RAWTALK - DATING AMANDA CERNY?

Episode Date: May 10, 2019

I got to sit down with Amanda Cerny to talk about her journey from vine to instagram to youtube and acting. We also talked about relationships, dating on social media and what it's like to fail. Give this podcast a listen.

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But the audio, I have actually, I'm really proud right now. I'm very, very proud right now. Why? I'm proud of you for the podcast. By the way. But the audio is finally fixed. Yeah? Yeah, we went through so many different, like, setups that now it's, like, crispy.

Ooh, we love crispy audio. Yeah, so, like, you probably sound really good. Yeah, I'll have no idea until I listen to it later. Exactly, because we don't have the feedback. Because I have fun so work. They are dead. Anyways, I have the one and only with me, Amanda Cernie, and I have a question for you. Oh, ask away.

Dun, dun, dun, down. Who is your favorite fitness influencer? Me, it's me. Oh, I already, actually, I know the answer. Damn, I know the answer. Johannes bottle. I walked into that one. You did.

You say himself up. I mean, there's no way around that. God. But you guys do a lot of stuff together, so. No, I love, Johannes. He's actually, I think he might be my favorite. Yeah? Yeah.

Oh. Because he's actually super sweet. He's got really blue eyes. Now I'm jealous. So, okay. Then let's talk about something that you're probably actually good at, because I was on your podcast, which is what. It's oh honey

Oh honey Hasn't launched it Hasn't launched yet I was on it though I think I was the best guest Except when I left I saw there was other There was another cool guest and I was like fuck She might be better than me on there

But thank you You did something on there that I really liked And I was like man I should do this with my listeners I should ask them questions and this one was about dating You were asking me questions that your fans had sent in and asked you to ask the guests on your podcast right yeah to give them some advice and i was like damn that's a great idea

because i like giving like dating advice yeah you were great at it by the way thank you very good and uh then i was like wait a minute my all my answers and all these guys would be like just asked raunchy as shit oh yeah we didn't get any you didn't get any raunchy questions no i mean we also curate the questions so we'll get a ton in and then we'll like curate means like you cheat the questions oh no i guess it means like we put them in a pool of of questions like 10 and then we'll put them like yeah mix them up and then put them between each episode so it's like a bunch of people write in to diary at oh honey diary.com okay and then we just kind of we get a lot of stuff so we'll get like the random ones that probably won't have much much

conversation to it besides like uh huh like uh okay yeah i got some boy that question i had some deep questions mine were like really i want it next time that's the ones we like next next Next time I come, I want some raunchy questions. Yeah? Okay, we can pull some of those out from the email too for you. Set those up. Okay, I have a question for you, though, beyond that. What got you in a starting podcast? Why did you want to start a podcast?

I just, it's like, all right, I'm on every other platform. Like, I'm always like. Which you kill, by the way. Thank you. You kill it. Thanks. But it's like, it's a lot of work because you're setting up, like, directing, producing, like, you need scripts. You need all that.

So with a podcast, it's actually, like, I love the idea of it because you get to sit down with your friends or people that you're interested and have a full-on conversation. And I was like, yeah, I really wanted to do a podcast, but I wanted to have, like, a theme to it because I always love just creating themes around things. So I was like, what's better than, you know, giving advice? And one of the things that I used to listen to growing up was Delilah. And she was on, I think she's based in New York, I don't know, but. Delilah.

Yeah, it was this radio show. and it's Delilah. This is a little... No, you would call in. She played the best Christmas music ever on the radio station. And then people would call in and she would give like some love advice. And it was just like so like she's been doing it forever. I'm sure some people even listening to this made up...

This was radio. Yeah, yeah. Okay. This is like when I was a waitress at a diner, they would always play Delilah on the radio. And it's just so comforting. But I just like, so that's kind of where I. got the inspiration from and I was like okay that'd be cool to do that get questions in from our fans and also be able to get people on the show and talking about how their life works

and it brings up just natural conversation and things like especially people always go to the friends to get love advice right yeah and even though it's not from experts or anything it's just like it's always from your friends yeah it's always from your friends and that's the one that you're just like most interested in so it's like why can't we be everybody's friend and just get them. Do you think you get the best love advice from your friends? No, but I think it's fun.

I think it's fun to, like, coach through it and just to bring things up, different perspectives, and never to take anything, like, fully 100%. But just to be like, oh, okay, that's an interesting thought on it. Right. So when you heard this back in the day, how old were you then? You were a waitress. Oh, well, I lied on my resume, but it was 14, almost 15. Oh, so you were like lying for a worker's person?

Yeah. And so this is like obviously way before all the social media stuff how to because I've always been curious about this like what got you started on the social because you I know you I think you were biggest on Vine initially. Yeah. And then you came to Instagram and killed it and a lot of other Viner's came. What what like what got you started on social media? I wanted to do more acting and then I didn't have a real. So I was like all I all just one of my friends did YouTube Jimmy Taitro and I was like, hey. Oh, I know Jimmy. Yeah. And I was like, hey, like, if you ever need anybody for any of your skits, let me know because I'm trying to build a reel for myself so I can go out and, you know, have something to show and kind of put something together. So it was for acting initially. Yeah. It wasn't for social. No.

I didn't even know, like, how to edit. I didn't know how to do anything. And then, so I went and did a couple of Jimmy's videos, and then he was going to shoot 22 Jump Street. Oh, wow. How many years ago was this? This was like 2012, 2013. Yeah. Yeah.

So after that, he was like, but there's this other app because I was like, Jimmy, no, I need to build my reel. I gotta shoot your stuff. And then he was like, well, there's this app called Vine that just came out and it'll probably be a good app for you how to learn to do stuff on. And I was like, oh. So Vine came out after Instagram?

