Modern Wisdom - #589 - 14 Lessons from 5 Years Of Modern Wisdom

Episode Date: February 13, 2023

It's Modern Wisdom's 5th birthday!! 5 years ago on February 12th 2018 I launched this podcast with a conversation in my old company's office in the North East of England. Over the last 589 episodes, 1000+ hours and nearly 2000 days of working away on this project I've learned a lot, and today I'm going through some of the most important lessons and insights I've picked up. Expect to learn the importance of a wide vocabulary, why all amateurs are narcissists, why learning about the reasons for your actions can liberate you or destroy you, whether you should trade youth for money, if you should be known for your takes or your work, why envy not greed drives the world, how to stop getting stuck in old patterns and much more... Sponsors: Get 10% discount on all Gymshark’s products at https://bit.ly/sharkwisdom (use code: MW10) Get over 37% discount on all products site-wide from MyProtein at https://bit.ly/proteinwisdom (use code: MODERNWISDOM) Get 83% discount & 3 months free from Surfshark VPN at https://surfshark.deals/MODERNWISDOM (use code MODERNWISDOM) Extra Stuff: Get my free Reading List of 100 books to read before you die → https://chriswillx.com/books/ To support me on Patreon (thank you): https://www.patreon.com/modernwisdom - Get in touch. Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/chriswillx Twitter: https://www.twitter.com/chriswillx YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/modernwisdompodcast Email: https://chriswillx.com/contact/  Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

Hello friends, welcome back to the show. It is Modern Wisdom's 5th birthday, 5 years ago, on February 12, 2018. I launched this podcast with a conversation in my old company's office in the Northeast of England, and over the last 588 episodes, over a thousand hours and nearly 2,000 days of working away on this project, I have learned quite a lot, and today I'm going to go through some of the most important lessons and insights that I've picked up. Expect to learn the importance of a wide vocabulary, why all amateurs and narcissists, why learning about the reasons for your actions can liberate you or destroy you, whether you should trade youth for money, if you should be known for your takes or your work,

why envy not greed drives the world, how to stop getting stuck in old patterns, and much more. I wasn't really planning on doing a fifth year anniversary birthday episode, but then I figured it's a nice opportunity for me to reflect on the most important things I've picked up over the last half decade, which sounds absolutely insane. Half a decade of doing anything is quite a long time and it does feel very special and thank you to all of you that have been here. Some of you may have been here from the very, very beginning and to you I applaud you massively and you deserve some sort of veterans trophy perhaps or a nice medal. But yeah, this is a special one. I got to go through some things that took a long time

to sink in and maybe of great value to you. If you are on a similar sort of journey from useless idiot to slightly less useless idiot. In, actually before I get to other news, if you do want to give me some sort of gift, it is my birthday next week. Monom wisdom's birthday and my birthday aren't far apart. And if you do want to get me a gift, press subscribe.

That's all I would ask. It does support the show and it means that I can get bigger and better guests and it makes me very happy. I thank you. But now, ladies and gentlemen, it's Mon and Wisdom's fifth birthday. With me. Hello everybody, welcome back to the show. It is a five year anniversary episode. Didn't plan on doing this, but I thought it might be nice to kind of recap some of the

lessons that have taken a little bit longer to sink in. Some of the things that have come about as a byproduct of actually doing the show, some of the insights that I've gained from going from somebody who was 29 and broadly lost and kind of didn't really understand himself all that well to now someone who is 34 and a tiny little bit less lost and still doesn't understand himself perfectly, but does a little bit better. So I thought that this might be an interesting insight into my journey and some of the things that I've really relied on over the last five years. It goes without saying that I didn't intend to be doing this in five years time. I just wanted to start a show and see what would happen. And I mean, that's one lesson to take away straight away, which is you are going to struggle to predict the

outcomes that occur if you continue to do something for a very, very long period of time. It's really hard to work out what that exponential curve of just constant iteration, Rogan calls it, building a mountain with layers of paint. And you just don't know how big that's going to get. And then you look back and you go, wow, that's 600 episodes or a thousand blog posts or however many tens of thousands of hours it is playing the violin or whatever you do. But yes, I'm going to get into some of my favorite lessons

from the last five years on the show. We might as well get started. First one is a rich vocabulary means a richer life. This is a quote from Ludwig Wittgenstein, the limits of my language mean the limits of my world. This has been something that I've relied on an awful lot during the show because I always loved vocabulary and language and trying to be as colorful as possible and precise as possible using the words that

I actually meant to to describe the thing that I'm meaning to describe. And the limits of my language mean the limits of my world is a really lovely description because when you have an idea that's in your brain, up until the point at which it forms itself into something a bit more concrete, which is usually language, unless you create an interpretive dance or something. It's going to be language that you use to try and convey that, not only to other people, which is important, but more importantly to yourself. Up until the point at which you take an idea in your head

and form it into words, it remains a notion, right? It's just, it's this ephemeral, difficult to define sort of cloudy, wishy-washy, I can't grab a hold of it, type sense, right? You just use it, it's this sort of, it's like a smell, you have a smell of an idea, but when it's in word form, it's more concrete, you can refine it, you can actually see it and break it down, which means that if you have a broader vocabulary, if you have more words with which you can describe the things that are going on inside of your mind, you can actually describe them more effectively, and given the fact that it goes from wishy-washy to concrete when you put them into words, it actually allows you to experience a richer

type of life. You can either keep everything in your brain, keep it in a femoral notion smell world and never have to grapple with the fact that your language is imprecise or you can expand your vocabulary, really, really get accurate with what you're trying to describe, and then you can play around with ideas much more effectively. And this also ties into something that I've been a big fan of since starting the show, which is working on my speech. So it's not just about being able to put the words down on paper. I mean, when was the last time that you wrote half a page of anything, unless you were a doctor, probably 10 years ago. So speech is going to be, for the most part, the medium through which you convey these ideas. And this

is another degree of difficulty, right? Because not only do you now need to have the words, in your vocabulary, you also need to have the verbal agility to be able to get from idea to brain to mouth, repurposed with the word that you need out, riding the crest of now. It's an unbelievably difficult thing to do. And then you form this face shape that vibrates air, that hits somebody's ear, that causes them to understand what you mean. I mean, language generally is just fascinating, but the point here remains that if you can expand your capacity with regards to vocabulary and with regards to speech in specifics, you're going to be much more satisfied, I think,

and I've certainly felt a lot more satisfied as that world has expanded, as I've been able to use more and more accurate and precise language to describe the things that are inside of my head. It's allowed me to see and experience the things that I'm going through with greater depth, not just for communicating it to other people, but also for myself.

