Smoke Sesh - confessionals! letting the demons loose & seeking forgiveness

Episode Date: October 29, 2024

hello hotties and happy hottieween! It's my favorite episode of the year and a special little halloween episode as well.I asked and you guys absolutely delivered, its time for a confessionals episode! we talk everything that you need to get off your chest, especially after this past halloweekend! I talk halloweekend stories of the past, letting the demons loose, seeking forgiveness, confessions of an ex party girl, holy girl fall, being the mom friend of the group, is Hannah for the straight men? getting too drunk, young mindset vs adult mindset, healed Hannah advice, falling for the bad boys, you can't fix him, you don't always have to tell the truth, house parties, owning your mistakes, blind confidence, release your inner freak, if you don't like him let him go, cheaters & cheated, be a s!ut do whatever you want, revenge and witchcraft plus much much much more! if you want to see more from me join the patreon patreon.com/smokeseshshawty and ill see you all next week! MUAH!

Listen, everybody needs a fairy godmother, you know? Just somebody to look out for them. Some people call me their fairy smoke mother, others their internet big sister, but you can call me Hannah, the host of Smoke Sash. So come hang out, let's light up and talk everything there is to life. The good, the bad, the ugly, the embarrassing, I've got a story for it all. hello hotties of the world and happy haughtyween oh my goodness i have never dressed up on the podcast before obviously we have a confessionals episode so i had to i had to dress up like a nun

hello if anybody's going to forgive you for your sins your problems anything that you need forgiveness for your hatred in your heart it's gonna be me best believe because we're all deserving of that but yeah i had to go as a sexy nun let's be real i haven't ever done video episodes until this year so i've never had an excuse to dress up so i'm so excited for this and i'm so excited to see where it takes us and what you know halloween costumes you will see in the future but welcome all my ghouls my gals my bitches my witches we are going to have such a fun episode today confessionals are some of my favorite episodes just because i feel like everybody is deserving of forgiveness whether you believe it in your heart or not we all fuck up we

all make mistakes we all have little silly stories and the best thing that you can really do at those mistakes at those things is laugh forgive yourself and keep it pushing i understand the church might not be so forgiving to some people so let me be the church that was never there for you this is honestly pretty funny because my cousin is literally a catholic monk we went to obviously very different directions in life but somehow ended up kind of in the same place anyways pretty silly i don't have much to catch you guys up on i hope you stayed safe and sexy this halloweekend everybody always asks like oh my god do people celebrate on halloween do people celebrate the weekend before the weekend after in my opinion i feel like it's the whole week of but most people

usually celebrate I feel like unanimously the weekend before I thought I was gonna go out and you know dress up and do some stuff but I ended up getting a little sick this weekend I wasn't feeling great I wanted to just rest recoup and the best thing that you can do for yourself is just listen to your body and what it needs so I stayed inside this past weekend I might get out on Halloween we'll see what I get into I definitely will be making a spooky charcuterie board getting my munch on watching some halloween movies that is necessary no matter what but i don't have any fun stories or anything from this past weekend i know you guys have a lot of fun stories though i know you guys went through a lot trust me i have peeked at those confessionals and my god

you guys definitely have some things to get off your chest so with that being said honestly let's just dive right in let's cut right to the chase i also haven't smoked with you guys in a little bit So I want to sit down and smoke with you before I get into these confessionals. Let's get a little silly. Let's get a little crazy and let's have some fucking fun. It's a Halloween episode. We're not going to take it too seriously today. Also, some of the advice I might give today is a little toxic.

I'm feeling evil. I'm feeling a little evil today and I love that for us because I think it makes things more fun instead of being like healing. Sometimes healing has to be a little evil, you know? So let's indulge in our spooky side. let's seek forgiveness today and let's get into all the crazy fucking stories you guys have to tell cheers my babes oh my gosh listen i've had some crazy hallow weekends back when i was in college of course

halloween was like every single fucking day and i would dress up and i would get to those frat parties and i would go fucking absolutely insane usually i was the mom of the friend group can you believe can you believe i feel like i didn't really you know release my inhibitions until i started partying alone also i was in a very deep dark place in my life so i did not care if i lived or died so i was getting myself into some crazy situations but back when i was in college i was always partying with friends and i was always so fucking worried about them because i went to a catholic school and if you guys don't know anything about catholic girlies once they finally taste freedom they go crazy they go crazy crazy and it's like obviously when

you've been sheltered from everything in your life and told no no bad don't do that and then finally you realize oh wait i can do that no one's watching me maybe god is but like my parents aren't watching me i'm not gonna get grounded they go crazy they go crazy i once saw my friend shotgun a beer immediately vomit up over a stairwell onto people below and then somersault down the stairwell about two flights and then get up like nothing happened and go i'm so sorry girl we gotta go home we gotta go home that was in the first like month of us being in college i was probably like what 18 maybe 18 and i was flabbergasted because i had been drinking in high school so this was nothing new so I felt the urge to just like hover over and protect

everybody around me because no one knew what the fuck was happening at all so that's usually what my hallow weekends looked like I was like having fun but also like no don't take that drink no don't talk to that man no please don't fall over the stairwell like I'm oh my god I'm on edge all the time and someone's gotta be someone's gotta be there to make sure you don't die so if you have that mom friend in your group send her a text message right now and say i'm so sorry for the stress i caused you but i'm so lucky to have you in my life thank you so much for being you because they they deserve an apology they deserve some sort of recognition maybe buy them a cute little edible arrangements after this hallow weekend because god knows they deserve it a good bottle

a wine perhaps maybe you know an eighth to take the edge off but being the mom friend of the group is ultimately so stressful and then yeah I got older I told I turned well 20 21 and I started going out alone getting into some crazier things and ultimately I had a lot of fun I can't believe I didn't die in those situations but that's when Halloween started becoming like a molly rave I'm to dance for 12 hours and listen I had my fun I enjoyed my time but now I'm 25 I really don't mind spending a Halloween inside these past years I have been like if I'm inside on Halloween I'm I'm going to lose it I'm going to lose my mind the FOMO is so real I'm just gonna be looking at everybody's costumes like sad crying in my bed if you're that kind of person who's like I have

know where to go I want to go out like I have I don't know what to do just send it okay I guarantee you can have so much fun on your own just don't let the demons out too much especially if you don't have someone watching over you you know have a couple drinks enjoy your time dress up pretend you're you know the manic pixie dream girl of someone's life get into character wear a weird fucking costume and see if you can get a man to make out with you like it's fun you know you don't have to have like a group to go out with you can go out and have a lot of fun on your own go to a rave go to a local show whatever it may be don't let the fear of like quote-unquote not being included hold you back because you are always included if you're just simply in the

