Monster: BTK - 50 Years of BTK with Larry Hatteberg [bonus]
Episode Date: February 10, 2025Susan and Larry Hatteberg reflect on their time covering the BTK story at KAKE TV.See omnystudio.com/listener for privacy information....
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                                         Hi guys, come on in.
                                         
    
                                         Hi, good morning.
                                         
                                         How are you?
                                         
                                         I'm good.
                                         
                                         Larry, how are you?
                                         
                                         Little Susie Peters.
                                         
                                         How's Larry doing?
                                         
                                         Sorry, we have to hug.
                                         
                                         Yeah, good seeing you, Larry.
                                         
    
                                         Good seeing you.
                                         
                                         Good seeing you, Larry.
                                         
                                         Yeah, good seeing you, Larry. Good seeing you.
                                         
                                         Good seeing you, Larry.
                                         
                                         Welcome to a special bonus episode of Monster BTK.
                                         
                                         This is a sit-down interview I did with my former CakeTV colleague Larry Hattaberg.
                                         
                                         Last summer, I caught up with Larry at his home in Wichita.
                                         
                                         He and I reflect on our work together, covering the BTK story all these years later.
                                         
    
                                         So what does it feel like for both of you to have such a major role in the BTK story?
                                         
                                         We felt like we needed to be part of the process of catching him. And we knew every time we would say
                                         
                                         something on TV or we would do a story, which was every single day, but we knew every time we would say something on TV or we would do a story, which was
                                         
                                         every single day, but we knew every time we would react to his communications was
                                         
                                         the chance for him to communicate again. And all we were trying to do is the media
                                         
                                         in addition to informing the public was to try and get communication out of him.
                                         
                                         And I know there was one instance with you, Larry,
                                         
                                         where you said something directly to him on the air.
                                         
    
                                         Yes, I decided that we should communicate with him
                                         
                                         because my feeling was if he's communicating with us,
                                         
                                         he's not killing.
                                         
                                         So I went on the air and said,
                                         
                                         BTK, if you're listening, and
                                         
                                         then gave a little spiel about that indicating that the PD wanted to keep the communication
                                         
                                         going. And then we got some feedback. I do remember one of the postcards that we got
                                         
                                         talked about you and Jeff having a cold on the air. And that was, I think, after I had gone on the air
                                         
    
                                         and asked for the communications to continue.
                                         
                                         BTK from the get-go made the media,
                                         
                                         and in particular, Cake TV, part of the story.
                                         
                                         And I think for a journalist, that's a terrible place to be,
                                         
                                         as part of the story.
                                         
                                         But there was no way to get out of it
                                         
                                         because he enjoyed communicating with Cake TV.
                                         
                                         Cake TV was his favorite station.
                                         
    
                                         He had watched it since he was a child.
                                         
                                         He had been out there when we brought in
                                         
                                         RIN 1010 one time when ABC came out.
                                         
                                         He had been out there for other children's shows.
                                         
                                         So he was very much a part of the cake family. He knew all of us.
                                         
                                         He watched it every night. He still watches it to this day. And it's a very odd feeling to go to
                                         
                                         work every day and know that you have to feed the national media. You have to feed the local media
                                         
                                         because many times Susan and I would either be on a morning show
                                         
    
                                         or an evening show like Larry King Live back in the day. And you're serving two masters.
                                         
                                         And in journalism, there is no book written about how you do this. You know, we were writing
                                         
                                         the book on how you cover BTK when you are part of the story.
                                         
                                         And that was very difficult for me.
                                         
                                         I don't know about you, but it made me feel a little bit gratified that we had a small
                                         
                                         part in finally getting this guy.
                                         
                                         Well, I think if it wasn't for the media, the communications might have stopped.
                                         
                                         The very difficult part for me was working with the police department.
                                         
    
                                         They did a great job over the 30 years.
                                         
                                         It was a tough case.
                                         
