Nobody Should Believe Me - Introducing: Affirmative Murder
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affirmative murder the equal opportunity true crime comedy podcast i'm alvin williams joined as
always by my partner in true crime francois evans what up mr postman what is going on for a man
not much man what is going on these crazy times on the ethernet here um um
I don't know, man.
I mean, what are we getting into today?
We're going, what will we touch knowing?
Well, listen.
My hardest stuff?
Yeah, listen, as Janice Smith, the founder of wokeism,
said many a moon ago, the political and economic state of the world,
I don't want to talk about this week, you know?
Can we not talk about that this week for once?
You know, there's a lot of crazy shit going on.
I have my thoughts.
If you follow any of our social media platforms,
you know I'm giving it up crazy on there.
I'm not, like, remaining silent.
but I'm here to talk with my homie for a little bit.
Let's have some laughs.
So, Fran, once upon a time, a fast food chain set the world on fire with a sandwich.
They've come back in 2025 with another mission to disrupt, to destabilize.
Popeyes has released the Don Julio collaboration.
And it is everything that I feared.
Yeah.
I saw some dude running around a Popeye's at like 10 o'clock in the morning pouring people shots of Don Julio.
I didn't know why the Popeye's was full.
I'd never see people sitting in a Popeye's.
Yeah.
One thing about Popeyes is it's working class chicken.
You get it after you get off work, you take it home to your family.
Yeah.
I've never seen people sitting in Popeye's dining in.
And now the Don Julio collab comes out.
And I've seen all the little wooden benches with the curves on the back.
Yeah.
They're all full with people now getting poured Don Julio into their drinks.
Now, could this been in propaganda?
Sure.
But that speaks to who they think they need to give money to to sell the chicken to us.
What have you seen since the release of this Don Julio's collabies collab?
I have seen the excitement of...
We're going to use that word excitement about chicken.
Dark liquor and fried chicken.
And I recently just saw.
a video of like
you can like get a section
and you can have the bottle girls come out with the sign
and the sprinklers and shit with the Don Julio
I need you to stop and they dance and they got
like little you know sexy little
I need you to stop I swear
I just I just I just saw this
they got like a section you can
and then they got the drink girls come out
at the Popeyes at the poppies with the little sign
the sprinklers and shit the Don Julio on their hand
I said nah this is crazy
I didn't know you can get sections at Popeye
That's near me
But I mean that speaks volumes of what
They are like
They're essentially just like
blatantly with a high level
disrespect in our face
Go ahead
Going like hey
Black people love
Black people all you care about is
Where you're easily manipulated
Black people care about
Fraud Chicken
Don Julio
Some type of some dark
some type of dark liquor.
Clubs,
a VIP section, and attention.
It is.
We got that all in package.
It's coming to Popeyes.
Yeah, full rollout,
deceptive distraction program.
And I know that, you know,
my people are not a monolith.
You know, so I know it's a lot of people
that think the way we think
as far as like, this is crazy.
Like, I mean, I like Poppies as much as the next guy.
And when you're,
You said this.
You said this many of times.
And I never seemed to ask you, what is the meaning of when you say black people are not a monolith?
Does that mean that black people are all not the same?
That's exactly what it means.
That's exactly what it means.
Okay.
So, but.
So why do you say that, though?
Because I say, I don't want to, our thought, I don't want what we're saying in the conversation that we're having.
Somebody could hear this and be like, everybody likes fried chicken.
So I think it's racist for you to even.
be offended, like me as a black person, I'm offended that you're making such a big deal
about black people eating chicken. Does that make sense? So it's like almost like, we're the bad
people for being like, why they got us out here drinking the Don Julio in the streets and eating
chicken. It's like, I know there's a black person out there in the world that's like, I just
see people eating chicken in the streets. I don't, I don't look at us as what they have depicted
us as. So why are we carrying on those stereotypes by being upset about people eating fried
chicken. I agree to a point, and that point is just about any Popeye's campaign that I've ever
seen. I think it was Popeye's that had Jerry Rice with the helmet on that had the drumstick
going through the... I see that. Jerry Rice had the helmet. He had the helmet on and the bar
that grows across the face for the football. He had infused the chicken bone into the helmet so he
could eat chicken while he plays football. But he was, this is retired Jerry Rice. So I'm like,
Why can't you just be Jerry Rice to retire football?
Why are you even wearing a helmet in the commercial?
We have not seen you catch a football in 20 years.
Yeah.
But they make you go to put on your costume when you go to entertain us.
Don't fit.
Yeah, you know, well, you got to dress up like the, you got to do the thing.
Dribble the ball.
No, man, Magic Johnson should, and it does, should just get to come out and be like,
hey, man, y'all know who I am.
I don't need to like put on in the Lakers to short shorts in my 60s and be like,
remember me, man?
Look, I'm dribbling the basketball.
But it seems to me like every time Popeye does.
something they're like, oh, the brothers and sisters are going to love this.
And I don't know if a black person owns Popeyes.
So I don't like that.
I don't feel like it's a room full of black people being like, yo, we're going to do the
Popeyes, Don Julio collab.
That is a good question, though.
You know, like, what is that?
Are there any Popeye's franchise being owned by black people?
That's what I'm saying.
But it doesn't matter because, you know, the franchise just does what the head says.
So I would love to see the focus group, where is there a lot of black people in that
focus group that's like, what do black people love besides fried chicken? And obviously, we know
they love fried chicken. What if we did in the stores a Don Julio fried chicken collaboration?
I could be wrong. Maybe the CEO of Popeye is a black person, but it just seems to me,
like you're saying, every time these kind of situations come with Popeye's, they go like,
it shit gets crazy, man. People doing, uh, dance videos outside of the Popeyes for the chicken
sandwich and yeah, all of these things. And this one,
it got further and more egregious because I will say the Pop-Pas chicken sandwich marketing was very
organic. Black people just got excited and it just started going viral so black people wanted
to go viral, eat the sandwich, whatever. This one is like, it's telling to me who they think
they need to call to sell this sandwich. It's like they had a whole rollout for these people to
give to them so you could sell the chicken to your followers. So the shit got kind of crazy,
man and and you know it hasn't been as egregious as the Popeye's chicken sandwich chaos of 2020
like nobody's getting stabbed but I don't like seeing these social media influencers and like you're
saying I didn't see the video you saw but the video I saw I was a dude and a Popeye just running
through the Popeyes with a Don Julio bottle broad daylight giving Don Julio to middle age people
like just you know in in the middle of the day like don't don't film us drinking dark
liquor and eating fried chicken to put
on the internet to show to people. Can you
see this? I can see this. Don Julio
ex-Papai's collab club vibes
in the restaurant. I'm not going to play in the sound because I don't want to mess
a beat. Yeah, don't let no strikes.
Yep, wow. Yeah, those are bottle girls.
Yeah.
And that's just a Popeye's marketing sign.
Yeah. Wow.
Yeah, was this a prank or what do you
think about that? What I think
that was, again, this is what I say about
black people not being a monolith. These look like young black
kids that are like, yo, this is going to go viral
on TikTok. Let's make a whole scene out of it.
Let's have fun about it. I don't think this was
a sanctioned Popeye's event.
I hope to God it wasn't.
I'm going to give them the benefit of that and say, this is
a bunch of like very smart
kids attacking the algorithm. Like,
what do you think it go viral? What if we had like the bottle girl
come out and bring us to Don Julio collab?
I think this is an organic marketing campaign,
but I'm still like, why you got
the girl, bottle girls. I'm not here to shame people for going to go
eat chicken. Everybody
likes chicken.
They don't treat it like that. They treat it like
we know who wants this chicken. We know who wants this
collab. Like
I mean, I mean like we don't
give them we don't give them that though
that's like evidence when
especially when the Popeye's chicken sandwich came out
and the lines were full and people were being
overworked and you couldn't
even get the first week you couldn't even get one
first week. Whatever
when they dropped you couldn't even get one.
So like lines were long. It was bro. It was
Black marketing.
It was insane.
People were buying up all the sandwiches
and then going to redistribute them wholesale
at like barbershops and stuff
for double the price.
Yes, you flip in Pop-Pas chick sandwiches
and they see that and they go, okay,
let's up the Annie.
How can we up the Annie on this?
Don Julio, and then present it
in like a Jordan box
was like, you know when you get Jordans
and then you get like a T-shirt and shit?
There's a box and then there's a box inside of a box.
Yeah, it's like this is really.
This is insane.
These are chicken strips.
It's kind of like a,
That's meant for you to just hold on at some type of sentimental reasons.
Yeah, it's going to be resale value.
Yeah, I remember that time.
That's crazy.
I got Deadstock, Popeye's ex-Don Julio collab merch from 2025.
That's why.
It's 2040.
You selling that for 10 grand.
Yeah.
And that's the part, you bring up a good point.
That's the part that makes me like my antennas pop up where I go.
It's like a self-fulfilling prophecy.
But then it's like, it's not racist when we do it.
Yeah, like when we're having fun about it
Even that video you just showed me like that's them having fun
But then when the Popeye CEOs watch that
And they go, okay, so let's incorporate this
In our marketing
Like instead of just making a sandwich and putting it out
They go, how do we get some of that energy back
From when they did the Popeye's chicken sandwich excitement?
Yeah, I know black people love liquor
What if we did a collaboration with a liquor company?
This is when it gets racist when they go
Okay, we saw how organic fun
looked, how do we make that
businessy? This is no
different to me than when in
2020 Pepsi was like, we see
all these protests and George Floyd got killed and everything.
