RAWTALK - Bradley Martyn asks Charly Jordan on a date

Episode Date: January 25, 2022

Come mix some music with us and the beautiful Charly Jordan! She spins the turn tables and talks about her many ventures with music, travel, DJing, childhood and the mean of her businesses. So get on your feet and get ready to join the party and fun.SUBSCRIBE HERE: https://www.youtube.com/c/REALRAWTALK?sub_confirmation=1LISTEN ON APPLE PODCASTS: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/rawtalk/id1294154339FOLLOW RAWTALK PODCAST:INSTAGRAM | https://instagram.com/getrawtalkTIKTOK | https://vm.TikTok.com/TTPdQbEqVX/FOLLOW BRADLEY:INSTAGRAM | https://instagram.com/bradleymartynSUBSCRIBE TO RAWTALK PODCAST CLIPS: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCvzSBNBOK599FqzrTZS8ScQ/?sub_confirmation=1SUBSCRIBE TO LIFE OF BRADLEY MARTYN: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCWTQG2aMDYKGDqYEGqJb1FA/?sub_confirmation=1SUBSCRIBE TO FITNESS CHANNEL: https://www.youtube.com/bradleymartynonline?sub_confirmation=1RAWGEAR: https://www.rawgear.com (CODE:RAW)

Oh, okay, she put like six people. Hi. You put like six people in a group chair. I was like, holy shit. No, no, it's dope. You're official. You're official. Yeah, it's been traveling and moving around a lot of a sudden.

It's not hard for me to like, stay consistent with talking. No, I got it, I got it. Obviously we have, you know, our gardeners here working, so. You've oranges. It's great. We've got the gardeners working, so we're fully like, we're just gonna ruin the audio of this clip as we go. I've still never met him.

You should be able to see. No. It's okay. See, it's a big fuck. You did? You did? Yeah. Perfect.

What happened? I'm building in my music video tomorrow. We're just trying to like tie up all the loose ends so I kind of have everyone doing things right now. You should give you? Yeah. For what? Uh, it's nice, see. Oh, everyone's cold when they come in here.

It's cold in here. Damn. That's a consistent thing now. Fuck. A lot of extra patty. I don't feel it. You got the fancy shoes on? Oh, I heard there's a moderate.

Brad has said, are we live in like three seconds? Well, I mean, I think we are. Oh, we are? I think we are live. She's been on it. Oh, shit, this whole time. Yeah, but doesn't mean this has to, the whole thing has to go on the podcast. Yeah, we're going to, we're going to, like, ease it in.

Don't worry, we're not going to title it. Charlie Jordan throws up at zoo culture. No, yeah. No, no. Yo, so. God, I guess we got to get that out of the way first. So, obviously, we got, welcome back to Raw Talk. We got a Charlie Jordan, a very special guest today.

What's up? Thank you for having me. I've been, I just want to first and foremost, I want to say when I message her to get her on the podcast, she was like, yeah, totally down. And then I immediately got in a text there with like 16 people in order to like coordinate this event. I swear to God, it's so funny. I love it though, because I do the same shit like because I'll have my team help me with stuff and organized stuff because I'm doing so much shit.

But I wasn't expecting that. But now it makes more sense because like, of it. all the things that I've learned about you doing and the businesses that you have and obviously the crazy fucking shoes that you're wearing. I mean, you're fancy. You came in here tall as fuck. You came in here tall as fuck. I think you scared

Sylvie a little bit. He's like, how tall is she? I was like, she's tall. I am 5'9, but with these, I definitely got like an extra inch. Yeah, you're like 6-1 windows. Perfect. Yeah, exactly what I want. Anyways. So, Charlie, you, you like, what I've seen because I've been, I was out in Vegas and I actually didn't

even expect to run into you. Oh, yeah. You're like a full on DJ now. I am a full on DJ now. Like, is that what you do most of your time? Honestly, it definitely takes up a lot of my time. Social media for me, like I've always believed that it should just be a way to show off cool things that you're doing.

So I feel like it's pretty typical for people to get like wrapped up in just making social media content, but I've always like done something else and added social media content to it. Yeah. At first it was traveling, which honestly was like really. brutal and intense just like straining on my body but I did it for years and um with DJing it's been cool because I'm still traveling but I have something that I love that I'm doing it's definitely a lot of work but you know I feel so bad like you might have to go out there and tell them to stop doing that yard work so we go tell them we got to come back I keep literally every five seconds I'm like I'm like yeah yeah yeah I'm sorry I didn't want to catch you up but I'm like I don't want everyone to be like what the fuck is going on no I know but it's just the timing so bad I we didn't plan for that that um so i guess my question first question is like what got you into making music what got you interested in it um so making the travel videos i've always loved music i'm from

Vegas um born and raised there so which is so weird to me by the way it's weird to me too because i think it's just like a weird place yeah well we got to talk about that then like what is that like growing up in Vegas um growing up in Vegas it's just a mix of so many different cultures ethnicities like a melting pot like everyone comes there but I feel like everything's temporary very and it's like very just structured out and the nightlife definitely trickles down into like high school and and just the kids in general so I just saw a lot super early on but randomly I grew up like Mormon in Vegas so I never like drank or something like wait wait wait wait wait wait you grew up Mormon in Vegas yes aren't the Mormons all in Utah no I thought most of them were in Utah

a lot of them are in Utah but there's Mormons everywhere is there a big popular are you are you still a Mormon technically yes but I'm not practicing like I wouldn't say I'm Mormon so are you the kind of Mormon that like you know if you had anal sex before marriage it's okay what you never heard about that I swear I definitely have heard about that okay I uh I started practicing when I was 18 because I was just kind of like yeah not about this and things have been way better since nothing against Mormon religion great people just not your thing but um yeah it's very restrictive so um you were asking how I got into music though and it was kind of when I left the Mormon religion and pursued what I wanted to do at what age

18 okay I gave up my D1 track scholarship and decided to do social media and I traveled for like two and a half years to start off his road trips that turned into flying places to see friends crashing on people's couches which turned into working with hotels and then it just kind of like snowballed from there um I was on social media too yeah I was super fortunate to be part of that like beginning part of social media where like lifestyle and travel content was really big and I feel like it'll never happen again like it was like this little chunk where it was like the J-Alvarez and Alexis Wren and Sam colder and what year was this this is early on super 2016 you were yeah you were legit like a baby doing that shit I was like 17 18 what the

really young wanted to do it was super fortunate to kind of get the tail end of that era um but when I was traveling then festivals started picking me up to make their after movies. So I was helping make their recap videos. So like EDC, Coachella, all these different, whether it was like Moonrise Festival or EDC, Mexico, like all these different places where they wanted you to edit videos. They wanted me to be a part of their after movies. So I was like the model in the videos, like walking around the festival. I was helping film content as well. And so I did that, brought them exposures, started posting for festivals. And I was like, this is lit. Like, this is great. I'm traveling and going to festivals. And I was filming DJs. And I was just like, this is. probably the coolest thing I've ever seen. And this is like right when you first started. No, this is probably like two and a half, three years into it. Into it. And I was just like, this is so sick.

So I, um, you know, got some turntables and spent a year and a half in my room teaching myself how to do it because I didn't want anyone to give or sit, like, be able to create any excuse as to why I couldn't DJ because I already knew being in the influencer space, trying to convert over to an artist is pretty difficult sometimes because people just don't take you seriously. Yeah. So I was like, I'm not going to give anyone. any excuse to be like, oh, she can't DJ, she just got there because of the way she looks

or because of her social media, but like I really taught myself how to how to mix, which was awesome. And then now I've been getting into producing and songwriting. Why do you think people don't take the influencer serious to try and get into music? People, you know, it's crazy to see the progression from when it started of people just being like, this is a joke and laughing at your face when you're like, I want to be an influencer to now accepting it, but still not taking the idea of an influencer in general. Yes. or doing social media as a job.

Like, I got made fun of when I first started doing it. Like, it was not a sought-after career path. Now it's like 90% of kids are like, this is what I want to do with my life. I saw that on the internet somewhere. Yes. Yeah, so it's a real thing. Or it was like, yeah, but being an influencer now,

there's just so many different things it can be. I don't know. I feel like the internet has changed a lot over the past many years. But with DJing, it's been cool because it's like being a legit artist and making projects and things that are lasting and memorable and even having like the two brands.

And I've just been really trying to kind of branch away from having to be an influencer because I feel like it's solely based on like judging you as like who you are as a person. Like I don't want to put all of my problems on the internet. I don't want to do drama or personal life stuff. Like I want to show the cool things I'm doing in my life and motivate people to want to do those things or pursue their dreams and their passions. I don't really see, like, a whole lot of value and the oversharing of everyone's personal lives on the internet now. Like, I don't use Twitter at all.

But you get why people, like, are so invested in that, right? Because it's almost like people have evolved more towards, like, wanting to know more about people, whether or not they're a, you know, a DJ or, like, anything that someone else does, like, the thing that they do. People love being involved with people, right? That's why the Kardashians blew up. That's why this, even though it was like a fake, you know, reality TV show or stuff, people feel. felt like they were like a part of their life somehow because they were viewing it a certain way well it's like being invested in someone you don't know is like relationship or totally i listen honestly this past like experience like i've never had a public relationship and it's it was just

so difficult honestly like i've never really experienced anything like that you're talking about with taylor yeah okay just like from the strictly the internet side like people are just brutal and i literally was like wow i just will never judge anyone ever again because people just make shit up for no reason you know it's funny I I uh through my whole experience on social media from like before I was like popular whatever fuck you want to call it I had a relationship for eight years I talk a lot of a lot about this on the podcast but not this specifically but I always would would hide it because I knew I was like I don't want to deal with what could come if like let's say for example I'm showing this oh this is my girlfriend

and then she's going to get followers and the next you know like this state doesn't work out because like life happens right and then everyone's going to look at me if she says something like fuck this guy then everyone's going to be like fuck this guy and it's like you there's no winning yeah people just like you said make shit up so whatever's almost said first is like that's final and then people never normally see like what's actually they just don't understand the whole picture so they just jump on you know someone's side and did you experience that with the whole yeah it made it hard it just makes everything harder like the separation and moving on and whatever it's virtually impossible because the internet just like they just

it's all misinformation now like even in like news stuff like how you're saying like 90% of kids want to be influencers like I honestly don't really believe most of what I see on the internet I don't believe shit anymore I'm like all right this is great like put a pen in it over here but you got to take all of it with a little grain of salt absolutely but as far as music goes I've really really loved getting into that it's been so cool being able to like work with people on on extended projects and create incredible things like i have four songs out right now and they're all house songs but the one i'm releasing this month on the 28th is the first time i've uh sang and song written oh you're singing in this oh shit yeah that's dope i thought it was just like dj shit

like pull up and like change the sounds like because i was at this shit in Vegas with you and i didn't even know you were coming out and then i saw you and i was i was looking at the table and i've seen a few other have a few other djays like carnage buddy of mine i don't understand this shit at all i look at it i'm like like what are they doing and I was like it feels like they're just you guys are just playing a playlist absolutely not no it's not happening Brad I literally heard you behind me while I was too yeah I was like yeah I was asking Taylor so so like how does this shit work you heard me I didn't yeah it was so loud in there no I didn't think anyone heard me it was so funny he was like trying

to explain like how I was going yeah so I'm trying to understand like how do you know so from the blind eye like if there were two DJs hypothetical And they were both playing music. You really wouldn't be able to tell the difference unless you knew what you were doing on the turntables. Like someone could play a playlist and just fuck around and touch buttons. Or look like they're touching buttons. And it would look almost virtually the same as a real DJ who's actually doing something. And that's the problem is like there's so many like fake DJs out there.

