Sex With Emily - More Sex, Less Narcissism w/ Jenny Mollen

Episode Date: July 6, 2022

Jenny Mollen is the author of City of Likes, a fictional comedy about mommy influencer culture and the intensity of female friendships – especially when one of them is a narcissist. Are they obsessed with each other? Do they want to have sex with each other? And what do you do when someone’s perfectly-curated facade finally cracks? Jenny and I met years ago, and I know you’ll love her just as much as I do. Besides being a bestselling author, she’s also an actor, host of the hilarious “Third Wheel with Jenny Mollen” podcast, a mom, and wife to actor Jason Biggs. On this episode, she talks about the personal experiences with social media that inspired her book, why she wants to see a sex therapist, and helps me answer your sex and relationship questions. For example, if you’re in a relationship, is it ok to comment on someone else’s Instagram telling them how attractive they are? Jenny and I give it to you straight. Show Notes:For More Jenny Mollen: Podcast | Instagram | Twitter | Facebook | WebsiteHer New Book: City of LikesOvercoming 4 Common Sex FearsAm I Dating a Narcissist? W/ Dr Ramani  Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

All your stopping stories are freaking hilarious. And that was back when we just stuck at home. Like on Instagram, you could find out everything now, like you go out and do the work. Like, right, I did it before. You could just like easily like just cyber stalk somebody. I was in the flesh. You were stalking like real,

weren't you like in a trunk? Yeah, I was like in the bushes. I was like in your, in your driveway with my lights out. You're like OG stalker. Oh, and G. You're listening to Sex with Emily. I'm Dr. Emily and I'm here to help you prioritize your pleasure and liberate the conversation around sex.

Jenny Mullen is the author of City of Likes, a fictional comedy about mommy influencer culture and the intensity of female friendships. Especially when one of them is a narcissist. Are they obsessed with each other? Do they want to sex with each other? And what do you do when someone's perfectly curated facade finally cracks?

Jenny and I met years ago, and I know you'll love her just as much as I do. Besides being a bestselling author, she's also an actor, host of the hilarious Third Wheel with Jenny Mullen podcast, a mom and wife to actor Jason Biggs. On this episode, she talks about the personal experiences with social media that inspired her book. Why is she wants to see a sex therapist and helps me answer your sex and relationship questions? For example, if you're in a relationship,

is it okay to comment in someone else's Instagram, telling them how attractive they are? Jenny and I give it to you straight. Intentions with Emily for each episode, join me in setting an intention for the show. What do you wanna get out of this episode? How could it help you? Well my intention is to help you laugh.

Something we all need right now, right? Jenny is as real as it gets and I think you're going to love her refreshingly honest take on sex in a long term relationship and how social media shapes are real life connections. Please rate and review sex with Emily wherever you listen to the show. My new article overcoming four common sex fears is up at sexwithemily.com. Also check out my YouTube channel, social media, and TikTok. It's at Sex with Emily for more sex tips and advice. If you want to ask me questions, leave me your questions or message me, sexwithemily.com slash Ask Emily or comma outline 559 talk sex or 559 825 5739. Always include your name your age where you live and how you listen to the show and totally cool to change

your name if you want to remain anonymous. All right everyone enjoy this episode. Jenny Mullen is a writer-actor Instagram personality in New York Times best-selling author of the essay collections I like you just the way I am and live fast, die hot. Name by Havry Dumpos is one of the funniest women on both Twitter and Instagram. Her new book, City of Likes is on Bookstands Now. Find more Jenny on Instagram at JennyMolin on Twitter at JennyAnteats or on JennyMolin.com. Let me just say, I've been a fan, I met you. Like years ago, you were on Love Line with Dr. Drew,

you came in with your husband Jason Begs and your book, I think you guys, maybe you were coming on for your book. I believe it just came out, right? I like you just the way I am and I was a guest co-host, so I didn't know like I didn't get prepped ahead of time, but I went home and I like devoured your book and I loved it. I think you're such a hilarious, relatable, authentic writer and so talented. And then I, yeah, and I love you. I've been following you on Instagram.

I just love all the things that you put out there. And like during the pandemic, you're so real. Just like following you with like things that I'm like, I wish I could just go out with like my zip medicine and like everything in the back, like kids crying and vomiting. All the things and it just, you're just real and relatable and talented

and all the things. Oh, thank you. Thank you. So nice. Yeah, truly. So and relatable and talented and all the things. Thank you. Thank you. So nice. Yeah, truly. So thank you for being here on the show. Talk about your new book, which is a novel. I've only waited how many years to get on this show.

I've worked, I've been sex with Emily. I've worked about it. I think that day when I met you. And I feel like I had another couple girlfriends do your show. And I kept thinking, I'm like, I've done, I've either done it or, but yeah, it was. It was we did. I always wanted you to be ever since then because, oh, here's what happened. So I know this is a little bit of old news or old story, but you had just for

Jason's birthday hired a sex worker to have like a surprise threesome. So that was in the news. I was like, I love this girl that she did this. So I know. And you were like, oh, you were like the first person talking about vibrators and everything. Yeah. You were ahead of your time back then.

I was, I had nobody was doing that. But now that I'm everywhere, right? You buy me like Walgreens and stuff. Are you? Now like vibrators, you can like pick up with a matcha latte. You got like any wellness studio. Exactly. So true. But it would then it was like, yeah, it you could like pick up with a macho latte. He did like any wellness studio. Exactly. So true.

