RAWTALK - Confronting N3on About Viewbotting, Selling His Soul & The Truth About His WWE Backlash

Episode Date: August 18, 2026

On This Episode Of RawTalk, Bradley Martyn Sits Down With N3on And Talks About Burning Out, Viewbotting, WWE Backlash, His Collabs W/ Mark Wahlberg & Dillon Brooks, Sneako Saying He Sold His Soul, His Fear Of Losing Fame, And Much More! Sponsor RAWTALK: https://public.liveread.io/media-kit/rawtalk SUBSCRIBE HERE: https://www.youtube.com/c/REALRAWTALK?sub_confirmation=1 LISTEN ON APPLE PODCASTS: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/rawtalk/id1294154339 FOLLOW RAWTALK PODCAST: INSTAGRAM | https://instagram.com/getrawtalk TIKTOK | https://tiktok.com/@askrawtalk FOLLOW BRADLEY: INSTAGRAM | https://instagram.com/bradleymartyn SUBSCRIBE TO RAWTALK PODCAST CLIPS: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCvzSBNBOK599FqzrTZS8ScQ/?sub_confirmation=1 SUBSCRIBE TO LIFE OF BRADLEY MARTYN: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCWTQG2aMDYKGDqYEGqJb1FA/?sub_confirmation=1 SUBSCRIBE TO FITNESS CHANNEL: https://www.youtube.com/bradleymartynonline?sub_confirmation=1 RAWGEAR: https://www.rawgear.com (CODE:RAW) Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

How many times I flaked on you, bro? You flaked on me a lot. Like three times. I get it. I'm not young thug or fucking promos. You know, you know, I always have to prioritize you, but... Come on, bro.

I know. What the fuck is going on? What happened to you? I don't know, bro. The hair that just got to your head? I've had this hair for a year. Yeah, it's fucking making you retarded. No, it's not.

This hair is beautiful. Where's your fucking hair? Yeah, it's gone. Exactly. So you can talk about hair. Yeah, your hair's going to go the way you treat people, bro. Wow. Yeah.

So you just probably treat people. people like shit. No, my hair went by default. No, I think you're just a fucked up person, Brad. Me? And this is Carmen hitting you. I think I'm the nicest person ever, bro. No, you are nice, bro.

You always have my back yellow. He's been there for me. And I flaked only flaked on me. You fucking, it's been, hold on. By the way, I got to let make sure chat knows. 9, 9 p.m. Yesterday he goes, yeah, we'll do it tomorrow. Okay, if you're hosting a podcast, you're supposed to send a follow up.

Yo, see you later. No, what I'm sharing with someone, I text them. And you're, bro, you've been doing this for like 30 years. Okay. Bro. There's no way you're going to gaslight me like a fucking bitch right now into why you forgot that you said today. No,

every time I do stream, I will say, hey, see you soon. See you later. You texted me at 9-10. How far are you? Bro,

my memory's fucked. Bro. You texted me the day prior. We were going to do 9 o'clock the day prior. You said you'll do it tomorrow. My bad. We'll do it today. We'll do it the next day.

Now here we are the next day. Our, our fucking two, wait. Yeah, an hour and third, two hours late, bro. You had this motherfucker sitting here for two hours. And this is my home, so it's different for me.

And other news, this room smells great. God damn, bro. I know, bro, I'm sorry. You're just big-time in people now. No, it's one of the first podcast you ever did. No, it's not like that, bro. I promise you what's not like that. It feels like that.

How can I make it up to? I don't know. I don't know, man. I'm not one of those guys. I don't care. I just remember everything. Wow. I'm going to try to tell everybody.

I'm going to hit up everybody. And you're going to talk by my background. I'm going to find all your plugs. my fucking interviews. Who is this fucking guy, bro? No, it's not that. I promise you is I'm going through a very weird era. Okay.

Yeah, what's weird about it? I just, I don't know. You make it all this. Oh, I got a new gambling deal. Okay, whatever. That's money.

Whatever. It's just, I've just been like a little lost in life. So I just been like very sad. Like to myself, I stay by myself a lot with my dog. I was going to say shout to her, but she's not even a fucking human.

The dog. She's not going to watch it. Yeah. Exactly. But shout out to the dogs. Yeah. But yeah. So I've just been like,

I haven't taken, like, I haven't been streaming as much. I've been, like, doing, like, shorter hours. Like, I just been, like, I feel like I really burnt myself out. So, like, now I'm just, this last, like, I'd say a month and a half, I've just been, like, not myself at all. Yeah, it's interesting because before you came here, I was going to say, like, I always, you know, people always talk shit. They'd be like, you bought all the shorter shit, blah, blah, blah.

You're just about a lot of streamers in general. But I'd say the one thing about you that I recognize really early on is that you just are easily the most consistent person. So it's interesting to hear you now say you're like, fuck, I've burnt. myself out, which makes sense. Well, I didn't just burn myself. I burned my team out. My security went from 24-7 for the full year to having to go month to month and need a month off because I travel so much. My assistant, best assistant in the world, Mia, she needed a break. She couldn't do it. She's like as robotic as me. Like, she's amazing. She's the best. My cameraman. Couldn't do it.

My whole team fell apart. This past like two months. Everyone fell apart. They couldn't do it. I've been like working like a like a fucking alien for like two years now. And I still will. I'm going to continue to do it. But there's just like, I think it hit me like after like testing the limits, I finally tested the very max limit and it just all hit me at once. What do you mean the max limit? Of just like burning my body out mentally, like my life, you have a bug in your thing. This is because we had a door old before you're waiting for fucking two hours, bro. It followed you in.

Huh? Yeah. That bug followed you in, bro. I've been showering two times a day now. In what? This is a big thing for me. What are you shower in? Fucking water, bro.

Oh, okay. I don't know. I'm like, my God. I'm showering in like, dick. You're such an asshole, bro. What? He got me so mad right now. I'm trying to be so kind to you.

Honestly, I swear to God, before you came, I was like, I'm just going to body slam this motherfucker, break the table, and that's going to be the end of the podcast. You're serious? Yeah. And you know, I wouldn't blame you. I was going to body slam you. This is a very fucked up situation.

I know how to fix it, though. Have, like, a 10 minute, just was going to be a 10 minute thing where we were going to talk, I was going to body slam you. Is that still happening? I'm considering it. Fuck, but you're like fidgeting. Like, the royd rage is about to hit you. Not even Royed rage anymore.

I'm glad you finally admitted to it, bro. No, because when I first met you, you wouldn't admit to shit. Bro, I've told forever people that I've done testosterone. Because I've asked you, do you take steroids and you've always said no. But when the fuck have I said no? When I first met you? That's a lie. I was troll you every day.

And you'd be like, no, I don't take steroids. But now you're open about everything and it's okay because it's obvious. You couldn't hide the fact, brother. Look at your veins. It's been a lie. I've never, ever not admitted to it. That's a lie. That's not true.

You're lying. So if I've asked you in the past, do you take steroids? You're like, no, dude. Maybe I was joking like. No, no, it's a joke. No, I've never. You're manipulator. How's your love life, bro?

You're trying to manipulate me in real time. Brother, how's your love life? It's fucking terrible. How's your love life? It's fucking terrible. Do you see the fucking economy we're in? Yeah, but you got all the money. What are you worried about?

Dude, listen, it is impossible. You know, you're 45. You've been through everything. No, you understand. You're 31. I just saw your birthday, guys. But everyone said that. No one said that.

You made it up in your head. It's all over Twitter. I swear to God. I'm probably. I promise you. Show me one tweet. All right. I show you right now.

You're not going to find it. I swear to God, watch. Look at this. Everything on Twitter is true. You got this shit deleted. Look at this fucking guy. Guys got all the clippers. He got all the fucking boss.

I swear to God, dude. Someone tweeted you were 31. No one tweeted that. Whatever, dude. You feel 31. I feel 30. Oh, maybe it was the caption was I feel like a lot of 30. No, someone literally said.

I didn't know he was 31. Oh, no. It's everywhere. It's not everywhere. The tweet probably got 50 likes. I would have seen it if it's everywhere. I'm on my phone every second. Right.

Because you would have bought it all the other ones. No, that's, you don't bought clips. Oh, what do you bought then? Nothing. But no,

but people, hold on. I was got your ass. No. Now, for real, though. That's why like, I feel like the whole botting thing

around me and like, other streamers, whatever, but like it's died down so much. Be honest. At one point you bought it. No. We'd be honest.

No, it's an honest podcast, brother. Bro. No, Listen, because people could say so much for so long, but then, like, it shows, like, with my presence everywhere, it shows, okay, this guy actually has real motion. This guy will go out and fucking this and this and this. There's two things that are, there's two things that are possible here.

Okay. What you just said is one. The second one is you were, now, again, this has nothing to do with your work ethic. Yeah. Because I think you work hard as fuck. The second thing is, you did it so well, bodding, that. you convince all these other people because bro it's not even just you i don't want to make this a you thing so many people fucking bought like i've been i've seen so many people buy views on fucking

podcast on what podcasters buy views all of that give me one name i'm not giving you brother go come on bro you're o-g you're unc in this game you can say whatever you want all of them bro so the point that i'm making is like a mother a ton of motherfuckers bought so for you in your case i was just basically saying like what if you were the guy that you were so good at finessing the system, you're so good with clippers. There's no denying that. You have an army of fucking clippers. That then you're, because people go, oh, this guy's everywhere.

And then they see the views. And they go, yeah, of course I'm going to show up on a stream. Then you have these people, all these people showing up on streams. But now you've done it for so long that it's just like, of course I'm going to be on the stream. As a man, I think you have to cover your ankles. I just got to put that out there. Are you trying to deflect? No, I'm just saying.

But, okay. Yeah. What's wrong with the anchors? Nothing. It's just kind of disgusting, bro. You don't like the ankle? You're a fucking man. Why is your foot inflamed?

Whatever. My foot's inflamed? Yeah, bro. It's kind of dirty. What? You need to get a pedic. Are you? Look at you deflecting.

I'm not deflecting. I'm not really, bro. I don't know, I respect that. I don't get to fuck anymore. I played the game for way too long for too many people. You're on crash out mode. I don't care, bro. You don't give a fuck.

I don't care. Wow. I don't give a fuck, bro. Holy shit. Yeah, it's real. I can feel it. It's real. You don't give a fuck.

I don't give a fuck. Wow. I mean, you've seen everything, bro. No. Not once. Interesting. Maybe someone embodied you. No.

Okay, fine. I believe you. Okay. Why are you like, it's your beard? Okay, I get genuine question now, genuine question.

