Smoke Sesh - am I the asshole? control freak & is god real

Episode Date: December 24, 2024

hello and welcome back, most importantly happy holidays my smoke sesh hotties! we have a fun little episode for you all today as much requested we finally have an am I the asshole episode for all of you angels. we dive in my talking what I've been up to this past week, and then get into all of your questions of aita, cheating, bad roommates, smoking, exes, best friends, we also get into a speed round of your questions including cat tips, is god real? bare minimum, choice paralysis, being a grown woman, crazy people at work, dry hand bj's, outgrowing your partner, competition with friends, cutting your own hair, control freak, he might be gay, weed hangovers, plus much much much more! today is a pretty hectic episode but a really fun one as well, I hope I could bring you all a little laugh during the stressful holiday season and ill see you all next week! MUAH!

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listen everybody needs a fairy godmother you know just somebody to look out for them some people call me their fairy smoke mother others their internet big sister but you can call me hannah the host of smoke sash so come hang out let's light up and talk everything there is to life the good the bad the ugly the embarrassing i've got a story for it all hello hello hello and happy holidays to my hotties across the world how the hell are we all feeling this week are we getting into the festive spirit or maybe feeling a little down who knows how the holidays are here to make you feel but i know i am here to make you feel a little less lonely a little more festive and have a good fucking time today um it has been

already quite a busy day for miss hannah it's 11 35 and i'm about to crack a celsius yes so this is gonna get a silly episode this is gonna be a little crazy little cuckoo because celsius is make my brain work in like 10 times speed so prepare we'll get to the hecticness of the story though our story now begins in the beginning of the week last week i have been working my little buns off if i'm gonna be honest um i believe everybody's packages should have arrived thank you so much for supporting me i can't believe we ran out of mugs that's insane i am already getting some more in the works so if you want to support or get some mugs maybe you missed out on the first drop don't worry they will be here shortly plus some more fun sexy things for the

girls are on their way don't you worry with this new year every new year i kind of reflect back on what this podcast has brought us and how we have celebrated and how much have we have grown and then how can i like change for the better involve you guys a little bit more get a little bit more creative give back to the girls so there's much more to come don't worry we will get into that next week as we kind of prep and plan for the new year but as the new year approaches uh it's holiday season I work in the restaurant industry best believe I am clocked in okay I have been working probably two three times more than I usually do just to kind of fund the Christmas shopping budget a little bit and also it's the holidays I gotta celebrate myself a little bit

so the shopping personally has been a little crazy outlandish this season I mean shit what's december 4 i can't go outside i might as well upgrade my life in every way possible so yes as my girlies know who probably are also in the restaurant industry it is the time to make money i'm sure you guys have been clocked in just as much as i have but finally i'm kind of entering a winter break oddly enough my restaurant does take some time off over the holidays just to make sure that everybody has enough time to get home to celebrate with each other whether it is just like for christmas or just you know taking the time to celebrate the holidays be with one another um they usually take actually a couple weeks off so i basically do not work until a week after the

new year starts i have not had a winter break in five years yeah so i honestly have no clue what to do with my time other than deep clean and kind of recoup and rethink every single aspect of my life which has been very fun very fulfilling i will say thus the new and exciting things coming for all of you girlies out there but yesterday I kind of celebrated you know my first little day off of my winter break me and my mom decided to go get lunch there was this little holiday pop-up one thing about me I love a local vendor I love a handcrafted good pop-up best believe I am going to be blowing so much money at every single one of those first of all because I'm a server and I do take home partly cash every single night. So I always just have cash on hand and especially

cash on hand when it comes to supporting a small business. So I did do a lot of holiday shopping yesterday, which was super nice. Every single thing I purchased, my mom's like, no, it's too expensive, girl. This is a handcrafted good. Of course, the profit margin is going to be like a hundred percent. But am I going to sit here and complain? No. Get me that cinnamon roll. get me that knitted item get me that handcrafted matchbook shadow box i don't i don't care what it is i'm shopping so i had a fantastic time there my family is doing a little christmas bingo i don't know they're really getting crafty this year so i was required to bring two ten dollar gifts um i figured a handcrafted gift would be perfect i bought this like infusion kit um where has like

a bunch of dried oranges dried whatever herb spices and you just dump a bunch of vodka in there and let it soak overnight and then it's like a flavored drink cocktail mix love that i also got coal shaped soap that smells like frankincense which i think is hilarious because someone's gonna have to go choose coal but honestly it smells so delicious so i might choose that gift for myself personally and then i had to take her to my favorite restaurant in kansas city hibashi house of course i love that place best mediterranean food you will ever find in kansas city my mom she's eating the hummus and she's like um do you think this is a little spicy babe it's quite literally chickpeas i don't know what to tell you it's not spicy i'm so sorry

she loved it though it was a great time filled up on some delicious food did some amazing shopping and then my boyfriend has been working overtime recently listen working for the usps is not for the faint of heart i'm talking clocking in at 5 a.m clocking out at 8 p.m every night six days a week sometimes seven i honestly have not seen him in days but i wish him well i hope he's surviving and if I do have time you know I'll be able to stop by say hi to him so yesterday I grabbed him like a sandwich to go and dropped it off for him so thankful so appreciative listen girlfriend of the year award yes I'll take it gold star thank you that's why I get treated the way I do it's give and receive babe okay well on the way home I'm driving blasting my music and I'm like the

beat sounds a little off here what's going on let me turn down my music uh-oh why am I hearing grinding metal grinding against concrete perhaps pull over get out of my car I check it my tires completely flat fuck okay call my dad hey dad am I okay to drive home on this I'm like two blocks away from my house like i think i can make it as long as the rubber stays in between my wheel and the concrete please don't ever do this i was just oddly very close to home um he's like you know what fuck it don't walk home just drive it home i'll help you out tomorrow my dad's so funny he is a he is retired he was a high school counselor and he still coaches sports on the side so he like went on this rant he's like listen your family i do if everything is about family you must do

everything for family you gotta show up family is everything family is number one grades number two basketball number three oh my god okay sir please just make it to my house and please get me a new tire this morning usually i sit down 9 a.m bright bushy-tailed ready to go i film the podcast well 9 a.m he texts me he's like hey let's get you a new tire let's figure this out he comes over tries to get the tire off tire is rusted to my car naturally so yes uh-huh um has to leave go get a bigger hammer get the tire off he's like all right let's go get you a new tire we pull up to the sketchiest tire shop i've ever seen but that's how it is with car places you don't go to the nice luxury car places to get good prices okay or to even get handled he actually called one of the

