Not Skinny But Not Fat - LAmanda

Episode Date: January 4, 2022

Recently got back from LA where I got to live my dream. A little different, but I’d like to give some inspo on how to follow your dreams, manifest, and believe in yourself. Things may look like they’re “happening to people” but people are making it happen! I appreciate your support so much and want to tell you everything! Also, I discuss celebs Xmas, NYE, and other hot stories! Produced by Dear MediaSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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everything happening, and pop culture. I also talk to some of our favorite celebs and reality TV stars. We talk about what's going on. Tune in every Tuesday and just feel like you're talking to shit with your best friends in your living room. Hey guys, it's Lamanda coming at you back in NYC, back in gloomy NYC after, you know what, fuck that. L.A. wasn't full of sunshine, you guys. When I went, it was fucking raining every day. And you know what? Fuck everyone who was like, oh, L.A is like, you know, nice all year and we don't get seasons. And it's always sunny.

But you know what? It is always sunny until I fucking get there. And then I brought the motherfucking rain. But anyways, I wanted to share with you guys a little bit about my L.A. trip because I know that I was, you know, my stories probably went from like 150 a day to like 75 a day, which like, sorry, but like your girl was busy. No, first of all, Lamanda, it was Noah's first airplane ride, which I was so fucking nervous about. I'm kind of a nervous flyer. I'm not Travis Barker. I'm not Travis Barker. but I get fucking nervous, like my anxiety definitely, the whole thing, like, I don't even get how people, how, like, celebs travel so much or how, you know, fucking like Rachel Kirkano from the Bachelor, you know, all I see is like traveling. Like, one day she's in this state and that

and I'm like, and I always think about these things, like, these are things I think about. I'm like, how aren't you tired? Aren't you jet lag? Aren't you over airports and plain food and masks and fucking bullshit and showing your idea and going through security? Like, what? Are people immune to that shit and only I fucking hate it? So it's not only the flight for me. It's the whole thing. It's like you have to pack, which is fucking miserable. You have to like drive yourself to the airport, take a cab, whatever the fuck. Check in suitcases. Be anxious about being overweight. Then then fucking having to take out a pair of jeans from your thing because they're like, now you're one pound over. Then going through security, taking out your ID, putting back your

ID, putting your thing to the thing, forget and take your laptop out of your backpack, like all that fucking shit. No, I hate it. It's literally giving me fucking anxiety right now. It's bringing me back, you guys. It's bringing me back. I hate it. I don't know how people do it all the time. Like, maybe if you're in a private jet, I don't know. I hate it. I hate the whole thing about it. I hate waiting at the gate. I hate boarding the plane. I hate it all. I fucking hate it all. And that's even before talking to you guys about like, I don't like flying. It makes me nervous. I'm claustrophobic. It scares me to close the, the door in the bathroom because I just think of the situation where something happens when I get stuck, obviously, because, you know, when something

happens, I don't know, this whole thing. Yeah, I'm crazy. Deal with it. And the thing is, I've flown since I was a little girl and I used to love it. I remember looking at planes in the sky and being like, when I wasn't traveling and being like, I wish I was on that plane. Like, fucking used to love it. But you know what happens? Old age happens, you know, because ignorance is bliss when your anchor and you don't think of anything remotely bad that could happen. I think I like turbulence. I think I was like, this is fun. This is bumpy. Now every fucking hit of turbulence, I'm like, I'm going to die. And it fucking sucks. But traveling with my baby, actually, you know, for anyone who's nervous about that, actually helped me in a way because, like, I need to be for

Noah. So, like, I'm put aside. Doesn't matter if I'm afraid. Doesn't matter how I feel. I need to make my baby feel safe. I need to make my baby feel like everything's okay. And selfishly, focusing on that actually takes your mind off yourself. So, like, it didn't help with, like, the fact that my body has an instant physical reaction. Like, my body reacts physically. Like, I tense up. I feel like I'm on a roller coaster ride. Like, it's all happening. I usually have to fucking shit and, you know, go on the plane and then it sucks to go on the plane. And then it sucks to go on the plane because let me tell you it's not a vibe but that's what happens like my whole inside start turning up and around and and i get very nervous and then i have to go to the bathroom and so that

