Smoke Sesh - alter ego, year of the bush & stalker story time

Episode Date: January 28, 2025

happy Tuesday hotties! welcome back to another crazy episode of smoke sesh I'm so excited to be back with you all! we have a LOT to cover today and we jump right into it and start chatting emotional care and dissociation is a little healthy sometimes, swallowing, should you? plus tips and tricks, how much does Hannah really smoke, getting on the wrong train, lasting longer in bed, lying... location sharing, yelling in relationships, gaming, creativity and allowing yourself to be fueled by boredom, year of the bush and bringing back the bush, snack plates, reels, age gap relationships and cougars, developing an alter ego in order to grow, stalkers and my childhood stalker story time, craft night ideas, staying warm , how to be attractive in this life, pretty privilege, and how to attract what you want plus much much much much more! if you want to see what im up to and to submit your question every Sunday follow me on instagram hannahmarlene and if you want extra exclusive content come join the patreon! patreon.com/smokeseshshawty for more MUAH

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could call me hannah the host of smoke sash so come hang out let's light up and talk everything there is to life the good the bad the ugly the embarrassing i've got a story for it all hello baddies of the world and welcome back to another fun little sexy episode of smoke sash my name is hannah your host and i'm so excited to be back with all of you guys honestly not a lot to catch you guys up on there is a lot a lot i want to chat about though okay we got themes and things that we gotta go over i'm feeling the inspiration i don't know what it is i just woke up the other day and the birds were singing the birds were chirping they haven't done that in fucking forever even the swarm the like horde of birds that visit my apartment because i have like

bird food out i'm talking hundreds upon thousands of birds like they'll be chirping and stuff but they're not singing and finally I woke up one morning and I heard the birds singing and you know what I felt in my soul we're so close to spring the renewal the energizing energy that we are feeling right now it is going to be here so soon and I am so excited so I feel like I'm gonna try and carry that sing-song bird energy through this podcast give you a little laugh give you a little energy bright and early this morning but I hope you're all doing well oh my god one of you guys commented and was like girl not you and your car problems like not you leaving that for the last bit of the episode yeah yeah unfortunately I think it's time for me to buy a

new car I know my last car it's a Mazda I love Mazda if you need a good reliable fairly cheap car easy to fix you know doesn't give you a lot of problems Mazdas are amazing this is my second Mazda and I'm hoping to get a third we'll see what I end up with um but she is just on her last leg of life uh truly limping through the last era of her life so after all of the you know little things I've had to do to her I think it's finally just to put time to put her out of her misery you know what I mean and time for me to buy a new car one big financial tip that I can give you guys though is if you can if you can I understand with the way the economics are working nowadays like I feel like it's kind of a luxury to do this but if you can avoid a car payment and pay for a car

with straight cash you will save yourself so much just time and energy and stress my goal right now is to kind of just save up a fat chunk of money so i can just drop it all on a car um and then have no car payment like that first initial i i just hate payments like that is one of my what are my banes in my existence especially like health insurance bitch why the fuck is my health insurance four hundred dollars a month i hate america what the fuck um but like imagine that plus a car payment girl you're stressing you're stressing no matter where you are financially even if you're successful like you're going to be stressing a little bit over that car payment so i'm going to take my time i'm going to look around i'm going to try and find something you

know there's no need to rush i think when you are really strategic and plan ahead um it just makes everything work out a little bit more more smoothly so we had to let's see what did we do we got a new battery check we had to get like a new part of the steering wheel because the steering wheel was like not reading the key and then we had to get a new key finally she's working again thank god it really truly was just like is my car gonna start today who fucking knows also it was negative 10 degrees outside that was not helping the situation but it's time it's time for me to start financially thinking about a car uh big girl things i feel like i'm going into my 26th year i'm 25 now and I feel like 26 is truly gonna be me kind of like ripping those adult band-aids off

that are kind of like uh I don't want to do this adult thing but I'm gonna have to such as like a new car ouch you know ouch to my bank account probably move into like a more serious home I know I'm gonna miss this background but I just need space to myself I want to get out of the chaos of where I live right now so get serious about where I want to live or even just traveling and visiting different places to see if I want to live there figuring out a more secure um inspirational career things like that that's kind of like what 25 26 27 28 I think is going to be for me and right now I'm really just game planning and gearing up for having to deal with all of that um if you are in your young 20s though don't worry have your fun the thing about your 20s is truly

like you will figure it out along the way so don't stress it so much seriously stressing never ever ever makes your life easier speaking of i've been posting a lot on tiktok i've been having fun over there really just spam posting um so if you want to indulge in dumb content go find me there i believe i'm posting on my spam i'm not posting on my main but my spam is fairy smoke mother yes yes okay let's see what topics i have written down um oh yes talking about you know emotional wealth and preserving your energy um some of you need to learn to dissociate a bit more i think dissociation can be healthy now mentally removing yourself from the world completely not mentally healthy not mentally healthy but learning when and where to invest your emotions i think is

very very important and it will help you with decision making with like your people pleasing tendencies and with really choosing um what is worth your time and energy in this life i think it's a very important skill to learn something that me and my boyfriend have been talking about a little bit listen listen girl if you need some money go work for the post office but then again please be aware they will be working you seven days a week 12 hour shifts i see my boyfriend once a week and i feel so bad because i know he's so stressed out and i know like the managers aren't helping and it sucks when you have shitty managers managers really make or break like where you're working like girl if this place is hell you gotta have a good fucking attitude like listen i