nice places and was like hey we need a new tire today they were like oh i don't know like we can maybe get it in tonight and it's gonna be like 120 dollars but hang up the phone all right let's call the sketchiest place known to man oh yeah we have a new tire here used 60 cash only we'll get it to you in 20 seconds we pull up give them the tire they immediately brand new tire handed over done hands clean thank you so much here is your cash love you come home new tire on shout out my car is dare i say falling apart though this is one of my new year's resolutions i do need to buy a new car i'm just so picky when it comes to cars like i love my car and she's been good to me she has treated me so well she's kept me so safe thank you queen uh but i fear it is time her life is

slowly dwindling her quality of life is also slowly dwindling so we gotta get that figured out soon but for now all i can really handle is a new tire now it is 11 a.m i'm sitting down with you guys i am so excited to do so i'm finally entering my winter break calming down slowing down recapping the year kind of era and i am so excited to sit down on the podcast and do it all with you guys as well we also have a very fun new segment today next week i want to do a confessionals episode just to kind of get some things off of our chest from the past year that maybe we don't want to bring into the new year that we do need to car-matically get rid of is car-matically a word i don't know i might have just made that up let's roll with it just you

know clear the air make sure we are going into this new year with high hopes high spirits no evil demons following us from the past. Today though, we had a fun segment last week where someone asked a am I the asshole question and it inspired me to do a little more of those questions with you all. I have a feeling most of you guys, actually I don't even have a feeling, I know this for a fact, all of you guys are sweetheart little baby angels and I'm sure you overthink every single thing that you are doing. So let's get into it. Let's really ask ourselves, are we the asshole or maybe are we just overthinking the situation shall we start fuck it let's get right into it oh danger wants to say hi look at him for the audio listeners he is perched up behind me

don't you dare think about jumping up there i have too many collectibles and breakables he loves this chair though this is basically his new perch he can feel that he knows his he knows his mama spends so much time in this chair and he loves it here first half of this podcast we're gonna do am i the asshole speed round questions in the center we are going to do some you know speed round of regular questions and then last half if we still have some am i that don't you dare if we still have some am i the asshole questions we'll go through them then am i the asshole for getting an abortion then dumping him no sometimes you just gotta do what you gotta do and no one can blame a girl for taking out the trash am i right ladies am i the

asshole if i keep dating this guy who is super into me just to feel things out but end up ending it no dating is feeling it out situationships are essentially a trap because you might as well just date and figure it out that's the whole point of dating you have it figured out when you are engaged so don't worry if you're dating someone and you're like i'm not sure let's still you know work it out let's see if it works itself out that's literally the whole point but as soon as you know as soon as you know this bitch is not the one for me you've gotta cut them out i'm so sorry you really do you gotta rip the band-aid off am i the asshole for having not paid for chipotle in years they've also taken away giving me free entrees once i complain on the chipotle app that

my meal was wrong for a free entree like every single time listen with the how the portions are getting at chipotle let me tell you this i bought two bowls a side of guac not even a large a small side of guac and a regular side of chips maybe there was a tortilla on the side can't remember that back in the day maybe maybe that was 30 they charged me 55 fucking dollars for two bowls a small side of guac and a small bag of chips ask not what you can do for corporations but ask what corporations can do for you because that is insanity okay they are practically robbing us at this point you might as well get your lick back am i the asshole for smoking weed out of window of my bedroom in my shared apartment not particularly as long as you know maybe as long as

someone hasn't been like hey i really hate weed can you not smoke weed inside then maybe because listen i hate to say it the smell still lingers even if you go outside and then walk inside smell still lingers but at least you're taking precaution and i appreciate you for that oh wow am i the asshole for fucking two dudes they're besties and in a band together but neither know that i'm effing the other one because they don't want people to know we're hooking up because of age gap oh god how old are you first of all what the fuck i hate to break it to you i really do i really do i really hate to break it to you i'm i'm pretty sure they know i think they know and i think they're like oh let's just not bring it up let's just keep it secret because they both want to keep doing it

and they know as soon as the cat's out of the bag you're gonna have to either choose one of them or you're gonna have to not fuck either of them this is like a common thing especially when people are like oh i like to you know like bestie hop you know i'm just like hopping between men and their besties or whatever i hate to say it those men know they know they just honestly don't give a fuck because pussy is pussy in their brain and i hate to like demean anybody like that but men are not as stupid as you think they are we need to remember that ladies am i the asshole for being salty my partner asked for a 150 gift because my gift was 75 oh i mean if they're not going to spend the money on you you don't spend the money on them that's all i have to say okay my boyfriend

doesn't mind buying expensive things for me especially like my recent christmas gift which i know was at least 200 plus there's more under the tree because he knows he's basically getting that back he's like no like babe i see how much money you blow on me and i love it and i appreciate it but like I can't not do the same thing for you that's what a partnership is all about so you know what go ahead and be salty about that one and definitely don't spend double what he spent on you am I the asshole for using my overhead reading light on the airplane uh only if it's like a flight past 9 p.m then perhaps especially if you are not reading the room and seeing that everybody else has their heads down in their laps trying to avoid the reading light as long as you're reading the

room and it's like okay everybody else is fine with it fuck it go for it i do know you remember my grandma used to have this throwback but they have like these little clip reading lights okay that you can clip onto your book and it has like it like bends so then you get the perfect amount of light just for your book without having to disturb anybody else i highly recommend asking for that as a stocking suffer from santa i'm sure he'll bring you everything you want am i the asshole for texting my ex sometimes best friend gets mad at me for it like he's my ex not yours okay you don't have to bring in the jealousy she does not give a fuck about your ex he definitely she definitely doesn't want anything to do with him it's because he's probably evil and awful and

she just wants the best for you and obviously texting him may not be the best thing so are you the asshole for texting your ex no but are you the asshole for getting mad at your best friend for not wanting you to perhaps am i the asshole for going no contact with my mom after years of emotional physical abuse definitely not for yourself just because we're family doesn't mean you are able to inherently cross over every single boundary i have two and five canadians will hear the words you have cancer that's why every step and dollar raised matters on september 19th join thousands in toronto for the princess margaret cancer foundation walk challenge yourself friends and family to walk 21 kilometers in support of life-saving research together we can carry the

fire and help create a world free from the fear of cancer register today at pmcfwalk.ca this episode is brought to you by accenture when your advertising operations fall out of sync everything else follows spotify and accenture are working together to reinvent the rhythm of ad sales using automation analytics and smarter workflows to simplify campaign delivery and access better data across the business the result less time spent on operations more time connecting brands with the moments and fandoms that matter most learn more at accenture.com spotify hi hannah i've been following the podcast for a while um but i wanted to ask this is kind of like an am i the asshole question um to explain my situation