space you know it's impossible not to be so I'm the passive and like I have to go out I usually make plans I usually am at a rave somewhere but this year something in my brain has connected in a way where I am overall focused on just like not dying and not being so hungover and actually functioning the next day that I'm honestly like you know what if I miss a Halloween it's whatever you know I'll have my fun here and there but I am not feeling the urge to go out go out release the demons so you kind of just got to give in to what you're feeling ultimately whatever you're feeling as long as you listen to that and follow that energy you're gonna have a good time and halloween's not over yet girl it's tuesday it's happening thursday you can find something to do if you

want to get out go do it if not i'm happy to be here and celebrate with you guys on this beautiful little day anyways enough rambling can you tell the weed hit my brain i'm like like on one so let's get into your confessionals someone said not mine per se but my mom used to piss in her abusive ex's coffee and smile in his face listen no shame in that that is crazy though here have a great day here enjoy you you enjoy that you enjoy it please leave please leave before it gets to you pissing in someone's coffee mug loki hate living with my roomie she leaves used q-tips and pads all the time but she's sweet some people aren't taught the same for like um hygiene purposes and you really start to notice this as an adult like and maybe like that one

weird kid who didn't have good hygiene when you were younger you're like oh no they were just severely neglected i doubt this is her situation i doubt she was severely neglected but not everybody is taught the same way in hygiene and cleaning and you realize that especially young and especially when you're first starting to live with roommates so i would just you know there's a healthy way that you can just be like hey girl can you take out the bathroom trash this time please and thank you with a smile on your face people are so receptive to like suggestions if you ask kindly and nicely and in a upwards tone you would be surprised how far you can get and you know she doesn't do it on purpose so the best you can really just do is be like hey girl uh this is

yours i need you to take care of it peace and love peace and love i once shit on a beach like a cat in a big litter box truly living the life last night i dressed up as the devil and went home with a nun am i going to hell um if you're going to hell me too girl and we're gonna get down there and we're gonna have a lot of fun together that's for sure once i was fucking a friend group and was hanging with two of them so we had a threesome okay okay challengers you know what one thing that's been pissing me off with the halloween costumes this year is everybody's dressing as challengers but none of the challengers are making out with each other if you are gonna dress up as all three of the challengers the two boys and zendaya you all three of you need to like make

out at some point in the night you gotta stay authentic to character you know this girl she this is like her 10th confessional but i'm kind of living for it i used to make edibles in a crock pot in my closet in high school what in the world i also was a crock pot edible girly but i didn't start until freshman year of college lord please forgive me i needed to make some money i needed money for the bottles of alcohol for halloween night you know what i mean so of course i was going to make crock pot edibles in my boyfriend's trailer yes low times i know and sell them to the college athletes on my campus on my catholic campus yes of course i was going to do that in minecraft in minecraft obviously you know legal purposes all right i confess my first kiss

was at jesus camp with the pastor's grandson why is it always the pastor's children that are like the freakiest people on earth like a popular you know example katie perry wasn't she the pastor's daughter and now she's like i mean freaky of course but like oh my god there's obviously something not adding up here i once peed in a doorstep when i was drunk because i thought it was a bush white flooring okay you're either the friend who that like pees outside freely or you're the friend who's like i have to wait for a bathroom i have a friend that will pee anywhere anytime you know daylight night time in public she does not give a fuck and it is a little strange but honestly like props to her for having the balls to do so but drunk peeing is crazy also

have you seen those tiktoks of girls being like oh my boyfriend drunk peed the bed again that is not normal that is definitely not normal i'm here to say that is a massive red flag you should not frequently be getting so drunk that you're peeing or shitting yourself that is that is a sign there might be a problem that is a sign we might need to seek help also before anyone's like how dare you dress up as a as a nun how dare you listen i went to church most of my fucking life i believe i believe in god i believe in god believe it or not i do believe in a higher power of some sort is he the white long-haired man that you might think he is no not particularly but i do believe in something at least and also have you heard about the weed nuns i have this

fantasy of just like selling everything i own and then running away to live with the weed nuns and just like grow weed and hang out with women for the rest of my life that is my ultimate dream so this is a wink and a nod to them hey girls if you want to have me for like a summer i would love to come join you i would absolutely love to be there i threw my drink at my girlfriend's shitty ex during a house party i'm blacklisted blacklisted boo those people just don't know how to have fun i mean assault isn't great but i love a drink to the face i love a drink to the face i think it's so catty I think it's so real housewives like who am I to throw a punch when I have a drink in my hand you know I feel like that's kind of like a classy way to fight somebody and props to you for

having the balls to do it I think if you've been a shitty person you should always be aware that a drink could hit your face at any point in time and that ultimately is the consequences of your actions my confessional is I have none hashtag quiet girl summer slash autumn me as fuck I'm like I haven't been into trouble I haven't gotten crazy at all this season or last season um and ultimately I do think that is a direct reflection of just my brain fully forming and I'm not seeking dopamine hits as often whether they're high or low um and also like my serotonin has leveled out and I'm in therapy like I've done work I'm not seeking the craziness but I love hearing about the girls who are just like going wild and listen sometimes sometimes internally i do have to let

the demons free i get it and when you hear that calling it's best to lean into it and set them free i think my biggest demon moment was when i was a freshman in college and i used my friend's fake id to get into the club keep in mind i look absolutely nothing like her she has brown hair she's like five inches taller than me like we look nothing alike got in of course happy hallow weekend partying it up you know when i was a single girly partying it up i would just take shots and then just run around and talk to people i don't care who it was i would just talk to whoever was willing to talk to me i mean like that's the point of the party right like i'm not here to stand around in a corner i'm here to chit chat and dance and have a good time anyways i end

talking to this man who's about seven feet tall and Russian and I'm like who are you what are you doing here he's like I own the place I'm like oh you you own the club he's like yeah let's go to my penthouse I'm like listen I don't want to die that much I don't need to go to this man's penthouse but I will dance with him on the floor anyways then he ended up fingering me on the dance floor and then I left oh my god you guys it's such a beautiful fall day I'm looking outside let me set the scene for you okay i'm in my nun outfit i'm right next to like a massive street so i know everybody's just looking in the window staring at me in the sheet of print couch looking like a nun i kind of live for that though like okay anyways me and my boyfriend carved pumpkins there's like

pumpkins sitting outside jack-o'-lanterns and all of the trees are bright orange and red it's a little gloomy a little cloudy still bright enough and there is these massive trees right next to my apartment and they are just blowing leaves as if it's raining i feel like i am in gilmore girls right now i feel like i am living my twin peaks twilight fantasy and i'm living for the energy i feel guilty for not wanting to go to school because i know it just means i'll be miserable school equals basically preparing for a nine to five and it's depressing okay i used to have this mindset when i was your age but in fact school is a gift and it is a privilege and a nine to five is not a gift it's not a privilege it's not preparing you for a nine to five it's preparing you to just

