Smoke Sesh - chasing your dreams, karma & toxic patterns

Episode Date: March 1, 2022

Happy Tuesday everyone!! Today we chat what hannah’s been up to, that euphoria ending and what’s to come in season 3, chasing your dreams and accomplishing your goals, getting out of lazy habits, favorite pieces from hannah’s glass collection, karma & escaping toxic patterns, tips for highschool and what to expect for Thursday. Like usual feel free to light up and hang out and always submit any question you have to Instagram @hannahmarlene. See you Thursday! MUAH!

Listen, everybody needs a fairy godmother, you know, someone to look out for them. Some people call me their internet big sister, others their fairy smoke mother. You can call me Hannah, the new host of Smoke Sash. So come hang out, let's light up and talk everything there is to life. Some good, the bad, the ugly, the embarrassing. I've got a story for it all. Oh my goodness, good morning ladies and whores. it's tuesday you know what that means we're back at it again another episode of smoke sash i'm so

excited to be here it is like 11 40 i woke up so late so late but i needed to sleep in a little bit my boyfriend got up at like 7 30 to go to work and i was just like anyways i'm gonna roll back over but I uh let me catch you up on my week oh my goodness because I feel like Tuesday to Thursday like not a lot happens because it's just one day in between but Thursday to Tuesday a lot of shit happens like a lot of shit um nothing crazy life's good life's happening it's I can feel the warm weather coming on I think it's about to be like 70 degrees out today which is fucking insane I have been waiting for this my inner summer whore is about to jump out um but I can't wait I'm gonna go put on a cute dress I just got these incredible red um they're vintage

I did not buy them so I'm not supporting like the leather trade but they're like snake skin red boots oh my god i'm obsessed i'm gonna go thrifting after i finish this take a little walk i don't know just enjoy my day um also i'm not sure which one i'm going to yet i did just buy a 200 bikini last night so i know i have to go to one of them um but literally oh my god i've been looking at this mirror place i don't know how to say their fucking name um bikini for forever like months like months and months and i've been looking at it on depop because their bikinis go for like hundred dollar tops hundred dollar bottoms which are like that's insane that's that's insane um the only other time i've paid like two hundred

dollars for a bikini was for my friend's bikini which was completely handmade one of a kind sustainable incredible incredible incredible um not saying that this brand isn't also incredible it's just more of a larger scale so i usually expect lower prices but it is kind of a designer high end um anyways but i've been staring at this bikini on my phone for months and i woke up this morning and it sold it sold yeah it sold i was like are you kidding me i even messaged the seller yesterday and i was like can you hold this for me until the end of the week and then like i'll buy it from you because i gotta get a couple more shifts and you know pad that bank account after paying rent um and obviously that did not happen so i spent the morning fucking scrolling endlessly

every shopping app i have depop oh my god here's my favorite shopping apps if you do online shopping um a majority of my clothes comes from one of these apps but depop poshmark makari ebay those are probably my top three i've boughten off of all of them i've had good experiences probably more bad experiences on depop i hate to say that but some of y'all are scammers i'm not gonna lie anyways yeah i spent the morning scrolling out hours trying to find another bikini in the exact size that I needed as well as the same pattern I wanted and I found it and I snatched that bitch up ASAP and bought it and so that's $180 purchase later um that'll be in the mail to me in about a week but I'm going to either LA or Miami for just a few days just a few

days I'm gonna take a longer trip like for my birthday I think around June I think we're going to mexico too and of course i want to spend more time in mexico than i do in miami or la i literally just want to fly in buy some fucking bomb ass weed drive immediately to a beach and just be half naked on a beach all day literally it's my favorite fucking thing to do and i need to live closer to one i swear to god like moving to la would be incredible um simply because it feels so rejuvenating to do and then I wouldn't have to purchase a $400 Airbnb and a $400 plane ticket um but yeah if if you live in LA if you live in Miami let me know what's up let me know if your favorite spots favorite things to do if you've ever traveled to those areas let me know I'm not

sure if we're staying in LA LA because uh it was just crazy last time or if we'll stay more south la or maybe like palm springs area not sure you tell me you tell me i just need to get on a fucking beach and treat myself a little bit but that's really all i've been planning what did i do this weekend i didn't really do anything this weekend honestly i feel like i did but i didn't oh my god my brain is like scrambled is your brain scrambled from all the fucking molly you've been taking yes actually yeah yeah yeah it is actually you know what i mean every time i hear the audio i'm like oh god maybe it is fucked up you guys are so sweet and showed me so much fucking love on my latest instagram post thank you so much i told you guys like what three episodes ago i was

