RAWTALK - GETTING RAW WITH AUTUMN FALLS…

Episode Date: October 18, 2022

This episode will give you a deeper look inside with our beautiful and shy guest Autumn Falls. We have a talk with her about her starting career to her new journey on social media.She gets deep with us in regards to her career choices, relationships, confidence, family, childhood, and her start on YouTube. So be prepared to enjoy the conversation and hear some of their hot takes along the way.SUBSCRIBE HERE: https://www.youtube.com/c/REALRAWTALK?sub_confirmation=1LISTEN ON APPLE PODCASTS: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/rawtalk/id1294154339FOLLOW RAWTALK PODCAST:INSTAGRAM | https://instagram.com/getrawtalkTIKTOK | https://tiktok.com/@askrawtalkFOLLOW BRADLEY:INSTAGRAM | https://instagram.com/bradleymartynSUBSCRIBE TO RAWTALK PODCAST CLIPS: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCvzSBNBOK599FqzrTZS8ScQ/?sub_confirmation=1SUBSCRIBE TO LIFE OF BRADLEY MARTYN: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCWTQG2aMDYKGDqYEGqJb1FA/?sub_confirmation=1SUBSCRIBE TO FITNESS CHANNEL: https://www.youtube.com/bradleymartynonline?sub_confirmation=1RAWGEAR: https://www.rawgear.com (CODE:RAW)

This is like, you've never done a podcast before? No. This is brand new. Yeah. Dude, that's dope. I never really talk like on social media or anything like that. So, yeah, I never really talk on social media or anything like that. So this is like new to me.

Is there, is this because you're so new to it or you just have never done it or no one's ever asked you? I'm just a quiet person. Yeah. Yeah. That's interesting. Yeah. It's funny because this kind of became, this became a thing that I just, I mean, obviously I've made so much content over so many years on the internet. that became a thing that I kind of fell into that I really just enjoyed even the content that

I made fitness was always kind of like educational and I always end up talking a bunch so when this kind of content started to become more popular I was like oh shit this is perfect I was always the guy who like I'd do some fitness shit and then like teach someone something and then I'd start just talking about random shit or life or my experiences in it so it feels really natural for me to I'll just sit and talk yeah that's good but you you haven't uh you haven't done much content on social um obviously other than the the adult stuff yeah so this is your first time going into like the social media space yeah definitely do you have any like do you have any inspirations in that space and the social media social media because like obviously i see you just started a youtube channel right

yeah i just did it for fun so do you yeah do you want to like do more of it is it like goal of yours is it something you want to like i think i want to do more videos just to like be comfortable and like just to get out there more you know yeah yeah to be more comfortable yeah to be more comfortable and like i'm gonna be honest i'm sorry i'm interrupting you this is one of the the concept of this is actually blowing my mind the fact that you you're you're comfortable because i can i don't even like i don't know i mean i probably could if i was like i really like i kind of want to part of me i talk to my team all the time and i go i want to do this and like jokingly but somewhat serious the fact that you're uncomfortable speaking but not uncomfortable

doing the things that you've done right i know it's very very interesting it's so crazy like so crazy so like i got to ask you how do you always just been comfortable with that because to put that on camera because i like imagine i'm trying to imagine myself having sex and and you know it's me and my girl and i'm trying to imagine myself having sex like me and my girl or or another another actor and then actress actor whatever and then There's like this many people, right? One, two, three, four. Yeah.

How many people are normally there? There's honestly more than four. Like, I, there would be like, you know, it can be that. It can be, sometimes it can be like three people. Yeah. More than that. But honestly, when I'm on set, I would, you know, I'm super quiet. So I get my hair makeup done.

And I was like 18, 19 at the time. So. When you first did it. Yeah. But what I'm trying to understand is. how could you be uncomfortable just sitting talking but you were able to do that like where i went what did you go it like it's like how does that even start with you like okay i'm going to do this and i'm going to be comfortable with this on camera because like i'm saying i have sex all

time i can't imagine being on camera i know sometimes like when i did it it was like a like it was like a switch like i'm quiet and then once the cameras turned on i was like different that's crazy that's the only thing i can relate that to is like when i would compete and Olympic weight lifting a long long time ago when I first got into like that was the first thing that I really got into lifting wise and it was like I trained for this event the snatch and clean and jerk and you train for it and then when you go to like try to get that PR that day it's like you almost like black out and you just do what you do but but regardless like there's what we're talking about for you is like there's no training to go and just like perform that way obviously then regular sex but to have people filming it and you were you were comfortable with doing that or were you still uncomfortable in the beginning I feel like it was It was almost natural. I don't know. I feel like us sitting here talking is supernatural. Yeah.

Oh, that's good. I'm just like, I don't know. It's weird. I think because since I always was thinking about doing it and it was in my head for a long time before I started. So I think I was mentally like ready to do it. So if you started when you were 18, right? Mm-hmm.

So how long prior were you thinking about doing it and what made you think about doing it? So, um, I was like, when did the thoughts first come in your head were like, I would consider this. Yeah, I think I was like 17 and someone told me like, oh, like you're so beautiful and I should do something like that. Like I should be paid for how beautiful I love. But like that's such a, so okay, I need more context. It's weird. That is a weird thing for someone to tell a 17 year old that. I know.

It's weird. Where were you born and raised? I was born and raised in New York City. Okay, so some motherfucker in New York City needs to be fucking locked up here. Yeah. Maybe. I don't know. Yeah.

I'm just, I'm genuinely curious. Like, so some, some guy, I'm assuming, said this to you. Yeah, yeah. But around my age, like maybe a few years older. It's whatever. It's fine. It's all good. No worries.

But I'm curious. It's like, you heard that. And you were like, yeah, I could do that. Is that was that your thought? And I've always been really confident, like, myself like how I look physically yeah yeah so like even in school I would love wearing like shirts like this you know like love wearing like crop tops and like things that show off just because I love how it looks on me and so I was always confident like with my body yeah so

that wasn't like yeah it wasn't hard like I'm really confident in my body yeah let me ask a question about the confidence right do you think confidence in your body directly correlates to like sexual promiscuity, which is like you being like, because I'm hot, like I'm being hot and I think I could be hot because I want that, right? Sex. Or is it you just feel like you just want that because it's like an ego boost for you or what, like, you know what I'm saying? Because like there's, I feel like I've had conversation in the past with girls who are like, for example, let's say they, they, I don't know, they post something on the internet and they're like, oh, I just do that because like I just like that because I can look like that because I can look hot because I can

be sexy. And in my mind, I'm like, well, are you not doing that for the attention of the, opposite sex. And then they would be like, no, I'm not. I just like it. So my question to you is, where does that come from for you? Is it like you, do you just genuinely like it or is it for the attention? I think I just genuinely like it. Maybe for the attention at the same time. Yeah, it's fair. And there's no, there's nothing. It's not wrong. Yeah. You know, it's not wrong. Yeah. So I still got to figure this out. You, you, you start to get people telling you should do this. You're obviously younger. And then you're like, okay, when I, when I'm 18, I'm going to do this. And then did you tell, like, family members?

Did you tell friends where people like, no, you shouldn't do this? Well, how did that go? So. Because I've always been curious about this. Yeah. And people don't really know. But I'm trying to, like, put it all together. Take your time.

There's no. Yeah. No rush. Okay. So before I started doing, like, adult films, I did, like, a month of webcaming. And my mom found out she was slowly on board with it because she knew. knew this is something I wanted to do. So you wanted to do pornography.

You were like, I'm going to do this. Yeah. And she, yeah, and she was, you know, she trusted me. She was like, okay, that's what you want to do. She didn't give you put. She wasn't like, are you sure? She didn't say any of that stuff? She did.

But then she knew that I was kind of serious about it. And yeah. So after the month of like webcaming, I, that's when like, she met my agent and we well I ended up just like flying to me like I got to Miami and starting to shoot and I'll be honest this is good you might find this by surprise and the guys listen are probably going to call Kat when they see us in the comments but you followed me on Instagram okay yeah and I was like huh who's this girl and I tell my friends and they're like what what she followed you and I'm like I don't and I'm

looking at your page and I'm like okay she probably does like like only fans or something, right? I didn't actually know that you were an adult actress. Really? Yes. Oh, that's fine, because I don't think people would think that. Yeah, I stopped, I stopped watching porn for about a year, which I'm proud of, but I didn't know and they were all super hyped that you were going to be on the pod, by the way. You're very, you're loved a lot. You're very popular. Um, but I, the reason I'm asking these questions is I'm just trying to see like where, where you come because you're so young. You're 22, right? Yeah. Like how you got into it and what the process was and where like, because I just find it's so interesting now that you sit here and you say it's kind of uncomfortable just doing this

kind of stuff and in my mind it blows my mind because it's like fuck how how could you be comfortable doing that and not this because this seems so much easier yeah I don't know it's just it's so weird yeah but um so your mom's supportive of it you're like fuck and I'm going to do it you're 18 you're doing the the cam stuff yes and um I was doing the cam stuff and not a lot of people know this but I was still in high school. Okay. This is such a interesting concept because the people who are buying this shit, it's for sure older dudes.

The webcaming? Yes. Because I don't think kids in high schools are buying webcam videos for like webcam. Like what does someone buy typically from a webcam girl? I've never, everyone's going to call Cap and Dan. I've never bought anything from a webcam girl. Like what do they buy?