Yeah. All the bullshit aside. How do you go about getting your guests? You personally message them? Yeah. It's all personal, where I'm grinding. I'm hustling,

bro. Like, Iggy, I've said this before, but like, Iggy took me like five months to get. A lot of these people

like that you see me, I'm collaborating with, I'm talking to them for months and months. I'm getting ghosted. Honestly, is just like if I send the right message at the right time they'll respond but then if not

some people don't want to get on stream or it's not the right time I just keep following up a lot of like just knowing someone who knows someone a lot of DMing but yeah it's all me bro all my collabs all like me personal outreach or knowing someone how'd you get past the whole like the perspective of you that people had like I guess maybe a lot of them didn't know but like

on the internet prior obviously I know you had like moments where like certain streamers now kind of don't fuck with you or they do but it was like a weird moment like a lot of sure's don't fuck with me They'll say they do, but they don't. Yeah. But that's why I stay in my own lane. So, like, I don't, obviously, there's Aden.

There's a few, I don't want to forget any names. Like, Max, really cool guy. Yeah. Lacey, cool guy. A lot of, a lot of streamers are very fake, bro. The streaming game is so much like the, like, rap game now. And there's politics and clicks and, like, all these little groups and egos. And, like, at the end of the day, we're fucking streamers that pick up a camera.

Yeah. So it's, yeah. I just stay in my own lane, bro, completely. And I'm going to continue to do that. Like I don't, I mean, obviously, clabbing at other streamers helps me build more of a streaming audience. But like, it's just like people have always been weird towards me no matter what.

But I feel like now, like I'm getting to a point, like I'm working so hard to where people have to say something. Like they can't, now they look like haters if they keep hating. Yeah, I see you're saying. So how'd you break in?

Because it seems like now you have all these more, more mainstream people. Yeah. I'm a collab merchant. Oh my God. Like I just, fuck, I fiend for collabs,

bro. It's smart though. Like I feel like their audience, my audience, like, public perception, like, it all comes together and just works. Yeah, you did what? You did a WWE wrestler today. Yeah. Was that today? Yeah, it was today. She was great. I had a great

time. And, like, she was getting a text from, like, one of the heads of the WWE, and she's like, wow, this was great. We love this. WWE, they even have me on the fucking jumbo tron one day, like, all these these crazy things are just, yeah, just having it everything, bro. Literally, like, I don't, I don't know shit about WWE at all. And now I'm learning. Like, now I'm like, actually sitting there

learning, understanding, going to fights. Like, it's cool. Yeah, that fan base is not. bro. Yeah, and they're fucking, they hate me. Yeah. Do they hate you for a real? Yeah,

because, but there's a situation where, like, I was at Fanatics and like someone's face came on the camera that wasn't supposed to be there. Yeah.

Exactly. And it wasn't my fault and I had no bad intention. They told him he could take his mask off. So he, no one was in the wrong. Well, the people working there were in the wrong,

whatever. But the second I found out, I deleted the, like whatever I could, but it was already clipped. Yeah. Um, we after that,

they don't like me. Like the audience. Yeah, The audience things I did on purpose. Yeah. How do you even decide what you're going to talk about when you go with people? Like, for example, like if you didn't know, I think it was Tiffany Stratton, right? Yeah.

Like, you didn't really know much about it. Yeah. How do you decide I want to do the collab? I just started looking at WWE fighters and I was like, okay, she's like, the chat's going to fuck with her. She's a big name. Let's do it. I don't even like, I didn't prepare. I didn't do research, whatever.

I just went into. That's kind of how I do a podcast. And it works, right? That's why you're so successful because you just like, like, I don't try to think of questions ahead of time or whatever. I just let it go natural. I feel like for me, like I'm not entertaining

like I used to be because I was so crazy and I'm not as funny as I used to be because I don't really say the shit I used to say. Yeah. Like I feel like my specialty with streaming is like getting these personalities out of these people who aren't as comfortable in front of the camera,

not her, but just like in general like an NBA player or whatever it is that are like people see us boring and like, you know, bring them to life. Yeah. And getting stuff like talking to them,

having good conversations, making them like, you know, just have fun. Yeah. Who was your favorite collab so far that's been like the more like mainstream people. Bro, someone who I've really enjoyed,

and I'm surprised Dylan Brooks, NBA player? Yeah. People looked at him as such, such, such, like, interesting way, but like, such a cool guy I brought on and off camera. And, like, I feel like I really got his personality out on stream. And, like, he's just funny. And I have a great time with him.

I was just in Toronto with him. So someone like him. You just send a messages to get these people. Yeah. And they're just like, they probably like guy set it up. So my boy knew his boy and they connected us. And then after like countless conversations, we came together.

I feel like they're just accepting you. now and the more in the mainstream. Yeah, I know, but like, there's always this, like, this wonder in my head, like, how much further can I get? Like, obviously, I can do bigger collabs or whatever, but how many more people can scroll and see my face until it's just, like, maximize. Yeah, that's what I'm, that's kind of what I'm sort of getting out here is, like, where does it go?

Because I know you just had, you had Mark Wahlberg, and there was this whole, like, there was this whole issue, the streamers, like, they were going to do a stream with Lacey, and Lacey was like, I don't get, I don't get what they was talking about in that. I think he, I think, I think, I saw some clips. It was more talking about, like, if it has to be, or, to like promote something specifically and only this then it feels weird like when you did the stream with mark did it feel like you were doing a promotion no not at all that was with the point of the thing like they like his paramount set it up whatever um and like the main objective was to promote his movie is also natural we were supposed to be at the gym and just go to the gym and be done but then it ended up me going to his hotel us talking him like giving me his like full morning routine making me breakfast just because he liked me and now i'm going tomorrow to his um i think i'm meeting his son and meeting him again tomorrow too and then we're going his restaurant open So plenty more stuff with Mark.

Shout to Mark. Cool guy. Love the actor. Oh my God. The acting's great. Yeah, he's a good actor. Great act. Me's a fucking O'G.

But that doesn't, so you don't, like, it is interesting seeing how Hollywood is now just like completely shifting to like social media. They have for a time, but now it's like streamers.

Yeah, I mean, you see how open like, just like public places are now with the cameras and streaming? Like before it never used to be like this. It was so hard to film in areas. Yeah.

Now you can film anywhere, bro. Yeah. Anywhere. They want the promo. Yeah, exactly. Or, yeah, some sort of presence. Yeah, it's also a worry, too, like, how big can streaming, like, how much more can streaming go. Like, it just feels very oversaturated.

And, like, I feel like everyone, everyone in their mother is trying to do it. There's too many options, too many streamers to watch. And, like, the level is so high with people, like, Thai, like, doing big shit. So, like, you have to, like, either, like, compete with that or, like, do better, which is hard. But what in your mind? What is doing better? Like, just doing big, like, big, plan shit. But like the thing about me, bro, is I have the worst creative mind ever.

I can't think of one creative idea at all. Like, I suck at creative. These people, the speeds, the Kyes, all these other streamers, they're very creative. They're very smart. But for me, I can't. I can't think of an idea to save my life. How do you think you got this for? I don't know.

It's not creativity. No, no, no. I get what you're saying. I think I just, I'm smart in other ways. For example, like, I really mastered the, like, I study clipping every fucking day. Like, I'm obsessed with clipping. Like, that's what helped me a lot, building my relationships, which I, which I feel like I was good at, like getting these collabs, whatever.

Yeah. Knowing what to say on stream, whatever it is. But when it comes to, like, the creativity of a stream, like having the right segments to do, like the right big production ideas and, like, I don't have that at all. Are you trying to work on that? Are you like... I'm just like, like everyone have hired hasn't worked. So it's like, my streams are really, bro, if you sit down and watch, it's a lot of repetition,

bro, me doing the same things a lot. Just with different people. Yeah, for example, NBA player, same segments every time. Go on the basketball court. Play basketball. Go get food. Talk. That's it.

Every time. It's kind of like honestly, but my streams are starting to be like a walking podcast. Yeah. But that's not necessarily bad thing. Which isn't bad, I guess. No,

because I mean, at the end of the day, it's also like you kind of just want to see someone just be, in most of these cases, these people, like that the more popular people that are like harder to get in collabs or whatever, I think audience just wants to see them be regular people.

Yeah, exactly. Like the people that like the athletes they see on the field, they want to see them like what the people I actually are. And it benefits them too. Because they hop on and then they get love all these things and like, I don't know, hopping on a stream is the best way to fix your PR. Like, come, I'm, no, seriously.

Is that stream PR? What do you mean? You're doing stream PR for your own stream. No, no, no. Yeah, that's funny. You're good, dude. You're pretty creative. No, no.

Holy shit. W scammer. Fuck you, you racist piece of shit. No. Every person I've seen come on, because like, like, a lot of people like, like view people in certain ways, like just based off a little shit they see. But when they come on and they see their cool people, like their PR goes like, you know, it's crazy.

Crazy. kind of how people viewed you. And now you're helping other people. Look at that. Yeah. No, but people saw me live though. Like they...

Yeah, but people saw the clips. They just saw the crazy clips you saying, wild shit. And they're like, fuck this kid. You know what the reason for that was, it was my fault. The reason why I got so much hate was my fault.

I was paying clippers to post bad PR about me. I don't know what the fuck I was thinking. I was on such a view high. I was like, I want views, views, views. I don't care if the captions like neon runs over an old lady. I don't give a fuck what it is.

As long as it goes crazy, I want it. And I was paying for that for like two years, bro. Like an idiot. Who the fuck does that? Neon. Exactly. I'm an idiot.

But like, it's weird because I guess with your audience is like, did it really matter? Bro, there's a lot. There's a like a side of the internet that despises me, bro, still. And they'll never change their opinion on me. But that is the thing about what you just said is that is true for no matter what you do. No matter what you say, no matter who. you are in matter what you believe. I guess everyone has haters.

That's going to happen. Yeah. But there's no way you're going to have any sort of support if you don't also equally have people who fucking hate you. All right. Who hates phase rug? Oh, fuck. That's a good one.

Yeah. You might be right. Yeah. Whoa, that's a good one. You fuck me up with that one. That's the only one I can think of. He's the one guy that everyone loves. That is true.

Like even Mr. Beast gets a lot of hate. A lot of hate. I mean, you can't be that big and not get it. Yeah, exactly. But like, Phase Rug is very big and gets his own. It's against no hate. Zero hate. I've never seen.

Damn, phase rugs good. It's crazy. He's a one of one situation. Holy shit. He's so good. He's very fucking good. That's funny, man. It's interesting how you, that's, fuck.

But I still believe it's like, yeah, you probably shouldn't have done that, but it only just helped you. I guess, like, put the eyes on me. Yeah. But that was never my, like, intention. Like, people think, like, I switched with my PR or whatever just, like, to get, like, to level up or get more views. But, like, I was, why are you smiling thinking I'm, like, bullshitting? No, real shit. Actually, seriously, bro.