my best friend and I for years have been extremely close to the point where almost like a lover close we've slept together but we weren't exactly in a relationship the lines were just blurred and I currently have a boyfriend who I told the truth about our situation and now he is uncomfortable with certain instances of us spending time together me and my best friend and i'm just here to figure out how what you would do in this situation honestly i feel like this is a pretty unique situation he wanted me to draw the line at us spending nights together drinking together because that was often when things like that happened between us we still maintained like a best friend

relationship but there were just times where if we were drinking and we were around each other like we were getting down so i understand that and i understand it's a boundary for him but this has honestly taken a toll on my friendship and I just feel so in the middle because I want to respect my partner and this is a new relationship too it's only been about like nine months so just let me know what advice you have thank you so much I love you I love the pod oh my god girl I need to smoke a bowl after that one oh okay let's smoke let's let's think about this let's really think about this and then let's get into it so it sounds like you have a boyfriend and a girlfriend i hate to break it to you hate to break it to you here's the thing

if you are in a partnership with somebody else and they stay a boundary that they feel comfortable with you have to follow that boundary i really i hate to break it to you if you want to if you want to stay in that relationship you have to follow those boundaries i mean within reason obviously if you have a boyfriend that's like you can't wear that skirt it's too short i don't want you talking to any other guy ever that's fucking crazy that's a boundary that is not based in reality you don't have to follow that bullshit in fact you should probably run as fast as you can because that is a man with severe control issues who doesn't want a girlfriend he wants a toy doll he wants a barbie doll that he can dress up and play with unfortunately we're unfortunately we're

human beings here okay now in this situation where you're like hey my best friend who we get drunk together and i spend the night at her house two times a week we hook up have hooked up and we do hook up under these situations. Now, if your boyfriend's like, hey, I don't want you being in a situation where you might hook up with that person, whether it's a friend who's a girl or a boy, if you want to be with them, you have to follow that. You do. Now, if you don't want to be with him and secretly you actually want to be with the best friend, I hate to say it, but that is an option as well especially if you know i think when you are you have a hard time making decisions or a hard time actually understanding how you feel once somebody kind of not forces you

how to feel but really like makes a draws a line in the sand you will realize how you feel the fact that he's like hey i don't want you hanging out with this friend alone intoxicated especially because you had a relationship in the past and you're like oh wow i don't i don't really want to follow that boundary maybe it's because you want to be with the other person more maybe you prioritize your freedom maybe you want an open relationship which i do not recommend maybe you just want to be with your bestie with your girlfriend and that's okay as well i think i would really sit with yourself and ask yourself what choice is best for you but I do fear you will have to make a choice whether you want to be with the boyfriend or do you want to be with the

girlfriend do I think you're the asshole no it doesn't sound like you've cheated on him doesn't sound like you've really broken any trust I will say if you have cheated on him you might as well just go ahead and break up with that boy and I'm not saying get rid of the friend forever you don't have to like choose one or the other to be in your life it is obviously going to be like okay well what kind of boundaries do I want in my own life and how do I truly want to spend my life I do think you can be with the boyfriend and still be friends you know with boundaries involved understanding that maybe emotions will get in the way and you do want to be the best partner you can for your boyfriend or do I really want a girlfriend and do I maybe want to make break up with this boy

it's a hard decision unfortunately a hard decision I can't make for you but I can say factually as long as you haven't cheated on him you are not the asshole emotions are confusing at least you were honest at least you haven't broken any boundaries that is all we can really do am I the asshole for asking my co-workers to do their job no not at all there's a way you can go about it though sometimes it's like hey i have a really good tip for you like this is what really helps me that's a great way to like suggest to someone to work fucking harder and better without it being like you're a piece of lazy shit who needs to work harder you know what i mean it's all about the power of suggestion are you the asshole no they definitely should be working am i the asshole

for slapping my man awake after cheating do i ever suggest physical harm not particularly so but did he have it coming abso-fucking-lutely am i the asshole for telling my dad that i saw mommy kissing santa claus no no sometimes we see what we see and we have to speak the truth i fear anyways that was a fun little am i the asshole segment i have much more to get to but i know you have lots of questions on your mind and i did promise last episode that we would do a question roulette okay look at how sweet little danger is being behind me can you fucking believe it i want to start sobbing and crying over how much i love him oh also many of you guys asked for little cats trinkets toys ideas things let me tell you some of his favorites because i was awoken i was awoken

at 7 30 a.m uh-huh to one tiny little claw just poking me in the fucking arm in the face very nicely but definitely in a way that was like bitch get the fuck up do you know why that is it's because here's the thing i'm psycho so i started researching like oh cats aging what are they most likely die from girl please that's insane you don't need to be googling that anyways apparently it's kidney failure and most of that is caused by cats eating too much dry food and not getting enough water into their system so psycho me was like oh he needs more water let me try every single type of canned cat food no he will not stand for it he does not like wet food do you know what he loves that is water-based churu treats churu fucking treats they are

basically crack in a tube for cats okay and technically i looked up the health you know cost analysis of it all you know the calories of it all for cats and on the package it can say he can have up to four treats a day in my opinion that's fucking crazy i'm not feeding this man four treats i will feed him one in the morning though so every morning he knows as soon as this bitch up he's getting a treat he's getting a churu treat I take the churu treat I put it on a plate and I mix it with water so he's kind of consuming more water it's an easy way to kind of sneak it into his diet just to make sure that he's getting it every single day uh yeah he's fucking insane over them whole stand by the treat corner and beg beg all day please somebody please somebody give

me a treat so if you want to spoil the fuck out of your cat get those churu treats I know they make so many different like squeezable versions but i've looked at the ingredients and like just what they're made out of and the churu treats specifically obsessed obsessed he cannot get enough that and also i got him a stainless steel water fountain he has never experienced a water fountain he is 12 years old i had to do the math the other day he's never had a water fountain it's always been just like a large bowl or he prefers the toilet i don't know i don't make the rules if i was a cat i definitely wouldn't do it but we're all different here and i can't judge our differences but i finally bought a water fountain stainless steel i didn't think he was

