Off The Vine with Kaitlyn Bristowe - New Year, New Kaitlyn: 2020 Goals

Episode Date: January 7, 2020

This week Kaitlyn and Jason take time to reflect on the past year and set intentions for 2020. Things are looking up! Kaitlyn reminds herself that self-worth is not determined by social media comments. She wants to weed out all the negative energies that do not serve her anymore. Jason explains the concept of a personal vision statement and shares a list of his top priorities (Kaitlyn and Ramen are pretty high up). Finally, the two list 30-day challenge suggestions for vinos to make some changes in their life, big or small! See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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No, don't Google it. Well, I'm not. No, don't Google it. What do you think the words are? Strumming my pain with his fingers. One time, one time. Singing. Singing my...

Killing me softly with his words. Just jump to the one part, you know. Killing me softly with his words. May I ask you a question? We're not actually live, are we? Yeah. Well, no. Have I asked you this before on the podcast?

I know I have off the record. You didn't even do the whole intro. How am I supposed to know where you were going? Yeah, I was tricking you so that you'd keep going with your stupid lyrics. I do make lyrics. awful of lyrics it's so funny i'm trying to remember certain words but i can't and i should write them down the lyrics that you sing so i can quote them for everybody but you were just singing something killing me softly yeah but strub him his opinion hello everybody welcome to off the

with caitland bristow no see you next tuesday hello vinos and welcome to a new decade 2020 baby of off the vine grape therapy both of them that's right it's officially 20 20 it's January 1st right now as we're recording this and Jason is drinking what are you drinking a protein shake yeah and I'm drinking champagne and why don't you tell them about our dinner when how I had a hot lemon tea you had a hot oh my gosh we went to delightful we went to one of my favorite spots in Nashville called Barcelona wine bar I guess it doesn't matter because I had a martini, but Barcelona wine bar, Jason had a hot lemon tea.

It was delightful. I'm trying to do this sober jane, dry January. See, now I used to think that was a good idea in my past years, but now I own a wine label and it's just unprofessional if I don't. I see. That's a great spin. I like it. I found a loophole.

That's my go-to. I found one. I'm running with it. You're getting good. Yeah. So January. Screw it. Are you going to, what's your, what's your New Year's resolutions?

Do you have any? Yeah, we have a lot. We kind of talked about this over dinner, and that's kind of what today's podcast is about because a year ago, my sister Haley and I recorded a podcast together to talk about monthly goals for 2019, which I thought was so great because everybody sets these huge expectations for the year. This year, I'm going to blah, blah, blah, and I'm going to eat healthy. And I'm like, no, no, no, no, just go day by day, month by month, something small.

achievable goals that you can do. So we set monthly goals for people such as in January, try and make your bed every morning and see how you feel. So small achievable goals that made people feel like they were accomplishing something. So 30-day challenges for each month of the year. I love doing it and I loved getting people's feedback each month if they did it. It's a very small number and I'm not going to lie. I don't know if I did them all.

But I just think it's cool to set intentions going into a new year. So my intentions for this year Let's hear your tensions Is I would like to go back to a few years ago, Caitlin Where I laughed off trolls or haters Because I think at this point in my life I'm like, okay, I've been doing this now for what, five years now? 2015 to 2020

I mean It will be the fifth year It will be the fifth year So technically four years total but I'm on the fifth year Sure And to me I'm like when this all first happened I could laugh off trolls

and then as time went on I was like some bug me some don't but as you go on in life and you're genuinely just sharing who you are with everybody and you every day all day every week every month get trolled

for who you are as a person it starts to get to you and I think I've I started to let it get to me more than usual which is so silly because I like to think I have the confidence

to brush things off as I once did and I'm just I'm going to get back to caring about the people that matter and the people who say positive things

and beyond the right the right vibrations for 2020 no I think it's good and I think the thing is as though yes this happens to you but this happens to everybody in different forms

and right this is an old adage we learn when we are literally four years old sticks since the only will break your bones, but words will never hurt you. And there's, you know, that's a bullshit lesson, though. Yeah, exactly. But I'm saying it's one that we have, it's been instilled on us at a young age.

And I agree with that, that it is a bullshit lesson because words do hurt. Yeah. But one thing we talked about is that everyone, we talked about reactions, right? We want to, how we instantly react isn't what we controllably do to react, right? So we both get angry. It's we both get fired up. Everyone gets pissed. Everyone, of course, is pissed when someone tries to take someone down or when you're bullied.

No one likes it and doesn't feel good. But the one thing you can control is how you react to it. And that's the one variable in this world of how people handle things differently is reaction. I think it's really hard for myself and I can't speak for you or anyone else. But for myself, I do react emotionally, but that's part of it. of who I am and do I or could I take a few seconds and think about it and not react that way sure and do I yeah I work I work on that but for me it's like I guess I think like I've built this audience or I've built this community that I want to always please because

I've built it and I've worked hard for it and I feel like I've I've created this community of people who really mattered to me so when people criticize it's It's, if it's constructive, that's one thing, but if it's constructive in a way where it's like attack mode, I take it very personally now compared to years ago because I feel like I've worked up to be where I am and I would hope that people know who I am by now. And so I think that's why I take it so personally is because I'm like, but you know me now. I'm not a piece of shit. Stop treating me like one. And I have a very difficult time with separating when it's just trolls or when people are hurtful. I know you don't relate to this because we're very different in this way.

I think so. What I didn't say accurately last time is we all have instincts, right? So someone says something negative or they say something hurtful. Our instinct is always to be angry, upset, frustrated, want to fight back. Snap, that's your instinct. but what we have control over is the reaction. And in my opinion, there is no way in this world you will please everybody. It is impossible.

It doesn't matter who you are. You just won't. So in my opinion, you just, the only thing you can do is be true to yourself. And if you're true to yourself and at the end of the day, you look in the mirror and you know what you did and how you did it and you feel good about it, then everything else doesn't matter. but I have to kind of disagree with you because I believe those things I know at the end of the day when I look in the mirror I know what matters I know who I am as a person but to me it's like having my character questioned every day for the last five years takes a toll on anybody I agree how that would take a toll on you but I also think that it's important to put things in perspective of course And I do. And if I didn't, I'd be in a terrible position right now. Yeah, but there's like, so in my opinion, like bringing that negative energy, if you know that the character they're questioning, you know it's not true. You know it's not what you do. And people out there all day experiences in different levels, what is the purpose of continuing to bring attention to it or fighting a battle that you're not going to, that's a battle you're not going to win with that person, is it?

