Matthew Cox | Inside True Crime Podcast - WORST PART ABOUT PRISON...

Episode Date: January 12, 2024

WORST PART ABOUT PRISON...

Hey, this is Matt Cox and I'm here with Zach and we are going to talk about something that I honestly didn't want to talk about. I've been putting off for a long time. And so that's going to be the podcast. It's basically it's about my mom who passed away in early August. So we're going to talk about that in this podcast real quick because to be honest, like it took me a month before I could even talk about it without getting super emotional. But so let's start with, you and I had the same basic issue, right? Right. Which was we both went to prison.

We both got extremely long prison sentences and our mothers were getting up there in age. And one of my biggest goals was like I wanted to get out of prison while my mom was alive. Yes. And I know this happened with you because we. we talked about this where both of our siblings like actually told us like our parents were both getting older and and having medical issues and both of our siblings told us during like visits like she's hanging on until you get out like that we really don't know what's keeping her

going it's but I feel like she's hanging on until you get out and well here's here's what's funny that you're I'm I think you're skipping is at the beginning of our bid, like in 2008 and 9, when our moms were very mobile, they both were coming up to see us. Like we, many times we discussed like the visitations we had with our mothers and how they're kind of like when you get out, you're not going to do this anymore. Right. How they put it behind and they just, it became a part of us being there became a part of their life.

And sometimes they come by themselves. I think your mom came by herself. My mom initially almost always came by herself. Like she was driving, she's in her 80s. She's driving up by herself. Going through that horrible. Horrible system to get in. They treat your mother like crap.

Family like they're complete scumbags. Yes. I even had a, I even had, by the way, when I went to the low, I even complained to my counselor. I was like, bro, why did they do that? You know what he told me? What? He goes, well, I mean, he said, I mean, you lay down with dogs. He goes, you get fleas.

He said, I mean, who comes to see a, he was, he was, what kind of people come to see inmates? And I go, mothers and fathers. and I go just like your mother's and fathers he was my mother and father didn't raise a criminal I mean this is really what they think I mean what a scumbag Good for him

I hope his kids go to jail His name was actually his name was Counselor Smith I don't know his first name But counselor Smith's fat retired Scumbag white guy I hope his kids go to jail Yeah

I pray his kids go to prison Yeah So he can lay down with dogs But yeah Our moms would come up there and visit My mom would bring my daughter all the time. And we both got, like, our moms used to surprise us. Like, there were always scheduled visits for them to come.

But I'd notice that both of us would, hey, you got a visit. I got a visit. You're like, hey, my mom just came out of nowhere. Right. You know, like, where our moms are at home going, you know what? I'm going to go see my kid. Right. And they just hop in the car unannounced without, you know, waiting for you to call.

I'm thinking about coming this day. They just decided, hey, I'm going to go see you. And that happened because when I went to the ship, you, when I was in the holding in lockdown, the days, because our visit days was Friday, was it Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday? Honestly, they switched it. Coleman, they switched it several times. Like, then they started doing a point system. So you go any day, but you only had so many points a month. Right. They kept changing it back and forth, back and forth. Well, like, for the people in lockdown, it was Wednesday. It was Wednesday. So my mom would tell me like, oh, that's going to be

hard, but she made all type of arrangements to come up there on Wednesday. It was, it was, it was unbelievable. It was unbelievable. So I just wanted to mention that at the beginning, they were able to come. And it was like a couple of years. It's like, it was years for me. My mom came until she was 80, I think she was 85 years old or 86 and she had a major stroke. And she was in a wheelchair. And really, honestly, it was like a month. She only missed a month. Like within a month, she's like, okay, well, I need to go see Matt. And they were like, you're in a wheelchair, mom well I know but I want to go see him my brother's like well mom how are you going to go see him she's like well you'll bring me or someone will bring me yes my nurse will bring me we got to

get her on the on the visitation let like she's conscious enough to say I have to get the one of the first person that used to bring her was a woman named perely parley has to get approved through the visitation list so they got her on visitation and then she then my mom said okay well she'll come and she'll take me and my brother's Like, mom, you're in a wheelchair. What if they won't, they might not let you bring your wheelchair. Well, they have wheelchair. I've seen people in wheelchairs.

And she was like, that's moms. Yeah, they were like, mom, you know, you sleep a lot and your medications. You all sleep in the car on my way there. I'm going to see Matt. Yeah, it just no matter what my brother said, it was, look, we're going. Like, you got, get this through your fucking head. We're going to figure a way out. I've seen people in wheelchairs.

