Not Skinny But Not Fat - My KRAZY Week

Episode Date: April 15, 2022

Lemme tell you allll about my Kraziest Week Ever from the start - getting the ask from Kim's team, hosting the Hulu premiere party, which fam member I was most nervous about, working with stylists, Khloe screaming "liar!" and my new show on E! News with Colt Paulsen!! Produced by Dear MediaSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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tune in every Tuesday and just feel like you're talking to with your best friends in your living room. Hello, hello, hello, hello. I have been waiting to record this episode for you guys because I know, you know, it takes one to know one to know one. And I know that while all this shit is going on, you guys just want to know, wait a minute, what the fuck? We need the deeds. We need the background. We need what you were feeling, what you were thinking from this crazy with a K. Oh, it's so annoying. Once you get in the Kardashian, on the Kardashian roll, you just want to put a K in front of everything.

And then you realize that it's like annoying to do that because you could literally do it with anything. But anyway, so I was always thinking like, you guys, don't worry. I'm going to record a podcast and I'm going to like give you the deets. And so you can feel like you were there with me because I want you to feel like you were there with me because, you know, this is, we did it. You know, like we did it. We did it. And I'll start by saying that your support has been literally just so huge for me. It makes me cry. It makes me tear up. It makes me feel hashtag blessed because I feel like I don't deserve it almost, you know, to have strangers that I've never met, be so supportive of me.

You know, we're like virtual best friends. You're there for so much of my life. And I literally feel like I want to tell you guys more than even, you know, my best friends. And it's just a crazy feeling. And it's also just feels so good because when you're doing something that you love, it's almost like you're not looking for constant like reinforcements and for people, to be like, wow, we're so happy. We're so proud of you because it just feels so good and so right to be doing something that you've always fucking wanted to do. But then receiving those

supportive messages and, you know, so many comments and telling me that you're proud of me and, you know, that we, some of you followed me since I was at my very beginning and, and know how this was, it was almost an unspeakable dream because sometimes, were afraid to speak our dreams and they sound too crazy and they sound too wild and they sound too far-fetched and they sound like you can never do it. And I just want to say first of all something about manifesting because, you know, it was a word that we use a lot lately and it was also a word that was used a lot in my experience with interviewing Kim and getting to interview the whole family in the red carpet and everything. It's like, oh, we manifested this. We manifested this. And one

of you actually wrote me a message saying, listen, I know everyone means, well when they're saying, you know, that you manifested this, but it's kind of taking away from, you know, the work you did to get here. And I just wanted to say to that is like what I think manifesting is is not some like, you know, who's you, boojou, like a spiritual thing that you're just putting in the universe and then it happens. No, I, and maybe it's the wrong interpretation, But my interpretation of manifesting is wanting something so bad, believing that you can do it, constantly trying to get there in every which way, working towards it, believing in yourself that you could do it, and constantly putting it out there in the universe, in your mind, in conversations, in the work that you do, you know, in that's kind of way. So I don't believe that manifesting takes away from, you know, somebody's work because I think that manifesting goes hand in hand with that. I think that when you're manifesting,

you're working towards it. Do you know what I mean? And I think that I've been putting these feelers out to the universe since I was a kit, you know, I'm getting messages from so many people that knew me. And they were like, you've always wanted this. Like, you've always wanted this. And like, I know that, but it's crazy to hear that from people that, you know, knew me my whole life. And, and that's why it feels so right. At the same time, it's like, you can't look at it like, how's this happening to little of me? No, you have to be like, it's happening because I made it happen. You know, and it's not like, oh, you're so lucky. Like, of course, I think in everything, there is some sort of percentage of luck, right? But I do think that the larger percentage is, is working towards your goals and your dreams and believing in yourself that you could do it. And I think I've always believed that, like, probably ran around at, you know, seven years old being like Hollywood, like is calling my name and always, you know, thinking that I would end up there. I never knew the way in which it would happen. I also didn't fully allow myself to focus just on this because I remember going to college

and wanting to, you know, study acting and, you know, feeling like I grew up in a household where you have to have, you know, a major and something to fall back on. So I, you know, did marketing and did all the internships to make sure I'd have a career. But I always on the side made sure that I was like throwing little darts at my actual dreams, if you know what I mean. If it was to try to, you know, get into agencies when I was like literally not really doing anything in, you know, the entertainment industry or, you know, doing acting roles when I was living in Israel or just sending emails. Like if I look at my emails, it's like, you guys won't even I'm represented by UTA now, right?

