No Jumper - Bella Torres on Dating Bodybuilders on Steroids, Catching Her Ex With A Man & More

Episode Date: June 8, 2023

Bella Torres talks to Sharp about catching her man cheating, her content, lifestyle and more. ---- 00:00 Intro 3:35 Bella talks about splitting her hip down while running in college, changing her majors three times 6:10 Bella talks about her time being a cheesemonger, a wine sommelier, and starting dancing in Portland 8:15 Sharp says a woman's biggest fear is rejection, and Bella talks about auditioning for clubs 12:00 Bella talks about quitting her job at Trader Joes and moving out of her aunt's house after becoming a stripper 15:30 Bella talks about starting her OF, having a boyfriend while stripping, and getting threats for liking dubstep 18:30 Bella and her boyfriend having problems because she made more money than him, even though she was giving him 20% of her OF money 22:30 Bella moving across the country to live with a guy that she knew for 3 months, dating in the bodybuilding community, dating someone who does PEDs 26:30 Sharp Tells Bella she doesn’t look like a bodybuilder, Bella explains the different types of bodybuilders 28:18 Sharp ask Bella what her best experience with only fans was, and having her own niche with roleplaying 30:00 Bella talks about running into fans, and tells story about a boyfriend recognizing her with his girlfriend 33:00 Bella says she met her manager through her ex-boyfriend, seeing how he treated her behind closed doors 36:20 Bella talks about being taking advantage of by friends and others, happy being single, and doesn’t do anything outside of OF collabs 39:35 Sharp asks Bella what else she wants to move into real estate, and asks if she would have sex with someone to sell a house 45:15 Sharp calls out Bella about her catching her ex-boyfriend hooking with a guy, and catching an S*D 50:00 Bella breaks down crying after talking to her ex downloading tinder after her dad passed away, her neighbors seeing her doing it on the balcony 53:10 Bella talks about having a lot of losses, losing her friend and her dad and breaking up with her ex who was cheating 55:50 Bella talks about what she's got coming next, and wanting to retire early Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

The Sharp Tank. No jumper. Sharpest, coolest podcast in the world. And today, we have a lovely lady by the name of Bella with us today. How you doing today, baby? I'm doing, I'm doing fantastic. How is everyone? I love the energy.

When I walked in, I just could feel the energy. I was like, whoa. I said, oh, come here, give me a hug. Snacks me in. I said, ooh, she gets real physical. Yeah, no, I like hugs. I like hugs. They're, like, warm.

What do you get from hugs when you have people? I get, like, you know, Whenever it's like really like genuine, I just get like a little warm feeling in my, in myself, and I feel like really happy. Did it feel genuine? Did it feel warm when you? Yes, yes.

There's some people, you know, the side hug that's like, I fucking hate those. Yeah, I'm like, come here. Like, there's times where I've met people and they'll just like, they're like, hey, and I'm going in for the hug, but then they do like the side hug. So you're just kind of like, oh, sorry.

Got a maneuver here. I mean, so tell us, tell us where you're from. So I live in Miami, but I was born in Albuquerque, New Mexico. I have lived in... Albuquerque, New Mexico. Breaking Bad Country. Yeah. Breaking bad country.

Good TV series. Have you seen... Yeah, yeah, for sure, for sure. I've seen it like... I tell you, I drove through New Mexico, and I tell you, that's got to be the longest state ever to drive through. It's like 700 miles. It's crazy to get through that shit.

It's all barren. Just barren. It's a beautiful, honestly, like, now that I don't live there, I can go visit it and appreciate the beauty a lot more. But when I lived there, I was like, it's so hot. Right, right. Yeah. No, I guess hot as a borg out there, man, that's the desert. That's, yeah, 110 degrees.

You could literally crack an egg on a car, and it would cook. Wow. What were you doing in Mexico when you were growing up? What was it like for a girl named Bella? Okay, so I actually- Is that even your real name? It's Isabella. Isabella. It's Isabella.

But I go by Izzy, I go with Bella, I go by whatever people want to call me. They call you Izzy at concerts, don't they? Izzy! Izzy! No, I feel it. I feel it. So tell us, like, I want to know, like, what was it like for you growing up there? Like, what was your life like?

Was it real basic, or were you the shit? Actually, very simple. I grew up with my grandparents. So I lived in a very, very small town, probably 30, 45 minutes out of Albuquerque. And I grew up, you know, they raised me until I was 13 years old. And they did the best that they could to raise me. I grew up in a Catholic household. I actually would go to-

Strict. Yeah, yeah. And I mean, they taught me my morals. They taught me, like, you know, what things to appreciate in life. And they gave me the basis of, like, education and whatever. So, funny thing, I grew up, like, as I said, Catholic. And every Sunday I would wake up at 7 in the morning and then we'd go to church and I would read the lecture in Spanish in front of everyone. So I've been, I've been, you know, growing up with the church and then I moved, I did freshman year at a private church at a private Catholic high school.

And then after that I moved up to Washington to go live with my mom. and I went to a high school there and then I got a track and field scholarship moved to Idaho for a year of college. Yeah. So he moved around a lot. Yeah, so I'm not even halfway about moving around. No, no, you're good.

I'm just saying like I've been everywhere. So I moved to Idaho for college. My hip decided it would be cute to split in two so I couldn't run anymore. Oh, split in two. Yeah, so I got a stress fracture on my femoral somewhere where the socket, you know, the bone socket goes into the hip and like split because I started, I barely started running in junior year of high school. So I didn't really

have like the buildup of training and like endurance. My body wasn't used to it. So I went from running probably like 50 miles a week, 30, 30 miles a week from in high school, 30 to 40 to like 80 miles, 80 to 100 miles in college. And my body was like, slow down. So it like, yeah. So, I couldn't run anymore and I was in high school I was in college for that year had no idea like what the hell do I want to do with my life like I was taking a bunch of classes I must have changed my major at least three times changed my major three times I think I finished off with business and I really like that but moved back to Washington um lived with my aunt for a while and I just decided not to continue with college because I just like I don't know what I want to do I don't want to get a

degree that is not beneficial to me. I immediately started working. I worked at Whole Foods and I worked at Trader Joe's. I was a cheesemonger at Whole Foods. That's crazy. See, and I have to touch the point, not to you to tell you to real, but I have to touch the point of like, you know, you're going to school, you say you're trying to find a major, like something that you're interested in.