get its hell for you too but like please you got to help us us commoners out here the ones who are truly showing up and doing the work so me and my boyfriend have kind of been like talking about that a lot and really working on it because he's been coming home and i can just tell he's so stressed out from work and like carrying it over to home life is not good because then you feel like you know your life that you do have control over the life that is supposed to bring you joy is also kind of tied to work and you're suffering in a sort of sense um so i was straight up to him i was like dude like i know your managers suck and i know your job is overworking you but i do think it's really healthy to learn like kind of emotional boundaries in that sort of way and

really learning to like dissociate from what is worth your time and what is not like if you go into work and your manager has a bad fucking attitude and nasty she's a nasty evil bitch like you don't have to take on that energy like you do have power over that and i understand being swayed by emotions is like very easy like listen i'm a bpd girly like i get it like being overwhelmed by by emotions is very very easy but we do have a choice in the matter of like do i want to let this nasty bitch really ruin the rest of my day no no so i did i made a tiktok and it said how i said how it feels to have a man who goes to therapy after pissing me off instead of gaslighting me into thinking everything's my fault amen because my ex definitely would have done that i mean not

would have did constantly did like everything was my fault oh you're mad from work my fault oh food didn't taste good my fault oh you just generally hate your life my fault but now like i love being in a healthy relationship because i literally had to talk to my boyfriends like listen i know this job sucks but like you got health benefits girl like let's get you into therapy like i know you got at least eight free sessions through your work so he signed up for therapy and he went and he had a great fucking time he is not the kind of person scorpio scorpio trigger warning like he is not very forthcoming with his emotions um i think he gets very overwhelmed by them easily not in like a negative way where it's like affecting people really negatively but definitely

in a way where i can tell it's affecting him in general and his overall happiness so it's like let's get you into therapy girl like let's fuck it like sign up what are you gonna lose you know what i mean like a quick little 30 minute session why not and he had the best time and guess what his therapist said guess what his therapist said his therapist said yeah girl like we gotta work on emotional boundaries yep yep but sometimes like you can't beat a dead horse while it's down like sometimes hearing it from a new perspective and a new point of view is very healthy and like of course what I was saying was probably not as direct as what the therapist was saying but I do think new perspectives really help you kind of process an idea a little bit more so I'm so proud

of him for doing that but seriously especially during this time where like we are overwhelmed with news and emotion and just like world worldly chaos like sometimes when you feel so so so out of control I'm not saying like close your eyes and turn your back to what is happening on the world I don't think that's good we need to watch out for our neighbors and ourselves and be aware of what's going on but if you are checking the news like every five minutes and it's filling you with so much dread please be aware that like you can have emotional feelings for something and want to do something and do something about it without those emotions like paralyzing you and turning you into a shell of a human like all of these things are so shocking for a reason it's because

they want us to feel numb and like we can't do anything like you can't let the system completely beat you down into a shell of a human overwhelm you emotionally like you do have to be protective of yourself and your emotions in order to be a functional human during this time like i feel like i really suffered with this feeling and understanding like how much my emotions affected me i was born with everything affecting me too much all the time i felt like i was in a river but attempting to swim upstream but life should be like a lazy river you know your comfortability is priority number one especially when it comes to your emotions you don't have to take on the emotions of that rude customer or stranger sometimes you have to pick and choose

what you want to attach to and i highly recommend learning how to do so in order to stay sane in this world now it is a fine balance you can't be so connected that life is a struggle and you don't feel like yourself but you can't be so disconnected that you shut yourself off to the world and simply float through life emotionless you have to find yourself somewhere in the middle and a good way of checking myself is really asking in high emotion situations where I'm sitting on that balance and if I want to choose to let this thing affect me or not especially like I have managers at work that I'm like dude you're a 35 year old man with a coke addiction living in your mom's basement like please watch your fucking attitude and who you're speaking to but am I gonna let his

coke addict brain and high high diva attitude affect me no i'm gonna laugh at him in his face turn around and walk away because who am i to fight with somebody and let somebody affect me that like high key is so beneath me and my time i do think especially in those moments like like it's a practice for sure but like pausing and asking yourself like do i wish to engage right now like a video game please please really think to yourself because most of the time you're gonna be like this bitch is not worth my time okay but i love you that was our little lesson of the week honestly great lesson especially during this time where we're kind of shut in the only interactions we're having are with people at work or at home maybe we're feeling a little overwhelmed you know

post-holiday season um post-election season take care of yourself take care of yourself okay all right with that being said let's get into what's on your mind and all the questions that you guys have fuck it let's jump into something crazy help i don't like swallowing okay okay girly i mean listen i'm not gonna be here to tell you what to do with your life you don't want to do it you don't have to seriously if you're up here like girl he wants me to swallow a bucket of his load and i just can't like i physically can't it grosses me out i don't want to do it i'm not gonna be here like power through it girl especially when it comes to things sexually like you should never the right person will never ever ever make you feel pressured to do something that

you don't want to do period I think there's a difference between like a healthy and loving partner maybe bringing up a kink and asking you like would you be interested is this something you would like to try out like this is something I've been curious about versus like um this is the only thing that can get me off and you need to be doing it do you see how there's a difference there's a difference there and if it's the latter where you're feeling pressure and this man is like know like you have to swallow this girl you don't you don't okay especially with the diet some of these men are eating like what the fuck you're only eating protein and creatine bitch that shit's gonna be nasty or even worse like they're eating taco bell and mountain dew talk about radioactive

like of course you don't want to fucking swallow but also like you know sometimes it's part of the act and sometimes in my opinion in my opinion swallowing can be easier than not swallowing sometimes you just it's like taking a shot you know you just gotta get it over with because like what are you gonna do hold it in your mouth and like spit it onto a towel next to you then you're having to deal with it longer and like be disgusted longer um or like what hold it in your mouth and then walk to the bathroom like girl you might as well just like take it like a shot you know what i mean now now bj tip of the day we're literally like 15 minutes into this episode fuck it swallowing is the hardest when you're in a bj position of like him laying down and then you