still happened that did not happen because i was with noah but the whole you know taking off it's like i just wanted to make sure he's okay that he's not but listen this kid doesn't give a fuck as long as this with his mama and on my fucking dead he doesn't care where he is which i i love that he you know, isn't afraid. Hopefully he won't be as fearful as I am about everything. But so the plane ride went well. I was very nervous. But actually the way to the airport, which I didn't even end up telling you guys on Instagram was crazy because we took a cap. What do people do? Most people like in L. that live in L.A., like drive and park the car at the airport. Like, I don't know how things work. But in New York, you get a cab. But with a baby, I fucking had to order a cab with a car seat. So ordered a cab with

car seat i don't know what was up with noah maybe he wasn't used to the the car seat maybe i let him watch like cocoa melon on my phone and maybe he was looking down but all of a sudden you guys he project all vomits a la exorcist all over this cab right the cab driver was surprisingly nice he like tried to pull over on the shoulder of the highway and i was like no no no like also afraid and have watched many movies and heard of many tragedies where people fucking die that way So he pulled it over in the gas station I literally saw like I literally in a situation of emergency

The look on husband's face was like We're going on like fuck this trip I looked at husband I was like I'm gonna clean Noah You take care of like cleaning the car And the car seat and whatever And he was like okay So then I literally step outside of the cab with him

Get him naked while like trying to keep him warm Change his clothes like all this shit And literally I was just like You know like I kind of expected something to happen. Like something's going to happen. We got it out of the way. Hopefully the flight will be fine. Anyway, so that's what happened. Oh, mind you, Uber fucking charged me a $150 cleaning fee. If I knew that, I wouldn't have fucking cleaned. So that cab that was supposed to be $80 came out to be like $235 or something crazy. But you know what? He can't be mad at your kid

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Lim, she's on maternity leave. I auditioned and I went through a process of like months of not finding out and thinking I obviously didn't get it and then getting it and obviously super exciting and right up my fucking alley because it's literally celeb gossip and like snippets. And if you guys don't remember, Snapchat is like the OG stories. Like all due respect, Instagram stole stories from Snapchat. So it's like a three to five minute show host said by one person by the host and just goes through like celeb stories like boom, boom, boom, very quick, very fun, very light, like totally my fucking vibe. But still, I always go into shit of like, I'm not going to get it. Like, and if I get it, then it's a huge surprise and really fun. But for months when I was going

through the process and then you don't hear and like whatever, I was like, everyone was asking me like, did you hear about it? I'm like, no, probably didn't get it. Like, it's fine. I have a really good self-defense mechanism inside of me that works in a way that like I'd literally forget about it. And like, my sister would be like, Amanda, did you hear? I'm like, oh, I wasn't thinking about it. Not because it's not my fucking dream and like I would die to get it, but because it's like protecting myself and saying, you know what? I'm not. And if by any means of giant surprise of the world, I get it, then okay. So anyway, I ended up getting it. It was super exciting. And up we went. Obviously, a lot of people were like, oh, why aren't you going by yourself?

I'm like, it's for a week. You think I'm leaving Noah for a week. I know a lot of people do. I wish I wish I could in a way because I know that I could focus mainly on that on that but I can't leave him. I can't leave him. So we went the whole family. Husb came as nanny. And actually my first experience of of Lamanda was the day we landed. I went to an event. Erin Foster and Sarah Foster have a clothing line favorite daughter. Erin has been just an amazing. friend to me. I actually met her on Instagram. It's just wild how, you know, Instagram friendships. I met some of, like, the best people, I feel like on Instagram. And I know Instagram became such a huge place for, like, meeting people, whether it's like for dating or whatever. But she's just a really great person. So so not me to, you know, go anywhere the day I fucking land. No, I need like two days to recoup from the traveling experience. But for Aaron, I knew I had to go. So I went. I was like, oh my God. This was like kind of before Omicron or whatever really fucking took over. So I literally go to like the event. I wasn't even thinking about like, you know, the fact that if God forbid I fucking get COVID, my whole point of my trip because I would get tested every day for E would be fucked. And I went. I remember at first I walked in like because it was indoors. The opening of their story. I walked without a mask. And then I saw one of Aaron's friends with a mask. And I'm like, oh, are we masking like?