Because I've noticed, and I'm not dissing going to college. Like I don't want people to think that that's, I don't know, I'm college bashing, but I'm like, people go to college. four, eight years, however long to end up working a deadbeat ass job anyway or not even liking what they do, you know, it's, that's fucking crazy. Exactly, exactly. Like one of my family members is a heart surgeon and he is like if you graduate from med school, any doctor will tell you that they are, they have hundreds of thousands of dollars to pay

off their student loans. And I just thought about it. I'm like, shit. You know, like if I graduate. college, I'm in like a lot of debt. So I don't, as you said, I might not get a job that's, you know, beneficial to me or that I hate and then I'm, you know, my life is going to be miserable. So, you know, I took my mom and my aunt's advice of just like, take your time. You know, I mean, my grandparents were really strict and they were pushing me to go to college.

And, you know, I took my time. I've always had a job even since high school. So I immediately went on the job force, worked, as I said, cheese monger. Whole Foods. Dude, I know. Explain what a cheese monger. So, explain this a little bit for the news. It's actually, so what it

is, is you, I worked in the nice, the, you know, fancy cheese and meat department with the wines. You learn a lot about cheese, olives. I mean. It ain't easy being cheesy. It isn't. It isn't, bro.

You got to stay sharp by eating cheddar sharp cheese. Sharp cheddar cheese. Yeah, you dig. Yeah, man. I thought you would have might have brought me some. You know, a little cheese monger. Damn, I apologize.

I apologize. It's fine. It's fine. I'm just joking. No, I know. But, like, I learned a lot about cheeses, and I know how to make a bomb charcuterie board. Those are very good.

Yeah. So, I mean, like, I learn a little something from every job that I've had. I mean, like, now I can, like, put out a plate of cheese, and people would be like, oh, she's a party. So a man that messes with you, this is what he's got to look forward to dope-ass boards of meats and cheeses and things like that, wines. Exactly.

I'd be like, okay, this wine pairs with this cheese and we're going to have some dark chocolate to finish it off. But yeah. So, that would go on that tangent. But after Whole Foods, worked at Trader Joe's, and then I had a few friends that were dancers over down in Portland at one of the clubs out there. Oh, yeah.

Shut out Portland. Oh, shout out Portland. Shout out Spiced in Portland. Those were all my home girls. And so they, kept telling me they're like, you need to start working here, you need to start working here, you're going to do fantastic and all this stuff. And I've always been like, you know, curious about it because I saw like the amount of money that they were making and, you know, I was a little scared.

I went into audition one day, just said, fuck it. Why were you scared? That I would get rejected mostly. Man, you know, it's crazy because I always talk about it, right? And I said, I'm like, what's the, what's the number one thing? Hey, Donnie. Donnie, you're in here? What's the, What's the number one thing you think a woman hates in the world? I got you. Rejection? Rejection.

Exactly. Rejection. Thank you. Thank you, Donnie. I appreciate that. Like, I think that women, they hate rejection the most. So it's like, even with men, they hate to be rejected from men. Exactly.

And I think that is human nature because whenever you get rejected, I mean, our, you know, the purpose of us to be on here is to reproduce. And being rejected is kind of like, oh, well, I can't, like, be, with this person and it's just it goes all deep into that. I'm a nerd about all that stuff, but, but going back into this. Okay, we got time. Talk about that shit.

Okay, okay. Open the fuck up, baby. Okay. You're in the sharp tank. Let's go deep. Let's go deep. Let's go deep in there. Yeah, come on.

We like deep. Talk about it, yeah. I bet you do, don't you? I mean, I'm a small person. It's not, yeah, if we're going, It's fucking crazy tripping them out right now. Like, man. Come on, man.

Do I need to just walk out for a second and let you... Yeah, Donna, come up. Throw the cameras off. Throw to me, though, baby. Okay, so going back into where I started, like, you know, sex work is in Portland. I went on an auditioned. I was still working at Trader Joe's. Portland was two and a half hours from where I worked up in Tacoma.

Shout out to Coma, Washington. Shout out to Tacoma. Everyone there is great. Great city. So I started working there, and, you know, it was really daunting at first because I'm like, damn, like, you have to get really comfortable for, like, exposing yourself. And, you know, is what people would say. Like, yes, yes, you sell your looks.

You sell your personality to, you know, make money. You sell your body to make money. and I'm not going to sugarcoat it and say not, but that was a big hurdle mentally that I had to, you know, overcome. And soon enough, I just became second nature. And for at least a few months, my day looked like I woke up at 8 a.m. or 8 a.m. I would go to work around like 9 or 10.

Trader Joe's. This is up in Washington. We'd go to work at 9, 10 in the morning, get off of work at like six or seven and then I would immediately get in my little Prius that I had drive all the way down to Portland start my shift at 8 p.m. And then work until 3 a.m.

Drive all the way back up to Tacoma, go to bed at like 5 or 6 a.m. and wake up at 8 a.m. and repeat the cycle. You know, the hard side of me would say you're young, you can handle it. You know what I mean? But I think anybody, but looking at it now, I think anybody's body can have a breaking point. You know what I'm saying?

Whether that's physically or mentally. Mentally. I mean, especially like with only fans and all this stuff. Like it is, it is, yeah, I understand what you're, where you're coming from. Like there's different ways that you can break. And I mean, since I was young, I was just, you know, probably like 19. No, I was 20. I was definitely 20.

and then I turned 21 while I was working there and they whenever they have different rules like when you're 20 you're not allowed to like show anything and then there's only a few months that was 20 and then I turned 21 there we go there we go but no and I was you know I had a blast working there and then soon enough I quit my job at Trader Joe's

because you know before when I was working out I know exactly why you quit your job at Trader Joe's No, yeah. As you start making some real motherfucking money. Yeah, exactly. Why am I up in here? I just made last night. I probably made the last two months in this motherfucker.

Exactly. Exactly. And I mean, when I was working at Trader Joe's, I lived with my aunt and I was barely making money. I paid a rent because that's just me. I had to pay a rent and I couldn't live there for free. And I remember there was- Because you're not afforded or something?