So, I guess the lesson to take from that is to focus on exposing yourself to new types of words, to not just read something that's easy or always contemporary or always pop culture. I've got here the melancholy death of Oyster Boy by Tim Burton, which is poetry. And this is from my speech coach and he's been getting me to do poetry because it's got these sort of weird rhythms to it. And it's great. I learned the word bivalve the other day, which is I think kind of like a clam. Yeah, it must be because he's a noister, obviously. But just it's cool. So expose yourself to new words and it means that you'll have a rich

or existence. That's the TLDR. Next one, the tension between success and a desire to feel like we're enough. So this is something that I see in pretty much every successful person that I'm friends with. This includes myself, but even people that are further up the mountain of success than me by a distance, it's a problem that almost everybody deals with.

So success is a strange thing, and the reason is, presumably we want success because we think that a more successful life is going to bring us more happiness and more meaning and more fulfillment. But the problem is that we sacrifice the thing that we want, which is happiness, for the thing which is supposed to get it, which is success. Failure can make you miserable, but I'm not sure that success will make you happy. And one of the most common dynamics that I've seen among high performers is parents want their child to do well, so they encourage their child to do well by praising them when they succeed and criticizing them when they fail.

But what that causes is the child to learn that praise and admiration are contingent on succeeding. And that lesson metastasizes through early adulthood into, I am only worthy of love and acceptance and belonging if I succeed. And being powered by this internal feeling of insufficiency, that can drive a human to do an awful lot of things. You can achieve a hell of a lot because you're prepared to outwork and outhustle and out suffer everybody else because they're not running just toward a life that they want, but you're also running away from a life that you fear. Success and progress can emeliorate these feelings of insufficiency. You're constantly getting a new hit of dopamine as you reach the next goal. Therefore, success and

progress becomes prioritized above everything else. Not only have you been programmed in the past by parental conditioning and previous success, it is also the anesthetic that kind of balms over the pain of insufficiency as well. And don't get me wrong, like lots of high performers do genuinely love the work that they do. There are out there, I'm sure, tons of people who are driven by a well-balanced, simple desire to maximize their time on this planet, and not everybody that is a high performer is trying to fill some existential void inside of them. But if I was to place a bet, I would guess that the majority of high performers are driven by a fear of insufficiency rather than some perfectly balanced holistic desire to be better. And I think on average that high achievers are more miserable

than the normal person. That was a question that I've asked a bunch of different big name coaches, and they all seem to say the same thing, which is, yes, high performers on average. Michael Jivey, who was the guy that they brought in to fix Felix Bongartner, the dude that parachuted from the edge of space, he was struggling with claustrophobia inside of this suit, which was going to go however meant like 150,000 feet in the air. He was struggling every time he got in his heart rate was super high, his blood pressure was super high, he just wasn't able to perform and they brought him into fix it. And he said he's worked with turn of NFL teams, he's worked with everybody, right? The guy that fixed the man that jumped from the edge of space's mentality said, most high performers are miserable. So what does it

mean that the people who we admire the most are the ones who sometimes have the least desirable internal states? And also, if the pursuit of success is in an effort to make us happy and in the pursuit of success, we make ourselves miserable. Why not just shortcut the entire process and just be happy? I don't know if that's even possible because external accolades do count for a lot. And I also don't think that getting rid of all of your worldly possessions and retreating into a cave in the woods is an optimal strategy. I think some degree of external material success is important because it makes us feel validated and it satiates our desire for status and respect. But external success isn't going to fill an internal void.

And I came up with another brochine's idea of insufficiency adaptation, which is if your drive comes from a fear of insufficiency and you continue to disprove those fears with success in the real world, and yet those feelings of insufficiency persist, what makes you think that the answer to this problem is more success. If your drive comes from a fear of insufficiency and you continue to disprove those fears with success in the real world, yet the feeling of insufficiency persists, what makes you think that the answer to this problem is more success? It's probably not, right? It's probably something more deep-seated. It's going to be more difficult for you to fix this problem than simply the next trophy or the next award or the next

zero on your bank balance. And I think there is no clean answer here, right? The world is messy and every human is hopelessly irrational when compared with what rationality actually looks like. You also don't need to let go of every success goal. But I do think spending some time working out whether there is a shorter, more direct route to the life that you want by removing obstacles rather than pressing harder on the accelerator might be a good question to ask yourself. Am I over-complicating life?

Is something that I find myself asking quite a lot? Do I need all of these things? To do all of. Like, do I need all of these things? To do all of these things? Do I need all of these possessions? Do I need to... What is it that genuinely brings me joy? What am I doing that doesn't contribute to what that? And which of these things actually don't serve anything at all? Maybe they're just patterns that I've inculcated through habit or paths of least resistance or the way I've dealt with trauma in the past or again this this sense of insufficiency, this void that needs filling. Again, like you might be listening to this and go I don't get any I all of my success comes from this perfectly balanced place. fair play if that's you. But I would, I would estimate that you were in the minority and a very fortunate one. So, you know, count your blessings if that's true. And if you resonate

with that story, which is this sense of not being enough, gets salved, it's fixed by the a knee statistic solution that comes with success and progress. Work out how much of the success over complicates life and how much of it actually contributes to your happiness. Okay, next one. This is from James Clean. People get so caught up in the fact that they have limits that they rarely exert the effort required to get close to them. People get so caught up in the fact that they have limits that they rarely exert the effort required to get close to them. People get so caught up in the fact they have limits that they rarely exert the effort required to get close to them. This was tied in with something that I, it took me four years and ten months to actually realize and it was a conversation with Michael Malice toward the back end of last year that really

put a name to it and you'll have had this happen before where you've got this idea or problem or concept that you're, you're really trying to wrestle with. You need to find a model for why it exists or what it is and you're coming up with all of these different ideas and you're searching and then after a while you realize that it was a super obvious term or words that existed and you were already aware of and you just didn't realize that that was the thing that you were referring to all along. Again, the limits of my language mean the limits of my world. And the word that I was looking for was cynicism, right? It's the reason that I have a problem with YouTube comments sometimes. It's one of the things that I rail against and dislike most on the internet. It's one of