But when you're actually mixing like every single song that I play, for the most part, I have a couple pre-recorded or pre-mixed songs in there. but I have custom made, but I produced it like custom made for my set. So it's like my intro and the outro and like certain edits to make it more intense. But for the most part, I'm every single different song that you hear, I'm manually mixing it with the buttons. So like, yeah. So DJing is like live producing. So like all those knobs. Yeah.

There's like the highs, your mids and your loads. It's like the high parts of the song, the mids, which is like vocals and the lows, which is the bass. And I can control all those things for each song. Like keeping it in and as another one song. comes in right yes but like you can do it with it's not just when the song ends into the next song it's drops and builds like i'm mixing and playing two to three songs at the same time it's funny i don't i feel i know nothing about this but i'm still testing like your djness right because who are the fake ds like is djs like i'm calling people out i feel like that guy's a fake

d't i've actually never seen polly d he's got he's like famous on the jersey shore then he's like probably a fake d't press a button he's like hype man i don't know dude Like, it's hard because I don't want to, like, slander anyone. I know, listen, I'm not trying to do that either. But in the female space, like Peggy Goo is an amazing female DJ. Alice in Wonderland crushes it. The people where it's been a little bit more, like, confusing, where I'm not really sure is, like, people like Paris Hillen.

I have no idea. That's a play. I have absolutely no idea. You'd have to be there to see it, right? Yes, I've never seen her play. But, like, I just hear things about different female DJs. And it's, unfortunately, there's, like, very bad stigma against female DJs of just like how they can't actually mix so there's also

amazing ones that absolutely can't they just don't get as much recognition so who are some of the coolest like artists or DJs you've been working with um as yeah let me think and you've been this for how long like officially three years three years and then you recently got this the residency in Vegas correct like how long have you been it's actually been a year which is crazy wait wait wait Wait, you've been in late, doing the Vegas shows for a year. Technically, yeah, I finished like my first year. It's a two-year residency. Two-year.

But I started like halfway through this year when COVID and everything opened back up. But that was, we like stuffed a year's worth of shows in that six months. So I think I'll have one year left. Daddy come out and see another show. Yeah, I do. I just randomly just came out to a show. How was it? It was amazing.

Yeah? Yeah. I loved it. Good. I loved it. But I was like so. He loved early, though. What?

I did leave early. I did leave early. did but but like I can't stay late like that's not you know it's not really my vibe I can't do it's not his vibe he's a grandpa yeah yeah it's just like I've been there done that you know oh oh he's not the DJ shit you you know I've never done any DJ shit but like I've experienced enough but like going out to clubs you some wise words of wisdom Brad about what about clubs yeah okay don't leave your drink unattended somewhere that's key Facts.

Yeah, see. Don't mix different colored liquors. Yes. Yeah. Don't, yeah, don't leave, you know, make sure you got your drink. You know where it is at all time. That's essential. Don't hold up.

Have your phone with a song request, please. Yo, that's, you know, I'm not going to lie. That's one of the most popular. Is that really the thing? Like, do people actually still do that? No. Yes. This is the most popular thing I've ever seen, like, memes involving DJs.

It has to do with, like, them holding the phone up and putting up something. I see so many different things. What are they, what's the best thing you've seen? It's either people hitting on me and saying something. It's like overtly sexual where I'm like, whoa. Like I want to eat your ass. Yes. You've seen that.

Or like a phone that says every guy in here I want to fuck or every guy in here wants to fuck you. I don't know why that one's been like a super common one I've seen. It's probably true though. Okay, Brad. It is what it is. Yeah, but you don't have to put it on a phone, okay. That's true. They just wanted to let you know.

In case you didn't know. I'm like, no, we're here for the music. Yeah, both, you know. You got to let them dream too. Both. Yeah. Absolutely. Sorry.

some hype. What's the weirdest thing you've ever seen on one of those? There's this girl that was just like, people get really hammered sometimes and that's the fun part about my job is people watching all of that. And she just like would not, like she asked me like the same question like 20 times. Like I was like, no, I can't play. Like she was like almost killing herself trying to put her arm up and show me. She's like, fucking look at this right now. Oh my God. And it was like starting to freak me out. I was like, okay. That was probably the weirdest one And then security had to

She was like trying to like come into the booth I was like you know That's enough Maybe don't come into the booth Do you drink when you're when you're DJed? I do Yeah that's lit But not to start

I'll start like halfway through my set Maybe a little earlier Probably a little bit earlier I take like one shot at the beginning And then we see it We see how it goes I don't really drink outside of DJing though So one of my shows

I have a good time That's okay So what's the plan with all this? You can get more residencies or like? Well, the ultimate, the dream is to be able to get on a festival circuit and play festivals. Like Coachella or some shit. EDC is like my dream. So Coachella is obviously amazing, but it's kind of like all sorts of genres, but EDC is specifically 80M music and it was one of the first festivals I ever went to sneaking into. It's all good. Listen, fuck it. Is it okay? Can we not? Can we not? I don't know. I've already talked. I'm like, can I

I don't know. Anyways, sneaking into EDC, and when I walked in, the first thing I saw was marshmallow and Skrillix going back to back. It was like the first,

like, EDM music I'd really, like, fully experienced, and it just was awesome and changed my life forever. So, um,

the community that surrounds, like EDM music, you've been to, have you been to EDC? No, not, not EGC. Wow,

I have to, next year. Okay, well, how close are you to playing in something like that? Very close. Very close.

Yeah. Yeah. It's exciting. But festival, are the dream and I once again on a festival circuit released a bunch of original music this year yeah this is inner bloom which is coming out on the 28th is just the first of a bunch of songs I want to put out and it's just something I've always wanted to do I genuinely love music I play the piano I've sang my whole life so I just haven't put it out there yet because you know

that's not what I was really known for and I just wanted to really find my sound and make sure I knew everything through and through before I release music so nothing like sketched what What kind of inspiration? Do you have certain inspirations in your music? I listen to like every single genre of music. And I love EDM music because it is pretty much every genre of music kind of just like slashed it combined into one. You can remix any song.

You can mash up any song. Inspiration wise, like Alice in Wonderland is definitely a really big one for me. She's a female DJ that I just grew up listening to watching like Lewis the Child, We've been all of those artists are incredible. And I've gotten to meet so many of them and now know them and consider them friends. And to be able to get into the space is just like, I became friends with the people in the space. And that's what really drew me to it. With social media, you know, I was just considering, I was like, is this something I want to do forever?

Because I love my platform, yes. Yeah. But the community was a little bit hard for me to get into just because it's a lot of times. community yes like the YouTubers like that whole thing yes this shit yes okay like I like doing but but cast because like we're friends like that's why I came on this podcast you know like I typically like I'll do things if it makes sense but I just like working with my friends making cool shit yeah everything else that people try to tie into it like the social hierarchy of influencer bullshit is just like a lot for me that's why I like traveling that's why I don't

like really what so what is that what explain that to me because like I don't really I don't I don't I never even think of shit like that. That's good. So what do you mean by that? Like, social high. So like, it's just like hyper competitive,

which is fine. Like, I know that's how LA is, but people just really, it tied to like who they are as a person. Yeah. You're talking about like getting views or getting likes or. Yeah.

Like your whole life becomes revolving around views and likes and posting videos. And it can just be like super consuming. And there's absolutely nothing wrong with dedicating yourself to your craft and being the best of what you do. Have you ever felt consumed by? everything in moderation absolutely all the time it's a huge part of the reason I started all these other things because I do love to work and like I would get consumed by it I was doing it all the time like my whole life like where I was going what I was doing I was doing I was like like that I was in that and I just am super thankful to be at a point in my life where that validation

I guess like isn't something that I crave anymore and I just crave like genuine connections with people what made that switch for you though um because you're young still still a baby I am a baby yeah he tells me that every single time we talk yeah I gotta remind you well they wouldn't know that they wouldn't know that but now they know to a baby yes oh my god not that like you're a baby you don't have anything going for you nothing like that but you know you're it's like when I was 22 I was broke as fuck I didn't have nothing like social media wasn't even a thing yeah so it's different like you know old guy's shit right here sorry I apologize no but you're like still in everything like when you're

you're like, oh, I don't experience, like, anything like that. Like, that's hard for me to believe. No, I just don't care. Yeah. I mean, I do, I trust me. I definitely understand, like, the need for, oh, I have to get views or I have to get likes. I understand the need for that because it will, like, drive engagement, obviously, which

that is directly that. And then it drives business, et cetera. But at the same time, like, I never, when I heard the social hierarchy thing, I was thinking, like, people, like, not fucking with you unless you have this or have that. Like, I never experienced that. I think because the gym was, like, the outside thing that, you know an influencer who had more whatever cloud or whatever was like oh but i like i want to get

into the gym and i was just seemed like i was that gym guy so they always kind of came to me so i never dealt with like a hey i want to do something with you like i seem like most people ended up coming to me in that sense well and that's awesome and that's exactly what i talk about is like showing off something that you're already doing like you like fitness and like your gym and like you have a bunch of awesome things going on in your real life you have businesses you have real connections with people and then there's people who don't do anything like that and social media is like their only outlet which if you're a kid or younger right like obviously if you're 18 19 20 you're still figuring it out like whatever yeah but it can just get very interesting when that's like

people's entire lives it's how they base all their decisions based that base is like who they hang out with for sure um so i just have tried to get a little bit more grounded and honestly like i don't blame anyone for living that way like i did it for a long time but it just didn't make me happy and I uh it's been hard to find it was hard for me until this past year to find like a good group of people out in LA like do you feel like you have like a solid squad out here like community that you consistently see yeah I mean it's my team my team all the people around me all the people that work with me like I think I built that with them I wouldn't say it's like it's not necessarily out with other influencers because I notice the same thing it's like everyone is so focused on the

thing that they have to do right like you you travel you're doing the you're doing the DJ stuff You're doing all the other things that you're working on, which we'll get into in a little bit. But it's like, just as I call you a friend for sure, but it's like, I wouldn't call it like a close, in my close community. You know what I'm saying? My closest community are the people who are with me every single day. So it'd be like, you know, Jacob, Sylvie, Natalie, my assistant, all these people here are working like on the back end with me on these projects. But as far as influencers, I mean, besides like Steve. Or not even influencers, but just like people out here like that are non-work related.

It's hard. I don't I don't I don't yeah no I'm a psychopath I don't have any of those except for like the people that I work with and then like yeah it might be bad I'm probably really toxic yeah like now I'm not thinking about this you're here first guys like holy shit man it's bad no it's it's not bad at all I've like honestly over analyzed it and thought about it way too much even like I got in trouble for even saying anything one time but I was just talking about like influencer houses and how they created this very interesting dynamic like I don't it's not talking down didn't you do that didn't you yes that's why like I did all these things and it's more like what I learned from it your experience I've experienced it so you know the content house that I lived in like there's just so many like weird scenarios that come from like literally meeting up with people that you have never met before in your life or vaguely know based off social media and you all move in together Yeah

purely based off Your followers This reminds me The first time that I met you Do you remember the first time I met you? No Wait when did we actually meet

For the first time No Oh wait yes At that house We were at a house I was with the boys We were filming shit We were driving through

We go to this house What's that? Look You made a board Yeah I made a board That's cute You're trying to get out This car

You're trying to get out of this Oh my God That's funny That's a nice board Yeah so anyways We were at a party I'm not going to tell the story I'm not going to tell the story

What is it? I don't know what you're saying With who Can I say this shit? I don't know if I get I think it was like Have you ever talked about that Or like can I not talk?

