NZXT PODCAST - #093 - MiladyConfetti

Episode Date: June 20, 2021

This week on the podcast, the crew is joined by content creator MiladyConfetti! Milady and the crew discuss pride, being famous, and anime silk screen shirts. Follow Milady on Twitter at twitter.com/Miladyconfetti Listen live to the NZXT 💜 CLUB CAST on our Discord server at discord.gg/nzxt every Thursday at 10 AM PT and submit your questions to [e-mail]!

So goofy. Hello everybody and welcome to episode 93 of the N60 Clubcast, the official podcast of the NXT community. This podcast is recorded live every Thursday at 10 a 10 a.m. Pacific Center time of the official NZXC Discord server. It's available to stream on demand on Apple Podcasts, Google Podcasts, Spotify, and SoundCloud. So hop on the hug express because we're leaving the station. folks. Why did I write that? My name is Dennis and with me as always is Ivan. What's up? Buttercup. Not that much. Just chilling baby boo. This is episode, this is the third episode of our, of our Pridecast series featuring amazing creators, amazing peeps, amazing themes, lots of love,

sometimes a little bit of hate, but mostly towards like certain types of foods that people eat, you know? There's always someone who has a dissenting opinion on food. Today we are joined by a very super-duper special guest. I would say probably like newly famous now. It's all the stuff that she's been up to. Melania. Content creator, Malady Confetti. How are you?

Hi. Newly famous. You've been up to so much. You've been up to so much. Your Twitter's been going nuts right now. I've been watching. I've been seeing that Twitter. I see what you're up to.

How you doing? Are you excited? I'm doing well. How are you? Did I just like Did you just embarrass you a little bit? A little. No, it's cool.

I mean, it's like, it's so weird that like, because a lot of people say that and I'm like, I just, I honestly just be chilling and like diving pulled into my content. Yeah. So it was interesting to hear that people have that perspective of me.

Well, it's like I've, so I've, I've seen you. So when we hit you up for the podcast, we actually asked a mermaid, we asked Jewel if they had any recommendations. Yeah.

And they were like, Melody Confetti, like number one, hit them up and see what's up. I'm like, okay, right? So you know, we start diving in and I'm like, I remember this name somewhere. I've seen it in the past. And then I see like all the tweets you're doing the Twitch thing and you're doing, you know, your front page thing now.

And, you know, you're getting like, you know, thrown up everywhere. It's really great. Like, it's really, really awesome to see. Super, super exciting. I cannot be more excited to have you on. I'm excited to be here. I think, by the way, I think if you have a billboard on Times Square, I think you can you probably say you're a little famous at least.

Honestly, seeing that in person, because I drove to Times Square to see that in person, because I was like, all right, because first when I was hit up for that, I was like, there's no way. Like, you have the wrong person. But then when I, like, went through everything and I went up and saw it, I would just, I honestly just, like, was in tears. I'm glad I had like my friends there with me to like kind of just hold my hand because it was just like it's like so surreal. I'm like that's my face in Times Square.

Oh my gosh. Like it was just it was honestly just a humbling experience. I don't know how else to really describe it other than that. And like it's honestly like inspiring to me to just be like competitive with myself to keep pushing and going and moving forward. and accomplishing things. I'll know if I explain that well, but that's kind of just how I felt on the inside. That's how I felt when I saw my billboard on Times Square, actually.

Yeah, same here. Yeah, same here. Except, you know, mine was for Calvin Klein. I don't think it's anywhere near, like, the prestige of Twitch, you know? Yeah. I was from McDonald's. I was a clown.

You're there Ronald McDonald's up there? So I have, have to ask like how does it feel so was this like an overnight kind of thing or does it feel like it's something that's been kind of like building up a bit for you like how does that how do you go from just like I'm creating content to now have a billboard in Times Square um I wouldn't say it's an overnight thing um so now this is going to be my fourth year going into content creation um and last uh November so the week before my birthday um November 2020 I was partnered live on glitch combat, you know, I had already been streaming for a very long time, working, you know, all my content, building up my brand,

crying a lot, because it's very hard. Last year, I actually lost my job. So I worked full time in higher education. That's what my background, and that's what most of my academic writings and stuff are in. And I have a master's degree. I was actually considering going for my doctorate. And then I was like, oh no. So when that happened, you know, it was no one's fault. I mean, a lot of offices everywhere were just closing, you know, we're starting to see, you know, a lot of things recover. But even like to this day, like my office has not reopened because, you know, they just can't afford it at the moment. What was your master's degree in, by the way? My master's degree is in higher education and administration. And what did you, what did, what were, you? What were

you working in before the pandemic? So before the pandemic, I was actually working in admissions, but where my concentration is and my strengths are the most are residents life. So I was a resident director in college in Los Angeles before last year, but also my studies and stuff like that are mostly in fraternity and sorority life. So that's one thing that I like to. That's like super interesting to me. I never even knew you can like, like, study that stuff. Yeah. I mean, and the thing is a lot of what I know, I've studied in a lot of things that I've worked on just, you know, being, you know, a resident director or, you know, being, you know, and admissions is a lot of like community building.

And I think that's where a lot of my transferable skills play into you with like Twitch and content creating. Because, you know, it's at the end of the day, I think at the center of. everything that I do is community. Community first, especially like with residence life. It's kind of a weird relationship because as a resident director, even though you're a director of a whole like department,

you live on campus. So you live with the people that you oversee. And then you live with, you know, your residen, your RAs and stuff like that. And then you live where the students live. So it's,

you have to be community focused. but also be very good with boundaries and stuff like that because it's a very interesting position. But like through all of that, even working full time because at residence life, it's not a nine to five, 40 hours a week. It's like 80 hours a week. It can be very stressful.

I was still content creating. So going back to the original question of like, was this overnight? No. I think with since I was partnered to publicly at GlitchCon, I think that definitely plays a factor into like getting me on a lot of people's radar, which honestly is I'm honored to have that

opportunity. I was so honored to have Aaron, um, partner me in such a live way. But, you know, I take every opportunity that comes my way. Any, um, when people are speaking my name into, you know, like you said, uh, Mermaid Royal had, you know, mentioned me. I honestly take that as a blessing. And I'm honored to even be considered or even be looked at because you know i just like i said i'd just be me doing what i have to do to um to make it to live to thrive yeah to be there that's great no that's that's that's that's that's that's really awesome um when so did you did you start like going harder on your content once like your office closed or what was that transition like I well I took some I took a few weeks to kind of grieve that lost because when you lose your full-time job

here you know in the United States we don't have a lot of alternate things for like things like health care or the unemployment system was like burdened because you know everybody was losing their job so I really had to take time to process that but Because at that point, I actually hadn't gotten a Twitch payout in like six months because like I was just I was just the person. So, you know, I really did start, you know, going really hard with my content. But I think also one thing that I realized that I was doing with my content was separating a lot of things of who I am to play nice, play niceties with companies or with other content creators. Right. because, you know, saying things like, I'm a black content creator and you as a white creator don't face the same things that I do.

I wouldn't say that out loud because it's like I don't want to get into bad faith with like this content creator who has, you know, who's partnered with this person or blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. And I was just like, I don't know if we can swear here. I'll go for, go for it. Yeah. But I was just like honestly like, fuck that. Because like it was like it's wild. that in a global pandemic that, you know, because I've been an activist now for eight years, you know, working with organizations either I have started or working with bigger organizations

like Black Lives Matter, particularly just, you know, more so to my area. And I was just like, how is it a global pandemic and our lives are still like meaningless? Yeah, yeah. It can still be tossed away and you know I wanted to speak out more and I was like I have a platform I might as well use it because clearly in the eyes of a lot of people it doesn't matter it doesn't matter if I play nice it doesn't matter if I'm quiet or if I say something it doesn't matter because ultimately from what we were seeing white people didn't care right so I just you know I really started you know speaking up but also like educating more I mean my background isn't how higher education. So not only did I have the ability to speak up, I had the educational credentials

to speak up and to do that. So that was one area that I know that I wanted to step up and do more in. So I did. That's great. Yeah. That's that's that's kind of basically what we went through as well. Like near the pandemic. We were we were sitting there and seeing everything going on. And I was telling Ivan, it's like we can't just not do anything. Like we can't we can't literally Yeah. We can sit here on Twitter making memes and stuff. Like, all this stuff is going on. Like, it's so disingenuous and it doesn't make any sense, you know?