like oh my god i got all these incredible like pieces in new bongs new bowls from this incredible website canna style oh my god love them incredible these pieces are top tier quality shipping was fast nothing came broken and even if you do get something broken um they they messaged me before i even got my package and was like if anything shows up broken please let us know and we will replace it and send it out asap like no worries so great customer service wonderful owner wonderful like pipes and pieces and they all hit beautifully um but i posted my strawberry bong my strawberry bong which me and strawberry bong have a long long history not this one in in particular but when i was in college my bestie well after i dropped out i would still go visit

her um sometimes just because we still live close together but um she bought a strawberry bong and it was on sale last of its kind on a back shelf somewhere in one of those scary little smoke shops you know what i mean um and she snatched that shit right up for like 60 bucks i think like not a lot you could tell it was nice it's hefty glass hand-painted beautiful little strawberries we would rip the shit out of that bitch rip the shit out of it she brought it with her when she came to visit me last time and stayed at my house so sweet i think like a year ago i even posted a picture with it and everybody was hitting me up like oh my god where'd you buy that oh my god the strawberry bong is everything where did you get it i still get messages because it's in my like

highlights on my instagram um which is at hannah marlene if you want to check it out but i still get messages and they're like where did you get your strawberry bong oh my god it's so cute and here's the thing my friend literally while she was at college you know she had to move back home which she was driving like 14 hours and she wasn't gonna drive 14 hours the bong in her car um she literally went around to everybody she knew at college it was like do you want a bong do you want a free bong do you want a free bong literally like take this off my hand it's a beautiful piece like take it somebody because she didn't want to throw it away and literally nobody wanted it nobody wanted to buy it or not buy it she was literally giving it away free nobody wanted

it and so she ended up just throwing it away and had to drive back home and so literally six months later I have strawberry bong again and it's the exact same like strawberry bong she had basically the exact same except for it's way heavier glass it's like kind of a better quality I feel like the glass isn't as thin um but yeah check that out on my instagram if you guys like strawberry things i thought it was adorable and it was so funny full circle like getting to facetime my friend and take a rip off of it be like girl look at what look at what reunited us it came back the strawberry bomb found us again but yeah canistyle sent me some incredible incredible of pieces love love love them um if you ever are interested in um quality pieces which people have

asked me like my favorite places to get pieces um canna style has great cute ones even cute smoking accessories they sent me a beautiful like little dice ashtray um i got a strawberry little pipe i got an iridescent recycler rig i got a um oh and they sent me their new celestial drop which is so beautiful check it out um it's giving astrology it's giving spiritual vibes they sent me a purple one though and it gives me kind of tangled vibes which i love um just like a little cute um sun and moon pink bomb oh my god they sent me so many cute things a joint case like a sparkly glitter joint case uh love them okay so canna style always great you can find them on instagram dank love is also great i've worked with them for a few years

everybody i have like a silicone mushroom pipe that i like to take on walks um if you ever see me post that that is from canista or not canista dank love great both of them are great 10 out of 10 have only had incredible experiences with both of them so if you're looking for cute smoking accessories um pretty cheap great customer service great shipping discreet shipping also which is even better um canna style and dank love 10 out of 10 love love love them i need to post a full like collection picture i need to clean my pieces tbh but i need to post a full collection picture of everything i have because when i tell you i have like 15 pieces i genuinely mean that and i mean like some of them are little bubblers some of them are little rigs but i have a lot of pieces

it's a good collection and my favorite part about it is like all of it's pink all of it pink and purple love it anyways i guess that catches you guys up with what i've been up to i'm just yeah planning a trip miami hoes la hoes let me know what's up let me know what i should do where i should go um let's pull a little tarot card though i kind of like doing those readings and then we will get into some questions um also let's talk euphoria let's talk euphoria if you haven't if you haven't watched it um pause this but if you have watched it like everybody else i feel like everybody's pretty much caught up it's what two days later um what the fuck what the fuck i feel like this whole last season

was basically the ending episode to the first season it was like literally what they could have done in one episode to just like kind of recap and make sure everything like all the loose ends got tied up um but what the fuck is gonna happen next season does that make sense i am like what's going on first of all ash is dead r.i.p that's so sad he was such an interesting character too like why did they have to kill him off but also i guess it really just shows like his impulsiveness and maybe how growing up in that kind of environment kind of fucked him up but Fezco's not dead he's not dead he's definitely in the hospital um and they're gonna do another like little pan over moment um you know how they did with Lexi's dad in the hospital and it's gonna

be Lexi and him there I'm calling it I'm calling it right now no way he's dead he might be in jail maybe but also Faye really took um a bullet for the team by pushing it off onto Lori which I think sets us up with a really good environment for what next season will happen because I feel like it'll be a lot of drama between Lori and coming after Rue but Rue is now clean and sober um so she's kind of coming after a different person if that makes sense because we still gotta tie that up and I saw some people being like confused by what's going on um but I think a lot of our questions will also be answered next season but holy shit how long do we have to wait how long because oh my god it was good it was good it was a little underwhelming i wish maddie would have