Yeah. Because I never used Vine. I got on Vine and was like, I can't do it. It was like two seconds. Instagram, I don't think had video at the time. Oh, they didn't? Yeah, it was just photos. was on Instagram like almost like when it first came out so 2011 yeah so it came out the end it came

out the end of 2010 yeah and I got on it like really quickly I think I had like 20,000 followers on Instagram like already and then vine came out and I was like all right let me use this platform so I can learn how to edit little things it's only six second videos so I'm like this is a great platform for me to start on with like content creation and then eventually I could do my own productions and build in my reel that way so then I started studying stuff studying like how to edit and all that stuff with vine at first you couldn't even edit on you just filmed in real time learned how to piece things together and then I started actually learning how premiere works and like all that stuff yeah so what got you into like the comedy

side of things because you're you you've done so much I just noticed like that's kind of what I was doing with Jimmy initially too and like I've had a lot of friends that are comedians and stuff growing up also so it's like I've always had fun with like improv and the banter and I was in improv classes as well so I was like you know I love it so much why not make my content this and not make it so serious because I was learning a lot at the same time so for me to just have fun with it so let me ask you a question I think this is this is really interesting when you were how old were you when you said you when you thought about doing acting how old was well there was I guess the moment that I decided I wanted to pursue it was when I was

19. Okay, 19. But when I was younger, I would do like plays and stuff with my sisters and yeah. So when did you start to develop this vision of like wanting to do acting? When I was. Yeah, and I was in Miami. Okay. And I was like doing live EDM event hosting in Miami. EDM event hosting. Yeah, so I would go on stage and electronic dance music. Yeah. And amp up the crowd and I would do it. Yeah. Wait, wait. Yeah. It was like DJ, DJ Surney? What is this? No, I was in a DJ. You were just, I was the host. So I would like go I'd be like, hey, welcome to this festival, da-da-da, and then just, like, introduce the DJ. I just picture you on drugs doing this. You're not on drugs, no drugs.

I never, mm-mm. Yeah, none of that. Because, like, to be in that atmosphere, it's all like, drugs. But it was the rise of it, too, because I was in Miami. This was, like, 2011, 2010. That's when it just started. Yeah. And it was just, like, when EDM was becoming a thing, starting to play at all the clubs.

Did I ask you your age? Is that rude on a pie? No, is that rude on a pie? How old are you? I'm 27. Okay. Yeah. I'm an old man.

No. I'm 30 this month. You're hoping I was going to go. I'm 30 this month. Oh, happy this birthday. What are you going to do? Pretend that I'm 29 still. Oh, good for you.

Yeah. No, I think, but I think guys, it's just better if you're older. Yeah? Promote that 30 all day long. You learn a bunch of shit. I definitely learned a lot. Yeah. And also for the women, like, you just being like, I'm 30.

They're like, oh, thank God. Oh, you made it. Yeah. Yeah. You survived it, and also you're mature. Okay, so there I was going with this question was you had this vision of like you wanted to be an actress. Yeah. Do you still want to do more of that?

Yeah. Right now I'm working on like packaging and producing projects if I could speak now too. So let me so, but you're not exactly where you want to be as far as acting goes, are you? No. No. But I have a real, like a significant question. The significance of this question, I think for people listening is like, but I'm, Are you very, very happy with where you're at now?

Yeah, I'm happy with where I'm at, but I'm also wanting to do more. Of course. Yeah. Did you think that this was going to be a part of you trying to become an actress? Like, did you see this coming? No. Yeah. Yeah, I just thought it was my real.

I was like, this is going to be great. That's why you were doing it. Yeah, because I was taking acting classes and improv classes, like, at the same time also. And I was like, this will help me, like, to get an agent, agency and a manager. and I even know the difference between the two. I was like, I just know I need them because that's what people say. And that's another thing in life. It's just like question everything that's like normal.

Like, you know, it's like you need an agent. You need a manager. Just think of your own situation and question what is they do and why you need them. And this is what I was getting at with the question I'm thinking like, because a lot of people, they have like a vision or a goal about where they want to go and how they want to get there and what they think it's going to entail. And then like as you get closer, it's never normally that. It like goes so differently.

Yeah. Because, like, I would say that you're probably, I mean, just from what I know, you're probably, I don't know a ton of like actors or actress who are trying to like come up. But I feel like unless you're like one of the main, like a star of like a big production film, you're probably not really killing it. Right. But you're not that yet. You want to be, but you're still for sure killing it.

I know just from having conversation with you and know enough about you. The reason why I'm saying that though to everyone listening is like you might have a goaler or a dream about we're trying to go and it's just like it's never exactly as you plan it yeah i mean because initially i would have been happy with like the roles i've gotten and the stuff i've done already too but at the same time it's like life is about progressing and growing and it's like it's never like you said it's never going to be exactly what's in here and what's the perfect situation but it's also a blessing at the same time because i was like worried about um my find food on an airplane you know I was like I'm trying to save money and like trying to live in

these cities like you know yeah so it's like now I'm comfortable enough to actually really put time into the things that I love and I'm passionate about and want to do and I've kind of been doing that throughout the process as well because I have been able to like put together my own productions where I'm where I am acting but also my head is in a million different places too of like all right I got to write this I got to cast this I got to direct this I got to edit this and um but that's why i love being on sets too because i can fully focus what do you what do you think you're most passionate about because if you're you haven't experienced them with all those things yeah i love everything i'm doing yeah like and i enjoy everything i'm doing but the

what i'm most passionate about would be i love directing i think it's so much fun for me yeah um i love building things like entrepreneur building brands like legos yeah i love legos yeah i love Legos. Like Legos. What else? And acting. I'll make that a priority. If you had to ask me, okay, are you going to make a ton of videos this week for your

Instagram? Are you going to do like a starring role on the set? I'll be like, all right. See you later. I'll be right back. And my fans would support me too because they know that's what I've been wanting to do. Yeah. So that's where your focus would be at.

Yeah. So do you, what's like your ideal role? I guess you don't have one No like I love everything I would love to do an action Action movie I think those are so much fun I would love to do comedy as like You know right there

Like definitely do that Yeah Alright let me switch the topic real quick Let's talk about love life Oh Yeah Favorite sex position I'm kidding

I'm not gonna do it like that That's so wrong You're the ones I'm the one who's making Yeah Yeah, you're the one that's writing those comments in. I'm writing all the comments, secretly making different accounts. Yeah.

No, then we're not going to talk. I'm joking. We're not going to talk about that. But love life. Like, so obviously I know, I know your boyfriend. Very good friend of mine. We mentioned him earlier. He's working out in your gym right now.

