Nobody Should Believe Me - S04 Ep01: Welcome To Hutchinson

Episode Date: June 20, 2024

Welcome to Season 4 of Nobody Should Believe Me! This season we are following the story of Jordyn Hope as they unravel the secrets of their childhood. After revelations that they were abused as a child, Jo bravely returns to their small, deeply religious hometown to attempt to unravel their many lingering questions about their upbringing. Was their abuse a secret? If not, why didn’t anyone help them? Jo connects with her first grade teacher and childhood best friend as they begin their search for answers. Andrea travels with Jo, hoping to help her friend find healing, and to see what the future might look like for the survivors in her own life.  *** Links/Resources:  Preorder Andrea's new book The Mother Next Door: Medicine, Deception, and Munchausen by Proxy Click here to view our sponsors. Remember that using our codes helps advertisers know you’re listening and helps us keep making the show! Subscribe on YouTube where we have full episodes and lots of bonus content. Follow Andrea on Instagram for behind-the-scenes photos: @andreadunlop Buy Andrea's books here. To support the show, go to Patreon.com/NobodyShouldBelieveMe or subscribe on Apple Podcasts where you can get all episodes early and ad-free and access exclusive bonus content. For more information and resources on Munchausen by Proxy, please visit MunchausenSupport.com The American Professional Society on the Abuse of Children’s MBP Practice Guidelines can be downloaded here. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

True Story Media. Before we begin, a quick warning that in this show we discuss child abuse and this content may be difficult for some listeners. If you or anyone you know is a victim or survivor of medical child abuse, please go to MunchausenSupport.com to connect with professionals who can help. Hi, Mom. It's Jo. I hope you can hear me. I wish you could see me. I'm so sorry.

I wish you called me. In the spring of 2022, Jordan Hope made the nearly nine-hour drive from Missouri to Minnesota to say goodbye to their mother, who will be calling Donna. Donna's health had been declining and it had taken a sharp turn when she'd lapsed into a coma. Joe's sister called and said, I think this is it. I just want to see you one more time. Well, I see you. I want you to see me. I forgive you.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry that you were hurting so much. I forgive you. Okay? I forgive you. It had been a long time since Joe had spoken to their mother. But even after years of near estrangement, Joe still wanted to be by their mother's side at the end.

And I love you so much. I just had to have boundaries of all to take care of myself too, you know? But I never stopped thinking about you, wondering how you were, hoping you'd get better. My life is really good, Mom. Can you hear me in there? Can you feel me?

I'm mad at you for not saying goodbye. You look very nice of you. I think after everything, you owe me a goodbye. To say that Joe and Donna have a complicated relationship is an understatement. Pulling away from Donna as an adult has been one of many steps that Joe has taken to attempt to save themselves from the lasting psychological damage of their mother's abuse. And yet, to be here at their mom's side was also a step. Because even the truth about their mom, as bad as it was, did not extinguish the love. But like everything with Donna, even her death was not what it seemed. I'm Andrea Dunlop. Welcome to season four of Nobody Should Believe Me.

This season, we will be following Jordan and Hope as they unravel the many mysteries of their childhood. If you are a longtime listener of our show, you'll likely recognize Joe, short for Jordan, as they have done several previous interviews with us. Joe is not only a friend of the show, they are my dear friend in real life. We serve together on the American Professional Society on the Abuse of Children's Munchausen by Proxy Committee, and Joe and I also work together for Munchausen Support, which is the only non-profit organization in the country dedicated to helping Munchausen by proxy survivors and families. And I think getting to know Joe so well over the past few years and getting to hear so much of their story has really given me a sense of what's possible. And I feel like often these stories, when we're hearing them in the news, they drop off after the court case and you never find out what becomes of the child at the center of it.

And this is really that story of what human beings who have been through horrible things are able to become as adults. And of the healing that can happen. I think Joe's story can tell us a lot about the process of healing and the process of building a life after you've been through something unimaginable. Well, friends, it's 2025. It's here. This year is going to be, well, one thing it won't be is boring. And that's about the only prediction I'm going to make right now. But one piece of news that I am excited to share is that the wait for my new book, The Mother Next Door, is almost over. It is coming at you on February 4th from St. Martin's Press. So soon! I co-authored this book with friend and beloved contributor of this show, Detective Mike Weber, about three of the most impactful

cases of his career. Even if you are one of the OG-est of OG listeners to this show, I promise you are going to learn so many new and shocking details about the three cases we cover. We just go into so much more depth on these stories. And you're also going to learn a ton about Mike's story. Now, I know y'all love Detective Mike because he gets his very own fan mail here at Nobody Should Believe Me. And if you've ever wondered, how did Mike become the detective when it came to Munchausen by proxy cases, you are going to learn all about his origin story in this book. And I know we've got many audiobook listeners out there, so I'm very excited to share with you the audiobook

is read by me, Andrea Dunlop, your humble narrator of this very show. I really loved getting to read this book, and I'm so excited to share this with you. If you are able to pre-order the book, doing so will really help us out. It will signal to our publisher that there is excitement about the book, and it will also give us a shot at that all-important bestseller list. And of course, if that's simply not in the budget right now, we get it. Books are not cheap. Library sales are also extremely important for books, so putting in a request at your local library is another way that you can help.

