Morbid - Episode 215: The Torture and Murder of Shanda Sharer

Episode Date: March 8, 2021

Shanda Sharer was 12 years old when she met a girl named Amanda. Amanda was already involved in a troubling relationship with a girl named Melinda Loveless and when Amanda and Shanda started hanging out Melinda became even more possessive of Amanda and started threatening Shanda. Melinda would tell anyone who would listen that she was going to kill Shanda someday, but for some reason no one took her seriously. One night Melinda gathered a group of friends including: Lauri Tacket, Hope Rippey and Toni Lawrence. The mission was to trick Shanda into thinking Amanda wanted to see her, but Amanda was not there. Three of the four girls then brutally tortured and murdered 12 year old Shanda Sharer, while one did nothing to stop them. This story is incredibly difficult to get through, but just like all of our cases, deserves to be told so that the memory of Shanda never fades.  Books used for researching the case: Cruel Sacrifice by Aphrodite Jones Little Lost Angel by Michael Quinlan  As always, thank you to our sponsors: HelloFresh: Right now, get twelve free meals—including free shipping- when you go to HelloFresh.com/morbid12 and use code morbid12 Capsule: To sign up, visit capsule.com to get your prescription hand delivered today—for free BetterHelp: This podcast is sponsored by BetterHelp and Morbid listeners get 10% off their first month at betterhelp.com/Morbid Firstleaf: Go to TRY Firstleaf.com/morbid to get 6 bottles of wine for $29.95 and free shipping!! See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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I think you and I have also realized that researching at night is just not possible anymore. It's not. Because you'll have like this beautiful, glorious day filled with like family and fun. Yeah. And then you'll just be like, oh, it's something about nighttime. I can't enjoy researching something that dark. Mm-hmm.

And it's weird because I used to be fine doing that. I don't know what shifted. Same. I'm much better researching in the morning. Me too. I can handle, give me all the darkness in the morning. I don't know what shifted. Same. I'm much better researching in the morning. Me too. I can handle, give me all the darkness in the morning. I can handle all of it. Which I feel like is kind of weird.

Very weird, right? Like I start my day off pretty fucking bleak. Good job. I'm just like, but then I'm fine. But that's over. Yeah, but at night, no, I just don't feel like I get good research done. So this one was tough because it was just like every time

I went to do it, I was like, oh, this is too much. Yeah, it's a lot. But we I should probably tell you what case it's gonna be. Probably. I'm sure you know because you saw the title but we're gonna be covering the horrific abduction torture and murder of Shanda Cher. So this is another Patreon pick but it's got a little twist because the Patreons while this was it was like neck and neck with the other case that was up in the poll for this week for them. And this one was, I mean, a handful of votes it lost by actually. But the other case is going to be a Patreon bonus episode because it's ongoing. It's a little, the more research I did the more,

I was like, I don't know if this is like a full, full episode and I don't know if I want to like, you know, kind of have it be like a beat to be continued kind of thing. Sure. It's kind of happening right now. So you don't know when you're gonna be able to continue it anyway.

Yeah, so that's definitely gonna be a Patreon bonus episode that I'm gonna do. So Patreon's you can look forward to that. And I figured because I wasn't doing that one, I'll just give you your second choice. Big boom. And this one I was already like, I want to do it. I'm ready. I'm ready. I'm here. So, I want to give you guys two books to go read on this case, of course. Your librarian of the year, Elena Erkhardt. We just love a good book about these things. No, we do. And these books, I feel like they're always written by journalists who get like all these,

just insider things for like the courts and like the transcripts and they, you know, they get so much stuff that it's just like, I just want you to go buy their books because they deserve to be recognized for it. Absolutely. The first one I want you to look at is Little Lost Angel by Michael

Quinlan. Great book. It's going to horrify you and upset you, but it's well done. Okay. Then the other one, a lot of people might know this one. It's called Cruel Sacrifice by Aphrodite Jones. Yep. Both of them are great. I got tons of information from them, but I also left out a lot of details that I think you should go read the books for. Yeah. Because there's a lot of like interviews and like tons of transcripts from things and definitely go read the books because you will get a full like rounded view of these girls because

when I was reading this book, I think we've all kind of, we've, a lot of us have heard of this case. Yeah. I think we've all kind of, a lot of us have heard of this case. This is a big true crime case because of how gruesome and grotesque and awful it is. But like you don't always get the full picture of everybody involved. You kind of know that there's 14 age girls who attacked this. By the way, Shanda Renee Share was 12 years old. Oh my gosh, she wasn't even a teenager. I feel like that gets forgotten a lot.

It's like, this is a bunch of teenage girls. Yeah, it's a bunch of teenage girls and a literal child. A literal 12 year old. But when you look into the backgrounds of these teenage girls, the murders who did this, it tells a lot. Okay.

And I didn't know a lot of that. I didn't know a lot. Is this a very sad case all around? It is. It's a very sad, sad all around. Because I Because of their background. It's really sad all around. I actually don't know a lot about their backgrounds. I know about this case, but that's how I went into it knowing a lot about the case, not a lot about the people involved.

Once I started looking into it, I was like, whoa. Now I'm going to let you guys make your own decisions on nature, nurture, all that good stuff. We've been so into that lately. It just seems like a lot of cases lately have had a lot of conflicting things with that. stuff. We've been so into that lately. It just seems like a lot of cases lately have had like a lot of conflicting things with that. Yeah. So this case takes place in it actually the actual murder took place in Madison, Indiana. Okay. This was on January 11th, 1992. And basically this whole thing began as a love triangle of sorts

thing began as a love triangle of sorts between Shanda Cher, who is 12 years old, Melinda Loveless, who is 16, and Amanda Heverin, who is 15. It was kind of, when you look at it on the surface, you're like, okay, this is what happens in high school, like people get jealous because everybody's dating everybody, it's always like, you're going to run into your ex, a new girlfriend or boyfriend. But this is just one that when you look at it, you're like, yep, that's normal. And then it starts getting deeper and deeper. And it gets, you're like, something's wrong

with the people involved here. Like especially, Melinda Loveless, you're like, oh, yeah, that's not a normal way to behave. This is not your typical teenage high school. Yeah, like Shanda did not, nobody would do anything to deserve what she got, but like, this is the amount of rage that Melinda Lovelace had for this 12-year-old girl is truly something.

And it's like, when you look into her background, which I'm gonna get into right now, you can see that there's still the rage. That was pretty much instilled into her background, which I'm going to get into right now, you can see why she's filled with rage. That was pretty much instilled into her birth. See, that's like sad. I guess it's like one of those things where you can feel bad for like the part of her that's not a murderer. Yes, you feel bad for the child.

She definitely didn't have a chance. That is for sure. So Melinda Lovelace is a great name for her for many reasons because she murdered a 12-year-old. That's pretty loveless. But also, sadly, because I'm pretty sure she grew up in a house that was loveless. That's awful. So in its horrible, I want to like, disclaim right here that there is like child abuse involved, there's sexual assault involved.

This case has pretty much everything, so just be aware of that. She was the youngest to Marjorie and Larry Loveless. Larry is a literal monster. He's dead now, though, so don't worry. He's a demon, like Larry is a true demon. Marjorie was only 17 when they married and he was 20, which is fine, but they had Melinda's older sister Michelle and Larry molested and physically abused Michelle from the time she was an infant. An infant? Yes. Larry was a liter, he was a pervert to everyone around him, including his own family. He was sex obsessed, especially with his wife and he would force her to do things she wasn't comfortable with.

He demanded it all the time. He would force her to have sex at all times during the day and at night. Like, she could not say no. He eventually went on to do this with other women while he was married to Marjorie as well. They had their second child, Melissa, and he was possessive. He was emotionally abusive to Marjorie, it comes out later that he was sexually abusing both girls. It's, yeah.

What is wrong with people? It's pretty terrible. Eventually Margie, because her name is Marjorie, but they call her Marjorie. Marjorie started having an affair with a neighbor. And it was, you know, so now the father's having affairs. He's abusing everyone in the house. Marjory's now having affairs with neighbors and such, and she's basically trying to like tell him to fuck off.

So none of them are taking care of the kids. Right. This is just them trying to one up each other and hurt each other and be like, and like Marjie is one thing. I think she was just put into a really terrible situation in this marriage. And she kind of just wasn't ready to have

to split her emotions between taking care of kids and taking care of herself, I think, is what happened. Yeah. But Larry is an actual demon. He was also an alcoholic. He would force her, he would force Marjorie to engage in swinging with other couples. Oh man. And then he would just force her to have sex with men in front of him.

Oh my god. This is like a horror house. Yeah. I had no idea she grew up in a house like this. I had no idea. Wow. That will do something to you. It's a nightmare. By the time Melinda was born, he was a raging alcoholic, and this is what the house was. Right. So it's like, you can see this is what she was born into. And then she's being assaulted and molested. Exactly. Now, I will say that Melissa and Michelle are the ones who did come forward and say that he did this to them. Melinda has never said that

he did it to her. Everyone believes he did, obviously, because of track record and what's going on. But because of, there was some reason that they weren't going, I think it was because she was in prison and she didn't, at the time, and she didn't wanna be part of what was going on because he did get in trouble for it eventually. Okay.

Because he was not just sexually abusing his own children, he was sexually abusing other people and younger people. So he did get in trouble for this, not like you want him to, but I will say I just want to be clear that Melinda never came out and said he did it. In fact, she denied it, but take with that what you Okay. But she definitely wasn't treated well in this house. It's just because she wasn't being sexually molested. And basically Melinda's older sisters became her parents because her parents were so negligent. She called Michelle Mom.

Oh, wow. And apparently Larry convinced them that they were her actual parents. What? Like literally told these girls like, you're her parents, like you're her mom. Okay. And Michelle was like, I literally thought I was her mom.

Like she was like, I didn't understand it, but I was like, I have to take care of her. That's the psychological effects that that will have on every party involved. There's every kind of abuse happening here. Wow. Yeah, it's really fucked up.

Very psychological. That is so psychological. It really is. He also would that every kind every pet they would get he would either kill the pet or he would let it loose and just they would never find it. Why get a fucking pet because he enjoyed doing this. He enjoyed it. Oh my God. This is so fucked already. And this is I mean, and this is a pretty brief overview of that house. And

again, especially the Aphrodite Jones book, Cruel Sacrifice, that really goes into detail about what happened here, like if you wanna know more. Now the family, so what's happening here is like sex obsessed, terrible depravity happening in this house. And then all of a sudden the family switched to become very religious. So they went the total opposite to become very religious. Oh.

