Nobody Should Believe Me - BONUS: Unabridged Interview with Bea Yorker

Episode Date: September 5, 2024

Law professor, nurse, and president of Munchausen Support, Bea Yorker, shares what first got her interested in working with Munchausen by proxy cases, and remembers the first time she was exposed to medical child abuse. She recounts how she first met Jo in the Munchausen by proxy Committee of the American Professional Society on the Abuse of Children. Bea and Andrea talk through the positive psychological effects of peer support groups for those coping with trauma and how to create a safe space for survivors to help each other.   *** Links/Resources:  Preorder Andrea's new book The Mother Next Door: Medicine, Deception, and Munchausen by Proxy Click here to view our sponsors. Remember that using our codes helps advertisers know you’re listening and helps us keep making the show! Subscribe on YouTube where we have full episodes and lots of bonus content. Follow Andrea on Instagram for behind-the-scenes photos: @andreadunlop Buy Andrea's books here. To support the show, go to Patreon.com/NobodyShouldBelieveMe or subscribe on Apple Podcasts where you can get all episodes early and ad-free and access exclusive bonus content. For more information and resources on Munchausen by Proxy, please visit MunchausenSupport.com The American Professional Society on the Abuse of Children’s MBP Practice Guidelines can be downloaded here. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

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If you are a longtime listener, you've heard Bea on the show a number of times, and I always love having her on because she has such a depth of expertise about Munchausen by proxy. And it was very special to have her on this season because she also knows Joe very well. Bea is now the president of Munchausen Support, which is a nonprofit that I founded a couple of years ago, and she is very active in helping survivors and family members. I just admire her so much. So please enjoy my full conversation with Bea Yorker. Hi, I'm Bea Yorker. I'm a retired professor of nursing, criminal justice, and criminalistics at California State University, Los Angeles. And I've had a long academic career that has really focused on child abuse, specifically Munchausen by proxy. And Bea, how did you originally get interested

specifically in Munchausen by proxy? What brought you to this part of the field? I love this story. So I was working in a large pediatric hospital in Atlanta, Georgia, and I had recently gotten my master's in child and adolescent psychiatric mental health nursing. And I had the privilege of working on the child and adolescent psychiatry consult team. So I was with child psychiatry residents, child psychology, interns, social workers, and there were a couple of us advanced practice nurses. And we would get calls to visit any child or adolescent that had a mental health issue. So we would go to the adolescent unit for gunshot wounds. We would go to the pediatric clinic for kids that tested positive for gonorrhea. We would go to the burn unit because

over half of any burns on a kid under five were intentional and abusive burns. And as part of that work, we also dealt with depression and autism and routine mental health issues. But during that time, this is between 1981 and 83, we got a case where the chief pediatrician said, I'm thinking this might be Munchausen by proxy. B, here is a Roy Meadows article. Go read this and see if you can sort out if this little kid's ears that keep bleeding is being caused by the mother. It so happened at the same time I was in law school part-time. I was pregnant with my third kid in there. So it was a busy time.

But it turned out it was not munchasm by proxy. The little boy actually had a rare genetic disorder. So my very first exposure, I was riveted by Roy Meadows' article. When he talked about the urine specimen in the little girl, that the nurse said, you know, we cannot clear up these urinary tract infections, but if I collect the urine specimen, it comes back clean. If mom collects the urine specimen, it comes back infected. So Dr. Meadows said, okay, we'll set this up. We'll have the nurse collect the 6 a.m. specimen

and mom collect the 10 a.m. specimen. So they did that and they went down to the lab and sure enough, the 6 a.m. specimen was clean and the 10 a.m. specimen was loaded with red blood cells and bacteria. So the lab tech went one step further and he typed the blood cells in the little girl's urine, and it wasn't the little girl's blood type. The mother had been putting her own menstrual blood in the urine specimens to get innumerable tests, antibiotics, hospitalizations, x-rays, invasive procedures on a little four-year-old girl. That fascinated me so much that I learned all I could about it. And then I paired up with a local pediatrician who had actually come from California, and he had seen some cases in California.

And the two of us started writing articles together. That's so interesting. what I think is one of the forms of child abuse that people are the most resistant to believing exists because it's just so horrific to contemplate a mother doing this in such a purposeful fashion. And you did not have that reaction. You had the reaction of, oh, I want to run into that building on fire and just go deeper. And so I wonder, like, have you sort of thought about, like, maybe what that was in you that made you want to know more about this thing that, you know, a lot of people have, you know, end up with sort of interacting with one case, and then they never want to see another case as long as they live, has been my experience. So,

yeah, I wonder if you if you can give us some insight. Yeah. Ever since nursing school, when I knew I really did not want to be a nurse nurse, I wanted to be a child psych nurse. I wanted to do play therapy. I knew I was going to go right to graduate school so that I could do that. I was fascinated by forensic psychology. I went to Grand Rounds as an undergraduate and heard Dr. Wilbur speak on her book about multiple personality disorder. And she showed videotapes of her patients going into different personalities. And I was like, that's what I want to do when I grow up. Well, that's fascinating that you mentioned that piece. So we're talking about Joe this season. And Joe is someone that you and I both know really well. So can you tell me, how did you first meet Joe? I believe through you. And it was at the Munchausen by proxy, APSAC. When you and I first met, we talked about bringing some survivors' voices to the committee.