I got it. Let's go
get Kendall Jenner and
have her go give Pepsi to a police
officer in the middle of a riot
and then the riot stops
because Pepsi's so delicious and crispy
and quenches your thirst.
And that was the commercial they decided to go
with in the midst of like civil
unrest and everything like that. This is
is a version of that to me
where they go remember when black people
were all excited and stabbing each other for chicken sandwiches
how do we get that back
but with our brains not
because we can't just we can't rely on black people
to be organic again
what if they don't like the new sandwich with the
with the crispy bun or whatever these
whatever this
whatever's in this box
yeah what if they don't get as excited about the
Don Julio collab without us
making more of a big deal about it
and this is what a big deal looks like to them
when they spend money on the when they spend money on the marketing this is what we get foolery
VIP sections in the Popeyes and people pouring liquor in the people's cups that the
shit looks crazy and I'm not here to be I was about to say a person's name that we can't say
anymore but fuck it because it's true still once upon a time Bill Cosby was a guy that was like
yeah what he would be like pull your pants up and stop eating chicken and come
I'm not trying to be that.
For many, I'm not trying to be Bill Cosby in any way.
But I'm just saying, like, I'm not here to be like, hey, man, we got to stop eating chicken.
That's not what I'm here to say.
I'm just saying, like, let's relax a little bit.
We don't got to be so enthusiastic and all this shit about the shit, filming ourselves.
That's a thing, no, that's the thing.
We are, and so, like you said, being enthusiastic and then giving all this energy of, like, a chicken sandwich.
they go look
they love it
they love it
and it's just self-fulfilling
that's the part that makes me sick
like don't make them right
in their racism
yeah
like what do we do wrong
you guys clearly love it
yeah
you guys are dancing
and pouring liquor into the
you guys love Donhulio
and chicken we were right
you're eating it
and drinking it at the same time
you're dipping the chicken strips
into the Don Julio
you guys are loving it
and I'm like not us
we're not monolithic
yeah
that's why I say
because I'm like
just like I'm saying
But, yeah, but we, most of us do, though.
Most of us do what?
Like chicken, fried chicken.
Yeah, but like,
why are you keep saying that when like, you're like it's 50-50 when like
like, no, that's not, that's not accurate.
No, but like, this is odd.
Oh, my God.
I hate this.
But it is too.
We love fried chicken.
But like, but like everybody loves fried chicken.
That's my issue.
Not like black people, bro.
Not like black people.
There's a different love for black people.
We create, I mean, it's, it's our invention.
Like, it's black, it's kind of like black culture.
Right.
But, like, anybody, if you said watermelon, everybody loves, oh, everybody loves watermelon.
Yeah.
Okay, that, that's different.
That's not like fried chicken.
Now, if they came up with, like, watermelon and, like, the Don Julio bottles stuck
to the, you don't talk about, like, like, like, a tropical drink, like it comes
in a watermelon, like it comes like a coconut?
No, that would be crazy.
If they had that.
Well, you guys love it.
This is a little tropical drink with an umbrella in it and it's a little watermelon.
A coconut painted like a watermelon?
Yeah, they got like they got like the bottle hanging out.
No, he's with the coronas.
A floater.
A floater.
Yeah, floating out of a watermelon.
There were those like that's like that's like a side.
Yeah.
You can get the upgrade.
Get extra donned out.
Extra don't.
The double don.
You get the Don Julio mini hanging out of the watermelon bowl.
Yeah, man.
We just love, we love fried chicken.
Stop saying it, though, because don't stop.
We don't love fried chicken.
I'm not, look.
You don't love fried chicken?
Don't ask me that.
You don't love fried chicken?
Don't ask me.
Don't ask me.
You don't love fried chicken.
I'm not acting like I don't love fried chicken, but don't ask me that.
Do you or do you not?
This is the thing, right?
I'm not trying to sit here and act ashamed of liking fried chicken, but I'm just saying, like,
this is why I say the not monolithic thing.
Because there are people.
There are people.
There are people that are here that will hear this conversation and be like, why are you guys so obsessed with the idea of black people eating fried chicken?
Everybody likes fried chicken.
That's one end of the spectrum.
But then there's the other end of the spectrum that's like, I fucking love the Don Julio's Popa's collaboration.
And who are you to tell me not to eat it?
So I'm like, we're not here to speak for all black people because all black people think differently.
From our perspective, and there are other people who have the same perspective as us, I assume.
At least there's two right here having a conversation with each other.
This shit looks a little crazy when you get too excited.
about it.
We don't need to jump in the
Chubbubb kick out heels.
We don't, we don't need to do that.
That's, this is too much.
We just get, we just,
they're going like, see?
It does a disservice.
Like, we need to think bigger than,
sure, like you asked me that question.
Sure, I love, I love fresh.
Yeah.
I love fried chicken.
It's delicious, you know?
Like, it's this,
it's crispy, all those things.
It's juicy.
It's delicious, man.
But I would never,
you would never catch me
biting into some crispy fried chicken,
like on camera or like
in promotion of some
I would never
there would never be a chicken sponsor on this podcast
So Popeyes came to a
It would there's not a dollar
They could give me to be like
What to be like affirmative murders
Brought to you by Popeye's
Mm hmm
There's nothing
Bring it
The crispiness
Man
I'm like you can
I'll take it
Get to Popeyes now
And get a murder me
six crispy drumsticks with the red beans and rice and with the bloody red beans and rice
and don't forget a biscuit I'm humming and stuff no I'm you'd have to I mean
you could take all the proceeds the affirmative mac and cheese delicious just like
grandma used to make I'm salivating just thinking about it yeah like
walk, don't run.
Get to a Popeye's before all the chicken's gone.
I'm not, I'm not saying that.
I'm not saying that, bro.
I'm not marketing that.
I'm not promoting that.
You have promoting that?
I can't do it, bro.
I can't.
No, I can't do it, man.
Wow.
I can't do it, man.
Okay.
And maybe that's me perpetuating
dumb stereotypes that we should let die,
but like, I don't think it's dying.
So I feel like...
But why wouldn't you take a sponge of papas?
If everybody loves fried chicken.
If I had full creative control of the marketing campaign, maybe, to where you might not even know it's a chicken commercial.
But I don't think that would be the case.
I'm not trying to be in an email chain with some ad executive that's like, so we wanted to sound really organic.
So really make sure you, we gave you a script, but we want you to kind of go off script a little bit to really show how much you love fried chicken.
Yeah.
And then I send it in and they're like, could you really show some more love to the show?
We love the ad.
You know, you hit all the spots about getting there today, use the code and all that stuff.
But could you, like, do another one and just talk more?
Same the song.
We'd love you to hum more.
Love that chick.
Broom, b'am.
Could you talk more about your mammy, like, about, like, growing up and how your mammy would make chicken?
Maybe you could do more like that, like an organic type of thing like that, and maybe make some crispy sounds, like you're crunching into the chicken.
We'd love that.
So, like, maybe do another read.
We love what you gave us, but maybe do another one a little more enthusiasm.
I'm not trying to be having that kind of conversation.
No.
You got to draw the line.
Yeah, I agree with that.
I agree with that.
So, yeah, man, I don't know.
Listen, fried chicken's delicious.
It is.
But I'm not getting on camera to praise fried chicken ever.
And if that's like me being too, thinking, overthinking it or trying to be like a bourgeoisie or something, I don't know.
I'm sorry, but, like, that's just how I feel.
I would never get on camera and be like, this chicken is delicious.
My eyes are all big.
I'm making them big and bug down.
I was like, I can't. I can't do it.
So, but yeah, listen, man, before we take a break, because I can talk about that all day long.
Real quick, man, shout out to this lady in Pakistan, Nikki Minaj's cousin.
I don't know who this is, but I've been obsessed with this for a week.
Yeah, I heard about the story. I don't know the full store and all the details, but I just know bits and parts.
So this woman, first of all, I mean, she's kind of a predator.
This woman whose name is like Omyra something or O'Neika, that's Nickymanage's name.
She is doing like a, she did like a 90-day fiancé type of thing.
But the guy is 19.
So she's like 35.
She's married or in a relationship, has kids and everything.
She got on a flight.
I hope this doesn't sound racist.
But I didn't even know you could just go to Pakistan.
like she's clearly from like queens or something like that
I didn't know you could just get on the plane
I didn't know you could like today I can go on my phone
and be like I'm gonna go get a flight to Pakistan
I didn't know that you could just do that
really yeah I just didn't think
I don't know it feels like that's first of all
it's an international flight like
I don't know what our relationship is
with Pakistan at the moment like I just didn't
I didn't think it was like just cool
it's like I feel like in my mind it's like Cuba
like you can't not that we're embargoed
but like I just didn't think it's just like
you could just go to Pakistan
yeah so that
was news to me when I see this woman that's like yo first of all like yo I need 30,000 yeah I was like
what is this I first I thought it was fake and I'm looking around at all the people I'm like no
these are Pakistani civilians living a day to day life and there's just this woman from
queens in a burqa like yo first of all I need to tell y'all we're gonna knock all this down
I need 150,000 I'm gonna rebuild the city I want 100,000 I said what what did you
And it's like how did you
That was my first time
It was like she walked in off a set
Like it was an SNL sketch
Like she just walked into Pakistan
From like off camera
And all of a sudden she's in Pakistan
This is crazy, listen to this
Turn all this down
What do you need right now
My feet is swollen
I need 5,000 a week
You need 5,000 a week
Who's give you 5,000
There's all our poor people
Yeah, I better figure it out
There's all our poor people
They are not a rich people
Ask the government
He talked too much
That's it
Yes, that's it
Yes, I'm saying
You talk too much
Thank you
I have a good day
I just have a shit
She's definitely from New York
I don't understand
So like how much of this
How much of these
She went over ready to get married
Right
She went over to like
I think I got sidetracks
So I don't think I finished it
So yeah
So she's in her 30s
She meets online
She starts an online
Relationship with this 19 year old
she flies to Pakistan off of the strength of the online commiseration.