You're not working? No, it's just more so of me. I don't like relying on people. I don't. I really don't. I don't like to be like, oh, I'm relying on my aunt. And I never asked her for money whenever I was really struggling. I would go out of my way to park in parking lots and look for quarters and pennies to pay for gas.

I was embarrassed to ask my mom or my aunt for any money because that's just like I, I mean, I had a house over my head during that. And I'm very grateful for my aunt. I paid her what I couldn't rent. And like the rest, it was just car bill and stuff. It's just. You was smart as fuck for that. And I'm going to tell you why. I'm going to give you some, like, for real.

I'll fuck with you for that because you paying the rent keeps them off your back. Like, shut the fuck up. Don't say nothing to me. You know what I'm saying? There's nothing you can say to me. Like, when you go and live with somebody, they'll start finding their way to tell you what to do, like because it's their house. It don't matter how old you are.

You know what I'm saying? This can be at a friend's house. You go stay at somebody's house long enough for free. Mother going to start telling you like, well, damn, you're not cleaning up. Exactly. Now you're supposed to turn into the mage. You're not supposed to live your life. You're supposed to cater to the house.

Exactly. You were smart for that. Like, fuck that. Pay the motherfucking rent. That way, hey, can't nobody say shit to me in this motherfucker? That's how I am in life in general. Ever since I was young, it's just that I don't like owing someone something. It just gets me like, okay.

And whenever I borrow money or if I ask someone to spot me, like if I forgot out my credit card, I pay them as soon as I get home. Like that I just, I can't deal with owing people something. So, you know, she didn't even know that I was dancing for like the longest time because she worked night shifts. and she didn't really know, like my family didn't know anything until finally I was just like, you know what, I got to tell him. So I told my mom and I told my aunt, my aunt was a little bit more upset. She was like, why, why are you doing this? And I'm like, Auntie, this is just, I, you know,

you don't really know what to say. I didn't know really what to say when I was younger, when I was younger because I was, you know, I was raised Catholic and just kind of, there's no explanation to it. But my mom was a little bit more chill. She just, she'd rather be me making money, and I'm very safe about everything. Like, they trust, she trusted me to be safe about it. And my aunt finally warmed up to it and was, you know, she's like, you got to do what you got to do. Just please, please, please be safe. And I was.

Stripping? Huh? Yeah. What stripping at the time? Yeah. I get it. Was she an older lady? Yes.

Yes. Yeah, she's probably old fashion. You know, to her stripping still taboo. but it's so commercialized and front line these days. Like what's a stripper compared to a chick doing only fans or doing porn? Yeah. Yeah, I mean, some of my best friends are still dancers

and they slay the game, man. They know, and I mean, like, whenever you become so experienced, you attract regulars and the regulars become, and if you're good to your regulars, then you're set for a while. For sure. And for me, it was just, I started learning about only, only fans when I was dancing and some girls just mentioned it to me they're like oh this is new website like you can just you know lingerie you can keep up you can tell your regulars to you know

message you on there and you can make videos for them and like also like be in connect with them outside of the club so I was just like I was like fuck it I'm like fuck around and find out let's let's do this so I I actually had a boyfriend at that time I had a boyfriend all that workout So he was actually very chill about me dancing because I never gave any indication of me doing anything with any guys. Like I never, that is like, and if you know me as a person, I'm not the type to like overstep boundaries. Did you give him any money? Okay, here we get into the juicy stuff. So.

I mean, I thought of the great question. It was fitting. When I started Onlybends, I had a very small account. And then this was on my old Twitter I had about like a few hundred thousand followers And I remember You're gonna say you had a few hundred thousand dollars I said hell motherfucking yes

The one you want to break home Bro I wish At that time I fucking wish But no so my old Twitter account I had a video that's non-only fans related It is the most cringe The most It's I look back at that video

I'm like oh my God So you know dubstep that music Yeah for sure I remember when they hit the scene roared. There's a video in me in my Prius, my little Prius, I was driving I was vibing and it was this crazy dubstep song and I'm like headbanging in there like a spas

and I start like just getting so passionate and screaming and shit like that. That video went viral and people were making fun of me or whatever people started sending me death threats like why? Just for me head banging in my car. I know it's cringe now I look back and I'm like, you know? I mean I don't think it's death message worthy. It's not death threat worthy. You know

what I'm saying? Like, come on. Head banging. Yeah. They want to kill you. Yeah. People go feral on social media. Absolutely feral. So I had that video go viral. And one of my friends, one of my closest friends, she was like,

Bella, you have no idea what your potential is here. And I'm like, what do you mean? She's like, plug in your only fans link underneath that video. She's like, you're and get more money and subscribers. That my friends is when my life changed. Absolutely.

And I started making a lot more, like a significant amount more. And I was like, oh my God. And I mean, I didn't really have a guidance in like how to do content or whatever. Starting making like really good connections with some of my fans.

Me and my ex at that time were making videos. And this is when things got a little weird. I started feeling. feeling really guilty. He went to school. He had a really, really good job, a very good paying job. And, I mean, I started making more money than him and things got interesting. Well, when you start making more money than it? Yeah. Yeah. Just I feel like it's a, I mean, it's common. Wouldn't bother me, baby.

Wouldn't bother me. I'm sorry. I'm telling you. Dude, I'm telling you. Donnie, I'm sharpening my fucking things. What are we buying today? What the fuck are we buying today? Let's go. Rory maybe, F-12? Bro. I don't know.

Something in the bar. Aroma, Pista. Fuck it. His and her. All that. Porsche 9-11 TurboS. Let's fucking do it. Come on, baby.

Coniceg. Let's get a connoisseg. I love cars. I love cars. We don't take a walk. We're going to chop it up. All right. Perfect.

Back to your. Back to your. boyfriend though like in the whole situation so the whole situation got really strange um he started requesting that i pay him 20% of my only fans oh yeah oh yeah no i'm just saying that i know i knew that had to be coming like oh yeah it's it's very tough like from all my friends and stuff it's very typical for the man to do that so i mean i was a young girl and i wanted to make my partner happy and i started paying him 20% then he started getting mad at me and like controlling what i said to people and like you know controlling me like being really really scared that I was cheating on him when it was

it is just one of those situations where I'm like you're the only person that I'm making the content with like and just just it's been long ago so I don't really remember all of the dynamics I started paying more of my rent my so I was paying more than 50% of the rent of the place that we had because he was making less than me and he convinced me that it was making less and then whenever I would go against his will he would start freaking out on me and started saying like, you are just disgusting and all this like,

this is like, I'm just like, okay. So they're begun to a point where, you know, I had a good support group and they're like, Bella, this is not, this is not normal. This person's like, this is not okay. Like you shouldn't feel trapped. And so, you know, I finally just ended things with him.

