Smoke Sesh - abundance, psychics & vibrators

Episode Date: June 17, 2025

hello and happy Tuesday! excited to be back with you all and talk everything that's on your mind, we talk what I've been up to, manifestations, abundance, apartment living, how to attract what you desire, apprenticeships, going vegetarian, sixty nine, new favorite CBD, getting outside, advice for the men out there, psychics and who can you trust, color of the summer, disconnected from your parter and life, saving money this summer, vibrators, porn addiction in relationships, help I feel evil, how to act normal when you're not and much much more! this is a fun episode so hope you all enjoy as much as I have, if you want to see more from me join the patreon at patreon.com/smokeseshshawty and submit your questions every week to my instagram at hannahmarlene, chat soon! MUAH

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Travel back in time with us, and actually travel with us at westjet.com slash 30 years. Listen, everybody needs a fairy godmother, you know? just somebody to look out for them some people call me their fairy smoke mother others their internet big sister but you can call me hannah the host of smoke sash so come hang out let's light up and talk everything there is to life the good the bad the ugly the embarrassing i've got a story for it all hello hotties of the world welcome back to another sexy little fun episode of smoke sesh my name is hannah your host and i'm very excited to be back with you all on this hot as hell tuesday oh my god summer is getting hotter every single year what the fuck what the

fuck i feel like when it was like 80 degrees i was like all right maybe summer is perfect and amazing and there's a cool breeze no no no no no no no these midwest summers girls they get hot and steamy so I have kind of just been enjoying the last little bits of cooler weather that we've had my parents currently oh my god living the dream life and you know what I am so thankful to have the parents that I do have because they really show me what hard work dedication to your life does and how it pays off they're like I think they just turned 60 so still very very young and they are in Sicily for the past two and a half weeks staying at the White Lotus Hotel hopping around island to island going hiking on volcanoes you know drinking Aperol spritzes and

skipping their way through Italy and Greece okay okay jealous very jealous um but also you guys go out there and have all the fun that you can because my god did I not put them through hell in my teenage years they deserve a fucking break that's for sure so I've been watching their dog and like staying at their place half the time and honestly it's been really nice having to like wake up early in the mornings i know with my cat very simple wake up outside time feed him he's cats are so simple love that for us but with dogs you know they need a little bit more effort they got energy she's still a baby she's like three so she's a little crackhead running around um so it is nice to wake up early and go on a long walk to pause in the afternoons and to

go walk for like a mile and then also in the evenings to just get outside it really has made me feel like I'm participating more in the summer and makes me feel like I'm getting outside more so I am gonna kind of miss when they get home the fact that I won't be going on these long long walks but being forced to integrate them into my routine has me wanting to do it more and to just be outside a little bit more like fuck it I don't care if it's hot I don't care if I'm sweating throw your hair up put a tank top on bitch and just like get outside walk it out it really is nice especially for maybe the overactive thinkers if you're like me and you are just way too in your head walking is perfect bilateral stimulation it helps you process your

thoughts your feelings in a calm smooth manner also helps you exert a little bit of energy if you feel like you kind of hype yourself up a little bit too much and yeah just really great really great I understand you know the grandmas who are out walking every single night and at 6 a.m every morning I understand why that has been such a big part of their life and why they do it now previously I was like y'all are crazy now I'm like I will be that 80 year old walking laps around the park every single day so that's been really nice I'm not gonna spoil some things just like life things but pretty big manifestations coming my way what's so funny if you guys want the key to manifesting it's release release okay you don't need to grasp and hold and drive so hard

towards something sometimes all you need to do is kind of like sit back relax and trust in yourself in the universe it's so funny how these things happen when I was apartment hunting three years ago or whatever when I first moved into this place in June um I was so gung-ho like touring 10 places a week going crazy oh my god I'm trying to find the perfect place none of them are working out or they're getting rented too fast blah blah blah and then finally I was like I'm done you know I'm just I need a break I've been going hard for like a couple months took a week off and was just like randomly driving to a coffee shop one morning and came across a sign boom moved into this beautiful lovely luxurious apartment and to be fair house hunting has kind of gone the same way

I know last episode I was like I give up on house hunting I'm over it I just I spent the past five six months two years honestly looking for places and you know touring oh this is rented oh this sold blah blah blah so i gave up and then finally i was like you know what let me check zillow not a lot comes up that often but fuck it let me pull it up two days ago and this i'm not even i don't want to spoil it because with adhd mind i feel like when you speak of something too early sometimes you are you get the instant dopamine boost of speaking about it and then you are less qualified to go after those things because you feel like it's already come to fruition so pro tip for my my adhd girlies who like to jump the gun or spill the beans too fast um sometimes it's important to

keep things to yourself a little bit especially if you have not completed that goal and you are trying to get to that place you know keep it till you to yourself until it comes to fruition and then speak on it so then you don't you know get that dopamine boost and then not go after things house hunting is a little bit different you know but yesterday i spent my time touring this absolutely fucking insane house like i like fairy tale storybook dream house has a literal like green house cottage house in the back for doing art two-car garage private driveway third of an acre like storybook dream house and I was like with my realtor and I'm like I you know what can you please can we try can we just try can we try please can we can we talk to some banks can

we try and figure something out the previous owner there was an artist and so funny about realtors they are snoopy they are snoopy they really are my realtor is like this gay man who owns a ton of amazing like gorgeous properties in kansas city and so he's like what's going on like why are we selling this house like this house is gorgeous you know did someone die like what happened and so we're like they're like in the process of moving out and we're like opening closets checking things out and i think it's like this older couple who are both artists and they are getting a divorce so thus the house is needing to be sold and you know what i was like put a word in there that it's going to another artist maybe maybe they'll want to sell that to