the biggest turn-offs in terms of finding new friends for me. It's one of the reasons that I moved out to America. You know, it is so awful and destructive and boring. And it was cynicism. And that was the word that I was looking for all along. And this is why for the people that are watching on YouTube, I'm so grateful for the audience that I've managed to build because you guys are For the most part not that cynical you are very reasonable It's very insightful take your time to watch and and listen to the arguments that are being put for by someone even someone That you might not like or don't agree with before you actually spout out some half-baked opinion And I mean this was shown the Steven Shaw episode that was whatever, a couple of weeks ago, that had people opening up about difficulties in becoming

a mother or a father or letting things go or it being too late or fears for the future. And these are just random people on the internet contributing on a platform which isn't exactly known for its depth and nuance. And that made me feel very proud. So for those of you that are doing that, thank you. And that also was what sparked my insight around cynicism, was two comments on the episode with Malice. And Malice is talking about a reason to hope, right? So the Soviet union, the famines, this sort of brutality of their entire process throughout all of the 1900s, basically, would have been a good justification that the bad guys are always going to win, that the world is not going to

get better, that there is basically nothing we can do. And yet, they didn't win. And yet, it did end up being fixed. It was a problem that we could amount. And that is his reason for hope, his justification for hope, that coming back from the worst that the world has ever had, to actually something that we wanted, the good guys won in his opinion. And yet there was two comments on that that just really nailed what I've been thinking about cynicism.

So, quote, cynicism as Michael espouses it is 1,000% a guarded response. You're setting yourself up against disappointment. The worst, most obnoxious, black-pilled cynics are pretty much always heartbroken by their own experiences and terrifying to hope. It's more comfortable to get fatalistic and call it pragmatism. The cope is framing hope as pathetic and embarrassing and optimism as delusion, which is projection on their end.

It's sour grapes at an existential level. If everything sucks and everyone is horrible and reality is disappointing and you know that for a fact, it's the people acting like things can be better that are dumb slash delusional slash the problem. And that's so such a beautiful perfect dissection of the exact tenor that I dislike on the internet. And there was a second comment which said, cynicism is a psychological protector, its role within the system is to protect you against experiencing anything bad, it is a preemptive strike against a perceived threat. If I tell myself that all women are bad, then I'm less likely to seek a relationship with

women and as a consequence, I'm never going to feel the pain of rejection. If I tell myself that everything is shit, or that things will never get better, then I'm excused of ever having to try at anything. The upside of never trying is never having to feel the pain of failure. I mean, that's fucking, that was better than anything that me and Malice said on the episode. So to those two commenters, thank you very much. And it just, it really synthesized for me that this culture of cynicism and pessimism

is one of the things that I'm most trying to rail against. I want a community and a movement of people who see the good in the world and who are agents of change for themselves and for the people that are around them, they're people who take control, people who face down big challenges with a grin on their face because of the chance that they might win, right? This is the energy that I want for 2023. I don't want blind optimism but I want blue sky self belief and I back myself and so should you. I don't think that pessimism or cynicism

is cool or fun to be around. And like, okay, let's even say that I'm wrong, right? Say that the challenges that we face are insurmountable and that we are individually or collectively frolicking toward an inescapable apocalypse. I'm absolutely not going to spend my final moments with some buzzkill mood-hover telling me about how they knew that this would happen all along. That's not the person that I want to be around, right? And this agentic, highly sovereign trend among people

trend among people is probably the single most common factor between all of the friends that I've accumulated, all of the people that I've resonated with, all the people that I've got on with the most. And it just seems to be that those are the ones who win, those are the ones who deal with challenges the best. So you can have the pessimism viewpoint if you want, if that's the way that you want to go about the world. But I don't think cynics are having that much fun, and I don't think that insulating yourself from failure by guaranteeing it individually is particularly cool. And again, even if it is the case that everything's going to hell in a hand basket, like, I don't want to be with you, man. I don't want to spend my time with you. So that was a really, really big insight that kind of,

like optimism really is something that I've been aiming toward for a long time. And yet it took me four years and 10 months to reverse engineer the word hope into a podcast. Anyway, next one. The vestigial pattern bias. The successful deliberate approaches we learn during our development can become a prison, which stops us from becoming more free-flowing

and at ease when we are developed. The tools that got you from 0 to 50 are not the same ones that will get you from 50 to 90 or 90 to 95. But we found success with this approach in the past, so we cling on to an overly rational, deliberate approach. We hope that applying pure cerebral horse power to a situation will fix it, without realizing that our subconscious has aggregated the thousands of hours of experience

that we've clocked up now. And not using that experience is keeping us in the same league that we've always been in. So this is something that I see very heavily in business and I've also seen it in kind of any practical pursuit where you have a lot of direct control over what's going to go on. So if you're a business owner or if you're somebody who is growing a platform, anybody that's trying to do a physical pursuit, there will be a series of sort of very deliberate steps that you go

through. You may be overbearing, someone would say, or you may struggle to relinquish control within a business, let's say, right? You've always done this in the past. This is the way that things have always been done. And you'd very much struggle to pass this on to somebody else. You delegate down, you can't bear to see somebody else do it because they're going to do it slightly wrong. What you don't realize is that that was great when your business was first starting out, but it's absolutely terrible when you're trying to scale it. And the same thing goes for, let's say, that you do a podcast and let's say that you struggle to relinquish control over ad reads or the audio edits or whatever it might be, you are going to cap how much work you can do because you're bouncing

off the limit of the number of hours in a day. And also you struggle to be more free-flowing and encapsulate all of the experience that you've got and be able to use that, rather than having to be so deliberate. You know, if you've done something a thousand times, you can afford to actually be a bit more creative, and maybe after you've learned the rules, perhaps even break some of the rules. But until you know the rules, it's very difficult to break them.

That's not breaking them. That's just not understanding how to play the game. So Ian McGillcrest, guy that wrote the master in his emissary, fantastic, really great insight. Had a conversation with him, and it was an interesting time last year because I was really, really digging into this tension between cognition and intuition, right? This sort of battle between the two and letting go of thinking and relying on feeling to make decisions and guide your actions. And this is very much his domain.

