Pablo Torre Finds Out - The Missing Ambassador of the World Cup

Episode Date: June 26, 2026

He covered soccer before it was cool, promised to go WikiLeaks on FIFA, then got detained and mysteriously collapsed in Qatar. If there was ever someone we needed to hear from, as a global conduit during this corrupt World Cup on American soil, it's Grant Wahl. So his former co-host, Chris Wittyngham — along with his family and one of the many stars he inspired — helps Pablo listen back to Wahl's lost tapes, re-live his fearless run for office and the rainbow target on his chest... then put the conspiracies to rest.• Previously on PTFO: America Signed Up for the World Cup. FIFA Stuck You with the Tab.• Listen to Le Batard & Friends re-live Grant Wahl's LeBron cover story• Subscribe to The Athletic Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Welcome to Pablo Torre finds out. I am Pablo Torre, and today we're going to find out what this sound is. If the world soccer fans can't stand set bladder, then why is he running again? So I decided if three FIFA presidents have been sports journalists, then I can run for FIFA president too. Right after this ad. Yo-ho. Hey, bring it in. What's up?

The famous PTF sweater. Yeah, man. How are you doing? Yeah, great. I was going to say your schedule is for sure. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. All over the place right now. Yeah.

Wait, so what's your schedule from here? So at CBS, we're just doing stuff all day. Right. I went to, as a fan, I bought a ticket and got, I went to Scotland, Haiti, which is awesome. Yeah, watching from home, that looked like. Amazing. I was standing online for a beer, and there was all these people who just, like, randomly started hugging for no reason. Because Haiti had made it since 1974, and there are all the other things they're in.

And Scotland had had made it since 98. And they're just there for a giant party. And they're like, oh, my God, we're here. We're doing it. the things, Chris Whittingham, thank you for being here, by the way. Yeah, no problem. One of the things about the World Cup that always hits me once it gets going is like, as much as I think the thing we were just caring about, the NBA finals or any other sporting event is the thing.

The World Cup is, it's one of a kind. Yeah, you feel it in this city as well, even on the subway over. They have like the wrapped ones and you see the jerseys. And it is such an incredible cultural exchange on top of it being. the world's biggest sporting event by a mile. I was blown away that the combined TV rating number in English and Spanish was bigger than the first four NBA finals game for the US game on Friday night.

I was astounded by that because it just goes to show, number one, people love throwing themselves in the flag, but it is this thing that is now being reintroduced to America for the first time in 32 years, that it just transcends in a way that very few other things do. Actually, I would legitimately say, nothing does. It wasn't always that way, but it is now. I was doing my own historical review of of the 94 World Cup. In the 80s, there is a House debate on Capitol Hill about whether the U.S.

should support bidding for the 94 World Cup. And Jack Kemp, former Republican from New York, NFL quarterback, said, quote, football, as in the NFL, football is Democratic capitalism, whereas soccer is a European socialist sport. And then USA Today, that same year, a writer says that the case being made by soccer's fanboys is, quote, what the Russians told us about communism. It is this secret sciop that is here to plant in the minds of Americans to be anti-American. It's hilarious. But it was accused of being this whole like foreign operations.

And the person I think about in terms of the Americans who've been trying to explain, like, hey, this is a real story. The math on this is not fake. This is actually the most popular thing on the planet is the guy that both of us used to work with. Yeah. I think about all of the time, but especially during this time of year, during this World Cup, Grant Wall. And for people who don't know of Grant, who didn't know his work as a journalist, how would you summarize him? I would say he was America's preeminent soccer journalist, and that has multiple tentacles, because he was this sort of conduit from the world to the United States.

There are a lot of people that came to Grant to tell the story of the sport in the country. But at the same time, while being a sort of very big force in that way, you also, by virtue of being a soccer writer, have to be an evangelist for the sport, and presumably continually ask the editors at Sports. illustrated and the American public to please care about this thing that the entire world cares about. We are one of the very few countries for whom football is not the number one sport in the country. You're talking about, obviously, you know, Australia, you're talking about India with cricket, but in terms of big nations, all of South America, the lion's share of Europe, most of the world. It feels insane to have to summarize how much the world cares about soccer.

So that Americans... Especially when he sort of was starting in the mid to late 90s as sort of this person who was saying, okay, I am a college basketball writer from Kansas. Right. I'm going to eschew that to become this evangelist for this sport that is massive around the world. But day by day, step by step,

is getting bigger in the United States, but still kind of needs explanation even to this day. Right. And I should say that when I was a fact checker at Sports Illustrated and Grant Wall was a senior writer, the legend of him, first of all, he was the number one college basketball writer in America at Sports Illustrated. And then he was also the LeBron cover guy.