And Andrea, you were awesome because you were hearing from survivors. And you suggested a couple of them. And Joe, and this is during COVID, so this is a virtual meeting, but Joe impressed us all so much with how, I don't know if there's a word for this, but Joe is unchaotic. And that's exceptional for any survivor of complex trauma because, and most of the survivors of munchasm by proxy are fairly chaotic. They can hardly tell their story in a straight line. They are often triggered and speechless as they talk about their experience. And then here comes Joe. And their story is linear.

And they're not, obviously not being triggered as much as other people that we've heard. And then they were able to link it to all the higher theories. So for example, Joe was talking about the body keeps the score and advanced trauma theory right in that meeting and how they were making sense of their experience through that book. That really struck me as well, the very first time that I talked to Joe. And I believe not to take, I don't want to take all the credit for Joe's appearance at the APSAC committee meeting, because I think their first point of contact was actually either Detective Mike or Dr. Mark Feldman, two of our other close colleagues on that committee. And I think I started talking to Joe through one of them. But yes, I think

we were all really blown away by how much clarity Joe seems to have about their experience and how rare that is. And do you want to talk about some of the factors that contribute to that, like the way that a lot of survivors tell their stories? Because I think that's not sort of a criticism of other survivors. That has so much to do with the way that the psychological abuse affects people's idea of themselves and affects their memories of their basically entire life usually. And so like there's a lot of factors that really contribute to that chaos and that sort of inability to speak about their own lives. Can you talk to sort of what your thoughts are on why people often have that reaction when they're survivors of this abuse? Sure, because I work with survivors of all different types of abuse, as well as other PTSD. So your physiology takes over when you are recovering from and when you've experienced repeated trauma at a very young age.

And when your physiology takes over, sometimes it's really difficult to keep your mind on a steady flow of thought. It just gets interrupted. And it's because your heart is beating fast or because your mind goes completely blank or you just get flooded with visual images or terror even as you're talking. So we just give people a lot of space. And this is typical of running any type of support group is you just give people a lot of space. In Joe's case, they were able not only to keep a steady flow of their own thoughts, but wow, they have really stepped up to be able to then facilitate and manage a lot of fresh survivors who are going through that chaos. support, which is the 501c3 that you are now the president of, because you took over for me,

and that is dedicated to serving survivors and family members. And you really were instrumental in bringing us the peer support model. So can we talk a little bit about what that model is all about and why we hoped it would be a fit for this and sort of how that's, then we'll talk a little bit about how that's all gone, because Joe's been such a big part of that. Oh, thank you. I really appreciate the opportunity to talk about support groups as an intervention. As a nurse, I think support groups is in our DNA. We all learn how to facilitate support groups as undergraduate students. This is not group therapy. This is not therapy. This is not coaching. This is not a workshop. This is simply making people the experts of their own experience and creating a safe space so that they can help each other.

So when I revisited my undergraduate psychiatric nursing curriculum in the last few years, teaching undergraduate psych students, I required all of them as part of their, they did an inpatient psych experience, but I also required all of them to attend two community support groups and two 12-step support groups. And there's a difference in those, but the community support groups are very much what our model is based on, which is having people share some stressful experience with each other. The 12-step model gives us a lot of guidance. And the 12-step model has been around for a long time. It's not so much evidence-based as it is. It's cost-effective. It's tried and true. Judges order people to go to 12-step programs if they're on their third DUI or something. So we know that it's a model that has proven itself

when there are a lot of expensive therapeutic modalities that may not be as effective. But support groups, the community support groups, are for people who are bereaved. For example, I sent my sister, when my brother died of cancer, we all suggested that my sister-in-law join a bereavement support group for other wives who had recently lost their husbands to cancer. And so there are support groups for just about everything, including probably for people who believe they've been falsely accused of child abuse. Nevertheless... That's a whole other... Yeah, no. And I know there are, but yeah.

And we do know that there are support groups for rare diseases. And for, we know from your work, and you and Mark have talked about Munchausen by internet, we know that virtual support groups can be infiltrated by people who find that modality a place where they can get their needs for attention met. So, but the model that we use is that we have ground rules and these are consensus built ground rules by the participants. We spend the first and sometimes the first and third session just reviewing ground rules like confidentiality. Everything said in the group is confidential and shouldn't be repeated. That particular ground rule has emerged as some of the support group members say, wait a minute, I want to tell my story. I want my identity to be known. And we had three fathers from a support group join us

at the APSAC colloquium in Denver this past year because they, for them, their confidentiality was less important than their ability to tell their story and go on the record and talk about what happened to them. The other ground rule is both Joe and I are mandated reporters. And so we have to let everybody know up front that it will be confidential unless any member of the group discloses something that gives us concern for danger, harm, imminent threat to either themselves or somebody in their periphery. And in that case, we would have to report. Yeah. Yeah. It's so interesting you talking about that sort of question of, you know, folks that have been in the support groups and sort of in that community. And then the idea of sort of telling your story more publicly, either, as you said, at the colloquia that we presented at or at, you know, on the show. Because, of course, I've talked to, you know, a couple of those dads I've talked to on the show.