                                         But when we would get a postcard, obviously the police department would want a copy of
                                         
                                         that postcard.
                                         
                                         Well, we would give them the original and we would have a copy.
                                         
                                         But it became many times a little difficult because the police department, I think, sometimes
                                         
                                         resented us because we were part of the story and they didn't want the media to be part
                                         
                                         of the story. We couldn't help it. We were. And so here we are trying to do our job while
                                         
    
                                         the police department is trying to do theirs. I had one thing happen in which we got a postcard that indicated there was a package or another
                                         
                                         message at one of the, it was like a Lowe's, I forget what it was.
                                         
                                         Home Depot.
                                         
                                         Home Depot, that's right.
                                         
                                         So I went out to Home Depot and we'd call the detectives to come out to the station to get it
                                         
                                         I arrived there before they did I went in talked to the manager
                                         
                                         I said did you get a package? No, did you get a message from anyone that was unusual?
                                         
                                         And I never used the term BTK and he said no I said, okay later on in that day
                                         
    
                                         I get a call from the district attorney
                                         
                                         Indicating that they would like to see me, the general
                                         
                                         manager, the news director, and our attorney in her office, 8 a.m. the next morning.
                                         
                                         And when we got to her office, she said, you arrived before the detectives.
                                         
                                         And I said, well, that's a matter of physics.
                                         
                                         Our station is just closer.
                                         
                                         She said, but you got there ahead of them. And I said, I walked in to Home Depot,
                                         
                                         like any other customer would do. I asked a couple of questions. He didn't have any
                                         
    
                                         answers. I left. And she said, we're considering charging you with a felony interfering with
                                         
                                         a federal investigation. And I said, how did I interfere? Tell me how I interfered. I just
                                         
                                         walked in the store, asked the manager a couple of questions and left. And there wasn't a
                                         
                                         great answer for that and our attorney was already going crazy. But I think what was
                                         
                                         happening was the police department was feeling pressure from the media and didn't like someone
                                         
                                         as it appeared showing up and interfering with their investigation.
                                         
                                         So I took that as a warning shot.
                                         
                                         But that's the only time that I ever got crossways with them.
                                         
    
                                         Like you say, our goals was the same,
                                         
                                         but we had two goals and that was informing the public
                                         
                                         and catching BTK.
                                         
                                         Their only mission was to catch BTK.
                                         
                                         So sometimes it crossed ways,
                                         
                                         and sometimes the investigators totally loved us and used us,
                                         
                                         which we had no problem with.
                                         
                                         But sometimes we crossed the line because we had another job.
                                         
    
                                         And there were several times when I was,
                                         
                                         am I walking the line all right? And police would say, no,
                                         
                                         in so many words, you're not walking the line all right. Go back to your journalism.
                                         
                                         And so it was a very, very tough thing. There was one time when I called Detective John
                                         
                                         Spear during the 10 o'clock news, because the guy who they thought was BTK that they arrested and said,
                                         
                                         who is this guy that you arrested?
                                         
                                         Da da da, da da da.
                                         
                                         Of course he couldn't tell me.
                                         
    
                                         And the next day I got a call from him and he said, don't ever call me direct again,
                                         
                                         that kind of thing.
                                         
                                         So the problem was we wanted to inform the public and still get the scoop, so to speak.
                                         
                                         We never wanted to ruin any investigation.
                                         
                                         We did follow the police department's rules as much as we could because we wanted to catch
                                         
                                         him as much as they did, because we were in fear for our lives.
                                         
                                         Mm-hmm. And the really strange thing was the day that I had two detectives who I knew both
                                         
                                         of them show up in the front lobby of Cake TV. They said, Larry, is there someone where
                                         
    
                                         we can talk private? So I took them up into the conference room and they said, Larry,
                                         
                                         we need your DNA. And I said, why do you need my DNA?
                                         
                                         And he says, well, we're getting tips to the BTK hotline that you're BTK.
                                         
