Morbid - Episode 184: The Unbelievable Life & Crimes of Carl Panzram

Episode Date: November 6, 2020

Tonight Alaina is taking us deep into the tragic and twisted life of Carl Panzram. In Part 1, we talk about his abusive upbringing, his multiple incarcerations and his first forays into murder. Carl's story is one that needs to be heard to be believed. Strap in friends. It's going to be a rough one today. Books mentioned: Butchering Humanity By Carl Panzram Kill 'Em All By Ryan Green Thanks to our sponsors! Upstart See why Upstart has over 6,000 5-star reviews on Trustpilot and hurry to Upstart dot com slash morbid to find out HOW LOW your Upstart rate can be. Checking your rate only takes a few minutes! That’s Upstart.com/morbid! *Your loan amount will be determined based on your credit, income, and certain other information provided in your loan application. Not all applicants will qualify for the full amount. Better Help Special offer for Morbid listeners get 10% off your first month at betterhelp.com/Morbid HelloFresh Go to HelloFresh.com/MORBID90 and use code MORBID90 to get $90 off including free shipping. Athena Club Stop using razors that underdeliver and switch to Athena Club! Sign up today and you’ll get 20% off your first order! Just go to AthenaClub.com and use promo code mtc. That’s A-T-H-E-N-A C-L-U-B.com with promo code mtc for 20% off! See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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But honestly, in these times, we should have stretched Halloween out further. We should have, but we didn't. So we have to work with what we have. So I'm gonna, I'm gonna go with Christmas. Okay. have, but we didn't. So we have to work with what we have. So I'm gonna I'm gonna go with Christmas. Okay. I'm gonna go with it. I have some nifty gifties for you. And the nifty gifties are that I'm gonna give you part two of this this week. The same week. So you only have to wait like two, like a two days before you get the rest because honestly taking this all in one session would be a lot for all of us.

Yeah. Yeah, it's just a lot. So I'm going to give you a big old part one. Okay, sis. It's just like a diesel part one. So let's start, shall we? I'm as ready as I ever will be, I feel. I hope everybody's ready. So this person's autobiography, which I can't say that I recommend that you read it. Ten out of ten don't recommend. It's called Butchering Humanity. Butchering Humanity. And buy it on control.

It's interesting for sure, but it's also highly offensive. And this person's words, which are very offensive and very gnarly. I feel like it's all packed into the title. So am I going to judge you if you want to read it? Absolutely not, because why? I read it. So I'm not going to judge you for that, but just letting you know. It's for research purposes. Just letting you know before you dive in that there's

going to be some times where you're like, oh, Lord, okay. So this person's autobiography, there's a quote that I think sums up their life. Okay. The quote is, I think sums up their life. Okay. The quote is, I have lived 36 years in this world, and soon I expect to leave it. All that I leave behind me is smoke, death,

desolation, and damnation. Is that written by Satan? Pretty much. Okay. Also, another quote that I think perfectly sums up this person is their quote that says, I am sorry for only two things. These two things are, I am sorry that I mistreated some few animals in my lifetime, and I'm sorry

that I'm unable to murder the whole damn human race. Wow. Okay, those are two things. Those are two things. Those are two things. So you know what, let's go to June 28th, 1891, shall we? Sure. When one Carl Panzeram came just shooting into this world, I think in a bundle of just like sulfur and... Wow. And just shit. You know, it was cancer season. And there you go, here he comes.

I believe his actual like given name is Charles, which is interesting. Oh, I didn't know that Carl was short for Charles. I don't know if it is, but he went by Carl. Cool. So we'll go with that. He was born to Johann and Matilda Panzeram. Matilda.

They were German immigrants and quite possibly some of the most ill-prepared parents that I've ever seen. Good, good, good. Good, good, good. Is being nice. And by the way, this whole part one, we're only gonna get to like his first murder

after all this, but I just wanna like tell you ahead of time, his entire life is like one big true crime. And I think halfway through this, you're gonna go, oh wait, we haven't murdered anyone yet? Like you're gonna be like, wait, we have what? Are you sure? Wow. And there's like 20 murders, aren't there?

There's like 21 murders. So we, yeah. So I was getting to the end of the first part and I was like, wait, we're just getting to the murder. And I think it's because like his soul was murdered several times over. So I think you just feel like it just,

some people, things keep dying. Oh good. This is gonna be uplifting, huh? It's gonna be a lot of fun. Everybody, I hope you got your popcorn, you're just ready to go. Okay. I'm ready to just lift you up.

So yeah, they were terrible parents. He was born in East Grand Forks, Minnesota. Minnesota. Don't you know? Don't you know? And he was the youngest of eight. That's a lot of children. He only had one sister, the rest were all brothers.

Oh. Boy, mom. Boy, mom. That was Matilda. That was not Matilda. She was not, and she was like, mm, she was like barely a mom. Yeah, she's like not even a mom, really.

Good, good. So yeah, it's very good. So his parents were dirt farmers. A parent quote unquote, they farmed dirt. They had like a plot of land that was very dirty. How you say infertile. It was just, oh no. It was not really given them a whole lot to work with. They were trying. They worked long hard hours at no one will say that they were not workers. That is for sure. And again, they wanted the American dream. They did not get it.

I can say that with full confidence that I don't think they both went to the pearly gates being like, yep, got that American dream. Like shit was real rough for them. Ruff, ruff, ruff. Yeah. It was no good. But they're kids.

I mean, they had all those kids. That's great. That's free work. So that's awesome. Yeah. So you went to work in this family as soon as you could, I, like, I think as soon as you could like,

maybe form like, kind of like a solid shit, you could probably go to work. Like a poop. Yeah. Like, once you get out of that infant phase of just like that, kind of thing, the tar poop, you're all, everyone's like turning myself. You know, of think the tar poop. You're all, everyone's like turning this up. You know newborn tar poop.

You do. All you parents out there, anyone who's babysat a little thing, a little, a little thing. A newborn tar poop is a thing. You all know, you're with me. But basically, you were out in the fields right off the bat. You were workin' workin' workin'.

Now, from it, where they were, and at this time, from the age of five onward, kids had to go to school. That was a law, you know, truncy laws and all that. Yeah, that is good. And for normal families, that would mean the child would probably work less on the farm because they are in school all day. No, to the pan's rims, however, it just meant they would take the time lost on the farm while Carl was at school and they would just take it out of his sleep schedule. Oh, no. Because that's good, right? Like kids don't need sleep. No. No. You're still I was just gonna say ask my youngest. She'll tell you 100% that kids don't need even a lick of sleep.

So yeah, they were like, well, just take it out of your sleep schedule. He ended up having only at the most So yeah, they were like, we'll just take it out of your sleep schedule. He ended up having only, at the most, two hours of sleep at night. As they six-year-old boy. What the fuck? He would be out in the middle of the night working on the farm, in the fucking middle of the night in the cold at six years old. And after being at school all day. Like, uh, why?

And then sleeping for a max of two hours and then doing it all over you. You know what that would do to your brain? Well, yeah. Well, we do. I can go ahead and tell you what that does to your brain. He started to really falter in school, obviously. Because he's probably like hallucinating in first grade. And also, it's just mentally and physically he's deteriorating.

Yeah. And as any parent of a sleepless child can attest to, lack of sleep really starts to get to you. And this is a six year old who is doing hard labor in the middle of the night and the colds. And his brain is developing. So he was like silent at school. They said he was very withdrawn. He would literally just like stare blankly

off into the distance. He was probably sleeping with his eyes, okay. He was just in a state of not even there, like a zombie state. And so they were like, we couldn't, you'd ask him a question and he was just like, days out of, and at six.

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Wow. So right off the bat, you can see that he's having a very loving upbringing. Yes. We're not seeing any red flags. Wow. So right off the bat, you can see that he's having a very loving upbringing. Yes. Yes. We're not seeing any red flags. None. I haven't seen a single one. It seems to me to be completely nature. No nurture whatsoever, right?

Yeah. Yeah. I don't see anything that would lead to him wanting to like hurt the rest of humanity. No. And you know what? We're definitely not going to see it next. For sure. Uh-oh. Uh-oh. For sure. For sure. So then he started to break down physically. Because actually he's already breaking down.

That's the first thing that's gonna happen. Then you're gonna get stuck in sick. Yeah. And so he started having this whooping kind of like smokers cough that he never got rid of. Like as a six year old. What? Yeah, so he had it for the rest of his life.

He just kept having it. He couldn't get rid of it. What the fuck? And it just wouldn't get better. He had a ton of little illnesses happen, but his parents would just let him suffer through them because they were like- Because your body needs sleep. The human body is designed to go to sleep.

And money and time and nurturing were not things that they were willing to sacrifice for their kids. So they were just like, you'll be fine. Can you work? Like, why did you have eight of them so they could work? That's, so honestly, they're like, this is fine. That's horrible.

That's so horrible. So you can stand up and work. So it's seven years old. And this is gnarly, guys, just so let you know. And seven years old, he got a really bad ear infection. Ooh. Because again, he's not sleeping. And he's in the cold that night all the time.