It would be so embarrassing if they went into the archives and saw how many submissions of myself I had sent over the years. And I want to ask that, Amanda, like, what were you sending? Like, of what? Did you think you were a model? Like, what were you, when you were saying, hey, I'm Amanda, I want to be represented by you. What were you?

And this is before my Instagram, obviously, like, what was I trying to be an actress, a model? Like, oh, what? And it was so naive of me to think that you can send in a picture. yourself obviously none of these pictures were professional and somebody would just be like wow she's got it you know but i probably in some way believed my whole life that i did and sent you know so many like my emails like literally i i signed up for i mdb pro i remember just to get agents emails and send them a representation amanda hirsch it's like what were you trying to be represented for

bitch like you weren't even in this world like but i'm just trying to tell you that i've always believed so my my mom called me an octopus like my arms were always everywhere if it was you know trying to write a book and sending book agents my pitches or while i was always working jobs and never saying okay i'm gonna put everything into this because i kind of grew up in a house that wouldn't tell you sleep in your car until you make it or my mom was a single mom with three girls She couldn't move with me, you know, a la, you know, Addison Ray or Britney Spears that, you know, the family's kind of a shift of their whole lives for their kids' careers, which, by the way, I would throw in my mom's fucking face all the time.

Like, you could have, you know, made me Michelle Tanner. And I know some of this sounds so lame, right? Because so many people in this world want to be in this crazy fucking industry. And they're people that, like we said, sleep in cars, move across the country, like do all this shit. And it's wild and it's super competitive and it's super crazy. But I'm just saying in terms of what we're talking about manifesting, like, how my whole life I've been trying to get in in this really weird way, in this way that was like, I'm going to keep on doing what I need to do to make money and make sure that I have something to fall back on. But I'm going to keep on throwing darts and I'm going to keep on trying in the weirdest of ways and in all the ways that seemed possible to me to get to where I want to be. With always, I'm not saying 100% of belief in myself that it would happen, but with at least an inkling of belief in myself that, okay, but it'll happen one day.

And even when I started my Instagram, you know, in 2016, it wasn't from a place of this will get me to where I want to be. I think it's just all part of the journey. It was like, I just saw Instagram as a place where you could like write stuff and people would relate to it and notice it and feel the same way that you do. And, and I mean, it's just wild to think that where I am today, I would never think that I would get to through the journey that I was on. Do you know what I mean? Like, oh, I started in a meme account where I would like write funny things that I think I would end up here. But I think that at the end of day, I just followed my heart and my gut and my intuition. And I persevered. You know, a lot of people start, for example, on Instagram, they're like, oh, did you get, you know, followers and how did you get this? and they buy followers to seem like they have more.

So get more. I'm not saying all those things are wrong. I'm just saying you got to do what feels right to you and what feels good to you and what satisfies you and fulfills you. So when I started, it was like really fun for me. Nobody even knew who I was. It was like writing memes. And then slowly I was like, wait, I want to like say hi.

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And I think the title was like Kim Kardashian on Not Sending Benef Had Podcast. Like, would you be interested in having Kim on your podcast to promote the show and blah, blah, blah. And I was like, this is fucked up. I was like, the trolls have gone too far this time. You guys, that was how sad my first thought. I was like, I started looking up the woman's email seeing if she works at Hulu, like doing all the shit. I was like, no, no, no. The trolls really are trying to fuck with me now.

And they were, like, taking it fucking too, too far. Look up the woman. I'm like, no, no, no, she actually works at Hulu at Disney. I realize, like, wait, is this for fucking real? Would I like to have Kim Carrey? Are you fucking kidding? Could you imagine me with the nails on by myself? Like, can't get up because I'm like getting a pedicure or whatever.

And I'm like, no, no, no. And, you know, another thing is, like, when I got that email, die, die, died, obviously. A lot of people would, you know, transfer it to their team and have them answer, like, super professional. No, I always, my thing is like, I give the fucking respect and credit words to, like, my response was not professional. My response was, holy fucking shit, are you kidding me? What I like to?