Like they,
you know,
like they bonded so much that she's like,
yo,
I'm going to go out there and meet my husband.
He's 19.
She shows up a grown-ass late.
She's like 34 years old.
She shows up his parents,
because he lives home with his parents,
they're like,
nah,
what is this?
Who are you?
Yo, I'm here at me,
him and get married.
We're going to go get married in Dubai.
They were like,
nah.
Slam the door in her face.
And she just never left.
And so she basically is down the street from his house.
and is on the news like yeah I'm here my husband we're married we already got married but we're going to go have a ceremony in Dubai and I need a hundred thousand dollars from the government of Pakistan and she just won't leave so we need to go get her money to leave like what's happening well her family's come out and said she's out of her mind like clearly like everything about this is this is a mentally ill person like this is but she's got such a new york confidence that you're like but when we say that mentally ill put up and like bro she's in Pakistan I get that I get that you're like I get that.
Yeah, but she had, but she was able to get on a flight and go to Pakistan.
That's true.
I mean, now she's, now that she's like, she's there and she won't leave it, now she's crazy.
She was crazy when she bought the ticket to go to Vegas.
She was always crazy.
She was always crazy.
She just is functional enough to be able to go buy a plane ticket and get on a plane.
I don't think she got on.
I'm sure the plane ride was crazy too, but just not too crazy that she got kicked off the plane.
So, you know, and now she's there.
She's going full-blown.
crazy. I can't stop watching
videos. Flying to Pakistan is crazy. Flying to Pakistan is crazy.
Like, that's insane. Like, what?
I just couldn't believe it. So, yeah, this lady's out in Pakistan talking wild crazy.
Like, these are like, I think these are like political activists that they're having a meeting about trying to get some shit done in their country.
And she's like, yo, I need a quarter million.
Why it to me by Thursday? And they're like, okay, yeah. Thank you very much.
She's like, no, first of all, praise to Allah.
Lord be to Allah and all of that
I'm married I'm a Pakistani
And they're humoring her
But eventually they're gonna stop humoring her
And I'm concerned about this woman
Somebody just decided to hit her in the head with a rock
Like get the fuck
What you're talking about? Why are you yelling at everybody?
Everybody's talking about everybody crazy
She's out there talking to people wild
Like Remy Ma
She's talking like Remy Ma
She's like, are you dumb?
She's sleeping like on the street
I don't know
But I am
I am obsessed and fascinated
I don't know what she's doing
I don't know where she's sleeping
But I'm concerned for her safety
But I'm also like
This is fascinating and hilarious
But I'm also like
When this stops being funny
I get the same kind of vibe
Of like early Orlando
Brown
When it was like
Yo what's he doing
climbing the telephone pole
And talking about ooshkosh
And it was funny
But then you go
But all right
It's not funny to me anymore
I'm concerned
Now it's still funny to me
But it's starting to turn
Like where is this lady sleeping
And is she okay
Like do these people
Are these people dangerous
Like are they getting fed up with her
And once they're fed up with her
what happens then so that's starting to set in it's still funny when i see some of the clips
but there was one she's on the phone she was eating a eating food and on the phone like yeah no i need
a jet brought to me i'm not going anywhere without a jet make it happen yeah i don't understand why
she's not i don't understand the whole i'm not leaving until i get whatever yeah she's very
indignant i don't know why she thinks why are they why would they need to give you money but she's
going to cause an international incident man like they're going to have to go like negotiate
This is going to be, like, okay, I said I didn't want to talk politics, but she could just leave, though.
He just doesn't want to leave.
She can leave until they decide, like, yo, put her in jail.
Like, you know, until she crosses a line that makes her get arrested.
And then the second that happens, because this is viral enough, Donald Trump's going to go get her to be like, I'm going to get some good favor with black people.
I would have said that if this was his first term, he can't get reelected again.
So she has no chance.
they're not going to go Brittany Griner her
like to go get her to get some favor
from the people
they don't need that now
so if anything happens to this woman
nobody can't like the government
is not going to negotiate with Pakistan
to get retrieve you
so they need to get her home
before they don't think it's funny anymore
and I don't think they think it's funny
I think they're making a laughing stock
she's making a laughing stock of Pakistan
on TV and on the internet and shit
and they're going to get sick of her
and somebody that's like anti-American
is going to be like,
yo, fuck this lady.
I'm going to go fucking kill her.
Like, that's a real concern of mine.
You're on there being wild, arrogant American
in this other people's country.
Like, yo, give me money.
Fuck, shut.
She told the dude he was sitting there.
He seemed like some kind of elder.
Like he had, like, respect.
She's like, yo, shut up.
You talk too much.
I was like, yo, what is happening?
You talk wild too much.
Like, OD talking.
I was like, yo, you can't talk to people like this.
Why is it always us?
Goddance, man.
We got to take it because I'm not
the chicken thing we can't
This is not what we're going to do
This is the same thing
It's getting wild Candace Owens
I don't, we're not
Candace Owens, I don't, we're not going to be doing it
A little genuine question
Why?
I don't know why this
How does she end up there, bro?
Like, I don't understand it.
It just was so crazy.
Oh, God.
In the same month, the Popeye's down Julio
and then this late, that's a kid.
It was too much.
It was too much back-to-back, bro.
Like, what's going to be?
This is a New York thing.
I don't know.
This is New York.
New York, the Don Julio thing is New York.
It is?
And then this woman is New York.
So we gotta have a...
I told you, I told you I felt about New York at this point.
I'm just, I want you nothing to do with it.
I used to be a huge fan of New York.
And I'm like, I want nothing to do with New York.
I don't know what's going on over there, man.
I don't know.
I don't know.
It's too much Don.
Is that what it is?
Yes.
New York is starting to become like Florida at this point.
They just, they just, they just, they just,
y'all need to just go and just be your own thing.
Yeah, we might need to, like, have them succeed.
I thought that, I thought that during the pandemic when I was like,
these are the kind of people that live in New York?
Like, I mean, I didn't, I wasn't surprised, but I was all that, like, man, Bing Bong,
y'all, I'm in the, I'm in the yard with the dogs.
I was like, yo, what are they talking to them?
I was like, this shit is crazy.
I was like, y'all need to just.
I got to be y'all.
I was like, yo, Al Roker, suck my dick.
I was like, yo, why are they so obscene and just saying random things?
Like it was crazy
Why you mad at Al Roker?
They were just into anybody.
Yeah.
Yo, I'm out here with the child,
collect the zone.
It's 4 o'clock in the morning.
You know what it is,
you heard?
I'm like, what is going on?
But it's a lot of dawn.
A lot of dawn.
Is that what is it?
It's a lot of dawn?
Apparently.
I'm good on New York for a while.
Yeah, they got to settle down a little bit.
I wouldn't say it's as bad as it's Florida,
but it's their own special blend, for sure.
Yeah, for sure, yeah.
Anyway, we didn't hope we didn't alienate too
much of people. I don't know. I feel like
I want to see how people receive this.
I don't know. About what?
I don't know. Frye chicken and stuff?
Yeah, man. I just want
everybody to just be the best
version of themselves, man. I don't know.
It's all jokes, man.
Yeah. I'm feeling
very much like a coward these days.
I'm like, I don't want anybody to get any
kind of ideas about
anti-blackness or any, not over here.
Of course not, man.
Yeah. Look, I love chicken. So I don't
Hey, man, listen.
Hey, this is, listen.
We're going to do it.
We're going to take a quick break.
I would never be ashamed of my love,
Fraschick.
Now, I'm not like, I'm not, I'm not obsessed with it.
I'm not like running the papas and getting whatever, but I do love Frotich.
Yes.
So we're going to take a break.
We're going to take a quick break.
Okay.
We're going to make it clear.
I appreciate it.
I'm not anti-fraching.
No, I appreciate it.
I appreciate it.
We're going to take a quick break.
We're going to take a quick break, and when we come back, we're going to get into some fucked-up shit, okay?
We're going to take a quick break.
We'll get into some fucking shit.
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.
No, no, no. No, we're going to take a quick break, and when we come back, we're going to get into some fucked-up shit, okay?
Stick around. We'll be back.
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All right. And we are back. Fran, we live in a world currently where it seems like it's becoming illegal to talk about black history. The federal government is not acknowledging anything having to do with Black History Month. But it is Black History Month. And I remember there's this clip of Morgan Freeman from a few years ago where he was like, I don't celebrate Black History Month because we should be celebrating Black History Month.
history all the time and those are the kind of sentiments that like you used to be able to get
away with and I would agree with where you go no I mean I get that like why should I why should
you need to tell me when to celebrate black history we could just do that all the time and then
you find yourself in these times where it feels like they're actively trying to erase black history
and you go this is why they desic this is how it and it takes you back to how you got here in
the first place so you got all these people talking about DEI and all these things you go
Well, how about we go back to why DEI exists?
Because they were making sure black people couldn't get jobs and houses.
And so it had to be, it doesn't just exist for no reason.
Black History Month doesn't just exist for no reason.
We're taking some time out to acknowledge the contributions that black people made to this country
because we are a part of American history.