Yeah. Somebody who took pride in knowing what the next big thing was going to be. When you think of that LeBron Sports Illustrated cover when he's in high school and it's, you know, it's the thing that stamps, hey, you should pay attention to this. That's Grant as well. Yeah. And so one person I talked to, of course I had to, is Celine Gounder, Dr. Celine Gounder, a noted epidemiologist and also somebody who was in this context, very important to understand because she married Grant Wall. He had to fight. He really did have to fight to get soccer in the pages of

the magazine. I'm trying to remember, was it the French World Cup in 98? I want to say that it was not on the cover, that it was Mike Ditka with a cigar that ended up making the cover that week. And he was just like, I would say he'd be tearing his hair out over it, except he didn't have any hair. But, like, he was just

could not understand how we did not see the importance of that win. How incredible that... And for people who don't remember, so 98, the World Cup was in Paris. It was won by France, Zinidine Zadon. You know, this is

the header. Not the header. Not the headbutt, a different iconic moment involving his skull. He's also bald skull. But this is what SI put on the cover instead. That's amazing. There it is.

New Orleans coach, Mike Ditka, wants all of us to forsake vice and become real saints. Holy smoke. And then on the top left corner, a very small print, Sucker Blue, France stuns Brazil. As Mike Dick is holding a cigar. It's July, and we put the NFL on the cover in 98. Yeah, of course.

It is still stunning. I don't think people quite understand the clawing for relevance that really isn't that long ago. That was 28 years ago. I remember when I was working in local radio. Miami is always the biggest market for the World Cup. Always, because of the multiculturalism. And the text machine that we used to have that would get texts from the audience.

It was always, stop this. Stop talking about this. Tell me about Dolphins' minicamp, please. And this was not that long ago. And so you can imagine just like the timeline at Sports Illustrated, as again, this stand-in for mainstream sports media, we go now to 99. And Grant Wall, and you can imagine the triumph here.

In 1999, the US Women's National Team, of course, wins the World Cup, and Grant finally gets his cover of Sports Illustrated. And this is, of course, unforgettable. Can you describe the image that ends up gracing people's mailboxes? Yeah, so, of course, the United States are earning the World Cup final of 1999. I believe it was against China. To this day is right up there in terms of top attendances ever for a U.S. soccer match, over 90,000 at the Rose Bowl.

They go to a penalty shootout, and Brandy Chastain has it on her foot to, win the World Cup for the United States, and she scores it and rips off her top to reveal a sports bra. And at the time, it was an incredibly risque thing to do. It becomes the sort of enduring image of a number of things. United States soccer period, women's soccer period, this sort of proud feminism. It becomes an extraordinary image that is seen on TV and sort of has to be captured in some way in terms of a legacy. And Grant plays a big role in doing that. Oh, yeah, we talked to Brianna Scurry, who was the goalkeeper.

And the notion of self-assertion as seen in that photograph and as seen in the coverage by Grant, it still sticks out to her. The only place you found soccer was literally at Grant wrote about it. He was covering soccer way before it was cool. He wasn't like, ooh, women's soccer, ooh, 99, now they're famous, now let me show up and let me talk to these girls, and he was there from the beginning when nobody really cared when, when, you know, soccer was number five out of five on other popular sports in the United States. I mean, let's just be very blunt about this. Having someone like Grant saying, this is important, I mean, this meant so much to these players. He means a lot to me and to our team and the rise

of women's soccer in this country. He's right there with the rest of us. who actually were on the pitch as a representation of the rise off the pit as well. And yet at the same time, what I loved, what I marvel at still in retrospect today, is that Grant was also an investigator. Yes. He was somebody who was because of his love for something,

trying to take it seriously, which means reporting on it. You have to, again, tell people that this is great, that the world loves this and that you should care about this thing while also spotlighting its flaws. These are sort of generally seen as two things that would be at odds. But what Grant did after being fired by Sports Illustrated during COVID in 2020,

unceremoniously, I might add, was start an independent podcast and newsletter, which I personally found inspiring. Not least because what it did was blend on-site coverage at the World Cup, for instance, with actual reporting about the host country. as with his scrutiny of the human rights scandals, plural, in Qatar in 2022, which happens to bring me now to the origin story of grand friendship with our guest today, CBS sports host and soccer commentator Chris Whittingham.