And obviously Joe is on the show. This whole season is about Joe. And that's something I think about a lot because increasingly as the show has gotten bigger, you know, I get a lot of people that want to tell their story on the show. And I always sort of think about, you know, mostly I direct people, especially if they're survivors, to the support groups and to Joe, who does all of the sort of intake. I mean, that's really one of the interesting things on the behind the scenes here is that, you know, Munchausen Support, the reason I started it was because I had a feeling that once I was out talking about this publicly, I was like, I don't, I feel like the only person on earth who's ever been through this, but I don't think that's true. And I would have, this is what I would have loved to have when I was going through it, you know, 13 years ago was like, just to be able to talk to another person that had been through this would have been so helpful. And that was not there at the time that was not accessible, like had no way to find other people who'd been through it. And so I actually sat in on the first support group and it was extremely helpful to me. And, um, and Joe was just, Joe was there as well as,

as were you with a, with a number of other survivors and it really, to be able to talk to other people who've been through it. I mean, even as I was doing all the interviews for the first season, talking to other family members, siblings, talking to dads. I mean, that was so healing for me. And so I sort of was very convinced already of the effectiveness of peer support. And I think that that's a different thing entirely than telling it on a very public sort of open platform, especially one where now, you know, with the podcast, we do have a large number of listeners that a lot of people are going to hear and have opinions about and weigh in and you might get backlash and like all that kind of thing. So now I think one of my, yeah, I sort of, that's a question I ask a lot of like, well, how do I make sure that as, as best I can, I can never make that decision on

someone else's behalf, but like, how do I make sure that, how do I do everything to ensure that that person who's trusting me with their story, A, that I just do right by them and telling that story and, you know, help tell it in the most responsible way possible, but also ensure that that person is going to be okay, because that is a really intense process. And I think with Joe, because I know them so well, and also because I know that they have a support system in you and in, you know, some of the other folks from the community, that is one of the reasons that I felt like, okay, I know Joe is going to be like, I know that we can sort of collectively

take care of them and they have access to resources and they have lots of people looking out for them as we go through this process for whatever intense stuff that it brings up. And I think that's, it's just something I think about a lot about the difference of like, do you need someone to hear your story? Or do you need a large number of people to hear your story? And I think both can be valuable. Like I absolutely think, obviously, that's why I have the show. I obviously think that people hearing these stories can be incredibly valuable, but I also think it can take a huge toll. And we've seen that too. Like, I mean, we've both talked to survivors who've done podcasts or shared their story with the news or something like that. And it's really taken a huge toll. Do you have kind of any thoughts on in sort of sharing your story? I think it's a process of growth. And

what I'm so humbled by is that people in the groups, the support group provides a venue for people to heal themselves and each other. And I just stand back. And that, for me, is the reward. That is why I do this work. So what are the reasons for doing a support group specifically for this community? Well, first of all, people feel less isolated and stigmatized when they can meet other people with a similar, very unusual adverse experience. Support groups empower people to work to solve their own problems. And that's huge. So members can share information. And what we have found is that the members very often are the ones to give resources to, especially when we're looking at non-offending family. And one of them has worked with the guardian ad litem. One of them has worked through the

court system. One of them has worked with CPS. They bring such diverse and creative ideas to the support groups. And for the survivors, Joe did research on or literature review on the effectiveness of support groups before the colloquium. benefit almost more from giving support to their peers than they do from receiving support from their peers. And that has borne out from the very first group. By the time we're on the fourth, fifth, seventh one, the members are saying, I feel better today. Even though my situation may not be working out for me right now, I feel so much better because I was able to help one of you today. Yeah. And I think, you know, that might be specifically important, I feel, for survivors of this abuse because it is disempowering in so many ways. I mean, obviously, all abuses to some degree, but I think there's such a thing of like, you know, kind of when I think about some of the really strong parallels across the survivor experiences that I've heard, that feeling of like, you can't do this. You'll never live a normal life. You'll never sort of, you know, you're going to die

young. You're going to not be able to do X, Y, Z that other people can do. Like it just really gives people this idea that they're not capable and that they're not going to be able to sort of contribute to society. I think that's really one of the things that it leaves people with. And that sort of oftentimes the way that they, you know, got their caretakers love and approval was to disempower themselves, right? Was to pretend to be, to go along with the idea that they were sick and they couldn't do things and make a show of that in front of doctors because that's what their parent was telling them they needed to do or they wouldn't get the help they needed. You know, that's something we hear over and over again. And so I think like for, that makes a lot of sense to me that to be able to not only

help themselves, but help others and be sort of of use in that way would be particularly healing for this group. What's up, Spotify? This is Javi. I remember this one time we were on tour. We didn't have any guitar picks and we didn't have time to go to the store. So we placed an order on Prime