beat the shit out of cassie a little bit more i like that she was like this is just the beginning because cassie was like oh my god he broke up with me before i even did all of that like i'm going insane like he's making me go insane and the fact that maddie was like girl this is just the beginning you're gonna get crazier i think really just set it into motion like what's happening to cassie and kind of like a reality check for her in a way because she's not her she was not herself when she was up on that stage she was trying to be someone else she was trying to cover up for some sort of insecurity and yeah we're gonna get a lot more of that a lot more of that in season three i don't know what they're gonna do with jules that's a little confusing elliot is not

really a necessary character i feel like he was to make rue spiral but that's about it now that he's like not making rue spiral is he really like a necessary character oh my god one of my mutuals made like a casting for season three video with all their mutuals and they were like um elliot's ex-girlfriend and they put me i was like no the one person who could take him down is me tbh but i was like damn that's funny but what else so cal went to jail love that i really thought it would be jules or maddie doing it but i think it makes the most sense that nate turned his own dad in and i think i think next season we're gonna get a lot of nate and jules as much as that um makes sense maybe doesn't make sense because he's in

love with her like he's in love with her like if you go back and watch season one he was like baiting her into a relationship and i don't think it was like a fake baiting um although he tried to play it off as like a oh i played you i played you into this position like i never liked you i think he genuinely has a lot of feelings for Jules um whether it's a good thing or bad thing but him finally like he said I've been protecting my dad for my entire life him finally turning his dad his back on his dad um and turning him into the police is kind of like his declaration of love to Jules does that make sense because he was like he did this horrible thing and he's definitely not gonna stop and no one else is gonna stop him so it's gonna be me

so I think season three season three predictions Fez more Fezco and Lexi there definitely will be it'll be good they'll still just be friends we'll still see a lot of phone calls I think the reason they had a lot of phone calls this season is kind of paralleling to what might happen next season whether it's phone calls between him in the hospital and him with her or him in jail and him with her one of the two um he's not dead though he's definitely hurt but he is going to have to I don't know I definitely think um what's her name the drug dealer lady who was creepy um that fay called out her and rue will probably get into it next season fay will still be around i think fay will stick around most likely to help fazco

whenever he gets out um whether it is taking care of his grandma while he's in jail or in the hospital one of the two i think she's around to stay um i think we'll see a lot of nate and um Jules together which is very interesting I'm not sure how that's gonna work uh and then uh a lot more of fucking Cassie losing her mind and doing crazy batshit things I'm hoping we see more of Kat fucked up that we saw like none of her this season um because we saw a lot of her last season and I loved her backstory and I love I love the things going on but I'm wondering if they're setting her up for maybe more more dialogue next season because I noticed that in like a lot of the old pictures of all the girls together as like kids or even the girl who played

her in the play like they made her very innocent they made her look very put together but they also kind of like put her in the middle like kind of ostracized it was like a two two and then her in the middle so i'm not sure maybe it is setting some i'm praying and i'm hoping she deserves it you know what i mean she deserves some screen time but yeah i don't really know what else is gonna happen god knows because i could not have predicted any of this season any of it any of it it is a wild fucking ride i tell people to watch this show and they're like i don't know if i want two and i'm like do it for the drama at least do it for the drama because it's really worth it i'm not gonna lie um but it was a slow burn i feel like i need to go through and watch like season

one and all the way through season two i feel like a lot of people who are mad and who are like this doesn't make sense this doesn't go with the plot kind of forgot all about season one and i think if you watch through it does make sense in the way that like season two was kind of mirroring season one and tying up loose ends but anyways yeah euphoria it was good i'm glad rue is better that's really kind of the best thing she looks so healthy like so healthy her skin was popping i was like this looks good she looked fantastic but she was like i stayed sober for the rest of the school year that's it so we know that and like as it is with addiction you're gonna have ups and downs things are gonna happen so i'm sure we'll see more of that season three but i i'm

literally not gonna watch if fez is dead like i'm not kidding i'm not gonna watch i'm already like not wanting to watch if ash is dead i thought he was a great character even if it was like subtle um he really took one for the team there with those police ossifers but yeah euphoria season three coming soon not soon i think it'll be a few years fuck anyways it is march 1st oh my goodness march 1st march is such an odd month how many days are in the month because february was a little short it was like 28 days yeah that's not a lot we got 31 days in march hell yeah i think i'm going on my trip in april so march is all about saving money saving saving saving um and people were asking me some like money saving tips which i think is a great question i wish i knew more about

it um i'm not even gonna lie to you um and i i do save a lot of my money i think i give myself like so as a server it's hard to like server bartender it's hard to um manage money because a lot of it is cash and it's I just deposit it directly into my bank it's not like a oh I know I'm gonna get paid this much money every Friday or every other Friday you know what I mean because with that you can actually do some math and budgeting but there's no like quote-unquote average that I make to do any sort of math and budgeting so what I do and what I have been doing and what has seemed to kind of um do the best is I will put all of my money into my savings account um like everything I make I put in my savings and then I give myself like a hundred dollars a week ish for spending