I don't, no one bought anything from me. So I just like was on live. You facilitate it for a site. Yeah, for a site. Got it. So no one really... So how are they making money? They're like donating?

Is it like a live donation thing? Yeah, so people would just like tip me. Okay. But what are, so what are people tipping you for? Oh, just like sometimes just like when I wear lingerie. Okay. And, you know, certain amount of like tips, I'll take it off or something like that. Does this, does the webcam turn into like full-blown like porn?

Not really. really not really no I didn't do like things like that okay yeah and this is when you were in high school yeah like it was like that's got to be illegal no no no I was 18 and my school found out it was literally the first month like September and that's when they found out and you know they they talked to me and what they say they're like yo what the fuck you doing not that but they're like yo can I get a discount for this thing like Like, who did they ask of you? So I guess like a girl in class was talking about me and the principal wanted to be like in like a conference call with like my mom and all that stuff.

Okay. And my mom had my back 100%. And that's when like they decided, okay, so she can't be in school because this is not okay for them. So they put me in online school. Wait, why is that not okay for them? Because I'm doing like adult stuff and it's obviously a bunch of. of like but you're 18 though yeah it didn't well how could they determine what you could or couldn't do because I think kids were talking about me in class so you were popping

fuck them and yeah and it's like inappropriate so that's why I think yeah I guess because it's like they're thinking the rest of the kids in high school like the lower ages yeah I think so I don't know yeah I don't know either no this was in um New York sorry this is on East Coast it's in New York somewhere Yeah. So where specifically in New York? Well, I grew up in lower Manhattan, but I did go to like the last two years of high school. I was in Connecticut.

Okay. Is that where this was happening in Connecticut? And yeah, so a lot of people don't know that. Well, a lot of people in that school thought I dropped out, but I actually just like finished school online. So you got the GED, no problem. No, I got a regular high school. diploma okay yeah so did you you're like I'm not so now you're like you don't go to school at all

anymore I'm assuming right um time this stuff yeah so at this time September so October comes and I'm doing online school and um that's when I also start doing adult films because this was the perfect opportunity for me to do this thing I was always talking about doing and yeah it was like the perfect opportunity and it was in Connecticut or in New York, the opportunity? Well, I reached out to an agent in L.A. And he came all the way to New York, you know, to meet me, to meet my mom. And that's when we flew to Florida so I can start shooting.

So are you, like, signed with a company that, like, makes you do certain things or? No, it was no contract, no nothing. Yeah, nothing like that. Nothing like that. Yeah. So do you just decide, you decide completely the kind of content that you make that no one says hey you have to do this or you have to do that for this and i'm talking about specifically not currently but in the in the yeah this is all in the past like when and to be clear you don't do that at all

anymore no it only i only done it for probably six months and then like a few scenes after that because from what i what i heard that you you like you got popular like very popular yeah i think during that short amount of time i did like a lot of scenes and um maybe it's from that i don't I don't know. But also maybe social media. I don't know, but do you think social media has like a big, big impact on like your ability to I guess sell more obviously, which obviously it does, but in that space? I think it helped me like get newer audience or like different like followers. Yeah. Yeah. That's fine. It's fine. Yeah. I mean, obviously no right answer. As far as the only fan stuff, is that what you just do full time? now? Yeah, now I do OnlyFans full time. Okay. So we can so but can people expect like full time YouTube videos coming or full like are you just gonna like just fucking bankroll that OnlyFans shit till the fucking cows come home. I'm always curious like the plan right like where what's the process?

I definitely see myself doing only fans for a long time. And then YouTube it's something I want to do for fun. Okay. And obviously adds to the only fans up to what people find out about you know about you because I do really believe that like the girls I feel like that can do really well obviously you've done you've done great in porn so people like recognizable but as far as like I'm thinking about some of the the stars that blew up and continue to like kind of go crazy on the internet like Lana's one of them because I think she did a lot of content in the social space and people got to know her as a person that they're like that you become way more invested in those people right so if you continue to sell

anything in the in the adult industry it's like now you have these people who are a lot more invested in you as a person so that that comes even it's like they want it they want to know about it even more yeah no yeah that makes sense and um I feel like when I if I do like YouTube maybe that can help and um I like to do like TikTok and like little stuff like that yeah yeah do you ever feel like like you ever get like really hateful comments I do but I don't really I don't really pay attention to them you don't no do you ever do you have you ever been like fuck why did I do this because a lot of people are curious about this I like ask people to ask me questions.

People like, does she regret doing it? Would she have done it differently? For like my like career choice? Pornography. Honestly, I wish I didn't do it differently. Like or if people may think I wouldn't change anything. Yeah. Yeah.

Why not? I feel like everything in my life or everything in anyone's life probably happens for a reason. It's a fact. Yeah. Yeah. Well, obviously you make choices. You're like, oh, I chose this. But I do genuinely believe like the everything that we go through.

we were able to learn from. Exactly. So has, has doing that taught you differently? Has it made you be like, man, like, for example, I'm just going to give you this random idea. If you had a daughter, would you think that she should go through the same thing?

Do, like, go through it and do it and be like, yeah, it's a good idea? Like adult. Yeah. Honestly, I don't know. If that was like something that she wanted to really do, I'm like, okay, like try it out and see. Yeah.

But, you know, um. Like, would you support or like your mom supported you? I think I would. I would. Yeah. Why do you think people have such a, like a stigma around the adult industry and like, oh, you shouldn't do it and your daughter's going to think of this and your, you know, your son's going to deal with this, the things that people say on the internet.

Because it's a very common, like, you know, why do you think people have that around it? I honestly don't know. I feel like it's such a, it's not a thing that it's not really normal. Like you would, I wouldn't tell people, oh, yeah, I'm. I do this honestly like if someone were to ask me oh what do you do for a living or what did you do I wouldn't really you wouldn't but even though people know though I know so so I'm interested I'm curious now because it seemed as if like you not saying you do it then are you ashamed of doing it because you wouldn't want to tell them I mean I feel like maybe people can I don't know think

differently but honestly I feel like nowadays like everyone does like only fans and all that stuff so I don't think it really wouldn't matter, but I'm, like, thinking, I'm thinking how I thought, like, back then, I feel. But now I feel like it's different in a way. Oh, so you're saying back then you probably wouldn't have told people, hey, this is what I'm doing for a living. This is what I do. Yeah, I don't know.

But in someone where, I don't know. I'm, like, confused or like you're just, maybe you're torn between, like, how you would have explained it or, because it kind of sounds like if you wouldn't tell someone, hey this is what I do then maybe you're somewhat ashamed of doing it I feel like if it's a random person like if it's like a someone that I see what you're saying like a random person I see what you're saying you know what I mean if it's like a random person like they don't need to know that yeah they don't need to know got you got you got yeah I feel like but nowadays I feel like it's really different um

it seems to be more normalized for sure mm-hmm yeah do you think it's a good or a bad thing it be more normalized I think because it's like it's fine I think I think it's fine. Yeah, like entirely? Yeah, I think it's. I think there's some stuff to it that is a little bit like, I don't know, for example, I'd say on TikTok, for example, because a lot of the demographic, there's, there's a lot of young kids on these apps.

Okay. Maybe being more exposed. And it's not right or wrong. I'm just saying my, when I look at it, I'm like being exposed to like overly sexualized stuff. And I'm not saying specifically pornography, but just even on TikTok itself where it's like, damn, that's a lot really soon where I'm not, I can't say this is exactly a problem or not, but it definitely leans towards like, should kids be seeing that kind of stuff like

when they're fucking 10? Oh yeah. That I don't agree with. And I think it's happening. I think that's happening. I think because it's becoming more normal, it's also it's a little bit more rampant, right? Yeah. See, I didn't think it like that. It's crazy. Because it's not, it's not, it's not even necessarily. It's a completely bad thing. It's just now it's becoming a thing that maybe even younger and younger girls or guys, whatever, are thinking, okay, maybe, maybe I need to do this to be successful or to have money. Because like, you know, you know what's happened? Like, you know when the whole, I mean, shit, you're, you're fucking 22 though. So, so back in the day when I was 22, everything was like magazines. And then that quickly died, right? But prior to, so when I'm

growing up, I would say like 16, 17, 18, 19, 20 to like 22. It's like magazine driven. And what you see on the magazine is like the girl that all the girls who would see the magazine because social media wasn't wasn't a thing until like I was about like 24 25 26 so you'd see this is like your representation of what is attractive because we're glorifying it and putting it on a magazine cover right so that that's how you got that connection right which which is less widespread than for example on your phone every fucking two second seven seconds you can get something new right so what I see is like it the the almost like things are becoming and I don't think there's anything wrong at all with this innately right

I'm almost like I look at it like at what age is it okay to just be completely almost bombarded with that stuff because it's so becoming more normal that it's also just everywhere now. Sex and the idea. Yeah. Obviously it's for all of us to make our own choices whether we decide we want to do this or we want to do that or what we think is right for what we're trying to do and what we want to do. And like when you were younger, you said this is what I wanted to do. Whether or not people believe this or that way, you're doing it and it's a part of your life. And now it's something you can learn from. I just think there's at some points where because of the social media platforms and the,

way in which they function it's like it could make the younger audience the younger demographic think okay i need to do this to have this i need to have this to be beautiful i need to be this to be successful right yeah and that's for guys and girls you know what i'm saying it's crazy so do you ever think like do you add to that you know and i'm not i'm not trying it's not a bad thing do i so i also make a bunch of fucking shitty content that i probably add like a lot of bullshit oh do i like add to like the sexy content yeah um because you got some you got some good content nothing wrong with that like like on instagram or yeah do you even have a tic talk i didn't yeah i have ticot okay i'm not like crazy like sexual yeah on like platforms like that i don't know i'm not like yeah

do you like doing social media i do yeah i like i like posting pictures i like i've been really into ticot yeah I love TikTok, but I'm not like this crazy like I'm not so sexual. I'm not, you know, I like to like wear cute outfits and like do like TikToks and pictures. It's funny though. There's girls though that can be like could not try to be sexy at all but they're because of the way they look they almost become over sexualized. Yeah. I can see like yeah if I'm wearing a top like this this is probably too like over sexualize me because are you are you that is your body whole body natural. Yeah it is natural. Congrats. Thank you. That's a big.

