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One of the millions of millennials given prescription stimulants to treat ADHD decides to quit. And afterwards wonders -- how did these drugs becomes so popular, so fast? This week, the story of amphetamine's birth, life, death, and rebirth in America. (Methylphenidates, too.) Have We Been Thinking About A.D.H.D. All Wrong? by Paul Tough Comment on the episode Support the show! To learn more about listener data and our privacy practices visit: https://www.audacyinc.com/privacy-policy Learn more about your ad choices. Visit https://podcastchoices.com/adchoices

Hi, search engine listeners. It's July, and we have a lot of new listeners. And so we're rebroadcasting some of our absolute favorite episodes from earlier in our run when a lot of you knew folks were not yet here. The episode that we want to play for you this week is called Why Did I Take Speed for 20 Years? Part one. It's one of my absolute favorite stories we've worked on. It's very personal for me about a topic that is complicated and which a lot of people puzzle through

for themselves or for their kids. the decision to take or not take stimulant medications. We worked on this for over a year. We were really trying to strike a balance in the story's two parts so that people across the spectrum on this topic might be able to listen and hear their own experiences represented.

But also we worked very hard just to answer this question that I had never asked myself in my many years taking these compounds. What was the story of their rise? How did they get here? How did they get to be so popular? We also, in this story, get into the surprising study

about the actual effects of these drugs, which are not what I expected. There have been more good studies since we first published. There's a great Paul Tuff article you can read about them. We'll link to it in our show notes. But the emerging story fits the story

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uttering it like a curse word that meant I'd been saddled with a lot of debt I couldn't quite pay. My parents had me go see a doctor. The doctor told me I had ADHD. I already knew I had ADHD. Everyone knew I had ADHD. I lost my backpack pretty much every three days. My brain heard everything my math teacher said in the adults from Charlie Brown trumpet voice. Pretty much the only thing I could reliably focus on was GoldenEye for Nintendo 64.

I was amazing at it. Still, when the doctor told me the solution to all this might be a drug called dexodrin, I told him I wasn't comfortable with that. I considered myself straight edge at the time, and so it stood to reason I wasn't going to take speed. Dexedrine was speed, and speed was a drug. That's what I said,

and then I think I may have even folded my arms. The doctor was unruffled in a way that suggested I might not have been his first tough customer. He made his counter argument. I remember it very clear, because I'm pretty sure it changed my life, although I'm still trying to figure out how. The doctor said, look, if you needed glasses to see, you'd use them, no question.

You wouldn't have some big hang up about it. Dexedrine was like glasses, but for my brain. Plus, he asked me, I was 14. Had I smoked pot? Once, yes, I had. So then why would I trust pot from some sketchy drug dealer and not medication from him, a doctor with an office, with tasteful sand art in the lobby?

It's easy to make this guy sound like some sort of pusher, but the more rigorous truth is I wanted to be talked into it. I was tired of disappointing everybody. A pill that would make it easier to sit still and focus sounded pretty magical. I just needed to put up a fight before I gave in. Hence this little performance, me and the doctor, were putting on for an audience of, I don't know, I guess my ego. I took the drugs.

I took the drugs, and the drugs worked. They helped. Dexatrine didn't do my homework for me, but it seemed to make doing my homework much easier. I remember thinking, oh, this is what it's like for other people, in other people's brains. I could pay attention in class.

I could clean my room. I could accomplish those things in life, which the ADHD literature so beautifully calls non-preferred tasks, the mountain of to-does that taunt us all. The pills got me through the end of high school, helped me nose my grades up enough to get into a decent college, got me through four years of that college and all its bureaucracy,

and they saved me in the early days of an office job, where I started catching my boss's ire for forgetting to save things in the right folders. I'd started on Dextradin in high school. I had a riddle in phase. Moved to Adderall for a while, then Adderall XR, before settling on Vivans, with a brief and chaotic detour in concerta. The less said about that time, the better.

These drugs are all amphetamines, or amphetamine-like drugs called methylphenidates, prescription stimulants. And while different formulations or doses of these prescription stimulants might have a spikier high or a more gentle end-of-day crash, they all do basically the same thing. They wake up your brain so you feel a lot more attentive and energized and full of pep. I took one or two or sometimes three of these pills almost every day in my life for 20 years. And then, a couple years ago, I abruptly stopped.

What happened is a long story, but the comically short version would be, I decided to switch psychiatrists. And my new guy told me something that no psychiatrist had ever said to me before. He told me that he thought, over the years, I'd been prescribed too many drugs. There's the amphetamine I swallowed when I woke up in the morning, the second one in the afternoon, the sleeping pills I needed to wind down at night, the antidepressant that helped mitigate the deep sadness I sometimes felt. those pills plus a self-prescribed drinking regimen. This doctor said, I think you need to come off everything, at least for a while.