But it would then it was like, yeah, it was much more taboo. You pioneered that shit. Yeah, it's been a long road. And if you were here, I'd give you so many vibrators. But maybe you have vibrators. I don't know. Now, I don't know. I don't really have sex anymore.

I've once you like, I think, have been married as long as I have. You're like, what? How's that going? How does it go over? How does that go over in your relationship? Thank God I'm not married to a guy that like that's his love language. So thank God because if I were with a guy who was like we need to have sex once a week

I would be flipping the fuck out. So how often then? I mean maybe once a month. Okay. I'm proud of myself when I do. It's like going on the treadmill. I was like, damn, I am amazing. I feel it today. Okay, we'll get into that because it's like one of the top questions people ask me all the time is like, how many times a week should we have sex? What's normal? Is this okay? Is that okay? Once a week, three times a month, three times a year. And I always think if you're both okay with once a month, then...

Yeah, once a month even is like, I'm like, whoa! You're like, I mean, a rule. I made it within the month's long period. Do you like a reminder, like reminder to have some... I need that in my calendar, but I'm also about attracting my period. So who knows, I might be having sex once every three months. I don't even know. Well, as long as you're both okay with it, you've been together a long time.

We've been together 15 years. And a girlfriend of mine yesterday actually was like, when do I get to the point where I don't have to have sex once a week with this guy? Like when is that? And I thought that was interesting. I was like, well, I don't know. I mean, I just got lucky that I'm on the same page

with somebody because I can't imagine. I don't know. Maybe if I married a Scorpio, it would be different. What is it? I know you're a Gemini too. I'm a Gemini. He's a Taurus. He's very stable.

Can be stubborn. But very grounding. He ground you. Yes. He's like the Ethel to my Lucy. He's not really Dezi. He's more Ethel. But he like the Ethel to my Lucy. He's not really Dezi. He's more Ethel, but he does hold the string to my kite. Oh, I love that.

You've been through a lot because I've actually been doing a lot of like, you know, like I said, I've been following you and researching and all the things, but also just in listen, you talk about it. What I've heard you say about your relationship is and we can get back to the sex thing because people know how I feel that like I do think intimacy is important in a relationship to make sure you're collecting in your intimate. I think I do want to like see maybe like a sex therapist at some point to talk about it because I don't think that I'm good with that kind of vulnerability or intimacy.

I told Jason recently I just had Gabby Bernstein on my podcast and afterwards I was like maybe I was molested as a child. I don't know if that's true or I'm just stealing her story, but I'm just like, why so? Because why? I have issues with I don't want to be touched.

Oh, okay. It's not my love language. I mean, I will get into it. It's not my go-to. And so I'm sure there's other shit there. I also want a very sex-wise mother who was like always in a Tadashi dress and going to a happy hour with some guy somewhere. I mean it's all related. It can be. So does the

thing of you not wanting touch because you are seeing a sex therapist right now in this moment? No, but it's a thing. I mean I'm manifested this. You did you do man of us. No, but I'm curious. Like, is it something about when you're actually having sex, are you okay with the touch of the connection? Are you like, yes. And then I'm okay. I don't want to like steer into anybody's eyes, but intimacy.

It's intimacy. Yes. That's harder for you being intimate. And you're so funny and relatable and all those things that maybe that's probably humorous. I'm not a defense mechanism probably. You're not lying to actually do it anyone. But that's why having kids was a real mind-fuck because you can't help it.

You're instantly vulnerable in a way that you've never been vulnerable. And now I'm suddenly in a relationship with the type of guy that I would have never gone for. Because they play games, they toy with my emotions, they don't give me what I want. All the things I tell my girlfriends to steer clear of, now I'm living with my true sons. Yeah, your son and you birth them, they came out of your body. Yes. But going back to the touch thing, is Jason's love languages,

has it happened to be touch? I don't know. I mean, I think it's probably acts of service and validation, praise words. I think he likes to be touched. I just think he probably, you know, sometimes he does say he's like, you never like even think to like, but your hand on my shoulder. So I do need to work on it. Yeah, maybe. I mean, how are you with your kids?

I'm super physical with that. Okay. Yeah, I like, I smash their bases like I want to just like eat that. Yeah, it's the best. Yeah. I mean, I feel like nothing's really a problem until it's a problem, but I also like a seeker like you been in therapy since I was like 10. Like I want to overturn every rock every stone.

Like what is the issues that we can get into? So me like my love language is touch but if it's not yours and it's not Jason's and he's not like why aren't you touching me more it is something to like if it's not a problem and you are having sex there probably is something there that maybe when you're growing up it wasn't okay or your primary caregivers maybe seeing your mind I think we tend to overreact to react to what we saw in the past with our parents in the current moment. So maybe that was a thing, but it doesn't sound like it's coming up in a way that's a problem, but it's, I would just love you to feel more, I don't know, like the desire

thing. So do you ever feel like you are in the mood? I want to feel more like I want to get into that. Yeah, I want, I wish that I did have more of a desire to connect physically That's why I think I should go to therapy just sort of unearth like why is that? Desired to connect sexually or denied to get physically like it's all sort of related in a way I think the touch thing comes along like what I'm more interested is it's to think about like sexually when you guys first got together at the beginning, which we know the whole thing phase, everything's like always amazing at the beginning,

but were you guys having sex a lot more often? Was it more? Yeah, probably. Yes, in the beginning, but there was also drugs. I mean, we were wild. We were so crazy. I got pregnant. We were on ecstasy. It was like a lot of things went down in the beginning, but then eventually we moved into the space where we just like to sit on the couch and eat pirate's booty and hate watch the bachelor. Which is also fun. He's also so intimate. Yeah. Do you ever feel any of the desire anymore in your bar like do you ever like masturbate or feel turd on by anything other things besides Yeah Yes, yes, but some more like when I'm having a hard time going to sleep Things like that. I'm like, oh maybe I should masturbate to make myself like calm down or fall asleep