okay and I'm usually pretty good about staying with it that hundred dollars like I basically get all of my meals for free because i eat at work the most i do is maybe buy coffee once or twice a week or treat myself to a little thrift store or i treat myself to like a lunch so like keeping it within that hundred dollars is really easy and then i don't know just figuring out what budget for spending works the best for you and then straight up i put the rest in savings and i do not fucking look at it until i have to pay rent that's it that's literally it and if you put money away and you allow yourself not to touch it and you don't think about it you'd be surprised how much money you honestly put away I know it's kind of crazy um I like stopped going out for

coffee as much though like unnecessary spending I tried to cut back on I make coffee at home it's incredible it's wonderful delicious get you get yourself a little espresso machine you can make it just like starbucks babes you'll be great um like i said i get all my meals basically for free because i um i work at a restaurant so i just eat there um other than like grocery but or groceries which are pretty cheap because i just buy for myself and occasionally my boyfriend um but it's really all about just taking all of the money that you can kind of scrounge up and putting it into something that you're not going to touch putting it into a separate account and you have your checkings account make sure your checking doesn't automatically withdraw from your savings

whenever it gets low make sure your savings is something that you simply like cannot touch like even me and my dad were talking about this he was like do you want me to open up a a bank account under our name that you can directly put money into but you have no way of touching and i was like honestly that's the best it would be a great idea um i just am not making that much money right now like I'm making a lot of money but until I make like hella hella money then I'll be doing that but for now just like putting it aside kind of like a rainy day jar savings fund just whatever putting aside however much money you can and trying to live off whatever is necessary is kind of the best and the best way at least for me to save money um but yeah

and when I do treat my when I do want to treat myself I do like I said I literally just bought a $200 bikini um but I haven't really online shopped at all this month which is usually where all of my money fucking goes um so I was like whatever I'll splurge once I'll buy myself a little something for the end of the month for my hard work but yeah that's that's kind of all I can really tell you about saving money i wish i knew more uh i don't invest any of my money in stocks i know i know i think i have like a roth ira account that's about it that's for just retirement fund i put fifty dollars a month into that um i don't put any of my money in stocks i know i just it's a game that i don't know enough about and i'm not ready to play especially

when it comes to money i'd rather just fucking make my money on my own and like save it like a normal person i guess is that crazy of me like damn i'm convinced nfts um were just art bros who weren't accepted into university because their shit was like their art was like cyber galactic type of smoky heady rick and morty art so they got denied from art school and they made nfts to give themselves something to do and feel special i don't understand nfts it's just fun to make fun of it anyways oh also when it comes to money keeping a positive mindset no matter where you are is kind of the best thing because stressing yourself out about money literally makes nothing better no it makes nothing better okay literally

whenever i get stressed i just tell myself the universal figure it out money flows uh abundantly and frequently to me i'll figure it out i always do there's no reason to get stress worried because it's so easy to get so fucking stressed over money i constantly am i'm constantly like oh god what loans do i have to pay and what how's my credit oh shit i gotta do taxes like what don't worry about it don't worry about it understand the universe will take care of you things will be okay you'll figure it out you always do okay babe okay this is a great question and we're gonna smoke a little bowl here so um and this one was sent to my dms some of you guys will um submit them to my questionnaire but um if they're longer they said hey saw your questionnaire but i have a

longer one for tomorrow's pod it didn't fit basically i asked how to find the motivation to pursue your career goal but it's more so the energy and not being lazy about putting in the work to accomplish your goals okay valid valid valid question um I feel like growing up I was limiting myself based on what I thought other people assume my worth was and what I mean by that is I accepted what I thought was available to me based on how other people perceive me and in turn how I perceive myself so like I said you guys know my my career path um i went off to nursing school now nursing school is not something easy but it's something you can definitely get through and accomplish and get done um i went to nursing school because i

thought you know it's it'll be a it'll be a job one that maybe i won't hate um and i know i'll make a lot of money so we'll go with that because also my parents seem to like it they seem to think I'd be good at it everybody in my family seems to think I'd be good at it all my teachers think it's the best option for me so that's what I'll go with and I did go with it I went to nursing school went to nursing school for two years and I very very quickly realized I was limiting myself and my ability and I was depressed in turn because I was doing something that didn't feel true to myself and like in a way not to put other people down obviously we need nurses they're incredible they're amazing um i just felt like there's more i could be doing and dreams and goals and huge