So they went the total opposite, and they attended a Baptist church. So there was exorcisms here, there was speaking in tongues, it was one of those. Okay. And they were basically shoving everyone off that wasn't saved. So you had to be saved. He really went into this. He became like, uber religious to the point where like he was burning all their stuffed animals and books because they weren't teachings of like whatever the hell he was trying to teach

them. And is he still abusing young women at this point? Oh, of course, yeah. Right. That makes a lot of sense. Yeah, absolutely. He would rip their posters off the wall. They weren't allowed to have anything.

No music. So now this was just taking religion and using that as an abuse form. Exactly. He is weaponizing this religion now. Right. So he once burned a beloved doll of Melinda's because he said it was a demon. And she said later, in prison interview, she was like, I will never forget that. That was my best friend that doll

And he and he didn't like the I think he said he didn't like its eyes So he just was like I'm burning it. I don't like your eyes Larry And I think what I read in the book was that her mom actually like bought her the exact replica of that doll to try to like make up for it But she was like it wasn't my like that was my friend. Like I spent all my time with that doll. Wow. So it's just like, this is what's happening in her house. When Melinda was five, this blew my mind. When Melinda was five years old,

they just decided she needed an exorcism. They exercised her at five. Oh my god, see that's gonna like make me cry. And you know how they exercised her? They put her in a motel with a 50 year old man who claimed he could do it. And they left her for five hours with him. Oh my god.

She doesn't remember what happened during that time, but she thinks she just snapped. Dude, I'm gonna have like, I'm gonna like lose my mind. And I think this will get this is giving like insight into because when you find out what Melinda does later, I mean, yeah, it's monstrous and you can't even fathom How somebody would get that way and you're like, well, it's almost like she learned it along the way She definitely did one here's the thing the thing the fact that she doesn't remember any of that That really says something and I'm not saying that anything happened because maybe it didn't but a lot of times in traumatic situations

Your brain remember has a way of compartmentalizing. Oh, for sure. And people get like mad at me for like saying psychological things like that because I don't have a degree. But I've had things happen to me that I have compartmentalized along the way. I was literally just gonna say, but you can speak from a personal experience

of some things and when you can, you should. Exactly. That can be a thing. We're not, it's not a blanket statement of like everybody does that, but like that is an absolute, and considering what was going on in her life. It's a very big, real possibility that these people were not good people, right? Yeah. It's pretty big possibilities. Exactly. So they ended up putting their kids in

Graceland Baptist schooling where they were beaten in school, like as kids. Wow. Melinda had become really become infatuated with her father, despite all of this, which can happen. Like especially with abuse victims, they can turn her AIDS. It's, you just, that's all you know. Well, and it's a coping mechanism. And he also, and I'm sure a lot of people,

like unfortunately, will may even know this themselves that like oftentimes abusers willers will cuddle with you afterwards and try to make you feel like they'll vote on you. Yeah, so in the Colleen Stan case, how a camera did that to Janice and that's how she got through the abuse. She just looked forward to that part of it. They look forward to the little tiny,

like, human at the end of the tunnel. And I think because she was so little and she was so young that that those parts were the parts that her brain really clung onto I think with him. That's so sad. I think he also, and I believe her sisters, you know, also went with this, that Melinda was also much more submissive to him than Michelle and Melissa were. So they would kind of push back on some things because they were older and they were, you know, they knew it wasn't right. And she was so young, so she was being very submissive to him,

which made him treat her better. So she was seeing a different side to him, even though she was seeing all of this other horrible stuff. Eventually, he was going on this whole religious kick and then all of a sudden he was like, you know, I don't want to do this anymore. So because he had stopped drinking, he made everybody in the house stop drinking, but it was like, it was like, it wasn't like, I want to stop drinking to be a healthier person and like, be a better dad and all that.

It was just like, no, like it was one those like crazy, like Bible burning, I have to stop drinking kind of things which doesn't work usually. He started drinking again. He was getting tired of not being like an open pervert to the family, so he was like I really just like to go back to my ways of like being disgusting. So the entire family was excommunicated from the church. Wow. Yeah. Eventually Margie was still having tons of affairs at this point. And things are just getting worse and worse, more perverted at home, more weird.

He's sleeping in the same beds as these kids. Oh my god. No. He's doing weird shit. He's like peaking on neighbor kids. He's like doing things to like other, it's, he's a monster. Can I just like spoil her alert this right now? Does he get any jail time? Okay. It's coming. Don't worry. It's wrong with the world.

Yeah, it's pretty awful, but don't worry. He's dead. He would do so. He would also tell the girls about their mothers affairs to make her look bad. And then they would make them, he would make them call her while she was out. And when she, and say, and make them ask her, are you at work? And when she would, when she wasn't, he would be like, see she lied to you because she doesn't love you.

She doesn't want to be here with you. Oh my God. So they grew up being like, thinking their mom didn't love them. Which to be honest, and they, but they all said it later, they were like, she did, she put men in front of us Yes, and he was he was a monster in his own right and her her thing was she put men in front of us because instead of protecting them from that He made it a thing exactly. So these girls had nothing they had nothing literally nothing that nobody was taking care of them I'm surprised they didn't like run away. We're. I know, my gosh. I know. Eventually, there was divorce,

but before divorce actually happened, there was physical fights. There was obviously sexual abuse. There was weird behavior in the home. Just like, he would put like, blankets on all the windows, so they couldn't have light. They couldn't listen to the TV.

Yeah, it was just, he did weird shit. There was a time when Marjorie threatened him with a knife on the front lawn in front of the girls. They saw and dealt with a ton. Every form of abuse that you could possibly think of, I think you just mentioned. It's, yeah. Every form of abuse. I like I said, Melinda Leblis is an absolute monster, but she is a monster that was made.

It's not as if she had a crash course. In my opinion. In being a monster. In my opinion, she's a monster that was made. She didn't have a chance from the get-cuts. Almost more heartbreaking, but like, you can't take that and excuse what she did. It is, that's what makes her

and nurture becomes such a difficult thing to talk about because it's like, you do, you feel bad for the kid. You feel bad for the kid. How can you not? Their data has to be in that environment. But then, you But then people go through because the terrible shit, just going to say that.

And they don't do that. I think it, so it has to be a little bit of nurture along with nature, a little, with it. Because it's like, you have to have that in you a little bit. Because unfortunately, people are abused all the time. Like it is a huge part of society, unfortunately, but there are people that it's like you get two choices. You can keep on keeping on or you can just totally choose the other side.

It's true and I think it's who you are that determines where you go. And you know, I do think a lot of the time like your support system says a lot, like helps you along the way. Yeah. Because I think there's even like for me, like I didn't experience nearly any of that, that's horrifying, but I had you guys. So, exactly.

You have support. Yeah, I think, I don't, it doesn't sound like she had anybody. No, it doesn't really, like she had a lot of friends, she had a lot of, you know, she had cousins and stuff, but I think it was just, I just don't think she had it. I think it was just her whole life was enveloped in this. There was like no one checking up on her

to make sure that she did the right thing. But again, having that as your childhood does not excuse you to do the shit she did is just unthinkable. It's unthinkable. This case, man. Wait until we get to the end, too, because when we talk about who Melinda is today,

it confuses you even more. It's very confusing. Because your brain does develop more. It does. So, yeah, okay. So, in 1998, there was a warrant out for Larry Loveless just to give you a little update. And it was charging him with three counts of rape, six counts of sodomy, and two counts of sexual battery, all of these were against children, according to the Associated Press. Oh! And the, so the affidavid said that he had forced several young girls into various sex acts

from 1968 to 1989 when he lived in New Albany, Indiana. Oh, okay. Now, unfortunately, because of the statute of limitations, all counts were dropped. So he was only charged with one count of sexual battery. So, obviously he got off and you're like, fuck that guy. But then he died December 15th, 1998, because he got hit by a bus. Okay, so I was literally gonna say, I hate to say like, did he have a brutal death, but like if anybody deserves to be run over by a fucking bus, he by a bus. Okay, so I was literally gonna say that. I hate to say like, did he have a brutal death, but like if anybody deserves to be run over by a fucking bus,

he was a monster. He was a monster. Wow. He was an absolute monster. I am a firmly very car- He contributed absolutely nothing of value to society and all he did was damage every one around him. So opposite.

That's all I will say about that. Oh man, you just actually, like I have like, a there's like tightness in my chest right now. Yeah. Well, now coming back to you know, Melinda Loveless, because I just wanted to give you that little update that like he did kind of get a little bit of karma. Yeah. Melinda did have trouble with the divorce when her parents divorced because again, she's much more infatuated with her father than the other two are. And she just had a very big attachment to him that she wanted to please him. She wanted him there all the time and now he wasn't going to be there all the time. So both of her parents did remarry.

And her stepfather, who married Marjorie, was named Michael, he was seemingly a very good guy. Oh, okay. And a very good stepfather, he wanted to create a normal environment for her and her sisters. I like so wasn it expecting that. No, that's I didn't either. You were like in her stepfather. I was like, oh fuck.

And that's the thing. So she did have someone who came in and really wanted to help. Like what I just said. So she did have somebody. She did have somebody. So it's like, but she would not allow it. Right. She didn't want anything to do with it.

He even came to her and told her, he's your father, I can be your best friend. Like, he was like, I just want to help you. Like, I just want to make everything be better. Solving in the club right now. But she hated him because she was so brainwashed by Larry that she would not accept this man as a good man. Now, she started having a ton of emotional issues that are coming forward now, obviously.

She likely had them all along with what was going on. And she was getting older. You're becoming a teenager. They're starting to show themselves in different ways. Because of the issues with her father and her attachment and seeming abandonment by him, yeah. That's going to make her start focusing a lot on replacing that affection. So she's focusing a lot on boys.

And she's using boys and those kind of relationships to fill that void. And she was beautiful. Melinda Lovelace was beautiful. She could attract anyone she wanted. She did. But she started discovering that like, yeah, boys are like temporarily taking care of this like pain that I'm feeling or whatever I'm going through. But then she started realizing, I like girls more. Okay. So she decided that she was bisexual

and this is when she met Amanda. Amanda was 15 years old. And because Amanda I guess knew her cousin. That's how they met. Sure. Amanda, when she met Melinda, was infatuated. Oh wow. Infatuated with her as soon as she saw her. Because again, Melinda is beautiful. Melinda, in turn, became obsessed with Amanda. Right. This was her first, I think it was both of their first female relationship, like bisexual or lesbian, because I believe that Amanda was gay,

and Melinda was considered herself bisexual. Okay. Neither one of them had actually been with a girl before that. Sure. So this is all very new, this is all very exciting. They are 16 and 15 to add onto it. Right. When everything is more intense and exciting,

and they invested a lot of feelings and a lot of intense energy. It's like a double whammy, because like when you're like little and it's your first relationship, that's like one whammy, because like, you know, usually it doesn't work out. Of course.