And then we just, you know, I moved out and that it was kind of a... It's like, that's what like, and I'm going to be honest. This is a piece of what I hate about squares that play this game or try to play that game. It's because when you really look at the shit, right, he was cool with it when you was giving him 20%. Then he probably ended up starting to want majority of it, you know? You get a little bit, of course you want more.

And I get that part of it, you know, but to sit there and start telling that you're just a whore and all that shit like church, you didn't stood behind her campaign. If anything, if you just ain't fucking with or dip. This is, and this is not the first time, like both passed in my,

like, the second relationship was a little worse and I don't want to, like, go, like, a deep dive into, like, a lot. Yes, you do. Yeah, I do, actually. I really do. I really do. I really do. I really do.

I mean, let that shit out, baby. Exactly. And it's like, I, you know, what I've gone through is just kind of like where I'm, you know, where I'm at. I'm just like I learned a lot from everything, everything that, every traumatic experience, or not even traumatic, but every bullshit experience that I've had to get through, I've always come out, you know, a better person. So after that relationship, I moved out, got my own apartment in, this was during COVID, and I was only at the apartment for a few months.

I moved on real fast. I started talking to another guy over here in Florida. No. Oh, so you detach really easy. Donnie? No. Don't you fucking start, bro. No. I mean, yes.

No. Well, I was really done with that relationship. I was done, done. Like, there was a point where I just didn't even want to come home. So I moved on pretty fast. So I started talking to this guy in Florida, and I'm soon enough, it was during COVID. We become, you know, whatever, super close and whatever. And soon enough, I'm in a relationship with this man, and I moved to Tampa.

So this was after Portland. I moved to Tampa. One side of the country to the other, huh? And I only knew this one for three months. So I was very bold, very sporadic. Well, I get it that life does move fast. It does. I get that part.

I'll resonate with you. We're like, hey, man, you know, you just kind of go with the flow. If that's how you feel, get up and make the move. I'm just not with people getting married in a month. In two months, that's the only thing. I get it. I just want to go try something. You got time on your hands.

You ain't got no kids. He's got time on anything. He ain't got no kids. Y'all can actually go try it versus just making that big ass move and really like merging your lives. Bro, yeah. So I don't know.

Also, I just felt, because Portland was all shut down, like shut down and people were rioting everywhere. I felt very unsafe there. So another reason I was like, you know what, Bella's gonna go on a new adventure, open a new chapter. So I moved to Tampa and, you know,

things were good, whatever. And with this shit, you know, Tampa's, Tampa's great I like Tampa Yeah It's a fun place to be It's fun but I had to move out

I had to move out recently to Miami Because there's so much It's becoming too crowded So I mean Miami's crowded too But yeah But I lived in Tampa for about three years No come on There's more to that story

I can tell like You have more to say So what was it like within them three years So it was really What the fuck was going on Who were you with and how were you with him? So I started bodybuilding with this man.

And we did like, that's like one of our connections that we had. And it was really good at first. Like we, you know, the, you know, the honeymoon stage. And like, you do it because you liked it or you did it because that's what he did. And you just wanted to fit in. No, no, no, no. So he started after me. So, I mean, we kind of started together with my coach back in Portland.

My, he's, my coach back in Portland is literally of homie. Like, he's my brother. So, like, we're very close. And so he started working with him. and, you know, I started doing shows and, you know, dieting, prepping, and stuff, and that was, like, majority of our relationship. So when you're with bodybuilding, it's like you, you pretty much push your body to the point where it's like you're fighting your own instincts and you become so, like, drained and so very, very lean to the point where you can't even move almost in a day.

So we were both going through that, and that obviously put tensions. If you add in a little sauce here and there, it changes. It really, if you have mental issues, if you add anything that enhances you, it makes everything 10 times worse and you go down a rabbit hole. So I experienced seeing the destruction of someone over three years,

not destruction, but mentally just disappear. And like, mentally broken. Broken. And it just got worse and worse. And I'm saying, like, I saw this person change over the three years to someone that I don't even know. And like I was still stuck on the thought of him, you know, being that person again. And it never came back.

And so, you know, it just started off like he was going to school and then quit college because he saw how successful I was on OnlyFans. And, you know, I was like, okay. And whenever I'm in love, I just want to support my partner no matter what. And I'm just like, you know what, you could go do, do, I'm not pressuring you. I never pressured him to do that. I'm like, you could, okay. And, you know, he quit that because he thought he wanted to be big just as big as I was.

And, you know, I was like, it was sportive. Bodybuilding, right? Yes. You don't look that big, sweetie. Yeah, no, there's, but I mean, there's different categories. There's different categories. Oh, because that's my check. Bodybuilding was bodybuilding.

Oh, no, no. Like, maybe, maybe I'm stereotyping it and that's my bad. But, like, from how. And I don't want to be a stereotype. I'm like, how I've seen it was motherfuckers really own yoke. You know what I'm saying? Really slow. Yeah, whenever, I mean, for guys, for sure, you can definitely tell for girls there's several different divisions.

There's bikini, wellness, figure, then you have physique, and then you go into, there's another one. I should know this one, but I forgot. It's okay. But the bikini ones, you don't really, they stay small. They stay smaller and, like, not everyone is, like, super, like, big. Not even, but just chiseled, you know? Yeah. Like you skipped a few gym days.

Yes, yes. You know, you're not big, but you're not big neither. You know what I'm saying? Yeah, yeah. You can tell you just got out the gym this morning. Yes. Yes, I actually did 40 minutes of cardio this morning before I came here. So weird.

