REAL AF with Andy Frisella - 128. Heavy To Modified Ft. Anthony Lopez

Episode Date: August 7, 2021

The reason where you are in life is because of you and nobody else. On today’s episode, Andy is joined by Anthony Lopez, who has lost over 350 pounds, as they dissect the mentality of winners who create real long-term change in their lives, how owning up to your actions in life can speed up your progress and how anything is possible if you give it your all. LINKS MENTIONED IN THIS EPISODE: Book Andy to Be on Your Podcast Follow Andy on Instagram Follow Andy on Facebook Take complete control of your life - 75 HARD Get my raw & uncensored advice about success & life delivered to you daily!

What is up guys, it's Andy Purcella and this is the show for the realest, say goodbye to the lies, the fakeness and delusions of modern society. Welcome to motherfucking reality. Guys, today I've got a really cool show planned for you guys. Actually, there was no plan for the show. I completely made that shit up. The way this show came about was very interesting, and I want to lay that out real quick for you. Yesterday, I was in the locker room, and one of the things that makes what we do here at First Form so amazing is that we are constantly having visitors come in from all different areas of the world who have had tremendous success at changing their lives completely. And yesterday, I was in a locker room and we had one of what I think the most inspirational dudes I met, one of the coolest dudes I met. We started talking and

finally I stopped him and I said, hey dude, let's stop talking. Let's just have this conversation because I think it'll benefit a whole lot of people. And if you're one of these people right now who are struggling with who you are and what you're about, you're facing criticism, you're facing obstacles, you're trying to change your body and your mind and your life, and you're looking at the mountain and it seems too big to climb. All right. This is a show that you're going to want to listen to and listen close. I have my new friend, Anthony Lopez here. What's up, brother? What's up, brother, man? How's it going?

Good, good, man. Dude. So just a little background on Anthony. I'll let him say it. Tell everybody where you're from. I'm from Orange County, California and born and raised. And I was over 600 pounds. Over 600 pounds. And what are you at now? 260. 260 pounds. So what's your total weight loss? I'm horrible at math. I don't know. Me too. I think that's why I asked. I put it on you. Like 230, 235. I don't know. All right. So dude, hundreds of pounds that you've worked off of your body. Yeah. Let's talk about this for a minute, dude, because right now we're dealing with, uh, you know, a pandemic. Um, we're dealing with health. We're dealing with a lot of things

that people never really thought would happen. Yeah. And they're happening. Yeah. And, um, you made the decision to get healthy before this actually came about. Yeah. And, um, because there's so many people right now that are the COVID-20. Yeah, bro. Yeah. It's the COVID-20, but also people who have struggled with their weight their entire lives. They're now starting to understand like, hey, man, this isn't a joke. No, it's not. It's nothing. It's serious, man. It's like people are stuck at home doing nothing, doing a lot of reflecting. Yeah. And now you have to look at a body that you built for yourself whether it be you know overweight or be you know in shape and you know nothing's nothing's worse than looking

at yourself and realizing that you messed up yeah i mean it's it's it's a crappy feeling and we're pretty sure we're gonna get into that yeah but you know it's such a negative time right now people are you know diving in deep and looking at their self and they're seeing like, damn, I got to fix this. Yeah. I mean, I've seen people in over a year. Yeah. I mean, so next time they see their, you know, X or their whatever it is, they're like, damn, I put on 25 pounds. You know, I want to be seen like this. Yeah. So, yeah, I think, dude, that could be 50. It could be 100. It could be somebody like you who's been overweight their entire life. And they're like just saying, hey, dude.

All right. It's time for me to take care of this. Yeah. Just don't let it get to over 600. Yeah. So let's talk about that. Let's start there. I mean, tell me a little bit about how you came up and how you got to be 600 pounds.

Man. So I how I came up was I'm Mexican and black. All we do. Good times, bad times, happy, sad birthdays, whatever. It's eating, man. All it is is eating. And I wasn't taught correct portion control. I wasn't taught, you know, nutrition. My mom, you know, she had me and my brothers and sisters. I'm the oldest. And, you know, the easiest thing is fast food. You know what I mean? That's just the easiest thing. Everyone knows that, you know, you get off a long day of work. You're not trying to go to the

gym. You're not trying to cook. You're trying to get some food for the kids and go home, watch some TV, go to sleep and redo it again so i mean i was eating and i was like you know i think i was like four years old with like a big ass freaking chicken bone in my hand from knott's berry farm you know and everyone thought was the cutest thing in the world but they weren't they didn't know that that was going to lead into years of you know bad relationship with food yeah on top of that a lot of confidence you know so when i was raised uh i would my family's type of family where it's like, oh, he's taking stuff apart.

He's breaking stuff. Like he's going to be an engineer. You know what I mean? And they, they raised me with confidence. They raised me knowing that I, you know, to have self-worth and to know I could do anything I want to do if I want to do it. And if I'm going to work for it, that's how my, my grandpa, my grandma, my mom, my dad, that's how they raised me, you know?

And just, I believe there's such thing as too much confidence because, you know, no one really told me the truth of like, hey, your weight's scaring me. And by the time I did get told my weight was scaring me, I was already like, you know, 15 years into like this savage eating, you know what I mean? I play sports, don't get me wrong, but I was just eating. I like food, bro. Pizza and chicken wings. It's like, yeah, apple juice, you know what I mean?

Like it's it. That's how we connected guys yeah so we walked in and anthony was in the locker room and they had the the guys here had put some apple juice in his locker because that's one of his his favorite things and i saw that apple juice i knew we were instant bros yeah no hands down like i was like look at i was like i'm gonna fail right now and i'm okay with this like i'm about to drink this apple juice you know i mean and that's it's just you know years of not knowing what it was really doing in my body. Like it's not that I couldn't have apple juice, but I was like buying apple juice and it was gone

by the, by like sometimes before we got home, I'll knock out a thousand grams, a thousand calories. Oh, easy, easy. So, you know what I mean? It just, and that's just all, you know, and I don't, and then while I'm talking about this, I want to say, I don't blame my mom. I don't blame my dad. I don't blame anyone in my family because it's not's like a certain point where it's up to me to realize you know what nutrition is stuff like that but you know hopefully someone hears this story and like maybe their mom maybe their dad maybe their grandma or grandpa and they're like oh shoot we're kind of doing this to our grandkid or to our son and they'll realize that you know bc does start at home and maybe this story will be able to help them even to like maybe they're not the ones overweight but they have an

overweight kid yeah i mean because you don't want to you don't want them to live the life i did and i don't regret, but they have an overweight kid. You know what I mean? Because you don't want to, you don't want them to live the life I did. And I don't regret the life I've lived and I don't regret anything I've done. And I don't regret getting a 600 pounds as crazy as it sounds, but it's definitely, it's, it's something that like, you know, it made you who I am. You know what I mean? And, but, you know, some people like said, maybe are not raised with that confidence that I have that I was allowed to deal with the bullying and the jokes that were made fun of me. And maybe some people can't, you know, so we can stop at it right now when they're at a young age and why not?

Yeah, I agree with that. You know, the thing is about the food. I was thinking about this because, dude, when I was a kid, you know, I was always the fat kid. Yeah. Like I was I wasn't like like I got bullied my whole life for being fucking fat. You know, I was the fat dude. Yeah.

So like. And I was the same, you know, we, our family was very much so celebratory. You know, when you celebrate, you eat. When you're sad, you eat. That's it. When you get together, you eat. And we're an Italian family. So it's like a lot of drinking with that.

You know what I mean? Carbs. Yeah, bro. And so. Talk to me dirty, man. Yeah, dude, I know, dude, I'm sitting here revisiting all my old, my, my old self, but man, it's the truth. And, uh, one of the things I remember my parents saying to me was, you know, eat, eat, eat all your food. So you can be big and strong. I remember that man. Like, and I took that shit serious.

You got big, you got big and now big now you're strong well mine was like my main thing is that i always hear and i cringe uh when i'm at even when i'm at restaurants or stuff like that the parents like you need to eat all your food because your kids out there starving like don't tell them that like i heard that too i hear that i'm just like look at these pictures of me this is what that does to you you know you're like oh my mom said eat it all all this and i'm eating her plate too because there's kids starving, you know? Yeah. And I understand that comes from a place of love. But dude, also, I would say in defense of our parents. That's how they were raised.