I'm dying to, you know? Like, what? And then literally the next day we flew to Israel and we started going back and forth on dates and how it happened. It was so important for me to be able to do it in person because I was like, listen, if I'm having Kim Kardashian in my podcast, like, I am doing it in a fucking person. like, I'll go to the moon. But I literally went two months not thinking it would happen. Like, I always leave also a doubt in my mind. And I try not to get too excited because it's like things happen. You know, this industry is fickle. You know, her schedule is crazy. Like, is it happening? Is it supposed to happen? Yes. Could it end up not happening? Also, yes. Like, I had to be mentally prepared for

that. So by the way, that's also something that I always do. I'm not saying it's the right thing to do. I'm saying it works for me, basically plan this trip to LA based on this interview. And by the way, when I really, you know, realize that this was happening, I almost wanted to, you know, tell Kim, like, or the team, but why does she need to do it? Like, she doesn't need me. I'm going to post about the show anyway. Like, you guys, that's literally what I thought. So, of course, that along with, like, believing in yourself and manifesting whatever, we're still like, what the fuck? Like, I don't deserve this. Like, why would you do my stupid podcast? Like, that's how I felt. like why me like why does she need me like she doesn't need me i'm gonna post about the show for free

like this is literally how i felt like should i tell her like hey babe you don't really need to do this like anyway so kept in mind that like amanda it might not happen don't get too excited whatever but then planned a week trip to la for just that thinking i'll have the interview on friday and the rest of the week i'll come with no one has avi and we'll chill and i'll meet some people and I'll do some things and we'll have a little time by the pool and whatever. A couple days before my flight, I get a call for my agent, which, like, by the way, when you get a call and it's not only a text, you're like, something good or bad. See, always got to leave that thing in your mind.

Always got to be prepared for both. On this day, whatever it was, a few days before we're going to L.A., I was like, so many of you, DM me and were like, oh, my God, you're going the Kardashian premiere. And I'm like, oh, my God, am I not going to Kardashian premiere? All of a sudden, I got like a little, I know it's like, who do you think you are? But I was like, wait, I'm having Kimmer in my podcast literally the next day. How cool would it be to go to the premiere and like break the ice and like vibe a little? Like, all of a sudden I was like, I should be at this premiere.

And I was like, shit, how do I get invited to the premiere? My wheels start going in my brain. Like, I need to go. I text my producer and I'm like, oh, my God, I should be at the premiere. And she's like, oh, my God, should be like try. And I was like, let me. I was like, let me start, like, you know, digging. So, and by the way, we only knew there was a premiere because Kim had accidentally posted

about it on our stories, like the invite or something. That's the only reason we even knew a sleuths that it was happening. So I text Tracy, who was on Kim's team, obviously. And I was like, when is the premiere again? Like, trying to like hint in. And she's like, on the seventh. And I was like, okay, cool. I'll be in L.A.

It's so crazy. And she's like, yep. And I'm like, oh, that didn't work. Okay, mind you. I'm like telling Ariel, we're laughing about it. I'm like, Trace didn't get my hint. Like, whatever. And then I was like, hey, you know, it is what it is.

Obviously, can't have it all. Two hours later, my agents call me again, the phone. And they tell me about the Hulu opportunity. Like, not only to go to the premiere, but to fucking host the red carpet, interview the family and all that. I screamed so fucking loud. I was like, what? Obviously. the craziest fucking opportunity from thinking I'm going to interview Kim on Friday

to having to interview the whole family on Thursday at the fucking premiere. I was fucking shocked. And I couldn't stop thinking about how funny that like Tracy knew about it. And here I thought I was like being like, maybe it'll come. And like she knew she just, you know, didn't tell me yet. Anyway, I was like, I can't believe that this afternoon I thought about this idea to go, try to like somehow start sleuthing around for an invite and then two hours later it's like no you're hosting the thing bitch shocking moment incredible moment and you know my trip became

a Kardashian week because I had I arrived Tuesday Wednesday there was the Nobu event which was like that experiential where every room was like different uh there was like a Chloe room a Courtney room of this room of that room and there were other influencers there and we didn't get that much info, but I assumed they would be there to meet them. And I was like, going to be with the Kardashians Wednesday, Thursday, Friday. So they didn't end up coming out. A lot of people were upset. I wasn't. I was like, I was 2 818 margaritas deep and I was like, it's fine. I'm meeting them tomorrow, bitches. But that's how I felt. I was like, listen, you go into these things so stressed, you know. So I was like, you know, that takes the edge off. Like, I'm meeting them

tomorrow. So today I can chill and like throw back another 818 and nobu Malibu. And then the next day was the fucking premiere, which was, you know, such an insane, insane moment. By the way, I wore, I took a stylist for these three days because I was like, bitch, you don't want another Addison rifle, but no, you need to. Listen, at the end of the day, even if you know how to shop for these types of things, once you have a stylist, it puts everything together, like with the shoes, with the accessories, it just feels different. It feels, you know, let professionals do the professional stuff and you can just show up. It also took so much off my shoulders because it's so funny. But when all these opportunities were coming up, my head wouldn't stop fucking spinning about what I'd wear.

