Smoke Sesh - advice for my younger self, divine timing, & focusing on You

Episode Date: May 30, 2023

Helloooooo hotties of the world and welcome back to another episode of smoke sesh. Today we have a extra fun episode as I celebrate my 24th birthday on June 1st! (Happy Gemini season). We talk about situationships, coworkers, advice for my younger self & teen self, how to focus on You, going vegan, glowing after a abusive relationship, how to have good sex, we share in a little smoke break, keeping your space clean without getting overwhelmed, gap years, bikini season, divine timing, diy shows & local party scene, pregnancy scares, summer skin, and finally we share in a little get to know me plus much much much much more

Listen, everybody needs a fairy godmother, you know, just somebody to look out for them. Some people call me their fairy smoke mother, others their internet big sister, but you can call me Hannah, the host of Smoke Sash. So come hang out, let's light up and talk everything there is to life. The good, the bad, the ugly, the embarrassing, I've got a story for it all. Hello hotties of the world, how in the hell are you all doing today? how are you feeling we have on a good little tuesday afternoon morning i actually think i'm gonna be uploading this at like 6 a.m um as you're listening to this i will actually be

on a plane on my way to mexico for my little birthday trip i just wanted to hang out with you guys a little early still but i wanted to get this podcast in even though i'm gonna be traveling so i'm actually recording this on monday um but i will be hopefully sleeping my ass off on an airplane landing in mexico margaritas beach tacos massage nap it's gonna be so fucking fantastic but i hope you all are doing okay i hope you all are thriving i think a lot of you guys have entered your summer break era um because towards the end of the school year i noticed my v like my listens will go down a little bit because a lot of you guys are studying as you should be okay priorities in check need to be learning growing your brain making sure you get those a's those

b's even those c's i'm proud of you girl okay um but then as summer break rolls around oh my god my views will double it'll go from like 10,000 people listening a week to like 20 30,000 and I'm like oh my god well welcome back I'm so happy to have you here um it is a fun little memorial day morning I have to work this evening so I wanted to get this podcast in get a little hangout sesh in I'm actually gonna take this I've been obsessed with ginger shots recently um they've been kind of my new go-to thing in the morning and also if you're a sober girly or wanting to become within the sober realm i would really recommend stocking up or making your own most importantly ginger shots because they literally take tastes like i'm taking a straight tequila

shot but my body's not gonna hate me afterward and neither is my mind so crack this bad boy open gonna take it with you all maybe you guys want to take a little hit a little bowl a little smoke break maybe you want to grab a little snack either way get a little something and let's dive in cheers oh my god oh my god oh my god oh my god oh my god wow we oh really exactly like a tequila a shot oh my god i'm so excited to be in mexico the um hotel where he's staying and messages me and he's like just so you know the bottle of tequila in your room is for you we want you to enjoy i'm like i cannot wait oh it's gonna be so fantastic one of the things i really thrive off of in life is dreaming and then bringing those dreams into reality in whatever form that they may be

maybe that's in the form of like my lighter cases or my hoodies where it's like I have this idea I have this want I have this need to create and then I put the work in and then all of a sudden it's here in my hands something that I envisioned I have brought into reality or maybe it's a painting or a drawing something that I have envisioned in my brain that I'm bringing into reality or maybe it's a trip or an experience or something you've been wanting to go after like I remember sitting down um last year on my birthday which is June 1st I believe that's like a Thursday it's definitely not a Tuesday in which you're listening to this um yeah it's on Thursday everybody wish me happy birthday um but I remember sitting down on my 23rd birthday me and my boyfriend just went to

the river hung out there really spent some time outside and I remember sitting there being like you know what next year my 24th which I am turning 24 I know getting old but it feels good because I feel like my brain is leveling out a little bit I'm treating myself kinder with every year it is nice growing up I used to be so fearful of it but now I actually look towards the future and I am so very excited to see what it brings me um but I was like I want to be on a beach for my birthday and that is the motto that I just kept repeating to myself and repeating to myself and then looking at places and repeating to myself and then buying plane tickets and repeating to myself and booking the hotel and repeating to myself and I've been repeating it to myself up until today in which

I am now getting on a plane to be on a beach for my birthday so that being said you can create anything you want to create you can be anything you want to be you can bring into reality anything that you want and sure it might not be overnight which is not as fun because it's you know you want that satisfaction right then and there sometimes it takes a year sometimes it takes three years sometimes it takes a lifetime to get there but the satisfaction of trusting in yourself and listening to that gut instinct and really leaning into it and then bringing those ideas and those thoughts and those feelings into your reality and creating the reality that you want is so satisfying and truly like looking back on the years that I've been alive considering

um I've kind of been doing some you know birthdays come around and you look back on the past year and the years before um something that I've really been chasing is just asking myself what do I want from this life and how do I create it and every year I put a little bit more practice in and I get a little bit stronger and I learn a little bit more about myself and it is just the best feeling being able to tap into what you want and what you need and provide it for yourself because girlies nobody's going to provide it provide anything that you want for you except for yourself no rich man is going to be able to give you exactly what you want no rich woman is going to be able to give you exactly what you want your parents aren't going to be able to your partner's

not going to be able to your friends are not going to be able to because they have themselves to focus on and worry about the same way you have yourself to focus on and to worry about and you really can create anything that you can possibly dream of for yourself so with that being said cheers girlies love you all so so very much cheers to 24 years oh my god follow me on instagram at hannah marlene i will be taking so many photos on the beach and of course i'll do a little birthday you know photo shoot for you guys um and i'll be sharing all of my excursions and fun things from mexico on there as well as i'm hoping to um do some vlogs do some work do some extra stuff for you guys on my patreon um which is linked to my bio i did not realize my link tree

was not working apologies they took it down don't know why i had to create a new one um but it's working now so come join the patreon gang come watch my fun vlogs come hang out with us there we have a book club as well um but yeah next week podcast will be out on thursday maybe there may not be one we'll see how exhausted tired i'm feeling um and last podcast i asked you guys sorry we were having a round table meeting here doing some catching up about the podcast i want to fill you guys all in but last episode i talked about like missing doing two episodes a week because i used to do like two two hour long episodes which was fantastic and super fun and now it's summer's around i have i really want to lean back into that maybe not two two hour episodes