It felt really scary to do that, but my life had stopped making sense to me, and this seemed like a way that it might make sense again. And so for the first time since I was 14, I experienced several weeks where I just did not take any drugs, not even caffeine. Those weeks turned into months, the months became a year. After a year, I did come back to six.

some things. For instance, I drink alcohol now. I drink coffee. But I never came back to the pills. It's hard to understand a relationship while you're in it, but in my time apart from the stimulants, my feelings about them had changed. Before, I felt straightforwardly very grateful for this drug. I felt like I'd accomplished a life I was proud of, and that I owed no small part of it to the molecules. Those 60-hour weeks, the nine-hour edit sessions, I couldn't have done them otherwise. I thought how if I had been born before the invention of amphetamine, I would just have had a different, less fulfilling life. And because I veiled that way, I tended to react pretty badly when people in my life had expressed reservations about any of this. I'd actually get really

offended. My feeling was, I had a diagnosed disability, attention deficit, hyperactivity disorder. This was the treatment for it. You wouldn't judge someone for wearing glasses. Why would you judge me for this? That's how I felt. But when I stopped taking the pills, I started to feel very confused about what had happened. Because it turned out I really liked being off of them. Sure, working was harder, to-does sometimes piled up, but I also felt like I could think differently. It's an impossible thing to measure,

but I felt more capable of thinking thoughtfully. And I started wondering in those two decades what I'd missed. That is a question I still can't fully answer, but I did have another question, a smaller one, which felt answerable. And it was this. How would I ended up taking these pills in the first place? Not me, personally, I remembered the doctor with the analogy about the classes, but on a zoomed-out level, my generation.

What was the story of how this drug, which would have been considered a recreational drug by my parents' friends, had become for us a drug used to get through school and to get through the long hours of the office jobs that would come after? How had these drugs become so popular, so fast? Turns out, it is a hell of a story. I'm going to tell you that story in five chapters. Chapter 1, The Invention of Amphetamine.

How should I refer to you in this interview? Oh, whatever you think is better, you can call me Nicholas, if you like, or you could call me Dr. Rasmussen or Professor Rasmussen. Dr. Rasmussen is a historian of modern life science. His main research interest, the one he keeps coming back to, is drugs. He wrote a book called On Speed, a cheekily titled, but very serious work of scholarship, which follows the path of prescription stimulants in America.

I started to tell Dr. Rasperson a little bit of my own story with the drug, and he immediately jumped in with a question. Just had a curiosity, so you're prescribed as a juvenile, and then you started using amphetamines without a prescription as an adult? No, no. So I was always prescribed.

I found nothing recreational about it. I see. I took them prescribed, but what would happen is, like, every so often I would sort of be like, I don't think I want this, I don't think I need this, I'd go off,

I would begin to struggle in school or later in work, I would go back to a doctor and say, hey, I was diagnosed with ADD as a kid, can you prescribe me something? And usually when that would happen, they would change the drug for whatever reason. And so I really went through, like,

I think I've taken, I've taken all the ones I've heard of, except for like the real throwback ones. And I ended my amphetamine career on Vivans. But it's, yeah, it's been very interesting. not taking it. Okay.

All right. So that's interesting. I've never been prescribed amphetamine. So one of the questions I want to ask you if it's not too personal is, have you taken them? Yes, but if you're going to ask me that, don't ask if I've ever been prescribed them. Right. Okay, yes. Understandable.

Amphetamines for millennials like me are a prescribed medication, or in some cases, a mildly illicit study drug. Mvvvetamines for boomers were known to be. a speed, a street drug that I think was mainly associated with truckers and beatnecks? I'd wondered how it made that jump, but it turns out the story of these drugs actually goes back much further. Amphetamine was first synthesized in Germany in the 1800s, developed as a dye, actually. Amphetamine as a drug, very much an American story. Okay, so can you just tell me, like, from the beginning, like, what is the story of amphetamines?

like who creates them where, why, when, how? Like, where do they start? So amphetamine was discovered in an effort to develop a superior asthma medication. So it was first tested as an asthma medication and as a decongestant. And it did work. But Gordon Alley, who was the first to test it, he tested it on himself in 1929, noticed, you know, if you look at his notes, he said, you know, decongestant effect is still working, heart racing.

And he noticed his mind was racing too. and he stayed up late at night with his mind racing, so he noticed immediately it had a central nervous system effect. This was during an earlier era where, like, now someone developing a novel compound wouldn't just take it and see what happens. But at this time, people did. They might very well now, but they probably wouldn't report it, you know, in the same way.

I mean, they would test it on guinea pigs first, of course, so it's not to, like, kill themselves. And he had already done plenty of tests on lab ads. animals to see, just to get an idea of what would be the right dosage for himself. You know, what would probably kill him and, you know, divide that by 10. Something like that. So he takes it and he has a high? Yes.

He notices he's having what we'd call a high. And so he was aware right away that it had a central nervous system effect. But there wasn't any opportunity that he saw there for marketing it in that way. So it was first systematically tested as an asthma medicine. in general it didn't do very well. It had some effect, but it was not judged promising after a few tries. So they started looking for other uses, and Ali's was getting interested already by 1930

in its central nervous system effects. So they realize they have this drug that has like a powerful central nervous system stimulant effect. And they're just like, I think for someone who doesn't think hard about the history of medicine, I think I start with an idea that like there are diseases and then they go out and they try to find a cure for the disease. With amphetamine, it's like they found a drug with an effect, and then they kind of look around the world for what it might help with.

Exactly. It's a drug looking for a disease. I think that that's often the way drugs are still developed, although there's much more kind of rational planning and basic kind of biology in producing drug candidates these days. Nevertheless, the drug looking for a disease phenomenon still happens. This idea of a drug looking for a disease, can sound a little sinister, I think.