Okay. But I'm not going to name and maybe I don't even know your biggest insecurity, but. imagine you had this insecurity that you've had since you were young and it's been instilled in your brain and you open up your world to constructive or whatever kind of criticism, not constructive as well, but just people having an opinion. And what if certain people for years trigger your biggest insecurity day in, day out? And you know they're ridiculous, but they're hitting that one spot for you every week, let's say. You don't let that get to you after five years. It's actually the opposite.

After five years, you have built up such a block against it that I don't. That's what I thought. And then I guess you have to go back to game through. What are the options? The options are either don't put that out there. You deal with the consequences of putting it out there. I like to think I do have thick skin. Otherwise, I don't think I could be doing what I'm doing.

And I like to believe that I can stand up for myself, which some people say ignore the trolls. But I like to believe I can sign up for myself. But sometimes it hurts me. And it's just about, I'm honest along the whole journey of trolling. Like sometimes I can brush it off. Sometimes it bothers me. Sometimes I clap back. Sometimes I ignore it.

Sometimes I want to have a conversation and be like, hey, I see you're writing me from an account with zero followers. And you've clearly made up this account to troll me. I would love to have this conversation with you if you showed your face. And I could have a, you know, some sort of valuable conversation with a face. But I'm not going to do it with a f***ing lamb. Lamb, one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight. That's the beautiful thing about you is that you're unapologetically yourself no matter what. So if that's what you're going to continue to be, then you have to ignore those who are going to try and put you down for being yourself.

And which let's circle back. My goal for 2020 is to ignore those ones. Fair. That's good. Ignore the ones where it's clearly a troll. Have conversation with the people that are just mis-exam. informed on who I am as a person or think they know me, I'm willing to have some conversations every once in a blue moon, but ignore the actual trolls who are just noise trying to get to me.

Yeah, and I think the way that people hopefully can apply this to their everyday life is that when you are focused on what you're doing, you need to do it relentlessly and you need to let no one get in your path because people will try to impede you from achieving your goals. goals. People are fearful of success. They're scared of change. And when they see someone that's driving change in doing successful things, the first thing most people do is they're intimidated by it. And they judge. And they tell you why you're not going to do it and what you can't do. And how, even though you're taking the leap of faith from your job or career or your boyfriend or girlfriend, whatever it is, how it's not going to work out. Everyone has such a glass,

half full latitude and no in general glass have empty glass half empty and in general people it's sad it's sick but people want to see people fail oh they do and so and if there's one thing that you do in 2020 pushed through all of that and don't let anybody dictate your course your life your outcome what you want except yourself well but jay i mean you know me i don't let people dictate that but you know is there's a lot that happens like pass the microphones and some of these when you let's say you're getting trolled or bucked it really bugs you it can ruin your day we'll talk about it for a long time but you have to also acknowledge the other side of it where we could sit over a beer and laugh hysterically at some of the stuff that is very hurtful like I thought it was so funny

and I'm not going to bring attention to this person I'm not even going to give their name I laughed out loud and showed you at Buffalo Wild Wings and we laughed because this woman was literally calling me disgusting. She was like, you're so gross. You disgusting. Oh, you crave so much attention. And she's going off and off and off. And I'm like, she's literally saying everything that she is. Like, who's disgusting here? You're messaging some young girl as an older woman just ripping her apart. And you have to admit that we do laugh about. some of it too. Yeah, but even in that example, you were really hurt by, like, you first came up to me

with that and you were really upset with that. No, no. It was three other trolls that said the same things at her, but they were private, no followers, no, following no one with fake accounts. This woman was a mother Christian, mother of four, live life to the fullest, praise Jesus, that bothers me because I... Because you find it hypocritical.

Yes. The ones who are clearly making up accounts to do this to me, no, I do not. It doesn't bother me. I get furious about certain people. And again, this is also stupid because

I don't care if they are a Christian mother. It shouldn't bother me, no matter what. I'm just more just being vulnerable right now and sane. No, no, I think it's good. And there's no space for bullying, but you know what's going to be constant. You know there's going to be feedback. And I just think putting that all in perspective is going to help you with that stuff, I think.

And maybe it's because you have only known me for a year, but I have dealt with some serious bullying and death threats and awful, awful things. So I have moved past a lot and ignored a lot. It's just now, I don't know if I'm getting more sensitive in my old age. but I've I've I really have battled through a lot of bullying and now it's just I guess I'm just annoyed but anyways 20 20 I'm going to ignore it it's what I'm saying good for you I think that's amazing I think that's awesome thanks do you no I think it's amazing I think it's something that you definitely should do it you should not let toxic energy kind of manifest no and that's what I'm saying is I want to be on the right vibe

vibrations and the good positive vibes. And I'm not trying to like turn it or saying, but I just, you were, you have always been very adored in the public eye and haven't gone through some like slut shaming or death threats or like people threatening your family or magazine cover saying you're a horrible human. Like you haven't gone through the thick of it where it could possibly break you down. And you're, you don't. deserve that, of course. Nobody does. But I'm just saying, I think, I think it just broke me

down and I think I've gained thick skin through it, but I've also become more sensitive to it, if that makes any sense. Yeah, no. Does it? I think so. I mean, you, I think naturally most people would probably think because you've experienced that and probably at a higher concentration, years ago, that at this point, you're like, I don't give a f*** to say it all. I've heard I've heard X, Y, and Z from A, B, and C, and it doesn't bother me. So I think that you would think the natural progression would be to say, yeah, my skin is so thick. It would take a, you know, a freaking drill bit to get through, because I just don't, I've heard it all. So it's interesting that it's, it's actually reversed. It's that when things were probably at their worst point, in the highest

concentration and the highest volume, you weren't as sensitive to it as you are when things are at a lower concentration, lower volume, four years of dealing with it. That's, I think that's interesting. And I also think I've worked so hard to build my audience of people that trust me and that I trust. So I think I do a lot of things that I do, I want the people that follow me to just support me the way I want to support them. or I want to read all my Facebook messages and be a part of this community without any judgment

because I feel like they're all family now where when there is rude people, I'm like, wait, aren't we all family? Don't we all love each other? Which I know is not realistic. But even in families and in companies and in like the best of friends, there's obviously challenges hurdles. There's feedback, right? Like you take directive feedback. Well, I guess you're just above me.