here and she was like well I'm really like scared and she was boosted and everything but I was like you know what baby I shouldn't mask so with a fucking sweater with a fucking coat and a mask and I'm shivitzing I'm dying I'm uncomfortable I'm sweating oh I'm with leather pants so I'm like feeling like fucking Ross okay I'm like not comfortable also not comfortable like what was I thinking like I'm like I'm going by myself mingling like Aaron who's like my friend but she's like the event is her so what the fuck am I doing like can't talk to her the whole time so I'm like trying to talk to people I get asked like super bougie L.A. questions of like, oh, where do you stay when you're here? And I'm like, does that mean like where I'm saying this time? Or does that mean like I have a place here?

Like, what is that? And then like, oh, did your nanny travel with you? I'm like, I don't have a nanny and like definitely didn't travel with me. So I was feeling a moment of like, oh my God, L.A. is not for me. All these fucking bougie questions. I'm not boogey. But obviously then I learned that like obviously depends where you are and who you're hanging around. but that moment for me was very kind of outer body of like first of all I barely go to like any events and I do get invited at this point and it's just like if it's not something that's like of a friend or something that like really interests me I'm not just going to go to like show face or like take a photo like that's less of my style I'm just bringing guys into like kind of how my mind works maybe that's not smart thing to do but that's how I wrote anyway I was like dying to like I was so

happy for Aaron and Sarah, and they're so great, but I was kind of like, I, I'm going to, like, socialize and whatever. And then I all of a sudden got scared. I was like, what the fuck if I get COVID right now? And the reason I came to LA, I like can't fucking do it. Mind you, a few days later, Aaron texts me and says, I hate to, I feel terrible texting this, but I test it positive for COVID. My heart fucking dropped to you guys, like dropped. I was like, I'm fucked. That's it. Like, the reason I came to L.A. I'm not going to be able to do, like, because they test you every day. Like, I'm going to come out positive. Like, whatever. Hasba was trying to stay really calm. He's like, listen, nothing. Like, so you get it. I'm like, no, you don't understand. My life is over. And he's like,

no, you're just going to be exactly where you were before you got this opportunity. Anyway, thank God. I didn't test positive. Aaron's symptoms were fine. She ended up, you know, saying it on Instagram, like a few days or maybe when she was like almost past it. And then everyone was like, wait, weren't you there? And I feel like when I saw people, in LA, they were like, weren't you at the event? Like, all of a sudden, there's like shame around it, you know? It's like you look like you have fucking, like, the cooties, you know? It's like, oh, what are there? And thank God, like, a lot of people who are vaccinated, especially with this strain, like, their symptoms are much lighter. But, but mostly I was just scared, like,

usually I would be anxious, like health-wise, but I was like, no, I came to do a job. And if I, if this gets fucked, like, Aaron, I know where you live. Like, that's how I felt. I wonder if people feel that. Like if they feel like if they get it from someone, if they want to blame them. But yeah, I was very, I was anxious to see people. I had like a podcast to do and it was like inside and all these shit. All of a sudden I'm like, wow, all this fear is coming back, but mostly just because I really want to do what I came here to do, you know? Whereas like when we left New York, I swear, we started to get a little chiller. We were dining indoors. We haven't dined indoors in a while. Like I was feeling a little chiller, but then fucking this shit. Fuck, I hate it.

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use code not skinny to get one month free. Anyway, what I wanted to say about, like, you know, getting this opportunity to host the rundown for a week and how was a dream come true to, you know, enter the fucking E buildings, like, for me. When I say the dream come true, it's like, you know, when Billy Eilish is like, I, you know, knew I wanted to do this when I was born and like, you know, Phineas was producing out of the womb. So, like, that's me. But like with E, like, legit, my whole life.