Correct. And so, you know, you have to think of the societal introductions of change that happened during their lifetime. Right. Like they went from, you know, family dinners like they do, you know, pretty much. And then all of a sudden we had fast food start. Right. And so there was no cultural adjustment for what we were doing to our bodies. And really what I'm getting at is, you know, fuck, dude, they didn't know.

That shit was new. Well, food's so easy to get now. Yeah. But like we don't know. We didn't know in in the 80s and 90s uh in early 2000s we we didn't really know how bad the shit was and i'm not making excuses for people but it's it's taken 40 years 50 years for people to understand that you know yes fast food is is what it is right it's not how you're supposed to sustain

your life no not not at all yeah it's easy let's go fast food for a reason and we just fall into that trap of like oh i don't have time let me go get fast food yeah that's monday and then tuesday maybe you make something but it's like from a box you know i mean it's like it's just as bad as fast food preservatives and then two or wednesday comes along you're like oh i'm busy again here's fast food again so now you're already three days of eating fast food yeah you know I mean like it's just it's something that's how that's that's how that cycle works it's a crazy cycle and I got to a point where like I was going to get fast food for me and my boys but I had the you know I had the snacks on the way home I had the burger for the ride home you know so I had a full meal before I went to have a full

meal did you ever do the I how many how many fast food places did you ever go on one run? On one run? Like between just myself? No, I'm just saying like, I used to do this thing when I was heavy where I'd like go through Wendy's and get some shit from Wendy's

and then I would go through this other place and get some shit from, let's say McDonald's. Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah. I did the Taco Bell and Del Taco. So I like the Del Taco gets to the end

and I go to Taco Bell for the Mexican pizza, but I get two of them and stack them on top. That's what I'm saying. That's what I did. Yeah, and Del Taco. So I like the Del Taco gets to the end. And I go to Taco Bell for the Mexican pizza. But I get two of them and stack them on top. That's what I'm saying. That's what I did. Yeah, man. It was, it's. Dude.

Man, make me happy right now. Bro, we're connecting here. Yeah. No, it's just, it's what it is. We enjoy eating, man. And it's something that, you know, it took over my life. And I didn't even realize what it was doing to me until, you know, until I had to reflect. I had to look in the mirror and look at myself at over 600 pounds and be like, what the fuck did I just do?

And I just, you know. When was that moment? So I so I gained over 100 pounds in nine months. My grandpa got sick with cancer and I stopped working. I let my credit go to shit and I didn't care because I knew that I wasn't going to be able to make new memories. But I was able to be there to make sure that he was comfortable. I mean, so I did everything the hospice did. He didn't want doctors and nurses to be showering and stuff like that.

He had pride. So I did it. I was hanging out with them and we I took care of him. And while he went through the stage of cancer, but I didn't drink, I didn't smoke. So, dude, I'm talking about seven to like eight to nine thousand calories. People come in with breakfast, lunch and, and second lunch, second dinner, second breakfast, throughout the whole day, bringing food. I was depressed. I was doing stuff for my grandpa that I didn't want to have to do. And I was eating, bro, I was eating and I

gained a lot of weight. So obviously, you know, that was my crutch. You know what I mean? That was my drug. That was, it was easy to go warm up some tacos from last night or order some food or go eat McDonald's. Our food was brought into us because, you know, no one knew what to do. We're all sad. We just like, here, eat. Yeah. You get that instant. Yeah.

That five minutes of feeling good. Yeah. And that's all it lasted. It got to the point where it's like I was just eating just to eat. I wasn't even happy anymore. So after he passed away, I continued to live with my grandma because just as my grandpa's gone, doesn't mean that everything's back to normal. Now my grandma is living by herself when she wasn't used to that.

So I stayed with her and I and we would every single day, bro. McDonald's, number one, two sausage, egg McMuffins, extra hash brown, large orange juice. That's like twenty six hundred calories right there. Started off my day with. That's how you start. That's how I started it. Yeah. Hundred percent.

It's how I started. You know, if my grandma didn't finish her food, well, garbage her food well garbage now now that's probably a full day of calories for you yeah i'm at like 25 right now 2500 calories yeah i mean yeah so it's just like yeah that's what i was doing man i was i was beat so after being at my grandma's house at four in total you know for my grandpa got sick until i got home it was about nine to ten months and i got home and i we have like this big old mirror and i looked at it and i was like depressed and I've never been depressed in my life, man. I'm telling you, I grew up with confidence and that's what I had. I had confidence, but I literally had to Google my feelings to know what the hell I was feeling. And Google told me I was depressed. I had depression. It's like,

well, I know I don't have depression. I'm just going through a shitty time in my life right now. And for like three days, dude, I was, I was, I was mentally beat. Like, you know what I mean? I was, uh, I was beat. I was beat up I was at all-time low from my weight to losing my best friend to just everything is just on my shoulders and I just like you know I even had like some suicidal thoughts that like you know I don't think I would have went through with it but they were there and it was dude I was fighting my demons for three days man my girlfriend my grandma were like you were there but you weren't there like we would talk to you but we just like see right through you and i just i was beat up man i never been to this before and i didn't know like not only did i have to go through losing my best friend i have to now figure

out what the hell i'm gonna do in my own life because just because my grandpa's gone doesn't mean that my life stops you know i mean and i've just dug such a big ass hole where i'm like either i get it done now or i just die and that's just pretty much it there's no and we i didn't know about covid at this time yeah you know what i mean so i was just like you know timing for you yeah it was a blessing man because if you were 600 pounds and caught that shit man i wouldn't be with you right now tell you now so i look i just went through like the three days of just like completely just fucking beat up bro and one day i just woke up and i was like i gotta fucking snap out of this this is not me this is not how my grandpa wanted me to be

This is not how I was raised I was like I'm feeling bad for myself and I caused this shit Bro you know what's weird man Is like sitting here talking to you And hearing you and just hearing your voice And hearing your enthusiasm and your tone And just being around you the last day or so Just a little bit that I have

It's crazy to me That you were that big Like you don't sound or feel or talk or speak like someone that was that big. No, at all. Like you're a fucking champion, dude. Thank you, man. No, for real. And like, so like, I really want to dig into this story because dude, I'm with him. Yeah. We have so many people out there that, that are, we're in the position that you were in, right? Like on that first day you're, you're coming out there that, that are, we're in the position that you were in, right? Yeah.

Like on that first day you're, you're coming out of this, this, you know, massive weight gain. You already were heavy. I was already heavy. Yeah.

Top of that. You know what I mean? And so now you've created this fucking mountain and you're like, fuck. Yeah. I got to climb this motherfucker. My 600 pound scale said error. Yeah.

Like imagine a 600 pound scale. Like I didn't think, I know about the first couple, the first month imagine a 600 pound scale like i didn't think tell them about the first couple the first month or so on the scale i didn't even say anything it said error the scale said error so it took about a month for her to say 5 598 so that's why i i as my weight loss progressed and i started getting the traction and i noticed that i was motivating people i don't give a number because i you know i don't i just i don't know the number yeah so you already know oh it could have been five it could have been six six thirty i could be six ten i could be six seventy for sure because the first month i mean over 600 pound you could lose 50 pounds so i don't know what i was but i was well over 600 yeah i mean and uh yeah i just i

had to get dude i had to get together like and i always ask you like what was your motivation like i didn't want my how selfish would i've been for my after my we just buried my grandpa for my mom my grandma and my whole family to bury me next because i chose to put food in front of you know my life yeah you know me my grandma just lost his life and didn't have a chance yeah i have a chance yeah and i'm so much younger so you think that maybe that's what triggered you into action a hundred percent my grandpa taught me a lesson before he left straight up. Yeah. I mean, that, that was it. He taught me more lessons than, uh, than I realized at the time. And now looking back and reflecting on it, I mean, there's a lot that I learned. It's weird when you go from, when you,

