Matthew Cox | Inside True Crime Podcast - Kingpin Survives Illegal Headshot From Police

Episode Date: October 11, 2024

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I started using meth when I was 14. I was like 13, 14. And I had a little bit of an eating disorder. I had body dysmorphia and I was worried about my weight. I was always taking like diet pills and things like that. And so I was dating this guy and he was like, do you want to try meth? I'm like, yeah, sure. And it wasn't like, it wasn't, it wasn't, you know, you would think it would be like, oh, you smoke some weed or do something like that. No, I was just, I was like, oh, is it like diet pills? And he's like, Yeah, it is. I said, great. Give it to me. Did my friend. How old is this guy? You're 13 or 14 years old. He's the same age. He's like a year older than me age-wise, but in the same grade. And he had an older brother that, you know, had access to drugs. But, but he's like, yeah, you know, here you go. Do a line. I'm like, cool. I did it. Are you dating a guy that was like in a trailer park? Like, what, what middle-class American has access to them at 13? 14 his dad was a cop wow okay okay okay since the city's not like to ampah no his dad's a cop my dad's an attorney we have you know like we we both come from good families to this day both

his parents i believe are still married i know my parents are still married like there's no excuse we just were not we're fearless just this is back in the 90s you know it's just it's just it's not like today where people are like, oh, I'm going to die of fentanyl. Right. I was like, oh, it's like diet pills. Great. Sign me up. I didn't even have us.

You didn't have to talk me into anything. It wasn't like, he was like, oh, you got to do some drugs. I was like, yes, let's do the drugs. Okay. You know, so I was like, okay, cool. But I wasn't the type of drug user that wanted to go and get high with a bunch of people because I didn't like for people, really. I like to go riding my horses and do all my stuff with that.

But I didn't, I didn't really get too heavily into it until I was 16. He turned 16 before I did about a year. So 15, he's 16, I'm 15. We're running out to Kansas to pick up drugs and do all this stuff. And that's what it really got going was once he turned 16 and we were mobile. His older brother was friends with some bikers out there. And so that's how I got into that. But when I didn't come, you know, I wasn't the high school girl that was like, oh, let's go to the

parties and stuff. I never went to the parties because I was at horse shows. I showed horses all over the country. So I didn't like hang out with anybody. So there was nobody that was like, oh yeah, she gets high because nobody knew. But I was like, I was running 10 miles a day. I was lettering in academics. I was doing a thousand setups. I was like all over the place. I was like, yeah, I'm doing it. But I was also like super ADHD. So like when I wasn't high, I felt like I wanted to jump out of my skin and run away. And then I would get high and I was like, I can do everything. And be cool about it. You know what I mean?

I was just like, oh, this is the greatest thing ever. And so eventually at some point, you know, I made friends with people that were cooks. And I was able to get them some, you know, some ingredients. And so I always had pretty much whatever I wanted. And it wasn't a big deal to me. There was never a part of me that was like, oh, my God, you know, this is so bad. I shouldn't be doing this. I'm like, because in my brain, I was like, this helps me.

I mean, I'm lettering in academics. I'm able to run 10 miles. I'm able to do all these things. Go ride four horses. Go do whatever. I'm taking care of everything. And nobody knows. Nobody knows anything.

I can go down in the bathroom and do what I need to do. And then I'm cool for the next day. Okay. So, yeah, it's not like you're prostituting yourself on 56 and Bush Boulevard to get the money. The money is simply you're just swapping out chemicals for, drugs that are very accessible and you're just really self-medicating yes absolutely yeah so it's more of a self-medication type thing um and then i um i letter in academics i got into college i did my four-year undergrad at UMKC and then i got into law school i took the LSAT got into

law school there and when i got into law school i was like you know it might be time to like stop doing drugs maybe it's which was this stupidest thing all of it was stupid but so i'm going to get in the law school and go through withdraw and come off all this stuff that i've been using for years and then i'm going to be successful like it was it was bad timing and so you know i started a girlfriend but that guy's gone oh he's long gone yeah that's yeah high school that was nice school we have gone on to college and now law school. But, um, so I was in this mindset that I, I wasn't doing drugs, that now I'm sober, you know, which is true, it's complete bullshit because I was still going out partying.

I was still doing. I was still drinking. Maybe some acid on the weekend, you know, I'm just, I'm just doing my thing, but I'm not doing meth. So in my brain, I've stopped using drugs because that was my drugs. So if I use other things and drink and do whatever, then, you know, it's not a big deal. Right. That's how my brain.

processed everything, which is my brain is part of my whole problem. But because I'm like, no, that's just cool. It's just fine. You know, no big deal. But so then I ended up quitting law school. I did the first year and I was like, this is not for me. But I was also going through a lot of emotional stuff with probably because I had, I'd been using drugs for years and I'm going through coming off drugs. You know, looking back, I'm like, that was just terrible timing. So do your parents have any idea any of this is happening? So at one point, one of my horses got really sick, and I, he collicked. And so I was at the barn and I was, I was walking this horse.

We're, you know, trying to get him. What does that mean? Collect. So if a horse can't throw up and they can't shit, their stomach will turn into a knot and they'll die. Oh, okay. And these are show horses. So it was not like, it was a big deal. And they were my babies.

So I'd spent all day at the barn. and I ended up leaving the barn. I went over to a friend's house. One of the few friends' house that knew anything about any of what I did. And so I get to his house and he had like an intervention with his family. His dad was also a cop. And so they have this big intervention. And they're like, hey, we know everything.

We know everything that you're doing. I'm like, you know, I don't even know what to say. I'm not even admitting to it at this point. I'm like, uh, what? I'm just kind of taking it all in. The phone rings. I had a cell phone since I was 16. The phone rings.

It's my dad. And he's like, hey, your horse is sick. And I have him in the trailer and I need you to meet me on front street so we can get in the truck. So you can get in the truck so you can come with me to Columbia to get this emergency surgery because we had to have him cut open and have his intestines cleaned out by hand. So you have one shot with this thing. If a horse starts colican, you got one shot. Back in those days, there was nobody, there was no bets close that could possibly do this surgery. So you had to

shoot him up with a lot of drugs and then just pray that that he made it for the trip. Because if they, if they go down, that's the end. You got to put him down on the road. So it's a whole thing. So it was really stressful. Anyway, my friend's dad drives me to go meet my dad on front street. And he gets in the car and gets in the truck and my dad's sitting there and he's like what and he's like your daughter has a lot to tell you and do not let her out of this truck until she tells you everything and my dad's like what so i'm like hi and so i get in this truck we're now about to do like three hours in the car with it with the truck the trailer and the horse so my dad's driving along and he's like what what do you want to tell me and I was like, I've done a lot of drugs a lot.

And meth is my favorite drug, and I've done a lot of meth. He's like, how do you do it? And I was like, every way. Because, I mean, I was shooting up at the time. I was doing all of it. I didn't, I mean, I was not afraid of it at all. Right. And he's like, okay, what do you want to do?

And I was like, I guess I'll go to rehab. I don't know. I guess I'll go to rehab. I was like, my friend, he was just at rehab, and this place has really good ice cream. So maybe I could go there. And my dad's like, okay. So what I didn't know is that the guy that I was dating at this time was putting heroin in the that I was shooting. And so I didn't realize that I had now a lot of heroin, like heroin and meth in my system.

I wasn't like huge fixed shots up for me and I'm like yeah cool whatever I wasn't paying attention to that and so um we end up in Columbia the horse gets the surgery it's now the next morning at 5 a.m and my dad we had to leave the horse there so we had to drive back in the truck and now it's Saturday it's like maybe Friday or Saturday so it's too late to like go to rehab you know we're going to go to rehab on Monday so Friday night sets in and I'm I'm in my bedroom I'm I'm sweating. And I'm starting, I think it was sometime into the weekend. I start hallucinating.