Like, the person I was back then, bro, is nowhere near who I am now. That makes sense. You were younger and now you're older. No, but bro, but it was like a quick switch that like doesn't make sense in people's brain because it was so quick. But bro, like a year of my life feels like five years plus. Like it's because all the shit I experienced. Like it's just, I mean, you've had the same shit. Like, yeah.

Well, that's the one thing about this whole game is like you, you were, well, I interviewed you two years ago. You were 20. The first one was probably more than two years. years ago. A little more than two years. A little more than two years. We were sitting on here and I was beefing with my friends. No, the first one was in fucking Steve's, Steve's old condo in Miami. That was almost three years ago. Wow. And you were just an asshole to me. Yeah. You remember that? No, I don't remember that. Yeah. I don't remember a lot of from that part of my life. Yeah, you were just, you were like original mainstream or neon. Fuck, what did you think about me? You're like all this

fucking Indian dick. I thought you were funny, man. Oh, for real. Yeah, I thought you were funny. I like all the dark fucked up humor and all the fucked up humor is good yeah you don't do as much of that anymore no at all brother but like i just dude because people it's like i don't want people to take it the wrong way like i get it especially with my old shit they're like oh this kid's a fucking weirdo if i'm doing yeah i'm just i'm careful bro i don't want to i can't do with any of that yeah i don't yeah bro people are out to get me people want to hurt me like it was bad like it was getting really bad you think more people like you know yeah like i don't feel like before i feel like threat even walking around like streaming yeah bro like now i'll go somewhere without

Well, probably shouldn't say it. Fuck it. Like, sometimes go somewhere, no security, whatever. Like, and it's just like people, a lot of people walk up to me, but it's love. Like, not one, I've never felt threatened. Ever. What's your, like, goal stream for this year? Like, who do you really want?

I think you've asked me before if I have goals. I have no goals, bro. Yeah, but like who's the, I feel like it's like, what, Drake? It's like, you either it's like Drake or like, I don't know, fucking Elon Musk or like. Me and James Hardner planning something. That's tough. With his team. That's cool.

Which is, like, a goal I've had for a while. But like, I don't know, bro. I feel like I've gotten like really a lot of people that I want it on. I can't think like someone off the top of my head. Like, oh, I need a motion. So there's like, that's the question I'm getting towards is like, how do you keep going? Like, because you definitely thrive off collabs. Yeah, that's my shit.

Like, it's like pretty much what you do when you stream. So it's like, it's like, it's almost like the podcasting game or anything. It's like at some point you've taught you've, you've done it all. Well, so how are you still so like popping on your podcast? I just like to talk to people that I like to talk to. No, but it still does very well. So, like, how have you last? it so long.

I don't just, I'm having just real conversations and people that I actually want to talk to. Okay. And also to not always, I guess like truly like I can't, I don't want to sound like fucking phony, but like also there are moments where I like,

okay, certain things are more topical or trending. Yeah, and I will try to find people that I think could have conversations about that. Okay. And maybe it's not the number one person I want to talk to in general, but knowing that it is sort of like, some things are like,

you know, current or seasonal that you've got to talk about like, football season's coming up. And so the goal would have been like have, because I'm going to go to these games and then try to like interview some of these players after games. Oh, you're doing that? Shit like that. Like that would be sick.

You know what I'm saying? Like that'll be good. Yeah. And that's not like a genuine like, okay. Not that I wouldn't want to speak to those people in general, but at the same time, like it is also knowing what's happening in the world and how it's relevant.

You have to try to pick the relevant stuff. Like how have you decided or you don't really decide? It seems like you just talk to anyone when you have them on your show. You don't care. Anyone with the name? anyone with the name. And I just always, it always ends up going well.

Like, I don't, I can't remember one stream that I've done, even if I don't know the person like that where like, it's like, I've been like,

fuck why am I here? Like, oh, I hate this shit. Like, I can't believe I have to do this. Yeah. Never happened. You still live off this chat?

A little bit. Not as much. A little bit. I wonder when that was like, wonder when you won't do, not do that at all because obviously chat's fucking important. Yeah. But I wonder the,

what collab you'll have that you'll be like, actually, there's been a, fuck, I don't remember the exact ones, but like when like it's like a very important one or whatever, I don't want them to get weirded out. Like, so I'm just like. Yeah, this guy just.

Yeah. I have a question for you. Yeah, go for you. When have you found, when is one point of your life where you found true peace? Oh, true peace. I don't think you find it, man. When does it come to you? When have you had peace?

When I'm not doing any of this, that's kind of sad to say, kind of sad to admit. Yeah. It's honestly when I just go spend time with my dogs and I go camping. Okay. something that's completely not related to this at all. By yourself, you and your dogs. Yeah. My brother's normally up in that area too where I like to camp at,

but peace is something that I don't think you like, it's an interesting word. I think in moments you have peace. Yeah. But like true peace, I mean, that's fleeting. It's like you don't keep it, you know? It's temporary. Yeah.

So it's like, there's moments where I feel that peace. Like, you know, when you get a bunch of work done, you're like, okay, I feel accomplished. Yeah. But then it's like now is my piece only related to the fact that I got work done? Yeah. Which then becomes really weird For sure

Because then it's a never ending cycle What about happiness? Oh that's even more fleeting man The fuck does fleeting mean Means it keeps going Like you have it And then it's gone You have it

And it's gone But was there an era of your life Where you're just so happy Like a long extended period of time Yeah maybe Maybe like During my like initial YouTube climb When I was like only filming fitness content

Okay Before that Before it became like Okay I have to do all this stuff to like fulfill these needs and to like make this money to do these you know get these deals or sell this merch i think when it was just like oh i'm just showing up and i'm filming stuff for fun yeah like i'm just feeling myself working out i just it's genuinely what i did my pretty much whole career on the come up in the fitness space before i started podcast before

i started doing it was just like oh it's just something i love doing that's probably when i say i had like the most happiness speaking of fitness i'm i you might have heard i don't know if i've told you. I've heard. I helped you get some people to show up to your fucking thing. Oh. Yeah. And then you, and then you fucking sunned me on our fucking podcast. No. Oh my God. I don't know. I don't looks bad. I went out of my way to like find people. You did and you helped me a lot. And I'm pretty sure they were like good people. Okay. But when I have a six pack? That's never going to happen. Because you, you, you're wrong. All these streamers are like, oh, I'm going to get in shape. You guys never do it. I have to. My trainer starts in two days.

Who's your trainer? This guy didn't hit me up to be a trainer, by the way. Check, fact check that. Oh, you want to travel with me everywhere? You're going to come. No, no, you're right. You're right. You're fair. But when I'm here, I'm going to come to zoo culture.

Fair, fair. I'm actually looking for a house that's close. But I just don't believe. I want to believe you. I have to. I signed a deal. I have to record fitness content on YouTube. I have to.

I literally have to. I got meal prep for a year locked in. You signed a deal with for what? Like, with a company to like help produce the whole thing and all this shit. Okay. So I have to do fitness content. I have to lock in. have to have this trainer next to be all one year deals like i have no choice yeah but i just it's like

i've seen you in my gym i've seen you a diamond man i see i can give a fuck back then diamond gym i really did care and those people really you need to go to diamond gym i've talked about this i've talked about you're not going to do it you don't want to get embarrassed no brad has too much of an eagle on his shoulders no he doesn't want to get embarrassed not that it's not that i'm gonna figure out the right time to do it okay but yeah it's just like yeah like you man fuck got to find the time It's like, what is, like, day by day, like, what do you do? Like, from morning to night on a normal day in your life, how does it go? I normally wake up.

What time? Oh, like 7.30, 8. Okay. Been getting up a little bit earlier, actually. Okay. I feed my dogs. I normally go outside. I'll, like, hang out, like, just, like, sit in the sun.

Okay. Drink some water with some electrolytes. Pinoclata? Huh? Pinoclata? No, drink some water. Oh, water. Water.

You're getting old, dude. Sitting in the sun? Sitting in the sun's amazing for you. Maybe you should try this shit. Fuck that. I got a stream. Yeah, but like take a minute. Take a minute.

You talk about peace and happiness. Take a minute. Okay, and you're just sitting there with your dogs. Yes. Sitting there with my dogs are getting older. Okay. My dogs are getting older. So I'm like really, really actually spend a lot of time with them because it's, you know,

they don't have a lot more years. Yeah. So doing that. And then I normally go to the gym, train, end up dealing with stuff at the gym. and then I end up getting on like after I train normally I get on like phone calls other stuff for like this company the Amigos drink or like we're relaunching Roger next month that's exciting working on that sort of like roll out but it's typically like that work and then do the same thing normally I'll like come here and I'll take my dogs either on a walk or I'll like chill in the backyard again with them let let them swim and then I'll fucking do the sauna do the cold plunge do the red light I've been working I've been getting terrible vertigo so I've been like getting Hyropactic thing that Michael Jackson had Michael Jackson had vertigo the this the white spots no no no what the fuck is that not that's that's that's a that's a skin disease I guess there's veteligo vitiligo yeah Vita Lai no vertigo is like shit where you like turn your head and you're like dizzy oh my god have you ever

have no I'm fucking imagine like years old imagine I had I imagine you went like this and the room started spinning that happens to you it's not all the time it's like it's intermittently like how do you fix that bro, I'm trying to fix it. I've been trying to fix that. It's happened to me for the last two years. Oh. Not like every day, but like it'll happen and stop for like two, three months and then come back. It's actually the worst thing in the world.

I'm actually like, I told myself if this happens to me for 10 more years, I'm done. Wait, wait. Yeah, I'm done. I'm done. I'm done. I'm done, bro. There's no. What does done mean?

I just means, you know, no more. But I'm saying, I'm telling you. I'm telling you. this, real life, I don't wish that on my worst enemy. It's that, wow. The worst thing of the world. Do you ever get it mid-workout? Sometimes, yeah.

It's, it fucks up my work. It's like, you can't do shit, bro. But how long does it last? I wish I was able to give you a number. Sometimes it's better than others. Bro. I'm, no, there's like, there's like these different maneuvers for it. There's all, there's the problem with it.

There's like fucking a hundred different things that can cause it. You got to find the cause. You got to find the cause. I was getting some because my neck was super like just fucked up and inflamed and it's like pulling on the same muscles that caused the issue. Bro, it's the worst thing in the world. But yeah, I'm not kidding. 10 years of this,

10 more years, I'm like, I'm out, bro. Fuck this shit. Yeah. You can take over the podcast. You got it,

you'll be doing a podcast 10 years. Yeah. Mike's? You have the whole thing. The house? It's yours. You got enough money already. Mr.