And it relates to what we were talking about before because when you first start out doing anything, you have very little useful experience to rely on. So instead, many people, a lot of the sort of people that will listen to a podcast like this one will rely on just straight up cerebral horsepower. They, you'll outthink and out obsess and outwork the competition in order to become more effective. And this cognitive deliberate

strategy will work great because it's an area of effectiveness that only a small number of people can get to. It's very effortful, but it is very effective. And the interesting challenge is what happens a few years later when you've accumulated some experience because now is the time when you can stop being so deliberate and you can start being more effortless and natural and graceful with how you conduct your pursuit of choice. An example of this was Ian McGillchrist looked at the motorbike races on the Isle of Man time trial. And they discovered, so this time trial for the people that don't know,

the Isle of Man's tiny little island off the coast of Britain. They race on streets, not like Miami streets. They race on country roads, B roads with sheer cliffs and dry stone walls and potholes and right hand turns. This is not purpose built. This isn't purpose built to be a normal road. This is like bad roads to just drive down, let alone to race down at 200 miles an hour. And in looked at these races and realized that they're operating at a speed where their conscious processing doesn't

have time to kick in. So a big chunk of the race is done exclusively on instinct. They're not thinking, shift down, turn left, a little bit of brake, get back on the power. They are doing all of this just like back of the brain and the goal is actually to switch off the front of the brain. And there's an ease and speed and wisdom available from our gut, which gets shut down when we rely on this more cognitive rational approach for everything that we do. This is also what I learned from Edward Slingland, the guy that wrote drunk. He's saying that switching off your PFC, your prefrontal cortex, is actually one of the best things that you can do for creativity because as soon as you try to focus really,

really hard, there are certain areas of the brain that are great for creativity that get shut off. So there is this interesting challenge that you may be facing and I know that I do very regularly, which is the period after you've accumulated experience, but before you've learned to rely on your gut, and this is something that I've meamed as the chasm of cognitive effort. So, you've ingrained a habit of conscious control for years and years, and this habit has been rewarded with success, reinforcing it, and making it seem like a very effective strategy, but just like when Tiger Woods had to

configure his entire golf swing from scratch to go from being one of the best in the world to the very best, sometimes there is a ceiling to your current approach. What got you here won't get you there. Confucius talks about this really interesting kind of reprogramming when realizing Wu Wei, which is natural action, it's sort of thinking without thinking. Quote, in the early stages of training an aspiring Confucian gentleman needs to memorize entire shelves of archaic texts, learn the precise angle at which to bow and learn the lengths of the steps with which he is to enter a room. His sitting mat must always be perfectly straight. All of this rigour and restraint, however, is ultimately aimed at producing a cultivated but nonetheless genuine form of spontaneity. Indeed, the process

of training is not considered complete until the individual has passed completely beyond the need for thought or effort. So, the next stage of your development might not be more effort but more ease, might be less grind and more grace. And this chasm of cognitive effort is something that certainly a lot of my friends and myself get stuck in, right? That you can really struggle to let go of a strategy which gave you success in the past. I know if I'm faced with a challenge that if I apply tons of cerebral horse power to it, it'll go away. Problem is, that doesn't scale. You can't do that for everything for the rest of time. I mean, you can. You could do that, but it's going to restrict how far you can get,

because it's not very scalable, it's not very leverageable, it's very effortful, it's going to restrict how far you can get because it's not very scalable, it's not very leverageable, it's very effortful, it's going to tie you out, it isn't easily delegated. All of this ties together into letting go, just finding a little bit more ease. And that chasm of cognitive effort and clambering back out of it, one increasingly more easy handholder at a time is something that I think is quite important. clambering back out of it, one increasingly more easy handholder at the time is something that I think is quite important. Next one.

I watched a great video where Charlie Munger was, it'll be one of those end of your report things. He gives an AGM, him, and Warren Buffett, give these talks. He's always sat on stage with a can of coke. And he said that what drives the world isn't greed, it's envy. And the quote was, our lives are objectively the best humanity has ever had,

yet complaining in dissatisfaction are high as ever. Humans don't want their lives to just be better, they want them to be better than their neighbors and their parents and the people that they see on social media. In this way, highly connected life is influencing your expectations and envy through comparison. So you can imagine that you would track your status in a local tribe and in a small hierarchy like that, it was super important, and, cesseryly, because you need to know where you sit.

And the problem is that we haven't learned how to knock that switch off, even though we are comparing itself essentially with 7 billion other people on the internet. And if the Theodore Roosevelt quote, which is comparison is the thief of joy, was right. In a world where we can compare more, it'll commensurately be one with less happiness, right? If you have more comparison which will drive more envy, not greed, more envy, you're trying to play keeping up with the

Joneses, you're using this ancient programming to try and check where you are in the status hierarchy and you're now commuting with an entire globe, an entire civilization of humans. Perhaps understandably, your feelings of insufficiency are going to continue to arise, especially if you're one of these people who was taught when you were a kid that praise is really only worthy, a praise and feeling of belonging and feeling like you're enough is contingent on what it is that you do and achieve. This can all kind of congeal into a pretty negative worldview, or one, at the very least, which is very externalized.

It's not about you, it's not about what you can do. It's about what you do compared to everybody else. It's not about your pursuit, it's about how good your pursuits are compared to everyone else. I always think about this. There's an interesting story to do with the Mr. Olympia competition. So one of the challenges that you have, if you want to become Mr. Olympia, is you need to beat the second place guy or you need to beat the next best guy in order to be able to come first. So if you miss time it and you are in the same era as Dorian

Yates or Arnold Schwarzenegger or Roddy Coleman or Jay Cutler, these legends of the sport, you can still be unbelievably good. You can be world class, you can be better than world class. You can be the best in the world ever Minus one you could be the second best in the world that's ever been in the sport and if you time it wrong You're always going to be second and this is the problem of Using any external metric of success to gauge your own self-worth that you aren't Inevitably outsourcing your own sense of self-worth, your crowd sourcing it to the world around you.