No actually This was a long time ago No it's long time ago Yeah we can talk about it It was like two years ago Yeah it's been a long time Yeah Holy shit time flies

For a second Yeah whatever I just remember But I went to Texas because, yeah, it was like him and then other friends that I had recently just like started getting into the TikTok thing and met all of them because I DJed one of their birthday parties and they were like, come out's Texas and hang out. Yeah. Holy shit. You do remember that. That's dope.

That's dope. Yeah, you had just got out of that relationship with a photographer guy. What? I just thought, did he take photos? No, he didn't. He was a travel guy. I'm sorry. I'm totally butchering.

I feel actually this guy. probably really nice I don't know he's great um yeah I just got out of like a three year long relationship do you do you find it's harder dating obviously you know you've experienced the whole like Taylor thing in the repercussions on the internet but do you think just in general having like a social you know engaged following it makes it harder for you to just date in general absolutely I was just talking about I've actually been having a super hard time with that lately it's uh dude I can't actually even remember the last time someone asked me on a date like It's the craziest thing ever.

What do you mean? Like, I don't know. It's just the way people like try to get in touch with me and try to do things with me. Like it's just very interesting. I am traveling so much. Like I don't know. I think I'm the problem just a little bit because I'm traveling so much and I'm gone. So it is hard for me to meet new people and go out.

So that's like part of it. But that's just on me because I'm like working all the time. But what about the dynamic like of having social? Because it's changed this whole dating. situation like drastically i don't know i think guys are just scared of me like they like to actually come up to my face and be like hey you're cute or would you like to hang out some time like it has happened like literally one time this past year and it was a uh a dude that was working valet at louis potomit and he like asked me for my number and i was like damn it has been so long since

anyone has asked me for my number because most of the time i'm going out like it's four work stuff so I have my whole team and same thing like a squad with me so people it's very hard for people to actually for me to actually have like genuine human interaction which is it's hard and obviously people have a bunch of weird intentions going into it like I talked to one person a little while ago who I hung out of them for like two weeks and we kissed and that was it and then this dude's running around telling everyone he's fucking a hot Instagram model oh you yeah Got it. I talked to that guy for a couple weeks, and it just ended up not working out.

Ended it super nice. But he's running his mouth. He ran his mouth. Who is this guy? I'm going to find this motherfucker. Who is this guy? Name drop this motherfucker. Hold on.

What? Put his thing here. I won't even say it. Put his thing right here. I won't say it. I just want to know. I just want to know. Because that's disrespectful.

No, I know. I'm going to find you, motherfucker. I was like sick. I'm, like, just, I'm, you just fucking an Instagram model. Like, that's good. Who is he telling? Like other other influencers? Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Which is how it always fucking is. I want, I want to shut. This is interesting. I'm sure you know. Oh, man. No. Damn it. He had, what?

Fuck. I know him. I know him too. Damn it. Son of a bitch, man. That is fucking annoying, dude. Yeah, because I was like really wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt because he has a really bad rep. And he just solidified it.

Yeah, I was like. Damn. But it's hard to date out here. There's just too many options. Guys are like literally fucking ADHD just all over the place. Like titty's here, your ass here. Like just cannot pay attention to shit.

Do you think it's the social space? Like these are the people that you're picking from? Yeah. That's the problem. That's why I've been trying to get into other. Because everyone is just super like, I get it. Like social media is like it's like focus on yourself, self love, self-betterment. But like to what extent?

I feel like I've been working on myself I know who I am and what I had to offer people and I'm not trying to like always chase the next high all the time and just really like appreciate the moments that I do have with people so that's where like social media can just be draining because it's like all right you just did something awesome what's the next thing what's the next thing what's the next thing it's constantly matter it's like all the time

so music has been great but I'm also doing that all the time I'm DJing like every other weekend you don't think the music's gonna ever feel like that too it's like that's the thing it's like I don't know dude it seems like it's more of a personality thing for you the more shows I play what's like this this concept of like it's you know always all the time always all you're doing it regardless now

it's like if you're not doing as much social media stuff that you're talking about earlier you're now doing you're not doing the music stuff it definitely is a personality thing but like if I do get obsessive about something I should pick something that is adding a lot of benefit to you and the people around you for sure and social media is like I do in the back of my mind all the time it doesn't matter what I'm gonna do like for me posting on my Instagram is like my daily scrapbook post like something that

I'm thinking a picture that I took it's not I try not to overcomplicate it yeah I definitely use it for marketing with my brands and everything like that but it's genuinely just like me in my life and whatever I'm doing whether I'm making music or smoking a blunt or yeah going on a random adventure so how did you get into how did you get into the smoke roses thing that I was I moved to California and I was like amazed with the cannabis industry out here and I was just smoking a lot trying like everything. Have you always smoked a lot? Not really.

I started smoking when I was 18 and I did like a lot at first but it was just like a nighttime thing and then obviously when I moved out here, obviously it's very legal. So I was just around it all the time trying different things. I started making my own can of butter, which is like weed butter. edible edible yeah yes so you can like put it on toast and I was like trying not to smoke

because I have asthma so I was finding ways to me too yeah yeah do you still smoke yep same

yeah we're so we're fucked we're fucked look I'm here for a good time not a long time yeah that's a fact but so what like you because like you you're doing really well with this

at least so I perceive right so these are what's it you brought me a gift I brought you some gifts these are the goji berry cones that we have that are made out of organic goji berries and it's like a fruit leather that we like flattened oh i love eating these can i just eat it you cannot eat it oh fuck but you

can't it looks it looks like i could honestly i've looked at it and i did want to eat it i'm sure you could eat it probably just wouldn't taste very good but you are supposed to smoke it okay and then these are the roses organic as well all free of pesticides additives coloring what that's dope I said rose cones are dope, like I've smoked with the rose cones, not yours, but like I've had one like that. It was super dope. That's why I'm like, that's interesting. Yeah, these are, um, a lot of, there are other rose blunts, but they come with weed already in them typically. And it's like in a glass tube and they're just like, hell of dry.

Like this is nice. Is this company big? Um, big like. I mean, I'm not trying to like, you know, I'm not be like pocket. Well, tell me how much money. I'm not figuring that out. But like, just, we sold out the first three. four months we were launched yeah and we're now just getting to be able to scale to the amount

that we're trying to push out right and getting into retail will be it's a dope brand like it's just a pretty brand thank you it is pretty I like it you can smoke and be pretty and then you have and then you have your other brand which is the beauty and pain yes what is that what is that is this like jewelry do wear gold or silver both he's more of a gold he's more of a gold for sure yeah I'm gonna give you both what are these these are the daggers so this dagger right here is the brand that I made yes and it's been cool I feel like a lot of people wear the necklace and it makes me really happy because the whole point of the brand is to provoke meaningful conversation and open conversation about mental health so typically people that are wearing it can like I've seen people

at shows like individually wearing it that will like walk up to each other and spark up the whole conversation and friendship what what uh what got you thinking like that when you were creating your brands because i i directly relate to that when i created this brand but i want to hear like what got you um i just wanted to create a community like the internet is the first place where i talked about mental health and people were like oh i struggle with that too because growing up my family and friends around me like i would try to talk to them about it and no one knew what was going on with me like from panic attacks to anxiety depression like anything like that like anxiety is such a it's like one word for such a broad spectrum of feelings that a human being can feel like

what is anxiety um so learning how to deal with that i kind of took it to the internet and that's where people made me feel like i wasn't alone for the first time yeah so creating an instagram page and a brand and products based around a message in a community it's more for that purpose to be able to connect with other people who go through the same things and struggle with the same things where you can have that conversation and it's not like a judgmental or weird space and the whole thing with the rose and the dagger is finding beauty and pain so not letting the negative situations that happen to you in your life break you down or put you on pause but actually using it as motivation to be better and to break that cycle and make make a difference and be that change yeah but because i feel like i

honestly just randomly throughout my life have been through a lot of really hard things um just bad luck I guess and I'm so thankful to just be where I'm at and never would have thought I would make it here or make it this far. So every day is just like, let's talk about it. Like what in your childhood was bad? I just had kind of like a all over the place upbringing, moved around a lot and home life was just kind of all over the place. And I didn't ever like currently. I got both your parents in the picture. I actually haven't spoken to my dad in a couple of years.

And my mom, I've been getting close with her again. And I love my little brothers and my whole family. But there was a period of time where just for health reasons, you know, we weren't able to speak to each other. And I've had. Your health reasons or their health reasons? What was that? Kind of both.

I don't think she's been like kind of concerned about me, like sharing stuff about our family online. It's kind of like a very personal thing that she would have to talk about or share. for sure um it's not really like my place but just from the family side of it like i just haven't been super involved in either of my parents lives as of the past many years like i got kicked out of my house and or left home when i was 18 um and it was like four months before my senior year ended i graduated walked by myself and started doing what i'm doing now so i just been kind of in like survival mode for a long time and that was like a lot of the reason i did a lot of what i

did and you know everyone just i mean the whole point in the internet right is like look it's a pretty girl looks effortless and whatever but it just was not and it's actually like i'm super proud of everything that i've built and done and because i was in survival mode and just like so stressed out about making sure i was never in like that place again where i was homeless and didn't have anywhere to go for six months um and then just random bad shit happens to me because i my family and or people just weren't involved in my life like no one was checking in on me and it was just quite the time like that's that was also the interesting thing about the travel space is like a lot of the people in that space come from like super broken like people that have no attachment to

anything and are just traveling all the time it's awesome to travel but it's also like escaping reality and that's kind of what I was doing for a couple of years um you know every place you go you can be whoever you want to be you probably won't see those people again And so at the end of all of it, I was kind of like, damn, like, I've all these awesome memories. And I can't be like, hey, remember when that happened to anyone? I was meeting up with people, like, at the places I was going. New people all the time. Which is so cool because I have so many friends all over the world now.

But everything in moderation. Yeah. But I used to struggle with self-harm in high school. And that's also why I made the brand. That's why there's a dagger and those. You used to cut yourself. Yes. I got it.

But no one should ever do that. that to themselves and I there's a bigillion other better ways to deal with it I'm curious like you know obviously you're dealing with pain right what makes you think like what gave you the idea like I'm going to cut

myself though because like I dealt with pain I just dealt with it differently obviously I never cut myself I'm not saying people who cut themselves like you know they're obviously everyone's going through their own battle right but I was never like oh I want to hurt myself because I'm hurt I guess I kind of did in the gym it was like hurt myself it's a different

type of pain. Yes, that is a different type of pain. Same thing. Anything for me, I think I saw that somewhere and it was like, so I started having panic attacks when I was 16 where I would just like be hyperventilating. I feel like I was about to pass out. Over what though? Um, family problems. Like there's just a lot of like. But was it the thought that like is my family going to be okay? Like what is the thought of having literally no control over anything that was going on? Got it. Um, the loss of control. Yes. Okay. Because I just felt like. I never had, like, a say or I just didn't really get to live my life the way I wanted to live it at all. I was, like, the oldest of seven kids, so lots of little kids, and that took up a lot of my time.

