chain of my grandmother to my mother. I'm in a fucking hospital, Betty. and she goes, I gave the fucking pendant and chain to your Aunt Camille.

My dad's sister, I FaceTime my Aunt Camille. She's wearing the pendant in the chain, bro. I feel like I'm in fucking Black Mirror. So now I'm like, all right, we're in fucking some weird shit. I don't know what's going on. I don't know what's going on. Like right now. And but I know, yo, bro, they're telling me that you might need a heart transplant

or a mitral valve replacement, which means you're going to get your chest cracked open so you got to get the fuck up, bro. I used to bench press 445 pounds when I was like your age, bro. It's a fucking animal. Yeah, when I talk about like fucking vicious animal, yeah, on drugs, like running the streets, like knocking motherfuckers out. So my 445, bro, was my first fucking 10 steps because when you're in a bed for nine days, you got to learn how to walk again, bro.

You understand? You got to learn how to fucking walk again. And I'm like, all this weird shit's happening. But, Mo, here's the deal. You've been here before. You ain't been here, but we've been in jail. You've been waiting like, man, am I going to go away? Is the paperwork going to get pulled?

What does my future look like? I've been overdosed before. I've been in hospitals. I've been in jails. I've been in rehabs. I've been in institutions. You ain't been here, but you've been here. You've been in situations like, man, are you going to come out of this?

Are you going to live through this? I've been in those before. I've been here before, but I've been here before. everything that I've been through in my life prepared me for what the fuck I was facing even my recovery, my personal development, my relationship with God, my complete abandonment to

fucking God of everything my son my wife, my finances, everything I worked for, everything I hustled for, all the fucking sacrifices. If you fucking want me, God, then you know better than me, bro, that's true real shit. That's real savage shit. That's real recovery shit.

And I got up and I started to walk my dude. I started to fucking walk and then you know what they did bro they put a pump in my chest 13 staples i'm a fucking opiate addict you know what i'd be fucking profen my dude savagery they put it in my chest now i got this fucking pump in my chest that's going to see if i'm going to live it's going to see if i'm going to keep this fucking heart or not because your heart's a muscle so it's going to make my heart rest and see if it's going to recover and they lower the setting so now i got to walk and I'm walking and I'm walking and I'm walking and I'm walking one mile, two miles.

Because when you're at your lowest in life, my dude, I know this through my personal development, through recovery. When you're at your lowest in life, what do we need? Love. And the only way, we're magnets, I told you, antennas. The only way we're going to get love in life is by giving it. So I know that in my lowest, I have to start giving it. I start buying all the nurses, breakfast, lunch, dinner.

I'm walking the fucking unit. I'm hearing fucking cold blue. Ian, you know what that means? Someone died, bro. That means someone fucking died. And I'm walking one mile, two miles, three miles, four miles. Bro, I'm walking five fucking miles. Could you imagine five miles in an ICU unit just over and over and over and over?

They got me a Superman cape, bro. When I left the room, they play the fucking music. Because as I'm walking, I'm getting the other fucking patients up to fucking walk with me. I'm being the light in the darkest of fucking times, bro. Because of the fucking man that I developed for my son, brother, not for me. For my fucking son and my future generations. So now I go in and I see Dr. Hassan and he's like, your heart's not recovered.

I got this pump in my chest for like fucking three weeks. Now I'm in the hospital for like fucking four weeks. They're like, listen, you're an old positive. So you're going to now need a heart transplant. it's going to take about six to eight weeks before you get a heart. So they're going to do the arm debridement on June 1st. They're going to debride my arm. My guy came in on May 8th.

So they're going to debride my arm, which means they're going to clean it. This much of my arm is missing now. When you're waiting for a heart transplant, you got to get vetted by a psychologist, a social worker, a fucking colonoscopy, blood, 9,000 tests. And then what they do is they sit and they meet

and they say either you get it or you don't. The other option is you get this machine that goes in your heart and out your stomach like fucking doctor octopus and you gotta wear a belt that plugs for 18 hours. Could you imagine waking up? Think about this mom. Put yourself in my shoes.

On May 8th and this is now like what you've faced over the past three weeks. you know you got to like bro i'ma tell the listeners like develop a savage mindset because i just live through it it's coming for all of us this shit i've been through is coming for everybody because life happens it doesn't happen to us it just happens and it's how we respond and it's never victim it's always what is the gift in this and what am i going to become because of it fucking nix Santa Nassaso, I love you. Because I joined that entrepreneur group with Eric Spofford and Nick Santonisoso, who has no, I don't know if you know him, he's got no legs in one fucking finger and one

arm. He's a multimillionaire. He's a mindset coach. He speaks for Tony Robbins. And he said in the hardest of times, you have to ask yourself, what is the gift in what you're going through and what are you going to become because of it? And that was my fucking mindset in the hospital. Never victim, bro. I already started. I started walking. Even with the heart transplant, Let's fucking go. I started to write a book because if I would have died, I wanted my son

to know who his father was. So I started writing the fucking book in the hospital. They vet me and now I get approved for the heart. June 1st, I get the armed of brideman. But now you got to wait for someone to die, Ian. Think about that shit, bro.

I'm like waiting for somebody to fucking die, bro. And then I'm like, am I going to live? Am I going to live through all this shit? So I get the armed of bribe, man. They say it's going to be six to eight weeks. Expect to be here the whole summer. And then on June 2nd, they come in one day after. Then they say tomorrow you're getting a heart transplant.