I thought somebody, I thought a car pulled up next to my bed and, like, people got out and started partying. I was like, I can't do this right now. And then I was army crawling to the bathroom, throwing up. I was really sick. And I was like, what is happening to me? And I think it was Sunday night, this guy called me. He was like, I need to tell you something.

I'm like, okay? And he's like, he, uh, this guy has been putting heroin in your mat that you, that he knew you were shooting. and so you're coming off a heroin. That's what you're doing right now. And I'm like, fuck. You know, if I would have known that's what it was, I might have gotten myself up and gone to try to find something.

You know what I'm saying? Like, I didn't realize that that's what was going on, which is probably a huge blessing. But it was horrible. It was the worst thing that I've ever been through. So I was like, I'm good on the heroin thing. You know, that's all for you guys. I'm good.

So I went to the rehab. I ate all the ice cream. He gained a bunch of weight, everything. You know how you do. But then, but I thought the rehab was really stupid because, you know, all you do is sit around and talk about the drugs that you did all day long. So in 30 days, and I'm outpatient because by the time I get there, they're like, well, you've detoxed yourself.

I'm like, yeah. And they're like, okay, well, you can do outpatient. You can't do inpatient. You're already detox. You already, by Monday, it's like, we're already like almost five days detox. She's like, you don't need to be inpatient. So I'm like, okay, cool. So I did the outpatient and did the meeting stuff and all that stuff.

And it wasn't too long after that that I was right back into it until I got to law school. So my parents are much older. My mom was 38 when she had me. My dad is five years younger than her. But they're older. I'm my dad's only daughter. My brother was a super good kid. So nobody alerted them to the fact that kids are crazy.

and we'll do some really weird things. And so they just kind of, you know, they're just super good people. And, you know, when you're super good people, you just think, oh, this isn't happening. My kids, but when I first told my dad, I was using drugs, he at one point, he was like, you know, I just thought maybe you were crazy. It's like, that's fair. At least this is fixable. Yeah. You know, I mean, oh, it's not a mental thing.

Well, it's a mental thing, but, you know, maybe we can work with this. You know, it's okay. We can get through this. my dad's super cool he's super laid back and he's just that's how he approaches things okay we have this problem let's find the solution and then we're going to move forward and we're united front and that's how we're going to be and so um that's how he's always been with me and so uh so i did the law school thing i quit law school um i was drinking a whole lot and i one day i think it was about two months after I quit law school, I was still living at my parents' house. And I remember I got up and I was

like, I'm going to be a realtor. That's what I'm going to do today. So I got up and I go upstairs and my mom sitting there and she's like, what are you doing today, honey? And I was like, I think I'm going to go be a realtor. She's like, you're going to be the best realtor. I'm like, I am. So I went out and got my real estate license. I got enrolled in a class and I got my real estate license and I started doing that. I did really well with that. And at some point in there, I met my now ex-husband who drank a lot of whiskey with me. And, you know, I wasn't using drugs. I was away from drugs completely at this point. No Coke, no nothing. It was just whiskey. You know, that was my new thing. I was in love with whiskey. So we were married for about a year and a half when I started

thinking about a divorce and then I was pregnant and I was like yeah well I guess I'm gonna I guess here I am I guess this is happening I was like 26 and I remember telling my dad I'm like I'm pregnant he's like this is wonderful I like you know I told him like I was a child I was like I'm pregnant and he's like this is great I want a grand kid I'm like oh okay I guess we're doing this you know I guess okay I never really wanted kids I was just like all right we're doing this thing so But I can't stand my ex-husband. Cannot stand this guy. You know what I mean?

Not, I mean, how did that come about? Like, I'm assuming at one point you found him appealing. I did. He was funny and he was fun. And we, like, had a great time. And then I got sober. I stopped drinking. And then nothing cool.

I thought I was in love with you, but it was the alcohol. I love whiskey. It's not you. It has nothing to do with you, apparently. And so I was like, yeah, this sucks, you know, I don't know what I'm going to do, but that was a, that was a whole mess. And so I was completely clean and for a good four years of my daughter's life. And by the time she was about, I don't know, probably two, three months old, she was in a pumpkin seat going to show houses and stuff with me. And so she did, she was a big part of my real estate career.

I mean, this kid showed more houses because I'm like, listen, that we're doing this. And you're coming because your dad sucks. And so it's just me and you kid, it's us. He's still at the house. I'm just like pretending like he's not there. You know, I'm just going to keep it moving. And what is he doing? He's a realtor too.

No, he's not. He's a, he worked for FedEx, National Freight. He was a diesel mechanic. Oh, I thought you said you met him when you were doing the real estate. When I was in real estate, but he was, we had mutual friends. We all went on a float trip, drink a lot of ski and I was like, you're the funnest person I've ever been around, ever. Like, you were so funny and cool. And I just stayed drunk a lot. So, you know, that didn't occur to me. And I was like,

you know, six months later, he's like, let's get married. I'm like, awesome, let's go to Vegas and get married. And we did. Like, you know, we drank the whole way there and the whole way home, you know, bought a house on land. And then, and then I was pregnant with my daughter. I'm like, yeah, this is happening. This is really, we're doing this thing, you know. And I look back on my life, like, leading up to that. And I'm like, well, it's kind of shocking. I made it that far. It's crazy as I was as a teenager, just doing whatever. It's amazing. I was like, oh, I made it, you know, okay, I'm doing okay. You know, this isn't too bad. And then my daughter, she was like 18 months old. She could walk and talk well. She'd be showing houses. She'd walk in. And she'd be like,

what beautiful carpet this is or what beautiful cabinets these are and I was selling a bunch of condos downtown Kansas City and I had investors that loved her and they're like we bring your daughter today I'm like really so like one day I'm driving down Broadway and I've got a like a six-seater golf cart and she's sitting on my lap and there used to be the Folgers coffee plant that was right there and so I'm cruising down Broadway I got investors on the back I got my daughter in my lap it was right around the time of Brittany Spears getting caught with her kids on our lap when she was driving. And so I'm driving past Folgers and they're like, hey, Britney. I'm like, shut up.

But anyway, so she showed all kinds of stuff with me. We had a really good time. And I didn't work a ton during the week because we were busy. We were going to the zoo. We were going to oceans of fun. And yeah, we had a great time. But around the time she was about four, I was like, I can't do this marriage thing anymore. So, and I remember the day where I was like, this is it.

I can't do it. It was like, we had taken her to the zoo in the morning, came back. He started playing video games. I got on the tractor, brush hog, you know, the whole entire pasture. I'm 10 acres. Brush hog, the whole pasture, and then get on the other mower and finish mode, everything. And then I come in and clean the house, do the laundry, get the kid food. And then he comes in and tries to put his hand on my leg.

And I'm like, fuck you. Absolutely. don't touch me don't do it so I told my dad I was like I can't do it because I tried to do it when Lily was too and my dad was like you have to wait till she can walk and talk really well before you try to do this because without going into details his parents are crazy and he's pretty vindicted so anyway at four I was like I can't do this anymore and you know you're not wrapping your brain around the fact that you're going to be stuck with this person for the duration of the until they're 18 you got an 18 year sentence with this right so yeah uh

and that was a mess and so once we got divorced um he ended up getting with another girl that decided that she absolutely hated me and she started filing restraining orders against me and the first one my dad was really pissed and i was like i don't i've never seen this girl in person i don't know how you this is crazy like how do you file a restraining so we get to court and this girl proceeds to tell the judge that she's never seen me in person and he threw her out of the courtroom and threw off the case and she busted through the double doors with her arm late and throws a timber tantrum on the floor in the courthouse i've never seen anything like it it knew that she proceeded to file five more restraining orders against me she just kept going back and filing so what what

Did the same judge, does he keep just kicking him out? Hicking him out until the very last one where he's like, okay, he calls my ex-husband up to his, he's like, Mr. Morgan, you're going to have to do some work here because this is the mother of your child. And this is your new wife, and she's not the mother. So, you know, he's like, I'm going to give Ms. Morgan something. She hasn't even asked for him.