Yeah. It all started last year with the George Floyd protest. Like, because me and Dennis, like, our job is social media, right? So, like, every day we have to go on social media. And then when that was going down, like, we just literally looked at each. We didn't look at each other because we were working remotely, but we looked at each other through Zoom or whatever. And we're just like, dude. To each of his eyes.

Like, we have to do something because this is not only. you know, like impacting the world. It's like really impacting people in our own community. Yeah. And for us to just like sit back and ignore it and like still keep, you know, putting out memes and like talking about computers and telling people to buy stuff. It's just, yeah. It's not the right time to do that, right?

It felt literally. We have a responsibility. It felt really shitty. Yeah. And even like, even before that though, it's just like the, it's interesting in the gaming community when it comes to marginalized ideas. identities and how they intersect. It's like we as like whether you know,

your LGBTQIA plus or you're black or you know, have any form of marginalized identities, you don't get to show up as just the gamer. You don't you don't get to. You know, I'm not gonna go into a white person's chat and they're gonna be hurled with the N-word. That doesn't happen. Like, and the thing is even if it happens once in a blue moon,

that doesn't impact you like that impacts me. Right. And the fact of the matter is that the gaming community, because it's so white male dominated, like, there was an ability to ignore it, you know? And it's sad that it took something so horrific happening. And for a lot of black creators, like I am Brandon or, you know, myself, X-Mir Mira, Critical Bard, you know, Tanya, or Cypher of Tehr of saying, like, like, we've been telling y'all that this has been horrific. Yeah. Like, we haven't been quiet on these issues.

Y'all just were ignoring us or villainizing us because then you can be, you know, a content creator and speak out and then be blacklisted for being a little bit too loud. And that does happen, which is the fearful thing. That's where I was just like, well, if I'm going to be blacklisted anyway, I'm going to say something. Yeah, no. Screw it. Yeah.

Me and Ivan, so Ivan and I both grew up in a very interesting partisan in California. also both Hispanic or Latino I guess right and when all this stuff was going on we were talking and I was like I'm not surprised dude you know like I'm not surprised you know they got to this point I'm not surprised you know that people weren't paying attention I'm not surprised right like it's it's been happening for such a long time you know I've been stopped randomly you know I've I've had issues with the police luckily for me like once I start talking right I my my parents didn't force me to speak Spanish so I have like very little accent or at all I just sound like a regular dude who lives in Southern California and I was like you know once I rolled down that window and start talking to like, oh, okay, sir, go and pass by, right? And I know, like, I'm very lucky in that respect. And a lot of people aren't. A lot of people aren't. Now, so I've been like, yeah, you know, it's, this is terrible.

It's a tragedy. It sucks. It really hurts to see. It's, like, infuriating. And it's also at the same time, not surprising, you know? Yeah. It's like, it should be, right? This shouldn't be the norm.

I think you brought up a good point, too, where you said, like, we're in the middle of a pandemic, and this is, like, still going on and that's that's how I feel right now with with pride because this is also like the first year where we're really doing a lot with pride you know last year was the first year we really celebrated it and we celebrated it and quite honestly the the easiest way possible which was just donating money right which anyone can do and then this year you know we're trying to do more like you know heavy people on the podcast and writing blog post and whatever you know a bunch more and be more vocal about it on social media.

And it really makes me sad when I open up like Facebook or Instagram or Twitter or whatever and we say something about pride. And then like the first 100 or whatever comments, they're just saying like, oh, I'm unfollowing because you're supporting this or I hate those people or you guys are just trying to make money from this yada yada yada. And I'm like, man, we're literally just getting through probably the worst thing we've ever gone through in our lifetime and this is what you're concerned about like this is where we should all be coming together as people like we're all the same we have to treat each other better and

it's really really really sad to see people that still have hate in their heart when we like you know we're just trying to spread love basically you know by supporting these things and it's it's sad but at the same time it's also like a good way to kind of know that man we're We have a lot of work to do. Yeah. And it is it. You know, it doesn't stop, you know, because it's June either. Yeah.

Yeah. That's the other thing. I think it's a continuous thing. And that's why for me, like last year, because, you know, we, last year was like a, you know, a lot of things were happening during June. And then, you know, we had a lot of companies and why people learn what Juneteenth was, which is also this Saturday for anybody listening who doesn't know that. not only like say like you know we're for the black community i respected more a lot of the companies that said hey we realize that we have a lot of internal biases within our companies here's our strategic plan to address those concerns hiring practices retraining practices

hiring people to consult with so we can do you know um de-escalate a lot of the racial biases that have because you can hire people all you want. But if you're hiring people into, you know, a place that's going to be toxic for marginalized people, then nothing is going to happen and nothing is going to change. So it's like the part of like, we're going to post these things on social media. That's great. What are you doing to disrupt the internal structures? So, you know, when, you know, if somebody wants to apply to NZXT and be there. You know, I'm not, I'm not saying y'all, but like, you know, know that it's a welcoming environment for everybody.

It goes just beyond the social media. It goes beyond just, you know, February, June, November. It goes beyond all of that thing. So it's like a constant thing. And I do see y'all, y'all's comments of like, can I have a free PC? Can I have a free this? I'm like, I'm like, just, no, go somewhere. You don't do anything except get a job, right?

Totally true. And we actually feel the same way. I mean, you know, this year we also internally, you know, not even like on social, but we we started like a diversity and inclusion task force. We have a social justice team now. And we're very conscious of, you know, being more diverse and inclusive internally and making sure that, you know, we're hiring people who have these same beliefs as us. Because we do want to practice what we preach. Yeah. We don't just want to like say, oh, it's June.

Let's change our logo. rainbow colors and donate money, you know, it shouldn't be like that. It should be like not just a year-round thing, but like a, like a mindset, right? Yeah. Yeah. Mindset. When you see like, you know, people call them the word is microaggressions. I stop making them small.

I just say when you see aggressions happening, you address them right now. I'm like, I'm not going to minimize any form of bigotry. Like it's just aggressions. Yeah. It's, um, it's, that, you know, those things are just, you know, it comes in your everyday work and like you said a mindset and also actions behind that mindset so it's a constant thing yeah while you were talking me me and ivan were kind of like smiling a little bit not because we not because we thought what you're saying was funny but because like the things you were saying were

literally the conversations we were having internally and i was like okay where's this where's this right we said this now we got to be about it right like where's the action everybody right um and it's and it's not easy can like steering like that ship right and like getting everybody in that mindset We've never had to think about it before. Like, this is stuff, like, and Ivan can, like, you know, can, like, confirm. Like, some of the first things that I was asking about is, like, what are we doing about X, Y, and Z, right? You know, like, what are we doing about these groups? Because, like, all I see is we're posting memes and stuff, and this is really great.

But, like, where's all the other stuff, right? And, you know, we were talking and something that we said last show, you know, it was like, once we opened this box of standing up for anything and saying what we're about, now we have to really be about it and start taking action and start looking internally. because we can say everything we want, right? But if nothing's happening on the inside, then it's just, it's just, it's just empty words. And I think that the challenging part too is that,

you know, we're learning along the way too. Because we don't know, we don't know all the answers. And Dennis actually said something to me the other day where he's like, we were talking about, I think, pronouns, right? Yeah. And then Dennis said, man, it's really hard to learn all this stuff as a 30-year-old. And I was like, I looked at him like,

how do you think I feel? I'm trying to learn all this stuff as a 40-year-old. Like, I grew up in a whole different world, it seems like, because when I was a kid in the 80s, like there's a lot of stuff that was accepted that I look at now and I'm just like, what the heck were we thinking? And not just with, like, sexuality, but with anything, anything, you know, anything, like race, gender, nationality.