things that i've been thinking about and wanting to chase for a while that nursing school kind of seemed beneath me in a sense and not i really don't mean that in a shameful way my growth process was just like I wanted more and I felt a little crazy for that let me hit this bowl I felt a little crazy for that because I mean my whole life everybody who has been an adult has been somebody I go for to for counseling not counseling but just like life help in general um I've never really expressed my dreams and goals with them and if I did express my dreams and goals with them they were something that were kind of quickly very quickly turned down because they weren't

what rational they weren't um well to them possible and I was limiting myself in turn and it just turned into this depression spiral of me being like I want to do more with my life and if I stay on this path I'm gonna be miserable so I took the jump um dropped out and when I dropped out I was out of school for a good year I think because I left a spring no no half a year because I started that fall um I left in the spring started that fall at art school and in art school I realized okay you know we're on the right path I still have these goals and these dreams and these things that I have in the back of my mind are a big factor for driving me I want to do good I want to succeed I saw what succeeding was like was something that I didn't want and now

succeeding with something that I did want was going 10 times more 10 times better because I was more passionate about it I wasn't exactly where I wanted to be but like you know getting into nursing or not nursing school getting into art school and starting on that and seeing myself succeed was the starting driving factor in being like okay well what else can I do because I just keep proving to myself that all these things these people had said and all the kind of projections they had put on me and the limitations they had put on me were false and I can I can basically do whatever I want and I don't mean that in like an entitled way I just mean that in a okay I'm seeing the fruits of my labor I'm genuinely putting in effortless or not effortless fucking a lot of

effort a lot of work a lot of hard work into art school and it's succeeding so what else can I do and I think the hardest part well the easiest part is coming to that realization of okay I'm I have these goals and these dreams and I want them and I want them really really bad but the hard part is enacting it and doing it and going after it that's what 90% of the population can't do they can't push themselves they can't drive themselves they can't make them go after something um and that's why some people succeed and some people don't now I think a lot of people succeed I'm just thinking I'm kind of thinking in what my goals are I guess so let me restate I think everybody's very much so succeeds at what they want to do it's just how much do you want

to do how big do you want to go because it's possible it is a thousand percent possible am i where i want to be no but life is a whole fucking joy ride okay and if you aren't taking those steps as you are continuing on the ride then you're just staying in one place now everybody has dreams everybody's has goals like i said it is just putting the effort and the energy into those and getting shit done and here's the thing if you don't want it enough it's not gonna happen no one's gonna sit you down and tell you to do these things no one is gonna be like okay checking up on you hey your grades aren't good enough in life you gotta pull it together you know babe like come on let's get together no one does that you could hire a fucking life coach i

guess but that shit doesn't happen for an average person i'm not average people are out here buying life coaches okay I'm like at this point I'm basically a free life coach which love that that's my goal um but no one's gonna be there to push you and to drive you and so simply put like it took me a while to realize this if you don't do it's not gonna happen and no one's gonna come and pick up the slack for you or remind you or tell you they're gonna look at you and say that sucks okay wow you didn't do it that's that's reality like i hate to be that way but that is reality you have to be your own driving force and now i think the best way to kind of be your own driving force is to genuinely find what you're passionate about and go after it

it is really hard to be fake passionate about something and i know you've all felt that before I know you all have had to fake a little laugh, fake a little smile, fake be passionate about something before. It doesn't feel good. You know that it feels like you're going against yourself in some sort of way, but you put on a face, you do whatever. I don't know, but you know that feeling. Listen to that feeling. Understand that feeling. Yes, I was driven. I was hard working. I was a 4.0 student my last semester of nursing school, but did it feel right? No. Was I succeeding? Yes. You have to find what you're passionate about and then when you feel that um success when you feel that win when you feel okay okay i'm getting like one step further like okay i'm getting a little bit

further in this it's like a video game like okay i went up a level we can do this like i can if i went up one level then i can do 10 levels and if i could do 10 levels and i can definitely do 100 you know what i mean once you find what you're passionate about and see yourself succeeding it becomes addicting it becomes addicting very addicting and it's like so addicting because you see yourself succeeding and you know the next steps you need to take it's just like are you gonna take them are you gonna get there that's the big question are you gonna succeed are you gonna do what you want and now succeeding can look very different for everybody your passions can all be very very different and I don't care what they are genuinely like whatever makes you

happy if that's a nurse great if that's an artist great if that's an independent contractor great that's a stripper love it teacher love it fucking mother incredible whatever makes you happy i do not give a fuck as long as you are hard working and you're pushing yourself and you are taking those steps to drive yourself in a direction that makes you feel good genuinely good genuinely good in your heart then you are succeeding in my in my opinion but like i said no one is gonna do those things for you so simple steps you can kind of take to just in general feel like i like in general i feel like i need to have some sort of sense of control on my uh like life and not like personal life or all that but just like you know general life things food shelter water all that biz so