What am I going to get? And he's like, I'm going to give her a restraining order against her. he's like miss benjamin at the time miss benjamin when you were at a soccer game with his daughter and the mother shows up you're going to pick up your keys and get in your car and you're going to leave well i never asked for a restraining order so there was nothing in place for me to actually back this thing up it all sounded good but at the end of the day it didn't work out like that and so you know they continued to do all kinds of crazy stuff and like i'd be at the soccer games with my daughter and they'd call the cops and even the cops would show and be like what do we

doing here i was like basically you're here just for show you're just here to to humiliate me and to make a scene so that i don't want to come back to soccer games that's all you're doing at this point but um that's a really tough deal that's hard to deal with you didn't see this coming beforehand it just you're me this guy wasn't like you didn't there were there were no signs this guy was an idiot prior to this? Oh, he's an idiot. But I didn't think he had this much energy. Okay. Okay, because it was mostly playing video games and sit down the couch. Yeah. So, I mean, like the effort and the energy that went behind so much of this stuff was almost impressive to me. So I was like, I got somebody who did have the energy. Exactly. Yes. And so she, you know, she wanted my daughter to be her daughter and

she wanted me to be gone and so we were week on week off with custody and um with all of this going on it just got to where it was too much for me and i was getting really i was incredibly depressed you're gonna get i mean it's just when you when it's like that and you have to exchange at the police station and you don't know if the cops are going to show up and start you know because they call them and they because they called them on me so many times and like every single time the cops are like i don't understand what i'm doing here well neither just anybody else so I don't know I don't know what to tell you because I'm the mom and I'm here to pick up my daughter and I mean there was a lot of stories in between that was just absolutely crazy but

anyway so that is where the depression really started kicking in anxiety depression so when she went to her dad I started losing my mind and I went back to my first love which is Matt um I was actually I started off with ADHD meds I went to the doctor I got Adderall and Zan and got back on the ADHD, I actually had a real ADHD med prescription. So that didn't do it for me because I remembered the old ways, the olden days when, you know, I had something that actually works. And so I ran into a friend that from the olden days and he was like, do you want some? I'm like, yep.

And that's all it took. Because, you know, if you have been an addict in your past and you step away from it, you get cleaned up, when you go back, I think it's 20 times worse. Like physically, and maybe drugs were different at that point. You know what I mean? Like things changed and I had changed. And so when I went back to it, it was the most slippery slope you've ever seen. What do you mean? Um, my addiction was unbelievable when I went back to it. So, so I'd have my daughter week on, week off. When I had her, I shut it down. I wasn't doing anything. You know, I'd spend, I'd have my week with her. But when she'd go back to her dad's house, like the minute I dropped her off, I was like, somebody needs to come get me high, like right now. Like, I need to do this. So, so I did. And, um, you know, as your addiction grows, you look,

And as you're older, you know, it's interesting because we shop at Costco and stuff like that. And you buy everything in bulk because you don't want to run out. Like, it's, I have so much crap at my house that I buy in bulk. Like, everything I get is in bulk, like ridiculous amounts of bulk. And that was my mentality with because I wanted to make sure I had it at all times. And so I started buying more and more and more of it. And then, you know, people that were close to me knew that I could get a lot of money. And so it was just me.

a couple people that I was like, all right, sure, let's do this. And it, you know, wasn't, it really wasn't that big of a deal I didn't think. I mean, you know, I just felt like it was just such a little deal in my head. Like, I mean, really, it wasn't that big a deal. But, you didn't think it was a big deal when you were 14 in doing math. Exactly. I mean, you're. But I also fell asleep one day.

I took a long nap and I woke up, you know, seven, eight hours later to a whole bunch of phone calls and text messages. Everybody, nobody could find anything. And I was sleeping with it. So I kind of started realizing that maybe I was a bigger problem than I thought for myself and probably the whole city. You took a nap and the whole city went down. The town is dry. Why? I don't know.

I'm like, oh, I don't, I don't know where anything is. It might, I bet it will show up in a little bit. You know, I just didn't really tell them. I was like, oh, yeah, I don't have anything at all. Because I just didn't tell people. I didn't want them to come over. Whatever. But so at one point, there was a guy that I was introduced to.

And this part all happened, like, within a month and a half. It was, it was a weird, interesting thing. Like there was there was some Mexicans that got busted and there was a whole weird deal with that and I was like, hmm, it's time to get away. You know, this is. What do you mean there were some Mexicans? So you were buying from some Mexicans and they got busted? One of the brothers got busted. And I was like, oh, yeah, this is about to get ugly around here.

I thought you were just getting stuff from somebody used to know. Was that a guy, a Mexican? Yeah. Oh, okay. I don't know. I thought you'd been a childhood friend. I thought he must mix. The first was just a friend.

That was just a friend. And then I went on and, you know, people that can network really well, you have this ability to find whatever it is that you want to find and whatever quantity that you want to find. So it started started off with a friend that ended up with Mexicans. No, I know. You talked to Billy next door. And then you talk to his friend, Jerry, who knows a guy named Pablo. And the next thing you know, you're buying directly from Mayo Zimbada, the head of the Cittaloa cartel. I know exactly what you're saying.

Isn't that how it always works? I've heard that story a thousand times. Exactly. Yeah. And that's just it. It's really not that you need. Next time you're next thing you know, you deal with the cartel. You know, it slips up on you.

These things happen. You know, they just do. But so I was introduced to. do a guy that I had known him for maybe a month and a half and he was like, hey, can you get anything? I'm like, no, I can't get anything at all. And so, but he kept kind of coming around. He was friends with the guy that I was friends with. And so, um, it people, like, everybody kept trying to get a hold of me for stuff. And I'm like, ready to be completely out of it. I'm like, I don't know anybody's talking about this point. Like, I'm done, done. Like, it's over. This

would have been December of 2013. I'm like, I'm out. I don't want any part. I'm like, I don't know where anything's at. I can't get anything. Well, people don't take no for an answer when it comes to that. You know, that's, they're like, yeah, you do. You know how to get it. I'm like, I don't know how to get anything. I don't know how to do it all. So, um, we have, we have the one guy that I, I knew for about a month and a half, and he's friends with this other guy. So in January, other guy starts texting me and he's trying to get me to go out with them and trying to get me to like hook up business partner-wise. And I'm like, I am not interested in either, but thank you.

Like, no, I'm good. So this goes on like through January of 2014. And it was probably the last week of January, this guy got really pissed off at me. And he starts sending me pages of text messages explaining to me of what he's going to go and tell the feds now this is you know what an interesting way to take a rejection and and you know it's really kind of baffled me to this very day is that like you went like this is a guy that was selling a bunch of out of a hotel in carney it was the carney was all right he's selling a

whole bunch of out of here out of its hotel and I'm like why do you want anything to do with me just leave me alone. His girlfriend lived at the hotel with him. We're not going on a date. I don't want to be reading this mess. And I'm not going to come to a hotel and want any part of it. But anyway, so he keeps sending me these text messages of what he's going to go to the beds with. Well, you know, I would flash back to law school to where I was like, that's hearsay. I mean, first of all, like, this is what you're going to do? Like, this is what you're saying? Like, you know, you're in a a situation where, like, people are like, you do the crime, you do the crime, you better do the time. I was like, well, this is, I don't even know what to say to this. You know, I'm like,

but he's going through and he's giving me details of that he's going to tell them I'm the king pen and that I'm doing all this stuff and that I'm acting like a king pen and I'm running this huge organization. Has he been arrested? This guy. He's just saying, I'm just going to go in and do this. Yeah. Unless you and I, what? Or start hooking up and start selling, start doing some business. You're right.