but i think i'm gonna do one regular episode of just the chaos and all the different topics on tuesdays and then maybe on thursdays i'll do like a deep dive into one topic for like 30 45 minutes like a little shorter episode for you guys and then video episodes here and there because i hear you guys i see you i understand you and i know you've been wanting more video episodes i do want to maybe upload the vlog that i do on patreon um on to spotify as well so we'll see if that will work but that's all the catching up i have to do love you guys with that being said let's finally get into all of your deepest darkest secrets questions ideas thoughts i'm so excited to chat with you someone asked how to cut off someone that i have a strong bond with

but won't commit you say these words exactly if you cannot commit to loving me then i cannot commit to being around you anymore end contact i feel like that's enough to be like bitch get your priorities straight i'm focusing on myself since you don't want to commit because why put your energy into forcing someone to commit you know what i mean so draining and tiring running after people also draining and tiring having people run after you it should be like equalness of leaning into each other and putting equal effort and energy i feel like that's very important someone asked hook up with a co-worker is it worth the risk no no no no no no one thing my manager has always told me

never shit where you sleep because why would you do that why would you willingly put yourself into a bad situation it's fun it's flirty like sure i've seen my co-workers get into so many different kinds of relationships and hop around with each other and it's just like you have fun and then it's very quickly not fun and then it's awkward and then you don't want to show up to work and why would you even get in the way of your money like that you have one lane in life for your money and you get your money and you've one lane in life for your sex and relationships and i think keeping them separate will keep you mentally stable love you someone asked what would be some advice you would give your teenage self and i think this is actually a fantastic question

especially for right now as i've been pondering my past years in life and what they've brought me and how I've how I've experienced them um so some things that come to the top of my head are one remember to be kind to yourself and when being kind to yourself is hard remember to just not be hard on yourself okay it is a very easy especially in your teenage years to get down onto yourself to let your hormones take control to hate everything around you and even yourself because you feel like you don't have a lot of freedom and when you get when you don't have a lot of freedom you get bored and when you get bored your mind wanders and sometimes it wanders into some dark places so just remember that you are your own best friend and in turn the same way

you treat your best friends the way you want to be treated you literally have to treat yourself the way you want to be treated you have to be kind to yourself you have to compliment yourself you have to show up for yourself and when it's hard for you to even do those things just remember to keep those thoughts and those mean feelings at bay and understand that you are deserving of love no matter what position you are in or how you're feeling about yourself and a lot of that time that love that you are deserving of doesn't come from a partner or a person it comes from yourself and to lean into that and to open yourself up to that another thing I would tell my teenage self to be is a little less reckless but a little more

daring I feel like I was very reckless in a sense of I knew what to do to be a rebellious teenager I knew what to smoke weed and to sneak out of the house and to run around my friends and do bad things of the sorts like that typical teenager stuff but a lot of that stuff didn't lead me into good paths or the right paths. They're fun and they gave me a little bit of anxiety and a nice adrenaline rush but did they really do anything beneficial to me? No. Did it really aid in the growing process as a teenager? No. In which I would say be more daring because even as a teenager you do have this innate sense of understanding who you are and what you want and what you want of go after but we've been taught for a long time especially at a young age to follow the rules to

sit down to listen to be quiet um to kind of tune out of that and to not lean into those instincts and those gut feelings so i would just really encourage you to be daring in a sense of go after what you know you want and what you know you deserve and what you know is best for you like I wish my teenage self would have been like no I don't want to be a nurse and I know that and even though I'm feeling pressure I'm going to tell everybody everybody around me who's pressuring me into a lane that I didn't want to get into to fuck off in the most polite way um and to lean into what I truly knew I was gifted in which was art which was design the way my passion carried me into those things was the way I knew it was right for me um another thing I would tell my

teenage self especially within the aspect of love and dating yes you are deserving of love but also like you don't need to be in a relationship and in fact i encourage you if you're under the age of 21 22 even to not be in a relationship those years are so important you are developing a sense of who you are a worldly sense of you a sense of what you want and really taking the time to tap into yourself and understand yourself and learn more about yourself without having anybody else get in the way is very important and I understand that we are served these romantic comedies on a silver platter and we are told that we are we have to find this love and we have to find it at a young age like a lot of our parents um but we are in a new age and i think the idea of finding

yourself and learning to tap into yourself and learning to love yourself is more important than you seeking love outwardly and validation outwardly seek that validation inwardly also a lot of these relationships that i have been in and my friends have been in young like we are young kids in love with other young kids and we don't know how to love properly because we don't even know how to love ourselves and that puts a lot of people into some really tough situations and puts them into some really hard relationships um and although like i learned a lot from those things there was a lot that I simply did not need to go through and a lot of men's bullshit that I really did not need to put up with but I felt the need to because I I knew my love was coming from this

source even though it wasn't a good healthy love do you know what I mean so lay off the boys lay off the girls lay off the the relationships until you are older and until you feel more connected to yourself and don't feel bad about that like I feel like I've gotten to I mean I lost my and got into a relationship kind of later than normal um but still i feel like it was too early like i got into my first relationship when i was like 19 or something um and i was just a little baby oh little hannah you know what i mean and people think 19 like oh that's old no no no i was a child like i was a baby and i really needed to focus on myself and who i was and what i wanted and learn how to stand on my own two feet instead of getting swept up into someone else's world

into someone else's chaos so don't i really encourage against relationships tbh until you're older okay focus on you make yourself the best possible person you can be and live in a fantasy world honestly um life is what you create of it life is not coming at you it is coming from within you um and you can really create anything that you want for yourself it is all about tapping in and really formulating and understanding what you want that is the most important also like life is about having fun I know it can get hard I know it can get tiring I know you can be like sobbing on the bathroom floor I've been there many a times but remember to find fun wherever you can I feel like at a young age I started taking life way too seriously like focusing on

the bad focusing on the anxiety inducing focusing on the serious serious aspects of life when i really should have just been remembering to go out for ice cream with my friends instead of dreading the world collapsing around me like that will come sure eventually who knows when so why worry about it remember to seek out fun wherever you can um and try new things that scare you this is a little different than being daring because being daring comes from a place of i know what i want so i'm going after it but there's also going to be situations where you're on the edge of like do i do this or do i not and i was talking to my boyfriend about this but when i like was freshly 18 me and my friend did a cross-country road trip to vegas um and for my

birthday my parents gave me gas money to get there and get home and maybe for a couple starbucks trips but that was the best birthday present I ever received because I mean before doing so I was scared I had never done anything like this I knew I wanted to but I didn't know if I had the balls to do it or I was overthinking the little things too much and once I finally just got out there and did it and allowed myself to take a little risk I realized how much fun it is and also if you take a little risk the world will give you a big reward um and will really open up to you and in order to discover more things about the world and yourself you have to get out there and simply try um trying is the best thing you can honestly do for yourself you're not gonna succeed a lot