So you can pre-order the book right now in all formats at the link in our show notes. And if you are in Seattle or Fort Worth, Mike and I are doing live events the week of launch, which you can also find more information about at the link in our show notes. These events will be free to attend, but please do RSVP so that we can plan accordingly. See you out there. AI was meant to be. Let's create the agent-first future together. Head to salesforce.com slash careers to learn more. A note about Joe at the top. They are trans and non-binary. Joe interchanges what pronouns they use but prefers they-them pronouns, so that's what we'll use. But just a heads up that some of our interview subjects use she-her pronouns when discussing their

relationship to Joe or when they're talking about Joe's childhood. Yeah, you'll see we'll be like driving like 60 and then it'll say 35 for like two seconds and then it'll be back to like 60. We begin our story in Joe's hometown of Hutchinson, Minnesota. What's the vibe of a Minnesota small town? Because I feel like small towns, I think they're kind of the same everywhere, but then they're like, okay, just church. I mean, once you see Hutchinson, at least it used to be like... On a chilly February day where it is mercifully not dumping snow,

Joe and I, along with my producer Mariah, drive out to Hutchinson, a small rural town outside Minneapolis. The streets are lined with all of these huge trees that are barren now in the winter, but you can imagine them making this beautiful leafy canopy in the warmer months, and there are rows and rows of small craftsman houses, and as Joe said, a lot of churches. Joe has come along on this journey with us, bravely, to do something that I feel like you mostly see people doing in movies, returning to their hometown to try to get to the bottom of their often confusing childhood memories, to return, literally in Joe's case, to the scene of the crime.

I lived in Hutchinson my whole life, which is like a very small town in Minnesota. Like the next nearest town was probably like 30 minutes away. So very secluded and isolated just as a town itself. What are some of your earliest memories? That's a really hard question I feel like to answer. I feel like a lot of memories, I just were repressed for so long and I didn't even really get until seeing my records. But some of my earliest memories would be being in the hospital, sick a lot, missing school, not being able to like go out and play with friends. But then also I have a lot of memories of playing with friends and a lot of memories of getting McDonald's with my mom.

We all misremember our childhoods to one degree or another. But Joe's is a different story because their history is so obscured by their mother's manipulations. Her interconnected webs of deceit, not only around Joe's health, but around every facet of their lives together. The idea of unraveling it all is beyond daunting. So we've come to round up some witnesses. This is, yeah, this is very rural. Yep. This is it. Cornfields. Oh yeah, when I was little,

we would like play hide and seek and like hide like in the cornfields. Which I think is like dangerous. But we weren't going that deep, so. This is like the main street. You hit everything in Hutch down this street. Okay. You guys have a Target, look at that! We do have a Target.

That was there. It wasn't as popular as Walmart though, so. What is Menards? Menards. Menards? I really, please put that in. Okay, so obviously I did not grow up in the Midwest. The drive into Hutchinson is beautiful, but pretty sparse.

There are all these lakes glittering under the winter sun and lots of empty cornfields. Very few signs of life. This really is the middle of nowhere. I went to this church for a while for youth group as a kid. And then one day they said, today we're going to speak in tongues. And I said, I think I won't go here anymore. I went to that church across the street.

I was going to say, another church. Not exaggerating, as we drove around, there was a church on almost every corner. Oh yeah, we love a church. Hmm. Another church. Joe lived in Hutchinson for their entire childhood. And driving through the place, it looks like a sweet, nice place to raise kids, honestly.

And you know, we have a pretty strong archetype of what places like this are supposed to mean in America. Small towns are supposed to be the places where people look out for one another. Or, alternatively, some see these as places that are not so tolerant of outsiders. Our first stop is the elementary school that Joe went to as a kid. We pull up outside a few minutes early to a very chaotic and familiar scene as school is letting out and a long line of SUVs and sedans snakes around the block with parents waiting to pick up their kids. I shouldn't generalize, but a lot of people who live here grow up and stay here. They marry each other and then, you know what I mean? So a lot of our teachers are homegrown.

That's why I call them homegrown Hutchinson people. So that was, I felt like the town was kind of, I don't want to rip on Hutchinson, but I felt like it was a little clicky. Hey, how are you? I haven't seen you in a long time. Nice to see you. Hi, I'm Jen a long time. Hello. Nice to see you. Hi, I'm Jen. Hi, nice to meet you.