Yeah, like, I'm going. This can happen. we're going to make this happen. How does that make you feel? Oh, I mean, that, you know, horrible, obviously horrible. I mean, obviously, you know, I love my mom. I wanted to come see me, but it's a horrible situation to know that I'm putting her through this, you know? But it's not her fault.

Like, she didn't do anything wrong. She raised a bunch of other good kids. So what about, like, my mom when she wasn't. So, you know, I get a fuck. I'm upset. Please don't stop upsetting me. I'm sorry. I know.

My mom, when she couldn't, when I got moved to Jessup, and she was arranging to make it, like, and she couldn't make it. But it was like, she apologized to me. Like, I'm sorry that I couldn't get up there to see you. And I'm like, mom, how do you owe me an apology for that? Yeah. You know, I mean, it's just, it's unbelievable. Mothers are, like, a mother's love is unbelievable, like, what the extent of what we mean to see them.

prison and what they put them through. So it's like that means nothing. I'm going to see my baby. My mom one time I told her like, you know, you don't deserve to have to come here. And she goes, well, you're my son and I love you. This doesn't change that. Yeah. You know, she just to her, it was like, I don't give a fuck about all this. I know. So, um, but so here's what happened. Let's like, I want to wrap this up as quick as fucking possible. Understood. Understood. Okay. So you were desperate to get out because your mom was sick. Yes. Your mom was getting sicker and sticker. And she was asking me, like, when are you coming home? When she started asking me that, I start going, okay, she's scared that she's not going to make it. Now, like, before I was like,

oh, she's like, I think you've been in there long enough. When are they going to let you out? You know, and because she wanted me, she wanted to make it, you know. So that's what's happening near the end of my bid in 2019, 2018. She started asking, like, you've been gone a long time. When are you coming home? Yeah. My mom actually had another stroke. She had several strokes. But she had like, I think when the first stroke half, I think it was the first or the second

stroke, she actually went into, went into hospice care. Like they were like, look, it's a major stroke. She had four strokes. The fifth one is the last one. So she had like four strokes. And, you know, some were really bad when some were, eh. So one of the strokes, it was so bad, they said, okay, we're going to put her into hospice.

And they put her in a hospice. And a couple days went by. And then in a couple days, she started getting better. So she started, they're like, they put you in the hospice. So they think this is the end of your life. Listen, within a week, she's like, I want to go home. I feel better. I'm ready to go home.

They're like, what just happened? So they literally take her out and they bring her home. She got better. She comes to see me like a couple weeks later. And I remember, too. So, you know, and the big thing was, you know, she's Norwegian, is, um, the joke was like, listen, like, she's a Viking, bro. Like, she's, don't count her out.

She's, she's a Viking. Like, she may look like she's on her death, Ben. She'll jump up with a sword and cut your head off. Right. So she, um, so next thing you know, she comes back. She's coming back again. Uh, so, um, yeah, so she kept coming. And then I, I eventually, you know, got, and keep in mind, too, like, I didn't get moved to a camp.

because it was my choice like you can go to a camp and I did everything I could to not go to a camp because the closest camp was Miami my mom can't come it's a four hour four and a half hour drive it's like a four and a half hour drive to get to Miami like I'll never see her you know so she was

Coleman was only an hour away you know what it's like it's like a huge ordeal to get you down there and then she's in a wheelchair yes how's that going to happen like the cost the logistics of it so you know I did everything to try and stay in Coleman Anyway, so eventually I got, so I got out of prison and my, you know, how come I can't be like a fucking, you know, I don't want to say non-emotional, but you don't get upset.

Oh, I get upset. But my, my mom died last year. Your mom died this year. Yeah. So had we done this last year. Might have been a basket case. I might have been a basket case. I'm still a basket.

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Yes, she did, right? Yeah. And she kept my daughter and she wanted to pass her off to me to raise. Right. And that was her prayer. I guess her request for God was like, let me make it for him to get home. Right. But I, at my girl's house, I have a blanket. So there's a blanket in my room.

It's like a little furry blanket. And I took it to my girl's house because she keeps it freezing in there. Right. So when my daughter was over there and she saw the blanket, she's like, oh, that's grandma's blanket. Because I had bought her a blanket with all my, my, mom's pictures on it for her, because that's how close my daughter was. But that was her personal blanket that when she's sitting in a chair, she wrapped up in. I said, oh, yeah.