And we didn't feel that way because there was erasure.
We don't learn about the Tuskegee Airmen like that in school and all these things.
So it's like, let's take a month where we're going to acknowledge the people.
who did amazing things to help to help make this country what it is because if they had
their way they would make it seem like we had no part in it yeah and we just got here we're
slaves and then they then they were nice enough to stop letting us be slaves and then that was it
now we're just out here whatever they think about us now and there was a lady I can't remember
her name I would give her credit but I watched I saw a video of her she was doing an interview and
she said she said black people are the stain on America that
they just can't rub out.
And that is why they want to roll back all these things
and stop talking about black history
because you can't celebrate American history
without explaining who that black person is
in the corner of all these pictures.
Yeah.
We're like, yeah, we came here, we conquered,
we brought civility and all these things
to this barren land and democracy and shit.
He's like, well, what is all these people
that's in chains over here in this corner?
No, no, don't worry about that.
Or like in the late 1960s.
It was like, oh, man, yeah, you know, America.
We went to the moon.
It was this amazing time of thoughtful rocket scientists and shit.
It was like, well, why are y'all?
What about all these videos of people throwing milkshakes and busting black people
with the head with bricks because they were trying to eat at the lunch counter.
Yeah.
No, no, no.
So it's like we're always there reigning on their parade of like celebrating the accomplishments of the West.
Because there's this class of people that were treated like shit and continue to be treated like shit.
And so you don't get to celebrate your things that you think.
think you're doing so great because you always got to sit here and annoyingly explain like oh yeah yeah
those are the people we brought over here in boats and then we like abandoned them to their own devices
and then some people found a way and a lot of people didn't because they were so disenfranchised
and then we assassinated their leaders and stuff and then you know burn down the cities that they
try to make for themselves but don't worry about that have you ever heard of the fort f150 you know we
made that so um yeah i i will be celebrating black history month a little harder this year because
It's, you know, you never know when they will make it cease to exist.
You know, that's a real possibility.
And I'm not speaking and I'm not being hyperbolic.
Like, these are the times that we live in.
They might next week just be like, yo, we're going to know more Black History Month.
Like, celebrate Black History on your own time.
That's a personal thing.
That shouldn't be required.
That's where we are.
So.
It's crazy.
Yeah, it's very crazy.
So this week we're going to be discussing a,
a dark time in American history.
This is the story of the Mississippi
burning murders.
I think that this is
a very timely story
as far as when you talk about
DEI and voting disenfranchisement
and all the things that people have been
complaining about over the last couple of years
and the fears about, you know,
people's voting rights
being attacked and under siege
and everything. This is a real instance
of that. This is an example. This is an
example of it and how violent they could get. So on May 25th, 1964, members of the Council of Federated
organizations or the COFO and its member organization, the Congress of Racial Equality, or Corps,
the members Andrew Goodman and Michael Schwerner spoke to the congregation at Mount Zion Methodist Church
in Longdale, Mississippi about setting up a freedom school. Schwerner implored the congregation
to register to vote saying
you have been slaves too long
we can help you free yourself
this is 1964 these people in Mississippi
they didn't have the right to vote in Mississippi
like he was going to speak in the black people
they were disenfranchised and they had no participation
in the American process
so they just got whatever scraps came
if they build their own school whatever
they had no help from the government
so in June of 1964
for this was the start of Freedom Summer,
which was a three-month initiative
to register Southern Black voters,
which was led by this federation.
And Andrew Goodman and Michael Schwerner
were two people that were sent down to Mississippi
to galvanize black people
to get out and register to vote.
I think we did a story a while ago
about a white woman who was like leading.
Yeah, she was on freedom buses.
and things like that.
Yeah, they end up killing her.
This is very similar.
This is a very similar story.
Yeah, so they were trying to get black people
to fight against their disenfranchisement.
And you can imagine how well that went over
in fucking middle of nowhere, Mississippi.
Yeah.
So on Sunday, June 7th, 1964,
nearly 300 KKK members met near Raleigh, Mississippi.
White Knights, Imperial Wizard, Samuel Bowers,
addressed his audience about what he described as a nigger communist invasion of Mississippi.
Damn.
That he expected to take place in a few weeks in what Corps had announced as Freedom Summer.
So basically they got wind.
They're like, yo, these dudes are coming down here, these commies, these communists are coming down here,
trying to put all these crazy ideas in the black people's minds, and we're not going to have it.
So the men, obviously.
The wizard is like the top, right?
Yeah, that's like the man.
Yeah, that's the man.
A wizard.
Yeah, that's nuts.
Yeah, a wizard.
An imperial wizard.
Nerd.
But will, but will, but filled with hatred.
Yeah.
Such whimsical, magical terms.
And they're like, yo, I will murder a child.
Like, I'm evil.
How do you get there, though?
How do you become a wizard?
How do you get?
Oh, man, crazy racism.
You got to be like, get all your badges.
Yeah.
It's like a boy scout.
Spit on a black boy that's looking a lollipop.
Uh, go.
and, like, kick an old black woman down the steps
while she's getting out of church.
It's like gang rank.
Yeah, you got to put it in work.
You got to put it in a word.
You got to get your stripes.
Yeah, you get your stripes.
No, go.
The wizard is probably.
You probably got some bodies.
Oh, yeah, the wizard?
Yeah, yeah.
Yeah, no question.
No question.
Because all these men listen to you.
When you speak, they're like, no, he really is about it.
He's about that.
He's the wizard.
So, yeah.
Nobody beats the whiz.
So.
Are any wizards alive right now?
hell yeah man they might be in congress right now so um that is true so um anyway um so these men obviously listen to bowers he's in imperial wizard so he listened to bowers and when he said this summer the enemy will launch his final push for victory in mississippi this sounds like familiar rhetoric and there must be a secondary group of members standing back from the main area of conflict armed and ready to move it must be an extremely swift extremely violent hit and run group
So they were organizing and strategizing political violence.
Edgar Ray Killen, who was a 39-year-old Baptist preacher and sawmill owner,
went to Meridian earlier that Sunday to organize and recruit men for the job to be carried out in Neshoba County.
So he's going in, this is a preacher, going to go find a few good men that are down to go bash
some black people that are trying to organize and communists.
Wow.
So on June 16th, 1964, the Klan in Mississippi was after Michael Schwerner, one of the guys
that came down to help try to spread democracy to black people in Mississippi.
Yeah.
The KKK learned of his voting drive.
Does KKK still exist, though?
Does it still exist?
Oh, yeah.
Oh, yeah.
Under the name, I'm talking about me.
I mean, like, I understand it's too.
No, they've rebranded.
That's what I mean.
No, they've rebranded, and that's the scary part.
They've rebranded into white nationalists who have that haircut, which I feel bad about, like the JJ Reddick.
It used to be just a nice haircut, but I will tell you right now, if you're a person to listen to this podcast and you are a nice white man, if you got that part on the side and you swoop all that shit over and you get the fade.
I'm like, no, this man is full of violent racism.
With the shadow?
Like the shadow beard?
Oh, my God.
What?
Yeah.
Yeah, you, I look at that guy, I'm like, if you catch him, he might just start talking about some shit like, well, you know, black people got extra bone and they flip.
I think we do have extra bone to my foot.
Nah, these guys promote crazy race science about white men being superior and the brains and that's, they went from just being loud and ignorant to like, I'm going to take a sliver of science that I read one time and base it in racism to try to sound intellectual.
That's the thing these days.
People take 1% of some shit they learned
and extrapolate into a whole philosophy
about why you shouldn't exist.
And so, what, KKK might not exist.
Why black people shouldn't exist.
Why black people shouldn't exist?
Why gay people shouldn't exist?
A whole bunch of stuff.
But the KKK might be in low numbers
because they're all just like,
well, you know, why don't we go over here?
We get to have nice haircuts and wear suits
and feel smart.
So we'll just become in one of these groups.
like the stormfront or they got all kind of new groups now whereas I'm not in the
clan I just believe that white people should be with white people and black people should be
with black people but I'm not a I'm not a fucking fucking fucking dirty toothless KKK member
like they look at clan members like they're dirty hmm I wonder why is that because they want
to be taken serious they want to be the the elite white people so they can't be seen as like
fucking bumpkins
they gotta be like no
I wear a suit you know I cut my
hair I'm groomed
yeah but the same wild shit is in my head
yeah all day I'm thinking about
like how do we get black people out of here
Mexican people they got to eradicate them
like that's wild yeah
that's scary too
it's mad scary because it's become
normalized and these are people that are getting
positions like
as like senators
and stuff like they're like
they're coming for real power
We're not just, like, scaring people and throwing firebombs into movie theaters.
They're like, I'm going to change the laws.
So, yeah.
Interesting times.
Anyway, back to the Wizards.
So this Baptist preacher, a man who preaches the Word of God,
went out and organized a bunch of people that are like,
we're going to fucking beat to hit these people with bricks and bats and stuff.
So they were after one of these organizers of the core.
uh voting uh initiative in mississippi for freedom summer to get black people to get out and
you know you know advocate for themselves and vote they're being intimidated into not voting
so he's coming down there being like well you guys have a lot of low voter turnout
why is that and they're like because if we go to the vote of the polls they will hit us with
sticks and spray us with hoses now they still went out there and fought for that right they
They went out there and did the damn thing.
So I agree that we should not, in vain, choose to sit out in elections when people, like, straight up got murdered for the right.
But also, I understand people that are like, man, even after we got the right, they terrorized my family.
And so we don't, we just never were taught to go out and vote.