of the times failure means nothing failure just means you had the balls to get up and try something who cares if you fail who cares if you succeed honestly as long as you are continuously trying trying new things trying to win trying whatever it may be that is the most important thing never ever give up on yourself and never ever stop trying take a little risk here and there love yourself more than anybody else and be a little daring that's really all i gotta say also figure out your skin type at a young age figure out your skin type i had such bad acne issues i should just learn my skin type and instead of listening to all these people online don't listen to the people online i mean you're listening to me but like the people who are trying

to sell you things are like you need this skincare to survive figure out who you are and then react accordingly okay you don't need all the things everybody else has what's beautiful about people and the people around you is how different we are so lean into those differences lean into the differences that you bring to the world which is uniqueness which is charisma which is you know a breath of fresh air honestly I'm so tired of everybody else turning into the same people lean into who you are and don't let anybody else try and deter you from who you truly are and if people don't accept you for who you are that means they're not supposed to be a part of your circle the people who truly love you your chosen family your true family whatever it may be

um your friends family loved ones they are going to accept you fully for who you are they will never ever turn on you they will never ever um you know like push you down in a sense of course a good friend is um a little bit combative like i love a friend who is like gonna tell me when i do wrong because i love that openness and honesty um but don't let anybody deny you of who you truly are you know who you are bitch own it you know what i mean love you hey bestie so here's the vibe my friend of seven years left my ass um it's gonna be my birthday on june 6th turning 24 leaving to new mexico on june 3rd with my boo we're gonna stay for about six days driving up there. Gonna go to Meow Wolf, that interactive art exhibit. Might take some mushies or some kind

of psychedelics. Might not like fully trip, might just do like a little micro, a little bite, a little nibble. Very excited. So excited for your birthday soon. Happy birthday, beautiful. i hope all the magic that you put into the universe comes back tenfold million i love you bye gorgeous i love how synchronized our lives are right now i'm turning 24 you're 20 turning 24 gemini energies are on the rise i am really loving this gemini season if you're a very serious person and a very like quiet shy person gemini season is really here to bring out the inner crazy um and your thoughts might be scattered you know it might be a little chaotic but to lean into that um i hope you have so much fun in new mexico maybe have a little nibble of a chocolate bar

whatever meow wolf is supposed to be super fun i meant to go in denver but we just ran out of time but i would really recommend it i love a good art installation but happy beautiful birthday gorgeous and i hope you have a fantastic trip someone asked poll game tips for someone entering their hot girl summer era so if you're trying to have a lovey-dovey girl summer um i really recommend just not seeking outwardly i feel like love finds you when you're not looking for it and that's important because when you are looking outwardly a little too much and you're really seeking like I need a partner I need someone to love me you're more willing to put up with bullshit and you're more willing to let people in who are probably not great for you so really

I think the best tip for like just pulling this summer lovey-dovey girl summer is to focus on yourself lift yourself up make sure you're having fun making sure you're hanging out with friends make sure you're getting out but if you focus on yourself people will see you radiating that energy and they'll be drawn to it now when they are drawn to it make sure you do a little one two you know make sure they're they're drawn to it for the right reasons but i feel like when people come from that place rather than seeking and needing that feeling of validation and being wanted um the love is more real and the love is more wholesome and it's a little bit more invigorating so girl really just focus on you and what is meant for you will come to you someone asked

thoughts on vegan vegetarian um and i've talked about this before but i was actually let's see i was vegetarian for like three years and I was vegan for two years I believe maybe one year I feel like I didn't hold on to the veganism for that long but I was definitely vegetarian for a long time and I think with any diet there is good and bad but for me personally um i felt like those diets were not good for me because um it really promoted this idea within myself that i needed to restrict um and it was a fantastic way for me to you know allow myself to have an eating disorder without saying i had an eating disorder um and it was not healthy for me personally so now i eat my chicken i eat my steak i eat whatever um because as somebody who is

sensitive to those ideas and has had issues with it in the past i've realized any sort of fad diet is going to be bad for me because it's going to put me back into a mentality of restrict don't have this way to focus on food when food is a nourishment and food should be something yes i focus on and i'm interested in but it shouldn't be coming from a place of restriction um so i think it's fantastic amazing love my vegan girlies love my vegetarian girlies out there um but if you are a person who struggles with their mental health struggles with their body image struggles with that um relationship with food i'm not sure if any diet or any of these you know fad diets such as gluten-free or um vegetarian or vegan are going to be inherently good for you because they're

going to be very tough on your brain um so that's why i kind of avoid those but i am also a fan of everybody doing anything that they want whenever they want and if you are a vegan or vegetarian you think that's good for you fantastic but those four-ish years that i was vegan vegetarian i felt like i was the hardest on my body i was the meanest to myself i was restrictive i was not eating enough um and sure it was in the name of i want to do something good but inherently the good that i was doing by not eating animals was slowly killing me so now i eat what i want and i do eat like mostly a pescatarian diet i don't eat a lot of meat but i very much so intuitively eat which i think is very important if you like something allow yourself to have it eat until

you're full listen to those hunger cues drink your water have a fun little snack here and there um but i feel like intuitive eating has been the ultimate best thing for me which is really just listening to your body and giving giving it what it wants instead of saying oh no i can't have this or oh no i can't have that um because then my mind starts to spiral so it really is just a give and take if you feel like it's good for you fantastic feel like it's not then let's find something that works you know what i mean hey hannah so first of all i just want to say thank you so much um i've been listening to you for the past two years and you've really helped me through a lot um with that being said i just wanted to get on here and share something that i just did that's been pretty big

i'm pretty proud of myself um i was in a relationship with a man for about two years and it got really abusive. He had a drinking problem. And finally, within the past couple days, I just decided, you know, I didn't want to live like this anymore. I packed up my shit and I got out. I'm back at my parents' house now. It's been an adjustment for sure. My parents don't really know about the situation. I just don't really want to talk about it with them yet. I'm not ready. So they're not super supportive, but I am here and if you have any words of encouragement, I'd really appreciate it. Anyway, I'm running out of time, but love you.

Thank you so much. Bye. Slay. We stan leaving abusive men. Every day. Any day. Get yourself out of that situation, girl. Only person who can pack your bags is you.