like function at a basic human level college will prepare you for the nine to five will prepare you for the career but if i could give one piece of advice listen this is healed hannah here this is Hannah who has many regrets here this is nun Hannah coming in here to give you godly soundly advice do not drop out of school keep going because if you drop out of school you will realize how hard life truly is especially at a nine to five and if you can persevere through school receive a degree go after your education better yourself that way which ultimately will get you better careers and better jobs so your nine to five doesn't truly suck please go that route please i'm practically begging you and i get the whole money thing that shit fucking sucks i still

have student loans that i'm paying off and ultimately like i wish i had the degree and was paying off student loans i wouldn't mind versus not having the degree and having to pay off those student loans yeah just please persevere it's not as miserable as you think and honestly i wish i could go back and take school more seriously i was that emo girl in fucking math class drawing like skeletons or whatever like you know very very sad tortured poet department kind of vibes i wish i could go back and be like bitch shaking my shoulders like get it the fuck together like this time does matter and until you grow up you don't realize that shit matters my boyfriend was the kid in class that was like the class clown like not

getting good grades at all at all like and listen i love those types it's it's a fault of mine but even he is like i wish i took that shit more seriously i wish i wasn't this emo skater kid who didn't give a fuck about anything and only wanted to just like dip out of school i wish i would have taken that shit seriously and not been like a clown or whatever and if he's saying that if he the most I don't give a fuck kind of man out there is saying that that means something speaking of there's this asshole guy in one of my classes who I know sucks but I'm so down bad for him me as fuck me as fuck and you know why that is psychologically I think I figured it out I was a very good kid I was a very good girl I always listened I didn't talk you know out loud in class

when i was not asked to i was very polite and mindful and demure my parents raised me to be a good midwest girly you know what i mean so i was a good example i will say i was a great example for the teacher to use and that means every time some kid was acting out in class she always moved me next to him she always moved me next to them because she wanted you know oh the kids who don't know how to act to see firsthand how a good person should act and it worked beneficially for the kid who was fucking up but it did not work beneficially for me because i ended up loving the classic clowns you know the asshole men i loved the tortured men you know what i mean because i was always fucking sad next to them i was not set up for success there and they're cute they're fun

like they're great for a fling or like a little crush but they are usually never like dating material anyways now that i've grown up and you know we've all outgrown our phases and i can see that my boyfriend was that way at one point in time but he's outgrown it i love him for that but i feel like a lot of those people do not outgrow that shit so like yeah have your little crush have your little flirt you know chit chat a little bit but if you see a man and you go oh he's a horrible person i can fix him no ma'am no you cannot he's gonna be a horrible person and you're gonna suffer while trying to fix him but he ultimately is not gonna give a fuck because why because he's a horrible person like you would think you would know the math because it's right

in front of you but there's some like weird twisted part of my brain that's like no i know two plus two equals four but what if i can make it equal five girl you're not a mathematician you cannot fix that equation you cannot fix that man but yeah have your little flirt get your little fling on but please for the love of god stay away i used to have an of dead now but my current boyfriend doesn't know about it well i don't know if you have to tell him like if you're not doing it and it was a thing in the past like i don't think you always have to tell your partner about like past things that didn't involve them I learned this the hard way when me and an ex were playing like truth or drink and he was like okay truth or drink am I the biggest guy you've ever

been with and I was like obviously not and I was like oh he got very mad obviously hello but in my brain I was drunk and I was like it's truth or drink I don't want to drink anymore like I'm just gonna tell him the truth also he's kind of evil it's like I want to hurt you bad bad all around bad and obviously not happy about that but in that moment i that was like a real life moment where i was like oh i don't have to say everything out loud i can choose to keep things to myself and like ultimately if it's something that doesn't involve him has never involved him and is not happening anymore whatevs i still blame myself for when my ex broke up with me because i wasn't ready for sex please for the love of god do not let a dirty dusty man convince you

that you're not worthy enough or it was your fault for understanding your boundaries that is a that is the devil that is the devil shun shame that man is the devil and you escape the devil so please do not blame yourself for that went to a halloween party and used a random sweatshirt in the bathroom as toilet paper and that's why i never threw parties at my house that's why i was never the person who was like no you yeah you can come over and trash my house even in college like no no parties were ever going to happen in my apartment um i actually heard believe it or not tara yummy mentioned this and she's a huge party girl but she's like why the fuck would i invite people over to my house to know where i live to ultimately like be in my space and ruin my things that is not

something that you ever want to do she's like i'm just gonna rent a venue or i'm gonna do it at my friend's house who's cool with it like why would i not just do that so that i'm not having to deal with all the bullshit and the drama and that is so fucking smart it is never worth throwing a party at your place i think i threw one party at my place it was a new year's eve party and this was in like the height of my toxic era getting drunk lying to my parents but also living at home very weird time in my life i don't really know i i do know what was going on it was a evil man who was torturing me anyways bad place in life and i threw a new year's eve party at my house we were taking ever clear shots and my parents like okay we're gonna be out of the house you know at a bar or

something until midnight or like 12 30 so just make sure you know if you're doing anything fucking shady at 12 30 we're gonna be home please stop doing the shady shit i was ripping a gb on my roof as my parents pulled in at 12 30 and I run downstairs blacked out drunk completely speaking gibberish to my parents they're like okay well we're gonna go to bed now and as soon as they walked away from me I walked outside projectile vomited in the bushes walk back inside like nothing happened I woke up the next morning the entire house a mess floors sticky I had so much cleanup to do I was so hung over it was just fucking awful having to deal with the mess the next day mentally physically and just in my space and then also my parents I mean they were they did

not give a fuck which was very very surprising of them but I think they were just like no more pressure on the girl she doesn't need it but if you cannot throw a party in your space and avoid getting your sweatshirt used as a pee rag please for the love of god do so because the frat bathrooms look that way for a reason it's because they don't give a fuck go to a place where it's like safe in the sense of they simply do not give a fuck so you can just wild out and have a good time and not have to think about like the consequences of everybody being in that space but yeah that's why i just i threw one party i think and i was like i'm done i will never be doing that again i will just keep going back to the frat houses where yes i can use a sweatshirt

to pee my ex-boyfriend wanted me to peg him and when i didn't take him seriously he cried lmfao oh my god oh my god the crying is a little wild because like well i don't know how hard you're making fun of him but the crying is a little wild that's insane first of all i'm having like an alana broad city moment where she's like shopping for bags underground and abby calls and is like he wants me to peg him and she just starts twerking upside down like girl you should have lived that fantasy out but i understand if you're like is this a joke like what's happening like it's it's a hot request it is it's i get a finger up there i get like maybe you know mouth play things like that but straight to pegging is a large jump you know so i understand why you were

