RAWTALK - SteveWillDoIt’s Life is Changed Forever…

Episode Date: March 25, 2025

On this weeks episode of RAW TALK, Brad sits down with SteveWillDoIt & talks on his dog Donald passing away, losing his passion after the youtube ban, future goals & much more!Hope you guys enjoy, see you next Tuesday!Sponsored by: Prize PicksUse code “BRADLEY”& Make your first $5 line up & get $50 whether you WIN OR LOSE! https://prizepicks.onelink.me/ivHR/BRADSponsored by: Monarch MoneyUse code RAWTALK at https://www.monarchmoney.com for 50% off your first year!

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Let's get into this spot with Steve. Scale at one to high, how high are you right now? My God. Yeah, the bite. Bring the mic closer. Do I look high? No, no. The vibe, though.

I was smoking like, like, oh my God, look at the dog celebrity. Um, but I was smoking at Universal, but I'm not high. How do you, you're smoking weed at Universal? Like smoking the pen. Oh, the pen, the pen, that makes sense. You went to Universal. I'll see him as bring water. Nice.

That's good. Oh, that's very good. It's good water. It's great water. Dude, so how you been? How's life been? It's been, it's been okay. It's been pretty good.

Actually, yeah, it's been really good. of some some shit happened you know Donald passed and then um it's really it I mean it's kind of a wake-up call to get my life back on track but Donald passing yeah how did he pass I had some like infection uh and they the between doing like the MRI and then which was unnecessary I think them are in doing the treat whatever they did they did so much testing and the MRI they did anesthesia and then the next day another test result came back to where he had this whatever disease and then from there they had to do like a like a chemo type drug and between like anesthesia and

the chemo drug whatever it's like that shit killed him was a lot of fucked me up but what was the thing that was wrong with him in the first place um like he just one day to the next was sick no yeah it's crazy that's why it fucked me up so much because like so he died on like the 15th of last month so we'll say the 13th he was fine oh so yeah it fucked me up and that shit like for literally three weeks straight i would just like cry all day yeah and i would like i couldn't sleep so the only way i would sleep is stay up all night to 5 or 6 a.m. And then take, like, Mexican prescriptions, like, the pharmacia.

Yeah. And even now, it's tough. Yeah. Like, today, I don't cry every day, but today I did. Yeah. Because of Snapchat memories. Yeah. Yesterday I did.

But before that, it was, like, five days without doing it. Yeah. So it was tough. But, yeah, I have this, like, a foundation. for him, which is like a percentage of income. So don't want to say that because then you know how, then you know how much money I make, but it's a percentage of income and it's doing good so far. It's, and the reason I'm doing, I'm doing a Donald Foundation basically because I, like,

I can't have him die for no reason. Like, he has to have some impact. Like, his name's got to live forever. He's so special to me. And I also quit cigarettes. So Donald Dying, Donald Foundation, which right now is, been a month it's probably got like like $90,000 yeah and it and you're going to use it for one the don't the Donald foundation is going to be towards like 50% of it's going to be like towards

dogs whatever that means like it could be medical bills and whatever and then another 50% is just going to be helping people like helping humans and stuff because when I was in the hospital with him it felt like it was similar type of situation when I was with like people kids with cancer in a way to where like their parents I've seen like kids parents just sit there and just see their kid like struggle to breathe and like shit like you're just there on so much drugs and shit yeah and then that's what happened with Donald who you see him and it's like you're seeing him he's on so much drugs it's like he's not it's sad So it was like kind of like the same, it was the same vibe.

And of course you can't, I don't think you can compare your child to a dog, but that's my life. Yeah, I get you. I've been there with like kids in the hospital and shit and then, you know, they end up dying. Yeah. I've seen the parents. And so I kind of want to help them out because, you know, I've helped out a lot of parents with kids with cancer. But basically when that shit happens, like you, I guess. it ruins your life.

If you're not set up financially, it ruins your life even more because you have that financial burden on you, but you don't even care. Like the financial burden is like the last thing that you think about. Yeah, so you're not even considering the fact that it's going to fuck you later on. Yeah, so you don't even know. So it's like, so if your kid has cancer, it's like, fuck work, fuck this, fuck that, fuck that, deal with the consequences kind of later. And then.

And then the consequences are huge. It's huge. And then you have to go to work and, you know pay for all the medical bills yeah it's a fucking crazy thing yeah it's tough so that's why it's like 50%'s gonna be dogs but also 50% is gonna be humans probably catered towards you know the cancer yeah type but we you don't know it's just gonna be like just purely to help people and then if there's any point of like raising money or anything like that if we were to do that it just would be a hundred percent to helping people.

Yeah. If that were ever, it would be a thing. It's kind of just going to be kind of my own money. But I think in one month to have like probably close to $100,000 is cool. And I haven't used any of it. I used $5,000 of it to a friend in high school that passed away like five days after Donald. Holy shit. And he's through like a high school friend?

Yeah, we weren't close like that, but we were friends, but he was just such a nice guy. Yeah. So then donated $5,000 the Donald, the French East Foundation, and that was his first don't know. Yeah. You got a new dog. Yes, you know, I got a, or got a English bulldog. And yeah, man. Yeah, dude, losing a, I'm already like.

We got. Yeah. It's crazy, but the week before he passed, it was just craziest thing because I was in Nicaragua. And I'm looking at him. And, dude, I started, like, tearing up just thinking about, like, because he's five years old. I'm like, dude, this guy's old.

Like, I couldn't imagine. Is that old for a Frenchie, though? No, just midlife. Yeah. So to me, I'm like, I remember tearing up on my couch in Nicaragua, just thinking, how the fuck am I going to deal? with him passing away and then a week later yeah that's so crazy but it's how life is man yeah the good thing i mean it's just perspective wise i mean i told you this off camera but like you gave that dog

a crazy life like that's all like as a dog owner that's kind of all you can do is give it the best life possible because it's not going to last forever yeah like 10 times out of 10 really you outlast your dogs. Yeah. Sad as fuck, but like... No, I did give him the best life. And he always had attention. And he had steaks.

He was never left home alone, ever. That dude was eating good every day. Because even when I left out of country or anything, like my sister works for me and her full-time job, now is literally nothing. But before, it was just to watch my dogs in my house. I remember even when we were leaving Nicaragua, You had someone come pick up Donnie, I think, because he was staying.

Like, you were going to, there was something with traveling, but he was going to stay and take care of the dog. I know. I mean, you can't be better than that. I go crazy on them. Because he just can't be alone. Like, just zero alone time. Like, when I'm not there, it's not like where he's just at the house alone.

It's like he's got someone there. Even, you know, in Miami, whatever, you have someone come to the condo or pick him, like Lloyd would walk over. If I go to the gym, it's like, Lloyd is coming over to take Donald. So he's with Norman, another dog. You know, he's got friends and shit. And, yeah, I've never alone as my dude. Yeah.

I mean, you did a great job, bro. I did. And it's dope that you're now using that and you're helping people. I mean, you have been helping people for a long time, but it's cool that you're using that as another reason. I have to. He can't be forgotten. because he was the best thing in the world.

Yeah, and it's, it's hard because I feel like I kind of said this to you too off camera, but like I feel like we get, you get like one dog in your life that's really like that dog that you have that sort of deep connection with beyond any other dog because I've had a bunch of dogs in my life. And I think I have one dog like that and it's bam. And I'm already knowing the day when that dog dies. I'm like, fuck, it's going to be the worst thing ever.

It sucks. But, you know. But she's old. at least you can prepare for it yeah yeah I don't think anything makes it better though nothing makes it way better when you you think so yeah I mean either way it's gonna suck but I think it's just like it's coming yeah it's like it's not like how my dad went out I didn't know that was coming yeah he killed freaking KMS himself yeah he did I actually like I would never do it but I swear to God like that was the closest I felt

Seriously. I believe you. I believe you. It's a crazy thing. Oh, I'm going to kill myself because my dog. No, but you love that dog, man. It makes sense. Oh, my God. Yeah, you're good. You love that dog. He's a good dog, bro. He's the best. I'll try and change the subject. But yeah, he's a, you did everything you could for that dog. I saw it first hand so many ways. Oh, he's so dope. I've never seen a dog get on as many private planes ever in my life as that dog.