And if you're suspicious of big pharma, you will find a lot to support your suspicion in this story. But I do want to offer an alternate, more neutral way to think about this drug looking for a disease concept. A lot of scientific history involves some researcher accidentally discovering a drug, realizing it has a powerful effect, and then looking around to figure out

what kind of suffering that effect might alleviate. And amphetamine in particular, it's a powerful drug that increases dopamine. in your brain. And because dopamine regulates so much of how our mind works, amphetamine has a lot of powerful effects. And for the next century, our culture is going to experiment with many of them. But that's what's to come. For now, it's the 1930s, we're in Los Angeles, and Gordon Alley's is just a guy with a powerful new drug. And so he starts looking for a disease to apply it to. Asthma hasn't worked so well, but he finds a different one, narcolepsy. Amphetamines

are very good at keeping you awake. The only problem, Nargalypsy is a pretty rare condition, which means the market for that drug is going to be pretty small. And Allies isn't looking for a base hit. He wants a home run. So he teams up with a company that he thinks might help him get there. An American pharmaceutical company named Smith, Klein, and French. They're going to market and test this drug on a way broader scale than he ever could.

So in 1934, the process of finding markets for this new drug goes into Smith, Klein and French's hands. and they know what they're doing. What they do is they produce lots of the drug as a free sample, and then they produce placebo-identical versions of it, and they put ads in medical journals saying, we have this valuable drug. If you want to try a free sample in your practice, just write us.

We'll send you the drug and some placebos, and you can do your own trial. Wait, with the ideas, we'll just give a bunch of amphetamines to doctors. They can just start giving it to their patients, and then they'll get back to us and be like, this is what it works for? Yes. So this is before there's any FDA regulation on medicines other than on their labeling. So the FDA's remit in the 1930s is simply that anything sold as a medicine for human use

have to have its active ingredients listed. That's it. It was up to the medical profession to find safety and efficacy, right? This is wild to me. Back then, a pharmaceutical company could sell a drug without proving its safety or its efficacy, all they needed was an accurate list of ingredients on the packaging. That did change after a scandal involving a strep throat medicine that killed over 100 people. It had antifreezing it. But even with the regulations that followed that incident, amphetamines were still marketed in a much laxer pharmaceutical environment than the one we have today. Here's what that looked like.

Smith-Kline and French, the pharma company that marketed to amphetamine, would just mail large amounts of the drug to different doctors and ask them to run their own trials and report back. Not all of those trials were on the kinds of patients who today we would think of as consenting. In fact, a lot of this drug testing took place in psychiatric institutions. Mental patients had very little say in, you know, what their treatment was, and they were hoping that, you know, this would be something that this is quite a large potential market, if amphetamine would be good for whatever, any, you know, any of the major things that people were in mental hospitals for. So it was tested quite early for schizophrenia, for senile dementia, for alcoholism.

It showed some promise in alcoholism, and that was another early, yeah, early indication. So there was some efficacy there, some other kinds of, you know, kind of neuropathies. But it wasn't really a hit for the big indications in the asylums, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, it didn't really work. In other words, they had not found the home run yet. But the drug was out there now. And so other doctors kept volunteering to test amphetamine on different types of patients. Some even began experimenting with it themselves. And one of these volunteers that sort of jumped in quite early and became a big champion of amphetamine was the psychiatry professor Abraham Myersen from Tufts in Harvard medical schools. And he thought amphetamine was great. He took it himself. He

thought it was really good for his lecturing style. What did he like about it? He just thought it gave him like some bigger? Well, he tested basically, you can look at this as him testing it on himself in the same way that Allies did to start get a sense of what the psychiatric effects were. But why he liked it, he liked it in a professional sense, more importantly,

because it was a very effective remedy for depression as he understood it. Depression as he understood it. That actually brings us to chapter two, amphetamine as the world's first antidepressant. I only recently started to wonder about the history of depression,

like how depression has been understood throughout time. Calling it depression is relatively recent, but the idea of a disease called melancholia goes way back. The ancient Greeks worried about it, the Romans, ancient Persians. You can actually find good ideas about how to treat depression in antiquity, exercise, talking about it, hot baths, and some terrible ones, bloodletting, beating the demons out of the patient. In the modern era, when we start calling melancholia depression, our idea of what exactly it is and how exactly it works gets subtly updated every few decades.

In the 1930s, when our heroes are looking around for some condition that amphetamine might cure, there is actually not yet such a thing as a prescription antidepressant. But luckily for them, in that very moment, depression is once again being redefined in a way that would benefit their efforts to market their new drug. Abraham Meyersen, that psychiatrist who was taking amphetamine himself and really enjoying its effects, he happened to have a new theory of what depression was. Before Meyerson, depression was seen as essentially neurasthenia, which meant chronic weakness or fatigue. But Meyerson believed that depression's definition should be updated to include something else, a lack of drive or motivation. A depressed person wasn't just a low-energy sad person, it was also someone whose sadness made them

unproductive in a capitalist society. Depression went from Elliot Smith to Elliott Smith if he's not producing Elliot Smith records. Meyerson had noticed that workers in our newly industrializing country often reported a feeling of emptiness. The solution to that feeling of emptiness,

Myerson believed, might be amphetamine. Also, the American company making it happened to be providing him some funding. Smith, Klein, and French. And when the company applies for it, it's seal of approval from the AMA Council on Drugs. Depression is like the lead indication. They can see that that's where the market's going to be.