going to start using it because he is the world's most particular cat he loves it he loves it oh my god i put it next to like all my little plants of course that are cat friendly so it feels like he's like in the jungle drinking water and key here is always keep your water away or the cat's water away from all of his food in his litter box specifically um cats like to go elsewhere to drink their water so he's been loving his churu treats he's been loving his water fountain i'm also crazy and how santa bought him these mechanical fish they're little fishies as soon as you put them in water they start swimming and they start moving around so i'll put some of those in a bowl of water and he'll just like bat them around and have a good time with them he's been loving that

also he has been loving you can get these movable listen i love a battery powered operated toy because i only have so many hours in the day where i genuinely can play with him and he's a very active cat so they have these ones where essentially it's a mat then you press a button and under the mat there's a toy that spins so it looks like something's running around in circles under the mat he loves that thing every morning he begs for me to turn it on so fun little non-traditional cat toys for you all also treats listen this man he practically begs for treats every second of the day all right what else do you guys have on your mind oh this is fun do you believe in god oh wow well i mean it is christmas time what is christmas christmas is

you know the resurrection of jesus christ am i getting that right oh my god wait no the birthday the birthday wow it's been a long time since i've been in church happy holidays um yeah so i was raised methodist i was raised pretty progressively under a religious sphere sector whatever it is my pastor was a gay woman like very inclusive like rainbow cross hanging in the background you know what i mean still religious nonetheless and no matter how inclusive Christianity is there's still like some shameful aspects of it so I grew up believing in God until I was probably about 10 and then I turned pretty atheist for some reason I think I was just like naturally questioning things and in my rebellious teenage eras and also just like

not enjoying going to youth group anymore I turned atheist where I was like God's not real it's all a lie I don't believe in God well now that I'm older and I've gone out of my religious phase also out of my like atheist like denial phase I will say I do believe in God I do believe in God oh my god isn't that crazy now am I religious practicing do I believe God is a white man that floats down from outer space no I don't believe in that kind of God but I do believe that there is like a ever-present energy and force some people call it the universe some people believe in it in different ways maybe it manifests in different ways depending on your religion but for you to sit here and deny that there is not some sort of like presence or power or energy

flowing it's kind of undeniable i mean we've all felt that sometime you know where we feel like there's like an out-of-body experience, an out-of-body kind of moment in time that we are going through where it does feel like we are being touched by God in some sort of way. Now, is it always a miracle of someone rising from the dead or crazy things like this? No. I do think you can find God in your cup of coffee every morning. I think you can find God in your cat. I think you can find God in relationships that you build with people. But not believing in God really harshed my vibe for quite some time where i just like wasn't believing in the whimsical nature of life and of spirit and of universal involvement all of you spiritual bitches out there you believe

in god you believe in some sort of effervescent power this connecting energy that we are all experiencing as one now maybe you don't call it god but it still is god in some sort of way and once I started actually like believing in that sort of or like allowing myself to believe in God again or just like feel touched by a spirit of some sort I started having way more fun in life I started looking for like the details looking for positivity in life really keeping an eye out for God it doesn't always have to necessarily be like I said crazy life-changing moments of resurrection and death and virgins giving birth girl talk about a nightmare sometimes god is you know me being able to make it home on my flat tire sometimes god is that feeling of somebody

always watching out for you having your best interests in mind putting you in the best situations possible giving you the strength and the power to get through what you can get through god can be very different things to many different people but for me personally i have made it through my catholic christian phase through my atheist phase and now i'm definitely in my spiritual belief phase where sure i do believe in god in some sort of sense am i able to you know put a finger on it and thoroughly describe it no but i think that's what's so beautiful about that power um and about that energy and i'm not gonna force it you know what i mean i don't think i need to write a book about what i think god is and have people follow the religion in

weird different ways um i mean if that's how you choose to celebrate fantastic no hate but i do like the freedom of it all overall yes i do believe in god how do you balance productivity and relaxation during your period or times of sickness so there is you can be productive no matter what phase you're in i don't think you have to be at a hundred percent or zero percent depending on how you're feeling i do think you need to figure out what the fuck is the bare minimum okay what is your bare minimum of being productive I'm talking when you are at your lowest low what does your bare minimum look like okay showering brushing my teeth doing my skincare routine making sure I'm at least trying to get the dishes into the dishwasher don't have to hand

wash them but at least they're put away somewhere making sure I am fed eating good food what is your bare minimum okay because when you are sick or when you're on your period you can still be productive even if it's at the bare minimum at least just do that now when you're feeling perfectly fine you have the energy you're going to be functioning at a higher level of bare minimum so you're going to be able to accomplish more things you're going to be able to accomplish probably double the amount of things you would if you were just enacting the bare minimum so the key to being productive especially when you are not a fan of being productive or don't know how to balance life very well is finding that sweet spot of bare minimum understanding when

to enact it and when to just focus on exerting a certain amount of energy during a certain amount of time and then when do you have extra energy and where can you place it I just finished my period so I'm definitely feeling this right now it was definitely a couple days of like I'm just gonna do what I can do but now today where it's like I have a full amount of energy I'm feeling good I'm feeling like I can accomplish more I'm going to also grab my groceries and I'm going to do the laundry and fold it and put it away I'm going to vacuum like I'm gonna kind of pick up on the slack of some other things that maybe I have forgotten about but also aren't daily necessities if that's making sense once you find your bare minimum you'll find that you can be

productive every single day of your life just graduated college what do i do now oh my goodness babe first of all pat yourself on the fucking back because you deserve it you need somebody in your life to sit down and look you in the eyes and say congratulations babe okay you fucking did that take a month or whatever to chill to relax to invest in self-care to kind of rebalance your life now that you're entering a new phase during this month you're really going to start thinking about okay what is my next step is it applying to a bunch of different jobs is it you know planning a trip is it what do you want to do what do you want to do when your whole life I see this all the time especially with people who are just graduating when your whole life is set up for

you and you're like oh all i gotta do is go to elementary school all i gotta do is go to middle school then high school okay graduate now i go to college all of a sudden these people have so much free time as soon as they graduate college and no plan set up that they just start floundering it's the choice paralysis of it all sometimes and i hate to say it when you're an adult sometimes you just got to close your fucking eyes point and pick and choose that thing now as soon as you choose that thing maybe you flip a coin over it maybe it's a random choice maybe it's something you do feel solid in your core about but I love a random choice because as soon as I choose something I will feel in my soul if it's right or not I will feel in my soul if I truly wanted that thing or