I listened to his podcast every week, and so I reached out to him and I was like, hey, you know, I'm available, it's COVID, and I have all the time in the world to edit podcast, you need help with that. He's like, no, I'm going to try it on my own. And like three days later, it's like, I need your help with this. And so it began as sort of a non-speaking role. It was just sort of editing the thing. And then he was like,

why don't you just come on? Because we do this before the show. Why don't you just come on and do it on the show? Hey there. Welcome to Football with Grant Wall. Thanks so much for joining me. I am in Qatar doing daily coverage of World Cup 22. Let's bring in Chris Whittingham.

How are you, my friend? I am recharging after the World Cup round of 16. And I'm trying to get some rest and get fired up for these quarterfififinal. because there are some tasty matchups on offer here. I am very excited. And I took some time off myself. We had two days here without games after 17 straight days of games. And my body, I think, told me,

dude, you are not sleeping enough. And it rebelled on me. And so I've had a case of bronchitis this week. I've been to the medical clinic at the media center twice now, including today. I'm feeling better today. And the day after, Chris and Grant taped that podcast together that you just heard, Grant went to go cover a World Cup quarterfinal in Qatar, Netherlands, Argentina. I had sent him several texts saying, when are we recording?

What time? I'm hanging out here in my apartment. Whenever you're ready, I'm good to go. And it sort of went unanswered for 90 minutes to two hours. And then I actually got a text off someone who works here at Metal Arc Media. and they said, hey, have you heard anything about Grant? And I said, no, no, I haven't heard anything. He goes, well, I've heard some things that aren't great.

I was like, well, what do you mean? And it describes sort of an idea of a medical event. Grant Wall had collapsed, it turned out, in the press box, near the end of that match. And immediately, as fast as they could, got rushed to the hospital, planting all sorts of seeds of doubt and questions and theories. Because Grant, as you heard earlier, had just been talking about bronchitis and feeling exhausted. And so, this was 2022. What if he had COVID?

What if that was it? His wife, Celine Gounder, is an epidemiologist, an expert in the pandemic. What if all of this had to do with a COVID vaccine? Multiple people I talked to were wondering at the time if Grant had been poisoned even by some autocrats, some official who wanted to silence his reporting. They were wondering aloud if foul play had been involved. We do begin with that breaking news tonight. A mysterious death overseas. American soccer journalist Grant Wall has died while covering the World Cup in Qatar.

FIFA released a statement with reaction from President Gianni Infantino. He said, it is with disbelief and immense sadness that I've been made aware of the passing of renowned sports journalist Grant Wall whilst reporting on a quarterfinal match. Only some days ago, Grant was recognized by FIFA and AIPS for his contribution to reporting on eight consecutive World Cups. The White House press secretary calling Wall an inspiration to many. Tennis legend Billy Jean King, U.S. men's soccer player Tyler Adams, and actor Brendan Hunt, also among the latest paying respects. Very fond of Grant, you know, me being a teenager and him covering that, it was a pretty cool thing.

I've always kind of watched from a distance, you know, even when I, you know, moved up in the ranks. You know, he kind of went to a different sport and things of that nature over the years. Anytime his name will come up, I'll always think back to me as a teenager and having Grant, you know, in our building down that same V. so it's a tragic loss is unfortunate, you know, to lose someone as great as he was. I was in shock. I remember just being paralyzed for probably about 12 hours. And then you sort of spring into trying to help Celine. I talked to Selena with any information I might have, his brother Eric as well.

But yeah, I just remember being shell-shocked. And also, and this was the thing that I've sort of held on to for a long time is just wanting to talk about that game with him. Yeah, the instinct of if there is one person that I wish we could hear from. Yes. During this World Cup in the United States, it's Grant. There's so many things that have happened since where me and several of his other mutual friends have gone. I wanted to hear what Grant had to say about this.

And obviously, this World Cup is the biggest one by a mile. The end of June and July can be a really rough period for sports fans with football still a few months away, and basketball and hockey ended. But this year, we're pretty lucky, because not only is there a World Cup, there is a World Cup in our backyard. And so make sure to check out the Athletic Podcast Network

to stay up to date on all things related to the World Cup. You can wake up with the Totally Football Show from L.A., then dive deep into the biggest talking point of the day with the Athletic FC podcast, And you can watch the TIFO podcast fool around on their daily live streams in the afternoon. All shows are free to watch or listen on your favorite podcast platform. When I say that Grant Wall was the guy who I consider the number one authority on soccer, I don't just mean that journalistically.