And there was just a lot of moving around. We moved so many times, unbelievable. Like, my mom just took us to Costa Rica, and I lived there for two years. Super random. Like, in the tip of South America or Central America. um bought an Airbnb ran Airbnb out there I just feel like I've like been all over and met so many amazing people and at this point like work is work which is great and I love everything that I do starting the businesses DJing social media stuff but I'm just like what's next like I want to like

you're not comfortable talking about this stuff huh what stuff like the like where it came from where it started no I could tell yeah because you went back to this that's fine I get it I used to but it's hard because like I've been trying to move on from that stuff and I create create new relationships with my family so continuing to speak about it like that and I just feel like it's it's unnecessary you know like all that stuff happened it's in the past like I'm trying to move on from it and holding like all that anger and resentment of this happens to me my whole life like yeah it caused it was making me operate in survival mode but now I'm like I'm good like I have this life for myself and I can pick and choose what I want and create the family, the lifestyle, the whatever that I want. So it's been really just freeing also for myself, like especially as a woman to be able to not have to rely anyone, rely on anyone financially. Yeah.

Because then I can just purely judge who I'm hanging out with based on who they are the person. Right. Which is really cool. It's interesting. It seems like a lot of this stuff is like getting control, having control for yourself. Yeah, because in my personal opinion, if you want something to change you have to do it or something done right you have to do it yourself

and i just i do have a lot of great ideas roaming around up in my brain about everything like when i traveled the whole reason i do all this like i'm trying to attach to charities to um beauty and pain right now one of them is the jed foundation and it's basically educating kids on mental health so that they know how to deal with it and it's proper education like in school where they don't have to just figure it out on their own. Attaching charities like that or suicide hotline or operation Underground Railroad, which is sex trafficking to smoke roads is like, I want to do all of this so that I can

give back and make a difference and make a change. I'm still trying to figure out what that is, but this is all just like a journey and I just love having people be a part of what I'm doing. Like having all my friends come to my shows when I'm DJing. Like, I'd be DJing anyways, but it was in a fucking basement or at a club. Like, I would still be doing it.

it's cool that I have so many people that support me and it's not done like out of oh I need this money or this like honestly personally if I had it my way I'd probably move to Hawaii and just serve all day yeah and have these hobbies like and do it for fun like if this ever becomes is Hawaii like a popular place for DJs I'll just dip out you know I'm gonna be like hey you know we've done enough we're good yeah but is Hawaii a popular place for DJs or something because like carnage is there he's always no it's not because it's actually hell of far from everything that's the only reason I haven't moved there but um yeah I just or I'm gonna buy a rose petal farm and live on a rose petal farm and live on a rose pedal farm

yes I will okay so I'm sourcing my rose petals from India right now okay but what if I just bought a rose pedal farm and just made them yourself and made him myself and then it's vertical integration of business magic it's amazing you mean like a biodynamic farm it'd be even like crazy compost the fucking rose stems. You're like just, just recycle everything. All of it. And also have like experiential

Airbnb thing on it where it's like a vineyard. I love Napa and all the wine tasting out there. You can do wine and rose petals and use the rose petal stems and the fertilizer to grow wine and then it's rose wine. Wow. This is amazing. I want to pick your own rose and then you make a rose cone with it too.

Wow. Rose cones, one together. I just have traveling Vigillion ideas running through my head all the time That's why I smoke weed

I need to like How do you decide Which ones are you like Okay this is the one I want to focus on It's all like Pretty much based off gut Feeling

How you feel? I just like Creating original Things that haven't been done before So I'm always trying to push The boundaries of whatever it is

That I choose to do creatively It's just fun Like it's not like A competitive thing It's truly just like I don't know TikTok kind of

made it like a thing to like copy other people but i mean the whole app's based on that being an artist in my opinion is the opposite of that so kind of depends what you want but you're like you were saying earlier that you know why people are like so invested in personal life stuff but i would just rather not do that like have like you're like how you're talking about like your relationship and all this personal stuff like if you want to do that awesome if you you know if it doesn't interfere with your personal life and you can do both awesome yeah but But I just can't do that. That's why, like, not knocking anyone's profession at all.

But, you're going to avoid putting relationships on the internet from now on. Um, I would like to naturally and organically, like, have people be, like, I don't want to have to hide it, though, either. That's the part where I'm like, fuck, this was hard. Yeah. But how do I hide it? I can't. Yeah. Like, it's an interesting thing.

I can't. Yeah. It's, it's really hard. Like, if people decide to come to my shows or there's just so much I do out and, like, I don't want to hide it. have like be like hey babe sorry but just go yeah like don't don't stand by me like I would never like I would proudly have my partner at my side no matter who it is are you dating anyone right now no I have not um definitely have had ups and downs situations ships um you know trying to talk to people but it's all like it's honestly all chilling like I love my friends and I love all the people

that I do have part of my life we're all super young and everyone's all all who plays so fucking busy so that's a big part of it like when you're drained and exhausted from trying to do things and then someone else is drained and exhausted and you both want help with each other's things clashing and then you come together at the end of the day and you both are like yo you rub my back you're like nah rub my fucking back bro i can't even tell you how many times i've had that argument oh that's so funny why do i i never get massages back really who the fuck are you dating what the fuck they're not giving you i keep going after like what the fuck they're not rubbing your shoulders and shit i don't get it yo the boys are mad on the internet right now i know i

hear them they're like what they're on the fucking what the fuck is this also i'm like am i the problem like i just keep going after like i don't guess emotionally unavailable guy no yeah it's really funny but it's like i want someone who's successful but they're all emotionally unavailable And I'm like, okay, I'm going to find someone who's successful and a good person and nice. Like, it'll have to be perfect. Yeah, I mean, you are super fucking young. I'm sure you'll find it. I think you're not supposed to try to find it.

I think that's what they say, right? That's the key. It just kind of like happens. Yeah, I'll be chilling. I'll be chilling out here. Single is a prangle. You just got to focus on your shit. Not ready to mingle.

That's why I have, like, for the first time, like, so much going on. I actually just don't feel like I have any time to like do the talking phase again. Yeah. I'm over it. It's interesting. I mean, at some point, you have to be open to that if you want to be right um yeah we're either fully in it or we're not no it's like marriage or nothing no the fuck no no definitely not i can't even like the thought

of getting married and having a kid right now just scares the shit out of you you're but um yeah i don't know i just need to take a chill pill focus on myself yeah i've been focusing on myself it's honestly just hard to have a relationship at the same time. That's why no one's fault. No fucking drama. That's what you guys are waiting. Yeah, yeah.

We're waiting for the drama. We're like, where's the tea? You're like, who are you talking to? Are you talking to anyone right now? Definitely. I mean, I had ideas. I just wasn't like, you know, wasn't that important.

I'm not trying to make it like a drama. We're not, we're not a team star over here, you know? It's not fucking drama alert. What about you, Brad? Nice. Nice. Oh, I love this.

Let's change the subject. No, no, no, no. No, no, no, no, I can't. I got nothing to share about this. Look, he openly admitted that he keeps his relationships private. Yeah, that's a fact. So it's private. There you go.

Actually, I respect it. It's always, don't kiss and tell them. It's been private for a long time. It's always been private. No, no, I've always, no one would ever know. People would never know. That's the thing. Have you ever seen, like, me on the internet like, this is my girl?

Maybe once, twice. I mean, you see me lifting girls, but it doesn't mean like those are my girls. like no usually brads just at the club just having a good time yes yes yes yeah so no i just don't put it i just choose not to like i said i was always i've seen other people do it and then how like people just pit each other against like they're like let's attack for this and it's just stupid people just like trying to break up my relationships for no fucking yeah or whole conspiracy theories i'm like damn like y'all getting deep in this like this is and it's just it's just unnecessary i never wanted to involve myself in that. Like I said, because anyone could make a spin on anything and say,

this is what it was without any real understanding of what it actually is. Because, like, how complicated our actual relationships? And then the internet, everyone, like the peanut gallery is like, this is what's happening. It's like, dude, your own life and your own relationships are like, probably not that simple that they just like, they'll just be like, oh, this is what you've done and what he's done. And it's just not like that. So I've always like, I want to avoid this shit entirely because how much misinformation has already happens about everything else, right? We're talking about earlier. Everything is just like, he said that, she said that. I'm just, we're rather not involve my personal life in that. That's why I never even speak about it. Do you feel like

you're going crazy when you look at comments that are people talking about something that hasn't happened that they think has happened? Oh my God. For several hours, like chains of conversation about something that hasn't happened. Well, yeah. I'm like, people are really wasting their fucking, like, I don't know. No, this is true. No, stand. this shit because I'm gonna fucking no it's a fact listen I was on Twitter the other day I tweeted some dumb shit and it was about like the war on it's a joke it's like it was an infinity symbol and it's like the guy from the office and it was like the war on COVID some dumb shit and it's like you're just it's just a big circle right I'm not trying to make

political not about COVID but you have these two people arguing about this shit for the last like since I posted it's like four days ago they've been arguing for the last like four days okay because my name's in the feed right and they keep arguing back I'm like let it go like what the it's weird like nowadays people just will fight and like disagree over everything so if we talk about relationships like I don't want to put my relationship out there for someone to just have some like you know the peanut gallery assumption on where it's like I don't even need this shit it's like the keyboard warriors some dudes sitting in his mom's basement yeah and especially like

where you're at where it's like if it's fresh relationships it can you know you can go south quickly because that's just that's how life is you can't guarantee oh i date someone just because there another social media influencer or not is like it's just gonna fucking work out right it's like you have to figure it out and you're fucking 22 so at your age is like why would you ever put any of that shit on there though i was just like i didn't do it because like i'm so transparent like i've nothing to hide like i'm just a super open person so it just happens to get in there it's not like i'm like oh i'm gonna pose my relationship like there were actually so many people for some reason that thought mine and taylor's relationship was like a fake relationship

just because we both did social media i was like nah this was actually thumbs up we're good but so many people would ask me all the time and speaking of like comments like there's so many amazing comments and supportive people but if you're just going on the fucking internet and say hey I'm over it like the comment section in TikTok is so toxic

I've said it a million times before less comments more time spent creating something meaningful and original for people to consume that would be great people are just so like there's so much you can do at that time like why would you ever waste time trying to tear some work down.

And it's also like that energy is living in you. I'm talking about this tons of times. It's like what's the point being like fuck you, fuck this person, fuck this thing. It's like for what? Like where does that go? I think that everybody's having a hard time all the time. So like I always, I'm like that person. Like if someone's like a dick to me, I'm like they had a bad day.

Oh yeah. I always respond. I always respond to people in DMs. I'll be like, yeah, I appreciate the love. And it's like the most hateful thing they'll say to me. And then those. And I'd be like, yeah, I really appreciate the love. And some like I would say 99% of time they switch up and they're like,

yo I love you I was just trying to get your attention and some will be like fuck you you drug dealer bitch you know so they still go hard on me it depends but I always show love but I'll tell you what I think I got shadow ban once because I was just not in the mood and someone said some dumb shit to me I was like fuck you bitch and I think I got reported

like shadow ban whatever who cares just the internet's okay I'm shadow band too so are you really no you're not you get tons of tons of like you're not I see you every time you post post The shadow ban is when they basically put a restriction on your page for people trying to find you. So explore. Yes.

So on Instagram. Yeah. Yeah, it's the worst. It's crazy, dude. I have posted suggestive content the whole time I've been on Instagram and nothing against TikTok. But when I started posting on TikTok, it's a lot younger of an audience. And now, like, anytime I post bikini or lingerie stuff on Instagram, it gets reported, taken down. and if you get reported, like, X amount of times per month, your account gets deleted.

Yeah. I had my whole ass Instagram get deleted a couple months ago, and I was freaking out. Wait. Instagram went back through my old pictures from, like, years ago of me traveling, like, doing, like, holding my, like this, like, not showing anything. Yeah, yeah. Typically, like, it's fine. Like, I still see people posting full-blown nudes on Instagram and it doesn't get deleted. But my page has been flagged because who knows fucking why.