I go, it is. She's like, get that to me. Yeah, she didn't like the fact that it was over there. No. Right. No. No. So my daughter's even closer.

So, yes, I'm a year out, you know, and I'm not saying it gets easier. It does get easier. There's something that I heard before is like when a loved one passes away. pretty soon the thought of them will bring a smile to your face before a tear to your eye you know and a lot of thoughts of when me and my siblings talk about my mom

it's more like we're kind of happy like of moments that she gave us so it's it's it's rough it's rough yeah I well I'm not there so I mean like give yourself a little time you know so my whole thing was like getting out and just spinning going to see her as much as I could

right which is towards which was, at the end, is torture. Well, at the, yeah, at the very end, but it, you know, she's in a wheelchair. She's in a home. She, she had great care. Like, she had these three great nurses. She was able to stay in her own, like, condo in a nursing home. So, I mean, she had a great, you know, set up.

So I would go see her, like, three days a week. I would go over there in the morning, like 9 o'clock. Well, more like, like 8 or 9 o'clock. And we would have, we would have breakfast. So, you know, that takes 30, 40 minutes an hour. And then we walk around. We take, we go for a walk, really, it's me pushing her in the wheelchair. And we walk around.

And then I come back. And then by that point, she's exhausted. You know, she's on medication. She's got towards the end, she's sleeping 20, 22 hours a day. So, you know, and you have basically like this machine to get her out of the, it's not a machine. It's a tool. Like it's a thing you slide in. It slips behind her and she can hold on and it lifts her up.

then you wheel it over and put her into bed. So I'm seeing her three, four days a week. You know, I'm also coming over and I'm having dinner. I'm going, we would go by, I'd go buy Olive Garden and bring it to her. So she loved Olive Garden. So I would bring Olive Garden and we would eat and we would talk and I'd have breakfast with her. So what happened was in the first, the first, you're halfway half? No, no, no, no, no, this has been like the last two years since I got out of the halfway house.

Okay, okay. So when I got out, this is what I was doing. Oh, no, in the halfway house, in the halfway house, I would go see her because the visitation was so horrible in the VAT halfway house that I literally convinced the guy that was working for. We would call the halfway house and say I had to go pick up equipment and welding equipment and do that. And so I could then swing by to see my mother in a wheelchair because the halfway house. house were such fucking cock suckers about visitation with her because they wouldn't let me see my mom either mother fuck listen i mean look you know and i'm not a violent person but when i start thinking about taking a baseball bat to you i mean you know i like i was we had better visitations in in prison

and they were scumbags so but the point is i would go by there and i'd sit with her for like an hour or so and i'd be like i got to go i got to go i got to go i got to go because like if the halfway house figures out i'm not at work it's a problem so my point is so for like i got i got to good two years with her. And then in August, it's actually exactly two years, because I got out halfway house in July. So in the first part of August, it was a Thursday. There was a Friday. I went over there. We had breakfast. I wheeled her around the complex. And I remember just for some reason, we did it once and her nurse is walking behind me, you know, she's playing on the phone. and she loved her nurse and her name's Celine so she loves Celine and so I remember stopped

that I went let's go around again and she's like you know Celine's like okay so we go around again and I never did that because usually starts complaining but she wasn't you starts complaining like I'm tired I want to go in now but she didn't so we kept walking then she was like I'm tired I want to go now okay so we go back and I get her over there and put her in the machine that kind of she can reach up in the chair. She holds on the machine and then it slides behind her and it lifts her up. And then you turn her and you put her in bed. So she got put in bed.

I did it and she, boom, she sat out in bed. And she sat out in bed and she kind of wobbled a little bit and Celine said, Mrs. Cox, are you okay? I think she's dizzy. And I go, Mom, are you okay? And she looked up at me and it was actually it was not, it was the left side of her face. kind of drooped a little, no, no, it was the right side of her face kind of drooped a little bit

and her eyes slid sideways and she just leaned into me and went boom and I was like, whoa, whoa, whoa. And I laid her down and Celine was like, you know, is she dizzy? Is she dizzy? And I was like, no, no, I think she just had a stroke. Like, I mean, that's definitely looked like a stroke to me. I was like, mom, mom and she started trying to talk and she's, it's just coming out. And I'm like, okay, so we, we. immediately we call my sister, we say, look, I think she just had a stroke. So Celine's like, what do we do?

Do you want us to call 911? And she said, let me call her doctor first because she's had several strokes. And then the problem with a stroke after, at her age, like, there's really nothing they can do. Like you think, oh, if you get her to the hospital, like everybody's like, bring her to the hospital.