when you transition from, I want to look like everybody else or just be in, you know, like when I was, when I was heavy and I would think of, the weight in terms of I want to look a certain way, that would last for a couple of days or maybe even a week or two. But when I started understanding that it was an obligation to the people around me to be my best. Yeah. And that I wasn't a fucking bitch and that food and that drink was not going to control my life. Things, it changed for me. Like a light switch. Yeah, it became a battle

between me and the fucking food yeah do you feel that way yeah well i've i think we talked a little about it yesterday we're both past that stage before a while it was like do you ever get mad at people for offering me a hangout with me like i've lost a lot of friends through this and i've kept some of the greatest greatest friends around i've like used to get invited everywhere all the time i do you with everyone's like you have a lot of followers you have this people want to hang out with you but actual people that i know and i would hang out with i don't get hit up anymore yeah you know because i everyone already knows i'm going to say no you're on the path i'm in the gym i'm on attack i'm bettering myself i'm becoming the best

version of myself in order to do that i need to be selfish and it's either you're on board with me you're going to support it or you're not and i don't have time for you right now yeah well you're on the path it's it man it's like not everybody's on the path no and you're going to support it or you're not. And I don't have time for you right now. Yeah. Well, you're on the path. It's it. Not everybody's on the path. No. And that's okay. That's one thing I always talk about on my social media is like, stop looking for other people to support you. I mean, you need to support yourself and that's it. If you don't support yourself, then you're not going to make it. You need to like love yourself. You need to be able to go shopping by yourself. You need me to go to the gym by yourself. You go to movies by yourself. You need to, you need to do everything. No, you could do everything by

yourself before you could bring someone along with it. Because if you're not there and supporting yourself and your hard work and you're not, you know, congratulating yourself for your hard work and dedication, then how's anyone else going to support it? How's anyone else going to be? That's such an interesting point, bro. Like, I think as humans, this is off the topic of weight loss, but I think as humans, we tend to try and fill the holes within ourselves with other relationships 100 yeah and we look for their their their appraisal we look for it like when you do something good you're like anyone see that yeah you want to see that but it's like i hope i hope

that i ranked high enough in their worth category like bro fuck that who cares yeah that's right why do you want appraisal from someone that isn't even bearing their own self? When we start when we start looking at ourselves and realizing that we are the measure of our own worth and what we think is what's important, not what the world thinks. That's when shit changes. That's when your life. Yeah. When you know your self-worth, that's when your life changes. Did you go through a transition period where it was like you you had to figure that out or did it just click? I DM'd you. I DM'd you that day. I was like, bro, figure that out or did it just click? I DM'd you that day. I was like, bro, I just got out of the fucking gym and I was crying. Yeah.

I mean, like I DM'd you that. That was that like moment where I looked at the pictures and I just like, I think it was like an hour and like 52 minute workout. Tell me about that first day. That first day at the gym? Yes. Bro, I was tired in like 10 minutes. I kept going, but I was doing wall pushups. I was doing knee pushups. I was doing just a lot of body weight stuff. I wasn't even creating kettlebell, kettlebell stuff. There wasn't a lot that I could do. And I try to do like the boxing classes, but I wasn't lasting that long, but I was doing something, you know? And, and the whole time I remember just feeling that like I had a million

eyes on me and I felt like people were making fun of me. And maybe they were, maybe they weren't. But I was just in that mindset of just like this sucks. Like this really sucks. And who am I going to blame but myself? Like this one of those things is like nothing harder than to blame yourself for your fuck ups. There's nothing harder to really sit down and look in the mirror and say a spoon didn't do this. Fast food didn't do this. A fork didn't do this. I did this. this a fork didn't do this i did this so that's hard already and now i'm working out in front of these people and there's girls in there and there's guys in there and i'm over here trying to do sit-ups and feel like i'm about to freaking have

a cram chem and get up you know i mean yeah but like everything that was given i i couldn't really do it so i was doing like this half-assed job and it made me even more embarrassed exactly and then you're trying to get off the ground at being over 600 pounds and you feel like, you know what I mean? It's just one of those things that I remember that it was probably the shittiest day of my life, but it was the best day of my life because that was the day that I started getting my life back together. Dude, do you ever think back about how

fucking tough that version of you was to go do this? You know what I'm saying? At the time, I didn't realize it because I felt so disappointed in myself, but as I started posting up the time I I didn't I didn't realize it because I felt like so like disappointed in myself but when like as I started posting up like um the videos people were like I don't even go to the gym and I'm 30 pounds overweight like how were you in there you know and at the time I just knew I had I I knew I had a goal and I had to just get it done so I wasn't thinking but now reflecting back on all that stuff like I do like that's crazy because I don't even

know like now like sometimes I walk in like gyms like i was just at the gym with a whole bunch of like bodybuilders there i'm like what the hell am i doing in here like you know what i mean and i felt i don't know bro you're starting to look pretty jacked man thank you yeah thank you thank you i'm not sure if you paid everyone around here to tell me this no like you've been telling me this i told you this dude like your fucking arms and shoulders and i mean bro, bro, you're looking three hours a day, man. Just like, just giving it all I have, man. I've been lazy for so long, dude. I just, I'm just giving it all I have. That was funny when you said that yesterday. So yesterday I said to Anthony, we were talking about rest days and training and all these things. And we were talking about how

people will always tell you when you're on the path of trying to improve yourself, whether this be in business or with your body or with whatever it is you're working on, they're going to do, and they do this out of love, right? Like, bro, listen, I understand you want this, but you're, you, you got to take a break once in a while. I hate that. I get so mad. I took a break for 30 years, 30 years i got to eat what i want i got to do what i want i got to drink as much as i want i got to live the life that i wanted for 30 years cheat day bro 30 day i had a 30 year bulking season you know what i mean and like i don't want anymore people are like oh you can do this workout it's easier i see you're struggling i'm like no

i don't want to the easy way out i want to struggle and I'm going to keep doing it. Like I'll try and do a pull up. A lot of people like, oh, you're too heavy right now. I weigh 140 pounds and I still can do a pull up. I'm like, well, that's you. Yeah. It took me three months to get a pull up down, but now I'm knocking them out like crazy. That's fucking awesome.

You know what I mean? I think I did my first pull up at 270 or 80 pounds. That's what I'm saying, bro. You've got a shit ton of muscle. Yeah. I love it. Yeah. But you know what I mean? It's like, I don't want the easy way out anymore. Like I don't,

I don't need the easy way out. I don't need anyone to, to feed me all this BS. Like I need the truth. I got, you know, I got fed love and all that BS before and it didn't do nothing, but it allowed me to be way overweight. And, and I don't like that. Let's talk about that for a second. You're hitting on something that's really my passion, bro. This body positivity shit that, that, that they, that's being pushed around. How, what's your thoughts on that? Look, it, my definition of body, body positivity is loving yourself enough to fix a problem you cause. That is what my body positivity is. Now there's going to be people out there that are going to agree and going to disagree. Body positivity is love yourself for who you are. And that's fine. You could love yourself, but wanting to change yourself. You know,

I love myself every day, but I still look in the mirror and I'm like, I want to change this. I need, I want bigger arms. I need to continue losing this weight. When I was 600 pounds, I love myself, but I was overweight. It was unhealthy. I was at, I was on a road to failure to death. You mean? So yeah, body positivity is great, but you still, there's still things you need to fix because you love yourself. Doesn't mean, okay, I love myself. And if you don't love me for that,

then you're against me. No, it's because they want to see you do better. Yeah. You know what I mean? It's so that's my body positivity. I agree, bro.