Yeah. So they're like paying extra attention and it got reported like X amount of times, whole page gone. You got it back though. I did get it back. It was a whole process, but there's just like a million things like it's so political now between Instagram, TikTok, Snapchat, like anyone who has an only fans link in their bio is ShadowBan. Really?

Yeah. You think so? Yes. Like the OnlyFans link. Yes. If you post about OnlyFans or do swipe ups to OnlyFans, you're ShadowBan. Wow. Why would they do that?

Because OnlyFans is a direct competitor of Instagram, and Instagram doesn't like them. Is it really, though? Yep. But they don't, they're not, it's like a, it's not like a, it's not even the same type of app. It is the concept of posting content and being able to have a job or make money off of it. So you don't think why wouldn't then they just do that if you post out to go to my TikTok? Because you really don't make any money off of TikTok. Like, are you talking about the creator fund?

Not necessarily creator fund. Obviously, like, there's not much money there. But like someone who makes content all day, every day. Like, if I say like I was a photographer, right, unless I go out of my way to reach out to brands and guarantee myself a brand deal, I'm not getting paid for any of the content that I post. Right. YouTube and YouTube has monetization, which also pays shit.

TikTok has view, whatever, which also pays shit. Right, right, right. So, unless you. you go out of your way to make money for yourself you are not guaranteed anything yes so only fans in my opinion for anyone who's a content creator and actually just genuinely likes taking pictures and making videos is the best platform you can upload on because you are getting paid for people to consume your content and things that you're making and things that you're putting out there so it has to hold like value of some sort everyone who signs up for only fans has to sign up with

a verified ID so it's not a bot or some spam account that's like super fucking ridiculous It's real. It's like a more filtered version of Instagram. And obviously it was notorious for doing pornography. Right. They've changed a lot of shit in the past year. You actually can't even do that anymore, like at all on a weekends. Yeah, you can.

Yeah, you can't. Porn? Yeah. I don't think so. You sure? I thought they did they pump faked everyone on that. They were like, you can't do this anymore. I don't know.

And they pulled back because I wouldn't know because I don't post stuff like that on OnlyFans. I've never done any nude anything. It's all like BTS. No, I think it was a total pump faked. They, they were. like hey you guys can't do this anymore because our banks won't process this and then like all these like buzzfeed all these giant uh like news outlets were like only fans is not doing explicit content anymore and then they're like no we're kidding i swear to god this is really

happened really i swear to god this really happened because i remember hearing about like from my own like uh agency that i work with that they were not going to be allowing that anymore i was like what but that was like i'm sure it was like when that hit and then the week later They're like, yo, we're kidding. Just kidding. We're like, no, you guys are good. No, I really mean that. They pump fake that heavy.

They're like, look at us. Well, regardless, OnlyFans is notorious for that type of content. For sure. It can be used for pretty much anything. If you're making like a podcast, I don't know why people haven't capitalized more on that. Like there's magazines that people have or like Patreon, right? Where it's like a subscription base thing. Same thing.

But OnlyFans is like built in, what's the fucking company that does birthday shoutouts cameo cameo cameo i feel like only fans is like cameo mixed with instagram because people message you on only fans and you can like directly chat with fans and are you trying to convince me to make an only fan and do birthday shoutouts and like i can't tell where this is going yes you should should i show my dick on only fans he's been going back and forth with it absolutely not i shouldn't no okay why would you do that i don't know i just think about it sometimes oh god okay well maybe you need to start only fans then I don't know what's going on over here that escalated quickly yeah like straight to it's like I show my dick on only well I'm like there's two it's like there's like

two things it's like it's like you post content I just was talking about how I don't post content like no you don't I'm not saying you do but he wants to yeah I'm saying like it's like you either do it 100% or you like half ass it you know which is like to let them know you do it 100% are you saying I half as my only fans technically if if we're talking about in the in the perception the public perception of only fans you would be a half asser but not that it's not enjoyable and good content that people are loving that's what I was saying is you can't upload stuff like that I don't know that'd be like being like oh there's only like one type of genre that's right on Instagram I know I'm fucking with you not and I'm lifestyle content only I don't know about workout content oh it's like 50% I like Instagram is fine but like I do lifestyle content like I blog and stuff okay yeah no you're better than me for sure Oh my God, I love it. No, I really think about this, though.

I've genuinely played with this idea. Not show my dick on the only fans. No, no, no, no. No, just doing the only fans. But if I, I feel like my audience, if I did the only fans, they'd be like, if I started taking pictures, they'd be like, what are you doing, bro? Like, we don't care. Like, we're here for one thing.

I feel like my audience specifically is going to be like, show us your dick. You know, it's crazy? Do you ever, so do you have like a workout subscription based anything? Yeah, yeah. Okay. You just have to think of something. something that you can offer on only fans that you don't on the rest of the internet yeah i mean that's there's only one thing left yeah it's like it's not you're done that's what i'm saying

it's like my audience would be like they would like be like yo what are you doing dude we came here to see your dick it's like it's not here guys the only thing left about Bradley martin outside of his social media is on the internet everything else is on the internet man talk about everything i fucking post everything workout shit like fuck around shit to do it all the only thing I'm doing ASMR. Yeah, I'm on that shit. I'm like, I'm like, what do you think about this sound?

Oh, no, I did not like that. Yeah, and I love it because she has the headphones on, so I know she heard that shit fucked up. You boys got so love. So not good, so no, no SML. I shouldn't work on that. No. Okay.

I think we should try a different career path. Okay, for sure. So, so what's the, what's the big goal for you on this shit? Maybe like some underwater basket weaving. Some underwater. Underwater basket weaving? What the fuck is that? Is that a real thing?

Yes. Yo, why the fuck do you know what that is? Wait a minute. I'm a crappy person. Okay, I craft things. Underwater basket weaving. Wait, out, hold on a second. I have a real question for you.

Why the fuck do you know what that is? I think my, like, dad used to just say it as a joke. Like, it's like the most obscure, random, like, thing that you could do. Weaving baskets underwater. Or it's like, like, if I was like, ah, yeah, I'd take it like underwater welding. Like that's just fucking weird Underwater basket weaving You weave baskets underwater

Oh my god Play this shit This is really fucking me up right now I love it Underwater basket weaving Holy shit I saw a video on TikTok of this It was weird

I think I saw a video of Charlie doing it Probably She had the sound It was trending I know it was trending So she was like I gotta do this basket shit Wait

What the fuck? Okay so this guy He's in a fucking wet suit goggles and everything he's got a he's got a he's got something he's literally scuba diving with what the fuck is this with basket weaving materials

I don't even know what that looks like wood twine and then there's this little square with sticks and now he's weaving the twine through the sticks it bothers me that you know what he's doing before he's doing it it's making me that she knows what I was talking about yeah it's actually it's bothering me actually it's like very weird that she knows about this stuff considering all the other stuff that we

work on. I'm like, why does she know this shit? This is no random information. Could be played in your advantage, okay? I just know how to do random things. Okay, I don't know. Okay, okay, turn this shit off and done with this shit. Why? Can you skip to the end? You want to know what he's making? You know, you're fucking up right now. She's like, I gotta know. I have to know now. All right, get to the end. Jesus Christ. Get to the end. Yo, nothing happened. It's the same shit. He's just fucking underwater. He's up there. What is it? Oh, shit. It is a basket. Holy fuck he made a basket underwater how long was he under the title of this video is Charlie Jordan shows me underwater basket weaving yeah she's a professional this is really weird

this is super weird I actually don't I've never seen this video but I don't think so I don't believe I don't think that was a good basket because you brought it up she and she just rifted she knew about it yeah because I was like just thinking of random obscure jobs that you could pursue her hobbies yeah maybe we could do that on Basket weaving He could teach people like yoga poses Underwater basket weaving I could pick one what

Big man yoga poses Yeah Show your flexibility You know what I'm saying Naked On only fans Naked Anyways

Boom What's the what's the big goal for you Like when you're like fucking I notice I hate this question I'll be honest But it's necessary When you're 30 How do you see your life

Like famous DJ Like tour the world Like done it all Like is that the main thing The DJ thing? Yes That's like that's your like I love it travel the world and play festivals all over the world and tour and be a legitimate artist That is my dream. Yeah

I really love production as well. So I'm not really sure if I want to go into being like a full-blown artist or stick more on the music side and the production side of everything like songwriting Got it stuff like that because that's what I really love But music and continuing to be entrepreneurial these two businesses that I created I am obsessed with them I love I love I love them they're like my little passion projects being able to get roses in retail all over the united states having it be something that is commonly used for any smoking at all that's dope we will get there that's dope i like want to get in urban outfitters and anywhere i can there's no weed in cones so i can sell it anywhere i can ship it anywhere it's just a smoking accessory right um the necklaces you know we have the necklaces we have the earrings on my ear holes

T-shirts coming out, an athleisure line coming out. We're about to release rings. Oh, Athleisure, huh? I'm a professional on that. I know. I need some advice. Interesting.

This is what I do full-time. I'm a 30 source from. Yeah, everywhere. I'm Pakistan and China mostly. Do you want that answer? I don't know if we were we going to have us. It's been, I don't want to,

I hate white labeling stuff, but with workout like attire. Like I just want to make clothes that I would actually wear. And then I've done brand deals for clothing companies for the past four years. I would really like to just continue to promote my own. Yeah, of course.

I love pushing a message that I truly believe in instead of just... Selling something. Yeah, selling something, pushing someone else's message, someone else's beliefs. And I've just been burned way too many times by companies. Like, it's crazy. There's definitely been some that I feel like I've helped build and grow and worked with them for years. And then at the end of it to like not have any equity or any long-term income from that.

it's like all that energy I could be putting into my own business which just makes more sense to me. Yeah, for sure. Entrepreneurial stuff, music, and just continuing to grow like my personal life.

Like that's a huge priority to me. I love meeting new people and working on myself, honestly. Like work is great, but personally for me this year, like I was saying, dude,

I want to get back into working out more. Yeah. And we're just throwing up five minutes into the workout. Hey, I've been saying it for like a year To Brad, every time I see him, I'm like, yeah. I'm like, come train. You're like, yeah, no, I got you as soon as I'm back.

Brad, Brad, what would you do if you ever, every other weekend are going to a new stay with a new time zone with food that you don't particularly, typically eat? Okay. You're going from show Friday. Yeah. So plane somewhere, play a show where it's alcohol, people, everything, whatever. You drink. Same thing next day. same thing next day your body is just dead afterwards i come back and remember i was like i'll

hit you up once i get back i was like i'm just dead yeah um i actually just played four shows that weekend it was like something crazy and you're like i was like i'm dead brad and he was like come in anyways and it was like on a monday like right when i had just gotten in from like a red eye flight and so like a combination of not sleeping like the dj stuff is brutal yeah this is what i would do you're really asking me that question yes i would set up because you're you're You're in charge in a sense, right? Yes. So I would, I would say, obviously you have, there's certain commitments you have to fulfill.

You have to show for a certain amount of time. I get that, right? Traveling takes a certain amount of time. I would set yourself up knowing, okay, I know where I'm going here and, you know, prior, have food or something ready for you that you know is going to be healthy, a healthy option. Because you could set that up. Yeah, this year I definitely am trying to like, again, like balance, right? Like having to plan everything else.

I was just so much planning, you know. I suck at planning. I'm terrible at planning. Ask her. I'm fucking horrible. That's my assistant. She's like, I do all that.

She does 100%. I can't do any of it. I'm fucking terrible. I could sit and talk for hours about shit. I can film content, no problem. Planning, I've never been good at.

I'm good at knowing like what decision to make, when to make it, how to make it. But like being like, oh, this time I'm terrible at that shit. Hey, Haley.