That works it totally does work. How about intimacy Beyond just like intercourse, right? Which is what we, which I actually am trying to like take the focus off. We're also focused on like, well, we did it. We had penetrative sex and that's it. But that's from the majority. How do I use for the majority of vulva owners? That's not how we're even going to have the most pleasure. So it's through intimacy and connection. Like how often you guys just do feel that you're just like holding hands, cuddling, watching TV like that. Yes. When we're away from our children, we're very physical and touchy and kind of huggy.

And, you know, I feel like we hold hands when we walk and that kind of thing. So I think children also change the dynamic, where it's almost as if we're on the same basketball team and I'm passing to him, he's passing to me. There isn't a lot of time for the intimacy When we're on in that way. Yeah, then you've young kids, right? How old are the boys? I have an eight-year-old and a four-year-old How do you put any time for anything? That's the other thing. It's that like you literally have no time You've got their boys. I understand that you've no time

But how is your relationship because I was listening to a show you did. You're like, Jason and I, we like text our couples therapists. You know, we were like, you have a therapist that you work with. Yes. We've been with since we first got together. Beth Becker, in LA, actually.

OK. She's fantastic. If anybody needs a couples therapist. What's her name? She was like, what do you bring me up? Her name is Beth Becker. Okay. And these days she's in the LA. She's like, right, but her office is like off that really glender area. You have the therapist that you go to like once a week? We will, when we're good, we're going once a week. And then sometimes what happens is we will be

busy and miss a week and then think that we're killing it. We're like, we don't need therapy right now. We're just so strong as a couple. We evolved, and then inevitably something will happen, usually something with the kids, we're at each other's throats, and it's like, what do you call Beth Becker, if you really want to talk to me about that?

If we triangulate her in that way, and then she'll receive a text from one of us or both of us, and we get back on the wagon. But that's super healthy. I think that you have someone to talk to about it, but if the sex is something that I don't want to get, they don't know how couples do it without therapy. I really do not want anybody to stay together

without therapy. It's a requirement. Well, tell me how it's worked for you. Okay, so this is where I always have a huge advocate of therapy always. I'm like, I think every couple needs it right away to communicate, to understand like everything in the relationship. Like when you get into arguments and all the things in life and you start to build a relationship

with the therapist over time and with each other and you have homework and all the things. And so I think that's really healthy. But maybe you could talk about it after 15 years. You've been instance to beginning. How would you describe how therapy has helped your relationship? Well, it's shifted my perspective. I mean, I used to think that I couldn't be wrong or that my reality was correct.

And that's what's so insane is that the way you perceive something being done to you doesn't mean that it's actually happening to you at all. And we sit there and say, oh my God, you know, you put the narrative on them of like, it's triggered your own childhood shit. So you feel like you can finish the end of the sentence before you even listen to them. And you're reacting to things that, you know, it's almost like that A.A saying, if it's hysterical, it's historical. So most often, it isn't even about

the person you're fighting with. But you're like ready to die on that mountain over something like some perceived offense to you that probably has to do with your childhood shit, not even what's going on in the moment with you and your partner. It took me a long time to realize that. Can you give an example of what's happened lately? It'll be something about Jason is away

and I have the kids and he's working you know on a movie or something and I'm stuck in and Gwila with food poisoning with the kids they're raging they're going crazy I don't know what I'm gonna do how am I gonna get home I'm out of the country I can't move and I'm upset with him because he either like isn't listening to me. Instead of saying, oh, Jenny, it must be so hard, which we're going through, he's getting offended because he wants to be the good boy.

So he has that stuff of like, Mommy's mad at me and I need to defend because I've done nothing wrong. So he's shutting down when what I'm looking for is, I need to be heard, I need to be seen, I feel abandoned, it's triggering my abandonment shit, and by you pushing away and defending yourself, I'm feeling that injury over and over again. So we get into the same lock that we can't kind of break free

of until somebody points it out to us. That's good, that's exactly it. We're all being re-chirred from our childhood. Re-chirred, yes! Every moment, Every moment. It's so true, abandonment. That's one of my feelings as well. Give me a historical. It's historical, people. We love all the AA sayings. And I also love fear, false evidence appearing real. So many great things.

Yes. So many great A. Quence, what are the other ones I always quote? But that's it. Because Jason Sober, right? Yeah, he's been Sober now for, I mean, basically all of Sid's life. And that has been made. That's like played such a big role in our relationship. I mean, I can't even imagine co-parenting with somebody who had a problem and was still

using. That would be tricky. I don't know if we can handle that either. But we often create, right, in a new relationship. Early on in the relationship is everything's new and exciting and it's novel and like I've never seen this person take it. I've never kissed this person before like there's a new fantasy. There's something new, but you're with someone for 15, 10, 15 years and like it's all kind of the same and you're in your routines. And so what we often need is that novel thing.