crouching like over him i hate giving head that way i don't know why men love get love getting head laying down i mean like sure like you're fully receiving but like bitch the the whole like the equation of it all and like the gravity of it all like it's not gonna work my neck's gonna hurt it's not gonna be fun like when you do finally you know come it's not going where it needs to if you're giving head and you have a hard time swallowing make sure he's at least sitting on an edge of a bed or maybe standing up and like you are upright okay and when he's about to you can tell you can tell what he's about to trust pay attention make sure that thing is in the back of your throat i'm talking as far back there as possible then almost like a straw it's not going

to touch your tongue it's not going to touch your mouth really it's just going to happen you're gonna swallow it's gonna be done bam easy peasy lemon squeezy now once again if you don't want to you don't have to girl especially like i said with the diet some of these men are eating like girl if you don't want to you don't have to it is disgusting like warm salty goo in my mouth unless you're like a caviar bitch i don't think you're gonna like it but in my experience sometimes just like getting it over with is is the easiest also with valentine's day coming up girls you know you're gonna be down there you might as well you might as well happy valentine's day i will swallow your load someone asked how many joints do you smoke in a day um

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as soon as you're on the plane book your sunny getaway today at flyporter.com and actually enjoy economy if it's my day off we'll go with it's my day off actually even on the days i work i'm like let me get as high as possible before work like let me really enjoy this day so recently which not the most ideal I just have had so much cleaning to do recently and the best the best way to get in a cleaning mood is to get so high that you are like forced to actually deal with the things in your life like you're running from the demons and then you're running straight into your life to make sure it's good so I usually like smoke a little bowl at 11 and then a little bowl at 12 before i have lunch and then usually like every hour until four o'clock so what is that

11 12 1 2 3 4 6 bowls a day but i'm not talking like full full bowls um where it's like you're filling up the whole entire thing and then each each time you hit it you're smoking a new section in my opinion that is the worst way to fill up bowls where you're like filling it up so fucking much and then you're having to like partition off like each portion that you're smoking you're like smoking in fourths no no when i smoke i want a fresh clean bowl i call them snaps i don't know if they're actually called snaps um back in high school snaps were weed mixed with tobacco and then we would fill the bowl with just a little bit enough that it was like a personal hit um that is in my opinion the best way to smoke bowls if i'm loading a bowl for another girly like

i'm not loading that shit up fat because i don't want to make another girl smoke half smoked weed you know i feel like that's just rude of me so snaps are the way to go in general how much do i smoke in a day i would say like one good size nug probably keeps me keeps me satisfied okay so it's it's gotten a little bit out of control but i don't think it's affecting me in a way that is super super negative my weed usage really ebbs and flows based on the season based on what the vibe is of that time um so i'll go from smoking like eight bowls a day to zero real quick trust how to break up with someone that you love it's just not good for you anymore listen you just gotta do it i hate to say it you just gotta do it let me put this into perspective

for you though like it's okay to get on the wrong train okay imagine this life imagine this relationship you know oh you gotta get somewhere you know this is where you need to get for work or for whatever for fun you get on the train all of a sudden you look around it's the wrong one I'm going in the wrong direction. It happens. Don't panic. Don't stress it. What is the next logical thing to do? Is it stay on the train that takes you further and further and further and further away from your destination? Is it get on a different train line that takes you in the complete opposite direction? No, no. The next logical step to do is get off the train at the next stop and get on the right one it's insane for you to stay on the train any longer you need to

make logical moves especially especially if you are a woman who's like had that realization as soon as you have that realization you know what to do you know what to do you know what you need to new you know it's not working it's okay but i'm begging you to be smart about your life and make the next step that is going to transform it into a healthy positive way and put you onto the right track again boyfriend is getting viagra at 25 years old because he can't last longer than a few minutes i don't think viagra is for that i'm definitely not a doctor but i don't think viagra for that is it like he can't last longer because he's you know coming too fast or is it he can't last longer because he's losing his hardness now if he's losing his hardness like yeah get him a

little blue chew get him a little honey packet babe like he'll be hard for 12 hours but if it's like he's coming too fast you need to ask him to start doing math equations in his head like if you know the sex not is not lasting long enough and you need it to last longer my tip and trick is like if the man has no self-control and just like gives in too easily if you can tell like okay you know just he's about to finish like stop physically take him out of you and switch positions i think that like you know 15 second period where it's like okay we're not touching each other for a second and switching positions into something else really helps kind of like stop and restart that timer you know and also like if he's just coming too fast i think you need to talk to him

and be like you need to have more self-control you know the only thing i could think of like you doing as a girl is just like changing positions you know like if you're in doggy and he's like about to come just be like pause pause let me get on top real quick let me control the situation before we only have two minute sex um but yeah i don't think i don't think i would get on viagra for short sex because they're coming too fast because unfortunately in my opinion i think it's gonna just make it worse i think it's gonna make it worse help i can't stop lying oh oh interesting i used to have a lying problem yeah yeah i did mine was because i felt like i wouldn't be accepted by the world for some reason um mainly because whenever i did tell the truth

i did not feel accepted by my parents for some reason i don't know i don't know that could have been like a false reality i made up in my head for sure or it could have been like a real experience i'm not sure that's something i need to bring up in therapy but i definitely developed a major lying problem because of that and when i was first institutionalized it was actually something that me and my therapist worked on quite a bit like why do I think I won't be accepted by the world why do I feel like I need to you know pretend to be somebody else why do I just generally not like myself enough to speak the truth um it was majorly toxic so I kind of had to just like rip that habit out and approach the world with like my chest bared basically it really was a jump scare and