I listen, you got to love yourself enough to fix what the fuck is going on that you're truly upset about. My issue with this body positivity is that it's highly marketed. It's highly pushed and the message that is pushed is you're exactly how you should be and if you do anything else then there's something wrong with you and motherfucker that's just not true people we have to call ourselves like you talk about uh taking the day you said hey this is my fault

that's real growth dude like that's the shit like, that is the whole reason we are in this situation that we are fucking in right now is that people will not take responsibility for their own fucking actions in their own life. They want to blame everything else on everybody else. You know, it's, it's, it's this, it's that, it's this, it's this, it's this. And like, dude, the truth is it's always us. It is. It's always us. It's, it's, and that's always, that's what i always say it's like blame yourself yeah blame other people like oh i want to go to the gym but i don't have time well don't make the time don't don't look for a perfect day make the time and

it doesn't make you a bad person dude like that's what you guys got to understand just because you've got your like just because you've gotten yourself to a point that you're like let's say embarrassed or ashamed of or not proud of does not mean you're a bad person. It means you haven't been doing what you know you should do. It means you have things you have to fix. That's right. And if you have love for yourself for real, you will do those things, you know? And dude, you guys have to understand, dude, this is this mentality that Anthony's talking about, where we talk about loving ourselves and accepting ourselves. Bro, let me ask you a real question. If you stood in front of the mirror when you were 600 pounds and you affirmed every day, I love myself. I love myself. I love myself. I love

myself. I love myself. I'm perfect. I'm perfect. I'm perfect the way I am. Blah, blah, blah. Would you have ever believed it? No. At the end of the day, no overweight person is going, is happy with where they are. I don't care. I'm telling you. And I'm speaking like when I see these people, like I'm fat and I love it. I'm like, no, you don't. I'm like, Oh, I'm, I'm big and I don't care because I suppose a lie because at the end of the day, when you go home and there's that one girl that you liked that she doesn't like you because you're a way or that one guy doesn't like you because your weight, it goes and affects you. When someone makes that joke about, oh, you're going to eat that much and you laugh it off. You go home and you feel it. Yeah. And I'm talking about from

experience now, unless I'm the one off person. No, you're not. Then listen, no one is. You and I are both in this industry now. And I talked to fucking thousands of people over the course of a 12 month period. Every single one who has done the work says the same exact stuff that you were saying that I'm saying. Not happy. You can't fool me, dude. I've been fat. You can't BS or BS her, man. Straight up. I know it. Like I was, I did love myself, but man, there was so many times where someone said a joke on my laugh and I go home. I'm like, damn, my heart hurts. Like that sucks. Cause it's true. And nothing hurts more than the truth. That's it. And that's, and that's why every time we bring up by whatever people bring my weight i would get

defensive so dude talk about this man like how about the bullying that you get when you're overweight people because people don't understand especially in elementary school bro oh fuck kids are ruthless kids are ruthless yeah the kids are ruthless now you just see some of the comments i laugh at him because i'm like oh this kid just went in on me. But, you know, it's one of those things where it sucks. You know what I mean? It sucks being bullied. It sucks people making fun of you. It sucks when people give you a nickname Nutty as a short for Nutty Professor.

But, you know, once again, it comes to that thing where I didn't show, I didn't let them know it hurt me at school. You know what they call me in school, dude? Yeah. What was your nickname? Fucking Snaggletooth. Snaggletooth? Yeah, because I have fucked up teeth, bro. Damn look at you now though yeah yeah that's what i say that's hollywood yeah yeah yeah i went and bought those motherfuckers i got a smile for miles now i don't give a fuck no no it's in it and it's that i will get on that

too that's a good feeling because now i have a better body than you know 90 of these people that are making fun of me but that's for that's for a week we'll talk about that later but you know in elementary school they didn't make fun of me and like it sucked because like I couldn't even sit like in like like fifth grade sixth grade I couldn't even fit in like the seat I was a fat boy those things were small you know what I mean and it got worse going through junior high into high school you know what I mean so people laugh at that I remember one time like I got up my ass got stuck in the seat so I kind of like lifted the seat a little bit I'm like yeah I'm gonna be single the rest of my life i was like no this did not just happen right now yeah you know i mean it's a crappy situation um but i didn't let people know

and that's why i always i speak so proudly when i say i speak and i know that you're not happy when you're overweight because you hear this stuff people make fun of you you laugh it off and you announce yourself as a fat person oh yeah i'm the fat friend haha but it really eats you every single day yeah you're hiding behind you're hiding behind it and dude that's another problem with that body positivity shit because i fucking know i know how you truly feel yeah i know yeah and dude it's okay it's okay to feel that way and here's what people like that have to understand, brother. That first day that you went and did that workout, you mustered up all the shit inside you

that had been fucking in there for years and years and years. Yeah. And bro, I'm telling you right now, to anybody listening, that first day, you are the baddest ass motherfucker for making that step yeah and it gets easier after that as long as you just keep showing up yeah like the feeling gets easier not the workout you have to be really proud of yourself dude think about this bro like i i

went through this realization myself like i was looking back at myself when i was fat and i was like fuck dude what a fucking bitch like how big of a bitch was that dude and like I kind of like look at myself in versions of myself where you know almost like like the now version versus that version and I'm like I would fucking destroy that dude and that dude was already doing well yeah you know what I'm saying so like when but then I but then I and I talked about this on the show a couple weeks ago then I started really thinking about it and I'm like wait that guy who was really fat did a lot of hard shit bro that's a lot easier for you now yeah and he did it every day for a long time actually that dude was pretty badass well like we're talking about that because over 600 pounds people are like well what did you do

yeah what did you do I'm like well I wasn't the people in my 600 pound life I was at you know SEMA holding camera equipment rigs and doing 17 you were active i was sweating my ass off but i did it and i never complained about it i just how am i gonna complain about something that it was my fault yeah i don't have thyroid problems i don't have any type of thing where i can't lose weight or i it was my fault i love food so you know what i mean so i was moving i was active but i was just out eating i was out eating my movement but you'll never hear me complain at over 600 pounds you just said it that's what everybody does we out eat our movement yeah we out eat our movement if you could just figure that out yeah that your whole life will change yeah my life has changed it's like you

know i mean like i i share my story and i let like let people in on this like embarrassing moments and these hard times and talking about my grandpa and talking let like let people in on this like embarrassing moments and these hard times and talking about my grandpa and talking about this stuff so they don't have to follow my footsteps because it's a it's a shitty situation you mean I've lost weight so many times I've lost it's not my first time man I remember like uh back I don't remember the years but I'm gonna just you know go scroll my Instagram and they'll see it my whole life is on Instagram yeah and not just the first weight loss not just second weight loss I mean it's there and like i remember losing like 150 like 200 pounds i call kaiser and they're like look it you're denied for your skin removal surgery because you didn't get the gastric

whatever the bypass i was like i have extra skin i'm like in my 20s like i worked my ass off and it was a downhill spiral from there and that's why i got bigger yeah and then like you felt hopeless yeah you know i mean and i regret doing that it's a cop out but you know no no no i did that whole my whole life in my 20s i've been losing well name i'm saying for my 20s i've been like trying to lose weight and i've been gaining and losing and gaining it's like just fix it now you mean because it's a crappy situation you know going through you know have to have surgery then ruining it and then you know uh now i'm gonna have to have skin removal surgeries and then you know, going through, you know, have to have surgery and then ruining it. And then, you know, now I have to have skin removal surgeries. And then, you know, that's the cost that costs money to, you know, like it's just it's not a life that you really want to live.

And if you're already there, I'm posting on my my story and everything I've done to get to where I'm at to show you that it's possible. But it's going to take a lot of hard work. So start now. So let me ask you this, because I tell people this all the time and I think they think I'm kidding, but I tell people that I would do all the work over again a hundred times before I'd ever go back to how I was. A hundred percent. Do you remember waking up in the morning and much in pain and how much you felt you didn't sleep when you were that big? Yeah, bro. I never slept. Times it by like 10 yeah you know i would wake up like ah another day yeah you know what i'm just like it didn't i just wasn't i was happy but i wasn't no i wasn't i was that version of

happy when you were that big your first thought was what the fuck you're gonna eat oh man was it not oh yeah i love mine too yeah what do you mean wake up in the morning man go get some breakfast dude when i was when i had that relationship with food, dude, I would literally sit, like before I fucking got out of bed, bro. You would plan your breakfast. No, I already knew what I was eating for fucking my morning snack,

my lunch, and I'm like planning out my day. I'm like, I'll be eating, thinking about what I'm going to eat for lunch. Yeah, yeah. I enjoyed food. I'm like, oh, I work hard so I could eat, but damn, you know what I mean?