No, no, no, I'm not talking about me. I'm talking about in general, like, no matter what, even though you've built this community, there's still within this community there's going to be arguments and discussions and people that disagree and it creates frustration and sometimes I get a feedback. And I'm okay with that because of course everyone's not going to be butterflies and rainbows skipping through the world holding hands, singing kumbaya. Like I know that. And I think that's sometimes what I want, but I know it's not going to happen.

in but I just I guess I feel the responsibility now as someone who has um you know I've brought these people together in the Facebook group or I've brought these people together who follow me that I think we should all be on the same page when that's totally not realistic so upsets me when people don't all get along yeah and I think again like anything um if you look at politics the same parties are on the same page. But again, if we could all think like Jason Tardick that would make the world a lovely place, you're very, um, no, no, no, no, you are. No, but you're not understanding. You're not, it has nothing to do with the way I'm thinking. What I'm saying is that you've built a community, right? And within communities that are built, people have issues with their leaders and

pushback within political parties. There's huge, huge nasty arguments and debates and within companies. So I think my point is there's never a state. of you know just like complacency where there isn't these like tough discussions and negative feedback right and I totally agree with that it's just that I somehow feel the responsibility of it when now I have you know it's Caitlin Bristow's Off the Vine Facebook group and 90% of it is this most empowering loving positive life changing things that I read and I cry and I'm just like this it's the it's the thing I am the most proud of so far is the people who listen to the podcast and reading these Instagram or

Facebook group messages everyone that's helped everyone and been vulnerable and opened up and no judgment but I think with however many 20 whatever thousand people in a Facebook group like you said it's politics people aren't all going to get along and the leader quote unquote you know i i get messages every other day well so and so said this in your facebook group and i think you need to monitor this and this um it was hurtful and um you know what your space has changed and it's not as positive as it once was i'm like what everything i see is the most impact i just cry daily on that facebook group because but if if it's we know 0.01% of negativity, I have to hear about it.

And I feel like it's my responsibility to do something about it when I, it's not. Gotcha. Do you know what I'm saying? No, I get that. Yeah. That example definitely makes it more understandable. Yeah. Anyways.

Anyways. I'm very passionate about the finals. Yeah. Well, that's a good 2020 goal, I think. Yeah. I agree. I need to get back to focusing on all the points. positive and not letting that 0.01% of negativity get to me.

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One thing we talked about at dinner that I did this year is before just jumping into like my goals or resolutions or things I want to do, I just wrote on a piece of paper. I said, what makes me happy and really try to identify? Because I think if you are really happy, if you're happy within and you're happy with yourself and you're looking yourself in the mirror and you're proud of that person and what's going on, it creates such good energy around you. and usually it allows other things to manifest. So this is what we talked about. I just wrote a list today of all the things that make me happy. And then trying to just make those things a priority. And then I said to Kate at dinner, I was like, so what makes you happy?

And it was a good conversation, like where you dig deep and you really think about it. Like, what is it that makes, that puts a smile on my face and what, you know, creates the happiness inside? and then you get through things that are materialistic and then you get through the things that like actually matter and I think constructing like your resolutions or your monthly goals or whatever it is around that gives more depth to what you're trying to do. So what makes you happy? So thing, I guess things that I said. So what makes me happy is friends, family.

I said Caitlin Pino and Ramen. That was my list. That was my first thing. And then I put, like I made a list of friends that are really important to me that I want to make sure like on a weekly basis like, hey, how are you doing? What's going on checking in? Things that make me happy are avoiding, I guess like trying to find ways to avoid confrontation or anxiety. That's one because anxiety and confrontation like. But you just said confrontation is bound to happen when you, you know.

I think confrontation is bound to happen, but it's how you cope and handle a confrontation. which can determine if it's, like, toxic or positive confrontation? But what if you had hormones that made you? I literally would love to control the emotions sometimes, and I actually can't. But, okay, go on. I can't go there. I'm trying to think about other things that make. Oh, I said.

You make it sound so easy where I'm like, God, it's hard. No, I'm not making things. If I had to summarize it in one sentence, I would just say, there's only certain things in this world that you can control, and there's so many things that you can't. And if you just worry about the things you can control. Again, that's so much easier said than done. No, I know. I know.

You were a very... No, I'm not saying I do it perfectly or that I do it at all. I'm just saying, I think if you try to do that more effectively, it'll be... I know what you're saying. Of course. No, you're so right. It's just you're a very logical person who does have an easier time the most thinking and actually acting that way. and your friends have told you that

yeah so I mean yeah again it's I don't know that there's a silver bullet or that I wouldn't say like silver bullet isn't that a Coors Light no so you mean silver lining silver bullet is like it's the silver bullet it's the answer

like I believe that's that's Coors Light so anyway yeah but I mean I think we're talking about like things that like make you happy I'm trying to think about other things I put down but that list has helped me kind of put together what like goals and resolutions would be yeah we'll be back with more off the vine with kately bristow you're listening to off the vine with kately bristow what does jason tardick need to work on in 2020

where's a list where's a list start i mean it's a ton uh consistency so i think i like i get very inconsistent yeah i think i get totally like into things and then i get side track. I think I spread myself too thin sometimes. So instead of, you know, instead of focusing on like what I actually want to achieve, I don't achieve it because I try to do too much of everything. One thing, one is a huge thing is like hit the break. Sometimes if you slow down, you'll actually get four steps further, right? Like I just go, just go, go, go, go. But you could be a hamster and a hamster wheel running 100 miles an hour, but you're actually not going anywhere. I find that self mind with me a huge like one of the biggest things for me is being in the moment there's so

many times my brain's running around thinking of something else and I have everything I could ever ask for just like right in front of me with no worries in the world and I create worries and it's just it's to not live in the moment especially when everything is going so well it's like such a shame on me that's I mean I could literally go out of things of what I'm trying to work work on. Well, no, I'm not, I'm not saying that to get you to admit your fault. I'm just saying, like, things that make you happy, things you need to work on. That's just a conversation. But you do have good balance, but I'm like, I think everybody in the world needs to work on being present or in the moment. I think that's just a problem of the world, not just yours. But if you could, if you could say, if you could wrap up 2019 in three words, what would they be? Let me think about it for a minute. If you have yours, I'll... No, I really don't. I'm just thinking because I remember 2018 as a just year of life lessons, hard times, just

kind of a pivotal point in my life where I just wanted to do what made me happy. And then 2000, I was like, 2019 is going to be the year of empowerment for me where I'm going to do what I want. And I'm going to put my focus into myself and then you came along. So my relationship, my career, like I, my intention was to be, um, just to, to have the right intentions with, with where I was putting all of my energy. And it was going to be the year of empowerment for me. And I really feel like it was. Um, and then I also feel like in the, for the world, it was, 2019 was a shit show.