And then number two, Melinda has gone through all of this like emotional trauma, so she's way more emotionally invested in this. Exactly. It is like asking for a huge fucking expression. Exactly. And it's in there in Indiana in the early 90s gay relationships are not exactly I didn't even think this is like a fucking triple. Exactly. So it's like there's a lot. Oh man. There's a lot on this. There's a lot. So they really clung to each other very quickly. Unfortunately with everything and going on at home and you know, Melinda's entire life up to this point,

Melinda was also very volatile and very violent as a human being. That was how she reacted to things. It was violence and anger and emotional opus. So she kind of started abusing Amanda. Oh no. and emotional outbursts. So she kind of started abusing Amanda. Oh no. Um, especially emotionally, she would lash out at her in like a moment's notice. And she would take out her frustrations on her. And she would also force her, which this tells you a lot, into sexual situations a lot, where Amanda said that she would sometimes be like, I don't want to. And Melinda was like, well, you have to. Yes. And she was like, in a lot of times afterwards, I was like, I did not like that. Like I didn't want to. And Melinda was like, well, you have to. Yes. And she was like, in a lot of times afterwards, I was like, I did not like that. I didn't want to do that.

And she was like, and she was very obsessed with it. And it just became too much of a focus. And she made Amanda uncomfortable. Yeah. Which obviously, you look at her background. She learned that. Yeah, that's very learned behavior. Now, again, at this point in time,

Melinda was 15 when she met Amanda. Sure. She was 16 when she murdered Shanda Share. Okay. She's very sexually active at this point, but she's also reverting into a time in her life where she's basically a child again, emotionally. So she's acting out in this very adult way, but she's also becoming, which we've seen this before, I think when people get stunted in a certain place in their childhood, yeah, they try to revert back into that. She was always watching, and her stepfather said that this really bothered him, because he said she was 15 years old and she's always watching like kids programs on TV, like cartoons. She would play with kids toys at 15 and she knew nothing of the outside world.

She wouldn't watch the news, she never read news, she didn't want to talk about anything. He said, I believe he said like she barely knew who George Bush was. Especially during that time. Wow. And he basically said everything relative to the outside world that wasn't kid in like very below her age group. She was not interested in which is interesting. That that to me looks like there's a lot of damaged. Oh, absolutely. She was also wetting the bed at

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daily in the Amazon Music app. Download the app today. Her grades are slipping. She's not doing well. And this is when Shanda Shara arrived at the school. So Shanda Renee Shara moved to New Albany in 1991. She moved with her mother Jackie and her stepfather. Her parents were divorced, but she was super close to both her mother and her father and both her step parents. Oh great. They all loved her. She loved them.

So she had the complete opposite. Complete opposite. And she would spend the week with her mother and then she would spend weekends with her father. And she had been attending a private school up until this point. And she wanted to switch to public school. She'd been wearing uniforms her whole life. Yeah, and she was very into fashion. So she was excited to be able to experiment a bit. I mean, like,

fashion at that point was like fun and crazy. Yeah. She wanted to show off her style. So she didn't want to wear a uniform anymore. For all 90s fashion is where it is at. It really was. And it's still where it's at. Exactly. So she was nervous for public school, but she was also very excited for that part. Now, apparently she was a great kid. A great kid. Jackie said she had an older sister named Page who was like kind of the troublemaker of the child.

So she said she had no, was like the complete opposite. She was, you know, she never got in trouble. She had great grades. She was a cheerleader. She played softball. She did gymnastics. I think she played basketball. Like she's very well-rounded. She would try anything. Any after school activity She would do. She loved doing like typical teen stuff like having sleepovers going to the mall talking about boys Like just anything you like hair make up. I got to take me back again the early 90s So hair was like that really teased. Huge scrunched hair.

Oh, and a lot. A lot of heavy makeup with like crazy day glow colors. And like you look at the pictures and you're like, she was such a, she was beautiful. I mean, beautiful. You were just like the woman you would have become and it just really sucks.and and like I said Shand had a sister page who was actually a nurse at the time and Shand I wanted to be a nurse too when she grew up like her sister She did look a bit older than 12. I was gonna say so she and she also liked to dress older So a lot of people confused her for older Once she went to public school when she had transitioned into this new school where, you know, Melinda is and Amanda is, her grades began to slip. Okay.

Because she immediately started focusing on the social aspect that she wasn't having in those other private schools. Yeah. She didn't want to do sports anymore. She didn't really focus on her grades. She was just wanted to hang out with cool kids and like, you know, hang out with boys, hang out with girls. Because this is an entirely new world for her. Totally different.

It's literally like culture shock. It really is. So she just kind of just was like overwhelmed by it and fell into it. Now Amanda noticed her right away. But Amanda is still dating Melinda. Yes. So this pissed Melinda off real quick, like immensely. By this time, Melinda's hold on Amanda was stronger

than can even be expressed. I mean, they were in a scary relationship at this point. She was very possessive and very obsessed with her. And when it looked like she was taking notice of the new girl now, she was gonna make sure to stop that shit out right away. This was not gonna happen. So she started bullying Shanda immediately. Oh, because that makes a lot of sense. Exactly. You would think that she would be like, hey Amanda, stop looking at another girl,

like maybe focus on that. Yeah. And what are you doing bullying her? She just came to school. Like she didn't do anything. So she would literally like comment on her looks like right in front of her like in front of people like call her ugly Which she was not she was not she would literally like comment on like do things that like I remember in like junior high It was always like make fun of like boobs or something like you're a flat chest or like they're too huge boobs Right, you know what I mean? So that's what they would do to her. And she would call her ugly in front of everybody. It was just like she would bully her in the lunchroom.

She just went hard at Shanda immediately, which shows so much insecurity. Now despite all of this, Amanda and Shanda did meet eventually and started to become close. Okay. So they started to like each other. Okay. They immediately struck up a bond

and Melinda was kind of powerless to stop this, even though she put everything she could into it. And when you say like each other, you mean like on a romantic level? Yeah, on a romantic level. They were definitely, they had like a very close friendship when they first started and then they began to feel romantic feelings for each other

Okay, and it was just one of those things that Melinda at this point was kind of like treating a mandalic shit and so Amanda I think was already like looking elsewhere You know when it was kind of like she was like, oh this is what it's like maybe it can be like this now Unfortunately when you look at it It's this whole thing is just like not a good situation because it's like a man definitely was playing these two girls and she was enjoying having the attention of both of them by no means could she ever know that it would go the way it went or go anywhere near the way it went. But it's like

you look back and it's like we're you know, it's 16. You're thinking like cool I have a tension of like two people that I like like two pretty girls. That's a fucking dream That's exactly so you know, but Melinda tried to stop it. That's for sure first She tried to become friends with Shanda and she thought this would kind of make it weirder for her and Amanda to start something because she was like I'm gonna like buddy up to her and be like, you know, like Amanda's my girlfriend. Like you can't do this to me, Chanda. Yeah, you can't do this to me, we're friends, you know. We're all code. Exactly.

There was a lot of notes that went back and forth. They wrote a lot of notes. And if you look at, I think it is in the Cruel Sacrifice book, there's all of them are in there. Oh, shit. So definitely. But I'll tell you a couple of them here. At one point Melinda wrote this to Shanda.

She wrote Shanda, don't be mad at me please. I wanna be your friend. I just don't like when you speak to Amanda when I'm not there. I mean, why can't we all three be friends? You act as if you've got something going with her. Amanda and I are going together and she loves me and I love her and she only wants to be friends with you.

You need to accept that. Shanda, Amanda told me you were going through bad times. Well, if you need someone to talk to, you can always talk to me. I don't want you sneaking behind my back. Why don't you speak to Amanda when she's with me? You need to find a boyfriend, because Amanda is mine. You can't even ask her. Please talk to both of us, or you can forget about Amanda.

You, me and Amanda need to have a talk together and get this squared away, then we could all be friends. Sorry, I'm writing so sloppy. Can you meet us at lunch? Your friend, Mel. Oh, so that's her trying to like, oh my god, Channa. I think you just have the wrong idea here. But like, it could be friends. And it's like, And it's not like, oh, hey, it would make, if she was just like, hey, I'm dating Amanda, and I'm feeling like you're kind of stepping into my territory here, that's fine.

But she's like, you're not allowed to speak to her. Yeah, that's the part of it. That's the part of it. We're a unit, so you can only speak to both of us. Both of us are not. Or none of us. That's it. Take it or leave it.

And yeah, okay. Well Amanda and Shanda did not stop talking to each other. As we know. This was not going to be the thing that stopped them. Melinda got more and more mad. Like why don't you just break up with Amanda then? So here's a note that Melinda wrote to Amanda. Amanda.

Why did you write her fucking name on your folder? It hurt so much when I saw it. I didn't think you would put her ugly name on your folder. It hurts so much when I saw it. I didn't think you would put her ugly name on your folder and you wrote it. You must have liked her enough to write her name. Why? Well, I'm gone. Melinda.

Yes. Just tell me you like her once, because I know. See, that's kind of sad, because she's like, it's like one of those, because when you look at it, without knowing anything else, you're sitting there being like, well, that sucks. Like a man to come on. Yeah, like you're those, because when you look at it without knowing anything else, you're sitting there being like, well, that sucks. Like Amanda, come on.

Yeah, like you're like, that, that. But then you see what happens and you're like, whoa, that's not normal. You're just always making a lot of noises, that's this case. It's a lot of noise. It seemed like Amanda was into both of these girls. She liked them both. She had been with Melinda for almost a year

before Amanda came into the picture. Like, on and off. And there is a degree of her being been with Melinda for almost a year before Amanda came into the picture. Like, I'm on and off. And there is a degree of her being afraid of Melinda. For sure. Like, I know that it's not okay to play both sides, but there is a lot involved in this. This is not a black, black, white.

This happens, so this is why this is what happened. You know, there's all these things of going, yeah, it's not okay to play these girls. Like, that's not cool to do. Right. But you are right, she was definitely scared of Melinda. There's a lot of Melinda was capable of. Yeah.

There's a lot of gray area. Exactly. And I think this was one of those things that in Amanda's shoes, yeah, was she doing the right thing? No. No. But I think she was 15 years old, she liked both these pretty girls, and she couldn't decide. Right.

And she didn't think it was 15 years old. She liked both these pretty girls, and she couldn't decide. Right. And she didn't think it was going to go that far. And you're not thinking at 16 that you're like really hurting people. Right, because she's 16. She's 16. Melinda's 15 and Chanda's 12. Chanda's 12 at this point. Melinda and Amanda are both 15.

Okay, okay, okay. Then Melinda turns 16 before Amanda does. Okay, so she's like a little older. Okay, like months. Yeah. Meanwhile, both of these girls, Shanda and Melinda are infatuated with Amanda. So it's just intense feelings.