And so you guys are kind of in your pattern. So is there conversations you can have? Is there, you know, while I was going back to the thing, what about the three of some that you had? Now that was a while ago, before children, but was that something? And I knew it ended up being like a joke, but there is something to that.

Like even if it just, I thought, yeah, I was like, I kind of again, I thought like, oh, this could be fun. This is something like,. Even if it just, I thought, yeah, I was like, I kind of again, I thought, oh, this could be fun. This is something like, I was trying to be wild and fun because we had just gotten married and that sort of, there is a bit of like, just like, inner ratio of self, like in getting married and having babies, like for women. And I felt like, I wanted to still be me and my crazy Jenny and fun. And I thought, well, this is something that

might spice it up and make it interesting. And then it became just like a comedy of errors. Yeah. But it wasn't like a fantasy of you guys aren't like, oh, I really want to, that's not like a lingering thing that you'd want to have a three-sem or have someone else in the relationship right now We're just trying to be guys have sex right? no It feels like a lot of work now like if there was somebody else involved that even I think about people who are having affairs and I think

Jesus that sounds like a lot of fucking work. If somebody else needed anything from me right now, what like, listen, I've got two kids. I work full time. You do. I think it's all so much. You know, it's so much. If you, yeah, I feel like you want me to go down on you too.

I'm sorry, I'm trapped out. I don't want like another penis that's making demands in my life living that's the last thing you do. It's or vagina, both. I'm like, guys, I don't have it in me. I don't want like another penis that's making demands in my life. Living that's the last thing. It's or vagina. Both. I'm like, guys, I don't have it in me. I'm done. Well, you guys seem really so. Like even just watching where I see online and all the things. I mean, what I just love is that you have a couch or on place and you work on it. So to me, that's really to do the work. I mean, that's the thing about Jason and I and that's why I feel like I never get scared about our

relationship. Even though we've definitely been through dark times. I don't ever think we're not going to make it because one, we're both super determined when we put our minds to things we don't like to fail, but also we are willing to change. We're willing to do the work and change ourselves. We're not just expecting the other person to like, clean up their act to fit into our schedules. So you keep making each other like the best versions of yourself throughout this?

Yes. That's really what about healthy relationship is. I mean, it's hard that he drives me absolutely fucking crazy and I drive him crazy. So I don't want to like, you know, make it sound like it's easier than it actually is. It is really fucking hard, but we do love each other and I don't know. I just feel like I got lucky with who I chose on a lot of levels. And you were so, yay, you were young too, right?

You guys met? Yes. I was so young. We were on drugs. We were like wild, but there is something about Jason that I just, I was so young, we were on drugs, we were like wild, but there's something about Jason that I just, I don't know, I just knew. I mean, to his core, I feel like he is my twin flame.

We're so different, but we have so much of the same, our, our just like our belief system is so similar. And your values and all that. Our values are really good. And that really helps you kind of flourish in your, in your life and your career. And that's always be worrying about, is it going to last? Is it not? Oh, yeah. And he's so much better than me about like my career. I mean, the ego strength that this guy has is insane.

I literally have made a career out of talking shit about him, stalking his ex girlfriend, raging about the fact that he's famous and I'm not. And that was literally how I started my fucking writing career. And he has done nothing but support me every step of the way. He shows up. He'll do anything. He'll read my shit over and over again. He's just better than me.

That is just so loving. Well, that is an ego thing, but he's just very confident. And who is he? He's just so confident. But Jenny, you come across this so confident too. I look at you and I wish I could do, because I've been sort of off of social media, like lately, like in my personal life, just sort of been, I don't know, regrouping and less doing stuff like that.

But I'm like, sometimes I just want to be like, this is what's going on in my life. Now that I'm saying I'm something other than I am to get to your book, get to your book in a minute, set of likes, which is all about like curating a certain image online. But I guess I look at you and think, confidence is an aspect of them, but always, we're always changing, but very confident, like self-assured. I mean, that's so sweet. I think the thing about me is that I don't feel, I don't have a button that I don't know how to hide my truth.

I don't think I know how to sort of modulate what is happening, but I'm saying what's coming out, what I'm presenting. I've always come from a place of like, we're all fucked up. And I don't know if you feel that way too. Having been in therapy since you were a kid. I just feel like everyone's family is dysfunctional. Everyone has these things.

So talking about them, why should I feel shame? I feel almost when I'm open about that stuff, I'm able to disarm people. And when I was younger I was talking I just did this this podcast with busy Phillips who she was my like arch rival in high school. I mean we were pitted against each other for many years and our lives have woven in and out of each other's forever and she said I always looked at you and thought of you as being so perfect and that your life must be this and you must be that. And for me, I think that also my like brutal honesty growing up was my way of saying, I'm not fucking together.