Who cares about money, bro? Who cares about money? No, who cares about money? I swear to God, bro. You don't have to believe me when I say this. I don't give a fuck about money anymore, bro. Then why would you sign those deals?

Because if I can, okay, I don't know. No, no, no, seriously. Bro,

I live such a minimalimal. Minimalistic life, bro. Like, the only reason I buy watches is because they're investments, whatever. Watches, but bro, when it comes to clothing,

when it comes to whatever it is, bro, I'm very, like, I'm not bougie. Like, yeah, I might fly business class a few times. Are those Gucci shades? These are fucking Nerf glasses,

bro. Nerf, you know, the shooting brand? Nerf. Are they actually? Yeah, seriously, I sort of got a Nerf. Do you got a Nerf?

Fuck, no. I've just been wearing these same glasses. I was 10. I'm not going to change them. Okay. But like, no, bro, if there's a stream and I have to be there tomorrow and the only flight is available is a fucking economy back in the plane

Southwest, I'm doing it. Like, I don't care about money shit, bro, I don't know how much I have my account. I don't, I let my dad handle all of it. I don't know how much I'm even worth, bro. I just use a credit card and whatever. I don't know, man. I'm so that ass.

I'm so serious, bro. But you care, otherwise you wouldn't be doing this. What do you mean? I don't know why I even like try to make money. Money's my dad tells me every second. What do you lock? Make your money so you could whatever. That's the Indian.

Yeah, exactly. The fucking Indian, man. I just, I don't, I don't care, bro.

I invest so much money back in my content. I pay my clippers more than anyone times 50. I, I have all these salaries, all these expenses, all these, the travel expenses are insane because these collabs I have to do and go to place to place.

What's the most you've ever spent on a trip? Dude, I was in Toronto for five days. The hotel. Hells for me, my team and everything, was like around like 11K. The security was 40K. Everything, like a five-day trip after all expenses and everything, it costed like $67K. For four days.

Yes. What do you think you get? What's the return on that? Good content. Maybe like, I don't know the exact money return. Like I honestly, bro, like the point of that right now, I'd make the same amount of money sitting at the desktop and gambling and reaction eclipse. Same exact money.

I don't need one payroll. Don't need to pay. any clipper. Yeah, I see you're saying. Don't you do anything? I could just sit there, but long term, am I going to make more?

No. So it is money then, but long term money. You're just thinking long term about the money, not short term. Sure. Yeah. Okay.

Yeah. So you care about the money. I'm not trying to like, then you and something. No, no, no, no. I mean, like, do I really,

like deep inside, I, I, like I said, I don't even know how much I'm worth. I don't even, I don't even, I don't look at any of that. Maybe I do care. I just don't look.

I don't know. I just don't really... Did you care about money more when you were starting? Were you like, I got to make money? Of course, because you needed to make money, right? Nah, I was spending it all.

I was spending it all. Like, when I came to LA, I was spent... I would rent three supercars. Like a Ferrari, Euris, and like a crazy Mercedes. And then I'll spend 3K night for houses like 90K a month on that.

It was just... Yeah. It was... I was just spending, spending. The one person, smartest guy ever ate. And he always tells me, worry about your future.

These people aren't going to watch you in a few years, whatever it is. Like, you need to focus on money. And, like, he'll always try to remind me and put it in my head. He's, like, he's really my mentor through everything. So, yeah. I feel like if you've gotten this far and you had this work ethic, it's like, it's not like you're just going to quit someday. Not that, like, I'll quit when people stop watching.

If I have an audience in 10 years, I'm here. But if people are done, I'm done too. But, like, I imagine, see, like, I believe you, but I kind of don't because I think, like, if you didn't have an audience doing this anymore, I think you would pivot and trying to find something else. Yeah, not streaming though. Right. If people weren't watching,

if it wasn't doing well, I wouldn't be doing this. Yeah. I have a passion for it. Like, I've done, bro, I've done this for 11 years. Like,

obviously, you've been in the game way longer than me, but I was 11 doing it, like, since, no, I know, I know. Like, this is my life, bro. Like,

and like, I've had to make so many sacrifices and do all these things. And like, it's like, for, bro, I couldn't even be with my family for my birthday.

I was here by myself because I had to get something done in LA. like so many sacrifices I have to make but like I just feel like you can't get to where you want to be without making very very very strong sacrifices I'm not killing anyone they think I sold my soul I think I'm an industry plant yeah yeah dude the industry plant shit

is so stupid but if they're saying that that means I'm doing something good for sure yeah there's I don't I don't think industry plant but at some point is who then when did the suit and ties come up to like yo bro check this out though streaming is clean bro streaming's clean the top the top dogs high speed aiding all them no one's done anything bro

it's fully clean. It's a very clean industry, man. Why do you think it's clean? What do they do wrong? Well, do you think it's going to stay clean? No. Yeah. No.

I feel like it's already getting to that point where it's like all the record companies, all these, because didn't you sign a deal with like a record company? Yeah, that was great. But there is a lot of labels who like will come out me and be like, you'll help our upcoming artists. We'll pay you with this large sum of money. I won't take it. But that's kind of plantish, right?

Yeah, they're trying to use me as an industry. Yeah. use you to plant other people. Yeah. Yeah. But you be an industry plant. No, that's funny.

Because I remember you just being a fucking shithead talking shit to the fucking. Working hard. Yeah. Damn. Imagine you were an industry plant.

You've seen the, I've seen everything. You out of everyone I've seen everything. Yeah. So you know. Like what would your plant job be if you were an industry plant?

Spread an agenda. I don't fucking know. What's your agenda? There's none. I just fucking stream and talk to people and interview people. Damn, I'm really a podcaster now, man. You are.

You're a mobile podcaster. This is what I felt like this. I was with Cam Scataboo. Shout to him. Amazing guy. Amazing stream. I was at the, what's that mall in New York?

New York? American Dream. Yeah, the big ass mall. And we were walking around and just talking. I was like, damn, I really am like a walking podcaster. This is what my shit is now, kind of. It's good, though. Yeah, but then you mix it up, like a girl comes on and whatever, and it's cool.

Yeah. But the girl stuff. So you, you obviously, I know about your whole story, you know, your previous situations. Why is it so difficult now? What do you mean? Like with girls? We talk about it's fucking terrible. Oh, I mean, yeah, bro.

I mean, it's tough. There's just a lot, like, dude, especially when the internet is involved, you know, better than anyone. It's just, you can't. It's just hard, bro. It's hard to find genuine relationships nowadays where everyone wants something out of you.

And they could fake it so well. Like, very well. That's why I feel like the best way to go about it is like dating someone or being with someone that can't gain anything from you because they're at your level or whatever it is or like close to you or like at your level when it comes to like maybe money or or or like fame or whatever it is.

So like if they're like if then what can they get from you? They have it all. Yeah. Have you see you've had a hard time finding people basically. Yeah. I get lonely. Yeah. I like pussy.

Valid. I'm kidding. I'm kidding. You're not kidding. No, I'm a cuddler. No, I'm a cuddler. Well, who doesn't love pussy, bro? Yeah.

Yeah. But like deep in that bro, I love cuddling. I love to like fuck bro. I don't even want to fuck. No, that's a lie, that's a lie. No, no. In this moment, I don't want to fuck. I want to just hold you fall asleep.

It's so good. It's so good. All right, bro, coming from you. You got to, come on. No, I mean it. They lock in, bro. I can say this. Why can I not say this?

I'm like a skinny Indian. I can say this shit. You wait 400 pounds you to testosterone, brother. You need to be more manly. You still like to cuddle, though. Why are you? Why? Why?

Because I'm big. I can't like the cuddle. I feel like you got like a weird stench. I feel like you kind of weird. like you want to cuddle with me or some shit that's what you're thinking about I'm good you're too big for me I'm sorry

I'm like I feel like you're strong like wouldn't if a girl put her her head on your chest I'm not flexing bro I'm not like flexing while I'm cuddling I'm gonna have these you're gonna have nothing to start flexing bro

I can't imagine I can't imagine you in the bed like American psycho yeah bro dude you I don't know like fucking and disflexing how much would it take for you to drop a sex tape.

There's got to be a price. That's so funny. I don't know. A million. That's not a... Five mil. I mean, like, if it was like, like,

if it leaked, you know? All right, bro. You have videos in your phone? No. Like, I... Okay. Like, I've never recorded. No, no, no, no.

I don't record stuff. Yeah. I've always been afraid of, like, just something happening. Five mil. I mean, five mil. Like, what are we... Like, what's leaking?

Like the Julia Newman shit with the chick I mean his sister Your face is out You're jerking your dick Oh no no no You're catching me doing that No face?

Ah no no no I couldn't not I mean Oh like you Fuck gonna go from the back And the camera's like right there And just looking at you Well like why would

Why would I have a camera Looking at me though It's a You're getting paid to do it Oh it's like Oh we're doing like The Kim K and Ray J's shit No no no

I don't know what happened there But You mean you don't know what happened There you can pull it up What do you mean? No, no, no, no. That's, I mean, I don't know what that situation. You don't know about what do you mean.

That's how the whole thing, that's how the whole Kardashian thing started. I just don't even know that situation. Why? Why? Why are you acting stupid? I just don't know. Like, I'm not informed. Okay, well, I'll tell you. It's like talking about politics and like, I'm not informed about these politics.

Huh? This is politics? I don't want to see this. No, no, no. You don't know, stop, bro. No, bro. Oh my God. Fuck, man.

Okay, but it's like, it's, we, everyone knows this historic. If you show this, I'm going to drink alcohol for the first time. It's going to be on your podcast. No, don't do it. You're going to be the reason I become a fake Muslim. No, no, no. I'm not the reason they call you a fake Muslim, bro. I still do it, but.

The gambling is the reason why they call you that. The Muslims are very, very strict and strong. And I don't understand because, you know, as a religion, you're supposed to come together. And, like, I might not be the best representation, but I don't go around, like telling everyone, oh, I pray five times a day. I do this. I do this. I make mistakes.

And no one's perfect. But they're very strict and strong, bro. A lot of them don't like me. That's just a screenshot. A lot of them don't like me. Yeah, well, it's because you do like degenerous shit. Yeah, but guess what all these people are doing behind the scenes? The same shit.

Yeah. But that's why I'm just, religion to me, oh, man. Like, for example, Sneako, love the guy. Yeah. He comes from me every second. Still, this is my friend. I thought he's my friend. He comes from me every second.

He made a video saying I sold my soul. But that's, yeah. With a YouTube thumbnail like this. Trying to get a high fucking, what is it? What is it? What's a click through rate? CTR. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Fucking hell. But why don't you just hit him up? Like, bro, what are you doing? Dude, he knows not to do that. I literally, my way of communicating to Sneakos, I'll say it on stream. He sees the clip. He still does it. You have an off-stream conversation with Sneco?