having a schedule is really nice and sticking to it um some homework for you sit down come up with like a theoretical schedule for the week um of what it would look like try to work into your schedule one thing for your mind daily one thing for your soul daily and one thing for your body daily um make sure you're drinking enough water getting enough food you know basic routine schedule like make sure you're tiring yourself out make sure you're getting your work done make sure you're doing like I love to-do lists as well um but if I get myself in some sort of routine we are creatures of habit we do kind of need it you feel a lot more quote-unquote in control of your life because you kind of have a basic routine okay great tip also hustle culture will kill you

i am not trying to push you in a hustle culture kind of direction you very much so have to take care of yourself while also taking care of business you know what i mean you because i find myself like being overly driven overly hard working and I think this is from school because we kind of did it in semesters and I would just push push push myself for like a few months until a midterm and then I'd be like okay I get a week break cool um I have a habit of overworking overworking overworking and then burning myself out to the point where I avoid work and I avoid to doing anything and I become super duper lazy which is okay it's good to realize that you know that happens um but I have to take steps about it so like I said a routine is really really good

and making sure I am taking a group of tasks that I need to do for the week okay and strategically splitting them up between the days so then it feels like it's well organized and i'm not going to be overworked um that day i'm not going to take those 10 things i need to do and get them done in one day um i'm gonna split them up between days and then if i get through two things in one day and oh you know what that was actually a lot of work um i'm gonna chill the rest of the day do my thing finish my routine go to bed and then do my other things tomorrow or you say you do two or three things two or three tasks and then you're like you know what I still got a little bit of energy I can get some more done great take some work off the days the other days that you have so

you don't have so much on your plate it's very much so all give and take balance make sure you're not burning yourself out yes you need to work hard yes you need to be your best self yes you need to not be a little lazy but also make sure you're giving yourself adequate time to get things done and not overworking yourself to the point that you don't even have the energy to go after what's passionate to you anymore okay and lastly i don't think we do this enough but just honoring your accomplishments and goals to yourself okay i feel like especially like in the whole schooling sense we go through a lot of accomplishments that we don't even take the time to be like wow you did that good job i'm very impressed like okay like give it to yourself a little bit

honoring yourself a little bit so when i do achieve things that are kind of working towards my goal i take that moment to be like wow hannah like great job i'm very proud of you like that's incredible like can you even imagine that you did this like every time i secure a new like a a partnership or I'm working with a brand I'm like that's incredible like good job I was so proud of you that's great like I can't wait to see what we work with next like oh my god you know what I mean like you have to be your own kind of hype man because no one else is like there's secret accomplishments and goals and things that you're gonna achieve that maybe don't make sense to other people so be there for yourself to kind of you know tell yourself good job a little pat

on the back maybe treat yourself to a little coffee a little ice cream cone I don't know girly whatever feels good that's why I bought a $200 bikini this morning I was like you know what I put in work this month and I saved a lot of money and I got a lot of shit done and I'm working on merch and I'm getting podcasts done I'm doing great like let's go girl I'll treat myself to a little thing you know what I mean and I mean I don't treat myself a whole lot like that like that was obviously a big purchase that's not happening super duper often um but you know take the time honor yourself however that feels good to you whatever feels good maybe a trip like take yourself out on a little day i don't know totally up to you but you do have to be

there for yourself you know like a friend oh my god okay you literally every every week you send me so many fucking questions and thank you i really appreciate it if you any any questions you have for real at all always send them to my main account at hannah marlene i saw the podcast account was getting um a shit ton of questions and literally i do not even go through those dms if you want anything to be seen by me uh i really only pay attention to my main account at hannah marlene um but so many fucking questions this week thank you again thank you so much for submitting them um let's let's just get into them i think i'm gonna um fly through these because we gotta finish this recording because i gotta get out to you guys you guys deserve a podcast at least a

little bit early but your goals your dreams everything you've ever thought of since you're a child is a you can do it you can accomplish it and it may not happen as fast as you want it may not happen like ASAP overnight I think patience is something I've definitely definitely had to learn um especially growing up and becoming an adult um understanding that it takes hard work it takes time it takes effort and to see the fruits of your labor okay but is anything that you have ever dreamed of you can do absolutely and don't let anybody tell you different don't let anybody limit what you think about yourself or limit how you feel about yourself or limit you to this like small individualized person okay you are so much more than that you are everything

and you can do it okay let's finish this bowl but yeah i don't know i i've been very lazy the majority of my life i feel like and i once i started just picking myself and accomplishing goals that truly went towards um like who I want to be and things that make me happy and me proud like I've become addicted addicted and I love it I love just bettering myself at this point so let's take a little hit in in honor of that in honor of me in honor of you I know hey you're listening to this podcast you're already taking the first step to trying to be better so let's hit this all right oh this is a great question okay do i follow my heart joy dot dot dot or logical option heart joy logic okay here's the thing i think you can never go by one i think you have to go by