And that's going to lead to problems. You are going to encounter a world which is pretty indifferent, doesn't really care about what you want, that could be very poorly timed for what you're trying to achieve and you will suffer. Next one. Do you want to be known for your work or your takes? So this is from Andrew Cubanman and this was something I've been thinking about for ages and again, it took somebody else's language to put this into words for me. So, quote, advice I got early in my career, don't over engage in any controversy unless

you are willing to stake your entire reputation on it. Rather, keep focused on discovering new things and creating or else you will become known for the controversy and nothing else. There is no going back. That's human. So this desire for drama, this compulsion that people have, this gravitational pull that they have to inject themselves into culture war topics or whatever it might be, is alluring, right?

And don't get me wrong, like I'll talk about Grammily and Chat GPT using like progressive words because it's funny. There is a degree of game playing that everybody does and I'm by no means immune from that. However, there are some people for whom that is their life. You can tell it's what gets them. They have been subsumed by the drama so much so that it is completely taken over their personality. There is no one home apart from them being a vehicle for the culture war. That is not the person that I want to be.

I don't want to be known for the drama. I want to be known for my ideas and the work that I do and the people I talk with and the conversations that I have. And sometimes those two will cross over, right? That's totally fine. But you can imagine the world in which someone just basically becomes a puppet for whatever, they're like a cook for drama, right?

They're sipping for drama. If there's any opportunity to interject themselves into a remotely cantankerous conversation online, they'll do it because they see it as an opportunity to gain some easy cloud because people are naturally drawn to drama, even where there isn't any, and that's the people that create it out of nowhere. Not only, I mean, is it, it makes the internet a worse place to be, and these are the precisely the sorts of people that I mute,

even the ones that are very big and well known, but also it makes me feel, beyond being annoying, it makes me feel pity for them. I really, really feel bad for what their normal home life must be like. Once it like being marriage to someone that exists like this, it's something I don't want. And then I realized that one of the reasons that I'd been holding back a little bit in terms of that whole kind of very bombastic out there flashy communication, which for a long time, right, is a club promoter coming up. For anybody that remembers my Facebook from back in the day, it was flagrant callouts of people that were competitor promoters about

like some guys hostess that one of the glads that worked for us had got with last week, but they worked for a different company. It was your comments about their club night comments about their like anything that I could find, that I thought would rile somebody else up. So going from that world to this one might not feel like, oh wow, you discovered that not being a dick on

the internet is a game-changing way to retain some sanity. Like, okay, yeah, perhaps that's not amazing news for everybody. But for me, and for a lot of people, I think, that have been in a world where they did exist in the cesspool of causing drama on the internet. It is quite a big realization. And another thing that I realized is that if you want to get people on side with whatever argument or movement it is that you believe, if you really, really understand human nature, you don't want to trigger a tribal response. Like if you genuinely understand the way that human behavior works, if you make somebody

feel silly or you ridicule them, they will dig their heels in so much more tightly. And they're not coming over to your side, even they're going to be more brazen. They're going to be reinforced in their beliefs even more, right? So I learned that triggering a tribal response is antithetical to having an effective behaviour and belief-changing message. It's nowhere near as sexy for me or for the guests that I speak to to heavily caveat, right? It seems to be the case that in my best estimation, it seems it may be based on the evidence and the research that, da, da, da, da, da, da, da, like it's nowhere near as sexy to do that, then to just come storming out of the gates and make

some black and white accusation about the way that the world is. And this is the same when you're having a conversation at work, whether you're trying to have an negotiation with your partner, it is nowhere near as cool to do that. Now, when you're talking on the internet, you want to try out some people like the idea of coming across as this, like, flaming warrior of truth that's just slicing through things with this sort of insight. But for the most part, almost all situations are messy and chaotic, and it very rarely is as cut and dry. So it isn't as sexy to caveat heavily, which the guests do, and which I do a lot as well. isn't as sexy to caveat heavily, which the guests do and which I do a lot as well. But when it comes to really important subjects, the most compelling arguments, I think, are

the gentle ones. They're the ones where if I'm going to try and convince somebody, or if you need to try and convince somebody, that maybe population collapse is a topic that they should take seriously, that maybe men falling behind in education and employment is of concern not only to men, but also to women and to society and to the civilization at large. Perhaps these are important topics. If you steam in and start accusing girls of being hypergamous thoughts and sluts and idiots and like you don't care about men. What do you think the outcome of that is going to be? Do you think that that's going to be effective behavioral change? Do you think that that's going to convince people who already disagree with your point of view or might taking them through things one step

at a time be better? Now maybe this is just the stage that I'm at. Maybe in five years time, if I eat a bit more liver and my testosterone doubles, I'm just going to be a flagrant, like, flame and worry are the same as everybody else. But at the moment, I prefer this approach. I think that it definitely seems to be more effective at convincing people of novel, new insights and changing their opinions.

And also stepping through things very, very gently like this. It seems to have worked well for a lot of the people that I respect. Most of the people who I think have a really great approach to their public online persona, that one that I like and one that if you were working in an office, if you're trying to manage a home, if you're trying to be a part of a sports team, I could see as not only being more effective, but protecting your sanity, like you are going to bring on yourself way more psychological distress by making yourself a lightning rod for the politics in your sports team or the politics in your kids school or the rouse in

your argument or the disagreements in your office, just stepping through things. That doesn't mean backing down. That just means not steaming in with insults and backhanded, passive, aggressive comments and stuff. That's not the way to go. So anyway, that's where I'm at at the moment. Give me five years and I might be, exactly, I might have descended into the muck in the my other same as everybody else. But for now, that's where I'm at. Okay, next one. That's where I'm at. Okay, next one. So this is a really, really great insight from Alex Homozzi.

He says, when I'm 50, I trade everything I own to be 33 my current age again, which means right now is more important than all the wealth I'll ever accumulate. You'd give it all to live again today. All of the money that he makes, he's already worth a hundred million or something. All of the money that he makes between now and 17 years time, he would trade all of that in 17 years time

to be his age right now, which means all of the money that he makes is less important than the experiences that he has in front of him. That's a pretty heavy realization, right? And related to what we were talking about earlier on, that happiness and success trade, we trade the thing that we want, which is time for the thing, which is supposed to get it, which is money. We give up time to make money so that we can finally have more time when we have enough money. We give up happiness to achieve success so that we can have more happiness when we achieve enough success. This yet again comes back to the, is there a quicker route to the life that I want to

have? Am I making money because I think that making money is the thing that I need to do in order to make myself happy, but when I actually assess the standard of living that I need to be at, what I realize is that I'm already there, or I'm not going to be far off within the space of the next five years. So actually driving myself into the ground or having all of these different side hustles, which don't find me up, maybe I don't need to do that. Now, if they are things that genuinely fire you up, fantastic, lean into them as much as you want. And if they, on the byproduct earn you a ton of money, then it even better.