anytime I found myself like wanting to lie especially to people in my life like if you're lying to people in your life like your friends your family that's a problem now if you're just lying to like the uber driver or a random man you meet in the bar I call that safety you know like fuck it we're here to have a good time I lie so much at my restaurant drop so much girl I'm here to make a bag if you ask me if that food is delicious I mean sometimes I'll be like no no do not order that thing because i don't want them to hate their food but most of the time i'm gonna be like yes that is the best thing i've ever had have i eaten it probably not but like i think there's a time and place always but um you have to be careful with just like i think being honest

in your relationships build trust and if there's no trust in your relationship then there is no relationship so if you want to have a relationship with a good solid ground you do have to build it on honesty but you can't become too honest okay i think it's important where you need to learn to tell the truth and when you can lie because i started telling the truth a little bit too much and then i encountered way too many monitoring spirits like people who would hear my truths and then kind of like prey on my downfall in a bit the evil eye is real people out there are preying on your downfall people out there are going to hear your words and then put negative energy to them so like i said with the energy thing like be aware of whose energy you're in

the presence of and if you feel like there's negative watchful eyes out there or monitoring spirits like in fact i think it's okay to lie a little actually i think it's the best protection spell that there is if someone has a bad intentions and energy okay totally go ahead lie your little heart off all right i had a monitoring spirit in my life uh like the past six months and at first you know you just don't know you don't know you don't know who they are you think you know you have this blindness and positive energy to the world which i do think you should have and you do want to tell the truth but as soon as someone shows you that like oh they have negative intentions towards me or they don't like me and you know they're prying information

out of me in order to kind of like prey on my downfall i think it's important at that time to learn like they lose access to your truth and your honesty and what your life is period it's something I've been having to deal with a little bit more recently I don't know very odd I feel like I've always brought very genuine connections into my life and I'm so so thankful for that but now more recently maybe it's just like the restaurant industry and I don't know I don't know the weirdos are coming out of the woodworks and I'm like oh oh but it's good they'll make their presence known be aware lying if it's a habit where you're lying to everybody ask yourself like why do you not trust yourself or why do you think you won't be accepted um and also like do you want

to build healthy relationships if you do not have a foundation of trust and honesty then period you don't have any real lasting relationships in your life do you want to build those then you got to be honest and also when people do show you who they truly are when people do like make their intentions clear take that at face value and understand what they do and do not have access in your life too especially those truths i want my boyfriend to share his location with me but he refuses to help i don't know if i'm like old school but growing up my parents never had my location i mean they had no possible way of having it they didn't know about like phone tracker they there was no life 360 at the time there was no possible way for them to track me and honestly I didn't

experience the whole tracking vibe until my first boyfriend and in my opinion I am anti-sharing location I am I am a reformed crazy girl I am and I know what will make me a crazier bitch and what will not and simply having somebody's location will make me obsessive over checking it over like oh my god his phone lagged for a minute like is he at this random ice cream store like oh my god is he cheating on me I don't need to feed into that energy anymore be honest with me text me when you're heading home text me where you're going but ultimately like once again if we don't have trusted honesty in a relationship then like it's not a relationship you shouldn't have to have their location to get that energy or like that honesty out of them they should just already

be honest with you now if you're a very casual person who's not a crazy bitch like sure you can probably share locations in a very casual way i unfortunately cannot handle that information i can't i will become a psycho obsessive stalker and i just don't need to have that kind of energy so if you're like asking for their location because you don't trust them or you're becoming a little bit more obsessive like girl that says more than anything if you have their location it's not going to change anything you're still going to be untrustworthy of them and also you're going to be like spiraling more than ever now if it's just like a casual thing like hey i need to know when you're getting off work like it's no big deal then yeah casually share your location

if he won't if he refuses to though i find that weird i find that weird what are you hiding what are you hiding i don't know i i approach like relationships in a very casual sense of that kind of like honesty and trust um and i don't think a location is necessary but if you're like hey i just just like send me updates about your day and he refuses to do that as well girl i don't know that's something i would definitely look into last but not least like you could probably just throw an air tag in his car like i guess like if he really wants to share it with you and you're like i know he's cheating in me cheating with me like girl throw an air tag in his car if you really want to find out but ultimately if you're a crazy girl you don't

need that location if you think he's cheating on you already blow him up have a conversation you know where you start that conversation off with is there something you need to tell me and then sit in silence yeah yeah he'll tell you he'll tell you so i saw something is there something you need to tell me girl he will be flabbergasted i've used that a couple times in my current relationship when i was a little bit more toxic and like you'll see them kind of spiral and then they're like wait i have nothing to tell you like the real ones who have done nothing will be like no bitch what are you on you know but the ones who did do something wrong you'll see it you'll see the panic set in and then the fumbling of words and then the yeah i don't think you have

to go as far as putting an air tag in his car but like if you have that distrust in your relationship is it a relationship hmm something to think about dude my cat's going fucking insane danger literally leave the squirrels alone i'm i don't know what he got into this morning but he is fucking insane this morning every morning this is our routine he basically crawls over all over my face until i wake up so then he can get his breakfast he's like bitch if you don't get up now because my boyfriend's alarm goes off at 7 a.m girl not mine i'm sleeping in at least another hour and then as soon as my boyfriend's alarm goes off he is literally just like bitch get up to the point where he'll take one nail and poke it into my skin like hello hello then i give him