                                         And I said, why are they saying I'm BTK?
                                         
                                         And they said, well, when you talk about it on television, you seem to know a lot about
                                         
                                         it.
                                         
                                         You've been to the crime scenes.
                                         
                                         You followed it since 1974.
                                         
    
                                         And what we're trying to do
                                         
                                         is to rule you out."
                                         
                                         I said, okay, let's do it.
                                         
                                         So they swabbed me, and I said, how will I know for the results?
                                         
                                         And they said, well, if you don't see a SWAT team coming in to cake, you'll know that
                                         
                                         you passed.
                                         
                                         I said, okay.
                                         
                                         They swabbed some 200 people.
                                         
    
                                         I knew two or three people who were swabbed.
                                         
                                         Not only Larry Hadberg, the godfather of my second child was swabbed as well because he
                                         
                                         went to Wichita State the same time as BTK.
                                         
                                         That's what was so weird about all this.
                                         
                                         We knew BTK was the guy next door.
                                         
                                         What if he really was the guy next door?
                                         
                                         What if he really was?
                                         
                                         Yeah.
                                         
    
                                         What if he really was the godfather of my child?
                                         
                                         You know?
                                         
                                         What if he really was an anchor person? I mean, nobody
                                         
                                         knew at that particular point in time that was also frightening. Of course, I knew it
                                         
                                         wasn't Larry, but…
                                         
                                         Thank you, Susan. But at the time, we're not talking about each other's feelings.
                                         
                                         We're just trying to survive the day to get the story on the air.
                                         
                                         She's working her sources. I'm working my sources.
                                         
    
                                         I remember one day we showed up at BTK's attorney's office together.
                                         
                                         At the same time, we didn't know.
                                         
                                         I didn't know she was going to be there. She didn't know I was going to be there, you know.
                                         
                                         So we're all trying to do our job, but we're not talking to each other about feelings.
                                         
                                         What we're talking about is trying to get the story and trying to inform the public.
                                         
                                         And that's what is so weird, just us talking about it now is probably the first time we
                                         
                                         have ever talked about feelings about it, because the rest of the time it was just the
                                         
                                         job. We're doing the job and we're trying to inform the public to the best way that we can.
                                         
    
                                         And Susan and I weren't working together.
                                         
                                         She was working on her stories.
                                         
                                         I was working on my stories.
                                         
                                         But in reality, we were working together because of this thing of trying to inform the public.
                                         
                                         So it was a different time.
                                         
                                         Larry's 100% right.
                                         
                                         We didn't talk about
                                         
                                         our feelings. Larry had no idea how scared I was. No one had any idea how
                                         
    
                                         scared I was. We didn't talk about things like that. Larry and I never talked
                                         
                                         about or anyone in the newsroom, I'm afraid we hate this guy. No feelings were
                                         
                                         talked about at all.
                                         
                                         Do you remember one night when we were walking out of Cake? It was quarter eleven or so.
                                         
                                         And we get just past the concrete, stepping into the thing. And a bicyclist is down at the end of our driveway
                                         
                                         and he comes at us, seemed like 100 miles an hour.
                                         
                                         And I thought, we're in trouble.
                                         
                                         I didn't know who that guy was.
                                         
    
                                         And he's coming at us 100 miles an hour on that bicycle,
                                         
                                         pulls up in front of us and I thought
                                         
                                         we're going to get shot, stabbed, something here. Something. And he was just a viewer.
                                         
                                         But I felt fear at that point and I'm sure you did. I was glad you were with me. I had tremendous
                                         
                                         fear. BTK knew where we were every single day at 10 o'clock and 10.30 and 6 o'clock and 6.30.
                                         
                                         After we got the postcard that said,
                                         
                                         I hope Susan's and Jeff's cold gets better,
                                         
                                         from that day on, I had a reporter or a photographer
                                         
    
                                         follow me all the way home because he knows where we are.
                                         