not that's why I love a coin flip because it's like it's gonna land on heads or tails one way or another and as if it lands on something and i'm like oh i wish it was the other one fuck it i don't have to choose the one it landed on i'm gonna go with what my gut feels strongest about but sometimes especially as an adult choice paralysis will have you sitting here for five years asking yourself well what do i do now what do i do now what if it's not the right choice what what if i make the wrong decision who gives a fuck you're young you're hot you're smart you got a degree under your belt make a choice go after it there is no wrong choice at this point in time in your life there is only choices and learning from them so i highly recommend taking

a breath taking a moment taking a pause checking in with yourself making sure you are rebalanced especially after entering like a new room a new phase in your life and then making a decision and going after it whether it's applying to a bunch of different jobs moving to a new city going on a trip discovering yourself whatever it is choose something and go after it how to start growing into your adulthood like treating yourself as a grown woman whoa whoa what a question wow i truly want to go on like a 10 minute rant about this but i think one way that i have been like honing in on my grown woman-ness my adult-ness is getting really particular about what I bring into my life and I hate to say the choices I make because I just talked about choice paralysis

but really taking the time to make sure that I am bringing in the best things for myself whether it's skincare food people energy items things I am really taking the time to perfect it all to really figure out okay well what is the best silhouette for my shape what do I actually enjoy wearing what colors work good for me what fabrics work good for me investing in clothing pieces that will last me a lifetime not just a trendy piece that's gonna last for now okay also skincare not investing in random bullshit that tiktok tells me to buy but instead figuring out what my skin likes figuring out what my hair likes learning how to take care of myself there learning a daily routine that really makes me feel good and put together figuring out what kind of self-care i like what

truly works for me how do i really honor and hone in on myself even when i only have like 15 minutes to do so how can i invest in self-care during that time what actually makes me feel good instead of what other people are projecting into the space i always like to give examples of self-care but the truth is everything's going to work different for everybody else and that is only going to be discovered by working with yourself and figuring it out for yourself what kind of foods make my body feel good what kind of foods really work with me what kind of workouts work with me what kind of jobs work with me i think that's truly how you elevate and grow into your grown woman sexy adultness you know what i mean gone are the days of impulsive decisions unfortunately oh do i miss

those days oh do i miss that girl but also am i free from the turmoil and chaos absolutely i fear you do have to get it out of your system especially better to do so when you're young and you can't afford making more wrong decisions listen I'm 25 I'm still young I'm not like old yet but I really am feeling the call to really figure out who am I how am I comfortable with myself how do I invest in myself and how do I kind of elevate my life in every single aspect how to not let parents drive you crazy at Christmas it's impossible to set boundaries I love a good just like blink and walk away oh I love it I love it every single time I make a plate at Christmas especially around my aunt it's oh my god Hannah that is so much food I cannot believe you're gonna eat all of that

and you know what I do I look at her I blink and I turn around and I walk the fuck away that's what you do when people say crazy shit to you unfortunately sometimes you're not always going to have like a fun little witty thing to say back and usually when people are saying sarcastic remarks it's because they kind of want to get back into that back and forth little thing that they want going on and unfortunately i do not have the time nor energy to participate in your little games so my favorite thing to do is let them sit with what they said let them think about what they said. Sometimes they'll think about it. Most of the times, especially if they're fucking crazy and saying crazy things out loud, they won't think about it. You got to accept that

blink, turn around, walk away. Oh my God. This is crazy. A guy told me I'm bad at giving head because I have dry hands, but I have eczema. Girl, I'm not laughing at you. It's just you gotta laugh at a crazy situation sometimes you know what I mean and if I'm going to sit here and give you advice my advice is girl you gotta you gotta spit on that thing you gotta haktua on that thing she's she got so many male followers for a reason okay everybody loves some sloppy toppy and listen maybe your hands are dry maybe it is the eczema let's invest in some coconut oil slather your hands up on that maybe some vaseline not great in the mouth so maybe not most importantly what every single one of us has spit and you gotta you know you gotta get sloppy

with it i hate to say it there men don't want head that is like demure and men don't want head that's like classy they want you to be a freak down there so you know indulge in that part of yourself listen eczema i get it but like some coconut oil some spit i promise it'll go a long way oh my god my boyfriend of three years recently became a cop and it's affecting our relationship help well i don't know it sounds like something that might affect your relationship here's the thing when you're dating somebody actually especially if you're dating someone long term they probably will eventually find themselves into a new job a new situation a newfound just like change in persona and a big thing about compatibility is can you guys mesh together

when somebody changes completely as who they are as a person that's a big part of like dating all right and that's why it's like don't get engaged after three years they probably have barely changes after a person like i'm a huge fan of getting engaged after like 10 years maybe five seven whatever it is there is no recipe that's like you know like feel it out don't be afraid to feel it out so if you're three years into a relationship and you know this man has completely 180'd who they are and you aren't meshing well together anymore that is normal it's a part of life it's a part of navigating relationships but i don't necessarily have to tell you to stick with it all right because you can leave at any point in time that's the beautiful thing about dating

all right not to be like i give up i can't do it anymore but sometimes people change into a person that you don't recognize anymore that you didn't sign up for that you didn't agree to you don't like them anymore and it just is what it is you don't have to be around people who make you miserable especially a cop oh i feel like my friend kind of hates me she's so competitive and everything what do i do thanks so a part of being a bad bitch is unfortunately you will have copiers at some point in time people are going to want to copy your personality they're going to want to get competitive about it they're going to want to become you so be a person that you want to be around so inevitably when someone copies you it's a competition of who can be the kindest

who can be the most compassionate who can be the loveliest all right unfortunately you do kind of have to see it as um affection and appreciation but it does get to a point where it's like sometimes if they if you feel like they're putting you down in competition that's just not someone you want to be around there is really no way to call people out on that other than distance but yeah unfortunately jealousy is a disease and it usually just means you're a hot bitch have you ever cut your own hair yes in fact i've cut my own hair many a times and do i recommend it no that's why my bangs have always looked fucked up but i had one bad haircut experience um probably oof seven years ago oh my god saying that out loud is crazy that was my last haircut

i got a cut in color it was 250 they fucked up my bangs and gave me micro fucking bangs art ho bangs and listen i know i fit the profile i know i'm an art ho but i cannot pull off micro art ho bangs let me tell you that i also asked for like you know kind of like a not balayage but just like give me some highlights here and there to mix in the growth that i've had could not tell there were highlights at all still could see a shelf of color I was just bad experience all around you know when you get a haircut and then you look at it you just start crying oof oof I've been there so after crying and then also spending so much money I was like fuck it I'm gonna do my hair at home girl it's still gonna look bad unfortunately but at least you're not wasting