It's like now, it's like a whole different mentality. Now I get up and I'm like gym. Yeah. Gym. Shower. Gym. Bro. And I don't even feel right if I don't train.

If I don't train before I do before I even talk to people, bro, I'm a monster. Yeah. I was going to say. So I've noticed now with this and maybe you feel the same. If I don't wake up in the morning and hit the gym, I am an asshole all day. Yeah. If I don't go to the gym, if I don't do some type of workout mountain bike ride whatever it is dude i'm an asshole like now it's like if i don't work out i feel like don't talk to me yeah that's i don't

need coffee i just need the gym yeah my girlfriend's like go to the gym because you're just being an ass right now yeah i was like you're right bye and then i come back and i call him i hate you want me to bring you some coffee like you know what i mean because i just need it like i need it because like that's my escape and i think like i've i've transferred over my food addiction to a gym addiction which is way better than a food i i think i have as well yeah let's talk about putting that work today yeah bro well look man you did a lot of cardio yeah making me tired today today was only cardio day so like i do one rest day a week but it's act it's it's just, it's cardio twice that day. So that's my rest day. So my rest day is Sunday and I go dirt bike riding or this week I'm going to big bear. Yeah. So it's still an active day, but I do a 75,

I'm on 75 hard. So I have to do two trainings, but even normally, like if I wasn't on it, I would still do, uh, at least a one day a week. My rest day would be just cardio. It's your lifestyle now. For sure. There's no fixing that. It's your, it's your lifestyle. uh at least a one day a week my rest day would be just cardio yeah for sure now for sure there's no fixing that it's your it's your lifestyle now it's something that now is embedded into you and you know how you felt when you're overweight you're doing the mountain bike at big bear oh yeah so dude i'm did you were you able to do that when you were big no no okay let's talk about that dude talk about some of the things that you do and enjoy now that you couldn't do everything yeah sex no i'm just kidding

no for yeah no yeah we can talk about i'm done talking about all i'm listening right now i know we really didn't talk about before that's a real thing i'm i'm dude i'm down to talk about everything i know we really didn't like talk before this but i'm telling you right now i'm an open book and i choose to share my life and i had something i want to do yeah so um dude i'm doing pretty much everything like i remember like you know how hard is to wipe your ass when you're over 600 pounds you have to stand up wipe your ass then i don't know but i can imagine yeah so that's what it basically is when i was when i was at my heaviest which was 350 which is you know almost half of the size of what you were bro i would

fuck i would literally sweat when i took a shit oh yeah like i was sweating i mean some of you guys might still do that you eat too many peppers at night or something. I'm just saying that red salsa. That's right. The jalapenos. I have a love hate relationship with them. It lasts exactly 12 hours. You guys know what the fuck I'm talking about, too. Anyway, the point is, is that everything was a chore. Everything. Especially throwing out the trash. That thing sucked. Throwing out the trash sucks. It's a lot of work.

But, you know, like putting on my shoes, I would like have to like take my shoe off, tie it, and then slide it on. You know what I mean? I was getting in the pool and my girlfriend was telling me to put in the sauce. Like I remember. I never thought about that. Yeah, dude. Dude, check this out. You want to know something crazy?

So this is, I brought this to everyone's attention, obviously, after I started losing the weight. So where I worked, we would always go to lunch all the time right we're just fat asses we love to eat right nothing's changed we still like to eat we just you know pick better places but when i was over you know when i was big when i was really big uh wherever we were going i would always be like okay where are we going okay but buffalo always cool i would call i would get there first i would take my own car because i didn't want to squeeze in with everyone i'll get there and i would ask for a table and not a booth because they like to put people in booths. And my big ass was in fitting no booth. So I did that for like years

and no one even knew why I took my own car or why I always got there first. No one questioned it. Even my best friend. And I told him, he's like, I never thought about that. I was like, well, I didn't want to be sitting with all these people. And then they get, they, Oh yeah, here's your booth. And I'm, what am I going to say in front of everyone? Like, Oh, can we get a table? It's embarrassing embarrassing so every single time we went to lunch was like three or four times a week i would get to the place first where we're going to eat at and make sure that we had a table not a booth yeah you know i mean that's something that like i hope no one has to relate with but that's just something and that was my norm that was my

normal you know i mean because that wasn't possible for me to squeeze in a booth i still get ptsd at booths i look at him like i'm not gonna be able to fit i sit down like no and then you feel good i feel good yeah dude me too i bro people people don't remember how i was big as fuck because i was pretty good at hiding it but like dude i would get in the booth sometimes and like you know how like you get to some booths and they're not fixed the table i'd always have to push the table towards emily like so that i could fit yeah oh, trust me. That's embarrassing as fuck, dude. Especially when your wife is actually in great shape.

It's super embarrassing. Yeah. You know, it's, it's a, yeah. I mean, there's a lot of things that people, you know, really don't understand. And like I said, I'm glad that people won't relate with half this stuff, but at least they know. Yeah. But the people, there's people listening that do relate. And, and the reason I'm going through all these things is because i know that these people had these similar experiences joe

you were pretty overweight can you relate to a lot of the shit we're talking about yeah bro airplanes bro i posted up a picture one of my airplane two seats dude i look i'll show you the picture and you know nobody wanted to fucking sit next to you no they couldn't i bought the road yeah my girlfriend bought one seat i had two so it was no one ever had to sit next to me bro but like i literally have a picture bro i'm gonna show it to you yeah it i look like the most miserable person on earth like you know i mean i i look bigger than the plane i haven't seen a picture of you big so like i i don't think i showed you i just showed you the breakthrough picture you show me yours but yeah i don't i i'll i'll show it to you right now if you're gonna trip out because i just look unhappy and like i was on a plane and god forbid i had to take a shit or a

piss on a plane it's impossible it's impossible it's not putting on a diaper or just holding it it's not happening it's not happening yeah i mean and so it's like one of those things where it's like you know yes it's my fault yes i cause this to myself but i still have a i'm still human so i still have to like you know go on vacation and enjoy life. The life that I could enjoy at that time. How were the vacations that you went on? I mean, let's say. We went to Tulum and I finished half the trip because I couldn't even walk. Yeah.

I was just too big. You're always. Out of breath. Yeah, you don't go to the pools. You don't go to the fucking beaches. Oh, dude. I would go to the pools. So I would go to the pools, but compression shirts.

The compression shirt. Yeah. The long sleeves. You know what I mean? Covering up. And, you know, the crazy thing is I still do that now. Holy fuck, bro. So I'm going to, I don't know if I can. That doesn't even fucking look anything like you.

At all. I want to pull this up. I really want you to see this photo. I think I save it to my favorites, man. Sorry, guys. They just showed me the before pics. I hadn't actually seen. Check this out.

So this is me on the planet. I know we're far away, but that was me. I can fucking see you, bro. Oh, damn. You're a fucking motherfucking planet. Let's be fucking real. We're going to keep it real as fuck. No, no, no, no, no.

It's all about keeping it real, bro. I look like the most unhappy person. That's insane. I look like the most unhappy person when that was me on a plane bro yeah and like at this

I remember like I'll never forget we told him like make sure the center things go up they said it did and they didn't so like the center

thing was squishing my ass and it was like the most embarrassing thing but once it did so you had to do the seatbelt extenders and all that shit yeah

that's what that was a fucking for real moment for me dude you got to that point you didn't even look that big where you needed one no but

I got asked if I wanted one so like like i was like when they don't ask bro i was on a plane it was it was so embarrassing too bro because it was right in front of emily and like like it it made me feel like a fucking ant i was was so fucking mad, dude. Yeah. I wanted to kill this dude. So check this out. Yeah, but I couldn't because he was trying to help.