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story and as we talk about all the stories on this show, no survivor is monolith. But we've also seen that there are some extremely strong parallels to these stories. And I think, as you said, this is a unique adverse experience, right? I mean, I think that was the thing. And I think that's why it's really wonderful to have that group model, because you sort of think no one else is going to understand this story. No one else is going to have ever experienced anything like this. And then it's just struck me sitting in and also just talking to a number of survivors, like how it is the sort of exact same bizarre story over and over again. I mean, the beats are so similar. Can you talk a little bit about that? Oh, yes. Oh, my gosh. First of all, at the end of the first or second group,

all of the members, whether it's survivors, non-offending family, and I do want to talk a little about the sibling support group. But at the end, they all just, some of them just cry. They just say, I am so relieved to be able to talk to somebody that gets it. And then they'll tell horror stories. They'll say, yeah, I got into therapy. I went and told my therapist and my therapist was crying because they couldn't handle how horrific what I went through was. And so these people don't need to be holding their therapist's hand or other group members' hands. They need each other to go, yeah, it was that bad. It was that crazy. Yeah. I mean, that's happened to me as well, just trying to tell

friends. And I think that that sort of experience that regardless of whether you're a family member or non-offending spouse or non-offending parent or survivor, I think especially, obviously, especially potent for the survivors. But I think that that experience of not having to sort of make emotional space for the person you're trying to talk to about it and like dealing with their reaction and that reaction being so extreme and all those sort of layers of like disbelief and like, wait, what? What happened? And like that kind of thing. I mean, it makes it really impossible to sort of get any relief from talking about it if you are doing so much to sort of manage that person's reaction,

I guess. And that is the biggest thing I think of being with peers that have been like, no one's going to question you. And I mean, that was a huge revelation for me. The very first time that I met you was when I came to speak to the APSAC committee in San Diego. And I was there to meet everyone. And I told my story story and I'm expecting it to land with shock, which was the only reaction I'd ever had before. And I just was looking around a group of heads going, yeah, mm-hmm, yep, yep, oh, yep, like all the beats. And you're just like, what?

What is going on? Why do these people know this story? And it's because all the stories sound that crazy. They're all, I mean, there are differences in the extremes, but they all sound so similar when you've heard a lot of them. And I think what that makes you feel as a person who's gone through it, who's spent a lot of time questioning yourself and probably had the offender gaslight you to some degree or another about, oh, you're

not seeing the thing you think you're seeing, is, oh, my experience is real and it's valid. And I'm talking to a group of people who understand that it's real and it's valid. And just that alone, I think, makes it worthwhile. We definitely experience that. And that is what is so rewarding. The other thing that's really rewarding for me, because everybody asks me, Sophie, why are you doing this? You know, you're retired. You don't have to work. If you do, you work as an expert, you charge a lot of money and you're doing this for free. And I'm like,

this is the reward at the end of my career. I have spent so long trying to figure out what little way can we do to make it better? Yes, I've had some success stories where we saved kids and gotten victims out. Yes, I've had some very frustrating stories where we haven't been able to save a kid. But with this, after 10, I commit to 10 sessions. We hold them twice a month for two hours per session. They are virtual. And at the end of 10 sessions, I depart. And before that, I do some termination work on my part, but I ask the group, are you all willing to step up and peer facilitate this? And so far we've only lost one group. And that's because some of the group members had such huge successes that they didn't need it anymore. And they had their kids back and they were too busy to go to the support group.

Yeah. Yeah. No, it's really rewarding. So we were just both sort of saying that, oh, these stories have so many of the same beats and you sort of like see the same thing over and over again. And that some of these things also are really like red flags that we talk about for this abuse. So can we talk about specifically what are some of the commonalities that you see in these stories? Yes. You've already mentioned one, and that is questioning your own reality. One of the reasons it's chaotic in the first few sessions for people to tell their story is because they second guess everything that they think they might have a visual or an auditory or a physical memory of. They just question it. They just, I'm not sure that's real.

I'm not sure that was real. Yeah. So they all question their reality. Then they all also have so much shame. And that's another reason that having peers to talk about this with who can say, yeah, shame is a big part of this. You're ashamed with your peers that your family would have such a dark secret. Andrea, I consider you a sibling in a way. You're an aunt, but you understand that you went through years of experiencing shame. So that's definitely something. And then

there's also one step forward, two steps back, or two steps forward, one step back. There's discouragement when you do peel back another layer and another sort of remembering with eyes that understand Munchausen by proxy abuse and perpetrators. And then there's regression because the progress you felt that you were making to tackle your life, to go to school, to get your next degree, to have a relationship, to, you know, maybe move in with a partner. There's setbacks each time those layers of peel back. And overall, just we see the growth, you know, especially I do come back and visit, um, usually six months and then a year or however long I come back and visit the groups. And I'm astounded at the growth that we see after they do this work of unpeeling. Yeah. I mean, this all sounds very familiar to me. And I think, you know, I'm not, I don't put myself in the same category as the survivors that we talked to, because that's just

such an intense, specific experience. But I certainly like have parallels with my own experience, as you said. And I think the sort of it takes a really long time to reckon with who that person is. And if that person is someone that you loved, who is the offender, then it really like I think you grieve that love all the way along. Like you kind of go, OK, like I think a lot of us talk, you know, and something that Joe and I talk about a lot is whether or not this should be considered a mental illness of its own. Although we recognize that there is a mental illness that underlies the behavior, like, we are always very clear to say that this is, this is abuse. This is not someone who doesn't have their, you know, is not culpable for a crime because of reasons of insanity and that kind of thing. And I think also, because that is sort of like, not to say that it like exactly lets people off the hook, although sometimes I think it does, but that you sort of like, and I remember