another artist instead of just like some random couple you know like let's put a story out there let's do all that we can so fingers crossed we will see I'm trying not to get my hopes up but oh my god I toured this place and I was like I can completely imagine myself here and with manifestations it really is like you have to release control and just like visualize and understand that the place that you want to end up you will end up period you're gonna get there no matter what but it's not worth like grasping and gripping and rushing and you know having that attachment because attachment's not going to provide what you need it's honestly going to probably cause a little bit more suffering than you need you really just need to take it one step

at a time visualize where you want to go and trust in yourself that each step that you do take will get you to the exact place that you need to be so that's what I've been doing I've been doing a lot of mood boarding and pinteresting and pinning and visualization I do get a little weird and freaky with the witchcraft sometimes especially when I'm like really maybe pining after something or I really want to give a gift to the universe um so if you're trying to attract anything like house home anything involving money money bowl is the way to go honestly if you need a good spell a money bowl is fantastic somewhere where you can kind of just keep adding things adding gifts adding herbs adding candles somewhere to pray over specifically regarding wealth and money

it's a great tool if you would like to have like a full recipe of it i did post it on my pin or not pinterest patreon patreon.com smoke says shawty i love my patreon girlies i've been sharing a lot of spills on there recently as well so best believe i prayed over that fucking money bowl last night and also i was kind of doing some research in the witchcraft forums and multiple women suggested to me to and this is fucking crazy this is when the weirdo witchcraft comes in but when a girl is desperate she's willing to do what it takes apparently I sound insane saying this but I know if I go do it that it'll work out for me which is crazy but if you essentially like pee on the property I know I know then it does kind of emphasize like

territorial aspects and claiming of the property i know there's gonna be some straight edge person listening to this like lock this bitch up now burn her at the stake but you know what a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do and best believe we're not gonna judge especially especially when it works out for me so might be doing that here soon don't judge me i'll let you know if i actually do but yes hopefully hopefully some big things coming we we shall see I'm really hoping within the next couple episodes I might either have really big news or you know we're on to a different path either way I'm happy I'm healthy I am living the dream life I am enjoying my time no matter what and I know that no matter where I end up whether it's in this house in a different house

in a different state that it's gonna be right for me you know you do have to have that trust in yourself and that trust in the universe that no matter where you go it will all work out also you guys you want to hear something spooky scary this is actually insane with apartment living there's always a risk of like kind of weird shit happening whether it's your car is getting stolen outside packages getting stolen beef between neighbors you know i feel like with apartment living there's always like you know the risk of something happening in general well something happened which was the least expected thing that I ever could have possibly expected to happen which is essentially you know I live in like a sixplex so it's six different apartment buildings and

everybody who has been here has been here for quite some time I've been here for three years I know there's people here who have been here for like 10 plus years so you know they are like residents residents this place it's not like a in and out going and coming once a year kind of place it's definitely like you find this apartment and you're gonna be here until you like move somewhere better essentially well um on the first floor there is there was this guy who lived there who was like an army vet and or like vietnam veteran and you know older man very old and occasionally i'd run into him he always would like at least leave his apartment once a day to go get the mail no one had really heard from him in a second and i hadn't really seen him out and

i noticed the mail was still out and um my dishwasher was leaking the other day so i called the handyman in and me and the handyman were talking who lives in my building and I was like hey you know um is you know the guy downstairs doing okay um I've noticed like the mail hasn't come in not that that's his job like literally at all I just know it is when you're older the things that keep you in routine are important even if it is something as simple as like picking up the mail and bringing it inside. I know that's just like part of his like, daily interaction with the world, which is important, especially when you maybe don't have as much of a routine down. And he was like, Oh, you didn't hear? No, I didn't hear. He was like, he died.

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Standard message and data rates may apply. He died. not only did he die but I think he was in his apartment for about a month and no one knew no one knew and I had been walking right I mean kind of past his apartment upstairs for a month I literally have no words I have no words and of course if everybody's first thought in the entire building is like oh my god we should have checked on him oh my god we should we should have said more we should have you know done more which like that sucks to have to feel but also it's like sometimes it's just out of your hands especially when he kind of was mostly an inside cat you know

didn't come out often i ran into him probably once a month once every other month but he was down there I think for like a an entire month and no one knew and I hate to say it but there definitely was a couple thoughts in my mind through that month that were like who is not taking their trash out what the fuck is that smell so rest in peace I do need to leave like a little we need to we need to get something here maybe a little statue outside to kind of commemorate because I do understand the importance of like spirits and honoring and he was a very nice man and you know he does deserve that kind of appreciation of life but what the fuck what the fuck so seal that down as another reason why I'm like

i need to move i need to be in a house oh just away from people alone not next to speeding cars or other people who could die below me no hate to him truly genuine soul rest in peace but wow not to get dark here but that is a risk that you take when it comes to living in an apartment I mean I've heard horror stories from friends who are like had like slumlords where it's like you know someone dies above them and then like nobody knows because it's like you know you really don't like some people you deserve privacy you deserve to kind of like have your own space but like yeah check on your neighbors get to know your neighbors know their routines and keep an eye out because oh my oh my so yes very sad also this weekend we had um no king's day no king's day i was driving to

my parents house and to get from where i go to my parents house i have to drive through the plaza if you are on i know you're not familiar with kansas city let's be fucking real so the plaza is like kind of the epicenter where all the richy rich shops are and also there's like this big kind of like biggish park and a large fountain and like on that corner of the plaza is where everybody goes to protest because it gets the most traction the most foot traffic the most car traffic and usually i drive through there to get to my parents house well i was like it was the middle of that day and it's like noon and i knew the protest was going on so i was like fuck it let me stop by you know what let me say the easiest thing that is to ever say fuck ice fuck trump

this is fucking weird and fucking scary and this should not be happening at all oh my god she's so brave for saying that no i'm not no i'm not i really am not like this is just a matter of fact and also if you are noticing that your favorite influencers are not saying anything it's because they don't care it's because they don't care oh I'm afraid of getting canceled what for having humanity for having morals for caring about other people what the actual fuck I'm afraid of getting canceled shut up shut up just say you're weak say you have no spine it is so easy to say when families are getting ripped apart and you know there are practically no laws and it is completely distinguished over skin color that is fucking scary and weird and fucked up and yes people