Nice to meet you. Can I give you a hug? Yes, of course. Of course you can, Jo. Jen Becker, or Mrs. Becker, as Jo remembers her, was then and is still a first grade teacher in Hutchinson. The two hadn't spoken in well over a decade, but their reunion was warm. I'm sure it looks very, very different.

I always felt so safe. I remember as a kid my memory was like, you know, kid brains are interesting. So I was like, Mrs. Becker is really pretty. And that was like the biggest thing I remembered about you. Oh, well that's nice. She's so pretty and she's so nice. Well, like, I don't know if you remember anything about me. I remember you were quiet and you always looked super tired. I remember that. I was, like, a little worried about you, so I brought you, we had like a, we have a, it's called something different now, but we had a team that, where I would, I don't bring you to it, but I bring your case to them to talk about you.

Because I was worried about that you seemed so tired and it was like a little bit harder for you to concentrate sometimes. I don't remember academically anything, but I remember you being a very sweet, sweet kid. I remember you were kind of sickly. Your mom was very super mom, kind of. She was, did she like run the gymnastics program here? Yes. I remember that. I remember her saying you were going to be like a superstar gymnast, but she would come in here and kind of be mama. Like she'd act like mama to everybody in our room. Like the mom of the year kind of thing. That's what I remember about her. And I remember her always being concerned because she said you were, like, ill or sick

or they were trying to figure out what was wrong or whatever. She was more of the, I'm, like, such a role model for everybody kind of thing. And I'm not putting your mom down. Tried to make herself look really like a super mom. I always had, had like a little bit of an uncomfortable feeling about it, but there was never anything concrete that I could do.

I was like probably in my second, third year of teaching. So, you know, I'm just like doubting myself. Of course. So I was just kind of like, well, it doesn't feel right. What Mrs. Becker says about her memories of Joe's mom sounds extremely familiar to me. In interviewing people about these cases, they frequently describe a bad feeling that they just can't quite put their finger on. Mom seems involved, loving even, but something is just off. So I feel like a lot of memories,

I just were repressed for so long and I didn't even really get until seeing my records. One of Joe's earliest memories really belies the distance between their mother as they experienced her and how she tried to present herself to the outside world. Jo doesn't remember a time when they weren't sick, and their mom was often pushing them into the spotlight in one way or another. One of these memories is being a state finalist in Minnesota's American Petite Princess Pageant at age four. I have very faint memories of it. I'm pretty positive my church sponsored me and paid for it. At the time,

I was supposedly really sick. So I'm not really sure. It's a little odd to have someone that's super sick all of a sudden wearing this like really pretty dress and putting on a show for people. But that was kind of I think the theme of my life was one day I was dying and the next day I was doing back walkovers across the grass. So it definitely was fitting. My mom, I remember I, I guess I like grabbed the curling iron, like right before we went on and burned my hand pretty bad. And I remember like crying and like screaming because I was in pain and it hurt. And my mom was like, you need to stop. You need to go out there and perform. So that's like one of my first memories, I'd say, of where like,

it was like the opposite where my mom didn't want me to be sick, where like me being in pain was not convenient and it was not the time for it because it was going to actually take attention away from her. And so I had to just act like I wasn't in pain and go and perform and do my thing. And I ended up getting runner up at the pageant because my mom there was a girl that was too shy and wasn't gonna go out and my mom ended up helping her so she went out and then she won and I still have a little bit of a grudge because I was supposed to get to go to Disney World but since I got runner up I didn't get to go to Disney World. And my mom ended up ironically winning Best Mom Award. And that I remember like she always made a big deal of it. Of course, it was like a really big thing because it proved that she was this great, loving, caring mom. In the beauty pageant, they

had a Best Mom category. Yeah. So sometimes I really do think back and I'm like, was that a real thing? Like, is that what the award really said? Because that is kind of like an interesting, like, what kind of beauty pageant was this? I don't know. So who's to say? That's what I remember. And I remember my mom making a big deal about it. And I remember me being really annoyed because I didn't get to go to Disney World and she didn't care because she got Best Mom Award. In Joe's memory,

their mom successfully fooled everyone as thoroughly as she'd fooled those pageant judges. And it's only right now, in the midst of their conversation with Mrs. Becker, that Joe realizes maybe their mother's abuse wasn't so well hidden after all. Did you know before just now that Jen had ever made a report about you? No, I had no idea. I didn't know. I don't think I knew that anybody in school knew I my interpretation not in first or second grade or third or even any of that but probably like fourth grade on my interpretation was that everyone thought that I was faking illnesses and I just wanted attention and I was just this like kind of bad rough around the edges kid. I didn't yeah I didn't it didn't seem like anybody had any any idea. Mm-hmm well it was just like I said like a I

don't know what it was like a feeling. I just with your mom it just didn't feel right. It just felt forced I guess guess I don't know what the word would be you were probably one of my very first kids that I did a report on so and like I like I said I was I was like young I was like in my fourth year of teaching or whatever and you doubt yourself all the time and I see things and I have inklings about things, but I can't really, like legally, what can I do besides do a report or whatever? Yeah. I can't go to your house and like take you out of the house. Yeah, I think we talk about that so much, everything you're speaking to.