It is very difficult for you to separate out and distill a part. How much of this is something that you want to do? And how much of this is something which is a byproduct of social norms and the influence of society at large, right? You, everybody else values tons and tons of money. Why shouldn't you?

I mean, you know, the classic hustle and grind mentality of it's great to earn a million dollars because it's way easier to turn one into ten than it is to turn a hundred grand into ten. Really is that is, is it just endless, never stopping, monetary growth is your primary goal in life. I don't know. I mean, for me, that's not the way that I see things. I'm fortunate that I didn't come from money, which means that everything feels like a bonus. Anything over a graduate job feels like an insane amount of money. And I also understand that people come from different backgrounds. There are people who grow up either in wealth or in families that felt like they treated

gifts as their primary mode of showing love. And again, if that's you, you have the opportunity to deprogram that in part. I don't know how heritable materialism is, but there will be some movement that you have. You have some control over reprogramming this and your life will be way, way better if you stop judging yourself based on the number of zeros in your bank account. And it means you can actually choose to do the thing that you want to do more effectively because you're not beholden to sacrificing happiness for money or sacrificing time for money. Time is the thing that we want. Money is the thing that's supposed to get it

by finally giving us enough money to have time and we sacrifice that time in order to achieve it. It's so circular. Anyway, there's a concept called Nexting, which I was recently introduced to and it is a single word descriptor of one of my favorite speeches from Sam Harris ever. So I'm going to read that to you now.

Quote, as a matter of conscious experience, the reality of your life is always now. And I think that this is a liberating truth about the nature of the human mind. In fact, I think there's probably nothing more important to understand about your mind than that if you want to be happy in this world. The past is a memory, it is a thought arising in the present. The future is merely anticipated, it is another thought arising now. What we truly have is this moment and this. And we spend most of our lives forgetting this truth, refuting it, fleeing it, overlooking it. And the horror is that we succeed. We manage to never really connect with the present moment and find fulfillment there because we are continually hoping to become happy in the future. And

the future never arrives. It is always now. However much you feel you need to plan for the future, to anticipate anticipate it to mitigate risks, the reality of your life is now. Even when we think we're in the present moment, we're in very subtle ways always looking over it's shoulder, anticipating what's coming next, we're always solving a problem, and it's possible to simply drop your problem if only for a minute and enjoy whatever is true of your life in the present. Maybe all of the things or at the very least many of the things that we do are an attempt

to give ourselves a good enough reason to just be here existing in the present moment. So being choked during sex stops the chat of our mind as does drugs as does alcohol and fighting and reading and Dancing on a beach as a DJ plays a set The goal as awakened humans should be to lower the height of the bar of stimulus that you need so that you can be present without having any of these inputs, right? You shouldn't need to have a without having any of these inputs, right? You shouldn't need to have a perfect psycho-pharmacological cocktail of drugs and best friends and nature and sound and everything in order for you to just have an excuse to be here in the present moment.

Does it help for you to not be in a complete nightmare scenario with a ton of worries and a concern straight around the corner. Yes, it does. Would it be easier to be super present if you're on top of Everest? Yes, it would. But in between those two situations, you need to try and find a way to just be present and enjoy the moment right now. You're not going to live peak experiences every single day. And this is a quote from Navale, which I love, which is if you can't be present with a coffee, you won't be present with a yacht bastardized it a little bit. If you can't be happy with a coffee, you won't be happy with the yacht.

But if you can't be present with a coffee, you won't be present on a yacht, right? What gives you the impression that your problems will be fixed by more money, right? If more success continues to come along, the imposter adaptation thing, if more success continues to come along and doesn't fix your problems, if feeling like an imposter, it's got nothing to do with more success. The same thing goes for if you can't be present in the moment, no matter what it is that you're doing, what makes you think that a bigger house or more money or more followers online is going to be that answer.

You can think about how many times your presence has been hijacked by fears or worries or hopes for the future or problems or regrets or victories around problems of the past. As you flee from boredom before it even re-sits head with the screen in your pocket, you are so averse to time without distraction that all of us have become addicted to solving problems so much so that we create problems purely for the purpose of solving them. But what we truly have is this moment. Letting go of that desire, that requirement to always be in motion, to always be in conflict, is very, very difficult, but it's something that I am trying quite hard to do.

Okay, next one. How are we here? Oh, this is brilliant. It's a little bit of evolutionary psychology. I've always been thinking about this. This one quote that I've brought up a ton of times on the show that you're probably familiar with to do with happiness and becoming aware. There is a relationship between why you do things now in the moment and what their purpose

is long term evolutionarily. And I only learned about this a couple of weeks ago, and it's called Proximate and Ultimate Reasons for Human Behavior. So Dr. Tanya Reynolds came on the show and she said that natural selection favors certain behaviors but doesn't necessarily favor us having explicit awareness of why we do what we do.

Natural selection favors certain behaviors but doesn't necessarily favor us having explicit awareness of why we do what we do. Natural selection favors certain behaviors, but doesn't necessarily favor us having explicit awareness of why we do what we do. So in order to properly understand human behavior, we have to understand both the ultimate and the proximate explanations. So ultimate explanations are concerned with why a behavior exists and proximate explanations are concerned with how it works. So prox approximate would be the more immediate reason to do a behaviour, so sex feels good and gives you pleasure and love. Ultimate would be the reason why the behaviour was shaped that way by evolution. So, it creates offspring who continue your genetic line, right? Immediate and long term. The behaviour here is the same, right?

It's still just sex. The explanations for it though are based on different sets of factors that incorporates physiological versus evolutionary motivations. And the reason that this is interesting is because some of the responses that I'd seen to conversations around evolutionary psychology. So I told Schultz that a non-negligible contributor

to the reason that the body positivity movement gets so much intense support from skinny women is because it reduces these skinny women's mating competition from bigger women by BMIing them out of the dating pool, which means less competition for potential partners. And some women perhaps unsur, took issue with my explanation. And I can see why,

because it's a pretty ungracious characterization of their support of the body positivity movement. It's saying like, no guy, you're reading way too much into it. This isn't what I think about at all. I just want to support my friends. I'm like, look, the proximate and ultimate explanations

aren't at odds with each other. They actually support each other. Indeed, they live very much in harmony. They're just at different levels of perspective and abstraction. So other examples might be why we like fats and sugars in our food. The proximate would be that it tastes good. The ultimate would be that it provides ancessarily rare energy rich in high calories and sustenance which should improve our chances of survival.