It's so stupid and it's so superficial. But it's like, instead of thinking about what questions are you going to ask, I was like, I'm going to wear, but what I'm going to wear? Like, I couldn't stop fucking spinning. Your bitch went to Eritzia. I was like, let me just pick some shit up at Eritzia. And I thought I had it. I bought these slacks that Eritzia, bought this like body suit and a blazer.

And I was like, that's what I'll wear. And then it's like, no bitch. It's Kim Kardashian. and this is not like a fucking dinner with Hussb. Step it up. Like, no. So I'm so glad I did that. I'm so happy I did that because not only did I really like the way I ended up looking,

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And then got to the red carpet or black carpet. It was 100 degrees. And I have like anxiety. And my anxiety really gets triggered by heat like overheating fainting all that i'm with a fucking black suit okay i get to the like entrance it's like craziness like so many employees and like checking this and checking that and and literally they're yelling like get the talent on the car the talents on the carpet water like it's so aha we need shade we need fans and all of this is just like triggering my anxiety like i'm about to faint i even texted husband like might faint and die like it's 100 degrees i'm in a black suit and everyone's saying that the carpet is literally in the fucking sunshine and people are like dehydrating like this was so I couldn't even I was like oh my god I'm gonna die get to the carpet

it's black it's beautiful I think I'm assuming Jeff Latham did it because it was like those kinds of flowers and actually the girl that was supposed to film me for Hulu I got there and I saw that she was kind of experiencing the anxiety I was having inside like outside like she wasn't feeling well she was like a little dizzy she like we had to go sit down with her to get water and I like, girl, I feel you. Like, I know what you're feeling right now and I understand you. Like, let's sit down and let's relax. And I think because I had to be for a moment in the position of caring, which helps a lot sometimes. Then I had to forget about my shit because my shit was still in my head. Like, I wasn't actually overheated yet. I wasn't actually. Anyway, ended up being okay

because, you know, the Kardashians didn't come until it chilled out weather wise a little bit because they're smart. And there was like the barricade of the carpet behind the barricade. Obviously there were like different press and shit like that. But because I was with Hulu, they put me in front of the fucking barricade. Okay. And I obviously had questions written out for the family. But everything kind of changes last minute. So as you guys know, Kendall wasn't at the carpet. Kylie wasn't at the carpet. And Chloe didn't really do the carpet. I know you guys saw. She ended up coming to say hi to me, which was like the fucking sweetest thing ever. But I only asked Chris, Courtney and Kim questions. And it's so funny because I had the questions prepared. And then I would

like see Chris. I was like blank on them and then like look at my phone. Have it. Thank God I have like a photographic memory. And then ask for the questions. Somehow I was most scared of Chris because like I do have that like social media rapport with the other girls. So like not that I thought they would be as fucking sweet to me as they were. But like I'm like, okay, they know who I am. We've spoken. Like whatever. No, no, right? So I was just like, hungry, but obviously also so nice. But I was probably the most scared of Chris.

And then I saw Kim coming and I was literally shell shocked because, like, we see her so much in photos and so much in, you know, videos and online, but you see her in person, you're like, is that a real person? Like, she just looks like a doll. Like, she's just like so perfect. Her outfit was insane. That metallic, oh, Mugler.

Mugler. Do I say it right? And her hair was just right. And I just really loved everything. Oh, let me back up. When I get there and I meet, you know, the Hulu team that's on site with me and everything, I see them looking at the guest list. And I was like, wait, let me see that.

And I see Pete. And like, this was before you guys knew or anybody knew that he was going to be there, right? So imagine me, like, I'm there for a job, right? I'm there as Amanda doing the carpet. But it's like, no, but I'm also Amanda from Instagram. And I want to share this with you guys. This is crazy. But obviously couldn't at that point.