No, I need to look at Amanda. So they took this out on each other instead of turning to Amanda and being like, you gotta make a decision here, you know? And which often happens, often it gets taken out on the other person when it really should be focused on someone else. Yeah. Melinda noticed that Amanda started paying more and more attention to Shanda and was neglecting

her relationship with her and she's getting more and more pissed because now she's really starting to drift over to Shanda. So then a school dance happens. Oh no. And Melinda wrote to Shanda, Shanda, hey girl, what's up? I'm in study hall being real bored. Amanda was outside my door, so I played it off and got something to drink, dumbass teacher. These are just like so, these notes are so like relatable somehow.

We all wrote those. Well have you decided if you're gonna attend the dance? I'm not. I'll probably end up at the mall, going to the mall and see a fucking lame movie or something. Well, I've bored you enough, so I'll see you later, babe. Love ya, Melinda.

Now, that's her tone to Shanda about it. And then she writes one to Amanda. Amanda, I love my hair. It feels so much better. I really don't want you to go to the dance, but if you really have to go, I just wanna go with you. I don't want you to go without me. We can talk about it Friday at lunchtime.

I don't really wanna wait until Friday, so I might go out with someone else, and then have her drop me off at Hazelwood at a certain time. Well, I'll talk to you later, love Melinda. So she's basically, for Shanda, she's like, I'm not going to the dance, I don't have any plans'll talk to you later. Love Melinda. So she's basically for Shanda. She's like, I'm not going to the dance. I don't have any plans to go to the dance. And then Tisha Amanda, she's like, I don't, I'm not necessarily going, but if you're going, you are taking me. Right. And that's it. Now, apparently Amanda and Shanda went to the dance together.

Mara-ro. Melinda showed up. She lost her shit and she chased Shanda around the dance threatening to hurt her. Um, where are the shoprooms? Yeah, that's no good. What? Not a good reaction. And after this is when shit like rocketed into the stratosphere because this is when Melinda and Shanda began

having legit fights in the school. Like, Melinda was like attacking her physically. They were constantly feuding, constantly at each other's throats. Melinda was saying constantly that she just wanted to beat the shit out of Shanda. Talking about killing her, saying I want her dead. Like this was multiple people were like, oh yeah, she talked about it all the time. But at that point when you're 16 and your friends like, oh, I'm going to kill her. You're not thinking that.

You're not really going to kill her. So're not thinking that. You're not thinking that. So there was also a lot of behind the scenes happening with these girls. Like lots of, you know, love triangles and lots of parents getting angry about finding out that this one's talking to this one and both of them were talking to other people at different times. It was a messy, messy, messy thing. And you said the parents kind of knew what was going on. The parents were finding things like letters.

Yeah, in these notes. And they weren't under, they were trying to confront these kids, but they were not getting the whole story. Of course not. You know, I forbid you to talk to this one. I forbid you to talk to it. It was not going to be. You're not doing that.

Exactly. It was just, it was a fucking clustered fuck. It really was. That was the way you just said that was the most Boston. It was just, it was a fucking clustered fuck. It really was. That was the way you just said that was the most Boston. It was. You literally said cluster. A cluster fuck. So Melinda and Amanda were eventually forbidden from seeding each other from their parents. Melinda and Amanda.

Yes. Okay. And they weren't allowed to speak to each other, but they still snuck communication, obviously. All be. There was another girl named Carrie that was involved, that was actually in love with Melinda at one point, and she was fighting Amanda for her. It was like bonkers. We should have just gone that way.

Yeah, it just, uh, Melinda and Carrie get together. They should have been. Yeah, and that could have been it. By. It was bonkers. But Mima, all the while, Melinda is still obsessed with Amanda. No matter what's going on, she's trying to get this girl that's like obsessed,

Melinda is trying to get this girl, Kara, who is in love with her, to beat Amanda up for her. But then she's still obsessed with Amanda and still wants to be with her. Wow. So it's like she's inflicting actual violence upon her, but still being like, I wanna be with you though.

And it's like, no, you can't send people to beat the shit out of me and then wanna be with me. Melinda did not know what she wanted and did not know how to form a healthy touchment to somebody. Nobody knew what they wanted here. No. And what they all needed to do was sit down for a second

and play the Sims or something. Like just... Honestly. Take it down a notch. This is all too much. It's like, I'm 35. I've never had this much drama in my life. But so Amanda, again, playing both sides.

It's ugly everywhere you look. Now, after the carry fight with Amanda, because eventually they did get into a fight, like carry in Amanda at Melinda's behest. And after that, that's when Amanda was like, I'm good. I think I'm going to take my business over to share a shando over here because she was like, you're becoming a lot. And like, I don't know if I can deal with this anymore.

You've been a lot. Yeah, I think that was like the big like, so on October 24th, they had Amanda and Shanda had like their first like really awesome full date night together. Where they went to this harvest home coming festival, they went to a haunted house with Amanda's parents, and they had a sleepover at her house that night. Like it was a big, the whole night with a festival and everything was a very wholesome

with the parents kind of thing. That makes you so sad because do you remember like going on a date with someone that you just thought was the best? That was the best feeling in high school. I mean, obviously, still now. But it was such a bigger thing back then. And it was so wholesome at that time. It was like, it makes my heart hurt.

And it was with her parents, like, a men's parents who were involved with this whole thing. So it was getting really serious after that. Like after that date, that's when they were like really into each other. Like it was just like that was it. Because it's always that one that you're just like, we're in love. Yes.

Oh my god, I remember that shit. Well, Melinda found out about this date, obviously. And she told, this is when she told a friend, she was like, I'm going to kill Shanda. Like she's going to die. Oh God. So she also told her friend, her cousin Crystal that she wanted to, she was the one that she told I'm going to kill Shanda.

And Crystal encouraged the idea at the time. Because again, Crystal's also a teenager. So like, they're all, I think they're all just like, yeah, fuck her up. You know, like, they're not thinking actually. But like, yeah, I mean, but still, like, let's calm down. Yeah, it's insane. And you can read some stuff for like that Crystal said about it in the books, but like, she was basically, and she basically in the book, like, Crystal was like, you know,

like, she tried to make her stop and she wouldn't stop seeing Amanda. Oh, okay. Of course she was going to be the shit I've heard. It's like, guys, that's not warrant she was gonna be the shit I've heard. It's like guys. That's not warranted. Like I just look around at everyone and like, what did you all grow up in? Like your first reaction is like,

let's violently hurt this person instead of being like, maybe this isn't the right thing. It's your remember though, girls like that in high school. Like I remember like, girl, like it sounds so silly, but like girl fights in high school were some of the most terrifying things I've ever witnessed in my life. Yeah, cuz it's like where does that come from like damn? I've in high school You see some shit you do high school is a battlefield man

So now there are you know, there's more fights happening with Melinda and Shanda They're constantly at it at this point and Jackie Shanda mom said, this was when Shanda was starting to change. Like she was, she was seeing her as like really stressed. She was kind of pulling into a salad. She stared. She seemed very, it was just a lot on her. She's 12. I know that is just.

We forget. She is 12 years old. She's not even 13. And 13 would still be like, oh my god. Was this school like the junior high in the high school or one school? Yeah, I think it was all one big school. This is when Amanda and Shanda were really getting

more and more serious. Amanda was completely ignoring the Linda now, which is not good, not what she was down for. Shanda at this point gave Amanda a ring that she wore all the time. So it was like they were like, they were dating. They were locked in. After finding some very explicit letters between the girls and Shanda denying that she was

in a physical relationship with Amanda, her parents decided that they wanted to actually put her back in private school. Yeah. Because I was wondering if that was something that was going to happen. Yeah, because not only were they finding explicit letters and chan does lying to them about it, but they're also finding letters from Amanda saying like, Melinda's going to kill you because of this. Yeah, they were like, okay, we can see that something we don't like this.

Well, the experience as a whole, because like you said, even when she first started, like her grades were slipping, she didn't have the same interest she used to, so they're like, this was a mistake. But like this was a grand experiment that did not, that went awry. So let's just, let's reverse this. Let's reverse this. So they put her in a private school

called Our Lady of Perpetual Help, which I was like, what a school name. Wow. Like Our Lady of Perpetual Help. So that's where she went. Okay. And it was basically to take her out of this Melinda and Amanda situation. They were like, we got, hopefully we can hear. Defuse went. Okay. And it was basically to take her out of this Melinda and Amanda situation.

They were like, we got a whole bunch out of here. Defuse this. Yeah. And it was working. She started thriving immediately again. Stop. Hey there, fellow podcast listener. It's Elena.

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You were too young to like not have cell phones, but like you figured it out. You had to figure it out. And if you had like several lines in your house, like if you were happen to have like an upstairs phone line, you know, that like you would call on that or someone else would call and there was call waiting that you could flick the other person onto the call.

So you didn't have to call that, it was, you could be real sneaky. You lost me. You could be real sneaky. You could get a friend to call that person for you and then they could like three-way call you and pull you into the line. Oh, I remember that.

I remember that. I remember that. Okay. But it was on a landline, not a cell phone. Yes. I got that. Just saying. So they were, so they're talking now.

There's another school dance happening. They tried to sneak Shanda into the school dance at the public school, but she wasn't allowed in because she wasn't a student. So, Melinda is at the dance. She's all this going down, and she flips out, and because Shanda is no longer at school right now, so she thought she was over this little thing. So now she sees that Amanda is still into this girl, so she demands Amanda to tell Shanda that she doesn't love her and that she didn't want her and she did.

Amanda told her in front of the entire thing. Like, I don't want you, I don't love you. Even though she was trying to sneak her into the dance. Okay, what does that mean? Then Melinda explicitly told her at this dance if you talk to Amanda again, I will fucking kill you like in front of a bunch of people. I need to know where the teachers are in stand-outs.

I don't know. Where are the children? Where are the adults in this situation? I do not know. Not doing that. It literally seems like Shanda was the only one like connected to an adult. Right?

I mean, I guess Amanda, because her parents were on a date. Exactly. Now, after this, Amanda sent a letter to Shanda explaining why she did that and she said, you're in danger if we keep dating. And she was like, and I don't want to put you in danger. Melinda's scary. This is insane. She was basically like, girls want to beat the shit out of you.

And I'm trying to protect you by not, by pretending that I don't want to be with you, basically. So now this is getting like, shake experience. Okay, I was literally like, what are you was literally gonna say this is like Romeo and Juliet. Like, shit is getting very intense. Houses are against each other. Very intense for people with not even learners permits at this point. Like, everybody take a step back, kids.

Like, this is a lot. Now, Melinda had really made herself at school. She was making herself queen B at this point. She was, because people are rolling. Fucking terrifying of her. Oh yeah are rolling. Terrified of her. But people also fond of her. Well, because you saw me and she was pretty. Girls wanted to be her.