                                         He was watching us every night.
                                         
                                         In this case, I mean, we really care about each other and we've anchored together and done
                                         
                                         so many projects over the course of time that I think we really understand each other. But,
                                         
                                         and as I say, we don't agree on everything, but that's okay. You know, that's okay. We are completely and totally different personalities.
                                         
                                         But Susan is the finest co-anchor slash anchor who I have ever worked with in my career.
                                         
                                         And we understood each other.
                                         
                                         We don't always agree on everything, but I love her to death and always will because she is the most professional anchor
                                         
    
                                         that I have ever had the opportunity to be with. And when we were anchoring together,
                                         
                                         if I got into trouble, she could take over and she knew instantly. If she got into trouble,
                                         
                                         I took over. And we saved each other that way. And we did that without talking. We just instinctively could respond to each other's feelings.
                                         
                                         And that's rare.
                                         
                                         That is rare in television.
                                         
                                         I know in many stations, the co-anchors don't like each other.
                                         
                                         That happens a lot.
                                         
                                         I am so thankful that during the BTK years, she was by my side.
                                         
    
                                         It made a huge difference. Huge difference.
                                         
                                         It made a huge difference that he was by my side. Larry was very protective of me. When
                                         
                                         he walked me out to my car, I knew BTK would never harm Larry Hattaberg. They had like
                                         
                                         a little relationship from the 70s. I knew BTK would never harm Larry Hattaberg,
                                         
                                         so I felt very safe with Larry walking me out to the car,
                                         
                                         because I knew BTK would never do anything to Larry.
                                         
                                         I didn't know that.
                                         
                                         Yeah, no, I didn't know that,
                                         
    
                                         and we knew that he basically attacked mostly women, with
                                         
                                         exception of the Attero family.
                                         
                                         We didn't know that.
                                         
                                         I just knew that this was an odd time in my journalism history, and that Susan and I were
                                         
                                         in it together, and Jeff, and several of the other reporters who worked very hard on this.
                                         
                                         And we had to cover each other's butts in this thing because we didn't know where it
                                         
                                         was going, we didn't know how it was going to end.
                                         
                                         And when we do interviews like this, we all have the benefit of hindsight.
                                         
    
                                         But when you're living with a BTK story before he's caught, you have no idea who this guy
                                         
                                         is, you have no idea where the story is going. You have no idea of the outcome.
                                         
                                         And so it's a really different time and to be able to talk about it in hindsight is one thing.
                                         
                                         But when you're living it, as I say, Susan and I never had these conversations.
                                         
                                         We were just scrambling to get the story on the air in hopes to serve the viewer every night.
                                         
                                         This is the first time I've realized that.
                                         
                                         I think it says that we had to put all of our feelings aside, as Larry said, all of
                                         
                                         our fears, all of our sadness, all of our frustration, all of our anger, like everybody
                                         
    
                                         had.
                                         
                                         We had to put all that aside and do our job.
                                         
                                         It was really good with Larry and I because Larry chased the whole BTK angle,
                                         
                                         the criminal, and I chased the victim angle.
                                         
                                         And so we were all working on different things. Larry was
                                         
                                         working on getting reaction from BTK and I was working on let's find these
                                         
                                         victims families and tell the real story of these victims that are still out
                                         
                                         there. And so yeah we each had our own little thing that we were working on, and that made
                                         
    
                                         it successful.
                                         
                                         And that was Susan's specialty, working with those family members. And she did an absolute
                                         
                                         great job with it, and really got some incredible insight from the family members. And I think it's important to remember the family because what happened to us is nothing.
                                         
                                         What happened to the families is everything.
                                         
                                         Those families' lives have been changed forever in so many difficult and unusual ways that
                                         
                                         we'll never know about.
                                         
                                         But it's the families who bear the ultimate suffering
                                         
                                         of what BTK did.
                                         