And it was everywhere. It was, like, prevalent in movies and TV shows. And even, like, in comic books, you know, it was everywhere. like in your face and like it was normal you know and uh i cringe now and um when i'm watching because you know i have a toddler and like you know she's into like disney movies now and oh my god like a lot of these old disney movies they're racist you know yeah they're sexist even like yeah there's some stuff in there man there's some messed up stuff in there yeah and i'm just like man this is like what the world thought was normal yeah and it's it's it's really you know

I don't even know what the word is. It's just, it's really eye-opening in a lot of ways. Like, I'm learning a lot. Like, yeah. Yeah. It's hard, you know. It's often, like, it's interesting because like, when things are normalized, because I wouldn't say they were acceptable, but like they were normalized. But it often takes like some giant shift in society or in society or even like slow changes, that incremental changes as well. But like, you know, for one thing, I remember my mom was talking about, um, um,

like the Rodney King fires, the Rodney King riots. Like that wasn't something I remember. But she was talking about just like the impact that that had, you know, for the black community and like the conversations and like things like really like just things that we really just had to talk about back then. And I was just like, okay, like I don't have, you know, that frame of reference. Yeah. But often find that a lot of things that happen like as far as like, you know, social media or even gaming or even. things like in higher education, you know, can be reactionary to the things of the world that's happening around them. Like when I was in charge, when I was the graduate coordinator for the Women's Center at my institution when I was completing my grad studies, you know, there were a lot of things that are still learned.

Even if I were to pursue my doctor, even as somebody who holds a master's grade, I never ever claim to know everything. I can't. But the thing is what I know that I can do, like behind my skateboard, I have like a bunch of books that I'm currently. reading I because I constantly have to educate myself whether I can dedicate five minutes a day to just learning something you know there are things that as a black person I'm learning about my culture there's a lot of things like is somebody who you know who was who felt comfortable enough to come out as a sexual great ace this year there's still things that I'm learning you know about expression and about you know just loving myself you know there are constant things that we're all learning and and You know, if somebody ever goes and stands in front of a podium in front of a room, this is like my frame of reference. If I say that if I go inside front of a podium, say I know everything, I'm leaving that room. I'm leaving that room. You're just out the door right.

You're gone. Yeah, yeah. And that's just more about the person speaking than anything else. They say if you're the smartest person in the room, you're in the wrong room. Exactly. So I want to touch with something that you kind of said on one of your tweets. and you could have bring it. Oh, God.

You. No, no, no, no. It's nothing bad. I promise, right? We didn't go that deep. I promise, right? They say no, they say no Nard wire, right? So you said in your Twitch, Builder, tweet, this was your first pride ever.

Yeah. That was really interesting. Can you talk about that a little bit? Yeah. So, oh, what was that February? March? Time is an illusion. But, you know, I.

I was something I was just struggling with. It's just, you know, with, like I said, the more that I am able to read, and the more that I'm able to interact and grow as a person, I think the more I have access to the words that I need to express who I am, or just express anything or any concept, that's just educating in general. But I had came out as a sexual gray ace, and I always say both because I'm fluid between the two. And I was able to just say, I'm like, this is it.

Like, I know this about myself. I've known this about myself for years. And I'm just going to put it out there. But this going into pride, you know, one thing I've seen just like in my research and everything like that, like there's not a lot of asexual representation at all. Like everything has to like, if I do see something that's, you know, you know, the person that's supposed to be, you know, asexual or presenting in like media or anything like that,

like they're supposed to be something like wrong with them. Or like they're a person that needs to be fixed. Or they're a person that doesn't, you know, experience. Like they have to be like repulsed by sex and stuff like that. And I'm like, that's not accurate. You know, we're people. Let's put a face to the name. Like let's put, you know, a face to the name.

Let's put a face to us. Um, C.M is somebody who's also a content creator who, you know, I connected with who I found so much solace and community in, um, just as, you know, an asexual person. Um, because I'm just like, I, I'm like, it isn't me. Like, are, are we, are we losing it? And like, she was just like, no, there really isn't like a lot of positive things that are out there. So, you know, for me, I said, hey, world, I want to see more asexual representation. not just in pride I want to see it everywhere you know there's a lot of projects that I have going on behind the scenes That I'm working with a few cons a sexual content creators to put out there just to have us in the forefront But as far as like you know being out and everything like that yes, this is my first pride and the fact that there's just so much like love coming my way Like I like after the billboard and like being in Times Square and just like you know the Xbox gift and and the Logitech gifts and blue microphones and all the other stuff. Like I literally had to sit down in my basement in the dark

and just have a meditative, good, healthy, like, cry. Just like, because I'm like, it's just so humbling to just be embraced and loved so much. And I think as, you know, I always talk about intersectionality, which is a term that is coined by Kimberly Crenshaw. If you don't know who that is, if you don't know what that is, I always, you know, encourage to look that up. But it's basically talking about the intersections of your identity.

is like I will always be a black asexual woman at all times. You know, it's not, I don't get to pick and choose and turn things on and off, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. And I was just like, just to see, just to be embraced with so much love, you know, as, you know, talking strictly as a black woman, this world doesn't really like us too much, especially if you're a dark skin black woman. So like, just to receive all of this love and just, I just wanted to be rejoiced and just be in the joy of the moment. have that with myself. So the fact that this is my first pride, and I'm just really honored to just be embraced like this. And I want that for other people. I want that for other asexual content creators, like Calamity Darling and like CEM.

I want to, I want to see that. Keep throwing off the names. Any names he got thrown out? I'm sure people would love to find more creators. No, I love you to say that because something that I noticed has been portrayed a lot, especially in media, is that like, if you're sexual, it's almost like there's like something that's not there that's supposed to be right, which isn't the case, right? That's just who you are.

That's just how you. Just I'm existing. Yeah, exactly. Vibes. Yeah, and it's really weird that, that I'm going to say we like me and I'm like we like almost as like a society kind of treat it as such, right? As if it's like, you know, oh, do you not this? Do you not that?

It's like, no, like that's just the way on. Right. It's just how I, how I handle it or how it how it, how it, what's, what's, what's, what's, what's, what, what's the phrase? I'm trying to not sound like an idiot here. It's very hard for me. It's very hard for me. It's like how you exist in the world.

Exactly. Yeah, exactly. Yeah. And I think I was actually talking to a friend of mine. And I think it's just so viewed as or just, I don't villainize, but I guess kind of a lot of pushback is because our society is so hypersexualized that it's like the impossibility of. not being able to just like, you don't, you don't want to, as soon as you see like Henry Cavill, like, you don't want to just, and I'm like, he is a great looking man. Agreed. He can build himself a PC. Let me tell you something. Yes, God. clip let's clip that real quick it's it's not like that for me um and that's okay but the thing is not everyone is sex repulsed you know that's why i find you know i find you know it's having

solace in the asexual community because like i want to have children like but the thing is like it's like well you're asexual how can you do that okay we just made a face for those who who can't see what we're doing yeah yeah i'm very like wild stuff yeah yeah no i'm just like well like you can't well I'm just like that's not what that means so people I just make face because people just say just wild things and I'm just like that's not what it means anything is if you'd stop putting everybody's identity into a box that makes you feel comfortable then maybe you wouldn't say some off the wall stuff like that to anybody yeah you're totally right there's an idea and like this you know this month I've really been trying to learn a lot more about you know what is all the acronym of me and LGBTQIA plus, et cetera. And the one that I think has the most confusion out of all of them is asexuality. And I think a huge part of that is honestly because what you said, it's like our world is so hyper-sexualized.

It's so in your face. Like I told Dennis the other day, like why is like our Instagram feed is just like naked people? Like we literally open up our Instagram and it's just naked. Naked people. If we go to the Explore tab on Instagram on the NZXT account, it's all like modeling shots and like pretty much like links to like other other platforms, if you know what I'm talking about. And it's like why did they get to this point?

Like like this algorithm does not know, first of the stuff that we post things that we interact with. And it's trying to push all these like naked people on us. It's so insane. Yeah, we literally just post pictures of computers. Advertisers know what so. Oh yeah. Algorithms know what gets clicks. You know, I'm part of, you know, the sexual liberation, like team Cardi, team Megan the Stallion, like, period.

Like when Watt came out, I was jamming that too, period. Like, because that's the anthem of life, period of table. Thank you. I'm all like sexual liberation. Like, love that. But I think when it comes to things like with algorithms or what gets clicks or what sells, what do we see on billboards, you know, this person could be selling, a watch. Like, and it's just, you know, a lot of sexualized things.

Like, I didn't know you could sexualize a watch, but I learned today. Have you seen a Rolex? Have you seen a Rolex? Okay. I see that price tag. Yeah. My wallet was like, not today. Like, I, I understand it.

It doesn't make it right. But it's also like what type of sexualization stops, like cells or what's put out there, you know, because you see the same, you know, skin type. You see the same, you know, type of person. You see the same body type. And it's like, okay, we get it. Like we, I don't see, I don't meet the standard of beauty. So like, it's a lot of things that just tie into like, you know, there's,

there's just a lot of things that go into advertising and it's a science. And it unfortunately works. And then, you know, that plays down on, you know, people's image images of themselves. And then, you know, ads at a greater, at a greater step, what society and how we just sexualize everything. But like I said, like, every asexual person is sex repulsed. Like, sex exists.