in my own journey, and I think this is true for a lot of us, is like, that's kind of the first place you go where you think like, oh, they're doing it because they're sick. So I don't have to really like grapple with the level of intentionality that's happening here because I'm sort of going to put it in this bucket, you know, and I think a lot of people get stuck there. They go, oh, that's a sick person. And they're sort of acting out because they have this illness. And, you know, because we know that this is, by and large, not treatable. I mean, I think for some offenders, for the rare offender, they can make progress. And there is a treatment model. You know, we've talked to Dr. Mary Sanders,

our mutual friend and colleague, you know, numerous times about that. And that's always something I want to make a little bit of space for. But I think, by and large, this is not a behavior that people are held accountable for, that they make themselves accountable for, that they try to get rid of, that they try and make progress on. So that's not going to be what most people are dealing with. And I think, you know, I found that like the more I learned about it, it gave me clarity. But that also added some to my grief because I really had to just sit. It's like you sort of, I think a lot of us, as we go through this kind of really get to a place where we finally find ourselves sitting with what that person has done, and that they did it intentionally over a long period of time, and that they understood what they were doing the whole time. And that's just a really hard thing to sit with. And so yeah,

that really resonates with me what you're saying about sort of like peeling back those layers of grief. And I think it's but it's also important. Right. I think like that's sort of like the only way out is through. And I think I talk to a lot of people where they're really early in that journey. And that's that's when I'm like, I don't think I should put you on the show, because I think like that could send you sort of, you know what I mean? And that's why I feel so good about having the support groups as a resource, because it's something to give people in a, in a situation where we know that, like, I mean, I don't think we've ever talked to a survivor that was permanently

separated from their abuser, have we? Good question. Not that I can think of right now. I do know that a topic of discussion that comes up frequently is navigating the no contact issue. And our survivors have been so good and give each other so much grace group might be absolutely No contact, no contact, n for you at the exact same is moving back in with th that's really hard. But a it's sort of like the more you learn about the actual abuse that has occurred and the intentionality and that so much of it that you might have just sort of said, I'm not sure if that really was abuse.

And you start going, no, it really was just the heaviness of that, sitting with that. And so the survivors can help each other with that. On any given day, there will be one group that would be really heavy with it, or one member. And then the other members will kind of step up and nurture that person. Yeah, that's really beautiful. I want to tell you about a show I love, Truer Crime from Cilicia Stanton. My favorite true crime shows are the ones where I feel like the creator has a real stake in what they're talking about. And this is definitely the case with Cilicia, who got interested in covering crime because, like many of us in this genre, she experienced it. In each episode of the show, Cilicia brings a personal, deeply insightful lens to the crime that she covers, whether it's a famous case like the Manson murders or Jonestown, or a lesser-known case that needs to be heard,

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We talk regularly to Kathy Ayou in the APSAC committee meetings. She's had a database and she's been following cases for many years and she has more of sort of a medical record algorithm, like sort of looking at demographic data, looking at CPS placement, did they go to college, those kinds of things. How long were they in therapy? One of the issues we have is human subjects, institutional review board approval to do research with any survivor of abuse. This is a high bar. Okay. I mean, we, all of us interested in child abuse have to go through a gazillion safeguards before we can do research on survivors. Yeah. Yeah. I know that's pretty complicated. I mean, I think like one of

the, you know, one of my, I guess, aims in with this season is, and like why it's sort of personally really resonant for me is that I have noticed that and I'm sure this is not unique to this abuse but I think because this abuse is so severe and because it does encompass often these other types of abuse right you talk about like the um what is it the adverse childhood experiences the sort of aces score you know a lot of the folks that we talk to it's not just this abuse isolated. It's like this abuse. And then, you know, their parent was dealing with other, you know, addiction issues or because of the sort of amount of deception in these offenders lives, there's like all kinds of other chaos and abuse kind of going on in that household. And I fear sometimes that people looking at survivors of Munchausen by proxy

will be inclined to give up on them because they just think, oh, what this person's been through, there's no way you could sort of be, you know, be okay or be sort of have normal relationships or be a contributing member of society or what have you, you know? And that's something I really want to push back on, because I think that most survivors, the system is not going to help them adequately, right? Like, I think the stories like Alyssa Wayburn, that we covered in season two, which is a story I know, you know, well, I mean, those are the exception to the rule, it usually does not, you know, community does not usually swoop in and save the child and find themselves in a loving home. So I guess, like, what would you say

to people who, like, just, I guess, what do you want to say to people about survivors of this abuse? Like, what are our reasons to be hopeful? So our reasons to be hopeful are the same reasons we have for really any victim of abuse, which is resilience. We see people who come out of childhood torture situations. And I actually equate Munchausen syndrome, my proxy abuse to childhood torture. To me, it's some of the most parallel in terms of understanding the dynamic and the long lasting horrible effects. But we have children who have emerged from childhood torture. And if they have just a glimmer of a resilience factor, that means some adult in their life who listened to them, who was there for them on the tough days,

who encouraged them. It could be a teacher. It could be somebody at church. It could be a counselor. It could be in an older sibling, but just some other person there. And then there's the concept of dandelions and orchids, a book written by a pediatrician that talks about, there are some kids who are very, very sensitive. And even in the most nurturing hothouse of an environment, they will still be sensitive and be stressed and have quirks. And then there are dandelions and they will just plant and grow in the cracks of the sidewalk. And the hope is that we have a lot of dandelions who were in these horrible situations and we'll find their way out and we'll find resilience factors.