Oh, I can like feel an ear infection. Terrible ear infection. I got a ton of them when I was little. I did too. And so bad that his ear swelled up like a boxer's ear, like you know, that like cauliflower ear, that's what happened. He became deaf on that side, like that's how bad it was. And he wasn't, you know, when, and especially kids excruciating pain, like that ear infection. He was literally to the point where the air infection was so bad

that he couldn't walk straight, like, he was losing his balance. Because your equilibrium is all fucked up. And it was making him, like, ill. So his parents were, like, well, shit, he can't work on the farm if he can't stand up straight, so maybe we should do something about this. But we're not gonna take him to a doctor.

No, of course. His dad was like, all right, what can I do? Oh, I'll just cut it open and see if the infection comes out. But the actual flock. Yeah. So they held him down a seven-year-old on the dining room table, all his brothers laid on top of him to held him down while his father started slicing at his ear to try to drain the infection. All seven of his brothers are lying on top of him, as he screams, at one point he was fighting so much to get away from the pain that the knife slipped and stabbed him in

his ear slash brain. Because if you put something in your ear, you're right there. What? He touched that brain right there. He touched that brain right there. He touched that brain right there. He touched that brain right there. He touched that right there. You can touch that brain right there. That's a actual fuck. Lucky for him, he passed out from pain eventually. When he woke up, his parents were pouring lava hot boiling water into the wounds. So into his brain.

Yeah. To just clean them. What? That's what they were trying to do, clean them. Like not a medical doctor. You're not doing anything, right, my, my, my dudes. You are not doing one good thing here. You're not doing anything right, my- You're actually- My dudes, you are not doing one good thing here. You're actually doing everything wrong.

Well, he went absolutely bonkers after this, like as soon as he woke up in the boiling waters being poured on him, he like lost his shit. You don't say. He ended up punching a few of his brothers, like just losing it and punching people, screaming, literally having a breakdown. According to the book Kill'em All by Ryan Green,

which is a really interesting book about this case, I recommend it, and I'll put it, I'll put all these books in the show notes. His family assumed that this pain, like the pain from this, had just driven him mad, like literally insane, and this was the beginning of the end for him, but in reality, it was likely the fact that his father had literally stabbed his brain with a fucking knife,

while inflicting pain that none of us can even comprehend after months and months of literal child abuse and sleep deprivation at six and seven years old. He probably hit the frontal lobe, and we all know what happens then. If you're new here, the frontal lobe, very important. Pretty vital to, oh, I don't know, emotional and behavioral and impulse regulation. Hello, meat Carl. So he literally had brain damage at the age of seven. His dad literally was like, whoop, sorry.

He almost had an ice pickle of autumn. He literally did. He basically did. They just didn't like sever whatever they need to. Oh my god, my ear is like ringing right now. And I love that his family's like, I think he just went crazy because it hurts so much. It's like, yeah.

You stabbed him in his brain. That'll do it. And you've been beating this child like his entire life and depriving him of sleep, which is literal torture. Good. We're off to a great start. So already, you're like, whoa, all right, this kid is not on a great path. I'm ready. Oh.

So later, and again, his autobiography set about his life, quote, I have no desire to reform myself. My only desire is to reform people who try to reform me. I believe that the only way to reform people is to kill them. Oh. So, we're gonna connect this real quick. I think that frontal lobe thing was a problem.

I think it may have been bad. If I'm looking at how he acts later and thinks later, I'm gonna go ahead and say that's a big problem. It's sad because you really want this to be a success story, but we all know that it's not. It's like the most antithesis of a success story. And this is also one of those things where yes, feel bad now,

but then we're gonna get to part two when you're not allowed to feel bad anymore. And honestly, most of this, you're not gonna be able to feel bad. Like feel bad for the kid. Yeah, we don't feel bad for the adult now. Of course, we don't know that. No.

So, will, weirdly, this home surgery didn't work to cure that ear infection yet. Do they have some like chop his mother fucking ear off? Well, he just ended up having to be hospitalized for weeks because the infection spread to his brain. Yeah. Because they opened up giant holes where the infection just went, loop, loop, loop, and just went right in. It didn't make that noise. So yeah, I think it probably did to Carl at the time. He was probably definitely heard a few blue bloop bloop bloops. So kill them all suggests that there was likely some brain inflammation and definitely

some seizure activity during his hospital stay, I'm sure. And this further rack to Zarty shattered brain. At seven. At seven. So now, you know, one might say that Carl is a changed child. Yeah, you know, that'll do it. If your dad stabs you in the brain, that'll change you.

Yeah, he didn't have a whole lot, like really working in his favor before that, but this really changed him. He was now violent, aggressive. He was even colder. Oh no. Just completely blank. When he returned home from his hospital stay, the

farm really had fallen apart because they could barely afford the doctor to be in with, never mind a hospital stay. And it had completely drained them. All his brothers had all left to go work at other farms because they were like, and I think it was literally like, well, this isn't exactly a tight knit family as it is. So it's not like we're like, stay and save the farm. They were like, fuck it, I'm gonna go make money somewhere else. Well, Stad's gonna stab me in the brain. Pretty much.

So he was the only one that was left over, to be honest. Oh no. And the attention on him was not like pleasant attention as you might, you know, maybe deduce from this. You might gather. You might gather. So Carl made it a living hell for his parents. Who, to be fair sucked.

So like welcome to the hell you created folks. Everybody just sucks. The only thing that even slightly kept Carl in line was his father, because his father would just violently abuse him like a lot. Oh no. So it wasn't that Carl listened or respected him. He would just kind of act as a deterrent, like if anything was like-

So he didn't get the shit kicked out of him? Because he just didn't feel like getting the shit kicked out of him all the time. So then, his, you know, garbage dad just up and left. Oh. Yeah, he was just like, there's a lot of debt here. We can't farm. This kid's annoying. I'm just gonna piece.

Awesome. Good dad. So Matilda's alone. So Matilda's alone. So Matilda's alone. So he just left Carl and his mom with all the debts, the failing farm, everything. She was able to keep it all together barely, but she had a lot of help like the community kind of helped out.

But they were dirt poor. Right. Even like being able to maintain things, they were barely maintaining things. I mean like barely eating, barely clothing themselves. It was like dire straits. That's awful. All the kids abandoned her because she was shitty mom

their whole lives and Carl was a literal nightmare. So this is just great. And remember, his dad was the only thing that even slightly kept him in line. So now it's getting real fucked up around there. He was like the shepherd of his shit and he's gone. The shit shepherd has left the building. Nell Carl's just roaming.

Now, again, he has no source of fear. So he's really being violent, he's really being aggressive, he's getting in a ton of trouble. He just doesn't give a shit. So now he started to skip school and he's just walking around the town of Warren, Minnesota, all by himself, just doing what he wants to do.

And in 1899, at only eight years old, he became an alcoholic. Yes. Eight years old, he started drinking heavily to the point where he was requiring it. I'm trying to think of like an eight year old that I know right now. I don't think I know of any eight year olds, but like, they're very small. Yeah, they are very children. I'm at that age where I don't know how old any child is. I'm like, oh, that's a kindergartener. And they're like, that's a fifth grader.

I feel like that kid with the whiskey, that's an eight year old, don't worry. But that's just Carl. The gym beam over there. Oh, no, don't worry about that. That's just Carl hitting the sauce a little early today. It's like Jeffrey Dahmer with his little styrofoam cup. That's him.

I think he was even older. Yeah, he was. I think he was in like six junior high at least, or something, or like middle school. This gets eight. Oh, thank you. And he stole from his absent father's liquor cabinet, and he just started like, that's where he started doing it.

And then he would just wander into bars around town. And the drunks thought he was hilarious, because he's this eight year old walking into a bar like wanting a drink. So they would give him whiskey and just like keep, because they thought it was hilarious. That's not funny.

That's abuse. I'm here to say this is not funny. And he was actually brought before a court for this because he was caught like being drunk in public at eight. I feel like do you bring him to the court or do you bring Matilda to the court and you like bitch what's up? I think both of them were, but I think they were just like, well, there's the pan's rams. Don't know what to say.

What? There is DCF. Yeah. And then we come to him being like 10 or 11 years old. That's when, you know, he's now heavily drinking still at 11 years old. Okay. And this is also when he's committing like actual crimes. He would get drunk, he'd wander around,

and he would just look for things to steal. Because he also was to the point now where he is seeing that his life sucks, and that he is getting the shit end of the stick of everything. He doesn't have anything he needs, never mind anything he wants. He doesn't have anything he needs. Like he's being neglected in every way possible.

And he's looking at it like life is really shitting on me, but then I look over down the street here and there's this like polatial mansion or this nice farmhouse and these people have all the things they want what the fuck right and no one's explaining to him like that This isn't just like you know some higher power giving these people that and giving these people that it's like right the thing Nobody's telling him how this is happening. So he's just like why do they have it? And I don't right cuz he's fucking eleven and so now he's saying well It seems to me that these people got it because they took it so I don't. Right. Cause he's fucking 11. And so now he's saying, well, it seems

to me that these people got it because they took it. So I'm going to take it. Well, how else is he supposed to understand that? And I mean, is he wrong? In a lot of, in a lot of situations, he's probably not that far off reality, the situation. But he's like, I'm going to go steal it. Uh huh. Because I want it. So one day he was looking at his neighbor's farmhouse and he was like, fuck it, I'm going in there. So he's 11 years old and he just walks into his neighbor's farmhouse when they're not there because people would leave their drawers open and stuff. Just steals a cake like any 11-year-old would. I mean, I'm not mad. Honestly, any 34-year-old was. I'm 34. I would definitely steal a cake

if I was there. He took some apples because again, he's probably not eating. He's also, I was gonna say he's starving. He's malnourished and hungry. And then he looks and he sees this fancy revolver. And he's like, I'm gonna steal that. To see a minute term, remember what a revolver was. And of course, he just walks on home eating his cake and his apples, this little gun in his pocket.