He's working out right now. Yeah. Zoo culture. Yes. The plug. Thank you. Yeah. But I have some, I have questions about, I just, I thought of two, about dating.

And it's in regards to... Only two questions. Well, two that I think are very important. I have a ton. Obviously, I don't have all the answers, but two in regards to something that I think you probably have... I know you do because you have experience in it. But dating and social media, how hard is that? Because you're doing that.

Yeah, for me, it's not hard. Like, I notice that people do have... It's challenging for some people, but I think I balance it enough to where not everything's out there. But it's still Because I didn't know for a while Yeah I knew Johannes before I knew That you guys were dating

And I think he was dating you Yeah I don't know It depends when Because like I was friends with him for a while He told me that Yeah and then it kind of like merged into dating

When I became single And then we started talking And but I never really And a lot of our friends Didn't know too That we were even dating Yeah So we just like waited

And just like had our own relationship kind of like grew that together and kept it away from things but at the same time like I would put him in a lot of like my comedy sketches and stuff just so as I always like needed somebody and he would help me out with that too and um with that people are like oh he's playing the boyfriend in her in her sketch comedy but a lot of the ideas like come are inspired by like real life situations too or just something ridiculous but um yeah so a lot of my stuff is scripted. It's on my page with us together, but like the photos and stuff, there's some stuff that's super organic that's real and just fun and, you know, I, you dated someone prior.

Yeah. Was he also involved in? No. Yeah, I never posted him. Just because he had nothing to do with the space, so it just didn't really make sense to me. Yeah. Johannes, I was already doing content with, so I'm like, you know, like, it's people keep asking about it.

I'm not going to lie to them. Yeah. Like, yeah, it's my boyfriend. Yeah. So you never have a hard time with that. No, like, I don't know, I trust them. And I think that's where a lot of people find a difficult time with things is like not being able to trust somebody because they're afraid. Like, I know girls that won't post their boyfriend because they don't want other girls DMing them or just like going after.

Deamming the boyfriend. Yeah, going after them because they see that it was like a challenge for other people. I'm like, no, I'm not worried about that. If he wants to do that, then goodbye. Yeah. You know, we can go. It's actually a good test of, you know, my investment. time. But then also I could see where people would see it as a challenge if getting other

outside people's advice all the time and weighing in on your own relationship. But I don't make it that deep with my stuff. It's more of like this is us here. This is us doing this, you know? So it's like the comments are all pretty, pretty nice. Yeah. Yeah. That's that's because I'm from not personal experience, but like some shit that I've seen on the internet is just like, yeah, relationships normally are just like fucking roller coasters and when I talk to you guys I'm like you guys seem completely like unfazed by all of it yeah like it's just all good I just don't I'm trying to put myself in somebody else's shoes and understand like why it would complicate a relationship but it hasn't really for hours like I would never use my platform to treat somebody badly

either and I think there's a lot of that that happens with the relationship suit because then I get the views off the drama. Exactly. And that's what I don't do. Like, you know, the drama. Yeah, the drama. Because then everyone, all the other, the little, all the other channels, like to make videos about it. And I don't like drama in my life in general. So like, posting drama online, if it were to ever happen, it's like, oh God. Like, I'm just, it's interesting, too, because like a lot of times when there's drama in real life, because I've experienced this in my past, too. Yeah. The drama in real life, it's funny, it's like, people on the internet, like when they go and they put a video, like the person saying,

oh, this person did X, Y, Z. It's funny because the people watching the drama, like, I don't know, do they not think that, hey, maybe that person is doing this because they know it's going to get views because they know they're going to get some benefit from it. Some of it is planned, yeah. A lot of it is planned because, like, you know that you can get some sort of response. You're going to get the most amount of views because it's like, it's something, some issues. Exactly.

It's like, that's why the reality shows on like, you know, when everybody had a cable and watching those. Now it's like the kids are watching YouTube and consuming it that way. So have you ever had a really bad relationship in your past? Not really bad. I mean, I feel like there's always ups and downs in relationships, but mine was like cheating on me.

So that's a bad thing. Yeah. So it wasn't physically, but it was more... Did I know that guy? I don't know if you met him. I don't think he did. You may have. Maybe you're passing.

But it was a long distance relationship. too so that added another layer to it also and a completely like not a part of social media space whatsoever so added another layer to it because he didn't really he wasn't in entertainment yeah yeah so but we were fine like I still think he's a great person yeah he's just not the best boyfriend so it's like yeah so for me it's like you know I that's not the type of relationship I wanted to be in and like the breakup was wasn't crazy It was just more like, I'm over it now. Do you think you need to have someone in the space to date someone in this?

Like, do you think you need to be in the space to date someone in the space? I honestly was never going to. Yeah. And then I met Johannes. And then that was the exception, I guess. It's funny because you can always say like what your type is, what you wouldn't do, what you would do. But you never really know until you're in that situation. Yeah.

Yeah. Like a lot of shit in life is like that, though. Yeah. Are you dating anybody? Oh, man. And I have had a really interesting, how many years? A few years, a few years, more than a few years. Yeah.

Yeah, I had an on and off relationship for like seven years. Oh, see, that's like a lot of stress, I feel like, yeah. Yeah, obviously a lot of amazing times because, like, to do something for seven years, you're like, there's good in it. There's love there, yeah. For sure. But it, and it's a lot of, in relationship to, like, social was one of the big, problems because like that's why I asked you like outside of uh this person was completely outside of social yeah like did did none of it so I think the the needs of like especially uh social for me

and like the way that like my audience like interacts with me it's you know it's not the most comforting for like a girl because like a lot of times like I'll do videos where I'm lifting girls or you know I want to get girls in the gym to work out and it's involving other women and then if there's trust issues which there was because of the past mistakes that I made then it's like oh no yeah but it's like you know that many years ago I was like a fucking kid I've grown so much now but it's still like to try and do it now and come back is like there's still that like weariness yeah well I mean there's so many and are you guys still on and off yeah kind of I think timing is a really important thing too

because sometimes in somebody's life like you can be not ready like yourself like Like you weren't ready. Oh, not at all. Well, in the beginning, I wasn't ready at all. In the beginning, I had just come out of a relationship that I was like, I felt really hurt. So I was like, oh, I'm going to like protect myself and like, I'm going to, you know, let me like, because I felt very like, like, very hurt. So I was like, fuck the world. And I'm going to like, I'm going to do everything to benefit me.