Girls and boys wanted to be with her. It became a thing where people literally were worshiping her. I mean, people called her a goddess in that school. Like, actually, they were literally quotes from students that were like, she was flawless. She was a goddess. Like there is nothing to say that is a flaw about her. Like people fell at her feet.

And she was loving it, because it's how it works. Yeah, well, and because also look at her, she doesn't have that at home. So exactly. This is like her kingdom. This is her territory. She has probably been raised with the idea, especially from her dad, that she's beautiful,

and you use that, and that's your main thing. And she's watched other people manipulate people with their looks, and again, she's beautiful. That's what, later the police say it, and we'll mention it later, not that, but they say not like, oh, she was hot. But no, they were saying she was trying to use her looks against us in an interview as a 16 year old like she was trying to seduce the police.

What? Yeah I mean they were like you could tell she's just used to using that face. Like that's she's used to using it and getting what she wants and she thought she could get out of this. Right. It's truly outrageous. Now we got to bring in the next person into this thing, because now we truly... I'm sorry, what? So, not in this love triangle, sorry. So, we've met Melinda. We've met Amanda.

We've met Chanda. Yes. So now, Melinda's Queen Bee, she's talking to Amanda. But Chanda and Amanda are still secretly talking. Even though Amanda said like people want to hurt you. Exactly, but they're still secretly talking. Even though Amanda said like people wanna hurt you. Exactly, but they're still secretly talking. Okay. Now, we gotta bring in 17 year old Lori Ticket.

She's one of the murders. Yeah. We're gonna talk about three more girls here. Lori Ticket, Hope Rippy, and Tony Lawrence. Tony Lawrence and Hope Rippy are both 15 years old and Lori Ticket is 17. Those along with Melinda are the four girls who murdered Shanda Cher.

Okay. Now Lori Tachat is real scary. She's 17, she's real scary. Yeah, and she's 17. So she came from Madison. She didn't go to school with them because she was in another town. But whenever they're group,

they started becoming one group through the punk scene, and you meet other kids. Yeah, they went to shows a lot, and they would see each other. That's when they started to know each other. That's Melinda was part of that group, so they knew each other a little bit. She lori hated her family, and she was also into the occult. She also felt accepted by this new punk scene that she was becoming part of in this new place,

like New Albany, because she was also bisexual. And again, early 90s Indiana, she was not feeling very accepted. No. On top of that, she grew up in a very religious household. I almost hesitate to call these places religious households. I think they're just psychotic households. This is not what religion is supposed to be.

What this is, because I always feel like when I say religious households, this isn't just like a Catholic household. They're like, you wrap this into a cultural house. You know, this is crazy people. This is, it's like I said in the beginning, this is weaponizing, religion. This is very much weaponizing religion. This is like sick people who are using religion

to like hurt their kids basically. And again, it was the same kind of thing, speaking in tongues, the healing stuff, the like crazy sermons, like all that. And she grew up being told that she was going to burn in hellfire for literally every single thing she did. So her home was even a place where medicine was for sinners. So when she was sick as a child, she couldn't have medicine because that's for sinners.

One night when she was 14, her mother caught her putting on a pair of jeans. She wasn't allowed to wear jeans or pants of any kind. And when she put on jeans, her mother beat the shit out of her, chased her around the house. She was 14 and tried to strangle her. What the thought? She got away from her own mother and ran to the neighbors for help. And, you know, child welfare service came in. I was just going to say there was a whole thing with that which you can like read about, but like it was a whole thing. But as a result, she said her goal was to be the exact opposite of her mother. So she was like, I wanted to be evil to spite her. Yeah. So again,

another person who has been raised to be a chance evil, basically, because when you see Lori Tackett and Melinda Levelace are too very terrifying people. Yeah. Very, very terrifying, but they were both definitely raised in the most horrific homes of all of them.

Yeah, I keep saying, like, doesn't have a chance and that feels wrong. So I'm just gonna say, like, the odds were stacked against them. The odds were stacked. I do feel like you always have a choice to be evil or not. Yeah, I always feel that too. And it's like, but when these, these odds were definitely

against acting against her. For sure. She fell into that punk crowd because she was trying to rebel against her parents basically. Yeah. And they were forcing more and more religion on her, the more and more she rebelled. And did they know that she was, because you said did you say she was bisexual? She was. And did they like catch onto that? I think they were starting to see because she was, you know, she was hanging out with more girls, she was dressing a little more masculine, she had cut her hair short. And in the 90s, everybody thought if you had a short haircut, you're a lesbian.

But so they were basically, you know, trying to exercise her, telling her she's going to hell. She was extremely depressed at this point. And clearly going through it without any help because she wasn't allowed to go to therapy or anything like that. Her parents refused to allow her any kind of help at all. Like she couldn't talk to friends, she couldn't talk to a therapist.

She's probably not even going to a doctor if they don't believe in medicine. Yes, she's not. She wasn't allowed to go to a doctor. So they're just using religion. And obviously that didn't help anything. So her friends said that she was, by the time she was like becoming a teenager and like 17 and stuff, she was very withdrawn, very angry and very violent.

Her grades were atrocious. She was miserable. And she was also scaring the shit out of everybody around her because she was violent and also just like Acting strange like she would do things to scare people like her first Like she tried to slit someone's wrists at a party in front of a bunch of people. Oh She would also talk about sacrificing animals and killing people a lot. Yeah, she loved to talk about like how she Just thought she was destined to murder someone because she wanted to see what it would be like. Okay. Yeah. She is deeply,

deeply, deeply disturbed. Yeah. Deeply. One evening she attempted to cut and suck the blood from her friend's girlfriend's arm and there was a giant fight about that obviously because it was not a consensual thing. She literally tried to cut her and just like forcibly suck the blood out of her arm because she would cut herself and suck her own blood and be like, I love the taste of blood. And like would cut other people and like suck their blood. This is when she was kind of ousted from that group after she pulled that stunt.

Yes. And this is when she started hanging out with Melinda more and more because that group was like, you can go over there. My brain is still trying to comprehend most of that. I don't think you ever will. No, and that's okay. I don't know if I should.

That's okay. So Lori was also very close to a girl named Hope Rippy. And she was actually treated Hope as a friend and kind of as like a little sister. She actually like wasn't terrible too. Because it seems like there was like an ounce of her that was, she needed something. Yeah. She needed it. Yeah. So maybe the Hope was providing it. I'm not really sure. But Hope was best friends with a girl named Tony Lawrence. And again, they were both 15. There's so many people involved. Hope was pretty standard when it comes to Hope home life. There's not a lot about their home life. I don't think any of them had amazing

leave it to be for childhoods, but nothing like Lori and Melinda. Yeah. She didn't have any significant traumatic experiences that are reported, at least. She did well in school. She had friends, was generally a happy kid. Tony was an okay student,

but not somebody who got in trouble or anything like that, pretty average. in not somebody who got in trouble or anything like that pretty average. Neither one of them got in trouble. And Tony had friends but was very quiet and very shy. She was however going through some personal trauma at the time Tony was not hope because she had been sexually assaulted by a boy outside of her family, and she was severely depressed. After this, she kind of rebelled a bit in response to that trauma, as often can happen. So Tony, Hope and Laurie were friends,

and they went to one school in Madison. Right. And then Melinda and Laurie had become friends through that punk scene with those three girls. Exactly. Got it. So Melinda's friendly with Laurie, but she doesn't really know Hope and Tony at this point. Okay. They did so, yeah, so that it's hard.

It's like so many people, like groups to try to figure out. No, but I think you did a good job. That makes sense to me. Yeah. So as a reminder, Lori was 17. Melinda was 16 at this point. And Tony and Hope are 15. And Shanda is 12.

Okay. Ando was 16 at this point, and Tony and Hope are 15, and Shanda is 12. Okay. On January 10th, Lori and Melinda invited Tony and Hope to go to a rock concert in Louisville, which was like 50 miles away. They did normal things that night, because this is when they were first meeting Melinda. So, and they all liked each other. Yeah. They did normal things.

They got some fast food. They were picking up stuff for the concert and the the car ride There and all of them lied to their parents about it. They none of them knew they were going to Louisville Yeah, then on the way to back because they were gonna stop in New Albany really quick to get something sure Laurie asked Tony. Do you know what the plan is tonight? And she was like well, yeah We're going to the rock concert and she was like well, yeah, we're gonna do that But she was like we're also yeah, we're going to the rock concert. And she was like, well, yeah, we're gonna do that But she was like, we're also gonna kill a little girl. Ah That's how she said it. We're gonna kill a little girl

Because that's what Shanda was Yeah, so You will see throughout this that Tony is very much a Not active member of this in any way. She helps or different. She's terrified and basically there for the ride. I'm gonna like, oh wow, oh, who helps a couple of times.

So she's not involved. She doesn't go full on and she doesn't do as much as Lori and Melinda, but she has a tail. But she has a tail. Tony did not help. She did not put her hands in this. So Melinda and Lori explained to them that the Shandha girl was stealing Melinda's girlfriend Amanda and that they had had enough

and that she needed to die and this was gonna happen. So Melinda even showed them the knife, which was in her purse and Giddyly said, this is the knife I'm gonna use. So they planned to go to Shanda's father's home where she was for the weekend. Lori and Hope went up to the home. They knocked on the door.

She doesn't know who Lori and Hope are. Yeah. So they knocked on the door and Shanda comes to the door and they're like, fuck her, yeah. We're Lori and Hope, we're friends with Amanda and Amanda really wants you to come out and like we're gonna bring you to her So she said we want she was like where's Amanda? And she was like well, she wants us to meet her at the witches castle, which I'll explain what the witches castle is after

So Shanda was like yeah, like can you guys come back around midnight? Because my dad isn't gonna let me out. She has to sleep out So and apparently her father father heard part of this and was like, who are these girls? And Shandha was like, oh, they're just friends, dad. And later her dad was like, I knew they weren't her friends because they asked to shandha home when she had said the door.

Like, I knew they didn't know her. Yeah. So, he was already like, when she came back and he was like, you're not going out with them. Like, just so you know, that I can't. So, they left. So, she was like, come back. So, with them, like just so you know that I can't. So they left. So they were, she was like, come back. So like, I'll sneak out.

So they left. And first they went to the concert in Louisville because they were like, it's, we have a few hours. And hope and Tony apparently only stayed in the show for like a little bit. They went back out into the car. They ended up meeting two guys and like making out with them. You should have left with them. I think Tony at one point joked with one,

like take me with you. Take her with you. And then Tony randomly told one of them, the two girls were with are planning to kill someone tonight. What the fuck? Yeah. So after a few.

What does one say to that? I have no idea. I like to ask that. One says to that 9-1-1. I'd be like, what? Huh? You want to talk to a police officer? So after a few hours at the concert, they come back.