And he's like, dude, dude, do, let's go home. Well, the police came right away. Yes. And they were like, hey, boy with an entire cake. What are you doing? You filthy boy holding an entire cake. Oh. So they arrested him right away.

And the courts weren't like, hey, you're probably starving and have been abused your whole life. Maybe we should, I don't know, help you. Because you're fucking 11. Yeah, they were like, all right, let's put him into the hands of the Minnesota State Reform School. And oh boy.

Oh no. Oh boy. We know what reform school does. Let's just say this is definitely the beginning of the end for Karl Pan's Ram. For any humanity he had left. Birth was the beginning of the end. And in fact, in his own words, right there, and then I began to learn about man's inhumanity to man.

This is, yeah, so this is the beginning. So they put him in the Minnesota State Reform School. It was a Christian run facility, and it ran on the ideas of performing young boys facility and it ran on the ideas of performing young boys by just beating the shit out of them until they said what they wanted them to say and that they were like fully immersed in their Christian faith and if not we're just gonna give you regular beatings until you are. Oh no. Which to me doesn't sound awesome. No, no, can't say I'm into that. Doesn't seem like very reformative. Seems like a big old punishment. Seems repetitive.

Seems like a bad idea. When Carl first went there, he was met by the guy in charge who's like, I don't know if you call him like a warden or like the dean. Yeah, like his name was George Mann, Dr. George Mann. And this guy's a fucking crazy person. And he told him, so he goes into his office, and he's like, hey, Carl, welcome to a reform school.

And he's like, I got a question. Have you ever been sodomized? Have you sodomized anybody? No. Do you masturbate? Have you had sex? Are you filthy? Have you done any of those things?

Because that makes you filthy. And he was like, I'm 11. Like what? So he's like, excuse me filthy and he was like I'm 11 like what? So he's like excuse me and he's like are you a homosexual and he's like what I don't even know what that is I'm 11 and it's in the 1800s. I don't know what that is like what's happened. Oh, this is the 1800s Yeah, this is literally like he was born in 1890s. So this is probably the early 1900s. Oh shit I didn't even know that yeah, and so he And so he's asking him all this crazy shit. He's like, is your dad, is your father insane? Is your father a homosexual?

He's a father in the public. He's like, he's talking to a public. And he's like, I don't know. He's not even around anymore. I don't even know what to tell you. He made him forcibly stripped down naked. So he could give him an exam and make sure that he was not dirty or unclean or sick or diseased.

And he explained to him because he was like, oh, have you committed sodomine? He's like, I don't know what that is. And he's like, well, let me explain to you what it is. So explain to this 11 year old what sodomine was. Then he assaulted him, like pretty much assaulted him, to show him what it meant. And then again, 11 years old. So wait, he's sitting here telling him that that's unclean and not okay. And then he does like, I got to show him what it meant. And then again, 11 years old. So wait, he's sitting here telling him that that's unclean and not okay. And then he does like, I gotta show you.

So you know it. So now I'm unclean. Oh, of course he's not unclean. No way. He's showing him. He's teaching him the way he's. So he, and then again, asking him about all the things. And then he's like, okay, on your way. Welcome to school.

And Carl's like, cool, cool your way, welcome to school. And Carl's like cool, cool. All right. So this is that. Now, he quickly was shown a place called the painting shop. I feel like there's no paint there. Well, and it's so in Carl's own words, he was like, I feel like this message has been like some stupid art class that they make a steal like some therapy card class or something. That's what you would think. No. So it was the next morning before dawn, he was taken to the painting shop. It was a small shack.

It was like far away from the rest of the facility on like the outer edges. And it was a place where they took children to quote, paint their bodies black and blue. That's why it was called the paint shop. Oh, that's just perfect. Now, the people in this reform school were about eight years old to 21. She's like eight year olds in here. This was supposed to be the welcome

wagon to let kids know exactly what their stay here was going to be if they got out of line. They're just going to show you right off the back. They're not even out of line yet. Nope, but we're going to make sure you know you step out of line. You're gonna get that. Like, not that it's okay with it. No, that's, oh my, I'm not okay. It was literally like the welcome basket. They were like, here, this is how we welcome you to this school.

This is a nightmare. So, this is terrible, by the way. Like, trigger warning, this is all terrible, but like, sorry, I just hit my computer. But this is really bad. Yeah. So, what happened in the painting shop was that he was stripped naked. He was

held down and strapped face down onto a wooden bench. They placed a towel soaked in salt water on his back that covered all the way down to his knees. They then whipped the heavily out of him with a belt designed for this specifically. Now, George Mann there had designed this belt himself for specific reasons. And he would actually come and watch this be done because he derived pleasure from watching his kids be beaten. Obviously. So, it was a leather strap and it had holes all over it. And this was that so every time you whipped the person, it would suck the skin into those

holes. And eventually, the more you did it They would form blisters all over their body which while the whipping continued those blisters would burst open and then your sea salt towel would pour salt into those wounds. I Yeah, this is like real. They would literally do this. There's record of this school getting in trouble for this. Getting in trouble. I like that you're like, and they got in trouble.

Like not shut down. They got. What the fuck? What the fuck is wrong with everything? Well, and even worse, these guards at this place were not like prison guards that go through like any kind of regulations. No, they're just sick bastards. No, they're just sick bastards. Literally anybody could be a guard here.

Good. And most of the guards actually quit immediately upon learning what they were gonna have to do to these kids. They were like, oh, fuck no. I'm not doing like I was not signing up for this. But then the ones that stayed were fucking psychopaths because they were like, oh cool, I get to hurt kids. Like, what is wrong with everyone?

And then apparently the words spread around and all these kind of dangerous fucking sadistic humans would come to these jobs to get their fix of like legal doing this. It's not legal. So this was just a whole mess of shit. And then the kid that this was done to would immediately have to go straight to a class

after like just throw on your clothes over your open wounds. And they would have to go to a Bible study class, which they went to like a billion of those a day. They went to church a billion times a day. What the fuck are you going to church for if you're beating children? They're beating the morality into you.

Get out of church if you're a fucking child, they're doing. That's what they're doing. They're beating the morality into these things. It's fucking disgusting. It's crazy. Now again, like I said, George Mann literally got off on this shit. Like he liked watching kids in pain. I mean, if you design something like that, obviously.

Oh, yeah. And for him to think it through like that. That's disgusting. Well, so Carl, during this whole thing saw George Man's face. He saw the little like smirk on his face. He knew immediately this guy is liking this. So what Carl did was he went silent. And he literally would not make a sound while they did this. Because then he wouldn't put anything on his face. He never made a sound. He acted like it didn't even bother him. He just sucked it up and just went through it.

Wow. And he had practice of doing this because he'd been abused his whole life. Right. So he was used to being able to put his brain somewhere else. He's just numb. And so this pissed George Man off. That's the thing I feel like it would get worse.

Yeah. The whole reason for this is he wants to get his jolies from this. So Carl said this was the point where he was starting to lose complete humanity and any sense of empathy for anyone because look what's happening to him. And I mean this is what created him as an adult basically all of these things. But like this really made him start to connect to like pain and pleasure and hurting people and violence with like normalcy and it's just,

we'll see, it's like, it's a theme throughout his whole life of like weakness and strengths. And so after these classes that these kids would have to take, they'd have a labor assignment, so they do hard labor as well. Carl got the kitchen assignment, which is kind of weird. But this meant that he was making the food and shit for the guards as well. And put glass in it. And I immediately when I read this was like, fuck with that food Carl. Fuck with that.

Like immediately. So hard. Carl had the same idea, so I don't know how I feel about that. Like that we had a moment that we were both thinking the same thing. Well, no, but if people are young Carl. You've been abused your entire life and then you get a chance to get back at somebody, anyone is going to do that.

Well, boy, did he get back at them. Tell me what's up. So he said any liquid that would come his way he would just piss right in. Incredible. No matter what he would just pee in all the liquid. I would. And then he said he would just jack off into every one of the foods that was going to the guards and then he said he would sit next to them while they ate it. It's like enjoy watching. Okay well that just got a little more twisted growth. It's real gross, but like young Carl, you're kind of like, you deserve that. Yeah, you need some form of happiness, even if it's jacking off in the somebody's fucking twinkies.

It's so fun. That's disgusting. It's so fucked. So unfortunately, Carl was at the paint shop every day. I mean, they were trying that now there's a- Because they're trying to break him. You nailed it. Now their thing is they're breaking this kid. Exactly. They can break every other kid. Well, I can't they break Carl. Because Carl was broken from the start.

Yeah, he came out broken. So after that moment where he noticed pleasure being derived from his pain and torture, he was just dead. That shut everything off. He was like, oh, that's the world. Okay. Boom. That shut everything off. He was like, oh, that's the world, okay. Boop, bye. And he just shut it off.