breakfast and then we usually play for at least 30 minutes while i drink coffee and just like scroll um but today he was he was lazy i'm like oh so i can't be lazy but you can and then of course as soon as i start recording he's like sprinting in circles around my house sir we got we got a little bit more time to go you better buckle up i will play with you in a second someone said breaking up with my boyfriend because he yells at me but apologized apologizing doesn't mean anything if a man ever raises his tone at you and screams at you that is extremely disrespectful and in my book that shit would not fly i can't think of one time in my pretty much five-year relationship where my boyfriend has ever raised his voice at me to the point of yelling now in my last relationship it

happened at least twice a week but for some reason my little brain he would always buy me flowers after he screamed at me best believe i always had flowers always always had a fresh bouquet and i was like well he apologized no apologies mean nothing if he's gonna continue doing it literally they mean nothing so in my opinion no i i do not settle for yelling there is no reason you as a man should ever be raising your voice at me my boyfriend won't stop gaming it's constant and dampening feelings for him real real as fuck like how do you have a no job no career no no goals in life but oh you're gold on a certain game oh you're a certain level on a certain game sir that shit does not translate to real life I'm not anti-video games listen scrolling on my phone

that's my own personal little video game okay and I'm sure I do it a little too much than I should but I'm not letting it affect the serious things in my life so if I were you this is kind of an ultimatum situation where you're like listen I know you love gaming but I need you to plan at least one date for us every week period I need you to plan at least one date for us every week or I need you to get a job whatever your situation is I don't know I don't know what the situation is but I you can give an ultimatum you can now don't make it something that's like a dick thing to do like me or the cat or me or the dog like bitch what the fuck that is not an ultimatum but like if it's something that's like you seriously need to get your life on track or else we can't be

together i think that's totally valid i think that's absolutely valid so if i were you i'd be like listen you you're basically in love with your video game at this point like you need to plan one day a week and if you can't do that it's never gonna happen or you need to get a job by the end of the month period and if you can't do that it's never gonna happen how do you deal with art block i have so many ideas but no motivation to follow through oh girl oh girl inspiration is not found in your phone unfortunately it's found from the aimless wandering put that shit down and let yourself be bored sometimes you have to disappear for a while get really bored allow yourself to have some fun it'll naturally create the energy for inspiration um i actually just tweeted i also

made a little tiktok but it said stop intellectualizing and start having some fun sometimes you can learn more from shaking ass with your friends than a self-help book real real listen the bitches who listen to this podcast the girls on tiktok they don't get it everything's like a hundred percent or nothing so it's like um actually has to be a little bit of both yeah duh duh duh hello obviously this is for my girls who sit here and intellectualize only though like please you have to allow yourself to have some fun if you're only thinking about things they're never going to happen because you're not allowing yourself to move into the energy of actually creating sometimes you have to stop thinking you can't think yourself into a perfect person

you can't now of course like i said duh thinking is a part of it you need to be able to think critically and be intellectual but also that can't be the only thing you have going on in life or else you're going to feel like a shell of a human and that the only world you're existing in is in your head sometimes actually in my opinion most of the important life lessons that I have learned in my life or the important things that I have learned in my life were from me simply experiencing life having no clue aimlessly wandering whatever but just being bored and being like fuck it I'm gonna go do this thing fuck it I'm gonna go to this witch circle fuck it I'm gonna go to this live art class fuck it I'm gonna sign up for this course I'm gonna go to this new coffee shop

whatever I'm bored I just want to go do something I learn way more through that than I could ever thinking over a situation over and over and over and I know the girls here we are very intellectualizing girls we are very like living in our head girls but if there's one thing I can beg you to do this 2025 that I think will have a drastic effect on your life in a positive way is stop thinking and start doing oh but i'm scared i'm scared yeah we all are we all are that girl who is out there doing everything that you dream to do she's doing it scared okay are you gonna let fear hold you back or a phone addiction or something so surface level are you really gonna let that affect your entire life to the point where you're gonna be on your deathbed at 80

wishing you did more girl it is that serious it is get out there go get a drink with your friends go shake some fucking ass go dance to your favorite song go flirt with that boy go sign up for that class go move to that country who cares you are going to learn more through doing than by intellectualizing and that seriously has a lot to do with creative inspiration as i work on like my art portfolio me sitting here and thinking about oh the perfect art portfolio what does it need to have what does it need to have that's not going to have any effect on my art portfolio actually doing good you know what the real thing that's going to have an effect on my art portfolio being good is by doing art and doing a lot of it not thinking just doing the more you do the more

opportunities you'll have for better art to come out of it and yes that does include putting your phone down forcing yourself to be a little bored and simply creating someone asked how do i shave are you asking like how do i shave or like what do i have down there what is this question you know what i did kind of want to talk about this though because this is the year of the bush this is the year of the bush i feel like the early 2000s was definitely like a bald era like the girls were bald they were bald now i think we're just like too it's not the vibe it's not the vibe we want to feel like women we don't want to feel shameful about our bodies also like just like the the care of having to be completely bald down there all the time like who fucking has time for

that this is the year of the bush personally listen how i shave is like i shave everything except for you know like a landing strip it's basically a landing strip but like a little triangle okay that's all I have but you know what it makes me feel so much more like a woman so much more like connected to my body I love having a choice in how I shave I felt like when I was younger I had like that porn rot brain where I was like but I'm not supposed to have hair down there girl yes you are that is the fetishization of young women let's not feed into that energy so now i think just having like a little bit of hair down there is so sexy so sexy and if you are brave enough to rock a full bush that is like that's hot that's hot so funny how