He's bringing it up the next day. That's tough. Yeah. That's tough. You think you couldn't just call him like, yo, bro, please. Bro, at this point, if he wants to keep doing it, it's between him and God. Him and Allah, that's right.

That's right, bro. I mean, but the religion thing, I get it. I get it. You have a tough time with it. Yeah, bro. The toughest part is this. Okay, so this is my biggest worry because God's bless me. I put me in a position where, like, you have, you know, girls, money, fame.

Yeah. The highest, biggest adrenaline I could possibly get. I could have, like, anything people dream about it. And I feel like I have it. So when it's gone, it's going to be gone. At some point, it's going to be gone. How am I going to react? Like, how am I going to feel?

Like, there will be a time when people stop taking pictures about me. Yeah. There will be a time where I'm not making the monthly income I'm making. Girls don't give a shit about me. It's going to happen. But when it happens, I'm really scared of how I'm going to react. Very scared. So you're afraid of like losing the engagement, the likes, the views, the shit.

Everything. Like the income, everything. It's going to happen. Because no, I'm not afraid of losing it. I know I'm going to lose it. It's going to happen. What are you afraid of? Like how it's going to make me, like, how I'm going to feel.

Like, I'm going to feel internally. I feel like I'm going like a deep hole in like. Yeah. But that would mean that you've done that all, everything you've done, you've done for that. What do you mean? What you're saying is if you lost it, how you'd feel you'd be in a deep hole. Yeah. Meaning then you doing all this stuff that you do, you do for that?

Like streaming? Yeah, the money, everything you do is for money and for likes, for views, for girls, for whatever, for power, for clout. Is that why you do it? I don't know why I do it. I feel like I'm so deep into it now. Like being so many years in. and like I feel like I've gone so far to where like I physically couldn't even stop if I wanted to. Like even if the streaming brings me stress,

makes me not the happiest in the world's ruins, a lot of shit that I have like personally, whatever it is. I just, I can't stop. I've gone too far. Like I've gone too far to give up. Right. And I still feel like I have a long way to go. That's true.

But like what in your mind makes you feel like if it like if say for example, today, tomorrow was all gone. Yeah. Right. I'm assuming you've made enough money. You have enough investments. Like you could figure something else out. 100%.

But you'd be. afraid of this feeling you would have of not having all the shit of losing everything you wouldn't necessarily lose everything it's not like it all just disappears if it yeah i mean it would well of course your income would it would go differently it would go in a different direction and go down right but you wouldn't just be like non-existent so no so then what else matters you bro the muslims are going to be so mad at you they're going to be so mad at you have they made it to your podcast the Muslim audience they're about to be on here in the comments you they're going to be bad.

Saying, oh, Allah, please save him. This, dude. Because this clip, no lie, this is the he sold his soul shit. It is. What you're saying is you've sold your soul. You're not saying you sold your soul. Indirectly. Indirectly, you're giving that up because you're saying there's nothing else than that.

Like no more like. Like when that's gone, you're going to be, it's going to be dark. That's not true though, bro. Yeah. Like that's saying that everything you've ever done now just because you're not doing more, never mattered or never happened. Like you still did it. You also did it at a young age.

So it's like, yeah, nothing is forever. We know that. No matter how much you get, no matter how much money you have, no matter how much everything, girls, whatever, nothing's forever. That's just life. But for it to hurt you or feel like this dark space,

that means that that's the only thing you're revering as like light. I don't think that's true for you, bro. Or maybe you just haven't spent enough time thinking about it. Bro, my life is just this. I have no other life. There's no, I don't have a personal life at all. No personal life. I talked to like five people.

Like, and like three of those people are my team. And like I have two, three friends, whatever. Yeah. Like my life is this and just this, bro. I, yeah. I'm like, pretty bad. Yeah. So it is interesting when you talk about selling your soul.

Because then it's like. So what is the definition of selling your soul? It's, I think when people say that, it's more so like, he sold his soul for this, for this stuff. And I think maybe at this conversation, maybe Sniko specifically is like, for the more money, for the more,

you know, to level up more. But I mean, everyone does, it's like, that'd be silly. It's like, Snico streams to make money.

Yeah. You know? So it's like, what are we talking about that? So you kind of like switching platforms to make more money. Yeah. Like,

I don't know. Like, I guess the other, the other idea of like selling your soul is like, someone came to you and was like, yo, we'll make sure you have all these connections and all this money and like just do these things for us when we need it.

Like that's the other like weird side of selling your stuff. I've never, is that a thing? I don't think so. Have you seen that? No, but I think people tend to find themselves like on certain sides of whether it's like political issues that like they feel like I have to continue down this road because maybe some people that they met along the way

are like down this road. And they have to keep going. down this road to make sure, oh, I want to make sure that guy's still happy because he's sort of giving me this opportunity. Like that would be like the closest thing to selling your soul. Like I don't, I've never heard of anyone go up and be like, yo, bro, we can make you a millionaire. Just sign right here and like your soul's mine now. Yeah. I don't think it happens directly like that. I think it's more like the, you know, the elbows you kind of rub into, then you feel like sort of obligated to either continue to like treat certain people this way for their, you know, not just your

benefit, like their benefit, like this, uh, yeah, but you haven't had people that have come in and been like, yo, do this stuff for us. No. Yeah. It seems like more like people are just trying to use your platform. Yeah, but I'm not going to do anything that's like not mutually beneficial. Yeah. Very careful.

Except for it sounds like the fucking whatever music deal thing you did where it was like, yeah, I could help people out because I'm getting paid to do it. No, I didn't know. That was different. Oh, that was different. No, my, my, my, my, my, my, my, my, my, my, my, my, my, my, my, my, my, my, my, my, was for me to personally, like, drop music under my name. Oh.

Oh, I thought that was to... It's like I get my favorite... No, I get my favorite artists, whatever, and put them all in one album, like on some DJ Khalid shit. Yeah. Yeah, it wasn't like me go put people on stream. Oh, I thought they would pay you to like,

yo, you got to put this art in. Hell no. Okay. Yeah, I'm not just... No, fuck that. You got to want to do it. Yeah. Or, like, if the idea makes sense,

if someone were to come up to me, yo, I got this crazy check for you. Here's our content idea. We're going to put this amount of money in content to make this crazy and, like, bring some actual value. Then, okay. Maybe I'll do it.

But it was just me and a random person in a studio and getting paid. I'm not doing it. Because do you need a mutually beneficial thing. Yeah, exactly. If it's a good stream, fuck it. I love to do a good stream. And get paid at the same time. Hell yeah.

Yeah, that's fair. I want to go back to this fucking, this fucking, like, no, no happiness if you don't have the shit going. It's just weird. You never spent time to, like, think of other shit? I don't know, no, bro. My brain is just wired to just think about the work. That's it.

Work, work, work, stream, stream, stream. What can I do to better my streaming? What can I do next? What can I? Yeah, it's just I don't have any other thoughts in my brain about like personal like nothing. Bro, I think I'm just, I'm obsessed with like with what I do. Like at the same time, I feel like you can't get to where you want to be without being obsessed. No, that's true.

I think maybe the gym thing if you actually try to take it serious. But it's tough to take it serious because you're getting paid to take it serious. Like are you actually going to take it serious? Like that's the thing like to make real changes. You have to actually want it. want it not just because there's an outcome. Like, obviously the outcome you want is the physical change. Yeah.

But if the other outcome is like, oh, I'm also getting paid to do this, so I have to. Yeah. It's like, it's like back in school and they're like, you got to read this book. You're like, I don't read this fucking book. But the minute you actually want to read the book, you read the book. Yeah. I mean, maybe that's a personal anecdote for my life, but. I feel like, like, if it's going to help my content, like I know how well a transformation

would do. So that's why I think I would, I would do it. Yeah. See, you do everything for content. Yeah. What do you do for? What do you do for you? Nothing.

Absolutely nothing. I don't, like. That's going to bite you in the ass someday. Oh, yeah, 100%. Guaranteed. Yeah. But I'll worry about that later. Well, no, you got to worry about that now.

Because you can prepare for it. Why do you think it's going to bite me an ass? Because you described it exactly. That when you don't have it, you're going to feel terrible. Yeah. I just need to find more of a balance, which is hard. Because like I said, bro, everyone is, I can't get outworked, bro. I can't.

I don't want to get outworked. I don't want to be inconsistent and lose the momentum. Just don't. Yeah, but you could still do that and find other avenues in your life to, like, feel fulfillment. Wouldn't have time for that? You can make time. I mean, it's not like you only all, it's not always all your time. I do it.

I sit on calls with my friends, with my people, with my team. When I'm not streaming, figure out what to do next. That's all I do, bro. Yeah, well, have some, like, good conversation. about basketball or whatever the fuck it is in the middle. But, like, that's my life, bro. I have dedicated everything I have to this, bro. And, like, I just don't want to stop.

I won't stop. Yeah. But there has to be, you got to, I guess you got to, like, I mean, at some point, learn to create space to just, like, do something for yourself. Yeah, so Adam, you know, Adam W? Yes. Great guy. Fucking, oh, my God.

Yeah, I love that. I've never streamed with him or anything. Met him a bunch of times off camera. Such a good dude. If you're watching this bar, I love you. He told me that I need to take. take one day and it like and it would really help just take one day fully off my phone off the internet and like do that once a week it's like one day out of the week just like no access to internet and not one thing regarding streaming and just try it minimum and because you I think it'll make it'll help you with your creativity too that you have such a hard time with there's nothing that would help with that bro no that will I've tried smoking I've tried doing everything I can't I think it's just peace dude like I think it's a great suggestion bro I'm so like obsessing for this shit.

My creative mind, I was thinking, why can I not think creatively, whatever? I started watching movies. They're trying to think of new shit to do. And like,

I didn't want to watch these movies, but I had to to figure out what the fuck can I do. What movies? Just like random movies, but the most random shit you could think of,

but I watched a really good movie. The one with, Timothy Shalameh, the ping pong shit. Oh, yeah. That's one of the recent ones I watched. Very good movie.

Like, I'm just like, trying to do different shit to like, to go back to my streaming. It's like, I'm not even watching a movie to watch it. I'm watching it to figure out how it can help me in my work.

Yeah. That's bad. Yeah, it's fucked. That's fucked. But I'm not going to lie. At 22, that's kind of where you need to be. What do you mean?

