Not Skinny But Not Fat - BAYLEN OUT LOUD: TOURETTE SYNDROME ON TIKTOK

Episode Date: February 18, 2025

In this episode, I chat with Baylen Dupree, a TikTok creator known for sharing her life with Tourette syndrome. She opens up about misconceptions people have about Tourette, why she wants to get married young but has fears about having kids, what people say that drives her crazy, and how her tics come about.Produced by Dear MediaThis episode may contain paid endorsements and advertisements for products and services. Individuals on the show may have a direct, or indirect financial interest in products, or services referred to in this episode.See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

The following podcast is a dear media production. Welcome back to the not skinny but not fat podcast. I'm your host, Amanda Hirsch, and I still can't believe that I get to chat with some of my favorite stars from my very own podcast, where you'll feel like you're just talking shit with your best friends in your living room. Hi, guys. Tuesday. I hope everyone had a great weekend. It's president's week. Maybe I'm wrong. And like, yes, teachers deserve a break, but like, I don't remember as a student who wished to have time

off from school, having time off from school. By the way, snow days, like, I used to hike, like, to class in college. Like, I looked like I was constantly skiing because that's what I looked like covered from head to toe, literally in the tundra, like hiking to class. So I don't know, all these days off, a week off for this. Like, did we get a week off of President's Day? Like, did we remind me? I don't know. What did I do? Where did I go? I for sure was super excited to have office school. Anyway, so happy President's Week. And I hope everyone's hanging in there. I feel like February is going to come and go. It's going to come and go. We're mid-February, so it's going to come and go. I am in my year.

year of yes. It is so crazy like the manifestation that I've done my whole life, which I have. Now I, now we have a word for it, but my whole life where I was delulu and trying to do these things that I'm kind of doing now or put it out there that I'm going to be in this entertainment industry since I was like born, okay, thinking that I would be sending emails, sending headshots, like all the things. And then ending up here today. Now I look back. I'm like, were you insane or were you manifesting? Like, that's a word now, which we love. But then me calling 2025 my year of yes. That was my nearest resolution. I'm going to say yes to more things. Really open doors. Like I'm telling you, it's like the gods heard or like people actually heard

and are listening and are trying to take advantage of my year of yes. And I'm like, well, I did say it's my year of yes. So okay. So it just shows you like when you're open to more things. It reminds me of that episode of Sex and the City where Carrie goes with Charlotte to one of those like affirmations when she was doing affirmations. And it's like, but are you really out there? And then Carrie like grabs the mic. Oh, hand to chess because she does that always. Oh, she's out there. Oh, she's out there.

Oh, Carrie. Oh, Carrie. Love it. Love it. Anyway, so I'm out there and you put something into the world and it's kind of wild that it, the world, hears you but calma okay world i still like to stay in and i don't like change anyway you guys so we have summer house summer house is back i did make a comment when i was watching the premiere because there are two new girls lexie and bailey which is so funny because that bailey girl like

she's in the first episode she comes with lexie obviously like lexie like stole her spotlight or whatever she seems to be fine with that but she's not in she wasn't at the premiere party nor she in the intro. So it's like, are you a friend of of? Because like Lexi's like a friend of, which by the way, that always cracks me up with Bravo. Also because I know like from behind the scenes like none of these people that are supposedly friends bringing a friend are actually friends aside from the original like friends. So it's like Lexi being like, oh, I'm friends with Amanda. And then Amanda explaining it like we met in an event once. Oh my God. Best friends. You met in an event once.

And then when they're asked by Bravo producers or casting to brainstorm people, it's like, oh, I know this one Instagram model. I met her. She'd be good. She's single. Blah, blah, blah. Anyway, so I don't know where that Bailey girl went, but Lexie would and Jesse seem to be hitting it off right from the start.

He calls her Ditsy. People didn't like that. I mean, I obviously, if a guy said that to me, I'd eat him alive. I'd be like, you're fucking Ditsy. but, like, people getting offended on her behalf is kind of like, I'm over it. Like, we can't handle the word ditsy. Like, okay. But, and then her being like, I'm more than that.

I want him to see me more. I mean, it's just funny to me because I know the girls have so much to say. And when they're asked about Lexi, it's like, oh, no, she's hot. She's cute. She's nice. You know. And first of all, I do want to give them some time, like, let them flip later if they do, right? But it's just not our behavior.

Like we want to talk and it doesn't always have to be shit. Just like talk about it. Be like, oh, what does she do on Instagram? Like, is she a model model? Like, oh my God, she like came in strong for Jessie. Just like, we talk. So don't pretend you're not talking. It just makes reality TV a little bit more still to me when it's like people are so worried

about the brands they've built and the careers they've built and the, you know, everything that they don't. They know how Bravo fans can be and how everything you say can be spun and misinterpreted or just looked negatively. upon. So they're scared. They're like, no, she's great. Everyone's, everyone's great. And it's like, okay, cameras off. You're going to talk shit. Even though I do see things kind of changing because I know Sierra doesn't look like she's that into her present day when she was unwatched what happens live. It looks like from coming scenes, maybe Lexi's jealous of Sierra and Jesse's relationship.

I mean, Jesse is the type of guy that gets like super touchy-feely with other girls and calls everyone hot and beautiful. So I can understand being insecure in a relationship with him. But I guess we shall see. I love Wes. I think he's so fun and I love watching him squirming next to Sierra, even though he was a deed to her or I think it just seems like Sierra falls in love and she falls hard for these like douche canoes that aren't ready for a girl. Anyway, that's summer house. We've had a crazy week of Kanye antics, a lot of anti-Semitic shit that he put out there, which is so like, are you okay? Like, no, you're not okay. But we also. also can't excuse this behavior.

Like, it used to be kind of like, oh, he's not okay. Like, oh, yeah, he's calling himself Hitler. Like, okay, not funny. He was posting that up the wazoo, just saying, I'm Hitler, I'm a Nazi. He literally bought a Yeezy ad during the Super Bowl. And if you went to Easy.com, there was one shirt and had a swastika. Like, I'm not kidding right now. Like, I don't know if, like, you can go to jail for that, but you should go to jail for that.