Why? Been through this multiple times. There's not really anything they can do. Now, they can't if you get her there within an hour. Right. There is a medication they can give her, but it's probably, like, it's a, it's very, very dangerous. So we call my sister

And she calls her doctor The doctor call back said Go ahead and call 911 There is some medication we give her It might work We get her there to the hospital She was there within an hour Doctors come in

Like when we're talking about Two doctors come in Then a couple of another doctor Then suddenly four different people Come in and sit down There's a grieving counselor We're like okay It's just me and my sister at this point

Me my sister and Celine And they're like Look we can give her the math medication, but you understand there's a, they give us the percentages. There is a 50% chance the medication can kill her. She won't survive the, the medication. There is a 15% chance that it breaks, or 20% chance it breaks up the clot. There is a, like, they give us all these percentages and my sister's just staring and she like, looked at me and I go give her the medication. And they were like, okay, once again, you understand this much, this much,

this I was like, but no matter what, there's almost. no chance, like there's like a 10, 10 or 20% chance that it actually works. It either kills her, she stays the same, or it works. Like, I understand there's 50%, but the truth is, it either, what's going to happen, you know, she has a, an NDR. So she doesn't want, she doesn't want to stay like this. Right. So it's either the medication kills her or it makes her better or nothing happens. Like, okay, give it to her. You know, and their whole thing is like, you understand it could kill. I understand, but no matter what, if she stays like this, she wants to die. She's already been very, for the last year or two, she's been saying, I just want to go.

I'm just ready to go. She was in pain all the time. She sleeps all the time. She's ready to go. So, you know, it's just a quality of life issue that it's just, when they start saying, I'm ready, this is, I'm done. So they give her the medication, it doesn't help her. So they said, we want to bring in hospice. We can bring her up stairs. We can put a feeding tube in. She doesn't want a feeding tube. She doesn't want any of that. We've had this conversation. She just wants to go. They said, okay, we can bring her to hospice. She doesn't want to go to hospice. We want to bring her home. Have hospice come in. And they can do that. They'll come in. They're like, yeah, but you have to have around the clock. We already have three full-time nurses. She's got the best care possible. She doesn't

know hospice that place. And they do amazing work. Right. So hospice comes in. They basically just give her medication. And they give her medication and they keep her comfortable and they keep her basically doped up. And then after about three or four days, like I'm there around the clock. I think there was only one time I was gone for about two or three hours. So I'm getting there at like eight or nine in the morning. I'm staying until 11 o'clock at night.

I'm coming here. I'm going to sleep. I'm going right back. I think there was only one time when we did a podcast because we had it scheduled. We had to have something done. And my sister, I said, look, I can cancel it. My sister was like, no. Nothing's changing.

She's going to be like this until the end. She's going to be okay. Like, go. So we went and we did a few hours, came here, did a podcast. I went right back. So I was there until, you know, it took a week. It took a week and she slowly got worse and worse. And, you know, initially she can hold your hand.

She can squeeze, right? Just squeeze my fingers. And then it slowly got worse and worse. And then the last day I was sitting. with her and selene was there and you know her breath kept getting shorter and shorter and of course initially her feet start turning blue then her hands started oh i know it's the fucking worst and they're cold and you're sitting there trying to kind of like warm up her hands and and she's basically she can she'll wake up and her eyes were shifted sideways and she would kind of look for a second and then

she'd go back to sleep and you're like you know you're talking to her she's there's no there's not non-responsive and you're just waiting and you're basically waiting for her to die and her breath kept getting further and further apart. It's like 20 seconds and then over this is over the course of hours and hours throughout the whole day till I got the point where it's like a minute. And you're like, that was it. That was her last breath. And then she'd go, another breath and then stop.