Yeah. So, and when I tell you the detail that I would love to have this phone. I wish I had this phone because I didn't even really show anybody this. I'm just, I remember standing in my garage smoking a cigarette and I'm like, what the fuck? Like, I've seen people get upset with. rejection but I've never seen anything like this but I'm like he's going to go to the cops and just tell them this stuff I was like well you know if they don't catch me with anything then it won't

matter you know I mean like what's he going to do if I'm not doing anything they can't get me there's nothing to get it and so um so February I believe it was February 2nd um I had bought this old it was like a 98 UCon 2-door square body truck and this was going to be my project truck I was going to make it hot pink and black I was real excited about this truck

by buying this truck I change out the wheels on it I put on these I had some really pretty wheels with big tires but the tires were really kind of shit but they looked cool but I was like

I'll get the tires change out later it's fine it looks cool with those REMs we're going to start there well then my daughter and I, we go out to play games at Dave and Busters, and we're on our way back, and it's snowing, and I figure out that this thing, the four-wheel drive doesn't work in this thing. And I'm like, it might be a pin. I don't know. Maybe it's something simple. So I get back to the house, I get a hold of the guy that I had known for about a month and a half because I knew

he worked on cars. And I'm like, hey, I need the four-wheel drive looked at in this truck. if you have some time if you're over by this way if you can stop by and he's like yeah okay cool well then he shows up with his ex-wife and she's like she's really she's like the sweetest lady on earth and i'm like he's like here i were out already so i just thought i'd see why i'd take a look and i'm like okay okay and i mean i i had met the ex-wife a couple times she was she had several children she's nice really nice lady anyway my daughter's in bed sleeping and I'm like okay so he goes out he works on the trot for a little bit and she and I are sitting in there watching TV just chit-chatting so he comes back in and he's like hey I think I got

it fixed do you want to go for a test drive really quick and I'm like yeah absolutely that's fine because she's like because she's like oh I can stay here you know she's sleeping it's so big deal I'm just going to sit here and watch this show we're watching some trash TV I don't even remember what it was she's like I'm gonna stay here and watch us and I'll you'll stay with her it's no problem so we take off it's snowing and icing and he's driving we get down the street and i'm like it's not working so he went just a little bit further and i was like all right turn around i'm good i'm going back because i'm thinking i will walk you know that's fine now let me back up just a little bit i mean why i mean he's still going like he why is he still going the four-wheel drive was not

working so why are we still going right right you said turn around why didn't he turn around exactly I don't know. You know, it's getting weirder, but I'm just like, okay, whatever. So I had been in high-speed chases with this guy in the month prior. I had been with him on two occasions where he was like, hey, you know, hop in, let's go here. I went with him. He's wanted. So we'd been into previous high-speed chases.

Again, no fear. But I'm like, okay, cool. You know, we're out in the country. We're not, you know, nobody's out here. it's it's mid you know me like midnight or something nobody's out here no big deal we're just going to go down the street turn around come back no problem so he kept going and then when i was like okay you're turning around or i'm walking like what is he going to be and so he pulls into this driveway and when he does the cops roll up on us and they flip their lights on and i'm like are you fucking

serious right now like this is happening right now like you never see cops out there at this time like It's middle of the night, we're going to turn it around, and the tags are fine. I just had gotten this truck, so I don't understand it. So anyway, I was like, I looked at him. He looks at me. He's like, I'm wanted. I was like, we don't have four-wheel drive, but we have bald-ass tires. What are you going to do?

I just put my seatbelt on. I was like, oh, my God. So he goes to pull out in front of this cop. The cop is sitting on the road with his lights on. He pulls out of this driveway and pulls in front of the cop. and he's heading up this hill and the cop isn't moving he's just sitting there with those lights on and i'm like what the fuck is going on right now so we get up over the hill there's another cop standing there with the parrot with like the stop sticks and he goes to throw them out but he doesn't get them out all

the way so this guy just makes a right on the next country road he's heading down the road you hear sirens you can see lights in the distance but nobody's really chasing I did him. I was like, what the fuck is going on? Like, this is the strange, like, are you, do you have any idea what's going on? Like, did you do something earlier? Is there some reason that this is happening right now? No, no, no. I'm like, all right, cool. To this day, I'll never understand it because none of it makes sense. But at one point, he turned out another road, decides he's going to make a turn. I'm like, this road doesn't go through. And I've got two rules with relationships and high-speed chases. Once you hit the accelerator, you never let off and you'd never turn around you never go back the way you came you don't do it well he had to turn around go back the way he came sounded better to me just to get out and run i was like i was you know let's just leave it here and i'll deal with that later i'll walk back i'm fine with that right i'm country girl i don't have any problems so um he turns around he's heading back the in the same direction and i'm like here we go this is going to be bad well there's a

cop that's pulled over in this on the side of the road we're going a good 25 miles an hour because it's slippery as shit cop's over in the grass he doesn't have his lights on he's out in front of his car he's aiming a gun like i can see him in his headlights but he doesn't have like the flashers on and he's shining a light into the the car so he can see where i'm at he's shining it at me i can see it firing like you can see it but you can't hear it can't hear it on the receiving end and then as we go by him there's remember there's nobody in harm's way there's there's nothing in front of us there's nobody ahead of us as we go by him he shoots five times at the back of my head and the guy driving's like oh my god he's shooting at us and i said and i felt i felt it i got hit

and i was like yeah i just got shot and i went like that and blood poured everywhere and he was like oh my god i got to get you to a hospital i was like you're not going to get me to a fucking hospital dude let me out at the stop sign i will get myself to the fucking hospital one way another you ain't getting nowhere and um but two bullets were in my headrest like in the metal part of the headrest two bullets were in front of me in the dash and one was in the back of my head head so did did it go through the headrest it went no it went through the window and then it went into my head so i had like a high high ponytail like bun type thing and it spun a nest in the center of it and so it was in my head it was poked into my skull but i i yeah no it was it got

stopped in my hair and so yeah i mean why wouldn't it right so um he stopped well is it in your like did it penetrate your your skull yeah okay well you okay okay so i can smell my hair and flesh burning, you know, from the hospital. I can smell everything burning. And I'm like, okay, I'm, I'm going to die. You know, this is going to suck. So I get out of the truck. And I was like, just fucking go. I slam the door. And then I just, I'm standing there and I'm thinking, what the fuck am I going to do now? You know? And I asked myself, I was like, what do I? And I, in my, you know, you have that conscious thing that talks to you when you're about to go you know into shock and everything and i don't know i think it was god that was like what are you

going to do with this now like are you going to fight for this are you or are you just going to what are you going to do now now like what are you going to do with all this i'm like how you got to do is mention a fight to me and i'm in you know like that's cool like let's fight for so here come finally here comes all the cops and they surround me i'm i got blood pouring from head to toe it's filling at my boot and uh i'm i'm like you motherfuckers. I was like, so is that your policy to shoot the passenger? Like, that's how you stop the truck is to shoot the, I'm talking to him just like this. Blood porn everywhere. And they're just looking at me like, I'm a circus animal. I was like, well, don't, I was like,

say something. What? I was like, you shot me. I'm the passenger. He's like, well, you guys shot at us. I said, oh, no, we didn't. And I said, what I would like for you to do is when you recover that truck that I'm sure you're about to go recover, I would like for you to do, test it for gun residue because you won't find any inside that truck. So then what? Then what are you going to do when you find out that there was no shots fired out of that truck and you've shot me in the back of the head? Then what? And they're all just kind of, the one cop was like, can I pat you down? I'm like, absolutely. So I put my hands on the top of the cop car. I got blood everywhere. I'm finger painting in my own blood looking into the camera. I'm just, at this point, I'm losing my mind. So here,