My shit is crazy. My parents have been married into first six times, but you just seem like this innocent little blonde girl and people think, oh, your life's so easy, or dad pay for college, whatever it is. And I just, I needed to really make sure that it was clear that I am other from that. I didn't wanna be lumped into that. I need to, everyone to know that I am the grendle figure of Tribeca. Like,

I'm not those moms. I'm not like, pulling it all off. I don't know. It's just a need to really disclose my truth in order to feel accepted. After the break, Jenny and I answered email from who's wondering if she should read into her partner's social media use. I would love you to help me answer some questions that we get from listeners. I'd love to get your advice, help us along here. We get a lot of questions, so I thought some of these would be fun for us to answer.

Okay? Great. This is from 31 in San Francisco. Hey, Dr. Emily, dating during social media era isn't easy. I've been with my boyfriend for almost a year and we have a pretty good relationship despite Instagram. Recently, I found he commented on a girl's post that she was still pretty AF, despite a horrible event that left her toothless. He has liked a few other posts of her and she's a pretty girl.

There's so many beautiful women so I can't blame him for feeling the need to look at them or follow them. Women are very beautiful and are overly sexualized, which is not his fault and for men it can be hard not to be curious. I want to know should I stay calm as long as he's not physically cheating. I know it's unrealistic sometimes for individuals not to be curious or flirt. I think that personally this is going to happen with Instagram. Your partner is going to comment on something and you got to talk to him about it and to say this is how it makes me feel or in a

committed relationship when I see you commenting. It doesn't feel right. It kind of hurts. This is what makes me feel and I don't think that your intention. Could you tell me more about what goes on in your head when you're making these comments? Well, it comes up for you, Jenny. I would flip the fuck out. I would be like, listen, you're done.

You're done. You're commenting on other people's pages. I can't be with you. I would just be like, think about like how like that one looks for me. That's just like mortifying. I don't want somebody that I'm in a relationship with to be like, you're still pretty as AF to somebody else. I'd be like, okay.

That's intense. Those are fucking rolled dude. You know, I just just too much. It's just not a good look. It wasn't just like a like. It was a, you're still pretty. Yeah, that's over the, yeah. That is over the top.

No, that's a good point. So you just address it right away. Yes. I think she's being too kind to him. I a you're still. Yeah, that's over the yeah, that is a top. No, that's a good point. So you just address it right away. Yes, I think she's being too kind to him. I think you're right. Now I'm looking back. I'm like, yeah, I feel like at one point I went on Jason's Instagram and I was like, you don't need to be following this person. You know, like he wasn't even around, but I was just going through people he follows

and deleting. I don't even know who knows. We honest, he doesn't know how to use it that well. So he does it. He hasn't missed them, so I think I made the right choice. How has it impacted your relationship to social media? Has it or does it? Oh yeah, I mean it has for sure.

I was calling him Jayden on my Instagram for a while and he didn't like it. He was like, it's rude to me. It's disrespectful. How do you not see that? And so certain things he gets upset because he'll think that I've just crossed a line. But you know what, Jason's tolerance is so high. He has let me publish two books where I basically talk

all about my obsession with his ex-girlfriend and with it's using a fake identity to befriend her. I mean, he has put up with so many shenanigans and lets me get away with murder, to be honest. So when he has a problem with something, I slow my role because it's just rare. All your stocking stories are freaking hilarious. And that was back when we just stuck at home.

Like on Instagram, you could find out everything and I was like, you go out and do the work. Like, right, I did it before. You could just like easily just cyber stalk somebody. I was in the flesh. You were stalking like real, were you like in a trunk? Yeah, I was like in the bushes.

I was like in your, in your fucking driveway with my lights out. You're like, oh gee, stalker. Oh, gee. Yes. My head goes off too, because like really like, oh, gee, stalker. Oh, gee. Yes. My head goes off to you because like really like dead. Now we just we're just lazy. We're just lazy. We're not doing the work.

We're not doing the work at all. And so like, oh my god, daddy, that's I love it. You just call it out. Yep. That is cool. I think you got to just call it out. Call out your partner. Unfollow if it's not cool and like let your partner know how you feel Because would you be cool if somebody even your boyfriend said that to a girl right in front of you?

No, I'll be like throw a drink on him That's a really great analogy to think like would you do that if we were at a party? Would you go up and say yeah? Still hot it if would you would you do that exactly? You probably would exactly think about it Okay, I love that. Okay. This is from Terry 53. It's a man He says this doctor Emily my girlfriend. I've been together for two and a half years. We have a strong connection. We love each other, but it's been tough for 12 plus months. My dad died a year ago and I fell apart, leaning on her too hard for too long. In January, she was struggling with demanding work kids

and their activities and asked me to get my shit together, which I've been actively doing. Therapy, working out, reading, journaling. Our sex life dropped off at that point and has not fully recovered. Over the past two months, I've done a lot of work and feel much better. My girlfriend is still struggling as admitted that she feels overwhelmed and burned out, and there's nothing left for herself or me. Here's the question. I know she will masturbate sometimes rather than have sex.

She doesn't throw it in my face, but I feel jealous. I've asked her to tell me about it because it turns me on. Hell, I masturbate too, and I'd love to do it in front of her. Should I feel jealous or rejected when she uses her vibe rather than waiting to have wanting to have sex, I'm assuming it's her way of self-care, what do you think? Hmm. I mean, I would say no. I definitely think they're two different things. One is self-care and then the other is intimacy. We're circling back to the beginning of our

session. I mean, yeah, I think one is, you know, she's doing it to come down and to have like a moment for herself. And the other is a bit more performative and making more of an effort for him. So I think they're totally two different things. I get that he wants that connection with her and I think it's sweet, but I actually think that he should just honor her time for herself as well.