should be loud and boisterous and protesting in the streets over it yes absolutely hello like you're an influencer oh but i don't know anything about politics i shouldn't be influencing people are following you because they want to hear your voice and if you're not using your voice you are a pussy yes i said it yes i said it it's so so simple so simple so it was really cool to see like the whole city show out i haven't seen a protest that big in kansas city since like the um black lives matter movement um when everybody was out protesting the summer of like 2020 so it was really cool to see like everybody come together and show up it was very peaceful they marched down the streets you know and everybody was just honestly like having a good

time seeing the community come together stand up for one another and just show this country that like we are not going to take this shit we're not absolutely not and if you need something to do if you feel like you know oh my god this is out of control i feel like you know with the government it's so far away from me that it makes me feel small makes me feel little makes me feel like I can't do anything show up for your community show up to the protests be aware of your surroundings if you see ice in your area you know blast the call let everybody fucking know I know you can download this app called um I think it's called five calls and listen if you really need to blow off some steam essentially it's like an app where it gives you uh legislators numbers government

officials like office numbers not like doxing them and then a script to read where it's kind of just emphasizing like we don't fuck with this we do not fuck with trump what he's doing is illegal please show up for our rights for our city for our state whatever it is like bitch do your job it's a fantastic app if you kind of do need to like if you feel like you want to have a little bit of control or you want to you know do something with your time but most importantly like when these big protests are going on be there be there for your community show up stand in solidarity i think it is very important and yeah it was really cool to be a part of and i am so proud of my city for doing the damn thing because we have a very uh rich and historic hispanic community here in

kansas city especially on the west side which is where i like i work on the west side so i am constantly in that neighborhood and in that area and they are just like the best neighbors the best people they really are always there for each other so like yes the city needs to show up for them absolutely but i love you all stay safe okay and yeah community community community we're all humans we're all people we should be there for each other but yeah that's really all i was up to this weekend been a little busy been a little little crazy little cuckoo I'm hoping I'm hoping you guys I'm hoping to have a YouTube video out by this weekend by Sunday ideally fingers crossed I'll have it up by Sunday but I'm kind of just like girl you just need to start doing it I've

been doing a lot of like nervous system balancing and calming down and it genuinely has helped my anxiety so much me sitting here right now thinking back to where I was last week I feel like my anxiety is like last week it was like up here and then this week I feel like it's at least at a middle ground where it's manageable I'm not in like fight or flight mode and it truly has come from me working on maintaining my nervous system and just like doing things for me so I want to share those tips and tricks with you so I think my first vlog will be like regulate my nervous system with me especially if you need tips like a visual tip i got you stay tuned it will be up follow the instagram at hannah marlene um i will probably be announcing it there and it won't be on

my main my podcast youtube channel i'm gonna make a separate vlog youtube channel just because i don't know it's kind of nice to keep them separate i don't know fun right yeah it'll be a good time i'm excited and then if i move there's gonna be like decorating vlogs moving vlogs oh my god i'm going to tokyo tokyo vlogs escaping into nature vlogs i'm excited i just need a new like avenue to kind of just enjoy and create i love this podcast i love sitting down with you guys i love you know catching up and seeing what's on your mind and going through questions but also like i love editing and i love a more like vlog style hang out with me sit down let's cook in the kitchen together style video so i'm excited to do that as well and i love giving to you guys i love

hanging out with you guys i love creating for you guys it's truly a blessing so i hope you guys enjoy but that being said hannah stop fucking rambling we're over it i hear you i hear you i do let's get into all of your guys's questions oh okay question number one tips to feel more abundant this is very interesting um i do think abundance kind of goes hand in hand with manifestation and the idea of abundance the perspective of abundance because I do think that's what most of it is is perspective does have that key quality aspect of unlocking your manifestations abundance is really just a mindset shift from thinking of a place of lack thinking of a place of lack which is like I don't have enough my goals are too far away you know I'm broke I need to get

more money I need to get more shift hours I don't have enough time for myself lack lack lack I'm missing this I'm missing that I'm not eating correctly I'm not working out I'm not doing what I want I'm not where I want to be I'm not I'm not lack lack mindset to shifting to an abundance mindset which is everything will work out for me the universe is always on my side I am always taking one step towards my dream life I am exactly where I need to be right now money is easily flowing to me everything will work out that's an abundance mindset and I do think especially when we talk about nervous system regulation abundance mindset really does keep you in a cool calm collected place and i do think you don't need to be in a place of complete abundance i'm talking

so rich you don't have to think about money all the time in the world to yourself you know ceo of a big company you don't need to be in those wealthy places to feel abundant you can be completely poor and still be abundant because there is enough abundance out there to go around for everybody there's enough riches out there for everybody to have their fair share and to feel it you are deserving of that everybody is deserving of that trust and believe okay I do think my anxiety for the past couple months has been an all-time high because I've been acting in a place of scarcity I've been acting in a place of but I'm not doing this I'm just I'm doing something that I shouldn't be doing or I don't have enough money I'm not working enough hours whatever

overall just state of lack and i was trying to on like compensate for feelings of powerlessness and trying to supplement with like instant gratification which is a very very um negative cycle to get into because you will never fulfill that instant gratification you will never feel like you have enough you will constantly be searching for more and not in a good way more so in a pessimistic out of control powerless way it really truly the lack mindset has you sprinting and sprinting and tired and exhausted and feeling like you can never catch up or feeling like you're not running fast enough and it is just so overwhelming and exhausting a lot of it stems from like I said the lack perspective where it's like I need more I need more you know a little bit