money guess what though this is part of like growing up you know adulthood I'm going in for my first adult haircut it Thursday oh my god Thursday stay tuned there will be stuff up on Instagram I am getting a new cut new color new bangs little 90s blowout I found this cutesy little hairstylist in Kansas City that I'm so excited to visit I believe in her the blondes that she has done have been amazing. I'm very excited. So stay tuned to see how the fuck that looks like because I think I'm going to be a new hot sexy version of myself and I cannot wait to see her. But yes, I've spent the past seven years cutting my own hair. Has it looked good? I hate to say it. Definitely not. Am I necessarily putting energy and, you know, patience into cutting my

hair also no so it's probably a me problem control freak controlling everything around you high expectations never satisfied oh girl did you just read me are we talking about me are you here because it feels like that was a targeted question um yeah queen control freak here i have a major issue with it i think it's because my entire life i felt like nothing was in my control at all ever at any point in time it was always choices being made for me and then i always felt out of control which then made me spiral constantly and develop a severe anxiety condition so then when i got older and i had a little bit more free time i thought by controlling the things around me i could kind of navigate that anxiety condition a little bit more and make the world work for me

but the basic rule of life is nothing is ever going to work out the way you thought it would unfortunately i mean sure it will always work out in your favor but is it something you can necessarily control no no it's not so relinquishing that control was very difficult for me because i wanted to grasp onto expectations and experiences and people and things so fucking hard but in fact when that thing was finally ripped away from me it just made it more painful more anxiety inducing and genuinely worse so if you find yourself being another control freak queen okay we're out there it's okay i hate to break it to you but unfortunately trying to control the situations around you will never make it better it won't it will never make it easier it will never make the

situation work out in your favor unfortunately it will probably make the situation worse it will probably push people away and you probably won't achieve the things that you want to achieve because you are grasping so hard onto things that simply are not good for you so i had to learn how to go with the flow eventually i was put in a situation where everything was out of my control i had no choice but to kind of address this side of myself and to really focus on what i could control and what i couldn't control and release the things that i couldn't control and just trust that the universe or god you know always had my best interest at hand and once i was put in that situation and i kind of just threw my hands up in the air and i was like fuck it i am tired of

grasping on so hard i am tired of just like trying to make things work for me i'm going to listen and trust in the universe to have something work out for me bam as soon as i relinquished that control everything started flowing so freely towards me well they don't tell you about being a control freak and trying to force things to move a certain way as if you're playing life like a game of chess is it really puts a roadblock up between you and your blessings up between you and the things that you truly want to achieve whether it's a relationship a person a job it puts a massive fucking roadblock up between you because you are trying to control the energy instead of letting it flow once you finally let the energy flow you will see so many good things flowing towards you

and it is a jump scare at first it is it is a jump scare because you're not used to it you're not used to relinquishing control of your life but I guarantee as soon as you do so everything will be so much easier at this point relinquishing control and just trusting in the universe and God is an addiction of mine at this point I truly believe everything will work out in my favor as long as I trust and believe in myself and control what I can control which is me my decisions my choices the energy that i do bring into my life how i treat myself and i stopped trying to control the environment around me such as people places things jobs school i learned that a when i really hone in on my control on things that do work for me it works fantastic works very well

and also I have a much better time with a relationship with the things outside of my control because I truly understand whether it is coming or going leaving or entering whatever is meant to be around me will be around me will work out for me no matter what and if it's exiting my life even if I don't want it to it probably is for the best reason control issues are a disease please queen get well soon and unfortunately it does take just being strong and trusting in yourself trusting in the universe to kind of get through those understand what you can control what is in your bubble all right how i treat myself how i take care of myself how i take care of my home how i treat my cat how i treat my boyfriend how i treat the people around me what can i

genuinely control in my life it's not everything honestly it's probably not a lot but focus on the things that you can control relinquish all the other attachments in your life to the things that you can't control everything in life will work out so much more seamlessly for you he slept with other girls and gave me chlamydia merry christmas am i right oh my god girl wow um yeah i i guess merry christmas in the fact that you don't have to keep this bullshit kind of man around you anymore merry christmas you're free also merry christmas pills exist and you can pop one one thing about growing up is you realize a lot more adults than you realize are on coke and probably have chlamydia so stay safe out there girls i went through my boyfriend's phone and he had only fans

and was snapping tinder girls how to get through it oh girl unfortunately i don't think you get through it i don't think there's forgiveness after that one in fact i'm surprised you weren't like the am i the asshole girl and didn't smack him the fuck awake as soon as you notice this please for the love of god there is no changing this behavior this is an addiction a sex addiction a love addiction he will probably keep doing this and in fact i have found most the time when men use and abuse women constantly and just need more validation and more validation and more validation it's because they're hiding a little secret and they most likely probably want to be with men that's what i've found especially from men who just dog on women all the time they just

don't like them they don't like them but they think consuming more and more and more will make them like them that's not how it works your boyfriend's gay please get out of there please run as far as you fucking can and also venmo request him thousands of dollars for just mental and physical harm oh babe please run as fast as you can do you ever get weed hangovers if so what's the cure i'm in need right now oh girl weed hangovers um i used to especially when i was younger i remember the first time i ever smoked weed i then had to like go visit my grandparents and i was still high from the night before and i remember sitting in their living room being like what the fuck is going on right now like how the fuck am i still high right now i don't think that

happens that often maybe i was just smoking boof weed i don't get as many weed hangovers now if i eat edibles at night or take too many dabs at night i will notice a little bit of grogginess in the morning that can be solved very simply a chug a bunch of water chug as much water as you possibly can. It'll just naturally help like flush everything out, naturally help your body process and metabolize that THC a little faster than it usually is. Eat a good meal. I'm not talking a salad. I'm talking a full meal with carbs, a little good and healthy fats in there, some good protein. Sleeping it off usually does help as long as you do get a full eight hours of rest i have found getting more than eight hours does prolong the thc hangover i also just

think in general especially when you're still a little high you're just overthinking it you're just overthinking you know the night before the morning that you're currently experiencing find a small little way for you to kind of distract yourself maybe it's your favorite tv show get off your fucking phone put on a podcast in the background maybe put on your favorite podcast smoke sesh in the background and clean your house do something with your hands distract yourself but you sitting here thinking and thinking and thinking and doom scrolling is not going to help the situation at all the overthinking is only going to spiral more and more this also happens with anxiety it's how you get over it distract yourself keep your life moving all right let's

get into the other half of our am i the asshole questions and then i will let you all go to have a merry little christmas to have a wonderful little christmas break but let's get into it oh my god am i the asshole for not going to my mother's wedding to a 70 year old guy in the nursing home and her nursing home is the workplace so you're telling me she's getting married to a client my only thought here is he must have a lot of money and also hate to put this thought into your head but like are they fucking how the hell is that working no i don't think you necessarily have to show up to a nursing home wedding especially if your mom is not admitted to the nursing home am i the asshole for avoiding eye contact with people in public unless they

speak to me because i don't want to start a conversation unless i have to no that's just called social anxiety babe i i mean it might come off asshole-ish if like somebody knows you but in general i think most people enjoy being in their own world especially in public spaces am i the asshole for cutting off my home girl because she's choosing to stay toxic and two-faced nope sometimes you just gotta put distance in between things that are not good for you am i the asshole for not going on a date a second date with a guy who didn't have a car no i mean how the fuck is he going to show up to the date in the first place a man without a car is looking for a woman with a car always keep that in mind also another pro tip you don't have to move out of your