Yeah, I love that. And I think Joe is like the dandelionist of the dandelions because I think that's the thing that has struck me about Joe kind of over and over again is just their incredible resilience and like determination to be happy and live in the world and help others and I just I know you see that as well. And I just, I wonder if you can kind of tell us like from your perspective, what makes Jo so special? For me personally, I am so delighted to have an academic mentee. I think, and you asked early on about how could I do this work and not just burn out. It's hard work.

The way that I handle dealing with the child abuse is that I went to academia. It's too hard clinically to do this five days a week. I listened to your interviews with Dr. Sally Smith, and she even agreed. She said, look, if child abuse was my 100% job, I couldn't have done it. Thank goodness for pediatrics. And I'm going to say thank goodness for academia. So I am so excited that we have got talent in the next generations who are bringing the next generations to our consciousness. The fact that Joe has such a strong social media and other modern technology presence is educating those of us who grew up in libraries. And I am so pleased that I can help them understand things like human subjects approval and writing for publication and getting data. In addition to what Joe helps me understand with the influencers

and what you help me understand with the influence of podcasting. Yeah. We have a beautiful little generational dialogue with the three of us be, I feel like. But yeah. And like, what are your hopes for Joe as they go forward in their career? My hope for Joe is that they will continue to blossom and find joy on the journey. I have no preconceived notions. If they want to continue an academic career, awesome. If they want to go into raising goats in the mountains, awesome. Whatever it is, as long as they're finding joy along the path, which I think is very well in place. I agree with you. I agree with you. You know, Bea, something that we see even within families is that people really experience or sort of view this abuse really differently. And so

that can definitely happen between siblings. So can you talk about, I mean, I think it's always interesting to talk about sibling relationships because you're sort of, you're in the same family, but you're not in the same family because it was happening at a different time, you know? And like, can you talk about kind of how siblings may experience that parent differently? Yes. So the siblings of victims of Munchausen by proxy abuse all say how they were divided and split by their abusive mother. The abusive mother did everything they could to pit the children against each other, to keep them hating each other, because heaven forbid, if the siblings got together and shared their experience, it'd be two against mom, right?

And so these mothers have like a driven instinct to keep one of the kids from ever really hearing what's going on that's bad from the other. So splitting, and we know splitting is a function of narcissists and, you know, people who abuse in other ways is keep them separated. And then we hear, because many of them didn't know the term Munchausen by proxy at the time their siblings were being abused they just thought that there was torture going on in the house and they would also be abused by the torture like many of them will say yeah I was locked in a I was locked in my room I was just kept in my room I didn't even realize what all was going on in that hospital room down the hall in our home. I was just locked out. Yeah. Yeah. And I think that, yeah, that,

that really resonates. And yeah, that sort of keeping, I mean, I think it's like, it really one of the most profound things about this abuse is like the way that it isolates the victim. And like that they really, it seems to me in hearing a lot of these stories that that abuser really ensures that that victim is not going to have a close relationship with anybody else. Yes. Good point. And the siblings are aware of that. Yeah. And I think that the siblings also seems to me like if you, you know, cause we see a lot of this with like, you know, if there are two or three kids in the house that like, you know, a pattern I've seen many times is that like, okay,

it started a little bit with one or maybe even the oldest didn't get it at all. And then the next one, you know, gets it medium. And then the third one, you know, really is the, you know, their life is in danger, et cetera. That's kind of like the pattern with the Hope Ybarra case. And we've seen that through a bunch of sort of sibling cases where it sort of gets worse as time goes on and really escalates every time there's a new child. And obviously the youngest child is always going to be the most vulnerable because they can't speak or they're, you know, they're smaller, what have you. And so I think you see a lot of that escalation. And then I think for the older siblings who end up, you know, maybe not the primary target of the abuse, there's also a ton of neglect, right? Like that kid's just completely forgotten in that household. Right.

But I'm very curious about, I've become increasingly curious about the gender dynamics of this when you have, you know, and we can talk a little bit about dads because we, you know, we have talked to, again, non-offending parents, so both dads and stepmothers, right? We hear from a lot of stepmothers as well who are really good and really trained to help the kids and or adult survivors. And I've become very interested in some of these dads who appear, you sort of have the spectrum of how male partners react to these. And I'm sure this happens in same-sex couples, but I've just, the stories I'm aware of are mostly hetero couples where either the father is present to some degree or the father's

completely absent, like he was in the Alyssa Weyburn case. And, you know, you sort of see this spectrum, right? You have, on the one hand, you have the Doug Welch's, the George Honeycutt's, the Ryan Crawford's, dads that do everything under the sun to protect that child and just will stop at nothing and unfortunately have to go over, you know, more hurdles than they should in order to protect the child from abuse usually. And so you have those, you know, that group, and that's a group we're really familiar with because those are the people who will seek out something like a support group for fathers. And then you have kind of the middle, right, where the dads are like a little checked

out or they have a job that takes them, you know, away, or they're just a really passive guy and they sort of definitely don't do as much as they should, but maybe are not sort of strictly to blame. And that's sort of strictly to blame. And that's sort of the, you know, even I put like kind of Rod Blanchard of the Gypsy Rose Blanchard case in that story where he was, you know, separated and the abuser really did everything they could to sort of keep him away from her. And so it's sort of like, yes, he's responsible. Yes, he probably should have done more, but he wasn't sort of collaborating in the abuse. And then I think you have the dads where I put my