A minute goes by. So it got to a point where it was just like after it had been like a, it was got to a minute, minute and a half. Like you're literally like, holy shit. Like this is this has got to be. the last breath. I went and I got my sister. I came back and I told my sister, I said she was sitting outside talking on the porch. I go, Helen, I think you need to come in. And she goes, boom, hung up, walked in. I sat down. I grabbed my mom's hand and she went, took a breath. Another

minute went by. Took one more breath. Never took another breath. And Celine listened to her heart. nothing you know this is after like three four five minutes sat up and seline burst into tears and ran out of the room and then my uh yeah my sister called a bunch of people and said you if you want to come by come by because as soon as we call they're going to come get her if you want to see her come now because she's going to go to the she's going to go to the funeral home they're going to cremate her so called my brother called several people they came over all of them our nurses came and um fuck i really fucking thought i'd be okay okay so the bottom line is um you know i thought about it is that it was really the best case scenario because my mom used

to say i told you this is that you know life is dangerous nobody's getting out alive sorry nobody's getting out alive so she's going to die so you know in the game of life like she won like she died i got out of prison she died with her family members all over all around her fuck she died with her family members all around her um it was the best case scenario that could have happened everybody got to come see her i don't i mean i'm assuming she recognized people you know she seemed like she recognized people the first few days. Her brother came to see her like, like, you know, brothers, aunts, uncles, like everybody got to come see her. I was holding her hand where she died. I was able to get

out of prison. It's the best possible, you know, solution to the problem, you know, with the exception of living forever. Right. So, yeah, so I like, I couldn't, you know, I, it's been like, I guess it's been a month and a, it's been like a month and a half now. Yeah, it's been about a month. Yeah, it's been. What's it been? No, two months. Is it two months? About two months. About two months. Sorry, so it's been two months. And, yeah, so, I mean, I mean, we had to do this video.

And you're in the exact same situation I am, you know, the exact same situation. It's, it's odd. But, yeah, I mean, you, and I wanted to do this because I know you're in the same situation. And I didn't, you know, thought I would be okay. not it's making me depressed I'm hoping I don't tear up but

mine was very similar and she's at my sister's house and I think I don't know if I was talking to you at that time before my mom died or did my mom just died maybe

like a few months it had been months several months okay yeah this was it was August and it was weird as it was in August well first of all

what I really remember is when I saw my mom right and I could just tell that she was in a shell like like this isn't my mom this is a shell that's holding the spirit of my mom you know like I was blown away even though I hugged her you know um and saw her well then like she was in horrific pain so she like your mom she had been to the hospital a couple of times she didn't have strokes she was just deteriorating quickly like the deterioration, like my daughter tells me was about a four, like my daughter tells me like the last seven months, she just deteriorated all the way into nothing. So my mom didn't want to die in a hospital. So they put us in our, well, actually my mom did want to die in a hospital

because her main concern was her being a burden on us. Because when her last days, we took shifts watching her. Like I used to watch her overnight. You know, somebody sat with her the whole time and she hated that she hated also the fact that my daughter would have to clean her when she went to the bathroom you know until they um i think they gave her a capiter and so um one of the things that that really affect me about my mom is one day one night i was there watching her near the end and like she woke up and it's like she's like i'm still here she's like why am i still here because she wanted to go. And so I'm sitting there and she's asking,

she's like, Lord, why won't you take me? She's like, you gave me everything that I asked for. You brought my son home. You've got my family healthy. Everybody's doing well and they're going to make it. It's like, why won't you just come and take me? And that was her prayer. It's like, and I kept telling, I go,

Mom, we don't want you to go. I say, Mom, I know you're ready, but we don't want you to go. And she kind of looked at me as if, like, going to have to deal with it, son. I'm sorry. You know, she gave me that look like, hey, she told me sometimes healing is death. She said, my passing is going to bring me more relief than any medicine ever, you know. So my mom last days, she was up almost 24 hours, like almost 30 hours. She spent awake. Awake? Awake. Cursing like, my mom was always, a happy person like generally like I am but she was very angry and frustrated and she stayed awake

for a long time and were she medicated at all like where yeah we gave her medicine to go to sleep and she took her medication she ate her soup we changed her she i think she took a bath but she was angry kind of frustrated but it's like she wouldn't go i'm go mom why won't you go to sleep she's like I'm not tired. She goes, I want to sit up or lay down and, and, but when she fell asleep, like, she never woke up. And I always thought that was bizarre because it's almost as if she knew she wanted to call certain people, but I guess maybe, like, to me, I think she knew, like, when I go

to sleep, I'm not, I'm not coming up out of the sleep. So she fell asleep. And like you said, with your mom, her breath kept getting further and further apart. And they pronounced her dead. I wasn't there, but I got there. I came from work from my office when they pronounced they're dead. It's horrible because everybody in the family's there, and they're like, did you want to visit with my mom?

Like to visit with the body before they take her out. She didn't get cremated. She got buried. Like the process of what they do to a body in a funeral home is almost horrific. So maybe a cremation would have been better. So I visited with her before they took her out. My daughter did.