Obviously, it's horrendous. He left Twitter, which I wish he was kicked off of Twitter, but he just left Twitter. He's still on Instagram with like 20 million followers. Like, that should not be the case. People ordered these swastikas, by the way. Don't you think that those weren't ordered? Like, the amount of anti-Semitism in the world has been just, but at least we are hearing from some stars finally speak up about it when it came to this shirt that you couldn't ignore. Matthew Coma, who is a musician and Hillary Duff's husband, I love him, by the way. You should follow him on Instagram if you don't. He's super funny. He actually came out with a

fuck ye shirt yay i'll never know to say it yay right and i said ye i guess it doesn't matter i guess doesn't matter if i'm saying it right at this point and he sold it and he is using the all the profits towards a great holocaust survivor fund charity one of those things anyway i can't speak listen i am so sad for haley beaver and justin beber just living their lives like everything it's like oh justin beber and haley beber out to dinner amid like divorce rumors and it's like what divorce rumor is like they are okay like i don't know their relationship and if i had to guess because you guys do know i'm a celebrity anthropologist i would guess that it's really hard being married to justin beaver i would guess that the guy

has been through so much and so much trauma and so much just fucked up shit that to me it felt like haley was his like saving grace like saving angel when they first got together and that he constantly wants to try to be a good guy for her and maybe he fucks up sometimes like i don't know in what way he fucks up but and that it must be so much for her to be with someone that just needs so much that's what it looks like from the side so i'm sure it's not easy i'm sure it's not like oh justin the hayley hottest couple cute as couple now they have a a son which is wild we kind of tend to forget it because they you just forget it but literally he just commented on kiki palmer's post in a road she said i'm popping out people are like oh justin bieber

emerges without Haley after leaving Flirty Comment on Kiki Palmer's Thirstrap. And it's like, maybe that's a line from a lyrics. Maybe they're doing a collab. Like, why is everything, why is everything so dramatic? And just people want to take them down. Like, people are going to be, imagine just being in a relationship that you fight to be in

and work so hard because every relationship you work for and the world wanting to fucking take you down and are waiting for the day you break up. Like, that is so fucking hard. Speaking of couples, Salina and Benny Blanco, who are engaged, came out with a new song, which is so cute of them together. And they also did an

interview for interview magazine together. Selena didn't want to share about the exact engagement story, which we kind of saw that it was like a set and she ate Taco Bell, but we need more. But she is saving it for her kids. Damn it. The whole story. But Benny

Blanco just said such cute shit about her. First of all, he said he was into her music from the beginning. that she is the original sad girl, which I thought is so funny. And just that he's like obsessed with her. He even said like, he said, holding her isn't close enough.

I just want to be inside of her whole body. You know, it's funny. So I posed to this and I wrote, be inside of her whole body. I remember saying the same thing when I was falling for husband. And like, I get that I'm like funny all the time, but I like actually said that.

Like you guys are like, Amanda, you're hilarious. And I'm like, no, you guys. I actually, I actually said that, you know, when we met in 2010, I remember that's how I described how I felt like I was so in love with him, that like, really like, what the physical wasn't enough. Like, I wanted to crawl inside of his body. Anyway, today's guest is one that I had to have. When I heard she was getting her own show, I was like, I need to interview her. She's so interesting to me.

Her name is Baylon Dupre. you might know her from her TikToks. You might know her from her show, Bailin Out Loud. You might know her as the girl on TikTok who has Tourette syndrome and is super open about it, super vocal about it,

raising awareness for it, get sometimes criticism about it. People sometimes think she's faking it. And so first of all, I want you to make sure you listen to this and, you know, and be open and don't be judgmental. I know you guys are sensitive.

And there are some moments where she does have a tick, what she calls them. And I was told at the beginning, like, you know, to just, you don't have to act a certain way when she does them. She doesn't like when you come up down the street and say her tick or, like, you know, make fun of her, obviously, but she is light about it. And I had fun talking to her and she's such a sweet girl. And actually, since we have recorded, she and her boyfriend got engaged, which, like,

good for her. She really wanted to be engaged young. Her mom has, like, I think they're like five kids. So I'm assuming she wanted to be. like her mom and like get engaged and married early and all that stuff. Anyway, she's a really sweet girl and I think it's important to hear from people who are giving kind of a platform for these different kinds of issues that don't get enough of a stage like in this world.

So enjoy my convo with Baylon Dupree. Where's the dog? I was told there would be a dog. So yes, she has not went poop today. So. Is it a new dog? Oh, no, but she just. So, for example, you're in the hotel room for 13 seconds, did a loop, pooped, right there.

Do you have a wee-wee pad? Oh, there she is. Yeah, there's a fluff. Does she calm you down? Yeah, she helps, like, everything. Really? You want to sit right there for that? Is she legitimately emotional support?

Yeah. Not service, but 100% a support dog. Hi. Hi. I feel like Shih Tzu's really do bring the most comfort because they're so lazy. They're cats. We call you a cat. Colin asked me, he's like,

how is this dog real? Like, all she does is sleep. You have an aura ring? Yes, I love it. I love it. Stop. Okay, let's go so we don't miss any important stuff like her aura ring. You know?

Suck a dick, bitch. So. Hello. You look pretty. You can see yourself there. Thanks, she look pretty. Thank you, my love. Well, thank you for coming, Baylon.

I'm so happy for you today. Thank you for having me. Are you kidding? fucking star on TikTok, 10 million followers almost. Yes, almost. A lot. Yes. When did you start on TikTok?

I would say 2022, 2020, the end of 2021. Really? I think. What made you say, I'm going to go on TikTok, I'm going to share, I'm going to share this personal thing and everything? I suck dick for a living. Hmm. Was it initially kind of stemmed from me being like,

hidden and like I was I was just bullied there was a video where I was being recorded and it was sent around and I just kind of didn't really want my story to be told from someone else's mouth or someone else's perspective especially since during that time I kind of like left all my friends like left who like everything in my life and I kind of had to like start over because I was so ashamed of like who I was and everything and I didn't really want to be that person anymore and I just wanted to be open and honest with myself and just kind of say it out loud. Like, I have Tourette syndrome.