W. Thank you. It's a big dove. Shout out my boy over here, dude. Congrats. Anyway, sorry. It's just to feel weird saying off camera.

Your boyfriend, right? Yes. Okay. Is that okay to say? Yeah. I just like, if I didn't say this right now, people would be like, what the fuck is he talking about? Oh, yeah.

No, it's fine. Okay, cool. Yeah. How did you guys meet? Well, he's a performer. Oh, shit. So, so much I know about the porn industry, dude. Fuck.

So wait, so he's, wait, you're a performer too? Holy shit. He is. Yeah. Should we bring him on here? No, no? Okay, he doesn't want to do it. Okay, so wait, okay, this is, now I'm, now I'm really intrigued.

Yeah. I want to, because he looks older to me. How old is he? Oh, he's 34. Okay, so shit, he's one year older than me. Okay. Yeah. So how did you guys meet?

Like, how does that go? You like on a, is that how you met in the industry? Yeah. Actually, like on my, like the third day I came to L.A. I was supposed to shoot with him. And yeah, I think after that day, we just, like, we're seeing each other. And he's been in the industry, like, way. longer than I have. Okay. So this is so interesting to me now. Yeah. Because I have to ask. I wish you were on the,

I wish he was on the podcast. I know. Yeah. Um, fuck because I want your perspective. Because like I'm trying to imagine. Okay, I'm a guy. 34 years old, him, right? Yeah. And I've been in industry for how many years? How long have you been in it? 16 years. Okay. So this guy's had a lot of sex. Yeah. He's been because he was like 18. So this is why it's so interesting to me. So he's had a ton of sex. Yes, a ton. And then he sees you, How long have you guys been together? Almost four years. Okay. So he has sex with you and he's like, this one.

Yeah. Okay. Yeah. Yeah. God, I wish you're on the podcast. Dude, I have so many questions for you. So, you know, that, okay, that, wow. Your vagina must be made a gold or something.

I don't know what's going on here. But it's like how, I wish, I wish I could ask you. Why do you think he was like, you're the one? This is so interesting. I think, I think just our, like, we just. bit really well together um i wish he was here to talk for me but um it just happened so naturally and the vibe the vibe yeah yeah it was happened really naturally and we just really like feel for each other damn and then you've been together for four years yeah because i was getting a bunch of fucking

weird ass comments about people were tagging and saying like that something happened with you guys and oh my what is that about that's stupid internet troll internet troll shit yeah Yeah. So that's all bullshit. It's all, like, bullshit. How does that shit get made up? Honestly, it's, it's been going on for, like, probably over two years. Because I saw a comment that said, like, we were boyfriend and girlfriend because you followed me. And I was like, what the fuck, dude?

Like, I never even met this chick in my life. It's great. It's literally the internet rule. Yeah. I just ignore it. It's kind of embarrassing, though. Has that ever gotten bad? Like, has it ever gotten to, like a?

It has gone bad. where this person tries to like follow my friends and like their friends and say the same shit where it's like oh I'm dating this person

and like you know it's I just wonder where that kind of stuff comes from maybe they're just like a super fan they just have no life yeah but they're probably in your only fans buying like probably right yeah they're like 70 some feet picks yeah do you sell feet picks

I do you what What do you sell, what don't you sell? I do like my bikinis. I sell like my clothing, like whichever, whatever I wear and. Oh shit, you sell. I was talking about like what you sold on, on only fans. Oh, like on only fans. I do like.

But you sell what? You sell bikinis and shit? Like to people who want to buy, like random dudes? Yeah. That's lit. I sold my underwear once. Really? Yeah.

Yeah. We got $800 for four pairs. Oh, wow. Yeah, it's pretty cool. Um no I'm dead ass I swear to God I did that I told a story before

but yeah I was when I was younger I needed some money I was broke I was like in you know body building and the guy's like I want your underwear and I just I think I just ended up he'd probably be so mad if he sees it but I just grab some underwear and I just send it to him

I don't even like just you know yeah that's fine but I will say there was also a time in my life where I actually got proposition to fuck some dude's wife and I didn't do it and I really needed the money he was going to pay me $8,000 to have sex with his wife and I didn't do it because when I met the wife,

I met the wife after I met some kids, I could tell that that was something that this was a rich guy and like Beverly Hills in the flats. I could tell that she seemed like the life was sucked out of her. Like she does, I'm not the first guy that he's like, come fuck my wife and like that's his thing, which is fine. That's your thing. When I met her and I could sell her,

I could tell if she was just like, almost like, I don't want to do this. I was like, oh, I can't do it. So I just like, no, I'm not going to do it. But looking back, I'm not even going to lie. kind of wish I took that $8,000. If I'm being honest, I wish I took that $8,000. It's a lot of money.

Yeah, and I was broke as fuck. Yeah. No, I was like, that was life-changing money for me. Mm-hmm. But I was like, it was just something about when I met her in her face, I was like, fuck, I can't do it. Mm-hmm. So have you done any sort of like scenes or things where you were like, I wish I didn't

had, I wish I had not done that. Like in like the adult industry? Yes. Yeah. No, not really. I did a lot of like all the scenes that like were okay with to do. And I was, I didn't do a lot. What do you mean by that okay with to do?

That you were okay with doing. Yeah, I was okay with doing. So it was just like girl, girl, boy girl. And like, simple shit. Simple shit. And like maybe boy, boy girl. Yeah. Okay.

Okay, got it. Yeah, yeah. That's how like, um, we say it. Like Eiffel Tower. Kind of like, yeah. Okay, okay. Yeah. That's so interesting.

So it's like, how does that work? I'm honestly genuinely curious. Is it like they go, hey, here's this. Do you want to do this? Here's that. Do you want to do that? Like ain't you know what I'm saying? Because there's obviously all these categories, all these different types of shit that people do.

Everyone's into all kind of crazy shit. How do they present those opportunities? So once I started getting books for things, my agent just like, he pretty much did all of it for me. So he made sure like I whatever I had to do that month, I was, you know, was going to do. But the process of that is like, so for example, what I'm thinking now, what you're saying is like, there's a guy who's like, hey, you're going to do these eight things this month, right? Is he just telling you what they are? Is he like, yo, do you want to do this?

Are you okay with that? Oh, yes. Yeah, he would be like that too. He would be like, oh, do you want to shoot with this person? Do you want to shoot for this company? And I would be like, yeah, I want to shoot for, I'm okay with shooting with these companies. And I'm not, yeah. So like, I'm not okay with, I don't want to shoot with this person.

I'm okay with shooting with this person. So no one, no one was like, you have to do this. You got to do that. No one's like, well, you make more money if you do this. No, no. Yeah. We'll always be curious about that. Yeah, it's, um,

I wonder if it was different in the past. In the past, um, I don't know. Maybe like every girl is different. I'm this motherfucker. I want to tell us. He has, he has a lot. How many 16 years? How many fucking years?

Damn, bro. I got to ask you some questions. We got to get you out here another time or something. Yeah. I want to know. I want to know was like do the, because I feel like, I don't know. Cause some, some, some adult actresses will say like, I wish I didn't do this about like, maybe because they were, they were approached differently in certain situations that

We're more like, hey, you need more money, you got to do this. Exactly. Like, a lot of, like, every girl's story is different. Of course. And with mine, I wanted to do it. Yeah. And all the scenes I booked, I got booked for, I was okay with doing. Yeah, I got it.

And so, yeah, nothing negative. Fair. And so you wanted to do it because, just because, like, you were comfortable with doing it or because you like sex or, like, what's the reason why? It was, I was okay with doing it. It ends, you know. You like the money, like what? A little bit of everything.

Fair. You know. Yeah, a little bit. Money, sex, just to do it. So that leads me to another question. So, okay, the sex, right? Obviously, like, men watch pornography, and it's like somewhat unrealistic in most cases, depending on the genre, this or that.

And they have this idea maybe that, like, I don't know, men need to do this or do that for sex to be good because of what they see, you know, Through the screen right because you're if you're if you're watching pornography and this is the thing that you do then you're thinking oh that guy does that I need to do that when I have sex and blah blah, right? So my my my question to you is is sex On set the same as sex offset? No. It's not the same unless it's obviously I know that there's all this other shit going on light and fucking sound and people and i don't know what else because i've heard of things where is it i want to ask you this this is true before we get into the rest of this question that there's like come stuff that they use for like money shots it's like it's not real come

but they use extra for like extra cum at the end that's a real thing yes it's called spooge yeah something like that yeah i knew this because shout out there was uh there was a guy who used to go to my gym who passed away he actually filmed a lot of uh of the old porn he was the old producer um and he would tell me these stories about like they had this stuff that like it's not He was like, the shit's not real. I was like, what? Yeah. My mind is blown.