comes the ambulance finally i got one cop standing behind me with like a maxi pad trying to like put i said don't pocket touch me don't touch me like that just don't don't do it don't touch me so the ambulance guy i said uh hey i said can you just pull this out and i'll just i can walk back you know he's like no i i i you're gonna get in here i came all the way out here and you have a bullet in your head so i'd like for you to get in here now i'm like whatever dude so i get in there and he says to me he's like do you think your hair stopped the bullet i was like definitely that's definitely what happened he's just like yeah maybe you never know so i get to the hospital and um i i was i was a raving lunatic i mean i was cussing everybody out the cops would be standing

outside my door and i'm like yeah i have a bullet in my head but i can hear everything that you're saying so shut the fuck up you know but then the feds showed up the DEA showed up and they started questioning me and so I knew I knew what time it was I knew what was what was getting ready to go down I don't I don't understand like they're not like I don't understand that they're after the wanted guy who's driving your truck that they pull over doesn't seem like they're after you or where they're trying to get after you know like I'm not understanding and how why did the feds show up for what reason well the only thing that I can really makes sense of the whole thing is the guy that sent the text messages with the full

description of everything he was going to send to the EA he did it and and it's the only thing that truly makes sense as to I think that that night they were coming to my house so I think that the way things worked out was better because they didn't kick in my door when my daughter was there and they didn't you know yeah I got shot but I would rather have taken a bullet in the back of my head than have my door kicked in with my daughter there so so I'm sorry Sorry, so the federal, the feds have nothing to do with it. You think the cops were just after this guy? I don't know.

I think they were coming to my house because of that text message. The guy, I think that guy went in. I thought they were all together was it was the feds and the cops were on their way there. Maybe they were watching it waiting for the feds or something and they saw your truck leave and they just followed it. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. I think that that's how that went down.

And so the cops, you know, the feds, I asked me some interesting questions. And, you know, thinking back, some of the stuff that they were asking was similar to that text message, like all the details in the text message about, well, I know you're selling drugs. And they pulled me over. You know, I'd gotten pulled over for speeding and everything. And they'd searched me, I don't know how many times, I never found anything, ever, never got caught with anything at all. And then after that, after they took me to the hospital, they went to my house to search my house. and the lady had taken my daughter because I was on the side of the road with my phone

I called her I said listen I just got shot in the side in the back of the head you need to get my daughter here's my dad's phone number you need to get a hold of him and get her out of there and get her to my dad's house

if you don't mind you know and so she was in route to go try to get my daughter to my dad and the cops surrounded that car and pulled my daughter out with guns drawn and everything and pulled her out. Obviously, didn't find anything. But they went on to my house and they searched

my house that night. They didn't find any drugs. What they found was my 12 gauge, which was legal for me to have because I wasn't a felon. I had a 12 gauge for home protection. It was at my house. They took a picture of it at my house. I mean, first of all, I'm wondering, do they have a warrant to go in your house? Like, what gave them the right to go into your house? They said they were looking for that guy. I'm a passenger. I'm a passenger in a vehicle that you shot at. Yeah.

That has nothing to do with my house. Exactly. Okay. Sorry. Go ahead. You're absolutely right. And so, yeah. So they went and searched my house.

They didn't find any drugs whatsoever. They found the gun. They took a picture. And that picture turned out to be part of my charge. Was that picture? Yeah. Hold on. It gets better.

So when the fed showed up to the hospital, I ended up getting a hold of my attorney, who was a federal attorney, too. And, you know, he knew about everything that happened, getting shot and all that stuff. And I, at one point, you know, he had called me. He was like, you need to probably come in and talk to me. Like, we need to get some stuff figured out. In the meantime, the guy that was driving the vehicle, he called. me from jail and he was like the feds are here and they know everything and I need for you to not be a hero and I was like what do you mean he's like you can't save anybody and you can't save

yourself he's like so there's no need to lie it's time it you got to tell your whole truth and you got to tell everything he's like because they're here and they already they have everything they have they have statements from everybody they have more statements than they possibly need He's like, they're coming for you. And don't try to be a hero. And I'm like, what? You know, what does that mean? After you get shot in the head, there's not a lot of clarity.

I mean, like, you know what I'm going? Okay. There's not a lot of clarity and there's not a lot of, you know, the time frame from when I got shot to like when I got indicted was about five months. And there's a lot that's real foggy in between there. you said you wanted to jump back to going to the hospital and they removed the bullet yes so the cops kept talking in the hallway about how it was really a piece of glass in my head and it wasn't a bullet and i was like listen to me i can hear all of you guys talking and i can smell my hair and my flesh burning from this bullet it's not a piece of glass and so i cussed everybody out and uh lost my mind and then finally the doctor came in and looks at it and he's like yeah it's a bullet and right around that time when they pulled it out is when I went into shock like I the nurse kept coming giving me morphine and stuff and I said listen honey you can hit me with every drop you have in this facility I'm not going out they wanted me to shut up they were like

please please make her go away I was like I will not pass out because I'm going to sue these motherfuckers I never did but um and then my next memory is being in the shower with these nurses and they were trying to get all the blood off me. And then my next memory is I'm in a hospital bed and there's a cop sitting next to me and I'm hitting up to the bed. And I looked at her and said, you got any pink ones?

And that was the last of that. And then I woke back up and then I had pink ones on. And then my next memories, my dad was coming to get me and I was on my way home with 19 staples in my head. And no charges. No, nothing. They didn't, they didn't even try to charge, you know, saying that we'd shot at them like they had been saying that night.

Didn't do anything like that. Well, okay. Hit the guy. And he had been wanted. And so he was in jail. He was in jail. I believe he had a parole violation. And so they were holding him on that.

So during the time he was in jail, at some point the Fed came to him and sat down with him. The DEA came to him. And so then at that point is when he called me from jail and was like, hey, the feds are here. I need you to know that feds are here and they know everything. And he's like, yeah, so you can't, so don't be a hero. And that really wasn't registering as to what does that mean? What do you mean? Don't be a hero.

He's like, everybody is told. And I need you to understand that in the federal system, like, everybody's going to tell. So don't be that one girl that goes at, you know, you're going to have to talk. And I'm like, I'm like, fuck you. I'm not doing this shit. So at some point after that, again, a little bit foggy from the gunshot and all that stuff. I'm still using drugs at this point, by the way. Still using, not as much, you know, I'm not selling.

I'm not doing anything like that. But people would stop eye and get me high. And I'm like, absolutely cool. I'm in. Wouldn't even thinking about stopping, even after getting shot in the head. And so at some point, my attorney got a hold of me and was like, okay, you're, you're going to need to come in. And so I went in.

And this might have been after I got in, the indictment came out, I'm really foggy on some things. But he was like, you're going to have to talk to the DEA. And I'm like, yeah, fuck the cops. I'm not doing this shit. He's like, well, I really thought he would say that. And so I would really like for you to sit down and read some things. And I'm like, okay.

So I sat down with my discovery. And he's like, you can speak. Spend as much time as you want here. You can't take it with you. And you cannot take pictures of it. And you can't ever have it. But you can come here and spend as much time with it as you need. I'll get you, you'll have your own office back there. You can just take your time. Like, okay. So I start reading this like with a fine tooth comb. And, you know, the names are redacted, but you know who's who. Yeah. Because I'm going through it, I'm trying to find one that mirrors that text message. Because I'm like, I bet you anything, you know, this is where it all began. And I found one that was very, that was very similar. So I was like, oh, this has got to be that guy, you know. And so I sat with it for a really long time. I figured out who almost everybody was.