Sex is normal. Sex happens. And that's okay. But also, like, under the asexual umbrella, under the A, there is also, you know, aromantic. The asexual spectrum is just so broad. So, like, you know, under the A romantic,

that's an umbrella within itself within the A. then you have the asexual umbrella, which is no demisexual. There's gray ace. There's frays sexual. There's just asexual. There's a lot of things that come underneath that umbrella that I think people should educate themselves more on,

but also just know when you're educating yourself, that also doesn't give you the window to just ask people about their sexual experiences. Oh, yeah, no, for sure. Or just like, like, don't take that a step forward. If you wouldn't ask some random person on the street, like, what are you doing and how are you having sex? don't do that to an ace person just because you're curious. We all have access to Beyonce's internet.

Figure it out. Please figure it out. Beyonce's internet. I love that. This is Beyonce's world. We just live in it. I mean, unfortunately, I'm on Rihanna's internet. So, you know, I'm on a different side of it.

Yeah, I apologize. Yeah. You get that fancy beauty. Yes. Of course. I'm all about that. I'm still on that MC light. You know, it's funny.

Speaking about that real quick, I was on, I was on TikTok and I found, oh my God, I'm blanking on name right now. Hold up. I got to switch up the song because I'm going to screw this up. You're going to hear my furious typing on my burnt oranges. J.J. Fad, there you go. I found J.J. Fad on TikTok and I've been on this kick for a little bit. Super Sonic.

Yep, yep. on like some old school stuff and it's been it's been killing it and yeah i'm all about it and insane fun fact the the guy who actually wrote that song is an nzxte user love that yeah who's that arabian prince oh yeah yeah he's a cool dude don't give some context i mean he's some context about a random fact yeah um yeah he he used to do some stuff with us right like like in the past. And I think I met him at E320. Was it 2016 when I joined Ivan?

No. 2019, something like that. And I was, and I was working. Yeah, I was working the NXT booth. And as he walks up and I'm like, is that? Hold up. Like, is that the, is that the guy from MDA? I'm like, uh, like, he's just, he's just,

he's just, shelling here at her booth with our H-500s or whatever. Like, this is not where I would ever expect to meet him. But yeah, like, like, apparently he's like super in the tab. and he's like really big and just like and like like the gaming space and things like that which that was super super awesome yeah yeah so confetti i want to talk about your content a little bit oh yes content content it's all about the content these days right got to get that content out there um absolutely how do you tailor and curate your content for your community specifically how do you go about that um big question i know honestly it's i wish i had like a direct

direct strategy is just chaotic but honestly honestly everything that I do is community centered anything that comes my way that I'm not feeling or I feel like is going to be like weird for my community I'm saying no like because the reason why I'm able to have you know this job the reason why I'm able to do what I do and get into my passion is because of my community um as far as my content is concerned I play a lot of dead by daylight I'm really into just like horror, specifically like dystopian things. So my YouTube channel mostly is focused on like dystopian content. But as far as like streaming and stuff like that, I do a lot of Dead by Daylight.

I know we have the Resident Evil Village stream that's coming up that everybody's looking forward to. I know I'm late, but I was trying to get past all the backseat gamers because I was in other people's chats. I'm like, y'all are wild. let them play the game. Yep. I really like a lot of RPGs. The things that just influence my content, though, also, like, not just, you know, having the community at the center,

but there's also, there's me. Like, I'm presenting always as my authentic self, 1,000% of the time. I don't got time to be nobody else. I don't got time to walk on nobody's eggshells. I don't have time to coddle fragile feelings. This is what you're getting. if you don't like it,

you can hit the exit button on Beyonce's internet. You can do that because I am not the worst to deal with Arcado anything. A lot of people saw that with my review of the

what is it called? Spiral, the next chapter in the Jigsaw series and they were like, why did, like, somebody was like, you just talked about cops the entire time. I'm like, well, one, that was what the movie was about, but two, they were making a serious point. You just chose to ignore the two-hour movie about the point.

Did you watch the new Captain America Winter Soldier Falcon show? I am on the last episode. So I have seen everything except for the last episode. But the thing is, like, the discourse that was happening with that. Yes, yeah, exactly. It was interesting. Yeah, it was like. Who chose to miss the point?

They're like, that's not what this is about. I'm like. The first like one or two episodes, I'm like, okay, you know, like they're saying something. and then like near the end. I'm like, okay, no, they're literally saying this. And people are just like, what are you talking about? I'm like, there's no way. Are we watching the same show?

Are we watching the same show? Like, please, like, come on. But like, I just really want people like, if companies need like to understand like what it's like to be like a marginalized person, especially like I'll say like a black person coming into a space that's like owned by whiteness. That's how Falcon, like we feel like Falcon. We feel like Anthony Mackey. That's the point. It's just like, this is literally the point. Chris Evans is like, no, just here, take the shield.

You good, homie. No, it's not that simple. When Bucky was like, you know, we don't, you know, we didn't think about the racial implications of how that would affect you. You think? I mean, to be fair, there are two dudes from like the 1950s that like woke back up in like the year 2000, whatever. So like, it probably weren't thinking about that stuff. Yeah.

But the thing is that's kind of 1950s things. That is still a thing that happens today. Oh, yeah. No, yeah. Exactly. Exactly. Yeah. And it's like, you know, what it feels like, you know,

be, I've been in board rooms with like executives or, you know, people who like board or board members, you know, in charge of like higher education, like giving us our budgets essentially. And it's like, it's, it's very odd because it's like you're in a space where, you know, there's there's biases there. So it's like I just, if companies just need to have like a movie day, you remember those old like VCR wheelchair things. Like I need companies that like sit down and. really digest that particular moment. Like, we're having a movie day for a staff meeting. And it's always remember the Titans, right? It's always remember the Titans. As we watched every single time, I swear, for, like, my entire high, my entire school career, it was like, all right, we're going to watch. Remember the Titans.

You see how hard it is? And I'm like, oh, my God. Like, guys, this movie is, like, not that great. It's really not. How does you get that to this movie? Denzel, I love you, dude, but we're all brought together by football. I'm like, okay, great. It's like you're Superman.

Oh, no. Yeah. Yeah, I just, I, I, I, I, I would have done like more analysis on that. It's just sometimes it can be a little bit rough on you also as a content creator to constantly have that would be what your content is centered on. So that's why, like, I take the routes that I do to protect my mental health, but also just to have fun and not have like people suffer fun out of things that I care about because that can happen to. So, yeah, there's, there's, there's, there's definitely this like, kind of, um, line you have to draw with yourself for like where you just want to turn it off for a second. Just enjoy something. Even if it is like not great.

Like, you mean, like everyone was like celebrating DMX, right? Because, you know, he recently passed. And I'm like, have you heard his old catalog? Like some of the stuff is really not great. Oh, DMX is. Yeah, I know. Yeah, I know. Yeah.

There's some stuff there, right? And it's like, I can recognize that I can enjoy the song, but at the same time, know that it's extremely problematic. and a product of its time and maybe also the person, right? Don't want to besmirce him. A lot of things people gloss over is like he was traumatized. He was drugs, sexually abused. Like there's a lot of stuff there. And it's not an excuse for anything that he was saying.

But like I think a lot of that opens up more conversations about mental health, about actually protecting children, how we, you know, handle trauma how we socialize you know black boys into society um it's it's a lot there to unpack with him but yo his old catalog is like whoa it's yeah it's nuts yeah um and this is stuff that that like plays like on the radio right obviously he's like super heavily like edited but it's like oh yeah oh yeah i forgot they yeah i forgot they said that you know i'm like just like we're gonna play Like, AMX is a long beat for two minutes and 32 seconds. It's actually a speech, right, from like a college or something.

They just like double over it. Have you ever, is something I've been wondering? Have you ever been like in the middle of like a game or something on your content and you decided we shouldn't be looking at this? This is probably not good. It could be problematic. It could be triggering. Let's just turn it off. Have you ever done that?