We never saw it as a civic duty like everybody else.
Anyway, I'm rambling.
So the plan was to lure core members.
to Neshoba County.
So they assaulted congregants
and torched Mount Zion Methodist Church
burning it to the ground.
And Mount Zion Methodist Church was this...
Black church?
It was a black church where they would meet up
and the guys from court were coming
and like, you know, give motivational speeches.
Hey guys, like, we're going to get out and vote for these things
and really like motivate people.
They burn that bitch to the ground.
And on June 20th, Michael Schwerner,
along with James Cheney and Andrew
Goodman met at the Meridian
COFO headquarters before traveling
to Longdale to investigate the burning
of Mount Zion Church
because again they know what's going on like
they know like this shit is
this is not the freedom summer we thought it was
going to be like this shit is crazy so they knew
already like when they heard the church burned down
this was the KKK
trying to send the message like don't whatever you all are doing
down here get the fuck out of here
so Chaney
was African American
Goodman and Schwerner were both Jewish.
Schwerner told C-O-F-O-Mridian to search for them if they did not get back by 4 p.m.
So they're like, we're going to go check something out.
If we're not back by this time, something happened.
The next day, they interviewed several witnesses and went to meet with fellow activists.
So at around 5 p.m. on June 21st, after drive,
driving into Philadelphia, Mississippi, which, what?
The three civil rights workers, Cheney, Goodman, and Schwerner, were arrested by Cecil Price, a Neshoba County deputy sheriff for allegedly speeding.
She's got them on some bullshit.
Like, come on.
You already know what's up.
Yeah.
First of all, is a black dude riding around with these two white dudes with curly hair?
y'all must be from out of town so y'all must be the guys we're looking for one of these dudes
got the got the got the haircut though one of the guys that's on that's in um in core yeah
uh schwerner or goodman one of the two yeah okay well is that this is this predates the
what i know but i'm just saying it's just but he had the haircut he got the hair cut so um so they
got pulled over for speeding at around 10 30 p.m. that same day cheney
Goodman and Schwerner were released and drove off in the direction of Meridian in a blue station wagon.
So I really want to, I want people to understand this.
They got arrested at 5 o'clock by a police officer.
He held them for five hours and then released them in the middle of the night.
And then they were never seen again.
All three of them.
All three of them.
Yeah, yeah.
So to me.
Goodman is the one with the haircut, too.
who is
Goodman
Goodman
Right
So to me
This is all
But straight up confirmed
But to me
Cop pulls you
Pulls them over
Holds them
Until they can get them in
Organized
And be like
Yo we're up the road
Let's
And then
So it's like
Okay bet
Let them go
And then they'll intersect
With the clans members
Up the road
Once they get released
At 10 o'clock that night
So he picked them up
on some bullshit, held them until they could get organized outside of the police station.
That's great.
And then the police is like, all right, you know what?
Hey, man, never mind.
Y'all weren't speeding now.
And they're like, uh, okay.
Yeah, get out of here.
It's 10 o'clock at night.
Just like, yeah, go.
Get out of here.
So, yeah, so after they, after being released, they were followed by local law enforcement
and others, all affiliated with the KKK.
Wow.
Forming a deadly caravan.
The workers arrived at Pilgrim's store.
where they might have been inclined to stop and use a telephone booth,
but the presence of a Mississippi Highway Patrol car most likely dissuaded them
so they continued south to Meridian.
So that's crazy, right?
You see this convoy of trucks and shit following you,
and when you think you might try to go pull over and ask for help,
one of the cars in the convoy is a police officer.
So you still have to weirdly, this is why I'm like,
I couldn't imagine living in these times
where you go,
so the police is with the clan?
Yeah.
What do you do with them?
Because if one of them comes up to me,
I'm going to hit him with a brick.
You can't just hit the cop with a brick.
So you've got to weirdly respect his authority,
but also understand that, like, he's on their side.
Right.
So that's like, who's the help?
Who would you even call if you did go to the phone?
You'd call the police?
Police is right thing.
What if they,
Goodman and Schwerner,
had to turn on to being white.
They can't.
But what if...
They're nigger lovers
and excuse my language,
but this is true.
I know, but I'm just saying
in this moment you go,
you know,
I mean,
you kind of like
apologize or something like that.
Hey, man,
actually we're about to go
beat the shit out of this guy.
I don't know if you guys knew that,
but we're about to go beat them up ourselves.
I mean,
that's the best chance you got.
Yeah.
Maybe they're dumb enough to believe they're like,
are you serious?
Yeah, man,
we picked them up.
Like,
we've been doing a long con.
went to college together
he was in my wedding party
he thinks he's
friends with us
but we're about to go beat
the shit of him in the woods
so don't even worry about
you guys can fall back
like we got him
white power
and they're like
okay
are you Jewish
never would never
Jewish what
no hell no man
so we're just gonna go
be the show of this black dude
and you guys can disperse
and go do your thing
that's the best chance
they have but anything
of like turning on white
when you got this black dude
that you're friends with
and y'all are from out of town
I don't know what you could say really
To these kind of people
Once you do something like that
Like affiliate and try to help black people
You're not even white anymore
Yeah you're a traitor
You're a traitor
They might hate you more
I think they do
Yeah they might hate you more
That's crazy man
Yeah
So after a quick rendezvous
With Philadelphia police
Philadelphia Mississippi
Philadelphia police officer
Richard Willis
Cecil Price
Began pursuing the men in his police car
So Cecil Price is the guy that pulled them over
So he gets to talking with them
They're like you know we're able to go kill all of them
It's like what without me?
Hell no
He gets in his car
And goes and speeds to catch up with the fucking group of people
This is crazy
They all want a piece
They all want to this shit is like
This shit is straight up evil bro
It's straight up
It's like a
It's like a
Some type of like weird
Like metal of like honor or something
Yeah
Yes
And the sick part, I think we've talked about this before, but it's like, and in the world we live in today, there are people that just want you to believe, like, and one day a president, like, signed a piece of paper and all these people just disappeared.
Like, one day we all just decided not to be racist anymore.
Like, no, no.
Yeah.
That's just not true.
You might not be able to legally be up front publicly racist like you used to be able to, but, like, all these people still existed.
They didn't go anywhere.
They had children.
They raised children with these beliefs.
And they had to be covert about it and find ways to do it in secret and build their own spaces to exclude black people and brown people and whatever.
But, like, they didn't just – I would love to see that day in history where everybody in the world just came together and were like, you know something, man, we're going to – racism's over.
Because that's the freedom a lot of people seem to have walking around this country.
Like, yeah, man, y'all still on that?
y'all still out here being victim
having that victim mentality man
listen man
when's the last time racism stops somebody from being able to do something
and I'm like
I mean that's a crazy thing to say
bro like that's wild
that's mad gaslighting
yeah you know
that means they just can't tell though
like they don't
it's a different POVs to them
it's a perspective thing
yeah
I heard a great analogy
somebody was like
Sydney Sweeney who was like a popular
Hollywood actress she's like very chesty
and they were she's beautiful
yeah she's very popular with men
she's probably with everybody she's talented
but like men she's like
everybody says like she's like a man
she was like directed by a man
like a man created her in their mind
she like works on cars
and everything she said everything is like
this is a dude's idea
but anyway somebody was like
Sydney Sweeney
grew up in life
and from an early age
she noticed that men started to treat her different
when she got to a certain age.
Hugs started lasting a little bit longer.
A guy started talking to her differently.
I mean, 12.
You know, like a kid.
And they went, imagine somebody telling Sidney,
like, no, that guy wasn't being inappropriate with you.
Or like, you don't know what you're talking about.
It's like her lived experience and her body and her walking around in life.
She's seen these things enough to be like, yeah, this dude's going to try to get something off me.
I got to watch my background.
This guy.
Because this happened to her from such an early.
age. So imagine telling
a black person like, no, man, you think the cops
are out to get you? And they've been
experiencing since from the
time you've been identified
11 years old, they see you like you're 17 years old.
You know, the cop, the thing is the statistically, like
most cops see black boys
and girls like five years older than they are.
So you've been having interactions
with police officers since you're 11 years old
and they're treating you hostily because they're like, no,
hey man, up against the car, sit on the curb.
From early age.
And then somebody comes and tells,
you're like, nah, man, y'all are overreact.
Y'all making stuff up.
They just, when they pull you over, just comply.
I'm like, you don't know how offensive that is to say
because you don't know my experience with authority
and how they come to me.
Yeah.
You know?
So I just thought that was such a good analogy
because I would never, like imagine somebody telling Sidney Sweeney,
like, no, man, dude was just being nice to you.
He just hugged you a little long because he likes your movie.
She said, I don't know exactly what that hug is.
You can't tell me what I know.
Right.
So, I don't know.
I just thought that was like a fun, like an interesting analogy.
So anyway, so yeah, so now the cop that pulled him over is trying to speed up to get involved with the posse.
Price eventually caught the core station wagon heading west toward Union.