what kind of appeases all three because each decision you have you make has to kind of you know make your heart feel good make you happy and also be just like in general a smart option for yourself okay so although like you may i don't know and you could just go in any direction but i feel like when i've only gone logical my heart and my joy have suffered and when i've only gone by my heart my joy my logical has suffered so i think it really is about doing all three whatever just feels the best to your gut tbh someone asked me what music do i listen to ho we already have so much in common i gotta know okay let me pull up my most recent playlist and tell you um okay a lot of mac miller per usual um i've been listening to oh god i might say

your name wrong nao nao i need i could fool to love bad love love it georgia smith um this song is really good it's kind of like uh i don't know it's fun to drive to emotional intelligence by chaos and the cbd nathan haynes dave core um ride steve lacey what else hi by freddie gibbs with mad lib and danny brown um biking frank ocean fall in love gold link stoners night 2 juicy j my boyfriend showed me that one that was good um yeah i don't know that's all i've really been listening to last week i was in a lana del rey phase so i was listening to a lot of lana cali uchi's lord i kind of stay away for lord for my own mental health but yeah that's that's what's been on my playlist recently oh my god the more tbh the more i smoke

the more my voice turns into a valley girl and like by the end of the podcast i feel like it's just like slow long very much valley like i'm so sorry because the higher i get the more i turn into one i am not even gonna lie i think it's so funny because um you know the uh julia fox i love her i think she's so smart about kind of i don't think she's a bad person dvh but she's really smart about how she's going about things like um publicly because she immediately overnight famous and she already had some credibility like within what the fashion the art the new york scene um but now that she you know was spotted with kanye and was like kanye's thing directly after kim and kind of put herself in the light that way she has had so much public attention and she's

that's it's such a smart publicity move no offense but everything celebrities do is for publicity so she should get her little piece in it too but you know the um uncut gems audio i heard that and immediately i was like that girl is just high as shit that is just a new york white girl high as balls just like talking her ass off because you know what that is me i am not a new york it girl but i understand the white girl too overly high to valley girl voice valley girl vocal fry you know what i mean um and then she came out with like an interview after you know the tiktok audio went viral and everybody's making fun of her um she was like yeah i was just super high i was like i knew it i knew it it's so fucking funny oh okay tips on

making it through high school let's pack a little bowl um surround yourself with good friends you guys probably tbh um if you had i don't know once you get out of high school you're gonna find a very different group of friends and probably a group of friends that's more um i don't know closer to your current interest because you will be out of high school and your interest will very much change um so don't waste the time in high school being around fake people fake friends because you only have those four years to really hang with each other and then you're probably gonna lose touch a little bit when you guys leave high school which is fine everybody changes everybody grows up becomes different people interests might change so just really appreciate

the four years that you have there um uh so yeah don't pull don't put up with fake bullshit there's no time for that just enjoy your time make sure you're with good people good friends go out of your way to you know introduce yourself to somebody that you thought would be a good friend you really never know what's gonna happen if they could be a good friend but there's no time for fake fucking people i had a great high school experience i think because i was just kind of around very genuine people and people who did care about me and i also didn't involve myself in a lot of drama um i personally don't bring on a lot of drama to myself and the only drama i really was around was just like my friends going through something so yeah high school was very chill because of that

um grades okay this is the easiest you're gonna have school for the rest of your life especially if you're going to college no offense i know school seems really hard right now um b or above if you can get b's you're good and you can i know you can literally all you have to do in high school to achieve a b you don't even have to pass the test really well you just have to fucking make sure your homework is in and make sure you're getting your projects done and you can at least achieve a b and you can at least if you have a c that's fine too c's b's a's if you have at least a b you can get into any college pretty much um not ivy leagues but like colleges that are you know can do enough for you you know what i mean don't worry about grades too much um when you are

in high school definitely pay attention to colleges and colleges around junior year um and pick a college based on like i've said before your personality somewhere you can live and thrive as a human but also has multiple options for um like uh majors okay high school's not as serious as you think it is it's not as stressful as you think it is your world is still very small so high school seems like a lot and it seems overwhelming and really confusing but once you graduate the world opens a hundred times more okay college is stressful it's harder than you literally will ever imagine um and you're gonna be probably thrust into some new situations that are a little scary so what's better than just enjoying where you are now making sure you're on the right pace

for your future self okay and quite honestly just do the best you can that's really all you can do if you're having a hard time mentally in high school which i was there i feel you do the best you can be as honest with your teachers as you can be about your situation you'd be surprised how many teachers are genuinely there to help you and the ones who aren't and the ones who seem stressful and the ones who seem like fucking dicks ignore them as well because they got some personality of issues and there's a reason that there's teaching in a high school okay nothing against teachers but you know those teachers that you're you know those teachers that you're like why there's some unresolved trauma here that you're now teaching in a high school because of