That's, that's, that's, that's kind of typical. Like, it's where you kind of should be at your age. Okay. I mean,

it's a little skewed because you started doing a streaming thing when you were like a fucking baby. Yeah. So it's a little skewed. But like 22 years old, like, yeah. I mean,

what else should you be obsessed with other than like success, trying to accomplish something. Yeah. I guess 22 is. still pretty young. Oh, what you mean? Bro, is you're a baby. No, I'm a baby.

I'm a girl, man. You're a baby, bro. You barely, like, got chin hair, like, fucking... The fuck? I just shaved off a full face of beard. No, you did. I swear to God, no, bro. Go back on my old streams a few days ago.

Bro, I had a full thing of... You said a full thing of beard or you had hair, like you? Stubble. You didn't have a beer like you. I had you. No. But it looked way better. It didn't look better to my shit.

That's a cap. Why you got the chin strap thing going on, man? I don't worry about it. You're so funny, man You're such a fucking character, dude What, bro? You're just a character, man You need some like you time

Bro, I'm gonna worry about that in a few years That's not a bad idea Like for real, bro That's not a bad idea Like what am I gonna spend these these times Being a little bitch and going And sitting on the fucking beach Oh, I've been doing that

I've actually damn fuck I am a bitch bro It's good though No these I've tried this the past few days I've been going out at night by myself late at night no security nothing just me and just walking on the beach Is that gay?

No Okay You're like confused by this You want to join me bro Yeah low key I pull up Bro it's peaceful as fuck That no but then this is what happened And then kids swarmed me

A night and ruined it bro They fucking ruined these fisher They were fishers at 2 a m A lot of people fish at night Bro and they fucking ruined it Now I don't want to go back You gotta find a more secluded spot That's actually like the coolest thing

you've ever done, I think. Like you've actually did something for yourself. Felt like a normal human being, but I pumped my own gas for the first time. I've been driving learning how to drive. I always pump my own gas. You don't pump gas? I don't drive. It's like Uber's and shit. I don't know, no, my assistant drives. Hold, wait, whoa, one more time?

Uber and shit? No, one more time. Oh, this? I was not that bad, dude. Oh, turkey? What did you mean? What did you do? What did you mean? Is that tattoo? The foozy? It's not a foozy, bro? No. What is that?

What you mean? You know, I did see that was really cool. What? So is the happening the Spanish group? Yeah, it's the drink brand, the Amigos Toxicals. That's the Spanish group of Felipe and all them, right? Their group is Chico's Toxicals. So this is the brand that we made for the tequila.

They gave you a percent. Yes. That was the coolest shit I've ever seen. That was fucking cool. And obviously, you didn't, like, they just did it. They just did it, yeah. Yeah, that's some real shit. Yeah.

Well, I mean, bro, they're just, they're real people that actually. actually like saw the benefit that I gave to them and they gave back. Yeah. Like genuinely. And for me, I think if you saw that video, I was emotional because it was like the first time ever. Yeah, you had that experience. Someone was ever like, yo, bro, you helped us.

So we want to help you. Yeah. First time ever. And it's fucking crushing. The alcohol is doing so well. You got a special spot in hell, brother. Yeah. What about you and a fucking this guy just signed?

I'm getting him. Jack. Gendom to Jack. Jack, Doc Hall. Yeah. Shout to Jack. Jack.com. Yeah, look at you.

I just saw your fucking video. I got to do, we're going to do more collabs. We're going to do bigger production. Yeah, they're getting me right. That's all the whole thing, man. Man, these casinos got a lot of money. Of course they do.

You talk about a special place in hell. The fuck. And we both go in there. We go to hell, bro. What the fuck? Hey, man. This is my, I gamble so I can show people what not to do.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. I said that when the wire hits my account, too. Yeah, yeah, that's what I say, too. You're such a fucking scum. I'm not going to lie. I love it. I love it. I don't care.

I don't care. Listen, my perspective on gambling is I've always said this. If you're gambling with your last dollar, you're fucking idiot. If you're gambling because you want to have fun and it's just like you're going to spend that money on going on a trip or some shit, that's your fucking prerogative. That's the problem is when the people let it destroy them because they're like their very last dollar. They go, I got it. I'm going to get it.

And then they lose their last dollar. Yeah. And that's terrible. That is. So got to make better choices, man. Yeah. I feel like I learned from my mistakes, though. Make a lot of mistakes.

Just learn from them. What do you think the biggest mistake you've ever made, is then? On the internet. On the internet. Off the internet surrounding myself with the wrong people. On the internet. It's kind of hand in hand. It's funny.

And it, I mean, it reflected in my shit. Like, bro, I was on the same exact couch. Arguing with my best friend, who is the reason I was even in this position or in that position at the time. Yeah. And, yeah, just being around the wrong people. But biggest, like, biggest, what did you say? Biggest mistake.

Biggest mistake. I think. Not regret, because obviously you learned. Yeah, because I don't regret anything. Biggest mistake, I guess not realizing that what I say will always come back to haunt me. Yeah. Even if I didn't mean it like that. Or maybe I was just a kid being dumb.

Like, all these things, like, that I've said or done, they'll always come back. No matter what. People will never, like, there's one side of the internet that just won't forgive me and won't forget. And they'll keep resurfacing these clips. they won't they won't give it up so i guess just like being more cautious with what i was doing yeah so what's the what's the biggest uh i guess the opposite of that would have been like the best moment that you think you've had so far in streaming i think the best moment of i felt like the best was when i was with it was me sneko brecky hill skybri first time i hit 100k on um we were in a house

in like a hot tub doing a bunch of things that are you smiling oh i remember that oh yeah and it was great Sarah. I was around that era. Yeah, you were, bro. And that was like the first time I was like, damn, like my whole life, I've been this guy that got bullied, no one gave a fuck about, that stayed at home, didn't even, no girl would even look my way, give me attention. I was a fucking loser, absolute loser. And the thing is, I was a loser. I wasn't even good at anything I was doing. I was in school. I was failing. I was doing shit. Maybe I was good at video games, what the fuck is that going to do for me? So this is the first time in my life where I felt like, wow, I'm doing something right and I'm like doing it good and people are seeing that. And like,

Yeah. People are liking me. And I'm not that same fucking loser nerd that I always have been. Yeah. Have you had any moments like that since? No. That was it for you, huh? Yeah.

So what? You did a part of you do all this stuff? So just so you'd be like more accepted? That was probably the reason I did it. I started. Like just so I can like get people to like me. Probably. Yeah.

That's not why I do it now. Like now like I just, I just do it. But. But you just do it now because they already like you. Yeah. I guess. But going back, I don't remember it. That is still why you do it now.

I'm going to tell you why. And I'm not trying to be mean, but because you said earlier that if all went away, you'd feel terrible. Yes. So it's still the same reason. Because I want people to like me. Yeah. But that's true for all of us. Everyone does everything they do because they want acceptance.

Yeah. I just don't know what I would do without streaming. Like without me like being neon, the guy, the streamer, like, I don't know what, what's left. Well, it's still you. Yeah, still me, but you still figured it all out. Yeah. That's still a ton of value, you know, and at some point, you know, hopefully you have kids and a family

and you fucking teach them what you learn. Yeah. That's kind of like what all this shit's about at the end of the day. So you done a good job, man. Thank you, bro. Yeah. I know I like to give you shit. Really, really pissed off.

I show up late. I know, dude. I still like you, bro. I feel really bad. It's all good. We'll never happen again. It's all good. I feel bad, bro.

I want to come on a stream one of these days. Yes, but dude, because, so I'm not, the thing is I'm not doing, I'm not doing my fitness journey on stream because I won't take it serious. So I'm going to be doing a lot of it off stream and like recording or whatever because like when I'm on stream, bro, it feels like, like I don't, bro, I still now when I'm streaming, I don't remember a lot because it just feels like a fucking switch in my brain. So like, I don't want to like get in a mode on stream where I don't give a fuck and stop caring whatever and I just make a whole mockery of it, which I've been doing with fitness shit. Like that's why I'm like doing it fully off stream, not live, no chat, no nothing, just me. It'll be YouTube videos. Yeah, YouTube videos. I don't even want to, like, show my progress.

I don't even, I don't want to stream. Like, I'll talk about it maybe, but like, when it comes to actually doing shit, I don't you want to do anything on the stream. We should definitely do a stream soon, though. I'm down. And I think we should run this back with Fusi. I know, bro. Fussi's, oh my God, so good, dude.

Yeah, I'll get him back. He just, he was here for a minute. Then he went back to San Diego. He's about, because he's about to compete. Yeah. Yeah. He got in crazy shape, bro. I know, dude.

His life is a movie. Yeah. Yeah. Have you ever, like, sat down with him and broken down everything? Like, every era, every... No, like, because he's so... He's kind of like back again, which is the craziest thing to say. But we've had a few, but I feel like the times that I've had conversations with him, for the most part,

were like when he was, like, sort of in those moments. Okay. You know, still, like, stream remote food. So you've never had a conversation with him, like, without cameras. No, like on pod. No, I have it. Oh, you need to do that. Yeah, I got to do it.

Because he's in a different, different, I mean, I talked to him at the gym. he was there for like a week when you were when i was trying to get that done yeah and he's definitely in the best spirits i've ever seen yeah he's yeah amazing which is crazy man he's got to be the one person i've never i don't know if there's anyone else in the history of the fucking internet who's gone up and crashed gone up and crashed that many time he's someone who can come back whenever like even he came back now going on dean's shit every stream i do with foosie goes insane yeah like he just he'll always be that guy and it's interesting because he's not even that same crazy character yeah i think fuck they just like him as like him as like he like he's like he's like

Just no matter what era of his life he's in, no matter at what state of the mind of his mind he's in. They just love him. Yeah. Well, he's also, he's good at speaking. Very good at talking. Oh, wow. Yes.

Yeah. Well, I'll have him back on. We'll do another one. We'll run it back for sure. So the fitness stuff for you, you're going to, you're actually going to try. What is, is there like a timeline on this? A year. One year.