I stay on a, it, bodybuilding definitely taught me like a good routine on fitness and stuff. So it also taught me a lot of discipline. I just, I had to stop doing it. It's mostly from what I experienced with that man. And I just, for mentally, it just put a lot of mental. tax on me and I just with what I'm doing on only fans it took a lot out of my life and I had to be like okay so what is going to bring me further and what should I focus on and I just said you know only fans and I have respect for the bodybuilding community like it's no big deal but like from what I experience

you know you're going where the money's going pretty much you want to go where the money's at of course what was your best experience that you feel like you've gained having an only thing's able to show myself and also show my personality through the content that I make and make my own schedule. I'm able to have freedom to... You want to show yourself getting fucked?

I mean, that's what you're doing on only fans. I'm saying so you say to like to show your art. I mean, everyone has their own niche. I mean, I'm... Of course, exactly. I'm not just doing like regular old stuff on there. I mean, there's like niches. I don't really want to go too much into detail of what's all.

Why do you know? Detail. What is it? So I have, like, I have, like, very rough sex. That's the type of stuff. So getting thrown around and shit, shit breaking. Yeah, three sums. Yeah, three sums.

What else? Just like a bunch of role play stuff. Like, I have a variety of things. And also, like, a lot of people like, you know, pre-workout, post-workout, personal training. Are you ever, are you ever interested in dressing up as a Power Ranger? For Halloween? No, for an only fan's. I'm only like you with Sherry de Villas.

She's looking to build her team, Sharon. She's been looking to build her team lately I'm like if you're down to be a Power Ranger I mean I might got some work for you You know I do want to cosplay My thing is like I do really want to cosplay A Game of Thrones scene

I want to be Calisi But like as I'm saying Like I try to add like a little creative stuff And like there's like four Calicies In there and they're all fighting each other To try to get the dick You know what I'm saying Dottie? Reverse gang bang

Like if they're all fighting each other Like they're all fighting each other like Trying to get you know The person that gets to it Bloodbath Yeah, like fucking gets crazy and gory and like the last person is all showering blood and they get to get the dick, you know? I don't think that's allowed on only fans Honestly, I'm pretty sure that's not allowed

I mean it's crazy because it's like only fans It allows a lot I feel like the sex industry especially the virtual sex industry Man it thrives because there's a lot of shit going on You know what I mean? That industry's never going away Like it's there's so much there's there's there's you know, everyone has their own personality. And, you know, you see these girls and it's like, oh, my God, she's, you know,

I've had people approach me even on the streets of like, hi, are you Bella? Like, are you fit my dog? I'm like, oh, my God. I'm like, hi, hi, you've seen a lot of me. But, like, usually everyone, every person that I've met has always been, like, super respectful. So, you know, it's kind of cool, like being, you know. It's got to be crazy, right? Walk down the street, see a couple.

The woman that you see with her man, she didn't caught him looking. It's your only fans and they end up running into you, like just out in the open. Bro, bro, I actually, dude, I kid you not. I saw this guy. That's got to be fucked up that ever happens. I saw this guy, like, it was just right when I moved to Miami. This person approached me with his girlfriend. He's like, you're famous or something.

I'm like, am I? I'm like, what? I'm like, oh, I'm like, oh, hi. Probably, yeah, you follow me on Instagram or something. And I'm like trying to just, like, play the part. Because, like, I mean, you never know. I mean, my Instagram is not that big, but, like, my Twitter is everywhere. What's the worst thing you've ever experienced in only fans?

Burnout, a little bit. A little burnout because I think for me, it's, like, feeling like I'm never caught up. It's me always trying to come up with, like, bigger plans, bigger, you know. The worst part is just, like, feeling like you're never, you know, I'm a workhorse, and I always, you know, I love doing my customs for my fans. I always get those. It's just like, I just feel like a lot of times, like I am a hamster running on a wheel and just...

Well, for content, I feel like it's relevancy. Like, you have to constantly keep that going, you know, because if you fall out the loop or out the algorithm of that shit, it can be crucial to your character or what you're trying to portray to bring in your bread and butter. You know what I mean? You always got to one up yourself. Exactly.

And it's like, you know, know, my content is, you know, it's porn and a lot of, and everyone knows me for doing BG content and GG content and threesome. So it's like, boy girl, boy girl, girl, and whatever comes, you know, they like seeing me with other people. So for me, it's, you know, it's hard. Don't you're about to hit the alphabet on me for a second. Huh? Thought you were going down to the alphabet for a second. Oh, no. No, for me, it's just, you know, it's just like keeping up with that, you know, scheduling, labs and all that stuff gets overwhelming sometimes.

You have a manager? I have my friend who is my assistant and she does everything for me in terms of scheduling in terms of like organizing, you know, like content days, also like shooting days. And, you know, I tell her I'm like, hey, I have a hair appointment on this day because my mind is a million miles and hour. Have you ever, and all the reason, and I'm going to tell you why after I asked you this, like, have you ever had any problems? Have you guys ever had any problems?

No. You and her. Like, you've ever ran into any type of, like, issues? Absolutely not. Her and her boyfriend, I trust him with my entire life. I, like, I met, funny story, I met them actually. They were friends, they were former friends of my ex, and they, like, that's how I met them. And they're, they're my best friends now.

They're practically family. And, um, I don't know about that. Not saying that they're not, to you, but I'm just saying I would find it a little, like, just me, I would find it a little sketch because I'd be like, damn, these were friends. of the dude that I was with, like, you know what I'm saying? No, I mean. I was with him before and they were his friends before. No, the whole backstruck.

And then we all kind of cut him off and kind of just went on our fucking hunky-dory ass way. Exactly. I mean, that's what it might look like from an outsider perspective. What's what it sounds like? Yes, well, yes. It's what it sounds like. I'm not going off of what it looks like, but what it said, because I wasn't there to see it. Exactly.

But what it sounds like to me is it kind of was like. Yeah. But. It's kind of snakeish. A little bit. A little bit. bit, right? I ain't trying to just call the kettle black. No, no, not at all. Actually, no, I take that back. No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. I take that back. I completely take that back because they're friends with me because they experience firsthand of what...

Who were they friends with first? Him. They saw a lot of things that he did to me, like, also talked behind my back and the way he talked about me in front of them. And... I'm going to tell you this. That shit don't matter. And I'm going to tell you why it don't matter. That's y'all fucking relationship. Yeah. That's something that y'all got to deal with. It should never, no, there shouldn't be sides picked in that. If y'all are going to all be friends, y'all

gets cut off because they didn't agree with the relationship. They don't need to sit back and sit on the couch with popcorn and watch the fucking relationship take place. Fuck all that shit, man. Hey, what y'all go through is what y'all go through because people go through shit. You know what I mean? Exactly. But... You wasn't perfect neither. Of course not. I'm not.