And people are going to come in my life and I'm just going to focus on me and like whoever's here. I'm going to use them. Yeah. Because I felt used. Right. So then that person came into my life like right after. And then I didn't, I didn't see it for what it was. And then time went by, and then I was like, fuck, I made all these mistakes.

Now I wanted to work. And I'm like, but you can't go back on a induce her and shit. Right. So it's like. It's hard. Yeah. Because, you know, you want to, you want to forgive somebody if they've done something wrong. But if you, like, I'm coming from her perspective too.

So if like, even for me when I was cheated on, right? It's like, do it once. Okay. Like, all right, learn from that. See how it affected me. I cried. Wasn't happy. But I'm giving you another chance.

Do it again? All right. Yeah. How do you give someone another chance then? Yeah. It's like, I think it's more, it's a hard thing. Usually people would say leave right away if they do it. But we're human, right?

And we make mistakes. And it's just like we learn through them. And if we're not learning through them, then that's the issue. Like if it's like, and it's always like where the person's at mentally in their own life too. because you were at a point also where you were like, you know, screw everybody else. Like you're coming from a negative place, negative mindset already. Yeah, big time. Yeah.

And it's like, and when somebody's not clear on just being kind to others and loving themselves at the same time, it's going to be a really difficult relationship because it's like they're not, they didn't do the work on themselves yet to be in a relationship. Yeah. You know, would you agree? Yeah. Yeah. Definitely.

Yeah. I think that's, I mean, that's like when, just speaking from my own experience, like, I could, I know for a fact that when I was, when I had first got out of that relationship prior to, to meeting her, I did no work on myself and I was just trying to make myself because I felt so bad about what had happened and what, what happened to me prior. So then everything, I was just trying to like feel better about myself, but at the same time protecting myself. So I always had one foot out, one foot in, like, oh, this is good, but I don't want to get fucked. Like, I just recently got fucked, so I'm going to, like, protect myself. Right. So, like, that's where I was. that and it's it you're right it is always where you are personally like to make a relationship

work two people have to be like okay this is what's either happened or you know this has happened in my life prior like this is you know this happened in my life prior over here and then it's kind of like can we really be like fresh can we really let those things go and like start from today the next day and it's I think that's hard sometimes for people to just like I didn't like I didn't let it go at the time I dragged it on and then I realized after the fact like fuck so I think two people have got to be able to come together and be like, okay, this is where it's at, what's next? Yeah.

And it's ironic because even relationships like that, like that same concept, you could apply to like pretty much anything that you're working on or anything that you're doing is like, you fucked up, you failed, but where do you want to go? Like, because in relationships, like, okay, I want to, you know, I really want to have a family and I want to have a kid, I want to have kids. Like, I really want that. I've always, I've always wanted it. And now later on in my life, I'm like, I notice I want it more.

so it's like that's where I want to go it's like a business thing you want to get you have some goal it's like okay you're not there yet obviously but you want to get there so it's like the shit has happened all prior in your life you can't you can't like let those things hold you forever as you're trying to get towards what you want to go to yeah and I think too you know

the forgiveness aspect of it all of the why is that so hard it's hard because you know it's just human nature right you're gonna like that's her, I guess, defense is just remembering what you've done and just to prevent it again, she has to always remember what you've done and then, you know, but it's like that's not how it should work and how it needs to work. Because for a relationship, if you want to, if you decide, if you make the decision to carry on a relationship and fully go into it, you have to

also fully forgive and not bring it up in every argument or conversation because that's just reliving the past over and over, which is negative feeling and negativity already and just backtracking. So I think it's like, it's a lot of work for the other person. That's why they have to know that they really want to stay in that relationship because it's a lot of work for themselves to just like, be like, that's the past. That's no longer him and we're moving forward and I'm not going to keep going back to that. Yeah. Because that's what's going to make the biggest difference too. Yeah. And it's just, I mean, straight up the shit just doesn't work. Yeah. Like it's just you keep trying, you keep trying.

Like, I know from experience, like, you just keep in the same wall. It's like how many weeks, how many months until you hit that wall again? Right. And it also comes from the other side, too, because it's like the person who did that stuff, like you, for instance, just knowing, okay, like, I did do this before. It is my job to, like, make her feel secure and stuff in this relationship, too, because, you know, I may have made her feel insecure in the past through my past actions. so it's like just being a little bit more thoughtful in situations say you're going to like film

with a girl and lift her up and do like things for the content of being like hey like do you want to come yeah do you want to be there yeah i mean at this point i've offered it you know yeah but i i if if like a guy offered that i'd be like oh cool like no i'm good do your thing yeah like and then it's just but the fact that you invited me made it so okay nothing weird is going on yeah you know so it's just like being a little considerate there. Yeah. You're like, yeah. I don't do that.

No, I've done it. I've tried that. I've tried it. I think I've tried it all. It's like, I guess sometimes just get to the point where you're like fucking just fresher and you're like, God damn it. Yeah. You got to like how long.

Because you got to do your work too and you got to. Yeah. You know, but maybe you could lift her. Yeah. Yeah, back in the day. She was actually one of the first people that I filmed with. Maybe that's the solution. Yeah.

Maybe it's you doing. content with her is going to be what is the solution. It makes it so you don't need those other girls left because you've got your girl. Yeah, but you also need more girls, though, too. That's the thing. Not that I need more girls. I'm saying, like, the internet would be like, they get tired after seeing the same shit. Yeah.

No, I do things, like even in my sketches with other guys, too, that play the roles of my boyfriends or whatever. Yeah. It's a balance. Yeah. It's a balance for sure. Yeah, it depends. What do you think is hardest for you to balance in your life?

right now? Working versus just like not. Oh, fuck, man. That is the biggest challenge of all this shit. Because I'm obsessed with it. I love it. I have so much fun doing it. And I think Johannes brings me that balance too.