So he was the only boy in the entire place that they could not even get a whimper out of. He would not make a sound. And the guards literally would have to end painting room session, like painting shop sessions with him because of their own exhaustion. I was gonna say they're probably too tired. Like he would endure it, they would have to stop.

Oh my God. His back must have been deformed for like his whole life. Oh yeah, sure. I'm sure. And so that George Mann, the warden there, decided that this was a challenge. And he was like, okay, I'll come up with a new device. If this isn't working. Oh my God, what did he come up with?

So this new thing he came up with was a mechanized paddling machine that apparently sounds crazy when you first hear it, you're like, whoa, but it didn't work as well as he wanted it to because it was just a mechanized paddle. So it was just administering the same amount of paddling over and over where if it was somebody who's angry and getting pleasure out of this, they can give you a hard one and a soft one and they can hit the same spot and hit a different spot, you know, like, yeah, it gets way more sadistic with a human behind it. So this really wasn't doing anything and they were all getting used to it.

So all the kids were getting used to this and they were like, this one really isn't that bad. Like it's not as bad as the other one. So the warden is not getting his joolies because he's not seeing these kids in as much, you know, torture. I don't like that you're saying jolies. I mean, all I can say. But now he's looking at it like Carl is the one that's emboldening these boys. Oh, good. Suddenly rebel against this and act like they don't care. This man. So now the warden is taking over Carl's punishments himself and he's doing it with no one else there

and he was beating and raping him on a regular basis. Ew. Now one night, the warden decided that he was going to eat with the rest of the guards because normally he didn't eat with the rest of the guards. He ate with his wife or something. But he was like, you know what, let's boost the attitude in the morale here.

And I'm gonna sit with them, and I'm gonna be like one of the guys, you know? So Carl was like, cool. Made you something special, motherfucker. He put some rat poison in his rice pudding, because he was like, no, I'm not just gonna jack off into your food. I wanna kill you.

Yeah. And this was the moment where he said, this was the first time I wanted to murder a person and I was ready to do it. I mean, duh. So unfortunately he got caught before the guy could eat it. I'm not, I'm like, I'm full-fledged for this. I was like, that's a bummer.

So he got thrown off a kitchen duty, of course. And of course he was severely punished. But did he get rat poison? I guess there was rat poison in the facility because I'm sure it was rat infested. Yeah. So I think he just got a box and was like, do, do, do, do.

Because the way they caught him was they saw the open box and were like, and then they looked on the rice pudding and were like, you didn't even try to like hide. It's like you've been jacking off into this shit the whole time and you can't cover up the poison. Cover up the rat pellets. Jesus Christ, Carl. So this reform school experience

is what made him realize that life was about praying on those weaker than you. And he said, and anyone in worse circumstances than you, he was technically the weaker of the people, even though he did not consider himself weak, and even though he wasn't weak, because he was the strongest one there. But he was thinking the strong guards were praying

on the weaker of us, and collecting pain and suffering on us. And he took this lesson into his life immediately, and he was like, okay, I'm gonna start praying on the weaker boys in this school, because I need to be the strong one. That's what life is. That's what life is.

He was being taught, you are strong, pray on the weak. That's what I was. He was taught. He was being taught. You are strong. Pray on the weak. That's how you get pleasure. That's how you go about things. And if you're not doing that, what the fuck are you doing? So if you're not praying on the weak, then someone's stronger than you is going to pray on you. That's how he was basically seeing it. And that's how he was being shown. It's like if you can't beat him, join him.

Exactly. So he beat kids younger, like weaker than him, he abused them. He was literally raping kids in school mercilessly, mercilessly. He would get punished for this and not even flinch just like before. Nothing was breaking this kid. Eventually guards would have to take shifts during beatings, but him. Wow. Because they couldn't handle it. And they just decided to start keeping him awake all night, working, like cleaning the facility. He's like, I don't give a fuck I've been doing that. Oh, this will break him.

And Carl was like, ah, six years old motherfucker. I've been doing this my entire life. Right. Like, he was like, sure, sure. Like, go read it. He's like, let me tell you a story. So they're like, we're running out of ways to torture this kid.

Like, it's not working. So now they're letting, we're running out of ways to torture this kid. It's not working. So now they're letting this child who is evil and jaded and dead inside. He's gonna beat the other kids. And angry and devoid of any humanity just walk around the facility with cleaning products in the middle of the night, unsupervised. Like no one thought of that. So he figured, because even though he thinks he's very dumb, like if you read his autobiographies, like well I'm too stupid to understand that. I think that was just beat into him as well, like you're dumb, you're not good enough.

He's actually unfortunately pretty cunning and smart. And if he had used it in a good way, I think he probably would have gone a different path, but of course he did not. So he figured, you know, these products that I'm using can be used to kill people. Like, he was like, hello, like, these are all flammable. So he was like, all right, what's my first stop? Why wouldn't you just burn down the whole place? The paint shop. Oh, yeah.

Of course, that's your first shot. So he used paint stripper and he burned the paint shop to the ground in the middle of the night. Now, they couldn't prove he did it, because no one saw him do it. And they weren't. And so you might say, well, bring in firefighters, because they can find where the accelerant was, and they'll sell it. In 1900. Oh no, they could have done that. Oh really? But they did it do that, because they didn't want policing what the fuck was going on in this place and shutting them down.

So they just had to suck it up. So in his autobiography, he wrote about this, that night the whole damn place burned down at a cost of over $100,000. Nice, huh? Oh! And at this point, you're like, yeah, Carl. Don't worry, you're gonna stop being like, yeah, Carl.

So now all the boys not only feared and respected him, but they were like, thank you Carl. Yeah. Now the paint shop is gone. Like that's awesome. So at least now they're at least respecting him. So now the older boys are starting to take him aside and be like, let me give you some tips to get out of here. Right. Like parole because some of these kids have been in here a few times. So they know how to get out. Yeah. And so this is when he learned to lie and manipulate to get what you want. So now they're teaching him say what they want you to say. Pretend you love Jesus and that you're listening to everything they want,

that you're so pure and you're just you're you want to be forgiven and blah, blah, blah. And so he's like, oh, all I have to do is lie and say what someone wants me to say. And I'll get what I want. Let me add that to my notes. Let's add this to another terrible lesson to learn about life. Yippee! Now in his autobiography again, butchering humanity, he says, if you or anyone else will take the trouble and have the intelligence or patience to follow and examine every one of my crimes and actions, you will find that I've consistently followed one idea

through all my life. I prayed upon the weak, the harmless, and the unsuspecting. Those I harmed were weaklings, either mentally or physically. Those who were strong either in mind or body, I first lied to and led into a trap where they were either asleep or drunk or helpless in some way. I always had all the best of it because I knew ahead of time just what to expect and the others did not. I therefore was strong in my knowledge and stronger in body than those I prayed upon. This lesson I was taught by others might make right.

So he's telling you right now, I was taught. I was taught. You fuck with people who are weaker than you, and if you can't find someone weaker than you, then you lie and manipulate to get them weaker than you. Great. So he's learning to be a supervillain, basically. So he switched completely once he found all this out, like you should lie to get out of here. And suddenly he's acting like a model student. Right.

And a model in me. Because he's the fuck out of here. Oh, he's reciting Bible verses. He's answering quite, he's like leading discussions in class. He's calling them all sir and, you know, father and whatever the hell he had to call them. And he's being everything they want them to be. And so, of course, the warden is looking at this

and going, my methods work. Like I win. Yeah, my methods of beating the morality into this kid finally worked. It just took a while. So he was paroled within a month of this. Yeah. And then they just let him out. And then he fucked. He literally butchered humanity. No, what's interesting is he says in his book that the superintendent, Mr. Whittier of the school, fired George Mann shortly after this for committing some kind of a moral act on

some of the boys under his care. The same Mr. Whittier was himself later on dishonorably discharged for the brutal and inhumane treatment of the boys under his care. All of these things are on file among the records of the school and can be verified by anyone who cares to look the facts up. Wow. So he's like, I'm not lying. So he's like the shit got shut down.

So now we're in 1904. And Carl is 13 years old and he was sent home. Like on this place. He's, I was waiting for him to be like 20. And now Carl is 36 years old. Jesus. Carl is 13 years old. God.

He was sent home again to his mother. He's not even at high school yet. No. He's literally barely a teenager He's a preteen and his mother had let the farm go without him because she was in poor health anyways And now she has no one to work the farm So now everything has gone to shit the animals on the farm were all starving Malnourish some of them were dead One of the siblings that had come back to try to help the farm had drowned in a pond right before he came home.

She's a sister family. And his mother was bedridden at the time. So he was psyched to see that everything in disarray, like this, he was like, yeah, this is what I want to see. I want to see everything falling down around you guys. Wow. Which it's like, whoa, you're right. So that's always what I wanted for you, mom. Yeah, like this is all what I wanted.

So he sold off any of the animals that were like alive and he put the ones that were almost dead out of their misery. And he let the rest of the crops rot and pulled out any decent ones that looked like they might grow. Like he literally was like, I'm going to ruin anything. Any any shot this sperm has. He started drinking again. Remember he's 13 years old. Yup. Stealing money from his mother and mugging kids and adults around town. Alrighty.

He had a little accomplice at one point. He got accomplices throughout his life for like very short periods of time and then he'd just be like, bye. See ya. He had another boy he recruited to help mug people and they would mug these people, including adult men. Yeah.