like greedy like i don't have enough i i'm not satisfied with what i have or other people around me are doing more comparison well they're doing this and i'm not so i i'm unworthy or i don't deserve it or i'm not in a place that i should be also just like societal pressures as well of like i should be married now and having kids and i should have all this money saved blah blah blah it is so exhausting and it will not get you to the place you want to be it really won't that mindset that thinking will not get you to those lofty dreams goals to the peace and prosperity that you deserve but what will positive self-talk positive self-talk trust in self good relationship with self good relationship with the world around you that will instantly calm nerves calm anxieties

bring peace positivity and abundance into your life and it's not so easy as you might be thinking where it's like oh you know if you just change the way you think everything will work out for you like it's not going to be an overnight shift it's going to take work it's going to take dedication to self it's going to take a dedication to working out the negative in order to bring in the positive and sometimes that work does involve other people you know maybe other people in your life are not healthy for you the things that you're doing are not healthy for you the way that you're engaging with yourself is not healthy for you sometimes you need help on the outside maybe you need a therapist maybe you need just like a good friend whatever it may be doing the work will completely

change the way you live your life and you know why because i was stuck in that place of lack and i have never been lower in my entire life but as soon as i said you know what fuck this i'm tired of being miserable constantly depressed constantly feeling like i'm not worthy not enough all of that stemming from inside of my brain i was like fuck it you know what what do we have to lose we're already at the lowest fucking point possible let's try positive thinking for a change everything changed for me everything did catching yourself in those negative thought processes and flipping them having affirmations to kind of you know reinforce that positive self-talk engaging with it as often as you can it will bring so much abundance to you not even in just like a financial

form but just in a living life way where you are able to live life with ease when you approach conflict or struggles you are able to handle them with ease when you are facing obstacles or obstructions you are able to overcome them swiftly and quickly because you trust in yourself you trust in your motives you trust in the world around you and you know that everything will work out for you it really is a mindset shift sure you can do abundance witchcraft money bowls like i talked about is a great way to do that but honestly a lot of our self-thinking and self-perception does directly affect how and who we become so working with your relationship with self and working on what you believe in in yourself and how you see yourself and how you

want to perceive yourself how you treat yourself will have a direct positive effect on who you become and the life that you live in the future it really does it really does everything will work out for you the world is working in your favor there's enough abundance out there for everybody to have a slice of the pie and seconds you are deserving of peace and prosperity and abundance and you may not believe it yet but i believe it for you and i know that with a little hard work dedication and self-love anything is possible truly truly anything is possible anything is possible I am sitting in a place where I never ever ever could have imagined myself and knowing that I got from where I was which was rock bottom bleeding out in the dirt to here

anything that you dream of can be achieved listen to yourself listen to your gut uplift yourself celebrate yourself trust in yourself know that you are exactly where you need to be and you are exactly moving towards every single dream you ever could have had and give yourself a little grace okay give yourself a little peace and love on yourself you deserve it a lot of this abundance is just shifting that mindset of negative to positive so how can you shift your your mindset from negative to positive today what is one thing that's been weighing on your mind today that is just overwhelming maybe triggering some negative thoughts maybe triggered triggering a state of lack in yourself and what are some affirmations you can come up with that flip those negative

thoughts on its head a great practice for this is a taking a piece of paper grab a pen grab a piece of paper write down that negative thought or if you're having multiple write down those negative lack thoughts that you're having on one side of a piece of paper on the other side you're going to write down an affirmation that completely 360s that that view of lack okay so maybe it's like wow i have no money okay i'm broke okay let's flip that i am working towards a prosperous and financially abundant future easy easy oh i just i didn't get that dream job that job was not met for me and i'm working towards a even better healthier stable more prosperous job i feel like everything doesn't work out for me the universe only gives me exactly what i need what i don't

have was not meant for me you know okay that's your homework for the week get into it but i love you and you are abundant okay everything you desire you will achieve everything that you want in your life will find its way towards you trust believe and give yourself a little kiss from me I love my boyfriend. He is so good, but he's a little shy in the bedroom. How do I ask for more? The best thing for you to do is ask. And I know you're like, well, I'm not going to be like sitting over dinner and like, I need you to eat my ass, babe. I'm like, no, no, no. In the moment, in the moment. I mean, of course, these are things if you're feeling brave, you can tease outside of the bedroom you can talk about outside of the bedroom but i think personally whenever you're

like all right i need him to go a little bit harder i need him to go a little bit crazier you can ask in the moment as long as it's not something like too crazy and i mean you always ask always ask what are they gonna do say no if he's fucking you and you're like i need it harder and faster now that man's gonna kick it into full gear all right and you gotta be brave you gotta to speak up babe you do you do I think sexy talk in the bedroom is so underrated not only is it like verbally confirming how you're feeling and what you need and what you desire it's also just sexy it's sexy hearing from your partner it is too many people are having quiet sex too many people I don't want you to have quiet sex okay I don't want you to have to be like in your head guessing

if they like it or not i think it should be very apparent verbally that they are enjoying their time with you and that you are enjoying their time with them whether it's a verbal confirmation like that feels fucking amazing oh my god i love your dick oh my god whatever it is verbal confirmation but then also you you can ask you know like can we change positions can i ride you for a second i want you to hit it from the back real quick like let me flip over let me sit on your face whatever it is you need do not be afraid ask for what you desire and i guarantee the bedroom will be fucking crazy your bed will be broken in half like that scene from twilight where it's like oh my god what the fuck are they doing in here bed's like broken in half is that a

scene am i thinking of a real scene right now i don't know sometimes my memory doesn't doesn't serve me right but I feel like that is a memory that I'm having so be brave okay maybe he is a little bit shy but maybe that's because you're just like way too hot and sexy and he doesn't know what to do with you so you know grab his hand lead him in the right direction you guys are so dumb thinking of starting electrical apprenticeship but just got my nipples pierced are you not allowed to have your nipples pierced when you're an electrical apprentice is that not allowed are you're not allowed to have piercings i feel like you definitely can and also like what are you going to get shocked that much that your nipples are going to zap off maybe you to feel good who