But seeing that Pete was going to be there. and I didn't know at that point if he's going to do the carpet or not, but I was like, I thought it would just be at the Megalah. And then I saw him. So when she walked in, he was,

he didn't do the carpet with her, which I totally understand because it's like, not that the Kardashian premiere isn't a huge thing, but they're going to save it for like a fucking, you know,

but a bha-bbing, but a fucking bam. And I think he just came there to be supportive of her and not have the moment be about them. But in the screening, because we actually watched the premiere, I saw them a few rows in front of me

and they were, like, looking into each other and, like, they're so fucking into each other. Like, I cannot. Anyway, so then got to obviously see Kim. I saw her coming up and I was like, wow, she looks so fucking perfect. And that's the first thing I said, you look amazing, which like, yes, I can't hear that clip of me saying that either. But she was like, Commander and you guys saw the wrist grab. I know I'm a touchy-feely person. What can I do?

And she would just so sweet. She said, a lot of you guys didn't hear in the video and asked me what she said really quietly. She said, I can't believe we haven't met in person. which is so sweet of her to say. And she was also saying how she's interested to know what I think about the episode and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. And that was, it was just really, really, really nice. And again, they put me in front, like, on the carpet.

The only thing I was upset about would, like, complain a little is, like, my back was to the camera because I didn't realize, like, this was kind of like my first red carpet thing. And it's also not about me, right? I'm interviewing them. But, like, love the black suit from the front, but then had a really troubling experience to watch these interviews of me looking like a black blob from the back, just like a suit. It just looked like a square suit. And my hair, we did like a sleek blowout,

which I thought would look really good because the suit is more like masculine. But I think that my hair was just hiding my face. And who's thinking about your own fucking hair or your own fucking face when you're interviewing the Kardashians? But I think you live and you learn. And from now on, my hair will always be up. No, and I think a power suit is so cool. But I think then maybe a power suit from the back, less cool. Do you know what I mean? But live and learn, live and learn. Anyway, then I see court and Travis, obviously coming in. My first thought was, she looks amazing. No, she really looked amazing. Like, I know a lot of people were hard on her, you know, Oscars look and the fair party look, even though her Grammy's look was really good.

But here, I feel like she brought, brought, brought it. Like, I felt like this was the look. Also seeing her up close. So beautiful, so natural. And again, came up. was like, Commander and gave me a hug and even started asking me about my trip. Like, those are not in the interview clips, but she was just like, how's your trip to L.A.? And she complimented my hair, like so sweet, so warm, which I feel like is something we didn't know. Maybe Travis made her even warmer because wasn't there that episode about hugs where was it about corny? Yeah, right? It's like that the family doesn't give hugs, but she was so fucking warm. And then we see Chloe

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to try it. I also got to meet so many people that I know it's so weird how social media is because like you feel like you know so many people so you know i got to meet tracy in real life and meet jen adkin and sarah howard with her jewel and just so many people that you know and are so sweet and so kind and um it was just it was really incredible to get to to meet a lot of people in real life cousin ccc i met her at the after party i was like cc i love you she was like not skinny not God. And then she tried to take me around and, like, do PR for me. She was like, let's go. And she's like, do you guys follow not skinny, not fat? And I was just like, Cici, like, stop. She's like, let's go meet Scott. And I was like, okay. And then literally we're on the way to meet Scott. And like, I got pulled by

someone from the Hulu team to pose something. But I was like, gay. Even though maybe Scott would hate me. Oh, by the way, Scott that showed up with fucking Rebecca Domitzen. Hello, Scott. Weren't you dating the two out to handle chick. The fact that he brought that chick on the red carpet really makes me feel like it was just his way to deal with the first episode that is obviously him being like jealous of crevice and, you know, all that. And I think he just wanted to be like, I'm good. I'm still dating, you know, 20 year old.

It doesn't matter their name. We'll get to that from the first episode. But so watch the premiere, you guys. Oh, my fucking God. I mean, by now I hope that most of you have seen it. The first episode is out. on Hulu and wow. I mean, watching in the theater has probably been more intense, but so cinematic, so dramatic, so amazing. And even though we know so many of those moments,

like, because obviously it happened in the public, even getting like a little, like, backdoor into like how it happened exactly and like reactions. And I think it was also like there were so many funny moments. Like one of my favorite moments is Chris imitating, Kravis being like, she was like, they decide everything together. They're like ordering a dessert. And it's like, Babe, what do you want? No, babe, what do you want? What do you want? Like, I love that. You know, in the closet where Kim is talking to her lawyer and Chloe's telling her like, you have kids and, you know, you have kids to worry about and it's not about the money. And Kim's like, I have kids to worry about and it's not about the money. And closing, mm-mm,