Soon, he stopped them and escorted them north on Highway 19 back in the direction of Philadelphia, Mississippi.
why they were on foot
say again
this is they still on foot
no they had a car
oh they were in a car
but now they're getting pulled over again
by the cop who had just pulled them over
right
and now he's redirecting them
the three men
you're gonna tell me where to go
you really now you're gonna tell me
which way I'm supposed to go
but keep in mind it's like
it's also like 10 cars
kind of in the
it's one of those situations
where like you know
you don't really have control
in the situation
then it's 1960s the car is not that fast
so it's like we can't like step on the gas and get so it's like 15 cars behind us we might have to
just floor comply a little bit yeah I mean I but now once you floor it's like oh it's on
so I think maybe in their mind they're like maybe we could try to comply our way out of this
situation until we find the opening so you get pulled up but again like no bro you get pulled
over by the cop I think in this moment you already know you see what's up this is not going to end well
yeah you see what's up then you get pulled over by the cop I'm one black man I don't
floor that shit
you're gonna go down
you're gonna have fight
that's how I feel
as soon as I get a whiff
of like
no this shit
something's not right
but all these cars
behind us now
the cops come in
he's pulling us over
like
telling us to go
somewhere else
to follow him
yeah this shit
fuck that
put the pedal
to the metal
in Mississippi
it was
it was 1964
that's what I'll say
I mean I'm still
not gonna go
but it was 1964
that wasn't that long ago
that wasn't that long ago
That's nuts.
It wasn't that long ago.
So, yeah, so the cop that pulled him over earlier that day now pulls them over again,
and he brings them to a secluded location.
They were quickly loaded into their station wagon and transported to old Jolly Farm,
a few miles southwest of Philadelphia, where like a man-made body of water was under construction.
They were shot.
and then they were putting
this dam and covered up with dirt
using a bulldozer
An autopsy of Goodman
showed fragments of red clay in his lungs
and grasped
and grasped fist
suggesting that he was probably
buried alive alongside
the already dead Cheney and Schwerner
now I want to read something
because
these were activists
bro
So Andrew Goodman actually wrote a letter to his parents because he was so proud of the work that he was doing.
So this was on June 21st of 1964 the day before they were murdered.
He wrote a letter to his parents, Mr. and Mr. and Mrs. Goodman.
He said, Dear Mom and Dad, I have arrived safely in Meridian, Mississippi.
This is a wonderful town and the weather is fine.
I wish you were here.
the people in this city are wonderful
and our reception was very good
all my love
Andy
so it's just like
this is a young
activist man
trying to make his mark on the world
do some good do what he thinks is good
whatever you want to say you know
yeah there's plenty of
you know well-meaning kids out here
trying to do good work
and be politically active today
and I couldn't imagine one of these kids
going out and trying to do good in the world
and meet a fate like this
buried alive
with the dirt
that you're buried in
in your lungs
because you're trying to breathe
you're so desperate to breathe
that you suck in dirt
yeah
after all three of them
were buried
Price the officer
told the group
well boys
you've done a good job
you've struck a blow
for the white man
Mississippi can be proud of you
you've let those
agitating outsiders
know where the state stands
go
home now and forget it. But before you go, I'm looking each of you in the eye and telling
you this, the first man who talks is dead. If anybody who knows anything about this ever
opens up his mouth to any outsider about it, then the rest of us are going to kill him,
just as dead as we killed these three sons of bitches tonight. Does everybody understand what I'm
saying? The man who talks is dead. Dead. Notified of the disappearance,
is the Department of Justice requested FBI involvement.
So this is where this shit gets crazy, right?
Because this shit is, keep in mind,
this shit has been going on in Mississippi for decades.
Yeah.
Like, black people turning up,
Emmett Till, all these, like, just,
you say the wrong thing, look at the wrong person,
you end up to it.
So.
If you're black anyway.
Right.
But they just killed two Jewish dudes from up north.
Right?
So when they called in the Department of Justice
and the FBI, shit started moving.
So a few hours later, Attorney General, Attorney General Robert Kennedy, not this guy we see on TV today.
Robert Kennedy asked the FBI to lead the case.
By late morning, the FBI had blanketed the area with agents and began intensive interviews.
This is the next day.
Because the two white men that got killed?
Not only were they two white men, but they were two white men who were.
involved in political organizations
so they had some juice but yeah
I mean yes them being white was a major factor
in like this being
an accelerated response
yeah
so why was why you respond like that
what you mean
because you said I said because it was white be easy
yeah because also because it was political
yeah well it wasn't I mean I'm sure the response would have been
more than for the one black guy if they were white but they were white
but they also they were white and connected is what I'm saying like they were
white and they were involved in some political they had some cash okay yeah they just had
they not they were like they were like super white um super white yeah they were yeah they were like
yeah these were these were like white plus so um intelligence developed by the fbi i led them to
the remains of the burnt out station wagon hmm now keep you trying to burn it yeah they successfully
burned it but they but they they found it they were able to identify it so no bodies were found
in the car
so they feared the worst about
you know
where are they
yeah
the FBI launched a massive
search for the young men
aided by the National Guard
through the swamps and the hollows
which they dredged
right
and at the same time
they were putting pressure
on known clan members
like dudes that were like
I'm not secretive
I don't even wear my hood
when we go riding
I'm happy to be known
to be a clan member
so they started developing
informants who could infiltrate the Klan.
The FBI also opened up a field office
in Jackson, Mississippi. They went down there
and laid roots. They were like, we're going to get this shit solved.
Hey, we're not going anywhere. So that's like,
you know, then you got the
the Klan members are in the police offices
and the government office. So they're like, man, we've got to get these people
out of here, bro. They're going to, we're feeling the pressure.
Yeah. They're going to figure some shit out.
You know, all the crazy shit we've done, horrible things?
Well, we don't want them sniffing around too much.
So
this is crazy, right?
acting on a tip
So first man that speaks is dead
So he got a tip from somewhere
Maybe it was an informant who infiltrated the clan
But acting on a tip
The bodies of the three men were eventually exhumed
14 feet below the dam
Where they were buried at a local farm
Wow
They found
In route to finding them
When they were dredging other lakes and stuff
Trying to find them
They found nine black people
That they had nobody knew anything about
I don't mean nine and one individual
They just kept finding like
Yeah
This person got hung and thrown in a lake
Like they just they found nine bodies
That weren't the people they were looking for
But it took it took two white dudes
Getting killed
Exactly man
To get to start this process
And they found nine people that nobody
They just were like
Yeah we wonder what happened to him
That's what I'm saying man
I get they all politically politically connected
But fuck that
Yeah
It was white bro
That's why she got kicked off like that
Yeah.
Nine, damn.
Nine bodies, just in water, dead.
He's popping up.
Damn.
That's great.
So, more than a dozen suspects, including Deputy Price, and his boss, Sheriff Rainey, were indicted and arrested.
Good.
This is about as good as it is.
In 1967, after the state government refused to prosecute, the United States federal government
charged 18 individuals with civil rights violations.
So they refused to do due process in the state.
They were like, we're not, we don't have enough evidence to charge these people.
But keep in mind, who's the judge?
Who's the, you know what I'm saying?
Like, they might all be, we're all clan members, man.
Like, I'm not prosecuting Earl.
It's my man's.
So we just can't find enough evidence so we're not going to prosecute.
They were like, you're not going to prosecute.
Okay, we're charging all of you guys with, like, misconduct.
Yeah.
and civil rights violations.
And then on October 20th, 1967, following years of court battles,
so keep in mind, it was 1964, the summer of 1964 when they were killed.
So three years later, after long court battles,
seven of the 18 defendants were found guilty,
including Deputy Sheriff Price,
but none of them got murder charges.
they all got like conspiracy charges and tampering with evidence so they nobody nobody got more than eight years
that's a joke so everybody so seven seven of 18 and even those seven got like three years here five years
eight years yeah slap on the rest one major conspirator Edgar ray killin the the Baptist preacher
who organized a bunch of guys went free after a lone juror couldn't bring herself to convict a
Baptist preacher.
Yeah.
And this is the thing about religion, right?
So this man is objectively evil.
He organized a bunch of people to go out and murder people.
But then he still gets to go up there and go, well, you know, I'm just a servant of the Lord and I didn't do this.
And a one woman fell for that and was like, well, I can't.
If I put a preacher in jail, I'm going to go to hell.
And I cannot convict him.
That's a sin to be mean to preachers.
And so it was a hung jury or whatever.
Three men were killed horribly.
They were shot and buried a lot.
You know, this shit was terrible.
She was like, no, but he's a preacher.
So I guess that's like a hung jury.
One person didn't vote.
So, you know, I'm not a.
That's why he became a preacher.
So we can get along.
So you can have anonymity.
So you get blanket immunity for killing people?
Yeah.
Possibly.
So outrage over the activist murder helped gain passage of the Voting Rights Act of 1965.
So there you go.
And I guess they had the right to vote, but maybe the Voting Rights Act assured them some protections.
You know, I'm not going to say you're not like an expert.
You know, we went to Hartley University, so I hardly know how to do anything in the ground.
I hardly know how to read.
I hardly know how to speak.
So I'm not going to pretend like I understand.
and every aspect of the Voting Rights Act.
But according to this, they were down there for the summer of freedom to get people to vote.
So clearly you could vote, but maybe the Voting Rights Act gave you some protections.
Like, they assured that you can't disenfranchise people from voting.
Yeah.
So I don't think it gave them the right to vote necessarily, but it protected their right to vote, I think.
Could be wrong.
Valedictorian of Hartley University.
Fran just went there, you know, took some summer classes, a couple of credits.
I'm valedictorian
I got my BS from Harley
You graduated?
Yeah, I graduated with honors
I got my BS
That's that boy stop
41 years after the murders took place
Edgar Ray Killen, the preacher
Was charged by the state of Mississippi
For his part in the crimes
This was due heavily in part by a journalist
Who I can't remember his name right now
I'm really sorry
But there was this journalist in the 1980s
This white guy
Who found out about this story
and just talked about it for 20 years straight.
Every chance he got, he worked for like a local newspaper.
And he kept talking about it until it started getting national attention.