So I'm so very proud of you for listening to yourself and knowing what you need and making it happen. You know what I mean? moving into your parents house can be hard but i really think you telling them i mean not the full extent i understand not wanting to share every deepest darkest secret you have with your parents but since you're living there at least being like hey we broke up it was not healthy for me i feel like the healthiest situation that i can have is just being here with you guys um I feel like you just simply telling them that will kind of cut down the animosity that your parents might feel against you for you not sharing anything with them I feel like the

most tiffs I've had with my parents especially living with them was because I was just not telling them the full extent of what they needed to know um and they would get upset with me because in their head all they want to do is help me and how can they help me if they don't know what's going on so i think just a being a little honest with what's going on you don't have to tell them like yeah he was alcoholic blah blah blah like i get it i don't want to share all my traumas with my parents either um but at least being like it wasn't good so i'm coming here and then also take time to find yourself especially in abusive relationships like ones i've been in in the past i feel like i come out of those like a newborn like sleek and shiny but like blank like i've

lost my old self but i'm also entering a new era and i'm not really sure who that is and it can be very invigorating or it can be very draining and it's all about how you look at it so really lean into the invigorating aspect and understand that the world is completely opening up to you and you are creating your own reality and you are bringing everything that you deserve into the light and into fruition and you were so strong and powerful and you can honestly make anything happen for yourself when i left my abusive relationship i felt like on cloud nine all the time because it was just of course when you're in that relationship it's draining draining draining um and then once you're out it's like holy shit i can finally breathe again so lean

into that energy lift yourself up keep lifting yourself up understand you did the right thing be proud of yourself celebrate a little and when it comes to discovering who this new person that you're going to become is because like i said you feel like a sleek and shiny newborn um try new things hang out with friends that you maybe were distanced from um reach out to people that you've been wanting to hang out with go to new places get out i spent a lot of time in the clubs for good in bad after my last relationship but also i felt like i had hindered myself from the world for so long that i really needed to just go out and let loose okay so let loose girl celebrate have some fun i'm so proud of you um and remember most importantly to be kind to yourself

someone asked tips on being good in bed in general i feel like there's no like specific thing there's no specific position there's no specific tiny little tip i can give you other than the more you feel yourself the better the sex is gonna be like when i'm and when i'm in a i was writing a little list like making a little meme to post on instagram of like different things that i've learned um throughout my years and one of them was never have bad sex and i feel like for me personally when i do have bad sex it's because in my head i am like insecure or i'm too focused on myself or i'm thinking too much about the other person or i'm too hyper focused on something and i throw myself out of it you know i'm just like not in

the mood i'm not in my sexy goddess mood you know um and then it's not as fun because i'm not as connected to myself and thus i'm not as connected to my partner whereas the best sex i've ever had has been when i am like feeling myself like aphrodite has entered my body and taken over like that is the energy that you want to inhabit and all of it is like of course a pleasure base so you really just have to focus on what feels good to you um what position feels best for you where you feel the sexiest how you feel the sexiest and then lean into that you're not there to fulfill their desires unless that turns you on then like good fantastic um you're really there to fulfill your desires though so lean into that and that's why i talk about high sex a lot because i

feel like being high kind of oh for me yes it can produce anxiety and it could get you out of your head and it can make the situation not good but i feel like it was a it's a very good tool of breaking down that wall for me um and really making me focus on my body and focus on what feels good and focus on how i'm feeling and which in turn produces good sex the best sex step sex tip i can really give anybody is to really just girl feel yourself have fun you're there to have a blast okay what makes you feel good what makes you feel sexy lean into that and sometimes when i do get in my head and i feel like it's just like i'm too out of it switching a position or like um starting to talk like verbalize what feels good and like saying things within bed

helps me escape my head when it's just like dead silence i'm it's because my brain is overacting and I'm thinking way too fucking much and so either a being a little stony baloney be speaking out loud and verbalizing what feels good how it's going what you want from your partner little sexy thing here and there is also a fantastic way of getting out of your head and getting more into the moment but the more you're into the moment and the sexier your feet you feel you you you you I feel like we as women are taught to just pleasure your partners no no you how you feel the pleasure you are getting the sexier you feel the better the sex is amen with that being said we're what like a little under halfway done with the episode i took a ginger shot with you guys but i do

actually want to smoke a bowl so let's do that load yourself a little bully bowl get your joint ready and cheers ladies yummy right now i'm smoking on clementine it's a sativa hybrid i really like this it's very fruity very fruity um which i'm always into a fruity strain i feel like strains are either fruity or earthy which earthy can be nice sometimes but i'm definitely of fruity girl safe to say oh this is a good question especially as i'm sitting in my brand new giant fucking apartment like huge oh my god um they asked thoughts on how to keep your house clean without feeling like you're constantly cleaning fantastic question um because i get it i will be in a perfect wonderful spotless shining clean apartment and then i feel like 10 minutes

later i'll look around me and it's like everything's a hot mess like everything is everywhere it's dirty i'm like oh my god how did it get this way i i barely blinked um so to avoid this even if you have a small space best thing you can do is whether you're a morning person or evening person depending on when you have the energy or when you think this fits best in your in your schedule maybe it's afternoon now that we got summers and we got a little time to ourselves um just designate a good 30 to 50 minutes it doesn't even take that long like maybe 15 to 30 minutes to go around and just clean everything up and i'm not talking you're on your hands and knees scrubbing like scrubbing shit i'm talking like do your dishes make sure they're in the dishwasher

make sure there's nothing on the floor make sure your plants are water make sure your bed is made like simple caretaking things like we're not getting deep and grimy and dirty here we're just dealing with the surface level bullshit and that doesn't take that long especially once you get into a habit but every day try and stay on top of this um and if you do it every day then sometimes you can miss a day and really doesn't make a huge difference but if you stay on top of it i feel like when my room is clean my mind is clean and when my room is messy my mind is messy so i always feel better when there's just less shit everywhere and then now when you need to do some deep cleaning i like to designate one day a week that's like my deep cleaning day um and whatever has gotten

really dirty whether it's like i need to clean my bathroom floors or i gotta do the mirrors or i gotta you know clean the stove um maybe it's washing my bedding like deep cleaning maybe it's I need to um wax my floors I designate one day for doing that for me personally it's either a Sunday or a Monday depending on how I'm feeling or the the things I have scheduled um and that usually takes like one hour a solid hour I will say maybe two if there's like a bunch of shit you gotta hit but designate one day to do deep cleaning things clean your toilets okay clean your shower change your shower head whatever it may be wipe down your walls if you gotta um and then every day just a little bit of time to make sure you're just picking up the things around