knows that's crazy of me girl go after that apprenticeship don't let anything hold you back ever ever you can take those nipple rings out and put them right back in trust thoughts on plant based diet so I don't I don't bring this up often but I was um vegetarian for about four years and vegan for one year I did vegan for one year and then I was like oh I can't keep up then I was vegetarian for about four years up until I met my boyfriend and then I met my boyfriend and I was like i gotta eat some meat i gotta get some meat you know what i mean ladies anyways um i found that vegetarian lifestyle fantastic way to get more plants into your body but it's insanely hard to keep up with when it comes to making sure you're hitting all of like your macros and the

nutrients you need and like protein goals and i found myself personally personally personally not able to keep up with it in a way that was helping my body function and so that's why I started eating meat again but I do think it was a great mindset switch to just be brave enough to incorporate more plant-based meals into my diet where like now even though I do eat meat I don't need meat to function I don't need a meat with or a meal with like steak or chicken sometimes I am able to supplement with like tofu or beans and rice anything that I feel like you know just sounds good and sounds delicious sounds yummy I'm happy to do but I do think when I was vegetarian I just simply could not I wasn't in a place where I was able to think about my meals enough for me

to eat a whole well-rounded meal where I was getting all of my all of my sources of everything that I need for my body to function I was very very anemic at the time as well so just like cognitive function and bodily function it was just not helping me but if you are vegetarian no hate do your thing I think it's a great option absolutely also vegan do what you got to do if that's what you want to do and you don't want to you know participate in you know the cruelty of how animals are being treated absolutely props to you that is amazing and wonderful and I do know that beans and rice are a complete source of protein and very cheap so hit that shit but also now that I you know went through the process of being vegetarian and now I do eat meat I do think

about where my meat is coming from um and if I can get my meat from local butchers or just like local farms as often as I can I will like at the farmer's market there's always a stand from just like local farms that have fresh meat fresh cuts of meat um fresh eggs from chickens and so then I'm not participating in the whole industrial aspect of the cruelty of how we treat animals but I do love a meat I do love a steak I do love a carne asada I do love a shrimp skewer I hate to say it I love me some sushi I just know who I am and I do enjoy those things but being aware and being present in your meals and being present in what you're eating is important but i just don't think that vegetarian lifestyle is for me i personally i just don't think i could um complete

those meal qualities that i needed to be able to feel my body completely but if some of you're thinking about go for it girl get those greens in this is funny someone said i love 269 you know what you and me both queen you and me both queen that's where you'll really fall in love honestly that is truly where the real love lies sure sex pnv whatever absolutely but when both of your faces are like as deep as possible as you can get in each other's crotches like that's that's real love absolutely absolutely okay if you don't know what to do with your man tonight 69 that's where it's at the cbd gummy recommendations okay you guys i have been on a long long search for new cbd as you know if you're a long-time listener r.i.p paz packs i loved paz packs i really did

i love past packs she was they were so good to me they were so amazing their flavors the quality i even got to visit their farms they were just wow 10 out of 10 and then they went out of business literally heart shattered heart shattered so i've been spending actually quite a bit of time trying to find a new cbd brand and i don't have a partnership with these people i genuinely just ordered some and I've been trying it because my knees have been fucked up from my job from running up and down stairs so I actually ordered their CBD cream which is the first time I've ever tried a CBD cream before wow fantastic amazing I think they sell gummies creams tinctures a flower pre rolls anything you could ever possibly imagine but they're called plain Jane um I think at

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check them out i need to dm them and be like please i need a discount code for the girls i need a discount code for the girls so stay tuned maybe next episode what are your fave summer adventures slash activities to do for for a fulfilling season i'm just either underwater or outside in nature and that enough is fulfilling to me i think we overlook nature way too much and truly like going on a hike going on a walk in the park just being outside is the best even if it's a walk around your neighborhood very underrated get outside get under the trees get in the sunlight it is necessary right now and then as the heat is approaching best believe i am constantly at the river i am constantly underwater in a pool somewhere whoever i'm

begging please please let me use your pool please i am just in a body of water or in nature or ideally both that is how i choose to enjoy my summers and indulge a little bit in the summers oh also if you're in the kansas city area and you need a fun little thing to do i think we do this in other cities as well but um every summer next to the nelson atkins there's always shakespeare in the park where they do a shakespeare play they literally hand build the stage outside okay and then you go with your picnic blanket and you can watch a shakespearean play i think there's probably an admission fee but it's gonna be cheap for sure or even just a picnic at the park at the at the nelson atkins museum a dream so fun to do highly recommend as a fun little

summer activity as a man i apologize it's okay you're fine if you're a man listening to this podcast okay you were probably seeking betterment and for that i applaud you how can i make the amazing women in my life feel uplifted and loved oh oh think ahead that's what i would say think ahead i don't think a lot of men not to generalize think ahead that often and women are constantly thinking ahead and if you can beat a woman by thinking ahead before she does it's sexy it really it really is sexy it really is it is it's like oh my god he really thought about this whether it's like planning a date she's had a long week you know she has this one day off you know maybe she has plans you tell her cancel your plans or whatever you have going on for the day i'm doing

something with you you think ahead you plan a date fully fully not it's date night what do you want to do no fuck that shit plan a date take her out maybe tell her ahead of time she needs to know what to wear think it through okay even little things oh my girl always does the dishes let me go ahead and just do them all for her real quick oh she always does the laundry let me just go ahead and do them all for her real quick oh my god we're out of shampoo let me go get a bottle before she comes home and gets in the shower and realizes we're out of shampoo think ahead show up for your women in that sort of sense because i do think women especially in relationships take on a lot of the thinking and living of life and that is just it gets so overwhelming and it's so much