just all these moments that remind us like why we fell in love with this family, why we want to keep seeing them on our television screens, because they're fucking entertaining. And they fucking bring it. And they care about everything that they do. And you can really tell that, especially with Kim, you know, even doing my podcast and caring about the different audiences and wanting to kind of give like a more natural sit down interview. And like, I can't believe Iowa's fucking pick to, to do that. Like, I think it's still unfathomable. But anyway, the first episode was fucking amazing. Loved everything. Loved getting an inside peek into, you know, what happened with that, you know, second, alleged second part of the sex tape that we've even, you know,

and thought Kanye was fucking making it up when he was going on his rants and saying that he got the laptop or whatever. I was like, no way, is there a second, you know, whatever, it's sexy. But, I mean, not that we know that there is one, but now we know that from the first episode that there was a threat

to post it or or whatever by Ray J's manager and seeing Kim's reaction to that and just all of it. Listen, the Scott thing, you guys, I'm not, I don't feel like bad for him. So please let's understand, you know, especially what Courtney said and her little tidbit.

I love that they have the moments where they're talking to the camera and also the confessionals that are like more natural when Courtney was like, listen, before you feel bad for him, you know, I gave him 10 years of my life and it's been seven years since he broke up. That's 17 years. Get the fuck over it. And I feel like it's just Scott's fucking storyline to whine about being jealous and whine about the fact that he thought that Courtney was, you know, the one for him.

And now he, no, dude, you had your opportunity. you had your opportunity plus like corny's out of your age bracket don't you only day 20 year olds I also even didn't like that part where he was saying like oh I could go to upward 20s like that really gross me out like really grow the fuck up grow the fuck up I'm not into it I'm not into the whining I think that you made your bed and enough enough feeling bad for Scott that's how I feel that's how I feel today you know it could always flip but anyway the premiere was amazing dying to hear your thoughts on it and then there was the after party which is like it's really crazy because it's like in your mind you're like how am I now going to mingle or

whatever like you know I also have a little bit of social anxiety nobody likes to be you know by themselves I had my agent with me during the premiere but then she she left and was kind of like okay do your own thing and I did I did it's just like I I feel like when I get thrown into those situations and I want to make the best of them I will you know I got to see my friend Erin Foster that I love seeing her. Like I told you guys, Sarah Howard wanted to vape with me. Jen Atkin is the sweetest human on earth. I'm trying to think who else I saw at the after party.

I met a lot of people. But then I saw Kravis standing and talking and I was like, okay, I'm going to, like just standing, not being exclusive or anything, not tonguing. And I came over and I was like, Corey, I just wanted to tell you like how amazing the episode was. And she was like, Amanda, like I said that I wanted to see you. And like, just so sweet. You guys, I ended up standing with them.

for like a while like just shooting the shit like court was so again just like open talking to me like a friend literally like sharing stuff with me about their Vegas wedding and about the show and about filming and about you know what she thought and then I asked her if she is jelly that Kim is on my podcast and out because I was like listen I asked you to be I like because I did ask court if you guys remember when she went on Addison Raid's podcast I was like you need to do mine And then she was like, oh, my God, should I? Blah, blah, blah. But I do understand that that's less of courts thing.

She's less of like a sit down and every talker. But she did say, if you guys heard on the car bit, she said, we should do a day together. And then she repeated that again at the after party to do kind of, like that kind of vibe. Like Benny Drama kind of did with her for push. And I was like, okay, I'm down. No, I think, no, she's so fucking funny because you guys forget she's funny. Because I told her, I was like, oh, my God, like you did with Addy.

And she's like, yeah, we'll name it like Addy couldn't make it. like Addy couldn't make it. Genius. Like she's genius. Anyway, she was really just so great. And I could see how, you know, she makes friends so quickly because she was really just real. And it also reminded me why I was such a huge stand of hers. Remember how I would just always say like she's, you know, the realist. She, you know, dresses the most like we would and living her life. And she really proved that to me and how really chill she was. And, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, conversation and really just was so kind. Honestly, I have no words. And Travis, too. He was talking to him about his fear of flying. He was asking me, like, where I live in New York and just so sweet

and so conversational and not self-involved and just, wow, I think the family really blew me away and they already had a fan for life in me, but forever going to be a fan. Oh, no, you know, was funny. Kim came over while I was talking to Kravis. And she was like, okay, guys, like, do you guys want to go to John and Vinny's? And Carter was like, is there a vegan? And I was literally standing there like, do-to-do could be invited. Do-to-do. Will I be invited? Do-to-do? Let me just stand. You know those moments? Like, we've been in them in like high school when you're standing in a place where people are planning something, but you're not part of it. But that was a cute moment where Amanda thought in her head, like, could happen. We'll go.