like i'll bring up the word bush and the first thing you think about is pussy and not dick you know when it comes to hair down there too i feel like some men the the porn rotted brain men will shave everything down there that's ugly in my opinion in my opinion i think that is ugly like i it's just it looks like a naked mole brat i need like real manly man and i don't mind like full bush on a man i don't i don't mind it in fact like i think it's sexier i think it feels more natural it's what your body is supposed to do obviously so like why the fuck don't women do that you know i think men usually usually once again unless their brain is porn rotted they're not thinking a lot about what's going on down there so why do we as women have to think so

much about what's going on down there you know i do want to like maybe dye my pubes i think that would be fun happy valentine's day babe it's pink could you imagine oh my god hmm something to think about or have you heard about like um my friend did this one time but you can get like um bedazzling down there i think it's called vajazzling maybe i'll do that for valentine's day that could be fun either way she will never be completely bald ever again in my entire life just like the itchiness and the care it's too much to deal with girl rock a bush you'll be so much more connected it to yourself if a man also big red flag if he can't handle a bush he cannot handle a woman period okay so if that man is like no you need to be completely bald down there red flag red flag

major girl i'm waving it in the air major red flag once again do what makes you feel comfortable if you want to be full bald down there totally but if this is like the season where you're like i've been thinking about rocking a bush like that this is the time to do it now 2025 year of the bush I'm calling it someone asked for me to make more snack type recipes pretty please oh on instagram at hannah marlene um it I just made a chicken curry katsu when I tell you I make this recipe at least once a week go check it out super easy very beginner friendly um I am posting a couple valentine's day recipes but i've been thinking about making like snack plate videos because i eat a lot of snack plates whether it's at like 1 a.m when i'm starving and just so incredibly high

um or like 1 p.m where i need to eat like a fun little lunchable adult lunchable situation i've thought about making snack plate videos so if that's something you want to see let me know two and five canadians will hear the words you have cancer that's why every step and dollar raised matters. On September 19th, join thousands in Toronto for the Princess Margaret Cancer Foundation Walk. Challenge yourself, friends, and family to walk 21 kilometers in support of life-saving research. Together, we can carry the fire and help create a world free from the fear of cancer. Register today at pmcfwalk.ca. This episode is brought to you by Accenture. When your advertising operations fall out of sync, everything else follows.

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the girlies do you know what is your job and i was so surprised how many different jobs you guys had from like ski instructor to uh like kindergarten teacher to like nasa scientist like oh my god you would be so surprised how many different people listen to this podcast so maybe i'll do that again that would be like a fun little february thing to do because you guys are so smart and so intellectual and so like amazing and artistic and i think you guys get into like the most interesting fun things ever and i'm so glad that we have a community that's honestly just cool like we're all cool girls here everybody's chill everybody's so understanding and like even if like we disagree with each other it's like yeah whatever though i i love that energy i love that energy that is what

the smoke sesh is all about the epitome of the smoke sesh energy it is we as a group of people are coming together who maybe have absolutely nothing to do with each other like would not talk to each other outside of this but we're all coming together for the love of those like deep fun silly conversations and a little weed here and there you know thoughts on age gap dating slash casual hookups hit it off with a guy at a bar baby boy is 22 and i'm 27 interesting i mean i don't think that's a major major age gap 22 is still like you said baby boy though like would i at my big age of 25 sleep with a 22 year old probably not your best bet is maybe like a one night stand but if you are seriously considering a relationship with a man under 25 please

understand that he is taking absolutely nothing serious and only wants his dick wet like you have you have to be aware of that any man under 25 is like genuinely like I just want to fucking not think for a little bit and then like play video games and fuck some more like I hate to say it but they are so unserious at that age so you also have to be unserious also you guys you really want to know what I've been dealing with this week you really want to know what I've been dealing with this week hemorrhoids oh my god I never thought I would be a hemorrhoid girly when I was younger like I had a best friend who always got hemorrhoids I had no idea what they were until she literally bent over in front of me and pulled her ass cheeks apart and I was like oh my

god oh my god that looks so painful I'm so sorry I have never had one but I would like to give a major psa warning major psa warning if you ever think about doing anal okay please understand you might be more receptive of hemorrhoids in the future now i haven't done anal in years anal in my opinion is not a weekly thing it is not a daily thing i am not that girl i will never be that girl it is like kind of like a um like a vacation like a special very special thing you know but even though I haven't done it in a while I've noticed that it did affect my butthole now what truly helps you with like not developing them in general is just making sure you eat enough fiber and maybe using baby wipes been

really into baby wipes anyways um yeah i was like why the fuck did i like like i was doing the math on when i started developing them and then i was like oh that's that's when i started doing anal something to think about figure i'd give a warning but also if you get hemorrhoids and you need like relief now i highly recommend the preparation h witch hazel wipes they are so good they truly have saved me this week how to turn into a better version of yourself oh this is interesting I feel like when I enter a transformation period which I do this at least once a year sometimes twice I feel like I do spend a full good year with a whatever version of myself that I am approached by because I do like when I do transform into someone new it's fun and exciting and like I've

grown and i've changed and i do want to live that um phase out fully so it is usually like every year i kind of like learn more and then i transform into somebody new but when i do need to kick off that transformation period i i love an alter ego like what's sexier i love i love an alter ego you know like think about the baddest bitch alter egos ever Nicki Minaj, Roman, Beyonce, Sasha Fierce, Lady Gaga, Joe Calderon okay Miley Cyrus, Hannah Montana like I think there's something so powerful about freeing yourself from the previous limitations or learned behaviors or you in trauma and allowing yourself to fully embody a character of who you want to become I think it is so inspiring I think it is great to kind of build that delusional confidence on