And this is unreal. Oh, it's truly unreal. It's truly unreal. So they come back to the car. They drive back to Shanda's house. It's like past midnight at this point. And they did the same thing where Tony and Melinda waited in the car.

And they basically were luring where Tony and Melinda waited in the car. And they basically were luring her out to see Amanda. Melinda was hiding in the car covered by a blanket because if Sharon Shanda got in the car and saw Melinda, she would run the other way. Like they knew that. So, you know, hope and Laurie went and got Shanda. Hope even went up to Shanda's room with her to get an outfit. Like, helped her pick out an outfit to see Amanda. When Hope knew what was going to happen here. Yeah. And did, I'm sorry, it was Tony that didn't play a hand on anything.

Tony just was in the car. Okay, cool. Sorry. So, they bring Shanda back into the car. They put her in this middle seat, of course, in the front. Stop. I'm like, actually. Oh, it's gonna get really bad. This is horrific. Just so you guys know, it's gonna get really bad. So Shanda got in the car. They start driving and suddenly Melinda leaps up from the back and holds a knife to Shanda's throat. This is an absolute nightmare. And she says, surprise, but you weren't expecting to see me. Now, obviously, Shanda was terrified,

immediately started screaming and sobbing, telling them, like, please bring me back home. Telling her, like, I won't see Amanda anymore, like, please just stop, like begging her. And she, Melinda kept telling her, she had told, she said, I've told Amanda what I was gonna do, that I was gonna kill you, and Amanda wanted me to do this.

What the fuck? Yeah, this girl, evil. So they brought her to Witches Castle. Now, it's a place in Utica, and it's in this very heavily dense forested area, and it's like the whole Witches Castle thing is it's like this little stone building, like a ruins of a building.

And the legend says that this is where a covenant of witches once lived. And there's, of course, this tale about the residents burning the hometown and now it's cursed and all that fun stuff. And it's also just referred to as mistletoe falls because mistletoe grows heavily around there. But kids use it as like a spooky hideout.

It's just like a local thing. Yeah. And for this girl, like involved in the occult and shit. Oh, and then people use it for that kind of stuff. Like they're, oh, they're always finding like, you know, quote unquote, sultanic, like chandelism on it and stuff. Yeah. Uh, so, yeah. So they, Laurie and Melinda dragged Shanda out of the car. They brought her to the dungeon in this place, which is basically,

it's not a dungeon. That's what Laurie called it. It's just like an altar area, so it's like an outside. And they bound her wrists and ankles with rope. They threatened her, they hit her several times, hope taunted her with a knife, and made her take off all her jewelry, including a Mickey Mouse watch. She's 12 years old. They also lit a shirt on fire for light. including a Mickey Mouse watch that she had on. She's 12 years old. They also told her, they also lit a shirt on fire for light.

And then Lori turned to Shandon and said, that's gonna be you soon, Shandon. Stop, no. She was severely beaten. She was made to strip down to only her underwear by Melinda and Lori. Tony and Hope eventually were just in the car. Tony never came out of the car,

but Hope went back into the car. Tony said she watched as they both helped held Shanda's arms, and Melinda attempted to slit Shanda's throat with the knife. But the knife was too dull. Melinda eventually used her foot to try to cut her, like literally stand on the knife to try to make it go through, but it was that dull. At this point, Hope got out of the car. And according to her, she said she was trying to grab Shanda away from them. No, no, no, no. But Tony said, from her vantage point, she was holding Shanda for them. If you were trying to get poor Shanda away from these girls, you would have, you just

wouldn't have been involved in this in the first place. And you know what? Fuck Tony for not trying to do something either. Exactly. Exactly. I get you're scared, whatever, but like you probably could have stopped this. But like, what do you do?

Like I, like instead of second you get in that car and they say, we're gonna kill a little girl tonight. I'd be like, drop me off right here. I'd be like, I'm like, and you know, like she had every opportunity, like you said, like she told somebody at the concert. I'm sure there's probably a fucking pay phone at the concert.

Well, that's the other thing. Laurie and Melinda were in the concert. Who could have gotten away? We're outside. Ron. Call it, my mother was cabs. Call the police. Yeah.

They are really going through this. Stop this. Be a good person. Exactly. Be a cab. Call the police. Yeah. Be like, they are really going through this. Stop this. Be a good person. Exactly. Be a leader. It could have been stopped because do I understand that when shit was going on, that she was probably fucking terrified. And she doesn't want to be killed.

And she's thinking she's going to be killed when they were showing what they could do. Right. Okay. But you had every opportunity before that. Like there was many times where this could have been stopped. And that's what makes me really angry. I don't even think we pointed to the fact these girls were just jamming.

Knowing that this was gonna happen. Yeah. Oh yeah. Oh yeah. So, I mean, this is gonna get worse. So, it's just awful. So, they couldn't get, so Hope tried to help them hold her down.

Tony said when Hope came back in the car, she was like, why are you helping them? And Hope was like I was trying to help Shanda. She was like, no you weren't So either so then Laurie sat on Shanda's stomach and Melinda shout out sat on her legs and they stabbed her repeatedly and then Strangled her with the rope. They had rope. Yeah, they had wrote This whole time Tony said she was listening to the radio in the car And trying to drown out whatever Noah. I was just thinking like what is she to sit in there thinking? Laurie said so Laurie came back and was like Shandas unconscious at this point. They thought they killed her so they were like she's out and then

They they were like you need to help us get her in the trunk and Tony was like no, I'm not doing that So they did get Shandana into the trunk, but Tony didn't help. Um, and apparently hope didn't help either. She started to cry according to Tony. Or too late for fucking crocodile tears. Exactly. So the group went to Lori's house at this point. They think Shandon's dead. And they're just basically trying to figure out what they're going to do. So they have some soda at Lori's house and just sit and hang out. And all of a sudden they hear the dog start barking outside.

And when they listen closely, they can hear Shanda screaming from the trunk. Oh my God. Now Lori says, I've got this, don't worry. So she goes outside and stabs Shanda several more times until she stops screaming. Just in the middle of the street. Yep, and she and Melinda

So she comes back in covered in blood and she's like Melinda We have to like go drive her somewhere and like make sure and at one point Lori was like maybe we should just drive around until she like slowly dies back there Like evil. I'm like, oh yeah So she and Melinda left Tony and hope at Laurie's house and Melinda and Laurie drove Shanda in the trunk just thinking that she's not meeting out. Yep. Now everyone's in a while they would drive and if they would hear she she several times woke up and would scream and kick. They would pull over and they would assault her with a tire iron. They would either beat her in the head with it. At one point they sexually assaulted her with a tire arm. They would either beat her in the head with it. At one point, they sexually assaulted her with it.

Lori beat her so badly at one point with the tire arm that when she came back to the car, she told Melinda, it was so cool because I could feel her head cave in. I look like what? They stopped several times to do this. She literally doesn't know her from a whole other law. She says later, I had never met her. You know, not like, I didn't know the skull at all.- She says later, I had never met her.

You know, not like, I didn't know the girl at all. She didn't do anything wrong, Shanda. But even if Melinda told you all this horrible stuff that she's doing, you don't even know that to be true. You don't know her. Exactly. Like when you just take shit at face value, that's your own funeral man.

And also, this is a 12 year old. It's a trial. 17, what the fuck is a whole week child? And this isn't just like, not that any kind of murder is okay, but this isn't just like we're shooting her in the head and that's it. We are torturing her viciously for hours. Hours. The entire night.

Like this goes on forever. And they did this several times. They drove around. She would start screaming because man, that goes on forever. And they did this several times. They drove around. She would start screaming because, man, that little girl fought. And she would start to scream. They would pull over. They would hit her with the tire and until she stopped, keep driving. This happens several times.

How do you think this is an absolute nightmare? You wouldn't even think this could be possible. And I'm giving as much detail as my stomach can muster to get out. There's more. Like there's more like in the books, there's more. But that is just so gut wrenching that I don't even know. I don't even think I could read that book. So my eyes are welling up like as I'm reading books.

I know they literally are. I can confirm that. Like I have like that like the thing in my throat. It's hard. Really. There's a couple of details that I'm not including in here that like, I literally can't say I love like it'll make me cry. So I'm just like giving you what you need. Not what you need, but I know what I think is important to tell you to really hammer in how horrible these girls were. When they came, finally came back to Laurie's house. Tony and Hope said they were

giddy and laughing about it. They were like acting like they just did something hilarious. They told them that every time they were like, oh, every time she made a sound, we just pulled over and beat her in the head with a tire arm. And then Melinda said, we must have hit her like 60 times. Here's the other thing. I just had like Tony and Hope had so much time

to run away at the rock show. You were just left at somebody's house. They were alone for hours. Call your mom to pick you up. They were alone for hours. And your mom to pick you up. They were alone for hours. And again, this little girl's life could have been saved at so many points throughout this. I hope those girls think about that every fucking day that they wake up every night that they go to bed. I hope you think about what a piece of shit you are for not stopping

this. And that's the thing. Nothing excuses. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing excuses this kind of inaction against a 12 year old girl. Yeah, Tony. You didn't wield the tire and you didn't stab her. You didn't light her on fire eventually. But you didn't do anything. And it's like, and you had, and again,

this was not a situation where you were stuck in this car and you felt like you couldn't get out or you were gonna get murdered. There were several times where you were away from these two that you could have gone to get help. It just, it was almost like that was what was supposed to happen. Like this was all set, I mean, none of this

was supposed to happen by any means, but it was almost like those little times, like I believe like times in the world, like that happen on that. The universe was being like, do something. You can do something. Stop here. You go. They could, they could have saved her. They could have saved her. Oh my God. So they ended up leaving. So they were like, we got to leave now because now we got to figure out where to put her because they were like, we're pretty sure she's dead, I guess. Like, didn't know. Hopes, so they go outside and they were like, wait, here, like they basically wanted to show them

like how bad they looked. And Tony said she refused to look, so she got in the car. And Hop said, she said that Hopes stood over her, said, not looking so hot now, are ya? And then squirted Windex on her. What? Like squirted Windex into her wounds.? Squirted Windex into her wounds.

And you're trying to say that you fucking helped her. Because they had stabbed her like everywhere. They had stabbed her in the head. They had stabbed her everywhere. She's been stabbed wherever the tire on her. I mean, Lori said that she felt her head even. It's horrific. And here's Hope making a joke.

I'm not even making a joke. It's a little further assaulting her. Yeah. They then drove again and they forced, they told Tony to go into the store and buy a two liter of Pepsi. So she was like, okay. So she did. Tony went and got the two liter of Pepsi. Hope told them, like told, and while they were doing this, hope told them of a place they could bring her. Yeah. Hope can go fuck herself. Told them. And hope was also telling them while they were

in there that Shanda was making noises in the trunk again. And there was a guy pumping gas, I guess, behind them that Tony said was like, like, confused. Why didn't do something? But I don't know if he heard exactly what they were saying or if he was just like, what is happening? But like, dude, like, come on.