Yeah. You know what I'm saying? Like, what's he supposed to say? That's what he thought. He thought I would need one. And you know what? You should be safe. Yeah, I didn't need one,

but I mean, it was all. Yeah. It was screaming for help. I made sure that I didn't need one, but it was not comfortable. So it wasn't like he was wrong. We were was eating lunch man i was eating lunch with two people that that i i i i you know have a i hold high yeah and they hold me high yeah and we're eating at the sandwich space bro we're talking in the middle of a conversation just order food and the fucking

owner comes up to me he said hey you look uncomfortable here's another seat so you can sit on both of them oh man bro i wanted to throw this guy through a window yeah i was so pissed i was embarrassed i was mad i thought i just was like i was shaking yeah and my friends got mad at the situation but then looking back at it dude imagine a 600 pound guy on a small wooden chair i get it he was just trying to help yeah there's obviously better ways and he probably was awkward about fucking doing it Dude there's no okay, so on that there's no look it. There's no good way to tell someone they're overweight There's no good way to tell someone you want to change your life around like only thing that I tell people is like you just Gotta lead by example. You got a brother that's overweight start going to gym invite him every day till he gets annoyed

He just goes yeah sister same thing whatever it is. You know me. There's no good way No, there's no cuz you're gonna I'm gonna be a take it offensive no matter what you took it offensive the guy was trying to help you yeah offensive there's no good way yeah i was mad there's no right way he's not gonna pull you aside and say you need extension no he's gonna be like hey you look uncomfortable let me give you extension hey you need another seat you're big as hell yeah i mean yeah i felt smaller than you know what's so weird when we talk about that is like people these days are so quick to hate those people like blame them man it's dude i get it too man because like when that dude asked me that i like i was so fucking mad rage yeah no for real yeah no i know like i could

have attacked him yeah i know and and uh i didn't but then that lasted for about two minutes. And then I was like, fuck, I got to fucking do something. I got to get my stuff together. And so he actually did me a huge favor. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? It was a breakthrough moment where you realize that, OK, I'm not the only one that realizes I'm overweight now. Yeah. I mean, yeah.

And it's a crappy feeling. Don't get me wrong. And I hope it sucks when people do that and they have to go through it because, you know, for us, it was a life changer. Yeah. For other people. I mean, it could just be them going to eat and they have to go through it because, you know, for us, it was a life changer. Yeah. For other people. I mean, it could just be them going to eat more because they're that depressed to happen. Yeah. Yeah.

Bro, it's a. Oh, for sure. I mean, how many of those moments did it did that? I mean, that wasn't the first moment. No, that was a breakthrough. Yeah. Like all the other moments before that. That's how I dealt with it.

I would go fucking eat. You ever you ever go to the music park and just do the walk of shame you ever get that part of being big i did it at like disneyland they're like yeah you got you got it oh man the walk of shame is the most you won't fit on the ride you don't fit on the ride yeah so you have to like so everyone you know in a music park everyone's waiting to get on so they're looking at you to get your ass on and get off because i want to ride this right you got to go everyone's staring at you so you feel like everyone's staring at you but at this time everyone's facing you yeah and like you like oh they're gonna try to close they bring a second person try to close it and i was like i looked at my bro just enough like let me just get off let

me just go say oh i think we got it and they bring another person and now there's like now everyone's already buckled in yeah and i'm the only person there they're trying to freaking put my morbid ass inside this thing yeah and it wasn't it wasn't it wasn't happening. Yeah. And so I like, I get off. So now the, the, the next ride is already behind us. So now that it's taking longer than they expect, I get up and I just walk,

get to walk past like all these people. And I was just like, Oh, this sucks. Like that is another moment that you thought would have changed my life, but it didn't still went on after that. But that was a crappy feeling. I bet you went right after.

I got a funnel cake. That's it. I got a funnel cake. I was like, well, since my friends are on rollercoaster, I'm about to eat a funnel cake. That's it. I got a funnel cake. I was like, well, since my friends are on roller coasters, I'm about to eat a funnel cake. That's it. I still eat those today.

That's the same shit, bro. I didn't ever do. I never had to do that at an amusement park. But I mean, there's been plenty of situations. Like when I would go to an amusement park, bro, I just wouldn't do the rides. And I would blame it on like, oh, I don't want to wait in line. Or I don't know if I want to do that one. That's me in like K1.

Everyone's like, oh, let's go to K1. I'm like, oh, the place is dumb. Yeah. Yeah. That place is dumb. I have a car. why do i want to drive a go-kart no damn well inside i'm like i want to ride them so bad dude and yeah that's that's another thing you start you start adapting to your lifestyle that is unique to you because of your weight you know it's it's i had to adapt i had no choice i couldn't mount a bike ride i couldn't dirt bike

ride i couldn't snowboard i couldn't go on roller coasters. You know, I couldn't, you know, there's a lot of things I couldn't do and it's not, you know, I had no choice but to adapt no matter how much I said I didn't want to do it, how much I said it was dumb, how much I said it was a waste of money inside. I wanted to do it, but I couldn't let people know I wanted to do it because then people would realize that I, well, people would realize that I realized that I have a problem and I'm not fixing it. So I adapted to my normal, which you know that being obese yeah being being having a a wall put up of my you know of my weight and there's things I can't do it just wasn't physically possible you know dude I mean we could go on and on and on about all the the bad things and the the

what it caused but bro you've turned into a fucking machine i mean let's be real and you're inspiring all kinds of different people uh whether they were that big or not that big to take control and and and so let's talk about that let we've talked about the problem right yeah like we we you know we're fucking fucking, we love food. A little too much. We love apple juice. We love apple juice too much. So let's talk about like for the people right now who are listening and let's, dude, if you've got 30 pounds or fucking 300 pounds or more or whatever it is, how, what would you say? Like, how do we get these guys to say, Hey, let's fucking go.

It doesn't matter where they're starting off from. We, we, it doesn't matter. Stay in your lane. Look at, look at yourself and your life and your goals and realize that they're your life they're your goals and stay in your own lane it doesn't matter if someone walks in gym needs to lose 30 pounds or lose 300 pounds either way it's going to be a long road ahead of them it's still going to be hard work it's still going to be dedication it's still going to be portion control it's still going to be you know days where you just want to quit days where you cry days where you know something

happens in your family where you in in your life where you still have to go to the gym, though. Like, you know, life slaps you in the face every freaking day. And just because that person's skinny trying to get big or that person's fat trying to get skinny, it's still a long road. And it's still hard as hell. And you still have a normal life to live. You still have a nine to five. You still have kids. You still have family and stuff.

So, I mean, you just got to get it done. You know what I mean? Don't look at the next person. Don't look at me. Don't look at you. Don't look at anyone. Just pay attention to your road, pay attention to yourself and just grind your ass off and you're going to get there. It might take longer. It might take shorter. It doesn't really matter. You're just, you're every single day, you become a better version of yourself. You know what I mean? And that's it.

Stop looking at other people. Stop looking at other people. Don't look at me. Don't listen to my story. Just follow your own path. Do whatever the hell you need to do to make yourself or to realize that you're worth the body if you're willing to put in 100% of the work. And dude, guys, understand that like Anthony and I both understand like, dude, because I've been big more than once too. Like I've gotten big, lost it, gotten big, lost it three times. Okay. So you guys have to understand that we both get where you are. When I looked at myself at 350 pounds, it seemed insurmountable. The day I looked in the mirror, I'm like, fuck, I got to fucking change this. I understand how lonely and mad and depressed you feel in that moment. But fuck, guys, like there's only one way to the top, bro.

And it doesn't matter how big your mountain is or what it is. It can be chipped away at one day at a time. And you can climb that mountain a lot faster than you think. How quick has the time gone by to where, you know, you've been doing this for three years straight. Like I've been on 75 hard, basically the whole fucking last two and a half years. I feel like you're always on it. Yeah.

You're always on it. Well, I do sort of live that way. Yeah. So, and it's work. It is work. Every day. Fuck, bro. It's worth it.