Like, and just take my power back. This was when you're now 22. And 18 was when you were officially diagnosed. Yes. So what happened until you were 18? Was it not as severe or did it just not have, like, the name? On it up. So I started having ticks around, like, the younger ages.

like six or seven, and then they stopped and they came back when I was like 15, 16. And I would say they came back right before COVID, and by right before, I mean, maybe four months before. And they were noticeable, but they were very mild. Like, I only had like a throat clearing tick. And I had a couple like neck twitches, but it got to the point where people were pointing it out. And then it was like, okay, why do I have to clear my throat 900 times a day? Like, and the only thing I could tell people is, I can't control it. Like, I just have to, I just have to do it. And they didn't know what I was talking about. So, ticks definitely started when I was younger and they kind of went away. When you were five or six, sorry to cut you off. Five or six, how did they present then? Do you know,

do you remember, does your family tell you? It was, I just kind of remember just thinking that everyone else did the same things. Like, I had, like, a lot of, like, motor ticks more than vocal. So, like, you have to have both motor and vocal ticks for over a year to be diagnosed with Tourette. Okay. And I only had motor ticks when I was younger. What are motor? What does that mean? A motor tick is kind of like, like, any type of, like, movement. So there's, like, mild motor ticks, which is, like, basically, like, what I'm doing right now, which is, like, neck movements, things like that. And then there can be complex ones where it's, like, multiple muscle groups. So, like, for example, my wind it up, wind it up, which sets my ticks off, but it's using multiple muscle groups.

So it's a complex motor tick. When you talk about it, does it bring it on more? Yeah. It's like a trigger resetting off. I get it. Yeah. Sorry. Do you know?

Hello. Like, when I, I can understand it from a perspective of, like, if I talk about having anxiety, like, I'll just talk about anxiety. Like, it'll, like, kind of feel it. You know what I mean? And so is that what it's like like you'll talk about it and you just start kind of feeling it? Well, since like the tick already like is a tick, like re-saying it is just kind of like resetting the tick off that I've already like said. So like when people approach me and like they call me by my ticks instead of like by my name, it like sets all my ticks off. And like that's a horrible way to approach me because it's making my condition worse.

And a lot of people don't know that. So you're saying it now, which is important that you're saying it, which is don't approach. me by my tics. But I also understood that you are okay with people laughing with you or did I get that wrong or smiling if you do it. Like that doesn't offend you. No, it's just kind of like reading like my expression and my emotions. Like, and then after I react, you can react.

Yeah. Like there's multiple times where like my day is destroyed and devastating and it's shattered. And that's kind of like, like as a normal person, you'd be able to. tell, like, that's probably not something to be laughed at or things like that. But, like, if I were to say something that's funny, like, I agree if it's funny, you know? Like, it's just kind of, like, telling and kind of going through the process, like, my parents had to learn, like, where it was okay to laugh, is it not okay? Like, what's, like, how do we, like, read the room type of thing? Yeah. How to know, like, when the right moment is,

kind of just goes based off of, like, how I react to it. Yeah, so you're saying, Oh, man, my flabber's been dasted. So you're saying when you started posting on TikTok, it's because somebody else posted something, it was circulating and you wanted to take your power back. Who's this somebody? Do you know who it is?

Is it a stranger? Like, where did they catch you? It was someone from my school and someone that, like, I'm, basically I, you know the feeling you know when, like, you're being watched or, like, followed or, like, you have like that feeling. Yeah, I don't really know if the video surfaced or went to other, to other people, but I know that I was being recorded.

Oh, okay. And that's what I don't, that's like the unknown is like kind of like what the video and where the video went. Uh-huh. And that day I went home and I was like, I don't know where this video's going, but I don't want her making fun of me or saying anything about the video because she doesn't know what I have because I didn't openly express it with the people I went to school with because I chose to hide.

And I chose, like, to not admit. Like, I have Tourette's syndrome. Like, this is who I am because I was embarrassed of who I was. I had no confidence in myself. I was in therapy multiple times a week. Like, just to, like, be able to be like, I can look at myself in the mirror and tick and still think that I'm not an ugly person.

Yeah. How did you control it at school or did you not? Like, you weren't saying I have Tourette syndrome, but obviously were ticks happening at school? So my tics came back when I was like around like end of sophomore beginning of junior year and that's right before COVID happened. So about four months in I would like make noise when we'd be watching a TED talk or like my friend I would go back and I'd let my friends know like, okay, like I'm trying to figure out like why I'm doing this throat clearing thing. My cardiologist thought it was like something with my vocal cords. It was just kind of like figuring it all out.

And like those things were ticks, but I just didn't know they were ticks. So I would, what was the question? That how, because you said you didn't share with your friends at school. Yeah, because I didn't know. But you didn't know. But so you were able to go through a full day at school and not have a tick in front of them? Or how was that? So my ticks at the time were like extremely mild.

Like it was so mild to the point that like these things that people were saying. like, stop making that noise, like, do this. Like, Bailen, you're, like, I was going on a lot of different medications. My friends would be like, Bailen, you're really manic today. Like, you're really manic. So, like, they didn't know the same way that I didn't because doctors were telling me it's my vocal cords. Like, it's this, it's that. We don't know.

Like, go see this doctor. So it's just kind of like I was figuring out the same thing in the same way that they were. But I never told them. Why did it get worse during COVID or after? after COVID, during COVID. Yeah, like, right before COVID, we tried getting, like, back in. And my mom was, like, calling the doctor. And she was, like, like, it's gotten so bad.

Like, it's gotten really bad. Like, we need to get in. And they couldn't see us. But I think it got bad because I chose to isolate myself and having, like, I'm sure during COVID, like, for some people, it was either good. It was either bad experience. Like, I chose to go completely virtual. So I learned that, like, my ticks didn't like my computer.

and I broke my brother's computer, like smashing it with my fists, like bending it backwards, like just things that like kind of made it hard to like be so isolated than also have like this condition. My parents started noticing it more because now I'm at home more. Now they can see me more. I'm not in school for seven hours out of the day. I'm at home trying to learn seven hours out of the day. And I can barely get myself dressed in the morning. Like it went from like like a like a two to like a 12, like I was getting fed by my parents, like I couldn't, like, stand up. I was throwing myself on the floor. Like, just like a lot and a lot of things happened during COVID that I think set it off, like just being at home. Wow. Like not socializing. Like you had it

and then COVID was like the culprit to really like. Turn that baby on. Yeah. Yeah. So what doctor, what kind of doctor diagnosis this? A neurologist. A neurologist that specializes in movement disorders, but they have to specialize in Touret, which is super hard to find. So when I finally got like my official diagnosis from the Mayo Clinic from a doctor who's a neurologist that specializes in Touret, she looked at us and she was like, good luck finding a doctor near your area. Because you're in West Virginia for everyone that, yeah. Yes. So where did you go to get diagnosed, New York? The Mayo Clinic in Minnesota.