So they filled the two-liter bottle, they ended up, like, she gave the bottle to Laurie, she dumped it out and filled it with gas. So they filled it with-liter bottle, they ended up, like she gave the bottle to Laurie, she dumped it out and filled it with gas. They drove to another remote location, which was told to them by hope, where to go. They opened the trunk, and it was Lemon Road, which is off of Camp Meeting Road, which is like a very remote site on this like, gravely dirt road. That's past Jefferson Proving Ground if anybody lives in Indiana. This site was just like open fields. There was like

one abandoned house like a farmhouse on site. That's it for miles. It was like nothing. So they dragged her out of the trunk. She's still alive. They threw a red blanket on top of her and Tony said she saw her clutch the blanket, but she couldn't move and she couldn't speak So then Melinda came to the car and asked Tony to give her a lighter from the floor, which Tony gave to her Hope is said to have poured the gasoline on Chanda and Laurie and Melinda lit her on fire So Tony said Laurie and Melinda got into the car laughing hysterically and happy and hoped she said, hope looked like she was just in another world.

She was like a trance. They drove a little ways up the road and then Melinda made them turn around again because she said she wasn't sure if Shanda was dead and she wanted to make sure. So she got out Melinda and she walked back over to Shanda's body and poured the rest of the gas on her to make sure that she was dying. She also made fun of the position she was in, like, laughed about it. They all then went to McDonald's and ate breakfast together because it was early morning. I'm like, not a talking.

I know. Wow. I know. Wow. I know. It's this is this is why this like for months I've been like, but it's a clutch the blanket. Yes, that is the part that just I want to see it. I see it in my head and it's just like, I want to like drive there and like leave flowers.

She gives something because she's a baby. She's a 12 year old baby. And it's like, oh, how do you do that to someone? I feel like crazy for her. And you know what? No, it should, honestly, like these stories should be told and they should elicit emotion.

And they should elicit strong emotion. How do you do that to somebody? And when you hear about what her mom does later, her mom, what a fucking, an icon. Because like, holy shit. You know how like, when we were telling the Molly Bish story, you were like, I want to, like, I want to do something. Like, I want to go there.

I want to leave a kindness rock for Molly Bish. I want to do something. Yes. It's, yeah. So, how do you do that to someone? Yeah, who just like, like, you, your girlfriend didn't like you. She liked Shanda. Well, it's like, you will like, your girlfriend didn't like you. She liked Shanda.

Well, it's like you're 50, like, you're, she's 12. She's 12. Yeah, she's 12. So they went to have breakfast at McDonald's and it's early morning at this point. And now the light, the sun has come up. And two brothers named Donnie Foley and Ralph Foley.

They were hunting for quail at the Jefferson Proving Ground. This was a rural area, like I said, lots of farmland. Suddenly, they spot a pile of what they assumed were rags on the side of the road. It was literally right off the road, they said. They were going to say was this literally just off the side of the road. Yeah, it wasn't like a well-tracked road because they were hunting, so it was like a little gravely road. They like no one really went down. Yeah, but they said they saw it. They were like, is that a mannequin?

Like what is that? They said it thought it was like a life-sized doll. It is a sort. It's never a mannequin. It isn't. And they stopped to make sure because like you said, it's an adation to assume it's a mannequin. And they walked up to it and they could they said just from the smell alone, they could understand that this was obviously a burned body of a young girl. They said she was obviously bloodied and burned beyond any description, to be honest. They said her head and face and upper torso were burned to a crisp. Her lower half was clearly bruised and bloodied and beaten. She was only wearing a pair of blue underwear. They called police. The police came at 10.55 a.m. The first on scene was Sheriff Bucks Shipley, and he called in Indiana State Police because it was so bad that they were like, we need all the help we can get. How do you even like, how do you go on after seeing something like that? Some of

these officers said that they literally like broke down in tears at that scene. Like couldn't handle it. You see that? You see that? You see that? You see that in every day. Every day. Every day.

Every day. Because even just like a match, I don't even, I'm like, trying not to know. But I can't. So they next called in trooper or detective Steve Henry and a forensic expert, Sergeant Curtis Wells, those are the people in scene. So they said obviously something was used to ignite specifically her face and her hands to obscure her identity. So that was very like specific.

So hope knew what to do. Exactly. They said there was a pool of blood under her and that her hands were in the position that many fire victims hands are in. They call it the boxer position. You know where the hands will fall into fists and kind of raise like into a boxing position due to the intense heat will make the tissues

strain and warp. So her underwear was pulled to the side intentionally. She had been posed in a sexually suggestive way as well. Yeah, according to the investigators, they said that by the looks of it, they said someone intentionally did this. Stage that way. She was taken to the Jefferson County morgue. Now meanwhile, Steve, her father, is waking up and Shandha's not in her room. So he. So he's panicking poor man. This poor family this poor family. So he's panicking

So he he starts searching. He's calling everyone he can He's not finding anything else. So he calls Jackie the her mom and it's like we need to what's going on They end up calling everybody they can but nothing is happening so at 145 in the afternoon they filed a missing persons report in Clark County. Now Tony and Hope at this point had gone home and they're fucking panicking. So they burst into hysterics. Tony and Hope. It's too late for that. And they told way too fucking late for that. They told Hope's parents that they had witnessed a girl being killed. No, you did it. You, you, I mean, and Melinda and Laurie were at Melinda's for a sleepover because they

were going to stay at Melinda's house that next night. And, you know, Melinda's mom, Marjorie, said that they were acting strange, or at least Melinda was. And she said, and according to multiple sources, Melinda told Amanda what it happened. So she called her and had her pick her up and told her. And Amanda said she didn't believe it, because she was like, why would I believe that? Of course, she didn't tell her the details, but she said, like, she had to step down and tell her.

So then she was like, do you want proof? And she was like, yeah, I want proof. Like, I don't believe you. So they showed her the trunk. And they said the trunk is absolutely... And Amanda said I could see her hand prints and like fingerprints. I just said, I don't believe you. So they showed her the trunk. And they said the trunk is absolutely and Amanda said I could see her hand prints and like fingerprints. I should see everything.

Oh yeah. And she said when she saw that, she lost it. And she immediately left. She was like, I don't know what to do. So at 8.20 p.m. while all this is going on, everybody's studyingly losing their shit. At 8.20pm, a boy, sorry, a boy comes into the police station. And he says he happened to be at a local bowling alley that night, and he heard some teenage girls discussing being witnesses to a brutal murder. And he said they seemed like they were nervous and like freaking out, but they were also talking about it, like two people. So this kid came in to be like, I don't know if this is true,

but they were talking about it. I love this kid. I love this kid. At the same time that this is happening, all of a sudden the Madison Police Department calls this police department, the new Albany one. And they say, Tony Lawrence has come into the station with her father.

So now they're starting to put this together like, oh, Tony Lawrence is one of the teenage girls. They were out of bowling alley. Yeah. They went to a bowling alley. And she said she had to talk about something involving a murder. So they brought her to the sheriff's department and she just spilled. She told them who Shanda was, that she thought she was around 13. Initially, Tony was so frenzied and upset that she was having trouble keeping things straight. She was a hysterical. She was hysterical. At one point, she said that Chanda was from New Albany. They started looking in New Albany for miners that had got missing or anything and nothing's coming up because her parents had reported her missing to

Clark County. It was just a moment where's the only, it was just kind of like a moment where like nothing was coming together, but eventually they found the missing persons report in Clark County and they were able to match it to Shanda. Now in a rest warrant, immediately went out for Lori and Melinda and Hope. They surrounded the Loveless home at 2.30 a.m. Good.

They barged through the door. They went up and ripped Lori and Melinda out of bed to arrest them. And they're reading them their rights. And Lori said, wait, can I ask you something? And he's in the police officer was like, sure. And she said, are we on-candid camera? Are you fucking kidding me? Yeah. That same night, Hope Rippy was also arrested. Lori doesn't give a shit about it. No, she doesn't care at all. She said later, she says to Melinda later, like she was like, I don't feel bad.

Like I don't feel bad for what we did. So I don't understand why everyone's freaking out. Like she didn't feel bad at all. Well, interviewing them, Melinda, like I said earlier, was trying to seduce the police. What was she doing? They said she kept like leaning forward to try to like show them. Girl, you're taking a knock on the shirt.

You're not going to serve you. And she was like, you know, basically like flirting with them, trying to act acting much more adult than a 16 year old would, like very like using seduction methods. Like, girl, even if you were like older and attractive, you're in here for a brutal. Yeah, brutal, torturous. Exactly. They are looking at you like you're the devil himself. Which they should be.

And it's so, and they said they were like, she's a very pretty girl, like she's a 16 year old girl, she's very pretty and she's clearly used to doing that to get out of things. So they also, they also, I guess some, the two guys that were interviewing Laurie, which is interesting, had very different views about her. One of them was like, oh no, she's a remorseless monster. And the other one was like, no, I don't think she is.

Weird. Yeah, so I don't know what that was. I think she's a remorseless monster. It was interesting. So they also said that Melinda was very unintelligent. Like they said that you really couldn't follow things she was saying because she was very like, she was like, talked fast, but didn't make a lot of sense. And they said that if they would have dropped her at a site like nearby,

she would never be able to make her way home. Yeah, like she didn't even know who the president was. Yeah, like she's very reduced even know that the president was. Yeah, like, she's very reduced to a child intelligence was. So one of their friends who I'm gonna call Karen, because her name is in the book, but I think that names are changed sometimes, and I don't know if this is,

I know that some of the names are changed in the book. I'll just call her Karen. So Karen was, this girl was friends with all of them. Like, she knew all of these people. But she like, in the book, I'll just call her Karen. So Karen was this girl was friends with all of them, like she knew all of these people, she like in the punk scene. Yeah, she was just said, come across all these people. And she said, quote, Melinda always wanted me to take her to Shandas house to beat her up. And I said, I'm not going to do it. And she said, I'm going to kill her. And I'll just have someone else take me there that will help me beat the hell out of her. And she said, sometimes she would look at me and tell me, if you don't take me to her house, I'll just go on a rampage at school and get suspended. And she also said, Melinda told me before that if she had

the chance, she would kill Shanda. And Lori was the type of person that would probably do that for her. Help her out just to keep a friend. That is so dark. She said Melinda knew that Laurie had been telling everybody that she would enjoy killing somebody, that it would be her destiny to go out and kill someone just to see what it felt like and just to hear someone screaming. That girl is like, she sounds like she is not even helpable. And she else, this girl also mentioned that Laurie had a real fixation with arson and like lighting things on fire. Interesting. So when the news broke obviously It was everywhere. Shandas friends at her new school were absolutely devastated. There was

Consulate that has heard 12-year-old friend of a girl. It does as like a community. I don't even there was counseling offered for them Like it was a huge deal Jackie's mother at this time had when she was going through Shandas things found a hidden box with more letters between her and Amanda. And they detailed from Amanda how Melinda was dangerous and how she was going to kill her and how that's why they had to stay apart. You don't take that seriously. No, and she found this after the fact too. So she was like, this can only be used to like further prove that Melinda did it and like that she had purposely and like with Melissa Forthott done this. But can you imagine reading that later? No. So an autopsy was conducted on Shanda by Dr. George Nichols of Kentucky State Medical Examiner's office. She had multiple injuries to her entire body.