Just like. not down for this let's just do something else Detroit become human okay why if you don't mind if I'm saying I'm really sick

of companies taking struggles of marginalized people turning them in for profit and being so public and vocal in saying like

no we're not talking about this if this is analogous to like anything that has happened in society it's by pure coincidence and then having the audacity when you know, black people are dying or trending so publicly to say,

oh, this is what this was about this entire time. I'm sick of it. I peeped it when it happened. So I just stopped playing it like halfway through because I was streaming it. Yeah. And I was like, okay. But the thing is, I played the rest of it offline. And I was like, wow.

And they ended, like, one of the endings of the song, you can actually, they actually sing a Negro spiritual. And I'm like, wow. Yeah, it's called Hold On. Oh, God. Um, and it sang beautifully. The, the guy who sang it was like, no, he, he's a beautiful voice. Yeah.

But I'm just like, wow. It's not the place right. People were talking about like they analogize a lot of what happened in Detroit become human with, uh, Dr. King. But one, sure, but no, but no. Yeah. No. A lot of people like to just like, like, docile wise, like Dr. King.

Like, he was radical for his time. Like, people didn't like him. He's dead. He was assassinated. He did some shit. So I'm like, don't come to, like, relax on that, mate. But, yeah, that was something I was just like, I can't get behind. Because it was just hurtful.

And then have the studio come out and say, like, no, like, this is not what this is about. And then last year, it was like, yeah, this was what it was about the entire time. Okay. We're good here. Yeah. What in your mind would have made that acceptable? Not making it just like that all just just completely just like not even having the game at all Yeah um yeah like why even like like like why do that I I I I'm really tired of

Marginalized people's trauma being a profit especially for I'm sorry white executives I'm really tired of that and the thing is it's like it find something else to talk about and the thing is if you're going to create black stories make them brilliant make them amazing like if you want to have like this took look at Horizon Zero Dawn and how beautiful that game is And Aloy is one of the best, like, you know, female characters. I don't tell me, in my opinion, I think she's amazing. But the thing is, her story is not about her trauma of just being, you know, a woman. She's an outcast.

Right. There are things that she goes through. But the thing is, it's not centralized to, like, who she is. It's just something that happens, and she just happens to be a woman moving through this space and moving through this world. I'm really, I'm really tired of that. Right. And it's also interesting because it's like you have, have, you know, a lot of people who are in these spaces who are, you know, these white people who are speaking on issues that they shouldn't be. Because it was fine to say that this game was not about that. But then last year that it was. And I know, like, somebody, they even had the activist. I know he's an actor, but I know he does a lot of activist work to Jesse Williams, you know, come out and say some things like, you know, no, like this is really, like when you feel marginalized, like this is a reaction that you can have.

Yeah. and he spoke his truth. So it's like, it's just, it was just weird. I just, I personally just wish it wasn't, wouldn't have been made. Right. It's good to know, good to know. I have, like, very polarizing opinions on that.

No, I mean, you know, I, there's something that I mentioned to Jude last time, too, that, like, whenever I see, like, a, you know, very obvious, like, Latin-inspired skin in a game, I'll, like, go on and buy it. But the same time, I feel kind of dirty, right? because I'm also the same person who will, like, complain when, like,

so, again, it's just personal opinion time, right? I'm putting the personal opinion head on. Like, I don't like the character of, like, Octane and, like, Apex. He's a dope character. He's cool. There's a lot of cool stuff. But it's, like, the first thing is like, come on, Enigos, let's go. I'm like, okay, bro, like, I don't talk like that first off.

Sometimes I'll throw in the Spanish, right? But, like, it just, like, there's like, that happens. You're leaning into it. Yeah. Yeah. Exactly, yeah. They just go so hard. And I'm like, okay, dude, listen.

Like, I don't know. single person who says, Andale, right? I've never heard that once in my life. My dad tells me that all the time. Yeah, but it's different, though. It's different. Come on, man, chachos, let's go.

It's like, okay, dude. Like, I get it. I get it, right? You're Hispanic. Like, you know. But at least, I guess not, like, throwing, like, some burr on him, right? And, like, there's progress.

There's progress being made a little bit. And I know for, like, for, like, some people, you know, that does mean a lot, right? So I can't, like, you know, I can't knock it too hard because some people do something like that, right? Some people do talk like that. there's like this line where personally I just like not down for it I just don't play those characters right um yeah so um so um so bro's another one too like I want to love sombra so much but she doesn't

speak the Spanish that I speak she speaks like Spanish from like Mexico City which is such a different style of Spanish and it's like yeah and like it's and like it's she's saying these words I don't understand I'm not about it but I understand why it's great and and and and why people want it but like it's it's it's harder you know because you have to make that choice and like you know it's like Do I go pro or do I, you know, or do I not play this character? I'm kidding. That's not true. I'm not that great at these games. But it's like it's so interesting because I feel like games have since gaming is like a bigillion dollar industry. Oh yeah. I'm really tired of seeing like you know the same

architect of a character type. Yeah. And I think like when you have you know like like when we saw Redfall. Oh my God Layla's hair like I freaked out. I freaked out. Um, When, you know, I saw, I mean, I'm not, I'm not a Latino, but when I saw Miles Morales, like, I know that meant a lot of, I know that meant a lot to a lot of people, especially after Latino who often don't get to see, you know, themselves represented. when I see A-loid, I'm just like, that is like a strong, powerful lead and that's amazing. And also, like, I mean, I love Miles Miles Miles because I also read the comic.

So, like, there's just a lot of things that I'd like nerd out about with that. But, like, you know, when you see character customizations and, like, it can go into like the deep skins or the super duper, duper, duper-duper-duper light skin. Like, I love seeing the range. I love seeing the range of, like, body type.

I love that you can, you know, represent yourself. Like I know when the Sims put in the LGBT flags, but not just like the main flag, you know, that gets the rainbow that gets seen everywhere. Like, you can put an asexual flag in your house.

I put 26 of them personally, but like you can do that. And that's amazing. So, you know, I feel like if you have, you, everybody has the ability to have to put diversity and inclusion into their games.

Yes. And they should. I also know that companies have the ability to put diversity and inclusion into the way that they hire, the way that they train, the way that they interact with one another. So do it. Because I feel like when you are like the leader in that,

it just becomes the norm where, you know, seeing somebody's character like a Layla isn't an oddity. You know what I mean? Like I honestly very much feel like Eloy is like asexual representation. Like truly I do and I'm just gonna lean into that because that's amazing. amazing. But like, you know, just having that and having it be healthy,

because there's nothing wrong with A. Loy at all. She's amazing. So, you know, I just feel like when it comes to just representation, it can be done and it can be done well, but also consider the requirement who is available in that room who has seats at the table, making those decisions, those artistic decisions, the decisions of like who's getting represented or what that looks like, that also needs to be present all the time. for everything. Hire me. Agreed.

Yeah, I'm like spitting facts right now. I'm just, I'm absorbing all this knowledge right now. I'm like, man, you're right. Honestly, when I was, when I did teach for a brief time,

this is also how I taught my classes as well. Nice. Yeah, I'm like, I mean, seriously like, I'm just quiet because I'm learning right now.

But it's more also like interactive as well because I'm like, I don't, here's a syllabus, but like we're on talk. Read this book, but we're on talk. You know what I mean?

Because we're real people and like, we're going to apply this stuff into our real lives. When you leave here, I want you to not only just be a better person, but also act on those things, but digest it,

but also filter that and teach others. So we can all be better humans going out, you know, in the real world. Agreed. So we will only have you scheduled to 11. So I don't want to take up any of your time because I know you're very busy,

being famous and everything. I am not. You're famous to me. You're famous to me. So we're going to hit you up with some community questions. real quick just so we can make sure that they get their questions answered. And I'm going to hit up the ones that are specific to you.

Jada wants to know real quick, what's your favorite movie? Back to the future. All right. Hey, that's my favorite movie. Yeah. Somebody, like, people ask like, what would you do if you like won the lottery? I'm like, number one, I'm buying a DeLorean that is fully functioning. So fun fact, since you've mentioned this, all right.

So it's my favorite movie too, right? And they filmed that movie all around here, where I live. I'm pretty close to where NCXC headquarters is too. Like the shopping mall right here, Gwenehull's mall, it's the actual Twin Pines Mall.

And every year they have a DeLorean meetup. Oh, my God. We have to connect because whenever that's happening, I'm there. Awesome. I'm there. They even have the clock stuck at 1.30,

1.30, whatever, a.m. Yeah. It's pretty cool. Oh, my. God, oh, that's dope. Yeah, in high school, we had to connect after this. Yeah, for sure. No, for sure, for sure, yeah.