Like, I thought this shit, this load was real. Yeah, it looks so real and like pictures and all that stuff. So wait, where were we at before that? Do you remember? No, I forgot. Okay, I fucked up. Damn. It's normally that's my job to stay on track.

It's okay. So you said it's not. And why? It's not the same unless you want it to be the same. Whoa, what does that mean? What do you mean? Maybe some people like want to like be like that on camera. But in my personal life, it's not the same.

I was going to ask you a question, and this pertains, it was going to be kind of relationship, related to this question, but it's difficult now because the guy that you're dating is also a porn star, right? So my question was going to be, and this is, you're not the right person to ask this question, but I can phrase it a little bit differently. Does size matter? And what I was going to say was, if you were dating a porn star with size and you were dating a regular guy, like, out of porn, let's say you had a guy who wasn't in porn, like, would you be like more satisfied by this? But even though it's like all this of this shit going on or like this? So the question is the size matter. Um, yes and no, I, I feel that it's probably the way, how you use your cock. Yeah. Like how you use it. Yeah. Yeah. Straight up. Like, so we're talking angles and it's the angles. Maybe, but, but speed. Like, we got to give the boys some love here. We got to like, because from your perspective, because a lot of these guys are like, oh, what I'm saying to this girl, right? That's why they clicked, right? Which is fair. It's okay. What does that mean? You say obviously the way you use it. And you hear this a lot. Girls are like, oh, it's not always the size. It's important, but not as important as the way you use it. as you just said. So are we talking like speed? Are we talking like angles? We got to give them some pointers. Like what's the?

I'm not the best with that, but I feel like definitely a little bit of both speed and angles maybe, but also every person's different. So it's really hard to like talk. Do you have like an angle that you really like? Is this if you don't want me, honestly, if you don't want to answer these questions, I don't want you to.

I prefer not to say, but I. Do you have a favorite position? Because they're going to be mad at me if I don't ask. I got to ask these. questions okay um i like doggy missionary yeah it's the go that's the best i mean that's my favorite position doggy it's like i'm so i think we're done with the podcast there i think that's it's i'm kidding um okay so has has has has your relationship with sex changed since you've done pornography no it hasn't changed um i mean he fucks me really good i know so i'm like happy

yeah that's what's crazy because she dates a a fucking another porn star yeah what are you saying Like your relationship to sex, not like just the sex itself. Yeah, I see what you're saying. Not just the sex itself, but your relationship to sex has a change. Meaning like, do you want to have sex less because you do it so much on? No, I mean, I honestly, I choose not to shoot for a reason because I don't, I'm kind of over shooting for like companies and like in that industry. Like that's like not my like that's like a turn off. Like, I'm more into sex in my personal life.

If that makes sense. Yeah. So do you still shoot stuff on your only fans, like with your boyfriend? Yeah. Okay. Yeah. How much money do you make on only fans? Like, is it, is it less than $500,000?

Is it more than $500,000? I for her not to say. Sorry, I had to ask. No, it's okay. No, yeah. I'm like such a, I can be kind of private with things like that. That's fair. Yeah.

That's fair. Completely fair. um so that's kind of where you do all of that now yeah so you're still doing it it's just like it's personal yeah it's not is it i'm assuming do you have other people come in and you do content with them or is it just you and your boyfriend um i do like like content with like girls too or like we do it together with like another girl does he get a percent is he went into or what he's he's no come on bro what kind of deal is you doing it can't even give like fucking 10 or five like that so was i god i wish you were on the podcast why don't why does he not want

to be in the podcast um he's off to he's off the fucking screen by the way why know um i mean he's got an accent what's going on yeah he has a russian accent yeah what the fuck so sometimes maybe it can be hard for him to like but he likes to like be behind this behind the scenes yeah that's fine yeah it's all good um okay so okay most of the is it safe to say that most of the money that you make is from only fans or is from the adult industry do you do they give you residuals

like do you get residuals okay oh yeah I was always curious about that it was like for the adult industry you just you get paid for a scene yeah for a scene and that's it okay what is that average what is that like when you were okay probably in the beginning you got paid less I'm assuming yeah I did

towards the end do you what was like you get like what do you get for a scene and a scene is what a scene is like yeah so normally for like a basic like boy girl it's like a thousand they so they just give you a thousand bucks have sex yeah but it's like in a check or something like that and that's that's it yeah that's like a that's an industry standard yeah it's like a standard and then like depending like on who you are and like it changes it goes you know up yeah did you get more towards the end of your career i kind of not really yeah because i stopped literally um i did it from

October 2018 to like spring 2019 yeah so I didn't go too far in my career where I could have I see you know I bet you now because like you have such a big social following are they still hitting you up like come back yeah um I was about to um I mean I kind of was a contract girl for browsers for a short period of time right before like COVID hit yeah and um that's when like my rates were changed and um because of that like kind of management company I know I feel like because where I was and you know like how I was saying um when you start you're at this rate and then once you like are get more popular yeah it changes yeah so the question was like obviously we're talking about your rate changing right yeah and then you towards the end of your

career you're saying that you started working with browsers or something yeah they were giving you more money you were getting more money yeah and that's when i stopped is it directly from them or is it just for like the scenes um it was for like each scene okay yeah and then like how much more like 2500 a scene um a little bit more than that oh that's dope yeah okay yeah and then and so this is why it's like i'm i'm gonna imagine you don't got to tell me the exact number here but i'm imagining that uh the only fan stuff is probably significantly greater than that yeah and that's why i um i'm I'm so happy that it exists because I love just being able to do something that on my own terms and not like follow what a company says or, you know, or anything like that or work with

other people. I'm such a home body. So I like staying at home and doing content. And it's so much easier for me. Well, it's interesting too because I think that entire industry is shifting and changing to like that sort of content. It is. either girls are like, I'm going to just do my own website or it's going to be only fans

or it's going to be some sort of exclusive platform because people are realizing I think that they have a lot more power in that space. Yes, 100%. A hundred percent. I honestly, the adult industry, like for like the companies, I feel like it's different from, I feel like after. It seems like it's dying out. Yeah. I feel like honestly after or during COVID, it definitely shifted. It shifted. Yeah. I mean, it's a good thing. I mean, taking the power back into the, I mean, essentially the creators, right? Yeah.

I mean, social media in general has done that. What other sort of social media stuff do you want to get into? Like, are you going to try to do YouTube, like, for real or is it like, you know, Q&A? Yeah, I did a Q&A and, like, clothing halls and, like, things that. Yeah, things like that. I definitely do want to do YouTube more. I want to mentor out into, like, Twitch. Yeah.

And, like, you know, try to, like, do a little bit of everything. just what do you enjoy doing the most i enjoy i feel like i enjoy instagram just for pictures i love taking pictures but then i enjoy doing tictox too how did you have a question for you how did you find me on uh instagram well i've always i've seen your like content like videos and stuff like it will pop up on my page thank god not shadow band let's go yeah fucking go okay yeah it'll pop up on me page and um so you're just like i'm going to follow this randomized fucking wait a little dude no but i've it's always it's like been months like okay so you're like i'm getting tired of this let me just follow this idiot no i like that of course but i also like

seen like you on youtube on my page so you watch a lot of youtube i want not so much not really but whenever i'm on it i'll just scroll do you ever watch the podcast stuff like did you know you know that had a podcast yeah i've known you had a podcast um i've seen a few but um which ones did you watch. I've watched the one with Selena, because I follow her. Yeah, I love Selena. She's amazing. I've seen the one with Lana Rhodes. Oh, nice. Yeah, and Summer Ray, because when you asked me to do it, I was like, I watched that afterwards. I was like, I don't know. So were you, because like, what did you expect? I, I honestly did not know what to expect. So, yeah, I didn't know what to expect at all. because I'm such a shy person so I don't know what kind of questions that's such a crazy thing yeah yeah I don't know like what kind of questions you're going to ask me yeah and um how can you be shy it's so crazy to me it's so weird so weird I've always been that way always but once I get used to someone then I'm super talkative and comfortable yeah yeah I mean also too like you're also super young like even even the content like you also this stuff you're going to get a lot better at and become a lot better

Even YouTube and all the other shit that you do, you kind of just, if you stay with it, like anything, you get better at it, right? Yeah, exactly. So I got a question a little bit about, more about childhood. We're going to go back, right? Yeah. What was your relationship like with your mom growing up? Like when you were younger growing up? We were pretty good, pretty close.

She was a single mom. So it was good. We had a relationship. What age was she single? Like, what age were you, you know? Three. Oh, okay. so that's really folk yeah yeah young do you think that um your upbringing like your you're you're you know

how you were raised affected the choices and the things that you did no no I don't think so um because like that shit I lost my father when I was young and that shit like ruined my life but then made it great because it gave me something to like kind of push me yeah um I feel like I've just always had like little things um I don't know like little things I've always wanted to do and it was I don't think It's nothing from how I grew up. Honestly, it was a shock. Because, you know, once my family found out and everything, what I was doing, it was a complete, like, shock.

You know, they thought I was going to be into, like, you know, be, like, an esthetician or something like that, you know? But because that's what I was, like, passionate about. Right. I don't think it was nothing from how I grew up. It was just my own decisions. You just wanted to do it. Yeah, I just wanted to do it.