In Minnesota. That's where I got my official official diagnosis. Mm-hmm. So then she's saying what? Like, there would, couldn't find anyone to treat you properly in your area? Yeah. So the neurologist I went to go see basically was like, I can't diagnose you with anything. I have no idea what this is. I never want to see you again as a patient unless you come back for migraines because I went there for migraines as well because he was a specialist in epilepsy. But he didn't want to tell us that until afterwards until it got too complex for him to be like, I don't want my name attached to this. Yeah. Like, this is too complex of a case for me to take on. And so he basically looked at me and he was like, you can't work. You can't go to school.

You don't fit in. Don't drive. Definitely don't drive, which I don't still. You don't drive? Do you have your license? No. Is it allowed? Like, is there a guidance?

I mean, at first, it wasn't allowed through my doctor because at the time I had a tick where I was hitting my foot off my head. That's how, like. hitting your foot off your head. Yeah, I'm very flexible. I was trying to picture that. I was like, wait, wait, that gets to your forehead? Yes, and it would be in like, my mom would be like, what is going on right now?

I'm like, mom, just cover me. Just cover me. And we'd be in like marshals and I didn't want anyone to see. And I'd be like, how my hat? She's like, okay. But you have to, you could do it standing up? Yes. And that's why my doctor was like, this is too much of a case.

Like, these aren't ticks. And it's like coming from. doctors who don't know about Tourette, like, anything can be a tick. Yeah. And, like, I know going and meeting people at the TAA, like, they all have the same story. What is the TAA? The TAA is the TRETS Association of America. And there's basically a community of people that all have Touret or tick disorders.

And I've met so many amazing people through there and friends. How do you mean? Is there like a gathering? There's like three gatherings a year. So there's like Advocacy Day, TickCon. and then there's like the gala. TickCon. Yes, it's like a Tick conference.

Wow. So it's like the only conference that they have for like the Tourette community where like, so for advocacy day, like we were going to the Capitol and we're going and asking Congress for like more money for like the CDC for like health care for help. And like tick con is like just dedicated to people that have Tourette where they're able to get together, have fun, be educated, take some courses together, like things like that. And just be surrounded with each. Are they super proud of you? Are they happy that you're doing where you're doing on TikTok,

that you're educating so many people? Yes. At least I think so, but I just know that a lot of everyone's stories are the same, like, where they all stem from, like, doctors that don't know. And, like, you would think that, like, they should know. Like, but at the same time, it's like... So they were told other things when they were younger or told that they can't figure it out? There's people that I've met that have been sent to mental facilities. This was like three years ago. They were sent to them. Wow.

Like, people have been just re-diagnosed, like, later than 18. Like, they're, like, they got diagnosed at 25 because they've won their whole life and, like, doctors just didn't know. Wow. Or, like, people have been re-diagnosed with instead of Tourette, but tick disorder because... And that's two different things. Yes. Tourette and tick disorders are completely different, which they, like, with Tourette, you have

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Well, Baylon's here for people that haven't caught on yet. You're getting a show on TLC. I mean, by the time this comes out, it'll be out. Baylon out loud. It's going to be out TLC. Your mom's out. Did you ever think you would have a show on TV? Honestly, no, it's definitely, like, it's insane to think about because it's not something that happens to a lot of people.

It's, I'm very blessed. I'm very blessed to have this and have the opportunity to help other people and to just share my life. And that's something I want people to know is, like, this is my life with Tourette. I'm not Tourette. Like, I'm not the face of Tourette. I'm not the voice of Tourette. I'm just telling my story and my journey. Like, Tarrette, it looks completely different in me than, like, it would look different

in someone else. And I just want people to also know that. Like, what is, like, the response that you get on TikTok? It seems there's a lot of support, right? About the show? About the show, about you, like, your followers. Like, again, 10 million followers on TikTok. It looks like there's a lot of support.

Do you get the other side of? The internet too, like the negativity and definitely. I get a lot of that a lot. And sometimes it is hard to not see it and not go down rabbit holes, but I've done the best that I can. It was really hard in the beginning as things are, but it's gotten better. There's terrible things that people have said. There's police that have showed up at different places. Why police? Because people sent me at the house down the street in my neighborhood and said they're going to come find me and kill me and they were paid and... What?

Oh my gosh. There's just, like, crazy stuff that has happened. Like, I had a Turkish guy hacked my account and, like, go in and, like, tell me that, like, I needed to pay him and I needed to follow him to, like, get my account back. Like, I've had some weird stuff happen. Wow. And the police officer was like, do you have, like, shades you can close? And I'm like, yeah.

And he's like, I wouldn't case you're sniped. It's like, why are you telling me this? Wait. And you live... In the West Virginia in a small town? Yeah, and we live on, like, three acres? Yeah. And they sent me, like, they sent a picture of, like, three houses down from, like, our house.

It's like, I know where you live. No. What did you do? Freak out. Freak out, mostly. I, like, was. How do they know where you live, though? Like, on TikTok, do you show it?

Oh, no. So how did they find you? I wish I knew. I also had the other night a star six seven number called me and asked me, like, is this bailin from Instagram? And I'm like, No. No. So are you a little bit nervous that this new show is, like, even more exposure?

I'm definitely nervous, but I'm kind of feeling like every emotion. Like, I'm excited. I'm nervous. I'm just ready for people to understand me. And hopefully, like, I can go into a grocery store one day and, like, just not feel uncomfortable for one day in my life. Are you getting better with that every day? Do you feel like with not feeling uncomfortable? Definitely.