It is. I mean. What would you say to the people listening right now that are so frustrated and so down and so upset about where they've let themselves get to you you know what feeling i'm talking about yeah you let yourself down you just like you have so much on your plate where you just feel like where do i start yeah it's like looking at a messy ass room and you're just like well where do i start where do i where do i start you know i mean and the thing is that you just start yeah you get in there and start you go on

the walk you know you go on if you're too big then yeah you want to walk go in the pool it all it is is starting like it's the like you said earlier the hardest thing is getting inside that gym and once you're in there you're going to start learning you're going to meet people you're going to talk to people you're going to maybe join a class and then now you you you're holding someone else accountable and they're holding you accountable and it's just like really falling in love with the process don't everyone always ask me like how long did it take how did you do this how did you do that like don't worry about that just show up show out give it 110 percent and you're going to start changing you're going your body's going to start taking i didn't

plan on getting muscles man i didn't plan on this dude i wanted to be healthy at the end of the day i just wanted to be healthy and fix a problem that i let go way too far yeah you know and now that my body is changing and going you know and I have muscles showing and I'm doing pull-ups and I'm doing ab workouts and possibly have a six-pack under here and I still have to get all the skin removed you know I mean yeah talk about that why tell people why you didn't do that the skin yeah and what and so I started uh the skin this I haven't got to my goal for the number one is my goal i set a goal and like too many people are like they just they they jump the gun before they set a goal and they try to finish it like to try to just do okay i'm this close now so i'm good now so i'm i'm not the type of person

i did that my whole life and i set a goal and i need to get it close as possible which is 210 and we'll go from there but the main reason why the skin is always is going to be here for now, because I do want the skin removed. We talked about the yesterday, but I, I started a merch line, the heavy to modified, you know, uh, movement is because I wanted to be able to save for my skin removal surgery. It's like over $30,000. That's a lot. That's a Honda civic, you know? But then as I sat down with my team and I'm like, why am I saving for skin removal surgery when I don't want it right now? Like, why am I saving for it if it doesn't affect me because people are commenting? Well, fuck what they have to say.

Like, this is my body. Like, this is what happens when you mess up. This is what happens when you choose to put food over your health. I mean, it doesn't bother me posting it. It's insecurity, but I'm not going to not post it because other people and people are going to say, forget what they have to say. So I want to open up a gym in Orange County to get people in the gym that are uncomfortable to do big classes or classes with people to do one-on-one because I know how hard it is. And I'm not just talking about obese people, more with the obese. There's a lot of people that are nervous to go to a gym. There's a lot of people that don't know how to work out. There's a lot

of people that don't know how to eat. There's a lot of people that don't know what supplements to take. There's so many people. And if I could just find everything that I didn't like about these gyms, I think I was telling you the other day or yesterday, I was like, I didn't like how they would have me do a workout and I couldn't do it. So they pushed me to the side because I was wasn't good enough to do it. So everything has a modified workout. And that's what I've learned. And that's what I want to push in my gym. It's always a modified version to do. We could take anyone from an athlete to someone that's you know 500 200 300 pounds overweight and that's my goal to make a facility to make people feel comfortable and they could look at me and say well damn this

guy walked in at over 600 and i'm only 210 pounds yeah let me do it let's get it in let's do it and it keeps me on track i'm still on this journey yeah i'm still on this journey they're holding you accountable as well yeah i hold exactly so i'm still on this journey. Yeah. I'm still on this journey. They're holding you accountable as well. Yeah, exactly. So I'm still on this journey. Like never did I think I was going to be doing fitness. You know what I mean? I never thought that I was going to be, you know, freaking eating, you know, three, four, five cups of rice a day, bison, and then, you know, my meal preps and all that stuff.

I'm like, this is way too much food, but this is the right stuff to put in your body when you're doing work. You know, so it's just so much knowledge that I've learned, personally learned. I've personally got to learn on this journey that I feel I could share with people, not only just my story, but have them working out next to me. People come and train with me right now. People, they, they, they come in, they work out with me and it's like, I worked out for three hours already. And now I just got a fourth hour workout because that person came in with me that, I mean, people are like, you're doing too much. I'm like, no,

I didn't, I'm not doing enough. You know you know like i said i had 30 years of resting here's what i thought was cool bro here here's what you said to me yesterday that really made me realize the kind of person that you are he was telling me that he was going to get the skin surgery and then he changed his mind because he wanted to help other people yeah and he wanted to put that money towards that. I thought that was fucking awesome, bro. It's I mean, like there's people like I am blessed to have a bigger voice in this weight loss community, man. I'm blessed. Like there's so many badass people that are losing weight. There's so many people that have badass stories that have worse upbringings. And I was given the opportunity. I was given, you know, the one point five million on instagram and

i'm gonna take that and i'm gonna do everything that how it was raised to show love to people to give back to people the skin is my skin you know i mean and it's it's always it's gonna be there until i choose to remove it but i'd rather help 50 50 people do a transformation and then worry about mine because i'm still i'm still losing weight yeah i'm still bettering myself while i'm helping other people and that's the big thing is like i know how it feels to be an all-time low and i feel like you have no one to look like look out for you well i'm here to look out for you my team is here to look out for you you know we want you to win you know i mean and come in every single day and just let's just leave

it on the table so how far away are you from getting that open? Honestly, I don't know. I have my Camaro that I'm going to be selling. So after I sell that, I'll have about 10 personally saved. And then I'll get 20 from the Camaro. It's already paid off. And then we just got to go from there. There's a couple of things that we're having to work on right now. But for the most part, we're just saving, man.

My team's really small, but we have the goal. I already have the Instagram. I already have the logo. I just know that I want to make a safe place for anyone. Like I said, an athlete to someone that's morbidly obese and that's ready to change their life. And I want to be part of their story and I want them to be part of mine.

Well, dude, listen, man. You're an incredible dude, for real. And it's real, guys. It's genuine. This is why I decided to do the show with him. He didn't come here from California to record the show. No, you,

yesterday, I told you yesterday, I didn't know what the hell I told you the first two minutes. Like I've been following you for a long ass time. I don't know what I said in that two minutes. I just remember saying, holy shit. That's what I said.

I said, holy shit. And that was it. But you know what I mean? Like, this is, this is unreal. Like, I don't know how I that was it but you mean like if this is this is unreal like i don't know how i've held it together this long but this is unreal and this is like a blessing

and i'm gonna i'm gonna do everything i can to help and keep changing lives even when my story is done there's plenty of other people's stories they can be told i know you are which is why i want to do something for you um i'd like to i'd like to gift you the seed money to start that gym, if that's okay with you. Holy shit. Yeah. I said it again, huh? Yeah. People like you deserve to be in business and deserve to be in that business. And I'd like to expedite that process as quickly as possible.

Not five years from now, because the world needs it right now. So if you would allow me to do that, I'd be honored. Damn. Yeah. Yeah? the world needs it right now so if you would allow me to do that um i'd be honored damn yeah yeah i got you bro people like you got to be in this in this game dude i'm gonna do this i'm proud of you dude Thank you man Fucking super proud For real Damn man I said I was gonna cry Well hey man

Look dude I mean it You know A lot of you guys don't really Know what we do here at First Form And You know we try to give And change And do the right thing in this

industry as much as possible. And we need more people like that. And dude on the ground, in the gyms, you know, actually standing there with people, pushing them. And bro, you have a gift and you've done the work. And I just really need, you need to be one of those people out there doing it. And I would like to expedite it. So. I don't know what to say anymore. I was talking so much. Now I'm just at a halt right now. I'm like, but thank you, man. It means a lot. It means a lot to have you on board and to help. Oh, I don't need anything, bro. Like I'm not trying to be an investor.

Like we'll, we'll figure it out like legally and everything. But like, I, this is for you. This is, this is, you know, uh, I've had some, I've had some good breaks in my life and, uh, and I try to, I try to give back where I think it's deserving. And, and bro, you're, you're one of the most incredible dudes I've had in my presence in the last, since I've been doing the podcast, like for real. Dude, that, so they told me they're like, um, they've said like, I've been doing, we've been doing the podcast like for real dude that so they told me they're like um they've said like i've been doing we've been doing this for like 15 years for andy like they've never had anyone on the like he's like hey i want him on the podcast yeah and he's like but then he's also like hey no no no you know no uh what is i forgot now i forgot i'm gonna talk right now

he's like he's all don't oh he's don't take the wrong way you know but you know you're the first person so don't mess it up i was like oh shit thanks he said no pressure that's what he said he's like no pressure yeah no pressure at all don't worry about it how could we mess anything up i'm terrible at this i just talk shit yeah so it's really hard to fuck it up everybody knows who the who i am hard to mess up my whole life story i guess yeah exactly i would tell him my story but there's no messing up here man holy crap yeah i gotta get back into, I was talking before. No, no, no. Look, dude, we're, we're a good, you know, uh, let's, let's close with this, man. Talk to these people, give them, tell them what, you know, like your final thoughts, bro.