Yeah. So where do you go from here? I'm always curious about that, right? Like for people have been from that industry, because like you, you kind of do deal with a little bit of, you know, everything moving forward. Someone goes, oh, this, you did this, you did this. And there's a stigma, which I do think is also shifting on the internet in general with like more and more people getting on the platform of only fans. And it not only just being pornography, but also people are just selling content that is like, for example, a fitness influence you can get on there and post like the fact that they are, here's some workouts that you could pay for. And it's non-sexual at all.

I know that there's a lot of girls that feel like, oh, if I do only fans and like, I'm going to have this stigma no matter what, even if they're not doing sexual acts, right? They're just like just because of the name itself and the idea that like with the biggest industry on it is mostly sex work that they think, okay, I don't want that to come along with me or to follow me around or whatever. So my question is like, where do you go from here as far as that? Like is that ever going to, do you think it's ever going to affect the things you're able to accomplish or the things you're able to do? Based off, like, my past, not... Sure. Pass or even present, even the fact that you do that, you still do the stuff. I mean, obviously, it's you and your boyfriend, like, no one can tell you guys what the fuck to do anyways. It's like, do you think that if at any point you tried to get a job, which it sounds like you probably would never try to get a job.

Yeah, I actually never had a job before. Yeah, it's crazy. It's congrats, by the way. That's sick. Yeah. If the Internet's actually really, it's just become such an interesting place. Like, it's changed so much about people in our society that, you know, it's at the same time could be a very positive place, could also be very negative. So that's what I said earlier about the idea of like the over sexualization being more normalized and then affecting like the younger and younger and younger generation and then making them think, oh, this is something I should do.

But then there's also a very positive to it as well where you could also find content that shows like, oh, I could also do this sort of content. And I could also do something that just in general years ago was never a known capability. Like when I was growing up, I've told this story before, but Instagram came out in about 2000. And so I got on it like the end of 2010 beginning of 2011 and it wasn't like I'm going to get on Instagram and make money because that wasn't a thing people were doing that. It was just not even a reality. I was just like I'm going to get an Instagram and post things in my life and who I am and what I do. And I was telling random people to go follow me and the people like what the fuck is his app. It wasn't like an e-commerce machine that it is now. So there is a ton of benefit to the internet. There's just also like now all these like you know more complications as far as I'd say just the younger generation kind of. growing up and being like more exposed to everything yeah that is it's changing for sure do you think it's a good or a bad thing it is not the best thing because you don't want young kids being you know being drawn to like sexual sexual like content like you want to i don't know it's i don't know how to explain myself, but I don't think it's okay for kids to, I don't know. I can, I think I can

maybe kind of, I'll chime in. It's what I think. No, yeah, I'm sorry. I suck. I like explaining myself, but I'm not the best. It's fine. It's practice. I've had a lot of practice. The only reason why I can do is because I've done this shit a lot. So I think it's interesting because the thing that is kind of not being taught alongside of the over-examined. exposure to things is, and I've talked about this in another podcast with other people that I really enjoy having conversations with, shout out Sniko, by the way. There's a thing that happens, obviously, the overexposure to things and the rapid pace of it. Younger kids and younger people in general and just people in general, everyone is all at like a different point

in their life where they can't decide fully maybe that this might be the best choice or the best decision for themselves. At any point, not even just a younger generation, but even like older people, older men, older women doesn't matter. but I think the thing that's interesting nowadays is that people aren't taught the critical thinking aspect of fucking anything. So what happens is people see

oh, this girl does this, she's successful doing this and it's like a younger girl let's say she sees it. She says, I need to do that. Or this guy does this, that guy does that. I'm a younger guy. I'm like, I need to do that. Or any guy at any age,

and I feel like the thing that's most important to say for people to hear about this kind of stuff is like at least if you are ever concerned that, I don't know, if you have a kid, you're raising a kid and you're like, oh, you want your kid just maybe not even do the right thing because there's no right and wrong here but it's more like do the thing that they really want to do right where you said earlier this is something you

wanted to do whereas you're not the only girl like that that that's happened to but there's also a whole bunch of other girls that they're like maybe I should do this because that guy's saying I should do it and then they find themselves in a in a position that they don't necessarily really want it to be in because they didn't have the critical thinking ability to go this is not best for me right maybe that's best for you it's not best for me and I think that's the thing that is getting like it's getting more and more blurry because now you just have a ton of kids or a ton of people who are just exposed to the things and then maybe they don't have those critical thinking skills to go like okay this is genuinely what I want which is it's dope that

you found something you genuinely said I want to do this I hope there's like kids out there that know what they want to do and not not be stuck under the influence of like someone else just because they're successful you know I hope people like I hope these kids have things that they actually do want to do in life yeah and not just want to be want to just make quick money or whatever you know yeah that's what I'm saying the internet has become such an interesting place because it has become a place where it's like everyone wants to get rich and they want to get rich quick and and I feel we've always been that way as like a people always kind of have that mentality but on the internet because it's so new

you could do that really fast and then you could see a bunch of people doing that really fast and maybe you pick something that isn't really of you you know like in your heart something you genuinely want to do so that you just do it because you want to make money and then I think ultimately you can find yourself in position where you're like fuck like i i don't feel the best maybe about exactly where i'm at my life despite what you may or may not have like you have a bunch of money but you may be like fuck i don't like the way i got to it you know yeah but that's dope you decided you're like this is what i'm going to do is what you're doing it sounds like you're very successful at it off the off the mainstream platforms as well yeah um yeah i'm just happy like how everything

like fell into place and everything happened like perfect timing for me and i'm really like thankful I had like the you know approval of like my family and you know yeah to do it everyone your family was like yeah I bet I'm with it yeah I mean I didn't really tell anyone but like once people started finding out they were like you know okay with that yeah that's dope yeah all right we're gonna do a little we're gonna do a little segment discord what do you want to call this one discord discussion you're so corny I love that so uh you know what discord is right yeah so I have a discord and I said I said to everyone I said uh doing a pod with autumn falls what should I ask her?

The first one I think is hilarious. This guy goes, ask her for her number, bro. What the fuck? No, I have your number. Obviously, that's how I got you here. But shout out Hall Sam. Sam Hall, probably your name.

Okay, so I think there was like two more good ones in here. Most embarrassing thing you've done on set. This is from the people, straight up from the people. And I'm actually, that's a good question. Yes. God is in something. I don't know. Maybe it's like,

to I don't know if it's like too explicit to say so I prefer not to say oh damn I had actually I had one cool honest I have one cool um scene experience I've done okay I can share that go ahead but hold on I just wanted for the record yeah might have to cut this if you hear this later and you're like I don't want it in there but he said it was some scene where he put a bunch of oil on your butt and that was something happened oh he's saying in my ass like oh on oh no no that's like that's like sexy and fun Did it, like, slip out or something? Like, oh, but a fun experience, I can say. Go ahead, yeah.

I think the coolest thing I've ever done was when I squirted so high. High. I screwed it so high. I was so proud of myself. In the air. Yeah, like vertical. Yeah, I was doing a three-way with Angela White and Marcus, Dupree which is him okay and he was fucking me and I just school I just

squirt it's like literally over over the camera guy's head like he was it was like how far was it oh wait you want to see it's got to be like the Olympics wait wait wait wait bring that over here I won't put it on camera bring it over you some bring it over there bring that yeah I got to see this shit this is like holy fuck dude what oh my gosh can't see you Yo, holy fuck, what the fuck? Yo, I've actually never seen anything like that ever. And I've watched porn.

I'm not saying I've never watched porn. I've stopped for the last year, but holy fuck, that's insane. Yeah, you can replay it. What the fuck? Yo, this is like, there's got to be a record. I feel like you should be in the Guinness Book of fucking squirting records. I was so caught in myself. It's so, it's so cool.

For me, it was like the coolest moment I've like ever. She gets an award for that. Didn't give you a award for that? No, but I did one. I won several awards. Oh, you won awards? Yeah, I won awards. What kind of award?

Like, is ANV, AVN? Oh, yeah, Avian. There's Pornhub Awards and there's Ex-Bids Awards. So what awards did you win? The first year, I won Best New Starlet. Okay, hottest newcomer, favorite newcomer, best boy boy, boy girl, and then best group scene. which was like a group scene it was with one guy and there was like a few other girls

got it and that was my first year and then um when I was like active shooting and then I just well so they give it to you or they give it to everyone in the group like who how does that award go oh for the was it you in the scene was the best in it or they gave you all that award oh they gave all of us that award so that was just that um I feel like you should have got an award for that though I know but that was that happens actually After, so that was the, that happened after the awards, I think. Is that normal for you? Honestly.

Like how the fuck, like what, like, you know, like the boys are probably like, oh, how the fuck? Like, how is that normal? To squirt that much. Yeah, that was, that was, that was, I've never seen anything like that. I know. I was so impressed in myself. Like, that's like something I am proud of. Yeah.

That's fucking crazy. I know, but people probably squirt, it's just as much, but. Is that normal? Is it normal to squirt that much? much. Yeah. Is that normal for you? Just curious. Um, like, were you surprised? I was surprised, but I've done, I've squirted before a lot. Like, actually, I've done a few other scenes where I squirted. And it was like, it was good too. You just have to like, you know, just drink. Drink a lot of water. Be very hydrated. So like, is that that whole time? Is that like, I'm just trying to figure this out. Because like,

obviously, I don't have a fucking vagina. And I, you know, I come differently. Is that like a dude coming? Like, are you just feeling? Because you wouldn't know either. So it's hard to ask this question, but the whole time does it feel good or is it like it just happens it I mean it feels good being like getting of course but at this point at this point you're not right because when I when you were squirting I saw in the video it was like he was out she was there you were just going yeah so like is it is it just like is it just like activity or does it actually feel good it's activity so it's just like it's like the cherry on top yeah it's like boom got it and then yeah exactly what's that There's no feeling.