Like, yes, but I feel like everyone is like uncomfortable somewhere or sometime, like, throughout the day. Yes. But there's a, I would say yes. Yes. Is it like the fear of getting, of it happening somewhere? That's the fear. Well, I've kind of accepted that like something's always going to happen. Someone is always going to have like some type of opinion no matter what mine is.

It's kind of the fear of. what someone's going to say and how I'm going to react because I struggle a lot with convert, confrontation, like, very badly. Like, I just, like, let everything go. I'm like, it's fine. Like, they're fine. They just didn't know. They just didn't know.

They're just ignorant. Yeah, I'm like, they just didn't know that they probably shouldn't look nine times, 10 times. And it's like, how do I approach them the right way and say, like, hey, like, I have Tourette syndrome. I'm like, please stop staring at me. Yeah. But, like, then it's like, they say something and it's not that.

It doesn't end up being that simple. And then there's people that say, you don't need to explain yourself. And I'm like, yeah, I do. When I cuss out your grandma on a marshal's line, I probably need to explain myself. Okay. Like, yes, people are like, you never have to explain yourself. Don't explain yourself to everyone. And then I'm like, oh, yes, says the grandma that turned around is looking at me like, what did you just say? Do your parents that are here, and they're going to be on the show as well? My dad's bald. Are you? He is. So when they're with you, do they ever do they explaining for you? Oh my God, yes. It's why I love not going alone. Yeah, I was going to ask you. Even like when I have Fluffy, I have more confidence and comfort or I'm like, I will say something. If you come up and say something about my dog and then it leads to, what noise do you

making? What are you doing? Yeah. But, I mean, I've had people that have come up and pet Fluffy and like, they're like seven years old and I'll tell them to like F off. right? Yeah. And then they'll be like,

I'll be like, oh my God, I'm so sorry, I have Tourette. And even they'll be like, I just figured, because that's not something normal to say. So it's like if some, that person can understand it

at such a small age. Yeah, then an adult should have to. But so the bad words, that's the corporal. Shut the fuck up. You don't stupid fucking bitch. That's corporal lately.

That's corporate. And I see like it really does get exacerbated when you talk about it. I feel like from our conversation. Like when we're talking about it specifically. Corporalea. Corpola. Okay. That's the bad words. Yes. And did that start right away when you... No, it actually did not at all. Like, it started with like, oh my gosh, like, you have the nice turret. Like, that's what I heard from people. It's like you don't have that disgusting language of a mouth. Like, oh my gosh, thank God you don't cuss because you'd be so ugly if you cuss. Like, that's the stuff that I heard.

Like when I first started ticking and like, and it got like, my ticks were very active. But none of them were cussing. None of them were like obscene words or like gestures until my brothers, when I came back from college, I think around Thanksgiving or Christmas or something. Their X-boxes were downstairs in the basement where I was living when I came home. And you hear a lot of things out of four young mouse, three young mouse when they're playing Xbox with three people. Because you have four brothers and a sister.

Yes. And you. You're sick. Which mom? Like, how the F did you have six kids? That's wild. Oh, my God. I'm playing it for nine.

And she... I'm just kidding. We'll talk about you wanting kids at such a young age. Okay. So your brother is playing Xbox and they're saying bad words. Oh, yes. All three of them. Yes.

It's like your mom smells like dog water. Like you say, like the most strangest things. You were picking that up. Yes. And then you think it kind of like triggered something? Most likely, yeah, which is really, like, when, like, I've worked with, like, techniques and things with Dana, like, doing, like, therapy and, like, trying to, like, rewire my brain. And it's a lot of work. Like, it's a lot and a lot of work that I've put in for five, six years with working with her that I've learned that reverting my urge to puck instead of fuck.

Fuck. Fuck off, bitch. doesn't work. Like, it, like, does not work. There are certain things that, like, I can switch to try to rewire my brain. So one time I had a tick, that was BBC. And now it's BBQ. BBC, like the channel?

No. Big black cucumber. Oh, my God. Wait, I'm supposed to know this. This is a TikTok thing? Sorry, guys. I didn't know. What can I do?

BBQ. That's all big barbecue. So you changed it to BBQ. Is it work? Yep. Okay. So, like, that's kind of how, like, I learned to, like, revert urges and, like, rewire my brain, but it only works with certain ticks. So, like, cussing, I've tried, like, deep breathing. I've tried, like, certain things like that. And they do work for certain situations and certain scenarios. Like, I know that me doing deep breathing can help me in the elevator instead of saying puck or fuck. Yeah. Like, I know that can help me. And I know when I get to my house, that I can say fuck and I can let it out. So it's just kind of like instead of me like hating myself for swearing because I really did, I really had like a very mental deep, dark spot for that, which I still kind of do.

Yeah, it's just kind of like knowing like the environment. Like when I, it's like masking. Like I'm camouflaging my tics and I learn that through therapy and things versus instead of like me trying to hate myself or trying to replace a bad word versus like, Which is, like, me learning, like, where I can say it and, like, where I can work on techniques to help it. And you said it feels like an itch that you have to scratch. It's a, it's like trying to hold in, like, a blink. Like, if I asked you to, like, hold in a blank.

And you could only do it for, like, a certain amount of times before your eyes water and then you blink. And then you're like, oh, wait, my eyes are water. I need to blink three more times. And it's like, that's what happens. Because you talk about your OCD as well, right? that you have to do things in threes. So it kind of goes together, like the OCD and the Tourette's. Yeah, so the way I like to explain it is like the Tourette is something you see.

It's the iceberg. And then underneath the water is what's buried underneath the iceberg, the things you can't see that are underneath the surface, which are the comorbidities like OCD, anxiety, bipolar, autism, depression, OCD, all of, those wonderful things. And for you, it's just the OCD. It's not all of those things. I have OCD. I have anxiety.

I have ADHD. I have bipolar and OCD. What are you treating? Like any of that stuff, are you treating with medications? So I'm trying to treat kind of the bipolar and OCD because once you kind of work on like your mood, like your ticks are kind of impacted, if that makes any sense. More controlled, maybe. Yes.