I also mean that he tried to become the number one authority in the world of soccer via election, which is crazy. but a real thing that happened. He wanted to be the authority of soccer as president of FIFA, which is like an amazing... We love, we love doing stupid things seriously. On Pablo Torre finds out. Yeah.

People were that disillusion with FIFA at the time. There was the awarding of the World Cup hosting rights, which really caught the United States off guard when it went to Qatar and to Russia as well in 2018. And there were all these things that people thought, man, why isn't there anyone running this organization who seems to like it, who actually wants it to get better to improve that thinks of fans, rather than the sort of internal politics of this place in Switzerland

that had very little connection to the world, it seemed? Right. And so Set Blatter, who is the incumbent FIFA president, and FIFA president, again, the all-powerful title, the emperor of world football, Seb Blatter kept on running unopposed. and amid all of these issues with corruption and the cash for votes scandal in 2010, February 17th, 2011, something that I look back on and I can't help but laugh. Set bladder has been president of FIFA for 13 years.

Even bladder admits that FIFA's reputation has been tarnished under his watch. On June 1st, he's running for re-election. But now there's a cure for FIFA's bladder infection. Hi, I'm Grant Wall and running for FIFA President. Good luck. Thank you. If the world's soccer fans can't stand Seth Ladder, then why is he running again? So I decided if three FIFA presidents have been sports journalists, then I can run for FIFA President too.

I'm convinced that if the world's soccer fans got to vote, I would beat Seth Blatter in a landslide. I just need one country's federation to heed the popular real and nominate me by the April 1st deadline. Vote Grant Wall for FIFA President. The people's choice. My name is Grant Wall, and you better believe I have proved in Mexico. If you want to know why people were theorizing that Grant Wall's death may have come at the hands of enemies of his approach to journalism, this part of Grant's career is one reason why. Because Grant would not only not shut up.

His actual platform was more than just better referees than instant replay. It was about transparency, and how if Grant Wall were to actually be elected by FIFA's voters, its member countries, he would expose corruption. I'll clean up FIFA the only way possible by releasing all of its internal documents to the public. We're going to go WikiLeaks on FIFA. The one thing that I think a lot of people don't understand about FIFA is that it is a one vote per country system. If you've won five World Cups like Brazil or you basically don't have a football team like American Samoa, you have the same voting rights.

And so you're really just trying to go to one of these small territory. Can you buck against the trend and nominate me for president? But it actually sort of works out as the opposite. With those small voting associations, they get the same payout from FIFA that everyone else does. So they are massively less incentivized as having no real power in the world of football to just go with the flow and let's keep this cash train moving.

Yes, one of the things you learn through Grant's accounting of his campaign is the voters that might seem from afar are ostensibly persuadable are among the least. Because, yes, whether you're the U.S. or Dominica, or somewhere in between, as he puts it, Sweden, Chile, Ireland, Israel, none of them had the guts to do it, which, of course, stuck out at that point. to his wife. He reached out to, there's over 200 a different national federation. So at the time, the rules were you just needed one to nominate you. And he actually got pretty close with some, but in the end could not get a single one. And that was essentially

the expose, that you could not get even one. That this was how closed the process was. So the whole thing about this stunt being like wacky and like, ah, here's an American trying to, you know, again, of course that American wants to run the whole thing. Of course. The actual upshot of this is astounding. Because one of my favorite things in sports that you get to see only, you know, on rare special occasions is someone whose impact on the game ends up forcing a rule change.

They were scared of it. I mean, that very clearly indicates we can't let this sort of idea because it garnered worldwide press. There are people around the world who wanted to talk to Graham. Like, yeah, this is great. Can you do this, please? and they would have been scared that maybe one association does nominate and maybe, you know, he's able to convince somehow appeal to the hearts and minds

of the greater voting public within FIFA and go on and win the thing and end this machine that they have rolling at the time. And instead, what FIFA decides to do is something that he also explained on the Long Forum podcast in 2016. It's going to go from here. My FIFA presidential campaign didn't exactly work out in the end in 2011. We didn't talk about that. In 2011.

for president of FIFA. That again was sort of prescient. That was before all of these takedown scandals. Yeah. And it was fun. I caused them to change their rules where to run for FIFA president now, you literally have to be an insider and have like two of the previous five years in football administration, soccer administration.