The ground that erupted. What's that? Where's that? It's like a national monument. Oh, fucking. Yeah, where is that? But Yosemite is it the thing they got the fucking geyser thing that blows up?

You know what I'm talking about? No. There's a fucking, they're going to be so mad at me in the comments. There's an actual national thing that's like a famous spot where like the ground just shoots up water, like it explodes every once in a while. Oh, really? You never heard of that? No, I've never heard of it.

So this is a real thing. Oh, okay. Anyways, I got way off track. so so so it's not it's just activity it's not like wow this is this feel this actual act feels good as it's happening no yeah it's just activity got it okay always curious about that it's not like a dude coming where he's like that's like that's when it feels good you know the build up the come yeah okay yeah not that check you understand what cast you feel like basically coming from you no no she got it you got it right yeah oh no yeah it's just like the act that so that's not you but that's not like

I saw me coming. Got it. See, that's what I was trying to get at. So you got it. Yeah, you got it. I got it. Yeah. Okay.

Have you ever slept with a fan before? No. No. I figured that because of him. Oh, this is a good question. Someone said, what is it, what is a day in the life of a porn star look like? Well, as of lately, I've been enjoying, you know, working out with my trainer in the mornings. Nice.

That's like one thing. That's my favorite thing to do in the day. Training. Yeah. Let's go. Fuck yeah. I love that. Yeah.

love hearing that i i really i really enjoy that's like the only thing that shows that brings me joy yeah and it's like in general completely yeah like in my my days are pretty like simple so when it comes to working out it's like fun i mean even though it's like hard my whole day centers around that yeah is that weird mine too like honestly so i so with my like day or the week i like planned what days i want to shoot content and i plan it i i find it i i find it a very around working out again. Because I know I work out in the morning. Yeah. So I want to just focus on that. Yeah. Make sure I eat and, you know, then get ready, do content and then. Our lives are basically the same. Yeah. I think about this. Yeah. No, seriously, think about this. My life revolves

around making content. Yeah. Eating food and having sex. Except mine is just not on fucking camera. Yeah. But that's like my life revolves. It's pretty cool. It's honestly the biggest blessing I think ever so i'm grateful as fuck making content fun we'll get back to that let's get back to a little bit maybe we'll do one more discord it's for the boys someone asks actually a really important question and this is a gym bro um actually a dude that i'm supposed to do a podcast with uh she he asked how much does she bench do you bench press no how much do you squat i squat how much you weigh 15 I weigh one, maybe 120 or 115 or something. Yeah, I'm not that, I don't know, I actually.

How tall are you? I'm 5'3, but I have not checked my weight in over a year, so I don't know. I bet you I could guess your weight exactly right now if you got to a scale. Okay, yeah. Okay, you can guess my weight. You're almost 120. I'm saying you're like, you're like 117. Okay.

115 to 117, almost exactly. Yeah. I have not checked in so long. but for squats, I think it's $1.15, I can do. I'm working, my next goal. Do you do, like, actual, like, depth or you, like, bullshit reps? Because that's very important. Do you want to, I can show you after, you can see if it's right.

But I do, like, real, like, I go down, like, the way, I don't have to explain it. I just squat and go up. Do you want me to show you? Yes. Okay, so do you, like, do this bullshit right here? All right. People do this fake shit. Or do you, like, go like this?

I. You do the fake shit. No, I mean, I've been trying. to go lower so okay that's what I said you do fake shit then okay do you want to see yeah I want to see it now this is very important you can you can see if I'm doing it right okay I'll make sure we'll keep going through these questions so okay so I got asked one more question shout out the discord by the way um do you like muscular dudes or non muscular dudes because they're asking for like the gym bros um I like a little bit of both I like muscle I like I like a fit like fit guy

fit yeah so someone who works out yeah you'd find that important yes for sure do you think that's changed because you started working out more um or had you always felt that i felt i feel that way more but i've always felt that way too yeah fair oh let's see this video okay see but this was this was judging autumn okay so it's different from two weeks is that what you're trying to preface this okay i don't know because i'm about the shit on you okay okay judging autumn falls uh squat depth okay okay here we go. This is a different weight too. So, but no, literally last week I did more. I did. It's your trainer. Um, we're going to have to have a conversation. Yeah. Look, it's not okay. It's not bad. It's not bad. It's not terrible. Your, your knees looking real good. You just,

it's like just a little bit lower. I can go a little lower. Yeah. Like let your knees go a little more forward. Okay. Kind of push your hips a little more forward. And so you started working out with like, have you always been into working out or is it a new thing i i've been working out i've been working see look you got that see the headphone thing earlier yeah look at you know that shit fuck yeah um i been working out since last year but i've been seriously i've been doing it more seriously within the few months like within the last few months and you enjoy it yes i do so are you like officially a gym sis forever or are you going to do it because a lot of people they work out and they're like no i want to be i want to be a i want to be a gym sis i want to i want to have like

my body damn what if you had abs what people like that or not like that um i don't know but i think it would be cute to have abs but i've been wanting to really just grow my booty grow your butt my butt yeah i'm a professional at that yeah i'm pretty good at working out yeah do you need some tips i yeah i honestly i should do a video we should do a video work out yeah because i do all that shit on the internet yeah training you know i i i love like i want to learn more and i yeah you can see like we can do that um that'd be cool another time we'll do it okay we have one more segment you're gonna this is before by the way this is new boys we started adding segments we're like fuck it we're gonna do it we're gonna try some different things before we get

into also the end of this too we uh do uh audience questions which we'll get into in a sec which is our last segment but this one is a new one okay we're gonna do a segment it was he was so funny doing that announcing. It was a segment with Sylby, but he'll do it next time. Yeah, so it's hot takes. You just answer the first thing that comes to mind. But damn, his voice was so perfect for that, his announcer voice. Do you want. No, no, no. I want you to do it. Do your best. You're amazing. All right. We're going to start our segment hot takes. She had to make it cori, by the way. Just FYI. She decided to make it corny, not me. Go ahead. That's what it says on the card. Anyways, hot takes. Money can buy you happiness. What is your opinion? I don't know. It depends.

But not real. Honestly, if... Just what's, like, the first thing that comes to mind, what do you think about it? Like, money is good because you feel like you can take care of your own self. For sure. So it's, like, good with that. But when it comes to, like, just having money to fix all your problems

or buying whatever you want and all that stuff, I don't know. It's... I feel like, it's, I don't know. I got you. Don't worry. I'm good at this kind of shit. Okay, what do you think? Money buys you freedom.

Freedom. Freedom is important. Yes. But the reality is money is never going to fix what's inside your heart. That's the truth. So we all, we were taught to search for all this external things that matter. And, you know, like stuff I'm talking about TikTok and people with the cars and the money, people got all this shit.

And we're all looking at it. And we feel like, you know, even these kids, I need that. I need that to be happy. And you may get all those things at some point in your life. And I think, I wish everyone, I do genuinely wish everyone could be rich and have all the money and understand. that the money is not the thing that makes you happy like having freedom to allow yourself to do things that like might you know experiences or moments with people that like those are truly fulfilling things that can make you happy yeah that's things I wish what you said is perfect

I really suck at like talking and explain to myself but what you said is exactly what I agree on yeah it's it's I mean that's it's the it's the reality like I we get we do everyone especially when you don't have money you go money is the thing that's going to make me happy and and to a degree like having the money like we're saying to make sure you're paying for your house your food like the basic needs and let's say even some shit that maybe are not basic like someone wants a nice car or have an even nicer house but at some point all these things kind of become like negligible like you can only buy the nicest things so many times like imagine if you had all the money in the world i always say this you have all the money in the world then what it's like what's yeah okay you can go on a thousand trips then what you buy every house you want then what you buy every car you want then what right and and And you always get to the same thing. You start to realize, like, the things that actually matter in life is, like, what's in your heart. How do you express love with another person? How do you feel love?

Do you feel good about doing the things that you're doing? Everything else, like, is like a fucking, is just bullshit straight up. I agree. But we're caught up. We are really caught up in that stuff. Yeah. So buy the fucking raw gear sleepware you fuck. No.

Okay. Next talk take is. Because I need money. Kids a joke, obviously. Ha ha ha ha. That fuck. Next hot take is men have it easier than women. Do you agree or disagree?

Whoa, wait, what? Men have it easier than women. Okay, is that a real card? Are you trolling me? Yes. Okay, clearly that's a troll. Oh, my God. Bring that here.

Bring that here. I need to see that. I need to make sure that they ask that question properly. What do you think? Men have it easier than women. Just because I'm a girl, I don't, I would say no. Because I feel like everyone's, I feel like everyone, I don't know what. I shouldn't say equal.

but like men I don't think men has it easier than women I feel like a girl can or women can do the same thing as a man yeah but I guess like that no the incentive I so I'll answer this is what I think okay yeah it's fine it's good

I think um what you were trying to say was that despite man or woman you can have different struggles because I think that's accurate to say um I think as a whole it could be definitely viewed for men more challenging because men normally start from a point where your physical looks kind of go so far only so far right like your height your weight like how you look versus I think in most cases for women can go very far right so I think when people

think of this idea of like do men have it easier than women it's not as simple as to say yes and no because obviously people's lives can be so much more uniquely complicated as far as like where they come from, their childhood, the upbringing, and what they know to that point in their life. But the idea is that men have to build all this value up to be able to be at like a position of either status or power or like to be revered or to be enjoyed or liked versus the idea that men think, okay, well,

a woman, for the most part, has to be attractive, right? Which is also subjective. But at the same time, like attractiveness, depending on the person's circumstances, it's like you're kind of born with it or you're not. Whereas a guy, you're clearly not born with the thing. things that make a guy have a ton of value, right? Yeah.