Because when you're anxious, my tics get worse. But when I'm excited, my tics get way worse. Ah. Like, so it's just kind of like finding, like, a balance and having, like, bipolar. Like, there's long stretches where I am extremely depressed. And in those stretches, like, my tics go on and off because when I'm sad, I don't tick. Like, when I'm sad and when I'm, like, sick, it's very, like. It's mild.

Yes. Yeah. Yeah. And also those are extremes like you were talking about bipolar. It's like extreme. You're either this or you're that. So then the tics are extreme. And your boyfriend on the show that we see, Colin. Fuck that bitch. He said, because you were asked about your intimacy. He said that, sorry, sorry, parents. But he said that when you're intimate, you don't. I don't tick. Right. So you can. I mean, listen, they're going to see the show. So there are a situation. So there are a situation. I mean, it's kind, you know what it reminded me of? It reminded me how, you know, when somebody has a stutter.

And they sing. And they sing. And then they don't have the stutter. Mm-hmm. Or the British, yeah, so it reminded me. It's kind of, like, also, like, when I work out, like, I don't, well, I do tick, but it's not, like, as bad as not working out. Oh, so do you work out every day?

Well, we talked about your aura ring. So are you big into working out? Yes. I try to stay, like, as active, like, as possible, whether, that's like getting in steps or just trying to get like a mind-body like type of workout in because like when I am in the gym it's a very safe space but I'm trying to also like get back into like that type of thing. You know you take breaks. Yeah. You're like don't like it anymore and you're like yeah. But you know that it's good for you. Yes. It's it's something that like really helps

that I know like I'm not doing to like oh I hate myself like I'm going to do it. like going to burn all these calories at the gym. Where are you doing it for your mental health? Yeah, like I'm literally doing it to help my ticks and to just make myself better. Like when I'm 50, I want to look the best that I can for my kids. For your kids.

Wait, are you in college right now? No. So you were in college, as you said before. So you left college. Two years ago. Wait, so you went to college like right after high school. Yes. And then left.

Yeah. Well, I was there for a year. And so why did you leave? I wasn't the biggest fan of the fact that I didn't have a niche. Like I didn't have like, I lived off campus. I didn't have like the dorm experience, the friend experience. Oh, you lived at home still? No, I lived with my ex-boyfriend at the time, my brother and his ex-girlfriend at the time.

Oh my God. Because I couldn't live by myself because my tics were too bad. And my doctor was like, I think you should live with people that get it, that understand, that can help you. And at the time, it was my ex-boyfriend brother and his ex-girlfriend. You're very good at relationships, like, from boy, like, you're a boyfriend gal. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

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I screenshoted what he said. I was like, this is not real. And then I'd blocked him. And how was Colin different? How did you meet him? Um, he didn't know who I was. That's his, that's exactly what made it different. He wasn't like, oh, when people start following me off your Instagram, I'm going to get like hundreds, thousands of followers. Oh, there were people that wanted to use you for, like, fame. Oh, yeah. And it's, like, weird fame, like, not like, oh, I'm going to become, like, just, just, like, just people are just weird.

Did you know how to, how did you know, because it sounds like you knew when they were being fake? Like, they're, like, I mean, I went on dates with people that would be like, yeah, so I'm starting to be a neuroscience so I can help people. like you. And I'm like, you ruined it. You ruined it. You ruined it. You ruined it. What? You ruined it. So, like, I knew instantly because he had no idea who I was. And the first conversation. So how did you meet? Through a dating app. Oh. And, like, I put on there that, like, I had Tourette, but I didn't put, like, my job. Like, I didn't put what I do. Like, and he kind of,

like, he never met anyone with Tourette before me. You put that on your profile, though. That I had Tourette's Yeah. Yes. Wow. How did you decide to do that? It was like something you may not know about me. And it's like I have Tourette's syndrome. Like you just wanted to put out there from the get.

Yeah. And then you don't know. I don't want to have like on our first day a conversation. Like you say the one wrong thing that I take rudely or weird. I won't say anything about it. I'll keep going about it. But I will block you as soon as I walk in the door. Oh my God.

Like I just I just can't do like you can pour the water. You can pour the water. I got it. I'm going to coach you through it. I didn't ask for a life coach. Oh, my God. You expect, I feel like you could have a dating, like, that's so interesting how people approach dates with you. Oh, it's great.

It was so much fun at first because then I could write a blog. I realized, like, what I liked and what I didn't like in people and the conversations that I liked in the conversations I didn't want to have when I first met you. So, like, when I first met Colin and we went on our first date, like, there was nothing about my social media. There was nothing about Tourette unless it's like, oh, like, ask. a question or like, oh, do you need me to help you here? Like, what do you need help with? Like, are you okay? Like, things like that. Like, he seems so kind.

He is. He's a... How long have you been dating now? Two years. Damn. Yeah. And he did kind of like, because I got a sneak peek at the show by the time this air is, all of you can watch a show and TLC, but... Not skinny, but not fat bitch.

That's my name. But you there told him you want kids by 25. He kind of freaked out. Right? He started sweating. Do you still stand by that? Are you? Oh, yeah.

And you're 22 now? Mm-hmm. Okay. So you got three years. We need this. We need a home. How, so is he, because he started kind of like, he's like, okay, we'll talk about it.

Yeah. What does he think now? Is he down with having kids young? Yeah, he's, I feel like definitely now he is because now he's like, well, Bill and I don't want to be 30 kids. And I'm like, call it. It's fine. Yeah.

He's like, I just. don't want to be 30. And I'm like, okay. Like he wants to be younger. Yeah. So we're both on the same train. And how do your parents feel about it? My dad wants grandbabies like right now. Really? But you have, wait, how, what, what your sister's older, no, younger than you? Yes. Are you, so.

I'm the second oldest. The second oldest. Okay. And does your older brother have a girlfriend? No. Okay. So you are the leading, the leading. Not yet. Burke doesn't have a girlfriend. Not yet. Not yet.

Well, your brothers? We're trying to get him one. Well, maybe after the show, some girls would be sliding in those DMs too. He doesn't have an Instagram. Really? Even better, guys. Even better. It doesn't have social media.

I mean, that does make him cooler now. Yeah. Does Colin have social media? Yeah. What makes you sad? Yeah. Oh, you wish he didn't? I'm like, Carl, just delete everything.