like what the fuck did you just say to me but also would i peg a man i don't think i could peg the man i dated you know what i mean i could do a lot of things but i don't think i could i'm in the mood to throw dick like that you know i am a pillow princess at heart oh my gosh so i'm making merch right now and i i sold these whole hoodies at one point in time with like an illustration shout to my girlies that have them where it says like smoke sesh across the front and then had a big smoking fairy on the back and it was like a puff they were so cool and they were like all pastel and I haven't made anything since because I kind of like doing limited drops I am bringing back some things though so stay tuned but I had some extras that were like xls or something so I

gave them to my parents like fuck it whatever and my parents gave them to like their good couple friends my dad sent me a photo from the bar and it was like one of their good couple friends wearing the smoke sesh sweatshirt like chugging a beer and was like she loves the hoodie i was like this is so funny and then he texted me he's like oh and we were in a dispo in the crossroads and the girlies at the smoke shop loved her hoodie like she loved they loved your hoodie i was like oh my god what smoke sesh girlies were seeing my parents and their friends out and about buying weed in my hoodie because that's a little crazy thank you for the unconditional love parents but also if you're listening to this particular episode you can click out I had a realization

in that moment that I was like they've heard my podcast and they're proud because I don't think they're just blindly proud like if I was a parent I would be nosy as fuck I'd be like okay I have to know if you're putting it out on the internet like I gotta listen to an episode hello and like sometimes I open this episode like talking about eating pussy and it's like they do not need to hear that so I'm glad that you heard the parts that you can be proud of but this particular episode no need to listen we'll talk about this when I get older like I'm pee shy I was drunk and got caught peeing in the sink at a boy's house I really liked oof there's ultimately two ways you can play it off and there's only one right way you can either

be really really awkward about it and be like i'm so sorry you know please don't take it seriously you know what i mean and that kind of puts blame onto you or you can own that shit and i feel like when you do something weird or fucked up or a little awkward you gotta own that shit like never before you're gonna be like well someone else was peeing in the toilet so i had to pee in the sink like you've never peed in a sink before and if you do that to men like the blind confidence they truly believe it they truly believe it they will not think twice about it they'll be like oh yeah she's right like i have peed in the sink before like totally normal she's drunk whatever you gotta own that shit i love halloween because i love seeing people release their inner freak

my friend she is the quietest sweetest girl on the planet and she sent me a picture of her Halloween costume and it was full body paint Ronald McDonald and ultimately I would never see that side of her unless it was Halloween and I love when people truly truly let that freaking freak out and I think their Halloween costumes do have a lot to say about them me none you know seeking forgiveness providing forgiveness for the girls wanting to be a holy woman religious trauma question mark my friend ronald mcdonald loves fucking mcdonald so much she had the urge to body paint herself so like freak fantastic love it um the challengers bisexual want to make out with each other secretly and are trying to find an excuse to

i love when people just like release their inner silly side or like you get to see a freaky side of them that they would never show because i truly wish more people would show that side to the world because that's what makes it fun you know that's what makes life fun that's why i try to be as uninhibited as possible because it's like if i can make one more person comfortable with like their inner freak then an angel has gained its wings truly my depression apartment was so bad once that a mouse tried to chew through my wall well I have mice and this place is clean as fuck so don't take it personally maybe the mouse sensed you need a friend I'm 22 years old and I'm afraid to come I've never been able to before have you heard about the doctor in LA

she's a woman or I think it's a couple women who teach women how to come have you seen them that is so interesting to me because truly truly i think every girl needs a vibrator i think every girl needs a vibrator okay i think you should be able to and should learn how to be able to experience pleasure on your own and don't be afraid you're gonna realize like oh shit i feel good and i'm deserving of feeling good i'm super attracted to my boyfriend's best friend and i don't know how to stop it either you're gonna have a challenger situation on hand which will probably turn evil don't highly recommend we are not living in a movie or or you just ignore the feeling and keep it pushing i have a crush on a classmate but i'm in a long distance relationship

with my boyfriend if you are under the age of 25 uh maybe 23 i would say 23 24 25 23 being the youngest and you you're under those ages i don't think it's worth a long distance relationship i don't you're young you're impulsive you're obviously seeking fun these are times where you need to be learning about yourself and if you feel like your relationship is not nourishing the side of you that is helping you learn more about yourself you gotta get out of there you do i was in a long-term relationship for a year or long-term what the fuck is the word long-distance relationship for a year and it really just held me back from being my inhibited self it really made me a great student because i was not focused on partying or boys at all um but it did make me

a shell of a human and kept me from experiencing life for a year so if you feel like that's happening to you i am i'm offering you you know the forgiveness of leaving my boyfriend accidentally sent a video of me masturbating with a vibrator to his family group chat oh I I got full body chills from the like scaredness I just talk about horror I'm so sorry that happened to you pro tip if you ever send anything and you're like oh my god I didn't mean to send to that person immediately immediately click airplane mode I remember when we were going to prom probably junior year and we were all taking pulls out of handles in our friend's bedroom while getting ready and she took a video and she was very very christian girl her mom

very very christian accidentally sent the video to her mom and she started screaming i was like oh my god what happened she said the video it's sending to my mom i saved the fucking day slide down airplane mode don't touch it oh now the video can't send great you're welcome i just saved your life that is fucking crazy though i think i would have to not see them for a couple months maybe to a year like let's all just forget that happened you know caught my bf mid-act watching porn last night in disbelief saw the video and everything that would break my heart like i don't care what you do but don't join in from me but also like maybe kind of like oh like hi like hey can i join i don't know it would be like two devils sitting on my shoulder pulling

me in both directions like kind of like what the actual fuck and also like okay that's a tough one that is a tough one ultimately i would like to say shocked flabbergasted but i don't think he had ill intent as long as he wasn't watching something like weird and fucked up through multiple house parties over the past few weeks while dad's on his honeymoon I mean listen if any parent leaves you at home like in high school or college for a week plus of time they're gonna get a house party thrown there oh my god I have had multiple house parties I don't even know what I was saying one was like a college senior year house party and it definitely was like I was not thinking about anything at all which was super fun but also like a mess in the house and then

also i threw one during not during covid like pre-covid with all of my co-workers where we ended up buying like five baby pools and just hanging out and doing molly in the backyard like in the sun like in our underwear in the pools that one was fantastic because they actually had respect for the place if any parent is leaving the house unattended for weeks at a time with their young child they have to assume that there's going to be a party happening if i have kids i will literally be like i do not give a fuck if you go to a party do not throw a party in my fucking house and call me if you need a ride i literally will not be mad like i want you to be safe and also don't mess with my fucking property i feel like i will have that conversation i have dreams