It was just kind of like political, everyone of like being sensitive and opinions and everything that happened in 2019, it seemed like people were figuring it out, no, sorry, 2018, where 2019 was going to be a little more clarity, which I don't feel happened. And for some reason, I feel that way about 2020. I feel like it's just going to be a little bit more, there's going to be a little more clarity of like what people want, how they go about it. Do you know what I mean? No, I think it's good. I have a buddy of mine who said to me today, he said I highly recommend and creating a personal vision statement for the year. Oh, always.

So on restart the YouTube series, we have our first episode coming out, and we did one solely on New Year's resolutions. But he said that his personal vision statement last year, which I think correlates to what you're saying, is this is not the year for me for perfection, but rather the year of progress for me. That was his 2019 statement.

Oh, I have a question. Do you think a year will ever be about perfection? No, I think his point. was like this year I really am going to find myself I'm going to stumble on my face I'm going to get beat up in the process but I'm going to progress like I'm going to progress where like I don't think like that's not my vision this year but even last year that wasn't my vision but that was his vision he's in a different state no he's just building 24 different yeah so oh I respect that yeah I think I I'm not saying one word should describe how everybody feels about each year

I'm wondering what yours. Yes. Oh, you don't even have to say three. One. Yeah, if I think, well, one is the biggest one is change. Mm-hmm. Right. So, you know, we go from, you think about the change when I started, January 1st, 2019.

Single, starting to flirt a little bit, Caitlin, just off the show, living in a condo downtown Seattle, is a corporate banker and a 900 square foot urban lifestyle. Mm-hmm. Fast forward December 31st, 2019, in the suburbs, living with my girlfriend, two dogs, complete career change, you know, night and day. So I think change is definitely one of them. I think fulfilling is one. It was definitely a fulfilling year. I mean, just a lot of personal growth. Would you probably don't think of when you're like, you know, you think you're like, you know,

you think you're like thriving when you're in like downtown with a good job and doing all that you think that's supposed to be fulfilling but you realize I think I don't know it depends where you're at in life I'm not going to say it's before you're 30 or after you're 30 or wherever you're at in life it's interesting how perspective changes in your life with with what um success means to you yeah exactly and I think success and happiness changes every year every day every month for people yeah and I think what's so important is that you just have said this so many times but you have to write your own story you can't let it right have someone write it for you i was watching this on gary v motivational speaker and he's like there's so many people their whole life they live for what their parents deem is acceptable and they're if it's successful to their parents if it screams success in their eyes they consider it successful and then they're 60 years old and they're pissed and they resent their parents because they lived their life fulfilling someone else's expectations instead of their own and then they've lived their life and they look back and it wasn't what they expected it's either

that or you live your own life and your parents who's in you for not taking the path that they want but i yeah and i think there's obviously communications key but i just think you got to lead your own life and define what makes success like everyone's definition success should be different yeah and like how many times do we have conversation about following your own path and it seems like such an impossible thing to do for a lot of people when it seems so simple to some. Okay, this is a 30 second commercial.

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Oh, see, the recent stats. I read it was 80% of people by mid-February. Of course you have a different stat than me to come back with. No, I think that's what I was recently. So it's the same 50 to 96 months. Yeah. So I heard by mid-February, 80% of people have no longer have their resolutions in place. God.

And you know what? You can't blame them. I feel like I could be one of them. How many times have you been? I've been there a hundred times. I'm there right now. I said sober January and here we are January 1st of the glass of champagne in my heart. You sell wine.

You got to be drinking. No, no, I'm just kidding. So a good way to make sure your resolution stick is to break them down into monthly goals, which I believe in, which is what we're going to do. So good job. Kudos to us for even doing this podcast. Another tip that a lot of people forget to do is celebrate progress and don't let a setback ruin your entire goal, which I think a lot of people do. We all have said that we're going to eat healthier and just like after. one drunk night we give up entirely you know we give up but it's okay to have a set back

forgive yourself uh don't let it ruin your entire week month year etc or you're just backpedaling the whole time yep totally so i think people in 2020 should work on forgiveness for setbacks i like that i do too forgiveness and celebratory wins i like yeah one thing dr ball and i talk about is mecca mcc and we think that so when dr paul works with his clients he needs people to come in the door and come back with a difference, right? Like that's, he needs change. And in finance, it's the same way. Companies have to start January 1st and they have to make the change. So how do you do it? We talked about MECA, mecca. One, it's got to be measurable. So whatever you're doing, you have to have a way to measure it. Two, there's got to be an expiration. So there's got to be a

time stamp on when you're going to be measuring it and when it's over. So there has to be some type of expiration. The C is that it's got to be customizable. Every person's different. Every business is different. All goals are different. You can't compare yourself to others because that is an inaccurate benchmark. So you have to create a customizable plan for yourself. And the last one, what you've said plenty of times already is achievable. It's got to be something that you can attain personally and you can achieve because wins are what creates momentum. A momentum creates future success. So you're saying mecca is that's so funny because I have one called smart. Oh, okay. Which I love what you just say because I'm thinking, I'm like, oh, that's shorter and quicker and more to the point. Yes.

Yeah, great. I like it. Smart goals to me is S specific, which I mean, it's all pretty much same thing. We're both saying the same thing, but you actually can tell when you've achieved it. So specific. Yep. M, measurable, not just eat better, but eat one time out of the week, eat better. actionable.

You have steps to get there. realistic so don't be too crazy in your expectations and timely have a end date slash deadline in mind yeah it's pretty much said the same thing yeah that's just that's why I said I'm like you're just a little shorter more to the point smart just sounds great mecca I can't even remember but don't forget that if you realize that the goals you set aren't realistic you can adjust to them instead of giving up I think a big thing to remember in setting goals

and people have all the because people are like oh why would I set goals and I'm one of those people why would I set goals and I'm just going to have you know or why would I set what is it

what's called resolutions I just want to have small goals but I still you know screw up those goals and then I think that I'm a failure and you just you can adjust them

instead of giving up adjusting is such a good one And I think about, so I'm trying to do this sober January, but I'm one of the Bills game against Houston. Yeah. And I'm thinking to myself, how am I going to not drink during the second playoff game of the Bills since 99? How? Just do it. But then what I, but one thing I said to you, I was like, okay, if there's like these monumental things, maybe I will see.

Hopefully I won't. But if I do crack, I was like, remember I told you today, I'm like, if I do crack that one day, I'll adjust it so that I'll take one, the first day off in February. Is that cracking though? or is that just being a Bills fan? I think it's being a Bills fan, baby. If you go to the second Bills playoff game since 99 and don't get drunk and break a table, are you even a Bills fan?