Why would we like symmetrical faces in our partners? The proximate would be they look attractive. The ultimate would be symmetrical faces are genetically harder to create and they indicate better quality of genes, which would be passed on for our future potential offspring. The reason two and the reason four, these actions, aren't counter to each other, right? So revisiting that quote from Tanya, natural selection favors certain behaviors, but doesn't necessarily favor us having explicit awareness of why we do what we do. One problem here, with having the veil of ultimate explanation ignorance lifted

from our eyes, is that that makes us feel a lot less agentic. It's less in control of our own desires, where more cynical and contrived and manipulative. That's how it can make us feel. And, you know, someone might say, I don't mind preferring partners with symmetrical faces, but as soon as I realize that this preference is essentially my desires being poppited,olutions, marry, and at. It feels less virtuous and self-chosen, right? It's the same reason why the women who I suggested, maybe supporting the body positivity movement

for more than just the reason of wanting their friends to feel okay, now have to face down the less noble idea that maybe they're not perfectly altruistic friends supporters. Maybe there are some rather awkward motivations going on inside and you go, well, look, you don't get to control those parts of you. In the same way as you railing, you somehow being an immoral person because you have small feet or because you have blue eyes or something. Like, these are the precepts that are inside of us.

So the answer to this discomfort, which I think a lot of people feel and I apologize for all of the conversations about evolutionary psychology, which just reveal this veil of ultimate behaviour explanation. I think the best answer that I've found so far is to find play. Like, you have to laugh at the absurdity of being a sovereign creature who feels like they have their own will, but is driven by millennia old preferences to help you survive and reproduce. Like you just, you have to find a way to make this funny or else you're going to cry yourself to sleep. And that quote, I absolutely adore,

ultimately happiness comes down to choosing between the discomfort of becoming aware of your mental afflictions or the discomfort of becoming ruled by them. You have the choice. I mean, people, you will have friends who perfectly just waltz through life, they don't really end up challenging themselves with concerns of whether they're self-actualizing or anything else. Are they,

are they living a happier life? Very well, they may be, but as with Pandora's box or squeezing toothpaste out of a tube, once it is out, it is not going back in. And if you're the sort of person that I imagine listens to this kind of content for an hour already, you are the kind of person for whom it is going to be very difficult to unsee things that you've seen. So, as soon as you realize that your reasons for your behaviour might not be quite as noble as you thought, you need to learn more in order to be able to transcend and include that, right? The only alternative is to exist in this sort of awful middle ground where you know that you're maybe your noble behaviors aren't quite as noble as you

thought and just allow yourself to to what ignored them to to kind of exist with this paradox going on. You're not going to close the loop on, okay, what does this mean? How do I how do I include the fact that I have both ancient programming and sort of modern day sovereignty blended with each other. How do I make this work together? And the best solution that I've found is to just laugh about it, to just find it funny that you are a rider on top of an elephant, right? And you can pretend that you're driving the car and or driving the elephant and getting

it to go where you want. But for the most part, you're at the mercy of the elephant. So, okay, like allow the elephant to go, learn how to have a good relationship with your elephant and just laugh about it. Okay, next one. So this is a passage from Turning Pro and this was pretty formative, given that this episode was inspired by doing five years of this podcast, Turning Pro was a turning point for me. I

read it three years ago at the start of the pandemic. And I actually read, sorry, I read The War of Art, which is Steven Pressfield book, and then Turning Pro is a chapter in The War of Art, which he then turned into a sequel and they're both great and you can get both of them by going to chriswillx.com slash books. That is a list of 100 books you should read before you die and it'll explain why I like them in a little bit more detail and there's links to go and get them and there's also 98 other books that you can crack on with. The quote says, the amateur is a narcissist. He views the world hierarchically. He continually rates himself in relation to others,

becoming self-inflicted if his fortunes rise and desperately anxious if his star should fall. The amateur sees himself as the hero, not only of his own movie, but in the movies of others. He insists in his mind if nowhere else that others share this view. That self-inflated if his fortunes rise and desperately anxious if his star should fall is exactly what I was saying before to do with the externalizing of your self-worth to whatever the market or the follow-up count or the

other competitors on the Mr Olympia stage or the girls at the bar or the people at work say or behave or judge you as, right? You have to find somewhere more firm to stand than exclusively outsourcing your own sense of self worth to the whole world around you. It is going to end up with you being ragged around at the mercy of the market. And other people's heads are a wretched place for your self worth to live. I can promise you this as somebody who found

an awful lot of pleasure and took an awful lot of pride in desperately wanted to be liked by people that there is no amount of other people's praise, which is going to fill that void. Like, it has to come from within. It's straight up has to come from within. Now, it can be supported and buttressed by people and good friends and all the rest of it. But it's you. It's you. First and foremost, it's you. And like I say, I read that book three years ago, and that was when we went from two episodes a week to three week and I really decided, okay, I'm going to try my best at this

podcast thing and really try and commit myself and I got a speech coach and I got a me and Dean settled into a much more rigorous routine with how we would get things done and I learned YouTube and all of these are the bits and pieces, but it was a commitment. And that's why I'm always going to have a big affinity for the ideas in turning pro. And yeah, that externalizing of the inflating and anxious cycle really hit me. Like, you do not want to outsource your sense of self worth to the people that are around you, you cannot allow yourself to be buffeted around at the mercy of things that aren't under your control.

You are built to achieve whatever it is that you're trying to achieve. You're more resilient, you're more attentive, you're more mindful, you are enough to do whatever the thing is that you're trying to do. You do not need certification from the world at large that you are enough. You already are.

And that is something that took so, so long for me to get to grips with. And I mean that, Homozi quote, which someone got a hold of and made into a video and went just bananas on the internet, which is funny because it was me quoting someone else to someone else, and that was the thing. It wasn't anything I'd come up with.