There was a couple that I couldn't figure out. There was some that clearly didn't know who I was. And there was several that had me confused with somebody totally different, which ended up being this guy, the guy at the text message guy's girlfriend that was living at the hotel. they said that I was her and that I'd been living in this hotel for a year and I'm going through this stuff and I'm like

you understand there's like records and like cameras these people were living in a hotel because they blew up their place and their insurance was paying for them to live there they'd had a mishap they blew their other place up so insurance was paying for them like you have the room number you can check the records and find out it isn't me but you know they nobody believed me they they thought I was I'm like I have a house I don't go to hotels I have my very own house why would I go there that's weird

so after I went through my discovery I um I decided I was like you know what there is no street code there is literally nothing there's all these people are like oh you do the crime you do the time they all walked in and told and not And not just like, you know, just normal statements, like just shooting the shit, detailed Sabrina stories. I mean, they were all having a ball. You could tell by the way they're right. Oh, what'd she do next? And then happen. And I thought, you know what? Fuck this.

Like, these people that are like, oh, yeah, you know, I'm a hardened criminal. I'm, the federal system is the biggest. fucking joke on the planet. And, and so I talked. I was like, I got shit to say too. I was like, I'm not going to sit here and take this shit. I'm not going to go do a whole bunch of time for all the people that just told on me. For what? For a street code that's clearly not even real. But there was something, you know, there was something about that discovery that when I, the day I was indicted is my clean date. And that was, um, over 10 years ago now. But, there was something about reading that discovery that was a big moment of clarity for me

because you know you you have this thing in your brain as like the drug world is this way and you've got you got this street code and people people are going to you know they're not going to tell on you because why would they tell on you you're cool to them like you're cool nobody's going to tell on you they all told they lined up to tell my my wife who also got indicted on a conspiracy was going to trial. I think I told you this. She was going to trial and like a week or so before her trial date, she got her discovery. And so like 10 in the federal system, I think it's 10 days beforehand. You're allowed that you get a list of the people that are going to, you know, go on this school. And she was like, she said, I just couldn't believe how many people there were like.

I knew all these people. And she's like, and they were. all the people that she was thinking, well, these are my friends. They're not going to tell them. And she's like, of course, the girls, a lot of the girls that were on her case were in the same dorm. And she's like, and they would get there, they would go to see their lawyer. You think it's their lawyers, not. And then they go see the lawyer the next day and the next day and then they'd come back and they'd get their discovery and they'd go see their lawyer.

And then one day they'd just move them. Yeah. And then you'd find out that she took a plea. And then the next one, and she's like, they're all leaving. and I'm still there and then like a week or so before trial I get my discovery and she's like everybody's telling on me like everybody's ready to

all of them that were that are in there with her like fuck that shit I ain't telling nothing yeah these fuckers we're gonna beat them at trial she's like all of her taking pleas and they're all cooperating she's like and then I'm the last one standing she and the main guy were the last two people standing

and now you're just you're just fuck there's nothing you can do yeah and you know what the reality is it's like it wasn't it's not just one person that they get to tell it's so many that one person is a moot point oh it's overwhelming oh you don't want to tell oh okay because we got 15 more that's going to tell right you can say something i can jump on the bandwagon and i can get five years or i can be a gangster go to trial and get fucking 25 years yeah no for yeah bad idea for what these people that clearly weren't your people right yeah so i um yeah and i struggled with that at first i was like god this is terrible like

how how am i supposed to do this like this is awful but the reality is is that they don't need you you can either help yourself or fuck yourself like it's you got a choice and they're going to do it with or without you they've already got it they've already got that case all figured out and so When the indictment came down, I was the kingpin. Yeah, kingpin out of, I think nine was the first go. And so when I got arraigned, you know, they did the whole cops all over my driveway, you know, big guns, lots of craziness. The cop that drove me down to federal court. What did they do?

They banged on your door and to come out here? No, I was on my way back from my parents. house. It was like 8 o'clock in the morning. So I was driving and I was pulling, I popped up over my hill and I could see my property and like, there's cops everywhere. There's federal vehicles all up and down my driveway. Then the county cops surrounded me with like, you know, it was a big deal. And so I was like, can I pee? You know what I'm like? What's up? Can I? They're like, absolutely not. I'm like, right on. Okay. But I was in my car with this. Russian guy and he was really cool. And he was, he just like, you know, he's like, this is

terrible and I'm sorry that you're going through this. He's like, but you seem like a nice person like this could be your way, like this could be your defining moment. This could be your way to change. You know what I mean? Like that. This is the cop? Yeah. This is what the DEA? Oh, and by the way, it was his last day. He was retiring after that. Yeah. And I never, yeah, I always kind of wondered where he went because he was like really cool like talk me through a lot of stuff but didn't know how to get to federal court i had to show him how to get there it's fine um so when i uh was arraigned i remember sitting there and uh the judge asked the prosecutor said do you have any physical evidence he said no he said do you have any wire tap and he's like no he said do you have any hand-to-hand and he said no

the judge said what do you have he's like oh we have a lot of statements He's like, oh, okay. Because as we're going through it, I'm like, what? You know, we're going to do it the damn thing. We're cool. No, we're not cool. He's like, oh, okay, cool. So they take me back, and they sent me to federal holding in Osceola, Missouri.

But I remember getting on the van with all these people, and, you know, you're just shell-shocked. You just don't know what you're going to do. And all these guys were on the van, and they're like, what are your charges? And I'm like, drug trafficking with. furtherance of a weapon, maintaining a drug premise, conspiracy to some. At that point, I had $1.7 million in money laundering. And they were like, where are you out on the indictment? I was like, I'm number one. And they're like, you're the kingpin? And I was like, is that bad? And they're like, yeah, that's really bad. Like, that's really, really bad. So, you know,

I really didn't think I was going to get out on pretrial, but they did. They kicked me out on pre-trial about three days later and um my um my pre-chall officer was awesome and he was like hey you know what do you think it's time to to get to rehab and i was like let's do it you know i was like this this is my defining moment like i've got to do the damn thing but you know i i after reading that discovery i was ready to let that world go i that was like the death to that to that life is what i thought it was it was not anything like what i it was it was something that i was something that i I had made up in my head. It wasn't real. And, you know, I got nine years. I ended up getting nine years after three years of pretrial. And, um, years, you still got nine years. You got nine years

with a five K one? Yeah. Oh, hold on. Let's back up. So when I was in, so, so I was on pre-trial for three years. I went in, I turned myself in at the time of plea and I had sit in federal holding for a waiting for sentencing it was over a year and so everybody was getting their um shit what am i thinking i'm just lost my traded thought discovery the paper help me out here they're what sentencing or they're i don't know what's it psr oh pre-sentence report yes okay so everybody was getting their PSIs all these ladies were getting their PSIs and i was like calling my lawyer I was like I want my PSI he's like no you don't I'm like do you have it he's like no but you don't want it i was like why he's like just just do some do your time right now

just you don't want it and i'm like so i finally got it and um they gave it to me and then they locked the you know it was a regular lockdown time and so i'm sitting there and i'm going through all these papers it was pretty thick even though i had no criminal history but you know they added a lot of statements and stuff in there so i'm going through it and people are yelling to the wall. I'm like, where do I see what my time frame is? Like, what, where's that at? And they're like, it's a, it's a numbers range. You know, just keep flipping through the. You're going to see numbers range. So I'm looking for numbers. Keep flipping back through this thing. And I'm like, I don't see numbers anywhere. So I started reading. It was life.

There was a life sentence. Yeah. That's what my range was. There was no, there was no months. There was no numbers. It was just life. And I'm like, what the fuck? Are you serious? serious right now because they had hit me with 44 kilos of meth. All the statements that people had given, you know, the statements that people gave were really interesting. Like, there was a guy that I know exactly who it is. He said that him and his son, he has an older son, him and his son had stopped by my house and had seen me cutting up with power tools. And my lawyer was like, well, that's crazy. I'm sure that didn't happen. I was like, actually, that happened one time and I know exactly who this is. But he put, he put five kilos on me.