you if you do those two things every week your life will feel like there's some sort of order to the chaos and you won't feel like things are getting out of your control especially in your house it's fine I feel like I can deal with when things get out of control within my life I'm like okay that's just a part of my life I'll deal with it but then when things are like physically out of control around me I like lose it like mentally cannot handle it so stay on top of your shit get your stuff clean everything will be okay all right girl I had this whole like question planned out about like this situation ship that just ended and this new guy I'm talking to is 10 times better but I think I just know the answer to that to be honest like fuck the other guy I'll get him out

of my head whatever my question here dude is my 21st birthday is July 30th I'm so ready I'm so excited I want some ideas of the theme and some like places to go to I know everyone goes to Vegas I'm not trying to go there though I I just don't I don't know I have some like history there I just don't really want to go to Vegas to be honest um so I do live in Arizona so anywhere kind of close to that um and I don't really drink too much if you know what I mean so I'm not a big drinker I don't want to get too fucked up I want it to be a memorable time just a few close friends so if you have any ideas that'd be like super appreciated I love this podcast so much and I love you and I hope you have a wonderful day I am actually going to Arizona for a friend's birthday

and july and i'm very excited about it she's a huge party girl so it's like mentally i'm having to psych myself up for like a vegas kind of birthday where it's like bar club bus another club another club you know what i mean which will be so fun um but also i'm the kind of person where if i'm not in the party mood then i'm in like a retreat smoke chill lay on the floor kind of mood which is kind of the birthday energy i was going for this year so if i were you and i was more interested in just having some good friends around having a good time nothing crazy i would do like you know how those like rich girlies in la go on like holistic wellness retreats you should just throw one for yourself for your birthday so like go i don't know what kind of money you have but

maybe like rent a place or go somewhere that has like a pool you're out in the desert you got some alone time maybe go to like even a neighborhood pool would work it doesn't matter just like throw yourself a holistic retreat in whatever sense that means to you whatever is most important to you maybe you value like doing face masks and self-care and you guys can do a little self-care movie night hangout chill smoke maybe it's like i want to lay by the pool and have a blunt in my hand and we all have like fun little monogram matching towels or maybe it's like we all go to yoga together and then go out for sushi like plan your little holistic wellness retreat what is the best for you then do that or you could go like a summer camp vibe where it's like

i don't know i like i love a theme party so you could do like since it's in july like summer camp and you guys are just tenting it out in the woods arizona's hot but here i would be like in the woods smoking hanging hammocking making mac and cheese on a campfire stove maybe i could like get on etsy and find like little matching patches for us um but there's so many ideas but if you want to the rest relaxation route definitely lean into it on like listen to your gut and listen to what it needs and go after it and if you're not in the like let's get fucked up girl kind of energy which I definitely was for my 21st but like I get being burnt out by 21 you're like I'm good um then lean into like the holistic kind of chill girls retreat energy I feel like that would be

really fun love you someone said i graduated high school what to do during my gap year first of all congratulations um that is a really fun graduation i had fun at my um high school graduation because i feel like it's like graduating into adulthood and you're like oh my god the world is completely opening up to me and you have a year off which is very exciting so i would really really really focus on what you uh how do i phrase this like coming to terms with what you desire in this life take this year take risk to take chance to experience the world maybe become an au pair travel do whatever you need to do but learn about yourself from instead of like learning who you are as a teenager learn what you want and desire from the future and then do that for like the first

three months and then at the three month mark take a moment to like come up with a plan and be like okay so this is what i'm doing this is what i'm going after and then not only for the rest of the months are you going to fulfill that plan so by the end of the year you're moving on to what you truly desire but also continue taking those risks continue living your life continue enjoying the rest of the year the year while also working forwards into the life you truly desire so like discover new towns that you maybe want to travel to look at new colleges you maybe want to apply to try different jobs hang out with different people explore the world a little bit because it's kind of the first opportunity that you're really having to do so so take advantage of that

but then also like don't waste that year and then come to the end of it and be like i still don't know what the fuck to do with my life like take risks embrace change dream take a lot of time to dream and ask yourself like where do i envision myself in a year and then do like a little mental check-in like three four five months in and ask yourself what is my plan gonna be and then work towards it but you're gonna have so much fun i wish i would have taken a gap year um i do recommend either a taking a gap year between high school and college or I think even better is if you are in college and you're hearing that like fuck I should have no no if you go from high school to college it's going to make the process a little bit easier but getting back into college isn't

hard either I took a gap year after I dropped out of nursing school took like a year off and then got into art school and I felt like I didn't really miss a beat I wasn't having a harder time learning anything um every school year I feel like after the three months your brain is kind of like holy shit we got to get back on to this and I know that's true because literally in first grade after the summer break and I was going into second grade I forgot how to spell my name like and it's my name's Hannah there's only three letters h-a-n-n-a-h like let's be real I forgot how to spell my name so like I don't think it's true that if you take time off you're gonna have a harder time getting back into school because even after just like a little bit of time off

that they give us every single year it's hard getting back into it you will adjust your brain is really good at adjusting um but yeah if you're taking a year off that's okay learn about yourself make a plan but if you are going from high school straight to college um any of my girlies listening i would really really recommend traveling abroad specifically your second year i know that's kind of the year to do it you can make it happen there are grants you can get there are like companies you can work with go to the people at your college you travel abroad stuff learn about where they went ask yourself what would be the best for you I really really regret not traveling abroad um because I could have made it happen for myself if you want something once again you can make it

happen you can find the money you can do a little you know go fund me situation whatever it may be ask your parents ask your family work hard work up extra shifts whatever maybe make it happen i feel like my friends who went on travel abroad um became more confident in themselves more confident traveling had more of an understanding about themselves and that's just from living outside of america i think that really does help um but yeah love you you'll figure it out remember to have fun remember to not be so serious on yourself and yeah this is a time to discover and dream and that is so exciting so lean into that energy someone asked i gossip a lot is that really bad i think it depends but honestly i've been having this conversation a lot i think gossiping is good

and healthy um i think it keeps people protected i think it keeps people aware of what's going on around them i think it keeps people kind of like also held accountable i think gossiping is really really healthy and good like think back to when i don't know it's just like we as women need to chit chat with each with each other to know like oh is this man an abuser like oh is this man going to be good to us or like is this food healthy to eat is this place safe to go to is this tip or trick actually gonna work like whatever it may be is this person trustworthy i think gossiping is really good for um just making sure you're protected and making people sure people's eyes are open and aware of the world around them um but also if it's all you do during