Horrible. Like 100%. Like it's just not, my brain, it just doesn't work good like that. Like, I feel like my brain used to, it still is.

Were you the kid? Oh. no no listen you remember they would be like yo write in your daily plan or did you do that shit did they do that when you were kids? Yeah I used to write in it You wrote in it

I never I couldn't write in it I literally like no matter what even if I wrote in it I was like I know I'm never looking at this shit again I wrote it I was like I swear I got as I'm writing this they're like write it write it right it I'm writing this like I'm never going to look at this again it doesn't even matter and I would never look at it I can't write stuff down like that I can write down goals and plans like big picture big vision

and then come back and review visit it, read it, but never like what I'm going to do tomorrow or what I'm going to do the next day, the next day at this time, this time. I can never do that. My brain just don't work that way. Same. I've actually had to like retrain my brain this past year. What did you do?

How did you do it? When you're not good at planning, then you're bad at communicating with people because you have to And I'm terrible at that. Yeah. Yeah. Me too. Yeah. No, I know.

Yay. There's some funny shit I would love to say on this podcast about you. Say it. No, I'm absolutely not going to say it. I can't say it. Go go for it. It's too personal. what too personal are you talking about the fact that I'm terrible at texting no what are you

talking about no I'm not gonna talk it's too personal we're not gonna get into this so save for another time but what have you been doing Brad knows things about me no no yeah I mean a little bit um what did you say nothing I said a little bit what is on Drake put hot sauce and you know stop trying to chase the subject what is on the screen okay you didn't hear about that shit No. So there was a girl that was saying that, like, she had sex with Drake and she, here's, this is the funny thing. He's like, how do you admit to this? She tried to impregnate herself after he was wearing a condom.

Yeah. She tried to impregnate herself with the condom that he threw away. Okay. But apparently he loaded that bitch with hot sauce. Like, this bitch is not going to, you know, get pregnant with my shit. I'm going to put hot sauce and kill the sperm. I don't know. He thought it was like spermicide.

I don't know. This is this. I don't think any of this shit actually happened. But it's funny to think, like, if you're the girl. you're like already doing some shady shit where you're gonna try and stick a condom up in your shit and then be like oh wait it's burning Drake fucking now I'm gonna sue him or some shit

because he put hot sauce in my vagina How would you who was like this is hot sauce Well who do you go to to report that What I had to have tasted it Yeah how would you she said it burnt she said it burnt Okay but can you feel shit like that up there I'm not yeah but it can just burn You can feel hot sauce like regular okay

Well like why wouldn't it it's like if you get hot sauce In your eye it burned Okay, listen. But also, wouldn't the color change if you put, like, Tapatio in that bitch? Because that's what I was like, any hot sauce, there's no way she can see. Maybe it was dark. Maybe it was dark. No, I'm sure she could put it in the light.

She was just fucking trying to be like, yeah, it's hot sauce. But anything could burn. Maybe he just puts spermicide in there. Yeah, it's like, what are you doing? Regardless, that bitch is crazy. Yeah, no, it's insane. Like that, that idea is crazy. There's a lot better way to go about that, honey.

Like what? Like what? Like, what are the other ways? Like, you got to actually get the person to, like, want to have a kid with you. That's the best way, right? Yeah. I mean, there's no, what's the other way? What are the other ways now?

I'm so fucking concerned. Holy shit, dude. What are the other ways? He really doesn't want this to happen to him. I'm trying to look at guys, please. No, I mean, girls are fucking crazy. Like, there's a lot of ways I feel like they go about trying to get guys to X or try to be baby mom's baby trap, whatever. like putting a hole in the condom is that what you're going with this turkey baster like turkey baster like what turkey baser what do you say

you know you know what a turkey baster is yes okay the tube with the little thing and you squeeze it and brings up the juices yeah so they could do that with the condom and then just insert it into their their their lady parts and squeeze it so wait wait wait wait what is the turkey bit you're talking about just taking the sperm out of the thing right is that what out of the condom yes okay so this is the turkey baster thing Yes. Okay. This is fucking insane. Are women doing this kind of shit?

Brad, some girls, if the guy is wealthy, girls will do crazy shit. If some girls, some girls, not all. Some girls take the long route

and just make you fall in love with them. And then once you get them pregnant, are like, I'm out. Yeah. They invest time into it. Like some severe time. And then guys do the same thing,

though. Well, they don't get girls pregnant, but like guys try, to trap successful women too by coming in them and not like taking the condom and all that everyone wants to talk some crazy shit it's been uh it's interesting i uh i don't know being out here and being in l.a like i think when we first met i was like yeah i fucking hate it here like yeah just because it's it's it's a lot and i feel like i've been able to find myself and it's so

cool to be around other successful people like you're fucking awesome too and everything you do is great that's why catch me working out of zoo culture yeah um once a month Once every two months. Yeah. Yeah. If that. I try. I try to come in.

I would love to see. It's so far from where I live. Is it though? Is it though? Like I literally go so far out of my way to go to your gym. It's like a 40 minute drive. Really? Yeah.

I live at the top of Beverly Hills. Like at the top of Mulholland. Oh, I see. Like so far away. But every, but like every gym is far away from there. Not really. Why would you live there?

Why would you live on there? Why the fuck would you have your gym out in the valley? Because it's a amazing, comfortable place to live the valley is the best place in the world but you're like deep in the valley like you are not close to shit no i'm close to malibu this is the best spot in the valley honestly i feel like you find more genuine like because everyone's like oh it's so hard to find friends and people in l.a like influencers that go to the gym and i'm like realistically like i was born and raised in the valley and i'm telling you right now like the people in the valley is different like

yeah it's not the same like the social media space and everyone trying to find that in l.a that's a difference but I feel like I live right in the middle it's great like I don't because I live in like Sherman Oaks at the top of Beverly Hills so it's like right bordering Beverly Hills into Sherman Oaks so it's like the valley but still kind of close I'm like right in the middle but you're every time I would go out to the compound I pass your gym because the compound's like deep in Calabasas yeah but yeah you're a little far away it's whatever I'm closer I'm closer than calabasas yeah but still like to to wake up and just go to the gym like it's a bit of a drive I need to let's say like fuck it

zoo culture or not like are you see are you gonna make it a thing what go to the gym yes okay we'll see I just have to learn how to balance it with traveling you're gonna actually get a real workout with me one of these days like a real one because last time we worked out she was like

you were like yo I gotta throw up not even film it I would just really work out Brad put me on me asking you on a date right now you're gonna fucking you're gonna like you're gonna fucking Brad yes I'll go on a day with you to the gym Okay, cool. Gym date.

But don't fucking put me on the sled again because right when I got in there, he put me on the sled and I have not ran track, hadn't ran track in three years. This man's like, yeah, we're going to do full intervals and cardio right now. Right after I drank three cups of coffee and was like, oh, this will be like a fun vlog. Not a fun blog. No, but listen, you got to remember the one of the first interactions I had with you besides that, that time in Texas was like. Challenging.

Yes. And you crushed everyone. Yes. So I was like, this chick is like a fucking athlete. We got to have her work. You know, the crazy thing about being a sprinter or speed is you can actually have such an unhealthy lifestyle and it's 12 seconds of how fast are you, how fast are your fast switch muscles. Like it really doesn't have anything to do like long distance running and maybe like the 400 and on 300 meter and on. But for the, I was doing the challenger games, which was the freaking 100 sprint, which is like such a short amount of time.

I just pulled everything from like my natural. Like, I'm just really fast, naturally. I've always happened my whole life, so I don't have to train for that or anything. Yeah, you smoked them. And you did the hurdles, too. You smoked them too. Yeah, hurdles I definitely had to learn.

That shit is hard, but really fun. Yeah. I think hurdles are the test of pure athleticism, straight up. Like, trying to keep momentum while jumping, trying to run the same speed while jumping over 12 hurdles in a row. And only being able to take three steps in between each one, it's, like, severely calculated.

I can't do that shit. You could do it. I mean, I'm asking you on a date to run hurdles. Oh my God. Brad doesn't do cardio. Date, aka I'm going to film you falling over hurdles.

Yeah, I would literally eat shit. Actually, you know, I could do that shit. Yeah? Yeah, I could do that shit.

Okay. I just need that. What are the shoes? You got certain shoes, right? Spikes. Exactly. If I have those, I'm good.

That's all I need is the shoes. That's really all you need. So, okay, let's do some audience questions. Okay. So if you guys have questions, please submit them to ask raw talk at gmail.com and i'm going to read some questions off um so it says if you were to die tomorrow

are you satisfied with what you accomplish in life oh what are some things that you haven't done yet that you would want to accomplish before you die yo every day i haven't done enough what the fuck i feel like damn that's a really good question because this is this is like the thing that gives me the most anxiety is death really yeah heavily it didn't mean for a little bit but now i can fully sit here and say that I've lived a very full life. No, no, you haven't. You're 22. Shut up. What? Dude. No. I feel like I've experienced

more than most like even adults that I know. I'm not saying that's not true, but you're still 22 years old. You got a lot. You know? You got a lot more to do? Why you keep trying to mansplain to me that I'm 22 years old? Because you, I'm just saying you have so much more time like so much more shit you could teach people

and show people. Yes, but you're just good. Life experience. Like yes, there's so much more I could do. Of course. Myself, but like, I'm talking like from experiencing with like other people and things in this world, things to do, things to see. I feel like I've seen a lot. There's definitely so much more. I need to go to Asia. That's where I want to go.

They haven't been. I haven't been to, I haven't been to Iceland. I haven't been to any places like that, yeah. But I feel like you like, you've done pretty cool shit too. Like you live every day out. Like, look at all this, you know? Yeah. I mean, I love my life.

Don't get me wrong. I just feel like there's so much more for me to do. Like what? Why aren't you doing it? I'm trying. I'm trying to do it. I'm trying to do it. I'm trying to do it, which is like, honestly, like, to be honest, like this podcast stuff is the thing that I enjoy the most because it's, it's allowed me to put myself in a situation with people, successful people or just myself in general in this format and really share about like my life and where I've been.

And that's why I tried it earlier. Like, I know the most uncomfortable thing for you was like talking about that point in your, in your childhood. But that's why I kind of like wanted to really do this podcast in general was to try to figure these things out about other people. because it's kind of always helped me with my childhood and my life. So I just feel like I haven't done enough of that just in general. I feel like there's more to share, there's more to give.

There's a lot of depth to everybody for sure. And for me, with everything, like I definitely don't share as much anymore just because the internet, it used to be a place that was safe to talk about that stuff, but just based on the position I'm in right now, I feel like I can't really like afford to

share certain things because the amount of times I've gone in something with good intentions and not even thought of like the thousands of possibilities that could happen from saying something on the internet and then somehow it gets tracked back to people or it's just weird stuff happens

so like I literally just do it as like a safety precaution to my life and the people around me but I'm an open book when it comes to who I am and what I do and the people I spend time with like the only thing I keep personal is like that hard shit that you're talking about like i think it's good to touch on like i'll talk about addiction i'll talk about self-harm but i'm not going to sit here and be like yeah like this is how i cut myself

or go into great detail about anything like that um but the concept of it and being able to have those open conversations is really important and like i think this is probably one of the longest extended conversations we've had so it's been cool to to do that and gets know you better still waiting to hear about your love life but it's okay probably not going to happen I was at your gym yeah okay where are we going with this

and some dude some dude that is your friend that is my friend how do you know he was my friend because I've seen you guys hanging out of the gym okay hanging out of the gym which I don't go to the gym that much

so when this still happens like the couple times I go I'm just so funny walked up to me mid-workout asked me on a date to pizza he's like do you like pizza that was his first question do you like pizza do you like pizza and i was like not knowing he was going into asking me on a date he just asked if i liked pizza i was like yeah i like pizza and he was like we should go for pizza and i was like at the gym do you feel like that's like a is that a well because like every time i go

the gym like your gym's a little bit different because it's like super fitness oriented people right But most gyms, every time women have been posting. I've seen some crazy shit on TikTok of women like going through and showing like this is what the guy was doing while I was working out. Like it's a lot. Yeah. Like guys are just fucking weird at gyms. Yeah.