Like, wait a minute, what happened?
So this guy, he organized this whole thing.
And then these people got killed and he's free.
And him being persistent and never letting people forget about it,
they eventually, in like the 19, like early 2000s or whatever,
they arrested this old man.
This footage of him being.
arrested. He's old as fuck, like, but they were like, no, you're going to see justice, man.
Right?
So, um, on January 6, 2005, Neshoba County granted a grand jury indicted him on three counts
of murder.
When the Mississippi Attorney General prosecuted the case, it was the first time the state
had acted against the perpetrators of the murders.
On June 21st, 2005, a jury convicted Killen, this is a crazy name.
Edgar Ray Killing, they convicted Killing on three counts of manslaughter.
He was described as the man who planned and directed the killing of three men.
Killing, who was then 80 years old, was sentenced to three consecutive terms of 20 years in prison.
And let me tell you something.
This is something that's really amazing.
So Andrew Goodman actually came from a long line of activists.
Like his family was really...
Oh, shit.
I mean, they were Jewish and the...
I mean, you know, they knew what it was like to be persecuted.
Yeah.
So they were activists and stuff too.
And his mom was still alive when they convicted this man in 2005 in his 80s.
She came to the trial.
And she went up on that stand and she said, I'm anti-capital punishment.
I'm just here because I want my son to get justice.
I think he should be arrested.
And I just want people to know my son was a good person.
He didn't do anything.
I'm not here to be vindictive.
She didn't forgive him or anything.
But she was just there to say, I'm not here to say, kill him.
him, fry him. I'm anti that. I don't believe in capital punishment. I'm here to say my son Andrew
Goodman was a good man. He didn't do anything wrong. He was killed for no reason. And I hope this guy spends
the rest of his life in prison, but I do not want him to be murdered. Yeah. I do not want him to be
killed in state sanctioned violence. I do not, I do not agree with that. That is wrong. That's how about
she was. She was like, I am, I am, I am a, I'm an activist. And I believe in people's right to be alive.
I don't believe in the state being able to just unilaterally kill people, even the man that killed my son.
Yeah.
So this 80-year-old man was, you know, sentenced to 20 years in prison.
He appealed in 2007, stating that no jury of his peers would have convicted him in 1964 based on evidence presented.
That is the most, that, that right there, that is the America that people want to be great again.
He's like, back, like, think about what he just said.
He appealed because he's like, if it was 19.
You think you could get a bunch of white people to convict me on this?
It would never happen.
This is not fair.
What happened to the America I know?
So his appeal was rejected by the Supreme Court of Mississippi.
And on June 20th, 2016, keep in mind, June 21st, 1964 is the year that those three men were killed.
On June 20th, 2016, Mississippi Attorney General Jim Hood and Vanita Gupta, top prosecutor for the Civil Rights Division of the U.S.
Department of Justice, said the investigation had ended but would be taken up again if new
information was received.
Killian died in prison in January of 2018.
Now, them coming out and saying that is basically like, we're done because this happened
in 1964.
The man that they prosecuted in 2005 was 80 years old.
What do you mean if new evidence is received?
all of these people are dead or elderly
anybody who was driving the trucks that night following them
if they're alive they're demented or old or senile
like so the idea he had prosecuted winning in 05
he was found guilty and he was convicted in 2007
no I'm sorry he was convicted in 2005 yes
oh so he went on to live for another like 10 years
yeah like another 10 years me died he was like 92 years old
bro that evil lingers sometimes like it's just like you can't
it's hard to kill
evil like that is that the secret he's a wizard oh yeah yeah you forgot yeah yeah I thought
he's a preacher well he could be both you know who says one who says you can't be one without
the other that's true that's true he might have been a wizard preacher that's how he got extra
the wizard the wizard preacher the wizard preacher not being evil being evil racism is
the is the key of living oh yeah it's like it's like it's like it's like natural greens
flowing through your system that evil like vile vehement racism it's like it's like
it's like an elixir.
Yeah.
Yeah.
For some.
I wonder if Betty White was racist because she hung on for a long time.
She didn't seem racist, but I don't know her behind closed doors, but she was around for a long time.
That's true.
Yeah, she was holding on.
Thank you for being a friend.
Shout to Betty White, man.
Unless she was racist.
Unless she was racist.
There's no evidence of.
So shout out to her.
Avoid all states, avoid all city states.
Yeah, I don't want to listen.
cities that's not in the right state
I'm named after major cities in other states
yeah I don't want to live in I don't want to go to any
I don't want to go to Los Angeles
Indiana I don't want to go to any of this shit
I'm definitely not going any place like that
it's like a little town is just mad
I don't know man somebody needs to make a TV show
that or something that's so it's crazy shit
a travel channel show travel channel show
yeah Paris Texas and
fucking what is this Philadelphia
Mississippi like this is not like Philadelphia
at all at all you get down there like
How much the opposite?
Like, this shit is not brotherly love at.
Oh, they hate brothers down here.
So, yeah, so that was the Mississippi Burning Stories, man.
Rest and peace, those people, man.
A, happy Black History Month.
Black history is American history.
These are the kind of stories.
Obviously, I want to celebrate George Washington Carver and Ida B. Wells and all these
incredible people.
But stories like this speak to the journey of just trying to get basic human rights for black people in this country.
Like, there was a lot of bloodshed and violence to even get to.
this point that we're at, so to see people rolling back those accomplishments and trying
to strip them away is very disheartening because when you know how many people died and fought
and got bit by dogs and got their heads split open with batons to get what the things are
that are on the books today, it really is disheartening.
Hey, man, it's all coming to light, man.
Yeah.
So, but yeah, so that was the Mississippi burning murder stories.
I think stories like this are important.
I think that American history and black history are intertwined.
You cannot separate them from each other because you don't like how it makes us look or whatever.
That's not an option.
If you're going to tell the story, you've got to tell the whole story.
And as long as there are people here that know the whole story, you've got to keep it going because they will do the best that they can to erase it.
They will tell you, oh, yeah, well, you know, we brought some people over here from Africa and we wanted to take them out of the crazy conditions they were living over there.
with them over here. We gave them religion and they worked and, you know, they built things for
America, but we fed them and things like that. And then one day we decided to stop doing that and
then just let them become citizens. If we do not fight for the right to preserve history,
the story of slavery in America in 100 years will be, we came over here willingly and
it was a great relationship and we were all friends. But the,
the plantation owner was kind of more like a boss, like a CEO,
and they were just workers.
They will let that be the story because they don't want people to feel bad.
They would rather not feel bad than tell the truth.
And so if you have an opportunity to tell the truth or learn the truth,
you have to do that.
It is more important than ever.
Anyway, Fran, watching anything good lately,
hate that get so heavy, but, you know, we start off about the chicken and everything.
So this is what we do here, you know.
We go all the different ranges of emotions.
But now let's get to Recommendations Corner.
Oh, I started watching.
I did start watching Paradise.
Yes, or as we call it in Baltimore, Paradise.
Yeah.
Thoughts?
It's good, man.
Great show.
Do you watch episode four?
Four.
No, I didn't know.
It's the most recent ones.
It's the most recent ones.
The newest one came up this week.
No, no, I'm still.
I had to go.
I had to rewind three.
So.
You had to rewind three?
Yeah
Four
Banger
The show's fantastic
I just
I just don't want to make sure
I'm missing anything
So I'm like
Yeah well that's good
The show hasn't let up though
Episode 4 also another great one
The show has not let up
I love it
Sterling K. Brown is great
James Marsden
The president
He's great
He's likable
Sinatra
Sinatra bro
My question is about her
She's Elon Musk
What is she?
She's a self-made billionaire.
Self-made billionaire.
Who's...
Who made this city.
No, but who...
She's a...
Is she part of like some type of government or something?
No, she represents the...
Because this is her creation.
Right.
So she's just like...
So James Marsden is just like a mascot.
Because he was the president.
You know, I don't want to spoil of people.
Okay.
So they're comfortable with you.
She's the real leader
She's like the Illuminati
Got you got you got you
Except she likes to be seen
She's behind the scene
He asked the president answers to her
Right
So Sinatra's like the real
She's the real deal
Okay got you got she's really calling the shots
Yeah yeah
She's great too
Yeah
She's like annoying
She's kind of like
Marty Bird from Ozark
Like neurotic
And whatever
But gets shit done
So, yeah, Paradise is really, really good.
Great.
I also, not to get, this isn't for everybody, you know, if you like animation and trippy, sci-fi, conspiratorial.
Animation.
Yeah, there's this new show that just came out called Common Side Effects.
I never heard anybody say it like that.
Well, it's not an anime.
It is an anime, kind of.
It's an anime.
I just meant animation, like cartoons.
If you like cartoons.
Got you.
If you like cartoons, but it's high quality, it's unique style.
It's called Common Side Effects.
It's this new show on Adult Swim, but you can watch it on Max.
It's about this guy who found a mushroom in the jungle that can cure anything.
Broken bones, death, sickness, and as a result, he's trying to give this to the world,
but Big Pharma is trying to kill him because they're like, if he, if he, if he,
gives this to the world
then people won't need our drugs
yeah so they're actively
trying to stop him from
giving a thing that will cure anything
and it's like funny
it's a comedy but it's
but it's deep though and it's trippy
so common side effects
in paradise those are two things I've been
really digesting recently and I've really been enjoying
so you just been in paradise
that's the strong one right now is the
the main one yeah I got a
I can't be jumping around man
Yeah, well, I can.
Yeah.