I know you were like, I don't know that I have much to say. But, like, literally this has been one of the most helpful conversations I think I've had. Well, that's good. Yeah, I think that there's so much. Everything you're speaking to speaks to the systemic issues. And I think whether or not I was, like, one of your first reports or even if I had been your hundredth, like, like you said, there's only so much that you could, and the reality is like, you are still a reason that I'm sitting here today. You were that safe enough person in my life at that time that helped me survive that year of my life.

Joe and Mrs. Becker share goodbyes, and we walk back out into the empty hallways of the elementary school. They're full of adorable, wonky artwork and kid-sized chairs and sinks. How was that for you? It was so good. I had no idea about the reports. That is like, I feel like it makes me mad all over again like so many people knew so many people knew

yeah it's weird I think it's easier thinking that nobody knew. Thinking that, like, I just hit it really well versus being like, no, everybody knew and still chose to treat you poorly. I mean, not, like, those specific people necessarily, but...

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Please gamble responsibly. Gambling problem? For free assistance, call the Connex Ontario helpline at 1-866-531-2600. BetMGM operates pursuant to an operating agreement with iGaming Ontario. For Joe, remembering their childhood can feel like putting together a puzzle that's constantly rearranging itself. Joe thought their mom had everyone fooled, in part because plenty of other adults seemed to trust her. Tell us about Donna just as a person. Yeah, she, when I was little, was, I would say, pretty well respected. Like I said, she taught Sunday school. So at my church, which I think she just kind of did things wherever I was going to be.

She also had a daycare. She had kids coming over to our house all the time that she supposedly cared for and things like that. Also growing up, weirdly, we always had people living with us. One of my sister's friends pretty much grew up with us for a very long time, was living at our home. Some of my cousins stayed with us for a very long time, was living at our home. Some of my cousins stayed with us for a really long time, which very odd now when I look back at it, but she always seemed to be around kids, taking care of people. When I was pretty young, she started coaching gymnastics, which I was a part of. And she did that, I mean, until I was a teenager. So she did that for a very long time. And a lot of people really, like I said, respected her,

really liked her. And then on like the flip side, you know, I remember riding in the car with her to the liquor store and her having me sit in the car and I would sit there and when people would be walking out of the liquor store, I'd roll my window down and I'd yell, Jesus loves you. And then I'd roll my window back up and I'd duck down because I was kind of scared. But I remember like that was this fun little game that I would play right outside the liquor store to all the people. I had no idea what they were doing or who they were or what was going on. I thought they're just running in for errands.

I didn't really understand what alcohol even was at that point. I can't really remember many people not liking her or being afraid of her or not trusting their kids around her when I was really little. That changed a lot as I got older. One of the people who spent a lot of time around Joe and their mom as a kid was Joe's friend Bree. Yeah, no, I'm really excited to see her. Yeah, me and Bree were like best friends pretty much like eighth grade through senior year. We were like inseparable. People would always joke that we were like dating because we were just always, always together. Yeah, I spent a lot of time at her house. She spent a lot of time at my house. We pull up to a house with a red barn next to it and a frozen lake behind it. Walking into the house feels like a Minnesota Pinterest board come to life.

There are little signs everywhere with funny sayings, many involving puns, and there's a cookbook on display with hot dish recipes. There's kid paraphernalia everywhere, and a very sweet, sleepy dog who curls up in his bed after giving Joe, Mariah, and me a thorough inspection. Oh my God. She's just so lovely. Yeah, oh, smell, smell, smell, smell.

Bree and Joe met as kids at their church confirmation, but didn't really become friends until middle school. Bree would eventually go on to marry her high school sweetheart, and she still lives in Hutchinson. Just tell us a little bit about Hutch from your perspective. Small town, lots of drama. Watching Joe with Brie is incredibly sweet, because like we all do around people we grew up with, they morph back into the teenagers they once were as they giggle and reminisce.

Yeah, everybody knew everybody. Everybody knew everybody's business. What was that? Where did you hang out? What would you do? What was the draw? I just go to, like, Walmart and hang out. That's what I said. I was like, Walmart.

Walmart, that was like, yeah, that was the Walmart. That's the place we all went to. That was like, yeah, that was the place. Yeah, literally just the stupidest things. I don't know. It's just the only thing to do. Small town shit. I don't know. Or driving around.

I was just going to say. Yeah, we drove around. We would drive around for hours. Yes, doing literally nothing. Literally nothing. But we would always like be in the car with the boys. And they're like whipping. Whipp're, like, whipping shitties. Yeah, whipping shitties, like, all over.