brother-in-law in this category where they have, it's like you have, this person has been presented with so much evidence over so many years that it's really unforgivable that they haven't acted protectively of their kids. And then, you know, it kind of in that category slash even a maybe more extreme version of that category is someone like Jack Kowalski, who we talked about last season in the Maya Kowalski case, where when you look at the records, when you look at the evidence in that case, he was participating. He took her to half of her medical appointments. where that question of, oh, is munchausen by proxy abuse caused by a mental illness, by like a specific mental illness, it gets really confusing because even this came up in another in that Lehigh, Pennsylvania story where someone said, well, this person said that both of these parents had munchausen by proxy. Like that could never be true. And you're like, well, yeah, no,

but you could have a parent that was also collaborating in the abuse by just going along with it or letting the parent do it. Right. And like you see, obviously, female partners doing that, too, with like dads that are sexually abusing their children or what have you. And so I've been I've become really interested in sort of those cases where the dad is playing a bigger role. And I just, I wonder, like, I realize this is like a big open question that I just opened, but sort of like, what, like, what do you think about the dads in these situations? So I think the term we're looking for is an enabler. And there's a lot of literature on enablers. I think we look at it as any partner who is so enmeshed that not only do they fit in the, oh, this is awful, I got to get out, or just the, I can't look at it to even, I don't want to know if it's awful, but then they go, I've looked at it. It's awful. And rather than try to deter it, become part of the problem. And I have, I don't know what the difference is that some parents cross that line. So the gender dynamics, you and I've talked about this at length,

is that caretaking, caregiving is within a feminine domain. So my other area of research is what I call professional Munchausen by proxy, which is where a healthcare provider or somebody in the helping professions, instead of using their child to get medical attention by creating healthcare crises, they use a dependent in their care. So this could be a home health provider. What I have studied is mostly in hospitals and in nursing homes. And I have a database of 154 healthcare providers who have been prosecuted for serial murder of patients in their care by injecting them with substances or toxins. And 86% are nurses. And of that 86%, half of the nursing staff are men. Okay. So this takes me to, this is a crime of opportunity and it's within the caregiving domain. And so- And Bea, I'm just curious with that statistic,

because that's shocking. Mostly because I think of, and maybe this is not true anymore, do you know what percentage of nursing professionals are male versus female? Yes. 12% of nursing staff are male. So males are significantly overrepresented in the healthcare serial murder database. Wow. And it's because it's a crime of opportunity. It's done within the domain of caregiving. And it takes us to that movie, Misery. So it wasn't so much her gender, that when James Caan was starting to get better and wanted to get the heck out of the bed,

and she whacks him and so he can't leave. It was the opportunity. It's whoever is providing the care, the nursing care, the motherly care, the breastfeeding, the primary care, basically. Wow. So that leads me to think that we could possibly see a shift as these, you know, there's a lot of research to say that like, I guess this is the, wow, this is a real like dark side of this otherwise uplifting statistic, that like millennial dads are much more involved in their, you know, in their kids' care than previous generations. And so it would be interesting to see if this shifts over time as we see who is caring for children shift. Yes. And those are some of the cases that I'm seeing is where it is dads who are equally involved or sometimes primarily involved

as the gender dynamics of families evolve in a good way. And yes, they will munchhausen. They will do medical child abuse. They will get their needs met through over-medicalizing their children and getting that attention. Yeah, that's so fascinating. And I mean, when I think about some of these cases where the evidence shows that the dads have been participating more than others, like with Jack Kowalski, where he was retired. And so he was a lot more involved than maybe, you know, your average working dad of that generation. Yeah, that's really fascinating. And we will have to have you back on to talk about your serial killer research, because that is so interesting. So something you said much earlier in our conversation really stuck in my head,

when you were talking about working as a nurse very early in your career in the pediatric burn unit and that a full like half of those burns were inflicted by well of the under five of the under five right so for very young yes because of course like that very young very young children that yeah about third. About a third to a half were inflicted violence. Yeah, and I think, you know, one of the things that we're up against trying to raise awareness about this form of abuse is that there are many people that just don't want to believe that child abuse is as common as the data would suggest it is. And I wonder what you, as a longtime child abuse professional, want to say about that. Oh, gosh. This is where I have existential angst. I've been thinking about it a lot because the system is broken the system that would protect kids is not is not a happy ending for most kids and so I'm not sure we want to

be identifying it anymore unless we can provide a good solution or a good outcome as we know, it's really society. It's society that has to start saying, we won't tolerate physical abuse. We won't tolerate emotional abuse of children. We do write laws. We have evolved as a society to at least not treat children worse than animals, or at least give them some rights. But I don't think the laws alone have caught, or the system that implements the laws is not yet where we want to identify every single case. Yeah. I was on the board of Prevent Child Abuse America for many years because they

say prevent it before it happens. Providing home visitation to childbearing families, especially those in distress or those under stress or those with high ACEs or those that are homeless or those that have, um, you know, mental illnesses and depression, home health support, where you say to a pregnant family, we're here when that baby cries in the middle of the night, the baby's not mad at you. The baby's just uncomfortable. You don't have to be upset with the baby and give coaching on developmental milestones. No, you don't need to potty train your child by the age of eight months. No, you don't need to smack them if they have an accident and wet their pants. That's not good discipline. To anticipatory guidance through the experience of having an infant and a toddler is the best way to prevent all of this.