about cheating on my boyfriend either a you're unhappy and you need to set yourself free or b you're like a little more freaky than him and are maybe seeking a three-way i don't know you're unfulfilled in some point of your life and i want you to pinpoint where that is that's your homework i egg my ex-boyfriend's house once a month because he cheated on me real you don't even need forgiveness for that you need support and understanding the guy i'm seeing has cheated before dot dot dot i don't know what to do well well it's like when someone has blue eyes you can't argue that they don't have blue eyes like he's a cheater you have to understand that if it's happened before it might happen again okay if he has not like profoundly expressed on his own

without you bringing up how awful and horrible that was of him he does not give a fuck he does not give a fuck and it is something i would have an eye out for for sure i hate everyone who wronged me fuck forgiveness i forgive them i just don't forgive myself it should be the opposite way if you hate everyone and they're horrible and mean to you and like like if they are genuinely an evil and awful person to you yeah maybe they don't deserve forgiveness but you always deserve forgiveness the key point here is you always deserve forgiveness if not from them at least from your fucking self set yourself free of guilt guilt will cage you and trap you like an animal and make you a shell of who you are you need to understand that we as humans we get treated awful

sometimes we also treat other people awfully and in both situations if you can forgive yourself and truly seek betterment life will be so much fucking better for you okay and yeah fuck people who do you wrong fuck them maybe they don't fucking deserve forgiveness but you do for what you've been through my best friend doesn't know I got back together with my ex do I tell her she hates him if your friend hates your ex so much that you are afraid of telling her anything about him or she hates your boyfriend so much that you're afraid of talking about him around her that's not because she's jealous or you know hates him for no reason it's because she loves you and she sees that you're being treated a way that you don't deserve please please understand that

and ask yourself why are you putting yourself in that situation because i'm sure you don't fucking like him either oop oop this might be the funniest confessional yet i'm a straight male and i listen to your pot a lot i know it's not for me but it's informative it is for you you're an honorary girly if you are a straight man seeking betterment you are an honorary girly because you are a rare breed and we are truly happy to have you here okay i promise and ultimately i do think you're gonna be a better boyfriend for it the same way i'm like i'm a big sister to the girlies by giving advice i truly do not want to have like i don't want to i want to have a girl first if i have two kids i want to have a girl and then a boy because i think the men who have older sisters

in their lives are better men's most of the times most of the times i understand that's not true 100 of the time most of the times they having like adult women or like older women in their life be good role models for them and tell them things that they wouldn't hear normally especially if they were just surrounded by men is so good for their psyche so i'm an older sister to the girlies but also for the straight men who want to be better people in general i can be an older sister to you as well i want my dick sucked i'm a woman i'm so sad i'll never experience it real as fuck real as fuck you ever get dick envy i have that a lot i'm like oh you know a blow job would go so hard right now but i literally do not have a penis um anyways i do not wish to peg a man

but yeah i do i feel that so internally i'm like i do wish i could get a blow job though like if i ever had a dick for a day of course that's the first thing i'm doing of course it's the first thing i'm doing i pegged a man on date two having never done it before you guys are freakier than me that's a little crazy like I love that but wow date two date two date two is like we're making out actually who am I to fucking talk like me and my boyfriend met we had sex like six hours later like of course so maybe date two isn't so crazy I haven't fucked or kissed anyone in over a year and i'm fiending listen if you need to go out and have a little evening makeout sesh that does not ruin your celibacy you know what i mean my friend's been celibate for like a year and a half

she will have men over make out with them give them a blow job and send them home she's like no but like i i didn't lose my virginity and i'm like you know what that that's like that's impressive like oh my god like she's truly there just for the experience but like no you do not need to have sex with me like i just want to make out with you and send you home and you know what sometimes you're deserving of those moments i'm pregnant not to gasp a blessing in disguise perhaps but also if you need to make a choice that is very hard for you that you need to make no matter what there is nothing wrong behind that and women should be able to do that no matter what okay you are deserving of a choice and you do have a choice even if you live in a state where

they took away your choices i twitch please for the love of god vote so i don't lose all my rights as a human being i you can we'll keep your secret you can go somewhere else you can get whatever procedure done that you need to get done please and if you want to keep it we will be proud aunties as well but yeah i think choice is so important and if you're a person out there who believes that women don't deserve the choice of you know pregnancy or not you are going straight to fucking hell and i hope you burn confession i think my boyfriend cheated but i'm too scared to leave um cheat back no no i'm joking but also well you what do you mean you think you think you think if you're too scared to leave like you might as well fight about it you might as well

bring it up and if it did happen i will tell you it's gonna happen again it's gonna happen again it will i promise you okay so if you think you're deserving of getting cheated on you can stay but also if you know you're deserving of more i i encourage you to leave and i know you're brave enough to do so i know you got it you're gonna feel so good after you leave if you leave your cheating boyfriend you will feel like the baddest bitch ever because you will have realized your worth you've realized he's a shitty man and you will realize i'm not gonna put up with that bullshit actually he can be alone okay he can suffer i'm gonna leave and move on to somebody who won't do that to me and i'm gonna leave and have fun sex not behind my boyfriend's back because

i'm a good person the guy i'm talking to is boring me to tears and i feel so conflicted oh my god love from the uk hello mate hello love is that oh that was a little australian i'm so bad i need to do a world tour and maybe do meetups and maybe just smoke and hang out that would be so fun like i don't want to do a live show like i literally just want to have like a girl's night in the living room like let's just smoke some weed and chit chat that's the dream anyways i need to get abroad both to australia and to europe because i realized i have a lot of girlies there and i'm so happy to have you um but listen if you within the first three months of dating are not practically giggling and kicking and swinging your feet awooga having heart eyes pop out of your fucking head

then that is not the right person for you that's a friend that you just happen to make out with and that's okay maybe you guys should stay friends and not take it any serious or but yeah you should be like giggling and practically growing angel wings out of your back that's how you know you're in love and that's how you know it's the right person for you because you guys should be able to create that chemistry together and if you can't create chemistry then what the fuck is it all for my mother thinks i'm an innocent girl but i've fucked many people okay carrie isn't that the plot of carrie i don't know i haven't seen that movie in a long time all i know is overbearing mother listen your mom doesn't need to know another pro tip you once again don't have to