Guys suck. I'm not going to lie, man. Let's talk about how guys suck guys. I mean, listen, dude, they're fucking, they're scummy like sometimes, you know? Girls are crazy too. Same shit. It's the same. It's more like a person to person thing.

So was that like, did you say yes to this guy? I'm curious now. He's my friend. I'm like, did I know? He never told me that. That's not my boy. That's not my friend.

He would have told me I asked him for pizza. Who the fuck was this guy? He's bald. Oh, I know exactly who it is. Holy shit. That's dope. I know he is my friend.

I know exactly who that is. That's awesome. That's all I had to say. Yeah, yeah. Because it clicked and I remembered. Yeah. Yeah.

You know, like not that I don't, just at the gym, I feel like it should just be a general rule of thumb to not. ask people on days. Really? Right?

Well, what if you're like a gym bro, though? I mean, like, I'm in there. Like, we're in, I'm in. That's what I do with my life, right? So it's like, for you, it's a little bit different. It's like, I have no other place. I don't go anywhere else. I'm a loser.

But like, those are your clients. No, no, no, no, no. I'm just saying my whole life I've spent in the gym. Like, most of my time, I'm in the gym. I'm not even going to lie to you. So if I saw a girl in the gym, yeah, I'm going to approach her because, like, I'm not really seeing girls other places. I'm not really going out like that.

But balance. We talked about balance. Yeah, I don't know shit about that. I just know how to balance like the weights and the weights here. I could balance them there. I'm going to need to be like I want to like sit on a bar and see like if you're actually stably lifting. I'm fully stably lifting.

I'm fucking confident in that. There's a few things I'm good at. I see some interesting weird positions you've had girls get in to lift them up on like curling around like, hey, I've tried it with people and it never works. So. Doesn't work for you. It's worked for me for time. I'm a tall human being, so it's kind of hard.

You're not that tall. You're tall with the fucking giant shoes. You literally fucking said how tall I was. Yeah, well, also because you had the giant shoes. You had the giant shoes on. When I take these off, I'm tall. These are like an inch, an inch and a half, maybe. That is fucking two and a half inches.

Absolutely not. Yes, it is. Get a fucking, get a thing. Get a ruler. I'm 5-9 without the shoes, okay? All right, you're taller than average. We'll leave it there. I think the average female height is 5-7.

or the average yeah it is five seven it's five five now damn I'm yeah it's five five that helps my case a little bit more yeah your average male height is five nine is it really I'm the average male height damn wow how is that dating yeah you like do you like tall a guy's or well I actually I know now just based on a few things anyways yeah I know the answer yeah what kind of guys I I wish I could just say all this shit. God damn it. I just can't.

Okay. Go to the second question. Jesus. Sorry, I could like talk about, I could talk to a wall. Like, I can just keep going. No,

I love it. That's what we're here for. Okay. So another audience question, since you guys didn't really answer the other one, but whatever. What was it again? That's funny.

It was about like, have you done enough in life? I literally answered it. She did answer. He did answer. He did answer. He didn't answer. He didn't answer it.

You didn't answer fully. she answered that shit i avoided that shit i'm gonna be honest right now but yeah give us the next one okay fine it says i was with the mother of my baby for five years she claimed she loved me and i was the one she was always quick to leave the relationship and start another one in less than a month yet i would always take her back when she was done with them am i an idiot for this or am i a good guy as of right now we aren't together i do love her but want to know your thoughts type of thing definitely I need to

sorry I got to be honest here I got to interrupt you you can't do that look you're being both okay there's a lot of reasons I get that you're staying for your kid and that's important you love her and that's important but you are hurting yourself in the process promise if you're divorced and just get split custody

that would be better yeah for the kid yeah because that's that's tough yeah like you're mental right like how are you going to deal with raising a kid properly if like you're constantly stress out about whatever she may or may not be doing. I just feel like obviously I can't relate. That's just disrespectful and like no one should ever have to watch the person

they're in love with leave. And then come back and then leave and then come back. Yeah, I just. And the kid is watching all that. Yeah, I would avoid that. That's super dark. Thank you for that question. No, no, no.

It's a dude people. I know. That's super dark. No, it's dark. It's just I feel bad. That's real shit though. And then they asked and they were like, I mean, how do I get over it? Oh, fuck.

Okay. I'm not having the courage. Courage to leave someone, especially when you're comfortable and you have like a whole life together is really hard, but you deserve better than that and know that there's endless possibilities and amazing humans who would never do something like that. I would say that and focus on the kid. Yes. That focus on the kid's future. Set an example for your child. If that happened to your kid when your kid's older, would you want their significant other doing that to them?

No. Yeah. Look at your inner child. Drop the mic. Yeah, that's it. I would say focus on a kid for real I mean, not trying to make it If you can make it work, amazing

But I wouldn't make it about trying to make it work With the woman I'd be like just make it work for your kid However you can make the kid most comfortable And focus on that And kind of let the other part go I know it's hard because love is fucking difficult But it's a part of life

Give us another question Love is bitch Another question It says I wanted to ask What is your best advice When it comes to burning out Working on your purpose in life does that make sense

when you're feeling burnt out I'm assuming right yeah so I mean it says when it comes to burning out working on your purpose in life is how they worded it but yes when you feel burnt out typically when you're burning out again how many times have I said balance

it's just because you're doing something like so much too much you're hyper-focused on it having perspective gives inspiration in my opinion because you can't be inspired to create something or be motivated if you're not going through something or learning something or experiencing something new. You can try to be creative based off, like, things you've already experienced,

but you can only do that for so long, you know, like you can only preach about this one thing. Like, I feel like it's important to grow and evolve. So just even like trying something new for a change, adding an extra hobby. For sure. Taking some time off so you can't appreciate what you do because typically if you were very passionate about something, it's not like it's gone. You're just feeling burned out, right? Yeah.

taking time to have inspiration and time for yourself. I feel like self-care is used to be kind of like a big thing that everyone talked about, but not as much anymore. Yeah, it's super underrated. And it's super, super important. Like, the only reason I'm able to do anything that I do is because I, like how you're saying, like be the boss of your own schedule, right? Like, if I'm, if I was to keep going, how I'm going with DJing right now,

I'll be burned out in six months, absolutely. And I've been spending the past four months trying to figure out, how to have a balanced lifestyle with that, with anything with work. Because the last thing I want to do is burn out. I'm trying to go for longevity. Like you want to create something and build something long term. It's all how you delineate what you're doing. Like if you're constantly straightforward going like,

I've got to do this thing. This is what I'm passionate about. This is what I love. That's amazing. But if like you're constantly going, you feel this friction is like you're hitting this wall. You need to change directions sometimes. Like you said, focus on something different.

Focus on yourself. Trying to go about it in a different way is the key. so whether it be like she said focusing on self-help like self-care for yourself like maybe you just need literally give yourself time away from trying to get that thing done or to get closer to that thing that's a way to do it going instead of continuing to try to go straight you know linearly go take a left and see like what's over there for you can you can you explore something different that maybe be along the same lines of the thing that you're passionate about you care about but giving yourself time to kind of like try something brand new that's super fucking that's super fucking important even if it's not directly on the thing that's like adding like okay this is but that's where I want to go like even if you're like you want to be a musician or an artist whatever right and you're like okay well maybe I'm going to go left and just start trying to fucking paint because I always kind of like wanted to paint something it's completely left feel but you might experience something in that whole process of learning about that that might change

and help you and add you as you go forward towards the thing that you're you truly feel passionate about so it's really just about slowing down and like giving yourself perspective and And he being like, okay, here's where I'm at in my life. And like, I'm hitting this wall. What's really going on? Instead of like, just keep trying to hit the wall. Because if you, if you just stay in one lane and focus on that one thing, like how he's talking about, like just going linear, it makes it seem like in your world and in your mind that's the most and only important thing. Yeah.

When really there's everyone's living different lives. There's so much fucking going on around you. We're all floating on a rock through space. Yeah. It's how I mean shit. But anxiety, depression, like all these mental illnesses, it sort of stems from, or burnout or whatever, just stems from the way that fucking society has set up jobs. It's like work this one job the rest of your life over and over and over when you're not

paying attention to experiencing and you're just, like I was talking about survival mode, like living to exist, it's hard. So you have to, it's harder nowadays to do that, but it's so worth it to like just go drive you can just you know it doesn't have to be like this crazy like vacation spot i like literally just go to a different restaurant go drive somewhere you've never been before yeah go give yourself some perspective and you'll realize that there's just joy like find joy in all the small things and don't overthink things too much i'm like a big keep you simple person because when you start everything you shit you can just keep going forever yeah it just goes that that was a great question

Are there any more like that? Yeah, I mean, I think this one's interesting. Like, not, like, I think it's a good question. They're all good questions. Fuck it. I mean, yeah. So it says both of you guys being successful in different ways. What were some defining moments that you had to, like, that you had to overcome in your path to success?

Let's hear it, Brad. Hmm. Damn. I mean, it's kind of like what we talked about earlier. I think, like, like. I mean, fuck. I'm trying to think the biggest thing I overcame. Probably the judgment of self, like, am I good enough to do something?

Like, you know, are people going to care about what I have to say? Are the things I'm saying? Like, do they mean enough? Or are people going to, like, receive it in a certain way? At least when on Internet, on YouTube, when I started, like, really talking about my life and where I've been, um, outside of just being like, yeah, I'm a gym, bro, I work out. I lift the weight, lift the girls, I have the fun, whatever, being able to be vulnerable in those moments and share about my childhood and about my life and about where I've been.