Okay, no. Okay. And then obviously we saw that, you know, Kim and Pete ended up posting that pick of them together from there. It was so sweet. Anyway, got home. Unreal. It's like after those moments, you kind of feel like Justin Bieber who describes getting off stage and like back to like kind of home and how weird that feeling is. And I got in the car. Husk came to pick me up and you just feel like, whoa, like you were just on this fucking high high. And now you're in a car. the way home and you need to just kind of digest and you need to have a moment. But then for me was, okay, and tomorrow is the big fucking interview. That's what I was here for. You know what I mean? And here it is. And it's kind of the last thing. And I had such a crazy week. But this is like, this is it for me. Like this is my show, my podcast, where I get to ask whatever I want. And it was so exciting. So that was the next day. And Ariel ended up coming with me, my sister Ariel, which was so exciting and I'm so happy she was there. It was, it was really special to have her there for her, for me. But I will tell you. So when we get to KKW headquarters, we go to the bathroom and Ariel is like,

Amanda, can you believe like where you are? Like, can you believe it? Like, oh my God, Amanda. I was like, Ariel, I love you, but not how I do things. And just like, what do you mean? I was like, if that's what I thought and, you know, when I was going into things like this, I wouldn't be able to do it. You know what I mean? I, the way I deal with it and this is something that happens to me kind of naturally is like I don't look left I don't look right I just do what I came to do and kind of forget the magnitude of importance of it and how insane like can't be like I mean this is so insane because then I'm not going to do it how I'm going to sit down interview Kim Kardashian if I think that like she's you know the queen of the world and I'm a peasant or you know how the

fuck am I even here no I have to think like I came to interview Kim Kardashian how great but here I am and I'm going to fucking do it. You know what I mean? I can't be like, oh my God, I'm in this office. Like, that's, you got, and I think that that's the way that I am able to do. Like, a lot of people were shocked that I was calm. Like, I was calm. Like, I wasn't masking it, which I know is shocking because your bitch ain't calm about anything. I didn't even, like, clog toilets before I was get, like, nervous poops. I didn't. I, I think that it's like you, I think it's part of, like, confidence with a K is like, I, as much as it's crazy and, you know, as much as I said, like, I almost wanted to tell Kim,

like, you don't have to do this. It's also like, no, but I was chosen to do this. And obviously there was a reason for it. And I think that I could do a great job. And I think that I know what we want to know. But I also know how much I respect them and how I wouldn't want to put her in situations, you know, just to get a salacious headline. So it felt really good. And honestly, she is so incredibly sweet to even give me this opportunity and was so, by the way, this didn't get into the podcast. But when she came into the room, after we said it low and hugged and everything, I was like, okay, what side do you want to sit on? Like, I'm sure you have a side. And she was like, I don't have a side. And I was like, hold the fuck up. You don't have a side. Just like, I don't

have a side. And then she says, you know, I'm pretty, I'm symmetrical. So it doesn't matter to me. I'm like, oh, when she's like, do you have a side? I was like, no, bitch. I'm symmetrical. So anyway, shocking, though, that Kim Kardashian doesn't have a side. But honestly, she was so chill and I wish I could speak like her. I just feel like she speaks so eloquently. I don't even think she says like. I really want to learn how to speak like that, you know? Like, she doesn't say like.

I just said like. She doesn't say like. Do you understand? She just speaks so eloquently, so in point, you know, with so much respect to everyone she speaks about. I just love her and I really enjoyed doing the interview. I'm really enjoying your responses to the interview. And, you know, some of you are like, you know, what's going to happen after this?