Yes. Donuts. Yes. I knew that was a Midwestern thing. I was like, whipping shitties. Whipping shitties. Yeah, we'd, like, sit on Main Street in, like, the Genesis parking lot and just, just like do stupid stuff. Brie knew Donna well because in addition to being her best friend's mom, she was also their cheerleading coach. Can you talk a little bit more about like cheer, what was cheerleading like? Did y'all do competitions? Was it just like for games and stuff? Just competition. Not in school.

Hutch banned, or not banned, but they got rid of cheer like right before we... Well, you were in school. Hutch band, or not band, but they got rid of cheer right before we. Well, you were in it. Yeah, I started cheer in sixth grade and did it. And then in eighth grade or something, I want to say, we had this coach that we, like, went to our homecoming game. And at, like, right before the game started, our coach, like, walked out on us because supposedly we were bullying her daughter which didn't happen it was so weird but so they like literally she like walked out on us and we weren't able to cheer the homecoming game which at the time felt like a big deal a big deal we had like our routine like all these things and there was like a cop like standing there like all these it was like very dramatic you know, Hutch drama.

Hutch is dramatic. So then my mom was like, oh, I can be the coach. And that's where it all went downhill there. And then that is where it... So then my mom started coaching, and it became an all-star team. So we no longer did anything at the school. Nothing through the school. Yeah. Because you guys were like the Hutch Tigers.

Yeah. What was... I don't know. We were the Midwest All-Stars. Yeah, when we became competition, yes. Our colors were teal and zebra. We were like, when we would do competitions, we'd be like the only one. So we'd win, which is cool and all, but we'd be competing against nobody like I don't

know we just sucked or if there was just like we were in such a small like rain I feel like my mom like had to have like purposely put us in and we could always win yes cuz she would be like you guys got number one. Yes, and we'd always get number one. But like, drop every single stunt and like do so horribly. I feel like we were not very professional competition cheerleaders. It was like the bad news fairs with cheerleaders. It was just like so embarrassing. So embarrassing.

You guys have a you guys have a very big trophy in this picture. Yeah, we got first. We're winners. We're really good. We're winners. We're really good. We're winners. We're really proud of ourselves. We're going to have to look up what the bracket was. It was probably something like town size, team size. Oh, yeah.

You could find a way to then like. Oh, she found a way. She found a way. Interesting. So was Donna being drunk at practice something you remember from that time? Oh, 100%. Brie pulls up a photo, and these uniforms are exactly as spectacular as they sound. Brie and Joe clearly had a lot of fun together growing up, but Brie glimpsed the dark side of Joe's home life, too. What are your memories of what Jo's house was like? We would mostly stay in her room or do stuff in the kitchen.

But then for the most part, we'd be outside. Like they had like a playground. I know we were a little bit old for that, but whatever. And then really just like go to the neighbor's house and like walk around. And yeah, never really like. Do you remember the townhouse? Yeah, yeah, yeah. We were like hung out in the house a lot but at the same time not really we try to avoid her mom at all costs oh you're like unlocking

do you remember oh my god do you remember when we were like washing dishes and my mom was like drunk but we were like so afraid of her so then I made the song do you remember this I don't remember the song but I remember the song it was like washing dishes with brie it's just my friend and me doing this something very carefully because if I wake up my mom she'll drop the f-bomb then I'll have to run till I see the bright sun. If she wakes up, she'll look and say sup. Oh, my gosh. And then something, something bad would happen. Yeah.

Don't wake up, Mom. Don't wake up, Mom. She was usually drunk in the living room. And that's where she, like, stayed the whole time that I'd be over. She never did anything. So you didn't, sounds like you didn't really have any interactions with her, was she? Yes and no. Like, I'd, like,'t really have any interactions with her yes and no like I'd like I was very cordial with her I think she liked me and we would like I could go in and talk and like

she'd be my mom like whatever but I never really had like a whole lot of interaction I really just went over there just to hang out yeah she was really nice to you. She really loved you. I was just always there. Jo, do you remember, was there a difference with your mom's behavior when there were other people there versus when it was just you and her? I mean, definitely. I think that was always, I mean, I think Bree probably saw. I saw some, she got really mad sometimes where it was like

you shouldn't be here. But like around adults she was a lot nicer. And normal. She tried to pretend to be normal. Yeah, yeah, yeah. She would definitely play like the like I'm so happy and loving and kind.

Yes, I'm such a good mom. I'm such a good mom. There were other signs that something was amiss in Joe's house. But I definitely remember the kitchen meds. So many. Just like bottles of pills everywhere? Yeah. All over the counter.

Yes. And like in the cupboards where like cups were. Yeah, not normal. Not normal at all. At that time, was your mom claiming that you and or her had a specific chronic illness? Um, I mean, I had severe asthma. Yeah. Oh my gosh. Yeah.