until it is true it's silly it's fun you feel so free and like I said when you are able to create and alter ego versus like a new version of yourself when you're creating a quote-unquote new version of yourself and you're thinking of it in that sort of way I feel like you do hold yourself back a lot where it's like oh well like I just don't have the money so I can't actually be that thing or you know this thing happened to me and I have this trauma so I can't actually be that girl like it's just not gonna work out for me it's not good to build dreams on it really isn't when you're so held up by the past which like we all are it's okay it's hard to kind of be able to see the future or be able to create the future that you want to live but when it comes to

completely and utterly becoming a new human being an alter ego somebody who is completely detached from who you are now and is truly the epitome of everything you want to be it is so freeing and it is a great manifestation tool to be able to fast track you onto who you are going to become so if you're sitting here and you're like you know what this winter sucked the fucking life out of me it is time for me to grow and change and develop and blossom into the next beautiful version of myself don't think about like the past and you know being able to transform who you are now think about the baddest hottest bitch ever that is completely disconnected from you and step into her especially as spring starts to arrive i think it will be a very very powerful tool

have you ever had a stalker no i've never had like a real real stalker um that's such a strange question are you are you are you stalking me no i'm just kidding but this is kind of a psa genuinely like if you're out here dating i think this is crazy of me but i think a man being overly clingy is like the first sign that he's going to kill you um i think that is like the biggest red flag especially when you're first meeting like if this man is like I need to see you I need to be around you you're not allowed to be alone without me like I have to be around you girl girl that is scary I'm scared for you actually when I was younger oh my god I have so many crazy stories from when I was younger I don't think I've ever told this one on the podcast before though

story time um when i was younger one of my besties parents went through a pretty messy divorce and then the mom was kind of just like dating here and there and you know i'd be over at my best friend's house who just lives you know down the street in the same neighborhood we'd be hanging out and occasionally we'd meet this man well there was one man that stuck around and i noticed he stuck around because like he wanted to be there obviously you need a man who wants to be there but I'm talking like we would see him bring her flowers he would randomly show up to the house oh I'm just thinking about you oh I need to be over there like overly clingy and I'm talking this was probably within the first month now she had just gone through a very traumatic

divorce so I'm pretty sure that she was like wow this is amazing like somebody actually cares for me absolutely like he wants to be around me and my kids for sure and then it got out of control i wasn't really there when it got out of control i just know she was just like he's not coming over anymore like we're done i don't know what happened but anyways flash forward like a week later she's like yeah he keeps blowing up my phone he's blowing up my phone she told us all the drama i don't know why she was just telling us all the drama all the time like I am 11 girl I I mean I'm here for the tea sure but we I was sleeping over at my friend's house and we always slept in the front like she had like a front living room with windows so you could always like see out into the front yard we

always slept in the front living room where the tv was you would build like a little fort so cute right next to the kitchen we go get our little snacks whatever well we are in the front living room and we are eating our snacks watching a movie and i hear my friend go who's outside girl it was him he was just standing outside her house yeah yeah so let this be a psa immediately she had to file for like a restraining order do not come around me ever again like i'm talking serious serious stalker like blowing up her phone i love you i love you we're met for each other literally standing outside her house if you are seeing a man and he is like like the love bombing overly overly into you i don't think that's healthy the same way that i think like

complete apathy and just like not texting you unless he wants to hook up at 3 a.m not healthy but i do think these seriously scary scary men are the ones who get way too obsessive too fast and i learned that at that age literally so freaky we were like who is that outside oh childhood trauma oh luckily i can look back and laugh i'm sure that would have gone like a very different direction um if we were unlucky but yeah a man being overly clingy is the first sign he will kill you please be safe someone asked fun crafts to do with my girls i've been hosting a craft night and i want to make more that is so cute i love a craft night oh my gosh i want to start doing that with my friends that'd be fun or even with you guys maybe i'll host like

craft nights and we can all hang out and craft together let's see fun little crafts you can do you can bedazzle lighters together i've done that with friends i had a friend come into town for like um a concert and so we bedazzled like our vapes and our lighters together and put little fun stickers on it you can go to like any sort of art supply store and get that shit for cheap you can bedazzle anything anything you can order cheap phone cases online and get charms and then just like um i think it's pretty much just like caulking and then you can color the caulking and like stick them on and make chunky chunky charm phone cases or even just like a bedazzled phone case you can um do something like spiritual and witchy and like valentine's day is coming up so

maybe you do like little love spell little love potion love candle um love jar maybe you do like a bath bomb making maybe you do a candle making i've seen the candle painting classes i think that is cute but also like you can make your own candles and get essential oils and like build them yourself melt them yourself that could be super fun any sort of like silly painting night get a couple like maybe mini canvases many canvases are always fun and it feels like not a huge commitment so you can do fun silly things but mini canvases and paint maybe you do a collage night and you go to a thrift store and just like get a shit ton of old vintage magazines not like the vintage that you want to keep but like the cheap ones and just cut it out and do fun little

collage art with it maybe you do like everybody bring your journal and we do junk journaling together that could be adorable yeah there's so many ideas out there but i do love an activity like when i hang out with friends um i do love an activity where it's like let's do something you know like let's chit chat and have something to do with our hands my adhd brain like needs that also uh valentine's day is coming up maybe you make valentine's day cards ah like little vintage ones get some lace do everything heart-shaped like that would be so so adorable girl it's been so so chilly do you have anything cozy and warm to recommend um yeah actually one of the items will be in my january favorites video on my instagram but overall i feel like warmth is

