SCP: Find Us Alive - 29: Too Much/Too Little

Episode Date: April 1, 2022

Lancaster is contained. Raddagher is nonverbal. Love attempts to solve problems. This episode was written by Anna Maguire and features the voices of Logan Laidlaw (Harley), Jackson McMurray (Lancaster), Tabi Bardall (Agent Love), and Taschia Ritter (Klein). Original music by Jackson McMurray. Follow us on Twitter @Site107 or visit findusalivepodcast.com for updates, info, art, and more. Join us on Patreon for exclusive behind-the-scenes content! Word of mouth is the best advertising, so be sure to share with your friends if you like the show! This podcast and all content relating to the SCP Foundation are released under a Creative Commons Sharealike 3.0 license. Advertising Inquiries: https://redcircle.com/brandsPrivacy & Opt-Out: https://redcircle.com/privacy

Hey, everybody, Anna here, writer and director of Find Us Alive. We have some new patrons to thank. Special thanks to Beepster, Hebish, Jewish dude, and Dr. Void. We appreciate your support, and we are glad that you're here. If you'd like to support the show as well, visit patreon.com slash Find Us Alive to check out our rewards. Thank you and enjoy the episode. Good afternoon, 3B. How's the leg? Well, it's been better. I'd like to thank you for being so cooperative, this process.

I'd like to ask you a few questions. Am I gonna be able to get visitors after this? We'll see. Have you been feeling any urges to create any instances of... No, I already told you nothing since you set my leg on fire. I didn't set your leg on fire. I'm sorry, the third degree burning doesn't know the difference. I'm sorry, all right? What else what you want me to do?

Whatever. No urges to make anything? Stab anybody? No. Nothing. Is there anything you can do to convince me you're not lying? I don't really think there is. Come on, Link. Give me something to work with here.

I'm sorry, isn't it supposed to be 3B now? Look, I don't like this either. It isn't up to me. What? You are the site director. Yeah, and I'm clearly doing a fucking fantastic job. I'm sorry. I can't let you out.

Fine. I can try and get you better accommodations though I might have to wait until next cycle but I can get you a better mattress, maybe a lamp Visitation I'm working on it all right We'll get there when we get there But in the meantime here

What am I supposed to do with this? Record your thoughts I don't know Research wants to hear what you put on it now Okay to minimize people coming in Here, got it's not... Listen, it's really hard to get that door to open when it's fucking sideways. I get it, Klein.

Testing, one, two. Um, it's, uh, it's me, Lancaster, subject 3B. I'm, uh, I'm not gonna format this. You guys can figure it out yourselves. This sucks. I don't like being in here. It's cold and the lights are terrible and everything smells like ammonia. I haven't had any weird urges since Klein torched me with that flare.

Nothing. Which, I don't know. Not to say that I actually disagree with the decision to lock me up. I mean, D1 hasn't done anything for a long time either. It could be some kind of dormant period or something. There's, I mean, there's always a blurry line between anomalous people and people who are affected by anomalies, but I'm not anomalous. I don't think. I didn't exert any anomalous effects myself.

I mean, I did make a dash one that flooded the site for two days, but, It wasn't me that made the site flood. It was the replication. If I'm anomalous, doesn't it make everybody affected by the memetic anomalous, too? I don't know. I guess it doesn't really matter. Not crazy. I promise I'm not crazy. I know that that's like the...

I know that's like the thing that crazy people say, but... But I know the difference. I'm not out of my mind. I'm not anomalous. If I can convince at least a couple people that I'm not crazy, I could put a case together. I could get out of here. The last few days have been long.

We're still sideways. That hasn't changed. I've taken to sleeping on the floor, well, the wall of my office, simply because it's so difficult to make it all the way back to my room. I've got a pillow and a blanket. I love this. It's fine. I am doing...