If you're, if you're in a place where you want to change and you're in a place where you need to make that change and you know it. It's time to get selfish, man. It's time to get selfish. You know, we spent our whole years, however old you are listening to this, that, you know, we took the easy way out. You know, we went to the fast food lines instead of going to the gym. You need to get selfish. You realize that no one is going to do it but yourself. And if you have kids and you're being a selfish asshole, I mean, and if you're raising your kids the way that, you know, that do not teach abortion important control you're being a selfish asshole you know you need to just get out there you need to make the time don't look for the perfect day don't wait for the perfect day the perfect

temperature there's no fucking there's no such thing there's no such thing get out there and give your yourself a hundred percent and realize you're worth that body if you put in the work and that's it you're worth it just get out there and and figure it out every single day you go there you can learn something every single day you go there, you can learn something. Every single day you turn down fast food, becoming a better person. Every single day you meal prep, you're a better person. Like it's, it's all it is, you know what I mean? It's sacrificing. That's why not a lot of people get it done, you know, but the people that are getting done, I'm telling you right now, they're the real happy people. They're the ones

that are not just posting, saying they're happy, even though they're overweight. They're the real happy people. And I'm not, I'm not disrespecting anyone overweight. I'm not disrespecting anyone. I'm saying from my own personal feelings, I was not happy at that weight. And I am now say that I'm happy. I'm doing things. I'm living life, actually. After 30 years, I'm actually living life.

And I'm upset that I waited this long, but I'm happy that I did it. And I have no regrets. So just get out there and just give yourself 100% everything. I'm not just talking about weight loss. I'm talking about anything. Get out there and give it percent. Stop waiting for the perfect time. Just do it. Fucking right, bro. So dude, tell people your Instagram handle and where they can find you at. So all my, all my social media is heavy to modified, heavy T O and then modified. That's all my platforms. It's where are you most active? Uh, TikTok and Instagram. Yeah. Yeah. TikTok and Instagram. I'm the most active. Uh, but I post daily. I post

daily on every, on TikTok, on Instagram, on stories. Uh, I post my motivation stuff. I post my good days. I post my bad days. I post my wins. I post my losses. I tried to let everyone know everything about me. Uh, and just to show that I'm a normal human being. I still work all day. As soon as I fly back home, I have to start prepping. I own a taco business. And then as soon as I'm done prepping and selling tacos on Saturday, Saturday night, I have to start prepping

because everyone picks up their meal preps on Monday. It's just because this amazing experience. I'm still working. I'm still in the gym. You know what I mean? It's not. I don't live like a, I'm not rich. No, you you're seeing the real work this is the real work it's the real shit the real stuff you'll see me like the craziest thing is like you'll see me uh doing

something cool like this right and tomorrow morning you're gonna see me cutting up cilantro and then i'm selling tacos and then next day i'm i'm i'm packaging my meal preps in the kitchen and then that later on that day i'm at the dirt bike track yeah people are like what the hell do you do i was like i work yeah i work yeah you know Yeah. People are like, what the hell did you do? I was like, I work. Yeah. I work. Yeah. You know what I mean? And that's just what it is. And you know, um, yeah, this, I'm, I'm just a normal person. I'm a normal person that fucked up big time and I'm doing everything I can to fix it. Bro, bro, you're doing a hell of a job, man. And not only have you done a hell of a job to work on yourself, uh, and become an amazing dude, but you're

doing it to help others, bro. And you're setting an example for people that would otherwise think something like that would be impossible. And I'm not sure that you could possibly understand how powerful that's going to be in your life. So I hope you keep it up. I'm a hundred percent. And I believe you will. I'm yeah. I it's this weight loss is not for me anymore, man. I can tell. I got big arms now. Yeah. But no, it's you got to keep going, man. I'm I'm always I'm always hungry. I'm always thirsty for the right things. Yeah. No shit, bro. Gotta leave that apple juice in the fridge. I'm taking it home with me. Yeah. Well, Hey brother. Uh, thank you so much for, for being on the show, man. Dude, this is awesome. Thank you, man. Dude, this has been one of my top favorite shows,

if not my top favorite show I've ever done. So done a lot of shows. Yeah. I've listened to a lot of them, but bro, this kind of conversation, man, it just really connects with me because it connects to me at my source of, of what we're trying to do for people. You know what I'm saying? Like with personal development and first form and helping people and train everything that we do revolves around what you're living and helping people. Yeah. I want to say something like, yeah, I I'm here. Like you let them know that I'm here checking out the facility you know um everything that is on instagram is first form your people are happy you know i mean the biggest thing that i noticed and that made me super happy to know that like

i i'm happy that i fucked with this guy for so long is when i walked into your shipping room and everyone was happy there was air conditioner and everyone was singing along like they were working yeah they were happening because everyone and we were talking about this earlier about that we forget about the shipping and the customer service and stuff like that in every single section that from the entrance to you know the where the offices are at into the back of the shipping everyone had a smile on their face everyone was working hard but they were just genuinely happy i didn't see anyone like and i sat there and watched them yeah you know i watched them work i'm like damn like this is this is amazing like this thing's bigger than amazon so i was taking it in and like when i saw that i was like that first form is what they say they are

because you meet a lot i've met a lot of companies i've been contacted a lot of companies i got to check out places but i'm not i'm not even going off the cleanliness i'm talking going off the smiles that i see on your workers face man i just want to like say that you guys are killing it and you are here to help everyone. And I've, I've witnessed it. You're not paying me to say this or none of this. Like I'm telling you what I've seen and I've seen it like the, the, they like working here and that's cool to see so many people. You know why they do bro? Cause they like meeting people like you and they like working with people people like you and that's what we get to do literally every fucking day yeah that's why for real it shows yeah hands down like when i saw the and i seen a lot of cool stuff yeah i love porsches i love like reginis i love quotes i love

everything i was like but when the main thing what made me know that i really wanted to stick around first form is when i saw shipping yeah that's i'm not gonna lie it wasn't everything else i didn't know i was gonna be on the podcast those are the most important people in our building dude that's the last person that touches it before your customer touches it and and it i'm telling you man like that out of air people like this guy's crazy but no i'm telling you that's what made me know that first form represents everything that means a lot bro and it means everybody here is going to hear that And it's going to mean a lot to them too

So Thanks again dude For coming on the show Thanks for having me man We could go on and on and on Yeah So Once the gym is open

Once we get it open I'd like you to come back out We're going to talk about that Dude Because well then we'll talk about that From an entrepreneur standpoint Yeah Yeah

You know what I'm saying Be cool I need first form branding in there because, dude, I'm telling you, man. It's up to you, bro. There's no obligation. No, no.

I know there isn't. I know. This is just me. There is zero obligation. So it's whatever you decide you want to do. No, man. I think that'll be badass, dude.

I mean, I've been listening to you for a long time and a lot of, you know, the stuff, a lot of the business mentality. My buddies sit down and we listen to your stuff. We share your podcast.

I even share with my girlfriend she's now an entrepreneur so uh to get to where i get i sent you a dm years ago i saw that from just recently my my happy to modified one i've sent from my taco business and i believe i sent for my filming business um and i've updated you i mean so it would be an honor to have first form branding inside there and you know i this is a i haven't took it in yet. Yeah. But I just want to say thank you. You're welcome.

If I haven't said it yet, I don't remember what I said. No, no, no, dude. But if I haven't, I just want to say thank you. And you guys are killing it, man. Thanks for having me on. Well, I love you, man. It's been awesome. Yeah.

So, guys, that's the show. I think you probably would like to share that show. So that's the fee we usually have on the show. If you like the show, if it made you laugh, if it made you think, if it made you have a perspective change, give us a share. You know, we don't run ads during the show.

I don't try to, you know, make this all about that kind of stuff. And it's a value exchange. So if we do good, you know, do good by us. That's all we have. So I love you guys. I appreciate you guys. And I'll talk to you next time.