Are you even a Bills fan? You know? But I think the point, though, if you adjust it, and suppose I do drink that day, and I take one day off in February, the net net of being like, okay, I'll adjust it, take the first day of February off, but still had 32 days.

Exactly. That's what I'm saying. One of 32 is still more successful than just being like, all right, it's the sixth. I'm done for the month. If working out three or four times isn't going well, go once or twice and celebrate the times that you went and feel like it's better than nothing and focus on that. Absolutely. Setting goals and resolutions with like a partner or a friend or a family member, I think is

really important. Maybe an entire face group of Vino's. There you go. I think it's a really great way to hold yourself accountable as well and do it with somebody else and set like a calendar or have an app um you know i've been using an victoria remember the app that um i would do the weights at home oh yeah yeah oh you're into that i know and you she has the uh customizable menu you're doing yeah it's not this is not even an ad but like i just well she's been on my podcast so i was like can i be a part of this because

she's built a really great community as well with body positivity too like she's all about like hey here's me when I just worked out but guess what I just drank a lot of water and ate a big meal and now here's my body after and it looks different but that's okay like she's very um raw and realistic about bodies as well as having a bang and bottle oh my gosh that could be your confession what's that remember What is it? Well, let me... I pulled up my Instagram with Anna Victoria and she was in a sports bra and a lot was showing.

Or she's at a bathing suit. And you thought it was me. Oh, yeah. That was a while ago. And you went, whoa, hot. And I was like, what? And you're like, you look hot. I'm like, that's not me.

But cool, cool, cool, cool, cool, cool. I do remember that. That was a lot. a long time ago. Yeah, but still, it's so funny. Wait, explain it. You had it from like a distance. I thought you were showing me. Like, what was the context?

No, no, no, no. I just pulled it up. And I went to show. I was like, wow. You were like, wow, hot. And you're like, it's not me. And I was like, that's not me. Oh. It was that in Victoria.

But you had the bathing suit or something. No, no, no, no. Stop making excuses. No, there was something more to it. It was like her, was it? No. I remember. I love that you're trying to convince yourself.

that it was something, and it's totally okay that you thought she was hot because she is. It's just so funny because you were like trying to compliment me, but it was like, I was like, God damn, thank you. Thank you for thinking that's me. Thank you for getting these two things confused. First, this, because this came first, then the demi mix up. I'm confusing you, Kate. God damn.

It's okay. That's what happens. What do you mean? You know, later in the relationship. I'm just kidding. I'm not negative. Just kidding. Okay, so let's talk about a 30-day challenge and general intentions.

Okay. For 2020. Well, let's do one for us because I think we talked about it at dinner. One thing we want to do is weekly set. We're having like the back and forth. Do we do this daily or do we do it weekly because our routines are so screwed up? I think we have a little bit realistic about it. it yeah and I think I think daily's good right like in the morning maybe set the goal I was going to say

weekly oh but I was going to say like tomorrow right like obviously you're traveling and so but the idea here I'll get to the point sorry I'm rambling is that we want to set times during the week or day that no matter what under zero circumstances we have our phones so our phones are off our phones are off in a way maybe they're on airplane mode but so we can just focus on you know the moment and each other in conversation and how each other's days were because so many times the phone just becomes like a barrier to everything. I mean, it happened in friendships. It happens with family.

It happens over the holidays and relationships. So I know that's one thing that for the next. I think we should create a 30 day challenge, like really focus on that for 30 days and try and continue it throughout the entirety. Okay. Well, that was one of my 30 day challenges. There's one here. See, the computer is not facing me, but I'm taking it.

leave your phone in another room when you're yeah it's i mean so give me to come up with one another 30 days yeah well wait we need to focus on that should that be january yeah well i honestly think that should be a lifetime okay let's set the intention for 2020 as a small goal to be more aware of how often we're on our phones especially in um like a night off together if we're watching a movie or if we're having dinner or whatever it like today dinner we had our phones off the whole time yeah we had a It's so great, like a really good conversation. Yeah. Yeah.

Yeah. But yeah, I do. I was like, we're not getting to the, but we have like our own language. Yeah, I'm not doing. I'm not doing that. I feel like every couple has around speaking on. No, of course. It's just so embarrassed.

All right. So, a new season of Siesta Key starts tonight, and I'm dying to see the events that unfold. The crew has come. a long way since season one, and by that I mean they went in the same circle many, many times. Alex and Juliet would date for a while until Alex got bored, then break up until they both got lonely. Brandon fell for Madison, cheated on her, then tried to sing her back into his life, and I suppose that just wasn't enough for her because she moved to L.A. and met an older, hopefully more mature man. We want the best for her. We really do. Kelsey and Garrett have a similar

story that can be summed up as Kelsey only wants Garrett when she doesn't have Garrett. Chloe had to suffer rejection, then a punch to the nose, and I'll be honest, I don't know which is worse. So let me tell you one thing that's true to Siesta Key is that the people are hot, but the drama is hotter. And I'm so ready to dive into a new season. So don't miss it tonight at 8, 7 Central on MTV. Okay, so that, okay, let's do one big intention for the year that's manageable, which is being aware of your phone time.

30-day challenges, I would like to challenge me. people to keep a conscious journal for five minutes a day. That's it. Journaling is really good. Five minutes a day. Don't scroll for five minutes. Go write something in your journal about what you're grateful for. What is happening in your life right now?

What conversation you had with your parents? What, like something? So think about it, what is your memory from 10 years ago? No idea. My dad asked me, what did you do for New Year's Eve going? Was it a big deal when we turned to, he goes, I feel like this decade, people are making a bigger deal. It's a new decade.

He goes, but in 2009 to 10, I don't recall people really making it a big deal. And he was, I was like, well, Dad, where were you? And he knew where it was. Really? And I thought about it for my New Year's Eve. I don't remember. I was like, oh, I'd have to go through photos. So to your point, 10 years ago, no.

See, where if you just took five minutes, imagine. Oh, I love to see. I love to read it. I love to read it. So five minutes. And even if it's once a week or twice a month, something simple, five minutes, write down your favorite things about the week or the month. And it's such a good way to connect with yourself in a world of just absolute constant mayhem. I think people are so visual, too, where you want to look back and see either your progress or where you had a downfall or where you came back through, like came out of something awful.