Which is actually a problem because if you had an outsider like a Kofi Annan, who I think would be great to take over a new FIFA, according to their rules right now, he cannot run. I had a good experience doing it in 2011. It was fun. It got people to thinking, I think, why does no one ever run against this set bladder guy and really put out some of the honestly common sense issues

that needed to be considered about making FIFA cleaner or trying to or getting at a point where it wasn't this kind of joke of an organization. I mean, the aftermath of Grant's unsuccessful campaign brings us to this sort of buffet of self-dealing and, in the eyes of the Justice Department, criminal activity. Now at 11, FIFA raid. They corrupted the business of worldwide soccer to serve their interests and to enrich themselves. Leaders of soccer's global governing body accused of tarnishing the sport by taking $150 million in broad. and payoffs.

Seven high-ranking officials of FIFA, Soccer's international governing body, were arrested at a five-star hotel in Switzerland. They're among 14 people indicted by U.S. prosecutors. Yeah, I mean, at that time, Loretta Lynch was in charge of the Justice Department, and I remember these raids that go on in Switzerland where these people are basically chucked out of their beds

in the middle of the night and say, you know, you're under arrest under U.S. jurisdiction. It included the take down of Chuck Blazer, who admitted to conspiring with other members of the FIFA executive committee to accept bribes for the hosting rights for the 2010 World Cup, which went to South Africa, including a failed bid for Morocco to host. They will host in 2030. But there are all of these people that were all of a sudden under the purview of the American government, never mind the public that thought what's going on within this organization. Right. It gets to the point where in June

2015, SEP Blatter is forced to resign as FIFA president. FIFA chief set Blatter has said he's to step down just four days after being re-elected to a fifth term at the helm of football's world governing body, which is embroiled in a corruption scandal. The 79-year-old made the announcement during a hastily convened press conference in Zurich, saying that although he decided to stand again because he was convinced it was the best option for football, he added that his mandate does not seem to be. be supported by everyone in the world. We've been watching prequels to The Rise of Johnny Infantino.

That's the guy who replaces bladder. The job that I think Grant Wall should have had, Johnny Infantino, one of his aspects of the campaign was, I need to sit down with Grant Wall. And so this is February 25, 2016. This is the day before Infantino gets elected president, and they meet. What are the most of the most of the most of the president?

most important parts of your plan as FIFA president? We have to be very transparent, very open. And for me, for me, the most important part is the transparency on the money flows. If you are transparent and FIFA has nothing to hide on generating money, it's good, the FIFA generates money. So where the money comes from and where it goes and if this is transparent, we have solved 95% of the real or perceived problems of FIFA. Nothing to hide.

It's staggering that. at the time, he was incredibly popular, because first off, really, his name at the time was not Gianni Infantino. His name was not set bladder. And people were so excited at this idea. And he said all of the right things. That sounds like the kind of FIFA that leads to a better place. Well, the idea that Johnny Infantino would sit down with the guy in Grant Wall, who was not only the number one American soccer journalistic authority, but also the guy who was calling for transparency, is a recognition that, okay, yeah, there are some things I got to change, and so let me go and address this with the guy who is most vociferously calling for it.

And again, just yet another tragedy of this is, I would love to know what Grant thinks of what Johnny Infantino has become since. Mr. President, this is your price, this is your peace prize. There is also a beautiful medal for you, that you. You can wear everywhere you want to go. I'm going to wear it right now. Okay, let me hold. Fantastic.

Excellent. He has World Cup to World Cup from Russia. I think it was sort of a little bit more tenuous, but Qatar, he was all in. And obviously he has been completely all in with the president for 2026 as well. He sort of has this way of showing basically this thing is in their hands and FIFA plays a role

but I'm going to completely embrace what whoever's in charge of the country they were going to has to say and wants to do and it's completely different to what he said he was going to do. Yeah, when he said, quote, it's good that FIFA generates money. Yeah, I suppose that part does hold up.

And so all of this now takes us back to Qatar and the 2022 World Cup, where Grant had shown up as an independent journalist and podcaster, wanting to cover two huge stories. The first of them having to do with the reported 6,500 migrant workers who died in the country in the decade after Qatar was awarded the World Cup, this according to the Guardian.