I swear to God, that's another, you know, method of how I navigate things is like, I'm not thinking about that. I don't, I swear I don't care about how many followers it will get me or like what the next thing it will bring. Like, no, this was the big deal to me. The fact that I got to do this, like I want to soak in. that. I want to enjoy this moment. The day the podcast came out, even though the week had been crazy, I felt like this is the day. This is my show. Kim fucking Kardashian, the most famous woman in the

world gave me an exclusive interview. And I'm just so honored. And I'll have it forever. And this is just the moment that I will cherish. And we did it. That's how I feel. So what's next? I don't know. But I just want to soak in that for a moment. And I want to soak in a moment. And I want to soak in together. So thank you guys for listening. And I will always bring you along for all the rides because I do feel like it's us. You know, it's us together. I'm going to cry. Is that a fucking weird? Anyway, I love you so much. And thank you for being there with me forever and for this week. And see you next Tuesday. Thank you guys so much for listening to this episode of Not Skinny but Not Fat. Follow me on Instagram at Not Skinny but Not Fat. Subscribe to the podcast. Subscribe to the

so you don't miss any episodes. Rate the podcast that you love so much on Apple Podcasts and write a little review. If you tell me you did, I'll give you a big virtual smoocheroo. Thank you guys so much for listening. And I'll see you next Tuesday. Okay, so I had to tell you guys about the moment in the premiere where, you know, there was that Tristan scene where Chloe brings up the cheating. And then he's like, you know, it's in past.

And then all of a sudden. in somebody yells la ya ha which like you guys know i fucking love that line and have it saved to my favorites to use like when i need but the audience was all quiet including me because we were like who's this weirdo who just yelled that so nobody laughed and nobody reacted cut to a few days later you know articles coming out that it was Chloe and i was like that's not that wasn't Chloe. Like if it was Chloe, I would have fucking been like, ooh, who, ooh, I would have fucking like, you know, hollered. I would have, you know, but we didn't know. Nobody knew. So I asked Chloe if it was her. She said it was her, which I fucking love. She was fucking savage. And, you know,

I wish we knew, you know, I was talking to another friend who was there. Aaron Foster was there also at the premiere. And we were talking about it. We were like, did you know? And she was like, no and I didn't know either and it was just so you know it's a shame that we didn't assume it was Chloe because we would have given her that like you know the moment that she deserved and like instead we thought it was a random person in the audience just like you know being random so I mean not random but but we didn't know how to react because if it was a random person then how does Chloe feel about it if it was Chloe we would have fucking freaked out like we would have had her back we would have yelled. We would have laughed. We would have, you know, there would have been a

moment, but we didn't. And I think I can speak on behalf of everybody at least that wasn't in her row. Like, we didn't know it was her, which is a bummer. The other thing I will say, even though I did say it on my stories, is that it was so funny to see the rumors go around about like, oh, was Kylie not there? Like, did she, you know, Photoshop herself on the carpet? And like, I am, you know, not one to shy away from rumors. We love a rumor. We love to conspire. We love to conspire. We left to spin, but I was like, this is how it gets started because, like, I legit saw Kylie get there. Like, she didn't do the carpet, but she got there during the premiere. I remember I was sitting and then I see her walk down the aisle. She had, like, a leather train. And I was like,

there she is. And she probably just took photos on the carpet that, you know, was up all night, obviously later by herself. I think if I had to guess she is going through like some postpartum stuff, you know, based on the video that she posted, saying she's not feeling your best. And probably that's, I'm assuming the reason she also didn't feel like doing the carpet. The other thing that I'm getting asked about a ton and I feel like it'll be such a letdown is now that you're done with that fucking week, what's your, what was that crazy? You know, April Fool's joke you played on your family that Ariel was crying and my mom was fucking cursing me out. So I basically told them that, you know, the day or the second day after I got this, um,

the Hulu opportunity. I told them that they took it away and I'm not doing it anymore and I don't know why and that was what I did. I don't know fucking why I have guts to do that shit and I'm not didn't think I was like jinxing shit but I was like you know at least I'm not just hurting myself and not other people which I really don't want to do in April full so that's what it was womp womp womp but now also you guys know that during that fucking crazy week there was another crazy thing I filmed the first episode of my new show on e-news's YouTube channel. It's going to be called Cards Catch Up. First episode is out now.

So check it out. And every week we're going to be kind of not only recapping, you know, that week's episode of the Kardashians, but also just talking about all the fucking shit that goes down with them in their lives and their respective lives. And I have the cutest fucking co-host with the Kay. His name is Colt Paulson. He's like just a little. you know, candy cane. He's the cutest. So we filmed the first episode when I was there in L.A. and I'm going to be filming the rest remotely because I don't live in L.A. As you guys know,

and that's it. So I hope you watch and I hope you enjoy it because it's so much fun. It's what I would do anyway. So getting to do it with E and, you know, having it just all tied together and looking cute is really, really fun. And obviously, huge opportunity for me. So hashtag bless, hashtag grateful, hashtag that's up