I mean, her head, her neck, her arms, her legs. There was stab wounds all over her legs. There was stab wounds all over her chest. Her stomach, her head, her face, her neck. She had ligature marks on her wrists. And the thing that really, really sucks about this whole thing is soot was found in her upper airway, which meant that she was alive when she was lit on fire and had died of smoke inhalation of her own burning body. That is the most fucked up way to die.

Yep. And literally died from breathing in her body's fumes. So she was alive when they lit her on fire. Well, you said I mean, she clutched a blanket. Yeah. So they also confirmed that she had been viciously sexually assaulted with an object. So, and they believe it was obviously the tyrant. During the trial for these girls, Steve Sharrer, her father,

spoke directly to Hope and Tony. And he said, to Tony, he said, you have no idea the problems you have started in our family as we try to cope with this. It's very hard to understand why you did not try to stop this from happening because this was for hope and Tony's trial. Yeah.

And then he looked at hope and he said, may you rotten hell with the rest of your murdering friends? Absolutely. Which I was like, she wants to set the thing. I'm like, I don't do anything. And he did it right because he looked. Which I was like, she wants to sit there and be like, I don't do anything. And he did it right, because he looked at Tony and was like,

no one will understand why you didn't stop this. So like, no one's forgiving you for that. Like, you're not let off the hook and then to look at Hope and just be like, rotten fucking hell with the rest of your and my wedding friends. Like, you were just as culpable. It's just so Jackie actually showed a slide show

of Shanda to the court with pictures of her as like a baby And at one point hope looked down wouldn't look and she Jackie asked the judge will you please force her to look? Absolutely said lift your fucking head and look so she was forced ordered to watch good. I am so yeah, I love that yeah forced order to watch. Good. I am so, I love that. Yeah. Steve actually died in 2005.

He had battled with depression and alcoholism after this. People said he just, he never got. And how do you ever get over it? Not get over it, but he never was able to even cope, which, how do you? How do you? Yeah, I don't even know how you would. There's no way of reconciling that in your brain. Yeah, I don't I don't even know how you was. There's no way of recon reconciling that in your brain Yeah, I just I don't understand that at all

so all four of them were tried as adults good all of them and Laurie and Melinda the death penalty was on the table for them. It should have absolutely been instilled hope and Tony's Since they had spilled the beans and had been instilled hope in Tony's since they had spilled the beans and had cooperated with the police. They did take plea deals. That's bullshit. Tony was sentenced to criminal confinement because although she didn't do anything to harm Shanda physically with her own hands, she didn't help either. You're an accessory. So she got 20 years in prison. Hope ended up getting 50 years

in prison. Good. And what the judge said to Hope was, Hope Rippy had choices. There were avenues of escape, ways to help yourself, ways to help Shanda. She poured the gasoline so no one would get caught, even though she knew it would kill Shanda. Her lack of mercy, of tender courage, is a horrifying lesson to us all. So she definitely didn't get off, but then she appealed her sentence and got it reduced to 35 years. How? Tony was released after nine years in prison.

It's absolute bullshit. She was released in 2000. That's bullshit. Hope was out in 14. Absolutely bullshit. And she was released in 2006. She poured gasoline on an already dying girl's body. She sprayed Windex at her. Well, she was dying in the trunk. She giggled along the way.

Yep. So, Lori and Melinda pled guilty to avoid the death penalty. And both of them got 60 years in prison, which was the maximum sentence. And Lori later said in prison, she said, quote, I didn't know Shanda at all. I didn't go into that evening knowing anything was going to happen, wanting anything to happen. I didn't. I didn't. Peer pressure. That's all it was. It spiraled out of control way too fast. It's something that never should have happened. It's never it shouldn't have ever happened. But none of that statement is true other than that. Laurie was released in 2018 after 26 years in prison. How is 60 years the maximum sentence? This is one of those.

How? How? For burning an alive human being? Yeah. Well, unfortunately, Melinda was also released. How are you left back into society after? Melinda was released in September 2019, after only 27 years. How?

Yep. What did she do in prison that made anybody believe that she wasn't going to light somebody's alive body on fire again? Well, I can tell you what she did in prison. I can do that. Melinda in prison was actually working with a thing called Ican or Indiana canine assistant network in prison. What is that? They basically have prisoners train dogs to work with disabled people and child abuse survivors like dogs that will be like

comfort animals. And actually she was known when she was in prison to be one of the best. They brought all their most challenging dogs to her and she could like... She shouldn't have even been around dogs. Well, and she shouldn't have had the pleasure. One of the breeders of like the dogs that Melinda was training was actually a burn victim, like a burn victim survivor, like Shanda. And so she said that she brought, so she was in contact with Jackie, Shanda's mother, this breeder.

And she said, you know, I don't know, and she basically was like, I don't tell me if you don't want this, but I'm just offering this to you. And she was like, I don't know if it'll help you to see that she's doing better things in prison or like becoming a better person, but she was like, do you want to see a video of her training a dog? No.

And Jackie was like, yeah, I do. I mean, I give Jackie absolutely all the credit in the world. I want to know if she's doing something better with her life, because I need to know that. Like, I just need to see that she's evolving as a human being and that she's not just this monster. Jackie's as a human being and that she's not just this monster. Jackie's an incredible human being. So she watched her this video and Jackie said, quote, I was really taken aback.

I saw someone almost reborn. She was sincere. She was compassionate. I think the ICANN program allows her to have something in her life that she can show love back to and there's never betrayal on either side. For her to be able to reach into herself and go, Melinda's a fucking monster. Yes, she took my baby from me.

But for her to be able to go, but in her childhood, something was taken from her and this program is allowing her to somehow give it back. I mean, that's an angel thought to something and be loved by something. Like, for her to be able to have the emotional, emotional capacity. That's truly outrageous. That's amazing. That's an angel on earth. It truly is. Well, you want to hear how she's amazing. That's like an angel on earth. It truly is. Well, you want to hear what, how, like she's amazing.

In 2012, Jackie donated a pup for the program named Angel and asked for Melinda to train it in Shandas memory. Wow. And she's- Melinda ever said sorry. You know what's horrible? Jackie received shit for that. People literally gave her shit for that.

How? Because people are shit. It literally gave her shit for that. How? Because people are shit. It is none of your fucking business, what anybody wants to do to get over the death of their child. Whatever the fuck shit, like, unless you've, even if you have experienced that, don't say shit, but you could never even imagine

what the, I can't even fathom what that woman went through. And you people wanna talk shit about her? Yeah, people gave her shit about that. That's like, I actually saw somebody on a message board when I was researching the Molly Bish case, like blame her mom and I made a fucking account to yell at them, I don't even know that.

I was like, how dare you? How dare you? How dare you say anything about the mother of somebody who's taken away from them? Yeah, it's like to blame them, like that's unbelievable. How dare you. Well, this, what she said about this,

choice, what she said, quote, it's my choice to make. She's my child. If you don't like good things, come from bad things, nothing gets better. And I know my child would want this. My child would want this. Good for her.

And if she says this is what her child would want, then she knows. Then shut the fuck up and let her do it. Right. Like what the hell? And what Melinda said about this was she said, you know what? I didn't believe it when she was first told that she was going to be getting a dog named Angel from Jackie Shandah's mother.

And she said that it was only when she saw the puppy that she was like, holy shit, this is real. Like she really did give me a dog. And then she said, that's the one Jackie had touched, had held, had named. And I said, wow. And then she said, she helped me to heal, forgive, and grow. Whether she wanted that or not, she did a good thing. I would thank her.

I couldn't thank her enough. Angel is in good hands. And I'm doing it for Shanda. And thing. I would thank her. I couldn't thank her enough. Angel is in good hands, and I'm doing it for Shanda, and I'm doing it for her. I just got like a little lump at the end of that. Yeah. But that's, I mean, it's insane to me that Jackie, I shouldn't say that it's marvelous to me, that Jackie was able to find that, like kind of like, that I'm telling you. That is an angel on her.

Like an absolute angel on her. It's just like every time I read about it, I was like, wow. Like that has Melinda ever apologized to Jackie? I don't know if she's like, I think she has, but I don't think, not that it appaulages anything about her. I don't know if Jackie is really looking for...

She had said, like she said several times, I never wanna come face to face with them. I never wanna have a discussion with them or anything. But she was like, this is just something I could do to like... And honestly, I bet it was something that was healing to her. Exactly. And if it was healing to her, it didn't do anything bad. It was a good gesture. A dog is being trained by apparently somebody that's good at it. No matter what she's good at it.

If she's training this dog in Shanda's name to help someone else, at least something good came out of it. That's like a- This case is very stressful. It does. I think it was honestly Bethany Frankel that said this, but it's like when you hate somebody, it's like not being able to let go of that is like drinking poison and expecting them to die. It's so true. I saw that. It's so true. It's hard to understand that and it's hard to like get through that in your brain, but it is true. It's true when you can look outside of it.

And just to see that Jackie was able to be in it and see that is wow. Yeah, wow. Like truly, and even her doing that doesn't mean that she forgave Melinda. No, that was just, she, what did that listen to? She said she wanted her to do.

There was a listener that wrote in something about like forgiving, like and how you don't have to forget to move on. I forget exactly what she said. But yeah, because you don't. I need, wow. But that's the case of Shanda Shayer. And it, I'm sorry, everybody.

That was one of the most difficult cases I've, we've ever done. That was a tough one. And I didn't even give, like, there's, I don't even want to. There's even more details that, you know, you can find, but I, I wanted to at least include what I thought was pertinent. Through all the cases we've covered, I've always thought here, I'm like, oh my god, stop like, wow, like how do people like that exist in the world? This is something I'm going to think about for like years to come. Oh yeah, when I first heard this, I first heard this case, like when it happened, you know,

a little bit after it happened, and everything like when I was a little older. Never left you. And I never stopped thinking about it. This is the one that is like sat in my brain for years and years. Are people like that, how do people like that walk the earth?

Yeah. How many times did somebody walk past Melissa in a grocery store? Or Melinda in a grocery store? Yeah. And like not realize that that's what she was going to do someday. Yeah, I have no idea. It's, yeah.

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