So that's why, if I'm answering this question, I say, I would say women have it easier. And that's because of the relationship to like just the basic starting point. Yeah. But, but at the same time, like, it's not to say that a woman, just because she's beautiful, couldn't have had a crazy tumultuous life in which she's like, fuck, I grew up without a father and I grew up like this and maybe I was abused and like, so it's not that simple. So yeah, that's my answer. I got kind of like, I went far on that one.

I agree. I agree with you. Like, what you said is perfect. I think it would be a good answer. Thank you. Yeah. Damn, I'm fucking good at these, dude. I agree to disagree. Anyways.

Oh, you would disagree? No, it depends on the context. Because, like, in that sense, yes. Go ahead. Go ahead. But in the other sense of in regards to, in regards to getting a job, certain jobs are easier for men to get than women. Obviously, women are capable of doing it.

But in the industry, certain industries are male dominant. so sometimes to get like for women to make it in there that's what I'm saying depends on the context yeah well that's what I was also saying like it depends on the person and like where they're at in their life what they want to do with their life like because yeah a woman may get treated differently completely in a situation like in some sort of maybe sort of business regards it might be like well maybe I'm not going to like look at you the same way that I'm looking at that guy for this specific job because it needs that you know it needs it's a more physical job yeah you know what I'm saying whether it's like heavy lifting and they're like now you can't

There's a hundred you're right. There's a hundred percent pros and cons to both sides. So there's no like exact right answer. Yeah. I wouldn't say. I wouldn't say like it's yeah I would think there's no answer. There's no exact answer. You were just right to I agree what you said. Yeah. Yeah. Look at that. Natalie. Wow. Just fucking just doing a great job. Come on. Give us the next. Anyways. Next hot take is it's unmanly to cry. Oh shit. Then I'm a bitch. Why you asked that one knowing I cry all the time. Okay, fuck. What do you think? I think it's okay for men to cry. It probably depends on the circumstances though, right? Like, what if I just came to you and was like just crying? Like, you know, I'm so, I'm sad. I didn't, they didn't have my food at McDonald's.

Yeah, no, that's some pussy shit. Yeah, that's weird. I need a reason to cry, right? Yeah, it's a reason. Not just because, not for anything. If you're like, if someone's like crying all the time, then that's. Like, like, yeah. But it's okay for like men to cry.

cry for like situations where it's like okay to cry yeah otherwise you're just crying just being a bitch being instagram famous is better than being tick talk famous oh yeah i fully agree with that yeah instagram i think i think well actually wait it's kind of changing a little bit it is that's why i was like thinking yeah people are getting more popular on like ticot okay 100% people are getting more popular on TikTok like the the way the the it's spreading videos yeah but I don't know about the sustainability of the relationship on TikTok and even though they're starting to add more they're implementing more functions like the story that allows you to like be a little bit more personal because TikTok itself still feels like actually although that I guess that's not entirely true

because there are some creators who like just post videos of their face and they're just talking and they still get enough engagement so the app itself gives people way more reach I would agree but I feel like Instagram almost is like a digital business card where like people go there to be like are these people legit you know what I'm saying yeah it just feels that way yeah no sometimes I'm on TikTok and then I go on a person that has like maybe like three million followers and then I go onto their Instagram yeah and there's like 200,000 yeah or like maybe 70,000 70,000 like you know so it's it doesn't always directly correlate for sure but yeah that's interesting I think it's kind of shifting as like as things have progressed though as far as in the social space

Because like the problem of these apps is like they they do so they go through so many phases of algorithms where it's like Instagram one week to the next will be like completely different as far as engagement goes. And then like TikTok is starting to do it as well where it's like okay now, you know six months ago you can post anything and be like millions of views now it's a little different like but I get it because they just go through their phases. Yeah. It's fun regardless. Okay. Let's get to the audience questions. So at the end of every episode we do three audience questions. You guys if you want to send us those questions and you can send them in.

go ahead tell them how they do it you go to ask raw talk at gmail.com or you could submit them in a DM on Instagram at raw talk I'm professional see this shit yeah did you expect this or you expect me to be like a fucking like what did you expect of me I feel like you're going to be like very nice okay and like I feel like people have asked me to be on podcast before and I check out their podcast or their social media and it's yeah it's like you so wait it's not my vibe Like, you know, like, people can, I mean, there's this one person that X needs to be on their podcast. And I didn't reply back because I see all their content. I don't know the name.

I don't know the person's name. But it's like a bunch of like adult performers and they always talk about like sex and like, oh, yeah. It's like too, like sexual for me. Yeah. It's like too much. That's fair. You know. I think I know what you're talking about.

Yeah. The podcast. I just, I don't know the person's name, but. Yeah. honestly like I was it's actually really interesting like I said earlier I'm not kidding when you follow me I wasn't like I know exactly who this is and all my boys are like oh my God and then now it was actually just refreshing talking to you like I mean I wasn't I knew that you did that once they told me but I wasn't like oh I'm just going to talk about this stuff because like I imagine it kind of gets played out I asked I but I did want to ask me questions that I knew the boys would they be like yeah if you didn't ask this shit we'd be pissed at you so I had to do it no everything was like everything was good and you're like very nice and like so i felt comfortable going on your podcast and like talking to you just based off what i saw on which is interesting because like i feel like if you just looked at my instagram you're like this guy's a fucking meathead i think because you saw the podcast yes i

yes that's why yeah you're like oh this guy is like nice imagine i was just a total dick get the fuck out of here no yeah i would have oh fuck yourself bitch fuck you no no no not you i was not talking to her by the way I was talking to guy off camera I know I know no that's my boy we give each other shit all the time okay so oh yeah do you have any questions for me no no much I okay good it doesn't matter how much you bench boys oh yeah can I no I know don't ask me that now Jesus you put me on the spot okay make fun of me if I ever have questions I'll just ask you yeah I will do the workout thing we'll do a little workout session together I think that'll be dope

because I'll help you a little bit more with the squat form yeah and then if you ever have questions about training or if he has questions you can hit me I'm like, I do that for a lot of people. You'd be surprised. What's that? You know why we come to you? No, why? Yeah.

Because you're the most intelligent person I saw on YouTube. Wait, wait, wait, hold on. He just said you're the most intelligent person he saw on YouTube. Really? Oh, wow. That's a fucking dope-ass compliment. Because before I checked, I saw you before, and I like how you, I like it that your personality is very, like, you just say a very nice man. I can feel me.

Because I see when people don't know what to answer, you always help them. You don't put in, like, stupid situations. You don't ask no one stupid question. You don't like try to push people. You feel with who you talk. You feel like that. Oh, man. That means a lot.

Fuck, I wish we had that on fucking audio, dude. That was very kind to you. For real. I appreciate that so much. He doesn't. Go ahead. Go ahead. He didn't want to come on because, which, by the way,

it doesn't matter if you're rush it, dude. I don't go to fuck you're on the podcast or not. I'm definitely not that guy where I'm like, yeah. Oh, who cares? You're a fucking normal dude. It's Russian doesn't matter. So he basically complimented Bradley said he's the most intelligent person on YouTube because... The way to ask questions, I guess.

The way you ask questions, the way you make the guests feel comfortable, you help them finish their sentences. You don't ask silly questions. And you're very insightful as well as you could tell that the energy that you're positive and friendly. I appreciate it, yeah. And I think it can be a lot of YouTube guy just like asked. I think it can be he's better interviewer with the people on. Oh, he says you're a better interviewer than people on TV, not just on YouTube. That's awesome, man.

Oh, you shit, dude. He says you basically know how to maneuver around getting to the main points. Yeah. And actually hitting them on point rather than. Without making the person feel uncomfortable. Yes. Yeah. Damn, that's fucking.

I really appreciate it, man. To be honest, like, I, you know, I'm really grateful the compliments, like, even saying that the idea of like what's, what's really important, like someone's soul, someone's heart. Because to be honest, man, like all this stuff that I've done to this point. has been indicative of that in my realization of that with myself understanding why people have supported me over the years because like I've always given that and then I start to realize like wait oh that's what people like and that's why I was like okay this is what I want to search for what I want to go for because it'd be boring as fuck I think if I sat here and was like yeah how many dudes you fuck a dicks and all this shit like and I know there's certain things that people do want to know but at the same time like my goal always in these episodes and like these interviews is to understand like who like this actual person is not just what they do In five years, I'll be like Joe Rogan? Let's go. Damn, that's a big compliment.

Because you don't have big mouth and you don't talk just for nothing. You talk all time when to you to see it. Damn, dude. This guy's fucking gassing me up, dude. I love this shit. No, I appreciate it. No, you really made me feel good, man. I'm not going to lie.