And, you know, he didn't, he wasn't part of the indictment, but he got indicted later. And guess what he got? Probation. Oh, yeah, yeah. I'm sure. Oh, yeah. And then, it'll be the first one, be like, oh, I bet you're a rat. I got you.

But then, you know, you had the statements. There was a statement in there about I had some girl dropped off and I was hunting her in the woods. And I was like, it wasn't like that. okay so this girl had a um it was like right around christmas time and she had disappeared her family couldn't find her because she was getting high at this drug house and i'm like they kept going on the news oh missing person i'm like she is not missing well because they were saying she was a missing person the cops started going around kicking in people's houses saying that they were looking for her and i was like this she's not missing so i knew somebody that knew her i was like go get her

take her to the police and drop her off and then we'll call the news and let them know she's been found so they don't need to keep kicking in people's houses so that's what we did

I wasn't hunting her in the woods I mean they shut up that's what it turned into in the statement yeah right and then but you know

all it takes is one person to say I saw her with 10 kilos that person can be be high. That person doesn't even need to know you. And they're like, oh, perfect. We'll take that. We'll write that down. And they, you know, when you take your plea, they ask you, are you under the influence of anything? And if you are, you can't take your plea. So why is that a different standard

of care as for like people that are that are making statements? You should probably find out if they are, you know, under the influence. But they don't care about that. They'll take anything because it's a ghost dope. And that's the easiest way to indict somebody. and you can't fight a ghost. There's nothing you can do. So all of these states, and these people are going to get on the stand, they're all going to say all of this.

And, I mean, I know I've just from looking at these things, like guys will, I've gone through people's discovery because, you know, I wrote a bunch of guys' stories where I was locked up, and they'll show you the discovery and some guys like,

oh, I bought, you know, whatever, quarter of a, you know, quarter of a pound from them. And then the cops are like, well, how often did you do that? Oh, I did that. know every two weeks for and how long you've been dealing with him oh about about two years and the next thing you know that's that's 12 pounds of you know math or whatever it is and you know

because they they just add it up and then if you talk to the actual guy and the guy's like that guy bought you know half a pound from me or a quarter of a pound from me you know three fucking times i did a two years earlier i was selling him whatever they were you know very minor amounts and then we didn't even I didn't sell them anything for eight months and then he you know so they're like they took the largest quantity yep every two weeks to multiply it times you know two years and it ended up being whatever it was six pounds or 12 whatever the how many pounds it was so yeah they're doing that to try and put as much on you so you can get as much time as possible absolutely yeah so at some point um because I was on pretrial release so I was

going to all the pre-sentencing stuff and um the next thing I know they're going to do a superseding indictment. And I'm like, okay, what are we doing here? Like, what's happening? Well, text message guy, he got caught with tons of guns and a whole bunch of heroin. So guess what? He became the kingpin on the whole indictment. And I became number two.

I've never been so happy to be number two in my entire life. I'm like, oh, I'm number two. This is great. But at the pretrial hearing, they said the prosecutor. Peter said, well, we were not going to indict him, but he forced our hands. And I was like, oh, I bet. I bet you weren't going to indict him because he gave me to you. Like, that, you know, and it was all kind of unfolding. You know what I mean? It's like that thing where you're just like, that motherfucker, he got me. He got me because I didn't want to date him

and I didn't want to do business with him. He got me. Just from that. Ask me about my dating life. You know what I mean? Like I'm like, please don't flirt with me. I don't want anything to do with anybody just i don't want to reject i just don't don't talk i'm just going to hang out with my dog but yeah i mean i will have a little bit of trauma from that like it blows my mind and i've processed that you know i've thought about it so many times because i'm like it took one guy to kick that whole thing off it took one guy to end up getting me shot in the back of the head which could have killed me that could have been the end of me right but then a decade later i'm still dealing with this federal stuff so so you went you went to so you went to you

you go to trial you're supposed to i'm sorry trial you go to sentence and you're supposed to get a life sentence okay did you go into did you go into court with a PSI that said life no so they they redone it um because i went back to my lawyer and i was like are you serious with this stuff like you know i'm like first of all all of these are not me there's somebody that lives in a hotel and at one point when i had talked to the DEA i told them i said this is not me i've never i don't go i have not lived at this hotel and they told me i was a liar and i was like you know what fuck this shit like i can't even tell you the truth like that you don't want to hear it you don't want to hear anything you're too involved in this inflated story so you know whatever but um

but they did find out that a lot of that wasn't me and most of that stuff didn't come out intel sentencing and then yeah they changed my PSI um there was some stuff that happened i don't know if i should talk about any of that quite yet but um but i ended up ultimately getting nine-year sentence i got 108 months and so i remember when they said it i wasn't i really was like what did they say you know you're in a complete fog i'm an orange jumpsuit shackles and chains the whole courtroom's full of my family and I'm like what what just happened my ex-husband and his wife is there on the other side and they're dying they want to speak to the court and the marshals were like sit down nobody wants to hear from me he's like I need to say what I need to say and they're like you

are irrelevant dude like shut up yeah what were they going to say they wanted to just ask you oh yeah when when I got so I had custody I was 50-50 custody up in until I got, I went into, um, uh, federal holding. And then, um, when I went into federal holding, they were letting my parents bring my daughter to see me once a week. And then once I was sentenced, they took off to Florida with her and cut ties with my whole family. So, so there was quite a few years I didn't get talked to her. We're best friends now. She has no, no ties down there at all. It's just me and her. So, um, so it works out, you know, in the end. But yes, I did get a nine your sentence um i went to peek in illinois and i'd done one year in federal holdings so that counted

towards my time i was at peak in illinois and i did uh three years there and then but covid had hit and so i thought for sure i didn't qualify for the first step back i didn't qualify for any of that stuff so i thought for sure there's no way they're going to let me out but they did my counselor came and got me and he was like hey guess what you're going to quarantine because you're leaving And I was like, you're kidding me. He's like, after how long? How many years? Four years.

I was at my 50% mark. Yeah. I, well, I, they had put me in for it, but I just assumed that since I was not, I didn't qualify for anything else because of my drug trafficking with the furtherance of a weapon charge, you know, for that gun that they took a picture of, that was mine to have legally. Oh, but there was a couple statements made by people that they saw me with a gun somewhere at my house, you know, whatever.

So, yeah, because of that charge, I, it disqualified. me from everything else. So I just never dreamed that it was going to happen for COVID. So yeah, so I got out at my four year mark. Okay. Yeah. And how long ago is that? June 1st of 21. And I have been on home confinement ever since. Yeah. All right. I'm just about done. I got 138 days left. Okay. And then you're on just probation. You have what, three years probation? Five. Five. Okay. That's what I had. Yeah. So what do you do for a living?

So I have a rep for this builder, and they're awesome. I sell barn dominions and custom homes and post-frame buildings. So you don't know. Barn dominium. So you've got like condos downtown, right? It's like having a condo, but in the country, and you can do really cool things with it. So say you want like a big shop or you want like a forest barn attached to your residence, and everything's like right there, that's what we do.

Or, like, say you want a hanger, you want to make a hangar because you got an airplane and you want living quarters with it. That's what we build. Okay. Well, I'm a wrap. So I basically work up my pricing program and then work with customers. I got a company car. I'm all over the place during business hours.

And then in the evenings, I'm at the gym for two hours and then I'm at home and that's my life. But I can't complain because, I mean, I got, I would still be in prison right now. Well, I'd probably be at the halfway house. Still, out of all possible scenarios, you know, it's probably the best case scenario, right? Absolutely. And your, your daughter lives with you? Well, yes. Yeah.