i don't know what it is i think it's usually male teachers too anyways i had a lot of issues with teachers i just i just i'm not an authority person i'm not gonna lie i'm not an authority person me an authority uh-uh so but just take it one day at a time really do the best you can go to bed okay and not at 3 a.m i feel like i was sleep deprived my entire high school career and that's why i probably suffered so much go to bed at like a good time like at least 12 maybe okay you got to get up early i remember getting up at like 6 a.m to go to school like what the fuck what the fuck but power through do what you can do what's best for you don't put up with fake bullshit get your work in at least get it done it in it doesn't mean if it's it doesn't matter if it's

correct just turn it in and yeah do what you need to do for your future self that's all i can really say oh my god someone asked me about toxic patterns and we can end the podcast after this i'll fly through all the rest of your questions on thursday i know i'm so sorry i gotta get on with my day though and i gotta get this podcast out to you and we're gonna smoke one more one more bowl don't worry um but somebody asked me about toxic patterns oh my god karma is a bitch and she's after every single one of us okay let's hit this ball i'm not even kidding like oh my god all i can really say is if you don't learn from it it's gonna keep happening to you and as much as that sucks because the things i know that are happening to you are not

good nor fun things it's shitty and it hurts if you don't learn from them the universe is gonna keep fucking throwing that ball straight back at you straight back at you and the universe doesn't care if it hits you in the fucking face the tit the stomach it's gonna just keep throwing it at you until you learn and i've realized you either learn and you do better and you face your next fucking lesson and you do better or you get yourself in these cycles that you are just like oh my god how does this just keep happening to me and this is another one of the situations where you just have to choose yourself and you have to trust your gut you know what's good for you you know what's right for you i feel like people find themselves or find themselves in toxic

relationships a lot because of this um that universe is gonna keep throwing you that shitty boy until you fucking man up okay boss up babe and you need to boss up babe okay the universe is going to keep throwing it to you until you learn to pick better do better find something better for yourself and if the if you choose yourself here's the best part if you choose yourself and you go with your gut and you do what's right for you the universe rewards you i know crazy right who would have thought that if you don't do toxic things and you actually choose you know something better for yourself that you would actually get rewarded like what that's how that works literally literally i'd find myself making the same

fucking toxic choice going after the same fucking toxic not same guy but basically the same fucking soul-sucking spirit just in another white boy's body like holy shit um going after the same fucking type not good toxic all over again me crying how did i get myself here i knew exactly how i got myself there you should own up to it okay own up to it do better cut the toxicity off and if you do make those steps if you do do the things you'd be surprised like how much freer your life fucking gets how much more at peace it is how much better it is okay but really though the universe is going to keep throwing you that ball until you learn also i saw this the other day and i think it's perfect um but whatever lessons you refuse to

learn the universe will keep putting you through the same life life class over and over the way to actually graduate those classes is to confront yourself with full honesty and review your vices and virtues what is there to learn here what is the test that you keep failing so the cycle keeps repeating the cycle ends by taking ownership of who you are forgiving yourself and healing from self-sabotaging habits literally stop self-sabotaging choose yourself choose your gut choose what's good for you and really you gotta be fucking honest with yourself if you lie to yourself you're gonna eat that shit up and believe it the same way you would eat it up if somebody else lied to you although you do know in your gut a lot of people are lying to themselves every

moment of every day okay you gotta be honest you gotta look yourself in the mirror for who you really are and decide do i want to be better and how do i be better and what are my morals here where do i stand and how do i follow them and follow through okay you can do it though i've done it and i'm the fucking laziest like i don't know like i thought i used to be so incapable of everything that i am achieving now and i've done it i've done it and i'm doing it and i will probably do more so if i can do it i have more than enough faith that you can do it okay because i am just some girl from the midwest who is just trying to fucking survive out here okay if i'm still alive i'm breathing i'm kicking and i'm doing good you can do it as well and you deserve

it okay let's finish this bowl let's wrap up this podcast i will see you guys thursday oh my god i can't believe we do this two times a week that's insane i love it i love doing this but thank you for joining me this smoke sash it is wonderful to have you here as it is always so many of you guys are joining and listening i get so many dms being like i just found you thank you for saving me and like listen i'm not saving you you're absolutely saving yourself and it's just incredible that you're doing it for yourself because you deserve it thank you for being here thank you for supporting me thank you for everything you do for me and everything you do for yourself as well um at hannah marlene you can submit all your questions there like i said

please feel free to let me know anything that's on your mind anything you want to see from the podcast um and hopefully we'll see some merch ideas here soon i'm excited i'm gonna work hard the rest of the day on it for you guys i hope you have a wonderful tuesday happy beginning of march i hope it's a fruitful and wonderful month for us all and i'll see you thursday love you all