You're fine. Like, we don't, because there is a time. You're like, I'm enough for those of us. No, no, there is a time where I got so pissed. I'm like, Colin, everyone, that's following you is just women, but they don't follow me. They come from my page, but they only follow him. She does the due diligence. She checks you guys. Yeah, I do the, why are you following my man, but like, do you think you're going to, and then they'll get,

like, he'll get, like, the couple, like, DMs, uh-huh, like, like, hey, I know you're with Baylon, and I'm like, oh my gosh, we're really doing this, girls. Stop. Oh, yeah, there's been times or he's gotten, like, pictures sent and, like... No. Oh, yes. That's why I'm like, just delete it. It's fine. You don't need that shit.

You have me. Yeah. Everything you will see will be from me. In your flip phone. Just kidding. Next Christmas, babe, you're getting a flip. Oh, my God. So do you see yourself, like, staying with, is he the one?

I think so. I love Colin. I love him. And when you really think about this, like having babies at 23. How do you see that working with Tourette? Oh, 23. I mean at 20, sorry. Oh, my God. Somewhere in between that line. 25. We ain't starting yet, Mom. No, no, no, no, we're not. How do you see that working with the Tourette and everything? I honestly at first was back and forth with devastation, like, do I want kids, do I not? Like, thinking, like, I don't want them to have Tourette.

Like, I don't want them to go through the same struggle that I go through. But then I realized, like... Why, is it genetic? It can be. It can be. There's obviously doctors don't know. But there's the genetic hereditary factor to it. Doctors don't know.

Yeah, they don't know. Like, it can come from being genetic, because it does have a genetic component, but there's people that there's only one person in the family that has Tourette. Like, for example, my family, and that's me. But there's other people that I met through the TAA where no one in their family has it but them. Yeah. So you went through thinking about that,

like whether you'd take the risk of passing it down to like a baby. And like at first it was like, no, but Colin was, we've had a lot of conversations and like he's so amazing with like letting me know, like, what better person to have a child with Tourette than someone who has Tourette, like type of thing. Wow. Like it'd just be like better for them and better for you. you like you guys you guys both know wow there's just so many things that like what a like nice thing

for him to say and it's so true but that was probably so comforting to hear yeah it's it's really nice to hear and just we around him so you are only 22 right so you're in the world of like pop culture where like everyone my everyone in my generation wants to have kids when they're like 30 yeah and then there's me and I'm like so yeah but so who do you look up to like who's Adam Sandler. Really? I love Adam Sandler. If I could come here and boho everything, I would and be like, you know, F it.

I love him. I love his, the way his, the way that Hollywood has not changed that man. Oh, wow. I just, I love the fact that he does not care. Like, I was told that he comes and he, when he's in New York, he goes and plays basketball with random kids. Yeah. I mean, you could go while you're here, maybe try to check out that court.

I'll tell you where it is, see if he's around. You know the court? I know the court. Do you know I'm getting him but 23 and me? Just kidding. I was thinking about getting him that. I was like, I feel like it would be a great gift. Like, to who?

Adam Sandler to find out if we're related. Because I feel like I could get him premium. We could upgrade. Maybe I'm related through the wife. Wait, why do you feel connected to him that way? You're like, we must be related. Yeah, because we both are sweatpants. We don't get a fuck.

Yeah. I love that he's your idol. Like, you're literally so young. I thought you would say like Olivia Rodrigo. Oh, no, it's Adam Sandler. It's Adam Sandler. Yeah. Like, I don't really have, like, a lot of idols.

Like, I don't idolize people, but, like, I love Adam Sandler. I love all the movies that he was in. I love his comedy. Timalee! And I've gotten that from the freaking thing. Shalomie! And my mom's like, where'd that come from? I'm like, Mom, it's Abby Gilmore.

And I'm like, it's from Nikki at the Global Award show. Wait, when he said Timmy Shalamee, right? Yeah, Shalomay. Shatamee. I saw that. I saw that. He is so cool. And he did dress up for the Golden Globes.

That's what I saw, too. That's what I saw too. And he is, I love that you love him. I hope he hears this and, like, sends you something. Oh, I don't even need that. I just, I just, I just, I just, I just, I just, I just want Adam to know that I love him. That's all that matters. So whether he sees it or not, just whatever.

So, but, okay. We need to get matching sweatpants. That's the next step. First, no, she exists. Next step. Matching sweatpants. Adam, I will put on baggy shorts to match you. We will go to the red carpet together.

some time. So any girls, any like, like, because I was thinking Billy Eilish. I love Billy. Did you watch her documentary? I did not. Unfortunately. She has Tourette. I know that. I know that. Did she ever see your videos or? I don't know. I wonder. Did any celebs ever interact with your account? Comment? Reach out. I know Neo did. And Chris Brown commented on it. I follow OBJ and I talked about I talked about him the other day because I'm so shocked that he follows me. Let's just say that I've started getting into it because Colin's like a huge commanders fan. Jaden Daniels, I love you. So I would say yes, now I am.

But like if you were to ask me two years ago, I'd be like, what's a football? What's the bubble? Wait, so OBJ, what do you do? He follows me. On TikTok? On Instagram. On Instagram. That's different.

I told my mom, I said, Mom, they're different. It's different. You're like, it's more intimate on Instagram. We're basically dating. So he started, did you follow back? Were you following already? No. He's only following you.

You didn't even give him a follow back? Oh, my God, of course I followed him. Okay. Oh, could you imagine? That would be so rude of me. Is Colin jealous? Does he get jealous? Yes, he's jealous.

He's like, why don't you just yem him? Say he'll only love the Miami Dolphins. And I'm like, yeah, I'm scared to him. I'm like, I don't know. I'm standoffish. Like, I just don't know. You're acting cool. You're playing hard to get.

No, I'm acting like I don't want to come off as a crazy fan girl. Sorry about that if I did. You should. Should come off? Yeah, and DM Adam Sandler too. Hey, Adam. Yeah. If you just send me your address real quick, I got some to send it.