pressure especially to put on women if you're in a partnership so think ahead show up for them do the little things the little things always add up like my boyfriend always takes the trash out i don't have to ask i don't even have to think about it if the trash is full it's gone like he is on that shit and it's just one less thing that i have to think about that really makes my life so much easier but when it comes to showing them love even just like buying them flowers randomly surprising them with flowers i love you here you go planning a date planning an adventure together buying them lunch you know oh they're at the office long day let me send them coffee let me order them lunch it really really is the little things and it takes a little bit of planning and a little bit of

thinking ahead opinions on psychics i saw one and she swears my ex is my soulmate but i don't know so as a person who involves themselves quite heavily in the spiritual aspect of the world whether it's psychics or tarot readings um i am pro going to a psychic but i don't think all psychics are the same um i think the real psychics that you should listen to are never going to be like your ex-boyfriend is the one it's never that simple you're never able to like even with clairvoyancy or being able to like read people's cards it's never going to be a direct direct answer in that sort of way where it's like oh you know your ex-boyfriend is the one for you it's never going to be like that and if I ever get a reading by someone like that who is giving me

direct direct answers I know that they're a little fake I do I know that they're probably in it for a little bit of cash grab or they're just guessing and trying to you know maybe hit on some heart strings in order to make it feel real but it's not real it isn't a lot of what psychics do and clairvoyance and spiritualists a lot of it is just intuitive connectiveness to the person in front of them you do not have to know somebody or do previous research to have intuitive connectiveness to people sometimes you need some tools whether it's like card reading you know angel cards whatever it may be but truly the real deal the real people can sit in front of you talk for a little bit and be able to connect to what you need to hear i don't think also big red flag when it

comes to psychics is they're never going to really ever tell you like um doom things they'll be like pay attention to this this is something you need to keep your eye on or be aware of these behaviors be aware of this thought process but they will never ever like doomify things where it feels very heavy it feels very negative reading it feels like you're scared almost um i do think when it comes to psychic readings and any sort of clairvoyancy it is a very medium ground understanding of good and bad where they are just delivering you a very baseline calm clear connected reading at least all the ones that i have gotten that i know are true and real that's how i feel during them and that you always come out feeling a little bit better even if it is

quote-unquote negative you always come out being a little bit more aware feeling better and ready to move forward readings will not have you wanting to stick to the past they will have you wanting to move forward to do better to seek more in your life this is something always i've been thinking about two i'm like maybe i just start doing readings because i really do love it i love connecting with the universe i love working with tarot and cards whether it's maybe like intuitive counseling or just psychic readings in general i think it would be so fun so fun and also like very fulfilling i do enjoy helping people in that sort of way i don't know would you get a reading from me what is your color of the summer love you fairy mama love you this pastel yellow i've been

wearing so much pastel yellow this summer or yellow in general i love yellow um my mom when i was younger would always be like don't wear white or yellow it washes you out okay hater i love yellow it's so bright it's so cheery it's so fun um this house that i looked at yesterday the kitchen's fucking crazy like this bitch had to have been tripping acid when she painted her kitchen I'm not even kidding and I'm thinking about okay well how would I redo my kitchen what would I do and honestly the kitchen I have now if you watch any of my cooking videos on Instagram at Hannah Marlene the pale yellow with the white cabinets I am obsessed my kitchen just feels so bright and cheery and inviting and if I were to repaint this kitchen I would definitely

do it like kind of the same way I have my kitchen set up now which is pink backsplash tiles white cabinets yellow paint on the walls it really just has a way of brightening up a room and i think when you wear it it holds that same manner of just like ray of sunshine walking into the building it is a i want to say aggressive but that's not the word i think i should be using for yellow it is a um exciting color okay so if you want to turn heads if you want to you know embody all that it is summer i would be wearing yellow right now for sure and i think everybody can pull off yellow definitely shades are important you know of yellow like i don't think neon yellow is my color that's for sure but i do think that yellow looks good on everybody especially in the summertime do you

ever feel disconnected from your partner at times um honestly i'm gonna say yes and that sounds i'm sure someone's gonna be like that's toxic you shouldn't or you should break up with them if you feel disconnected no no no you're gonna feel disconnected from everybody at points in times of your life and I think for me personally when I feel disconnected it's because I'm either disconnected from myself or we are lacking quality time together when I am disconnected from myself I also feel disconnected from the world around me and that world around me also includes my partner the people I love or friends and maybe I'm not able to meet them in that middle ground that I need to because I'm unable to meet myself which is important to recognize so you're able to kind

of like maybe do a little bit self-care do a little bit of like self-understanding come back into yourself so you can be a good partner and then also I think whenever you feel disconnected from partner friends family whatever it is you truly are just lacking quality time together time together in general where you are able to bond to connect and to feel like you are furthering your relationship in that moment in time whether it's a date whether it's a you know just spending evening alone together taking time to have some really bomb sex whatever it is it's important to engage in that regularly in order to keep that connection healthy strong and flowing in your relationship best ways to save money fast don't eat out don't eat out do not eat out don't eat

out truly so much money goes down the fucking drain by eating out door dash okay delete that shit going out late night munchies i have to hit taco bell those 12 start to add up okay pause backtracking for a second i just said summer yellow is the color of the summer and my mom sent me this screenshot of this man in italy in a two-piece bright ass yellow linen set smoking a cigar in gold yellow shoes let me show you the photo if you were a audio listener switch to the video portion just for a second two and five canadians will hear the words you have cancer that's why every step and dollar raised matters on september 19th join thousands in toronto for the princess margaret cancer foundation walk challenge yourself friends and family to walk