Because he'll, I'll be working, working, working. It's like almost midnight still going since like early this morning. And I'm having so much fun. But then Johannes will come in and be like, Amanda, that's not life. Like I did something over here, like something remained. let's just go leave your phone and let's just go do this thing oh so cute yeah and I'm like so fucking cute yeah it takes me out of it you're honest man I love that guy should I should pete us he bit no he didn't that's that's why I like him so much this is a genuinely good dude

yeah um hard to find for sure um do you want to date him no absolutely not you want to steal him for me no absolutely not no but it's a I noticed for sure that's one of the hardest things for me is balancing just like all this shit. Yeah. Because that's where like my times when like I did the least of it is because like I took on too many things to do. Like that's the thing too, too, thin. Yeah.

Because, you know, I used to manage myself for the longest time and I didn't have an agency for the longest time. Yeah. And even when I like, all them were reaching out and wanting to do things, I just didn't trust anybody to do it as well as I can do it. Yeah. And then with that, it limited me because then I'm on the phone doing negotiations. I'm like wearing a million hats that I wasn't able to do what I do best well anymore because I'm spread out so thin and it wasn't like progressing in my career anymore because I just had it all on me. So it's like just no. You had a time like that. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And it was just like no until recently actually like I got my management in beginning of December. Did you feel like you were kind of just getting by? Yeah. Like I was I was still like I was like I was.

I was still doing okay, but it was like repetitive. It was like I just didn't see like as much growth in areas that I wanted to grow. And that's not talking about like numbers on social media. That's just like talking about like career opportunities and like growth outside of what I'm already doing that works. Yeah. You know? Um, and some people are happy with that, happy just doing what they're doing. But I feel like I'm at my happiness, happiest when I'm like always just growing.

Yeah. doing things and even when I'm falling and growing from that fall too it's like it's the best you like doing that yeah I learn the most sometimes like and I love hearing people's stories of like their failures and too so I can like even take notes on those so it's like you can learn through other people and then it's almost a blessing when you have your own failures yeah I think that's when you learn the most too when you have your own because like it's one thing to hear something from someone and you know take some advice about like oh if this happens you should do that or yeah when she hits a fan like it's it's going to happen and you know try and do this and it's

always like oh you're always like yeah yeah until like I think it happens to you that you have a real opportunity to like be like oh fuck this is what that person meant I same thing like I mean I went to college at Florida State and I learned things in college a lot of it a lot of it I didn't fully retain um shit you yeah telling me yeah I dropped out yeah I mean going into the outside world after It's like that's when I honestly learned the most of doing. Like from doing, I just, you remember it. Yeah. A lot better.

Especially when it fucks you up. Yeah. That's when you really remember it. Yeah. Those are the memories that really stick with you. Yeah. And I think the challenge there, because something is when shit like goes really south, like really, shit that feels really bad.

Like, um, I've definitely experienced some shit. I know you've experienced some shit. Um, how do you, how do you think you come back from that? Not you necessarily in particular. I mean, you could share how you have or, but whatever you want, but I think just in general, what do you think it's important for someone to do to, like, get themselves out of it? Yeah, I would say just knowing that it's like a down moment and not being stuck in that this is forever.

Yeah. Having that mindset helps a lot because it puts that energy out there too, which I fully believe in energies and I'm like, you know. Oh, me too. Yeah. I think it's such a, such a thing. Because if you have a negative mindset, too, and you're just like stuck in this, like, horrible place right there's something in the universe happened and you're there but i always feel like

okay this is don't like how i feel right now don't like where i am right now but you know it's going to get better because i'm going to do things to get it better and i'm not going to stop until it gets better yeah you know and then it's just working on just going back to it let it inspire you because you know you're almost blessed because like you're at rock bottom right or at least it feels like that but really you're not because there's other situations around the world that you're just you know you're living the best life yeah compared to oh yeah I mean the other option is like you feel nothing and you're dead yeah so like no that's the truth it's like that's the worst case is that you're there's nothing you can do after yeah yeah but as long as you're here and you have some sort of

ability there's yeah you can you can do it and it's it's just putting in the work just sitting around being like life sucks the world sucks I'm in this horrible situation and poor and me and it's like it's never going to get better never but if you're stuck in that situation you're like damn like this sucks let me get out of here and then you just put in the work every single day learn like go on we have so much access to information now oh man that makes that i think endless possibilities but doing and pursuing the things that you're truly passionate about because i feel like that makes the biggest difference in the world too when you're just chasing what other people are doing you're like oh they're making money doing that i want to do that oh i talk

I literally made a video about this on my YouTube yesterday. Yeah, it's like, then it never works. That's a number one way to like fucking, to always be behind or to always kind of like eventually fuck up. Yeah. Because you're basing your success off someone else's. And it's like, that's theirs for a certain reason for, maybe they're really passionate about it.

And if you're basing like what you're trying to get after what someone else has gotten, and it's like, do you really want that? Right. That's like when we, I think we had a question, the dating question, where the girl was asking, like, all my friends are getting married And this guy, I don't know if he's serious, and we've been dating for this many years, like, she wants to be more serious, but, like, she doesn't know if he does.

You listen. Of course. Look at Browley over here. I listen to everything. Yeah. Yeah. And it's interesting because, like, the beginning. That's a good quality, by the way.

Oh, thank you. The way that, the way that she started that question was everyone else is doing this. You know, everyone else is getting married. And she sees that and she wants that. And it's like, do you want it because they have it or you want it because you want it? Yeah. And that's the same shit with business, with, like, trying to grow a social following, like, to do anything. Because I get hit all the time to like, oh, I want to do what you do.