your time alive here you're going to be way too focused on other people um and not focused on yourself although it is a healthy trait to have and an okay normal thing to do um and it creates bonding it creates laughs like let's be real but if it's all you are doing with your life you are just going to be completely encompassed in people's lives and not focused on you and your life is going to completely get away from you so there's good and bad to everything and i think the key here is just like too much of something is never good so no you shouldn't gossip 24 7 focus on yourself but also i do think there's a balance of like healthy gossip of just making sure we're protected and making sure we're all on the same path you know what i mean oh i literally just did

my bikini routine this morning um so this is a perfect question so someone said what are your bikini season tips how to prevent getting ingroms plus where do you get cute bikinis um so how to prevent getting ingrowns first of all shaving shaving can be super fucking annoying um especially when you are more prone to ingrowns it's not fun it feels like ripping your teeth out i have the perfect routine down now so pull out your pen and paper let's get to work first of all when you shave you need to shave with a three blade razor and most importantly it has to have that like moisture strip on the top um the one like a thick one okay like i think gillette makes some venus whatever make sure it has that thick ass moisture strip on the top and it's three or two

blade whatever i don't think the blades really matter i like a three blade because i feel like my hair is a little bit more thick um but that moisture strip at the top very important now before exfoliate i shave with conditioner instead of like a shaving cream i feel like a shaving cream sometimes leaves my legs dry and like conditioner is made to moisturize hair so why would that not make sense so i use conditioner to shave um any cheap conditioner non-scented is my preferred but like a shea butter kind of moisturizer or like conditioner is my go-to i use that to shave and then also the moisture bar at the top will be very very beneficial when shaving now with your legs i always shave against the grain um but with your bikini area you always

want to shave with the grain with the grain babes never against the grain that is how you shove like the hairs back up into the pore or like cut it too short to the point where it becomes an ingrown shave with the grain okay squatting makes this easier also pro tip standing i feel like is so hard or like sitting down i don't know that would be the best now after you shave get out shower dry normally and then don't wear underwear for 24 hours if you can if you can i feel like a lot of my ingrowns are from simply like my bikini line or like something rubbing against the area and it getting irritated um so if you can not wear underwear the longer the better um just let her breathe all right let her breathe and always

moisturize after you shave as well specifically your legs and then where to get cute bikinis i actually i just thrifted a bikini that i really like i've gotten my bikinis off depop someone asked me how do i get depop or get stuff off depop for a good price it's because i make offers people are really willing to accept offers or to negotiate always especially resellers um so like i got this really beautiful hawaiian 70s vintage blue bikini for like 50 bucks i know score i got this uh sailor moon like vintage graphic teeth like baby teeth like 20 bucks and i got the the bikini for 50 and i think it was originally 80 and the graphic tee for 20 bucks and i think it was originally like 35 so make offers work with these people they want to sell you their stuff

um and then also last but not least sydney mary bikini i have like three or four of her bikinis at this point i love her with my whole heart it's all one of a club oh my god all one of a kind um handmade recycled materials uh very size inclusive as well um and also she does custom orders so if you're on there perusing and you don't see a size that's like because of course we all have different top sizes and bottom sizes um sometimes but um if you don't find the sizes that you want she has custom orders so you can give her your measurements and she'll show you the fabric that she has available and you can pick your fabric and literally she will hand make it for you are you kidding me it does not get better than that um but yeah a lot of my bikinis are

vintage also when i'm on vacation i especially to like tropical areas like um when i was in California I always go to Venice Beach to find bikinis they will be super cheap those people will have been making bikinis for like their entire life you will find good ones um but find a local like bikini maker and buy from them because it will not be ever as expensive as these boutiques that you see or like what is it Frankie's bikinis where it's like $85 for a top and $85 for bottom hell no I think my bikini on Venice Beach was like $15 for a top and then $10 for a bottom because he thought I was cute I was like hell yeah and I got like four different pairs then he threw another discount on top like these people love working with you they love seeing

their stuff purchased and used and I love supporting small businesses um so yeah I'm really excited to go to Mexico and see what I can find um and who I can support there but that's where I usually get my bikinis I know you probably get these messages a lot hi Hannah my name's Anya and I'm a 19 year old navigating a whole bunch of life and trauma and everything that the hot girls heal from and I'm moving to Italy this fall for college and I just wanted to come on here and send you a little message saying thank you thank you for being you thank you for finding your passions and what lights your soul on fire and turning that into your reality and thank you for teaching the rest of us out here how to do the same and for reminding us that we're not as alone

as we feel we are and um divine timing is insanely on time every damn time so um hope you have a great rest of your day and thank you for being you oh i love you this call-in is so fucking sweet oh my god you're gonna make me cry i feel like the one goal i've had no matter what over all overarching goals that i've had which have been a lot like a lot like a lot of goals and a lot of them don't come to fruition and that's okay but ever since i was young especially going through what i went through at a young age and just having to deal with mental health and how hard it can be um was i just wanted to help people and reach out to people and let people they're not alone so thank you i love that i can come on here every week and hang out with you guys

and really just share in what this life is and encourage you guys to do the same so love you congratulations on the move to italy you're gonna have a fucking blast i think you said italy my attention span is slowly dying today i need some food in my system um but divine timing is real and it's very important and i haven't talked about it in a while um but i feel like in life we try and rush a lot of things we try and rush school we try and rush relationships we try and rush ourselves we try and rush the process and let me tell you this rushing into things has never been good for me and one of the things that i've really been learning to do this summer or not the summer oh my god this past year is to really lean into the divine timing and understand that what

is meant for me will approach me at the time that is destined because i think a lot of my turmoil honestly when i was young is because i knew what i wanted and i didn't have it and that was super fucking frustrating as it is for everybody um but as a go-getter and as somebody who is very passionate knowing what i wanting and not being able to create it for myself or not having the patience to just wait was like pulling teeth like it was awful like it it made me like i suffered a lot from it um and i also didn't participate in life a lot because of it and so really just retraining my brain and learning that divine timing is important and you really have to lean into understanding that what is meant for you will come for you but it will most importantly

come in your own time is a huge lesson to learn um but yeah i i don't know i've always been a person who's like i just want to cut the line i want to get there but if you cut out the travel that it takes to get to your destination you're really losing out on a majority of the reason why that experience was so important like sure we could all behave like little rich kitties and ask our mommy and daddies what we want from the universe and make it happen but like is that really satisfactory will that really fulfill us no a lot of what really fulfills us and what really you know drives us and makes us passionate and makes us enjoy life and participate within life is the travel that it takes to get to your destination and honestly like that's a majority