Like, it's empowering to read back those kinds of things. If I look back in my 20s when I made the biggest changes that I made, it was a result of me saying to myself, this, where I am right now, this just isn't what I envisioned. Everything's wrong. This wasn't what I thought it would be. And I was able to like kind of connect with myself and create a change because that's when you know. But to your point, I think it's way easier to connect with yourself and where you want to be. If you're doing that daily, unreal. Which is so interesting.

that we find it so hard. Yeah. And I think the other thing, it's just taking time. It's like, it's kind of like meditation. Like you take five minutes out of the day to meditate.

Well, that was another one of my third day. Who wires your whole brain? Right. But who takes five minutes out of the day? It's like we consciously choose things that are going to hurt us more than help us every day of our lives. We choose to not take those five minutes to meditate. We choose to not take those five minutes to write down our feelings.

We choose to scroll and get in a pity party. We choose to eat that one thing that's going to make us feel like, crep we choose to do all these things when it's why is it so hard to choose those things that make us happy because it's constant band-aids we're constantly putting band-aids instead of like dealing with what's going on like my whole life one of my biggest regrets is that i'm constantly worrying or you know i've done a lot better with that but i was living my life for other people's expectations like was i satisfying you know and i think that if you're living for yourself and your expectations and what you need to do which no one does and connect

with yourself and stop putting the band-aids on and really addressing the issue, I think it just goes so much further. How did you do that? I think it's something you just work on daily, but I think it's connecting with yourself. It's something I'm still working on, right? But I think it's perspective. It's working on yourself. And then I think you realize that you're never going to be able to, you're constantly

trying to keep up with other people or try and do appeal to other people. and you realize you're not appealing to yourself. That was one of the biggest things I remember. I was never, I've said this before on like I'd do a Q&A. It's like I hit a point like where I was in a dark place and it was that I was never, I wasn't happy with myself. There was nothing. I was doing everything I could to make other people happy or I was finding like little

band-aids, right? So it was, for me, it was going out with friends. Maybe it's gambling. Maybe it's drinking, whatever it was that was like a void. to what the real issue was and I was finding happiness with myself. But you still enjoy those things. Is it just that you do it more as a Band-Aid? I think so.

I think everyone will, like, I mean, doesn't everyone have, like, where you're, like, you're trying to get these, like, small hits of adrenaline to feel good, but there's, like, a deeper, darker problem that you need to address. Why do drugs? Yeah. I'm just kidding. Just kidding. Just kidding.

Thank you for sharing that. We'll be back with more off the vine. Caitlin Bristow. All right, everyone, if you love my show, then you've got to check out Make Spidey Famous again, especially because they're celebrating their 100th episode. Join reality TV royalty, Spencer, and Heidi Pratt, as they dig into the world of pop culture,

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30-day challenges. What do we say? Yeah, the phone. Oh, the journal. Oh, I have another one. Now, this is something I want to do because reading makes me so happy, but read or listen to a book for 30 minutes a day. It is crazy how your brain can absorb or just go into a different space when you're

reading. Like I feel like I'm more well spoken or I can have better conversation or I have something more valuable to talk about when I read. Yeah, I think reading is so important. It really is. 30 minutes a day, that's it. There's some crazy stat out there. This is definitely not the right one, but like most, almost like on average one consistency with CEOs is that they, like, regardless of the industry, they read like 12 books a year. So there's definitely some type of correlation between like stimulating your brain and different.

So there's one is reading. The other one I find is when I was in New York a few weeks ago, and I went to go see Dear Evan Hansen. And just being at a play was doing these crazy things to my brain, the stimulation, the energy, the excitement. Like I was like, I need to go to a play or a show or a concert like once or, I don't know, I totally agree with you. And I think we are similar in that way where some people that doesn't stimulate their brain.

And so I think it's finding what stimulates your brain and focusing on that. So maybe it's not reading. Maybe it's going to a play. Or maybe it's reading or listening to the news or being, you know, knowledgeable about certain things. But yeah, I totally agree with you. Now, this one's challenging to me. 30-day challenge. Give somebody a hug every day.

Wow. I'm not a big hugger. See, I'm a big hugger. Yeah, you are. Remember of people who are? I'm like, sorry, I'm a huger. Can me hug? And sometimes I say I'm a hugger.

I think so a little bit. If I love you. I love hugs if I love you. If I just, to me it's like such, I don't know, it's such an intimate thing like getting that close and holding somebody and to me. So maybe it's not even, maybe there's something deeper. It's not a hugging. It's like giving someone affection.

Like even if that's like shaking a hand very, like a double hand, shake hand. No, no, I love that. Maybe I wrote this. because I wanted to challenge myself. Oh, do it. Kate's just going to be hugging strangers in Nashville. Everyone's probably listening to this being like, it's just a fucking hug, Caitlin. And I'm like, okay, challenge yourself every day.

And I just hug, I'm on it. I love it. Okay. Write down something you appreciate or take a picture of something you appreciate every day. Make like an album in your phone. 30 days of things I appreciate it can be your dog it can be um if you just got your landscaping done and there's beautiful flowers it can be simple things that 30 days you just look back on it and you have 30 things of scrolling that things that make you happier that you appreciate it like a bad

day or a bad meeting you could just go right to that album and then you can think wow I just wanted to have some gratitude or look back on something that makes me happy and look at this is something so simple and that makes me happy and then it might put things into perspective i love that idea especially because like from a psychological standpoint let's think about like our parents in their offices of course what did they have pictures of of your kids like it's like there is something and so powerful about pictures that create happiness with it i like that the 30 day album okay into it boom uh here's another one no oh my gosh i love you you always you're like cleo boom there goes a dynamite and boom goes a dynamite.

Oh, boom goes. It's like your delivery and your words are always jumbled, but that makes it cute because it's you. That's like Cleo. Cleo cannot for the life of her do catchphrases or like sayings. So she'll be like, you know, Caitlin, I just, you know, we got to do this with the wine and scrogy to do this and just get back on the horn. I'm like, that's not a thing.

I see what you're saying. Like, she doesn't understand the context of one to use the scene. You were like, and then boom, there goes the dynamite. And boom goes the dynamite. And boom goes a dynamite. Yeah. And boom goes a dynamite. Okay.

Onward we go. Next 30-day challenge. Figure out my seat. Okay. A 30-day purge. Do a social media purge. Unfollow or mute. People that no longer serve you when you see them on your feed.

now this is going to be different for a lot of people because some people follow accounts that they aspire like oh I'm going to follow these Victoria Secret models or this and I'm going to work and it's things that don't serve them purpose you know what I mean where there's so many accounts out there that could inspire you rather than make you feel like shit so I think the social media purge can be like find every day find a new inspiring account that's like body positivity or mental health or something that you can find every single day of quotes or, you know, and then unfollow, wow, unfollow accounts that don't serve purpose anymore. I love that. I also, you put a timer on it. I thought it was such a good idea. So you know how long when you're on social media. So I think that's such a good idea that you should give yourself a certain person. It's a period of time to be on social media, but don't overindulge.