I don't want to work out and make money. Yeah. And I'm like, it never, like, just everyone listening, it did not start like that. Like, you see that now. But, like, it started. I was broke as shit living, like, in a million places trying to figure my life out, training people, and just tried shit that I was enjoying. And eventually something stuck and got me a little further than something else stuck got me a little further. But it's not like I just woke up one day and I was like 25.

and I was successful working out and like doing it's just like it never works that way and there's no longevity with that way too it's like how can you carry on and build off something that you have no interested in and I and I and I think it's so important you what you said early in relation to what you just said right now about the fact that like you you you need to be passionate about what you're trying to do and you you you because I kind of said it earlier too you don't you don't get there the way you think you're going to get there you don't you never get there the way you think you're to get there. And I just, I want people listening to know, like, no matter what angle you're coming at something, you need to spend time and understand that, like, it's not always going to work

the way you want it to work. But if you really care about it, like, you'll, you'll hit that wall, then you're going to go find another way around it. And you'll hit another wall and you'll find another way around it. And then eventually, like, what appears to everyone else, like, you've made it or you're where you got to be. And then here's a, here's a crazy thing is, like, you've fallen, I've fallen. And it's not always like on your own doing, like, because I was on the internet and I had people just attack me for some shit that was completely untrue. And I had to just live in that. Right.

And it's like, damn, I got it. Like, this has to be my, like, for so long I was, I was so resistant. I was so resistant, like, almost in denial of like, wow, this is actually happening to me. You know, and I was reading all this, all this nasty shit. I'm like, wow, I really just got to like accept this because I understand on the internet, you say something back to someone who says something. And it's just like, oh, you're just saying that now. It's like, oh, shit. You can't win.

So you don't win and it's just like, fuck. And even though I had gotten to a point and then that happened to me, largely in fact, because of the, I got to a point. So someone saw all I can get a benefit from saying something to get further. I could further my stuff. So this happened to me personally. And it's interesting because everyone listening, just so you know, like along your timeline of like success or where you're trying to go, as long as you understand it like,

like even if you're at where you're at right now and you're just getting started and you're not even close to where you want to go. The point is like even when I was up there, got attacked fell was like fuck like when I made my least amount of progress was when I sat in what we talked about earlier that like fuck the world's against me yeah so if you're just getting started

you're like fuck the world's against me like how do you expect to go anywhere because even when I was up and then fell down it was like I still had a ton of shit I had so much still capability but I let that negativity just live in me for six months

and before I was finally able to like let it go but that was all my own doing so like I had you know you have major success and then you go somewhere and you fuck up. The point is, like, to everyone listening, it doesn't matter whether you have any success at all yet. It's like, even where you're starting, you need to start being like, I can do this,

no matter what your circumstances are. Yeah, I mean, because literally people make careers off of painting a picture. They make careers off of candles. They make careers off of, like, whatever it is that you love doing and are, like, are super, if you're into math, like, you know, just engineering like you know the internet has made so there's just like like the shit we're doing wasn't like a thing no it's all brand new and people are making like amazing careers off of it amazing living like it's but you got to care about it like where you find your niche there in it

like what you're doing you got to really care about it yeah and people always say now too it's like the more excuses you create for not doing things that's on you there's always reasons not to do things and you're going to be the one that just says you know what I really want to do this and I love this let me just like take all that nonsense in my head distractions of why this won't work and just like throw it over there screw it if things come up with that I'll like get through it because I'm like focused on this why do you think it's so hard to because I like people hear this and I hear and then I remember I had that I told you I had that time where like it took me like six months to do that and I had already had tons of success so people

who have, let's say they've had no success, at least in their eyes, how could you describe to someone how to let go of that? Because that's hard. It's definitely easy to be like, you just got to let go of it. Yeah. Very easy. And it doesn't work that way. So what do you think, like, because you're very successful. How, like, you've gone through shit, you everyone's gone through things. Like you, even before you had any success, you had none and you wanted it and you had to build yourself towards that. So how do you let go of like the doubt of, oh, I can't or the negativity of something happening or yeah because you're going to hear that from your friends you're going to hear that from your family you're going to hear that in common sections

like you know it's always it's always going to be noise around or even within you if it's yours like a safety mechanism that your brain does for some reason and we only grow when we get out of our comfort zone right so if we're always just in a comfortable place sitting on our couch at home like watching TV doing a nine to five that you may hate like you're never going to get out of there if you just don't take a risk and do something you know it's always going to be a slight risk and you can kind of like weigh you know the benefits and you know the risk of doing it but I would just say if you're truly believe in it and you're not just doing something because you think it may make you some money like you just have to kind of just go for it

Because if you're not uncomfortable, you're not doing something right. Yeah. So you fully believe, and I agree with this, at least I think, that it's not going to feel like, you may feel good that you're like, oh, I'm doing the thing I want to do, but there's always going to be that side of like, oh, this could fuck, fuck up. Yeah, it takes investment, whether it's time, whether it's energy, whether it's financial. Like, you know, it takes investment to get to where you want to be. So it's like, I've taken risk with, like, putting it on full.

fledged productions when I was able to with money and just reinvesting it back into my work because I was like okay this is what I need to do to grow more and I got to take that risk even though nobody's paying me yet like I got to put it into my work greater the risk greater the reward yeah that's how everything is yeah not don't go to Vegas and start gambling your money going to be oh shit everything on red yeah that's not a good idea I was I was joking about this the other day I was like I wonder what's the max amount of money you can bet like red or black yeah I don't know I just, like, any time I'm in Vegas, I'm like, first, I'm like, why. And then second, I'm like, um, blackjack.

And then I'll play one game and I'll be like, all right, cool, I lost. And then... You're just like me. Yeah. You have like a limit, right? Yeah. I'm just like one for fun and then out of there. Yeah.

I always get a certain amount of money out and I'll be like, only this. Like, I'm willing to lose this. Yeah. Yeah. Because then you just have to plan that it's going to be gone. Yes. Like, and so that way you have no emotions towards it or hopefully you don't. Yeah, fuck.

Hard cut to Bradley, just like, all my money. Yeah. No, I'll normally just do like, I don't know, like a few hundred bucks or something. Yeah. It's just fun. I like it as the game. But yeah, I think that's a whole nother fucking people get lost in that shit.

Yeah, well, I guess it's a part of an addiction, you know. It's like, people just. Gambling addiction is real. So they thrive off of. They're like, yes, come to Vegas. Oh, Vegas. Don't go to Vegas. No, I'm not.