say everything out loud you can just do your thing and have fun as long as you're staying safe i had sex with my best friend's older brother and didn't tell her i am in crippling regret oh yeah once again maybe that's one of those things you don't say out loud fuck that's hard do we really need a boyfriend or girlfriends way better girlfriends are way better always like if you are under 30 your main goal in life should not be finding a partner fuck that bullshit it should be finding really really really good friends because if you're aimed at having really good friends you're gonna have a great community around you you're gonna have everlasting support and unconditional love without sex very important okay that's gonna last a lifetime and if you're

able to have that good community you're able to have people around you that have sound mind and sound heart so when you do start meeting people and you do start telling them about them they can give you honest feedback and advice literally i think that is the ultimate equation and like yeah have your fun you know have your flings but should you be focused on finding a partner at 21 bitch that should not be your main goal in life i mean if it is no shame no shame no shame forgiveness but please seek community seek friendship hey hannah when was one time you think you took revenge too far p.s love the pod um i haven't necessarily physically done anything to anybody like harmful or like physically harmful or kind of psychologically harmful i have

done witchcraft on people in the past that i do regret because you know maybe you shouldn't interfere with dark magic in people's lives but i was driven to a place where i felt like that was necessary so it happened and that's okay i've learned not to do that because it does have repercussions not only on the people but also on you it's pro tip there for all my baby witches how did you and your bae as fuck meet i need help bad i don't know how to meet men i want he dm'd me yeah and ultimately i think that's like the perfect way i was not looking i was not seeking he saw a picture of me drunk in a burger diner and he said hey cutie and i was smitten ever since i was like yeah he might be the one i saw one skate clip i said yeah sold

i'll take him and listen i think that's the perfect way i'm not looking i'm not seeking but he should be seeking me out duh so yeah he dm'd me and i love that way i do love that way i think you can find love in the dms also if you want to be the person that dms another person go for it what do you have to lose what are they gonna do say no cool anyways let me move on whatever unfollow them mute them pretend they didn't exist anyways very easy i love social media you know what i mean i have cheated my way through college and i'm a senior real as fuck i cheated a lot in nursing school not on purpose well i don't know why i said that definitely on purpose one of my friends was studying abroad in Rome while I was in nursing school and so that

means she would take the quizzes and the tests like four hours earlier than I would because she had class at a different time and obviously different time zone so after she took the exam and right before I took the exam I would call her and I would ask her specifically like to write down like a b c or whatever the things were or the ideas were that i needed to remember and then in a mechanical pencil since we took all of our tests on our laptops in a mechanical pencil i would lightly write on the keys the answers or the things or the keywords or the definitions that i needed to remember and couldn't and then if a teacher walked by or as soon as i was done i would just wipe my hand over the keyboard and it would get rid of all the mechanical pencil

and also if you have a proctor online they aren't going to be able to see the mechanical pencil written on your keyboard because the keyboard is like that matte black so the mechanical pencil is like very light on it i don't know why i'm giving this tip but like if you're really suffering in school and need to pass a quiz it works it does work and listen hey as long as you get that fucking degree i don't give a fuck you know i pissed my pants in my bestie's car on her birthday all over and i had to clean it drunk yeah at least you cleaned it that makes you a good friend in high school we had a friend who would just like laugh and pee her pants i don't know i don't know and she would do it but she wouldn't clean she'd be like i just i i pest in the car and then like

leave we'd be like girl there's piss in the car why are you leaving what is going on anyways be the drunk girl that cleans it up no matter what that understands oh my bad i'm so sorry i'll handle that don't worry about it that's how you be the good friend i once projectile vomited in my boyfriend's car actually i've done that a couple times my bad that's why i don't drink a lot of alcohol anymore because i immediately just start vomiting i think my body can't handle it anymore which thank god honestly um but one time i was like i couldn't get the words i like pull over so i was hitting the car and he was like what and then i just like got the window halfway down did puke in the car and yes you know what i was hung over as fuck the next day but i did get the

fuck up and i did clean that shit up yes because i'm a good person and we all make mistakes resumed eating meat after six years of vegetarianism and loving it okay i was a vegetarian for a long time actually i cannot believe i was i was vegan for a couple years and then i was realized that was not possible and i was vegetarian for a long time um and then i met my boyfriend and he fed me an asada taco that changed my entire life i said yeah it's all over from here and i've been loving it ever since i realized how good and how much i needed protein and how much fuel it actually gave me and how much i truly was starving myself please if you are vegan vegetarian make sure you're getting enough plant protein if possible my boyfriend of three years cheated on me with

hookers in mexico how do i heal i don't i don't think you need any healing i think you need to kick that man the fuck out i think you practically need to grab his items and throw them out your window and say hey come pick up your shit before the homeless people get them before somebody steals your shit hey your shit's outside you better get here before someone steals it lock the doors never speak to him again as he's cleaning up his shit from the floor like picking up his things and like yelling at you be inside unbothered ignoring block his number block him on everything pretend he never existed literally this man needs to be exercised you need a man exorcism you need him out of your fucking life there is no forgiveness him and god will handle

that you handle yourself make sure you get that parasite out of your fucking life because he does not care about you that's for sure hate to be this bitch but i lost my job i can't pay bills can you please plug my art at h-e-s-s dot arts yes i will i love you please get that money up i believe in you stay strong how to cope with anger issues at work i'm about to snap i don't know i just go into the walk-in and pull the door closed and then i just scream this is in the basement so no one's gonna hear me if you need to like go to the car and scream instead of like screaming in someone's face i think that's a very healthy thing to do it's okay to release your anger but understand like where you're releasing it and make sure you're releasing it in a healthy

manner i don't think you should hold it in if you're a person with anger issues don't hold that shit in you got to release it somewhere but please don't do it in someone's face preferably a pillow or a sealed car wherever you need to go but yeah you got to get it out i dated a 33 year old man at 18 and just broke up with him at 22 oh and he has three children you're free please stay free please run as fast and as far as you possibly can how to stop myself from harming the dude that keeps fucking over my best friend see this is when i'd be like okay maybe witchcraft is okay maybe a little spell is fine sometimes on the pod you call me out but i take that as a lesson for bettering myself real real i have had some hard conversations with some important women

in my life and the ones that i respect the most are the ones that are willing to look me in the eyes and be like you are fucking up you deserve better and i'm telling you this because i love you it's very hard to hear but ultimately i love a bitch who will do that and that's why i'm not afraid to sugarcoat it i mean sure of course i keep your feelings in mind i want you to be sound and safe but also like i will tell you straight up how it is because i need you to know and i need someone in your life to be brave enough to tell you if you're brave enough to come to me with your questions i'll be brave enough to straight up tell you the fucking truth to your face and i really hope you hear me out and listen a bit it's okay if you're in denial we all have those moments