But it was all about like him always having someone. to be with. Yeah. And, yeah, he lived a good life. But now you just got to carry him with you in a different way.

He's just not physical anymore. You know? Yeah, his name just got to live on. Like, he's going to, you know, help a lot of people.

And I'm kind of saving that money to her when I was making content because I'm going to make content again. Yeah. We wanted to talk about that. And, uh, it's just about his name being out there.

Like, he can't be forgotten. It's like, there'd be a lot of like kids and families and shit. Be like, Donald the French, he changed my life. Yeah. And he, you know, and that's what I want.

Yeah. And it's going to happen. So. So talking about the content thing and not making content for some time, because a lot of people ask me about you, because obviously we made so much content for so long together. So a lot of people would be like, how's Steve doing? What is he doing?

How is he? How are you not making content? Like, how do you feel? you feel good or is like you want to come back uh no i want to come back because i kind of lost like i i have no passion right now and um because i know you're fine financially i know you're making money like that's not a problem dude yeah money is not yeah money is not an issue making money and it's just a lot i lack passion don't lack the making money like like the making money black like passion videos and stuff because that was my life dude it's my whole entire life

like i don't care what anyone says like the way youtube works you get three strikes and then your channel gets deleted for a YouTuber that their entire life was youtube just get deleted when you have zero strikes on your channel yeah no matter the reason i don't matter i don't it's like it was your whole life getting taken away from you yeah and people might think that's crazy and be like oh you have a good life you should be and i am i have a good life i'm appreciative but dude my entire life was taken for me and it's still it fucked me up big time it still has to today it's changed it changed me forever yeah and yeah it sucks but i want to you know make content again i of course want to be on youtube but uh we'll just work towards that yeah

there's got to be a way man there has to be a way to make that work it just seems like it will it will work and if not then we just pivot and yeah it took me fucking three years to fucking pivot but it is what it is man it's like we're gonna figure it out we're gonna do it and then i mean the internet's so perfect right now it's set up for someone like me getting canceled and shit and just me being steve will do it no boy that's perfect like as in everything is clips yeah so as far as like being seen on the internet still it's like you have clips like i never did clips on youtube so like technically right now i feel like i'm getting more views than i did than when i was on youtube because the clip is clipping wasn't a thing clipping service wasn't a thing

yeah you know i got two to four million views per video per week you know that is you know eight to 16 million views plus my old videos we'll call another you know double it 32 million views per month max on youtube it's a lot yeah but with clipping you get you know you get way more than that through just paying clippers do you think that's the thing that's changed the most on the internet since you've been sort of a way yeah i think yeah is everything's clipping like i swear all these streamers mad respect to them yeah but i swear to god all these streamers that are all over their net there's like everyone watches them on cliffs yeah like they have their community diehard fan base that watches them streams yes but they're like big time and known everywhere because of clips

yeah it's what it is it's not it's i mean it's just like it's just facts i don't i'm not i'm not i'm not it's no disrespect i love all those kids it's not even that negative thing i'm saying it's just it's just the internet's changed dude completely different it's clips bro it's all clips even me and i feel like i'm like most people my favorite pod i mean i do yeah i do listen to podcasts long form but a lot of my favorite content creators will just say it's from clips yeah you know it is what it is and it's yeah i'm the same way the way i the way i the way i watch most content i don't go and spend hours on hours watching content i pretty much watch clips as well that's how i know what's going on yeah and i think you're right i think most people they get their

content that way now it's it's definitely changed the internet space for sure yeah so when i see like a youtube or even like how knellke boys is still getting whatever they're getting or getting 200 000 likes it's like on a long form video or even togi that makes really long form videos it's freaking impressive to have that fan base like when you're doing vlogs on youtube nowadays i feel like it's just it's way more impressive now than it was back in the day when I did it even though it was mad impressive because I didn't have clips so it goes both ways it was impressive for me because there wasn't clips to show off my content but now it's impressive now because most people focus just watch clips yeah they don't watch the full format so it's it's both ways

it's impressive both ways how what do you think it takes what do you think it takes as a content creator to have people watch and to get that engagement on a platform like YouTube now where it's not clip dominant. I have no idea. I have no idea. I was blessed and lucky to have been discovered by Nelk and joined Nelk on the YouTube thing because all I did was just make my crazy videos. Yeah. Like I just made crazy drinking videos and then Kyle discovered me and it just was a hit we just we killed it and so i was very lucky to have joined milk boys but that was because it it was like a lot of work like i made a lot of drinking videos and like crazy like crazy videos to join so i was lucky to have to kyle kind of be that guy the youtube mentor but right now i

couldn't know advice i still believe in like the there's some shit between like like cellularly like human to human that you can just feel if someone's being authentic. I think that helps authenticity on on YouTube for like hardcore fan base. I feel like that's a huge thing. And then consistency, obviously consistency is the most important thing. But other than that, I was, I had, you know, I joined Nelk so early, man. Yeah. So it was like crazy. And, and do that. I feel like I missed out on a lot of like, life learning and growing up because like finished high school i never thought i was going to college and then went right into drinking videos like straight from high school drinking videos yeah

and then fucking join elk boys never really had that like figuring out life stage because just went from high school like i didn't have to like go do anything crazy like i had jobs yeah i worked out of gym ten dollars an hour this job ten dollars an hour but still living to my parents i never had like the real struggle or or bad things even happened to me yeah like so it sucks for me because i did all that growing up and that uh mistake making mistakes and lesson learning all that stuff i did while on the spotlight you know what i'm saying yeah it's like freaking sucks dude it's like a child actor yeah so all my mistakes and growing up mistake it was all in the spotlight you know most people fuck up and have all these things or whatever

or just grow up and learn who they are whatever and it's all private so it's like you know you fuck up you do something bad it's like the whole world doesn't know or if you are just maybe not the person you want to be it's just like it doesn't matter because you don't have the whole spotlight yeah so the whole growing up stage was uh you know i was on the spotlight which sucks because here I am deleted off YouTube. And I believe that was because misunderstood by people, right? I don't know. People think I'm, I don't know.

Definitely think I'm misunderstood by people because of YouTube. Yeah. But in what way? I mean, right off the bat, people think I drink every day. And I'm a psychopath like that. Yeah. That's so not the. case i'm like super into health and fitness yeah i know that and even you know and i think that's a

big thing is people just think i'm drink or even back then just think i drink every so it's almost like maybe part of the reason why they were like yeah get them off here maybe they they got the sort of clip vibe they didn't really watch they didn't really know steve they're just like yeah no they no they didn't i i mean they they did not at all i think but it's okay you know it changed my life forever yeah like YouTube like changed my life for dude so I'm thankful for them yeah like it's badass and then I'm also like I said with the clips and everything I'm thankful for the direction the internet's going because you know it's it's good for me someone that's not who got canceled not motivated lost passion

making videos I mean I also have like unlimited content to clip up yeah so when I like 100 million views or whatever million views I get it is because I have so much content yeah so the whole clipping meta is not just like easy cake it is for me because you have to have the content because the content I have is just like I have like 100 YouTube videos that are like 20 30 minutes and then like however many milk videos however many drinking videos however and then however many your videos like yeah so i guess when i talk about the the clipping meta being if i make it seem like it's easier whatever i guess because i have all the content you still got to make the content yeah well i have that's the thing for me i have it right right right yeah so i get the if someone wants

to do it they have you can't just clip without any content obviously yeah you can't clip without any content so what's your direction moving forward what's your plan with content because i know you came out here because you were going to film some stuff i don't i don't know i think it fell through but where are you going to make content just trying to post one to two videos of a month on Twitter and trying to figure out the formula for Twitter like vlogs Steve will do a video maybe shorter yeah try to figure out the like the formula for Twitter and then just posting like an Instagram real like make a new make new content like post an Instagram real where I go out and I'm like, I'm filming for Instagram, filming for TikTok.