    
                                         And you know, we concentrate on BTK because A,
                                         
                                         he's still alive, B, he's still being BTK.
                                         
                                         But the families are basically sitting all across the city,
                                         
                                         all across the state in silence
                                         
                                         because they don't wanna think about it.
                                         
                                         They don't want to relive
                                         
                                         the moments. And I'm guessing that they would not want to do this to have their comments
                                         
                                         on the air. So they live in silence. And I think that burden for me would really be overwhelming.
                                         
    
                                         The relationship between Larry and I during that whole year, it was something very special.
                                         
                                         We became very, very good friends during that year and very protective of each other.
                                         
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                                         Of course, all the TV stations were live covering every single millisecond of his way to prison. He leaves downtown
                                         
                                         Wichita. We have a helicopter in the sky following the caravan to El Dorado
                                         
                                         prison which is about 30 miles away. The helicopters in the sky. I remember
                                         
                                         following the car. I remember watching the car. I remember
                                         
                                         the car pulling up to the El Dorado prison doors. I remember them getting Dennis Rader
                                         
                                         out in his jumpsuit, foot, ankle cuffs, and handcuffs, and them walking him into that prison. I remember the live shot
                                         
    
                                         of the prison door shutting. I have never been so relieved, so for lack of a better word, emotionally spent, I remember I started to cry thinking to myself, the nightmare
                                         
                                         is over for Wichita.
                                         
                                         The nightmare is finally over, not only for us, for Larry and I and other members of the
                                         
                                         media, because it was a nightmare for us as well. But for all of Wichita, the nightmare
                                         
                                         was over. I started crying. And one other thing that struck me from that, of course,
                                         
                                         that day we led with his incarceration forever and ever. All those stories aired that day, the 5, 6, and 10 o'clock news and all that.
                                         
                                         I remember the next day and the day after and the day after.
                                         
                                         We didn't mention his name.
                                         
    
                                         And it was so refreshing not to have his name mentioned on our newscast. And I'm sure it's what he wanted forever and
                                         
                                         ever and ever. I don't know if we mentioned his name for a couple months after that. And
                                         
                                         that's what was so refreshing. I don't know how Larry felt, but when the prison doors
                                         
                                         closed I could physically feel this huge weight lifted from my shoulders. Mind you, we've covered a
                                         
                                         zillion trials, a zillion homicide cases, a zillion never one like this where you'd
                                         
                                         feel this weight lifted off of you when the prison doors closed. I mean, anchor
                                         
                                         people don't feel that. Journalists don't care. We felt this huge weight lifted off our shoulders and a huge
                                         
                                         sense of relief. You know, it's interesting. I'm listening to you give that moment-by-moment feeling,
                                         
    
                                         and that's incredible because my memory of the day he was caught is just trying to get stuff on the
                                         
                                         air. And all I remember is all I could think about was,
                                         
                                         okay, we gotta get this bite in,
                                         
                                         and we gotta get this story in, and so on and so forth.
                                         
                                         I don't remember my feelings that day.
                                         
                                         I don't, I don't, not at all.
                                         
                                         I remember the week before he was caught,
                                         
                                         the week before they finally took him to prison,
                                         
    
                                         that I went over to the
                                         
                                         El Dorado prison and did a story on the cell. I went inside his cell where he
                                         
                                         would be kept. And I remember, you know, when that door slams on that cell, it is
                                         
                                         terrifying for me because I can't be in an enclosed place. It would drive me crazy. And when the door slams on that cell, that
                                         
                                         scared me more than anything because I couldn't imagine spending the rest of my life in this
                                         
                                         very small area. But on the day, I remember all of the coverage of it, but I have no recollection
                                         
                                         of how I felt. I just, nothing there.
                                         
                                         Not only did I feel that way the day he went to prison, but the day he was arrested.
                                         
    
                                         I was at the mall, because it was in the morning before we went to work at two o'clock, and
                                         