of the fun i talk all the time about this road trip i took when i was like 18 because getting there and experiencing the world around me was the most fun part like of course you were doing it to go to a show to go to Vegas whatever it may be but I felt like having the balls to do it and to get in the car and to drive the car and to get through those long hours and to experience the world around us and find a place to crash that is truly what made it fun and we have to allow divine timing to interact within our lives and not rush into things in order to experience the travel before you get to your destination and you can have a set time for when you want something done but that doesn't mean it's when it's going to happen or when you want it to happen and the more patience

you can garner for yourself the world around you your own life other people the easier your life and the more fluid your life will become and that has been a really really fun process for me to try and understand and dive into this past year but I feel like I finally understood the importance and also perfected a really nice fine balance of leaning into and trusting in divine timing because the universe will deliver what you deserve and what you need when you deserve it and when you need and sometimes that's in a year sometimes that's in three weeks sometimes that's in 10 years but there's no way for you to gauge or guess so stop trying to gauge and guess and just interact and live your life and work forward and it will come to you when it's deserving and I believe

karma does also act in the same way divine timing will deliver everybody everything they need good or bad when they need it and the universe has very funny timing I have discovered like like she giggles like things will happen and i'm like the universe is literally laughing at me right now um she has very great comedic timing in the way that she plays around with time but once again there's no way to guess or gauge so just live your best life work forward have the best time you can and remember most importantly to garner patience within this life you will get everything you've ever possibly wanted, dreamed, desired within its own time. But you have to allow that time to come to fruition in order to get it. You cannot rush into things.

Someone asked, thoughts on DIY shows. I've been getting into the punk scene in Lawrence and Casey lately. Love the punk scene in Lawrence and Casey. I love a DIY show. Let me tell you this. I've been to so many clubs in my life i've been to so many parties so many house parties so many frat parties so many random dorm parties like every single party you could possibly imagine the most fun that i have at these parties or like going out in general is at diy shows um i spent a lot of my late teens and early 20s in warehouse this warehouse in downtown kc in the industrial district that was like also a like go-to rave spot in the evenings like you sneak in you bring your own bottle they have vendors they have a pool table they have a dj stand people are coming and

going and dancing and hanging out and chatting on couches and there's good lighting there's always good artists and i had so much fun at this warehouse just like allowing myself to be and meeting new people and talking and i was also a lot of molly usually on these times but just like coming into myself and discovering the world around me especially in a place that was more comfortable a lot of these diy shows are put on by like your neighbor or like people you know also young people like these are not set clubs these are not like you know the go-to hot spot in town where everybody of every age with every interest will be there which is fun it's everybody has something in common and also there's a camaraderie about it and i think if you're

looking to especially if you're young and you're looking to get out and find something to do that's not go to your local club this evening find a local diy show um and it's usually going to be in someone's like basement or it's going to be at a random hole in the wall venue or it's going to be you know out at a park or it's going to be in a warehouse downtown it's going to be a little sketchy but you're gonna have a blast i guarantee it it's a little bit more intimate i feel like it's the adult young adult version of a house party um like what we would throw in high school when someone's parents was out of town now we don't do that because we enjoy our apartments and also they're too small um and now they are thrown in fun little nooks and crannies all

around your city but just look for like flyers taped to poles look for um band flyers that are going around from people you know around your city look for um also after shows and concerts a lot of diy venues will have people stand outside these shows and concerts and hand out flyers for more shows and concerts that they'll be putting on at smaller venues but will also have like the same kind of interest and theme as what you had just attended um but yeah i think it is very important to connect to community and i have had the most fucking fun at some of these shows in random people's basements in you know random warehouses downtown um walking up to what you think is a brick wall and then opens into a door like it's fun it's like a scavenger hunt i

feel like going alice in wonderland going down the rabbit hole um and there's a lot of fun in any city literally anywhere you are like i'm in kansas city babe like we are not a hot spot but we know how to have fun and i guarantee there's fun things everywhere around you you just have to open your eyes and look but yeah i would absolutely recommend getting into them and then just meeting the people who show up pretty often making friends and then bringing friends to them it's a hub also of like creators as well like at the warehouse i would always love chatting with the vendors and talking about art and talking about branding and how do you monetize yourself and what are you passionate about and where do you think this life is going to take you

um those are the kind of conversations and the things i like to get into at parties now i used to love the club and just being blacked out on a dance floor which of course they do have but now I'm more in it for the human connection and seeing who's there and discovering more things about myself through that but love you hi Hannah I recently listened to one of your episodes where you mentioned cheating and it made me stop in my fucking tracks so I'm going to tell you about my situation I'm a lesbian in a relationship for more than three years now and in the past my girlfriend who has been away for college has entertained other girls. It's happened a handful of times. I found text messages that were flirty and she's come to me admitted, you know, I was

way too friendly with this girl and I should have made it stop. And in other, you know, aspects of our relationship, things are really great. I really love her and she's graduating and moving home. So I don't really think there will be an opportunity for her to entertain other college girls, you know um but it won't leave my mind it fucks me up I think about it and I'm like damn dude I've never done this to you I hate that I keep being in this situation so is it a deal breaker uh it just oh thank you I love you weird stuff here's the thing I feel like every relationship has its nuances every person has their own different boundaries um and you know um we all have our limits but when it comes down to it no matter what that person has done no matter how it's gone no

matter what situation you are dealing with i think when it's one of those things that is just constantly on your mind and you cannot get off there's two ways it could go a it's constantly on your mind and you cannot stop thinking about it because they will of course have broken your trust but they've done nothing to make you feel better um they haven't shown any growth they haven't shown any improvement they really haven't brought you any peace of mind they don't hear you out when you feel anxious about this thing they don't help you out through this after causing you pain that that is a that in my opinion is a quick breakup get it over with rip the band-aid off go find someone who is going to be we have a tendency as human people to hurt people it's

just a part of life a part of the process a part of relationship dynamics um you are not a perfect person you're probably going to hurt somebody close to you at some point in your life when you do that in order to be a good person you have to make change you have to show improvement you have to be there for your partner you have to prove that you are a new person that you will not do this thing again and it takes a lot of work it takes a lot of fucking work and it takes a lot of time it takes a lot of understanding and it takes a lot of communication and if they're doing all that and you feel like okay you know we're in a good place things are good i can get over this i just have a little bit of anxieties about it every once in a while then maybe it's not a basis