I really fucking appreciate it. Joe Rogan is when I hear you and I saw it before it's like this guy like young Joe Rogan like Like a young Joe Rogan that's dope oh he's this guy's fucking make me feel good man Damn um it's okay i'm sorry we gotta get away from this i really do appreciate that the podcast is about you um i wish i got that all in audio it's fine but you you you know i read the comments i see what people say too and like people have given me a lot of love for this and i'm i'm just grateful dude I'm grateful because, like I said, my whole life is just a, I'm trying to figure out genuinely more and more about myself. And when I talk to other people and get different perspectives, it allows me to understand more about myself.

I don't know why you like that? I don't know what, because I had a terrible childhood. With that being said, I'm going to stop gassing myself up here. I'm like a little embarrassed now. But thank you so much for coming. We got to run through these audience questions. And there's only going to be three of them. And I promise you, I'm not going to let them gas me up anymore. I'm going to make this about you now. it's okay so this person says hello i'm a big fan of all your content and listen to every podcast

so this is a question for the guest and brad i'm 23 years old going to college for four years and have yet to find my passion what advice um do you have for somebody who doesn't know their path in life yet i mean i've answered questions like this in the past i think when it comes to like not knowing what your path is um obviously you figured it out earlier you're like something you wanted to do most people are like people are 1920 21 22 23 and they're just like 24 25 I don't really know exactly what I want to do and I think partly 25 are getting a little up there but definitely in the younger years you shouldn't be like hard on yourself number one because I had no idea what I was going to do like the things that kind of like I told you about Instagram and

Instagram coming to like become a thing wasn't something I was like I wasn't 18 being like I'm going to do Instagram because it didn't exist I didn't actually know exactly how my life was going to go I thought I was going to move down to LA and I thought I was going to be a trainer and I thought I was going to train celebrities, which I did towards the end of my training career and then like social media took off and I was like, okay, I don't have time to do this anymore. Even now in my life, the point remains the same. We're constantly like learning and growing from what we're experiencing today that where we actually want to go. And the best advice I give someone who's like really searching for what they want to do is start aligning yourself with the things that you actually really enjoy. Because a lot of people spend a lot of time doing things that they genuinely fucking hate. and but their ideas I have to do this because of money and I need that and then they never make time for the little bit even if it was like an hour a day to focus on the thing that they actually like and then they never they're never able to make this thing that they actually like become something more because they don't give it enough time they don't give it enough love they don't give it enough energy so we all a lot of people fall in that line where like they have this idea and they're afraid to pursue it because like it seems like it's so like maybe daunting of a task or they make excuses

why they don't have enough time to do it or they're like well I'm comfortable here so like I'm just going to keep doing this so the reality is like we just need to learn to like be uncomfortable and at the same time go towards the things that make you happy and give them more of your time more of your attention more of your love every day and then you can continue to like build along that and on top of that different avenue you know what I'm saying yeah um I completely agree thank you you got anything to add like anything personal experience of your like choices and how you picked them or how you did things you okay i had fun doing this no yeah i feel like once i started on doing what start what i really wanted to do which was to film and chew and

i think i just went for it i i just like literally just went for it so without any like hesitation that's yeah absolutely do you think then i have a question of a bit based on your answer do you think then because i do believe this and this isn't real and this isn't always the way that everyone can do it because you may have other things like depending on where you're at in your life and how many like financial debts that you have or things that you kind of like now have to pay for because I can't tell like a 30 year old quit your job and he's got kids and you got a mortgage and just start pursuing this other thing yeah like things like situations like that are really tricky it's more tough right but the question I was

going to ask was do you think that like at least in your younger years because I would fully say in your younger years like 22 19 8 like just fucking go for it like because there was a point where I lived in my car for about four months and I was like I'm not going to move home because if I move home I'm a fucking failure and I could have moved home it's not like I didn't have a home to go do I was just like I'm not going to quit because if I quit I'm a failure so I lived in my car and I would shower at 24 hour fitness and I would like just fucking do bullshit to try to get any money and eventually I figured my life out right so I do believe that like what you just said sometimes depending on the age and like prior engagements you should just

say fuck it and just go for it like you did you said fuck it this is what i want to do i'm going to go for it like all in i yeah i definitely did that and but for situations like that how i you said like a little bit a little bit slowly like where if you have like time in the weekends to do something like little things like that and go from there absolutely that's yeah for the people who have like all the obligations you still have to make time for that thing that you actually like and then maybe it might work out exactly you just never know unless you try yeah that's a fact cool perfect next question is how would you define success I would say if you as long as you have the right people around you're like you're happy with your life your life situation that's like success to me like I'm happy that have the people around me that I care about I don't think success for me is like all about money it can be that too but it's about like who who you have around you because you can have all this other stuff and then you might not have

no one to come home to or to talk to. And I feel like having, you know, people that you care about and, you know, being happy in your own personal life is like success. Yeah. You're absolutely right. I mean, no one gets to the end of their life and they're sitting on their deathbed and they go, I wish I had more money. I wish I had more stuff. Everyone goes, I wish I had more moments for people that I love. You know what I'm saying? Like we ultimately success. in my opinion is like being able to be your true self give as much genuine love as possible to be able to receive as much genuine love as possible that's what true that's what true success is because all these other things are just like derivatives of things that we think

this is how it should be so it's like this glamorized life of having stuff and having shit so we go oh this is what we need and that's going to make me happy but like I said earlier once you get it all and you have it all you see it all it's like how many more and you realize okay the moments that actually count the things actually make me happy is like it's it's in it's love like that's what it is. That's what true success is. Yes. For sure, there's no doubt about it. But yeah, I mean, cool shit is fun to have too.

So, like, I'm not saying not true for it. No, yeah, that is so true. Like, everything, everything in like moderation or anything like that. But I also believe, and I mean it's genuinely speaking, I also believe that if you can live, find yourself in a position where like you're acting genuinely in your heart, you're acting genuinely like in your relationships, you're going to also create enough positive in your life that then you'll be able to notice that

money and all these other things that you think you want and you've been chasing, it comes to you easier and then it comes to you faster when you're actually able to like live in that kind of line in your life. At least I've noticed that when I've been more like in tune with who I am where I am and like I'm not hard of myself or like allowing myself to like fucking

you know feel like shit or allowing myself to be proud of myself then those feelings like even your boyfriend showing me love over here and being like, damn, I really, I really appreciate that. Like, and being able to be like, yeah, I can be that guy. And I, and I will be that guy. Like owning it, not without being like, yeah, fuck everyone else.

But that's how you start to really get closer to that success. Because then, like, the financial comes along with it, right? Where you start to, if you own, okay, I can be, for example, in this podcast space, if I can be like, quote unquote, the next Joe Rogan, or if I could be like somewhere along that line as far as being a great podcaster, which Joe Rogan obviously is and the whole world knows it, right? If I can get closer to that by allowing myself, to be like to believe in myself like that's a version of love right and then so that

version of love converts into success yeah and that's so that's the whole thing about this that i think is interesting and i think people should hear that shit more and hopefully they fucking hurt it so yeah when i when you was the same person and was so humble so nice and so like you know like normal guy you're just 100% normal guy like back in the days you remember like when 1998 1999 you look at the guys from 2005 and you look at like wow this is normal guys without bullshit without fake well you know it's very you see it on the internet and you're like there's that fuck the same fucking me head person because you're very young you're 33 years old yes but in your

mind you're like okay 45 over you're not 33 years old it's completely no way maybe you look more older right because we're the same age but obviously I'm different type of body right but in your mind in your head how you sit up your mind and how you were you working on your soul so much i can see that because you're working on yourself not muscles inside of you because you did a lot of work i can see that because you obviously you're smarter the people in 46 years old i appreciate me you know what's funny about that though i've got i wish you on this podcast dude because the work that i've done on myself and in my soul is also a part of my physical because all those years and all the years that i did the training

it was because I was trying to like feel better about myself and what I had gone through in my life and like my relationship to like my worth my self worth what being good enough all that stuff related to like my soul so it's interesting how my physical manifestation also is a is a derivative of the same thing that I've been working on in my soul in my heart because it's like I've wanted to be either appreciated or love or accepted my whole life in a way that you know I told you did you have work because you don't become selfish. You're not a selfish person. Normally people do with this kind of stuff

and they're growing so much and they become more famous and stuff they become very selfish. It's all about them, it's all about them. No, you're not. Because I can see how you treat your team. Yeah. They're amazing.

They're fucking... Yeah, I appreciate it. All right, so... Damn, dude. This guy, we gotta do a pod. Okay. Okay, so thank you for coming. Yeah, thank you for having.

We have to do some content in the gym, in the gym, like train a little bit. Yeah. I'll get your squat right. No problem. Yes. I might have to fight your trainer. Is it a dude? No, it's a girl.

Okay, I'm not fighting your trainer. Never mind. Scratch that. She's the sweetest. I love her. But honestly, I want to learn how to like to do all that stuff. I got you. I'm the guy.

I'm actually good at that. I want to become like a little, like a little gym girl. That's like. That would be done. No, that'd be, that's a whole different, like angle, too. I feel like in that space, like guys are like gym girls are popping right now. Really? I feel like.

I feel like. Yeah. Yeah, I don't know. Maybe that's just me. Maybe that's just what I like. I don't know. Maybe it is, I think. Yeah.

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We're out of every Tuesday, 11 a.m. Thank you so much. for coming for real. Thank you. Yeah. Thank you for bringing the ultimate fucking the guy who just fucking you made me feel good dude. I really appreciate that. Thank you. Yeah. All right here.