So now we have antidepressants. Amphetamine is the antidepressant. It's advertised now, which has got approval in 1937 quite heavily and lots of medical journals, general medicine journals. And in some of these ads, you have like quotes from Meyerson's papers, trying to convince doctors to recognize depression in this new way, not the old exhaustion way, but in this new lack of zest way. So our idea of what depression is, like our idea culturally of who is depressed,

is going to shift in the marketing for this drug. It's going to go from like... Yep. It really catches on in the 50s, of course, and that's the era of booming consumerism, right? So it's the drug for the time. And it gets hardwired in, even though amphetamine sort of goes out of fashion in the late 50s as an antidepressant, the criteria by which you recognize depression were established in the 1940s,

And the new antidepressants that come in and replace amphetamine were measured by their ability to do what amphetamine does only better. So even once we give up on this as the cure, amphetamine has already described the disease. That's right. I believe that depression, as we know it, might well be different if amphetamine hadn't been discovered or marketed it this way. There's something unique to mental illness versus physical illness that I'm still trying to figure out how to articulate. Like, consider strep throat.

A doctor today definitely has a better understanding of what causes strep than a doctor in ancient Rome, but the strep itself is the same. We all agree that my strap is the same as Julius Caesar's. But depression is stranger than that. Depression is a way of acknowledging that certain kinds of sadness are normal and others are not. But abnormal sadness gets defined differently at different times. Society never makes up its mind permanently about how sad a healthy person is allowed to be. That's why I don't know if I could say

I've experienced the same depression as Julius Caesar or Abraham Lincoln or even as my grandparents. It's strange because it's not like to say there's a version that like my grandfather who was like very skeptical if he were alive and I were talking to him and I said depression was invented by the drug companies

he'd be like yes. But it's like it's describing something real that people experience, I've experienced it but it's also mediated through this marketing and that's very confusing to me. Well, with it, with that, any illness, there's a lot of mediation. So there's, you know, the experience of symptoms or the physical or mental. Then the medical profession treats these symptoms and groups some of them together and

others not. They say, oh, that headache has nothing to do with your depression. That's because of this. But the lack of energy and the not wanting to get out of bed, that's the depression. So you have a bunch of experiences. The medical profession, based on its theories, group some of them together as symptoms and leaves others on the side, right? So there's that kind of filtration process. And then you have to accept their diagnosis, right? So if you don't like what they're saying, then you just, you know, see another doctor or don't fill a prescription or whatever. So, yes, I'm not denying that the conditions to which the concepts refer exist, just that we can divide them up and think of them in different ways. And that thinking then feeds back in our experience

of our symptoms. So after a brief life as an unpopular nasal decongestant, amphetamine becomes the world's first antidepressant, treating a condition that it has helped redefine. We're in the 1940s now, and with this new, more expansive understanding of depression, more and more doctors are prescribing amphetamine to their patients. But something's about to happen to make amphetamines really take off. The number of depressed patients

who might benefit from a little extra zest in their life is supposed to get way bigger. Smith, Klein, and French spot a new opportunity to market their drug. A huge market of people who might be experiencing a real lack of pleasure in their daily work lives. Soldiers. The story of amphetamine and World War II after the break. It never happens at a good time. The pipe bursts at midnight.

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Available everywhere. You get it. Welcome back to the show. Chapter 3. Amphetamine for combat fatigue. How did they decide during World War II to start giving soldiers amphetamines? Well, that, you know,

Smith-Kline and French tried very hard to get it included, not just in this kind of formulary available to medics in the Army, they actually sort of intervened with the Assistant Secretary of War, McCloy, to try to get it issued as a weapon, like in amphibious assaults or, you know, sustained offensives in general. The troops should be issued with amphetamine on hour 10 or hour 12. They really tried to kind of force it on the military. The military never required anybody to use it, but they issued it very widely.

it was in first aid kits, emergency kits that were on like life boats and bombers and stuff, if people had to bail out, there's the amphetamine because they might be landing in enemy territory and have to stay awake, or they might be in a life raft

and have to stay awake to signal the rescuers. But it was also issued to medics. Medics carry it around, just like they did morphine, which was also widely abused. But anyway, it is extremely widely distributed in the allied military,

both the British and the American, and the Germans and the Japanese use methamphetamine in virtually the same way. And I mean, I think for most people, methamphetamine has a reputation as a drug you wouldn't give like a C-minus student. Like it's a strong, serious drug. Are they giving it in like a small dose? Like is meth, in this case meth or is meth something else?

No, it's math, but they're taking it in pill and in kind of an equivalent dose to amphetamines that you would use for attention deficit today. The adult doses for minor depression, like 10 milligrams, is pretty much the same thing. you're giving kids today for retention deficit. And so that's what the Germans were using. And I think that, you know, look, blind tastings have been done with experienced users. And in those kind of doses, I'm not talking about injecting a large amount. And those kind of doses, you can't tell the difference. The idea that there are good medicines and bad drugs is one of those slightly arbitrary notions that most of us subscribe to.