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Visit Ancestry.ca for details. Terms apply. Hello. I'm doing a call-in for my Am I the Asshole question, and it's one that makes me really, really sad, but I'll try to make it short. Basically, when I drink, I tend to be just, I mean, obviously I lose my filter,

so, you know, if I'm annoyed, you know, I feel like I get bitchy, and i don't want to be rude when i'm annoyed or when i'm drunk like that just it makes me feel so icky and i like wake up in the morning and then i hear everybody say that i was kind of like rude and i don't know what to do i want to go sober but it's like i'm not even 21 yet so it feels like a weird time but maybe i could just be sober until my birthday i don't know i am i the asshole for being just like genuinely really rude when i'm drunk help so the funny thing about substances is it does put you into a phase of yourself that you never knew existed before

molly phase hannah the most loving little flirty fairy you've ever seen in your life weed phase hannah the chillest quietest most non-verbal girl you've ever seen in your entire life drunk hannah the most obnoxious crazy insane fun wild girl you've ever met in your life but the thing about that is I understand all of those are like weird versions of myself but aren't necessarily truly who I am alcohol has this funny thing of fully making us different people because the point of alcohol is to become out of control in your of yourself not like the point I understand that's not why people drink but it kind of is if you think about it you know if you think of it as like a social lubricant it's because you're trying to get out of that space of who

you are sober and become a slightly different version of yourself who can maybe navigate spaces better the funny thing about that is once you drink so much you sometimes become fully out of control of yourself that doesn't mean that you are an angry person or you are a mean person i think it just means maybe the problem isn't that you're angry it's that you're drinking to the point that you're not in control of yourself i have a friend who's like this and luckily like i understand how substances work i enjoy my substance here and there obviously um but also like i'm really chill and i understand how people get i'm a gemini trust me if you've been there I've fucking been there I promise and every time she drinks she becomes she becomes a

mean bitch she does she says things to me that I'm like oh girl that was that was feisty that was fiery and I know I feel that way but some other people like she's definitely lost friends over it and all I can say is if you have a bad reaction to something maybe you don't have to have it in your life anymore i'm not saying completely cold turkey i mean cold turkey for a short amount of time fantastic but maybe just understand your limits you know don't fully lose control of yourself but maybe like one drink is fine or two especially if you're young and you're like i'm blacking out and doing all these horrible awful things let's just focus on not blacking out now do i think you're the asshole in that situation probably but you have to understand you right now

you're not the asshole does that make sense it's like a different side of yourself it's like a dr jekyll and mr hyde oh is that the name of it yeah yeah like you're literally becoming like a new formed version of yourself because that substance now do i think your friends have like the social and situational awareness to understand that those are two different versions of yourself and that probably not is that's probably not the real you presenting itself most likely not because they were probably also intoxicated at the same time so do they think you were the asshole in that moment probably do i think you can stop becoming the asshole absolutely and i think it just comes with moderation moderation understanding your limits understanding

what is good for you and what isn't good for you understanding reoccurring behavior and patterns particularly not giving into the patterns that are maybe negative listen drinking we've all had our bad nights we've all had our bad moments but there is this funny thing about alcohol that truly turns us into the most evil vile people possible so if you find yourself doing that constantly let me break it to you you don't have to get that drunk you don't that was freeing for me to know true alcoholic brain i was like oh but i'm young what do you mean i don't have to drink until i black out what do you mean i can have a casual one or two drinks that that was freedom to me that knowledge that understanding of like oh maybe i can stop at one once again true alcoholic brain

that was so freeing so maybe focus on moderation and then you won't be the asshole you know but i think this is an accidental asshole situation am i the asshole my boyfriend called me an attention whore okay no you need to immediately break up break up with any man if he feels comfortable calling you degrading words that is not okay that is not something you do to somebody who is a loved one bitch whore slut i mean if it's in the bedroom that's one thing but if it's angrily he does not give a fuck about you so are you the asshole no but your boyfriend definitely is um he called you a attention whore and cheater for posting a slideshow on tiktok because he deleted it and he thinks i should too it wasn't provocative or anything just a cute pic of myself

and picks up my dog oh no oh no no no oh no no no no no no this man is the devil and he is trying to suck your soul out of your body please leave as fast as you can am i the asshole for bitching out a customer no sometimes they deserve it and very much so need it one of one of my co-workers literally we had this horrible awful guy who knew one of the owners so he thought he could do anything constantly and just be so incredibly mean and finally one of my co-workers snapped and said what do you see look this man in the eyes and goes why don't you go fucking kill yourself best believe that man is never allowed in my restaurant ever again i love the owners of my restaurant because if a customer is ever able to make us like break character like break serving

character it's not a us issue it is definitely a them issue and my owners they're not from the u.s so the way that they approach like serving and handling customers is like if you're not going to treat us well we're not going to fucking treat you well and we also don't have to have you here we don't give a fuck we will take other people's money we don't need your mean angry nasty money and i appreciate them so much for that oh my god oh my god am i the asshole for getting mad at my boyfriend for secretly having dildos i tried to help but he just you know got off in the next room with them without me how do i feel like i'm enough oh oh wow secret lives secret lives i can't date people with secret lives i don't mind a kink i don't

mind a kink okay we all have our special little interests and hobbies but you should absolutely feel safe and comfortable sharing them with your partner especially a partner like you who apparently seems like okay like fuck it let's get into it let's try something out something a little shady is going on if they can't fully be themselves i understand like sex shame and all that stuff but if you're approaching it in a very like no i love you let's let's let's explore this side of yourself together he still can't get with you i don't know you're definitely enough don't worry about it but also you got to ask yourself is this something that you can handle for the rest of your life or maybe is this something that he can go