And you could do that with the timer with the new app. Yeah, but here's my problem. It's like 8 a.m. and I've spent 30 minutes already, and I'm like, well, there's my daily limit and it's 8 a.m. Now what do I do? Cool, cool, cool. Or it's like after midnight.

I've already hit my limit for the next day. Oh, that's one for me if I could interrupt sleeping. Mm. Ever since I got the eye watch, I'm like, holy shit, what a mess. I'm sleeping freaking four hours a night. Yeah. So one thing I really want to focus on, and I'm sure I can't be the only one, is getting like at least six hours of quality sleep.

Okay, and then here's one to do with sleep. And by the way, I hope everybody's writing these down or putting them in your phone or just little reminders. It doesn't have to be a certain month we do this. It's just 30-day challenges. Try and pick a new one every month. And this one, don't hit the snooze button. We are all victims to the snooze button.

Oh, all the time. Don't hit it because guess what? Every time you hit that, every time you hit that snooze button, you actually go into a deeper sleep. Yeah, the NASA map. Mm-hmm. Okay. Okay. All right, with the new year officially here and everyone vowing to restrictive resolutions, Pepsi wants to usher in the new decade a bit differently by encouraging everyone to unapologetically do what they enjoy.

Amen, I'm down for that, even in the face of others' judgment. But really, I have said that lately. I'm not a huge fan of resolutions. I mean, sure-set goals, cross-items off those bucket lists. But for the most part, you just got to do you, Vino's. You know, some people say you shouldn't wear pajamas for the entire day and then sleep in them for the second time in a row? I'm here to tell you that they're missing out those people. Some people frown upon ordering postmates three times in one day, but I'm also here to tell you to try it for yourself.

That's what I like. What's another? I really like the one about making your bed. They say that's one in like the military You have to make your bed Because no matter how bad your day is No matter what goes wrong When you come back

It's a fresh bed And it reminds you Tomorrow's a new day I agree with that That was something that was first on my list Last year with Things to do It was 30 day challenges Because

And we were very good at it We make the bed every day Yeah we are really good at it It's something that it just As soon as you do it You just feel like You're ready for the day You're motivated

You made your bed You might as well go conquer the day why not seize the day did you see Matt cutshall's cutshall

damn it I don't know how to pronounce the last name Ariel Vandenberg's fiance Matt cutshall cut shell cutshall

did you see it when he tried to do motivational speaking on his Instagram story no but that had to be funny he was like

everybody seize the day I'm gonna go out and seize the day so I hope everybody does everything they need to do and seize the day.

That was so funny. I love it. Okay, 30 day challenge, limit social media to half of your normal screen time. So like we said, that was one of my things. So put a timer on the social media. Yep. Get up once every hour of sitting to stretch for three minutes. Ooh, that's a good one.

I can't tell you, I used to be freaking gummy. You don't know who gumby is. I guess I know what gumby is. Oh, okay. I was so flexible my whole life from dancing. And now I can't even touch my goddamn toes. And so you think that has to do a standing up? I think it has to do stretching your body.

Yeah. Stretch. Stretches. Yoga. Stretch. My grandmother stretches every morning and before bed every single night. And how does she look and feel? It's unbelievable.

See? Yeah. That's why, again, the eye watch. It tells you when to stand. This thing's amazing. It also tells you when to meditate. Like when your heart rate's going too fast. That's amazing.

It'll do the breathing part. That's really amazing. That's great. That's why I need it. Except then it'd be like, Caitlin, settle the fucking down. You're going to have a heart attack in two years. Let's see.

I just want to see if, ah, damn it. What? I was checking to see if Matt's Instagram was still up about the C's the day. It was so good. Okay. And, well, this one, here's a 30-day challenge. Sleep eight hours per night.

It's aggressive. It's not for me. sleep eight hours once a freaking week, I can be happy. I can easily sleep eight hours. Yeah, it's, you're sleeping, your sleeping game is, I've never seen anything like it. Yeah. It's unbelievable. Briefly reach out to someone you haven't spoken with in a while.

Love that. You do, hey? Love that. This one I questioned because I think there must be a reason you haven't spoken to them in a while. It could just be time and distance. Well, then is that person really meaningful to you? I don't know. I think you'll feel like.

Like if connecting with people is just so important. Okay. Like someone that was like, that's what I do really like. I've never done this before, but the, I don't know if people like that or not. But I wrote all the friends that like really those relationships mean so much to me. And there's some on that list. I'm like, shit, I really got to do a better job. But I really want to make that a focus.

Is those people like once a week, once every other week. Because life just gets away from you. I agree. I agree. Somewhat with that. here a general goal try and volunteer once a month maybe even once every other month just volunteer in general you'll be surprised maybe you won't for people who do do volunteer

you'll know how much it actually selfishly makes you feel better but no I agree there's just no substitute for for giving back there's no matter how big it is how large it is whether if you don't have the money but you're volunteering your time there's just no substitute because also man does it put things in perspective right oh my gosh you think about the things we can plan about it on a daily basis but how for like fortunate you know we have to have a roof over our head and meals to eat and everything else yeah and my last one I'm wait how many have we done I don't even know okay I'll

give two more okay two more I did this today and it felt like I lost 10 pounds Okay Clean one room once a month Get rid of excess stuff Purge Get rid of I cleaned the kitchen today What does that have to do? I threw out

I threw out six bags of flour Six Damn it I threw out six God damn bags of flour I was like you don't need to lose a damn pound You lose 10 now I see what you're saying Yeah you know what I mean

Bricks out of the backpack Sure You know what I call it the apple the Apple effect, you know, when you walk into an Apple store and it's just crisp and clean and there's no clutter and it's nice and fresh, I always think about I'm going to appleify my office. I'm going to appleify my room. Just try to make it nice and crisp. Oh, you should try that. Yeah. Oh, please. Are you kidding me? I just wanted to see your reaction because I like clutter. I like it clean clutter. I like trinkets and clutter but like in a clean way. Yeah. Yeah. Last one. I'm hoping we did 12. Do think we did? I think so. Okay. You got another one? Fire it off. Well, I really like just the idea of doing one self-care activity for yourself a week. Yeah. A face mask. A week. A bubble bath. And I know those are stupid superficial self-care things, but like write in your journal, take a bubble bath. Do so... A bubble bath. You fucking love bubble bath. When you say bubble baths for some reason, it's like super cute.