Yeah, absolutely. I mean, here's a thing you guys, you know, listening to this show, like masturbation is part of being sexually healthy and well. And it probably is self soothing. It's making her feel connected to herself. We all probably could masturbate a lot more. So I feel like, um, sounds like he feels like he pushed her away because of the death and everything he's going through. So he just needs to find a way to connect with her again intimately. And what I would recommend here is like, what about some,

you know, mutual masturbation, which I might recommend for you to Jenny because it's interesting okay mutual masturbation which people are like oh that's weird I don't want to see my partner masturbate but these might work and it can be hot it's because you know that you're both gonna get off you don't have to touch anyone else but yourself right but you might like but also it's like hot to watch your partner please, but also you know what's a short thing, but you also kind of see what they do, and you might know this because you've been with Jason for a long time.

I'm like, for me, when I'm with a new partner, I'm like, oh, I didn't know that your hand goes up and over the tip like that, so now and I'm getting a job. It's educational. I'm like, oh, you grab your balls. Well, clearly I'll grab your balls the next time I give you a job.

So you learn from it. And it's sort of, it's still intimate. And you're both having an orgasm. Yeah, I like that. That's sweet. Yeah, it is sweet. And also sex begets sex. So the other thing I would say, that's true. I agree with you. Like, I even though it's my job, like if I don't have sex, or I don't masturbate, like I, sometimes I don't care either. It doesn't hit us over the head. And it's what we think. It should be this spontaneous desire. Like I should just want sex. And the fact that I don't want sex means something's wrong with me. But the thing is we have to

work at it, especially like, and I would say the older we get, but it's I used to always say that, but the truth is I hear from women in their 20s who are like, I'm in my part over three years, and I don't care if we ever have sex again. Yeah, exactly. Yeah. Right? Like or we're on medication or birth control, or there's all these things that dampen our arousal and our desire. So what I think is really cool is to think about like, is sex important? Is it important to be a rouse? Is it important? And orgasms like, yes, I love my partner. So to put things in place, like saying, like, let's just masturbate together, you know, it's going to happen.

It's an intimate thing and the more you have it or you're like, oh yeah, orgasm. I kind of like that. And so like, I was fun. Yeah, I forget to say it's my job. I'm like, oh yeah, yeah, I got to do that. And then I want more. It's like working out. Like if you don't work out for a while. Yes. And then you're like getting back to the gym the first time. it sucks. Oh my God, you're like, what's the sit up? Right, exactly. And you're like, I did three sit ups, and it's great, but then with sex, it's kind of the same thing. Cause then, and then the more time that goes by,

it's harder to get back to the gym, and it's harder to get back to sex. So true. It's a muscle. So I recommend going back to a part of any of you, it's something, you know, it's kind of fun to think like, talk to her and say, I think it's, I don't think it's hot that it's she masturbates because you think it's hot.

Terry, you do think it's hot. You said it was masturbate. You think it's hot. And so rather than like, you know, just saying, like, I would love to watch you masturbate. Let's do it together. And then that just breaks the whole thing that she's feeling bad about herself.

Are you afraid about it threatened? Cool. Okay. Thanks. Let's talk about city likes from it. Tell me about this because it is more about the mom influencer that you kind of got your character and the book gets into, but then also about I love to about narcissistic female relationships. I've never, narcissism is totally having a moment now where love's time on narcissists, but about narcissists friendship. I thought all of it was very interesting. It's great concepts stick female relationships. But I've never, narcissism is totally having a moment. Now, everyone loves Taiwan-Narsis, but about Narsis' friendship, I thought all of it was very interesting. It's great concepts that your tackle is.

Well, you've been a lump of book because if you know me, you're gonna see me in it. You're gonna be like, oh, I mean, it's a novel, but it is so Jenny. And like I, I mean, so many of the issues that I get into in it, it's just all of my darkest fears.

It's like my most personal, vulnerable truths, things that like, I don't think I could have written this book as a memoir because I don't know one. I would have been afraid that I would have hurt my husband and my family with some of the things I disclosed. And two, I would have been driven out of New York City because of like the people that I'm going after and kind of like scurrying. So I knew it had to be fiction, but I didn't know how to write fiction. I didn't know what I was doing. I wrote the book. It took about a year to write it. It took out the pitch. It didn't sell. I had to pull it off the market. I then had to go rewrite it. I took another

year to rewrite it because I can't let something sit in the drawer. Can I just get become psychotic? I do seem to be fueled by rejection in some weird fucked up way where if somebody tells me no or I can't have it, I feel like, oh, now the story's getting good. Like, now here I am, the hero against insurmountable odds. Like, this is the story that I want to tell. Like, this is the story that I want to see, like this is the story that I want to see to fruition.

So I just doubled down on that shit and it took it out a year later and still was not getting the kind of feedback I wanted because now at this point people are like, who wants a book about social media? That's terrible. And privilege women in Lower Manhattan, I think that might read as tone deaf in a post-COVID world.