That was my dream. My whole life. That's what I was told that I could do. But it's something that so many people think they want to do or think seems like a cool job or, you know, but it never seems attainable those things. If you want to be like in the entertainment industry, all those things being a singer, being an actor, being, you know, entertainment, a host, whatever. All those things are like, oh, you just hear about this in fairy tales. Like, oh, Johnny Depp, you know, in Kentucky, like, oh, they found him at a mall or Demi Moore or whatever the fuck. All those stories are like, oh, we just like, no.

notice this really talented girl in a show or with me, it's not like that. So first of all, it's really important for me to tell you guys and not in a like my dream came true, like, sang my dick way, but in a way of like, wow, I'm not that big of a spiritual person or a person who's like, you know, corny in those ways. But manifesting is real. Not in the way of like, let me say every day, like I want to be rich and then I'll wake up and my bank account will have like an extra, you know, two mill i'm talking like having a goal working towards it almost blindly almost delusionally okay

whilst believing that it can happen and believing that you're everything you're doing will end up accomplishing that goal for you so i'm sure a lot of people that come across my instagram now or my podcast or whatever like oh like and i get it can be like wait how did she get this I would do that too. I would say, you know, host any news and be like, I could do that job. Like, why does she have that job? Little do you know, she, you know, studied journalism, fucking interned every summer at a different, you know, network, you know, worked in the, the, the European office for three years before they were like, oh. So you never know what people have done to get to where they are. And I'm saying this so that when, because, you know, compared. competitiveness or looking at someone else, I'm thinking they've accomplished something and you don't get how a lot of times it can make you bitter in a way. And you could be like, how did that happen? This person just happened. But if you know that that person worked really hard for it, then A, it could give you inspo because you could say, oh, if I work really hard and really believe in myself and believe that I can do something and given my everything, it can happen. And also it can make you not bitter that this happened to another person because if you say, oh, they fucking died for it, then. do you get what I'm saying. So I'm talking because I get it. I get it. And I'm so self-conscious that like it's almost like not that I feel bad that it happened, but it's like I know how many people

have this dream and I almost feel like hashtag blessed about it. Like, why do I even deserve this? But I have to kind of remind myself every day like this has been my dream forever, you guys, forever like legit. Like since I was a, you know, I, I've talked about, you know, my older sister, Allison, went to study pre-med. And when I went to college, it was like, I went to study communications. And we would have asked about it at, like, you know, family dinners or with my mom's friends. And Allison would be like, Amanda, you know, is studying communications because she wants to, like, be in, like, public relations because she loves, like, celebrities and she's superficial. Like, I swear the show was real.

And somehow, I don't remember even how she related the communications, like celebrities, but I was always. was wanting to be in that world. I minored in theater and I hung out with a lot of theater kids. In high school, I was in the theater program. I always thought I wanted to be an actress. I did actine where Jamie Lynn Singler from the Sopranos went. And I did act teen when I was really young. It was so horrible. We had to like perform scenes and then watch ourselves and critique those scenes. And this was my goth phase. So I had literally a nose ring like a hoop. I had fucking black hair, really thick eyeliner. It was very, very bad.

And I was always sending fucking pictures of myself to agencies. And I, do you know how many out in my sent email? How many I have Amanda Hurst seeking representation? And I look back and I say, for what? What were you trying to be? What did you think agencies would represent you for? And today, now that I'm represented by UTA, I realize how crazy. it is that I wanted to be represented before having anything because it doesn't work that way.

No one's going to represent you before you're somebody. They're going to represent you once you've established something. You know what I mean? I feel like in the movies or what we see, it's like, oh, they'll see you on the street. They'll see that you're, you know, pretty or hot or look like a model or, you know, they saw your home videos on YouTube and it's like a Justin Bieber's story with fucking Usher. You know, and it doesn't always work that way. You got to fend for yourself. you have to believe in yourself almost delusionally. So like your bitch was sending her fucking photos to agencies. Like I'm sure UTA has received like I hope they don't, you know, connect this now because

they'll fucking drop me. It's like, how many times have I sent my photo there in regular mail because they don't accept solicitations? And I mailed them at being like Amanda, her secret represent as what? What were you? An actress? Like, what were you? So I've always wanted this.