And as I think about Munchausen by proxy abuse, I'm thinking it's also a good way to prevent maybe over-medicalizing. If you can just say, no, this is normal and calm down the illness anxiety that sometimes precedes munchausen by proxy, that might be a good way to prevent that. Yeah. I mean, I, so I actually, I'll have to reach out to you about this later, but I did, I put in a request because I'd like to have someone from Prevent Child Abuse come on the show to talk about exactly what you're talking about, because I think that is a sort of hopeful thing. And, you know, last season we had Dr. Jessica Price, who is a researcher and former CPS investigator on the show to talk about her book. And she shared that statistic

with us that 76% of cases that end up in the system and children that get separated are happening basically because of poverty adjacent reasons. So not adequate housing, not adequate supplies, whatever, basically problems that some resources could solve. And, you know, so then we're only talking about the sort of 24% of cases that are abuse related. And even within those, a lot of those are certainly exacerbated by everything that you were just talking about by people not getting adequate support, basically. And I mean, both you and I are moms. Like, I've thought many times, like, I don't think like one of the things that I think is a sort of misperception about maybe not medical child abuse I think it is a little bit different than some of

these other things that we're talking about that are sort of can be really exacerbated by anger frustration you know lack of resources that kind of thing but I think I think a lot of people who are in a more well-supported position would like to believe that it could never be them who loses their temper with their child or could never be them that sort of does the wrong thing. And I don't think that's true. I don't think that there's quite as hard of a line there as people like to think because, I mean, having a new baby is so stressful. It taxes every resource you have. And if you are not adequately supported, I think a lot of people would not be the parent that they might otherwise be. And I think that those support systems and I think, you know, the other thing like what I think about for medical child abuse, I mean, having seen it in my family where I guess my sister is the darkest version of an orchid, someone who did not come from a difficult upbringing,

someone who had every resource and every thing that a person could really want in terms of support and financial support and all that kind of thing and still went on to engage in those behaviors. But I think what can always help, and you know, something you said earlier was just like that something that creates resilience is just those adults along the way that reach out to a child, that create a safe space, that make a child feel like they're worthwhile and sort of reinforce that belief that their life is worth something really do make a difference. And it makes a difference to that survivor, even if every other, even if sort of every official system fails them along the way. Like, I think one of the things

that like, I mean, yeah, I don't know. I agree with you. I mean, I'm in the middle of an existential crisis myself about it because we always tell people report abuse, report it to the police, report it to CPS. And now we're seeing this situation where, oh, and then hope that you don't end up as the villain of a Netflix film and it ruins your life. Good luck out there. You know, like it's very hard to know what to tell people and under this circumstances. But I think what we can tell people is that like, it's never going to be an effort wasted to like, be there for a child and to try and support a child that's going through a rough time because we've seen it. We've seen it time and again, where people remember that one teacher,

that one friend's parent, like anyone who was kind to them and supported them, like that's the thing that they hold on to forever. Yeah, that's a really good hopeful note. And I do believe that we as a society have made exponential progress in a century in terms of our awareness of protecting children. Right. I mean, there was a point where I think it is like to sort of look at the longer scope of things is helpful because right now it feels, of course, very much to me being very, very in it that we are headed in the wrong direction with our sort of like medical kidnapping panic that we're having. But yeah, if you look at it like over the span of decades or or certainly over 100 years, like it just wasn't the idea of like, don't beat your children. It like being a thing was just not even sort of a cultural norm. So at least we have sort of moved in some direction where like, yes,

we're still in a lot of denial about how often it happens, but at least that we can mostly agree that it is a bad thing to mistreat your children, which was not always the case. Exactly. All right. Well, thank you so much, Bea, for giving us so much of your time. It's always a delight to talk to you. I could always talk to you forever. If you've been listening to this show for a while, you know that I have very strong feelings about what is and is not responsible true crime content. Maybe you've heard me make some pointed comments

about the producers of a certain film, or perhaps you've heard one make some pointed comments about the producers of a certain film, or perhaps you've heard one of my dozen or so rants about a certain journalist whose name rhymes with Schmeichel. And if you've been with me for a while, you'll also know that getting Nobody Should Believe Me on the air was quite the roller coaster. Podcasting is just the Wild West, y'all. And these experiences are what led me to launch my new network, True Story Media, where we are all about uplifting true crime creators, doing the work, and making thoughtful, survivor-centric shows. And I could not be more thrilled to announce our very first creator partner, You Probably

Think This Story's About You. The first season of this enthralling show from breakout creator Brittany Ard took podcasting by storm in 2024, zooming to the number one spot in the charts on Apple and Spotify as Brittany revealed the captivating story of a romantic deception that upended her life and traced the roots of her own complicated personal history that led her there. Brittany is back in 2025 with brand new episodes, this time helping others tell their own stories of betrayal, heartache, and resilience. If you love Nobody Should Believe Me, I think you will also love You Probably Think This Story's

About You for its themes of deception, complex family intrigue, and its raw, vulnerable storytelling. You can binge the full first season and listen to brand new episodes each week by following the show on Spotify, Apple, or wherever you get your podcasts. You can also find it at the link in our show notes.