Fine. Actually, no, it's not fine. It's really not. Oh, what's going on in here? What's going on? Let's see. A lot of people got injured when the site flipped, but much of our medical equipment has broken as well. We're basically down to field medicine for the time being. Security is done arranging the ropes and ladders for movement around sight, but a lot of older people personnel are still more or less stuck where they are. Not all of us can climb around all day. Nearly everyone physically able is volunteering to deliver food, water, and medical supplies to those of us who can't get around.

Which means about a fourth of our people are tremendously physically overworked right now. Security and the field agents, especially. Yeah, it's a mess. We can't cook food. We can't use the bathroom. This might be the worst things have sucked since... Well, since we got in here. And that was a dash one, probably.

We've been missing the little ones quite often, between security being stretched so thin and the building being basically uninhabitable. The surveillance office still has some active cameras and working monitors, but it's difficult to catch all of them, even for someone as perceptive as Radiger. Who I've heard is doing awesome

She's not How long have you been listening? Since you left the stupid intercom thing on Oops You're pretty good friends with her, right? As good of friends as one can be in this place, I suppose. Why? Has she said anything to you?

Yeah, she has said so many things. Really? What's she saying? I was joking. Well, be funnier next time. She's still not talking to you either, is she? No. Not even in writing? No.

Usually she'll give me notes or not her head and stuff. Now it's just nothing. I don't know what happened. It feels like I have to start all over again. You guys are close, though, aren't you? How did you start talking to her? Morse code. Shit, I don't know Morse code.

Listen, I don't think I'm really the person you should be asking about this kind of thing. What kind of? thing. Friendship things. I'm not her friend. Neither am I. So, she hasn't apologized? I don't think she needs to, she was right. No, she

wasn't. A good friend would have listened to her. So after all the time you spent with her, you just have no advice. Nope. At least none if you actually want the problem to be solved. I'm sure I could help you make things worse, however. No, I whatever. I'll

figure something else out. Containment's kind of a touchy subject here. I mean, not just in Site 107, like in the foundation overall. It's not always the most ethical. I mean, it's better now that it's ever been, but that doesn't mean it doesn't suck. But I guess I'll have plenty of time to get used to it. I mean, they bring me food twice a day,

and that's not less than other people. Nobody gets enough food right now, but honestly I think I'm a lower priority, which is okay, I guess. I had this whole plan once. I had this whole plan to become somebody who could help human anomalies all over the foundation.

But I can't exactly do that now, can I? They don't let people do much of anything from inside containment. I need something to write with or on. I can't keep my thoughts. straight in my own head. But I know I can prove I'm fine. If I can make a binder or something.

But that's the problem. Isn't it? I mean, there's no way in hell claims going to let me have something to write with. Not after everything I was doing. That's like the most obvious thing a dash three could ever ask for. What if they put me in the same cell as D1?

I mean, they won't. Like, that's obviously a bad idea. but how crazy do I sound right now? Do I sound crazy? Do I sound sane enough that when they listen to this, somebody might want to come talk to me? Hold on. We need to talk.

You're not talking to me, and I don't know what I did wrong, and I want to fix it so we can go back to... I don't know, I want to fix it. What do I do? What do you want? I'm trying really... really hard here?

I don't know... I don't know how to help you if you won't tell me, okay? I just want you to feel better. You're not gonna tell me, are you? Okay. I'm sorry. Hey, love, it's Lancaster. Uh, I'm, I'm coming to you live from containment.

Klein gave me this to record my thoughts on, but I'm gonna use it to send some messages to you guys. I think... Well, I feel like I owe you one. Anyway, I just want to... to say, I'm sorry, I am sorry I haven't spent any time with you the past cycle. That was bad for a lot of reasons. And I know, I know I neglected you, and I want to make up for that.

I, you know, I stabbed you at that pencil. I'm sorry, I'm sorry for that. But, okay, but the good news is that, I mean, the problem is solved. I'm not, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm not insane anymore, which, I don't know, maybe I'm misreading it, but that seemed like the, the main issue, and I'm okay. Hey, now, I'm like totally 100% over here. I have nothing to do. So I can...