It can be easier to notice other people's contradictions. The friend who doesn't get high on anything illegal but seems to have a suit here. case full of prescriptions. The friend who is highly suspicious of big pharma but puts a lot of faith in big internet supplement. The locivores who do massive amounts of cocaine. Our contradictory attitudes towards amphetamine, though, to me, can feel like one of the strangest things to chart. Methamphetamine is a terrifying street drug done exclusively by society's near-do-wells, except the thing is, a doctor can also still legally prescribe methamphetamine pills to a kid who is struggling in college, it will do the same thing as adderol. Dose matters and how you take it, and illicit

speed user is going to take more meth, and they'll probably smoke it or shoot it. So that's different. But if you're a college kid taking Adderall, if you start doubling your doses, or if you start snorting your pills, your experience will begin to slide towards the one the street user is having. In my own mind, I don't call anything a medicine anymore. I think the downside of labeling something in medicine is that for some of us, for me anyway, It can be permission to take it pretty automatically. It came, after all, from a doctor. Anyway, in World War II, the Nazis were taking college-kid doses of methamphetamine.

The Allies were taking college-kid doses of a popular American amphetamine called Benzdrin. Both sides, probably having about the same experience. Okay, so all these soldiers on both sides of World War II are taking these drugs. Are the drugs making them better soldiers? Are they doing tests to figure out if the drugs are making them better soldiers? Well, the Allies did a fairly extensive set of tests to measure whether there was any benefit to amphetamine over the existing drug, which was caffeine pills. And to make a long story short, the more careful these tests were, the less they showed that there was any benefit to amphetamine over caffeine. But the soldiers liked it better.

And furthermore, amphetamine convinced people that they were doing better. And that kind of moral effect was ultimately why the Allied military issued amphetamine. So it wasn't that they were making them better soldiers, it was that they felt more confident in their soldiering. But a more confident soldier who's willing to fly at a lower altitude in flack is a better soldier. I see. So they're using them effectively as mind-altering drugs, not to fight fatigue. But fatigue was the official rationale. Combat fatigue, as it came to be known by soldiers.

This was a colloquial name for what was also sometimes called war neurosis, a term used by psychiatrists for the very specific kind of mental illness experienced by soldiers at war. But the fact that the soldiers adopted the term combat fatigue, that wasn't an accident. Rasmussen says it was actually something closer to marketing. Why didn't they call it war neurosis? Why did they call it combat fatigue and said? Well, first of all, they wanted to reduce friction with the brass. Okay, they didn't want the generals saying, you know, get these shrinks out of here. They're telling our soldiers, that they're severely mentally ill just because they've, you know, they've seen too much action.

So it's a bit of, it's a euphemism that's designed both for the consumption by the brass. You know, combat fatigue suggests that they need to be out of combat and rest a bit. And it did the same for the soldiers, right? The soldiers didn't get the idea that they were now, you know, going to be sectioned out because of a mental illness who would never have to fight again. They were given the idea that a bit of rest would fix them up. And actually, the psychiatrist believed they got better results. in this very serious condition of war neurosis,

if they took the soldiers not too far away and gave them talking therapy to talk about the traumatic situation, but not so far removed from the front line that they couldn't hear guns in the background, you know, artillery and stuff. And so the soldiers would always be thinking about going back to their bodies.

It's kind of a beautiful illustration of just the relationship between our idea of what is healthy and language and our idea of what is sick and language and the idea that someone whose job is to get, get you better might just be trying to make you more usefully participate in something that other people want you to participate in. Absolutely, but I say why not both? They are trying to help you get better, but their idea, medicine's idea, which is also society's idea of what would be better. Better is useful, functional. And this is one of the reasons why concepts of diseases

change over time, because people's roles in society in what's normal and expected change over time. After the war, the soldiers go home, and amphetamine enters American culture in earnest. Chapter 4, stimulants for pretty much everybody. 1945, World War II is over. U.S. soldiers returned to civilian life. Remember, amphetamine was given very freely to a lot of these soldiers, and many have picked up habits. Those habits continue when they get home.

At that point, the easiest way to get amphetamine was to buy a benz-dream inhaler. Amphetamine was in asthma medicine, too. So if you bought one of these inhalers and just chewed up the amphetamine gauze inside of it, you get a very powerful high, the equivalent of taking an entire bottle of pills. Those inhalers were available, very cheap, without a prescription. Around the same time, sales of amphetamine for legitimate medical uses also took off. And it's not just treating depression and asthma anymore. Smith, Klein, and French have another market for their star drug, weight loss.

So it becomes a legitimate weight loss drug, even though I've been heavily used by kind of dodgy diet doctors since the 30s, becomes a big official prescription drug for weight loss. And weight loss doctors account for something like a third of the, what is it, 10 billion pills that are being distributed in the U.S. in late 60s. They just dispensed them directly. They're a doctor. They can just give a patient a year's supply.