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that is the sun embodied he gets it he gets it going back saving money anything you are doing that is spending money you can just cut it out i know you're like but rent but utilities that's not what i'm talking about car payment that's not what i'm talking about i know that is a bill and it does cost money sucks you gotta pay those things now where you don't need to spend money such as eating out cook dinner save money that way um make big meals that are gonna feed you for days on end that's how you save money beans and rice great way to save money and delicious absolutely subscriptions hidden subscriptions that you have whether it's like do i need hulu you know what i mean things like that i even sometimes will go through like my app subscription

and i'll be like why the fuck is this app charging my money i didn't know it charged me money you know like that's not something that i knew that i was signing up for there are things that i know i'm signing up for that cost money like you know hulu or netflix sure i'll pay for those it's something that i use every single day i subscribe to some people's patreons yes i enjoy that that does bring like positivity and fulfillment in my life but the hidden things the weird shady things like why am i paying for you know this random app that i don't even use that i didn't know was charging me seven dollars a month look for those things those things are important to cut out and i know this is boring especially during the summer but staying inside really does keep me from

spending money and if i do anything outside it's like free or cheap going for a hike going for a walk going to the river going to someone's pool that's free going on a picnic in the park you know like cheap easy free i'm not really going out anymore but when i was going out i would spend upwards of 60 70 sometimes even up to 100 if i'm really going crazy on just drinks on a night out we don't need to be doing that that's crazy that's insane get a 12 bottle of wine split it with your friends in the park you can still live life and kind of be frugal it's just important to understand like what's important to you what's worth your money and what are things that maybe are just like unnecessary advice on getting vibrator and no longer feeling excited about

sex with men dot dot dot dot dot dot dot okay normal girl occurrence it really does be like that when especially when like men be throwing down mediocre sex and then you realize oh wow i've never came with one but all it takes is this vibrating device to make me come in 30 seconds like wow it's really that easy and a man can't get it down it does make you kind of lose hope a little bit but you know what if you love the vibrator you can always include the vibrator in sex as well in sex as well men should not view toys as competitors but instead sir that's your shield going into battle battle that is your sword going into battle use it wisely use it wisely i do think every woman should own a vibrator it does help with just like the urges you know

fun self-pleasure is important now i do want to give the warning that too much vibrator usage can literally like numb down the nerves there so be careful do not be using it 10 plus times a day i mean maybe like the first day you use it go wild go crazy but like you know there's there's cons and effects to everything so just be careful take care of yourself but yeah enjoy your time i remember when i got my first vibrator i was in high school and my friend had turned 18 before everybody else so a senior year of high school and for christmas she bought us all like little bullet vibrators she was vibrator santa my life was changed forever i do think that also emphasized me not wanting to lose my virginity because i was like bitch why the fuck would i even worry

about losing my virginity at this point when i literally have a vibrator now like who needs sex with men i can just get off on my own and have a great time um but that little bullet vibrator once i turned 18 then turned into like a wand and then oh my god vibrator technology right now is out of this world out of this world the rose toy the suction of it all like be careful okay please be careful with the nerves down there but girl go out there get yourself a toy have some fun i do think it's important for women to engage in self-pleasure to know what they like to know what feels good and if we're being fucking honest a very small percentage of women can come from something being inside them okay so you might as well have something to help you on the outside

god i need that adam and eve sponsorship i really do i've been meaning to reach out i just can't find their pr team adam and eve if you're hearing my call please the girls are in desperate need of vibrators and i would love to get them a discount code come on now but yeah it really beats like that if you're satisfied satisfied with yourself you're less likely to go outside of yourself seeking satisfaction you know so if you're getting everything you need like sexually from you yeah why involve a mediocre man but i will say sex with a great man plus a vibrator mind life experience blown blown out of the water great time oh my god my man of three years came to me about a porn addiction and he's in therapy help do i stay or go oh my god oh my god you know

what i will i will give him his props that instead of just suffering he is seeking help and in therapy and was able to tell you about it so i do think a lot of men who have these negative tendencies and addiction to sex just kind of continue doing it and kind of put everybody aside and ruin relationships and it's just like a lifelong problem so anybody who is getting help with anything i will give them their flowers because that is not an easy task to do but also valid of you for being like well do i stay in this relationship i would say if it's something you didn't know was happening before and you are currently happy in your relationship then maybe you can stay I mean he's seeking help so the relationship is only going to get better and if

you were having a great time before if it wasn't affecting you and it wasn't like a big issue in your relationship it's just like you know about it now then yeah I don't think there's any reason to like leave him unless he was like um like involving himself in infidelity in any sort of way like cheating on you I also understand how your perception of him can change so if you are if your perception is completely changed of him because he's like watching porn then I also understand that maybe that would be a reason you leave but if your perception is still the same your perception hasn't changed it's just kind of like what that's weird and the relationship before was good I think you can stay but if the relationship before it was like I knew this

was happening he just wouldn't admit to it this has been a problem all of these years blah blah blah I mean I guess you can stay and see how it goes like maybe give it some time but truly I think sometimes with relationships there's like non-negotiables especially for women where it's like I need that commitment I really need that commitment and you feel like he's unable to give it to you then I do think that's a valid reason to leave but wow wow that's crazy if my man right now came to me I'm thinking about it if my man right now came to me was like listen I have to go to therapy for sex addiction and for my porn addiction but like our relationship has been good I definitely would be like I'm gonna look at you a little bit different but also like if you

physically didn't cheat on me if you emotionally haven't cheated on me and you're seeking help like I guess whatever let me give it some time let me see how I feel and if it's something that I just can't overlook then I'd leave but it is something that maybe I would like wait out and be like let's see how this goes unless he's a big old freak and it's been a problem since the beginning then girl cut your losses and maybe get out of there I feel evil what do I do sometimes when I feel evil the best thing to really do is I know it's kind of the opposite of what you think because when you feel like a bad person you do want to engage in shame but I when I feel like a bad person maybe it's because i just need a little bit of love what i would do here's a ritual for

you get a juicy mango they're in season right now and they're so fucking good maybe a clementine maybe some strawberries something juicy a juicy fruit and i want you to get in the shower and turn the shower on hot and devour this fruit let it drip down your hands let it drip down your mouth you're in the shower so you don't have to think about the mess but engage in your humanness and pleasure for a second and understand that we all make mistakes you are not born inherently evil maybe you feel that way but hopefully engaging in a little bit of pleasure indulgence and humanness will bring you back to that level of just like neutrality which is being a human humans are going to ebb and flow in emotional states of positive negative you know but you don't always