jerk off in the next room for the rest of his life about you know what i mean am i the asshole for making out with a girl and posting it on my close friends when he said that cheating was okay no that doesn't make you the asshole but we do need to have a conversation about performative lesbianism for male entertainment not that that's what you're doing but i don't think he got mad about that i definitely think he probably jerked off to that picture when he says cheating is okay he's not going and cheating with his homeboys i mean maybe but best believe he's definitely going and cheating with other girls should you just be with a man that is cheating on you in general no no am i the asshole i'm dreading going to my boyfriend's family's

christmas his dad is a narcissist who is terrible to be around and treat my boyfriend terribly growing up this family is all around toxic and hard to be around am i the asshole for not wanting to go i haven't said anything to him as it doesn't feel like my place but the whole situation is making me anxious no it doesn't make you the asshole it only makes you the asshole if you don't show up i hate to say it it is a part of just like having a partner is you gotta go to the family events no matter how much you don't want to go especially if it means a lot to your partner um you cannot want to go that doesn't make you the asshole it only makes you the asshole if you're like no i don't want to ever go to any of your family events because theoretically if you're

dating this man you're gonna have to get married to this man and all of a sudden that narcissistic dad becomes your father-in-law something to think about best thing you can really do put on a face try and you know maybe make a game plan with your boyfriend where it's like let's show up early and then leave early as well let's say we have something else going on you know try and make the situation as easy as it can possibly be and like i said whenever somebody says something crazy i love looking at them and going oh wow and then turning and walking away that is the best way to handle crazy family whether it's yours or someone else's no you're not the asshole unfortunately you still gotta go oh you guys today has been such a fun silly little

episode sponsored by Celsius no I'm just kidding I truly wish maybe I'll be sending a frantic email after this begging and pleading for a code for my girls I feel like with the things that I genuinely enjoy in my life I need to start like this is one of my new year's goals is I need to start like repping for you girls like no no please give me 20% off for them like I promise you guys will love it but also I want to be able to provide for you a little bit especially if I'm gonna fucking recommend something duh i hope you all survive this holiday madness whether you are celebrating or not i do believe december has this funny energy of bringing out the inner awareness of us all which can be a little scary at some point in times but please understand it is just

the universe god calling to you to change up maybe it's time to really look at ourselves fully and transform into who we truly were meant to be there is still time please do your new year's resolutions think about yourself look back on this past year ask yourself have i been the asshole how can i stop becoming the asshole how can i change into a better version of myself what goals can i set for myself let me give you guys a very very fun little activity for you all technically this is supposed to be done on um the winter solstice which did already happen i'm so sorry but in my opinion when it comes to spells and spirituality there is no exact time you can do it on any point in day as long as you are celebrating and doing something to celebrate

that literally is the purpose there is no one magical day maybe if you're working with the moon and stuff like that but i learned this from a woman who has a coven here in kansas city who i do do some group work with occasionally she'll have like two or three winter solstice um parties things like that where it's just like there is no wrong time to celebrate the point is the celebration in itself so never feel like you've ever missed out on anything the right time is always now but i did share with the patreon girlies a fun little winter solstice ritual it's called the like 13 days of winter something like that 13 days of yule i'm not sure one of those things the whole point of it is what you're going to do is you are going to write down

13 different wishes you have for the new year these can be your goals these can be your manifestations it can be literally anything you fucking want that's kind of the funny thing about life is anything you want you can make yours so don't put limitations especially on things you are going to be wishing for all right you're going to write down all of these 13 wishes you have you're going to cut them out into cute little strips you're going to fold them up nice and tiny so you can't distinguish between what they are and every night for 12 nights you are going to meditate on your wishes meditate on what you want for this new year what you want to bring in what manifestations that you have who you want to become every night you're going to manifest

you're going to meditate on these ideas on growing your heart growing your light with your eyes closed and a candle in front of you actually maybe not with your eyes closed point here is don't look at the wishes grab a random one that's folded up burn it safely carefully flush it down the toilet get rid of it don't look at it just pick a random one every night get rid of it by the 12th night there will only be one wish left that wish is what the universe wants you to be in control of this year it's what the universe wants you to focus on this new year what you can control this new year and your task is basically to be focused on this wish or this goal and to try and manifest it to create this wish in your life by being dedicated to one thing and giving the rest up to the universe

giving control up simply believing that it will come true you'd be fucking surprised how many of these wishes come true in the entire new year you would be surprised i haven't done this every year i did do it um back when i was a sophomore in college and take time of course like write these wishes down separately in a note so you can come back at the end of the year and look back over it but you would be fucking surprised how many of them come true literally i was writing down crazy fucking things things that like oh fuck it let me just write it down i gotta fill a space it still came true so if you want a fun little activity to kind of really think over your manifestations your affirmations what you want to bring into the new year while also having a fun

little activity to celebrate the new year coming in and give yourself a new goal for this next year miss 2025 which is going to be full of blessings then this is the activity for you many new things coming to the patreon just you wait also lower prices which is fantastic all the girlies who are always subscribed this will be coming in january but all the girlies who are already subscribed um it'll be posted like what's coming with each tier all the new things that are coming all the new stuff i've been cooking up for you and also it'll automatically charge you less which is like fantastic especially if you've already subscribed but if you're thinking about subscribing this new year is going to be for you come join we have so much fun over on the patreon

patreon.com smoke slash shawty and if you want to see what i'm up to how i'm celebrating i haven't been posting much in december but i am going to be posting more i just needed a time to kind of recluse inside myself for some time and take care of myself um follow me on instagram at hannah marlene i post the questionnaire for the week every week on my instagram story on sunday it is up for exactly 24 hours this is how when you girlies are like typing and commenting oh my god i love seeing your guys's comments by the way when you're like oh my god this felt very intuitive like how did you know to talk about all these things it's because i'm very picky with what we talk about each week and i try and answer the questions that it's like okay i'm getting so many

of these obviously this is a common issue that's going on in this point in time whatever's causing it i know the girls are going through it let's talk about it i've had some new people who are like how the fuck do i ask you a question like do i dm it to you that works too instagram.com slash hannah marlene but specifically i do look mostly at the questionnaire that i upload every sunday so keep your eye out i want to hear from you i want to hear your beautiful voices i love connecting with you it is such a pleasure to have you guys in my life every week and i cannot wait for more episodes to come in this new year and what smoke sesh will bring for you all stay sane this holiday season stay sexy and i'll see you all so soon

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