But Grant really wanted to see it for himself. I'm in Doha, Qatar, and... It's several months ahead of the World Cup, and I haven't publicized that I'm in Qatar for a reason because I just want to speak to migrant workers and I want to ask them what their experience is like, how they've been treated by their employers, whether they're actually able to change jobs

under the new laws here in Qatar, because we hear a lot, from the Qataris and the World Cup Supreme Committee here about all the advances that have taken place. And yet there are still reports that things haven't changed that much. So a lot of questions here. I am trying to lay low. I came here by myself. I didn't come with any cameras. I have zero desired to be detained. And to be honest, the Qataris should want independent journalists to come and ask questions and find out what the real story is, because that's the only way people are going to believe them.

But that story was only one of the two scandals that he was pursuing during that 2022 World Cup. And the second one raised even more questions. about who would have wanted Grant Wall silenced. This is the part that has stuck in my brain most vividly, because for those not familiar in Qatar, same-sex marriage is not just illegal. There are many reports, according to Human Rights Watch, of gay citizens being abused, detained.

It's among the most dangerous destinations for LGBT travelers, according to lots of reporting. In Qatar for the World Cup today, Secretary of State, Tony Blinken, and Avidsoff. Lincoln and avid soccer fans from youth criticized FIFA's decision to threaten World Cup players with yellow cards if they wear one-love armbands supporting gay rights. Cutter's laws forbid gay relationships. Lincoln leading the U.S. delegation spoke out. And into that, same setting, walks Grant and his notebook.

Again, this is sort of one of those ways in which you are part journalist and part advocate. He strongly advocated on behalf of the community to be able to freely enter the country. and freely enjoy the World Cup as any other person could enjoy the World Cup. Well, it was also fact-checking what Johnny Infantino had said in public. I've been speaking about this topic with the highest leadership of the country. Several times, not just once. They have confirmed, and I can confirm, that everyone is welcome. This is a clear FIFA requirement.

Everyone has to be welcomed. Everyone that comes to Qatar is welcome. Whatever religion, race, sexual orientation, believe she or he has. And so Grant ends up doing interviews. And he tells you, Chris, some of what he learned. Yeah, I mean, if you read my website, part of the Qatar Chronicles Part 2

was about what U.S. soccer has been doing to get prepared for coming to Qatar. And they had hired, and I interviewed, a compliance officer who's lived here for last six years or so, Lisa Saad, and we specifically talked about the rainbow flag. And like, what about fans or anybody? Visitors here wearing the rainbow flag in a country where same-sex relationships are illegal.

But FIFA and Lisa Saad, by the way, told me, like, everyone has told me that, you know, if you just have a rainbow flag, there is no problem at all. the problem will come if you've had a few drinks and you're making out with your gay partner in public. And then there definitely will be a problem. All of it is to say that Grant makes this conscious decision to pack a particular item of clothing, given the reporting he's just done.

Yeah, so he packs this black t-shirt with a ring in the middle, which has an image of a soccer ball, and then a sort of rainbow cascading from it. And so that shirt, I should also call attention to this visually. That shirt did recur. It did make another appearance in my conversation with Celine. I can't help but notice that you are wearing a particular t-shirt that for those who are not watching but are merely listening, that they might need to be caught up on. Could you explain the shirt that you're wearing?

Yes, I'm going to tilt down so you can see it a little bit better. It is not the identical one that Grant wore. I actually gave the one Grant wore in Qatar to his brother as a gift. His brother Eric is gay. His brother had experienced harassment and bullying growing up in Kansas City as a gay boy in the 70s and 80s. His brother, Eric, actually told him not to wear it because he was afraid of what that would mean. Grant wore it anyway. which was sort of this declaration that football is meant to be inclusive of LGBTQ people as well.

And so he wears this shirt to a stadium at the World Cup and they basically prevent him from entering the stadium with the shirt on. I get to the stadium, go through the media, check in. And from the moment I get there, security says, like puts me aside and they're letting other media people go through. They're like, oh, this is interesting. And then, but I still wasn't 100% certain it was about the shirt I was wearing. And then a guard said, your shirt, you have to remove it.

And I was like, no. I don't know how many times I said no to these guys. 10, 15, 20. At one point, this security guard is looming over me, angrily demanding that I take my shirt off. I was like, no. I will not do that. I knew what my rights were. And as I hear Grant tell you about this at the time, it reminds me, like, this is in the tradition of his FIFA presidency, of his campaign, his stunt.

But on some level, when you see the shirt, you are also reminded of how utterly inoffensive it is. Yes, imagery that is so normal, that is so inoffensive. There's no acronym on it. It's just a rainy. The other fascinating thing, too, is, Pablo, that you're not going to see the Emir of Qatar. The fact that this message would have come from somewhere very high and trickled all the way down the levels to where the security people outside of the stadium are aware to see the shirt, that that color pattern was enough to evoke, oh, no, I need to stop this.