And then they would make them strip naked and run away naked. An adult. Yeah. So the sexual assaults and violence he endured at the reform school were definitely coming to the surface here. Yeah.

Like he's using, he's intertwining the two. I'm like, as any worried about getting sent back though? I think he's, I don't think he cares because I think he's just like whatever. I'll get out again. I'll get out. So I think and it's like you can see that he's intertwining now. That violence humiliation along with sex, which is no bueno. No. No good. So eventually his mother tried to get him on a better path. She was like, I don't want you going down the stairwell.

Mama told her you felt like mom in 13 years later. Like now she's like, oh, we should do something about this guy. It's a little too late, Matilda. So she was like, what do you want to do? Do you want to be anything in life? Like, what can we do? And he was like, I want to be a priest.

Oh. And she was like, cool. So she immediately was like calling around. She got him accepted into a seminary right away. But we know why he wanted to be a priest. Exactly. He used his charm and ability to manipulate well and did really well there in the classes.

He acted like a model idea of a priest in training. He was doing well. Everybody loved him there. Things were fine. But there was one priest there who had his number. And was like, that kid's dead behind those eyes. Like, that's not a real. And he was like, that's empty. There's evil behind there. I know he's fucking with us. And he was, Carl's like, what? What are you talking about? What's never fall though?

And so while he was there, he challenged Carl at every turn. He was trying to get that facade to break because he was like, I know some fucked up shit is happening here. And so he kept going at him, going at him, going at him. Eventually, he completely broke him. He lost his temper. And there was a huge fight.

I mean, like he like went after this priest and he went from doing, you know, being this model student and like going with this facade to all of a sudden, he just was like, fuck it. And now he was going through daily beatings because he's now rebelling. So this priest broke him. And now he's back to what he was. Now he's getting daily beatings at this school because he's not listening anymore. So, during this time, he's also stealing money still. Like, he's out because they're just going to school at this seminar. Yeah, they don't live there.

And so, he's still stealing money from people, mugging people, stealing booze. And he's starting to commit home invasions and burglaries, like little ones. He stole a cult revolver from a farmer's bedroom, and that was like his prized possession. Now during one beating by the priest that like was on to him, he took the gun and put it between the pre-size. Oh shit. And he pulled the trigger. Nothing fired.

But he was ready to blow this dude's brains out. And it's not like this gun was empty. It was just not maintained properly. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It misfied. It it's not like this gun was empty. It was just not maintained properly. It misfied. It misfied. Wow.

So he's what have killed him. So he's fully willing at 13 years old to shoot this priest between the eyes. Like execution style. Yeah. So no police were called because the beatings of the boys at this place. We're illegal.

They couldn't be doing this. So they wanted to be able to keep doing what they were doing. So he was also kicked out of this place, though. Like he kicked him out. And I guess they kicked him out in like a way where they were like, hey, we don't want to piss you off. So like, are you sure you want to be a priest? Or like maybe you want to like go see

if you want to be something else and he was like, fuck you guys and he just left. Wow. So then he was kicked out of his house too, until there was like, no, thank you. And this is where he starts a very brutal, very awful life, you know, on box cars and just kind of like floating from here to there, like a transient lifestyle. That's never good. It's never good. If you're already fucked up. Yeah, no. It's like, it makes me think of like Henry Lucas and Otis Toul,

like lived a very transient lifestyle and we all know how that went. So for a while, everything was okay. He's just kinda like, it was chill. He's like not really interacting with a ton of people, but he's getting along with some people that he beats along the way. And one night when Carl was 14,

now this is really fucked up. So trigger warning rape. Oh, this is is really fucked up. So trigger warning rape. Oh, this is now. Trigger warning, trigger warning rape. Just letting you know. When Carl was 14, he snuck onto a box car and four other middle aged homeless men were in there. And they had all traveled together for a while

and they were sharing some whiskey with them and they're just kind of talking to them. And they're saying, you know, you seem like a really good boy and they start letting their intentions out, like letting him know that we plan to rape you basically. And Carl, being like a tough kid, was like, fuck you guys know. And he was like, no, I'm not doing that. And he was like, so he stayed like stern. They kept coming at him. Eventually, they violently gang raped him. The four of them. Like violence. They then threw him out of a moving train with all his shit. Wow. He somehow survived this, but he woke up from an unconscious state in

the like on the ground the next morning covered in his own blood. Oh my God. Yeah. So this is another turning point in his life. One would say, this was when he became obsessed with Sodomy. Oh. Because he saw that sex was always coming along with violence. There was never a consensual element to sex. Right. He had never experienced it. He had never seen it. He was never told about consensual sex. At this point, I'm like, does he even know like what sex is? I don't think he knows that sex is you take it when you want it. He was never told about consensual sex. At this point, I'm like, does he even know what sex is? I don't think he knows that sex is you take it when you want it. Right. And it better hurt.

Right. That's literally it. And he saw that pleasure was only being derived by people through someone else's pain. Mm-hmm. Not a good thing. Now remember when he was in reform school, he would beat the weaker kids to basically get his own punishments passed on to them. Like, he would basically pass his punishments beat the weaker kids to basically get his own punishments passed on to them.

Like he would basically pass his punishments on to weaker kids. Now he was like, I'm going to pass the pain of this sexual assault on to weaker people, and I'm going to do it to them. Like these guys did it to me. I'm going to do it to you now. Not good. So he literally planned, I'm just going to rape and abuse and humiliate anyone I can find. Doesn't matter who you are.

Wow. Yeah. So now he didn't trust anybody, which I think we can all agree is we get that. And he started moving, you know, along alone. He would like come in contact with some people, but he would kind of try to stay away. The one time he decided to get involved with another group of like other people in his circumstance, he was raped again in a tent city. Oh my God.

So he now raped every single person that he robbed. And it was mostly men. And we'll see how he feels about women in a second. He got a gun fired during another robbery again. So he's always acquiring guns, but then he ends up losing them. How do you lose a gun? I know, right.

And he used the gun that he got during the robbery for his further robberies. And at one point, he was caught by a railway worker raping another transient in a box car. And he forced the transient to then rape the railway worker at gunpoint, just for his own pleasure. Like this is the shit he's doing. She is this.

As a teenager. You remember this? I need to take like a really long shower. This is not like a 40 year old man. This is a young teenager. This sounds like a really fucked up movie. I know. He got arrested for larceny eventually. And he was put in the red wing training school,

and it was easier for him because it wasn't as gnarly as the state reform school, but it was still really bad. Everything was really bad. He went hard at attacking and again, sodomizing the boys in the school, and he was getting away with it because they were terrified and also ashamed. Like, this was, they were feeling shamed. Yeah. Because that's what he was trying to do, humiliate them. Right.

And one guard in particular really wanted to break Carl, and his name was Bushart, I believe, and he was an ex-price fighter from Boston. Oh, shit. Hey. Not really excited about you. Not really excited about you. It's just a very psyched about that. Carl says in his book that he just decided he had had enough

of a fish at one day because he was just getting it constantly from this guy and he was like, I was just going to murder him like that was my plan. So he says, quote, every evening in the schoolroom, he used to sit up on top of one of the front seats while he had one of the boys black in his boots. He was doing that one evening and and I got a board, about two feet long and 18 inches wide, by one inch thick. This board was made of hard oak wood, and had about three or four pounds of iron on one end of it. I took this and sneaked up behind him and whacked him on top of his head. It didn't kill him, but it made him pretty sick, and he quit munking with me anymore. Wow. Like wow, Carl. He literally hit him in the head with an iron fork.

With like a two by four. Like what the fuck? Like that's real intense. He did well use there, however. Make a friend. No. His first friend. So he made a friend named Jimmy Benson,

who was another 15-year-old. Great. He genuinely considered him a friend. This guy, they helped each other escape, so they escaped together from this school. They successfully did it. And once they were out together, they started breaking into churches together

and just like stealing anything they could. And then they would burn the churches to the ground. Oh, yep. So like everything's going okay. They did this together for like four months successfully. Like they were actually like getting a lot of money from going okay. Yeah. They did this together for like four months successfully. Like they were actually like getting a lot of money from these things. Wow.

Because they were selling the things. They were perfectly in sync with each other. They just got each other. Carl said he didn't feel judged by this guy for like his just thought process. He felt like he just got it. Unfortunately, Jimmy got caught after four months trying to sell one of the things from these churches, and he was sent to an adult prison, and Carl didn't see him again until way later when he was sent to the same prison for that, but he was devastated.

Oh, good. Reunited. Yeah, but he was devastated because he was alone now, and he lost the only person he considered a friend. So he took all the money he got from their adventures, and he went on to Kansas. Onium! He onium! He to Kansas. On E.M. He was 15 at the time. 15, remember this kid is 15. It's like blowing my mind every time I say an age, I'm like, oh he's not 47. Yeah, that is bizarre.

He's not 63. So this is when he lied about his age and joined the army. Oh. Yeah. He was amazingly skilled at the physical part of it completely. Because he can handle anything. And he was like a jacked kid like and he was a jacked adult like he's a scary motherfucker. I gotta look him up. And he but the thing he was having issues with was he could not take an order from someone and

he definitely couldn't take it unless you were beating him down. Oh good. Because he wasn't used to taking orders unless being beaten. Right. So he was like, I'm not just going to accept what you say. He's like, I don't care. Which is a problem. So only a couple of weeks in, he ended up stealing a ton of uniforms and he was attempting to sneak off base to sell them. This is Carl.