I have plenty of time to spend with you. If that's what you want, I won't lie. It sucks down here, but if you need someone to talk to, about anything, I have all the time in the world. You're now. Hey, how are you doing? Lancaster recorded a message for you on this. He wanted me to send it up to you.

All right? Not gonna... Bye. See you later. Radiger, it's Lancaster. I know that we aren't the best of friends, but I... I still wanted to say a couple of things to you. I feel like I owe you that much.

I haven't been in my right mind. For a while, I think. And you obviously noticed. And I don't want you to think that I'm still some kind of danger. anybody. Obviously you included. I never meant to hurt anybody and I hope that I can convince you that I'm back to normal. And I think I could prove it to you now. I recorded some stuff on here and if you can make it down to BH4, I think I could change your... Sorry? That opened faster than... now, whatever.

Hi, love. Hey, you look like ass. Yeah. How are you doing in here? Um I mean I shouldn't complain You know they told me to call you 3B But that's stupid

And I told them to go fuck themselves Did you get my message? Uh, yeah It was kind of weird Weird, weird how? Because it makes you sound like you're fucking crazy Yeah, but you wouldn't have come down here If you thought I was

Crazy, would you? Would you? You're unarmed What are you gonna do Bludgeon me with a tennis ball You still think I'm crazy Yeah Then what are you doing here?

I don't know I don't have anybody else Oh I need help with something And Klein is too busy And Harley's Harley's fucked up or something I don't know

Is he doing that thing where he's like Smiling but he looks like he's actually sitting on a thuntack Yeah What is that? Did he get my message? What? Did you send one to everybody or something? Um Yeah, everybody

except Klein. What kind of problem do you have? Radiger won't talk to me. She won't talk to anybody. Oh, well, I mean, I can fix that. You can't. Yeah, I sent her a message. I think she just needs reassurance that I'm not crazy, and she'll come around.

I think everything that happened was just overwhelming, but once she realizes that things are back to normal, she'll be okay. You said you sent a message to her? Yeah? Is that what you said? In the message. Well, I mean, it was paraphrased, but yeah. What?

Are you serious? Huh? Jesus. No wonder he's so mad at you. What do you mean? So if we just convince her that you're not crazy, it's going to magically fix everything. I think it'll be a start.

Her thinking you're crazy isn't the fucking problem. What is the problem? Well, you're... Your problem is that you're acting fucking crazy. How am I acting crazy? I just want to get out of here. Fix yourself! Stop trying to fix everybody else and fix your damn self first.

You're in here trying to sell everybody on you being totally fine. You're making everything worse. You're making everything worse because you're fucking busted, Lancaster. You won't do anything about it. Not crazy. Yeah, you fucking are. I don't know if you're anomalous or not. but you've definitely gone crazy.

I'm sorry. Sorry doesn't fix anything. Get your shit together. I'm going to talk at you for a second. You don't have to say anything. I'm worried about you. I really, I really care about you, and I want you to be okay,

and I'm worried that you're not. I miss talking to you, but I think I was making things worse by hounding you about it, so I won't do that anymore. I'm sorry if I may. it worse. I just want to talk to somebody about everything. I can wait until you're ready. I'm sorry for what I did to you. Sorry for what I did to you. Sorry for what I did to you.

Ration delivery. And I need that recorder back. We don't have enough spares. He gets more than one. Huh. Radiger broke the last one. Oh. Here you go. Bon Appetit. How long until we run out. We'll run out two days before the reset, so we should be fine. Unless the reset doesn't fix things, then we'll all starve. Excellent. What, uh, what did Lancaster say? Episode 29 was written and produced by Anna McGuire. The voice of Harley is Logan Laidlaw.

The voice of Lancaster is Jackson McMurray. The voice of Klein is Tasha Ritter. The voice of Agent Love is Tappy Bardol. Original music by Jackson McMurray. If you like our show and want to support us, follow us on. on Twitter at Site 107 or visit Find Usalivepodcast.com. This podcast, along with all content relating to the SCP Foundation, is released under a Creative Commons share-a-like 3.0 license.

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