And she was torn apart. That's what really broke me up is my daughter being torn apart because that's the person that raised her. So and when they took her out, you know, we were all broken. I had to keep my sisters and brothers together. But like I said, now a day's, like, and this is brand new because at the beginning we did a lot of crying. Like we call and like I'm upset, you know, mom, like I'd call my sister or I call my brother and we spend time grieving. But now it's like we kind of tell stories about, remember when mom. such and such. Remember this when this happened? Remember when we had a raccoons in the in the attic of the

house and you know it becomes memories of times that was hilarious or the threats that mom made or what she did to us when we did this, you know, when she was pregnant with me, all those all those stories that, you know, family tells. That's kind of what we go through now. So you got about eight months before it starts shifting from being so painful to being like memories that you really enjoy. You know, it's, it's, uh, yeah, just because I keep, I told you this, like, uh, I keep having these, because I was on a schedule, like I would go Monday, Wednesday, Friday, and then sometime during the week or the weekend, I would have dinner with her. Like, I was on a, so I,

and then she would call me during the day or I would call her during the day. So there was like all these little things. So I constantly had these little spikes of panic like, oh my gosh, am I supposed to, like, oh, I, and I wake up in the morning? Like, did I over sleep? Or, oh, my gosh, am I supposed to see mom today? And then I'm like, no, bro, you're not going to see. What are you doing? I drove by on 75 the other day. I was driving.

And her exit was coming up. And I thought, fuck, I'll swing by. Because sometimes if I'm in that area, like, I'll swing by just to walk in and say, you know, hey, mom, what are you doing? You know, oh, you're coming to see me. You know, and she'd be okay. You know, I talked to her for 20 minutes and then leave. Right. So, so, you know, I saw it.

And just for that split second, like, oh, I'd have stopped by there. I was like, bro, what are you doing? you're not stopping by anywhere like it's like so I keep having these little spikes and I keep for actually they they went away for like a week or two afterwards and then they spiked back up again in the last month or so it started over again I'm just waiting for it to kind of dissipate because it will it was my my whole purpose my main purpose was to be able to spend time with her and that purpose is gone so I wake up now and I it seems stupid about in a way I feel like lost like you know I mean like I have tons I'm doing tons of stuff but my main purpose was that and that's gone and so you know it's just it's a weird it's a very weird feeling because like I don't have to leave my apartment like I'm here all the time now where I used to I was constantly leaving and driving you know what 30 45 minutes yes the year come back I mean that was three hours four hours every day driving there spending out an hour or two with her coming back

and now it's like it's just it's a weird weird sensation is like I'll be here for like three days straight and never leave and it feels weird so but um yeah it's funny because my brother-in-law was when she came back and she had she was in bed and hospice came in and they had this whole conversation with us about how this is going to go yes I remember that my brother goes I want everybody here to know something he said there's a damn good chance this woman gets up and she's here she's up you know being wheeled around the and feeding the fishes and you know talking shit basically talking to everybody you know what I'm saying he's like remember last time she's a viking and he was so bro everybody burst out laughing because she had done it before my my mom that's in that weird because my mom did that like we kept going I'm like she's sick now but like she could be fine yeah like mom might wake up and snap out of and live another year yeah you know yeah but stuff yeah so I mean I like I okay so like I so like I Like, I was just, let's just wrap this up because, um, okay, so yeah, I just wanted to go over this real quick with everybody and, um, because I know people keep leaving comments, they keep leaving comments like, hey, bro, talk about your mom or do another video on your mom because everybody loves it when I do my mom's voice. I don't know if you've ever seen me do my mom's voice. Of course I have. So, oh, I used to come back from visitation. My mom said this.

My mom would do it. Or she tell you to forgive your sister. Don't, that's just her. Yeah, you got to talk to your sister. I remember one time one of my one of my things was my mom was like you need to contact your sister and I was like no mom there's no contact her for what she doesn't come to see me she's mad at me she said well you need to you need to she's you need to contact her she's well what's who's going to take care of you when I'm gone I said well you're just going to have to keep on living and she's well I'm doing it I'm trying but it's getting hard um and so anyway people love my love that and so people in the comment section will be like bro you got to talk

about your mom or what's going on with your mom and they've been doing it and so for the past two months that they've been doing it it's like she's gone so i i knew i had to address it so and you've been through the same thing so it's addressed and i appreciate it and uh yeah bro like subscribe and share the video and do all the stuff you're supposed to do so i appreciate it thank you very much and that's it