That's Carl. Wow. That's Carl. I would not want to meet Carl and a dark alley or even not a nigh hop. He also, he had a mustache at one point too. So yeah, I'm just saying, I don't know if that adds to the scarier, no? He's less scary with the mustache. Yeah, facial hair always kind of just adds an element of like, huh, are you a muppet?

I don't know. So he was caught stealing these uniforms and trying to sell them. And his superiors were pretty ready to just kind of like move on and try to reform him because the offense wasn't violent, it was kind of dumb. Yeah. It's not good, but it's like not. It's like whatever. It's like whatever.

And so they were just kind of like, all right, well, we have to go through the chain of command. Well, the Secretary of War for President Theodore Roosevelt at the time was William Howard Taft. I know that man. So it had to go up the chain of the for President Theodore Roosevelt at the time was William Howard Taft. I know that man. So it had to go up the chain of the command to him. And he was going to have to dole out the punishment. Well, he was like, I'm going to make an example of Carl. Okay, Taft. Which as you'll see throughout this whole thing, a lot of people try to make an example out of Carl and I'm like, why him? Why did you all choose him? I don't know, it's just weird.

So he dishonorably discharged him and he was thrown in Fort Levin worth prison, which at the time was apparently one of the worst prisons in the United States for stealing uniforms. And for this relatively innocuous crime he committed. This whole time he was being told, you know, no big deal, we're gonna get you off. You're not gonna have to serve anything.

And then he immediately just gets hit with this news that you are dishonorably discharged and you're going to Fort Levinworth prison for a term of seven years. For stealing uniforms. Now, he was raped and beaten and tortured there, of course. Punishments were things like standing outside in the yard at attention the entire night.

Jesus. And one thing that happened to Carl often was he started gaining some respect by fighting back at the guards, and they would in return put a straight jacket on him and tighten it until he lost consciousness. Oh, okay, normal. And this happened daily.

Normal. So I don't know if you guys have lost consciousness. Okay. Normal. And this happened daily. Normal. So, I don't know if you guys have lost count. I think I have. But now his brain is being deprived of oxygen daily. Good. So, on the meter of like, oh shit. It's broken.

It's broken. Yeah, it busted. It's like, right? The meter broke about 25 minutes ago. It's gone. We don't even have it anymore. So that's good. After a year here, he was huge and jacked. Because he's a big boy.

He's just a meaty dude. And he just was fucked at this point. He's huge and he's fucked up. And he's like 17. Exactly. What the fuck? And this is when he starts thinking, I want revenge.

I want revenge on everyone who has ever hurt me. He's just getting angrier and angry. I kind of want revenge on everyone who's hurt Carl too at this point. And I don't like the feeling that I feel. It's a weird thing. It's one of those things where you're like, you didn't have a shot in life really shit on you

and you shit right back on life. And I don't know what to say about it. I don't either. But he's real bad. Like he's real bad. He gets worse. So at this point you can almost be like, fuck, life is really shitting on you but later you're like, dude, what? Right. So yeah. So at this point and for the rest of his life he would say he hates human kind. He hates humans. He hates everyone. Like I said, I wonder why. Yeah, he just wants to kill everyone. And what he wants to do was he was like, I was living for revenge on those rapists who like really fucked me up. Yeah.

Like I want revenge. But it's like, then why did you go do that to other people? Because it's my best way of thinking, you know? So he was at this place until 1910, and it was at this time that he really, truly turned into a monster. And he said in his book, quote, well, I was a pretty rotten egg before I went there, but when I left there, all the good that ever may have been in me,

had been kicked and beaten out of me long before. All that I had in my mind at the time was a strong determination to raise plenty of hell with anybody and everybody in every way I could, every time in place I could. I was the spirit of meanness personified. I had not at this time got so that I hated myself. I only hated everyone else. Wow. Which is really scary. So now he's traveling the same way he did before, just hopping on trains and getting places anyway,

he can. He's 19 at the time. He's huge, he's built. And actually, at the time, people described him as weirdly handsome. So he was able to manipulate. I could see that. He's not a disgusting looking person.

No, he's a scary looking guy. But I could see how at the time people, if he was charming and sweet to you, you'd be like, oh, OK, he's a scary looking guy, but I could see how at the time people would, if he was charming and sweet to you, you'd be like, okay, he's gonna hang on something. Yeah, I got it. But this is how he would manipulate his way into like raping and pillaging his way across the United States.

Awesome. And again, he's all about Revenge and Pain at this point, and he is inflicting it on anyone he can. At the end of this, he says it was over a thousand people that he's satanized. She's, yeah, he was just on a rampage. He would also really only rape men, which I mentioned earlier. I didn't want to ruin anything, but does he have any women victims? He really doesn't. So he always said that he preferred to rape men because women were unclean. He always said that he preferred to rape men because women were unclean.

Excuse me. You wonder if one maybe that's taught by a mom with a lot of boys in that time. She seemed like she was kind of fucked up. That could be like one of those like women are unclean, you know, like telling your boys that he's been like in every religious facility ever. That's the other thing. And these aren't like actual religious, they're like fucked up religious. And this is like way back in the early 1900s when like, she was fucked.

And yeah, it's, he's probably learning a lot about like unclean like hose that you don't like go near. You know what I mean? This is not CCD. No, certainly not. So he did have one victim that was a woman. He raped her on a train and he contracted an STD immediately. So that's probably another reason we thought that.

He was like, well, they were right. All women are unclean. Oh, man. It was just bad luck, right? And the way he said about it was, the worst has yet to come about a week later, when I found that my collection also included a fine first class case of gonorrhea. I began to suspect that the ladies were very good things to leave

alone. Oh, okay. So it's like okay Carl. Now one of the things here is he was definitely gay. I was gonna say. And he definitely didn't understand that. He definitely didn't accept that about himself because he will say forever I'm not. But I think he just didn't understand what a consensual relationship was. So I don't think he really defined himself or could define himself as anything. I don't even think he had a sexuality. He almost seems like he just didn't have any, it was just rape, violence, stress.

Well, because that's the thing, if you're thinking, he's not really sexually attracted to anybody. He's not sexually motivated. He's like, so he's not asexual obviously. No, he's just, I think he's just a whole different, he's just, I honestly think he's just broken. I think he's broken and he has no capacity to have a feeling like that.

That's how I see it at least. I don't know if anybody else has an idea of what this could be, like definitely talk to us about it. But he got arrested again, of course, for stealing. He spent some more time in jail, and he went back to robbing churches in arson. He's just causing me to have everyone. Wow. When he was out, he got his first real job.

And this was at the Kansas State Fair, and he became part of Colonel Dickie's Wild West Show. Yeah, he did. It's West Show. And the fact that he did. That's like a carnage. Yeah, he did. Colonel Dickie's Wild West Show, Motherfucker, we're in town. Uh, yeah, so that sounds awesome. It's about the only moment of reprieve I've had throughout this whole fucking thing. Well, in his job, because they were like, whoa, you're a big motherfucker and you're scary.

Strong man. So you know what you can do? You can just keep the angry carneys in line. Like, we just want you to keep peace. Like, just scare him. It's so funny. It's so funny. Because the whole time you're talking about

these like box cars and everything, all I can picture is like carnival lights. Yeah, and it basically is. Like, that's what it is. So he ended up getting fired. He was really good at his job because he could get this shot at everyone. But he was too good and he got fired

when a horse bumped into him and he punched it in the face. Oh no no no. And the carnies were like that's not cool because our animals are like what this is all about. So they fired them. Except not a elephant. Well he was not happy. He was not happy. And remember he gets revenge when he's not happy and he felt slided. So it a circus fire? So it was intense. I knew it. There it is. Did anybody get that joke? I hope you did.

It's a dad joke. So Carl responded to this by waiting until nightfall and he snuck on the show's train because they were going to another city. So he snuck on the train. He went to them with them to the next stop. They set up their camp to stay for the night. Carl snuck out in the middle of the night and set fire to the horse tent and the food tent. Oh no.

The horses ran around the camp on fire. Oh gosh. And lit all of the other tents on fire. Oh. Not one animal survived. All the stuff burned to the ground and the circus was done. Oh. Like literally destroyed the circus was done. Like literally destroyed

the circus done. I don't even care about the circus, I care about the animals. Carl watched this entire thing from like a high vantage point, like watched it all happen, like smiling and he said he was so happy watching it. Wow. Because he said like, well, now it's done. What? Like just for firing me. The fuck. So he fired them. Yeah, I'm saying. So then he went on to Illinois. And at the time, the Illinois Railroad Company was dealing with a strike, like striking workers. And strike breakers at the time were either scabs, which were, we know what scabs are. They're like people who work when the strikers won't work.

They work for the same wages. Or there's things called black legs, apparently, at the time. Oh, good. And they were literally used to just run at the picket line and beat the shit out of the striking workers to try to literally beat them into relenting. You think I'm gonna work after you beat me?

So do you think Carl was a scab or a black leg? A black leg. He sure was. And he did great at it and he earned some money. I believe that. And the way that he was picked for this was they just saw him and we're like, hey, you look like a big bitch. Do you want to beat some people up?