I've always, my mom used to call me like an octopus. My fingers were everywhere, my little tentacles, whatever. It's like I was always like I'd work my day job, hate it, fucking send headshots. You know, in Israel, I got into an agency by saying that I studied acting in America. I mean, don't lie, right? But I did that. Then I tried to write a book. And I remember I signed up for IMDB Pro to get all like emails of book agents and then of regular agents. And I was just trying everything. Literally trying everything. Like looking back in an hour, like, it's getting me a little emotional because it was delusional in a way. Because what are you? What are you doing? What do you have to show for yourself? But I would do anything to try. Things that couldn't, that weren't, listen,

I wasn't a starving, you know, want to be actress sleeping in my car, right? But I was like, you know what? If you want something, try in every way that you can. If I'm not the bitch that can sleep in our car, I am the bitch that can send 300,000 emails. I am the bitch, you know what I mean? So, and what I mean by manifesting, it's like it was always in different ways. It was like, okay, let me try this way. And I'm going to try this way. And then when Instagram became, you know, kind of not only a personal vehicle,

but people were using it for their brands and mean pages. And when I started not skinny but not fat, it was like, was I thinking that this would somehow fit in to like what I've always wanted? wanted to do. No, I was literally working a recruiting job. I was anxious as fuck and I thought memes were funny. And as a sidetrack, I was like, oh, like, I can write funny memes. But what I mean by manifesting is like if some part of your brain is always, always really aware that there's something you want to do and you're always in some way working towards it and believing in yourself. And obviously, there has to be some, obviously you have to be good at whatever it is.

you want to do. But it's just wild to me that it still is, even though I'm making sense and I'm saying, okay, I've always wanted this and I've always, you know, thought I could do it. And I've always believed in myself and I've always tried in different ways to get there. Never did I think that it would happen. And I still say to myself every day, if this rug is pulled from underneath me, I'll be okay. I have a college degree. I'll find a job. I've always found jobs. I've always worked. So I'm not scared of that. I'm not. And I keep myself. very grounded in that way and also grounded in the way of like

I remember Addison Ray came on my podcast and what happened to Addison Ray was like overnight seems like right but actually when she tells the story it was like a year it was like she was a regular high school girl she did tell me she always wanted to be famous she always like you know

but someone was like oh open the TikTok she wanted to then she did you got to listen that podcast if you haven't yet and then she literally got to a million followers pretty quickly on TikTok moved to LA and all this shit started happening. And I remember she came on my podcast. She came with her publicist. She came with, there was another man. Maybe it was a manager. And security. Security. Security. And a black escalated was waiting out on Sarah's.

And I remember just looking at her thinking, wow, she seems like she's really gotten used to this really quickly. And I feel like with me, it's like, I'm not used to anything. You know what I mean? And I don't want to make myself used to anything. Like, not that I'm Addison Ray fucking status. at all. I'm just saying, I'm every day saying, who the fuck am I? Thank God for every little thing that I'm given and that I'm doing. And obviously, give credit words, too. Thank yourself. But also, stay grounded. Know that tomorrow. You never know. Like from your regular job, you can get fired. You know what I mean? But I'm just, but I'm just really grateful, really proud of myself and really thankful to you guys for your support. It's,

It's not always easy to, like, show support for other people. And the fact that I get so many people supporting me, it feels unreal, like, to get your guys' support and when I shared with you guys about the rundown. And again, this is like a gig on E. It's on Snapchat. Look how fucking happy I am. It's like you fucking, I won an Oscar. You know what I mean?

That's like the vibes for me. So don't take anything for granted. Really happy. really proud of myself that that this happened. And I think it's just so wild that this specifically was my dream always. You know what I mean? It's not like, oh, your dream was to be on E, but you're on fucking like VH1. You know what I mean? It's like, no, my dream was E. And here I am like opening the door where it says E. You know what I mean? Like I had to take a minute in that moment and say, oh my fucking God, I can't fucking believe. I can't fucking believe.

it. But then just, you know, quick montage in your brain of like, know everything you've been doing your whole life has led you to this moment. So I hope that guy, that gives you guys some inspo because I know, I know what it's like to work jobs you don't like. And I know what it's like to think that there's something else you should be doing. And I know what it's like to not know exactly what you want to do. I know all that shit. I'm 33 years old. And I just, in a way, just want to give a little bit of inspo to people in whatever career you want that, like, first of all, if you're in a job you're unhappy with, remember three things. One, most people are unhappy at their jobs. Two, you're not fucking married to your job. You could leave it. Three, you could find what you really love and what you're really good at at any age. So don't feel bad if you're 20, 27, 30, 35, 39, 42. I was just the same random ages. But I'm serious. It's like at any age, you can create what you want for yourself. But I do think there need to be elements of you got to be good at it. You got to be willing to work hard at it.