created through vibe not necessarily like just clothing or maybe food or just atmosphere it's all of those combined so my ultimate cozy day is i just washed like my favorite blanket with a bunch of like gorgeous lovely fabric softener so it smells amazing and it's nice and fluffy now a good blanket a good pair of slippers a comfy cozy matching set a warm cup of tea and a long YouTube video playing on the on the TV or like a movie something like that that is the epitome of a perfect comfy cozy moment oh my god with a candle burning girl girl do not get me started I think it's important especially during this time where we're kind of like you know inching our way out of the cold weather to stay as comfy and cozy as possible it will keep us mentally

strong through this chaotic chaotic couple of months until spring brings us that hope and renewal that we are all just so in need of right now you know how do i become attractive to more people oh oh this is interesting being attractive to more people i don't know i think there's two different ways you can go about it one will actually get you where you want to go the other one will kind of get you feeling stuck and put in a box um i think when we think attraction we think physical looks obviously i think that's the first thing people think of now to be attracted to everyone in a positive way i don't think that comes from your physical looks um obviously pretty privilege is a thing those people do get a little bit easier time in this life because um there's

some weird psychological thing that happens in people's brains where it's like if that person is pretty I want to do things for them I don't know I'm not a psychologist I do know it is a phenomenon in this life though let's be real now I do think pretty privilege does get you some things but is it going to get you as far as you want no I don't think you can just rely on your looks to get you where you want in life I think that is a very surface level way of going about things and sure like that guy might be willing to hold the door for you or take the trash out for you but are they going to be more willing to get you the job based on looks no i think the best way to be attractive to people and to have people approach you in a positive sense

and to generally be accepted by the world and have the world open up to you is to approach people in a positive manner okay be nice say please say thank you listen to them be aware of your surroundings don't just like be selfish and only do what you want to do yes that includes doing hard things for other people sometimes having those favors though will pay off people will be more willing and more receptive to you if you are generally approaching life in a positive uplifting way think about it energy is exchange there is an exchange of energy um i think energy is a free-flowing thing and the energy that you do put out into this universe you do receive back period um it doesn't mean it's going to work a hundred percent of the time but it is going to be

more prevalent in your life if you do it more often so if you want to be attractive to more people if you want people to you know want to gift you things want to you know give you that promotion want to actually receive you in a positive light you do have to approach them with peace and positivity for real let me give you a basic basic example when i am at work okay and I'm serving a table if that table is oh my gosh thank you like you're so sweet like we appreciate you like asking for things in a very kind manner understanding if things are busy I'm giving you something for free period I am I did that at least eight times at my last shift like we had a group of birthday girls they were so sweet they gave me a slice of cake they made

sure to buy around for the kitchen they made sure to show their appreciation please thank you they stacked their plates best believe i'm taking their appetizers off their bill hello i also had a a mom and a daughter who showed up no reservation which is a little iffy at my restaurant because we do get booked and busy but no reservation you know here to celebrate my mom's birthday they were so patient they waited a bit of time they were so interested about the cuisine and about me and just chatty and understanding approaching me with a positive attitude understanding attitude guess what girl that first round that first round's on me seriously if you you don't have to be the prettiest fucking thing in the world but if you approach people with positive and

uplifting energy that will get you further than anything else ever everybody hates a negative nancy everybody hates that bitch who is constantly complaining they you know have no input other than you know what they hate or what's going wrong in their life and i get it it's easy to get trapped in that cycle especially in this country but if you can save yourself and you can you know really start to look on the bright side and you know not let those demons get to you and continue approaching people in a positive uplifting manner good things will always find their way to you energy flows freely and you need to be aware of what energy you are drawing into your life i was also kind of in this mindset of lack i don't have this i don't have this thing oh my car is

breaking down i need a new car like you have to be really really aware of energy i know we talked about energy at the beginning and I guess this is a good topic to leave off on I think energy is generally so so important especially when it comes to manifestation and just living a positive peaceful life I kind of also talk about energy was in a lack mindset of oh but I need this thing I'm missing out I have to instead of I get to oh my gosh I am in a place in my life where now I get to look at new cars where I am able to make that necessary transition where I am going to upgrade my life in a new and amazing way maybe I'm a oh you know this job that I'm at is not my dream job oh you know I'm missing out on life I'm not where I'm supposed to be lack lack lack no I am

in a transitionary period in my life this job provides for me it pays the bills I am thankful to have a paying and steady job I am thankful to be able to make a positive income in my life it's a big difference it really is and if you can catch yourself when you're going down that slippery slope and kind of like get a little strict with yourself a lot of life is kind of reparenting and learning how to parent yourself as a crazy child in your brain and an adult on the outside and if you can catch yourself when you're in these moments of like chaos and not understanding yourself or not being aware of your energy and direct it into a more positive outlook and a more positive mindset this life will be easier on you not everything is looks okay in fact

i would say that is some surface level bullshit not something you should be leaning into i mean the whole clean girl you know aesthetic great let's teach people basic hygiene but anything outside of that I don't think it really holds any merit and what truly holds power in this life is your energy your influence the way that you approach people in this world have a positive mindset and a positive outlook and the world will create positive outcomes for you pinky promise anyways with that being said if you want to hear more from me come join the patreon patreon.com slash smoke says shawty we do a extra episode every week where i answer every single one of your questions i know crazy also on patreon i can get a little bit more you know a little bit more

wild we can talk about harder subjects we can talk about crazier subjects so if you got some crazy questions come over there come join me and the girls we have a great community going on and if you want to follow me on instagram at hannah marlene see what i'm up to submit your question there every sunday but yeah with that being said hopefully this podcast could could provide you a little bit of a positive boost that positive outlook that you do need to approach this next week with compassion with caring with optimism we're bad bitches we deserve nothing but the best so go after everything that you want in this life oh oh i won't leave you with uh without smoking with you guys i feel like you know we have to we have to before we go let's

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