So people were scared and I just was at the point where I said, I'm gonna publish it myself if I have to. This is my truth and this is the story that I really needed somebody to tell me to be perfectly honest. And that is what happened. I ended up finding a producer who had never published books before, who had never published books

before, who had an imprint. And he said, OK, let's do it. I believe in you. I don't mean chicklit. I don't know. But I believe in you. Let's go for it. Well, that's amazing.

Congratulations. Go on for it. I love that determination of it. Tell me about the story, though. The story is about this young mom who moves to Manhattan. She's in the throes of postpartum. She's just had her second child. She doesn't know what she's going to do with her life.

She's debating, you know, how does she get back into the game? How does she find herself? How is she going to also be the mom show is wanted when she didn't have the mom show is wanted? So there's just a lot of doubt and a lot of insecurity. And she ends up meeting this hugely successful mommy influencer who kind of takes her under her wing and shows her Manhattan from that point of view

where she's going to weddings, branded dog weddings, and underground mommy supper clubs and fashion week crazy, you know, Parisian vacations and so her life gets turned upside down and she really gets like engulfed by this woman who is an artist and the dynamic, it's like I see it a lot in YA novels, these like obsessive friendships, but I don't see it in lot in YA novels. These like obsessive friendships, but I don't see it in adult women's fiction. And I really wanted to talk about what happens when you fall under the spell of a narcissist

because nothing feels better than when they shine their light on you. You're like, I'm mommy's favorite. She chose me, I'm the one. And that just high is so addictive But when they like goes out on you when you stop feeding them. It's just like you're completely It's just eviscerating And so I've had those relationships and they've taken me out of my life and my relationship and my family and

I've had to face a couple things like my addiction to this need for external validation and also My own codependency and so I really wanted to talk about that in the book I really wanted to like get into what that is and like do they want to fuck each other? Maybe that could be part of it. That could be do they suggest to want to be You know best friends do they want what is it? But you almost don't know because like as women we date each other. Do we even really know?

No. You want to be them. You want to engulf them. You want to like swallow that person whole. So the thing about the nurses though, friendship is just, and nurses have been general. So let's just talk about that because I know you also said you had a nurses mother, I nurses family, a lot of them.

But with the friendships, it's like, how does that look and how can we avoid that? You said you cut it off because they say like you're cutting off the narcissistic supply when you stop giving it to them, but like, what did you learn from that? Well, I still do it and it's like, it's crazy because I've spent my life judging women

who let men treat them like shit or who will jump through hoops for a man or you know whatever it is and I've always been so judgmental like pull your life together why would you spend one second in that kind of a relationship and I was almost like this like stepping outside the matrix moment when I was at my book launch and I was kind of going off about this female friend and my publicist looks at me and she's like, well, you'll be friends with her again. You'll do it again. We're gonna have the same conversation all over again. And I thought to myself, oh my God,

I am that girl. I just do it with women. So I think I do have a pattern of it and I've collected these narcissists. I collect like mean mommy types, because I want some desperately to like, win my own mother over. I want to have this corrective experience. I'm seeking it out. This book is me sort of tackling that issue, but I can't, I couldn't possibly sit here and tell you that I'm healed.

I just maybe have psychically killed these women in my books. So they know who they are though. I know you said you'd have to move. But do they think they know they are? No, I don't think so. I don't think nurses to see themselves, which is amazing, which makes them so fun to write. They're so fun.

They just be so happy that they're even maybe in the book. Oh my God. My mom says, like, don't believe everything you've read. Because you're on. Now, if you want to. You're on it. You're right. That's the thing that is so, so interesting. Because you're well. You lost it. You're right. That's the thing.

That is so, so interesting. They don't know. They don't really care. Like, they don't really understand it. But it's like, I think it's just really healthy. Like, you're kind of working out yourself in the books and the codependencies, another thing. How did you explain your codependency? We try to talk about it.

It's such a harder concept because there's a narcissist and the codependent. I think we need more language around it too because I think narcissism is also a spectrum. Well, my therapist always says she's like, you're the least codependent codependent I've ever met because I never invested in Jason's drinking. I was like, kill yourself. I mean, if you're just going to drink like I didn't like get I didn't start making it about me or you know, his drinking is hurting me. He just one day told me he wanted to be sober and I't like, I didn't, he start making it about me or, you know, his drinking is hurting me. He just one day told me he wanted to be sober and I was like, okay, but I've never attached to that in any way, which I don't know why.

But Jason and I are both kind of co-dependents, which is interesting and is a place of really a fun. So there isn't really narcissism, which is co-dependent. I have that too. Oh my god, that's so funny. This is the relationship I'm in now. I hadn't really thought about that, but's a fun, So there is a really narcissism, just codependence. I have that too. Oh my God, that's so funny. This is the relationship I'm in now. I hadn't really thought about that, but that's kind of what it is.

Because we're not, we're both, yeah, a little bit codependent. How do you handle that? Well, I'm like, tell me about you. Don't tell me about me. Tell me about you. Talk about you right now. Don't talk about like, well, I'm not doing anything to you, actually.

So like, that's a lot of our conversations when we're fighting. It seems like it's healthy. I like this. I mean, I'm sort of down with your whole thing. Do you enjoy this process of writing the book? I loved writing the book. I loved it. When I was writing the book, I was like, this is what I was meant to do. Like, this is truly what I was meant to do. But I hated the math of trying to figure out how to write a novel. I went from writing nonfiction and short stories to writing a story that had to last 300 pages.