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It's like here I am talking about the shit I love to talk about being surrounded by professional people who love to talk about this shit. It was also the best group of people fucking ever.

Like you know who you are, but like I don't think I'll ever work in a production where every single person on it was like a fucking vibe so fun, just so fun. I'm sure it's not like that everywhere but the rundown,

they're the team wow obsessed love it obviously getting glam and getting like styled and all that shit not too shabby let me fucking tell you but yeah it was one of the best days of my life to shoot the first episode of the rundown i uh i felt in my element that's also another thing like how do you feel when you're doing what it is you wanted to do and it just feels right to me it's like i get nervous about fucking everything no nerves no nerves at fucking home you guys that's how I felt. Anyway, Lamanda. Lamanda came about because I felt a little differently. But then I realized it was just that the weather is different. And even though it wasn't warm, it wasn't fucking freezing. So I could wear a trench coat. And honestly, if you put a drench with sweatpants and

ugs, it's just like you're Haley Bieber. If you're in New York and you got to wear like a puffer and it's like a uniclo ugly dirty puff fur, then you're not Haley Bieber. A trench with sunglasses Haley Bieber. So I feel like Lamanda, like that was the only difference. And also obviously she was getting glammed every day. So no probes. But anyway, I think, oh yeah, the last episode is actually coming out. No, the last

episode of the rundown came out on yesterday. It was a holiday episode. And that was the last one. I did five episodes total. It's the best time in my life. And a lot of people were saying, you know, my god you know so much is going to come from this just you wait just you see and again the way i am is kind of like i'm appreciative of just this and if something comes amazing something doesn't i love what i'm doing love every minute of of of my instagram and you guys and my podcasts and whatever is meant to be will be you know what i mean keep working keep doing what you love keep being consistent

keep being dedicated shit can happen you know what i mean and you never fucking know that's a thing and you never fucking know, stay hopeful, stay positive. Oh my God, who the fuck am I? This is Amanda 22, motherfucker. Anyway, so that's it on Amanda. Love you guys so much, especially love the 97% of you who, on my poll voted that you didn't go out on New Year's. How fucking crazy is that, you guys?

What does that say about my followers? What does that say about the world? That it's great or that it's like full of COVID and we're too old? like what's happening and i think people just realize aside from from covid going on is like new yours is the worst night to go out ever unless your friend is having a party at their house like you don't want to go out on new years you can't get a cab it's fucking wild outside people are pukin you know it's not fun and i think celebrities also really leaned into being at home because how many posts on your instagram feed you see of celebs being like in a row being like

new years and like showing that they're chill so fucking many almost as many as we've seen celebs on Christmas with their families and matching pajamas. Enough with the fucking matching pajamas. I'm so fucking sick of the matching pajamas. I almost wanted to get matching pajamas just to take the photo, just to be funny. But I didn't. Because it's too much. It was too much.

How did that become synonymous with Christmas? Also, I just want to say that everyone was talking about, oh, the Kardashian Christmas party, the Kardashian Christmas party. And in the back of my mind, you know how I'm a, confirmation with a cake on a girl. I was like, how do we fucking know they're having this Christmas party? Would they really during this surge of COVID and all this shit? And then

they didn't have the Christmas party, even though they did get as dressed up as if they were having a Christmas party. Kim, obviously, obviously in her Belense, you know, head to dough fucking gloves, shit. Everyone, I mean, not everyone, but a lot

of people are like, oh, is it because of her psoriasis? Like, do you think that's why? And I don't. I don't. I think that that's her look of the moment, which I'm fucking sick of. And I don't get how she isn't sick of it, of the same fucking half it. But you know what? Her being in this, like, glove head to toe, Courtney being fucking goth, is giving Chloe a really big moment to shine because she looks fucking dazzling. You know who wasn't there?