                                         the boss called and said, you've got to get into work right away.
                                         
                                         I said, why?
                                         
                                         More almost positive BTK was caught. I said, why? We're almost positive
                                         
                                         BTK was caught. I've never done this on a story. I mean, stories are stories, you know,
                                         
                                         we're immune to this kind of thing. I was standing in the middle of the mall, the mall
                                         
                                         started going round and round and round. And I thought, oh my God, I'm going to faint. I'm going to faint. And I started crying
                                         
                                         and I sat down and put my head between my legs. That was over a news story. We've never done that
                                         
    
                                         before. But it involved us so much that we became part of the fear, part of the story,
                                         
                                         that we became part of the fear, part of the story, part of the extreme relief when he was finally caught.
                                         
                                         The moment for me was sitting in the courtroom when the judge asked him to go through his
                                         
                                         murders.
                                         
                                         And it was as if it was a three-ring circus.
                                         
                                         He was in the center ring, the spotlight was on
                                         
                                         him, and he was the star. And he went through each murder in a way that you
                                         
                                         would talk about getting bread at the bakery or picking up your laundry, devoid
                                         
    
                                         of any emotion, just very factual. And I thought, how can a man stand up there
                                         
                                         and it was televised in front of everyone
                                         
                                         and go through those murders and he was proud of it.
                                         
                                         He was, I don't want to use the word happy about it.
                                         
                                         You could tell that this was his moment in the sun.
                                         
                                         This was his time in which everybody could see his work.
                                         
                                         And I remember thinking, what kind of person could do that?
                                         
                                         What kind of person could tell the most evil things
                                         
    
                                         that humanity can do and be proud of it?
                                         
                                         He was proud of it. He did it. It was his moment in the sun.
                                         
                                         Because you were in the courthouse and Jeff and I were feeling on the anchor set like sick to our
                                         
                                         stomach. You had to have been even more sick to your stomach sitting there in the courtroom
                                         
                                         watching him. It felt like it was not real, that this is a movie and this is the guy they hired to
                                         
                                         be BTK because so far, so devoid of reality, because human beings are not supposed to act
                                         
                                         like that.
                                         
                                         Human beings are not supposed to crave killing.
                                         
    
                                         Human beings are not supposed to be proud
                                         
                                         of the fact that they have snuffed ten lives. And for him to stand up there in front of
                                         
                                         everyone and do that, it was just kind of like a movie script. Almost didn't seem real.
                                         
                                         And then, of course, you're brought back down to earth, and it is real.
                                         
                                         I also remember another feeling, and I don't know if it's relevant or not, but I'd like
                                         
                                         to ask Larry whether he felt the same way.
                                         
                                         I don't think you did, because I don't think Jeff did either, but I kept wanting to tell
                                         
                                         the judge, quit asking him questions.
                                         
    
                                         This is exactly what he wants.
                                         
                                         Quit asking him details of every single murder.
                                         
                                         He's on stage.
                                         
                                         He's delighting in this.
                                         
                                         And I kept wanting to say to the judge, just let him plead guilty and go.
                                         
                                         But he had the opportunity because the judge kept asking him questions.
                                         
                                         And then there was this murder.
                                         
                                         And then there was this murder, and then there was this murder.
                                         
    
                                         What about this murder?
                                         
                                         He stood up like he was accepting an Academy Award,
                                         
                                         answering the judge's questions about 10 different murders.
                                         
                                         And I kept wanting to tell the judge, quit asking him.
                                         
                                         This is what he wants, he's delighting in this. And he
                                         
                                         had already pled guilty. Why do we need to hear this?
                                         
                                         See, this is a point when Susan and I probably disagree. I was very happy that the judge
                                         
                                         went through and had him describe each murder because I felt that there are probably still
                                         
    
                                         people out there who would say oh the media is pouring down
                                         
                                         Negative things about this guy, you know what could be so terrible about Dennis Rader
                                         