And he was like, yeah. Wow. Like they literally just grabbed him. We're like, do you want to beat the shit out of those people? We'll pay you and he was like, okay. The 1900s were a time. It was wild. So, and this is car, wild less.

This is just car being like, oh, I get to be the shit out of people for money, sure. This is horrible. Now, he went on his way, and this is when he became involved in something that's really fucked up. Oh, like you say this is when it gets weird. Is it? Yeah. Because shit's been weird this whole damn time. This is when it gets fucked up.

So this is, there was something at the time in like the transient community where you would sometimes be called the egg. Yeg? The egg is an older male transient who acquires a younger teen boy that he would call a punk or an Angelina. And they would use this boy for like anything, mainly a sex slave,

but also to like, you know, to robberies with and, you know, burglaries and just like get around and use to manipulate all that fun stuff. They were treated as property. They were like traded among each other. Usually they would like abduct a younger person and then they would just keep them until they could be this. So that's fun. Great. And Carl bought, you know, Carl just bought one. He acquired one because he was like, it seems like the next step in my monsterdom to just own another person. So what the fuck is happening here today? He described this boy as a curly-haired blue-eyed rosy-cheeked fat boy. Good. Didn't give a name because he was like, I don't really give a shit. He described this boy as a curly-haired blue-eyed rosy-cheaked fat boy. Good.

Didn't give a name, because he was like, I don't really give a shit. He probably didn't remember. Probably not. Together, they became pretty good at stealing and burglaring together. Really? You know, a team. And he eventually got a lot of money from it, and he got more guns, so things were going well for them.

Probably not for the Angelina or the punk, whatever you want. Probably not for society. But or the punk whatever. Probably not for society. But the pair was arrested doing this and forced to work on a road crew together. He was arrested with the name Jeff Davis at the time. He used a lot of alias. Okay, I was gonna say because when I Googled Carl serial killer, Jeff Davis came up.

The crew boss, Starriness, actually refused to release Carl when his time was up because he was such a hard worker And he's such a big guy. He was like you can do a lot of work So he just wouldn't release him even though his time was up Mm-hmm, and so Carl tried to escape but was caught and his punishment Was again he was technically a free man, but he was punished for escaping for no not even escape It just for trying to escape for leaving was technically a free man, but he was punished for escaping. No, not even escaping, just leaving. For trying to escape.

For leaving. And he was punished by something called the snorting pole. Do you want to know what the snorting pole is? No, but I'm sure you're going to tell me. I'm going to tell you, this was a 12 foot pole with a loop on the top where rope was put through. And then it was tied into a pair of handcuffs that the prisoner would wear.

And that person was hoisted up until their toes were barely touching the ground and then like a strapado almost and then they were stripped naked and whipped in this position and they did this to him for an hour. He didn't make a sound, he didn't look bothered by it at all. So of course this terrified the guards and the crew boss. They cut him down and he said by the way that this left him with quote, blood on his back and murder in his heart. And the boss was so terrified that he let him go immediately. Like, cut him down and was like, please leave. I'm scared of you. Okay. Like, that's how scary he was. Carl is a demon. Sure is, sure is. He went out to Oregon and continued his spree

of just raping and robbing people because he was like, fuck that. I'm not, nothing can hold me down. I'm just gonna keep going. So he even stole a yacht at some point, but crashed it and had to swim back to shore. He does this another time, too. What is Carl's life?

This whole time. This is why I was like, yeah, we're only gonna get to the first murder, but like, strap in. Also, it's like, Carl, come on, you could have had a yacht, just like yacht around by yourself. You hate everyone else.

Just yacht it out. I don't care if you stole it. Eat yacht. Yes. So this whole time, he's also buried his stashes of things he stole in like Ron Swanson, just around places. And eventually his bragging got the best of him

when he was in San Francisco, because he was bragging about all the things he was feeling. And he was caught by two police officers in front of a judge. I'm surprised he didn't just like kill the police officers on spot. Right. So he was arrested using the name Jeff Baldwin.

This time. We love a Jeff. Jeff Baldwin So he was arrested using the name Jeff Baldwin. This time we love a Jeff Jeff Baldwin. He was given a deal and the deal was that he gives up the locations of the stolen shit and then he would get like a tiny sentence. So he was like, Oh, cool. So he immediately confessed to it and was like, here's all the locations. So he thought he was only getting months because this plea deal was supposed to be awesome. But when he arrived at the Oregon state penitentiary, he found out that the judge had bullshitted

him. Is it not illegal? And gave him a full seven years for Grand Larsony. He was pissed. Us we lost his stuff and had to go to jail. Yep. So pissed was he in fact that he used his bare hands to bend the bars in his cell and open them and go raging through the prison.

Carl cannot be stopped. He's like, I'm sorry, that was Patricia. He truly can't. Carl and Patricia are a team. He can't be stopped. So he blocked all the exits and like stuffed rags and all the locks. And beat the shit out of every guard like leaving a path of blood and destruction while the prisoners just looked on. Carl cannot be detained. He's sent fire to part of the prison. That's his not funny. It's just chaos. Carl's like, chaos.

He's paying phone time. He just came home. He just came home. He just came home. He just came home. He just came home. He just came home. He just came home. He just came home. He just came home.

He just came home. He just came home. He just came home. He just came home. He just came home. He just came home. He just came home. He just came home.

He just came home. He just came home. He just came home. He just came home. He just came home. He just came home. He just came home. He just came home. He just came home. the yard and they're all escape all the prisoners are literally cheering for Carl and this was a big issue because now the guards are looking weak as fuck because the prisoners are now like you idiots because Carl opened his cell with his bare hands is why what's the fuck well this is this is a bummer for Carl so they were like they finally got Carl they they detained him. They tased after he was raging around. They threw

him down in the prison yards yard and broke both of his ankles with hammers. They then immediately threw him into solitary and let his bones just set themselves. So he was just laying on a floor with two broken ankles. Yeah. So after a couple days, they ripped him out of there, and they transferred him. Can you just hold on while my ankles catch up? Yeah, fuck me. Well, they sent the right places on my carls. Oh.

And after a few days, they transferred him to the worst prison in the United States at the time, the Salem Correctional Facility in Oregon. Mm-hmm. He went under the name of Jefferson Baldwin. He was ruthlessly beaten immediately. He was chained up face first against his cell door for hours and hours on end. He was also chained to the wall and had a fire hose blasted at him long enough that his eyes swelled shut. He had his own guard whose only job was to break Carl. Like it was a sign to him.

This isn't real. This guard's name was vinegar. No, it wasn't. No, it was not. And he had a special punishment called the hummingbird. This was essentially a weird and small version of the electric chair. Now Carl was taken into a room.

He was chained up in a, so he was put in like a tub, basically a steel tub. There was a loop in the middle of the tub, and they would literally chain his hands and ankles to that loop. So he was like in this weird crunched-up position. Then vinegar would come in. They would fill the tub with ice water. Already, that sucks.

Then vinegar had a sponge and a battery. And he would slowly just start electrocuting Carl with like really focused currents. And he did this like daily. Yeah. So he lost it. And his car like 22 these days. Pretty much. And so he ended up going crazy. He lit another part of the prison on fire, caused a riot and broke a ton of the prisoners out of the place, and he couldn't fit out of a window that he broke, so he just like got other prisoners out. Wow. Yeah. A robinhood of prison. And the way he said it was next, I robbed the storeroom and stole a few dozen bottles of lemon extract,

which I took out to the gang in the yard and got them all drunk and steamed them all up to raise hell and battle the screw. They did just as I suggested. They ran all the yard screws ragged. I didn't drink at all. Okay. So he's just like watching mayhem now. He's causing it, watching it.

You know what? I think he's a little tired at this point. Yeah, he's tired. So he's like, I gotta get it somewhere. So let's just make everybody else do it. Well, for this, he got the dungeon. Now, it was a basement solitary cell with no food. No food was given to him or light.

But he's used to that for childhood. Well, and he was left there for up to 60 days. Wow. He could only feel around in the pitch black for cockroaches to eat. That's what he did. And he was smart. And when he came out, he kept hatching plans to escape and getting other prisoners to escape, which is breaking down the morale of the guards. And at this point, a young prisoner, I think he was like 21 at the time, named Otto Hooker, escaped. And then the super

attendant, whose name was Harry Minto, he's the guy who really had it out for Carl. The soul time was like giving him all these punishments. He went after this kid who escaped and this kid, Otto Hooker, shot Minto the word in dead. Now he himself was also killed during this, but whatever. The murder was attributed to Carl basically because he helped Otto escape and basically gave him the plan. And another seven years was tacked onto his sentence. So he was there for 14 years now. Now they got a new superintendent that took over. Probably not good. John Wilson Minto, which is Harry Minto's brother. So he's mad. He's pissed. And he decided to create a new punishment for everybody in the prison called the bullpen. What's the bullpen you ask? I can see it in your eyes.

I just want to know. I did not ask. The bullpen was a circle drawn in chalk in a huge room. Every single inmate had to stay in that circle for 14 hours a day with their hands on the shoulders of the man in front of them. And they had to walk around in a circle for 14 hours a day with their hands on the shoulders of the man in front of them, and they had to walk around in a circle the entire time without stopping. Where the fuck did he come up with that while playing musical chairs? Not real sure. What the fuck? Well, if you stepped out of the circle, dropped your hands off someone's shoulders or stopped walking, you would be shot immediately. Dead? Yep. It was just a way to murder prisoners, basically.