One year. One year, exactly. Do you have, like, how you want to look? No. Well, I think my trainer has everything is going to, like, present it to me. but um yeah we started like very i think he used to be he's a football player black guy muscular yeah um so good guy he's gonna be traveling me everywhere like non-stop like no matter where i'm at if i need like work out he's banging on my door like i told him like you have like he's not my room key like

i need to do this and like i said like it's gonna funnel back in it's gonna make me do well is i'm gonna feel better yeah i'm i'm trying to get away from drinking these energy drinks um because i mean there could be some healthy ones out there but the ones i drink aren't healthy So natural energy Just trying to figure it all out So like But how are you determining if you complete it or not Is it just like

You're you look You're more jacked or I don't know I think I need to figure it out Trying to get you on peptide Take some steroids I asked them they told me no Yeah you're too young

I tried I tried so hard I said give me testosterone Please the videos will blow up I was like bro we don't gotta tell them shit Just let me inject myself Every fucking day And they'll be like wow This guy's really locked in

They said no not letting you do it. Yeah, you shouldn't do it. Yeah, well, they said they vetoed me. Yeah, well, because it's like you've also just, that's the thing with kids now. It's all like everyone's, you know, I would call you a kid, I guess. I apologize. No, you're a grown man. No. Doing this whole like going straight to steroids is the dumbest thing ever, especially someone like you, like you've never actually really tried. What about peptides? Even that. Seriously. Yeah, because it's just kind of like, like, for example, before I ever got on gear, I took, I trained seven years consistent. like and it was all that I did like my whole life was oh I'm gonna my in my head when I was 17 I was like I'm gonna be a bodybuilder okay so I was like the food the sleeping eating everything was on point training every day seven years straight before I ever tried anything so it's like most kids nowadays they're like 18 years old they have never really trained but they seen some gym bros and they're like I just got to get on train it's like it's not that's you're just looking for like a fucking a quick fix and it's like this isn't a quick fix because you can't

stop taking them, right? Like your body's so used to when you need it. You can stop taking it. I mean, you know, a certain period maybe go by. If you take it for like fucking 10 years, it may be really hard to get off. You could always stop. But it's more the, you won't have this without that. And if you don't develop all of the actual like, I'm sleeping enough, I'm eating enough, the boring shit. Yeah. Then you've never actually like really tried. Like you don't even know what your body can do naturally. You have no idea. So if you just fucking stick a pin in, it's like, yeah, you're going to get more results fast. but you have no foundation.

Yeah. So it's just like, it's a stupid idea to just go straight to that. Try to go natural. Do the best I can. I mean, I'm dedicated to this now.

So like when I start, I'm going to do it. No. Like when I really lock in on something and I like, know the benefits? You're not going to be whining. Like,

fuck yeah, I'm going to be whining, bro. You know me? Yeah. That clip, oh my God, I'm so, I hate that clip,

bro. It's a bunch of clips in me like, it's like barely, like can't even lift the bar. It was real. I was really trying at that time. I wasn't trolling you. I swear to God.

You probably still think I was not trolling you. No. You were. No, I swear to God, bro. I'm weak. I was, I'm a bit stronger now, but I'm weak, bro.

Yeah, that sucks. But it's because I have a lot of health problems, like a lot. Yeah, you have Crohn's disease. Crohn's, yes, and it kills me, bro, and it kills, imagine,

I think a shot every week that kills my immune system. Yeah. And I travel every three days. I'm on flights and I'm in these hotels. I'm sometimes sitting in fucking shitty holiday in all this stuff because there's no other, like, hoteled early check-in. Like, I'm in dirty spots sometimes.

And have you ever shit blood? I used to shit blood every day, you incensed a fuck. Yeah, fuck. That's actually really tough. And it's actually super hard on your body, and it makes it really hard to fucking get in shape. Health-wise, I've been through a lot. What else? What else besides that?

Crazy asthma attacks being hospitalized because of asthma. I mean, that in Crohn's basically, but my Crohn's used to be really bad. I couldn't even go to school because I, I, I, I, I, I, I was in and out of hospital so much. I grew up with asthma too. Yeah. I had all that. But not Crohn's.

Crohn's is a different level because it fucked your gut up. Yeah. I mean, it got so bad to a point where the doctor was like, yo, we need to take out your, whatever it is in your intestine or something to wear like you need to shit with a bag. Oh my God.

It was that bad. And then we got one last opinion and tried one more medicine. And thankfully it worked. I would have a fucking bag on my chest right now. Yeah, that's insane. Because it's essentially like the ulcers. Like it'll like open holes.

and they're like bleeding. Yeah. It's terrible. Yeah, that's tough. You had that your whole life? Yeah, and even now I still deal with it. Like, I still deal with a lot of, like, flares come up and shit happens. I just keep pushing.

Yeah, that's rough, bro. A friend of mine fixed it himself. Naturally, right? Yeah, dude, there's so many natural medicine doctors who have reached out to me and I'm going to do it for free. And I'm just so fucking stupid and I don't follow up. You should. Because my boy, I'll never forget, he told me. And it's kind of what sort of seemed like, well, he also had a family that he started

having kids and stuff. but it kind of ended his bodybuilding career, fucking incredible shape. And then he got Crohn's disease. And I remember, I'll never forget. I remember one day I was like, I had to live with him. And he was like shit and he was like fucking like groaning. Like, bro, I'm shit in blood.

Yeah. Moral of the story, he fixed it because he went to the doctor's. Doctors like, yo, you got to take, I'm assuming you take what, prednisone shots? I used to stop working and then I'd take Hamerino. Yeah. So the prednisone shit, like just all the things to fix it because it's autoimmune disease. like really fuck your body up even like not necessarily more than crones but like pretty much the same thing they just alleviate the symptoms but he was able to go back I think like I don't know

maybe a year later to the same doctor who was like yo you got to take these shots like basically forever and he was like it's completely gone he completely fixed it wow so it is something genuinely to look into yeah I know how to do with like nicotine and some other shit because I couldn't believe it and he's like I think he's I think to this day I think he's free of grown. Without having to take medicine? Yes. That's fucking great.

And that will change your life, man. Because it's, yeah, it's one of those diseases that there's like, you got to take this forever. It's crazy. Yeah. And that will fuck you up big time when it comes to the making your body better for sure. Yeah, like you, I take a shot every week. So like at the last two days before I take my shot when like all the medicine is wearing

off, it's terrible. Like even now, like really bad. Like, I couldn't really like yesterday. It was my shot day. Yeah. I took my shot later at night, but throughout the day I couldn't do shit. I just felt so bad. So I just,

I still do it. Yeah. I'm gonna look into that. I gotta follow up with these people. You should really follow up on that because you could fix that because that will make everything in your life better. Not just your fitness journey,

but like everything. Energy, everything. I'll just feel better. Yeah. Yeah, for sure. Okay, so the fitness shit, you got like a year to do it. You're going to post YouTube videos.

Yeah. We'll film some stuff. Yes. You don't have like a vision of like how you want to look. Because the Ronaldo hit me up one day and was like, yeah, could I look like this? And he showed me like an AI version of yourself. and it was just like,

no, obviously not. He's naturally fat guy. Ronaldo. Yeah. Naturally fat. Yeah. Cool guy, though.

His physique's not. It's like, naturally fat. Yeah, yeah. Because he's a little shorter and fat. Shorter of fat. For me,

I'm like a little taller and still, and my fat goes to my thighs. You're a little more aesthetic? Yeah, for sure. More aesthetically pleasing. So you get it before him for sure. Yeah. I mean,

there's no vision, though. I guess I need to figure that out. Like, what do I want to look like? I don't know. You should have something in mind. Yeah,

I don't want to be big. I don't want to be like, like big. I want to be lean. I know that. Yeah. I need to put on more weight. I weigh, I weigh 135 pounds. Oh my God.

So I want to go to like 150. Oh my God, dude. Yeah. You're an adult. You're at 135. Fuck you, dude. That's so crazy. I don't take enhancements like you.

Yeah, but even when I didn't take enhance since I was like 225, 2.30. You're just naturally fat, bro. Oh, it's not fat. Like, what the fuck you're going to do, bro? I was never fat. I'm Indian. Yeah, I know. You need to go back and tell my people to lock in, like.

Yeah, they got to lock the fuck in, dude. Stop scamming. Indians too, bro. Dude, they scam my grandparents on the phone and wipe their bank accounts. I swear to God. What? Yes, this was like two years ago. He wiped everything.

Damn. Because they're like, we need your credit card information. I swear, Indian on Indian crime. It happens. That's nuts. But Indians got no hearts, bro. They don't care. Yeah, I know.

I know. Why are you different? Maybe I'm not I'm kidding I'm kidding I'm kidding I'm kidding I'm kidding

no it's the Indians the accents they don't have accent you're good so funny to me what's your net worth

I don't I couldn't even guess I'm usually really good at this you've been in the game for so long I got no money dude

the government took it off government took it all no that's what you make it seem like they took it all what you make it seem like they got it all you got like a hidden ledger

with like I got nothing. 25 million, 30, 40. Nothing. What do you add? I don't know what to. I think you got to be worth. How much you get paid gambling every month?

Good. It's a good way to make me shut the fuck up. No, I'm curious. Huh? Yeah, how much? It's a good amount, bro. I mean, it's just, it's fun. It's like, I like doing it.

Over six figures? Over 100K? Ha ha ha ha ha. What the fuck, bro? Wow. Now, that was disrespectful. That's not what I meant. Yeah, but that's not what I meant.

Not that six figure. I mean over six figures. Oh, like a mill. Yes. I guess what I was saying. I don't know, dude. I haven't even looked at the numbers.

I just signed a new deal. I don't know what it is. You're such a fucking scammer, bro. I will say that, fuck you. I will say they bought me out of my other deal. So you got a bag and then you got another bag? No, they just outbid.

They outbid it. Yeah, yeah, yeah. So, yeah, yeah. I'm blessed, man. I don't know how I ended up here, bro. Seriously. Like, I don't know when I did to deserve this. I don't know how this even happened.

It feels like everything just flashed and I'm just here, bro. I truly am so blessed, bro. Yeah, I get it. I get it. It's good. I'm proud of you, man. Thank you, bro. You shit ahead sometimes, but I'm proud of you.

I'll never be late again. I don't know, dude. No, seriously, no. No, you caught me at such a bad point of my life, bro. Why, though? I told you, bro, I've just been, I've been sad. I've been lonely. I've been, like, I have not at peace, like, just very on the edge.

Like, just not a lot of problems in turn. Like a lot of shit just happening. Like I just, it's been, it's been a rough, maybe not even more, maybe even more than two months. It's been a rough like two months. I would say after the World Cup finished. Is it, is it mostly content wise? No, no, no, not even personal. Just personal.

Like just my brain, like my thoughts, me just not like just feeling it. Like I just, I just been out of it. But just not what? Like not being happy? Not being happy. Not just not feeling good. Waking up, not feeling good. Not being able to sleep.

Like nowadays I can't even sleep. Like I need to like literally go on my phone. until my eyes, like, can't do it anymore. My phone just drops and I fall asleep. Why don't you just connect, bro? I've tried. I try. If I put my phone down, I sit back, I try to sleep.

I'm there for hours and I can't fall asleep. Dane. And you sounds like you need some magnesium in your life. Some meltheny. Some melatonin? No, not meltonin. Why? I would avoid that one.

Seriously? Yeah. Yeah, I'd avoid that one. Why? There's better options. I think there's other things that help you sleep. Like, actually relax you easier. Oh.