She lives with me and she is in school full time and she's got a really good job also. So how old is she he's 19 oh okay okay she's 19 now well I thought she would still like like maybe I don't know 10 or 11 or no she was 12 when I went in okay yeah she was 12 and so um but yeah she came um when I got out early I was like hey surprise I want my daughter and um I ended up flying her back um he kicked her out at one point so I sent our plane ticket she flew back and then he showed up and said that I had kidnapped her. I totally took it. He set me up. He set me up. And I was like, I fed right into it. And I was like, absolutely, I'll do anything from my daughter. So then, you know, the court got involved and I had to do supervised visits and stuff.

But he's in Florida. So I'm doing it on video. It was a mess. It was horrible. And then the day she turned 18, she caught the first slide out of there. And she's never been back. Never turned around. That's what happens when you, you know what I mean? Like, what do you think? was going to what's going to happen but yeah so she's been back and we've been cool ever since that's that's great yeah no another good another good outcome listen i can't complain about anything i really can't like everything has worked out exactly the way it it i couldn't expect it to work out any better and honestly if i would have kept going the way i was going without being indicted i'd be dead right i'm sure of it i'm sure it'd be dead or it would be in a much worse place so

you know at the end of the day I guess I should thank all those people that told on me because yeah you know they saved my life at the end of the day they did they saved my life and they changed my life for the better because on the other side you know if you get your shit together and you got your head right there's a lot of opportunity on the other side you know it's funny is like every time whatever I tell my story and I'm like yeah and so and so he got arrested and he cooperated and they put together a task force and you know you're telling that to somebody and And sometimes they'll give you like that. Oh, man.

Oh, he cooperated. Oh, he stitched on you. I'm like, no, I did the right thing. He had a daughter. Yeah. He didn't owe me anything. He owed his daughter something. And it was the fastest way for him to get out of it.

And who the fuck am I? You know what I'm saying? Like, that's just the right thing. That was the right thing for him to do. So, and listen, and I got tons of those people. Yeah. Like, you did the right thing and I was doing the wrong thing. And you can't be, you can't be running around acting like a scumbag with scumbags.

And then expect those people to be standing. up people right no so but i was gonna i was gonna i was gonna i was gonna i was gonna mention one more thing to you shoot i can't remember anyway yeah but that's and that's just it is that you you know you you you can't expect that but but it's it's the best way to dismount from that world i mean yeah you get extracted real easily from it if you're if you're in that you know once you sit down with the discovery and you know how the real world works but you know it's interesting because I'll be talking to people that think they may be getting indicted for something or other. And I'm like, yeah, you're hit. You're hit. And they don't want to hear it,

you know? They don't want any part of hearing anything like that. So I do a lot of the stuff on TikTok now. And I talk to a lot of people that are being indicted or come out on the other side. So it's been really interesting to have that community, especially on a couple find out. You know, I'm kind of board so yeah you're all you gotta be all in on tic-t-tok now what what what's your t-t-tok Sabrina Morgan S-A-B-R-E-N-A-M-O-R-G-A-N listen I'm so bad at this thing I don't know even I've stock and then there it is okay Sabrina Morgan oh there's a whole bunch of them I'm the one that's got like 60 some thousand I mean I got Sabrina Morgan, but I don't know 66,000 followers I got 65,000 I got I don't even know how to do that I don't even know how to do this well you get so you get 66,000 followers yeah that's great here I'll forward this to you and then you could see me okay I'll we'll put the description in the I mean we'll put the link in the description yeah box and you feel like is there anything else you want to

mention or you feel okay i don't know i feel like that was the one thing that i was stressing on that i really wanted to get out um i mean i have done a lot of work with dreamtorg and i'm working towards getting a halfway house opened in kansas city and that's something that i'm really interested in pushing for um because right now the halfway houses are a mess with the federal system because in 2017 they shut down they cut they quietly cut the funding for the second chance act which shut down 16 halfway houses across the country And then in 2018, they signed in the First Step Act. And when they did that, if it would have gone into effect when it was supposed to,

we would have had a crisis a long time ago. But now we're filling it finally. So, for instance, my halfway house is in Topeka, Kansas. So I have to drive 88 miles to do my check-in to do a UA and to do a check-in. I get in the car. I cross state lines. I get on the turnpike. And I drive 88 miles to go do this and then turn around and come back every single week.

I'm salary. so I'm you know I'm not I'm not the one that has to worry about like taking off work and everything like that but there's a lot of people in my position that's not nearly as as lucky as I am where they have to take off work and they have to do all this stuff and then if they want to take advantage of any services that the halfway house might provide they can't they have to take off work because the only services they provide is out in that area they won't they won't you know outsource it and they won't do like video therapy or anything like that and And so we got to get more halfway houses. The halfway house in Kansas shut down in 2017. And there's only two federal halfway houses in Missouri. One's in Springfield. One's in St. Louis. And so you have this giant area that's not, has nobody, like if you're on home confinement,

they can deny you home confinement. And the two halfway houses that are closer, close enough are Topeka and Leavenworth, and they're full. So there's people that are trying to come out of prison right now that are eligible to come out because of first step credits and they can't come out because there's not a halfway house and so the problem is not people wanting to open up halfway house if there's a lot of people pushing to open them it's the bop that are dragging their feet to put their request for proposals out so that people can make a give them a proposal for a halfway house contract so once

you know they drug their feet on the first step back giving everybody credits and now they're dragging their feet on the other end of this. But I think there's a lot of people not making that correlation between the fact that it's the BOP. You have to wait for them to put out a request for a proposal in order for anybody to try to propose anything for a halfway house. And so that's kind of my passion right now is to get involved and try to get some of these halfway houses going. I don't want to run one. Let me be clear. I don't want to be part of that. But I would like to get involved with legislation. And I'm involved with Dream.org. So when I'm done with home confinement, I'll do, like, lobby days and stuff with them.

But I think that's kind of, you know, that's one of my things is that I, you got to get that out there. So. Okay. I hope I did okay, because I don't even know what the fuck I just talked about. No, you did, you did, you did great. I'm sitting profusely, just when. Why? Because you're nervous?

Yes. Do I, I? No, you did great. You did, you seemed very comfortable. Okay. It's because I'm a lot. So I'm a good liar. Yeah.

Well, listen. I mean, I'm going to, so you're good. So you're good. I'm going to like wrap it up and I'll mention your TikTok. Do you want me to mention the TikTok? Yeah. Okay, cool. Hold on one.

Oh, I also write blogs on Medium. Oh, a media. Okay. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. What? Medium magazine.

It's like an online magazine. Is that it? No. Medium.com. So when I. was in prison my brother came to me and he was like you have a really interesting story um you should start writing and i was like he's like you should write blogs and i was like what's a blog you know i did know so he started sending me um he started sending me um articles on you know blogs and different

things and he's like so just pick a topic and then you're going to write on it and you can email it to me and then i'll publish it i'll just do a quick edit and i'll publish it and i'm like oh okay Cool. So I picked out my topic and I started writing and I emailed it to him. Well, the prison computers, you know, it's 13,000 characters is all you get and you're fighting people. You know, you're fighting the line and you're battling the 30 minutes that you have to write. And so it's, it was a mess. But I would write all week long and then on Fridays I would lay in the plane. You know, I'd sit there and get it all cleaned up. And then Saturday morning at 6 a.m., I'd start typing it up. And so I started sending him all these blogs. And then he started publishing him. So by the time I got out, I basically had control of my own narrative because I was able to write my story and write. I'll send you one right now. I was able to write my side of the story on a lot of things. And I haven't got into a lot of stuff because I do want to write a book.

But yeah, so I write. I just sent you the link. Okay. Yep. And it's medium. Medium.com. Yeah. And I got a bunch of blogs on there. Hey, you guys. I appreciate you watching. Do be a favor if you like the video, hit the subscribe button. Hit the bell so you get notified a video is just like this. Also, we're going to leave

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