I forgot about that. Because she would always like at cheer, like would be like, Joe, you can't run or you can't do this because you have asthma. And I'd be like. I'm fine. I'm fine, yeah. And then she'd be like, use your inhaler. And I'd be like, no, I'm not going to. Like, I just have to breathe.

Yes. Because I thought I was, like, invincible. I thought I was, like, beating asthma. Yes. Because I thought I had it, but I didn't. No. I didn't. I remember my mom had a clear, a Gatorade bottle all the time

that had vodka in it yep um and it would just be sitting like on the back thing and she would always go and just take a drink and then she had these like these like breath strips or something that she would like take after that oh yeah but like the cleat not clear things but yeah the little strips oh yeah these weird little you like put it on your tongue. The water bottle or whatever she would put it in was like everywhere. Everywhere? She'd bring that everywhere. She always had that Gatorade bottle.

And I remember one time as a kid, I was like, mom, can I have a drink of water? And she was like, no, don't touch that. And I was like so confused because I was like, I don't, okay. Like why? Yeah, like why? Jo thought their mom was, I don't, okay. Like, why? Yeah, like, why? Joe thought their mom was better at disguising her many issues than she actually was. But the fact that she was pretty much constantly intoxicated appears to have been an open secret. I remember, like, the last, like, year or two of being friends, like, it seemed like more abuse was going on and like um I know I talked to my mom about it and was like we need to get her out of there blah blah blah and I know at one point I was over and

we're like we need to record your mom so like being drunk and stuff and the things she would say to her but I guess like that was more towards the end. When you say towards the end, like, around what age? Like, 16. I don't know when we, like, stopped being as close. Probably after I started dating Max. Yeah. I lost touch with a lot of people. Yeah.

Probably, like, 16. 15, 16. Did you feel like you knew, like, at the time that, like, not all of it was real? Or that it, like, 16. Did you, do you feel like you knew like at the time that like not all of it was real or that it like seemed dramatized? Yeah, like, but I would have never said anything because like I didn't know anything. But yeah, I feel like when it came out that it was all a lie, I was like, yeah, I knew that, obviously. How did you find out about... Online. Like when you did the story. The doctors?

Yes. That's when I was like, oh, okay. Yeah. That makes sense. Joe first went public with their story on social media prior to making an appearance on the CBS TV show The Doctors. We will get into that in a later episode, but this was the first time many people in Joe's life heard about the abuse that they had endured. So you weren't shocked. It made things kind of fall into place for you? Yeah, definitely. None of it shocked me. Yeah. None of it shocked my mom either, which is sad because I feel like my mom didn't really like even know the full extent of it shocked my mom either, which is sad, because I feel like my mom didn't really even know the full extent of it. But she knew mom.

Yeah. Did she know anything about child's and by proxy before watching that? Nope. I don't think I've ever even heard of it before that. So yeah. What did it feel like to kind of have that confirmation that you were like oh my my intuition was kind of correct it felt really shitty I feel like I wish that I had known more then obviously I was a teenager so there's not much I could have done but I felt really bad

because I feel like there were signs and we knew things and I feel like we were trying to like help, but I feel bad that there was no way to help really. And that you were a part of it for so long. And I was a part of watching it for so long. Yeah. Shitty. What does that feel like to hear, Jill? Yeah. Shitty. What does that feel like to hear, Jill? Yeah, it's really a lot.

I think it's like, I mean, you were like my literal best friend for so long. We were like sisters for a long time. So long. Yes. And I think like you definitely knew probably the most out of literally anyone in my entire life. And I didn't even, like, know, right? So it's just, like, and like you said, like, yeah, I remember, like, trying to do, like, plotting of how, like, you could get me out of the house. Like, we knew that your mom was terrible.

And we knew she was not a fit mother. And she shouldn't, yeah. But I still thought I was sick. Exactly, yes. A lot of it was true. And at least safe, for the most part. Like, she was still your mom, so she had your best interest in mind. Yeah.

I'm hesitant to judge the adults surrounding Joe too harshly, but what the hell? This lady was just constantly drunk at cheer practice and no one intervened? You know, the comfort of living in a small town, which by the way I also do, although it's certainly not one as isolated as Hutchinson, is that people are supposed to look out for each other. Why didn't someone do something about Donna? I want to tell you about a show I love, Truer Crime from Cilicia Stanton. My favorite true crime shows are the ones where I feel like the creator has a real stake

in what they're talking about. And this is definitely the case with Cilicia, who got interested in covering crime because, like many of us in this genre, she experienced it. In each episode of the show, Cilicia brings a personal, deeply insightful lens to the crime that she covers, whether it's a famous case like the Manson murders or Jonestown,