It's not like I am doing something provocative. I have family members who are gay, I have lots of friends who are gay, and I can't help but think about the gay people who are in Qatar and what they have to deal with and in fear and jail and what it's like when it's not during the World Cup. And if I'm getting treated as a visitor, as an American,

as someone who has somewhat significant media following, Well, then how are those people being treated? And that's pretty awful to think about. And the other part that was classic Grant Wall was that he used his megaphone to tell the world about all of this. And it made its way back to very notable sports figures like Brianna Scurry. I had just finished reading how he wore the target, the rainbow target, the rainbow target. on his chest. And I just laughed. I'm like, that's Grant. And I'm like, the man has no fear.

He just, he just did it. So all of that is the pretext. That's the image. Everybody is imagining around the world. The journalist who had been detained when just two weeks after that, he collapsed. And Celine recalled what it was like for her to hear about it. People had tried to resists. acetate and perform CPR, but he was quickly taken away by ambulance. And so I figured out which hospital it was, called the hospital. They didn't know anything yet. Finally, a couple hours, maybe two, three hours later, I get a call from the attending physician in the ER who said, your husband is no more. And that's how I got the news. Yeah. That's more than, a clinical diagnosis, that's this oddly translated just like declaration, isn't it?

And then that's why I'll never forget the words. There was something just strange about that. It's like not only is he dead, he's gone in this whole other way. I got to point out, Chris, you know, talking to Dr. Celine Gounder, who is, again, an epidemiologist, who navigated public health communications during COVID. I mean, she has. the ability as she... During the first Ebola outbreak as well. Oh my God. Just like her ability to very calmly compartmentalize and explain tragic things affecting lots of people. I was struck by that and I was also struck by the way in which that scene, that line, your husband is no more. It was just the beginning of the nightmare for her because it is worth remembering that as a

perfectly seemingly healthy 49-year-old, there was not just speculation, around foul play, but also because of the COVID vaccine, there was now this response that was targeting his wife. Yes. Grant had been very supportive and also encouraging others to get their vaccinations. You know, 22, we were still not out of the woods with COVID yet. You had people saying, oh, why are all these young people dying suddenly? It must be the COVID vaccine.

and they said this about Grant. And the meanness, the cruelty of you killed your husband that I got from people, I mean, I think that just speaks to what their actual incentives are and their values. And I just, you know, I just want to acknowledge how fucked up. Yeah. And how sort of chilling that is. Imagine you're sort of dealing with this unimaginable tragedy. You thought you're going to spend the rest of your life with this person.

And then it sort of becomes this political lightning rod, the death of your own. husband that you're still struggling, even three and a half years later, even the way that she was talking there and the way that I have felt at times recording this episode, it still is incredibly hard to process. When you were talking to her, there's some clips there in the video of the dog running up to her. I was like, oh my God, I haven't seen that dog. I haven't seen that dog in four years. That dog used to run up to him and interrupt tapings all the time. It's like, oh, like the dog's barking in the background. I got to go run and deal with the dog. And it's just, I'm dealing with it still. And the fact that in the

process of that, I was reading those replies to her too. Go on, what the hell's wrong with you people? Another way in which this was foreshadowing, just like the darkness that would sort of immerse our country. But what she does, because she is a physician, an

epidemiologist, and someone who is searching for clarity for her own sake, and for the sake of quieting this apparent discourse, what she does is she gets an autopsy. She has Grant's body examined. and the conclusion, according to what the medical examiner found after a very thorough and rigorous examination,

is something called an ascending aortic aneurysm, a blood vessel that carries, you know, oxygenated blood from the heart, it ruptured because it had weakened, apparently slowly, and in a way that was undetected over time. And Celine had to, of course, explain that to people. I had some ideas about what it might be and aortic aneurysms were on the list. There is a list of conditions, pulmonary embolisms or another, that can cause sudden death and otherwise young healthy people. And so even before they completed the full autopsy, the initial findings, they knew what it was. So when they gave me that news, it was sort of like, okay, that makes sense, makes sense. And the other reason, as it turned out, that having the autopsy was so important is not just conspiracy theories about was he killed, but also conspiracy theories about whether COVID killed him or COVID vaccines, I should say more precisely.