She's geeked out. Yeah. We can have you back on for a in-person podcast when you come down to L.A. In a Delioreate, shut up. Okay, yes, we're doing that. Let's do it. Book it. All right.

Ready for it. Hey, we got to buy a DeLorean. You know, I've always wanted one, but I hear that, like, they're not very reliable. Of course they're not They don't make them anymore Yeah yeah But I want one there I think

Um Gatsy here I'm reading this question I'm trying to make sure that I'm wording it correctly Yeah Let's see So basically

Exotic is asking How do you get through The homophobia online How do you deal with it? So personally myself Not being a gay person I just block people And I tell them to go suck it

essentially. Yeah. Yeah, I have no time for those people. But, you know, but I'm also, you know, I'm also right straight. So it's like, you know, it's easy for me to not have to worry about it, right? Because I just, it doesn't impact me the same way, right? Yeah. Yeah.

The other day, like on Instagram, like, I must have, like, replied to, without exaggerating, maybe 250 hate comments about pride with the pride flag like I was like I could block these people I can just like you know rub it in their face even more but yeah yeah for me I don't argue with bigots

unless it's like something that's extremely specific to me um like I just there's no I don't have there's no space for bigotry here at all. That's it. Periodic table.

Okay. Who has been your inspiration and motivation throughout your content creating journeys? This is from Eli Yellow Bear. Yellow Bear. That's my mod. Okay. Hi, Maude.

My inspiration, I would say, as far as like external, externally, X Miramira has been somebody I look up to. CM has been somebody also who like inspires me. I'm so glad I was able to just connect with them. Like I said, just as a fellow as sexual and finding community in the ace community on Twitch. I think also this is going to get really deep. And Yellowberry hate you for asking me this question.

I would say a big motivator and inspiration of mine is the person who I was and making sure that I'm constantly growing. so I'm never stuck in that place that I used to be. And I think I know that that is the thing that inspires me and that motivates me to push beyond my limits. Yes, Team All Might. To be the better, just to always be better every single day. Because I know, I mean, I still have depression and anxiety,

so there are days where I just literally can't. But I just know overall, like, big picture-wise, long-term goal-wise, like, I am so happy that, like, I'm not the person that I used to be, and I'm so happy into the person that I am and the person I am becoming. That makes sense. No, that's great. I love that. I would say that I am not necessarily happy with who I am in the sense that I know I have a long

way to go, and I'm more of, like, not happy, like, not that I don't like myself, but, like, I know that I can be better, so I want to be better, right? Like I really wanted to get to that point where like I can say, okay, I'm good, right? People aren't going to hate me. Yeah. But that also comes from like a lot of internalized like, you know, stuff that I'm dealing with as well. Yeah. Imagine learning and growing.

Nah, no way. On the internet. He aren't going to like it regardless. You can be, you know, I love that episode, that interview with Tameran Hall with Billy Porter because he was talking about just like being joyful and just being in loving yourself and just being in tune with yourself. just regardless of just who you are and however, but there is nothing, like just nothing but like joy. And the thing is people are always going to hate you

for whatever to, you could get up and dag on paint your nails blue and be like, I don't like your blue nail polish. Like, you know what I mean? So the thing is, people are not going to like you regardless. So be yourself and fuck them.

Exactly. Exactly. Put that on the billboard, Dennis. No, not another billboard. My heart can't take it. How much is a billboard? board costs, right? Actually, that would be, if I saw it in a billboard, it'd be like, all right.

That's actually like, yeah. Okay, so it's 11 right now. If you have to go, confetti, totally cool. If you can stick around, totally cool as well. We don't want to hold you up. I know you're really busy. All right, great, good, great. A couple more questions, then we'll let you go, and then I have an idea can just end the podcast

because I know we have a schedule time. So how did you get through the pandemic and not flip out by being stressed? Another one from Exotic. Oh, I did. There you go. I mean, I'm not going to say that I was perfectly fine during the pandemic. I mean, I quarantined with my family. This is the most that we've ever been up under each other.

I'm a very person that's like in my person life, like I'm just like, I need my space. I need to be alone. I need quiet. Like I have cats. We was on each other's nerves, me and the cats. One of my cats got sick. in the pandemic. I had to take her back and forth to the bet. I did lose it. And the thing is, that's okay.

It really is. It sucked. I think the aspect of not having resources, like I said, I lost my health care because I lost my job. But I'm not going to sit here and pretend like I had it all together that I was fine. There are a lot of times that I wasn't. Even right now, like, I'm going through a very bad high anxiety spell right now. Like, the fact that I'm talking to you all is like a great distraction for me. But like even right now, like, you know, I have very bad anxiety. And that's just that's just what it is. My community knows that.

Like I'm like, look, if I don't have the high energy today, just know I'm going through a lot mentally. So if I'm quiet, just, I don't know, put memes in chat. I don't know. Yeah, like if you didn't get stressed out during the pandemic, there's probably something, something, Like, you should probably, I don't know. I think it's normal, it's normal to be stressed out during the pandemic. So it's normally stressed in general. That's true too.

Yeah. Yeah, especially during a pandemic, man. This was like, this pandemic, like, I didn't lose my job, but, like, it was just the most stressful time of my life. Yeah. Crazy. I was literally telling Ivan that, like, in about a month's time, like, I'm going to take a week and just literally do nothing. Like, I'm not going to, I don't want to work. I want to go anywhere.

you know, I want to eat like hot Cheetos and stuff all day and just like just and just like super self-care, do all the dumb crap I want to do because like I feel like for like a year and a half he's been going so hard and yeah. And the pandemic has definitely been so crazy. So it's insane. It's nuts. All right. That's it, guys. Bye. All right.

Okay. I'll give you one last one. What is your favorite food when you're sad? favorite food when I said um comfort food what have eaten okay if I could I'm gonna need none of y'all to laugh at me I'm gonna need y'all to mind your business okay I'm ready for it ready for a fight so I just run and chase the ice cream man for some ice cream no that makes sense that makes because he'd be driving so fast in my neighborhood that I gotta go put on sneakers to run this man down I know mama said never chase no man but look I need my freaking ice cream

I don't know if you... Okay. That's all... I don't get nothing else. Um, but that's... Since you're in New Jersey, do you have those Mr. Softy trucks? Yes. It is him.

It is a him. And there's another one that's local to me. That's like their own private company. They be speeding too. I'm like how the kids... Even the kids be sad. The kids be like, eh, he don't slow down for... He don't slow down for me either.

I know all about the Mr. Softie. Do you guys have those ice cream trucks that have turned into basically... like like like little mini convenience stores because ours here have like hot cheetos you can get like nachos from them and all kinds of stuff these like in philly there is okay yeah and they they have like the remix version of mr softy it is the dopeest thing ever like you can find them in center city by like the art museum or like in west philly like 52nd street it just be part and like they have everything you get a cheese stick if you need one um yeah you need you need uh tampons

you need uh some fruit it got awesome actually that's awesome i love that i love that Philly is built different. I was going to hear too, yeah. B, our amazing admin here, and customer service superstar and is all around, like, does everything for us, and we couldn't punch him without her. She's from New Jersey.

Oh, okay. She tells us about Philly all the time. She's like, Philly this, filly that, and I'm like, I really got to go. I really got to go to Philly. I got to check it out for myself. Come through. And apparently Wawa is like super lit.

Never been to Wawa. Look, I'm at Wawa every single. day. So yes, you have to have the Wawa experience. And no, you can't pump your gas. You must be in your car. I, as, as a Californian, that is insane to me that I cannot pump my own gas. It's my car. I know how to do it. Put the thing in. Nope. I never pump my own gas. Okay. Okay. One time I was, I was going to a protest. I went to a protest in D.C. and I needed gas. And I didn't know how to, I didn't know how to pump my cat. I had to ask help. I had to ask for help.