or a lesser known case that needs to be heard, like the story of a modern lynching. She covers these stories with a fresh and thoughtful lens, helping listeners understand not just the case itself, but why it matters to our understanding of the world. Her long-awaited second season is airing now, and the first season is ready to binge. So go check out Truer Crime with Cilicia Stanton wherever you get your podcasts. If you've been listening to this show for a while, you know that I have very strong feelings about what is and is not responsible true crime content. Maybe you've heard me make some pointed comments about the

producers of a certain film, or perhaps you've heard one of my dozen or so rants about a certain journalist whose name rhymes with Schmeichel. And if you've been with me for a while, you'll also know that getting Nobody Should Believe Me on the air was quite the roller coaster. Podcasting is just the Wild West, y'all. And these experiences are what led me to launch my new network, True Story Media, where we are all about uplifting true crime creators doing the work and making thoughtful survivor-centric shows. And I could not be more thrilled to announce our very first creator partner, You Probably Think This Story's About You. The first season of this enthralling show

from breakout creator Brittany Ard took podcasting by storm in 2024. Zooming to the number one spot in the charts on Apple and Spotify as Brittany revealed the captivating story of a romantic deception that upended her life and traced the roots of her own complicated personal history that led her there. Brittany is back in 2025 with brand new episodes, this time helping others tell their own stories of betrayal, heartache, and resilience. If you love Nobody Should Believe Me, I think you will also love You Probably Think This Story's About You for its themes of deception, complex family intrigue, and its raw, vulnerable storytelling. You can binge the full first season and listen to brand new episodes each week

by following the show on Spotify, Apple, or wherever you get your podcasts. You can also find it at the link in our show notes. As is often the case with these offenders, Donna was skilled at eliciting sympathy. Your mom was broken too, though. She would always, like, be sick or, like, injuring her. Do you remember that with her? Was it, like, kind of every time you had an interaction with her, was there, like, a, oh, I'm just my back or my thing or my dad?

Something was, like, yeah,, just like, it was normal. Yeah. It was there normally. Yeah. Joe, just to the like question of how many meds were on hand, were you taking all of those meds? Were you taking them sporadically? Was she getting them prescribed

for you and then hoarding them? Like, do you have a sense of what? I think it was pretty sporadic. Um, like I, like there were, I feel like hundreds of like meds, but probably hoarding, not taking like the full doses and just hoarding them, hoarding them lots of like antibiotics or like things like that um yeah I remember like one time my mom like you could see like when you were sitting in the living room there was like a mirror that kind of like, with vodka, like, in the kitchen. And I couldn't call the cops because I couldn't do that to her. So I, like, told my neighbors and they, like, had to call the cops and I had to, like, stay at their house for the night

because my mom was just crying about how she didn't want to live and how horrible she was. Usually more about how horrible I was. I was going to say, I feel like a lot of it was you were a horrible child to her. She didn't. I was the reason she drank. Did she, do you say that because Joe reported that to you or did you actually hear her mom say that about you?

Her telling me stories and seeing it firsthand. It wasn't very often that she, like, would talk like that to her because she put up a front, but, like... It would slip. Get her drunk enough. Yeah. Yeah. Definitely knew she was not a fan of you

and that you ruined her. I ruined her. Yeah. Mm-hmm. Which to me back then was like, how? You were the best. Like, I don't understand. She like does everything for you.

Everything she does is because she wants to please you. What Bree says about Joe here really hits me. Because Joe is the best. They're always looking out for everyone around them. And Joe and I know a lot of people in common. Everyone loves them now. It's not a surprise to me to hear that everyone actually loved Joe growing up, but before this trip, I know that Joe believed the opposite. Their mom told them over and over again that they were a bad kid, so they thought that everyone else must think so too.

That's the influence that our parents have on us. The things they tell us about ourselves, for better or worse, bury themselves pretty deep. So, Jo, I'm really interested in the way that you just phrased that, where you said, I didn't call the police because I couldn't do that to her. Why did you think, because I think calling 911 would be, like, the most normal response. Like, what did you, did you feel that was somehow a betrayal of your mom? Yeah, I mean, it goes to what you just said. Like, I, I, like, really thought I was, like, the problem. Like, I really, it's like at times, like, yeah, I would, like, was like the problem. Like I really, it's like at times like, yeah, I would like look for the alcohol,

but it was because I wanted, I thought if I could like take the alcohol from her, then she would like stop drinking and be nicer. And like, I always just thought that like, yeah, I was the problem. I was why she drank. I mean, she said if she, if I wasn't alive, she would stop drinking. So like, I don't know what else else else to believe. And, yeah, she would always just say that I was, like, this bad kid. And even with everything going on, like, all I wanted was her to love me and, like, approve of me.