And they were dispensing them like, you know, like candy. Rasmussen says at this point in history, we are nearing the peak of what he calls the first amphetamine epidemic in America. Soon, 10 million Americans will be taking prescription stimulants for something. Antidepression, weight loss, fun. What's crazy is that while it took decades for stimulants to become this popular, they'll actually go away very quickly. Society, for a host of reasons, will rapidly turn against them. First, the mainstream medical reputation of stimulants takes a hit. New and seemingly improved antidepressants have been released. Second, maybe more importantly, the culture itself just starts to shift.

And that's what brings about this anti-amphetamine campaign. First, starting with the hippies, people like Alan Ginsberg, start this speed kills campaign. And so this idea that it's a dangerous street drug sold by bikers helped tarnish the medical reputation of this already kind of obsolete antidepressant. There are other scandals that affected the drug as a medicine, particularly the diet drug industry. There's a bunch of exposés. This is the sort of the emerging feminist backlash against body image control by the patriarchy and the weight loss industry.

And there's this general kind of cultural reaction to the drug problem that you see in 1969, 1970. The Vietnam veterans coming home addicted to heroin was a big kind of a moral panic around that because there was very high drug usage among Vietnam soldiers. In 1970, looking around America, what a lot of people saw was a country on too many drugs. Heroin, LSD, barbiturates, but also stimulants. The warnings about speed had been mounting out for years. Many Americans had become addicted or were using the pills unprescribed.

Not just hippies and poets, but also people in the mainstream, the dieting suburban housewife, her army vet husband, one in 20 Americans. This report is concerned only with the abuse of two socially acceptable prescription drugs. There were PSAs, like this one from actor and future salad dressing entrepreneur Paul Newman. Pills and capsules that you keep in your medicine chest, your night table, your pocket, your purse. I would like to suggest that you do not use speed. But also rock stars like Frank Zappa were out there telling fans, speed is not just dangerous, worse, it was uncool. It's going to mess up your heart, mess up your liver, your kidneys, rot out your mind.

In general, this drug will make you just like your mother and father. And there was a feeling in Richard Nixon's America that the country was taking too many drugs and needed to calm down. America's public enemy number one in the United States is drug abuse. In order to fight and defeat this enemy, it is necessary to wage a... new all-out offensive. I've asked the Congress to provide the legislative authority and the funds to fuel this kind of an offensive. This will be a worldwide offensive dealing with the problems of sources of supply as well as well as the Congress responds with one of the most influential drug regulation bills in history, the Controlled Substances Act of 1970. This is the law that creates

schedules for different drugs, Schedule 1, stuff like heroin and psychedelics, which are deemed to have no medical use. Scheduled two drugs have proven medical uses, but their circulation is controlled because they can be abused. Amphetamine and methylphenidate becomes scheduled too. And that's why you still require a special prescription, and the prescribing and manufacturer of those drugs is still monitored, which is the only reason why we have accurate figures on how much is still being consumed in the U.S. So that's the moment where it stops being something that, like, a diet doctor will give you a year supply for or that people can walk into a pharmacy and grab relatively easily. That's when it becomes something that is restricted.

Well, it did become a prescription. There's a general trend of vacate harder to buy prescription drugs without a prescription. So there's that. But yes, in terms of it being like an officially problematic substance, it's that at 1970. And no, even though doctors are free to prescribe these Schedule 2 drugs, they have to report every prescription back to the agency that becomes the DEA, right? And as soon as they have to start reporting, guess what? prescribing rates dropped by like 10fold in the first year, and then another half the next year.

So by 1971, the legitimate pharmaceutical market for amphetamines is one-twentieth of what it was in 1969. Wow. Wow. Wow. Because all of a sudden these doctors feel like they might have to justify these prescriptions. Yes, the DEA is watching them. So that's how amphetamine basically goes off the market.

The FDA is, meanwhile, working to show that it's not actually effective as an antidepressant then as only very limited short-term efficacy in dieting. So the main indications are struck as well as legitimate uses. Of course, the fall of amphetamines in the 1970s will clear the stage for a newly popular street drug that will become very pervasive. Huge spike in cocaine consumption in the U.S. in the 1970s. So, you know, think about it that way. It's like this is why the white-collar people turn to cocaine.

I'll be some of them. Well, this was actually, that's a question that I had for you is like, How different are cocaine and amphetamine as two drugs? Well, they're very similar if you compare in the lower dose range and also in the higher dose range. But to get to that rush feeling that you get from a fair sniff of cocaine, you're going to be injecting the amphetamine. So like many drugs, they actually have slightly different mechanisms of action

at different dosage levels. But the short answer is they're very similar if you take them in comparable doses. I see. But the cocaine, wears off like five times faster. Right. Okay, so amphetamine disappears mostly from American,

like legitimate described American life in the 70s. Yep. And even from the illegitimate seed, it's not that common. So that is the story of how America fell in love with prescription stimulants, used them to treat a bunch of different ailments, some old, some new, and then decided this drug was just too dangerous to have in wide circulation. After the break,