but yes please take it as a lesson for bettering yourself i do not mean for it to be like a direct attack ever me and my sister stole money from the temples in vietnam and used it to buy mango smoothies i remember when i stole 50 out of my dad's wallet and then i was like look i found 50 on the ground will you go take me to choice art us and they were like where did you get that 50 girl where did you get that like oh on the floor it blew in with the wind bitch they know exactly where you got that $50 what my boyfriend's sex drive is low from meds and corn and I'm finding it hard to feel sexy and wanted I would look him in the eyes and be like I think you can call men out on this bullshit because if it's directly having effect on you you can look him

in the face and be like I need to stop watching fucking porn and jerking it because you haven't had sex with me in this long and it makes me feel like shit it's a little crazy but I think it's just the right amount of crazy and yeah if it's having a don't be like cut your meds out i get the meds thing like yeah but also if you're not feeling sexy or wanted because he's wasting whatever sex drive he does have on surface level satisfaction i think that's worth calling out cheated on my ex with my current boyfriend but i've been with boyfriend for a year now and i'm deeply in love oh i'm sure you're deeply in love baby girl you got to when you fuck up you have to truly truly truly seek forgiveness and like give to the universe in a way to fill that dark hole

you created or else the universe is gonna take from you in order to fill the dark hole do you know what i mean that's kind of how i view karma because karma is real karma is very fucking real and she will come for you if you do not fill that black hole you have created if you do not make up for your actions so i think as long as you you know make up for your actions you adequately seek forgiveness you adequately forgive you adequately love you own up to your mistakes and you know do what you can to make it right then i think you're safe from karma but if you just do bad shit and don't think about it karma's gonna come after you she will it's like a scale you know what i mean when you tip the scale it's got a tip one way so you gotta equal it out

yourself started dating my manager who's 26 and i'm 19 run run run run run as fast as you can that's you're not special that even though you're 19 it is grooming if i if you're under 21 with anybody over 25 that is not okay i think once you hit the 23 to 25 age range that's when the age gap really doesn't fucking matter anymore as long as the man's not like 80 i mean even if he is fuck it but if you are under 23 and you are sleeping with somebody over 25 upwards to their 30s that it's i promise it's never good it is never good i want to suck my boyfriend's d but i gag on a toothbrush tips illy i think hands are the most important thing to a blowjob i rarely think you know the throat is impressive or the mouth is impressive i truly believe it's from

the hands and sounds those are the two most underrated things when it comes to blowjobs and i think that's what truly makes a good bj um you gotta be willing to you know use as much spit as possible to of course cover your teeth with your lips stick your tongue out as if you're saying ah that will protect the mouth that will make it safe area for the d um but the hands the spit in the hands okay maybe you can grab some balls maybe you can use the other hand to you know wrap around to elongate what your mouth cannot do to compensate for that you can use two hands if you can fit it so it feels like it's completely wrapped in your mouth but ultimately you maybe have just a little bit in your mouth that is the tip and the trick that i can give you if you feel like you can't

get it all in all right hands hands are so important and also like if you're gonna gag a lot i think that's okay i think guys are kind of into it i think it makes them think they have a big dick all right i think they're like oh shit okay like oh she's gacking on it so i don't think it's a bad thing but also i understand you not wanting to projectile vom so please use your hands okay pro pro pro tip when you're giving head at the bottom there's like a thicker vein if you put place your thumb there and as you're going up and down slowly massage gently gently the vein I it will take you to the next level I will tell you that I can queef on command and nobody thinks it's cool when I show them I mean it's cool but if you're doing it to strangers

I understand how they're like what the fuck just happened we all got our secret talents we all got them all right yours just happens to be that pussy power if I'm seeing someone I met off a dating app and they updated their profile should I stop are you dating if you are fully dating fully committed yes I think you should stop but no matter what the situation is even if you're just like seeing each other we just started talking whatever whatever I think you should call them out I should I think you should be like hey I was you know I got a little crazy and I was doing some digging Or I would not place the blame on yourself for even being on the dating app. Yeah, it's a little sneaky, suspicious.

But I would be like, my friend was on this dating app and saw your profile and saw that you had updated it. Is there something you want to explain here? Are you still seeking out other people? I think it's kind of fun. It's a little toxic, but men need to be called out on bad behavior. Always, always. I think it's worth calling out for sure. I don't know if it's worth leaving.

If you're in a relationship, I think it's absolutely worth leaving. i'm a compulsive liar i've been through that phase too i feel like it was because i didn't know myself and also i felt like i had to lie to be accepted and that's just not hot or sexy at all and nobody really likes a liar and i realized that and i was like oh who am i trying to appease here because i'm obviously not appeasing myself and i'm not appeasing anybody around me so that will help the compulsive liarness is just being like wait who is this benefiting because genuinely it's not benefiting anybody around me especially not me because i don't know who i am i can't keep up with lies and also nobody else knows who i am and that's a little spooky you know what is your

view on open relationships we've been together for three years i don't think i could i physically don't think i could at this point in my life i'm a little psycho a little crazy and a little protective and a little overbearing and a little i i trust my partner but like i don't trust other people so open relationships are just not for me also he's a scorpio and he is also the exact same way as i am so if we had an open relationship it would not go good it would not go good at all at all i know who i am and i will not settle for anything else anything else like if you want to go fuck other people then you just won't be with me period now if you want to fuck other people and your partner also wants to fuck other people cool fine whatever do whatever the fuck you want

in your relationship as long as you have rules and regulations please set rules please have an understanding of what needs to happen in order for this to be a healthy open relationship also a trend i've noticed is men will suggest like oh we should be an open relationship not realizing that like men can't pull as much as women can you know what i mean like of course girls will be like oh sure we can be an open relationship but they're gonna pull the women are gonna pull 10 times the amount of people the men are gonna be able to pull and i do see this thing where like men are unfulfilled or just like sexually driven and they want to open a relationship with their girl and then the girl gets with all these men because it's an open relationship and isn't this what we're

supposed to be doing and the man can't pull anybody and all of a sudden he's butthurt and wants to break up this is what you asked for this is what you asked for be careful what you ask for okay but i don't think i don't know open relationships are such a trend nowadays and it's like why not just be single why not just be single and like keep your partner as your friend and then casually fuck them on the side i don't know i don't know i'm not into it but if you are props to you you go out there and you let that freak flag fly and hopefully do it carefully and you know within each other's boundaries in order to keep the relationship safe also if you if someone if your partner suggests being in an open relationship and then has a partner within

the week they've been cheating on you like let's be real how did you find somebody that quickly you had someone in the back of your mind that you've been wanting to fuck practically maybe have been fucking mind fucking at the very least and that's weird that's weird i'm in love with my logic professor did you guys see the hello kitty ta and the professor on tiktok if you guys don't know there was this like 40 something year old computer science professor who had this like hello kitty bleach blonde little cutesy dolly dresses like lolita as fuck ta who drew like did hello kitty coloring pages and taped them to his door that said happy birthday daddy like weird shit like that was caught sleeping in his office they ended up being engaged i kind of