And so being able to put all the different conspiracy theories to rest, having that understanding of what actually happened was an important source of closure. which means that here we can also say with great certainty that it was not the bronchitis that was mentioned by grant in that podcast he did with you the day before he died that wasn't it it wasn't an assassination it wasn't some other conspiracy it was something that was in its own way mundane insofar as how could you have even guessed that this would be something that Grant was dealing with. And that not everything is a conspiracy. Sometimes things just happen.

And because Celine, who was, again, so gracious to talk to us for this episode, because she's the number one champion of make sure you get the facts right about what happened to my husband, it also lets us truly celebrate the facts he did get right as a journalist, which I want to also say he did tell you. about Chris, just days before you passed. It's something I felt when I came here in February and talked to migrant workers

was that there's a decent chance I might get detained. I got detained today. And if that happens, then does it help to have 800,000 followers on Twitter? Yeah, better believe it. But also it helps to be a journalist with a U.S. passport.

And I knew coming here that I had that behind me. And so even if I had gotten detained, I was like, I made the calculation of you're doing the right thing. I just think it's really important to be on the right side of history with all the stuff. I often feel like we're living in a documentary, whether we know it or not, and it's important to be the good guys in the documentary. It is another thing, though, to, as granted, actually go to the places and report to things so that people know what the difference between truth and disinformation looks like.

to use whatever influence and power. And he sort of mentioned the things that are in his favor. He's a white guy. He's an American journalist. He has all these things. He can get into his megaphone to the world to incredibly important people, messages that are worth hearing.

There are plenty of people who have accrued that level of following and use it to talk about far more trivial things. And I'm not necessarily saying that everyone who gets into this has to be outspoken about, governments and not spoken about governing bodies. I'm not like holding everyone to that standard. I don't hold myself to that standard. I don't have the gumption that he has.

But when you do, it's incredibly powerful and it can do a lot of good for a lot of people. And I also just need to acknowledge, too, Chris, that you're doing us a real service here by remembering your friend. Yeah, I mean, it's not a service to you. It's a service to him, really, and to his family

and a legacy that is worth remembering. And yet, before we let you go here, there is one thing we did not prepare you for, but you happened to allude to it earlier. And there is one more member of Grant and Celine's family that

I think you and also the rest of the United States should become reacquainted with. Well, this little guy who's sitting next to me, do you want to come and say hi? So this is Zizu, and you can see what he's wearing. if we can see in the camera

this way. Yeah, there we go. Yes. This is Zizu. He's wearing the number 10. And Zizu is named after Zennedine Zadon. Zizu is his nickname. So soccer was a big thing in our house. You can see. The French national team kit that Zizu was wearing

is, of course, a very particular reference to, yes, this legendary. I mean, all-time great iconic player in Zadhan, but also worn by an iconic doc, who I recall from Grant's Twitter feed, actually, an Instagram account. And what an honor for me to meet Zizu at the end here. Yeah, you know, and that was Grant's first big story,

was the 90, like, Sockridge story, was the 98 World Cup. So that story, that team also, was really important and formative in his career. Well, it was France winning the World Cup in France. And it sounds like what I'm finding out at the end here is that while the editors of Sports Illustrated did not want to put that on the cover of their magazine, Grant found a way to commemorate this with your dog.

For the bird dog, who lives on. Zizu, what a legend. A legend. And noted listeners of the, the podcast will know that he made several contributions to the podcast through barking in the background of interviews with soccer luminaries because that dog was vocal. I actually now kind of feel bad of the number of times that I edited him out of the podcast. What I'm also finding out here at the end then is that Chris Whittingham did in fact silence Zizu Walt. I am the dark hand that,

A conspiracy. Brought him down. A conspiracy. A conspiracy. To hold down the dog. It rears its head, despite our best up for us. Chris Whittingham, in honor of, I guess, Mike Ditka, who had the cover of S-I instead of Zizu. I hope at one point, you can break out a cigar of your own and remember, Grant Wall's

coaching tree has resulted in something special. We all stand on the shoulders of giants, and he was definitely one of them. And I miss him a lot every day. And it was nice to talk about him. Thank you for doing it. Pablo Torre finds out is produced by Walter Avaroma, Maxwell Carney, Ryan Cortez, Juan Galindo, Patrick Kim, Neely Lohman, Rob McCray, Matt Sullivan, Claire Taylor, and Chris Tuminello. Studio engineering by RG Systems, sound design by Andrew Bursick, Digital Strategy by Bailey Carlin and Andrew Northern, theme song, as always, by John Bravo.

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