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limited time offer. Welcome back to the show. Now for our fifth and final chapter, ADHD. So in its first act, amphetamine had been wildly popular, but then almost entirely disappeared from American life after the big 1970s anti-drug law. When amphetamine becomes a scheduled two drug, the FDA also starts ruling it out for a lot of its previously approved uses. The FDA takes away amphetamine for depression. The FDA takes away amphetamine for weight loss. Those are only off-label prescriptions now. Here's what's left. Emphetamine for narcolepsy and amphetamine for this other fringe case, a disorder called hyperkinetic disorder of childhood. These were children who were understood to be overactive, restless, and easily distracted. Kids like this had always existed, and psychiatrists

over the decades had theorized that their brains might be different. At times, they'd even come up with names for different possible disorders that might describe these kids. Abnormal defect of moral control, minimal brain damage, minimal brain dysfunction. You can sort of see why parents never rushed to get their kids any of these diagnoses. Actually, as far back as 1936, a man who ran a psychiatric institution for children, Charles Bradley, was thinking about these kids. He'd gotten a hold of some amphetamine, and he was testing it on some of his child patients. And he, he, he, he, noticed that some of the students who are particularly unruly in the classes seemed to do better. But it didn't affect all of them in that way, and he was never able to pin down what kind of

a problem student it was that he tried electroencephalograms and this kind of thing to figure out. What is it about these students who benefit from it as opposed to the others? He was never able to pin it down. Now, interestingly, that trial was not paid for by Smithclan and French, but Smithclan and French did fund and help design another trial at the same time on kids in a institution, very similar population, you know, problem kids in a reform school. And so they thought that there might be a market here. They thought, let's encourage these ortho-psychiatrists, they were called child psychiatrists who dealt with learning disabilities and behavior disorders.

Let's encourage them to try and find a use for this drug because, you know, it does seem to improve cognition. Now, I say seem with an underlying under it, but, because the drug company had already commissioned extremely thorough studies with the University of Pennsylvania's psychology department that established that the drug does not, in fact, improve any cognitive ability, at least in the normal subjects that they use, okay? It only gave them this confidence and this feeling that it was making them do better. And if what you're not confident about is your learning ability,

it might actually help you do better on a test, not because it's changing the way you think, but by altering your mood. I want to pause here for a second, because the questions about these drugs that science can't fully answer in the 1930s, why exactly do these drugs change kids' behavior and which kids should we give these drugs to? We're still arguing about the answers to those questions today. Today, we do have a lot more studies about what these drugs might be doing. While working on the story, our team read dozens of these studies.

We talked to psychiatrists who prescribe or don't prescribe these drugs, and we just found less consensus on basic facts here than I'm. I would have expected. Broadly speaking, the skeptics of these drugs will point to studies suggesting that there is little reliable evidence that prescription stimulants meaningfully enhanced cognition. Some of these skeptics also point out that stimulants may just increase your perception of your own performance, which could be one reason why they're so popular. They'll say they're confidence pills, they're turboplasibos. Advocates for the drugs, broadly speaking, point to other studies, that show how these drugs can help people be less impulsive,

boost processing speed, and lengthen attention span, or at least change how our attention works, so it's more like a focused flashlight and less daydreamy and lantern-like. Where we found the most consensus is the idea that the drugs help you concentrate and the idea that they elevate your mood. But what's funny is that we basically knew that in the 1930s.

The pharmaceutical companies knew their drugs made kids peppy, and alert and gave them a drive to accomplish. But they didn't chase that market. They didn't need to. They had other markets, depression, weight loss. In 1961, a new methylfinidate called Ritalin is approved for use in distracted children. At the time, some doctors are saying those kids might suffer from childhood hyperkinesis, but the consensus is that that should only describe a tiny percentage of America's rambunctious youth.

And so in the 1970s, one of these hyperkinetic kids who was being prescribed speed to still, they would have been rare. Like, it wouldn't have been a thing that was in the pop culture. Oh, yeah. The estimates were like either thousands or tens of thousands of patients a year only, you know? They undercounted. That's how rare the condition was. So why does that change? Well, remember, the 1970s Drug Control Act passes, which made both amphetamines and methylphenidates scheduled two drugs.

In the wake of that law, hyperkinetic disorder of childhood becomes one of the few conditions that the FDA will still approve these drugs to treat. Once that decision's made, prescriptions for kids start to climb. In 1970, American psychiatrists identify 150,000 kids who need the medication. By 1980, that number more than triples to 500,000. The same year, the disorder is rebranded, to attention deficit disorder, which will later become ADHD. By 1990, around a million kids a year are being prescribed stimulants for ADHD. Today, 6 million kids have been diagnosed.

And the diagnosis also now applies to adults. Last year, an estimated 14 million Americans of all ages received prescriptions for stimulants. From tens of thousands of cases in the 1960s to over 10 million cases today, that wave is remarkable. It's also remarkable that so many of these were found in America. Other countries have ADHD, other countries prescribed for it, but not at the rate that we do. So what's actually going on here? I don't know. You can tell this as a story about pharmaceutical marketing.

I think that's part of it. But I also think it's a story about how society changes, and it changes you with it, in ways that are powerful but sometimes hard to perceive. The same way the surf tugs you out to see without you ever quite noticing. Back in 1999, in the Philly suburbs, before I was diagnosed, I was struggling with a problem in my mind that was very real for me. It was not invented by a drug company. I was doing poorly in school, not just academically, but socially. I didn't fit in. And so my parents took me to see this child psychiatrist, who gave me a neuropsychological exam.

Two days of intense tests. She also interviewed my parents and my teachers. I remember this all pretty well, but I hadn't seen the report in years. I asked my mom to mail it to me while we were fact-checking this story. This was the first time I'd seen it as an adult. It begins with biography. PJ lives with his parents and three younger sisters. Mr. Vote is a lawyer.