Kylie, did she have her baby? There was, Travis Barker posted a story. They were watching, like, The Grinch, I think. there was like a shot of the TV and there was a baby bottle on the coffee table or whatever a lot of people think it could be that Kylie had the baby could be that it's a fucking bottle of milk Komodomo bottle for like the kittens that all the Kardashians randomly got but I mean listen Kylie it's weird because when she was pregnant with stormy she hid it so we didn't see her but like now she's pregnant we know she's pregnant like why is she in hiding does she not like her

self pregnant. Is she still hiding because of like Astro World shit? But she's hiding because then on New Year's Chris came on air with Andy and Anderson, Andy Cohen and Anderson Cooper. And they were doing a little interview and it's funny because they were just going to ask her about Kim and Pete and then Stormy like walked in. And she's like, Stormy perfect timing. So I'm like, was she hanging out at Kylie's? Was she watching Stormy? Because Kylie like, had the baby even though you know what you guys maybe let's not spiral because kiley did put up a photo on christmas with christmas pajamas and it was the same pajamas that candle was wearing so they had like matching and she had a baby bump so i think we're just spinning and i think she's just like

in hiding like maybe she forgot she told us and we know because like why are you hiding in other baby news olivia munn and john malaney posted about their baby it did come out in December, like mid-month, I think, that they had the baby about a month ago, which, like, let's not even fucking talk about that timeline because it is suss. Because if they had the baby, if the baby was announced in December and it said a month ago was in November, and then that means she got pregnant around like February or March. Let's say March. Let's give them the benefit of the doubt.

John Mulaney was in rehab until February. So on their first date, did they make a fucking baby? Also, looking back, you know, him and Anna Marie only announced their split in May. Imagine announcing your split in May, but he had already made a baby with Olivia. Maybe Anna Marie didn't know. Even though he said in his interview with Seth Myers when he really wanted to show that fucking timeline, he was like, moved out of my house in October, went to rehab. in December.

Listen, it's still fucking wild. Whatever happened with Anna Marie, it's still fucking wild that he fucking had a baby that quickly out of rehab, that he got in a relationship, that quickly after his marriage ended, that quickly after rehab. They don't really advise it. His name is

Malcolm. Very cute baby. They've been posting him. She's actually posted John. Olivia even posted John in his Christmas. Also PJs, also. They were being Chugie and the baby, like, they did a whole, like, little photo. The baby was, like, in a pot or something.

So they are being cutesy. Meanwhile, Anna Marie, which, like, my heart breaks for her just because, like, I know that she didn't want the marriage to end. Usually, you know, celeb breakup and divorce announcements are, like, we have decided. But this was, like, if you guys remember, it was like, John has decided to end our marriage. Anyway, she posted a whole Instagram post about 2021. about dealing with pain and surviving and kind of a so long to 2021, just about change. And it's kind of heartbreaking just because you can imagine what she's going through.

She really loved him. We actually don't know what happened there. Obviously, like, you never know what happens behind closed doors. We just know the timeline is fucking shady. Casey Musgraves actually commented on it rooting for you. What's interesting about that is that Casey Musgraves, her ex-husband, was hanging out with Olivia Munn right after they split, but before they were officially divorced. Yeah. Rustin Kelly. That's kind of weird. Like is Casey being like, I get you girl, Olivia's a devil? Or is she just randomly commenting on her post? You know what I mean? Kind of weird. Kanye,

Mr. First of all, Mr. kind of stalker, I mean, not really, because let's be honest, here's the thing. We found out he bought a house

right next to Kim's house, his old home now. But it's like, what do you guys think? It was like a random, like, he bought it. They had no idea. No, I'm sure it was like

a collective decision. I'm sure it was in the works for a while. I'm sure it's going to be destroyed and like turned into a fucking like, you know, museum just like her house. Like, this is, not like surprise bought the house like you guys don't even think that for one minute but it is kind of

random because p david david obviously did the new year's eve party with miley in miami planned for a while and then connie fucking did a new year's eve uh surprise thing in miami isn't that so funny like it wasn't planned but all of a sudden he had um a new year's eve thing in Miami. So I don't know. Is he competing with Pete? So funny. Coincidentally, the same spot that Pete, the same city that Pete was doing his New Year's Eve show. By the way, Pete shaved his blonde locks, got a fucking spray tan, looked fucking hot. Miley had like seven outfit changes. That bitch is hot. Connie was also spotted on a date with actress Julia Fox in at Carbone in Miami. So like if he does one,