I've never done that before. I always just filmed straight up for YouTube. Yeah. You know, well, I have done that when I was making my drinking videos, but when I was doing YouTube, I never just like, okay, I'm going to make a video for Instagram, make a video for TikTok. It was just posting YouTube, you know, content.

What type of content do you want that to be, though? Like an Instagram video, for example. It's still comedy-based stuff? because that's what most of your content you know was pretty much comedy well give him back in comedy well not I mean comedies dude I don't even know

I don't even know I have you know I'm making a video where I want to going into a Tesla store and this is for content yes but there's also the right thing to do going to the Tesla store and then buy like the first video I think it's a good first video back

just buying someone that's trying to buy a Tesla, get financing, just buy them the Tesla just to support Elon Musk. Yeah. And then say like, hey, anyone that retweets this, likes this, getting a Tesla to maybe give another Tesla that someone that owns Tesla stock just to kind of help Elon Musk because people are shitting on him like big time. And I just want to do the, you know, be a patriot. And then that's like a first good video back.

because it's the amount of engagement and likes and retweets you can get because you're giving away Tesla and just be like, hey, guys, we're going to be making videos. So maybe if I can give a date or something, it's just a good first video back for engagement purposes and it's the right thing to do. Yeah, I get you. I think Elon are retweet. It's funny, though, because Elon getting so much shit because everyone's like, oh, he's like, the two things I see is like he's stealing our information or he's trying to get our

information and he and he's trying to, like, enrich himself. And it's so funny when I hear those arguments, I'm like, first of all, the dude's like net, net worth has dropped like $100 million or $100, excuse me, $100 billion. Secondly, like the concept that like he's trying to take our information or that he's trying to control certain things is so interesting because it's like, wait, this has been a thing that in America has been happening forever before Elon Musk has ever been here, that people have been behind the scenes that are billionaires. George Soros, all these different kinds of people that have been behind the scenes that have been pulling strings. I've been doing the same thing forever, just not as much of a public figure. So that's one. And then the two is that he's lost money being like in this sort of spotlight because of the whole left versus right. I think most people see through it. And for me, that's why I feel like I just got to do my part. And I see, I see through it. Right.

You see through the like the bullshit. Yeah. You don't even think explain it. You guys, you guys see through it there's bullshit yeah it's like the guy the one guy you guys can tell if if Elon Musk is doing bullshit like I'm not fucking no Elon Musk dick sucker even a Trump dick sucker I'm about America pro and just yeah just real like I I would have no problem supporting Kamala Biden you name it if I felt like it was the best for you know America I really do and I'm like thinking about other people because like I'm okay like I really am thinking about like Americans and other people when I when I you know say this stuff and um yeah so shout Elon Musk I see through the bullshit yeah I and I think most people do and um yeah it's crazy

we live in crazy time it's weird man I don't even understand the hate and the and the people so mad people are very mad about Elon Musk I don't get it I just I can't believe people are so stupid I thought I was stupid, but people are like, stupid. Yeah. Sheep. It's like the guy who's trying to like do any, for the last 100 years, however long it's been the first guy who comes in and is like, yo, we should not spend as much money as the government. They're like, no, no, no, that's the bad guy. It's like, wait, this is, they should have been doing this for the last 50 years.

Like, they've just been taking people's tax dollars and spending it on random crazy shit. Why would we not have that as a, forget Elon Musk just as a part of the government where people are trying to like, You have someone that's trying to make this less bullshit, less money just giving away and fed into like random people's pockets for like dumb shit. That's what it seemed like a lot of people were getting money, a lot of money. They were getting paid. Awesome.

I would, dude, if I was on the other side, I would be so for it. I would take, bro, I would take checks and from and be like anything. I would take any title and take $50 million. That's what they were doing. In the government. They were doing that, bro. I would do that. I don't they were they were about that shit like they were running it up it's like all those government officials have like 200 300,000 dollars salaries annually and then they're like they're like they're like a hundred million dollar net worth like how the fuck did you get that it's crazy to see that shit and then and then it's funny to watch the media be like no he's the bad guy it's like man what like what about the people who've been rob us for the last 50 years it's just weird how the energy shifts and it doesn't focus on certain things well it's it's about the person if

If someone else was doing Elon Musk's job, the same job, the same Doge, everything. Yeah. They would be cool with it. Yeah. It's the fact that it's Elon Musk and Donald Trump. Yeah. Yeah, it is what it is. I just, I see through it.

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right now. Monarchmoney.com. Go there. Let's get back into this podcast. What's something you think you've learned, like what lesson you've learned the most in the last like three years since being off of you too okay lessons learned um a bunch i guess most important fuck um don't trust people don't don't share too much right yeah there's no point of telling people like good things uh they just don't share too much there's there's just no point don't share to share with people because they don't care, frankly. Or they get jealous. No, it just doesn't, yeah, don't.

And, oh, I don't know, just, this is a weird one to say, just be smarter, but it's like, be, I wish I was like, I really looked at things from the outside and was smarter about every decision I made, with everything I did, whether it was, I don't know, there's everything. I don't know, man.

I think the big one was trusting people and thinking that everyone is going to have good intentions. Yeah. Yeah. I've been there. I guess a big thing was like thinking I was on the same page as people. Yeah. No matter who it is, like if I'm buying a car from this guy that we're on the same page. Yeah.

like I'm going to show you so much love you give me good good deal but in reality it's I'm going to show you so much love and you're going to fuck me over three times more than you would the average person that gives you no value yeah you're just going to fuck me over just because the like I'm quote unquote rich right or what else I think they can get from you while doing so yeah yeah yeah bro i've been there i've definitely been there i know how it is that's for sure that's a tough one because it's the optimism thing right because then it can kind of kill your own sort of sense of moving forward in relationships or friendships or business whatever and you're like it's harder to start and be like oh i'm pretty cold now yeah it's harder to start and be like man

this is going to be great because i'll never forget that i've had a few interactions in my life big big moments and i'm like damn you got to stomach that you can't change it you can't change the past and you just got to move forward and then you got to meet someone else or someone new in a different situation different relationship different friendship business and you got to be like all right this is this time i'm going to be good but it's so motherfucking hard i feel like i really believe that i feel like i'm cold meeting people doing anything now like i'm just like a different person yeah not the same energy as i was before where i'm just like very optimistic yeah optimistic and think we're all

on the same page and everyone like i'm like i'm a cold person now um which is a good thing i think there's definitely there's i'm cold i mean i'm not cool i'm just i don't trust nobody dude yeah nobody like i swear and it and it that can hurt you when there's someone good yeah in your life or like that comes in your life the fact you don't trust nobody and you think everyone's fucking you could that it hurts you because if there's that good good person that comes in your life, which even now, I think I have someone that's good that's trying to come in my life. And I just ignore. And I don't know. I just don't trust anyone. I feel like I'm going to miss out on opportunities because I'm just like, fuck talking to anyone

new, fucking doing business or they want to fuck anything. And it is what it is, man. Yeah. It's a tough one. It's a part of it, though. It's a part of life. I think it's just like instead of being like, fuck it, I'm never going to do it again. It's more about what were the signs that you didn't see before in other people that can you identify what the exact signs were? You know, like if you look at the situation or whatever happened in the past and go, okay, this was happening and I wasn't paying attention to it. That was happening. I wasn't paying attention to it. So then when you move forward, like you've kind of defined, you know, it sounds stupid, but more, you define more of the red flags.