love it i kind of love it i kind of actually i don't love it i thought about the age gap for a second i don't love it for for some reason i was thinking maybe she was like 26 or something i know she's young and i know that he is taking advantage of that situation fucked up fucked up on his part but a small weird fucked up side of me is kind of like okay the dream no i'm joking so bad so bad i blame the fanfic i read when i was younger for having my brain think like that i do i blame the harry styles professor fanfic that i used to read and the unrestricted tumblr access that absolutely romanticized that kind of relationship everywhere listen listen anyways that shit was crazy any random bugs i find at home i put it in

my sister's room we live in australia with big spiders that's one of the things i'm like i want to go to australia so fucking bad but i don't know if i can deal with the spiders i don't know if i can deal with the spiders i love a spider as long as it's like under the size of a quarter if it's smaller than a quarter like we can vibe i'll pick you up i'll move you if you're any bigger if i can see how big your eyes are i'm spooked i'm spooked i think it comes from trauma one time me and my dad were at the pet shop and they had a bird eating spider and they were like oh come look at this bird eating spider and i was just like a little girl so i wandered over i was like oh my god that's a massive spider how cool i love bugs like i have no problem with bugs

then they fed it a mouse and i watched the spider eat a mouse and after that i was like oh i don't think i fuck with big spiders that's a little scary i keep going back to watching porn and i can't stop please pray for me god please release my girly from the shackles of instant dopamine let her find true love let them find true love and true understanding in their life and let their freak flag fly in a healthy and beneficial way to both them and their partner where they can enjoy real sex on their own i don't know also enjoy you know don't don't do weird shit don't do it too much trust me like that will fuck you up mentally and physically but if you want to indulge here and there it is what it is this man only lasts for 60 seconds

in only one round does he not give a fuck about me no no no i think he's really fucking into you and that's why he's not lasting but also you should if he doesn't last long he should prioritize your pleasure before his you know what i mean and if he's not smart enough to fucking do that and you do want to keep fucking him i think you should prioritize your pleasure before his because obviously he's not going to last long and you want to have your fun too you don't want to just be like okay you came now what like where's mine so like yeah i'd be like eat my pussy this is a wild episode i keep looking at myself just as a nun and it's shocking to me but i think i would just say that and then be like you can have yours when i'm finished okay dom okay dominatrix

i hate that my fiance is balding and i don't know if i should leave him oh my god listen if you're thinking about leaving a man because he's balding it's not because he's balding it has there has to be this has to be the cherry on top for women leaving a man is so weird because it's like they can verbally abuse you and do the worst shit to you ever and then you look at the bald patch in the back of his head one day and you're like it's done we're done and it's like you weren't done when he was doing horrible awful things to you like this is truly what made you break it happens it happens I guarantee it's not the bald patch it's not the cul-de-sac he's growing in the back of his head it is probably a culmination of many things so if you're sitting

here asking should I leave him because he's bald you should probably just leave him because I don't think you love him and that's okay better to know now than be stuck in five years later wishing you made a decision that you would have made when you were younger stronger mentally physically and in the prime of your life i lost track of my body count but it's somewhere over 50 and not even my close friends know that's okay i don't think anybody needs to know your body count i don't think any person for their own right mind should keep track of their body count because that is just it's weird it's weirdo behavior i don't think any adult that i know in my life if i asked them what their body count was would actually know a number i think they would look at me like i was

silly and fucking stupid i think that's like some weird taboo shit that like young people think about because virginity culture is so prioritized and like male dominance is so prioritized it's like what the fuck men can go out and fuck 50 people and not think about it and truly have no idea of a number but if a woman says anything over than three they're like whore slut bitch shut up okay take that finger and point it right back in your face because that's truly where it should be don't worry about body count it does not fucking matter as long as you are staying safe protected getting tested being a good partner and most importantly having fun okay because that's what sex is for true freaks don't care about body count because they truly are invested in lives

of pleasure and as long as you're having fun and enjoying it and having a good time and seeking pleasure not only for yourself and your partner then who cares last but not least i have a felony possession charge from 2016 for 30 plus zans we've lived and learned you know what i feel like that purpose perfectly encompasses this episode today we do live and learn it's okay you're gonna have these crazy fucking experiences these mistakes these lessons these unsure ideas of what the fuck's happening but as long as you address it take charge of it realize you know what fuck them or maybe fuck me and do what you can to do better that's all that fucking matters all right i don't want any of you guys leaving this podcast feeling like guilty of something all right and if you do

feel guilty of something ask yourself how can i find forgiveness in my everyday life i've forgived you i understand we're all human but do you and how can you provide that for yourself okay nun hannah coming in here hot all right i love a confessionals episode i truly do because sometimes you know the guilt gets overwhelming or maybe we've made mistakes and we just got to get it off our chest and i'm glad that we've created a community where we feel safe and supported and understood in a way that we're able to speak highly and kindly about these things to each other so thank you all for being here thank you for being honest and thank you for being real with me and being vulnerable you guys are so fucking hot and sexy and brave and wonderful and amazing

and you are all going amazing places you all are going to do wonderful things with your life and if you need to go out there and be crazy and have these real life experiences in order to get there that's okay i would rather have you fuck up a million times and learn a million lessons than stay inside and do nothing and learn nothing about yourself a thousand percent i would rather have you make so many mistakes that you learn so much about yourself and you have grown so much as a human than staying the same person that you were before because you were not brave enough to try something new that's what truly matters in this life and you know what we're all deserving of making a few mistakes here and there and having a little laugh at it so i'm glad that we could

come together and have a little laugh together also i finally smoked for like the first time in a while on this podcast sorry usually get too high and then just start rambling or like my brain stops working so i kind of stopped for a bit but i'm glad that we could get on here and just get silly you know what i mean have a little fun that's what halloween is all about release your inner freak indulge in the holidays in whatever way possible indulge however you want please dress up at least and indulge in that kind of crazy side of yourself let your freak flag fly and just have a good halloween we didn't get to a lot of questions today i know it's a confessionals episode but if you do have a question that you need answered now if you need help now join the

patreon patreon.com slash smoke says shawty we hang out every thursday chit chat a little bit and i go over every single one of your questions my bitches my witches my ghouls my gals thank you all for being here thank you for being honest thank you for being you thank you for being so uninhibited that we can all just live a little through each other and share a little laugh along the way because fuck life's hard enough so we might as well have a good time you know what i mean get out there have fun take care of yourself stay sane stay sexy and i will see you all so very soon Thank you.