of breakup but maybe it's just something you need to talk about again um i think people can change and people can grow but also within a relationship if there are hard boundaries and they get crossed you are always allowed to leave i would like to make that clear that a relationship is not a hard end this is not finalization you are always allowed to leave if you feel like this isn't working for me my boundaries are being crossed i'm not being listened to i'm not being loved i'm not being supported i need to get out of here that is always allowed and if you feel like this nagging feeling this anxiety is not going to go away it's just going to get worse then maybe that's something you need to you need to think about um but if you do see change and you do feel like

maybe this anxiety is easing up and they are helping you through it and they're being a good partner and they're showing up for you and you don't feel like you guys need to break up then that's always valid too but like with any relationship there is nuances to them and there's different things that people are allowed to tolerate um but the overall point of it all is you are deserving of true love and true desire and true trust in a relationship like trust communication and desire are the key points of a relationship and if you bring up these anxieties and she just rolls her eyes and doesn't listen to you maybe she's not somebody that you can confide in and maybe that's not a good basis for a relationship or a partner but if she hears you

out and helps you through them and she can help you ease those anxieties then work on it together but ultimately that is a step that you're gonna have to take someone said got nutted in but i have an iud anxious as fuck please pray for me illy okay girly let me tell you what i've been doing for the past four years of my life with my iud like i that's happening every other day not saying that this is a doctor recommended advice but like for the past four years i have been nutted in with an iud and absolutely nothing has happened nothing that is not advice though i told that to my friend and she's a nurse and she looked at me like i was fucking crazy so maybe i am also infertile but i also think you're probably okay because iuds have a very very high success

rate of working i think the only times they don't work is if they get displaced which you will know will be painful um or that's it i'm pretty sure that's literally it so i i'm i'm sure you're okay but manifesting you aren't pregnant by a pregnancy test love you but when i tell you this man is coming at me every single day like multiple times a day and i'm okay hopefully that provides you some peace of mind um someone said what is my skincare routine for the summer spf that's about it that is about it i cut back on any sort of like chemical or harsher things that i'm using on my face if i'm using a retinol then i cover my face and i make sure i'm wearing a hat most of the time because your skin is gonna become very very sensitive especially if you're using

like chemical exfoliants like the polish choice aha bha exfoliant which i do use a lot i love it and i recommend it but also like i'm going to tell you it's going to make your face more sensitive to sunlight um but the only thing that i do different during the summer compared to the winter is i of course i have an spf during the winter but i apply it more rigorously during the summer all summer a good spf and a good spf is really just dependent on your skin type so do some research love you someone asked if i'm gonna watch the barbie movie when it comes out hell yeah i am i'm really hoping i can get a few of my girls together and we can dress up and go watch it but like i am so excited the way the disney girlies are excited about ariel right now

i am excited about barbie coming out the new trailer looks so good i am completely obsessed with the concept and the idea love margot robbie love that the creator of barbie is in the movie love um what's what the fuck is his name as ken um and yeah i think it's just gonna be really good and the things that they're throwing in there for like the people who used to play with barbies as kids and the nostalgic aspects like i'm a sucker for nostalgia and although like i didn't play with barbies a lot i did play with barbies and play pretend and i was a girly girl um when i was really young so of course i want to lean back into that as an adult you know what i mean oh my god the sirens are really too much anyways yes i'm very excited and yes i will be dressing

up and yes i will do a whole movie review but unfortunately i am just waiting hey hannah um i'm asking a bunch of questions but not in like a answer these and explain them but more like what are your favorite things in life i want to know your mbti i want to know your favorite zodiac signs and that can go for sun moon and risings i want to know your favorite tarot cards favorite book favorite movie tv shows um favorite food i know your favorite drink is definitely like a cherry coke or your coconut water you fuck with that which i've been dabbling in a little coconut water too even though i'm not a big fan of coconut but the pineapple flavored ones are really good um favorite season favorite things to do by yourself favorite things to do with other people

yeah i just you know i want to know more about you and your interests um so yeah have a great day love you this is really cute because it reminds me of those like you know elementary school get to know me um kind of forms that you would fill out at the beginning of the year which maybe i'll create our own little smoke sasha get to know me um you know fill her out share it with you guys but i had to do some research and i'm looking at one right now so my name is hannah i'm turning 24 my birthday is june 1st 1999 my favorite color is pink right now it changes a lot but pink has been going strong for a few years now my favorite food is fettuccine alfredo which it has been that way since i have been born honestly since i could put food in my mouth um that has been my favorite

preferably with shrimp or chicken like a blackened chicken my favorite season is summer my favorite hobby is art my favorite subject is art my favorite subject is gossiping actually to chatting with the girls my favorite place is the right now my favorite place is blue river by my house it feels like an oasis and it's not far which I love um and then my uh what I want to be when I grow up I want to be happy I think that's all I can really ask for myself I'm going strong but I don't know what I want to be when I grow up and who knows what I'll end up you know becoming quote-unquote as in what job i'll have because i think it will constantly change because i'm just the kind of person to constantly change and i want to leave that open for myself but i think the most i can

really ask for myself when i grow up is to be happy anyways with that being said i know i know we've come to an end i feel like that was a fun one to end on though a little check in get to know me i'm going to get to work that's my goal on the plane tomorrow which is oh my god time crazy which is when you're going to be listening to this um to create our own little smoke sesh get to know me all about me little sheets that we can all fill out because i feel like that would be so fucking cute um anyways i am about to munch on some green beans and dumplings i have i work tonight how fucked up is that memorial day everybody has today off but i gotta work what's crazy hopefully i can make a little extra money so i have some some spending

money um that i can spend in mexico buy some fun margs fun tacos i'm literally gonna be on a beach tomorrow oh my god i cannot wait it's gonna be fucking fantastic i love you all so so very much you are all so dear to my heart thank you for being on this journey with me thank you for being open and honest and vulnerable and raw with me and hearing me out um i love you all so much i'm so thankful to have spent another year doing this and hanging out with you guys um it has been nothing but the most fun i've ever had in my entire life and i am glad that we have been able to continue it throughout another year so cheers to 24 years oh my god i cannot believe i'm 24 um but there's going to be so many more great birthdays and great years and great experiences

to come and i cannot wait to experience those in divine timing as you all know love you all so much be kind to yourself treat yourself a little bit today uplift yourself support yourself and i will see you all maybe next week we'll see we'll see follow me on instagram at hannah marlene for all the updates all the psas all all the updates on the pod okay but don't murder me if i can't get one up on tuesday because i won't have wi-fi in mexico anyways love you all