That was tricky. They helped once I had an editor come in and say, like, no, you need to earn this decision. Because in memoir, you don't have to earn your moves. You're like, I went to Morocco to meet the women who wove the rug in my house. Because I thought that they might have answers for me. You don like, I went to Morocco to meet the women who wore the rug in my house because I thought that they might have answers for me. You don't need to like earn that. You're just like,

well, that's just Jenny being fucking Jenny. But in the novel, it's like, if a woman's like about to like cheat on her husband and like sleep with this other woman, you kind of have to earn that. I'm going to ask you Jenny next. The five questions we ask all of our guests. There are quicky questions. Okay, ready? Very quick. What's your biggest turn on?

I think my biggest turn on is somebody who's in control and can get something done. I love a guy that speaks another language that I either speak or don't speak. I think it's so hot. I love feeling like, oh, he's got this handled. Biggest turn off. Cheap.

When somebody's cheap. So not hot. What makes good sex? That makes good sex. That is a good question. I don't actually know. So what makes good sex? Honestly, usually I would say sex with somebody

you don't know at all, like a stranger. Not that I've had that in years, but I just remember that was so exciting and fun because you literally don't know the person. I probably, Jason, I want to open a place where people just go in and have sex with robots. He's like, I think that's a whole prostitution just like, but doesn't it sound great?

You have to have no emotional connection. You can just like hook up. Yes, that exists. Robots, you know, sex workers. Yeah, because that spontaneous was saying earlier when I was trying to third wise you, it's that newness. That's why it's so hard at the beginning because spontaneous, it's new.

You don't know what's happening. It's new, but also I don't have to be like intimate. Like they don't know me. That's like why for me, it was always safer. This could be a hot thing for you guys to fantasize about together. Okay. I mean, that actually make it happen,

but like watch porn together when that happens. That's true. It's like it happens. These are just the little sparks. Okay, something you would tell your younger self about sex and relationships. I would say have more sex and have more relationships. I think for so long I thought,

I'd not get involved with this person or like, because I only wanted to be involved with people that I thought I could be in a real relationship with. And so there were a lot of missed opportunities for me. I have a going back now. I feel like, why didn't I just like, fuck that guy? Or a girl or whatever it was, like, why did I, why was I like, I'm too good for this? You know? I want to circle back fuck that guy. Or a girl, or whatever it was. Like, why did I, why was I like,

I'm too good for this? You know? I want to circle back to that a minute. What's the number one thing you wish everyone knew about sex? I don't know. What, I don't know. I feel like I, there's so much for me to learn. I don't know.

I'm sure no. I communicate about it, talk about it, I think. Yeah. Got it. Can we go back to something you just said, so what do you think kept you from just doing it then? Like in your just having sex with someone because I like it, you know, for me, I thought of sex in like sort of a negative way based on the fact that my mom was so sexualized and was constantly sleeping with people.

And I just saw it like I don't want to be that. I don't want to be her and I don't want to have a bunch of boyfriend's or, you know, girlfriends, whatever it was. I don't want to be that promiscuous or that easy in a way. Like I looked down on her for like giving herself over to people is like how I saw it. I was like, ugh, you know, I'll never be like that. And so I was sort of snobby in a weird way. And now I'm like, why didn't I just, I mean, for my own pleasure, why was I depriving myself?

Yeah, that's so interesting. Because the message is you got, well, I think going again, circling back this, the message is you got it on sex were really confusing. And so by having no mom, she was so sexual in front of you. And since there was no sex education, no one was telling us about what it meant

to be sexually empowered or sex positive or that it was okay for women to have pleasure. And it was okay for us. Oh, right. We grew up in a time where it was like, that we couldn't ask what we want, that it was more about the men asking us for. Yes.

And so it was a different time. All of the men, like, and I just like, resented the men because they took my mom away from me. So I was just like, fuck that. You know, I just didn't want anything to do with it. And so you went the other direction, which it sounds to me like now that we're talking that there is probably a lot about your really early interpretations of sex in the home. Then you just went the other direction.

You're like, I'm not even going to be sexual. I'm not going to have me. I'm not going to be that. Yeah. I don't know if you've ever done any stuff around that, but that is probably something that again, this stuff gets locked in at such a young age that might have kept you from like family systems therapy. Yes, that's such good stuff too.

I love all of that. But the family stuff is really interesting, so it sounds like maybe something got lodged in there that's sort of not allowed you to really Feel your the depths of your most like sexual self because there's something that got linked in it was like you can't be sexual You know, we all have to get you full Exactly Thank you Jenny So much for having me. I'm so glad we finally got to do this. I know me too I'm really excited tell people can find people can find you. They can find the book.

I'll be when we meet. Yes, I'm not telling you what my podcast is called Love Me, I'll Like Benny Mullen. Yes, I need to have you on. Will you be in LA at all? I'm not gonna be in New York this summer. But we need to be. I'm coming to LA.

I have an event at the grow on July 11th. Jenny Mullen on Instagram in the book is City of Likes. I'm so happy for you. Really, congratulations. I would love to meet you and see it. I would love to be on your show. Be honest. Okay, please. I'm gonna contact you. Okay. Thank you so much. Thank you so much. I appreciate your time. Have a good night. Bye you too. Bye. That's it for today's episode. See you on Friday. Thanks for listening to Sex with Emily.

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