What the fuck? In his book, he says, quote, I have had the whip, the paddle, the snorting pole, the hummingbird, the hose, the jacket, chained up frontwards, backwards, bucked and gagged, spread-eagled, water-cured, starved beaten, thrown into sweat boxes, and half cooked, thrown into ice dungeons, and half frozen. I have been in solitary confinement for years at a time where I could have no privileges or pleasures of any kind. Every single thing in life that men hold worthwhile and that go to make life worth living for, I have been denied and deprived of. I have gone through every conceivable kind of torture that one man or body of men can impose on another man. That's not wrong. And it's like,

yeah, you're right. Correct. Now luckily the state did find out about this and how this new super intended was working things. And they fired this status immediately. And they hired a new superintendent. Now this new superintendent complete. I think his name was Murphy. He completely reformed this prison. Prison. I've done that before, prison. I don't know why. Prison. And abolished all the harsh punishments.

Wow. Like the bullpen was gone, all that. I was not expecting that. All of a sudden, it's a turnaround. This superintendent actually brought Carl into his office and was like, I want to talk to you like a human being. And he did. And Carl was like, what's a human being?

Well, Carl's really like, I'm, and he said, he was like, I was going to rebel against that now. Like, if you, if you're gonna treat me subhuman, I'm gonna rebel against you. And if you're gonna treat me like a human, I'm gonna rebel against that. Okay. Like, there's nothing you can do to make me go soft.

That was his idea. Now, then one day, he was like, Carl, come in here. So he was like, hey, would it make you feel better if you could just leave for the day? Like I opened the gates and you leave and then if you just promised to come back for supper? Uh-huh. And Carl was like, huh? This guy thought that was a good idea.

Well, and he was taking a risk, so he was like, I'm going to see what happens here. So he was like, do you want to do that? And Carl was like, yeah. Yeah, I want to do that. And so he did. And what he said in his book was, I just walked around a little while to see if any screws were watching me, but I didn't see any. So I sat down and tried to dope out what it was all about. Of one thing I was sure, I could have gone if I cared to because he did. He left. He was just like sitting on a rock somewhere, being like, what the fuck is going on. And another thing I was sure of was that there wasn't any more honor about me than the stone I was sitting on.

I just thought as I couldn't understand what it was all about, that I would stick around a while and see what happened, and then I would sure beat it after a few days. That evening, I walked up to the gate of the prison and demanded to be let back in. Spud Murphy was waiting for me. He asked me why I didn't beat it. I told him I didn't know So he actually did do this came back and demanded to be let back in and he came back in So it worked right weirdly enough Spud Spud is on it. So he actually did pretty well after this and like this superintendent like had discussions with him

Like talked freely with him and the other inmates was like very into like let's Treat them like humans He was given a ton of freedom He convinced him to join the baseball team which they formed there. Oh, and a marching band that was in prison Mm-hmm And when he couldn't get like certain like he was like I'm too stupid to know that how to do this instrument He was like all right then be the band leader. He's like, put him as that.

So he was like genuinely trying to be like, you can be a better person if you just decide to be, right, which is like bonkers. This guy was a hippie and a half. Yeah, I love him. And it seemed to work. But then May 12th, the 1918, Carl was like, I'm out of here

because he was like, this isn't something's gonna go wrong. Basically, he was seeing it as like, this is too good to be true and shit's gonna go down and I wanna get out before it does. So he escaped. Because he basically was unable to be treated like an equal. Like he couldn't handle being treated like an equal person. And because of his escape, this guy was fired. Oh no.

And he felt terrible. For once in his life, he said he felt guilt. Wow. Because he was like, I fucked over. The only person who treated me like a human being. Like I, in this strange. Which further made him slip into this role of his, which is I am not capable of having a relationship

with someone like me. And now I don't want to. To the only person who treated me nicely is I fucked over their whole life So like fuck me like I shit, so why should I even try right so it's just nothing is Rolling in his favor. This is such a case study. It is it fascinates me So he changed his name to John O'Leary as an alias at this point and he did this to each new place he went. He would have a different alias in every place he went. He was arrested several more times and he escaped every single time he was arrested. And then he realized he needed

a job, but who is going to take him? So he joined the foreign legion of the constitutionalist army of northern Mexico, but he only did that for a short period of time. Okay. And then he ended up returning to California. So nothing really happened while he was there. Okay. He said, quote, during this time I was busy robbing chicken coops and then touching a match to them.

I burned old barns, sheds, fences, snow sheds, anything I could. And then I couldn't, but when I couldn't burn anything else, I would set fire to the grass on the prairies, or the woods, anything and everything. I had a pistol and I would spend all my spare change for bullets. I would take pot shots at farmer's houses through the windows. If I saw cows or horses in the fields, I would cut them loose.

Okay. So he's just like, mayhem, like massmen to mayhem. In all the books I read about this said like like there's no murders attributed to this part, but like he definitely could have shot someone. Because he was shooting through windows. Right. Just willy nilly as he drove by on a train. Okay. So he was also raping people, anyone he came across, he was not picky. He says, quote, it made no difference to me at all except that they were human beings. That's all he cared about when it came to satanizing people. except that they were human beings. That's all he cared about when it came to

sautomizing people. So it was at this time that he was in Texas and he saw a young man leaving his job in the oil fields and this young man was leaving with a thick water cash from a day's work. So he attacked him, he did the same thing he always does, he was robbing him of course, in a secluded place and then he beat him and raped him,

but he was choking him while he did this. The man died during the attack. Yep. Carl Love said and was like, whoa! What a rush. Love to that. So this is his first actual murder that he's like, oh, this is real pain. This is really what I could do.

The fact that that is the first murder and what a really like an hour and a half in. Yeah. And we are gonna end in a second, but I'll give you one more little example. He then moved to New York City, and he decided he wanna get back. I love this. All of a sudden he's like,

you know who really fucked me over in my life? William Howard Taft. Because he's the one he handed down. He did. That initial one that sent I'm gonna be down. He did. That initial one that sent him to Levinworth. He did? That's where a shit really went down. So he broke into Taft's home in New Haven.

Shut the fuck up. While he was away, stole tons of jewelry, bonds, cash, tons of shit. He- He also stole a 45 caliber pistol. And he did this because he said I wanted to use it to commit further crimes Because I knew they would all be traced back to William Howard Taft And even though they would know he didn't do it He would have to be reminded every single time I committed a crime that I bested him

What the fuck? So he sold a ton of the shit in Manhattan. He got like ten thousand dollars. Damn Damn. And a snack like that. Now he's like rolling. Holy cow. He then bought a fucking boat with that money. A yacht. A yacht. He's yachting. So now. All is such a yachtie. So now he's just buying. He's robbing other boats.

Below deck. Come here. Right. Below deck pans Ram edition. So now he's a pirate. So now he's a pirate. He's robbing other boats and people all up and down the river. And so then he went back to Manhattan. And he was like, wait, I can just go in bars and I can pick up these sailors who need jobs in between their work.

And he's like, so he would promise them, you know, he would promise them it's going to be easy work. You're going to get a lot of pay. I'll give you a meal, you know, lots of alcohol. Just work for me for a couple of days And these guys were like cool, all right And I saw them eyes and they would he would work for the day He would give them a big meal lots of alcohol because we have to make sure that they are very drunk And once they were too drunk to properly fight back he would attack them and rape them and he says quote I'm gonna end on this quote by Carl himself And he says, quote, I'm going to end on this quote by Carl himself. Quote, when they were asleep, I would get my 45 cult army automatic that I stole from Mr.

Taff's home and blow their brains out. Then I would take a rope and tie a rock on them and put them in my rowboat, row out to the main channel about one mile and drop them overboard. They're still there, ten of them. I worked that racket about three weeks. My boat was full of stolen stuff, and the people at City Island were beginning to acquire it me. So the next two sailors I hired, I kept alive and at work.

And that's where we're gonna end for part one of Carl Panzeram. All I have to tell you, everybody listening is, do not ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, ever, keep it that weird I don't even think you're capable of keeping that weird and if you're listening I genuinely hope that you're not Yeah, don't keep it this weird at all. What the fuck how are we not done yet?

Carl Panzeram we are just hitting the like Whoa, I'm like Carl Panzer pants. No, no, we're not It's just hitting like that started off with a whoa it started off with like whoa And now we're at like whoa Like it's gonna get even worse. I feel like I'm desensitized. I think Carl was I think you're desensitizing me through this process of morbid So guys the FBI should just listen to morbid sometimes

I mean maybe I hope not but like maybe they should process of morbid. So guys, the FBI should just listen to morbid sometimes. I mean, maybe I hope not, but like maybe they should. What's happening? And if you're thinking you want to like read these things that I was reading for this, a couple of the things that I grabbed were pan's ram butchering human, butchering humanity. It's by Carl.

It's a short read. It's really fucked up. He says it really like a lot of inappropriate and offensive things Just so you know. Awesome. There's also Kill'em all. And it's by Ryan Green. And I think it's called a true story of abuse and The making of a murderer. I think it is. Are a serial killer. It's Killamall, basically you've been buying. That's a great one. He goes really into it. I'm gonna be watching something else for part two, so we'll get even more goodies for you.

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