They were like, you're from Jersey, aren't you? I'm like, yeah. Oh, man. All right. One last for you. And then we'll let you go. What's up with all the Funko Pops? You have a giant wall behind you on like two sides. Oh, yeah. This is only like 25% of my collection. The rest is in storage. Oh, my God. So, so what had happened was, um,

So I used to work at GameStop, and I was a manager there. And sometimes we, I mean, we had our employee discount, but there were also sales that would happen all the time. More than likely what I would get our Funko pops, either on sale or not. And then sometimes there were things like, oh, we have to go field destroy these things, which means like you just penny them out. So like sometimes the company would just be like, just take it. Like, who cares? like if something was like going out of style or like discontinued for some reason

or like it's just been in the store for way too long get it out of here so that was why I just started my collection I don't remember what my first Funko Pop. I think it was Atheon from Destiny I think that was when I got that and then it just kind of spiraled out of control

but don't sleep on Funko Popes because my mama was saying back in a day oh Beanie Babies they're never going to be worth nothing. There are beanie babies being sold for $24,000 on eBay right now. Same Pokemon cards, right? Same Pokemon cards. Miss me with that.

Do you have like a method for which ones you pick up or is just like I like this one and they grab it or do you try to grab all from a from a series? Because like I was at the gas station pumping my own gas, right, like a regular human being. Shut up. And I saw like WWE like Funko Pops and I'm like I don't want no rock sitting on my wallet. What the heck? At the rock. Oh, no.

He's the only one I think I have from the WVE. If I, I want Edge, but I don't know if he has one and I want CM Punk, but they're not going to give him one because, you know, shade there. I honestly,

I pick, if I see something I like, I'll get it. If it's from a series that I love, I'll get them all. Like, I'm working on Avatar, The Last Airbender because I couldn't catch them all when they were going

through. I have all of the X-Men from this last series because that is my first comic book I've ever read was the X-X-enad was the X- and my favorite of all time. Like so in Times Square, when they gave me a lightning strike to like go into my billboard and I was like, I get to be storm in Times Square.

Like I literally was having a compliment in New York. But typically, yeah, if I like it, I'll just get it. The one latest series that I just did was Demon Slayer. So I pre-order all the ones for Demon Slayer. But I had to go to different places to pre-order them to get them all. So it just depends.

But typically I just kind of get what I want. If I'm grabbing anime figures, I don't think they're going to be Funko Pops. Like, I'll go to Play Asia and grab, like, an actual, like, figurine. Personally, personally. I want, I don't have any figurines just because they're a little bit pricey, but the one, I want the flame Hashira. Okay. I know they're so expensive. Like, the one I just saw was like $200.

I'm like, wow. I want to hear somewhere. I guess groceries. Yeah. I have one. Like, I don't know. I can't ever justifying just hitting, like, $200 for a Rengoku statue.

Yeah, no, yeah, no, it's, it's nuts. I have one, uh, it's a spice and wolf figure. It's a really cute one. It's the wifu, right? And I got it for like 150 or something. And I think now if you buy it second hand, it's like worth 500 bucks. But mine's like a little dinged up so like I can't really sell it for as much. But it's like, these are really expensive.

And like, you know, like maybe more expensive than your anime button up shirts. They are. They're more expensive than my silk screen, Goku. Yeah. I think that's the only one that I want right now, but it has to be very, very special. Like, I really love Demon Slayer. I love the music.

Lisa, like, who just keeps dropping, like, fire on all the Demon Slayer tracks. Like, I just, I'm like, I want a Rengoku one. Give me that. That's nuts, yeah. I'm just looking at the photos that Ivan's linking here. He's got, he's got this shirt in the chat and the, you know, that's funny. It's because I, so I go to this swap.

me by my house every couple of weekends. Santa Fe Springs. Santa Fe Springs. Or I call it Santa Fe Springs. Yeah. But there's this, uh, this like anime booth there. I always think of Dennis every time I watch it. I always want to buy you something.

I'm like, this stuff is so cringy because I always wonder, would Dennis actually wear this? They have like these, uh, these funky, like anime button. I'm sure. So I'm going to get you one and watch. When we go back to the office, you're going to have a couple of these. A welcome back gift. Yeah.

It's funny how now like, it's actually kind of cool to be a little bit cringy because back then like you wore this stuff and people would just like pretty much beat you up and now it's like you can you can you can you can wear one of these shirts yeah exactly you can wear one of these shirts and be considered high fashion if you have the right pair of pants and sneakers on you're gonna throw in some jays and like and like some joggers with that shirt you're literally just like you're dripping you're good you're good yeah i mean hype i feel like hypelin has been like changing the industry with like anime gear and so like they're about to drop like that yu hukashow drip I'm like sign me up. I am here for it. I think you had that,

Zatch Bell and yuki'all, my wallet gonna be hurting. Those shows had some amazing, amazing drip. Like, 90s anime just had it.

I don't know what it is, but they got it, yeah, for sure, for sure. 90s drip in general, superior. Sometimes.

I think so. Sometimes. I mean, that's why it's cool again. Not all of it. I see kids now and that's addressing how I dressed in high school.

I'm like 90s are back. We're back, baby. Let's go. All right. Let me bust on my jinkgo jeans. Oh, no. I think jingles were 2000s. I think those were 2000s.

I'm pretty sure people wore jinkos when I was in high school and I graduated 99. Here's a gift of me, by the way, back in the day. So you just made it. Yeah, yeah, literally just right now. All right. Confetti, thank you so much. We're going to let you go while we finish up the podcast. So I want to hold you.

again, we know you're super busy, right? You got to go out and, you know, not pump your own gas and grab a sandwich at all was, buy some funco pops. The shade here. You know? The shade. Being in a couple of billboards, you know, just, you know, every day, every day for you, right? Thank you so much for being on.

We really appreciate it. Super exciting. Hopefully we can have you on sometime soon. Maybe in person we can hit up that Pointe Hill's Mall, right? The DeLorean convince. Exactly. See all those DeLoreans. Do you have any parting words, any shout-outs,

anything you want to let our community know? Um, drink your water, hydrate. Make sure you're taking care of yourself. It's okay. You don't have to be doing things all the time. You can follow me on social medias. I'm at Malady Confetti, literally everywhere. YouTube, Twitter, Instagram, all the things.

Shout out to my fellow Aces. You are valid. You are loved. Periodic tape, but don't let nobody tell you different. Yeah, I think that's the thing. think that's all I had. All right. Awesome.

Thank you so much. Thank you for having me. We're going to bug you for your address later so we can send you a poochie so you can put it next to your fun co-pops. Oh, my God. I'm going to cry so does I get it? All right. Y'all have a great day. All right.

Thank you. Bye. Bye. Bye. That was awesome. That was awesome, Ivan. Yeah, she was really, really cool. She definitely has a lot smarter than us.

I'm pretty sure everyone that we have on the show is like waste of. more than us. Man, there's just, there's, um, that. So she studied, she, she, she has her master's in higher education and we have ours in lower education. Pretty much. Like that last like 30 minutes, man. Yeah.

I was just listening. Like, I was actually learning a lot from her. Yeah. No, it's a, it's, it's really great. Yeah, we need to have her on again for sure. Um, just, just to see what's up. Um, yeah. By the way, for everyone who's listening, we are,

are still live, we're still recording. We're just having, you know, like a little back and forth to tune us. You know, we're doing like a little, chain a little something different, you know. I told Ivan, but I'm mixing it up, you know. I'm flipping it in reverse. We're seeing what's up. But, like, I want to have her on just to talk about music. I feel like, I feel like every guest we have on now, we should have two podcasts.

When we just talk about them and their stuff, and another one where we're talking about, like, music and movies and stuff like that. We have the pre-show, you know, we connect with our guests like 30 minutes before the show. Yeah. Just to run them down, you know, like, It's what the podcast is like. Here's what you got to do. Et cetera, et cetera.

And the conversation always goes to music. Yeah, no, every single time. Without fault, without fault, it goes in music. And I mean, I don't know about you, but like for us, you know, or honestly for us, but for me, music is like so important. Like I've had my Spotify premium subscription since I was like in college. It's like 20, 2010 or something. I wonder if I can find out how long I've had this thing on here, but.

Spotify, Premium? Yeah, apparently my date of birth. I've had mine for like a month. Are you serious? Yeah. Bro. I like, I listen to music like the old school way, man. Records and stuff.

Yeah. I never got into streaming. But now, now that I have a kid. Yeah. I like to say, okay, Google, play. the hi-ho song. I got tired of the ads, so I got the Spotify. The ads are so bad.

And so, like, I've only experienced ads on Spotify for, like, a month because, like, the year it came out, I was telling myself, you what, like, I'm pretty much all digital and everything. I'm just going to go digital on my music, and I just never look back. So, like, apparently ads are getting, like, super targeted right now on Spotify. And apparently, if they know, like, your ethnicity, they'll sometimes start tailoring those ads. to that, which to me is like, yeah, which in me is hilarious.