All this shit can be coincidence, dog. I want to hear, after this, I want to hear how you're internalizing all this. So I go in, man. And it's again, it's complete abandonment to God because am I going to come out of this? I don't know, bro. But I come out and I fucking live, dude. I live. But the fucked up part about this now is

on top of like I just lived and what does my future look like? Am I going to be able to play with my kid ever? Is this heart going to take? Am I going to live through this? Like there's like a 70% rejection rate the first year of your heart. What is all this going to look like?

And on top of it now I got to take these fucking pain minutes because I got my fucking chest sawed open, bro. With a saw. And the arm, the brideman, is like, worse than the chest. So I have like the most extreme fucking pain and I don't want to take these pain meds, but I have no choice. Like it was so severe my dude. Fetanoel wasn't working. They had to shoot me with Dilaudid. And then and then every time they would clean my arm for 25 days, it would literally feel like a flame thrower was on it. So I would have to do two shots of Dilaudid for my arm and

oxycontin 10 milligram and i stayed on the oxycontin 10 milligram for fucking 25 days bro even after the hospital till i got the skin graft surgery but i live my dude and it's i i was able to respond in the man i i did because of the man that i developed because my life i know is not about me bro like everything that i've been through god kept me here because i'm the fucking one in my family to change the DNA brother and this is really true because another crazy thing several weeks ago

for whatever reason this could be another coincidence all this could be coincidence everything I happen to get the mail on a Friday night I don't get the meal my wife gets the meal and I get the meal on a Friday night and it's my donor's family and I speak to the mom who's not really doing well

she's kind of struggling with some like mental health stuff and the parents are divorced and I speak to the dad and I find out that my donor is a 19 year old girl named Kaylee Bearden dude I got a 19 year old girl's heart in my chest my dude

and the dad goes I'm getting renewing my vows with my wife tomorrow of 10 years would you be part of the ceremony so I drove five hours with my family it could be a coincidence. Everything I just said could just be delusion and coincidence.

So I drove five hours to be with the family, walk his mother-in-law down the aisle and have all of her sisters and her 12-year-old sister who she's saved in a car accident, listen to her heart. I got female DNA, dog. Like my DNA's truly changed.

And I don't think I could even explain to you the experience of feeling of having a family member like stand to your eyes my dude and just fucking let out all those emotions of their fucking loved one and you. Do you feel like you're a new person now with a new heart? Like your mood, your feelings, like do you feel differently than you felt before?

Yeah, bro. You can't not. Like, it's all so crazy, bro. You know what I mean? It's fucking crazy. There's nothing else to say. But like, what am I doing with all this shit? That's the whole thing.

Well, you have to make it count. Exactly, bro. Do you feel like if this had happened 10 years earlier, it probably wouldn't have had this outcome? No, I would, I always talk about keeping a sword sharp, bro. The swords weren't going to be sharp enough then. But I'm clear on why all this happened. Like, I know why.

they don't know why like why I had the heart transplant I have a rare gene called TTN Titan but there's no they don't know why the gene was activated so there's no like it's inconclusive of why

this even fucking happened I know I know why it happened I 100% know why it happened it happened because I'm the one I'm the one in my family it had to be removed because it held so much of my trauma still and old ancestral generational parisi curses it literally did bro and it had to be removed and god gave me a younger woman's heart so that i could do his mission bro

because also this year dude not only did i lose my heart i lost all my income the company that i helped build over like five years we parted ways over like corporate greed bullshit whatever it is what it is right but in the hardest of times most people were crippling this right like your heart was taken or your income was taken but dog you you create a savage fucking mindset of never victim here's the key to life create a vision for yourself how do we create a vision through keeping the channel open bro how do we keep the channel open through personal development through forming a relationship of the relationship with God. We stay open.

We get the fucking intuition, the vision. So you create the vision. You make an agreement with yourself. That no matter what, even in the face of death, you're still going to show up in the man that you develop, in that vision. You're going to make this fucking agreement. Even in death, I'm showing up in service.

Literally, you make the fucking agreement. You shut all the, noise or fuck what's going on. Fuck that you, you lost everything, bro. Fuck it. Shut all the noise. Bring in the energy and frequencies

that are on the same vibration as you that is going to help the vision become a reality and take massive action every fucking day until the vision is a reality and then you rinse and repeat. And that's how you fucking embrace their abundance. So much shit is, twisted in life. We chase money. Like I look at all the shit that my family did over money.

True abundance is vibration and frequency. It's internal, bro. It's the work we do internally that help us to vibrate high. That creates abundance. My home vibrates in a frequency of love, support, empathy. It vibrates in a frequency that is high. That is. That is. is abundance. It's I know people that make three, four, five million, they're fat fucks and they fucking cheat on their wife. What abundance is that? So true abundance for me is, is, is that. It's my vibration internally and my vibration of my home, my brother, you know, I don't know where I went with that shit, but. No, I think that's, uh, you did really well and that's a perfect way to rap. Yeah. Frank, I appreciate you taking the time to sit down with me and share your incredible

story and hopefully it inspires some others. You have a, you got a gift, you know, this second act of your life. And I think that's unlimited motivation right there. And it really can re-inivate, what is it the word I'm looking for? Re-inific, whatever that word is. I understand. Yeah, motivate you to keep going and help others. Yeah. My main thing, Ian, is like, I've been through so much. So like I want to be the hope for others because hope is such a strong emotion and hope creates belief and belief changes. When we believe, we change. Belief changes the world, bro.

Absolutely. Well, thank you, Frank. Thank you, my brother. Enjoy your anniversary. Thank you. Bring some donuts to her. Go get some voodoo donuts, bro. Absolutely.

Thank you, brother.