You could spot them faster instead of like, you know, waiting things. to go longer and then it gets to that place we don't want it to be you know what i'm saying i don't i don't know what red flags i could identify um all the red flags were is my personality as in just thinking every nobody's out to get you nobody to fuck you over i think it all starts from that is how i was i I didn't think. I was just all on, I was on the same pages as everyone, like with intentions and stuff. Yeah. So, thinking on it, it's me. It was me. Letting it happen. Yeah. Or it was being stupid, too. Yeah. Be naive to it. Yeah. So that's the only thing I think of as far as red flags is my stupidity. And it, it is, it is, it is.

is what it is you know yeah but there are things you could identify in people that you can go okay that i could see this is this this reminds me of this let me stay away from it you know this is the same feeling i got that i may be ignored like you never had any of those feelings at all they were like this is a bad thing until until you knew it was a bad thing because i feel like most people have those like inkling moments where they're like i kind of feel this but i'm going to ignore it because you being the person that you are want to focus on the good thing but the feelings i can't explain them is yeah i'm sure there's got feelings that i can can get that this isn't right but nothing i can explain if that makes sense yeah well you don't have to explain it you just

just like see it better now there's a lot of stuff i remember telling you in the beginning i was like man be careful with this be careful with that and it's just funny to see how everything kind of goes i just find it really interesting you know yeah like it's life yeah life's life's crazy especially being like a a guy on the internet it's crazy man like being in this position which i wish dude i wish i could do it better i someone else in my position can do me so much better you think so what do you think you're doing better what do you think you could be doing better dude you name it just like I don't like networking friendships whatever like I have so many opportunities that I don't I don't say yes to like even okay what podcast do I listen to every fucking you know every time I can

Burt Kreischer yeah Bert Kreischer invites me on his podcast he told me after we did here he said I'm gonna have Steve on no it's ignore it like shit like that like I don't go on it why like there's a lot like situations where I have where I can meet someone or do something or even like um why though the owner of rubet says hey uh today said hey could you be at this place april something and do poker night with snoop dog and i said no i don't want to be on live video of snoop dog i don't want i don't want to there's a lot of those why not bro because solo i'm not I'm not open like that. I'm not down to...

Even Tim Dillon, I love Tim Dillon to death. Asked me to be on his podcast. I said yes. And then I've bailed. Yeah. And even so many of that, situations like that where I can like be with someone really cool

or hang out with someone really cool or do something really cool. I was like, I'm stay away because like, it's tough for me to do solo. That's why someone like Stiney, was nice to have rolling around because he's that kind of social guy, kind of interactive guy, people, person could talk to anyone. So like rolling with Steinie in my YouTube videos, that's how it was easy to, you know,

go and be with 6-9 and film with 6-9 or be with anyone is like that guy was him being there. He was good at, you know, I didn't even know exactly what I'm trying to say, but he was he was good at communicating with people, building relationships, friendships. and so that's why it sucks being alone because I'm not good at that stuff but I have the ability to like meet whoever do whatever and why don't you try to get good at that stuff

I don't take advantage of it why don't you even when freaking Dana White invites me to his what was it he invited me to two different things or three different things invited me to Maine when he was really he was drunk calls me going to Maine to like is another to just his house

was it like Christmas or Super Bowl party and then I know three different times that Dana invited me to something and I just like kind of ignore it play it off because like it's just I don't know I don't know I don't know what to do which is like it's the coolest thing ever dude

I love I love Dana but I remember like specifically being in my house in Vegas him inviting me to come to his house with Selena what I don't know what it was some to watch a game or something like and me like not answering for a bit whatever and then just because like it's a lot of like pressure like I'd rather They're just like not do anything. Yo, that's crazy as fuck. It's crazy. Why is this different?

We play video games. Yeah, that's true. That's the only reason I came. It's a different connection, huh? Play video games. Okay, so what about the playing video games makes you more comfortable? We'll do. I mean, we have a lot of history together, too.

Yeah. Well, dude, I mean, play, I don't know. I mean, there's certain people like you and Stiney where it's just different, but there's not many people like that. What makes that, but what makes that different is what I'm trying to understand? I don't know, dude. I mean, I don't know, dude. I mean, I, I don't know. you we play video games for sure is huge and then there's togy

gambling we have a real connect and he's just a freaking good guy yeah just super good guy but the gambling connections huge but what about those relationships like togy me and steiny that makes you more comfortable you're like

I can I can do this and it doesn't feel as awkward or I don't feel as pressured because those are the things that you described to like not showing up to Dana even though Dana's obviously you guys are great friends he's he's dope as fuck he loves you like what's the difference there's something wrong with me I don't know dude maybe I need to see him therapist I don't know it's funny though it's kind of funny because I have like passed up a lot of dope shit cool shit because you're afraid of showing up in a way that's like not good or

I don't know man it's is it's really bad It's like someone in my position, I swear God, someone could take over my life and make a gazillion dollars. I swear to God. Like someone, like, if someone wanted to take over my life, you could literally become a billionaire. Because I got it, I got it made. Like my life right now, even right now, if I just wanted to, and then I just lack, I lack shit, dude. I wish I was more outgoing. I wish I was more social, more just.

I don't know, locked in on the bag, but I'm not. And it's definitely a fault of mine. But it is what is. We're going to get back to it. And we're going to kill it in my own way, which I... Had you always been that way? Like, it seemed like super, like, reserved. Yeah, I would say so.

But then you also have things like drinking and... other stuff that helps with it that i would go towards um but i was always that way but also it was really into video games as a kid and so that helps because i was like my whole other life yeah video games and then also also the gym but yeah it definitely was like that way and it does not i don't think i can i mean i don't know how it could help you but i don't think it helps you at all what being that way being reserved like that yeah

not my position I don't see any way how being reserved like that helps you not in my position maybe if you're like I can't tell how many times I've had conversations with other content creators

who would be like this is no there's no bullshit about you would go you know does Steve not like me and I'll be like I just he's just a little reserve he's a little different

he just reserved at so many times people be like not that you were mean mean to them. You were never mean to anybody, but because you're just standoffish. You're just like, and it's just, that's just you as a person. Not, not everyone's like loud and exuberant and fucking Steinie. I don't even mean it, dude. It's not even like I'm trying to be a dick. Nobody. No, I know. You never mean to anyone. I want to make that clear. You never mean

to anyone, but like people would come to me because they knew I had a closer relationship with you. And they just felt like they were like, you know, I can't tell the vibe, you know? And I was like, he's just like that. He's just kind of reserved. Like who? Like someone like, like, like who? I would just say their name. Yeah, like. I don't want to say their name. I feel bad.

Like Big Mike or something. Something like that. Yeah. Any guy like that. Random content creator, someone who's like film content. They just were like, it's fine. It's not a big deal. It's just an interesting.

Or something like Danny Duncan. Someone like that. I'm not saying specifically those people. I'm just saying like any of those people in that case. Like I've had multiple people come up to me and say like, not that you were ever mean. They're like, they're like, where we're. is that disconnect? And I think what you just find certain people in your life that you just connect better with? And it sounds like it's just around things that you like, you are really

passionate about. You know, but there's people I even connect with and it's just, I'm just not good at a, at, uh, maintaining a relationship. Yeah. With anybody. And, uh, yeah, it sucks because definitely a weakness for me right now, I think. For someone that's, you know, and stuff and not on it like have you tried to be better of that kind of shit just like reaching out and being like hey man appreciate you whatever the little stupid shit little stupid text um well i mean i think i'm okay with that or maybe over the phone text stuff a little better but what i lack is like the in-person meeting people talking yeah very bad dude is like it's interesting no because I never feel that way with you.

Yeah, I don't know. I think I'm retarded. Maybe we're both a little retarded. I think so. Bro, I don't know. Just the vibes. The vibes match. But it definitely fucking hurts me, man.