At 23 and me. Your siblings were talking about on the show, a lot of siblings, like how they deal with being your brother or your sister, that they had to sometimes take the back seat and feel like your parents had to be with you or not stay with you. Did that affect, like, your relationship? with them? Do they sometimes get, like, frustrated? I would definitely say, like, it hasn't impacted at least our relationships negatively. Like, I feel like it's definitely brought me closer to each

of them. Like, they each individually know how to help and how to stick up for me. And I don't know, but I definitely know that there was a lot that had to happen for me to get the help that I needed. and that did require them to be in, like, the backseat. But I just want them to know that, like, my parents still love all of us individually and the same. But are you the favorite? No. No? Fluff is, right, Fluff?

Fluff. He is so fucking cute. Wait, is she? Yeah. Okay. She's a limp penis when she sleeps. No, literally. She literally just is, like, chilling.

So who are you closest with? Is it your sister? Yes. Now it's my sister, yes. It used to be Sven when I was a little bit younger, but me and Sammy were like this. We did not use to me. Really? No.

She would, we would fight a lot and we would share a room together. So. And not anymore. Did you move out yet? Well, I'm talking like growing up. Oh, okay. Like growing up, we only shared a room. Uh-huh.

When she moved out, yeah. I had my own room. Yeah. When she moved out at 18 and when I was 21 and made a minute. But you. talking the show about wanting to get your own place? Yes. Is that in the near future? You'll have to watch

and find out. Okay. She's becoming a reality TV. She knows how to save the tea for TV, huh? It is the tea. It is the tea. Hello. Hi. What are you most excited for people to see on the show,

bailin out loud? I'm honestly most excited to watch TikTok myself. I'm excited for people to see my friends and see this community and just get to know them and their stories. And you can tell, like, being there, like, the difference between each person's condition

and how it is different in everyone. And I just think that it's shown very beautifully. And you're hoping... Bitch! And you are hoping that more people will know about Tourette's syndrome. people will educate themselves more. Maybe they'll be more because you're saying, like, some doctors don't even know how to diagnose it, treat it.

I hope and wish that throughout the show, like, everyone learns something, but through this journey, like, education and just knowing that, again, I'm not Tourette. Right. Like, Tourette is shown very differently, but education and just getting to know, like, me and my family, the dogs are in it. They do interviews, fun fact. So I just I just want everyone to know the family and hopefully like for the near future for kids and for people who are the older generation just to like have a little bit more insight in something that I struggle with every single day that isn't necessarily something I can show in a 30 second video. Like I prefer to

show you the positive, happy moments of my life versus like the devastating. like things that can really tear me apart. And it's really wholesome to watch and see, like, in the show, there's something that I'm conquering in a milestone or some type of adventure that we're going on through each episode of, like, trying to get better and trying to learn different, like, things that help and just, like, just getting to know me along with Touret. What do you say to people that will, that have said that you,

it's an act and it's not real, which I saw that Chris Cuomo interview and I kind of annoyed me to be honest. Were you annoyed at him? I prefer not to say. Because he said something along the lines of what would you say to like dopes like me who don't believe you? Something like that. I don't care. Like I like you telling me that you think I'm faking it like it's terrible. Like that's terrible to hear that you think that I have that much free time and that I would bring my family along and my friend like that's the thing that where I'm like that's what you like it just makes me think like that's what you would do like you like like you think I would bring my whole family fake an entire illness for fun that you that no one wants like I don't want it like I'm extremely annoyed and hurt

and in pain and confused like and uncomfortable every day yeah like I just I don't like the name like tib-tib-tip-tap the wiener tap their tis-ry chicken. I just, that's something you have to deal with God. Yeah. That's a you and God problem. Like me, God, my family, we're grounded. We know the truth. And that's all that matters.

That's true. You have to quiet down that. Like, we have to stay faithful, at least through all of this, because there's going to be things that people throw around and that are said and that are in the air and that's drama and that, oh my God, this happened. And she said this. No, I didn't. Like, there's only a few people that know the truth.

truth and I really don't care if you still think I'm faking it because I'm not like and I have nothing to prove to anyone at this point like well it looks like you have pretty thick skin so good for you kind of my adipose tissue is pretty thick but like you said something about like picking things up and I was wondering like like rotissory chicken you said top the wainer tap the rotissory chicken Ratissory chicken. Tap the wier, tap the rotissory chicken. Tippy tippe tippe the winger, tap the rotissory chicken. So the rotissory chicken one, how did that happen?

Like, you pick up certain words sometimes. Yes, so it started from tippy, tippy, tippy, tapped that wiener. That's what it was at first. Oh, that was one of the, you changed it to reticestered chicken? Yeah, and then it changed the tippe tippe, top the wiener, tap the rotissory chicken. Oh, you both enough. It's like it just got added on with like, I wish I knew. I was in Costco.

And you saw a rotissory chicken. Pretty much. Really? Pretty much. Like there's some of them where I'm like, oh, I know. And then other ones where I'm like, you don't know. There was a chicken. It was there.

And then it got sucked. Yeah. Do you have hope that you will outgrow it, that they find a cure? Like, I'm not really focused much on, like, curing me. Like, I don't really think that there's a problem or an issue that needs to be, like, like, solved with, like, something experimental. I think that there's coping mechanisms and things and ways to help. But I would like my tics to get better as, like, I get older and I progress.

But Tourette is waxing, waning forever. Like, it will always be that way regardless of if it gets better. Like, it's a lifelong condition. Right. So, like, there'll be times where people will be like, oh, like, my son, my husband doesn't, like, have Tourette that bad anymore. Like, only I notice. And it's like, well, of course you only notice

because you know what Tourette is. To other people, like, you might be crazy to them. And, like, that's where the issue lies where it's like, I'm not on crack cocaine. Like, I'm not snort in meth. Can you snort meth? I don't know, but. I think you smoke it.

Smoke it? Yeah, I'm not doing that. So you have coping mechanisms. So when you have to deal with, with going out in the world, doing something by yourself and stuff like that. I am so excited for the show to come out and for people,

to watch it. Bailen out loud. I'll fight your mom. You're like, Will. You want to come to Thanksgiving this year? You wouldn't. You wouldn't. Bailen, you're lovely. And I can't wait for everybody to see the show.

And I wish you so much luck in your future with everything you decide to do. And it's so nice to meet you. Thank you for coming on. Thank you so much for having me. Are you kidding? Thank you so much. You're awesome.

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