Bab, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, we're like, I don't know. Self care can go so much deeper than that. Like, go hike, you know. Go hike. I'm trying to, I just feel like I don't want to be so surface level of like, do a face mask for self care. Follow someone that inspires you. Oh, you know what I mean. Okay.

I think that's it. That's a lot. I think, yeah, I think we've got a good amount of things on here that people can think about we had you know some ups and downs to this podcast a little banter a little uh back and forth which is great that's that's what makes the world go around yeah we've got both dogs in here just so sleepy because they had such a good play today they're so cute a little cuddle last night was so adorable they're so cuddly pee no breath is so bad though i don't care i don't care i do breathe it in i love it do you see how he was laying this morning do you remember that i i said babe

It was like, what, I don't know, 6 a.m. And I was like, babe, you got to look at this. He was laying on my head. His head was resting on my forehead and his body was like that. And then Rahman was in between us. And I was like, this is heaven. You know, it's like the cut, like in the middle of the night, he'll straight up hug me. Like put both of his bare claws around and just hug me.

He is just loves. I always thought, Ron, we talked about this. Like, ramen has always love love, but Pinot is like next level. with it's amazing well i'm really exciting is last time i talked about the dog medium for ramen and people were so curious about what the dog medium sally had to say we didn't have that call yet well that's what i'm getting at so so i know that people were so curious and i was like wow she said this this and then raman changed and not changed but like felt more peace here we have the call with sally for pina wait when is that january ninth oh amazing

Yeah, so we'll be able to, you know, we'll record some of it. We'll talk about it on the podcast. And then we'll be able to do a follow up and see the progress. Yes. Yoles. Okay, well, thank you for talking through some goals and challenges and things that we believe in and don't believe in. My pleasure. In one sentence, what's going to be your personal vision statement this year after all of that for 2020?

I think just something simple. of there's so much to be thankful for, focus on that. There's so much in my life that I'm like, well, you know what? It's hard to say that because I did a story this morning where I'm like, God, I literally have everything I could have dreamed of. So I feel absolutely stupid and ridiculous when I say I suffer from depression a few times a month because what do I have to be depressed about? Nothing.

And to me, it's, I'm very in tune with my body. I keep track of my period. I'm very aware of every time I'm PMSing. And it is. It's every without fail, babe. Do I wake up and say, my boobs hurt? And then you go, all right, buckle up, Jason. Every time my boobs hurt or start to get sensitive, I am depressed the next day for three days.

I'll come in and out of it. I'm not just like in bed all day. But this is a real thing that women suffer from. And men, of course, we all do. But hormones. you uh they really do so anyways what was my point of this your personal vision oh my personal um just summarizing everything you know i just want to have something a little more um philosophical than that what's yours i think i oh god you're just getting so good it's no it's not

no it's not i'm literally just this come off top of my head i want last year was a huge year of change and I think change is going to continue to be a huge constant but I want 2020 to be a year where I remember the rest of my life like a foundational year for what's next like a lot of the stuff we do is that we focus on it's cool and it's fun and it's short term but I want to like set the state like I think every year there's a foundational year and there's years in your 20s that was there were years in my 20s like you want to look back on 2020 and think that was a pivotal time pivotal time for the rest of my life, especially this decade. So, like, if it's 20, 26, I'm like, but 2020, that, like, I built the foundation.

I put the concrete in that new house, whatever, not an actual new house, but built just a strong foundation for this next chapter. See, and I felt that last year, I went into 2019, the most empowered I've ever felt. I felt so strong. I felt so proud. I felt so motivated. I knew what I wanted to accomplish I went after it

Now 2020 I don't mean to brag But I did that And I accomplish it And so I'm like Ooh okay I really believe in the power of myself And what I can achieve So what do I even think next

I'm almost scared to say what I want in 2020 Because what if it comes true That's such a good chapter though That's amazing Yeah so I think my In vision For 2020 Would be

You know what I think it's, my, I think my vision statement would be to really focus on what I've achieved and, and build that. No, I like it. You told me this earlier. Yeah. That's great. I remember you saying like, you want to be really focused on your podcast, make every single

episode the best you can and find the best guests out there. And your wine, make sure that you have the best manufacturer, it's the best quality, the shipping, like, so I remember you saying that you want to be focused on less and just fall in on what you got. And singing, 2020 is going to be, I think people are probably so sick and be saying this because I said it last year. I'm like, 2019, I'm going to sing. Release the songs. Don't make me sing. Release the songs.

But 2020, I'm, I feel like I'm going to, you know, say no to a little of the, a little bit of the noise that I could easily say yes to for money. I want to focus on the things that I'm really passionate about. Let's go. Let's get a call. Oh, baby. Oh, gosh. Well, we hope everybody took away something from this podcast. There is a lot.

So call your therapist. We got into it. There's a lot to unpack in this episode. So, uh, 2020. I believe in all of you. Actually, can I just end it with one thing? Sure.

One thing, there is a vino out there who has been through a very hard time. I try and be like, oh, what am I going to complain about this? Like, she went through a fire. Her house burned down with her boyfriend. Luckily, those two were okay, but they lost a member of their family. Their dog absolutely destroys me to even say that out loud. They lost a lot of things. And all I heard was that all the vinos have gone above and beyond to help her.

I don't know if she wants her name out there, so I'm not going to say it. Like, they really went above and beyond to help her rebuild things, get things off Amazon. She had a wish list. I just want to say that the community, I say this all the time, but the power of the vinos, everything. I just, all this stuff does not go on notice and just when I think they can't do more, they do. And so thank you to everyone who's just such a kind soul that's done something. I tried to add the few things in her list on the cart. What on the cart?

In the cart? And send them to her. And I just wanted to say if anybody out there who owns a clothing company is listening, please, please, please reach out to me or my media email because I think a big part, you know, she lost all of her scrunchies. I think we're working on that. She lost everything. So just small little things that we've sent like,

pots and pans, little things. But I think she lost a lot of clothes and shoes. And if any clothing companies out there want to help, please reach out to me. I'll get you her sizes and would love to send her some things to fill her closet because that's, I just can't imagine. All right. Well, this has been a wonderful hour. Yes. Thank you so much for having me.

I hope everyone has such an amazing 2020 and a great start of the year. So, cheers to that. absolutely with my protein shake that I'm going yeah okay let's go to bed good night I'm Caitlin Bristol I'll see you next Tuesday thanks for listening to Off the Vine with Caitlin Brisco get new episodes every Tuesday

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