Yeah. It doesn't, because of, because of your, what, the ability to continue to the network or to move forward in certain things, like, again, especially as being canceled, quote unquote. Yeah, I just, I just genuinely feel like there's someone. that could take over my life and like could a hundred exit with the way I'm set up right now if they just had like simple qualities just like I don't know be more talkative outgoing at me being able to meet people and stuff it's funny because when you drink it's like you

you turn to like a different person but drinking is not the answer well no drink I don't feel I turn a different person, but it allows you to, um, I don't do things. Yeah, you, you, you, you're like, you hold, you hold less like reservation. Yeah. You're less reserved. Yeah. No, for sure. There's got to be a way to figure that out, though, like a normal life for you, where you're

just like, just less reserved in general. Um, I don't know. Maybe, maybe retire and then, I think I could. be less reserved and more being just a normal fucking guy i don't know yeah i guess all right let's talk about uh the game that i have to carry you on all the time oh yes marvel rivals is the best game in the world yeah marble rivals is the best game in the world it is it's the first game in a long time that i've been like so excited to play video games it's literally the best thing in the world has happened and it's something that i need right now because that was

one thing that i really wanted was love for video games which i lost and this is like okay so i'd love for video games monorfer two call duty then overwatch and then i i lost it for a really long time and then i found it again very briefly on war zone on resurgence yeah very briefly yeah i mean too and then call duty is just whack uh i don't know what happened with that i don't know why they took it off whatever but i lost that and then i found it again with marvel rivals yeah and it's really good for me because if we play like four hours straight like i swear to god i'd be playing so much guitar and doing like whatever muscle group i worked out that day if it's shoulders i have dumbbells there to do uh some shoulders if his legs just squats if his chest just push up

um if anything else just do bicep girls and stuff the guitar thing's funny so because i don't hear it obviously because the mic it must must mute the sounds but have you gotten good at playing the guitar for real i play i play every day and i think i i think i've gotten really good in the sense of the ability to like learn a lot of stuff because i like i just am good with my fingers now i'm picking like i can pick so fast and i can just my i don't know guitar's cool and it's like and with guitar it's all muscle memory too so once you learn something you just it's just there if you kind of like weightlifting it's just like i i know the entire solo for hotel california and i cannot tell you first like i cannot tell you in my head how it goes or map it out or write any

it's just my fingers just do it dude and And I just learned a new solo, and it was the one that was in Super Mario Bros. It was like, da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da-da-dun. At the end, when they fucking beat Bowser and shit, I think is that song. But anyways, it's just, it's in my hands, so it's cool. And then I just, I just practice. So in between games, I just practice playing different scales and just going fast and my picking. and it adds up like what else are you really into uh dude i'm like religious about my health and

stuff like i wake up like the way i the way my day works is i wake okay so if i want to sleep for if i want to sleep for seven hours i set my alarm to wake up in five hours so i wake up and then i go right in the hyperbaric chamber that's set up like a bed so I can get so then I sleep in the hyperbaric and then I take my blue methylene pills in the hyperbaric and then straight from there I go in the red light red light bed and then straight straight from there cardio with weighted vests sauna cold plunge workout and yeah I'm super into like into that stuff like red light the blue hydrogen water oxygen water and like aminos and electrolytes and I'm obsessed with all those things yeah you're kind of OCD about it you like me I'm crazy about it like so is it is it because of the

health like the longevity or is it just because it's like it makes you feel good uh both and I'm addicted to it now like it's a good thing to be like so into and it's like I have no choice now I'm super into it you should do one of those uh get ready with me videos that would be funny on instagram or ticto yeah no my get ready with me is it's crazy like i really you should do one it's a lot of work man people don't realize like it's a lot you do that every day every day yeah and the thing is like in um in Vegas i have red i have the red light bed i have a hyperbaric chamber in Mexico I have the red light panels red light mat hyperbaric chamber Nicaragua I have the red light bed hyperbaric chamber

Miami red light hyperbaric chamber like I have like fucking five hyperbaric chambers and I got the red light I've been doing the red light for like eight years yeah I'm super religious about it it's my thing and if I just were to like lock in on my diet or decide to take steroids I would be like the fittest person ever but I have I have food problems bro like especially when the donald shit happened there's so many times we'll call it six times where I ate so much food and threw up and then just ate more food and passed out wait that actually happened like three days ago.

Wait, because you ate so much food that you made yourself through it or you threw up because you ate so much food. I ate so much food to where I felt so bad to where I had to throw up, where all it took like technically is making myself throw up, but all it took was just the cough and think about it. And like I have, I have problems with food, like serious problems. Like, is it sweets or is it just like steaks? Everything.

I can't. I can't just eat one. meal like when i go out to places i or uber eats door dash i order um like a lot i know it sounds crazy but i probably spend oh that sounds insane 30 to 50k a month when i was my peak on uber eats no way my peak was probably 15 i tripled it 100% 100% I swear to God. Filthy. Like, whatever you think is bad, three-ex it.

I swear. Yo! Because I would order everything. I know. I remember times you'd even be here and you'd order like just tons of shit. And I can, and I can, I can eat everything for the most part. Like, I feel like a normal diet for me would be like 10,000 calories a day. No.

Hell no. It's a lot. I mean, it sounds like a lot. is not. I'm telling you, I like to overeat, like, a lot. Do you think all the health stuff is keeping you, like, not fat? Why do you think you're not fat? I mean, you work out, like, crazy person. Oh. Because you work out, like, twice a day most days. Oh, because I have, I have the discipline, at least to eat cleaner food, but I can't, I don't have control on the clean food. Like, I have to eat multiple, multiple steaks, multiple, like, multiple serving.

so like it's a huge calorie calorie surplus yeah if i were to just like not care about what i eat at all it would be it would just be too bad because i eat too much like if you were eating like i see you eat a lot of clean food i overeat on clean food then that still makes me fat and then the reason i'm not super fat because i i fast all the time because i you know fast three days four days five days at a time, sometimes, just to get back to normal. That's good. Sounds like a crazy eating disorder. I have problems.

Yeah, that's a real eating disorder. No, I have real problems. Like, I really be eating just nonstop until I literally can't eat no more. Why don't you just stop? I have problems, man. That's why I wish I wanted to be back on YouTube, man, because with YouTube, it was so sick. because it was like that was my number one priority, you know, so it was like nothing else mattered.

Yeah, I see. Like it was just my YouTube. Like I got a good-ass video and I'm so happy. I watch it so awesome. Now I can just like, I don't know, go to bed and watch YouTube videos of people reacting to my old videos. Yeah. Or watch other YouTubers and be like, I'm so proud to be on YouTube. He's someone of a, someone of a like obsessive personality kind of.

Oh, yeah. obsessive by YouTube because I swear I would that so that's what consumed me was YouTube shit and now it's just like let's fucking eat 12 glazed donuts man that sounds so good

and like let's watch a fucking movie that I've watched six times already let's do it again bro we were talking the other day we were playing obviously Marvel Wiles moon addicted highly addicted i love that fucking game but you started talking to me about some uh some comedy stuff have you ever shared any of that stuff with the internet well for my because this is funny

the last like however many years i'd always get uh ideas that were stand-up comedy ideas and i'd be like oh my god this shit was slap of course there's dark humor crazy things but this is like this would make me laugh and then recently i started just writing down everything yeah and i feel like i have like a lot of good jokes that are just dark humor but basically i would be like an anthony jesslinick where i paint myself no just respect to you or your people but i would paint myself as like a pedophile and that's crazy i don't know why you reference me at all but yeah continue crazy person like i like I'm like a piece of shit to like my family people around me I'm a pedophile bad person like Anthony Justin like he talks about like right and I have like great jokes about that just like my life is I'm

just a sick person and um but comedy I have a lot of jokes yeah and I do want to do I do want to do it for like a Twitter video like doing stand-up. I'm just, I'm 100% about it because it's all jokes and comedy. But there is that little part of me to where it's like people are gonna take it too seriously

and with clipping, it's like people might be outraged, but... You didn't care about that when it came to me, though, huh? It was jokes. Like, it's all jokes. Like with the way you're talking about pedophile shit? Any of the shit you said,

about me back in the day. I was the joke. It's all jokes. And right now I want to make myself the joke. I want to be like, you know, like that joke I told you was the first thing where I was like I tell my, like where I always told my mom and dad, like I was going to be on television. Yeah. And I fucking end up doing it.