                                         But by taking him through murder by murder and it just gets grosser and grosser and more terrible as he goes on
                                         
                                         Then you see
                                         
                                         What BTK was then you see the man behind the three letters. And he becomes real and
                                         
                                         he becomes evil. And he would lose support, which is what I was hoping would happen. But
                                         
                                         still today, I know that there are people who write, women who write him in jail. I
                                         
                                         don't get that, never have understood that. But I was just happy the judge
                                         
    
                                         went through all of those things. So there was no mistake about what kind of human being this is,
                                         
                                         and why he deserved those the death penalty, which he did not get because of Kansas laws.
                                         
                                         But I thought it was a great moment. I just felt it was surreal.
                                         
                                         Larry, can you tell us why you still
                                         
                                         communicate with Dennis? The reason I will occasionally write to BTK, we still
                                         
                                         to this day do not know what caused BTK to become a murderer. We just have no
                                         
                                         clue. And there are a million teachers out there with kids in their classroom and
                                         
                                         they know something is wrong with a child, but they don't know what to do. They don't
                                         
    
                                         know how to do it. So the question becomes, how do we identify these children who are
                                         
                                         going to grow up to become a BTK? The first place that we would see that would be in the classroom.
                                         
                                         And so we need to find out what teachers can use to identify these kids.
                                         
                                         We still don't know.
                                         
                                         Dennis Rader told me that he knew by the time he was in late grade school and certainly
                                         
                                         by early junior high who he was and what he was. That to me is terrifying because I'm guessing that
                                         
                                         there are thousands of other little BTKs out there being formulated right now.
                                         
                                         How do we find them? How do we detect them? And then how do we stop them? We
                                         
    
                                         still don't have those answers. And my hope is that all of the forensic
                                         
                                         psychologists who the FBI have employed and who others
                                         
                                         have employed can all get together instead of writing their own books, you know, from
                                         
                                         coast to coast, can all get together and say, okay, here's what caused this to happen.
                                         
                                         Here's what teachers in the future and others and parents can look to, to see that their
                                         
                                         child is going to grow up
                                         
                                         and be one horrible human being.
                                         
                                         But until we have those answers,
                                         
    
                                         the BTK story will never be dead,
                                         
                                         even if he dies tomorrow.
                                         
                                         The story isn't done because we don't know
                                         
                                         what caused him to become the murdering monster that he was.
                                         
                                         We still don't know.
                                         
                                         And that's why I stay involved in it,
                                         
                                         because I want to know.
                                         
                                         And I want to know for future generations.
                                         
    
                                         I 100% agree with Larry.
                                         
                                         I don't think his death will do any good for closure
                                         
                                         for the families.
                                         
                                         It won't do any good for closure for other people who
                                         
                                         were affected by BTK. His death will mean almost nothing to them because they don't want to have any contact or anything to do with him.
                                         
                                         He's never really shown any remorse or sorrow or any has come anywhere near I made a mistake.
                                         
                                         He's admitted to Factor X and he said, Factor X made me do it, but he's never said,
                                         
                                         I'm sorry I let Factor X take over. I'm sorry I did this. I'm sorry I did that.
                                         
    
                                         I'm sorry I'm a crazy person. In my world, I think he knows he's a crazy person.
                                         
                                         I think he knows. He's never apologized for it. He's never apologized for the lives he's changed.
                                         
                                         And so for that reason, I don't think his death will do any good. In the letter that I just wrote to him,
                                         
                                         I asked him how he felt today about what he did
                                         
                                         as compared to 2005 and the last time we talked.
                                         
                                         He didn't refer to that.
                                         
                                         He didn't answer that question in this.
                                         
                                         I said recent stories in the news
                                         
    
                                         indicate that some believe that you may be responsible
                                         
                                         for two additional murders, just asking questions like that.
                                         