Or just control your spending. Yeah, be calculated. Have a friend. If you can. control. I have a friend with you that is in control of the money that you trust him to be like, no. We're done here. You're done here. Pulls you away. Are there any things like any things along your social media path or career that you did? And then you realize like, oh, I don't, I shouldn't be doing this. Um, no, like I guess that's kind of asking a question like if you like regret something

that you've done in a way. regret, just more like a hard realization of like, okay, not this anymore. Not regret, because everything is. I just noticed like with a big following, I just needed to learn the most I can be the most educated that I can, like always being aware of like the world and just exploring it and, you know, just always educating myself. Yeah. Because with that comes a huge responsibility for, you know, everybody that has any sort of follow. following on social media because you know one you can make a lot of mistakes and end your career very quickly a lot faster than you can grow yeah um two it's like a lot of people now want

things from you so you got to be able to have like some street smarts on you too of just like feeling vibes and feeling energies of people um and who you allow into your circle in your life uh three it's like I want to be able to have knowledgeable content out there too Like in between because I do a variety of content. I'll do my sketches. I'll do like random like PSA videos of something like I just learn and I'm like passionate about and I want to share with my audience. So it's like as I'm growing, I want my audience to be able to grow with me. And you know, the more like insight that I can give them into what I've learned in life. Like you know, it's the same way I like to learn from other people that I'm surrounded by. You know, and I want since I have so many people surrounding me like I. Like I. I. I'm essentially, like, rubbing off on them in different ways. So I just want to be the best person I can be if I have such a strong following, too. So, yeah. Damn.

So inspirational. No, I know. It sounds cheesy, probably. It doesn't, though. Because it's interesting. Like, I've talked to a lot of, like, very successful people. I've had a lot of cool people on the podcast as well over, like, the shit. How long have I been doing shit for, like, a year and a half?

Yeah. Not as consistent as I'd like to be, but this will start to be consistent now. but everyone seems it's interesting who is successful says the same thing in different words like they all have the same meaning yeah like it's just uh i think that's that's one of the most interesting things that i've learned like in my time of doing this whether whether it was on the podcast or not like the the general like vibe or the general feeling everyone's obviously very unique and which where they've found their success but everyone has the same mindset of like this is what it takes yeah it's a lot of work yeah but i think it's just

just like the thing is to everyone listening is to adopt trying to adopt that not not necessarily listen to what i'm saying or what amanda saying or what someone else is saying and be like oh i'm just going to do what that person says right but the concept the concept because the main concept that i hear from everybody is like find something you love and don't quit those is like it's that simple and then understand you're going to fuck up along the way but if if this matters enough the end goal the result and the crazy thing about it though too is like it changes like as you get further it starts to kind of shift but as long as you can still find the love and the what you're doing and how you're doing it's going to push you through

it it's going to get you through it no matter what happens no matter where you start no matter where you fuck up along the line like granted you know certain things that just like career ending right there's certain shit you can't come back from but there's hey there's other things you can do behind the scenes or like different like oh you you weren't supposed to do that that's not your purpose purpose is over here yeah and it's that's the thing that I keep hearing from everybody is like you this this almost like feeling about energy self-belief like real having like a real sense of purpose and I'm not telling you if you guys don't have this you won't make it where you want to go yeah but if you feel like

I don't know that about myself you just got to start thinking about it I think that's the number one thing that people will ask me they'll be like oh man how'd you do all these things and then I'll say like oh you got to you got to do this this and this and the number one thing I think people feel like they don't have is like well purpose right I don't really know what I want to do I know I want to do what you're doing yeah but then I'm like okay well how are you going to get there or do what you did or something and it's like well it's got to be personal yeah it's one thing just take notes on like how because I I do this all the time too I look at how people built companies like you know what their process was and okay cool but everybody has a different story

and everybody has a different story because there's not like no set method that works like because even when I was in college, I was like, I don't know what I, like, at first I was going because I was like, I'll be a dermatologist. And then I saw the images and I was like, nope, nope, won't do that. And I loved math. So I was like, maybe I'll be an engineer. And then it's like, I had no idea what I wanted to do. And but then it was like I would put myself in like different events or different classes or different things just to like. Things that you thought you would enjoy. Yeah, things that I kind of was like. oh that's cool and just like putting myself in different situations and even though I'd rather like

stay at my like dorm like I would like make myself go out and do things just because like the more that you're out the more that you're like just forcing your like not uncomfortable situations that like are going to kill you yeah but it's just like if you're not out doing that you're not going to see or even realize different opportunities that could end up bringing you to what it is that you're meant to do. Yeah. Because like I didn't go to college thinking I'm going to be an actor. Like I wasn't that's not when I was in college. I wasn't thinking that. Yeah. And then it's like the world happens in various ways that kind of brings you to something being like, I love this. And this is what I want to do. Now I know what I'm going to do. I'm going to pursue this and I'm so excited

about it. And it's like I put my everything into it and still like I'm still achieving that goal to this day. Yeah. But I found success along the way because my intentions were always genuine. Yeah. So I think that's, that helps. So if you're lost, you'll find it. The genuine sense of purpose. Yeah. Like where you want it to go and why you want it to get there.

And the self-love along the way is important too. Because I've been rejected so many times in my life and still do to this day get rejected. And it's like such a shitty feeling. But at the same time, it's like, okay, no, I just need to take that rejection as like work harder. And even like, or, you know, it's harder, smarter, whatever. or even just like put myself into more of these things so I can just better educate and better myself so or even like create this on my own and then it always life is funny because you always get to a point where the people that rejected you come back and they're like they're like hey can

we do this thing and you're like you know um I'm good but you know maybe we'll talk if it makes damn that that's one of the best feelings so let that motivate you yeah yeah that's so real i mean shit i could uh i could throw a lot of people under the bus right now oh my god man like you radley uh oh yeah i fully believed in you along the way the best didn't give you any opportunities but hey yeah the best was i think this was i'll just give it a little quick one i'm not not saying any names or anything but there was a company that uh i think when i was like 2011 like legit Instagram I just first got on it and I remember asking like oh can I get sponsored by this company because I you know I was broke needed money and I kind of I like the