It was to catch a predator. But I was on TV, Ma. You got it. You should do it. And then there's a bunch. That was the only one. There's a bunch of other stuff. I think is very clever.

and people are going to be like, whoa. Bro, the fact that... And then the storylines, like, I... The way these comedians talk about stand-up comedy, I agree, it's not easy at all. Yeah. But I feel like I get it. Like, the storyline and I've...

Timing and all the timing. I feel like I get it. I feel like I could do it. I think you could do it. I think you do it. And the jokes I have are so good. If they're told properly... then I think it could be good.

But that's what comedy is, is timing. All timing. And the way you present yourself. Delivery on time. Yeah. But it's funny, man. Like you, the other day you sent me, I swear to God, this wasn't even, I don't know if you were trying to, I guess you were probably trying to be funny to me, but I literally

wake up to a text in a morning from two photos, three text messages. First photo is a picture of like your draws on the floor covered in, shit. And the second photo is like a backwards selfie of like shit that is like coming up your like lower butt towards like kind of like almost like your back. And then you said I had a really shitty Sunday. Let's game now. Good thing it was in Selena's car. Yeah. That shit. And then when we talked about it, you were like, and this is with a joke come in. Obviously the joke's that, but the joke, the funnier joke to me was when you were like, that's my 9-11. I'll never forget that day. Yeah. But that shit is good. That shit.

it's good because people adults shit their pants but it's a little like sharts they call shart shit and fart yeah like a whole yeah but i literally was in the car seat i i i was i made it to the toilet i was in the parking lot of a toilet and then i just sat there and i just shit myself like for like we're just like picture like squeezing a fucking ketchup bottle for 10 seconds that's what it was I just don't I don't understand how you were like I was just like it came out and I was just it just was and I just let it go for like and it was so much doors up my back and shit and I me shying my pants was it was my 9-11 but also I have a few 9-11s but I'm just hold on but we got to talk about this shit real quick how come you didn't like because you know people know you know you're going to shit right but here's a thing. Do you ever fast for three days? Break your fast because you're a piece of shit. Order three different DoorDash orders.

Eat all of the DoorDash orders. Three different restaurants. Overeat all of it. And actually you finish two restaurants. Do you throw up? And then after the throw up, you finish the third restaurant. And then you go to bed and wake up and go to the gym. And then on the way back, you shit your pants.

Yeah. No, I can't relate to that. But what I'm saying is... It's really... It's sad. How come you could have to be like, all right, I'm going to have the shit's coming. Let me go to a bathroom. A little came out and it was just like, oh, shit.

Feels too good. And then just like... So it was a shart? Then turned into a full on shit. I was running... No, it was a shit that started off as a shart and finished as what it should be as a real big shit but I was running red lights and everything I was going so fast and maybe if I was in my Ferrari because my Ferrari got some like weird ass seats man like this like crazy blue interior

I can't tell what it is I don't know how poop like maybe be different but I was in still my car a nice ass car you know Mercedes Maybach but I don't that's Selena's car She drives it. And then if I get, if I drive it, I'm getting driven in it for the most part. Yeah. You shit in the Maybach. Yeah. But maybe if I was in, if I was in my.

Ferrari, you wouldn't have done it because you don't want to fuck the seats. Yeah. Well, one of my, one of my Ferrari, there's one Ferrari that's got like weird seat. I don't know. I can't tell what it is. Yeah. Like I would not. You would have got out.

If I was in the crazy Ferrari I have with the blue interior, I can't, I think I would have. figured out or the rules royce too yeah that's the moment i'm interested in is when you were like fuck it you're just like i'm shitty i was just yeah and you sat but you didn't think like i'm gonna get out of the car just shit on the side no just once we got there it was too much it was crazy man and then i had a 13-minute car ride home where i'm just like sitting in a fucking pool of shit and it smells so bad and I'm speeding home and it's up my back too

which is like weird and thank God I was wearing a hoodie because I could sit on it so I told Selena that none nothing got on the seats but I lied like just the dolep

of shit got on the sheets on the seats like a circle but if it wasn't for the hoodie it would have been crazy dude because it was like it was so much to when you sit it comes out of you because of like gravity and fucking science and shit what the shit overflows you'll never forget that day you're not what other 9-11s you have which is such a crazy reference but it's funny because i'll never forget

i'll never forget 9-11 i remember that like fucking yeah and i say that is my 9-11 because there's people that people are older that you know live through 9-11 i lived through it but i was two or whatever yeah you know like where are you at what you're doing on 9-11 yeah and obviously know the date 9-11 and uh for me i i don't know it's a good way to explain it like me shitting my pants like that was my 9-11 me getting my youtube delete and my 9-11 yeah uh me almost dying on acid my 9-11 yeah me fucking be in the car with some dude on house arrest trying to like chop off his his house arrest ain't is inklet um that's a 9-11 like some weird shit because i was in high school and this dude said he can print me fake money i got to pick i want i wanted money i was in high

school i was like he said he has this like legit printer whatever he needs a ride and pick him up and he's on house arrest and he's got a freaking ankle bracelet i didn't know him and then he has me go to walmart and he goes into walmart with his house arrest bracelet and steal cutters and anyway I cut it off with the Walmart cutters in the car and yes something like that you don't forget it just makes no sense because I don't know who he was

I was just like you just thought he's going to print you money I was giving him a ride and give me money and turned out he's on how he's got a bracelet and I have to take him to Walmart and he got the steel cutters and cut it and did you ever get any of that money no I guess he lied

you just got a car dipped or what you dropped them off somewhere and but i just never i'll never forget that that moment like what it looked like yeah or even like there i have a bunch of nine 11 11 9 11s like even me going going to a court hearing thinking that it was just some like basic weed shit probation just normal shit and then they're being like oh you got to go to jail for 24 hours And he's like, that sucked. Not 9-11. Yeah.

Yeah, my mom telling me my dad is not coming back. That was a little 9-11 for me. Never forget that one. Standing right by a couch. Yeah, you remember exactly where you're at, right? 100%. Yeah. And he's like, Daddy's not coming back dead.

Yeah. You remember exactly, right? Yeah. It's crazy. What other, like, good, are there ever good things in your life that are like that you were like, you remember vividly? Because I feel like human sent to just remember like the bad shit sort of, but the scary shit. Anything good that's like, that shit really stands out. I mean, there's, I think there's so much of it.

There's too much of it. You think that's why it doesn't stand out as much? Yeah. I think my good, the good outweighs the bad. Dude, I think 26, the last seven years I've been with knelt boys and you and do my thing

like there's too many good things that have happened. Travel in the world being part of milk boys is like the coolest thing you could ever do. I mean, from Air Force from Air Force One to Tosh Point O to the UFC bubble on Yaz Island

in Abu Dhabi I mean to all those merch drops doing like $12 million, $10 million, $8 million having hundreds of thousand people on your website still gonna give me a dollar It's crazy

Still hadn't made a dollar Yeah probably made like Maybe a half a million or million dollars off your name for sure Sick Me Definitely half million You personally

Me personally yeah yeah that means they made some too yeah probably more than that that's sick no i still got none no no made like cool 15 the nope made 15% of or was it 20% probably 20% of you know so 100000 to $200,000 maybe it's dope love it but i don't care those i'll never forget those days days yeah like so to that though how do you plan to make the future better one day at time man just get back to it um just make just make good content i don't know just try to just pivot dude just twitter and reels and ticot three things i've never done or focused on in my life it was always just YouTube.