Also, I will say this, man, we haven't had any of these opportunities really, at least on the podcast, I wanted to check in about fatherhood.
Yeah.
Because every now and then I have these, like, I just catch myself crying.
Okay.
And I had one recently.
It was like in a nice way.
It's like a good, it's like a positive thing.
But I know that you will understand.
Maybe you'll understand my thought.
You might never have had it in this way.
I don't know, but we'll see, right?
So I was holding Oliver, and I was, he was falling asleep, and I was just sitting there.
And then I was like, I got upset because I was like, he's never going to meet this kid that I've fallen so much in love with.
So, like, one day he'll be three, and this baby will be gone.
Like, and he doesn't know this baby.
He won't know this baby.
So I won't be able to even explain.
to him how fun this baby is that I'm hanging out with right now.
Yeah.
He's so fun and smiling and everything.
And someday that'll be some kid that I tell my son about that I used to hang out with
and was so fun that he could fit my arm, it's little, you know, and even that, that little basket
is like, it used to be closer to me.
And now that's expanding, like, how much arm I need to hold him.
Yeah.
But, yeah, someday he'll ask about what it was like when he was a baby.
and that's like, that's like a different person.
Yeah.
He'll be a different person.
Like, so, like, Max right now is like Max now isn't baby Max.
Right.
And he doesn't know who the hell that is.
Yeah.
And then someday Max will be like 11 and he won't remember being four.
Yeah.
So even the Max you're hanging out with now, he'll never know that.
It's like a different kid.
Yeah.
So you know all these different kids and they become different people and then you,
then one day you don't get to see him anymore.
Like one day, four-year-old Max,
that's fun and shooting basketball he'll be 13 and it's like those are two different people
and you just have to mourn that four-year-old kid yeah and I just was like shedding tears while
I was holding my son because I was like you I don't he'll be gone someday like this baby
won't be here he won't be a baby anymore yeah so that's when you're going to get that's when
you're going to have another that's what that what they say I don't know I wasn't crying that
heart.
You actually snap me out of whatever thing I was having right now because it's not that.
No, I mean, I get that, man.
That's why pictures and videos are huge, man.
You got to make sure you have those because, like, we'll be like, we would just be
chilling in the house and then like, I got like a widget on my phone where like,
you know, it had changed, the pictures had changed and then something will pop up a random
picture and I don't know, oh shit, that was when he was two, one, then kind of show him
and then there's times when you go through videos on your phone.
And then you go, oh, remember this?
And you kind of watch it.
And, you know, that's before this, before they can talk and all kinds of shit.
But, like, yeah, man, taking videos and pictures, man, you don't, because that's, it's a memory, man.
Because, like, they grow.
And that's pretty much all you have at that point.
Because I told you, man, like, when he was born and then now, like, that doesn't, that told you, they, they look totally different.
That does not look like the same.
Just visually, it doesn't look the same person.
But, yeah, man, you got to make sure you.
Kind of find a way to hold on to those memories, man.
But I get that.
The only prompt, the time I had when, and this is kind of different from what you're talking about,
I had a time when I think, I don't think I did this with Max.
I think I did it with Sophie when she was a, not a, I think she maybe was like one or something like that.
Where like there was times where I woke up just in tears.
Like, Paul and not crying because I'm like, because I had this, I had this thought of like,
Like, I don't know if it was a dream or nightmare.
I don't, I don't remember what it was.
But it was a time I was going through where I was like, I have to make sure I'm, I have to do my best and kind of control what I control to make sure I'm here.
Because if I'm not here, it was just like, I don't even know why I was going through that at the moment.
And it was just like, I can't, I can't, I can't, because like, what are they, what is she supposed to do with it when I'm not here?
Or like her and her mom, like, I was like, and I was just waking up and just.
crying. I'm like what the like what the fuck? I mean I get why I was doing it but like me waking up
out of a sleep and just being like I got to go to the other room and kind of get myself together.
Yeah. Like that was I don't even know. I never even like looked up why that was happening
or like if it has anybody else ever went through that but it was just like it was it was I guess
because Sophie was like my first child and she was a baby and something. I don't know what I don't
know what it was but I can't explain it but that shit was I went through that for maybe like a couple
weeks, and I kind of got past it, but that, those couple weeks was, it was, I don't know what
was happening, but it was just like, I cannot, I can't go. I just, I don't know why. I just don't
know why I was having that thought, but I was like, I cannot leave this child and without a father.
I don't know why I was going through it, but it was so weird, and I was like, and I know,
I just never talked about it because I never heard anybody else bring up something like that
before, so it was just, yeah. No, I get, I get it, man. Like, yeah, I don't, maybe,
we're not in the right
groups or something like that
but I don't really hear
about how emotional
this shit makes you
and I've experienced it
like I mean
I knew it was like
an emotional experience
but I mean like
literally the week
that he was born
that Billy Elish song
Birds of a Feather
yeah
which I heard that song
a thousand times
but I
once he was born
I just heard it
you hear it
yeah
different
yeah
you really hear it
about like
like
one day
I'm not gonna be here
Yeah.
And so I want to enjoy every minute I can enjoy.
Yeah.
And then I don't even want to come to terms with that idea.
Right.
Right.
Right.
One day I'm just going to be gone.
Yeah.
And you just got to figure that out.
Yeah.
I don't want that to happen.
Right.
And that's like, yeah, and that will like consume you.
Yeah, for sure.
You know?
All that stuff when people are like, yeah, I sold my bike or like, I get all that shit now.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Yeah, I don't do.
I used to be a bungee jumper.
I quit.
Yeah.
My kid, I'd stop doing that.
I start riding motorcycles and shit.
Yeah, he's like, this is dumb.
My day's that motorcycle, he was like, yeah, I kind of.
He got an accident too, but he was just like, yeah, I kind of get, I had to, I had to let that go.
I can't, yeah.
It's not even about being young.
It's just like, you've got to become more responsible.
You can't just be out here doing crazy shit.
Yeah.
Living like, you have no responsibilities now.
Like, no, that's just, that's, that's, that's just not a thing.
Yeah, it's like, we all got to go.
But if you are, have a family that you're a.
responsible for and you're actively doing things
that's like
deadly?
Yeah, yeah.
I don't see how you do that
because the thoughts that I have in my head all the time
I'm like, well, you know, I'm gonna
how I drive, everything.
It changed everything about me.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, but it's not even, yeah, but it's not even
about that even.
It's like, just little shit.
It's like, I don't play basketball like as much
because I'm like, if I blow a knee,
it's a, it's a rap.
I got to feed my family.
I got to, like, it's a,
I can't be out here jumping around going crazy no more, bro.
You just can't play basketball every now and then, sure, but like, how we used to,
like, that's not a thing anymore.
I can't, if I blow a knee out, bro, I'm, I can't.
My job allows me walking.
If I can't walk, I can't fucking work.
My kids don't eat.
Look at how they're looking.
I used to be 19 years old, bro, not a caring in the world.
Now I'm like, well, you know, I can't get sick right now.
I can't.
Let me not just go into this crowd of people because if I get sick, then I can't go to work
and my son is going to start.
I go to the extreme.
extreme it might not be that extreme but like you just can't you can't help it yeah really can't
i'm constantly thinking about it and then i'm constantly like on the brink of tears all the time
yeah yeah yeah yeah they're happy tears but it's also sad tears at the same it's just hard it's yeah
it's just like yeah it's it's kind of it's kind of um it's good to kind of have somebody else to
have those comments because like i have other friends who have kids but i don't talk to them as much
so it's like it's kind of cool to have somebody else to talk to about things like this
who like who was kind of like starting from the beginning yeah
So it was like, and then you bring up certain things.
And like, oh, yeah, I did.
I kind of, I was, okay, I wasn't only one having those type of feelings or going
through that thing at the time or whatever.
So, like, yeah.
It's always good to hear of shit like that.
Yeah.
Yeah.
So, yeah, that's when to check in.
We should do that more often.
Yeah, for sure.
Yeah, I was just having that thought.
And I was like, man, shit is, why am I crying, bro?
I'm trying to look at, I just got a little YouTube, lullaby music on.
Yeah.
Just fed him a bottle, put them down.
Yeah.
Because, man, it was like, you look at that.
Snoring, head was falling back.
Yeah, man.
you see him you go like bro I'm I've created this person this beautiful human being right here
who does who does no harm like it's just it's crazy bro like man it's how they get older
and they start breaking shit and all kinds of stuff and then I kind of stuff kind of you know
it fades away a little bit and that's what I'm saying I'm like I would love for you to
have met if you could have met the kid that I was holding some time ago you out here
scribbling crayons and shit on the wall yeah this baby would never do that
that. Now look at you out here, Wilden.
You got to meet him. He would teach you a lot of stuff about being calm.
Sophie, I don't know who that was.
When she, my first born, man, when she was a little girl, and then she was just as sweet
and just to come home and she run through the door now, and she's like, hey, that.
I get it. It's not, it's not. I don't take it personal, but I go, like, all right.
I can't hug none, damn. You're like, you're like, baby Sophia would never let me just come in this
door unhugged
used to be like
the president walked in the room
when I was
Hey got any food
Can I give this
I just
Damn I just got home
Can I sit down?
Can I get a hey?
Yeah
When they grew up
Rose
When they grew up bro's different
So just take it all in
Yeah
He's don't moving around boy
And talking and shit
I'm help
man but yeah anyway uh this has been another episode of affirmative murder the equal
opportunity true crime comedy podcast one more folks we're going to london crime con yeah
uh in june yeah code affirmative if you're going to be there use it or lose it i don't know what
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