have to let those things stick you don't always have to let the negative stick to you you don't have to be an evil person maybe you were in the past you made a mistake or you don't like who you are but that doesn't inherently make you evil and i do think to get out of that mindset you do need to engage in some some human qualities and some humanness and the most animal instinct primal thing to do primal is to literally just devour some fruit indulge in that pleasure you're in the showers you shower it off throw away the fruit it's a weird ritual but i've done it a couple times and it really does bring me back down to that baseline of okay i'm me i'm just a human okay i'm not an evil individual and now i can move forward hopefully into some positivity

just got out of the psych ward on friday how do i go back to normal you know what i'll flowers to you because you did that thing proud of you period for seeking help there is no normal there's no normal what's gonna make you feel more insane especially for me getting out of psych ward is like I just went through something extremely traumatic and then I had to go back to school and go back to class and pretend like nothing happened that I feel like kind of set back my healing in a sort of way whereas I should have in that moment just accepted that nothing's ever normal and especially not the societal normal that's like some weird fucked up facade but i do know what is normal for me and your normal right now is your healing journey okay

it's a little bit of a different journey than everybody else might be on but that is your new normal and that's what you need to be paying attention to not how do i pretend like this never happened and how do i go back into society no no i mean sure you got to function you got to work you gotta go to school whatever it may be but also let's look at the full picture here and understand that you're on a journey and you're in the middle of the journey you're still going so be patient with yourself nothing's gonna be right back to normal nothing's gonna go back to being exactly how it was but also that's okay because you did what was good for you did what was best for you you sought help you are healing you are doing better you're trying to

do better at least and that's all that really matters not this normal thing also who likes normal normal is boring who wants to be normal it's like the spongebob episode where it's like the the normal spongebob where he's like rounded out and it's like that's a little weird it's a little weird cookie cutter fake we're all a little weird and fucked up and a little evil sometimes and sad or mad or happy or you know we we all go through those things we all go through trials and tribulations there is honestly no normal but what is your normal is important which is what you're going through this journey that you're going on this healing process so that's what you should be focused focusing on and setting your sights on and it's okay also especially after coming out of

a place like that to be focused on yourself to get a little selfish in that sort of aspect where it's like i need to take care of myself i need to make sure that i'm continuing on this journey that i don't you know fall behind that i'm continuing therapy continue my medications if you're on it um doing those self check-ins engaging in positive self-behavior so then i can get to a better place fuck normal normal is boring i mean there is normal but there are people out there that are normal that go through the societal flow state of things but I do think especially a lot of people who probably listen to this podcast listen to me because I kind of escaped the normalcy of life and although it was a major challenge and that's why I do this podcast so maybe you don't

have to face the same challenge as I did but hopefully I can give you a dose of just inspiration to follow your gut to follow whatever journey you're on whatever journey you're on even if it's like different from what other people are going through that doesn't negate the importance of what you are experiencing and the life that you are meant to be living everybody's life is going to be different everybody's journey is going to be different even the most normal person you could think of maybe 50 years in the future they they go through something crazy that is outside of the ordinary everybody's going to have that moment there is no specific life setup life plan that you are going to live it's going to be a little weird and a little awkward that's just how life

is but also that's the beauty of it all it's kind of boring when it's like i do this thing and then i move on to this thing and i know what's happening next the exciting part of life is what you create for yourself and those random side quests you take and the healing journeys you go on and the dreams that you aspire for and the stars that you shoot for just by everybody else telling you that it's not worth your time that's what makes life interesting that's what makes people interesting that's what makes you know those amazing stories that you hear by the campfire those novels that you read in class unordinary lives it's brave it's inspiring and everybody's journey is important no matter where you are even if you are currently living an ordinary life it is important it's

you're meant to be there for a reason and it's going to get you to a place that it's going to bring you just so much prosperity honestly back to the abundance you know trust in yourself believe in yourself feed into yourself i hate this kind of selfishness aspect sure don't put other people aside and just wave them off as if they're nothing other people are important but also we are probably the most important people in our lives how we live is completely up to us how we feel about ourselves the world we aspire to bring around us the people we bring around us the journeys we take the side quests we take the day-to-day life we live it is kind of all up to us but i do find peace in that and knowing that you can always work on your relationship with

yourself you can have a good relationship with yourself and through that through that peace in your mind and in yourself your relationship with yourself so much abundance will flow your way so much calmness clarity will flow your way intuition will flow your way it is kind of the hack to life a lot of manifestation a lot of abundance is truly just found in yourself you know how beautiful is that how how wonderful is that is that we are born with that we are born with ourselves we are born with this key to life you know self-trust self-motivation self-love oh my god hippie hannah is jumping out it sounds like i just took like eight grams of mushrooms and hopped on this podcast that's in my past but with that being said everybody wish manifestations

on me i'm very excited i i feel so much positivity in my life and i feel like i'm all of my wishes and my dreams are coming true which is just like so amazing and so incredible and I'm really trying to calm and focus and show appreciation to the world around me the universe around me and to myself you know especially when you achieve hard things but you did that you did that show yourself a little bit of love today get outside if you can go on a walk enjoy life have some freak nasty sex with yourself with other people I don't care indulge in pleasure indulge in humanness show up for your community stand up when you need to through fear through desire through understanding everything is working out exactly how it should be for you

all of your dreams and desires are heading your way all you got to do is trust in yourself trust in the universe around you and take one step forward at a time but with that being said happy tuesday i love you all so much if you want to see more from me i answer every single one of your questions on patreon patreon.com smoke so shoddy also on patreon when i do vlogs they will be up a couple days earlier for the patreon people so if you want to see early release of vlogs they will be there if not they will be on youtube which once i make my vlog channel follow the instagram it'll be posted there and also i'll probably just tease it next week so stay tuned stay sane, stay sexy

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