Yeah. Yeah. You ever get those crazy melatonin dreams? No. I don't really take melatonin. Oh, okay. Yeah. We have a crazy nightmares. I just don't like the idea of something forcing me to sleep. But magnesium is good. Yeah. That's like, it's just electrolyte.

You probably don't have enough of it. It's going to relax you. And it makes you tired? Yeah, it relaxes you. Okay. So your brain isn't as like, doesn't feel as wired. And like L-thianine also relaxes you. So it slows me down. Why fuck would I do that? Because you want to go to sleep, motherfucker? That's the point. You just said you want to sleep.

You just said you want to sleep. Not during the day. Not like midday. You're like doing a stream takes of magnesium. Now, when you're trying to go to bed. Okay, so late at night. And some pussy helps you go to sleep too. Yeah, I haven't had that in a while. Once the last time you fucked, bro?

You're such a fucking brat bitch, bro. Who asked you like that? What was the last time you fucked? It's been a while. I don't even remember. Really? Yeah, I swear, it's been a minute. But you have all the money, the fame, the likes to use.

Yeah, but I just don't want to go put in my dick in anyone, dude. Like, your dick is precious. You want a girl for real. Dude, I want a girl, bro. I want to settle down with a girl and just have her and, like, be able to stream and after the stream I can go back to the love of my life and go like dinner and just like

fuck bro I want that so bad that's so bad that yeah I see why that's hard to get though yeah I would say like why is it that hard but I get it maybe like where do you think you can find them they're not here huh they're definitely not yeah bro I think I don't judge a girl

based off a past like a lot of girls have really bad pass and like I just don't think that defines a person for example the girl I was dating for two years worst past you could possibly think of. Like it's so, so bad. Only fans, all this, whatever. Girl that I'm thinking of. Yeah, Sam, whatever. Yeah. And now she's on, like, a path that, like, people don't think is genuine, but I really do think it's genuine. Like, I think that's who she is. She's, like, devoted to religion. Being, like, a good person and just, like,

doing the right things. And, like, that's just, that's who she is. So she, like, I think she's living proof that you can change. So you can never run it back with her, though. Oh, fuck, no, I don't want to see her face. Um, valid. But I'm, I'm happy for her, very happy for her. Yeah. Very, very happy. That's so funny. Yeah. You're hilarious, dude.

I'm honest, dude. I know, I know. I know. I'm not going to see her face. I don't. I get it. But you know all about what she's doing and shit. I mean, bro, I'm on the internet.

Everything pops up. Like, she's like, there's like one. Dude, she's lucky funny. Yo, I don't know. I might be a fan. Yo, she put her hand out. There was like an ambulance going by. She put her hand out like Superman and made a prayer.

That shit went crazy. Bro. But then people were hating on her. Yeah. But it's like, it was funny as, as fuck. I might, yo,

I might have to have to have that been. Yeah, you got a man. No, you should just do a stream one time. Just be,

no, no, no, no, but imagine. I don't want to see your face. That would be so viral. She's on the bigger and bad things. Like, I don't want to like,

you should go to like a church stream. Can you even do that? I don't even do that. And the Muslims would be mad. But I mean, I've been to church before. I don't think, I don't think there's anything wrong

with a Muslim person being in a church. Like, like when she got baptized. I was there off stream. like yeah back then dude church stream dude run it up

imagine I don't think that's gonna be imagine the clips the clips the clips the clips but you don't

gotta like make it your whole life again like you did before yeah that was your problem just do one time no no no that reunion is never happening

definitely not I will I will cheer from from the side that's good that's big of you yeah

I mean before I used to like just talk shit about her every stream I'd be like, fuck that girl. blah, blah, blah, all these things. Yeah. But now, I gotta just be happy for someone. I'm a new man.

I'm a change man. I'm proud of you, man. I'm also gay. I know that. I think they all know that. My hair's nice. You don't like my hair? No, I like it.

Maybe a little jealous. It happens. You're going to keep that look forever, though? No, you're cutting that shit off in less than a year. I don't know what's next. Maybe like a mohawk. I don't know. Just don't go blue.

I went blue at one point. I looked like a fucking lesbian. Yeah, don't do that Yeah Don't do that Never again Mohawk I don't know what I want to do

I had a comb over And I had like longer hair Down here And then I had this little thing I went buzz These are all things That you can't do Oh man

My body's like He feels great to be young Yeah You know the fucked up part about it Is I started balding When I was 23 Oh shit But if it hits you

No You would know You would know Yeah my dad got good Oh your dad has bad hair My dad got his hair done. Oh, you might be fucked that. It's okay, but I can just get my hair done too.

Fair, yeah. Yeah. It's like real hair, right? It, I mean, it depends what you get done. Like, a turkey. Like, you just get the... Yeah, yeah, yeah. They take your hair and they plant your hair regrowing. Yeah. They like, take the hair follicles that are still working and put it in places there it wasn't. Does it hurt? Uh, I don't know. Are you going to do it? I should do it. They keep inviting me. I'm not going to lie. They hit me up. Every single hair thing you could think of has message me. Come do this.

For free. No, for free and we'll pay you. They want to pay me. To get your hair done. Like a lot of money. Yeah. And I'm like, I don't know why I don't just do it. Let me come stream it.

I, God. Yeah, they probably pay you too. Fuck, I was get a bag, brother. They would. I think about it all the time because I also really want to visit Turkey, too. Turkey. I heard Turkey's beautiful. Yeah, the food is amazing.

Culture. Yeah, I've heard so many good things about Turkey. I might do it this year. Okay. I might do it this year. But then like if I ever, it's like the hat's also like a part of me now. Dude,

just wear the fucking hat with hair under it, bro. Like imagine like you're with a girl in bed. You gotta take the hat off. She's like, holy shit, you're bald. What if it's a girl that doesn't know you, Brad? I take the hat off all the time, bro. I know you have to. I'm saying if the girl doesn't know

and you're in bed lying down, you take it off and shut. I never lie down with a hat on. Don't do me like that. It's crazy. That's insane. Okay, well, you're in the bathroom. She's lying down in bed ready to get fucked.

Right? and you come out without the hat. She's like, what the fuck? These are the things you got to think about, man. It never goes that way. It could. It never goes that way. You got a long life ahead of you.

That could happen. You never know, man. Bro, it's not, oh my God. That's really funny. I'm not going to lie. That's very funny. Fuck you, dude. You're a bitch.

You're a fucking bitch, bro. Yo, fuck you. If you ever late again, I'm beating the shit out of you. Okay, I won't. Yeah, I swear. No, no, seriously. I was in about the text of you bringing your security so I could fight.

I came solo. I know, I was, I know. Fuck, dude. Like, even, when did I come solo here? No, you came. No, no. Yeah, you didn't come solo last time. I don't think I've ever been solo here.

Yeah, it's true. I've always been with people, security, whatever, bro. Honestly, though I'm getting better. I'm feeling day by day, I'm feeling a little better and I'm just, I'll be good. You seem good? Huh? You seem good. Yeah, I'm not going to fucking sit here and be like, Brad.

But you were, but when you weren't here, that's how you were feeling? No, no, today I felt good. Okay. Yeah. Do you ever cry? I don't know. Yeah. By yourself?

Tear up a little. I'm gonna sit there and like fucking. Yeah, yeah, I get you. I get you. Yeah, but like, damn, you know. What's the main thought? Like, is it your life thing or is it the girl thing? Just a lot.

A little bit of everything. You could tell me the truth, bro. A little bit of everything. I don't want to be. All right. a little bit of everything, man. But, you know, life gives you curveballs, saying.

Yeah. Well, you're good, dude. Thanks, man. I'm proud of you. I honestly, bro, I love talking to you, bro. I had genuinely enjoyed this. No, I do too. I do too.

I remember even the first time I think we really interacted, even though I think you were a shithead on stream. Like, you were always just like genuinely like a nice dude. Which, what I always found so interesting could you play the villain. Yeah. You always played the villain. I hated playing the villain.

But you were just a nice guy. I hated. I hated playing the villain. Yeah. You really ran that up, though. I was the fucking villain. Bro, they had me in conversations right next to Jack Doherty every time. It was Jack Doordy and Neon.

Now you wouldn't even think to do that. Well, man, people might think to do that still. Fuck you if you do. They're going to do it just because of it. Yeah. Not for real, though. I feel like I've done a really good job. Like, that's something I do have to give myself credit for.

Like, I feel like I've done a really good job to get out of that. Yeah. Well, you're growing, man. I mean, you're, you are, I know you're doing it for a long time, but you are a fucking kid. You are growing. I feel it's going to be so successful to where they can't hate. exist. I think that's part of success is being hated. Yeah. There's no one ever, ever that had just everyone loved them, except for like Jesus Christ or like Gandhi or even Michael Jackson.

Because they killed his ass. Even Michael Jackson had haters. Yeah. I mean, I don't know. I feel like that might be the one example. You serious? Everyone loved. Oh yeah, the whole like, the allegation shit. Yeah. I mean, that's a whole other conversation. But I don't know. I feel like everyone loved that motherfucker. I need to watch the movie still in Michael Jackson. movie. Well, that movie was great, but there's a bunch of other weird documentaries and shit. But yeah, I guess, no, it doesn't even exist. I don't think it exists. You gotta, you gotta have, you can't have it all. Somebody's embrace it. Yeah. Fuck it.

Let's embrace it, man. And get jacked. Coming soon. Coming soon. Coming soon. Coming very soon. Thank you for coming on the show, pro. Every Tuesday, I love you guys. We'll see you next week. Tap in. Subscribe, subscribe to the channel, show love. He streams fucking, you already know every fucking day. No, not every day. Five to six times a week. Fuck.

It's not that bad though, bro Like a few hours Like two, three hours Three four hours a day I think sometimes soon I'm gonna become a streamer Seriously But it's the I don't think it's gonna be IRL bro

That's the only way to do it bro You need to do IRL That shit man No one wants to sit and watch someone On a desktop I'm sorry bro Even though you are Bradley Martin Like no one wants to sit and watch

You react clips At the age of 40 bro Like you need to get up And do something bro I'm being serious bro I believe you I believe you You IRA is cool though

It's like it's interesting Like fuck Brad is out here Doing this interacting with this person like it's fire like you iRL would be sick i should do it like try one week and just i rl streams every day you would be like fuck trust on kick trust me bro you get in the kick clipping dude you're gonna and it it only help your podcast yeah now it's valid i got to do something because i want to do something else more than this yeah like i've done this for long enough and i miss just like making content for real for the fun of it for the love of it exactly yeah

maybe a turkey stream maybe we could set that iRL and turkey i'm down that'd be sick All right, brother. I love you. Thanks for coming on. Yeah.