There's definitely something, you know, internal that I had to overcome when I first started posting that stuff because, you know, like I known about the internet being a place where people just attack you for everything, no matter how much good you try to do or how much good you try to put out. And there's definitely that reservation that I had where I was like, okay, how are people going to receive this um and i guess i don't know i just over the time i just once i started doing it i was or right before i started to do it i just kind of said fuck it like like i guess even with the music at any point where you like am i going to be good at this and are people going to like this yeah it took a really long time for me to believe myself yeah i was good at it um it definitely there's a lot of

self-doubt. I feel like self-doubt is the number one thing that gets people to, again, over thinking of like, can I even, like, you can't knock yourself before you've tried something before you've done something. Yeah, that's, that's huge too, guys. Like, it's straight up just, it's, it's so hard to say this is just what you have to do because it's never this simple, right? Because we have so many reasons why we don't do the things we want to do in our life and so many other, like, things are connected to it. They're like, I would never know the person listening right now, what are the things you've going through or what you've gone through or the, like, why you ask that question but it's it's a real like the thing you can I can be sure about when I answer this

is like you have to pause and think about it even goes back to the last question think about what's really important to you and try to like understand that inside yourself so that you know even when you do go to these moments where you feel like fuck you know am I willing to go to the next step you're just comfortable in doing it no matter what happens like because on the other side of it, whether you get all the things you think you want to get or not, like, it is what really matters to you. And if it is what really matters to you, then it doesn't matter if someone else hears it and they're like, oh, I really like this or that was great or thank you for that. It just mattered to you so you did it. You didn't do it for some sort of like, you

know, recognition from someone else to say you're good at this. Like it mattered to you and you did it. And I think once you start living your life like that, whether it be like music or content you're making, that's when you really be successful in it because you don't do it trying to like appease someone because I'm telling you this and I've talked about this so many times you can do everything the perfect way the right way and everyone people are going to go like oh I love that and then you're still going to have a 10,000 people and be like fuck you you suck so it's just like you can't live your life trying to make people happy all around 100% it's just not what's going to happen but if you live your life being like this is true from my heart and

genuine from my soul then that's it and I just had to realize and recognize that I was just like fuck it. This is how I feel. This is what I think. I'm just going to say it. If people like it, cool. If they don't, cool. And did my feelings get hurt sometimes when people don't like it? For sure. But over time, it's just like, you get the response to people being like, I really appreciate that. Then it's just like, fuck it. Just do it. And when you're talking about the question, overcoming moments regarding that, you know, not letting your personal life and the hurtful things people do to you dictate and change the way you're living your life.

is easier said than done because when people do shitty things to you or when you're talking about like what are the moments you overcame stuff like a lot of time what I was having to overcome was you know like being attacked online is something it's an experience that I don't think anyone can really explain or or being attacked by thousands of people whether it's in person or over the internet or people saying stuff to you but for me what I have to to overcome was yeah like doing what I loved and continuing to do what I love regardless of what people say or think about me because it can be very fucking hard like I don't know when people can actually get into your head like obviously I try not to let comments and stupid shit like that matter but even in my real life like people coming up to me and just treating me completely different saying all this shit like for me what I had to overcome was the fact that I got into social media to connect with people and it actually ended up doing the opposite. Yeah, disconnecting you.

Which was the hard terms to come to and trying to want to continue to do it and be that light and be that difference and not conform to how, you know, becoming bitter, becoming angry, becoming egotistical because it's like very, very easy with all the stuff going on. But trying to keep that perspective, trying to stay humble. I wouldn't even say it's like a hump. I would literally say it's like a everyday situation, like my life. I remember when I was 18 and this was like my dream and then it happened. I just couldn't believe it.

Like I, like turning your dreams into reality. Like I just was being a good person, doing good things, doing what I wanted. And then when everything started changing and really like evolving, like just social interactions, It's like small stuff that people crave, like having a connection with someone, being able to trust people, just going out in public and meeting new people. Like, it gets fucking hard and it's super weird and, like, isolating, like, this job. You're talking about in relationship to social media. Yeah. Yeah.

Like getting the humps of social media, the humps of people being, like, still all the time. Like, that's why there's no humps. It's like an everyday fucking thing. And you just have to choose to ignore it and focus on your dream and do what you want to do regardless. of what other people think and say even in relationships in marriages like I was with someone the other day and they're like yeah my wife like won't let me get a tattoo and I was like like that's weird to me what the fuck like you shouldn't be telling like I just couldn't be in a relationship like that where it's like my significant other setting boundaries or rules for myself like and I feel like that

is a struggle nowadays because everyone is so into like self-love and self-focused but like being able to do what you do and separate work and personal I was talking to you about this I remember last time I saw you I've been trying to do that so much because yes I have so many close friends in my personal life but with work like you won't even realize it but

you're spending so much time with people or building relationships and it all kind of like focals around that and then just weird things happen from it so I definitely have been trying to separate the two and have people in my life that know me and know who I am and know what I'm doing so that those comments

those random fucking people it doesn't matter like everyone who knows me and knows me in real life that's what I care about not comments and likes but if you're isolating yourself in a room which is where I get concerned for these kids on TikTok because I've done it myself and went through my own phase where TikTok just made me depressed um you can sit in your room all fucking day and read that shit yeah it's like an endless whirlpool like in elementary school and middle school people teach you about cyber bullying in being put in a group message what do you do now when the whole fucking like internet comes for you like no one can prepare kids

for that shit cyber bowling like my little brother the stuff he goes through like he got asked out on a date and turned down a girl and like 10 girls put him in a group message and we're just making fun of him and then they posted it all over the internet and it turns into like a huge thing like kids like people who don't understand like cyber bowling is like a fully real thing and it happens to me on a daily basis like i get sent the most disturbing fucking graphic pictures ever and it's like been there's so many things about the internet that I really don't like honestly I don't blame you that's been the hump to get over I'm like I love creative expression in my job but like fuck like trying to be the difference in amidst such

dark energy and like that's something that I do love about all influencers that I have met at least or the TikTok kids like yes they may know not I honestly really like how you you differentiate The influencers and the TikTok kids. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. That was funny, though. That's funny to me. That's funny as fuck to me.

No, I love it. It's fine. I'm sorry. I mean, do you know why though? No, tell me why. I mean, I know why, but I want to hear your perspective why. Do you think they're the same thing? No.

No. No. No. Like which ones are we... No, they're not. No, they're not. No one's coming for you. It's only positive.

It's all in your head. No, I just think it is different because, in my opinion, an influencer is someone who is impacting, influencing, changing, actively trying to make a difference in something or push a message. TikTok is more like personality-based, life's, even more so than I thought. Like, I thought Instagram was lifestyle based before, but now TikTok, it's like, yeah, my routine. When I eat in a day, here's my relationship. It's like personable, relatable content that people.

are pushing out and it's more it's like informative um which is cool and uh TikTok I honestly spend more time on TikTok I think than Instagram now Instagram is like a nice little organized place TikTok's fun it's great it's it's an admin for kids too like when it first came out I was like fuck this thing I hated it I was so resistant to it same but then I really like it now so I like both honestly but yeah influencers are like and there's people on TikTok who I would consider influencers but there's TikTokers and there's influencers and you can kind of as soon as you decide like it's been so cool to see so many of the TikTok kids like even like jaden turned into like a legitimate artist yeah watching close friends of mine like even like Taylor like how he has his songs and his music

videos and he's doing so many awesome things um watching you know like Chase like little huddy and it's so funny it's like all these guys I'm like actually trying to think of like a girl who who oh yeah Nessa. Nessa is fucking crushing it. I was never super close with her, but she's really sweet. I met her a couple times. She's,

her voice is amazing. Like, to see these kids that did have a message. And I remember meeting them just, like, you can just tell the difference. Is that the thing that you think, I know we're kind of getting away

from these questions, but is that the thing that you think that pushes people further? Is like the actual connection with like some sort of messes that they. Yes. Yeah. Absolutely.

Because creating a storyline, like, it's like little windows into your life. If you're just posting pictures, people are going to have no fucking clue what's going on. Like, you're not giving anyone any context. Or they just have assumptions. Yes. Assumptions, context, things lost in translation, which is cool when you're like being artistic.

But when you're trying to tell a story and people like latch on to something, like Jaden through and through is who he puts himself out to be, which is awesome. And he talks about like his past and how he overcame it. And you can very clearly see it through his music. Like it's all cohesive across the board because he's being authentic. Right. And people just want to see people be authentic and do well. Like, I think we all want to see that. I just want to see you fucking be yourself and crush it.

Easier something done. But honestly, in this era and the world that we're living in now, my generation, any generation below me, does have that luxury, which is awesome. I talk about it all the time. Like, my parents just never had that option. It was not a thing. Like, it was like you have to go to college.

You have to do this. And so, so, so much. I think mine was the first generation. I was like, we could do it. Really? Yeah. I mean, Instagram started. Like, it wasn't a thing, and then I started when it started.

How old were you when Instagram became like a thing? Well, I was... Like a job. For me, when it became a job? Or like a, yeah, like a sustainable... Because it started in 2000, like the end of 2010, October. And I started like right, or like January at 2011. So like I started...

Wait, how old are you? I'm 32. Okay, and I'm 22. So I'm really. So I'm really. bad at math i would love to give you that number but um so bad maybe one of you guys can do that i'm 32 2011 okay yeah we're all bad at math that's okay listen that's okay we're not doing it's not like a math fucking competition here i'm thinking about something else i'm just trying to think

how so 2011 you're 32 we're in 22 we're in 22 we're in 22 we're 20 22 when you're 21, I was 12. Okay, I mean, you just made this super awkward for me, but like, okay, Jesus Christ, what? That's what I was right. Why do we have to put this in the podcast? Because I was, I think I was around that age when, yeah, Instagram, like, became a thing. Yeah. Well, I was 21.

I mean, what? I kind of disagree with Brad, because I don't think Instagram, like, officially, because in I was like 13, 14, I'm 27, so I'm in the middle. But, like, in my generation, none of us were like, I want to be an influencer. Like Instagram was very much a thing. But like it was never like, yo, let's monetize it and make it a career. So you're so accurate because I had no idea that it was going to be a thing.

I was just like I remember getting the app and being like, it's actually weird. I spent time looking at the internet all the time because Twitter was a thing. Twitter was very popular. And I would read about people making money on Twitter and making money on social media. And this is like going to be the new wave. Like it's going to change the world. They would talk about this show. I remember and and I was like well I want to like I want to ride that wave I remember thinking in this I've talked about this before my podcast but it spawned simply because when I was like 15 16 17 18 19 20 years old I was so heavily into playing video games and I was like I want to be able to play video games and work out and not go to work and that was where I was like I want to figure out how to do this shit because I was reading about Twitter and how people were making money online and then I was I would like look at the app store like every day at the new stuff and then Instagram comes out and I was like oh this is it.

I'm gonna this is gonna be the one and I just remember just just guessing that this was the one and I was like the guy who was like you'll follow me on Instagram they're like what the fuck is Instagram okay I swear to God when I tell you this I had 10,000 followers guaranteed first person in the fitness industry with 10,000 followers yeah yes guaranteed and I would go to shows and I would go to shows and people would be like that's the guy with 10,000 followers like I don't know if like how silly it sounds so done it's a real thing like dude that's a lot of of followers. But I didn't know that it was going to be a thing because it wasn't. It wasn't like no people weren't making money from that yet. No but it all like dude I throughout my whole career like fucking from 10,000 followers to now people are like wow that's a lot of followers like it's the same reaction like from people like it's so crazy like that is starting from the beginning you remember how it was like with growth and how people would grow and how it was it was so much easier. It was wild you could grow on Instagram. I'm so easy.

I was doing like a million a year. That's fucking insane. For like three years. And then when TikTok came out, fucked everything up. What did they do? How did they fuck everything up? Because that would have just made it better, no?

No, it kind of, I feel like stole Instagram's engagement. Really? Because people spend more time on TikTok. There was no competing apps. So everyone was spending their time. 100%.

Yeah, you're right. And TikTok came in and now it's split time between both apps. And if not more TikTok because TikTok has a lot more aesthetically pleasing viewing option of like your full screen have your content on it and being able to just swipe which is like a fucking slot machine yeah it's totally like real life gambling yeah it's fucking crazy

why were we talking about this well you guys were talking about like overcoming things and then you guys just went on a tangent bro and I always have really long in-depth conversation yes this is kind of like my personality um same sorry anyway so like tell me all your trauma right now I know I tried to get it out of you like nope not gonna talk about it um i talked to you about it off camera always it's fine it's fine so that's it's it's you have a question for me get the fuck out no i got to pee i have to be so bad yeah i got a pee okay okay okay thanks guys for watching the you know i love how you just like you guys are awesome thanks for subscribing and paying to

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Okay. That was dope. That was so bad. I got to be so bad. When he goes like this? Like that? Like that, dude. What?

I didn't even say it. This is Sparta, yeah. I don't actually do it now. That actually was kind of bugged. I heard you, pussy. Say this is sported. No. Dude.