Mrs. Vote is a decorator. My parents hadn't split up yet. The report describes me as a kid having a hard time. When she asked me to interpret a picture of a kid holding a chair, I tell her either he's smashing it out of anger because he doesn't fit in it, or he's smashing it out of joy because he has graduated. school and the chair belongs to the school. As she runs for tests, what she finds is actually kind of bizarre.

Verbal scores are unusually high, 99th percentile, which sounds great, except my performance IQ, which is a lot of what we actually consider smarts, organization, visual learning, the ability to read social cues, other people. That, in fact, is quite low. She says a discrepancy of this magnitude is found in something like 2% of the kids she tests. It's very strange to see a picture of your own mind. 13. It is stranger, 25 years later, to recognize it essentially as the mind you still have. A very smart, dumb, dumb, smart person. I'm never sure which.

The specialist test me for ADHD on two different scales. I fit five of the criteria. I often fail to give close attention to details. I often don't follow through on instructions. I often have difficulty organizing tasks. I often lose things. I'm often forgetful in daily activities. If this sounds like you, or lots of people you know, if it sounds kind of surprising that I was diagnosed with ADHD based on just these five criteria, you should know, according to this report, I did not have ADHD. The test said I needed six criteria. I only hit five. The specialist did not recommend medication and said I did not have the disorder. I'm sorry to bury the lead, but I found this out in fact checking last week. October 20,

is when I found out the four letters I have used to describe myself. Casually, self-deprecatingly, sometimes very seriously for 25 years, ADHD, were not entirely accurate. Instead, this specialist had a bunch of great suggestions for how I might modify the way I studied, had the teachers at my school might accommodate my weird, not quite typical brain. One-on-one instruction, extra time on tests, permission to bring a laptop to class? The problem is, I don't think anybody at that very strict school was into making a bunch of accommodations

for some annoying C student who, it turned out, didn't even have a disability. So I continued to struggle, and soon after, my parents sent me to another specialist. This was the doctor I described at the beginning of the episode. He took a lot less time. He gave me a survey, an analogy about glasses, and a diagnosis, ADHD. This story that would help explain me to myself

and help me explain myself to other people. ADHD got me the accommodations I needed in school. It forced my teachers to be a bit gentler with me. And ADHD gave me an answer to a question people close to me sometimes asked. Why do you take those pills? ADHD, I'd answer. Not knowing the truth was a weirder, longer story. Not knowing these drugs had had a long life in America before I was even born.

So Speed's history, it has been used to treat stuffy noses, depression, combat fatigue, obesity, ADD. What do you think is next? What do you think is the next disease the drug will find? Well, I think it's amazing that it found a disease after it was basically internationally banned. So, you know, there's no limit on the inventiveness of the pharmaceutical industry in its marketing endeavors. So I'm afraid I can't propose a new disease for it.

And I wouldn't want to if I had an idea. You're not trying to help the genie get out of the bottle. Yeah, well, it's out of the bottle. But, you know, attention deficit, I'm not saying that it's not a real disease. I'm saying that what makes it a real disease is the misfit between the symptoms and the signs of the condition and the expectations of society. Like, you don't have attention deficit in a place where repetitive work is not expected. Attention is not a problem unless an enormous amount of attention is required. Today, I still do a job that requires an enormous.

amount of attention. And I do it without the drug I once took to improve my focus, and which also may have increased my confidence. Off the drug, I've noticed some things. I've noticed I spend less time feeling paranoid. I spend less time thinking things are a huge deal that often aren't. I believe that I've gotten a little more thoughtful. Mainly what I noticed is I lost this feeling I'd had for years, which is that I often felt like I had the nervous system of a person who'd been stuck on a traffic-jammed freeway for several hours. So it's nice to be off the drugs, but I do have less confidence,

a lot less. I notice it. This show you're listening to, making it fills me with self-doubt. And the self-doubt, just surviving it, is absolutely the hardest part of this job. It's actually what the job is,

just sitting in a place of pressure and absorbing it without going to pieces. Everything else, the writing and the interviews and the camaraderie here, that's the reward. The pressure is the job. And without the pills, I have to do the job alone. I never learned before.

It's not easy. And because confidence is such a bad measure of ability, I will never know if I'm actually objectively better at my job off the drug or if I'm worse. We don't get answers to every question. Some we just learn to stop asking. Next week, we're going to tell you a different story. One that's not mine, somebody else's, but where prescription stimulants also star.

This is the story of a brilliant doctor who, instead of wondering why she took stimulants for 20 years, wonders why it took 20 years for her to find them. Can you just tell me the story of your brain as you understand it? Sure. My story is a little bit different, I think, than a lot of people who may be listening to this. I had a brain tumor when I was eight.

And my dad is the one who said, you're going to have to have a little operation, you know, to take something out of your brain. That's next week on Search Engine. Ambition comes in all shapes and sizes. At First Citizens Bank, we roll with your goals because we're built for what you're building. Fit for your ambition for Citizens Bank. Search Engine is a presentation of Odyssey Productions. It was created by me, PJ Vote, and Truthy Pinnam and Ani.

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