Yeah. So what I don't understand is why you don't do live, like why you don't do desktop lives or live streaming in general, because you could do that. You could be on those platforms. That we, that I'm, I want to explore is doing like some lives that are like high production, cool shit. But that's not really something. That's not really me at the end of the day.

I see. I would like to be live. and gamble. I love it. So if I can, if I can build, like, because when I was,

when I was making Twitter videos, not long ago, where I was making a video every two weeks, like, I made a video every two weeks, and I would gain 100,000 followers a month,

you know? Like, I made videos for like three months, and I've gained like 300,000 followers just on Twitter alone. And, of course, there's a lot of giveaways and stuff and work, but I think I can,

I think I'm capable of doing that, but, way better and um yeah if i can do that and way better and i say way better as in just shorter videos like i want people to actually watch the entire video yeah like on twitter the exact analytics but like when i got like 10 million views or 5 million views which was like i got 3 to 10 million views like every Twitter video it wasn't that that really it was uh people watching the full video is way smaller you know and people watching the video in general is probably way smaller but it's such it's smaller it's such a big number but it would i wasn't happy with that

yeah um even though it might look good to like the normal person would keep up with that and like it looks good to brands and stuff and do that but no I wasn't I was not happy with it why do you think you can't do lives I don't get it no I can do live it is just that's just not who I've never been a live streamer besides gambling yeah so but I'm live 50 hours a month

but it's on kick I think I think kick is is hard man I don't I don't think that you can go on kick as a creator and just be like i'm going to be just on kick and just and blow up really like that but you can with the clipping method sure yeah i think that's you know what a lot of people do that are big on kick not like aiden ross i think aden ross is a different level but there's people there's some people on kick that are that may look like huge to the world But really, it's just clips.

Yeah. And I'm not, and I'm not talking about Aiden Ross. I think Aiden Ross is in his own, and it's a whole different. He's in his own, he's Aiden Ross. Right. I think he's in, so I'm not talking about Aiden and Rawls. But I'm saying there's other people on kick. You might think are the biggest thing in the world, and it's just clip driven.

Yeah. So I don't, I don't think that you can start on kick and become huge unless it's just going to be clipped. But why do you think live is not your thing? Because you could do the same. sort of content i don't know i i don't like being live there's a lot of pressure i see and a lot of time dude youtube videos you can film and and stop and you kind of can picture in your head how you want it you have your editor you know your editor you can it's a lot easier cut shit out if it's bad but you don't have to you don't have to be go go go 24-7 it's like you could film a fucking 30 minute 30

minutes video footage and then chill for fucking an hour in the car ride to your other thing you know but in live in that car ride where you're chilling for an hour whatever you're live yeah you got to you know there's a difference if there's like you film all day for YouTube video it's like you only got to be attentive and whatever for like a small percentage and then you edit it and you make it way better than it actually is I guess so it's like the you have to give a lot you A lot of things. Because of YouTube, you can turn something that, like, wasn't the best or crazy or whatever. You can make it way better with storyline, with editing, with live.

You not only can't do the storyline and editing and change things how you want it, you have to be on it the whole time, however many minutes. Yeah. It's a fucking lot to deal with. It's a very lot. so so but you said you try to do some live stuff just like more more coordinated higher production coordinated higher production not just like wing it and like yeah dude god bless these streamers i don't know how they just go to like how i was just at universal just go to universal

and live stream it i don't know how they do it's fucking but i would like to do like uh high production like one thing i'm setting up is i don't know we do this live but matt like master chef video where it's all people that were just in prison for a long time and then they make prison food so their only ingredients or like whatever you know like uh whatever prisons have like they make like the the ramen with Cheetos and yeah yeah and they's a good idea they try to elevate it right you elevate your dish with prison food just like how they do a master chef they have them make elevated dishes with um tv dinners or whatever or whatever it is and this is just like prison you should do it are you gonna are you are you gonna do

giveaway still with your videos like you kind of because a lot of stuff has always been giveaway not giveaway driven but because you give away so much yeah we're in the giveaway stuff but just trying to find the formula for Twitter because I just don't think that doing YouTube style videos YouTube style titles and And vlogs that I would make for YouTube is the same on Twitter. I think you got to pivot. It's just not the same. Like, so, yeah, it's going to try to figure that out.

It's a learning process. What makes you not just do it? Because, like, we've talked about, like, podcast stuff. We've talked about doing content. And we always say we're going to do it. And then you just don't do it. this is a little intervention from me to you right now uh i have a lot of issues yeah a big thing is to like me fluctuating and weight too so much eating and stuff because if i'm like fat

i was in my face whatever like i'm not i'm not going to be on camera period um but that's just like a personal i just have issues yeah and yeah like i just have mad issues when do you what what's gonna get to the point where you're like you i want to do this i really want to do this now now i want to do it and i think it was freaking it was donald dying it's fucked but i guess it had to be like it was straight like i can't let his death be ignored like it's a good reason yeah it's a good fucking reason so now you don't got any more excuses no excuses and i can't be hurt like like like we'll end it on this bro i literally before donald died i won freaking four million dollars in two days right and then the next day i lost it

plus more right everything and I thought freaking the world was crashing on me after that oh my god I don't care the slightest like the slightest at all like is nothing matters anymore besides and this is what matters getting back into it making content and being successful and making the Donald foundation that's what that's what matters it's interesting how that works Like, and I, like, I literally, you're not saying nothing matters. You just realize what actually matters. Oh, like the, like, when I think about that night losing all that money, of course there's all profit and stuff.

I was like, I just don't care at all, um, whatsoever. And it doesn't affect me. And a lot of things don't matter that I thought mattered. Yeah. That's the important part. Mainly my mindset is just completely different. Like, I don't think you can hurt me or bother me. That makes sense.

Like, I don't think I can be bothered by somebody or, like, hurt by anybody like I used to. Like, as in when I lost $2 million that hurt me, my soul, I can't. I can't, if I, when I just lost a bunch of money at Red Rock, bro, zero. emotion about it. Yeah. Not that I have like, oh, I have so much money. It was like, zero emotion. It's bad examples, the gambling examples, but it's with everything.

And it's not like I have so much money. I don't care that I lost. It's just. It's recognizing what actually matters. Yeah. That's the beautiful thing, though. I mean, that's the thing with death, with any death, whether it's your dog or your family member, that that's what life is trying to teach you.

also then to appreciate what you do have here today and like and then Donald died and I swear to God the next two days straight I smoke cigarettes for sure because what else you're going to do but after that cold turkey no cigarettes I don't smoke you've been smoking splits though I've been smoking spliffs but you got to think I'm smoking like really high quality tobacco with weed versus smoking like cigarettes yeah you're right like that is a better option a pack to three packs a day that's not good yeah it's fucking and i say a pack is like kind of normal but three packs is like one of my gambling like when i lost all that money and made all that money i probably smoked like like the day i lost that money and made the money like 24 hours

i probably smoked four or five pack and that was happening a lot and you got think i'm also like that's off stream i was i'm also sponsored by rubet and i was doing 30 hours a month minimum and you gotta think i was smoking cigarettes the entire 30 hours streaming too so in my head i'm like don i got to quit because the way i'm smoking like this could definitely this could do this could kill me yeah the way i'm supposed so maybe donald saved my life there you i swear i got i was literally would smoke smoke the entire time i gambled for the most part like you have brakes like for me like putting out my cigarette and choosing a different slot and spinning for a little but it was like I put out my cigarette I went to a different slot I'm spinning for a