company yeah and uh I remember the response I got from a dude was like oh no like we're good yeah like and like because at the time that person uh they just they had just won something this was years and years ago like I said 2011 and they were like kind of they were a little bit more popular and they treated me like real like real shit and then like looking back on that situation now and like conversations that happen since then it's it's just it's not like oh yeah fuck you i made it but it's like it's like i remember yeah you remember so people so you guys listening like no matter what someone's telling you or no matter what like answer you get like ultimately i think the thing like we keep coming back to this most important is like a real

sense of purpose like and you even if you don't know what it is as long as you're trying to figure it out, that's the key. Like I always saw people, people will ask me, oh, you know, I'm trying to figure this out. Like, that's one of the most important parts. Because, like, I can't say that I know exactly the things that I want to do to get to where I want to go. Like, but I know, I know that, I know there's a place I want to go to. I don't know, just how I got here, I didn't know exactly what I was going to do to get there. I long ago, I was like, oh, this works or this works. But it's like, I started doing more of what worked and then it stopped working. I started trying to change it up. And And it's like, just to everyone listening, you're not always going to have the right thing to do, always at the right time.

But as long as you keep going towards what you really care about, you're going to be successful. And I think, too, just going back to, you know, the ones that are at their peak already and see people coming up that has talent and give them opportunity. Like, you know, be that one look at, and I love Beyonce, but look at even her on stage, like at her peak. and then she has people on her taking over her stage and performing as she goes and does a costume change, giving them opportunity to become something in their lives that they'll remember for the rest of their life and it probably will give them all that success, you know, but they're putting in the work and they earn that platform. At the same time, it feels so good helping others.

It's probably going to be like one of the times that you find your true happiness in life. It's like when you're doing things like whether, it's making them laugh or whether it's like giving them opportunity it's just and it's good karma too yeah so i i think um because that guy that probably turned you down with the ego of his recently uh won trophy probably is that a different place in his life now that could have used a lift up from you yeah you know yeah and at this point it's almost laughable you're like oh no i remember that yeah but if he hey if he gave you opportunity he you could have been the one to help him out later down the line. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So many angles here.

Ugh. Yeah. Fuck you guy. No, I'm kidding. It's all good. Um, okay. So, uh, I think, that's it. I think next time you get on the podcast, we're gonna, we're gonna, maybe it's you and, uh, summer. Your podcast host, co-host. Oh, I, oh, I didn't know if you're going to go with Johannes or summer. I was like, Summer. Oh, Johannes. Both. That's two. Well, either way. Yeah, all three. You got three mics here. Yeah. No, but I do. I'm definitely going to get Johanna. on here just me and him because we had one but it was a was an older one with audio and i want you guys kind of nerd out about your video games yeah video games yeah it's funny you said fitness but the first thing i'm thinking about is video games because we play together yeah that's weird

that's weird yeah because summer and i were actually supposed to be on this together so it's me here today but next time we'll be summer and i so tell them your your podcast you have a summer it's called oh honey yes it's called oh honey podcast and it's oh honey diary on instagram we're launching I think end of June and we'll be doing weekly podcasts that come out and we'll have a YouTube channel as well yeah you spent just because I was I was in this mix but you spent what like two weeks yeah oh yeah we are filming a ton like like a ton of guests yeah like how many do you think you got done oh man probably like a year's worth yeah like a year like how many posts how so how many a week we're doing one once a week oh so 12 okay yeah but we might mix in some more

Oh, shit. Yeah, because we're dealing with a lot of schedules. But, you know, it's all, my gosh, I love so many of these podcasts that we did. Yeah. And yours included, because they're actually super interesting and a different angle on the people that you normally hear from. That's the best part about podcasts. Getting vulnerable. Yeah.

And that's so freaking awesome. Yeah. Fuck, yeah. So, okay, so the Oh, Honey podcast. Yeah, I got to, you, I'll have you and some are back. And then I want to have Johannes and whatever works. I know you're very busy. And then.

If you're in Florida, we could do it in Florida. Yeah, I'll bring my little mic set up. Yeah. What else, how else can they find you? I'm on Instagram, on YouTube, on Twitter. It's at Amanda Cernie. Yeah. Yeah, and I have this new clothing line I'm doing too.

What is it? AR 33. When did you start that? Well, they are pre-existing clothing line. They used to send me stuff, and I would like go out and I even notice myself like buying their stuff with just, I know it sounds like a normal thing to do, but it's rare in the influencer space if you're, like, actually going out and spending your money on things. But, um, they're- You partner with them.

Yeah. Nice. I, yeah, I, yeah, I invested in them. Oh, okay, shit. Yeah, I was like, this is an awesome brand. The materials are incredible. What's it called? AR-33.

I'll never heard of it. Yeah, it's, send me some stuff. Yeah, it's female stuff, but we're going to do some male stuff, too. Oh, so there's no male stuff. No. Okay. But we're get there. When you get there, send me some stuff.

Yeah, for sure. Um, okay, so I appreciate your time. Thank you for coming. No, thank you for having me. Make sure you guys subscribe to CultureCast on the YouTube. This is, I promise you guys, if you are listening to this right now, I am not going to fucking fail, you guys. I'm going to be consistent.

Yes. Because I have like nine episodes. Bradley. I love it too. It feels better. I feel better just about life. There's like nine of them, though, the audios, I'm not going to lie, it's a little, because we got it all fixed.

Like, you're this audio podcast is crisp. It's crispy. We have other ones that are like, oh, shit. But you can still hear it. You can still get the content, subscribe to the. channel. Make sure you turn on the bell notifications. Also, um, all the ones that we had posted previously, we're going to upload them to the iTunes because we also had flopped on that. We were just posting to YouTube. Get us again. Come on. But hold on. I don't think this is true.

How are you on Spotify? Yeah. How the fuck you get on Spotify? I mean, I'll tell you all my secrets. That's not, that's not easy. They only, they only like pick certain ones. We'll get you on. We'll talk. Okay. All right. So maybe I'll be on Spotify because I know people are like, And I'm fucking Spotify. And yeah, that's it. So subscribe to the channel. Check out Amanda. Thank you for your time again.

That was awesome. And yeah, more coming soon. Thank you.