For me to be enough. There were times that when the cops were called, several times throughout my life because of her drinking, because they would have to take her to the hospital and whatever to detox and stuff, and my extended family would come over that day, and then they would have me show them where all the pills and all the alcohol were and then they would throw all of it out not in the garbage outside because we knew that she would like dive in the dumpster so we'd have to like bring it to someone else's house um but then that's when they would like have me go stay at like my uncle's house or something

because they knew like when my mom got home from the hospital like she would literally kill me um because it would be my fault even though like I was just doing what I was asked to do by my family and like I always felt really weird about it all because I didn't understand like the alcohol or the pills or like any of that sort of stuff um but I wanted her to feel better, so like I would help, but I knew I would get in so much trouble. Joe's mom Donna was clearly struggling with addiction and with her own mental health issues, but it doesn't excuse her actions. Someone should have protected Joe and held Donna accountable, and yet when adults in Joe's life did try to help, they met with dead ends. And those times when Joe attempted to reach out for help on their own, it often backfired. My mom taught Sunday school, and I grew up in a Missouri Senate Lutheran church. And once she

stopped teaching Sunday school, we stopped going to church. But I started going to church with my neighbors, and I had gone a little bit with some other people before this. But I started going to church with my neighbors. And I had gone a little bit with some other people before this. But I started going with my neighbors to an evangelical free church. And I really liked it there. But I guess maybe because that was when I was a teenager. I was probably 14-ish. And so that's when I started to kind of break away from my mom a little bit. And I think she felt threatened by that. High school is the first time I ever told anyone anything that was happening in my home. Prior to that, when I started getting more involved with church, where I started, I opened up to my neighbors and my youth leader for Youth for Christ. He was the first person I ever told anything that was happening.

But all these people then that started to be in my life that were involved in church started to think I was making up illnesses and stuff. So then they started to use the Bible against me. And they would always use this quote, do you want to be well? Then pick up your mat and walk. And they would always use that as like, it was my choice to be healthy. And I would always do these testimonies at church and like through these little groups I was in where I would talk about

how sinful I was and how bad I was and how God saved me. And it wasn't until getting out of that state, like literally getting out of Minnesota, that I was able to like really wrestle with religion and really deconstructing religion. But I had to do so much. And I still struggle with this concept of like, I'm evil and bad. Because one, I learned that that was just like my core beliefs because of what was going on in my home and how I was like taking in how people were reacting to me. But then two, I was told, you know, the Bible says you're born sinful and you can only like be good if Jesus is in your heart. And so I just always like had all these messages that were just thrown at me that I was the bad one. You can tell, even from a quick drive through town, that in terms of places in Hutchinson that one might go to for support, the choices were going to be the church or the church across the

street. And Joe quickly realized any help those institutions might offer came with big strings attached. I kept thinking as we were driving around this town about that country song that came out last year, Try That in a Small Town by Jason Aldean. Thought about how this song sounded to some people like a patriotic love letter to tight-knit communities where people take care of each other. And it sounded to others like a sinister warning to people who might try and stand up for themselves in a place where they're not welcome. And the truth is, we saw this duality in the story that we covered in season two. It was, in part, I believe, the tight-knit nature of the community surrounding

Alyssa Weyburn, the victim in that case, that finally brought her abuser to justice and landed Alyssa ultimately in a safe and loving home. And you would hope that people in a place where everyone knows each other would really look out for one another. But maybe it can make situations like Joe's worse. Maybe it's easier to report on a person you suspect is abusing their child if you're not going to see that person every single day at the grocery store for the rest of your life. Maybe insularity breeds its own kind of silence. Or maybe a town of any size is only as good as the people in it. Next time, we'll take a closer look at Joe's home life from the person who lived it with them.

Because mom's favorite phrase growing up is, I brought you into this world, I can take you out. Nobody Should Believe Me is written, hosted, and produced by me, Andrea Dunlop. Our senior producer and editor is Mariah Gossett. Greta Stromquist is our associate producer. And administrative support from Nola Karmush. Music provided by Johnny Nicholson and Joel Shupak. With additional music and sounds from SoundSnap. Additional music by Jason Shaw from Free Music Archive. Thanks to Cadence 3 for recording support.

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and making thoughtful, survivor-centric shows. And I could not be more thrilled to announce our very first creator partner, You Probably Think This Story's About You. The first season of this enthralling show from breakout creator Brittany Ard took podcasting by storm in 2024, zooming to the number one spot in the charts on Apple and Spotify as Brittany revealed the captivating story of a romantic deception that upended her life and traced the roots of her own complicated personal history that led her there. Brittany is back in 2025 with brand new episodes, this time helping others tell their own stories of betrayal, heartache, and resilience.

If you love Nobody Should Believe Me, I think you will also love You Probably Think This Story's About You for its themes of deception, complex family intrigue, and its raw, vulnerable storytelling. You can binge the full first season and listen to brand new episodes each week by following the show on Spotify, Apple, or wherever you get your podcasts. You can also find it at the link in our show notes.