little and I'm going to grab another cigarette like pretty fast so for me to stop that was huge yeah because I was aggressively smoking I'm proud of you though man that's what it takes a word the worst kind of shit yeah and then and then that game came out at the same time which is good and yeah i think everything's good right now yeah like i'm literally like just so focused on health and fitness and now i'm like playing video games every day which sounds like a fucking loser thing but to me i want i want to play video games every day yeah it's very good for me if i can one day stream and stuff play video games yeah i would love that and playing guitar every day those are things that i've always wanted to do yeah and that i'm doing right now i'm just missing the content side

and the creative side but for me right now playing working out like crazy and being super healthy and being so into video games and guitars all three things i really needed and now i just need like the content and creative side and then I'll be good um but yeah sounds crazy to say that video games are that there's something i really wanted to find again love for but it is true and i did find that recently and it's a good thing for me even though it sounds to people like how could be i don't know i get it i hear what you're saying i mean it's good for me i think so it depends where you come from like my whole my whole childhood was me playing video games and working out but me playing video games four hours straight is so good for me because it's it's healthy for me personally why do you

think that because the amount of practicing guitar i do and the working out shit no but because you're just like an extreme individual like you add these layers to things that you're doing you go if i'm going to do this i'm going to do this right yeah like if i'm playing video i swear i'm getting my shit in and then whatever muscle group I worked out that day is like I'm finishing up like my legs are we're not sore from squatting they were sore from doing or squatting at the gym they're sore from fucking squatting in between every single game for three hours straight it's kind of funny why you why do you think you need those things for you to I'm a psychopath yeah I think that's why whatever fuck it yeah like right now we're about to i have to go to play video games with you i know i know it's

isn't it funny that feeling like where you're hyped to do it i'm hyped to do it yeah i love streaming i love playing the video game man i wish i was better with chat i'm just like i get so locked in i can't you know so tough man that was always dream and vision i had was being jacked and streaming like playing video games and being ripped and kind of i went to a different path as in uh kyle nilk boys drinking here all that kind of like but that was like kind of the initial vision was the video game streaming and stuff being jacked kind of initial vision on social media yeah and then you know of course knelk boys and kyle changed my life forever i went to a different path thank god for that right yeah but that was like one of the initial thoughts was

being jacked and playing video games because I'll never forget this. Dude, this is great. Like I, when zombies, there's new maps came out on zombies, this is another 9-11. I'll never forget. I swear to God, I was on round like 70-something and I was going to be the world record holder on this map.

I wasn't cheating, nothing. And my mom came in, and unplugged the printer cord. Oh my God. The printer cord. That was to my HTTPVR. I was recording it, recording the whole thing. And it disconnected.

And I lost that game. And then after it ruined me. I cheated to get and posted a video like I got to that level as I did the glitch. But I didn't do. I wasn't cheating. doing the glitch when i was like when i was on round 70 something and i was going to break the record i was going to beat syndicates record that was the whole thing yeah and then um but yeah that's why when you see these stories of people like i don't know like son murder suicides family there

needs to be context because because imagine if i whacked my my mom that day. Person, blank, kills mom, blank, right? Right. Bad. Yeah, bad. But son kills mother after she unplugs his Xbox at round 75 on zombies. And he was going to, he was going to blow up on YouTube.

No, but you read that as a card player. You're like, uh, you're like, should control your anger, but I get it. Right? for real you see somebody whacked their mom because they took off they unplugged their computer and they're around 70 something on zombies as a gamer you don't agree with it but you feel them yeah yeah like for real bro i can't believe it why would she do that what was she doing and she was on the phone just comes in on the phone yeah un plugs it the disrespect it's funny similar in that being jackton playing video games that was my entire life when i was a kid i was thinking like

how do i how do i find a way to make money but be able to play games whenever i was so in there i remember being like sick from school but fake sick and then my mom would take the cord and i'd say i'm killing myself i swear to god i've i've threatened suicide because of video games more than once you know that's insane i swear to god i believe you i said i'm killing myself they're at work what they're gonna do tell me where that cord's hidden right well i know because i know your mom is so much more funny to me what is her reaction when you say that to her i don't remember i just remember i have said i was going to kill myself yeah over the cord the infamous cord but you realize later in life that chord was like a universal chord for anything you know what i'm talking about yeah you can get

anywhere but could just took it out of something else and put it in yeah and anything yeah wow well now you don't got to kill yourself you're good you got a purpose now it seems like seems like it seems like you have more purpose now than than before than ever really yeah with the donald stuff that's beautiful as much as it sucks it's a good thing in the long run no it changed my life for real and it was like like right now i'm just okay it's been a month yeah and for the the first two weeks was the worst thing ever in my life and then for the next nine days after that my face was so swollen to where it switched from like me being so sad about donald to be like am i gonna join donald like yeah because you had some weird shit going on bro it was crazy my face and every single

day i'd wake up and my it would move to a different spot in my face so so that's got to be also stress related yeah so so for two weeks I couldn't and not

after the two weeks I was it's not like I didn't care about Donald or whatever but it was like I was like a little more concerned I was like I'm dying and I remember when I finally got fixed and my face was fixed then I just went back to being sad about Donald yeah and then right now

I'm like doing, uh, I'm doing okay, definitely way better, but it's just, it's just the thing where it's like, it goes in waves, man. I was just like, I'm just not going to let them down as far as as like, I'm not going to pick up the cigarettes again. Of course I'm going to smoke if I'm going to gamble, uh, like in real life where I'll smoke times, but I'm not going to be a cigarette smoker like i'll i'm not afraid to kill a pack of cigarettes if i'm gambling with toge but i'm not gonna wake up in the morning and have a cigarette with coffee yeah that's and trash and smoke cigarettes while i stream and smoke after you eat smoke before you do this smoke after you do this because that's what it is that's what smoking turns it's like you're smoking before you do something

and after you do something. And it's just excessive, especially for someone that gambles, like how I do as a job, too. So I'm going to do that. And the charity is going to be big, as in it's going to make an impact on a lot of people.

And all because of Donald, like I don't care about people to think about me. I want people to think about me. I want people to think, my life is better my kids life better my my financial situation with my dog's better because of don't know he's going to get prayers and whatever and so i don't know i don't even know what the fuck i believe in or whatever but all i knows is that he's going to be getting mad energy yeah and positives from people yeah that makes sense like there's going to be people that his life he

changed his lives without him even knowing yeah that's beautiful man project thank you for coming today for real too you're welcome i know it's because we're video game buddies but thank you only because we're playing video games thank you it's funny like going not going to dana white shit not going to bird's paw not tim dillans it's because we're video game homies that's real bro yeah that's real god yeah that's perfect i'm gonna go i have uh yeah i'm gonna leave and I'm getting on right now. I'm going to have a jet waiting for me, a Honda jet, the Japanese, man.

Perfect. They're the best. I'll be on. I'm on, uh, yeah, I'll be, anyways, though, listen, I wish I could get, I wish I could, I wish I was better at promoting my Twitch, man. I'm not good at promoting it. I stream like every day.

You play video games. Yeah, it's different. It's different. Yeah. Yeah, whatever. Every Tuesday, I love you guys. See you guys next time. Thanks for coming.

These guys, Tim, the Tap, man, and people, They have crazy audience. Yeah, yeah. Nuts. Like 14, 15. During it. God bless them, dude.

I don't get how they do it. I think they're just good at it. Because I can't do the balancing. I'm too locked in. I'm too, like, zoned in. They lock in and talk shit. They're good.

Dude. It's a talent. That's a real talent. Such a good job. Like, I look at Tim to Tapman, and I'm like, dude,

this guy's awesome. Yeah, he's crushing rivals right now. He just has a good job. just plays video game I want to figure it out I'm going to figure it out like he makes so much money I bet yeah I look at his YouTube post

every day long videos yeah 100,000 200,000 300 whatever it is yeah God bless me I love I love the video shout out to him I DMed him said I want to play rivals with him I want to play a game with him

East cool all right Radi I love you guys every Tuesday um you're getting on I'll see you on Yeah, I'm gonna be on. Be on right now.