I'm not going to say I was perfect. Yeah, it takes two to tango, baby. Exactly. But I'm saying this, I learned all this stuff after the relationship ended. So I ended the relationship and I learned all this stuff. And they slowly, like, it wasn't just like a complete cutoff. And it was, you know, and like, it was like a bunch of people came out to me and they're like, I'm, you know, as I said, it was a very messy.

It was, you know, I'm still trying to work through what I experienced. I, you know, I'm still trying to, and it's, you know, it's still. I just feel like sometimes, well, I was going to make the point earlier, I feel like sometimes with friends, like in the business, go back to the business aspect, sometimes with friends, they'll have the tendency to maybe slack and lack in certain departments sometimes because we are friends. They're not really, they're putting the friendship first more than the business.

You know what I mean? So I just know sometimes there can always be hiccup, especially when you know, you, you know, you do business with a friend. And I mean, I, over the past few years, I have been taken advantage of from multiple people because I'm, you know, I look past that and I look at that of like a friendship.

And with them. It's a good trait, baby. Don't ever change that. Like, give people chances. Don't be tainted from last situation. No, exactly. But I'm, I, now, like, I analyze a lot. And, you know, I have to look out for, like,

some tendencies that people might present to me for, you know, it's like, do I trust this? person and it's like do it you know you just have to feel the people out before you actually like do things with them that's like how i am i try to learn a lot about people before i make any sort of business decisions with them before i you know i run it back to like people that i trust of like okay should i sign this contract is this okay like you know you have to be smart about all that stuff how has it been how has it been for you lately like dating with inside like only fans um i've been single for a while and i i'm happy i'm happy i'm happy

happy single. I mean, I'm pretty happy. For me right now, like with dating with only fans, I've noticed that it really does hinder what is available out there for me because of what I do for work. And, you know, first off, it bothered me a little bit. And, you know, I was like, well, I'm never going to find love. I'm unlovable and stuff like that. But like also, you know, right now I'm enjoying life I'm I'm I'm in my 20s I'm enjoying life a little bit I'm 24 yeah yeah yeah haven't even officially lived a quarter of your life yet 25 is a quarter of your quarter of my life yes but no I'm 24 and I'm just like thinking it's like you know it's going to be something forever that you would want to do or you're just trying to get your bag up

and get the fuck out exactly I mean yes I mean right yes yes and for me it's just I'm not right now if I ever decided to get in a relationship I couldn't do it because I have my energy poured out into other ventures right now that I can't give my entire person myself to someone else

friends I have a lot of guy friends I have a lot of guy friends you know it's just it's fine to have that but for me pretty much you're saying you got some you fuck on is what you're saying you got some people you fuck on and you know it's been cool friends with benefits hey wham bam thank you ma'am come through fuck don't fall asleep

Get your ass up, make a move. You'd be surprised my sex life has been... Soon as you bust a nut, get the fuck up. Don't even lay on top. Don't even lay on top. You need a ragg it's in the cabinet. No, it's funny. I mean, I do have guy friends, but it's not...

I got some man soap under the sink, going there and grab some. I keep it for times like this. Exactly. These bidsches are evil. No, no. It's so funny because actually, like, if you think about it, like, ever since I moved, my sex life has been pretty non-existent. That's not what I'm trying to focus.

I mean, collabs. Okay, yes, collabs. That's all I've been doing. But, like, in terms of, like, friends or, like, past people I've hooked up with, it's, like, that's out of, I haven't. It's been a long time. But I've just been really focusing on my business and trying to build this business and, like, trying to expand out of Only fans as well.

What else do you want to do? Real estate. I have, I want to build up my real estate portfolio on top of that. you know, I want to go. Would you fuck to sell a house? Like if somebody, all right, maybe that was like, Helen, you got to fuck one, kill one, marry one, go. You know what I'm saying? Like,

if you were in real estate, right? And some dude was like, yeah, I bought his house to say that house worth a few million, you know, and it's about to be a big sale for you. And he's like, I mean, I bought his house and you let me bus you down in the master bedroom real quick. I'll sign on the dotted line right now. Would you be down? Would your only fan ways come back? I depend, yeah.

No, it doesn't depend. Would your whole days and whole phase move back upon you? I just get worried about like the subconscious of like, I mean, I do have sex online for money, but this is like a different realm outside of only fans and I don't really do it. I don't do anything like that outside. No.

You don't do anything outside? I mean, there will be other buyers. You know, there could be other buyers. Just mind-of-wait. Moralities. Who am I taught? Who am I kids? morals but I'm just saying it's like right no less those anymore no I just I just don't I just

don't personally I don't feel comfortable with myself to do something like that because then but baby that's some bullshit let me tell you why I mean yes yes but that's bullshit because you're already pretty much doing like yeah I mean yes I hate that people be like oh well there's a limit because you don't want to cross over and and hit that oh well now am I oh am I a prostitute am I this and my that like that like baby. Selling sex is selling sex. If you're going to go, go.

I'm fully away. You know what I mean? If you're going to go, go. But imagine, okay, you can correct me if I'm wrong. If someone has kinks, you know, and they don't want to do certain kinks, this is kind of like something that I just don't want to cross that line. It's like people have preferences and this is me having a preference. I don't want to cross.

What's the, what do you feel like the preference? pros and cons of only fans is. Pros, I mean, I love my life with it. I mean, I mean, there's, you know, I make my own schedule. I'm able to travel. Like this year, I'm starting to be able, like, this year, I'm actually gonna be really focusing on travel overseas. And, you know, with like a regular job, like a nine to five,

I wouldn't, I'd have to ask for PTO and worry about all that stuff. And with OnlyFans, it's like I can work outside of the country. So that's like one of my missions. I'm able to work from any, I'm able to work from any, I'm able to work from anywhere. And if you use OnlyFans as a, you know, as a, not a tool, but also, yeah, as a tool to help prepare yourself for the future, you're set, man. You're set. If you put enough money into investment accounts, if you put enough money, if you save enough money and, you know, also just venture off into other passions that you have because Only Fans has given me the ability to have time to explore my passions.