more plea to get him back, but like is going on days and living his life, I don't want to fucking hear it. They're over. They're so over. We need a new word for over. Julia Fox actually, literally on Christmas, was just slamming her deadbeat alcoholic baby daddy on Instagram. She literally posted a photo of him. She said, have you seen this deadbeat dad? He can be found at most strip clubs, the streets, et cetera. Please remind him that he has a child to take care of. Oh, and if you chill with him knowing damn well, he's a deadbeat alcoholic drug addict dad. You are not my friend and I will call you out to Happy Holidays.

This man left me with a five-month-old and a dog at home in all the bills. It's wrong. It's not fair. Anyway, so she is not coming without baggage. She did a questionnaire on Instagram. Somebody, she was, oh, she was asking for best custody lawyers in New York City. somebody wrote to her Stop trying to trap men

They want nothing to do with a family RAPT your acting career My son loves his dad I've accepted that his dad Refuses to be present I've made peace with it But I'm sure is shit gonna work the public The man is out of

Out in the streets every day He's dangerous She's setting her pose She cares more about her son than her acting career I don't know This seems very convenient This little date Like she has something again

maybe. How did they come together? Do you think Connie saw this and was like, she sounds like a girl after my own heart. Like what is happening? What is happening? Anyway, did you guys see Cravis on the beach in full punk attire, full black, like black stockings, black boots? Like, I can't deal with it anymore. Courtney, I fucking love you. I can't deal with it anymore. We need to like chill out on that. We need to fucking chill out on that. What did you guys think of? And just like that. I know a lot of people, are hating. A lot of people saying it's not like sex in the city used to be. And you know what, it's not. But it's okay. You know what? I know that I judge for a fucking living. But I just want to say that like, can we accept? Can we accept? Can we just take it? Say, thank you, Jessica Parker. Jessica Parker. Sarah Jessica Parker. I missed you. I missed you, Cynthia. Hi, Steve. You're cute. RIP big like why can we just accept it? I know we're judging up the fucking wazoo but I have to be honest with this like yeah there are moments I'm like what the fuck yes but I'm also like I missed you I'm happy to see you this is a nice 45 minutes

and and I'm enjoying it even though you know we did hear that talks of a season two were quickly shut down they're kind of putting it on the fact that big I mean IRL Chris Knoth was, like, accused of all this shit and he's actually, you know, a horrible person. But I'm like, why would that have to do with the second season? He died in the first fucking episode. Spoiler alert. Why would him, whatever he's going through, you know, in real life have to do with the second season? I feel like maybe the second season just is getting bad reviews.

And that's why, even though it's getting bad reviews, but it's probably getting really high ratings. So, like, who gives a shit? Speaking of reboots, if you guys have watched Dexiexie, The Dexter Reboot is amazing. Like, I think it's, it really happens that it's as good as the show was. It's a really great show to watch with your partner. I feel like we really enjoyed binging it together. Me and Husb.

I'm trying to finish sex life of college girls. Sex lives of college girls right now. I fucking love it. I love the cast. I think it's just amazing. And obviously, Emily and Paris, which is a hate watch because you hate Emily, but you got to watch the show. Anyway, you guys, that's it for me today.

Thank you for listening. I hope that you had a great Christmas, Hanukkah. And also, Happy New Year. Hi, 2022. I'm so glad I don't write in notebooks anymore, so I don't have to, you know, make the mistake of writing 2021 for three months. And then how would you turn the one into it to?

It would be really hard. So thank God for that. Thank God I'm not in college. anymore or in school. Anyway, you guys, if you have any yet, please rate and review the podcast. Show your love. Show your support. No, you show your support all the time, but show it in the form of, you know, rating and reviewing. And I'll see you next Tuesday. Thank you guys so much for listening to this episode of Not Skinny but Not Fat. Follow me on Instagram at Not Skinny but Not Fat. Subscribe to the podcast so you don't miss any episodes. Rate the podcast that you love so much on Apple Podcast.

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