But Homozi who says, you do not build self-confidence by shouting affirmations in the mirror. You build it by having a stack of undeniable proof that you are, who you say you are, outwork yourself doubt. That is how you proof that you are who you say you are, outwork yourself doubt. That is how you learn that you are worthy. Just continue to do things that make you proud of yourself. Integrity building, pride inducing, good, honorable, virtuous behavior, keeping promises to yourself, getting up on time when you said that you would do doing hard things when you should, having difficult conversations when you should, telling the truth even when it's difficult.

Those are the things that are going to make you feel very proud of yourself. Okay, where are we at? Now we're coming up on an hour. Let's do two more. Okay, so the Tokville paradox. This is from Gwinderbogel, friend slash one of the big fanboy moments. This is another thing, right?

By the way, as, whatever you want to say, like thought leaders or interesting people on the internet become democratized and there's more and more of them, you will have the opportunity to become friends with someone who you are both genuinely actually friends with and also a massive fanboy over their work. And this is a strange middle ground that I don't think used to exist. So previously the people that created things that were well known and worthy of renown would be out of the reach of almost everybody and the small group of people that they were

friends with would be a problem that only a few people would encounter. Whereas now, someone like Gwinda, who is just a really phenomenal writer, great sub-stacker, but just a normal bloke, right? He's not a Jordan Peterson or anything like that. We speak pretty regularly, and yet, I obsessively read every single thing that he writes. So it's kind of like being your mate's biggest fan at the same time.

It's just a bizarre world. I don't know if that even makes sense, but it's just, it's an odd world. Anyway, this is something that he taught me about called the Tokville Paradox. As the living standards in a society rise, people's expectations of the society rise with it. The rise in expectations eventually surpasses the rise in living standards, inevitably resulting in disaffection and sometimes populist uprisings. So you can imagine that concept creep, which is as a problem becomes ever rarer, you need to expand the definition in order to be able to keep the problem the same level.

So racism, let's say, by pretty much any quantifiable metric, racism appears to have declined over the last 100 years. And yet, if you were to listen to certain media outlets, they would suggest that racism is as bad as it's ever been or maybe even worse. It wouldn't be surprising if headlines from certain news articles would say something like, it's 1816 all over again, I don't know what year it is, whatever the bad year is that they don't like 1764, whatever that year was that they don't like. Then it's that year all over again. They concept creep that out, which relates to the Tockfield paradox, it's the living standards

rise, people's expectations rise with it. So you can see when you blend these two concepts together, the what you end up with is natural, a natural sense of disaffection. Hang on, the world was supposed to be getting better, but it's not getting better as well as I wanted it to. I now feel aggrieved, now of place, and I'm upset. Why hasn't this happened? This encourages a victimhood mentality. You can see exactly how this would create that downstream from it. Living standards are

rising, expectations rise, expectations continue to rise because imagination is unbound and sadly, you know, GDP and the amount of space that we have to give you a nice new living room isn't. Therefore, you're going to find a problem. You're going to find a problem with your education, with your employment, with your place of society, with your status, with your partner, with everything that it is. That's going to cause you to feel disaffected. That's going to cause you to feel cynical, relating back to what we said earlier on. You know, the world cannot give me what I want. Therefore, there must be a problem with the world and not with me. Therefore, nothing is ever going to go well as opposed to sometimes things just do go well and I don't get to see them.

I have a negativity bias because it's easier for us and more important for us as humans to identify the things that go wrong rather than things that go right. And yeah, that is a good prophylactic to where I think when you can't understand why people are getting so the syphorous online. So detached from your experience of the world or what you think their experience of the world should be, i1 which is positive. This is a very nice protection strategy. You go, okay, right? Talkville paradox suggests that people's expectations can outstrip the reality's ability to deliver it to them and concept creep means that they're going to find problems where there aren't any because that is the way that they can continue to complain and achieve victimhood within certain categories.

It makes you feel a little bit less insane, or at least it did for me, so I hope it helps. Last one, right. You cannot underestimate how normal the normies are. The reason that I put this in is a lot of my friends and a lot of you guys as well, I would guess, are going to see yourself and compare yourself up against the absolute killers within whatever cohort you like, whatever pursuit it is that you are trying to achieve and do well in. So if you are big into discipline and motivation season, right, you're going to compare yourself to Jocco and Goggins.

If you're big into speech and recall and intellectual ideas, you're going to compare yourself to Sam Harris and Jordan Peterson. If you're big into debating, you're going to compare yourself with Alex O'Connor and Ben Shapiro. Your ability to understand how far you are from almost every normal person is completely skewed by only ever looking up at who's stood on the top of the mountain that you're trying to climb at the moment, just by being the sort of person that listens to podcasts, right? Just by that.

Forget what it is that you listen to. You can listen to the, like, the most inane pointless podcast in the world, just by doing that, just by having a desire for slightly slower than TikTok velocity content consumption, you're already separating yourself out from the pack. I think, if I was to make a guess, if you're the sort of person that goes to the gym three times a week, you're probably in the 0.01% of fitness enthusiasts on the planet. Maybe more, maybe even more so than that. Like, that is how...

Ridiculously, and this is if you go in and you half-ass it, right? You go in and you just sort of float around, you do a few sets, you get a bit of a sweat on and you're out within 45 minutes. If you do that three times a week, you're up in such a rarefied elite strategy, a strata of people. I think it's important for you and me and everybody within this world to remember just how rare and odd it is to spend this much time being curious about yourself and about the world.

The fact that you decide to work on yourself, the fact that you hold yourself to high standards and you care about things like telling the truth or finding agency or or filling your potential or or paying it forward. These are really, really, really difficult, sometimes evolutionarily, disadvantages, effortful, challenging, tough things to do. And you are deciding to do them. And that's fucking cool, right? That is something that everybody should be proud about. And the difference between the center of the normal distribution and where you are is absolutely fucking massive. And you cannot understand just how far away from that you are. Even on your worst days, you are still so much further ahead, and I think realizing that living in that growth abundance mentality is a good way

to continue to give yourself a sense of hope and reassurance and confidence that you're moving in the right direction. Anyway, I'm going to leave it there. I love you all. Five years, nearly 600 episodes. Insane. Thank you very much. Thank you for making it to the end. At chriswillx.com slash books, if you want to get 100 life-changing books that you should read before you die. It's got summaries about why I like them and links to go and buy them. And that's it. you