If you use it to your advantage, you're set for life. You can be done by like 30, 35. Is OnlyFans legal to do in all countries? No. I think Bali, it isn't. Bali is for sure not. Canada open to it? Yeah.

The only reason I ask is, you know, they'd be having their own set of fucking rules up there. As a matter of fact, I did do Karina Kova. Actually, she does OnlyFans content. She's from up there. Okay. Yeah, so I guess they do get down up there. I just know Canada be tripping.

even though they're close to us and we got a damn bridge connected to them it's still they don't yeah no so yeah I mean before you travel to a country I probably would study and be like what is allowed what isn't allowed because I know that some countries also block off like only fans in itself

because some of your fans might want to see you do some content over in another setting or another place you know what I'm saying when you might be on the beach and ain't nobody looking you out on your beach little front or whatever the fuck you can get something in real quick with the camera no I'm just saying Like we're, you know what I'm just saying, like in different places across the world.

You know what I'm saying? Like, people want to see, you're going to probably want to see you in different settings. They're not going to always want to just see you in your fucking bedroom. Exactly. And that's like my thing right now. It's like, I need to add some spice. I need to do something. That's why I said.

I'm like, hey, man, you might need to go and do some shit in the rainforest some motherfuck of where across the fucking world. Like, hey, sitting there fucking banging yourself next to a caterpillar. Actually, no, not Machu Picchu. Like, you know what I'm saying? They might want to see something different. I know I'm not off. in the mountains. Not a matripeachio, that's a sacred ground.

But like I'm saying like somewhere in the mountains over a waterfall, you know, you could title a video saying making waterfalls under a waterfall. Like, you know, there's so many clever things you can do. But for cons of only fans is, you know, you have to accept the fact that people aren't, you know, a lot of people aren't going to respect you. And you just kind of have to accept the fact that people are going to shit on you for what you do for work. And that is, you know, my whole entire, you know, my family is okay with it.

They don't say anything about that. They just let me do what I have to do. But people who I meet, you know, it's like, what do you do for work? It's like, you know, I just, you know, it's like only fans or, and then I'll say what I do for work. I'm not afraid of hiding what I do for work because I don't want to keep, you know, whenever somebody first meets me, it's like, you know, but unless if it's like a CEO or something, then I'll like come up with something. I've been, you know, I let you pass with the, um,

with your ex-boyfriend's shit, but you didn't tell me everything. Why didn't you tell me everything? Why didn't you tell me that you caught your ex sucking dick and taking it up the ass? Why don't you tell me? I was just waiting for you. I was like, all right, is she going to say it?

Well, I got, I got off, I got off a, I got off a, I got it off a tangent. You didn't say that you found your man doing gay tactics. Okay, so I, so he started his only fans with me, and I thought it was just, Like, you know, I've seen, I never watched his content. I didn't even check his Twitter or anything. And he said he was doing collabs with guys.

And I was like, okay. And he says there was nothing like going on. There was like, he was like, this is just, you know, we're just doing muscle shows and shit like that. And, you know, he was a very negative person. And, like, you would just shit on people all the time and, like, talk shit about. And he would always call me a disgust. Whenever things went really bad, he would say, you were a disgusting whore. You're like, and I was paying for everything for him.

He didn't pay me for the last four months of rent. Like two weeks after my dad died, he downloaded Tinder and was scrolling on Tinder because I wasn't putting out enough. If you really want to know the deep details of who this man was. I do. Pulled out Tinder, downloaded Tinder. When I went to go visit my best friend in Austin, I come back and, you know, I got a little irritation down there and I find out that when I was in Austin, Texas, it cost something.

It cost something. And I got blamed for some of the stuff and because I did a call the last collab that I did was with my friends. They're all tested. I'm very safe about it. And I got blamed for giving that, you know, it was just, I got blamed for, you know, you know, I just found, I found evidence. So it was like, uh, it was just the coincidence. And it wasn't even, it wasn't even like a serious irritate. It was just like, as I would say, it was just like an irritation. But I think it was, what it was, was probably was the coincidence of time you just got done shooting and just doing some content with somebody.

And then you end up getting that fucking with him. So you're kind of like, well, damn, where did all this come from? Now there's questions. Yeah, but the collab was about three, it was four weeks ago. And I remember getting a test after that collab. And it was, I'm very, as I'm very anal now. So do you feel like, since you? He was fucking dudes.

That was weird. I didn't know that he was smashing dudes at that time, really. It was on the back burner. And, yeah, and I find out that when I was gone, there was text evidence. I mean, I'm crazy. Was he given or taken? Oh, no, it was a girl. It was a girl.

And, you know, I find out that he was telling all of our friends that we were broken up, and we weren't at that time. I know I was very well aware that we weren't. I'm saying when you've seen him sucking dick, right? You saw him doing this. This was recent. This was recent. Like a few weeks ago.

Someone sent me the video that's, you know, there was a video of it. He'd been doing it though. He had been doing it. Yeah. Yeah, he deleted. I'm pretty sure. I mean, he's off social media and stuff. Like that's like he just, I don't know what I.

He's off socials and shit like that. So as I said, I never really saw anything. but like I'm saying that like for how he acted towards me and disrespected me when I was you know I'm very supportive I did a lot on you know in the relationship to change myself because I recognize my fault I'm I'm I'll say I'm not in I'm I'm a lot I demand I it's not that I demand a lot but all I was demanding was for him to find something outside of only fans and he was like you're a fucking hypocrite oh he found something all right yeah he found something. something all right, Donnie. He went without him something. This was during when he had his account. You never know where you, you never know where you push a person to until you push him.

Dude, but like, I'm saying like this was, I mean, I think that his excuse would have been like, oh, this is just for money. And I mean, yeah, I respect it. And it's not, I don't find, I mean, I'm bisexual. I don't find anything wrong. Like, if you're being such a, if you're being such a negative, terrible person to other people. So that's what you say your problem was.

You were like, I don't give a. what he did, how he did it. You were like, you just didn't like how he treated you and treated people. Yes, yes. And then in the meantime, I'm just like, this is, you know, you gave, like, him and even his family, bro, I would listen to conversations of his mom

screaming through the phone. You're dating a fucking whore. She is ruining you. Fuck this bitch. I wish you guys have never met. Like, I, she is the most, she is disgusting all the names in the book. And I heard this almost every month like he would talk to his mom. And he wouldn't really defend me over anything.