                                         And the reason I write to him is that I hope
                                         
                                         in a moment of sanity, he would write back to me and say,
                                         
                                         oh yeah, I did kill that person, you know,
                                         
                                         back 10 or 15 years ago.
                                         
                                         But he hasn't done it yet.
                                         
                                         As a news person, you keep asking the question,
                                         
    
                                         and what we found is when you interview people,
                                         
                                         you ask the question many different ways,
                                         
                                         and you get many different responses.
                                         
                                         And you hope that the response would come out,
                                         
                                         all right, guys, you know, yeah, okay, I did those others.
                                         
                                         He hasn't done that yet.
                                         
                                         What he wrote back to me this time,
                                         
                                         there's no news value in it.
                                         
    
                                         He said, I just want you to know I forgive you.
                                         
                                         I forget how he worded it.
                                         
                                         I'm trying to figure out what he's forgiving me for.
                                         
                                         He says, it's been a few minutes since we last
                                         
                                         corresponded, as I recall.
                                         
                                         I recall you and others from KTV.
                                         
                                         How can I forget you?
                                         
                                         You.
                                         
    
                                         And then he says something, the media.
                                         
                                         And I'm a man with extra, which I couldn't
                                         
                                         read, but all is forgiven.
                                         
                                         So I'm not sure what he's forgiving me for.
                                         
                                         I did understand back in 2005 he was unhappy with me because in one story I referred to
                                         
                                         him as a monster, and he took offense at that.
                                         
                                         So I'm always anxious to get a letter because, it may be a key to a solution to a piece of
                                         
                                         information that we don't have.
                                         
    
                                         And he said in there he was getting away
                                         
                                         from letter writing.
                                         
                                         I understand why he's getting away from letter writing,
                                         
                                         because it's very hard to read his handwriting now.
                                         
                                         They apparently have tablets, he calls them.
                                         
                                         I'm assuming maybe it's a Chromebook
                                         
                                         or maybe an iPad. I don't know what he has. So now he can text people and he said he was
                                         
                                         also receiving texts. Having Dennis Rader being able to text is a little bit terrifying.
                                         
    
                                         If you're sitting at the dinner table with your family and you get a text and it's Dennis Rader, BTK. How do you feel about that?
                                         
                                         It doesn't matter he's in prison. He gets things like this. Dennis Rader has access
                                         
                                         to a tablet, to a television, to all these things and it's not fair. I have the feeling he wants
                                         
                                         publicity now. Well what I understand is everybody in the prison has access to
                                         
                                         this and they only get it if they're good. Now if they violate prison rules
                                         
                                         or regulations then television is taken away, the tablets are taken away. Why
                                         
                                         would he violate any rules? He wants his tablet. He wants his television.
                                         
                                         He has in the past.
                                         
    
                                         Yeah.
                                         
                                         He's been bad.
                                         
                                         He has.
                                         
                                         I don't know what he's done, but he's, he's been bad in the past and they have taken things away from him.
                                         
                                         Susan, in this most recent letter, it says that you were never a project.
                                         
                                         How does that make you feel?
                                         
                                         Wish I would have known that 20 years ago. Wish I would have known it 20 years ago.
                                         
                                         It would have saved me a lot of stress, a lot of fear, a lot of angst.
                                         
    
                                         But hearing that I wasn't a project now, First of all, how do you believe a murders? Who knows when he's lying
                                         
                                         and when he's not lying? But hearing it now, it makes no difference whatsoever. It's almost like,
                                         
                                         how dare him even say my name? You're nothing now. You're nothing now. You were nothing then.
                                         
                                         now. You were nothing then, and you're even less than nothing now. This is the first time I've realized that we have never had these conversations about BTK, and that I've never
                                         
                                         really cried in front of Larry about BTK.
                                         
                                         It's interesting when I'm sitting across from Susan now, I'm fascinated with her comments because it's
                                         
                                         the first time I've heard many of these things.
                                         
                                         And so we're sort of reliving it again.
                                         
    
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