Yeah, it's, it's pretty funny. Apparently, my Spotify receipts and it goes back to, like, 2019, so I don't even know how I like how you think that's a flex. I mean, it's not, it's just interesting, right? It's like, it's like how, it's like how I've had my, my Steam account since 2007, right? I think it's like 14 years or something now that my account on Steam or whatever that number is, that math has been active. And like, every now I didn't, like, throw it up until, like, the Discord.

People be like, whoa, your Cima accounts older than I am. Probably do. All right, guys. Well, I hope you enjoyed Melody Confetti. She was amazing. Such a great, such a great guest. Really want to have her on again. I want to have everybody on again, to be honest.

Some amazing people. So we got some a little bit of information for you guys, for you bounce. And hopefully, if you're listening on Sunday, you probably won't get this. but it's okay. He should be here live. Or maybe I'll post it on Friday, right? Maybe it would just be really quick about this. Game nights, watch party for pride.

So, you know, check that stuff out. All the information is in the announcements. I'm not going to go through it all because it's a lot. But, you know, if you want to connect with the rest of the community here, we have game nights, we have watch parties. You know, our moderator is always throwing up games and stuff. You know, game nights in general are a thing. I think the next one, the last thing they did was Jackbox,

just super super cool. Is there a schedule here? I think I'm doing one too, like the end of the month. I'm doing a game night and we'll be doing Crunker because I've been getting in, I've been getting the Crunker a little bit.

It's fun. People are not getting that game. I'm like clapping. It looks cool. I saw it for the first time either day and I want to play it. Yeah. And then also, as always,

apply for moderators, apply for Pucci Pals. You always use more help on the team to moderate, keep the community safe and fun, you know, help run events, so and so forth. You get a lot of privileges with it, but you also get a sense of what it's like to help run a community because it is not easy and, you know, props to Amanda and B for kicking butt, you know, especially B because she's like does things like she opens up the podcast channel

for us because we break it. And then she'll send me a DM like, what did you do this? And I'm like, I don't know. She's like, well, don't touch it. I'm like, okay, I won't touch it. So, and I think, I think it's it. Also, announcements, right? Okay.

Donate to our Trevor Project fundraiser. That's nzix.com slash Trevor Project. What are we at right now on that? It's like 13,000 something. 13,000. Our original goal was 10,000. We had that last week, so we raised it up to 15 and we're almost there. So thank you to everyone who donated.

And remember, if you donate at least 20,000. $25, you get entered into an awesome free PC raffle with the Pride Rapp. And we have different tiers for donating to so you can get some awesome NZXT Pride merch like stickers, pins, shirts, and hoodies. And yeah, thank you everyone who donated so far. Especially, especially, I think it's thank you dad or. Thank you, Dad. Something like that. I forgot their, something like that.

That's their name. They donate $1,000. So that's awesome. It's a great job, Dad. Great job, there you go. The mystery Donator. We are specifically $13,423. and 69 cents.

Very nice. Very nice. You silly gamers. Follow Midlady Confetti on social media, literally everywhere. Twitter, Twitch, Instagram, all Midlady confetti. Her content's great. Dead by Daylight. It feels like, maybe just me, Ivan.

It seems like all the cool streamers are playing dead by daylight. That is what I am noticing, actually. Yeah. Is it like, I guess it's like the hot game right now, right? It's, it's, so I'm not sure if it's like hot, hot. Oh, boy. Hold up. Oh, Lordy.

Don't look in, like Jesus Christ. The stuff this bot is catching. Props to be for adding this bot to delete stuff because this is not, yeah, definitely not stuff that we should be having on our, Jesus Christ. I just saw it in the playground, and I'm like, oh, my lord. You know, it's, it's one of those games that, like, really takes care of their community. And this is something that, like, I've always expressed just to, like, other people about games in general, right?

Like, if you take care of your community, they will take care of you, they will come back for more, that will play your game. They will slowly, but surely make it, like, the most popular game ever. Did By Daylight still, like, one of the biggest games that's, like, streamed. I haven't played it in forever. Why, Shakesy's a lie. I played it last night because they have. I added the Resident Evil content, and I just got my, I got my ass handed to me. I suck at that game.

I cannot loop the killer to save my life. So I just play like a scared little baby. And as soon as I hear that, that scary monster noise coming, I instantly hide. I run away and I hide and I wait. Once they leave, I come back and I work on my generator. Very scary game. I'm not good with scary games. But, yeah, you know, it's like I'm remembered what I was saying last time, right?

Like, the game is really good on inclusion. It's really good with taking care of the community. And, like, it shows, right? Yeah, GTIFO is different. GTIFO is not scary game. It's not scary because of the way that you progress through the levels. It's not a scary game, just saying. Hot take, no video games are scary.

You haven't played a fatal frame yet, dude. You should play a fatal frame. Video games don't scare me because they're not real. I know I'm playing a video game. I don't get scared from playing video games. Or watching movies. They don't scare me. Thank you, Janet.

Okay, cool, dude. real edgy bro I say it's a hot take because every time I say that people think I'm capping or hard cap hard cap but I honestly do not get scared from playing

video games or watching scary movies I do get scared when people jump out of a corner and say that does scare me so imagine that happening over the course I think honestly once we start doing stuff on Twitch

when and if that happened we should have you do scary games. The scare Poppy challenge, can Poppy get scared? I would love to see that. The reason I don't get scared from watching scary movies or playing scary video games is because I know they are not real. Like I know I'm playing a game. I'm watching a movie.

I know I'm reading a book or whatever. Like it doesn't freak me out. But if someone jumps out of a corner and just this, boo, and like, you know, that freaks me out. But if I'm watching, if you're playing a game or whatever, I know it's fake. I'm not going to get scared. So you can test me.

I will stream it. Yeah. Okay. We'll do. We will get you to play. Cry on stream. We'll get you to play Amizio. We'll get you to play Outlast.

Layers of Fear. Here's really good. That one B recommends a lot. Help, you know, maybe if you want to shoot a little bit, we'll have you play like, like, like, Resident Evil 7 or 8, you know. Those are, those are, uh, those are scary to a point, right? The alien game. I don't know if aliens is a scary game, but I'm sure we can talk

about this like forever and ever. All right. Any other announcements we got? I haven't think that's pretty much it. Check out the NXT blog, I guess, right? Just just in general. Just check out what we got on there. Always posting stuff on there now. Follow us on social media. I guess, well, I don't need to say that at the end of the show, so what I need to say now. What I'm talking about? Also, I have another announcement, I guess. Sure. Yeah. If anyone has any suggestions for what they want to post on social media,

DM me, because I want to mix it up a little bit. Do a little experiment here. Yeah, no, that's a good one. I would also say, if you have any people you want to hear on the podcast, as well, let us know. Be realistic. You know, don't say like Obama.

But I'm sure he'd, like, hop on. I think Bernie's an easy get. I think we can get Bernie. We actually banned Obama from the server for spamming. Oh, dang, yeah. Imagine. Obama the spammer.

All right. So thank you for joining us, everybody. Well, first of all, thank you again to my lady. Amazing guests. Thank you to everybody who tuned in. Remember to tune in next week at 10 a.m. Pacific Center time in the official NXC Discord server. And follow at N60 on all relevant and irrelevant social media.

And send an email to Clubcast. at nzicc.com if you want to ask us a question off the air, which y'all aren't doing. I see a lot of you in here. Where's the emails? Hit me up on the emails. I want to get those notifications. Don't forget to listen to previous episodes on Apple Podcasts, Google Podcasts, Spotify, and SandCloud, or wherever you listen to your favorite podcasts.

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share it with your enemies, you know, you should, you should subject the people you don't like to this podcast. I think that would be even better. I just close the window an accident. Whoops. It's okay. It's not a big deal. Um, I think they'd say everything, yeah, pretty much. That's, that's, that's, that's, that's all goes. Sorry. Go, now go and pump my gas, Dennis. I, I, I will not pump gas for any person ever. There we go. That was very loud. All right, everyone. See you. See you. See you next time. Thank you very much. I don't know. What's a positive thing you can say, Ivan?

You're valued. We love you. Send your complaints to Clubcast at NBC.com. Exactly. There you go. Bye.