Yeah, that's not good. And then he, whenever things went wrong, he started screaming at me, calling me the disgust. He's like, you are fucking disgusting. You're, nobody's going to love you. I don't ever want you. I don't want you. And like, meanwhile, I'm like just trying to, like,

I'm trying to fix it. And like, I'll say, like, I, you know, I just, I had, like, I would have meltdowns because I didn't know what else to do to help this situation. And then I find out that he's, like, downloading Tinder two weeks after my fucking dad died is like it's disrespectful it's the most form of disrespect after me taking care of him for years

and guiding him and you know i paid for his cartoon because one of his last things that i paid for was his cartoon because he's like i you owe this to me i'm in your videos i help you with your tictox i help you with all of this and you owe me this and you make so much money you're disgusting you're so selfish and like and like all this shit i'm like dude this is my money yes i you know i'll pick you out to dinner, I'll do whatever. And like, it's just more so of like me never feeling enough ever. So it's just like, it was an endless cycle of me, you know, I would have like meltdowns. And he would call me crazy for having these meltdowns.

He would go to his friends and saying like, this bitch is so fucking crazy. I hate her and all this shit, like behind my back, bro. And meanwhile, I'm like here. I'm like going to my therapy. I'm, you know, I'm trying my best to figure out like, okay, what is what I can do to improve this relationship? I stopped demanding money of him because I was afraid that he would explode on me when I was paying rent and stuff like that and he's like,

you see me struggling and you don't even care and all this shit. I'm just like, so, you know, I'm still, you know, it's something, I mean, we broke up, I broke up with him a long, a while ago. I was like during last year and I mean, like, I just, you know, it's just like one of those things, it's like, you, I mean, as I wish him the best. I really do wish him the best. but he should be a lot smarter about things and I mean finding that video recently

and also I found out that some of my friends who lived in the same building as me or like some people in my building saw I'm doing stuff with guys on the balcony and I'm just like oh I'm like okay a lot of people saw that and like I remember like walking in one time

and they were like in the other room and they were like moaning and shit Like that was like, oh, I just left. It's like one of those things. Who was? My ex and some other person, I don't know. I think he was planning. I think I knew that he was doing a collab and I had no idea what they were doing.

And like, I was in such a weird headspace that I just kind of just ignored it and just left. And, you know, I just. I'm going to be honest. It fucked you up. I can tell it fucked you up. Like, your mind's fucked up from all that. That's why I'm staying single for a while to just like become. Your mind's fucked up.

I can't, I can't, like, you know. I'm not, but, but in the grand scheme of things, I am actually very thankful for him to put me through that stuff as crazy as it seems. No, it doesn't. It's a learning lesson. It's an experience. You needed that for some part of your life. Exactly.

You had to have that for your life. The universe has its strange ways of working because ever since I ended things with him, I mean, of course, like you go, it is very hard for me to let go. I become very, I became a, like, we became very emotionally bonded. And so, like, having that and, like, living with, this person 24-7 and them suddenly being gone is like and then my you know it's just like last year was a lot of losses like I had a lot of losses last year my dad and like my my friend please blah up my my friend one of our good one of our good friends and then then losing him as well it was

just like where where am I what am I doing so like the past you know I disassociated for a while um just to you know I don't even remember past I don't remember the months past from November through January, February, just because I just wanted to work and I worked and I worked and I worked. And just to, that's the only, that's the thing that made me feel good. Because working is something, what working does for me, it makes me more money and that makes me feel a little bit better. But, you know, I've been.

It's a piece of structure. Exactly. It keeps you like, no matter what, like, you know what this is going to do. So you're just going to work at this, keep your head out of the, you know what I'm saying? Keep your head out of the bullshit. through and I have the most genuine, the most supportive people in my life and I would not trade them for the world. Like I have all of my friends came to me and they have been super supportive.

My friends that like I trust with my life, like they are family. Like all my friends that I have met are very, very genuine people. And I have a very small, I have a small circle of friends. And each one is like I have like some sort of like I'm very spiritual. and I have like some sort of connection with them where it's like I go through something and then they go through something very similar and then I go through something

and they go through something very similar. And like it just the way it is because like I had a lot of people come to help support me and get through this. And I recently, you know, I love, now I'm like, I'm in Miami. I'm living a really fun life over there and I'm enjoying myself.

I love being alone. I've learned to be comfortable with being alone. I have two awesome dogs. You look like you said. slept on the damn beach last night. Wait, really? Like you woke up and just came out. I mean, just the appeal.

Oh, yeah. You just got to rolled out of the sand and was like, oh, shit. Hello. I got to go do a sharp take interview. Meanwhile, it's cloudy outside. Like, blah. What can we expect?

My last question, what can we expect from Bella, like, the next five, ten years? I love doing these, these documentation. I ask everybody this, because when people go see you five, ten years, even yourself, you better hold yourself accountable to what you said before it all happened. Yeah, since the next five, ten years, I see myself being in different business ventures.

I think I'll still have my only fans because like I still want to keep that up a little bit. I mean, why quit? In the next five, ten years, I'm looking at, I'm going to probably start taking skin care classes because I have a deep passion for taking care of my skin, taking care of myself. and I would like to probably like really study into that and open up like a business with that and then do YouTube, focus on building my YouTube and also just stuff that like, you know,

is past what I, you know, past my body. And, you know, I have a lot of insight on, you know, issues and I have a lot of insight on like, you know, with my past that I've been through. It was just I feel like I want to help people. So, and I'd like to retire probably by like 35 and just travel and just live life off my investment. and stuff, so.

I appreciate you coming. Thank you. Thank you for having me. How was the experience? Okay, one, two, three, boom, it's done. How was the experience? Great. It was amazing.

It was actually great. No, I appreciate you, baby, for coming and fucking with me and sitting down. Like I say, man, the door's always open. You always want to come to talk to me? Hey, counselor's door is right here, man. Just come on, come on, come knock on it. I'll be sitting right here.

Oh, my gosh. Just don't come in and always fucking bother me because I got shit to do. You know what? I always got shit to do, too, So I feel like you can always come pay me for counsel We'll always we'll get you right There we go There we go beautiful

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